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This is my first question, Franco.

Start.

Why didn't you want to play in this movie?

I didn't want to play in this movie, because I didn't know if it is shown in Italy...

and I am not interested in this kind of movie!

What kind of movie is it?

A movie about my life!

About the four years since I met you!

So you didn't want to play in your own movie?

No, because... my story is none of their business.

Is your story something special?

Not at all! It's just... nobody has to know how I lived!

But maybe that's why it is important!

Why is that?

Because you lived very unusual. Don't you think so?

Yes, but...

How did you live?

Like just a few boys my age.

They live at home with their mother and father, go to school, go to work and so on.

But I lived on the streets, I ran away...

those four years were very hard...

but I tried to find my place in life.

What do you mean by that?

I tried to go on with my life...

to be able to live alone...

nothing more! Just because I didn't want to live with my parents.

I wanted to live on my own, stand on my own two feet

- How old are you now? - Seventeen going on eighteen

And when you left home?

Thirteen!

17 years

16 years

15 years

13 years

Rome, city of openness.

Men are coming and going.

World capitol of souls

between east and occident.

Ajam out of greatness and misery

at the banks of the river Tiber

grey and blurry.

You give love with force from the left

and the right.

The crazy Rosa

Hangs at the balustrade.

Lies down in the river

Like it is her bed

Skyscrapers made from concrete

Huts made from cardboard boxes

You holy everlasting roman outcast

Biological and vital is the price

Of yourfatness, you clerically mistress.

We were together, because...

We were together, because...

but you really got on my nerves!

- I got on yours? - No, I got on your nerves!

You got on mine?

You ran after me, of course!

And why do you think that is?

You wanted to... fuck me all the time!

or... whatever...

When I saw you all the time... at the end

we were together. That was okay for me.

You had a bed at home so I don't have to...

sleep on the streets. So I slept at your place...

and with time it became a friendship.

We were real good friends.

We were together every day, were going out, ate pizza...

and made photos...

went to the cinema and watched a movie. We were together everywhere.

Even at Massenzio, this open air cinema.

That's how it was back then...

and at the end I really liked you a lot.

We became real good friends...

good friends...

and you liked me a lot.

And I liked you. That's how it was back then.

One day a friend dragged me...

to Circo Massimo.

I didn't know what was happening there.

So I asked him, what's happening here and he told me:

,,I shouldn't be afraid. I could make money over here!''

I really didn't know that you can earn money that way, with men and so.

And then I saw how it worked.

Just let them suck me off.

Or something else.

And they gave me money. 10, 15 or 5 thousand Lira...

And that's all...

With time I went there more often...

and when I was on the streets... at that time I had already ran away from home...

I said to me, okay I will just stay here at Circo Massimo.

At night I slept someplace, an empty truck for example...

or at the station in an empty train or somewhere else.

I was very young at that time, didn't know a thing...

just saw the money. 10 or 20 thousand Lira...

All the boys go there, sure.

All the boys do that because of the money...

forthe first time and maybe... what do I know...

without money when they get to know each other, become friends...

and that's it basically.

I want to be the man!

''Every day at war

against yourflower of evil

against your unrighteously sons

till black despair

expelled and buried in the underground

at the station

where bodies creep along

that never see the sun.

Skyscrapers made from concrete

Huts made from cardboard boxes

You holy evelasting roman outcast

Biological and vital is the price

Of yourfatness, you clerically mistress.''

''Where do you hide the bold young boy

Your bright rascal Who ran away from the ,Borgata'

Because he didn't want to wait for a miracle.''

I ran away from home, because I couldn't stand my father.

He wanted to me to sit home on Sundays...

but I wanted to swim or got to the cinema.

And when I came back at nine in the evening he screamed at me.

I couldn't stand that and one day I said to myself...

okay, I will pack a few things and run away.

That's when I met this guy, this gay guy, at Circo Massimo.

You meet one at every corner.

They are everywhere, at the Colesseum, at Monte Caprino...

And they behave very strangely.

You know immediatley what it's all about.

With theirfunny movements.

That's where I met this gay guy...

who dragged me immediately to another one...

who dragged me to a third one, like a relay.

So, one gay guy shows me another gay guy...

who shows me a third gay guy and so on... like among friends.

Really... one friend drags you to his friend...

and this friends to his friend and so on.

You should call it 'Circo Homosexual' instead of Circo Massimo..

because everybody goes there like in a real circus.

You can be sure they would pay fortickets, to watch all the gay guys.

Life back then was horrible...

always afraid the police would catch you...

or afraid of somebody else, like the Moroccan...

orto get ill.

What kind of illnesses?

A lot!

For example?

Syphillis and gonorrhoe for example...

crabs, lice...

Why were you afriad of the police?

Because I ran away from home.

So I had to hide when the police arrived.

My mother indicated me as missing...

she even wanted to call the papers...

but that's when I called her...

and everything was fine again!

That was hard for you, did you tell her how you lived? Were you forced to live that way?

Of course I was forced to!

You worked the streets?

Yes.

And you were thirteen?

Maybe fourteen!

How does a boy that age get the idea to work the streets?

It just happened...

because of the money.

I lived on the streets and couldn't get work.

I was too young.

I couldn't do anything else...

so I was forced to work the streets!

But try to remember...

how did you think of it forthe first time? You were just thirteen!

Because of the money. I learned very fast that it is a way to earn money!

I worked at the Stazione Termini and in the park close to the station.

There always were pals and friends, gays of course...

Carlo for example...

or Giorgio, Maurizio, Enzo and...

Damned. What was his name again?

Stefane was his name... and your were there, Bischoff!

No erase that! Simon was there!

All these guys!

That's how it was. Wir were on tour or did something stupid...

or something funny... we played football all day went to the arcades.

On tour all day... or we chat up guys. That's when we were still gay.

We were gay ourselves, were on tour all the time...

we did somethng exciting.

Always on tour... that's how I lived back then.

One day at Circo Massimo...

the police arrived at Circo Massimo.

They came to us and wanted to see an ID.

I do have small eyes, don't I?

So one of them thought I took drugs because my eyes were so small.

''You damned junkie. Injected a load, didn't you?''

,,No. You're crazy or what?''That's what I answered.

I shouldn't have, I guess. That's when they took me and beat me up.

Got 4 or 5 fists into my face.

Wait... I do have scar. Look. on my hand.

They even kicked me with their boots. You know these boots...

with metal at the front?

I got kicked with those.

They hit my arm as well... here...

you can still see that. They were kicking real hard with their metal boots.

You can still see that... here... I was fourteen back then...

but they let me go afterwards.

They let me go and went themselves. Slaps in the face, kicks, everything you can imagine.

How was it where you lived before?

I lived at Circo Massimo!

No, before that, at your mother's place!

Ah, okay. I just lived with my mother!

Where was that?

In Torre Gaia!

What kind of neighbourhood is it?

A Borgata! A suburb!

What does Borgata mean? How do you live there?

How do you live there? Like everywhere else!

But it's different from the place you live now?

Of course it's different!

All these pals live at a Borgata...

even farmer live there...

Now I live in EUR.

That's were better people live, posh people!

You preferthat?

Of course!

What kind of problems did you have at home? You fought with yourfather?

And why?

He wanted me...

to got to school and to work directly afterwards.

And to go to the Navy as well.

I didn't want to. That's why I left!

And that's what you do now!

What do I do?

You are working and live a decent live!

Yes, but the way I want to!

But yourfather... Is he satisfied with you now?

Of course!

My eye twitches!

When we moved to Rome...

we found this hole of an appartment in Terre Gaia.

You can erase that es well, Torre Gaia.

Okay, let it be!

So we moved into that hole and got used to it.

My father...

this stepfather was a bricklayer. That's how it were... that's how we lived back then.

Of course we are not rich.

Of course not. We are not rich but we survive somehow.

We are eight in our family...

And we live in a small apartment, bathroom, kitchen and a room,

where my parents are sleeping and small well, and also that other ....

I remember well ...

yes, I remember what exactly?!

My father, my mother, turned in the neighborhood,

with a stroller completely rundown, you can imagine,

a stroller, where babies are made,

those little things, these infants, logical

and had those things, those things plastic to grip,

they were completely broken and launched them

We filled the cart with cardboard

so we turned the area, I on one side,

my little brother on the other side ... sold these boxes .....

indeed, one day .... we won 25'000

my mother told me once, but I remember that too.

No, no, those cartons were eggs, these boxes,

where they lay eggs, you know, eggs from hens,

sell those boxes and once lire 25'000 really won.

That we live in that time!

News of the Day, Rome March 13, 1983

Scrub and morbid cast of Circus Maximus!

''It's better that way, because it will look different and return to city property,

will once again to all and not a secret of the few.

The historical and archaeological sites important will be cleaned

by a small group of administration gardening plants removed and cut ....

The vegetation that grew there had changed the Circus Massimo in a larger area of neglect

and neglect rather than a municipal park that could be used culturally as a whole.''

The newspaper Il Messaggero''''

Cleaning''The initiative was taken by President municipal office of gardening

Luigi Angrisani Celeste (Socialist Party), after

Protests were heard from the''friends of the associations nature''and the Police Headquarters,

according to the Circus Maximus which was qualified as an inaccessible place.''

Period''The Republic''

What kind of men they were, how old were they?

About thirty, twenty ...

What majores, right?!

Treintaydos.

What more?

- Forty, fifty. - And more?

Well, forty, fifty fairly.

Do you also sixty?

- Non, non! - Pourquoi pas?

- What? - Just ask!

So with men sixty years it would you?

How much you pay?

10, 15, 20, 50'000! 100,000 of the very rich!

And what you had to do for that?

Look!, What should he do so ?!...

In just hustler!

But when someone gave you, say 50'000, I wanted something special?

Of course, they were all crazy ... sadistic,

or wanted to be beaten or behind ...

Or what not!

- You made it! - Everything!

- "Without problems? - He gave me the same!

- Would you do it again? - No, no!

Why not?

- Because it's enough! - What does this mean?

I have thought and I realized

that disgusts me that life!

But still you sleep with men?

Not at all, with women. Long live women!

But the love between men can be good?!

For me! I did, but ....

But occasionally you fall in love a man, right?!

Yes, ... In love?! He was nice, was it!

Did you fall in love then or not?

"Neither of Rene?

Maybe at first. No, I think not!

I liked it somehow!

Who is Rene?

A friend!

How old are you?

�� � l ?!..., he has treintaycinco!

Not true! Already have fifty!

No, wait, he is cuarentaycinco.

So if, say, everyone was homosexual, if everyone was gay ....

if all men with men and all women with women ...

if all were well ...

think, when he saw a man with a woman,

if ... marico as'''', then with the same word,

and''lesbian,''one that would be with a man ...

marico would call'',''with the word vulgar.

I myself have nothing against that, I liked it better

spending time with them than with my classmates,

I think there every once already did ....

All had one of these experiences, all!

So when a house is very gay,

is correct and ...

You have to admit that! And if it was only by people, look, and more than a year ago,

one and a half, I am with Renato,

when he sees the goalkeeper in his home, see me as I go ...

course, a grandchild could sertambi�n Renato or something,

but many times people said already:

''! How much does he have grandchildren, this Renato!''

... and now also married Renato ...

When you spent time with a gay,

all say:''! He is sissy!''

When home after

and gives a kiss to his wife, all say quickly:

''Now See!, But not marico then!''

They are stupid! People!

Because he was gay. ! Do I know!, When I get married

I'm still ...

Perhaps one day I become a gay ...

and all together ...

! Look, man!

We know already,

We met many times,

At night ...

I am ...

How do I call? Homosexual call me!

And I know, boys are stronger.

How many times have we crossed!

In the gardens, in the bathrooms public, in parks ...!

Remember Me?

Then I will remember! Listen!

When they spend the night here,

I'm here again, singing and dancing.

I do a show to attract his attention.

And you are always very punctual,

are good kids,

with strong shoulders, with their thighs that I love.

Then come marching,

real tough guys

And how they speak to me?

Hey, fag! Got a cigarette?

Tell me, wanted to ask you something.

I do not know much about that, in this area,

all names are called women ....

But are not women! Or is it?

"They are born or become so mean?

I do not understand at all, you know ...

I would be interested ...

What do you have down there?

A cock? "A fag with a dick?

What are you doing?

How does that work with you queer?

Will you shew?! Just curious!

But actually have a dick, you pussy!

Listen to me!

Since we were together now, we should not being together ever again!

People like you makes me want to vomit!

They do not like women ...

... Disgusting!

Yes, yes, you are.

Sorry! I went well.

You have to be taken seriously.

Could you summarize in one word what I wanted to say:

You bastard!

And I am sorry,

Because they live only once!

Yt� have a more or less miserable,

you have always cambiartu attitude.

But everyone does what he wants and what you can!

I continue my way then.

It does me good fresh air and the sea like.

And when I'm far from you, I'm fine.

Adios!

30'000, sucking in the pussy!

I have choche!

What! Do not have a car!

And where I take you then?

Even here there is a shock. Was a good gift from the municipality.

Got money?

Money!

Do not even have money!

Look, love, next time then!

Hey tell me, "who I am finding here?!

Ai! It hurts this damn leg tonight!

So beautiful and well educated shown

my teacher, when gently greets ...

What do you want from me?! What are you doing?!

When came up her pale stripe

In our classroom of horror

To show four faces pale as mine,

I bit my hands, full of pain.

Then they thought he wanted to entertain myself with this.

Suffering from hunger. They had raised

and said:

Father, come to us, we are suffering

Then at least, because the meat was so full of pain

comes from you-you take it away from us!

So adorable and well educated shown

No one has more respect for well-educated lady!

Every time you see me,

have to bother. You are vulgar!

You and your stories!

I saw a dead at the Circo Massimo!

How? Who was he?

He was in a puddle of blood!

I hear! One dead at the Circo Massimo!

You met him? Then you care!

Look at the cute guys! "Come with us!

- Where? - Home!

No, I'm busy!

Oh, men!

Hey, save us! We're getting drunk!

Hey, you bastard!, What are you looking for here?

What are you bronzed! "You bathed at sea today?

No!

Are we together tomorrow?

I think not! Stand up with that! I annoying!

How are you?

What is rare? Do you have money?

I like how you dance! Do you want a drink?

Whiskey!

- Straight up? - On the rocks.

Two!

We went then to the disco had lesbian

gays and all those guys. I was never before there in that club ...

Yvino Renato, that Renato,

was taken and said:

Lindo''and dance!''

Thus it said more or less.

He came and said: ''Come with me to my house?''

''Why not?''He said,''go to your house!''

''I want to stay a little longer here,''he said,

''I'm with friends!''

O.K.''''I said and then we went home.

Then went home and slept there ...

We slept together, of course, is clear.

You always liked older men, until fifty years!

No, no ... Yes, once before!

Nonsense! No men ... It's absurd! Nonsense!

But you were with Renato, He was your boyfriend.

I think you fell in love with him, and he was fifty years!

No, no, not true! I fell in love!

I was just your friend, is all ... partner, son,

brother, whatever you want ...

So what were you doing exactly?

'Man' was!

What about the relationship with Ronnie?

It's just friendship!

Then he is like a father to me!

What do you say as a parent?

That takes care of me as make all parents!

Did you need a father?

No, not needed, but who could namely, it would be like ...

And it was good for me as well!

Do you send do things for him?

No! ... I command it!

Are you sure?

I am! Before, yes, I took action on behalf lot,

But I said then: ''Listen, I can not go on!''

Then bother me one day, And I said:''Hey, how

You can keep it that way? If so, I'm just!''

And now I only do what I want,

And now I also have a girl every Sunday ...

I was always with him before Sunday, turned,

Now I'm with my girl.

We have to find a good job for you,

then we'll go to Greece, Africa.

You'll see, your life will change now!

I do not want to sleep with others!

So what do we do with that hair? Let's try to make it more presentable,

less sloppy that way they are. Let's cut a little.

Then maybe a little care ...

- What kind of work the boy? - We are looking for something for him.

You might start here! ...

Renato, your friend is married 49 years.

Why?

He married ...

to have a secure future ....

People always thought: ''Why not house it,

...... that is not a gay?''

� � l es gay, but ...

therefore, to be safer in their future married,

and someone brings something to eat,

when wrong, y. ..

clear by the people who now say:

Look!, Married, then, is not gay ...

Is something wrong, being gay?

Well for me ... Therefore, what I!

I have nothing against ...

I can not answer that question, because ...

So what can I say ...?

Do not want to be gay?

- No! - Why not?

That's why! I do not like ...

What do I care? Not interested at all ...

What changes in your life, if you could?

Now you can not change anything else! ... Yes, I would ....

Now I have everything, a flat ....

I'm fine!

Are you happy?

Yes, I work, I have everything I need,

not change anything ... if I could back in life again

not make that mistake I made two years ago.

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