All language subtitles for soul.sessions.2018.720p.webrip.x264-associate

fuck!

and my flight just took off.

any idea how much longer
until we get to the airport?

depends on the traffic
past the wreck.

maybe another hour?

fuck.

okay.

welcome back, mr. dalton.

how can i assist you?

i missed flight 0729 to o'hare.

i need to get on the 1:20
if possible.

i can help you with that.

i'm going to put you
on hold for a minute.

if that's okay?

sure.

okay, i had that
all taken care of.

would you like me to e-mail you
your boarding pass?

that would be outstanding.

thank you.

can i help you
with anything else?

that'll suffice.

thank you very much.
good day.

that is a big fire.

what is going on
in atlanta today?

-negative energy?
-voodoo.

it was initially thought
to be cargo,

but it is now confirmed to have
been a passenger flight.

the flight was bound
for chicago.

-from the looks of the site...
-turn that up.

it's not likely
anyone survived.

again, it is believed that
express america flight 0729

from atlanta to chicago o'hare
has crashed just after takeoff.

we're expecting
a press conference

with aviation officials
at the top of the hour.

- about a dozen
downtown--
-that was my flight.

you know what? can you just
drop me off at avis?

that does not look good.

no one survived that.

wake up, nick.
i'm here.

i'm nauseous.

i'm nauseous.

i feel like shit.

i feel like shit.

can you please not?

just got here.

you were gonna wait up for me,
remember?

hmm?

hmm?

come on.

i'm sleeping on the couch.
you can stay here.

what a surprise!

what the fuck was that for?

for that?

and for anything similar
you may have planned.

i guess it's time
for the pasture.

-what's up, jeffy?
- yo!

long time no talk.
how you been?

good.

good, just doing the work thing,
hanging out.

i scored
a block of tickets

for the michigan
michigan state game.

you need to come to ann arbor.

you know what--

works been hectic,
i don't think i can break away.

that's the best reason.

dude, you know,
it's just been overwhelming.

come on! we'll all get laid.

it'll be like old times.

i don't know about you
getting laid.

oh, bullshit! that was roy.

don't worry about him.
i'll screen him.

you know, i'm in.

i'm in, but you tell roy
no disco shit.

excellent. see you friday, mofo.

fuck you!

hey, roy.

now, it looks like
you get the burden again.

well, i'm now up
to that challenge.

oh, yeah!

these college girls are gonna be
beating down your door.

man, i almost forgot
about the burden.

that's 'cause you
and this guy right here

never went a day
without getting laid.

didn't you have the burden

-for almost your entire
sophomore year?
-no!

it was just a semester.

it's not that long.
it's not that long.

i can't believe
we called it that.

that's a fucked up
weigh to measure yourself.

oh, like you still don't.

mm.

do you know what?

i'm done.

i'm gonna get up early,
i'm gonna rally.

so, gentlemen.

that's a good call.

you guys heading back?

uh, no, we're good for one more.
i'll see you back there.

-all right.
-the burden!

mm.

you look fried.

what do you mean?

you're here,
but you're not here.

no, it's all good.

okay.

i mean, you're an investment
banker.

what'd you think, cheerleaders?

hello?

sorry.

it's not just work.

mm, but the money.

yeah.

yeah, it's just...

i feel trapped
under this crushing darkness,

and it's just--

never mind.

what about janice?

she's a trophy.

not really sure what i won.

there's absolutely zero
communication.

and i'm pretty sure she fucks
around as much as i do.

hmm.

not certain that's the goal
for a relationship,

but if it's working
for you guys.

just another link i added
to the chain.

then end it.

i like her.

i don't know why.

i mean, she's not bad to bring
to a client outing.

she's funny, a great fuck,

but she's got the
depth of a kiddie pool.

like us.

we just feel a need
for each other right now.

more now.

and i, um, think there's more
to this.

hey.

let's go sit over here.
thanks.

i haven't slept in like a month.

i just feel like i'm leaking
energy all the time,

and it's being replaced
with nothing.

are you seeing someone?

-help you sort things out.
-oh, yeah.

alcohol and ambien.

so you're trying
to kill yourself.

call her.

you'll be glad.

and what if i don't
do a therapist?

she's ivy leagues.

smart, karen loved her.

she's a bit unorthodox.

unorthodox?

look, all i know is she did
miraculous things for karen.

well, why don't you describe one
of these miracles?

you know
how she used to get pissed

-and be fucking nuts?
-oh, yeah.

it's fixed.

doesn't happen anymore.

hmm.

i'll see.

you have a solution.

-hey!
-geez!

i thought you were in ann arbor.

-i'm back.
-i see that.

how was it?
did you score some coeds?

i didn't score anything.

shot down, too bad.

-i didn't try.
-really?

really.

so you're finally realizing
what you have right here.

don't get crazy.

asshole.

i'm going to south beach
this weekend.

oh. who you going with?

one of the other girls
from jimmy choo is taking me.

she must sell a hell of a lot
more shoes than you do.

funny.

she got invited by some guy

that came in buying shoes
for his wife.

isn't that why you guys
all work there?

access to rich married guys.

it's a perk.

and why are you going?

she needs protection.

-from what?
-herself.

sounds like great fun.

oh, nice shades.

you going to welding class?

i can't have anybody know
where i'm looking, now can i?

i'll be there.

nick?

-doctor dumont.
-oh.

i'd prefer katrina.

come on in.

have a seat, nick.

mm-hmm.

what's going on?

not really sure.

your friend recommended me?

yeah.

his wife was a patient.

were you looking
for a recommendation?

not really.

so he just offered up this
recommendation unsolicited, huh?

that's right.

and what gave him reason
to do that?

i wasn't myself.

he noticed.

well, let's start with
who he thinks you are.

uh, the guy who gets promoted
the fastest.

uh, the guy who makes
the biggest bonuses,

who has the most beautiful
girlfriends.

girlfriends plural.

mm-hmm.

these pluralities in succession
or simultaneous?

both.

and how do they feel?

i'm not really sure.

do they know about each other?

some figure it out.

i think guilt's not really
a condition i suffer from.

what becomes of these
relationships?

some turn into meaningful
friendships.

and the others?

hook ups.

intermittent ongoing sex.

nonexclusive intermittent
ongoing sex?

sure. yeah.

would you say that the reward
is novelty and infidelity?

that's the idea going in.

and do you look at these girls
the way you just looked at me,

like a goal rather
than a connection?

i suppose.

good to know.

what do you feel between these
sexual conquests?

well, deeper truths don't scream
at us, nick.

they whisper.

sometimes people feel empty
and they don't know why,

so they use to fill that need.

humans need a connection.

to their inner selves,
to the soul.

and when they don't get it
that emptiness seeks stimulation

and the stimulation
becomes like a rush.

and you can become addicted
to the rush.

no.

-what i'm looking for is just--
-is a high.

like a heroin addict,

who's just looking
for his next fix.

so what's the solution?

if you're willing, we can
do some work and discover.

maybe what that need is
the link to the emptiness.

mm.

-really?
-mm-hmm.

what?

nothing.

i can feel you staring.

maybe look then?

i'm looking.

good.

why are you still staring at me?

i don't know,
because you're there.

doesn't sound like a very good
reason.

we're in the same room, nick.

the bedrock of a relationship.

a common space.

have to actually be in the same
space at the same time.

so we're a product of time
and space.

worked for you last night.

glad i could accommodate you.

-it wasn't just convenience.
-what was it then?

i thought--

i thought i was making
an effort.

don't think, nick.

you make things weird.

mostly i try to come up with
ways that would look accidental.

who you trying to protect?

is it your reputation?

my parents would never believe
their son could be so crippled

with depression
that he'd kill himself.

i don't think anybody else
would care.

what about janice?

she'd be devastated when she
found out she lost the use

of the fitness club
in my condo building.

maybe you underestimate her.

we have a mutually beneficially
arrangement.

have you tried talking to her?

it's pointless.

there's no connection,
no energy exchange.

ah, interesting choice of words.

energy.

i'm running out of it.

made it a mile and a half
on my run today.

i fantasized
about drowning myself.

and honestly, these sessions
have been like a warm shower.

and that good feeling
afterwards, it wears off quick.

i'd like to start you
on regression therapy.

i think that there's a reason
why traditional therapy

and antidepressants don't work.

okay.

i think there could be a trauma
in your past

that's blocking you
psychologically.

we all have trauma.

you get over it,
you move on.

yeah.

some do.

and some create a void.

i think if we were to use
regression techniques on you,

i think you could find
maybe something

that's relevant
to your depression.

seems a little too
convenient for me.

think about it.

okay?

-yeah?
- dabney winters
from "the times" is on three.

you're gonna have
to take a message.

he said he had a call scheduled
on the thermster ipo story.

is he in the calendar?

-yes.
-shit.

tell him i'll call him back
later.

okay.

hey, ridge.

hey! you been through all this?

just getting through the
plastic conversion portion.

i'm up to my elbows
in trash conversion.

-if this works like they say--
-it's gonna be bigger
than google's ipo.

we're gonna make shit tons
of money.

email me
with any questions,

i have a phone call
with their research team later.

-you good?
-yeah. yeah.

there's a bunch of science
buried into this shit.

i'm anything,
but a scientist.

you better be neil degrasse
tyson when we talk
to the investors.

-gotta be on our "a" game.
-aren't we always?

what about this one?
hmm?

that's great.

is it too much of everything?

not enough of everything?

mm. turn around.

were you hoping to show more ass
or less boob?

or vice versa? i forget.

i think it's too much butt.

you can't use the other bottoms
with this top?

-very helpful.
-wait a minute.

one minute i'm telling you
about my therapy

and the next thing i know
i'm judging your ass to boob
exposure ratios.

well, there has
to be some mystery.

i can't show it all at once.

it's a fucking bikini.

that's what they do.

you could be more supportive.

you're right.

i could be more supportive.

if you weren't such a bitch.

whatever comes to mind, just
accept it and experience it.

okay?

there's no value in analyzing
this in real time.

okay, let's begin.

okay, exhale.

deep breath in
through your nose.

out through your mouth.

good.

i want you to see light
all around you.

as i count down i want you
to release your limitations

that your mind has
on your given memory.

ten, nine, eight,

seven.

you feel the light illuminating.

six, five.

deeper now.

four, three--

you have a catalog of all
of your memories.

you now have access to that.

young nick:
my hands are so cold.

go, nick!

hold tight.

let's go, nick.

come on, nick.
you have to do it.

let's go, nick.

come on, nick.

why are you here?

i have to feel her approval.

both hands, nick.

come on.

one more ring.

you did it!
i'm so proud of you.

okay, i'm gonna bring you
back now.

listen to my voice.

you're my little guy.

the light is dimming.

gently coming back.

feel your fingers and your toes.

feel the room that we're in.

hear my voice.

welcome back, nick.

how do you feel?

i just had to feel.

feel-- feel what?

her approval.

why was it specific
to that event?

it was the last time
she ever showed it.

right.

how was the experience?

incredible.

i mean...

i had the--

the realization, the clarity.

what kind of clarity?

it was like the-- the thoughts
and the--

the images were just flowing in.

what kind of thoughts?

like i'm on a treadmill.

ah.

right.
effort without progress.

ever since that moment
it's just been a chase.

for success, for praise,
appreciation.

that was for a minute.

and how does that relate to you
right now?

it's never-ending.

i just-- i end up alone.

still chasing.

and how do you contribute
to that end?

i don't know.

it's-- it's always the same.

ah!

i would like to take you deeper.

you are in a very fertile area
and you're just at the margin.

i would like for you to be open
to some other techniques.

accepting of this, okay?

like?

i need you to be prepared,

because it can get very cold
and dark.

but it's part of the healing.

okay.

okay.

katrina thinks that i create
a false intimacy and i prac--

why do you see her?

it's all psychobabble.
it's so fucking boring.

wow!

i really appreciate how much
you care about my well-being.

don't be a crybaby.

these are for the pool.

where are you going again?

you don't listen to me and
i'm supposed to listen to you?

south beach.

with eva and her friend
from the store.

-for protection?
-what else?

i don't know.

jealous?

um... no.

maybe you should be.

what are we doing?

well, when you feel like it,
fucking,

when you don't,
i go shopping.

i'm the only guy in the world
that pays for not having sex.

some genius banker you are.

okay, um, i would like for you

to suspend your current
belief system.

so that we can work
on going further back.

further back where?

i'd like to explore
that it's possible this is
not your first incarnation.

i've taken many people
through past life regression.

what happened to tapping
into my subconscious memory?

i think that they're past
traumas from those prior lives

that are causing
your depression.

i'm gonna have to call bullshit
on that.

well, that's why i ask you
to work on being open
and receptive.

-yeah, open is one thing.
-open is everything.

if you're afraid or not ready,
i understand that, too.

i take it this is
where we're stepping

into the unorthodox realm.

yes, that would be this
threshold.

okay.

what's your pitch?

there are three levels
of consciousness.

there's the conscious mind,
the subconscious mind,

and the superconscious mind.

have you ever been
on a long drive

and you suddenly realize
you have no recollection

of the last 30 minutes?

-of course.
-yeah, well, that was
the conscious mind

doing the thinking,
then you have subconscious mind.

it's doing the driving, the
breathing, all the functions,

and saving the memory
of all the lost time.

what memory?
i thought the time is blank.

well, the time is blank,
but the memory is saved.

now, the superconscious mind,
this is your virtual hard drive.

your storage center
for all of your memories,

your wisdom from your past life
experiences.

the cloud?

yeah, or some call it the soul.

it was there long
before you were born.

it will be there long after this
conscious mind and body die.

think of this as a past life
archeology.

we can access all
of your soul memories

with hypnotic regression.

find the past life traumas
that are affecting you today,

leading to your depression.

i mean, am i really that
desperate to be buying
into this shit?

okay, let me try another way
with you.

sit down.

is it crazy when i blow
a dog whistle

that the dog hears it clearly
and we can't hear it?

or a bee, how it finds its
nectar using ultraviolet light

that's not on our visible
spectrum?

i don't see how that pertains
to any of this.

what about radio waves or
television signals, wifi?

things that we can't--

i mean, do any of your five
senses pick those things up?

of course not.

so isn't it entirely possible

that we experience only a narrow
sliver of our reality

and there are other energies and
phenomenon that we can't sense?

okay, let's start
like a regular session.

all the darkness in the world

can help bring out the light
of a single star.

master, please have mercy!

comba.

comba, stay with me.

take my hand.
take it.

take my hand.

-i wanna touch you
when i pass on...
-no.

to the other side.

don't you talk like that.
don't you go nowhere.

comba, you gonna stay with me.

you gonna be all right.
master gonna help us.

comba.

no. comba.

comba.

let's go to one more place.

coming back gently.

slowly let go.

breathe.

two.

good. one.

what are you feeling?

i don't know.

it's like some bizarre,

familiar dream piped in.

it's not a dream,
it's experiences.

your experiences.

it's vivid.

so what did re-experiencing all
these show you?

what was the essence?

i was angry and full of hate
when comba died.

it consumed me.

so what would you have done
differently?

i could've followed
comba's example.

and appreciated how love gave us
the moments

to escape the horrors
of our daily lives.

a single light
in a sea of darkness.

this looks great.

what is this?

-not good.
-yeah, but details
would be good.

it showed up
in an anonymous e-mail.

it's worrying.

the claim is that the technology
for the nonplastic conversion

to clean energy won't be ready
for another two or three years.

fuck me.

are you sure?

i mean, it's right there, man.
you can read it yourself.

is the powerpoint dated?
maybe it's old.

i don't know.

what are we gonna do?

we blow this up here, we're
gonna be living out of our cars.

we're gonna have to get grimes
in on this now.

he's a fucking clown car
that guy.

he's also the de facto ceo
of this whole little
operation of ours.

he's gonna go batshit.

grimes. what's up?

robert, we made a discovery
on the thermster deal.

a discovery.
what kind of discovery?

the technology
on the nonplastic conversion

may be immature.

what the fuck do you mean
immature?

maybe a few years away
from being ready.

oh, no, no, no. tell me this is
some kind of fucking joke, nick!

not a joke.

i'll be there in three hours.

you be in the conference room
and you be ready
to fix this shit.

i'd say he took that
pretty well.

all right.

first we need to find out
if someone's trying to fuck us

or fuck them, because this--

this is clearly not what they
presented to us initially.

yes, looks like some r&d
report for internal use.

properly sent by some
disgruntled shit head.

i think the best thing to do
is present all this to rogan,

let him explain it.

if he already lied,
what do you think?

he's gonna have some kind of
come to jesus moment with you?

i can reach out to one
of my marketing friends.

no, fuck that.

he won't know shit.

okay.

you call this little prick.

without actually accusing him
of anything,

get an explanation on this.

ten years building this firm,

finally ready to make
our first big move.

fuckers!

do not fuck this up.

you keep asking and asking
and asking.

i'm telling you,
i don't have an answer.

what's stopping you from
believing what you saw?

me being a slave makes no sense.

the soul is defined by the level
of awareness,

not by race or gender.

some past life experiences
are real,

and some are hallucinatory
metaphors created
by the subconscious.

oh, so maybe it's a metaphor
for my addictions.

maybe.

you ready?

what are you arguing about?

she says that i work too much

and that there's no time left
for us.

what are you telling her?

that everything i do is for her.

so we can have these things.

i'm going to guide you back now,
nick.

listen to my words.

slowly breathing.

feels good.

exhale.

- one.

you're okay.
you're here with me.

it's okay.

i left them without saying
goodbye.

i died protecting a few dollars.

most forms of suffering come
from attachment.

with tanya it was attachment
to anger and hatred.

with pietro,
it's attachment to greed.

these are negative vibrational
frequencies fathered by the ego.

this can't be a coincidence.

it's not coincidence.

comba, allasandra.

the feeling is just--

listen.

do you speak italian?

what the fuck is that?

hey.

where have you been? why haven't
you returned my text?

i've been busy.
phone off busy.

have you heard from doug rogan?

not yet.
but it's saturday.

guess who doesn't give a shit.

grimes.

he's worried about you.

he thinks you got your head up
your ass or someone else's ass.

i'm fine.

okay.

all right,
well you better find rogan

or grimes is gonna
blow a neck artery.

first thing monday.

just give me till first thing
monday.

that's how it was with comba
and allasandra.

how did you feel about yourself
when you were with them?

hmm.

i don't know. um...

...connected.

-authentic love.
-exactly.

you experienced an eternal
partner, a soul mate.

soul mate.

yeah, right out of a cheesy
romantic novel.

soul mates radiate
at a similar frequency.

so when you brush up against one
it fosters an inexplicable
harmony.

like a musical score where each
note supports the next.

there's evidence that we each
have a life blueprint.

it includes our soul mates,
our karmic learning experiences.

nothing's preordained.

everything is subject
to free choice.

doesn't free choice overrule
just about everything?

yes, it can,

but you know those odd
coincidences and chance meetings

that we all experience?

those are destiny points.

they guide you back
to your most energetic path.

your blueprint.

sorta like a cosmic gps
directing us.

it is possible to see
your destiny points.

i don't know.
that's pretty out there.

so is a dog whistle until
you know how it works, right?

they're called between life
regressions.

and it gives you a chance
to glimpse the spirit world,

see your destiny points,

also your plan for your life.

you just have to be ready for it
psychologically.

yeah.

i don't know if i see it.

well, i can only encourage you.

i can't or won't force you.
so...

fuck it.

why not?

-right?

right.

move past this.

nick, what's happening?
what are you feeling?

an overwhelming sense of love.

nick.

nick, do i need
to guide you back?

oh, hey. hey, can i get a vodka
cranberry?

sweet. thanks.

and, uh, this guy's having?

yeah, you $20 bill guy.

-what are you having?
-just a beer.

and a beer for...?

nick. nick dalton.

and that makes you...?

lindsay.

lindsay kline.

-you graduating tomorrow?
-yeah.

-yeah, how about you?
-yeah, me, too.

have we met?

'cause, uh, you know,
i kinda think that you
should recognize me.

-i should recognize you?
-yeah. yeah.

- oh.
-i actually said that.

-uh--
-i-- i got it.

well, i got the next one.

we're having a next one.

it sounds better
as a statement.

oh, did that sound
like a question?

i like the pink streak
in your hair.

-really?
-i do. yeah.

i just-- i don't know, i just
had the sudden urge to just...

do something out of character.

-so it's new?
-yeah.

yeah, just, uh, just yesterday.

out of character is good
sometimes.

well, congrats.

same to you.

-you're not following me.
-i was thinking
about following you.

yeah, well, let's see
if your feet can catch up
with your brain.

chicago. i move tomorrow.

you have a job already?

investment banking.
you?

africa.

job?

uh, no, volunteer
for the summer.

i'm doing work
to stop human trafficking.

very noble.

i start my job october first.

where?

new york.

-mm.
-marketing.

i hope i didn't screw up.

by getting trapped
in this whole career thing.

careers can be rewarding.

i think there are three kinds
of work.

a job, a career,
and a calling.

ooh. is this gonna
be a long lecture?

will it be on the final?

i am about to input some wisdom.

ah! oracle from fun speaks.

a job is to earn money.

the objective is to make as much
of it as possible

with minimal amount of effort.

yeah, yeah, my summers.

careers are the long view.

you chase experience
and credentials.

the reward... income
and prestige.

yeah, like one of those, uh,
prestigious investment
banker types.

a calling is the ultimate.

a calling chases you.

sounds dangerous.

maybe because it comes to you
quietly.

it's inspiration and inspiration
is the most powerful,

because it invites you
to take real chances.

to live the life you want.

with meaning and purpose.

it's pretty good advice.

yeah, at the moment
that's all it is.

so live the life you want, nick.

not really sure
what that is yet.

i like you, nick dalton.

i like you, too, lindsay kline.

i have a good feeling about you.

hi.

hey.

- i know!
-it's official.

oh, the man!

-eric, this is lindsay.
lindsay, eric.
-hi, nice to meet you.

-can you take a picture for us?
-sure, sure.

-thanks.
-excuse me.

-great.
-awesome.

-thank you so much.
-off to find the parents.

call ya.

-nice to meet you, lindsay.
-nice to meet you, too.

i, uh--

i, um--

so as i recall,
i got the last drink.

you know, so now it's--
now it's your round.

-well, i'm good for it.
-yeah?

well, then i'm good
for the one after that.

and then we can end up
on this infinite loop

-of buying each other drinks,
right?
-yeah, then in rehab.

you know, why didn't our paths
cross sooner?

i don't know.

i wish i knew.

maybe they will again.

yeah, or, you know, maybe we--

nick.

come on.

we're waiting.

let's go, nick.

five, four.

coming back slowly,
breathing deeply.

one.

oh, my god.

-you all right?
-i don't know.

i feel numb.

my mind's going a million miles
an hour.

-take a deep breath.

slowly in.

-doing great.

that was insane.

graduation weekend with lindsay,

that was a destiny point,
wasn't it?

yeah, i think it was.

god, this makes no sense.

well, think of you and lindsay
as magnets

in a box of woodchips.

and you're shaking the box
of woodchips

and eventually over time,
the magnets are drawn together
connecting.

soul mates have similar
magnetic frequencies.

like attracting like.

that's where the immediate sense
of familiarity comes from.

the pink streak in her hair.

i dreamt about her months
before.

came completely out of nowhere.

i think that's a recognition
trigger for you.

i have to warn you, though.

reuniting might be something
that neither one of you
wants to do.

i have to.

call ridge.

calling ridge.

grimes is ready to kill you.

why now?

have you talked to doug rogan?

i called three times,
he hasn't called me back yet.

fuck!

all right, you call grimes.

i am not getting my ass kicked
on your behalf again.

and whatever the fuck is wrong
with your personal life

that has you out of reach
constantly,

-has gotta get solved.
-are you kidding me?

dude, i cannot be kidding you
any less.

-we're partners.
-exactly.

equal fucking partners.

now do us a favor
and call grimes.

call grimes.

calling grimes.

what did rogan say?

he hasn't called me back yet.

call him again.

i've left three messages
in the past three hours.

what did you tell him
in the message?

i told him that we needed
to discuss a few discrepancies

on the projected dates.

hello?

what the fuck were you thinking?

what the fuck?

i wanted him to know that it was
urgent and you were concerned.

figure out how to get in touch
with him,

and find out
what the fuck is going on.

hey, what's going on?

just on my laptop.

you're kidding me.

all the shit that's flying
around here

and you're looking for some
college conquest.

that's not what this is.

you've been on fucking saturn
for weeks.

what are you doing?

if i tell you something
will you keep it between us?

it's part of my therapy.

you're depressed?

i was.

i am.

i'm linking it all together
through therapy

and i'm coming out of it.

i just need a little more time.

okay, um, i won't tell grimes,

but you have to get back
with this thermster thing
like yesterday.

got it.
i'm on it.

university of michigan
alumni outreach.

hello. uh, i'm trying to find
a classmate, class of 2001.

lindsay kline.

the best way to search is
register online.

-would you like the web address?
-no.

is there any way
you could do it?

-it's urgent.
- sure.

what's the name?
do you have a zip code?

or her parents? many alumni
never update when they move.

lindsay, k-l-i-n-e, kline.

i'm not sure
where she's originally from.

is that lindsay with an e or a?

an a, i believe.

i'm sorry, i just don't see
anything here.

there's always a chance
she hasn't registered yet.

have you tried development
and fundraising?

those people can find anyone
anywhere.

especially alumni with money.

-bangor.
- excuse me?

bangor, maine, that's where
she's originally from.

bangor, maine.

still nothing.

okay.

thank you.

hello. my name is nick dalton.

uh, i graduated
from the university of michigan.

class of 2001.

i'm looking for a classmate,
lindsay kline.

hi. uh, my name is nick dalton.

yeah, i graduated
from the university of michigan.

class of 2001.

i'm actually looking
for a classmate, lindsay kline.

i'm actually-- i'm looking
for a classmate, lindsay kline.

lindsay kline.

by chance, did you know her?

if by any chance you know
how i can get a hold of her

it would be greatly appreciated.

please give me a call back
at 312--

zero.

i have zero fucking answers.

i left three more messages.

well, where does he live?

southern indiana.

how did we get into this mess?

how did we let some goddamn
shit head farmer

from the public storage state
fuck with us?

-huh?

i really have to take this.

yeah, go ahead.

better be fucking rogan.

hello?

hello. uh, nick dalton.

hello, nick.
this is cheryl kline.

i was returning your call
from yesterday.

i'm lindsay's mom.

thank you so much
for calling me back.

what can i help you with, nick?

lindsay and i met graduation
weekend,

and we only met for two days.

lindsay told me about you, nick.

she did?

really?

yes. your name came up
several times that weekend

and sometime later.

i know this sounds
a little crazy,

but i just really wanna know
how she's been all these years.

if there's any way possible,

maybe you could pass me
along her number.

i would love nothing more

than to make that happen
for you, nick.

but i can't.

lindsay's dead.

i'm sorry.

i just can't help you.

i'm good.
i just need a few minutes.

are you sure?

yeah, thanks.

shut the door.

hi. this is katrina.

it's nick.

-i need to talk.
-hi.

um, okay. i have a patient
in five minutes, though.

lindsay's dead.

oh.

nick.

i'm so sorry.

i never got a chance
to tell her anything.

to find out anything.

this is bullshit!

let's take the next couple
of days and sort this out.

oh, like it's a pile of laundry.

listen, soul mates come in and
out of our lives for a reason.

the best thing i can tell you
is find out as much as you can
about her life,

and what the implications are
in your life.

the implications are
fuck everything!

it was this whole spiritual crap
that led me to this.

i know that you're grieving
right now,

and i think the events of this
are very suffocating,

but let's just see
if there's a lesson here.

a lesson?

fuck this!

nick, we're all worried.
now open up.

come on, man!
we need to talk!

goddamn it.
this is so much shit here.

open the fucking door!

he sent those
on my fucking dime?

finding out lindsay died
almost ended me.

how so?

those suicidal ideations
almost became reality.

you ready to order?

uh, i'll have ashalanga tea
and honey, please.

i'll have a black coffee.

what's happening?

i couldn't move.

i mean, it was like
i was having a coronary.

i was-- it was completely
paralyzing pain.

was there also a sense
of burning?

yeah. felt like i had a
blowtorch going up my spine

-and around my head.
-mm-hmm.

and-- and anything else?

that fork has three tines,
not four,

and the clock behind
the register was mounted
over rotated.

the one is at the top
and the floor is tan travertine

with four different sized tiles
and our waitress is
wearing a perfume

with a hint of lavender.

anything else?

i feel like everybody i've ever
met is surrounding me.

and there is this-- this
overwhelming feeling of love

that is all around me.

you had your first spiritual
experience.

congratulations.

like a spiritual awakening?

that's different.
a spiritual experience is--

it's profound and it has a very
magical feeling,

but it comes and it goes.

a spiritual awakening,
that's much more permanent.

that's a shift in awareness
of the-- of the self.

nick, have you ever noticed
the part of you

that notices the noticing?

you lost me.

when a toddler looks
in the mirror he sees himself

and there begins the ego.

a beginning of protecting
that me, me, me.

that feeling i know.

experiences like you had today,

that-- that's a break
in the identification
of the me mind body.

um, it can trigger an awakening.

an awakening that there's
more than just this body.

i mean, um, think of us like a--
a wave,

and how you can viewed
as an individual,

but you're still part
of one ocean.

and a wave washes ashore

and then it goes back to sea
to reform a new wave.

so every life is a new wave?

yeah.

yeah. i don't know where i go
from here.

i would say that lindsay came
into your awareness
for a reason.

i would explore that.

nick?

nick, it's ridge.
you in there?

come on, man.
we are really worried about you.

coming.

-come on, nick.

we are worried about you.

all right, really, really
worried about you.

okay, okay, okay.

okay, so we are not worried
about you,

but i am simply here to tell you
you've got 48 hours

to get yourself back together
and get back to work.

what did you say to him?

i-- i told him that you have
anxiety, that you need a break.

oh, fuck.

-what else did he say?
-oh, i-- i could hardly
understand.

uh, nick, asshole, job
abandonment, fired,
bunch of fucks.

a stapler flew past.

i was only gone a day.

yeah, but you missed the call
with rogan.

we're fucked.

you know, he half admitted
that they lied to us.

scrap the deal.
fuck it.

no, grimes wants us to push
this ipo through,

put lipstick on this pig.

without the technology,

it's gonna destroy
our reputation.

he didn't care.

he just wants to collect
his massive fee.

all right, tell him
i got the message.

-that's it?
-that's it.

hello?

hello, uh,
mrs. kline?

this is nick dalton.

i'm sorry
if i'm bothering you.

i'd like to apologize

and extend
my deepest sympathies.

thank you, nick.

but you do have me
quite curious.

i really don't
know where to start.

how about at the beginning?

during therapy,
there's been quite
a few revelations.

nick?

-mrs. kline.
-come in.

memories are all i have left
of my baby girl.

mm, she never fussed.

she slept through the night
her first week.

she was a bit
of a tomboy.

definitely as good
as any of those boys.

she made it
to the olympic trials.

i didn't know she skated.

she didn't talk
about it much.

i think it was
a disappointment for her.

i don't know how i missed...

denied those feelings
that weekend.

i can assure you that
that was the happiest i had
seen lindsay in years.

oh, she was full of light,

and you almost caused her
to miss that african trip.

why? i thought she
was totally set on it.

she hoped to spend
more time with you.

you know,
she always wondered

why you didn't
respond to her message.

what message?

when she came back
from africa,

she left you a message
at your work.

she assumed
you weren't interested.

after that, she rescinded
her job offer

and started her non-profit.

she chose
to live her calling.

her calling.

we meet people for different
reasons, nick.

maybe that was your gift to her.

she lived a full life.

not quite.

that day, the car.

she drove to atlanta
for a conference.

a semi cut her off
and the car just--

hit the wall and flipped.

yes.

i saw the car.

i was on my way to the airport
in atlanta.

the traffic--
it was so backed up.

i missed my flight.

and the flight that i missed
crashed on its takeoff.

everybody died.

maybe that was her gift to you.

you're kidding.

drives a porsche?

it's a perk. remember?

classic.

you're kidding me.

not kidding.

you'll be back. asshole.

the real reason for a soulful
relationship

sometimes doesn't, um,
show itself until it's over.

it's like a chemical reaction
that transforms both lives.

she definitely helped
transform mine.

yeah.

you gonna be okay?

it feels strange.

and at the same time
i am so grateful

i got to experience all of this.

yeah.

thank you.

you know,
i didn't really do anything.

i just pointed you
in the right direction.

you believed.

that's the hard part.

i'll see you around.