All language subtitles for Aitana Metamorphosis S01E02

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-I always felt like I'd die young.
-I, letter I, the I…

It'd be awful,
and here I am saying this stuff.

Let's hope not.

I hope not, of course.

But also, every time…

you, you predict something,
it happens, you know?

I try not to
think about it, right? I swear.

Don't look if you don't want to.

It's been six years
since I had a blood test.

I'm gonna faint.

I'm afraid they'll tell me
something's wrong.

I get super panicky.

They'll examine, touch me,
see something and think…

I went three years without leaving Spain
'cause I was afraid to fly.

I was even more afraid
to fly during the pandemic,

from so much time my fear got stronger
from being stuck at home.

I had a very traumatic experience.

When I was 12, the masks dropped,
everyone was crying,

people flew up out of their seats.

How are you?

It doesn't have a tag.

And sometimes I don't give it my all
because I'm afraid,

or because I'm insecure,

or I don't feel like I'm good enough,
you know?

I have a fear of, uh,
elevators, planes, heights.

Thing is, I think
I'm afraid of everything.

I know that's something
I have to work on in therapy,

and I am working on it.

It's just something inside me.

And I struggle with it every day.

METAMORPHOSIS

CHAPTER TWO

FEAR

Good morning.

Yeast.
It's a little weirder here, gotta say.

Hello.

-Thanks, Miki.
-Hi.

Now, yes.

I brought two,
didn't know what size you wanted.

Very good.

And the most important thing
in the universe for Aitana.

-The oximeter.
-The oximeter.

Let's see where I'm at,
I think I'm a bit worked up, huh? I mean--

-Yeah?
-I feel it, yeah.

-Competition. C'mon.
-Worked up.

-Ninety.
-Ninety, not bad.

That's very good.

-Eighty-nine, going down.
-You just worked out too.

-That's great, Aitana.
-Eighty-eight.

And oxygen's 99, very good.

Very good.

-Let's wait a minute.
-"In case I get sick."

-So it stabilizes.
-"In case I get sick."

-Let's see yours. Your hands clean?
-Yes, at four.

-Is this gonna stop?
-Nuria, come on. A hundred seventeen.

-She's a--
-Manager.

A fuckin' joke, right?

One fourteen, so that's normal.
Right now, normal.

It's… normal for you.

Is 114 dangerous?

Her body is in a constant state of alert.

I'm someone who has to try to…

In fact, I'm gonna start therapy,
apart from my normal therapy, therapy for…

for my fear of dying,
because I'm afraid I'll die,

so all that makes me a hypochondriac.

Claustrophobic, I'm scared of planes.

All the fears I have
come down to being afraid to die,

and I'm scared to die.

-The oats?
-More for my parents.

Not for me.

Blow me a kiss.

As an only child, I've always been
the center of my parents' attention,

but now their lives
revolve around me, like,

"Hey, I go to the concerts,
I go to this or that."

It scares me.

I have this scary emotional responsibility
that something'll happen,

not for me, but for their sake.

-Who wants coffee?
-Me.

I don't.
I can't because my pulse is up.

-Can we please look at the comments?
-They're great.

How do you feel now that the song's out?
It's doing great.

People really
haven't listened, right?

Right now, it's just talk.

Like, "Oh, Sebastián and Aitana,
what's up with them, why?"

The really surprising thing to me is when
they start being so judgy, you know?

There's no hate in this story,
there's reconciliation from love.

And a song comes from that love.

Right?

It's like,
"Are we gonna criticize love, too"?

But I'm already used to it. I'm someone…

who's very loved and very criticized.

I can't.

-There's honestly no middle ground for me.
-No, but that's how it goes.

No, but I get it, you know? Like…

if someone's gonna feel better

making me their punching bag…

if that person's gonna feel better,
I'll be their punching bag, I don't care.

-Yeah.
-They won't feel better.

Their life won't change at all.

It doesn't matter because
I'm already trying…

to go to therapy, watch my mental health,
you know what I do well and not so well,

and I make mistakes,
'cause fuck, of course I do.

But I know that my life is…

a fairy tale compared to the lives
of many people in the world, you know?

Sure.

So,

if they wanna come at me because
they feel like I don't deserve whatever.

Well, they have the right to think so.

Obviously, some things bother me.

'Cause I'm like, "What would you know?
if you don't know what's behind it."

But then later I'm like, "Sure."

-Exactly. Because they don't know.
-That's why they can talk.

-Then I can't judge what they're saying.
-Yeah.

Veronica Forqué died and they repeated
a bunch of stuff from her last interviews

or public appearances
about how she was feeling.

And a lot of people were laughing,
or talking about how she was feeling,

the statements she gave.

All sorts of those
kinds of things got leaked,

so when she died

and a little bit of what happened
behind the scenes was explained,

a lot of people were like,

"We should've been more careful
with what we said, how we felt,"

and such.

And I feel like everyone reacts
when it's too late.

And that's what makes me sad.

I like it. More international.

I've got something cool for the chorus.

Know what? Now it's a bit too high for me.

-Yeah, so…
-So, I think we could drop it a half

or whole step and the chorus
would come out prettier.

The problem is like the… the verse.

In music class, I started getting bullied.

Going to music class
was a nightmare for me.

I grew up, I went to high school.

And I think that's where
my personality began to change a lot.

Suddenly going from growing up from
the age of three with the same friends,

to having another group
of friends in a closed circle.

Something inside me changed, like…

I needed them to like me,
or else I'll be alone.

I always have a massive headache.
Go ahead.

-Okay. There we go.
-Oh, hang on, I'll show Sebás.

Look, so, check out this part.
Um, it could be cool.

I mean sure,
sounds cool when you go up.

Yeah, but I'm saying that
I'm going to lower it a half step,

because going…

It's a little annoying, right?

But that's not what I'm asking you.

I'm asking what you think of the chorus?

It sounds super cool now, right?

Sing the lyrics again.
Sorry. I'm thinking.

But what are you thinking?

Maybe instead of saying,
"Stay one day more,"

it's "stay a bit more."

Like, they're hanging out in bed,
you get me?

Okay. I'll see how I end it.

-Get it.
-Bye.

-Bye. Enjoy. Bye.
-Bye.

What could it be here?

Cause we just said,

"Wait and I'll be back, dear.
Stay and lay by my side here."

I need to eat and take something.

I mean, this headache is huge.

How'd it go in the studio? How'd you feel?

Good.

But…

I did the song by myself.

Literally, yes.

Even though Sebás wasn't there…
you were like a rocket.

Yes.

Truth is, I'm a little sad today.

I mean, I'm very happy,
I should be very happy.

Bernabéu is selling incredibly well
and everything's going great,

but I'm sad.

I don't know.

When I came back from Los Angeles,
I felt so bad…

that I cancelled a trip to Japan.

That's never happened to me before,
I felt so, so bad.

And I asked my team to clear
my schedule for at least

seven days,
and I hadn't done that before either.

Because my doctor told me to stop
or something would give.

SEVEN MONTHS BEFORE BERNABÉU

It's more than clear that I'm afraid
of being alone, you know?

From being surrounded
by so many people all the time.

If I'm home alone several days,
I'll call my parents and say like…

"Hey, would you come
keep me company?" You know?

So, I do think that I feel at home
with myself, in my own skin,

but…

I mean, to me, living,

living is like sharing
with the people you love.

It's really hard to share
only with myself, you know?

SUMMER TOUR REHEARSALS. MAY 2024

All right, let's go.

It sounded really bad the last time.
I'm honestly panicking here.

-I didn't even want to tell you.
-Hey.

-How are you?
-Talk later or what?

Two quick things for you.

Every time you have
something to tell me, I get scared.

-It's all good. All good.
-Okay.

-You okay?
-No, thanks for coming,

-I know you're swamped.
-Yes?

I'm worried about something important.

-Okay.
-Super, super, super important.

Keeping Mexico on your October schedule.

Oh no, absolutely not.

-Here we go.
-No, it's… Absolutely not, I'm sorry.

I know that I need to be writing music,
both for my health and peace of mind.

-I know.
-It's something I need.

-But… But…
-I need to be at home writing in October.

Then focused on Bernabéu.

The week in Mexico is the most
important thing for your career.

I mean, Japan, I don't care about that,
we can do it later.

And it's not… not a big deal.

It really won't change your life.

Mexico's a big deal,
and you've done very well there,

but not often enough.

In other words, you're this far away

from a bigger audience
in Mexico than Spain.

We're going to Mexico tomorrow,
so what do you say

to thinking about
an October return during this trip?

But I've been going non-stop,

I've never sat down to write an album
with the calm I needed to write an album.

It's always been hectic,
a week here, then back,

a week who knows where,
then we go to Japan, then Los Angeles,

then back, rehearsal,
I'm off to Mexico, and then…

And again,
I don't have time to settle down

to write in Miami, not even in Spain.

What I want is to meet new songwriters,

to be in the industry,
and I don't wanna disappear.

I'm aware of that,
and obviously you're the priority.

-To me, Mexico is…
-Yes, but it's not a week.

It's the most important thing.

I wouldn't care if you cancelled
a festival in Spain.

But I didn't cancel anything,
it's that I never said yes.

-No. I know. Well, nothing
-That's the thing.

No, I never said yes.

-Well, well…
-It was talked about, but I didn't even…

You didn't discuss it with me.

I don't want to stress you out,

but I do want you
to reconsider this decision to not go,

so you can assess
how important it is for your career.

I'm super sorry for saying it here,
but I don't wanna feel trapped,

because at no point
did I agree to this plan.

-You didn't?
-I mean, at no point was I shown

-where I would go.
-But…

-Which week.
-Aitana.

So…

-I told you about it. But, well…
-Well, it's not.

No. It was like, "We might go,"
and I said, "We'll see."

But at no point did I say yes
and later say,

"No, I'm cancelling 'cause
I'm not feeling well." I mean…

No, there wasn't any proposal
you agreed to, that's true.

I'm not saying
you're canceling anything.

After seven years,
there comes a point when…

I start to

realize that I have to stop
a bit at some point, you know?

A tad. A second to…

to stop and say, "All right,
this is happening to me,

I'm starting to grow,
I have more responsibilities,

they're sinking in
and creating a little anxiety."

"How do I manage it? How do I do it?"

These are for sports.

Well, good thing
she got rid of a bunch, huh?

Yeah, now I just want
to find somewhere to put all of the shoes.

I'm very anxious.

But then, I have a super strange way to…

kinda fight it.

The PPL. Studying to be a pilot.

"Aircraft operation, search and rescue,

aircraft accident investigation,
and noise reduction."

This is my diary.

It was Saturday, April thirteenth.

And I say…

I'm afraid. I promise
if I leave the hospital

and write in this notebook again,

it'll be to say that I'm all in.

I'll take on the world and enjoy
everything like it was my last day.

And if not. I'll fight.

That's what I wrote
before going in for an MRI.

So, I literally thought
they were gonna tell me

I had something really bad.

Imagine the state I was in.

But since, since I was a kid,
I've had cavity problems.

How about
these fillings here, good?

-Very.
-The ones we did are good, no problems?

Why'd you
take so long to come in, Aitana?

I know. 'Cause I'm afraid,
I'm super scared of…

doctors and dentists.

The first time I came
to get my molar taken out,

I hadn't been to the dentist
in a long time honestly, it's bad.

I almost cried because I got X-rayed

and I was afraid it would show
there was something wrong.

Oh, I love watching this.

-Only teeth or everything?
-No, I like to see everything.

Like, when something's wrong,
how they remove it, you know?

"I never realized
that since I was very little

I've had an illness
that I never shared with anyone,

which is I'm basically a hypochondriac."

Lucía, can you put
the top ones on screen for me?

Just to remember
what the cavities were like.

Yes.

Can you zoom in a little more? Thanks.

"It seems really silly,
but for as long as I can remember,

I always thought that
something was wrong with my body."

"I still do, in fact."

I'll take it with me.

I'll talk funny now, 'cause this is numb.

But I feel good, I'm fine, I feel like…

my only fear all the time is

I don't want to get sick
until the tour is over.

It's like, "Please, please,
I don't want to get sick

until the tour is over."

-How many shows left?
-Eight, right? I'll look.

I feel like there's eight left.

The last week, there's like five in a row.

-Literally.
-One, two, three four, five.

Yeah, literally.

From the 27h to August third,
that last week, five.

I've never-- I honestly
don't know how I'm gonna do that,

I don't know why I said yes to that.

You're gonna freak out, Dani,
look who I'm with for real.

-It's her for real.
-Or not. Who knows?

Kisses, Dani, ciao.

The way I am, all the time,
like when I'm really afraid of something…

I dive in. Know what I mean?

I'm afraid to jump, afraid of heights.

I jump.

I always get nervous.
I check the forecast.

Talk to my pilot friends.

They're sending me
the amount of turbulence we'll have.

The maps.

MEXICO CITY

By the way, I didn't tell you,
I signed up to be a pilot.

Nah, I'm a completely
a crazy person, I know.

Yeah, I signed up.

Awesome.

I gotta tell you, every time
I start something,

something happens to me.

I'm like, "I wanna enjoy it."

And… and…. and the thing is,
I always have something to worry about.

And now I'm not starting the tour,
but yeah, I'm starting with festivals.

I don't know.

Then my molar. But fine, I don't…

I know they'll have to operate
on me anyway. For sure.

Good morning.

PROMO DAY IN MEXICO CITY. MAY 2024

Well, I'm a Cancer.
Cancer rising.

DAY BEFORE THE TECATE PAL NORTE FESTIVAL

You're noticing it, right?

I've been thinking a lot about
what'd happen if I travelled alone,

so I don't know, I'm thinking
about the safest places.

There's trips that I don't know
why you'd consider going on,

with as big as the world is. With as big--

No, the thing is, my solar return
has me going to Dubai,

I'm already asking Luci
if there's somewhere else we could go.

-Because Dubai, really, oh my God…
-But I see it like, like--

It's fine.

I have a problem,
I think this is what's happening.

-One problem? You have lots of problems.
-Lots of them, a ton.

Let's be honest, okay?

This year's been so-so.

Very good, very good in a lot of ways,
but also fucked up in a lot of other ways.

And it all happened since I did
the solar return for the first time

last year in Iceland, that's how it is.

You don't
have to do anything, Aitana.

I think I told my astrologer I was born
at six in the morning on June 27th, 1999.

-And you messed up.
-Yeah.

I don't know if I was born at
six in the morning

'cause mom said
it was between five and six.

-Fine, but it's the same day.
-No.

I've been told that between five and six

the place to do
the solar return is very different.

So I don't know if I'm doing it right
or all fucked up, that's the problem.

Mom, this is very urgent,
I'm telling you for real.

What happened, sweetie?

I need you to tell me
exactly what time I was born,

it can't be between five and six anymore.

-Birth certificate.
-Call… call the hospital.

We have to try to find out.

Mom, not at 5:30,
you told me it's six last time,

you're messing with my head.

You know there's a huge change
between 5:30 and six?

Yes, Aitana, you were coming out,

but it doesn't take one minute,
it takes awhile,

between 5:30 and six, I already told you.

5:45 then. 5:45.

That's not how giving birth works.

You weren't born in one minute.

Mom, because it has a lot to do with
where I do the solar return,

and I've been thinking a bunch
about the solar return I did last year

and how fucking shitty this year has been.

So I think
the solar return was very wrong.

Starting in July, I began to feel…

almost depressed.

No, not depressed.

It wasn't diagnosed, but I did start
going to a psychologist almost every day

because I was crying
every day and I didn't know why.

I wasn't getting along with my friends,
I was uncomfortable with my surroundings.

That kind of stuff hadn't
happened to me before.

And what followed those months
hadn't happened, either, so like…

On one hand, you're very advanced,
and on the other, you're behind.

How do I explain?

On one hand, you have
abnormal pressure for a 24-year-old.

But on the other hand,
you have these vital experiences

that someone who's 24 or 25--

Well, college, you know?

You'd spend three years
in college with classmates.

Seeing this and that,
making friends and losing friends,

and making new friends.

And so you have a mix,

because on one hand
you're having very adult experiences\,

but there are others
that are fitting for this stage in life.

And you had to go on your first tours.

Fill arenas, sell records.

-Bravo!
-Gorgeous!

Yeah. I've always
kind of done what I wanted.

But it's true that, well…

It's not really normal, I guess.

-With Aitana.
-Let's go.

Where's this astrologer from?

I met her through Sebas,

because Sebás has been doing
the solar return for a long time.

So, she doesn't tell you anything,
only where to spend your return.

I don't talk to her every day like,
"What's going to happen this month?"

No, I don't want to be addicted to that.

She simply tells you where to go.

She influences you a lot, right?

She only tells you
where to spend your birthday.

That's it. Nothing more.

And she tells you how your year will go

based on what
she reads in your natal chart.

So, um…

what's happening is that
I basically told her wrong.

What's going on?

She told me, Luci told me,

"There's a guru who can tell you
the exact time you were born

with just a few questions,

I need all your info, like your full name,

exactly where you were born,
the hospital, and so on."

I didn't tell Luci.

I told her the time's wrong,

but I didn't say it was between
5:30 and six like my parents told me,

nobody knew that.

Okay.

Then the guru, after being…

It cost me 100 euros or 150.
The guru spends all day asking me--

But you can't calculate
how much that info's worth.

Asking me things.

Yesterday, I mean, today,
I get up and it says,

"You were born at 5:49 and 45 seconds."

And 45 seconds!

It's impossible to get more exact.

Well, then my astrologer called me,

worried,

telling me, "Aitana,
you're not Cancer Cancer Sagittarius,

you're Cancer Gemini Sagittarius."

The solar return is a must,

you can't say no,
you have to find a way to do it.

I just finished it this minute,
and it's in Indonesia, in Jakarta.

Why there?
Because with the corrected time…

you're pulling a transit
that has to do with your health, okay?

To improve this situation…

we have to go to Jakarta, because if not

it'll be a terrible year for your health.

In fact, you'll be hospitalized.

-Lemme tell you.
-Damn.

When she says that…

Besides, she's not just anyone,
she knows me already,

I always told her, "Don't tell me
I'm gonna die, don't give me bad news."

No, no, 'cause I'm really hypochondriac.

-Yeah, sure.
-And she always says, "Aitana…"

Calm down, everything's fine,
you're great, no health problems,

some allergies, some things."

-So, this--
-So, everything.

This is the big picture.

There's no water
in the car, right?

Let's see how I sing today, 'cause
my tonsils feel great. Wanna see 'em?

-Don't worry, they've been worse.
-Lemme see.

-No, no, that's insane.
-Damn.

With the 27 and everything, thank you so--

Oh, look, it's incredible.

Aitana came from Spain

to see us in the final against Rayadas.

So you all can't miss it.

-So you all can't miss it. I mean…
-You can't miss it, huh!

I mean, they even made me a shirt, look.

-Your name's Elena?
-Yes.

We're very happy
because this booth just got filled with

powerful feminine energy.

A diva, a fierce girl-boss is here.
Aitana is here from Spain!

I've never seen
so many cameras in the Los 40 booth.

How do we explain the Aitana phenomenon?

Aitana, how do you explain Aitana?

Uh, I wouldn't know how to explain it.

It's often hard for me
to understand it myself, imagine.

Playing at home makes me nervous,

imagine playing away from home,
I get very nervous.

From the Operación Triunfo Academy
to Bernabéu twice.

It's honestly pretty crazy.

There's more or less
seven months until it happens.

We just released the tickets
for the second Bernabéu show,

they're going.

It's truly, incredible,
the pre-sale's almost sold out.

Such a pleasure chatting with you again,
long time no see.

Yeah, it's been a few m… months.

I can't talk anymore, months.

I love you
with all my heart, lots of luck.

That's it. Thanks.

Yeah, let's put
the red ones on today.

Making an Insta-story with so many people
watching me is a little embarrassing.

There's an exclusive
fan question inside the community,

I'll leave you the link here.

Hang on,
I'm gonna post a photo I have to post,

or I won't get it done.

With social media, I'm like…

stuff always happens to me.

For whatever reason
they might say,

"Sing us a little something."

I don't know.
I don't know if that'll happen but…

Since she… Yesterday she asked
if you could sing something on the show.

I think it's better if I don't.

It's that… I mean, we….

We told her no, but I want
to warn you just in case she says--

Just tell her that…

that I'm hoarse from the show
so she doesn't put me on the spot.

She's beyond just being a leader in media.

She's more like a role model for success.

-You could be my daughter.
-No, well…

Fair skin. Black hair.

That's nice, but come on,
more like sisters than your daughter.

-Are you ready?
-Let's see, it's, it's scary.

A few years ago, a boy came on this show.

-Yes.
-And that boy's name is Sebastián Yatra.

I came to sing with Morat,
and he was here,

so we all had dinner together.

I really got along with Sebás
and we became very close friends.

-So, really…
-Okay, but nothing like?

So…

-No.
-Nothing?

-Not at that time.
-Nothing?

We were… We've always been close friends,

and for the rest,
well, think what you want.

-Hang on.
-I'm gonna hide under the table.

Anyway, you and I,
look, we're blowing up on Instagram.

What are they saying on
Instagram, are they saying nice things?

Sing. Sing.

Because Aitana is going to do
an amazing a cappella

since she just told me her voice
is in perfect shape right now.

-Oh my God, and a cappella.
-Let's see.

-Where's-- Who's got Aitana's phone?
-What?

When you sing in a second, call Sebastián.

-No, no, no, no.
-Yeah.

-Call Sebastián, see if he answers.
-No way.

Call Sebastian, see if he answers.

Besides, I swear I can't
because he's working, I promise.

-Oh, he's working? Okay.
-Yeah, yeah. He's working.

Aitana, the microphone is yours.

Everything…
How'd you feel? Everything okay?

Yes, so.

-Ugh.
-I know. I mean, she's a character.

Yeah, I didn't know
how to get out of that, it was difficult.

Besides, I don't want to be
Sebastián Yatra's girlfriend.

-Right.
-And.

And not because it's bad,

'cause it's lovely
being Sebastián Yatra's girlfriend, but…

but I have to try to build
my career apart from that.

Everyone focuses too much on that.

And that scares me a little.

Mexico's a place to be like…

to rest, to disconnect,

I don't know, that's how it is for me.

I also remember when…

I came with you and Olga to the trajineras
for the first time, just us three.

Someone wanted to…

A girl came over to our trajinera,

but this was the first time,
when I was 18, remember?

Yeah, what she did, uh-huh.

She saw me in a trajinera
and said, "Aitiana, I love you!"

The first time I came with her,

I heard in the airport,
"Aitiana! Aitiana!"

And I'm like, "Who's that?"

It's true, outside Spain,
they call me, "Aitiana."

-Aitiana?
-Yes

I crossed the pond again in 2022

after three years of not taking
a transatlantic flight to come to Mexico.

I was really afraid to fly.

And since I was going through
kind of a sad time

-with a bunch of stuff I didn't know.
-Aitana!

I didn't know.

-They're yelling at you, Aitana.
-Say goodbye.

I reconsidered a lot of things,
we went to see the pyramids.

I grabbed Jesús,
Olga, and my dad by the arm.

My dad didn't know
what to do with himself.

I started telling him
what I thought about life.

-I started saying really deep things.
-It was 1,000 degrees.

-Yeah, what I thought of life, how I felt.
-A thousand degrees.

I was 23, and I had…

a boyfriend for four years,
from such a young age,

and then this… this life,
this career, everything around it.

And then I flipped a switch and said,
"I'm gonna change, I need to change,

I need to be happy."

That's why I'm really fond of Mexico.

And, well, the pyramids.

If I go to the pyramids,
I'll cry, I'm telling you.

I mean, the pyramids,
I'll cry, because truly it was…

There was a moment when Jesús said,

"That's enough!
I can't take it anymore with this heat."

When she let go,
when she let go of my arm,

I was like a tennis player,
one arm thinner than the other,

'cause she was like this the whole time.

-Yeah, yeah. Because I…
-I swear.

Because it's how I feel.
Because it's that…

I noticed you were… you were dragging me,
but I couldn't take it anymore.

Yeah, the truth is every time I come here,
I think about my life a little.

Thinking if it's really worth it.
Being sad, you know?

I don't know,
knowing if I was living well or not,

I had no fucking idea
what it was like to be okay or not.

Why do you have this, uh,
"I want to come back? Or not?"

Oh, Mexico? If I want to come back or not?

In October.

I always want to come back to Mexico,

the problem is this year,
coming back in October.

What happened is I had a mental breakdown,

I mean like…

I've been sick, you don't know that.

But I did some MRIs, I was like…

they didn't know what was wrong.

I had to cancel my trip to Japan.

My hands were shaking, they'd get numb.

I mean, I was… that was a month ago.

And then…

Like, suddenly, I said…

"Okay, I need to stop,"
because I haven't stopped in seven years.

And I didn't have time to reflect
on what was happening to me, either.

I mean, I can't go on tour with…

in Mexico, even for
three dates in October,

when I have Bernabéu in two months

and my team has to be ready
with 30 dancers and… you know?

Not my team, me too.

One of the most important things there is

is that artists have to understand that
this is a business and what it's like.

Because if not, the decisions you make,

you're never sure
if they're for your own good.

I remember a dinner,
three or four years ago,

where we spent
the first part of the dinner

talking about the importance
of mental health for artists.

Now that we're on this topic
of whether Mexico yes, or Mexico no,

of how I felt or didn't feel about Japan,
and that kind of thing.

The Mexico thing,
that was a communication problem.

Because my team, Narcis, everyone,

no one ever told me anything
about Mexico or a tour of Mexico.

Because at no point
will I cancel something on you

that I haven't approved.

If you come sit me down and tell me,
"Look how important Mexico is,

it's a week because you've
already done two things,

you did it in March, you did it in May,

so it'd be good to go now in October
so we can work on the Mexican market."

I know how important
the Mexican market is.

It's been the most important thing for me
since the start of my career.

For me, there's one thing

I learned about Aitana.

And it's, "When Aitana says, no, it's no."

But that's not true.

-Yes, yes.
-Here's where I have to tell you no.

No, because I'm one of the artists
who most recoils from their mistakes.

I'm one of the ones
who when they say, "No, no, no, no."

But when you sit down
and say, "Aitana, listen to me,"

I'm one of the ones who says,
"You're right, I'll do it."

I mean, I'm not "No"
and going straight to saying no.

I'm not like that,
and it honestly hurts a little

that you'd say so,
because, sincerely, I'm not like that.

I've changed my mind many times
because of what you've told me.

First, I wanted to apologize
for not calling you directly

and saying,
"Sorry for cancelling the trip to Japan."

But the truth is,
I was about to go to the hospital.

I was really sick.

There was a point where I was like,
"I don't know what's happening to me."

Meaning healthwise,
"I don't know what's going on."

I need this. That is,
I need like the month of October to write.

I haven't had real writing time in months.

I had, "You're in Los Angeles for a week
and you have to make some hits."

I have two Bernabéu shows
in December on top of all that.

So if I spend October
or two weeks in October touring Mexico,

I don't have my team
preparing for Bernabéu,

for me to come back
in November and have to--

-So we are on the same page.
-Completely.

I'm here to talk about
what's important for your life.

I'm not talking about
everything because you have…

800 Universal employees
whose job is to take care of you.

Taking care of you in the sense
of what you need to keep growing.

2024, you're the boss here and you said,

"No tours. I need to work on music."

We have to get ready,
because the Bernabéu,

the Bernabéu is huge.

By not stopping

and by not resting…

you bring on migraines.

They're also due to enormous tension.

I think three years ago,
we had one of these conversations, I said…

"You have to start experimenting
because if you want to be number one,

you can't keep working
with the same producers."

Why?

Because you're in a comfort zone,

but the worst thing
isn't being in a comfort zone,

it's sounding…

repetitive.

So we have to look around, right?

There's one thing for me.

One of the things I say is fundamental,
and that's your work.

Anything else is…

a result of that.

Songs are your work.
And that was 2024 to me.

And I see we're in May,

and it's not.

We've done something wrong.

Being number one
means you have to focus on the work.

Ahead of everything else.

So you have that capability,
you have the will to do it,

but we have to develop it.

THE DAY OF THE TECATE PAL NORTE FESTIVAL

-How are y'all?
-Very good.

I'm super anxious,
I don't know if I'll wear the black look.

-I think I'll wear the red one.
-You're anxious?

-I'm anxious, I mean, I'm…
-Damn, sweet sunglasses.

Thanks.

I have to give it
absolutely everything.

And I don't let myself not be
the best version of myself on stage

I don't allow it.

And I try to
enjoy being somewhere

and not be thinking
all the time about what's coming next.

And just be present.

But I don't know how.

That's why I always want

to be my best self,
because I know I'm not every day.

How'd you put this on me?

Hey, Nuria? Weren't they gonna
change the visuals for "Dos Extraños?"

-I don't know.
-These aren't the ones.

How are you?

-Yes.
-I'm so glad you could come.

There's a problem with the mic?

Nicki!

All right! Perfect!

SINGER

Is it working now?

Tell me later what color
you're going with so I can decide.

I think it'll be the red one.

-All right.
-Black or red.

-Red.
-I think red, yes.

Aitana. We're running out of time.

-What? But I need to rehearse more songs.
-Okay.

I need…

I need 15 more minutes,
I didn't even have 15 minutes.

No. I need it.

-Please.
-Let's pick the three songs that--

I don't know.

Hmm.

We'll try, "Mi Amor."

-"Veinticuatro Rosas."
-Okay.

Okay.

-Go.
-When you're on the step…

get on the middle one Aitana,
so you don't…

Okay.

Great. That was
the worst sound check of my life.

I've always
been very hard on myself,

and I worry that
it'll all go wrong because of me.

That's super painful.

So yeah, that's what gives me anxiety.

Most people don't know
everything behind the scenes.

So I do have a responsibility to them.

But I'm just asking you
to show a little more respect.

Last time you did the same thing.

I always stop when I can,

the only thing I ask is for you
all to have a little respect,

because it's not okay to say that.

I've been quiet about
a whole bunch of things all this time.

-Thanks.
-I'm gonna fall!

Don't record me at home,

because lots of people started
coming at three in the morning,

men at four in the morning, and I'm alone.

I've always put on a happy face
and that's it, you know?

People stopped me in the street
about the dance,

telling me they loved it,

but to please not do that dance
in front of their kids.

In my face, huh?

It was in the papers,
on all the TVs, and everywhere.

"Uh, Aitana's dance,
it's just so controversial."

Like this idealization that they have to…

that society will put on you.

I was like the perfect girl,
right? Somehow.

I was like, "You all want me to change it?
Well, look at this."

"I'll leave it as is.
Now I'll make it longer."

I think there
are several Aitana's.

2021's Aitana was a bystander.

No more in 2024