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Okay, the final lesson in the shooting and
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setup module, get fit, get closer.
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You may have already noticed how often I
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mention the phrases such as, work the scene,
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maximise every opportunity from every moment, keep moving,
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keep shooting, and that's really because I see
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every wedding as an opportunity.
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It's an opportunity to capture the best images
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I possibly can for my couple, the unexpected
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images that may feature in my portfolio or
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help raise my profile.
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If I'm not completely focused and switched on
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for every minute of a wedding day, I
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risk missing those opportunities.
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It is also worth noting that you can
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be the most creatively minded photographer out there,
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but without a strong work ethic, it all
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goes to waste when you're at a wedding.
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And that's why I decided five years ago
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when I delivered my very first workshop to
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make sure that I illustrated the importance and
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benefit of fitness and generally just taking care
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of yourself and how that can directly influence
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the images you create.
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Now, I know you didn't sign up to
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this course to be preached to.
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I'm not going to sit here and say,
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get your ass in gear, start looking after
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yourself.
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If you don't understand the benefits of fitness
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and diet on your mental health and general
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wellbeing, where have you been for the last
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15 years?
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All I can do here and all I
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plan to do is tell you about my
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experience and how making a few adjustments to
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my lifestyle positively impacted my work as a
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photographer and in turn, the success of my
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business.
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So as of right now in 2021, I'm
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37 years old.
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I've never had serious health issues, touch wood.
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I've been fortunate to always be very slim.
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I have twiglets for arms, but for the
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majority of my twenties, I was seriously unfit.
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I never maintained any fitness level.
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I may have a two or three week
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spell when I'd go out running, but all
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it would take was a big night out
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or a bout of cold.
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And that would soon stop for a few
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months.
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Then the cycle of feeling like I need
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to get in shape would start over.
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When I was 29, we had our daughter
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Betsy and at 32, we had Buddy, our
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son.
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Now, sometimes having children spurs people on to
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take greater care of themselves.
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But for me, the trigger was a little
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different.
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I was focused on being busy, growing my
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business and shooting as much as I could.
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I was doing 50 plus weddings a year,
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but in the summer of 2015, I was
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close to burnout.
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I had a weekend where I had the
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dreaded triple header, a wedding on a Friday,
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Saturday and a Sunday.
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And it was at the Sunday wedding, I
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realised something needed to change.
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It was the sit down dinner and I
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was told by the staff that I could
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sit in this particular room and a dinner
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would be brought to me.
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Winner, right?
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I sat down and I fell asleep.
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I woke up with a plate of food
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in front of me.
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A member of staff had just left me
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sleeping and placed the food on the table.
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Now, nothing bad happened.
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I didn't miss anything.
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The bride and groom never knew, but it
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was a stark realisation that I needed to
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make some changes.
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I was completely knackered.
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I'd regularly wake up after a wedding and
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feel like I'd been hit by a car.
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My lower back was always sore and if
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you've ever experienced back pain, you'll know how
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debilitating it can be.
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So at the start of 2016, I made
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a conscious decision to make fitness part of
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my job.
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Like I do emails and social media, I
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was going to make a commitment to make
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it part of my day.
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In the January, I booked a block of
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10 sessions with this guy.
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This is Craig, former British military and protector
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of the seas.
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He worked on cargo ships to police them
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from pirates.
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Anyway, he just so happened to be starting
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his PT business in the gym below my
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office.
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And it is without doubt the best investment
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I've ever made in myself.
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Five years later and I still see Craig
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every Monday.
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You often hear photographers talk about new camera
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releases and the marginal gains in technology that
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buying the latest camera will get them.
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We've already addressed that on this course, right?
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But how many talk about the marginal gains
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you get from fitness, the gains that allow
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you to shoot at a higher intensity for
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longer periods of time?
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Very few, but it does.
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It has a huge impact.
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Weddings are physically demanding.
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So I see Craig once a week without
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fail.
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He hammers me.
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But unlike pre 2016, I have someone to
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hold me to account.
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I can't take three months off because I
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see him once a week and I attribute
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the success of my business to a few
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key factors, all of which are addressed on
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this course.
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But this is absolutely one of them.
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My recovery time is better.
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I can maintain a high intensity of shooting
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for 12 hours plus, not to mention just
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feeling better.
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The influence it has on my kids.
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But here's the impact that I hope you
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can start to recognize.
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This is Josh and Elsa, a wedding I
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shot in Puglia, Italy at the end of
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the wedding season in 2018.
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So usually this is a time we're all
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completely burnt out, right?
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It's been a long summer.
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We all just want to stop and take
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a break.
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The editing pile is huge and it's another
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wedding you've got to deal with.
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Creativity levels are rock bottom.
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You are done.
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I've been there.
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I've done that.
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Well, that isn't the case for me anymore.
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In fact, now it's quite the opposite.
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I don't feel that slump.
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This was a 9am start in Italy, a
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crazy, crazy day.
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And as you can see, absolutely hammered it
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down.
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It was frantic.
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There were times it was so wet I
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couldn't even see what I was shooting through
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the viewfinder.
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By dinner at 5pm, I'd taken about 8
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-9,000 frames.
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And remember that time I fell asleep during
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dinner?
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Not this time.
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I used to take a full hour to
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two hours break.
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Now I eat my food and I'm straight
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back to it.
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Because this can happen.
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Josh hugging his parents during dinner service.
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This isn't an image that will win me
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an award, but it's a powerful frame and
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makes Josh and his parents feel something.
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It makes me feel something.
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And from the same position I took that
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frame, over my right shoulder I took this.
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This was that guest at a wedding who
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would not for the life of me let
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me get his picture.
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Every time the camera was in his direction,
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he'd turn away.
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But with a crafty live view shot from
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behind someone's shoulder, I have him with his
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daughter.
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Two very small moments, but to the people
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in them, these are huge and invaluable frames.
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If I was resting in another room and
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scrolling Facebook on my phone, would I have
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these images?
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No.
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Now it's gone midnight, the dance floor is
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emptying and there's a frame of Josh with
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his brother.
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I don't have a frame of these guys
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like this at any other point during the
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day.
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Relaxed, smiling, sharing a moment.
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Just really simple, but very powerful.
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Not every shot has to be a crazy
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composition or technically groundbreaking.
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Last frame of the night, 1.45 in
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the morning, 12,000 frames, almost 17 hours
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of shooting.
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Four years before, that would have been me
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six feet under.
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But instead, I was at the post-wedding
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barbecue 10 hours later, bright as a button,
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buzzing about the previous day's frames.
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For the second part of this video, I
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want to start off with a quote a
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good friend of mine, a super talented photographer
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called Chantal Gribbon, shared a while back.
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And it said, you've got to be brave
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before you can be good.
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It's a quote that really resonates with me.
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I've always been one of those people who
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isn't afraid of failure, even when I feel
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out of my depth, which is often.
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I trust in the process and I'm always
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prepared to give anything a shot.
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Now, this story does come with a slight
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warning as it centers around baby loss, a
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subject that I can absolutely appreciate, can be
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very sensitive and difficult for some.
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It certainly is for me to discuss.
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I should note that there is nothing graphic,
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but there's a very good reason I want
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to talk about it and a hugely important
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lesson I want to share.
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And it starts with the amazing P and
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Dean or Nicola and Dean.
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She's called P because she's small, but don't
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let that fool you.
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This girl is beyond strong and an inspiration.
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She's actually the person who actively encouraged me
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to talk about this experience.
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I've known these guys for the best part
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of a decade and actually used them for
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a shoot in 2014 to test out some
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new lenses, but it's now October, 2015.
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Buddy had just been born.
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He was a month old and P messaged
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me to tell me they'd just had a
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baby boy called Winter, but that tragically Winter
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suffered a cardiac arrest shortly after birth and
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didn't survive.
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But the reason for her message was to
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ask me if I could come to the
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funeral in a few days time and take
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some pictures for them.
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Now, I remember that message coming in late
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at night and I said to Gemma, my
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wife, there's no way I can do that.
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I get emotional watching friends.
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There's no chance I can hold it together
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at a newborn's funeral, let alone take images.
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I didn't respond.
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I slept on it and thought I'll figure
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out my response in the morning, but I
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woke up the following day and just said
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to myself, okay, you know what?
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If this is what they want and it
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helps them, then I'll get over it and
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I'll step up.
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Now, just to note, I never charged for
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this.
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P amazingly, quite incredibly asked me how much
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it would be.
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And I just said, there's no way I'm
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charging anything you wanted to pay.
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You can donate to your charity, but please
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let people know I'm going to be there,
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that you've asked me to be there and
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that I'm not charging.
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So I did.
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I turned up at Winter's funeral without question,
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the most difficult day I've ever had in
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any kind of professional capacity.
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As soon as I parked up and the
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car started to arrive, there was a rainbow
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over the hills and the opening 10 to
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15 minutes were beyond difficult.
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If you think taking images as a wedding
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can be intimidating, try doing it whilst people
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are mourning.
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I naturally kept my distance.
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I crouched in front of the pews almost
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out of sight, a position where I could
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observe and quietly document the people standing up
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to talk.
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But halfway through I found myself thinking I
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shouldn't be hiding here.
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If I'm doing this properly and I'm going
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to get the images I know I can
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get for these guys, I need to move.
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So I waited for a break in the
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service, took an inhale, got up and walked
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across the room in front of a packed
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room and went and stood next to Dean's
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mum and to the side of Winter's coffin.
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And I don't know if you can relate
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to this, but when I would shoot weddings
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there was always this invisible wall of fear
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that I'd feel.
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A sense of anxiety, I'd feel it in
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my chest, it would always stop me getting
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really close to people.
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I'd feel like I was invading someone's space.
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So instead, I'd often hang back.
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But in the moment I walked across that
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room, I didn't realise it at the time,
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but that wall of fear disappeared instantly.
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Because it will always be this sequence of
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images that will stay with me.
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I was crouched next to Dean's mum, I
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was sobbing, I'm not ashamed to admit it.
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I genuinely couldn't see what I was shooting.
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Dean's mum was handing me tissues and checking
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if I was okay.
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But do you know what?
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Going to a wedding after that became a
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breeze.
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That fear did not exist.
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I was a totally different person because I
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realised that that fear I held before, it
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was all internal.
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It wasn't a problem to anyone else.
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No one cares what you're doing so long
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as you do it with a smile and
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have some respect.
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And my work changed overnight.
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It wasn't in a bad place before that,
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but the small realisation had a profound impact
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on the way I worked a scene.
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No longer would I hang around the edges
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of a crowd.
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I suddenly wanted to be in the mix.
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And I started to get close.
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I wasn't fearful of stepping in to intimate
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moments.
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I constantly looked for connections and interactions.
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The 135mm stopped being a lens that I
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used to shoot from the back of the
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room and instead I used it to get
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in people's faces.
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And something like this from 2019 on a
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35mm.
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I'm close enough to take that beer from
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him.
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And it's another frame that won't win any
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award, but this became my bread and butter.
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So to wrap this up, it's okay to
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shoot the details, but never ever lose sight
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of what's really important.
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Shoot outside of your comfort zone.
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Push through that fear.
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Combine it all with taking care of yourself.
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Feeling fitter and stronger and your work will
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only go in one direction.
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Finally, before we go, here's P and Dean
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now with their beautiful little family.
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