All language subtitles for Everwood.S03E10.WEBRip.x264-ION10

(male narrator)
Previously on "Everwood.."

The hat?

Oh, it's my beret from my dad.

Is it like
a Hong Kong thing?

Uh, he gave it to me
a long time ago, why?

Look, maybe whatever
reason we were friends

before in the first place,
isn't there anymore.

It's okay, you know.
Things happen.

I can't be around you
right now, Ephram.

See you later.

- What's happening here?
- I don't know.

What do you think
is happening?

I don't know.

I wanted to
see you to see..

...if I was going crazy,
or if there was something here.

We can't.

[instrumental music]

I'm telling you, the whole
thing is a big, fat lie.

I'm done. You?

Well, Brenda
and I sort of said

that we'd get each
other two presents.

[chuckling]

- But one's okay.
- Let's go, come on.

So, what do you think?
Do I need a lawyer?

'Cause you don't like your
part in the holiday pageant?

I don't see anybody
takin' the case.

But it's not a holiday pageant.
It's all about Christmas.

You know it, I know it.

- Everybody knows it.
- I don't know it.

I'm playing an angel.

There are no angels
in the Hanukkah story.

There are no angels
in the Kwanza story.

Oh, do you even know
what the Kwanza story is?

Well..no..

But I bet
it doesn't have angels.

What do you care?
You're half-Christian, anyway.

But the other half
of me isn't.

What about that half?
What about mom's half?

Okay, you're right.
So, stage a revolution.

Dump the halo, and tell 'em
you want to play Elijah.

That way, you don't
have to show up. He-he.

If you're gonna make jokes
that go over my head

can you at least
explain them to me?

- Okay, see, Elijah was--
- I don't care. I'm too mad.

[bell chimes]

- Whoa.
- What? What is it?

'"Joe lies?"
Isn't that Madison's band?'

- Yeah.
- Oh, can I come?

Come with who?

With you.

You're gonna
go, aren't you?

Get in the car, Elijah.

[instrumental music]

[engine starts]

[theme music]

[music continues]

[door opens]

Morning.

Oh, good tidings
to you, Dr. Brown.

What do you think
of our...decked halls?

Oh, fine. Christmas-y.

(Harold)
'What?'

No grousing that
I didn't consult you

before commencing with
the decorative scheme?

No quick-witted barbs
about my audacious integration

of traditional
Victorian ornamentation

with the more plebeian
drug-store varieties?

It's 8 o'clock
in the morning, Harold.

You're gonna have to try
and use less adjectives.

I see your mood
has not improved.

You remain quite
the dour little elf.

Amanda Hayes called.

My mood is fine.

And don't call me an elf.

It pisses me off.

[door bangs]

[sighs]

You naturally want to double
up on the vacuuming duty.

Nothing more irksome than

fallen tinsel strewn about.

I suspect three times
a day should suffice.

- I love the holidays.
- Don't you just?

Go grab that hoover.

Okay, you're right.
I am in a bad mood.

Really?

Forgive my un-dropped jaw.

I'm sorry, but I'm-I'm just,
look, I'm just

completely overwhelmed,
I-I-I..

I feel like I've been
shopping since arbor day

and-and I'm not even
halfway done yet.

Single father
at Christmas time.

[inhales]
You do have my sympathy.

Good, because I'm
hoping to shamelessly

exploit that sympathy.

I, uh, I could really

use some help
with my patient load.

Perhaps, it is, after all,
the season of charity.

Thanks.

Oh, yeah, what is this?

'You're giving me
John Hayes back again?'

Oh, all you have to do
is go to the house

and oversee his
day-to-day progress.

I think you'll be fascinated
by some of the work

we've been doing.
It's very cutting-edge.

And when I think cutting edge,
I think Harold Abbott.

From what I understand,
you've been a human CD changer.

Hardly Nobel-winning.

Alright, well, scratch
the cutting edge.

But it's a very simple routine
once you get it down.

It's just a little
bit time-consuming.

Time-consuming
is not a bonus.

I do have other
patients to attend to.

I know, that's why I called
some other doctors first about

the case, and no one
would do it pro bono.

Which I find kind
of ironic since

this is the season of giving,
but you..

...with the tinsel
and the Christmas balls

I mean, you really
have the spirit.

Oh, don't go
that route, sir.

It wears very poorly on you.

Look, you were his
doctor once, Harold.

You took care of him.
He needs you now.

And Amanda needs someone
to help her through this.

Amanda?

Would you help me out on this?

I could really use it.

Consider it my gift to you.

[inhales]
Thank you.

You do realize this means
you'll get no sweater.

(Amy)
I don't know, it just
doesn't seem big enough

especially after everything
he did in the cabin.

Can't believe
there are candles

Are they scented?

Gardenia, which
is my favorite smell.

Maybe they could engrave
it, do you think that

they could fit, "I love you,
Ephram" on the back?

Absolutely. Engrave it.
Then, can we go?

No, the watch is too boring.

I want my first Christmas
present for Ephram

to be original, but if I try
too hard to make it original

I'll end up getting him
something like a fondue set.

Which would
be weird, right?

It depends, is Ephram
a fan of cheese?

- I believe he's in favor of it.
- Well, then..

'But I like the watch.'

Maybe I should
just get him both.

[exhales]
I'm developing hives.

Seriously,
I-I feel all scratchy.

Am I red?
'Cause I feel red.

Hannah, Hannah,
you just need to see

Christmas shopping
as a survival game.

You just keep moving,
bob & weave, avoid strollers

and...pack water.

- Here.
- Thank you.

Alright, uh, we can leave
in ten minutes

if you have some
stroke of genius

about what to get
my dad, and keep in mind

I forgot his birthday
last year

so, this has to rock.

So, I guess golf
balls are out.

Okay, well,
what does he like?

I don't know.

Um...bad music,
argyle, Mister Rogers.

I really feel like
there should be some

perfect hybrid
of those things.

I know, right.

Hmm.

Well, what are you getting
your dad? Maybe I can copy.

I haven't, um..
I don't know.

But they're coming out, right?

'Cause I want to meet them.

Yeah, except, uh, I don't..

I don't think they're
gonna make it, actually.

You're kidding.

- In fact, not kidding.
- So, what?

Are you going to Hong Kong?
'Cause that'd be awesome.

Christmas just isn't, you know,
really big deal in my family.

It's pretty much just,
uh, food and church.

[chuckles]

- Oh, I'm sorry.
- No, it's fine.

I-I really don't care.

So, uh, can we get your
dad something and go?

Yeah.

[instrumental music]

Two pies for the
county clerk's office.

- What's up?
- You, uh,you wanna sit down?

It's pretty backed up,
it might be a while.

Look at you!

Yeah.

- And all legit?
- Got a new job.

[clears throat]

I got my own T1 line.

Hey, uh, I got one
of these too, on my car.

Yeah, I know.

Weird, right?

Not for me.
So, you gonna go?

No. No, I don't.

Why not?

Well, I don't know.
Why would I?

Oh, I don't know, why do
people slow down on the freeway

when they see a car accident,
all those rubber-headers?

- Neckers, right? Neckers.
- Right.

They stop because they can't
help themselves, you know.

It's not like they want
to see a bunch of body parts

spewed all over
the road, you know.

Intellectually speaking,
they know that would

make them hurl.
But they stop anyways.

Because you can,
because it's there.

So, acc-according
to this rationale..

...seeing Madison's band
will make me wanna hurl.

And that's a reason to go?

- Interesting theory.
- Oh, come on.

you're not even the
least bit curious

what she looks like?
It's been a while.

Yeah, of course, I'm curious.

So, go for the visual.

Oh, I know,
I just...bring Amy along?

Dude, seriously.

I don't know how you made it
this far without me. Really.

You don't tell Amy.
She'd freak.

Why? I thought you said
it was human nature.

Well, it's male
human nature, okay?

Female human nature
is completely different.

We're talking about
jealousy and claws

it's-it's ugliness, man.

So, I should lie to her?

Well, l-l-lies of omission

don't count as lies.

Did you tell Amy that you didn't

brush your teeth this morning?

Why, I did brush my
teeth this morning.

Pretend that you didn't.
Would you tell her?

Wha-why?

- No, I wouldn't.
- This is the exact same thing.

(male #1)
'Okay, here
you go, Bright.'

I, uh, put it on
the city tab for you.

Thank you.

Uh, I don't think
I should go.

Well...you're a bigger man
than I am, Ephram Brown.

But...guess we
already knew that.

[chuckles]

- You want a refill on that?
- Your friends suck. No offense.

Gee, how could I take
offense at that?

No, but, seriously,
they dump their kid on you

at the beginning of her
junior year, which

by the way
is the hardest year ever.

[inhales]
They never call her

and now they're not even gonna
be here for Christmas?

Did Hannah say she was
upset about this?

Well, you know what, she's not
as upset as she should be.

That's only because she's
not in touch with her rage.

- Luckily, I am.
- Uh, yeah, I can see that.

Do you have their number on you?
I think I should call them.

- Uh, what number?
- In Hong Kong?

I'll charge it to my dad.
He won't care.

And maybe, if they heard
from her best friend

they'd actually understand.

You, You know what?
I can call them.

- I-I can explain everything.
- That's okay.

I'd rather do it myself,
but do you know

what the time change is,
so, that I don't

call them in the
middle of the night?

[exhales]

- Nina?
- Yeah?

Do you know what
the time difference is?

Um, I don't know.
It's like what, 12 hours maybe?

There is no Hong Kong,
is there?

Well, technically,
Hong Kong exists.

I could point it
out on the map.

But Hannah's
parents aren't there.

What?

Kid, you're gonna have
to talk to her yourself.

I-I can't
do this part.

Talk to her about what? I don't
even know what's happening here.

Mm.

She lied to me?

It is not a lie-lie.

Look, you just have
to talk to Hannah.

I do talk to Hannah.
We talk about everything.

She knows my entire life story.

God, this is like we're right
back to where we started.

No, no, you're not.

Listen to me.
You know Hannah.

You, you know what a good girl
she is, and you know that

she loves you to death,
so think about the reasons

why she might keep
something from you.

I don't know.

Is it bad?

Oh.

You can talk to her about it,
or you can let her come to you

when she's ready, just, please,
don't be mad at her, okay?

[bell dings]

[cell phone ringing]

- I need seven minutes.
- 'Ah, it's okay.'

I'm-I'm still home.

Oh good, well, the slower you
drive, the better I'll look.

'So, um'

I had an interesting
conversation with Nina today.

I'm not really sure of
the best way to approach it yet.

Oh, yeah?

Would it be huge if we
didn't go out tonight?

Huh? I thought we
were gonna, you know..

Yeah, I know. I'm just

I'm-I'm feeling a little
under the weather, so..

- Oh, West Nile virus?
- 'Probably.'

Hey, I-I think I should stay in,
I don't wanna get any more sick.

(Amy)
'Okay, well, do you want me to
bring you soup, or I could, uh'

go pick up your
favorite cold medicine.

The one that makes
you feel drunk?

That's okay.
I don't wanna get you sick.

Okay, well, take
lots of vitamin C.

Watch Jon Stewart,
and call me tomorrow.

I will.

- Bye.
- 'Bye.'

[sighs]

[instrumental music]

♪ Got to keep up
together at home ♪

♪ Got to keep up in
your haunted home ♪♪

Hey!

Do you know they
don't serve beer here?

That's because
it's a coffeehouse.

- So, you're here.
- As are you.

- How'd you know I'd..?
- Dude, please.,

I figured you
could use a wingman.

Uh, I mean, what do-what do
I really expect tonight

best-case scenario?

Ah, okay, possibly number
one, you want to

get back together
with Madison.

- No, I-I don't.
- Come on.

If she came up to you and
said you were the only man

she'd ever love, said she'd
dress up like Catwoman for you.

- You'd say no?
- No, it's not like that.

I-I don't, I don't
miss Madison like that.

I don't even miss
the relationship that we had.

Truth is, I always
felt like I was trying

to keep up with her
or prove myself.

With Amy, I don't
feel like that way.

She makes me feel good.

Groovy, well then, this is
just the Pepsi challenge.

More metaphors?

Look, you're in love with your
current beverage okay, Amy cola.

And, but every man needs
the side-by-side taste test.

Okay, so you come here,
you check out the ex.

And you just make sure you made
the right choice, you know.

Of course, that choice
becomes much easier

if Madison
suddenly became heinous.

(male #1)
'Let's have a big welcome
for "Joe Lies."'

I think you should
write a book.

I'm thinkin' about it.

Just pray for fat, man.
Pray for fat.

[cheering]

[instrumental music]

[indistinct chatter]

You're gonna snag
all the Oreos, aren't you?

[chuckles]
You caught me.

Personally, I can't do
Oreos without the milk.

It has to be
ice-cold, big glass.

Without the dripping, there's
really no point to Oreos, right?

I always knew that you were
a high-maintenance woman.

So, I didn't see
Charlie in the show.

Oh, he was, uh, backstage.

"Curtain man," I believe,
is the official title.

He gets tongue-fried,
uh, stage fright.

Tongue-tied
when he's nervous.

It's genetic,
as you can see.

I, uh, I've been meaning
to call you.

I got your message
about Dr. David.

Oh, that's okay, I-I wasn't

really expecting him
to take on the case.

Well, actually, it
doesn't really matter

'cause I've found
somebody much better.

And this is a doctor
who is actually looking

to do pro bono work.

- Uh, Andy, we've already been--
- It's Dr. Abbott.

- Dr. Abbott?
- Yeah.

He's very excited about it.

And he already has
a relationship with John.

So it just,
it works out perfectly.

Dr. Abbott is looking
to do pro bono work?

Does he know what
"pro bono" means?

Well, he's very
serious about it.

And I think that you
and John will be very pleased.

Stop that.

Stop talking to me like you
don't even know who I am.

Daddy! Daddy, did you see me?

See you? Are you kidding.
How could I miss you?

You were the only
Maccabee in the manger.

You stole
the show, kiddo.

- Thanks.
- You're welcome.

Who took all the Oreos?

Oh, probably
some greedy parents.

Come on.
We'll go find some more.

- I'll, uh, I'll call you.
- Don't.

You don't have to.

♪ I'm dreaming ♪

♪ Of a white Christmas ♪

♪ Just like the ones ♪

♪ I used to know ♪

Dad, love the Bing, but could
we maybe switch it up a bit?

What?

Silence dear bingle?
Never.

When we Abbotts lose our
traditions, young lady..

...we lose who we are.

Oh, we should save
the star for Bright.

It's his favorite part.

Mm-hm, rice Krispy treats
are his favorite part.

Maybe we should
make some more.

[doorbell rings]

I bet you that's Ephram, I knew
he didn't sound that sick.

Well, invite him in.
There's plenty of cider.

Oh, that's okay, mom.
It's still early.

We could probably
make the movie.

[sighs]

Oh, hi.

Nina said
she talked to you?

Yeah, but she didn't
tell me anything, um..

She asked me to
leave you alone, so..

No, I know.

Do you have a minute?

Yeah.

My parents are
in Lakeville, Minnesota

in the same house
where I grew up.

Okay, so, and the whole
Hong Kong thing?

I don't know.

They reran "90210" on FX

and the Walshes
went to live in Hong Kong.

I thought it was
sort of believable.

Hm, that is good.

Yeah, well,
it's a pretty good show.

[chuckling]

Okay, but I still
don't know why

you made up the story
in the first place.

Because my dad
is kind of dying.

[instrumental music]

Oh, my God, Hannah.

No, don't,
don't do that.

See, that's why
I made up the story

so I wouldn't be that girl
anymore, tragedy girl.

I-I went through the first
two years of high school

being that person, and
I don't want to do it anymore.

Okay, I-I understand that.

I know you do.

He used to work in the library,
restoring rare books.

He loved books, like

not the insides,
but the outside.

Like the covers,
the way they smelled.

I just like the insides

and he said that made
us a perfect fit.

He was the book.
I was the story.

He has Huntington's disease.

I'm sorry. I-I don't,
I don't know what that is.

It's a brain disease.

My birthday party
when I was eight.

My dad just punched
this other dad.

I mean, like a-a real punch.

I remember the noise.

I mean, my dad was so nice

like he never
even yelled at anybody.

But there he was.

There was blood
all over his green shirt

and he didn't even
know why he did it.

A year later,
he couldn't eat..

...then he couldn't talk.

That was-was the worst part,
when he stopped talking, cause..

[sighs]

...we used to talk a lot.

[sighs]

And now he's gone.

[exhales]

When did he..

- Did he die?
- No, no, he's, uh, he's not.

He's just in bed, you know.

He, he can't talk or
think or..

...or move.

You look in his eyes,
and he's just empty.

He's the book
without the story.

My mom takes care of him.

And my brother always
took care of me

but he went away to college
last year so..

...I came here.

Don't feel sorry
for me, okay?

[instrumental music]

[knock on the door]

Hello there.

Did I call too early?

Not if you're a marine.

I trust Dr. Brown told
you I'd be coming by?

I believe he promised.

Excellent.
Well..

Worry not about the baton
passing smoothly, Mrs. Hayes.

I have devoured
John's recent files.

I believe he may be teetering
on the brink of a breakthrough.

I intend to give him a firm
shove. Three-pronged outlet?

Maybe you can shove him
later in the week?

He's sleeping right now.

Well, then I have ample time
to prepare my materials.

John will awaken
refreshed and keen

to challenge the next phase
of his rehabilitation.

Music therapy was
an encouraging beginning.

But it's time to leap
from the realm of sound

into the complex
world of the visual.

- Intrigued?
- Yes.

I've dreamt of this moment.

You were wearing
a top hat.

My preliminary research
has led me to discover

a nascent theory almost
undiscussed in medical journals.

I believe that we
can use color therapy

to help john rebuild
the emotional connections

within his brain.

- Color therapy?
- Yes.

It may be
historic research.

Allow me to
illuminate the concept.

There.

'Now, how does this
color make you feel?'

Uh, um...it's blue.

It's a royal lavender,
more specifically.

But you are
emotionally correct.

This wavelength tends
to promote melancholia.

Dr. Abbot..

(Harold)
'Just a moment of
your indulgence, please.'

Rose pink, dynamic, vibrant.

Now, please, your
honest, emotional reaction.

- Annoyed.
- Angry?

- Getting there.
- Yes.

Scarlet stirs
the rageful humors.

As you can see,
the connection between color

and emotion is elemental.

So, perhaps over time, John
could develop a rudimentary

emotional vocabulary based
on these colored lights.

I am not putting my
husband under a grow lamp.

He is not a philodendron.

I realize this
sounds rather theoretical.

Well, it seems like you're
about to don a toga

and pass me a daisy.

Dr. Brown has
made remarkable progress.

We can build on that.

Dr. Brown sees what
he wants to see.

John moved his finger.
He blinked.

Who knows what it means?

The highest mountain
is climbed in tiny steps.

John is never going
to climb a mountain.

It isn't working.
Nothing's working.

I want you to leave.

Perhaps if we have a cup
of coffee, we can discuss this.

It would be a shame
to lose hope now

especially in this,
the-the season of miracles.

I don't believe
in miracles, Dr. Abbott.

I'm tired.
I'm done.

Tell Andy
that I'm done.

[instrumental music]

Hey.

Your mom said I
could just come up.

Hey, um,
how you feeling?

Oh, pretty good,
you know.

Um, sorry about last night,
I just..

No, that's okay.
You're from a weak stock.

I'm a fast healer, though.

What are you doing?

Just some research stuff.

You realize that
it's Christmas break, right?

Which means all
computer-oriented activity

should cease and desist?

Unless, of course, you're
buying me presents online.

Amy?

Huh? Oh, sorry.

So, what have you been
doing the past 12 hours?

Anything exciting?

Ah, just..

...feeling pathetic,
mostly.

As you should be.

Flaking on me
last-minute like that.

Well, what about you?

How was the Pagan ritual of
tree-trimming and nog-making?

When are you going
to accept my Lord?

When you stop
persecuting my people.

Actually, it was
kind of nice.

Dad uh, dad caroled
himself to sleep.

Mom got buzzed
off the hot toddies.

- Hannah came by.
- Yeah?

Yeah, I was gonna call you.

Did you try calling me?

'I mean, because my,
my-my-my phone was off.'

Oh.

I mean, only 'cause
I wanted to get to sleep.

I mean, otherwise,
I would have left it on.

I just wanted to sleep.

Well, I guess
it doesn't matter

because I didn't try
calling you, so..

Are you, like,
mad at me or something?

No, why would I be
mad at you?

Well, I don't know,
but you're acting mad at me.

You're acting weird,
which is normally fine.

But um..

You know, I have a lot of work
to do right now, so..

You know what?
I'm-I'm just gonna go.

- Cool.
- Um..

I'll just, I'll call you
later, or you can call me.

Okay.

Hey, how'd it go with John?
Was it good?

I just found some new
articles on light therapy.

I was printing
them up for you.

Save your toner.
I was fired.

- What?
- Terminated.

Unceremoniously,
I might add.

(Andy)
'Well, what did you do?'

Oh, no, don't tell me you
took your slide projector.

What did I do?

I hurled myself into her
husband's treatment

with unrestrained verve,
that's what I did.

Well, some people don't respond
well to hurling verve.

Some people need to be
romanced into things a little.

What did she say?
How did she act?

Frankly, in the five years
I've worked with her

I've never seen her
quite so fragile.

Perhaps it's the holidays.
Maybe it's simply exhaustion.

Whatever the reason,
she's had enough.

She's done.

Alright, new plan.

We'll talk about what
you should say

And how to say it.
We'll write a script.

I do not need to recite your
written words like some sort

of inane drone.

Mrs. Hayes was quite
clear in her resolve.

I think we need to respect
her wishes and move on.

What are you talking about?
Respect her wishes?

We are gonna
continue this therapy.

I'm not gonna let
my patient suffer

just because I mishandled
my relationship with his wife.

Mishandled what, precisely?

She's a very beautiful
woman, isn't she?

'I know she seems quite strong.'

She's really very
vulnerable, susceptible, almost.

Susceptible to what?

Almost anything,
I'd imagine.

'Or anyone.'

A woman in her position, it
would be very easy to confuse

gratitude with other
kinds of affection.

Why don't you just
cut to the chase, Harold?

This is not a dalliance.

She's married
to your patient.

Nothing has happened.

Well, good.

Then it's not too late.

Listen to me, Andy, I-I believe
you are an honorable man.

'That belief that has allowed me
to stand by you.'

Even when we've disagreed,
there has been many a case

many a parental decision

where I've questioned
your tactics, your approach.

Ultimately, I've chalked it up
to your liberal ballyhoo

that New York sensibility
that you still cling to.

But what you're
considering now is wrong.

'It's wrong, no matter what your
heart may be telling you.'

This is unethical.

It is..

...it is unforgivable.

You have to stay
away from her.

- Hi, there!
- Shh!

Hi!

Dr. Jake Hartman.

It's nice to meet you.

These are
six weeks overdue.

Yeah, see, I never really went
to the library back in LA.

I was more of an amazon.com
kind of guy, you know.

But I thought I'd
give it a shot here.

It seemed
Everwoody and all.

Anyway, I'm-I'm obviously
not so good

with the whole
book-return concept.

You should see my
blockbuster bill.

[chuckles]
Killer.

- Uh, do you take checks?
- No.

(Amy)
'Dr. Jake.'

Um, could you possibly
help me with something?

Sure thing. I'm gonna..

You're Amy Abbott, right?

- You're Annie's granddaughter.
- Mm-hmm.

Yeah, I thought
you looked familiar.

She keeps, like, three
pictures of you on her desk.

Yeah, she's sweet, um..

Do you know what
the Basal Ganglion is, exactly?

Not a fan of small talk.
Got it.

Well, I know it's
the part of the brain

that regulates
voluntary movement.

And I know that
the caudate nucleus

is in the same
part of the brain

only it's in charge
of like, organizing thoughts

and awareness and stuff.

Yeah, are you
like pre-med or something?

Undeclared.

I just don't understand
why they're so close

together if they do
such different things.

It's like selling toasters
in the makeup department.

Well, the-the logic
of brain architecture

is a pretty hot debate
among neuro-anatomists.

What are you
looking at, specifically?

Huntington's disease.

Ooh, Huntington's, is like

the cruise missile
of neuro-degeneration.

And it hits the worst
spot possible.

But how do you treat it, because
I haven't seen anything here.

That's because we don't.
We don't know how yet.

Maybe if Washington
didn't waste so much time

arguing the moral ethics
of stem-cell research

we'd have a cure by now, but,
as it stands, we got nothing.

So, basically, if you
have it, you're gonna die.

It might take
a little while, but..

And how do you get it?
Is it like a virus?

No, it's genetic.
One tweaked chromosome.

The tiniest thing you
could possibly even imagine.

And you're screwed for life.

Genetic, so that means if
one of your parents has it..

Then there's a 50% chance
you're gonna have it, too.

Any who, it's super nice
to meet you.

I'm gonna go pay for my
books and head back out.

It's pretty great outside.
It's all sunny and cold.

You should try and enjoy it.

Yeah, thanks.

(Amanda on answering machine)
'Hi, you've reached
Amanda, John, and Charlie.'

'I can't believe
we're not here.'

[beeps]

Taking a break?

I'm not feelin' it.

Do you ever get that thing
where everything in your life

is pretty much perfect, but,
instead of just enjoying it

you can't wait to, you know,
smash it all up?

I don't know, it's been
a while since perfect.

Why? What's going on?

I went to see
Madison the other day.

When did this happen?

A few nights ago,
I got a flyer

for her band on my car
and I talked to Bright.

Oh, because he always
gives such good advice.

So, did you see her?

No, she left the band.

- But dad, the thing is--
- So, she wasn't there?

No, but the
point is there

was no possible
reason for me to go.

No good could have come out
of it, but I went, anyway.

As if somebody
was daring me.

- You mean Bright?
- No.

I mean, like, the little
red dude on my shoulder.

He's got a pitchfork.

He's all over
the cartoon network.

Everything in my life
is finally right.

Amy's great,
school is what it is.

But I-I keep testing it, just
seeing how far I can push things

before they all fall apart.

What kind
of a person does that?

A curious person.

But there are some
things you don't need to

waste your
time wondering about.

Yeah, I-I can't help it.

Lately, I feel like my
life is one of those

"Choose your own adventure"
books.

You know, if I take
the Colorado A and M tour

does that jinx my shot
at getting into Juilliard?

If I call Madison, does
that automatically sabotage

my relationship with Amy?

You got her number?

Yeah, Jake gave it to me.

I don't know what
I was thinking.

Well, no one says
you have to call her.

Yeah, I know, but I want to.
That's the whole problem.

Yeah, little red guy.

Look, if you're
not feeling happy

with the way things
are in your life.

I understand
mixing it up.

But what I don't understand
is creating drama

just because you're bored.

What do you mean?

Well, there's a difference
between thinking and doing.

'And the latter can be
very self-destructive.'

'And you're too
smart for that.'

- Do you love Amy?
- Of course I do.

Okay, then don't
just say it.

Know it and think about it
every time you're just about

to do something stupid because
all those temptations

they're always
gonna be there.

And they're gonna come in
a whole lot of forms

ex-girlfriends,
potential girlfriends.

Snake, garden, apple.

I know where you're
going with this.

So, don't forget it.

Because losing someone
you forgot to appreciate

when you had 'em.

'That is just about
the worst feeling in the world.'

Trust me.

Yeah.

Maybe Delia will want
to call her or something.

Maybe.

- Thank you.
- You bet.

[knocking on door]

Sorry, I don't want to
interrupt the process.

Oh, no process. Pretty
much just endless rambling.

[sighs]

- So, do you know?
- Know what?

If you have it?

I know there's a test,
I read all about it.

And I know that you don't
have to be 18 to get it.

- What are you doing?
- Hannah.

I know that you don't want me
to see you differently but

you can't just reveal this
enormous aspect of your life

to me and expect me
to just ignore it.

I know how you get, Amy,
I don't want you to turn

this into one
of your projects.

You-you are not
my project, Hannah.

You're my best friend.

And you are dealing with this
unbelievably painful thing

all by yourself,
and there's no reason for it.

You don't have to
deal with this alone.

I wanna know what you know,
I wanna understand.

I don't think this disease is
something you ever understand.

'Not fully.'

But the fact that there
is a blood test

that can tell you whether
or not you have the gene.

I mean, that's huge.

It means there's at least
potential for a cure.

Potentials are kind of
complicated, you know.

God and Science
and all that stuff.

But you've taken
the test, right?

No.

And I'm not going to.

Okay, you know what?

I don't want you to
think for a second that..

...I think I know how I would
deal with this situation.

And I'm sure you've thought
about it a gazillion times

but, the fact that there
is an answer out there

waiting for you,
inside of you.

Don't you want to know
so you can just

take it off the
table, move on?

What if I don't have the option
to just take it off the table?

The way I was raised, there's
this thing about destiny.

It's a given.

Our parents pass down
this genetic makeup

that's like a symbol
of them in some way.

A family.

So, you know,
I got my mother's

eyes and her shoulders.

And my dad, well, maybe he
gave me somethin' else.

But I, I don't want
to think about that

every time I look at
his picture, you know?

I just want to see him.

Besides..

You know, what difference
does it make if I knew?

I'm gonna end up in
the same place, anyway.

But at least you
could be prepared.

I don't think anything
could prepare me.

I mean, not for that.

[sighing]

But, thank you.

For what?

For taking this on.

Making me feel less lonely.

It's pretty much the best
Christmas present

I've ever gotten.

Yeah?

So, I guess I can just
take back the earrings.

[laughing]

[knocking on door]

- Hey.
- Hey.

- Do we have plans?
- No.

You okay?

No, actually, I'm not okay.

I-I am so sorry, Amy.

I'm sorry I..

Sorry for what?

Um..

Uh..

Yeah, I wasn't, I wasn't
actually I was, wa..

I mean, I was gonna tell
you but I wasn't gonna

tell you exactly like this.

Tell me about what?

Um..

I lied to you, uh..

The other night
when I said I was sick

I-I wasn't really sick.

I actually went
to see Madison's band play

um, at this place.

You went to see Madison?

No, I mean,
she wasn't there.

I-I-I didn't.
I didn't see her.

What possible reason could
you have to go see Madison?

None, no reason,
and-and she wasn't there.

That's what I was saying.

I mean, you have to remember
that part.

That part is very key.

Well, do you want to
get back together with her?

No, no.

Then I don't
understand, Ephram.

No, I don't, either.
I swear.

It was just,
I was just being stupid

and self-destructive
for-for no reason whatsoever.

I-I-I feel terrible about it.

I totally regret it now.

I don't understand why,
why wouldn't you tell me before

you went and tell me now?

Because I thought you knew.
You were acting so weird.

But that's not
why I told you.

I, I told you because,
I mean, you know, I..

You know, it felt wrong
not telling you

and I felt like I was
maybe lying to you.

You were lying.
You did lie.

I know, and, and I'm sorry.

You felt guilty because
you knew what you did was wrong

so you told me
because you didn't want to

feel guilty anymore, which
means not only are you a liar

but you're a selfish liar.

- Amy..
- Don't.

I just, I thought it
was better to be honest.

Well, you thought wrong.

Okay, but don't
leave like this.

You know what, Ephram,
don't call me.

I can't deal with
this right now.

[door slams]

I need to get
a big, mean dog

keep all the
crazy doctors away.

- I need to talk to you.
- You really don't.

I get it. You get it.

God, even Harold gets it.

I don't want you
to give up on John.

Is that what you
came here to say?

Go home, Andy.

If you talk to me in that
crappy "I'm a doctor" voice

one more time, I'm gonna
knee you in the nuts.

Look, I know I haven't been
handling this very well.

The whole thing
is very confusing.

But the one thing that
I am very clear on

is that we have
been helping John.

He's getting better.
There's still a chance.

I took my chance.

I was comfortable
here, you know?

It was quiet, I was lonely,
but it was my life.

And after a while,
it was bearable.

Boy, that being so numb
that you can't laugh

is bearable or being so
drunk you can't sleep

I could deal with it.

But you asked me to
take a chance, so I did.

I-I followed you down
this road of..

...hope and optimism
and life.

And now I can't
find my way back.

Why would you want to go back
to a life that wasn't a life?

Because it was honorable.

The day he had a stroke,
the day John went

I went with him.

'Cause that's what
I was supposed to do.

And I got so busy..

...taking care of him and..

...and Charlie that
I didn't even realize that I..

...had fallen
out of love with him.

I didn't even
think about it.

Until I met you.

But you do still love him.

You just, you're feeling
lost right now, confused.

- I am.
- And that's okay.

It's not okay,
I know it's not.

I am not confused, Andy,
not the way you are.

I'm not as confused
as you think I am.

How confused do you
think I think you are?

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