All language subtitles for Everwood.S03E04.WEBRip.x264-ION10

(male narrator)
Previously on "Everwood.."

What in the world
is going on in here?

So, I was hoping you could help
me put together a resume.

'You know, maybe we could
figure something out.'

Because I think I need a job.

I really miss
having a friend

'that doesn't drive me
absolutely insane.'

Me too.

And I could take Sam
on Saturday afternoon.

Don't worry,
I got Delia that night.

Great, then I can give you
next Saturday.

Please, you can have
the next 10 saturday nights

'cause I got nothing going on.

I love you, Ephram.

I love you, too.

Eight, nine, 10.

Ready or not, here I come.

I'll give him a few minutes.

He always hides
in the same places, anyways.

Hmm, under the bed?

- In his closet.
- Mm-hmm.

It's not really a challenge.

Yeah, it's nice of you
to play along, though.

I know.

(Sam)
'Come and get me!'

- Be right back.
- 'I'll save you the socks.'

(Delia)
'I sure hope I can find you!'

[instrumental music]

What's this?

- That?
- It was under your bed.

'Oh, you're kidding.'

That's where that thing
got to. Thank you so much.

I've been, I've been looking
everywhere for that.

You're welcome.
It was right under here.

So, what is it?

Oh, well, it's just, it's a foot
massager. That's what that is.

Um, I'm on my feet all day
and it helps relieves

the tension uh, in my feet.

- How does it work?
- Oh, it doesn't. It's broken.

If it's broken,
then why do you still have it?

Because I was gonna return it.

That's why I still have the box.

Why do you keep it
under your bed?

(Sam)
'Hey! Where are you guys?'

[sighs]
Let's go save Sam.

You go first.

[instrumental music]

[theme music]

[music continues]

I told you it wasn't good.

A foot massager?

Did she just see it,
or-or did she turn it on?

I mean, was there...buzzing?

No. God, no.
I mean, she just found it.

They were playing
hide-and-seek.

I guess she was gonna
hide under my bed..

I don't know what to say.
This is obviously very awkward.

Nina, what is it
about your house?

Penthouses,
foot massagers..

...it's like living
next door to Larry Flynt.

Obviously, I have learned
that the best thing to do

is to come to you right
away...just in case.

- Just in case what?
- In case Delia brings it up.

Which I'm sure she won't cause
I think I covered really well.

I mean she probably
already forgot, but..

...you may want to just check
in with her just to be safe.

Why would I do that?
Do you think I should do that?

And how would I explain
a vib-foot...thing?

I don't know, but if
she does bring it up

that means that
my cover didn't cover.

And you're probably
gonna have to deal with it.

- That's all I'm saying.
- Dad!

Ephram ate
all the ice cream.

What are you guys talking about?

Cheese...cake. Cheesecake.

Uh, Nina is making one
for your birthday next week.

'Isn't that right, Nina?'

[Nina laughs]
'That's right.'

'But it was supposed to be
a surprise, remember?'

- 'Oh, right, sorry.'
- Oh, that's okay.

Well.. Well, I better go.
Um, I'll see you later, Delia.

What were you really
talking about?

I just told you, sweetheart,
birthday stuff.

Now, let's go see
about that ice cream.

Delia left this at Nina's.

Oh, yeah,
just throw it anywhere.

How did that dance thing go?

It didn't.

'You doing homework?'

Uh, no.

Is that..
Do-do you keep a journal?

What?

No. It's, uh, it's a letter, uh,
for Amy, but it's private, so..

Oh. Is it your addendum?

My what?

To the "I love you", postscript,
additional material--

Yeah, I know, I know what
an addendum is.

I just didn't
know you knew about

The "I love you?"
Yeah, she told me.

First she said it,
then you said it back.

There was pizza.

She said that first she said it,
and then I said it?

Yeah.

Did she seem weirded out
by that, upset or anything?

I don't think so. Why, does it
matter who says it first?

No, I mean, I don't think so

but obviously if she
told you the order

in which "I love you's"
were exchanged

does mean something,
which means the addendum

is more necessary
than I originally thought.

Maybe I can help you.

Uh, I don't think so.

I'm actually not
terrible at it.

I know, because I'm terrible
at just about everything else

but I can write.

Are they all full?

Uh, pretty much...yes.

[chuckles]

I also do short stories

but most of those
are on my computer.

You think it's weird?

Only if it's just from October.

No. No.

Does is all in of them.
Start at aDoewsn seventh grade.

I wasn't exactly the queen
of popularity back then either.

So you're consistent.

Well, the truth is, I never
really had anyone to talk to.

But I've always
had stuff to say.

So, I just said it to myself.

Well, you're not gonna
have that problem anymore.

You got Amy.
She's your friend.

And she's a good friend, too.
I should know.

Yeah she was the first friend
I had when I moved here.

That's good.

Maybe you should start
with that for your letter.

Oh, right.

- I really don't mind helping.
- No, it's okay.

I mean,
I think this is something

that I should probably
try to do by myself.

Yeah, I understand.

Okay, I'll, uh,
I'll see you later.

Okay.

[instrumental music]

I hope Bright hasn't already
eaten at the restaurant.

He stuffs himself
on those jalapeno poppers.

When has that ever stopped him
from eating again?

The boy has the metabolism
of a gerbil.

Ladies and gentlemen

you are looking at the latest
employee of the month.

Oh, honey, that's wonderful.

[laughs]
Huh?

Did I mention? I'm on a plaque?

'Yeah, a plaque.'

I haven't even been working
there for a whole month

and I'm already
their greatest employee.

How awesome is that?

Yeah, swell.

- Awesome, indeed.
- 'Oh, did I mention?'

Employees get to eat for free
even when they're not working

and Mikey says I get to pick up
dinner shifts from now on

so I get to sleep in.

- 'The benefits are endless.'
- Really?

Does that mean you'll be
getting health and dental?

No, not "The benefits" benefits.

You know, the other kind.

Anyways, I'm gonna call Fordo

'cause he's gonna freak out
when he hears how much

I pulled down in tips
tonight, right?

Next stop, employee of the year!

[laughs]

(Bright)
'Booyah!'

[chuckles]

By all means call Fordo.

Who is I believe,
away at college.

- Pursuing an actual future.
- Stop it.

You should be happy
he's doing so well

and they like him so much.

They love him.
Didn't you hear him?

Mikey is giving him
dinner shifts, booyah.

Oh, for goodness sake.

But this is just a-a start.

Working in a restaurant
isn't gonna be Bright's career.

But he's happy right now.

He's too happy, Rose,
that's the trouble.

If this job is enough for him

if that plaque on the wall is
all the validation he needs.

How can you be so certain
that he will ever

pursue something more?

[instrumental music]

'Do you think I should call her?
She might be really upset.'

When I saw her earlier,
she seemed fine.

Did I mention
how good you look today?

She's not fine. You obviously
weren't listening to the story.

I was listening,
I just don't see how Hannah

not making the ballet team
is such a big deal.

She didn't just not make it,
she fell...bit it!

She was supposed to do
this chasse step

in line with everybody,
which is a really easy step.

but instead of going right,
she went left and bumped into

Katie who bumped into
Melanie and then fell

with this huge thud and
everyone started laughing.

You know how red she gets.

[chuckles]

[sigh]

- This isn't funny.
- Well, what do you expect?

I'm not sure the girl can walk
and chew gum at the same time.

Signing up for ballet class
is not a wise move on her part.

But that's just it,
it wasn't her idea.

It was my stupid idea.

So, it's not your fault
she tripped.

[sighs]
Oh, my god, I feel so bad.

The stupid Bright date
was my fault.

Now this is my fault.

This is not the same
as that.

It is to Hannah.

To her,
this is just one more

completely humiliating
experience

that she can relate
back to me.

Don't worry about it so much.

She'll get over it, alright?

I just want her to like me.

Like you?
The girl worships you.

No, she doesn't.

She's not comfortable around me
yet. I can tell.

I just keep thinking if maybe
I introduce her to more people.

Help her fit in more.

You know, you don't need to
worry about her so much.

I need to just
give her some time

she'll find her
niche eventually.

I mean, she kind of already has.

You know she's a writer?

Really?
Where is she a writer?

She's not, like, uh,
a professional writer.

She's like, she's a writer.
That's what she does.

'She showed me these
journals the other day.'

It's like the box set history

of Hannah volumes
one through 1,000.

Hmm.

Well, this opens up
all kinds of possibilities.

I mean, if Hannah is a writer,
she can join the newspaper.

'There's that new arts
and literary supplement'

'that they do every semester.'

And remember when that
girl, Camie Dexter

got her poem published
in "Cosmo Girl?"

I'm still working
through my back issues.

Well, it totally sucked.

but her q-rating went up
like a thousand points.

We can do better. We can
get her published in "Jane."

I tell you she's a writer and
you turn her into Stephen King.

How do you even know
her writing is good?

Well, I'll read something
of hers first.

I mean, I'm not gonna set her up

for another catastrophe
like today.

And you expect her to just
hand over her personal journals

- For you to read?
- No, but that's the point.

We need to get to that level.

I've been sharing a lot
of my own personal things

with her, so..

I know. I heard.

Well, that's what
girlfriends are for.

And ever since Laynie left

I've really missed
having that person.

That's why this friendship
is so important to me.

And who am I?

You're the guy that I talk
to my girlfriends about.

It's a very crucial role,
trust me.

Oh!

(Andy)
'So I want you to stay
on the Fentanyl.'

'I'm also gonna give you
a prescription here for Alevil'

Which should help with the pain.

And try to avoid
any undue exertion.

Tough to exert much
of anything these days.

I guess I have bucked
the odds already, though, huh?

(Andy)
'Pancreatic cancer
can be very aggressive.'

You have had an amazing run,
Mrs. Hoover.

That's because
she is amazing.

Yeah, well, it's all part
of my master plan.

You see, I skipped over
the denial stage

and went straight to anger.

I think my rage
scared away the reaper

a little longer than most.

[chuckles]

It's this, uh..

Pesky acceptance stage
I'm not so sure about.

Our daughter moved
her wedding date up.

'It's in two weeks.'

And we just had these redone.

They did a lovely job,
didn't they?

We knew it wasn't
a guarantee but we just thought

What do you say, doc?

Will I get to see my baby girl
in her wedding gown?

It's a Vera Wang.

It cost more than my chemo.

Well, just take it easy
until then.

but I have a very good
feeling about it.

[chuckles]

Thank you, Dr. Brown,
for everything.

- You're welcome.
- Let's go now.

[instrumental music]

I'll be right there,
honey.

Okay.

How are you holding up?

I'm okay.

You really think she'll make it
for the wedding?

[inhales]

Well, I don't believe
in guarantees

but, yeah, I do.

She's incredibly strong

and even with
a conservative judgment.

I think that two weeks
is a very safe prognosis.

Is there anything
else I can do?

You know, just keep
being there for her.

'and make her as comfortable
as possible.'

'I'm afraid that's all anybody
can do for her now.'

How long does she have?
All of it?

Oh, that's so tough to say.

Well, give me your best guess.

Six weeks...maybe.

I'm so sorry, Bill.

[sighs]

[instrumental music]

[instrumental music]

(Delia)
'Mine don't feel
any different.'

Me neither.

Maybe we didn't do it right.

How else would you do it?

I don't know.

I still think it looks
like a microphone.

You know how when grown-ups lie

they start talking fast,
and they never look you

right in the face?

[scoffs]
Yeah.

Well, both Nina and my
dad did that to me

on the same day
I found that.

Interesting, so you
think they're lying?

Well, they might
not be lying.

But they're definitely not
telling the whole truth.

And don't you think it's weird
she keeps it under her bed?

My brother keeps dirty
magazines under his bed.

Exactly.
Because it's a secret.

You only keep secret
stuff under your bed.

What do you keep
under your bed?

Extra twinkies.

Me too!

I'll ask my stepmom.

Good idea.
Call me when you find out.

I don't know if it's the dill

or the oregano that
makes it so good.

But it's definitely
something green.

Next week,
I'm gonna try provolone.

Mm, you're a wild man.

- Mm.
- Nina, Nina.

How's my favorite waitress?

Tired, underpaid,
and smelling vaguely of grease.

(sigh)
What can I get you, Jake?

Coffee to go, thanks.

She looks pretty cute
in that apron, doesn't she?

What's the story with you two?
You ever hook it up?

"Hook it up?"
Who are you, my frat brother?

Are you still mad about Edna?

She came to me!

I swe-I never would have
even given her the job

if I knew it would
come between us.

Come on, Andy, let's hug this
out and get to the next level.

I've got a case I could
really use some backup on.

Come on, yeah?

Okay? Alright.

- There we--
- Okay, alright, that's it.

Wow, that is some
shampoo you're using.

What is that, apple?

- Pear.
- Ahh.

- 'Here you go.'
- Thanks.

So, the patient is a 54-year-old
African-American male

with viral cardiomyopathy.

I've got him on Lisinopril,
a diuretic, and a beta-blocker.

I even put him on warfarin
just to be safe.

All those drugs
only treat the symptoms.

They aren't curative
for cardiomyopathy.

The guy is gonna
need a transplant

if he's gonna live
much longer.

We are simpatico, my friend.
I couldn't agree more.

but this guy won't even
let me put him on the list.

He flat refuses to pursue
anything more aggressive

than the meds, it's
a mystery.

So, what do you say,
will you help me out?

Tag team?

Maybe you can get
through to him.

Show this kid how it's done.

Alright, I'll do it.

But not because I like you.

I still don't like you.

That's great, man. Thanks.

I'll send over his chart.

By the way,
what's the patient's name?

Oh, it's Hoover. Bill Hoover.

[music over radio]

So I hear you're a writer.

No, no. I'm not a writer.

I just write, which is more
different than it sounds.

Do you do poetry?

Please, no, I'm not Daria.

[chuckles]

So, what do you write like,
short stories, essays

scathing political editorials?

Um, I do some short stories.

Mainly, I just write
what comes into my head

you know, journal-type
stuff, no big deal.

Cool. Can I see?

My journals? No.

No, they're dumb.

Okay, here's what
I'm thinking.

Basically, yeah, dance is not
your thing. Totally my fault.

I'm really sorry about that.

Um, but writing is your thing.

And I was thinking
that it might be a good way

to meet new people, get
more involved at the school.

Do I need to meet more people?

I know that the idea of being
a joiner seems false to you.

but sometimes it's
good to just jump in

and try something new.

You might be surprised
at how much you like it.

I dunno, maybe.

Great, okay, so I was
thinking that we'd start

by submitting one of
your stories to Jane

which is an insanely
cool magazine.

You get in there,
the entire school will die.

- Wait, what?
- Oh, no, don't worry.

I mean,
I'll help you pick it out.

That's, that's why I'm here.
You don't have to do it alone.

I don't want to do it at all.

No one has ever read
my writing, Amy.

I-i-it's not something I share.
It's private.

So, you won't even show me?

- Oh.
- No...uh, wait.

It's not that I don't trust you.

No, no, no.
um...no worries.

I'll pretend
that I didn't even ask.

[music over radio]

You'll never guess
who I ran into today.

- Paris Hilton.
- Who? Oh. No.

Actually, it's Ralph Bigelow.
You remember Ralph?

Owns the inn
over at Eyelash Lake.

Yeah, right. Bald dude?

Well, he's on uh,
propecia now.

Anyhow, it turns out
that they are looking

for a new lodge host
over at the inn.

We had a chat.
He remembers you quite fondly.

'Guess what?'

You have an interview for
the position tomorrow afternoon.

But I already have a job.

But this could be a terrific
opportunity for you, Bright.

Lots of room for growth.

'Be able to learn different
facets of the service industry.'

And if you enjoy
it you could study

hotel and resort management
at college next year.

- Can you major in that?
- Oh, absolutely.

In fact, there's an
especially fine school

at the University of
Nevada at Las Vegas.

Vegas, huh? That could be fun.

And not too far away.

(Bright)
'Well, thanks, guys.'

I'll definitely,
you know, think about it.

I, uh, have to work
tomorrow, though.

I can't get my shifts covered.
It's a little too late for that.

Already done. I have spoken
with your manager, Mr...Mikey,

'and everything
is taken care of.'

In fact, I wrote down
the particulars

in case you need them.

Thanks, guys.

- UNLV, sounds, sounds cool.
- Hah.

I'll give it my best shot.

Hey, I told you she wasn't
gonna let you read them.

Was I right, or was I right?

Whatever, it's not like I care.

So, what happens now?

Is Hannah kicked out
of the sisterhood?

Is there paperwork involved?

Look, if the girl doesn't
want to fit in better..

- It's her problem. I tried.
- You okay?

I'm fine, I'm not
the one who doesn't

know anybody at this school.

If she wants to continue being

a total social zero,
it's her life.

Exactly, not everybody
is cut out

to be a social rockstar
in high school.

You just make it
look too easy.

[sighs]

That reminds me, I want to uh,
I want to give you something.

- You did? Really?
- Mm-hmm.

Me too, I figured four and a
half months definitely deserved

'some kind of celebration.'

It's been four and a half
months?

I thought it was three.

Well, yeah, it depends
on how you count.

I decided to go from
the moment you got on the plane.

I was debating the picnic

but the plane just
had a much more dramatic feel.

Anyways, there's no card.

Everything sounds so lame when
it's on paper, don't you think?

Definitely.

Sure passes to Comic Con
in Denver next weekend.

Amy, this is unbelievable.

So, what did you get me?

Uh..

Dinner.

Yeah, my dad gave me the card.

So you can order more
dessert if you want to.

Thank you, I'm full,
but that was very sweet of him

and you, of course.

I love you, Ephram.

Yeah, I love you, too.

(Andy)
'Louise, have we heard
from Bill Hoover yet?'

(Clark)
'Wait a minute! Wait a minute!'

(Andy)
'Mrs. Clark!'

I tried to stop her.
She's very strong.

- Are the kids okay?
- In fact, they are not.

It's bad enough
the vile influences

our children pick up on
cable television these days

'but this takes the cake.'

I don't know what
you're talking about.

Brittany came home from
playing with your daughter

and wound up snooping around my
bed asking about foot massagers

over dinner with guests no less.

Oh, no. I'm so sorry.

Believe me, nothing
ruins the taste of pork loin

like public scandal.

I didn't know what to say.

I didn't know
anything about this.

Really? Pardon me if I'm neither

shocked nor comforted by that.

Delia and Brittany must have
been over at my friend's house.

Your friend's house?

When Brittany tells
me she's at Delia's

I assume she's under
your supervision

not that of some stranger
who leaves her whosie-whatsies

right out for all
the world to see.

Oh, first of all,
her whosie-whatsie

was under her bed.

- Is this a joke to you?
- No, of course not.

But I do think you're
overreacting a little bit.

I mean, they are just kids.

Right, and I would like
mine to remain so

for another five years,
at least.

I understand. Look, I thought
the whole thing would blow over.

I should have talked to Delia
the first time she found it.

The first time? Unbelievable!

I'm sorry, I can't let Brittany
play with Delia anymore.

Please don't do that.
That's not a solution.

For the moment, it's the only
one I can come up with.

I'm sorry, Dr. Brown.

Missus..

[door closes]

Clark..

(Andy)
'I mean, I can't tell you
how embarrassing it was.'

Do you have any idea
what it's like

to have another parent find you
in the middle of the workday

and scream at you about
something like that?

Well, I'm guessing
it feels a lot like this.

I mean, I don't even know
what to do about it now.

Delia may lose her best
friend over this.

I am so sorry, Andy.

But for the record, I told you
that if she brought it up

you should talk to her about it.

Instead, you said "Cheesecake."

It was a reflex!

And for the record

I shouldn't be having to
deal with any of this!

- She's only 10!
- "Only?"

I mean, if you're this upset now
what are you gonna do

when she starts asking
the really big questions?

Oh, I will handle that
when the time comes.

Don't you worry about that.

- Oh, are you sure about that?
- Yeah.

Because it's completely
out of your hands.

There's rumors
on the school bus.

There's gossip
from the older kids.

There's lots of vague questions.
There's half-truths.

And you don't get
to set the schedule

for any of that
to suit your comfort level.

It doesn't work that way.

Okay, you want to
be honest about this?

Let's be totally honest, okay?

This whole thing
is your fault.

This situation
that I am in right now.

This position
I am in right now

wouldn't be happening
if you didn't have this

this, this need to, to..

Didn't have the need to what?

Oh, come on. You know what!

- Can you not even say the word?
- I can say the word.

I don't need to say the word!

Just take that thing and stick
it in your car or-or lock it up

whatever, but just keep it away
from my daughter!

Lock it up? Are we talking about
my massager or my sexuality?

Oh, here we go. Let's just make
it all about you.

It is about me!

I am sorry if my needs
as a woman

conflict with your needs
for a babysitter!

But guess what, Andy, I haven't
had sex in almost a year.

I'm getting a little antsy,
if you want to know the truth.

No. I don't want
to know the truth!

I don't want to know it.
I don't need to know it!

I-I don't like to be thinking
about you as a woman

when I'm trying to talk to you!

In fact, I don't like to think
about you like that ever!

[dramatic music]

I'm sorry, that-that
didn't come out right.

Look-look can we...can we just,
you know, figure this out?

You figure it out.
I got to go back to work.

(Hannah)
'So you never even
gave it to her?'

How could I?
After one of those tickets.

My pathetic attempt
at a love letter?

- It wasn't epic enough?
- Not even close.

Maybe I'll just wait
until I'm 40, buy her a car.

Amy!

I, uh, I
looked for you at lunch.

Oh, yeah, I was
in the dance room

working on pirouettes
with the girls.

[bell ringing]

Oh.

Um, so, I was thinking about

what you said about me
joining the paper.

I-I know you're trying
to help make me more popular.

which is unbelievably
nice of you, but..

The thing is,
it's never gonna happen.

[sighs]

What?

It's just you keep saying how
you've never had any friends but

I have been trying harder than
I ever have before to be that.

Granted, I haven't had to make
a new friend since kindergarten

so I'm probably going about it
completely the wrong way, but..

God, Hannah,
you are so shut off, it's scary.

It's because I don't want the
whole world reading my journal--

I don't care about that.

If you don't want everybody

reading your writing
that's fine, I get it.

I just didn't think I was
the same as the whole world.

You're not.

Since you got here, I have
shared so much stuff with you.

You know about Colin,
you know about everything that's

going on with me and Ephram

and...I don't even know
your middle name.

I know we haven't known
each other for a very long time

and I'm probably
pushing this friendship

into something
it's not meant to be, but..

...I like you.

There's something strange about
you that I find interesting.

To tell you the truth,
you remind me a lot of Ephram.

[chuckling]
Really?

But..

...it won't work
if it's only one-sided

and I don't think you're really
comfortable talking to me.

No, that-that is not it.
I am just--

Shy?

I know, and I don't want you
to have to change who you are

just so that we can hang out.

I mean, we don't have
to be best friends

we can just be what we are,
like, acquaintance friends.

I'll see you later,
okay, Hannah?

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I still don't understand why you
didn't come to me with this?

Why would you go to
Dr. Hartman when I'm already--

Call it a conflict of interest.

You're a good man, Dr. Brown.

'If you knew about me,
I didn't think you'd be able'

'to keep it from my wife.'

And I don't need her
worrying about me

not...not now, you hear?

Bill, listen to me,
your heart is severely damaged

and will not recover.
You need a new one.

- It's as simple as that.
- It's a long shot, anyway.

Look, I signed up
for a transplant once..

After..

Look, I understand that you want
to be there for your wife.

But your daughter is
going to need a father

'when she's gone...
even more so.'

'She's going to have kids
of her own someday.'

And they deserve to get to know
their grandfather.

- What about those weddings?
- I hear what you're saying.

I know life will go on
when she's gone.

But it won't be the same.

It won't mean what it meant
when she was in it.

We've been through
everything together.

Damn good team.
Raised a fine girl.

We've been partners
for every bump along the road

every mountain
and molehill alike

and I am not gonna let that go.

Until forces bigger than me
snatch it away.

Now, she needs me to help her
fight these last few weeks.

When that battle is done

then I'll worry about myself,
but not one minute before.

When she's gone..

...I'm gonna need
a new heart anyway..

...'cause this one
will be broken into bits.

In six weeks, I'm yours.

Until then, I'm hers.

In six weeks,
I know some great surgeons.

Thank you.

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I cannot wait for the
next bighorn meeting.

Ralph Bigelow just phoned.

Oh, yeah,
what did he have to say?

I am not amused, Bright.
How could you not even show up?

You know, in your effort
to embarrass me

all you have done today is
close the door on something

that may have truly
benefited you.

An entire avenue
for your future just gone.

It was your future, not mine.

You know, I was merely trying
to affect some change

in your slippered march down
the path of least resistance.

No, what you merely did
was humiliate me.

Calling my manager
and changing my schedule?

You told me where, when, and why

to go meet some guy for some
job I didn't even ask for.

It's like you don't trust me
to decide anything for myself.

Well, you haven't exactly
inspired confidence of late.

Well, you know what?
I like my job.

It's working out okay.

Well, "Working out okay" isn't
what you should be aiming for.

'You had real goals
last year, Bright.'

You may have forgotten,
but I haven't. You worked hard.

Harder than I have
seen you work at anything.

- A lot of good that did me.
- It did.

You may not have gotten
into the colleges you wanted.

But you had a genuine passion
for your studies

'not just for the result,
but for the effort.'

I am trying, Bright.

I am trying...not to let

disappointment
get the better of both of us.

I am trying to help you attain
what you said you wanted!

Well, I don't know
what I want anymore.

So, what is so wrong
with me working

at a restaurant while
I try to figure that out?

I don't mind you working
at a restaurant.

I mind you going from fighting
to get an education

to complacently hustling
nachos for tip money.

'I mind you thinking
that it is okay'

to settle and foreclose
on your life.

For God's sake,
you don't even pretend

like you want anything more.

Do you want me to pretend?
You want me to lie to you?

That's great.
It's a lot easier that way.

I want you to wake up.

The clock is ticking.

You continue to clown around

waiting for your real life
to begin

it will pass you by
without so much as a wave.

What the hell is wrong
with you, man?

Do you think you can,
you can scare me

into knowing what
I want to do with my life?

I mean, don't you think
that if I had any clue at all

I would be on a plane
right this moment

headed as far away from
this house as humanly possible?

I wish I knew, okay?

'Believe me, I-I would love to'

figure it out
more than you even want me to.

Because until then,
I am stuck here...with you

which at the moment is the last
place on Earth I want to be.

[door slams]

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What the hell
happened yesterday?

- I'm sorry?
- My patient.

You talked to him, right?

Look, maybe you should
hear the whole story--

- So why did you cave, man?
- I didn't cave.

But we can't force him to
accept our recommendation.

There are other factors
involved.

What other factors
could possibly

be more important
than his own life?

You know what? Forget it.

I have already gone ahead
and submitted him

for the transplant list anyway.

And I've asked
the head of cardiology

at the Denver Hospital
to come talk to him.

It might take some doing,
but I'm gonna put up

a hell of a better fight
than you did that's for sure.

You have to understand
something.

It's different
being a doctor here.

No, it's not.

People get sick and die in LA.

People get sick and die in
Everwood. It's all the same.

We're supposed to try and keep
that from happening, remember?

There's nothing
different about it.

Maybe you came here to hibernate
take it easy for a little while

but I came here
to rededicate myself

to things that really matter.

This man's life,
that matters to me.

So, I'll take care
of it myself.

Well, good luck.

Hey.

Sorry to interrupt.

Um, I just wanted
to tell you that

I wrote a story
for "Jane Magazine"

and I was kind of hoping
you guys would read it

before I sent it in.

What's it about?

Uh, just some stuff that's
been going on this past week.

It's not very good, and I know
they're not gonna take it.

'So when I get
my rejection letter'

which I know I'm gonna get.

I'm...really hoping you'll be
there for me...with tissues.

Definitely.

'"Boy loves girl", that's
a great title, I like it.'

This, uh, seems
awfully familiar..

Especially the girl.

Is this about us?

I think it is, yeah.

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Did you really write me
a love letter?

Why? Then why didn't you
give it to me?

And did you actually
call it an addendum?

I wanted to give it to you.
I just..

It didn't feel special enough,
especially after your present.

Ephram..

I wanted to plan
our anniversary dinner

when I knew that it
was our anniversary

and I wanted to be able
to tell you that..

I loved you first.

You're stealing my mojo.

You have so much mojo,
you don't even know.

That's why you're so great.
That's why I--

- Don't.
- Sorry.

I love you, Amy.

You don't have to
say it back this time.

This one's all mine.

Behold.

Complete cutting-edge
podiatric care.

Guaranteed to gently
transport you

to a relaxing Oasis
of personal comfort.

You know, they actually make
these for feet. Who knew?

[laughs]
Wow.

It's your heaviest apology yet.

What brought you
around this time?

Oh, the usual..

regret...self-recrimination...

and one big realization.

'I didn't talk to Delia
about all this stuff.'

Not because I didn't know how
to although that's part of it.

I just knew that...
that conversation

would lead to another
conversation.

The big conversation...
and I just couldn't..

...bear the idea
of doing it alone.

You're missing Julia.

You know, I'm always thinking
about the times that I..

That I want her here.

Something funny will happen,
or something beautiful

and I'll think, "Oh, God,
Julia would love that."

'That's the daily stuff.'

Sometimes, I forget
that I actually need her here

for the big stuff.

You know, before we met, I had
no interest in being a father.

It was not part of my plan.

And when it came to the kids..

...it was always the "We"
that got me through everything.

Yeah, parenting is
a team sport that way.

Well, at least
it should be.

Well, I wasn't around
for a lot of it.

But whenever there really
was a crisis

we would talk
it through together.

We were a team and even if we
disagreed about something

'we always had
each other's backs.'

Now, I'm just...constantly
second-guessing myself.

If I had this little
confidence as a surgeon

I would have quit
a very long time ago.

Oh, well, some parents do.

Believe me,
I never would have signed up

for the solo routine either.

(Andy)
'It's crazy, isn't it?'

They always talk about
how much better

a two-parent family is for the
kids but they never talk about

how much better it
is for the parents.

I mean, it's hard enough to get

everything done
without any help.

But you add to that the, uh..

the emotional responsibility
and..

The daily fear of just
screwing everything up.

I know,
I'm convinced Sam is gonna

end up in major psychoanalysis.

[laughing]

Yeah, I-I think you should

give yourself more credit
though, Andy.

You got a couple of really
great kids over there.

Well..

I think all that credit
goes to her.

Oh, and, Nina,
that stuff I said earlier--

Oh, forget it.

No, no,
I...I didn't mean it.

I do see you, and...
you look very pretty today.

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- What is this?
- Rent.

Is $250 enough?

I can probably
swing $300, but...uh

This is unnecessary, Bright.

Not for me. I'll start
picking up more shifts.

Eventually, I should make enough
to be able to get my own place.

Sweetheart,
we should talk about this.

Thanks, mom,
but I'm all talked out.

[sighs]
I shouldn't have pushed.

Bright's just...spreading
his wings a bit.

A spark of independence
isn't a bad thing.

The truth is, he's gonna have
to make these decisions himself

and he's going to make
mistakes along the way.

I know. You're right.

God, I've handled
this all so badly.

"We."

We're in this together,
remember?

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[sighs]

Is this gonna take
more than an hour?

'cause I've got long division
waiting upstairs.

Sweetie, you're at an age

where you're curious
about things, personal things.

You mean sex?

Um, yeah, I mean sex.

I already know what sex is.

Really? Okay.

But you're going to start
to hear things, more things

and it's natural and healthy
to have questions about them.

And you just need to know
that it's okay to come to me

or to Nina if you need answers
to those questions.

That's right.
I mean, you can come to me.

If you get curious about stuff.

Good. Then I have a question.

I figured you might.

That thing I found under your
bed...was that for sex?

You know how you have
long division

waiting for you upstairs?

You're changing the subject.

No. No, I'm not.
Work with me here.

Long division, you're pretty
good at it, aren't you?

Best in my class...except for
Vanessa, but she's crazy smart.

Were you good at it
last year or two years ago?

I didn't even know what
long division was back then.

But you do now,
because you're ready

and that's how it is
with everything else in life.

Some things you just have
to be older to understand.

If you try to figure
them out too soon

you just get more confused.

Does that make sense?

I guess.

Do I get another question?

Hit me.

Why do some people say
"Make love"

and other people say "Have sex?"

Do you do the same stuff?

Well, now that's..

That's a really good
question, actually.

When people are in love they
want to express that feeling.

♪ It's a long way up
It's a long way down ♪♪

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