All language subtitles for Cvet u proljece.s02e04

Before we operate,

we place drapes
over our patient,

exposing only the area
where we'll be working.

They not only help us focus
on what we need to see,

but they keep the field clean

and minimize debris
getting in the way.

Incoming!
And I don't have a lot of time.

Do you want to use one of our
other three bathrooms to vomit?

Shh!

I feel decent for the first
time in weeks, so don't jinx it.

Oh, and don't forget we have
our first OB appointment today.

I thought
that was after work.
It is.

So what's the rush?
Well, the kids
are still asleep,

my charts are done,

and I've got just enough time
for a quick shower.

How quick?

If it's too quick,
I'll kill you.

Drapes are specialized to fit
the needs of various surgeries.

The challenge comes

when there's a complication
under the drape.

Oh, and we switched
to a new EMR.

Now you select
the medication on top

and then scroll all the way down
to enter the dosage.

Makes no sense.

Medication up top.
Dosage on the bottom. Got it.

And you only allowed
two pairs of scrubs now.

It's all automated.

Miranda,
I've been a resident before.

I'll be okay.
You're not nervous?

No, I feel great.
It's like coming home.

Dr. Bailey, welcome back.

Yeah, welcome back
to the both of you.

Oh, Warren, do --
do you know a Dr. Ndugu?

Are you kidding? I tore up
the dance floor at his wedding.

My moves were
basically a meme.

I was like, "uh, uh!"

How's Catherine?

Oh, feeling better
every day,

especially now that we know the
biopsy results were negative.

Thank God.
She wants to throw a party.

Caviar and champagne,

and not the kind you get
from your regular grocery store.

Well, I'd expect no less.
Send her our best.

-Will do.
-Okay.

This...
means stop talking.

What?
Ndugu and Pierce
are getting a divorce.

-Oh.
-Aw.

When the body's draped,

we can't see something going
pale or a leg turning blue.

I refuse to be late
on Bailey's first day back.

Tell that to the guy who took
a 20-minute shower.

Says the guy
who doesn't live there.

Hey. There was a fistfight
on my bus.

I thought I was gonna
be late.

Hey.
Where's your sister?

We want to meet
your mini-Mika.

Late, and we're not
alike at all.

When we can't see
the whole body,

we might miss a telltale sign
something's gone wrong.

Thank you.

Sorry.
I left my phone on the plane,

and the line for the bathroom
was really long,

and then Dumbledore missed
the freeway exit.

My rideshare driver looked
just like him.

I couldn't see it.

Yep.
Not alike at all.

That's Lucas,
a.k.a. Skywalker,

Simone, Blue, and, uh, Jules.

Hi.

This is my youngest sister,
Chloe.

I have cancer.

Don't be late for Bailey.

We'll see you later.

Come here.
It's gonna be okay.

Dr. Webber is the best.

We'll figure this out.

Come on.

Huh?

Here is
the overnight roster list.

You need to follow up
on Ms. Borgman's CT,

and there are two rule-out
appy consults in the ER

waiting for ultrasounds.

Good morning to you, too.

Not all of us
just spent two weeks in Paris.

Clearly. Mm.

This is nothing like
a café crème.

Will you just take this
so I can go home

and face plant
onto my pillow?

Morning.
Good morning.

I mean, uh, hi.
I -- Hey.

This is James,
the hospital chaplain.

Enchanté.

Taryn.

You work nights?
I work when I'm needed.

Is that from
the coffee cart?

Oh, no.
I drink French now.

It's, uh, Le Gateau Jolie
down the street.

Okay.

I could use
some coffee.

Would you want
to go for a walk?

Oui.
Oh! That's French
for "yes."

Nice to meet you.

Welcome back, boy.

So Bailey's her husband's boss.
Is that allowed?

Oh, one of your aunts
is head of the neuro department,

and your other aunt's name
is on the building.

Heron hired him
before she left.

Everyone says
he's impressive.

Bring it.
You all slow me down.

Oh, my God.
He's not your competition.

He's a fourth year
on a trial basis

until the ACGME
approves him to stay.

Well, there's a finite number
of people

who can fit around
an operating table.

Everyone is my competition,
including Mr. Dr. Bailey.

Uh, it's Warren, actually.
Ben Warren.

Looking forward to working
with you again, Dr. Kwan.

I see you've met
Dr. Warren.

Yes, he is my husband.

No, he will not be getting
special treatment.

As for the rest of you,

any bad habits you picked up
while I was gone -- lose them.

You have four months left
in your intern year.

I want you sprinting
to that finish line.

Understood?

All right.
Helm has your assignments.

Any problems, she'll be happy
to hear about it.

Get to work.

Okay, Griffith is with Ndugu.
Warren and Kwan, to the pit.

Adams and Millin with me.

Ah.
Oh.

Dr. Agana to PEDS ICU.

Dr. Rachel Agana...

100 unread e-mails
after operating all night.

Why do I like this job again?

Were you in the OR?
Yeah.

Nasty bus accident
at the airport.

I was called in around 4:00.
Kids are at my mom's.

Oh, no.
Why didn't you call me?

I didn't want to disturb you
while you were in surgery.

What's wrong?
I had muffins and bagels
delivered to the house

because you've been
on the morning routine so often,

I wanted to take care
of breakfast for you.

You should have
said something.

It was supposed
to be a surprise.

Do you think that your mom could
go over there and grab them?

I am in
back-to-back meetings,

and Richard wants
the quarterly budget report

before it goes
to the board.

Sounds like
you need a break.

That is the opposite
of what I need.

Trust me. I had your job.
You have to pace yourself.

This job is very different
than the job

you had 10 years ago,
but, um, thanks for the tip.

I'm just trying to help.

I have to go fire
an anesthesiologist.
Okay.

Uh, you said
we'd be saving lives.

I said you'd be helping
to save lives.

You are contributing to one of
the most memorable experiences

in a medical student's
education,

providing the opportunity
to learn human anatomy

while developing
their own understanding

of what it means
to be human.

Uh, are those...
I hate this already.

Cadavers for Ander-Simmons's
med school anatomy lab.

We scan them
so students have images

to help them diagnose
how their cadavers died

during their anatomy-class
dissection.

Good luck.
Uh, you're
not helping?

Ce n'est pas
la mer à boire.

Pretty sure that means
"we're screwed."

Dr. Karascos to PEDS.

Dr. Vivianne Karascos to PEDS.

Dr. Ndugu.

Am I getting out of here
today?

This pneumonia's taking up
all of my field time.

I supposed to be out
blocking the half-time show.

Mr. Riley's a high school
band director.

You win the state championship
three times in a row?

Oh, come on, don't take
the fourth one away from me.

All right, well, we'll make
this quick so you can
get back to it, all right?

Dr. Griffith.
Darren Riley, 55,
history of smoking

and pulmonary fibrosis,
admitted for

multi-drug-resistant
gram negative pneumonia,

currently on seven liters
nasal cannula and Vanc-Zosyn.

Oh, there's music in the voice.
You sing?

No, but I marched
in high school.

Birds of a feather.

Which instrument?

Trombone.

Oh, former 'bone player
and a doctor.

That's not bad.
It's not.

SATs are low,
despite the nasal cannula.

Okay, uh, let's put him
on high flow

and then get him to CT.

Dr. Griffith's gonna take you
for some scans.
More scans?

We're doing everything we can
to get you out of here, okay?

Stay close.
No local family,

and his last ABG came back
borderline.

I reviewed your scans
with radiology.

There is some
suspicious-appearing
lymph nodes.

It's likely stage 3B
rectal cancer due to --

Wait. 3B?
I thought it was 2A.

Mimi, can you just
stop moving?

Sorry.

Okay.
Uh, what happens next?

Chemotherapy?
Radiation?

Correct.
Mm, surgery is a possibility,

depending on
the tumor's response.

Will I lose my hair?
It's possible.

What other side effects
are there?

Oh, it varies from patient
to patient.

Radiation often causes
impaired ovarian function.

There is nausea and fatigue,

and changes in mood
and weight are common, too.

I won't be able
to have kids?

We'll have you talk to
an OB/GYN about your options.

Do you have any other questions
for me?

How long does
chemo usually take?

Wait. So you went
from Wyoming to Raleigh

to St. Louis to Seattle?

There were a bunch of places
in between.

I-I did the whole global-nomad
thing before divinity school.

I've only ever lived here.

But you travel, right?

Well, I used to visit
my grandparents in Illinois.

Well, but then how did you
end up becoming a chaplain?

I grew up in Wyoming with two
devout Episcopal parents.

I-I love them,
but it was, uh, complicated.

Was it like a -- like a hard
coming-out thing or...?

No, not really.
Um, I'm an only child,

and I always felt this pressure
to be their everything.

And, uh, I don't know,
I needed space.

So left home,
never looked back.

And then they died.

I'm so sorry.

Yeah, I wish I had a more noble
reason for becoming a chaplain.

But truth is, I only
really found my faith again

because of grief, guilt.

Sometimes you have to
help yourself

in order to help others.

That's very poetic.

That's my mother.

She's a whole other
conversation.

You know, I have time.

Wanna get lunch?

Yeah.

I called up CT.

They know we'll be there
in two minutes.

They told us to come in
in Trauma One.

Warren,
nice to see you back

on this side
of the ambulance bay.

On a trial basis for now.
You back full time?

But don't go easy.
I'm just another resident.

Well, uh, why don't you warm up
with some sutures?

We have a small thigh lac
in bed three.

I just gave her some lido.

And Kwan,
you can help him out.

After you.

Uh, Ms. Dunn.

I'm Dr. Warren,
and this is Dr. Kwan.

Judith is fine.
Not Judy.

Judy is my mother,
and she talks to her plants.

Judith it is.

So it says here you have
a cut on your thigh.

Let's take a look.
Roll over, please.

Okay.

Okay. Uh...

It's my own
dumb fault.
Oh.

Six-inch stilettos and tequila
don't mix.

Oh.
What was the occasion?

The tequila was
for my friend's birthday.

The heels were
for my new peach.

I got a BBL
two months ago --

a Brazilian butt lift.

Oh.
We're familiar.

Careful, Doctor.

All that drool
could stain your white coat.

No, no, no, it's, um --
it's not what you think.

Um, I grabbed
the wrong sutures.

Can you grab me
a 4-oh-monocryl?

Uh, I was just getting
a better future for your cut.

How are you feeling?
You need more lidocaine?

I don't feel the cut
anymore, but, ugh,

it's my hip
that's killing me.
From the fall?

I finally feel well enough to
take this booty out for a spin,

and now my hip's hurting
like hell.

Ah, it's probably
just bruising,

but we'll get some labs
and X-rays just to be safe.

Can you grab the labs and
I'll take care of the X-rays?

You got it, boss.

Oh!

Oh, why is it that everybody
who donates their body

to science weighs
like 800 pounds?

They don't. They just can't
change their center of gravity

like live people.
They're literally dead weight.

Okay. Can you -- Can you hold
your side up more?

I am.
He's sagging.

I don't think he cares.

Oh!

Well, the good news is, uh,
we only have 29 left of these.

What's the bad news?

He's on feet first.

Uh, Griffith?

How busy are you?

I'm almost done inputting orders
for Dr. Ndugu.

And then I should start rounds
in about 20 minutes.

Oh, uh, just enough time
to run to the pit.

You need something there?

There are a couple of patients
on Dr. Hunt's service.

Can you check on them
for me?

You need me to add someone
to my roster list?

Oh, no. No. Uh, just see
how things are going.

Like, check and see
if the patients

are satisfied
with their care here?

Um, you don't need to say
anything to them.

Just discreetly observe.

See how the patients
are doing.

See how the doctors...
are doing.

Got it. And then I should
circle back with you after.

Took the words right out
of my mouth.

We typically recommend
hormone-replacement therapy

for the loss of estrogen
production and fertility.

So that would allow me
to have kids later if I want.

Well, there's no guarantees,

but i f you want to increase
your chances,

many patients opt to retrieve
and freeze their eggs.

What do you think?

Uh, It'll take
at least a month

to do a round
of egg retrieval.

That's if your body responds
to the hormones correctly.

The cancer could spread to
a later stage during that time.

There are other options,
right?

At this time, egg freezing is
the most effective and common.

Okay.
Find something else.

Look at other
colorectal cancer cases.

Meet with your department.
Yasuda...

There has to be a way.

It's okay, Mimi.

I'm not sure I really
want kids anyway.

Warren,
nice to see you back.

What do we got?

Uh, 34-year-old female,
history of type-two diabetes.

Tripped and fell onto
her left thigh three days ago.

Sustained
a thigh laceration,

but has pain with weight bearing
that's getting more severe.

How are her labs?
Still waiting.

I just called
to put a rush on it.

You think it's
a hip joint effusion?

I couldn't tell you.
This is a lateral hip.

I need an AP view.

I-I don't know what happened.
I ordered an X-ray series.

Oh, the system is
a little funky.

You gotta go to the dropdown
to order the AP view.
Oh.

Hip joint effusions are
difficult to see on X-rays.

A CT scan would give
better visibility.

Kwan's right.
Page us when you've got it.

Mm.

You want me
to show you how --

No, I-I got it.
I got it.

-Oh!
-Oh!

-Whoa!
-Oh.

Are you okay?

Chloe's cancer is
more advanced than we thought.

I'm so sorry.

Webber asked Dr. Sugihara
to see her.

Chief of Oncology.
That's good.
It's terrible.

She has to start chemo
and radiation right away,

which means she doesn't have
time to protect her fertility.

Oh.
Does she want kids?

She's 22.

She doesn't know what she wants
for breakfast tomorrow.

She's the eighth
out of eight sisters.

She spent her whole life

getting dragged
to our practices, our recitals.

She only ever had
hand-me-downs.

Always had to watch us
on the roller coasters

because she wasn't
tall enough.

And now that she's finally
out of our shadows

and starting to live
her own life...

this.

Her future should be
wide open,

not limited
by an awful disease.

Well, at least
she'll still be alive.

What is that
supposed to mean?

Nothing. I'm just trying
to look on the bright side.

My sister has cancer.
There is no bright side.

But you wouldn't get that,
would you?

Because you don't
have sisters.

You have one brother who thinks
celery juice changes lives,

and you don't even
like him.

So please don't pretend to
understand what this feels like.

You never will.

No. No way. You're living
in complete fantasy.

You asked my opinion.

Well, I wasn't expecting
it to be wrong.

I am a man of science.

I don't know what else
to tell you.

The Millennium Falcon
can go faster than light.

It has hyperdrive.

That thing breaks down
more often

than my mom's
old Ford Taurus.

It made the Kessel Run
in under 12 parsecs.

The Kessel Run
tests navigation, not speed.

The Enterprise is
exponentially faster.

How do you figure?
Warp 1 is
the speed of light.

Even the original Enterprise
went up to Warp 5.

Who are you?
So you would rather be
the captain

of the Enterprise
than Han Solo?

Obviously.

Do you want to go back
to my place?

Obviously.

Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.

I thought you were
on cardio today.

I am. I had to run
downstairs for something.

Well, I'm, uh...

glad I got to see you.

Mm.

Hi.

Can I ask you
a hypothetical question?
Yeah.

If you were asked to review
a colleague's performance

and they made
an inconsequential mistake,

would you mention it?

Are we getting
peer reviewed?

No, more of
a informal observation.

Will they get in trouble?
I don't think so.

Okay, so, uh,
nothing major went wrong,

and there are
no consequences.

I think you
answered my question.

How's your project
with Helm?

Is it something fun?
Deathly boring?

Definitely the latter.

Mm.

Your sister went outside
to get some air

and call your parents.

Oh.

Colorectal cancer
and fertility studies.

Just educating myself.

I know you want things
to be better for Chloe.

She's my sister.

And you're also a surgeon.

We like to believe we can solve
everyone's problems.

I really thought
there'd be other options,

but Wilson's right.

You know...

I've seen a lot of cancer
patients in my career.

And no matter
the type or stage,

the treatment process --
it's grueling.

Some people say
the side effects of it

or just as horrible
as the cancer itself.

Everyone has
the same questions,

and they reckon with
the same concerns.

Cancer is universal
that way.

It's universal.

What if I can find a precedent
for protecting fertility

when treating other cancers?

Then I'd be willing
to bet it's relevant

to colorectal cancer, too.

Oh, Jo. Jo.

Ben Warren.
Oh, my God!

You missed me, I missed you.
It's great to be back.

I just gave someone a heparin
drip instead of prophylaxis.

How do I stop it?

Oh, yeah.
The new EMR system is confusing.

Okay, type in
the patient's MRN there,

and then you are
gonna click here.

-Okay.
-Here.

-Okay.
-You're done.

Okay.

I've had three careers.
You think I'd remember that

the first day
is always rough.

It'll get better.
Kwan is lapping me,

and he's only been a doctor
eight months.

You'll be fine.
You've been off fighting fires.

I went from splicing intestines
to delivering babies,

and I still have no idea
what day it is,

and I'm a constant mess.

Yeah?
What's new in your life?

Can you keep it a secret?

Yeah.

Yasuda, are you okay?

I need your help.

Okay.

Hey. Turkey burgers
from the cafeteria.

Listen, I think earlier
I might have, uh...

Insinuated that
you know the job better than me?

You're lucky I'm hungry.

Hey, would you ever get
a butt lift?

Uh, no, no, no, no, no,
I'm not suggesting --

you are --
you are perfect.

But there's a woman
in the ER.

She just had one,
and, uh, I don't get it.

What don't you get?

Well, it's a surgery with risks,
and why?

So you can wear
different clothes?

Wait. You think that
this woman underwent anesthesia,

had surgeons cut into her
glutes, suck fat from her belly,

and put it back in her butt

just so that she could
wear different clothes?

I mean,
why else would she do it?

Let me break it down
for you.

The world that you live in,
where you do a good job

and you get rewarded
for it --

that is not the world
that women live in.

In our world,
you can be smarter,

you can work harder,

but the prettier person
who has a more desirable body

most always gets ahead
because

the people who decide that
are almost always men.

So before we rush to judge
the woman for being so desperate

that she underwent surgery
to change her body,

maybe we should think about

how our culture prioritizes
the wrong things

and think about
how we can change that.

I was just asking.

And I was just answering.

Sorry.
I have to take this.

Um, thank you
for the burger.

Yeah. No.
Um, I want to review that.

I never thought I'd say this,

but I am missing Pearl.

Is that your partner
or your friend?

My booty pillow.

These cheeks could use
a good cushion.

Are you in more pain?

A little.

Well, the scans will be quick,
so just try to sit still.

I know what you're thinking.

Trust me.

My family gave me grief
for getting surgery, too.

But for 30 years,
no one blinked an eye at me.

I was a sidekick
with a pancake butt.

But then overnight,
I became the star.

I've never felt
more empowered in my own skin.

Forget the jobs
that work from home

and the movies
on the couch.

I'm planning on taking
this beauty all across town.

Oh, the labs are in.

White count is 18,000.
That can't be right.

Are you sure you're
looking at the right value?

Yeah, I'm more than familiar
with our lab results system.

If you want to rerun them,
I'll let Dr. Hunt know.

These numbers are
off the charts.

Scans are up.

You see that?
Extensive signs of infection

to the muscle
along the fascial planes.

Are we done?

Judith, I'm gonna have
to check your hip again.

May I?
Yeah.

Is that...
Necrotizing fasciitis.

Someone help me
with this gurney?

What's going on?
What's happening?

You have a fast-moving
soft-tissue infection.

But don't worry.
We're faster.

I need you to page
the attendings and book
an OR right now.

On my count.
One, two, three.

I like that painting.

Get to wake up to the sunrise
even when it's raining.

I thought you were gonna say,
even in the middle of the day,

Mm. That, too.
Mm-hmm.

I, um...

I got it at
an Italian restaurant.

Is it Nicoletti's?

No, it was a little cafe
in Cortona, Italy.

I was going through
a rough time,

so I booked a redeye
to Florence.

And I told myself I would visit
every art museum

between there
and Vatican City.

I strained my neck,
gazing at Michelangelo's work

in the Sistine Chapel,
and, uh...

I don't know.
When I saw that sunrise,

it lifted something up
in me.

So I asked the restaurant owner
if he would sell it to me.

You know how sometimes
you just...

feel a strong
connection?

I do.

Page me as soon
as his ABG gets back.

Dr. Ndugu's asking.

Dr. Griffith?

So how was everything
with the patient in the ER?

Things seem smooth?

Everything appeared
in control.

I don't think you have anything
to worry about on the case.

Wait. You think
or you know?

Are we talking about
Big-Booty Judy, or -- right.

Look, um, it's not that
I don't think he will succeed.

Um, I also want to
make sure

that he has an objective
experience,

the same treatment
as everyone.

And if I go down there,

my appearance in the room
takes away that objectivity.

I can spare
another five minutes.

Thank you.

So you'd move my ovaries
into my abdomen?

We'd move them up and attach
them to the abdominal wall

so they're out of the field
of radiation.

Has this been done
before?

Ovarian transposition
is often used to help

preserve the fertility
of cervical cancer patients,

but there's no reason
it couldn't apply to your case.

I'd be able
to have kids later?

There is a 50% to 80%
success rate.

That's better than zero.

And if we can preserve
your ovarian function,

then you likely will not need
hormone replacements.

This is great.
Thank you so much.

Thank your sister.
She's the one who thought of it.

Can we do this today?

That way I can start
treatment sooner,

finish my last semester
before my scholarship runs out.

I should totally do this
right now, right?

I mean,
just get it done?

Yeah, I'm gonna call
Mom and Dad first, but yes.

You want Dr. Weber
and Dr. Wilson

to be the ones to do it.

And you can be
in the operating room with me?

I can't, Chloe.
Family's not allowed.

Oh. Right.

Hey, think of it like one
of your cross-country races.

It'll be over
before you know it.

And I will be as close
as I can be, okay?

-Okay.
-Okay?

Okay.
Let's do it.

Do you always eat
when you're scanning patients?

Well, I mean, technically
he's not a patient,

and he's in a bag
and dead.

Oh, Yasuda's sister
is getting surgery.

Is it an emergency?

It doesn't seem like it.

They're waiting
for an OR to open.

What's going on
between you two?

Uh, nothing.

Oh.

Is that her?
No, it's Maxine.

Spaghetti and meatballs
for dinner.

Yasuda's not texting me.

She basically accused me
of having no empathy.

Well, her sister has cancer.
She's just stressed.

Well, you know what's not going
to make her sister get better?

Being mean to me.

Really?!

He can't hear me.

Heart rate's in the 140s.
Systolic's around 100.

We broadened IV antibiotics
and started low-dose norepi.

Judith, we're taking you
up to the OR

to remove the infected tissue
and stop it spreading, okay?

You're gonna
take my butt?

The infection seems
to have spread to your glute,

but we won't know
till we get to the OR.

No, I want
a second opinion.

There's no time
for another opinion.

You have to trust us.

I don't understand.
I just fell on the sidewalk.

The bacteria must got in
through the cut on your thigh.

It's rare,
but it happens.

Do you know
what it's like to be invisible?

If there were
any other options,

we would tell you,
I promise, Judith.

Judith. Judith. Judith!

Damn it, she's septic.
Come on, come on, come on.

Okay, let's go!
Let's move!

Mr. Riley, hold on.
I got ya.

I need a hand in here!
Griffin!

He started crashing
a minute ago.

I need to intubate.
Push 30 of etomidate,

- 150 of sux.
- On it.

Where is Griffith?
I got the intubation tray.

All right,
let's get you some air.

Here we go.
Here we go.

Ah, come on.

Damn it! Help!

Helm, get in here!

I need you to apply
cricoid pressure.

There?
Higher.

There. You're right there.
Right there.

And I'm in.
Al right.

Come on.

Oh, his sats aren't improving.

We need to get him on ECMO
before the hypoxemia

puts too much stress
on his heart and he codes.

I need an ECMO machine
right now!

What happened?

He was intubated,
but he wasn't oxygenating.

You'd know that if you were
monitoring him like I asked.

I'm sorry. I ran down
to the emergency room --

I don't want to hear it.
Wait outside.

Helm, get the tube ready.

Okay.
I hit a pocket of fluid.

Suction.

Oh!

Oh, she's gonna be
devastated

when she wakes up
and it's all gone.

Well, at least
she'll still be here.

If we can work
fast enough.

I'm gonna need another
set of hands.

Warren, are you ready
to get in here?

Sure. Scalpel.

Good.
Quick and intentional.

I can help
if you need it.

Just keep up
with the suction.

Actually, you know,
I could use a hand in here.

Kwan, you wanna help break up
some of this tissue?

Yeah.

Oh, I see
healthy tissue.

Yeah, there it is.

Bleeding edges.
Nice work...boss.

Moving on to the superior
aspect of the thigh.

Last one.

Do you remember
your med-school cadaver?

Yeah. 68-year-old female,
lungs full of mets.

Uh, we assumed
she was a smoker.

Named her Marge
and decided she was a trucker.

Mm.
Mine was my grandma.

Uh, wait. You, uh, dissected
your grandmother?

What?
God, no. No, no.

My dad's mom died
before I was born,

and then my mom
really hated hers,

so I-I kind of grew up
without a grandma.

But we had been dissecting
our cadaver for weeks

before we finally took
the towel off her face.

And I remember looking at her
and thinking,

she could be my grandma.

And I just hoped
that she didn't feel...alone.

I hoped she felt that
she was surrounded by people

who truly appreciated her.

I, uh...I never
thought about it that way.

Yeah. And then we cut open
her neck and her head and...

finished it.

Um...could you transfer the
scans to the CDs by yourself?

There's something
I really need to do.

Yeah?
Yeah, okay.

Hey, any, uh, news from the pit?

How is he?

He's on ECMO
and stable,

but I don't know if he'll ever
breathe on his own again.

I'm so sorry.

What were you doing
in the ER

when my patients
are up here?

Please explain that
to me.

Oh, uh, w-why don't we
take a breath?

I'm breathing just fine.
Thank you.

I was checking on a patient
for a colleague --

In the ER?

Doctor Ndugu --
Dr. Bailey, hold on.

If I can't trust you
to follow simple instructions,

I can't have you
on my service.
Dr. Ndugu...

I asked you to step in
because --
...I need a word.

in private.

Okay.

We're about
to start the anesthesia.

Are you ready?

Okay.
Wait.
Um, excuse me.

Is it all right if I...

Hi. I'm Jules.
We met this morning.

I'm one of the interns.

I know who you are.

Hey, I asked Griffith
to check on the patient

in the emergency room.

I didn't realize that your
patient was borderline critical.

She knew.
She should have said no.

I'm her boss, right?
It's not her fault.

Why -- Why did you send her
downstairs?

You're not working
there today.

I don't know.
I...

First day back
in a while.

I wanted to see
how things were going.

That's all.

Okay. Take it from the guy
who married

and then divorced
his boss.

Get out of
your husband's way.

I beg your pardon?

I'm saying at home
you need to be a team.

At work, let him be
his own person.

Hey. I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

The appointment was
at 5:00, right?

I know. I just got
so busy with patients,

I completely forgot.
You don't have to apologize.

DeLuca had to leave.
We were gonna see the baby.

Mm, we'll just reschedule.

Wait.
Come with me.

Judith,
how are you feeling?

You really have to ask?

You should be feeling
better soon.

We were able to remove
the infected tissue.

Yeah, we'll keep you in the ICU
for a few more days

to wash out the wound
and make sure

there's no more
necrotic tissue.

Okay, Trauma.
Kwan, come with me.

Uh, check on the cultures,
and we'll see you downstairs.

Judith, I will come
check on you soon, okay?

Ah.

I know it feels
like you're going back

to an old version
of yourself.

But I've learned when it feels
like you're losing ground,

you're still
moving forward.

Everything you've learned,
everything you've experienced,

it all comes with you.

I can't tell you what's
not coming with me.

The $8,000 I spent
on my butt.

No, but all that confidence
you gained after the lift --

we didn't take
any of that.

Are you saying
I have big-butt energy?

I'm saying all is not lost.

But if down the road you
decide you want reconstruction,

I know a great plastic surgeon
in Boston.

Now you're talking.

Get some rest.

She's doing well.

There were no complications,
and Dr. Webber says

she should be able
to go home soon.

I'm sorry
for what I said earlier.

Sometimes I can be
such a...

Thank you
for sitting with her.

You have no idea
how much that meant to her.

How much it meant to me.

Well, I knew
you couldn't do it, so...

didn't want her
to be alone.

Thank you for everything.

Well, I was glad to help.

Oh, it's not easy to watch
someone you love fight cancer.

They'll be days
you feel like

your heart's being
ripped to pieces.

Remember to take care
of yourself, too.

Thank you.

Hey. You still haven't finished
uploading all the scans.

Yeah, I know.

Adams,
they have this covered.

Hey, hey!
Show some respect.

These people donated
their bodies

so that future doctors
could learn

how to help others live longer,
healthier lives.

Okay, sorry.

I wanted to help.

Hey. Oh, aren't you supposed
to be getting the kids?

Yeah, well, I thought we could
grab a bite first.

Oh, I can, uh,
either eat with you

or feed the kids,
but I don't have time for both.

-Do you not feel this?
-Feel what?

Ever since we got rehired,

we haven't had
a single meal alone together.

We haven't had a conversation
that wasn't about surgery

or the kids' schedules
in almost three weeks.

Well, work has been busy,
but, you know,

we'll get back on track
eventually.

It's just...

feels like we're
not connecting, you know?

It feels like there's
something eating away

at this relationship.

And I know I stepped in it
more than once today --

No, it's --
it's not just you.

I feel it, too.

When a patient codes
in surgery,

the first thing we do
is remove their drape.

We need to see
if there's something we missed.

Is this a mistake?
Me being your boss?

When are you not my boss?

"Ben, can you take out
the garbage?

Ooh, ooh, babe,
kill that spider.

Ben, why haven't you changed
the light in the refrigerator?"

Oh, don't be cute.
You know what I mean.

We're professionals.

I'm not worried.

Okay, but if it ever gets
uncomfortable for you --

I will let you know.

I promise.

Hey.

Let's get home
so I can get some sleep.

Ah!

I have pre-rounds
before sunrise.

Welcome back, Dr. Warren.
Oh.

Much like in surgery,
sometimes in life

we lose sight
of the bigger picture.

Mimi.

Hey.

How are you feeling?

Tired.

And I kind of
want a donut.

Go back to sleep.
You need rest.

Mimi.
We will get donuts.

Thanks for everything.

I didn't do anything.

I couldn't even be
in your surgery, remember?

I meant as my sister.

Shh.
Close your eyes.

-Hi.
-Hey.

We brought things.

How's she doing?
Good.

She's already
asking about snacks.

That tracks.
Yeah.

Let you both sleep.

Thanks, uh,
for all the stuff.

We also took all of your shifts
for the next week

so you can spend time
with Chloe.

Thank you, guys.

When we're stressed
or worried,

it can be hard to see
the things that are going well.

And when we're floating
on cloud nine,

it's just as easy
to miss red flags.

Expanding our perspective
can give us a better,

more accurate view of ourselves
and the world.

I don't see anything.
Do you?

Mm. Just my intestines.
Stop moving it around.

Well, I still don't see
anything.

Oh, wait. Is that...?

Yeah.
There's our baby.

And there's
the heartbeat.

You don't see it,
do you?

You see it right there?

Oh, and also there.

Oh, my God!

Twins.
Twins?

It may end up being more than
you could have ever imagined.