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Gonna open it?

Can you front me a quarter?

Two puffs!

Come on, anything!

Some sedatives like last time?

Don't worry, I'll pay you back!

You got nothing for me?

Anything!

How about you? Got a cig?

A smoke?

Just one!

Good morning.

Hi, miss.

Got any change, miss? Have a nice day.

Got any spare change?

Seen Angie?

Evening, ma'am. Got any spare change?

Thanks anyway.

Hi! Got any change?

You're hard to catch today.

That's how it is.

You'd like to talk to me?

Yes.

Jimmy...

Why do you still put up with this?

I'm a little anxious, that's all.

Nothing unusual.

I live day to day.

It's my fault anyway.

What's your fault?

I live outside.

When you hit the streets, it's game over.

No one needs me, no one wants me around.

The kiss you gave me before I fell asleep,

when I was a baby...

was it a premonition?

A farewell kiss?

Come. - Then you left.

Come lie down.

That's why I dream about the glass of water...

and your last kiss before I go to bed.

We always sleep because reality is scary.

Demons and ghosts really exist.

They exist within us...

and sometimes they win.

Come here.

I'm your little puppy.

I'm just... your little dog.

Hi, Phil.

What's up, man?

You stopped taking my calls?

Cell phone's gone.

I sold it.

I've got nothing left, Phil.

I spent the night at the police station.

I'll tell you about it later.

At least you had shelter.

Hey, Phil...

Yeah?

Could you...

Could you front me some cash?

Till I get my check.

When are you gonna pay me back?

You were supposed to pay me Tuesday!

In four days? I get my check in four days.

You need it now?

I've needed it for a long time.

Got any spare change? Thanks.

Have a nice day!

Hello, sir, ma'am.

Got any spare change? Thank you.

Anything you can spare. Thanks, ma'am! Have a nice day.

Hello, sir. Have a nice day, sir.

Got any change?

Got any change? Have a nice day.

Sir...

Thanks. Good day.

Hi, Paul! Still at the office?

No, I'm in a car.

It's in the email I sent before I left.

Well, double-check. Otherwise I'll resend it.

OK, bye.

Two glasses of Burgundy, please.

No? - Yes, yes.

Right away.

We should go.

Right now? - No, I don't mean the restaurant!

I don't know, we should...

do something together, go away somewhere.

No?

Go away, maybe.

Nathan?

Sorry, I'm...

Are you OK? - Yeah.

I'd love to get away too.

For good, if you only knew.

If I only knew what?

I saw my brother today.

Did you talk to him? - No.

I saw him going down the street.

Thank you.

Thanks.

Were you able to look at the menu?

No, sorry.

I'll come back.

This must be the... third time you've mentioned your brother

since we've been together.

I thought he was dead.

You never know with him.

It's like your mom.

You never talk about her. - Anyway...

He got exactly what he deserved!

Sorry, I don't know why...

No, it's fine.

How was your day?

Through the speculum, I can see your cervix.

It's going to twinge a little.

I'm going to start dilating, OK?

I'm about to begin. Tell me if it hurts.

Put your hand on your stomach to soothe the cramps.

Phil...

How are you, man? - I knew you'd be here.

Word gets around fast. - Gimme my cash.

Your cash?

In two days, man. I get my check in two days.

Gimme my fucking cash, I need it!

Where's my cash?

Where's my fucking cash?

That's all I have.

Christ, go for it!

Jimmy?

I'm Dr. Aissaoui.

Do you feel sleepy?

No.

The cops who brought you here want me to talk to you.

What's wrong, Jimmy?

Huh? - What's wrong?

What day is this?

I'm hungry.

I'm hungry. - You want to eat something?

Would you like to talk to your dad?

My dad? - Yes.

I found his number in your file.

I don't know.

I'm fucking cold.

How did you end up here?

My dad's got nothing to do with it.

Why?

There's not enough space for us both here!

It's either him or me.

What makes you say that? - He's a liar!

How so?

She exists!

I saw her!

Who?

I can see her!

Jimmy... Jimmy!

Jimmy!

Stéphanie!

Yes?

I'll have something to eat.

You can leave afterwards.

Take the rest of the day off. - OK.

Got my stuff?

What are you waiting for?

Beat it!

Jimmy!

Jimmy!

Aren't you tired?

Yes.

But if I walk...

and walk...

and walk...

I don't think about it.

It's like...

somebody's pushing me along.

Like... being pushed along with other people.

And you see nothing else.

Yeah.

Just like here.

It doesn't really matter.

You walk...

Why didn't you take me when you left?

I couldn't.

Your dad isn't a bad guy.

He only likes Nathan.

Not me.

I deal with it.

It's always been like that...

since you left us.

You should tell them it's not my fault.

It's not your fault!

Your dad wanted to fence me in,

to cut me off from everything.

That man gave me everything I could have ever wanted.

He loved me, but in the wrong way.

With him, I stopped living.

I faded away in his love and possessiveness.

I had to raise you, shut up and obey.

So I left.

But you deserve better.

That's what makes me so sad.

That's why I come back.

For you.

Who are you crying over?

You bailed on us.

I'm crying over you.

Over Nathan.

Look at me, Jimmy.

Look right at me.

Go see your dad.

You need to talk before it's too late.

How much do you want to get lost for good?

I didn't come for that.

I came to talk to you.

Stop talking nonsense!

How much do you want?

Nothing.

I just want to talk to you.

You stink!

It reeks of your shit in here!

Go wash up.

Leave that!

This is ridiculous!

Shut up.

How old are you again?

37.

You look... 10 years older.

Is that why you came back?

To wipe your dad's ass?

No.

Just go. I don't need anyone.

You just had to man up

if you wanted to make me happy.

We all get good and bad stuff from our parents.

Me, I just got the bad.

You're wrong!

You got everything and you let it go to waste.

Try to be a bit more like your brother.

What did you want to tell me that was so important?

Why do you keep lying?

What?

Mom.

Why did she leave?

Why don't you ever talk about it?

Tell me about her.

Your mother doesn't exist anymore.

You can't just blot her out.

She's the one...

who sent me here.

You see her?

She follows me.

She appears to me.

She appears to you?

Talk to me honestly.

Tell me about my mother.

About you two.

No lies.

Why did she leave?

She had so much anger.

Against you?

Yes, against me.

Against everything!

That love...

was sheer hell!

We were always clashing!

Confrontations like this one.

She...

She had these eyes...

these amazing eyes.

I see her beautiful face as if she were still here.

One night she came back... after two days.

Maybe more, I don't remember.

It was the last straw.

I went nuts.

I threatened her.

With your gun?

She was holding you against her like a shield.

You were just a baby.

She smiled at me.

She was defying me.

Nothing scared her.

She put you to bed.

Then she walked past me to get her coat by the door.

She left without turning back.

She left you two behind.

She left everything behind her...

to go to California.

That's it.

And then what?

A year...

A year later, she reached out to me.

She called me.

Then she called again.

She wanted to see you two.

She needed...

She needed money.

I...

I never called her back.

I never heard from her again.

Why'd you do that?

I don't know!

Jimmy...

Don't say a word to Nathan.

Why?

It's better if... if he doesn't know about it.

Why should I care about him?

Hush now.

Make peace with him.

It's different now.

You know what happened.

You cannot drive!

You can't drive in your condition, Jimmy!

Don't bug me!

Lend me your car keys!

I won't keep it for long! - No.

Out of the question!

He seemed...

He seemed to be doing better,

but he's been like that for an hour.

Do you need anything?

If I need anything?

A glass of water or-- - Who are you?

Get dressed, we're taking you back to town.

So you're here?

I thought you were dead!

Go to my car! - What?

Go out to my car!

Why'd you let him in?

Did you give him money? - No.

He wouldn't take it. - How can you be so gullible?

His mind is shot! - Nathan!

That's enough.

I stink, huh?

No.

My clothes stink.

I took a shower.

My bro will have to get his nice car washed.

Are you his new girlfriend?

We've lived together for six years.

Six years! - Yeah.

I don't remember you.

We don't live in the same area.

No, we don't pass each other that often.

It's better that way.

You don't have any kids, I hope.

Jimmy...

Talk to your brother.

He hates me.

Hand over your phone.

Why?

You don't get that from the convenience store.

Hi, it's Jimmy.

Are you home?

Thanks.

Give me $80 worth.

I didn't know what to say.

You have to consider what they know, what they're scared of,

and what they understand about their condition.

Patients can be complicated sometimes.

You should know.

I couldn't tell him, "Your heart is inoperable,

you have six months left, bye!"

You have to... sugar-coat the truth.

I was stuck for words...

like a beginner.

When did it happen?

Yesterday.

Why this patient?

You've been in that situation dozens of times.

I don't know.

There's always hope.

Hope is a cancer!

Before, surgery was my whole life.

Before what?

Operations I used to do in five hours now last seven.

Why am I telling you this? - That's my role.

Martin took me aside yesterday.

He'd just had lunch with you.

Martin tends to exaggerate.

I guessed you just separated from your wife.

We break up, we get back together. It's almost routine by now.

It's easy when you don't have kids.

You live alone right now?

At the hotel.

I need to think things through.

Why?

I can't sleep, I have a short fuse...

Sometimes it feels like I'm the only one who can't cry...

or burst out laughing.

Still, saying everything's fine is as stupid as saying what's wrong.

Are you sure about that?

It's not Juliette's fault I'm at the hotel.

Why, then?

It's a long story. - Nathan...

We've been here for an hour.

Another 10 minutes won't break the bank.

My brother resurfaced a month ago.

He even sees my dad from time to time.

I didn't know you had a brother.

I rarely talk about him.

Is he younger? - Yeah.

He was a late arrival, an accident.

And he's the one who set all this in motion?

If you like.

We don't really get along.

Since day one.

He makes me sick.

If he wasn't my brother...

What's your real name?

Come on!

Cynthia?

That's a floozy's name.

Don't move.

Yeah.

We're not talking price first?

OK, get in.

Is he coming?

Did you call him?

I'm his brother!

What are you doing here? - I've never done it before.

I never asked Nathan for anything.

But now, I have to...

I have to score.

I have nothing left, man!

It's Ativan.

That's all I have.

Thanks.

Nathan's not here?

No.

I... I haven't slept in three days.

You can't stay here.

Here.

We have a guestroom.

I stink like hell.

I'll be fine here.

And I don't want...

when Nathan sees me...

He doesn't live here anymore.

You can take a shower tomorrow.

Thanks for the pills.

It helped.

Here...

Your parents were good-looking.

I'm leaving. - No, I didn't mean--

I have to go.

You need more dope? - Yeah.

The Ativan wasn't strong enough.

You'd all be happy if I croaked, huh?

But dying is hard.

I OD'ed three times last year.

Three cardiac arrests.

You've got a strong heart!

Thanks for letting me stay the night. And for everything.

I'm leaving you in your concentration camp.

Would you...

Would you like some clean clothes?

I could look through Nathan's things.

No.

Tell the bro I didn't take anything.

I didn't mess anything up or touch his pretty little wife.

I don't know where he is.

You deserve better.

Why do you say that?

Because Nathan will never be able...

to give you what you deserve.

It runs in the family.

There's no love here.

Get a life!

Hello, leave a message.

Hi, it's me.

This is my fourth message, I think.

We should talk.

Why'd you leave without a word?

It's crude, Nathan.

There's no other word.

I don't feel like reaching out anymore.

You never wanted to be in love with me.

Not with me.

I want to sell the apartment, I have other plans.

Call me back.

Nathan...

What?

Do you love me?

Yes.

You don't seem too happy about it.

Nathan, I...

I'm pregnant.

Are you happy?

Are you?

It's quite a surprise.

Dad will be beside himself.

Sit!

Release!

Release! Release!

Sit!

Go fetch!

Come on!

Here! Here! Here!

Yeah!

Release, boy! Release!

Where'd you come from, huh?

Where'd you come from, you mutt?

Release! Release!

Yeah!

Hey, stay here!

Come back, you fucking dog!

Come back or I'll kill you!

What are you doing here?

Christ, you scared the dog!

Is it yours?

No.

It came out of nowhere.

What are you doing here?

Jimmy!

I saw your wife in the car.

She's with Dad.

You two got back together?

What do you mean?

Nothing, just asking.

What's going on with you?

I came to see Dad. - To take advantage of him?

I needed to leave the city for a bit.

You're not using anymore? - I'm making do.

Making do how? Is Dad paying for your dope?

I have my welfare check.

Shit.

Shower, you smell like a corpse!

My beautiful Juliette!

Is Nathan with you?

No, he's with Jimmy.

This is turning into quite a family reunion!

An unexpected one, mind you!

This will be a first for you. - Yes.

Let's make the most of it.

Hi, Dad.

How do you feel today?

Bah...

Can I do anything for you? - No, no.

Nathan...

What?

Why did Juliette go outside?

No idea.

The corpses... the corpses...

One by one...

Jimmy?

Did you hear me talking?

Yes, I think so.

It...

It happens.

I start talking to myself.

That's how I vent.

It's a good idea.

How do you like it here?

What was it like where you grew up?

OK. A mother and father, a little brother.

A normal family? - Yeah.

What are you doing?

What are you doing? No!

He said I stank, I'm gonna fucking wash up!

That's not funny, stop!

Just kidding!

You should've seen your face! - Yeah, but...

Come.

Thanks.

Thanks.

Here you go.

You know, your brother cleared out the underbrush yesterday.

Great.

As I mentioned to Juliette...

we're rarely all together here.

Mom's not here.

You'll be happy, Dad.

Juliette is pregnant.

That's wonderful!

You...

You have my blessing. - Thank you.

It had to happen someday.

When is it due?

I just found out... In eight months.

Nathan...

You're really lucky to... to have Juliette.

I know.

Jimmy!

Aren't you going to congratulate them?

Congratulations.

Let's break out the champagne, kids!

Stéphanie!

Bring the champagne, please. - Yes.

I know that...

it can't be easy to have me here with you,

with the baby and all.

That's not true! - So I'll go.

No, sit down!

You're staying here!

With us.

You'll soon be parents.

A baby!

I'm sorry, this might not be the best time, but I...

I'd like to talk...

about the future.

I often think about it.

All the time, in fact.

One day, Stéphanie's help won't be enough.

I'll have to put an end to this.

And I want to make sure...

everything goes smoothly.

I'm not 30 anymore.

Dad...

I'm sorry to...

to cast a shadow over this wonderful news.

I'm sorry, Juliette.

Fuck, she's pregnant and you yap away about your condition!

Don't make it worse, OK?

We have to talk about it.

About my inheritance.

I'm thinking of the baby too.

I don't want anything, let them have everything.

I want nothing from you!

Jimmy...

Jimmy, try to face the truth.

Forget the last 30 years,

forget everything.

Go to rehab and stick it out for once.

Get your act together.

This'll be your one chance to get an inheritance.

Dad's right, we need to have a family meeting.

What about Mom?

And there's something I don't get.

Why a baby?

Why?

What happened?

Why a baby here?

There must be a fucking reason.

What's the reason?

She never asked you to give her a baby!

No way!

I'd be surprised if she asked you to give her a kid!

Very surprised.

She knows what we're like.

She wouldn't bring a child into that environment.

It must be an accident.

Like me. Huh, Dad?

I was an accident too.

Just a fucking accident! You told me often enough.

Ah, Jimmy! - You won't shut me up like that!

It won't work. Huh, Dad?

Ghosts always come back.

They always come back! - Get out!

Just like Mom came back!

Mom?

Yes.

We see each other, you know.

How'd you manage to forget her, man?

You don't miss her?

You know she...

She tried to see us.

But Dad didn't let her.

He didn't want to help her.

He told her no.

Just because she wanted to live her life!

Sorry, Juliette.

Sorry for ruining your party.

But there's one thing I hope,

just one thing...

with all my heart!

Do you know what it is?

I hope that baby's nothing like us! Nothing like us!

Nathan, stop! Stop!

I was at boarding school when my mother left.

I was 13.

I never knew why she left.

Dad never wanted to tell us.

He just never talked about it.

It was taboo.

Why?

To protect us, I think.

I started boarding school fairly young.

I went to camp every summer.

I didn't know her that well.

She and Dad weren't a good fit.

One day she decided to follow her star and start over.

There was no place for us in her new life.

Why didn't you tell me?

Tell you what?

The truth. - I didn't even know the truth.

I was a teen.

I listened to my dad.

He lied to my brother and it didn't turn out too well.

I understand. - What?

Jimmy.

And you too.

How can I understand someone else...

when I don't understand myself?

I was my father's pride, as he'd say.

"My son the doctor, top of his class!"

That pride helped me to cope.

I tried to forget.

I thought it would finally fade away.

Where's your mom now?

I don't know.

No one knows.

Except Jimmy, maybe.

I think she's dead.

You can't just ignore this, you're 50 years old.

How does being 50 change anything?

I'm the little boy in the photo.

Juliette?

What?

Was I the first to know about the baby?

Why do you ask?

You didn't tell anyone before?

Why would I do that?

There's nothing you want to tell me

that I should know?

Did you tell Jimmy first?

Nonsense.

Who's the father? - You're the father!

You're being hurtful.

I'm leaving you tomorrow.

For good.

And the baby?

It's mine.

What are you doing?

I'm leaving.

You don't need me anymore?

About the cash...

I'll pay you back.

I added it up.

I'm gonna...

I'm gonna pay you interest too.

The only...

The only thing I ever got right...

was to have you for my kids.

I understand your disappointment.

I ruined everything.

Take care.

I hate farewells.

Don't touch me.

No!

No! Let go...

Get in.

Get in!

Come with me.

We're going for a little ride.

Get in!

Is that Dad's gun?

Shut up!

Don't do it.

Nathan!

You wanna see Mom?

What? - Do you wanna see Mom?

Yes.

How much do you have?

With this, Mom will come back.

Hi, Mom.

Mom... this is your son Nathan.

Nathan, say hi to Mom.

You abandoned me.

Yes.

I abandoned you.

Wake up!

Come on!

Wake up!

Breathe!

Come on!

Nathan...

Don't go.

Nathan...

Jimmy...

Jimmy.

I killed him.

What will you do?

I don't know.

You can come with me.

Where?

We'll never retrace our steps. That's over now.

We'll never settle down anywhere,

not until we've been all the way there.

It's your choice.

You can stay here or...

you can come with me.

Where are you going?

TO MY MOTHER