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Audrey!

Your diploma.

You worked very hard for that. Very proud of you.

(TELEVISION PLAYING)

Congratulations!

Thank you.

Okay. Let's go.

My perfect boyfriend would have to be really sweet.

And cute. He's got to look like...

Like Jesus, or Bob Marley.

And he has principles.

Like he would never listen to that crappy K-dude rock...

-And he'd smell like Jolly Ranchers. -Jolly Ranchers?

Apple Jolly Ranchers.

(LAUGHS)

Hey, call me Calista.

Calista. Come again?

I don't want to be Cindy anymore.

Call me Calista. I'm changing my name to Calista.

Calista.

Yeah. Isn't it sexy?

Calista Bliss...

It kind of sounds like a porn star name.

Awesome. I know.

(GIGGLES)

Licking morning visions that feel like crushed velvet...

Desiring a shadow drink with a peach aroma and purple mist.

A delicious moment for worshiping calm language...

And being ice.

That's fantastic.

It's about my dad.

How is he?

Bad.

He feels really bad about missing graduation, but,

it's all right. I didn't expect him to make it.

I didn't expect him to be able to handle that.

(DOG BARKING)

When I woke up this morning, my right arm felt all numb.

Like it felt fuzzy and I was...

Wigging out and sobbing and, I thought it was it.

But I'm fine. Calista...

Because I just slept on it funny.

It's just...

It was really scary.

I just get...

I just get so scared

because one of these days...

You know, it's not, I'm not just going to sleep on it wrong.

You know, I'm just going to succumb... That's how it is.

(SOBBING)

Please always be there for me.

(DOOR OPENS)

Hey. Hi, Dad.

(LAUGHS) Dad!

It's lopsided and belated...

But I thought it was an occasion that deserved a cake.

Well, it's awesome.

We'll have some when I get home, okay.

Okay. Cool.

(TELEVISION PLAYING)

Goodnight. Thank you, baby.

(MUSIC PLAYING)

Can we please change this music?

It's annoying me.

No. It's my turn to pick.

Come on, find some groove tunes so we could break it down!

Stop. I won't break it down.

You need me to give you a ride home tonight?

(SOFT MOANING)

(MOANING)

You don't smoke.

Who? Calista.

Cindy. She's Calista now.

Anyway, her doctor says that she can't smoke. So,

she asked me to start and see what it's like.

That's messed up.

The guru is having another drum circle on Saturday.

I can't go.

The guru? Why not?

A bunch of white guys with dreadlocks and bongos?

You are very close-minded. You know that?

-What are you afraid of? -I'm not afraid of anything. I just don't want to go.

Who? Cindy can come.

Calista. She can come.

I just don't want to go.

You could give me a ride home tomorrow if you want, though.

I just don't want to.

Okay.

I'm kidding.

Bye, Abraham.

I want to give you a ride home tomorrow.

Really bad.

Audrey!

You get a lot of mail, girl.

Thanks, Dreamer.

Good night. Good night.

(TELEVISION PLAYING)

Kiss your mom for me, baby.

(SIGHS)

We love you, Mom.

Thank you.

Hi. Hi there.

(LAUGHS)

Ooh, cake!

So, darling, what did you do tonight?

Your dad came over to smoke a joint with my aunt...

So I laid down and I listened to them talk about movies.

How about you? Abraham?

Yeah.

Was it nice?

It was all right.

We're just friends experimenting with sex.

And is that healthy?

Yeah.

And I wrote in to that sex columnist in the free paper.

And she says that it's fine,

as long as it's mutually enjoyable.

And we're both open with each other.

And it'll probably help us out in our future sex lives.

I mean, I really care about him. You know.

We're just not going steady or anything.

Yeah, but, does he know that?

He's a total beatnik.

He's all into that free love, blah, blah, blah.

(GIGGLES) Free love.

This is good.

(LIGHTS OFF)

(POP MUSIC PLAYING)

Audrey!

(BOY SHOUTING)

I saw him first.

I did. Your back was turned.

(TALKING INDISTINCTLY)

What are you doing to my toes?

What's going on?

We have new neighbours.

One of them is a hottie.

Just put it anywhere right now.

Hot, but it's a dry heat.

That's for sure.

Oh, thanks.

Henry Sinclair.

Herb Myerson.

You picked a real fine place to settle down. Dreamland.

Dreamland. Wow. Cheers.

Calista over there thinks you're a hottie.

Thanks. (LAUGHS)

-So, what line of work you're in? -Underwater welding.

Is that so?

Yeah, I used to work the oil fields in Texas. Hello.

-Hey. -This is my, my sweetheart, Mary.

Henry.

Then my wife passed...

And Audrey, that's my baby Audrey up on the porch.

We've been pacing out here in the desert ever since.

That's a heart breaker about your wife. I'm sorry.

Yeah. If Lissa were around, you'd probably have a fresh batch of brownies

on your porch tomorrow morning.

Put some M&Ms in there or something.

(LAUGHS)

Hope you can settle for a couple of beers.

Yeah. Beer. Cheers.

(GIGGLES)

Pass it to me. I'm open.

Hey.

Hey.

I don't want to wake anybody up.

So, imaginary ball, you know.

That's sweet.

Hey, Dreamer, find anything tonight?

Not yet. I'll let you know.

All right.

Aliens, that's what he's looking for.

Does he ever find any?

Sometimes.

Have you ever seen that episode of Jerry Springer where...

That woman goes into labour on air?

I... I think so.

Well, she used to live here. Isn't that funny?

Well, it's not really funny. It's actually kind of sad.

Or at least it's sad for the baby because it, it's doomed, right?

And it's kind of sad for us because it kind of...

Reinforces that whole trailer park trash stereotype thing.

I'm sorry, I'm babbling.

I knew a guy who was on "Cops" once.

-Oh, really? -Yeah. I played little league baseball

with a guy who got pulled over in a stolen car on "Cops."

Wait. Was he wearing a shirt?

Was he wearing a shirt when he got pulled over?

Oh, I...

I don't think he was.

Because he had stuffed his weed down his shorts,

so you could see the little baggy sticking out.

That's incredible.

The criminals are always topless on that show. That's perfect.

Yeah, they are.

His name is Mookie.

Mookie?

He's from Las Vegas. He's apparently really good at basketball.

Graduated last year and he was going to play for UNLV.

That's nice.

Yeah, but, he blew out his knee and lost his spot,

so he's been rehabbing all year. Now they have an opening.

So he's gonna go back and train with them at the end of the summer,

and see if it's healed up.

What else did you find out about him?

Does he have a girlfriend?

I don't know.

(SHOUTING INDISTINCTLY)

(POP MUSIC PLAYING)

Hey. What's up?

That's him.

He's dreamy.

Maybe he'll let you wear his lettermen jacket.

You could take his picture, put it up in your locker

and then all the girls on the A-list will invite you to their slumber parties.

I'm already on the A-list.

That's an excellent choice, but cherry's better.

I think cherry is better than lemon, that's just my opinion.

Thanks.

Sorry, I was running.

I mean, that's why, this is kind of wet.

That'll happen. Yeah.

That's cool.

Okay. Bye. I'll see you later.

That's cool.

Shut up!

Have you picked your classes yet?

Pretty much.

I'm going to do Tuesdays and Thursdays, Religions of Asia...

Hey, are you going to pledge a fraternity?

Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays I have Britt...

Come on. It's going to be so cool.

Could do keg stands and date-rape sorority chicks.

You jealous? It'd be so awesome, dude.

You're jealous. I am not jealous.

Because you're going to still be right there, you'll be drooling on that counter.

And I'm going to be at UNM

with worldly grad students holding peyote rituals.

Or watching Star Trek.

Do you ever think about going back to school?

Don't you have to read and stuff in school?

Seriously.

I mean you're smart and talented. Why not?

I guess I figure after I win Miss America...

and get all that scholarship money, so, I guess I'll just go then.

I was just thinking.

You know what the most watched television show in Venezuela is?

No. What?

The Miss Venezuela Pageant.

I wish I lived in Venezuela.

Because I'd be Miss Venezuela.

And then everyone in the country would know who I was.

You'd get to star on one of those Spanish soap operas.

I'd date, like, a Brazilian soccer star.

And we'd be in the tabloids every day.

And he'd have an aunt who is a bruja.

And we'd visit her in the rain forest and she'd give me this

crazy herbal remedy to make me all better.

I watch her play with fire, and hold my breath...

As the fluttering sparks dance on her skin...

like 1,000 baby fireflies...

Born one electric minute ...

And gone by summer's end.

She's beautiful, isn't she?

Yeah.

She is. She looks like a, like a Dallas Cowboy cheerleader.

But not really.

She really likes you, you know?

You guys should go on a date or something.

What's she doing?

She read about this in a music magazine.

Some kind of experimental treatment for MS.

What?

Yeah, Calista got diagnosed with multiple sclerosis a couple years ago.

That's why she came here, to relax her nerves.

And her aunt could hook her up with some health insurance.

(BEES BUZZING)

What is she doing?

The bee venom helps her MS.

What do you like on your pizza?

Anchovies.

Yeah. Really?

I like sardines too, but not on pizza, just with a little mustard.

Me too. I like anchovies.

That means we're soul mates.

(LAUGHS)

I figure I do have a realistic shot of winning it all.

Because, even if I'm not like

the hottest or the most poised contestant,

when it comes time to ask me the question,

I'll find a way to just talk about

the health care situation in the United States.

And then I'll relate it to my disease.

So, the intelligent judges will appreciate

that I have these well-formulated personal ideas

on actual issues.

Then the dumb judges will vote for me because I'm the sick girl.

And, that's how it works.

Does it hurt?

Sometimes.

I mean, not all the time. Not very often, but...

Yeah. Sometimes.

Don't forget about tomorrow, okay?

Until tomorrow.

Until tomorrow.

(BOTH LAUGHING)

Have you guys ever had one of those moments that are just so cool

you think you don't deserve it?

And God must be gracing you with it because you must be doomed,

but you just really don't care?

Not in a long time.

I just had one on the back of Mookie's motor-scooter.

He's wonderful, and gentle, and honest...

and weird and all that stuff, and I...

And I really like him. I even pretended that I liked anchovies.

Hairy.

Do you guys think it's possible to fall in love after one date?

Yes. I do. March...

March 28th, 1982.

Austin, Texas.

I picked up the lovely Lissa Stevens in...

In his mom's '68 green Mustang.

Not green. Sea foam Mustang.

She loved that car. It was a great car.

Took her to see a, 8:00 p.m showing of Breakfast at Tiffany's

at the Paramount.

I waited until old Holly Golightly

went looking for her cat in the rain...

Before I reached over and grabbed her hand.

That's got to be the sweetest goddamn movie they ever made.

After we left the theatre, it was raining cats and dogs.

-Lissa was jumping through puddles... -She was a puddle-dancer.

We sat in the car and let our clothes dry.

I forgot my bowl, so we smoked weed out of an old beer can she found on the backseat.

It was perfect.

Just chilly and perfect.

We took that old long cut home and listened to some tapes...

And I walked her right up into her dorm room.

We almost kissed.

Remember this, girls, the only thing better

than kissing on a first date

is almost kissing on a first date.

Their courtship lasted 42 kisses.

And then they eloped.

42 kisses.

Number 43 was in a makeshift wedding chapel down in Roswell.

I can still taste that kiss.

Number 43.

To this very day.

All right, guys...

Don't stay up too late. We've got a barbecue to go to tomorrow.

Good night.

Good night.

What do you want? Meat or tofu?

How in the hell do you kill a tofu?

You got me.

Medium-well, por favor.

I hear you want to be Miss America, is that right?

-I pray for it every night. Like I really pray. -That's cool.

God, I'm almost 40 and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.

How about a travel agent?

No.

No?

A princess?

I don't think so.

A princess spy?

That's kind of interesting.

See, I used to want to be that and then I decide I should give it up

'cause I want to be Miss America more.

Although princess spy, kind with secret cameras under the tiara, kind of hot.

So, what can you tell me about my new hometown?

Well, unfortunately, I don't get out much.

Ever, really. I get these...

Attacks when I try to leave.

I couldn't even attend Audrey's graduation ceremony.

That's a shame.

So Herb's really, uh, likes to do dad things, huh?

Yeah, he does. But he's not my dad though,

he's my mom's boyfriend.

No, it's cool. I mean it's for real.

They just haven't gotten around to getting married.

I love him. He's a cool guy.

He's got this neat office, it... It smells like Pez.

Oh, that's neat.

Shut up.

Cool I mean. Nice office.

His cool place...

Blue eye make-up... A red bed...

An urge to fall into the picture void...

Where it's always lazy and summer...

Drunk on sugary juice...

I'll drive away on this delicate trip ...

Like a woman .

I like it.

Thanks.

Cool place, that's Mookie's, huh?

Yep.

The narrator isn't Calista, is it?

No.

Yeah, I thought so.

(SIGHS)

They're having sex right now, aren't they?

And it's a beautiful thing, isn't it?

Come on.

Where are we going?

The fence.

The what?

The electric fence.

What's that?

I'll show you.

-People come out here to be healed. -What do you mean?

People with all sorts of ailments come out here.

You know, like arthritis and stuff.

And they grab onto the fence for as long as possible

because the currents will heal them.

I've never been here alone.

I mean, without Audrey.

Does it work?

Of course.

(SIGHS)

(BUZZ)

June-July issue of our magazine.

I got a story in here.

About these kids that invented this shrinking formula...

And then they form this utopian society inside Jerry Garcia's beard.

Pretty cool.

What are you doing?

My dad's famous hang-over cure.

Is it good?

(VOMITS)

(DOOR OPENS)

Hey, do I have any puke on my shirt?

No.

You don't have any puke on your shirt.

Yeah, good,

because...

That would kind of suck.

Listen, can I ask your advice?

Calista showed me something this morning...

I kind of want to do something special for her.

Do you think you can help me think of something really special?

-Yeah. I'll think of something. -Cool. Thank you.

She really likes barbeque sauce on her French fries.

And don't forget the berry blast, that's her favourite dessert.

That's sweet. She's gonna love that.

Thank you. You, you're sweet.

Yeah. Whatever.

You must have guys just knocking down your door.

None, actually.

Really?

Seriously?

I have a boy toy.

What? You have a boy toy?

Yeah. That dude?

Actually, that dude.

No, he's a sweetheart.

He just tends to be a little bitch sometimes.

Listen, I was talking to Calista the other day,

and she was telling me all the stuff you do for her.

How she'd lie in bed all day if it weren't for you.

And I just think that's pretty amazing what you do for her.

Yeah, well, she's my best friend.

Yeah.

What's going to happen when you go away?

I'm not going anywhere.

No, I mean when you go to college or whatever.

I'm not going anywhere.

Calista says you're like a genius, so I just thought...

Well, I'm not a genius and I don't need a degree or anything.

I want to be a writer. Emily Dickinson is one of the greatest poets ever

and she never went to college.

She never left her room.

Okay.

Sorry.

Perched on the edge of nothing and beyond...

I water the dream garden...

But wither in the bone dry soil...

Invisible, I invent a fairy tale...

And mend her angel wings...

Weaving until my fingers ache, so she can fly...

Hamburger, no cheese, extra ketchup. Okay?

Got an egg roll...

From the Chinese place next to Wal-Mart, for an appetizer...

McDonald's fries, and...

Drum roll... Berry blast.

Oh, my God, this is...

Hello!

Oh, and barbecue sauce.

They charged me 35 cents extra, but I said it doesn't matter.

(SIGHS)

How's it going?

I don't feel so great.

Oh, you mean their date?

That's one of the goddamned most romantic things I've seen in a long while.

Was that the wrong answer?

No.

That's the right answer.

I hope it's ready in two weeks.

How about you? How, how you been feeling?

I'm good. I mean, I have bad days.

But I have more good days than bad days for now.

I think you're brave.

I think you feel sorry for me.

No... I... I'm just...

It's just kind of scary, you know.

It's like this story I once read about this guy

who was playing a pick-up game with Larry Bird...

And Larry Bird jammed his finger.

And he asked the guy to pull it out.

The guy was just afraid to do it, you know,

'cause he like... What if he messed up and...

Did more damage to one of the best fingers to ever touch a basketball.

So I guess I just don't know how I'd react if...

You ask me to pull your finger out for you.

Does that make any sense?

Yes.

(SNORING)

(MUSIC PLAYING INDISTINCTLY)

(COUNTRY MUSIC PLAYING)

(MARY SINGING)

That was great.

You are so good!

-Hey. -Hey, I didn't know you smoked.

Oh, I don't.

I mean, I smoke one or... I don't know, six a day.

You have a really cool voice.

Oh, thanks. I mean I don't know about that, but...

Seriously. That last song you were just singing...

I haven't heard anything like that, even on the radio.

Have you ever been in a band or anything?

Or anything.

She's done it all, Audrey.

She played bass in a real romper stomper safety pin

and beer punk band.

And then after that...

After that, she had a couple of really big hits in Finland...

with a band called Horse. You ever hear of them?

I don't know. Yeah, he gets silly.

And then she broke about a million hearts

with her folks songs and her guitar.

You're sounding cheesy, dear.

Yeah. A million hearts.

A million and one.

Don't listen to him.

It's all true. She was awesome. She was like Joan Jet.

Well, how come she doesn't, like, play out anymore?

Stage fright.

She could only play if she got really loaded,

so, she says she'll only play for me and Herb from now on.

That's kind of sad.

Yeah, it is, you know?

It's sort of like a girl who writes really cool poems,

but won't even put it in her friend's little magazine.

Getting a little scruffy?

I'm trying to grow a goatee.

It's nice.

Yeah, I don't think Calista's too crazy about it.

Yeah? I think it's nice.

Too bad I don't have connection yet.

But, I don't really care, because...

What about this?

Let's see.

Can I read some of your poems sometime?

I don't know. I, don't really like

to let people read them until they're ready.

I don't get it. How do you know they're really ready unless

you let people read them?

I just know.

You should get this for Calista. She'll look hot in it.

Hey, by the way...

Emily Dickinson went to Mount Holyoke College one year.

Don't know if you knew that.

Yo, Audrey, mail call.

Dreamer, what am I going to do?

Don't ask me. I'm just the messenger.

Okay, baby. Thanks.

Dad?

Dad?

Dad?

Dad?

-I ran out of cigarettes. -Okay. It's okay. Just breathe.

Just breathe.

It's okay.

Just breathe.

I just thought I could get some cigarettes from the store.

Here, take these. I'm taking you to a doctor.

There has to be a pill you can take.

No doctors, baby.

-I've seen it on commercials. -Just help me get my head above water.

All right?

Of course.

Will you get me a wet rag?

Yeah.

(SIGHS) Oh, thank you.

Can you get me another, please.

Thank you, baby.

Thank you, baby.

(DOOR OPENS)

Hey, Audrey.

Want something to drink?

Yeah. Water.

What's wrong?

Dad. I'm so tired of always worrying about him.

For what? I'm sorry.

For making you worry about me all the time, too.

Calista, I love you and I'm always gonna be there for you.

I love you too.

So you're coming with me to the hospital tomorrow then, right?

Of course.

What are you guys talking about?

Are you sure? I got to get back to work.

It's Mookie's last chance to test out the knee before Vegas.

-I didn't realize it was so soon. -Two days.

Don't go.

What are you talking about? You know I have to go.

I know. Then you're just gonna have to spend every moment

with me until then.

All right. Let's go.

Don't worry about it. Bye.

Audrey?

I need a ride home.

Hey, Audrey...

You know there's fungus among us.

What?

There's fungus...

Among us.

No. No.

Yes. Yes.

Audrey Abraham.

I know what's going to happen.

I'm going to end up lying face down on this bed...

Thinking sentence fragments and drooling...

Just like last time.

It's all right.

This time it'll be smurfy.

Audrey, it's a pattern. It's all a pattern.

All pattern, layer. We're all connected.

That's all, but we are connected...

But we're this pattern moving through space.

We are time moving through time, that's all we are.

It's a pattern, it's just a pattern.

It's like a coil on top of itself...

Like a slinky. And that's all we are.

We are this pattern moving through space.

We are time moving through space.

What time is it?

There is no time. That's what I'm saying.

You know, you and I, we are time, that's it.

Calista...

Calista is time. Everything you know, that's time.

Plants are time, rocks are time, animals are time.

Everyone you know is time.

You forgot.

I know. I screwed up.

She was really scared. She had killer spasms today.

And when she found out you weren't around,

she just kind of freaked.

And it got worse.

I didn't mean to. I just got lost.

Mookie's leaving.

He's too good for Dreamland.

He's going to go somewhere far, far away.

I just, I feel it all unraveling, you know?

I know how it feels.

I don't.

You and Calista have always been the unravelers.

I'm a raveler, you know?

You have raveled.

I just don't wanna face her.

I don't want to deal with her all...

Unraveled?

Yeah.

What do I do?

Baby, you're asking advice from a guy

who hasn't been out of a trailer park in two years.

I'm no good at raveling.

Will you miss me?

Of course I will miss you.

How much?

This much.

No, you won't.

-You're going to forget all about me. -What are you talking about?

One week away from Dreamland...

You're just gonna hook-up with some basketball groupie

and forget all about your sickly girlfriend.

I won't forget about you.

I'm sorry.

Don't sweat it.

Well, you know. How'd it go?

I still tune out all that medical mumble-jumbo...

So I guess I don't really know for sure...

But, he had a nice smile.

Not too comforting or anything, so,

I guess that's good, right?

I was selfish, I'm sorry.

I said don't sweat it, okay?

Thank you, Mookie for stepping in.

Come on, Mookie, we only have one more night.

Hey.

I like this spot.

How did you find it?

It's a really nice spot.

Have you been spying on me?

Maybe. Metaphysically, maybe.

I guess it's kind of impossible to keep secrets

in Dreamland, huh?

You'd be surprised.

It is nice though, isn't it? Isn't it cool?

Herb helped me build it.

Herb's awesome.

Yeah, he is.

He's gonna be my official Dad. How about that?

He and Mom are getting married tomorrow night.

Well, tonight, I guess, when we get to Vegas.

For real?

They're going all out too.

We're staying at some place called the American Motel.

Because I guess that's where Mom was when she wrote Herb's favourite song.

It's crazy, you know, everything's kind of happening all at once.

Sort of coming together.

What are you doing out here?

I, um, I like to take walks when I can't sleep.

Just kind of found this place.

Why can't you sleep?

I'm, um, unraveling.

You come out here to write?

It's desire... Graced by his subtle touch, this...

It sucks!

What are you talking about? That was great! I wanna see what happens next.

No. It's, it's just a couple more lines

about some misunderstood sad girl and then it ends.

Okay. Good, then let me read it.

I wanna read everything you write.

I wanna read everything you write.

Shit. I don't know where I am.

Audrey?

What are you doing here?

Nothing.

This is where and I come sometimes.

He's gone.

I know.

Was he here?

Yeah.

What's going on?

I'm in love with him.

Is he in love with you?

Does he love you?

(SIGHS)

I don't know, but...

I hope he does.

Oh, Calista, listen to me, okay, just...

I don't know anything about anything, okay? I just...

Well, I've, I've listened to my Dad tell stories about my Mom and...

And I've read books.

I just... I really believe in love.

-Audrey. -And no matter how fleeting or tragic,

I just... I really, really believe in it.

And I'm 18 years old

and I just want to surrender.

Well, you know what, fuck your teen angst,

because I'm dying.

(SIGHS)

Happy birthday, Lissa.

Happy birthday, Mom.

(KNOCK AT DOOR)

Calista's gone.

I think she took my bike.

Going to Las Vegas!

You should have told me, man. I would've got some more weed and set up.

It's not that kind of trip. It's serious.

Things have gotten really serious.

What does that mean?

That means that

when we get back, I think that you should stop giving me rides home.

What?

Look, we always said that we would quit it

if we found somebody we really cared about.

(TIRES SCREECHING)

Get out of the car.

Abraham...

Things are just really messed up right now.

And I really need somebody to help me get through this.

(SCOFFS) Me?

Well, my mom's dead...

My Dad's drunk and my best friend is forsaken.

Get out of the car.

Abraham...

Get out of the car!

I'm sorry.

Just get out!

I'm sorry!

(MOTORCYCLE ENGINE ROARING)

(HORN HONKING)

(HORN BLARING)

Can you take me to Vegas?

Audrey?

I'm sorry. I would have called. I just fell asleep and I didn't have change.

Not that you could find a pay phone around here or anything.

Well, what are you doing here?

That's your wedding ring.

Yeah.

That's so great. Um, congratulations.

This is your wedding night I'm interrupting.

I'm so sorry.

I'm looking for Mookie.

He went back.

He went back where?

To be with Calista.

(SIGHS) You don't know.

There's been an accident.

Calista's been in an accident.

Come on, you'll stay with us tonight. We'll go back tomorrow. It's okay.

HENRY: How is she? What are they saying?

Is she going to be all right?

AUNT SADIE: I don't know. She's been hurt pretty bad.

She's going to be here for at least a couple of weeks.

They're still running scans in her neck and she's in a lot of pain.

Goddamn.

Henry, Audrey's really got to get down here.

Have you found her yet?

She's not going to be back till tomorrow night.

Can you come down here then?

I have to get back to the plant. I can't leave her alone.

Come on, Henry, please?

No, I, I can't.

Why not?

Because I just, I can't.

-There's nobody else I can call on, Henry. -I'm sorry, okay?

Calista needs you now... (PHONE BEEPS)

(BREATHING HEAVILY)

(INDISTINCT)

Hey, baby. Henry?

How you doing?

I'm so glad you're here.

Juanita dumped Mauricio.

Well, now, that sucks.

No, it doesn't. It's cool.

You know, 'cause she did it for him.

'Cause she knows that he really loves Rosa.

You know, it was sad.

But it was really beautiful too,

because she loves him so much.

What can I do for you, baby?

(SIGHS) Give me the pill...

That's good stuff.

Easy. Open up. Easy.

Okay.

All right, just don't move now.

Oh, shit. My bad.

There you go. It's all right.

I guess what I have to look forward to...

Sad people wiping drool off my chin.

You're going to...

You're going to be all right. You'll recover.

You didn't.

You lost your lover and you never recovered.

Baby, that's different.

I know.

Yours died...

And mine just stopped loving me.

(SOBBING)

I was going after you.

That's what I was doing.

I know.

I was going to seduce you.

I was going to be weepy and sexy, and seduce you.

And I was even maybe going to let you get me pregnant...

and I didn't care if that made me ineligible for Miss America.

I don't...

I don't want to lie to you. I don't know what's going on.

It's like I'm handling the ball on a fast break, you know...

And all I got to do is pull up and just take a little jump shot and...

Hey, Mookie, I'm just a little too doped up right now for basketball talk.

Can you just be here?

Just be here.

Yeah.

Hey. Hi. Hi.

How is she?

She's all right.

I mean, you know, she'll be okay.

Can I see her?

She doesn't want to see you right now...

So, no, not now.

Has she been here alone all night?

No. Henry came by.

-He was here for a little while. -My Dad was here?

What are you doing? What is this?

Why don't you tell me, baby?

How can you ask me that? What kind of question is that?

These big ones, they mean that you got in. Do you know that?

Yes, I know that.

Let's talk about it.

No. You had no right to do this.

Okay, you're right. I didn't, but now I know.

Look, smoke another fatty and forget about it.

Hey, baby...

I really don't want to hear this right now!

Well, you're going to hear it. I'm proud of you.

I want to help you do whatever you got to do.

I want you to leave me alone.

What? Audrey!

Okay, come on, let's hear it, Dad.

Let's hear the I'm-your-father speech

you've been rehearsing for three years.

How can you do this to me right now?

Doing what? I'm trying to help you figure out what you want to do.

Maybe what I want to do is just stay in Dreamland forever,

nursing your hangovers and peddling cigarettes at the convenience store.

Maybe I want to drink this beer and sit in the hot tub. Maybe that's what I want.

You deserve so much more than that, baby.

Maybe I should have crashed a motorcycle a long time ago.

(SOBBING)

You okay?

Uh...

What's the matter?

I couldn't sleep, so,

I was watching Baywatch.

These two kids, they were drowning.

And David Hasselhoff could only save one of them.

So then David Hasselhoff had to go tell the dead kid's dad

that his kid was dead.

And then, I don't know, during this like, huge emotional scene...

David Hasselhoff was like sucking his stomach in the whole time.

And, I don't know, it really made me sad.

I must be losing it.

You know there's a fine line between losing it and getting it.

What's that supposed to mean?

-I don't know, I just made it up. -(LAUGHS)

Thanks for spending the nights with me.

That's really, really helped me feel better, so, thank you.

Good.

I know Audrey wants to come visit.

Maybe later, but, not now.

Okay.

How does that feel?

Does it hurt?

No. That feels wonderful.

We need to talk about us.

I want you to know that I...

That I really care about you.

And that I think you're an amazing person.

You are too.

And that I will always care about you.

You know? But you're leaving.

So I just don't...

I just don't know.

I think we should just be friends, Mookie.

Yeah.

No, please don't stop.

Please don't stop.

It feels so good.

(DOOR OPENS)

Morning, baby.

What?

You. You look great.

Thanks. I feel good.

Not getting as many headaches and, you know...

I didn't realize how shallow my breathing had gotten.

The type of thing I stopped noticing.

How about you?

I just want to see her.

She's getting better every day, she really is.

She's not though.

I mean, she's going to recover from this but she's never going to be okay.

Her neurons are going to keep getting attacked and...

They're eventually just going to break down.

And she's going to get weak and tired and that's just the way it is.

Well, you never know.

(PHONE RINGING)

Hello?

CALISTA: Hey.

Calista?

Hi, um, I was just wondering what you were doing the day after tomorrow?

I don't... I don't know. Why?

I'm coming home.

I'm... That's great.

So if, you know, if you're not doing anything... I mean if you're around,

I just thought, you know, you could just be there when I get back.

Of course.

I've missed you.

Well, um, I'll see you in a couple days, okay?

Okay.

Splendid. Goodnight, crazy.

Goodnight.

(PHONE BEEPS)

Hey.

Hey.

Dreamer said you'd be out here.

I was just leaving.

Come on. I'll walk back with you.

Did Calista call you?

Did she tell you she's coming back?

Uh, yeah.

I talked to her yesterday and she said she's coming home.

Yeah.

Did she tell you she broke up with me?

She broke up with you?

Yeah.

It's okay, we both knew it wasn't going to work.

Why not?

You know why not.

I can't stop thinking about you.

Calista is my best friend.

I know, but this isn't about Calista, Audrey, this is about you.

Why are you doing this?

Because I couldn't leave without telling you how I feel.

It doesn't matter anyway, because you're leaving and I'm going to be here.

You can't stay here forever taking care of other people.

So what do you want me to do?

Abandon them?

For what? So I can sit in a classroom and talk about poems?

They need me.

They love you more than they need you.

You don't know anything.

I know you want more than this.

Let me take care of you.

I'm so proud of you, baby.

I'm proud of you too.

Tell me all about it.

Well, I'm going to be in customer relations in

the product distribution division.

Hey, they gave me a company car.

Yeah. Smooth.

It's just going to keep getting better and better, you know that?

You'll be Miss America one day. I know it.

You know, I don't know.

I don't know if I want to be Miss America anymore.

How about Miss Dreamland?

It's got a nice ring to it.

Hmm.

(CAR DOOR CLOSING)

Hello.

That first night when I was in the hospital...

I had this moment. I had woken up in the middle of the night...

And Mookie was there, and he was asleep, and I didn't...

I didn't believe it at first.

You know, and then I looked at him, and he was just

so cute, and kind, and, um...

Kind of like an angel.

And that's when I knew it.

What?

That it was over.

I mean, not like over, but that it was over between us.

Like, I...

I didn't want him there.

Like I didn't want him at my bedside dreaming about me.

Not like that.

Yeah, but that's weird, huh?

'Cause I always want people dreaming about me.

(BOTH LAUGH)

Of course.

I tried to close my eyes and make it go away,

like that feeling, and I couldn't.

It just kept getting bigger.

And all those other things, like those other feelings of love,

they just kind of faded out.

And I wasn't afraid anymore.

You know what I mean?

I don't know.

But...

I know that you're beautiful.

And that I'll never, ever, ever meet anyone else like you

for the rest of my life.

I have candy.

Do you want some.

Sure.

All right.

Uh, pick one. Not that one.

I love this one.

Check out the look on her face.

She's lovely.

Yeah, she was always lovely,

but right here she looks like she's going to take on the world, huh?

Have you come to a decision?

Yeah.

I'm going.

Mmm-hmm.

All right. Packed and ready to go.

Thanks.

You're all set.

I'm going to miss you.

I'll miss you too.

Really?

Yeah.

Yeah?

The blanket of smoke and candy lies crumpled on the bed...

Drenched in perfume, unraveled by desire...

But strong as spider silk...

It falls away while I stretch...

Brush the diamonds from my eyes and wake up.

(INAUDIBLE)

(BUZZING)

That's beautiful.