All language subtitles for Catch Your Dreams (1982)

Released by The Movies

People who've seen my movie,
didn't think it was pornographic.

Strange, no? They see a huge cunt on
screen and they say it's not porn.

It wasn't made for voyeurs.

When you watch this movie, you
should be relaxed and feel good.

You should watch it thinking...

We'll see what happens.

You can't sit there and drool.
It's way too subtle.

Although, sometimes I don't find
it that subtle at first sight.

I liked to get out of my normal
surroundings for a week.

To have fun at that castle,
like everybody would like to...

To just be completely yourself.

To show your body, spread your legs
and say: "Ain't I beautiful?"

I like to have a good look at men
when I'm between their legs.

To play with their dick a bit...

...and to see what it looks like
and feels like.

Except there was a camera present.

I'm doing it for myself.

In this movie, I wanted to
find out how I'd like it.

I just wanted to have the courage to
do what I felt like.

My heart told me to participate
in this project, but my brain said...

..."Oh, God, what will my father
think". You know.

But I really felt like doing
it, so I did it.

And I was right.

Before I started the movie, I thought
I couldn't tell my family.

And before I'd seen anything of
the movie...

...when I came out of the castle where
we had shot it, I thought...

...everyone I know can see this movie.
That's how good I felt about it.

It was very intense. For a week,
we lived together in the same rooms.

We filmed there, we knew the place
and we ate together at a huge table.

We spent day and night together.

I really liked it with all those people.
It was a great group.

Did anything happen you'd dreamt of?
-Absolutely!

Who doesn't dream of living in a castle
and partying each day.

Doesn't everybody dream of that?
All those women and good food.

Yes, of course.

I really opened up during
this week.

It was great to be the centre of
attention, with the cameras...

...and the lamps.
It was great to be part of it.

The best thing is that we were two
separate groups at first.

When you just arrive, everything's new,
but we were absorbed by each other.

It was really good with
those people.

It was so good to be in
those rooms...

...as if you lived there.
I thought it was very normal.

When we drove up, I felt like
I was coming home.

It was fantastic, a dream!

Like a dream?
-Yes.

I really gave a show there.
I went overboard.

I felt great all week.
There were some people filming.

I felt incredibly free.

It was really great.

Some things just happened,
without me doing anything.

I don't know exactly what happened.

That week just was like a high.

We had a good week.

We could leave all the work to you.

We only had to eat the cream...

...that you whipped for us.
Crazy, you whipped it and we ate it.

It was like throwing cakes in a
slapstick movie.

Bombarding each other with dreams.

You know that it's good and
that you feel like...

...ignoring conventions and
just experiencing this.

You already miss out on so many
experiences that could be important...

...just because of moral considerations
or social rules or...

...because that's how you were raised.

As a result, you miss out on experiences
and fun in life.

We both talked to many people
beforehand who were very afraid...

...and didn't want to join in and
when we met them later...

...they were disappointed to hear
how fantastic it had been.

I enjoyed showing my lesbian side
and saying...

...ok, now I like this woman.

And we could do whatever we wanted.

More or less. I really enjoyed
doing that scene.

It started strangely. I was very turned
on that afternoon and you noticed it.

So you asked if I wanted it
and I did.

I had been so horny I didn't
know what to do.

I would have preferred a
screw on the spot.

But I thought, control yourself
and see what'll happen in that scene.

I didn't feel any inhibition or
shame or anything, which...

...would have been normal.
I really liked it.

In the train the other day, I thought
everyone was thinking about cunts and...

...cracks and slits, as they say,
and dicks.

And that they only thought of fucking,
of screwing and shagging...

That that's very deeply rooted in people
and that it's all they think about.

I often think that when I'm
in the tram.

So that's your fantasy?
-Oh, yes, absolutely.

My fantasy.
-Is it still?

Yes, I'm still full of dreams.

I think I was really stupid,
especially during that party.

We could have done so much that evening.
We could really have gone crazy.

That didn't really happen. Maybe we
had already given too much.

So we didn't have anything left.
But when I think back at that...

...I often regret that we didn't
go all out.

What you can't do normally, because you
have to behave. That was a chance...

...and we didn't grab it.

Yes, the party scene.
I understand why they were aggressive.

I acted like an outsider and
didn't really play along.

I was only observing.

And that made me stronger than
the others...

...who didn't know why I did that and
got scared. Afraid to be...

...hurt, psychologically, because they
opened up their hearts...

...and I could abuse that.

I didn't really want to fight
with that one actor.

But it was more a game than serious.
It only became...

...serious when he hit me with
that belt later...

In a reflex, I grabbed a champagne
bottle to hit him on the head.

Then the director asked us to stop,
because that didn't fit into his movie.

What was important to me, was that
I'd feel pain in a situation...

...that I said "yes" to.
That gives pain another dimension.

Then it doesn't happen against my will.
I don't yell out "ouch", but I observe.

And then it's stimulating.

Did it turn you on?

It didn't turn me on sexually.

But I did feel psychologically
humiliated at some point.

At the end, she hit me really hard
and I got furious.

I almost threw myself on her and
at that point I was turned on.

A shame they stopped filming because
I was just about to undress her...

...and rape her, although that
would have been quite a job.

But to fight and make love
like that...

For me, it was a positive experience.
The camera, for me, meant that...

...for the first time, someone says
"yes" to sex wholeheartedly.

And the situation in that bed was such
that I forgot everything around me...

...and focused very intensely
on myself...

...and that woman and our bodies,
which made the experience very intense.

The camera made me concentrate
on what I was doing.

Normally...

...it's hard to lose yourself in
something, to follow your feeling.

You think the other person has to like
you or that you have to do something...

...special to be liked,
that you have to perform...

...in order to be happy
with yourself.

In the film, all that didn't matter.
It was ok.

You spend one or two hours
with a woman.

You don't have to do anything for it.
You get together without a problem.

There were no obligations afterwards.

I could do what I wanted in bed.

The director didn't say:
do this or do that.

I could just follow my feelings
and do what I wanted.

Can't you do that without a film?

Yes, but you're afraid the woman
doesn't like you or that...

...she'll walk away.
Those things have happened.

Before we started, I watched some porn
movies to see what...

...they do, but I didn't
like them much.

Women just spread their legs...

...so that men can stick their
big dicks in...

...and come. What the women do,
doesn't matter.

When you look well, it always seems
to hurt for those women.

The men are ready to burst and
look all red from the effort...

...they really have to fuck...

...and fuck well - it has to look cool
and the women only feel the pain.

That's not normal. I don't understand
how that can make anyone horny.

And because you allowed us to
find out for ourselves...

...with who and how we wanted
to do it...

...we were much more relaxed and
it was also more natural.

It went the way it should
go in bed...

...meaning that you're open to each
other and care for each other.

So that it's good for the man
and the woman.

Those men in porn movies just take it
out after they've come. Just crazy!

The main thing is to show your feelings
and to touch each other.

That you're sweet to each other.

How come you feel so good?

Because for a long time,
I was in an environment...

...where I could do anything
I felt like.

Where I felt confident and
had some very intense...

...experiences.

Such as?

That one time when I was
in bed with Nora...

...for more than 5 hours...

I got really weak inside,
that time.

That was the first time that I forgot
everything around me.

Except for myself and that woman.

And that I didn't demand anything
of her, but just...

...did what I wanted and felt
how that was.

It was the first situation where I
felt no aversion...

...no distance, no disgust,
no dislike of that woman...

...but accepted her body
completely...

...and noticed that she
accepted me.

That made me weaker and weaker
and more and more open.

With porn movies, it always feels dirty
and as if it's not allowed.

I actually thought people would
enjoy this movie.

That this film would give them
new ideas...

...that something opens in them too,
that they recognize something and...

...think "I can touch my woman
that way as well".

Even though I can't express it very well
rationally and verbally, right now...

...I know that this was a radical
experience.

That's also because I was allowed to
put my dreams into practice.

I dreamt of it and I didn't even
imagine it to be that beautiful or...

...that intense or that fantastic...

...before I started the movie. But I did
have ideas about how it should look.

I was just horny, which is why I made
the movie.

Those are just men's fantasies: fucking
lots of women and stuff like that.

But you don't take the camera into
account and that they're people...

...not fuck dolls. Then it becomes
reality and is no longer a dream.

And yet it was a dream.

That's what was so beautiful.

That in a way... it's something you
dream about.

Normally.
But something that never happens.

In a castle. Man, man!

Going all the way, in a castle.

I was a bit woozy. I got so turned
on by what was happening there.

Jesus! The way he was going for
it in that bathroom.

During filming, I didn't notice
it as much.

He was really going crazy, wasn't he?
Fantastic. I think that's great.

That really turned me on.
I wish I was with him again.

I wasn't aggressive, but to get
things started...

...I just hit him.

I often feel like hitting people
and I never do.

Sometimes, I feel like beating someone
up, but I never do.

I noticed that I felt like it
when I took off his jacket.

And immediately I thought "no".
Something took over...

...and I started, but then I felt the
"no" again and I stopped.

I don't allow myself to be as free
as I want to be. Often!

Now that I see the movie, I'd like
to do the exact same thing again.

Because personally, I could have gone
a lot further.

Much further, much crazier. I could
let myself go much further than...

...I did there. And that's true
for everyone.

These were my deepest sexual
experiences.

The most important thing about
sex is to let go.

I think that in normal
porn movies...

...sex is viewed from the head.
It has to satisfy your head.

They show sex the way your brain
imagines it.

With the idea that the bigger the dick,
the better. The more direct the shot...

...the better. The clearer you can see
the cunt, the better.

They want you to be able to see
everything with your own eyes.

And in this movie, people go
all the way in their sex.

They can only get turned on
when they're open and...

...really feel the contact between
people.

That man really surprised me.

I thought he really let the beast in
himself come out all week.

That made a big impression on me.
Opening up like that.

I didn't feel I was being a beast.
I didn't think I was...

...aggressive or anything.

I was wild, but I noticed...

...that it was superficial,
not very deep.

It was a battle, that's true.

We came together. We all didn't know
each other. We were strangers.

And then, when we were together, there
were such strong feelings between us.

Such strong experiences of love,
not just sexually...

...but also by watching or touching...
such good emotional experiences...

That happens very rarely between
strangers.

Sometimes I think: for 19 years, I went
to school and listened to bullshit.

Now I want to know what's out there.

And now that I'm 25, I understand
that I just have to do what...

...I want. Don't listen to anyone.
Just do!

Fuck everybody! Do what you feel like.
Try it.

It's like Mick Jagger's song,
where he sings...

..."Catch your dreams before
they fly away".

Grab them before they fly off.

Try it one way or another.

Nothing ventured, nothing gained.
Don't listen to them. It's all bullshit!

Translation: Cinemageddon