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This movie
contains sensitive scenes and themes,

including Domestic Violence or DV,

which may trigger
the trauma of individuals

who have had similar experiences.

It is recommended to watch with caution,

and consider the availability
of emotional support after viewing.

This film has
undergone research and assistance

by the National Commission
on Violence Against Women

to ensure an appropriate representation

and deep understanding of the issue of DV.

All this time I thought I had
to bear all the burden alone.

But actually, it's okay if I admit

that I need other people.

But I realized I can't expect
people to understand

if I never tell them anything.

If you're tired…

just say so.

Because it's not a competition to be won,

but to be fought for.

But it turns out after I learned
to be open with myself,

to talk to someone,

to write down everything
I feel in this notebook…

slowly I realized, I have to be able
to accept my situation

and myself.

For sharing your story with us here.

Okay, life mates,
remember the breathing method

we discussed last week?

Let's prepare our five fingers.

It can be left or right hand.

The most important thing is
that we reconnect with our breath.

Appreciate each exhale.

As we climb, we inhale.

As we descend, we appreciate the exhale.

I HAVE ARRIVED IN NEW YORK

HOW WAS YOUR SESSION WITH MS. NINA?
ARE YOU FEELING ANY PROGRESS?

How is that?

Feeling better now?

NOT YET

Now if anyone else is ready
to share their story,

please go ahead.

Peace be upon you.

I told you, if you're asking for it now,
I don't have it.

What I mean…

We can't do that!

I have a problem at work.

And I've already told you about it.

Are you listening?

I heard you, but…

That's not possible!

And this is the last time.

You see for yourself,
is there anything left or not?

I don't have any more.

If you could manage your finances better,
this wouldn't happen.

You wouldn't
keep asking for more like this.

Every month you ask for more.

What more do you need?

Where are you going?

Why are you crying?

I hate seeing people cry.

Stop crying.

Stop crying!

I have to think about many things at work.

I don't need this bullshit anymore.

I said stop crying!

Stop crying!

Where are you going?

You're making my head explode!

I'm tired of this.

I'm tired of all this!

I have to face this every time at home.

I can't do it anymore!

I can't do it!

Enough.

Why are you crying?

Stop crying!

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO

DAD STILL HASN'T CHANGED

LEAVE HIM THEN

Mom.

What if I rent a room?

Why?

You can just stay at home with me.

Well, you could come with me.

It would be nicer. I'd be free.

You could make cakes however you want.

And maybe we could make
your dream come true, right?

A cake shop.

And maybe Bunga will come home.

Okay?

Alright. Yes, sir.

Okay, sir. I apologize.

Yes, I can assure you
this won't happen again, sir.

Yes, sir.

Alright, sir. Thank you.

These are for an order.

No wonder.
The electricity bill has skyrocketed.

But she's included the electricity cost
in the selling price.

Can you not?

When I speak, don't talk back.

I've already told you. Stop taking orders.

Dad.

It's okay. It's my fault.

I'm sorry. I promise this is the last one.

Come on.

I'll be going now.

PLACE YOUR CARD HERE

Hello?

Can you do a coffee run for us?

Oh. Coffee, huh?

For me, caramel macchiato.
No foam and just a little caramel.

For Ezra, Americano with no sugar,
but with hazelnut syrup.

And for Tania,
I think she wants a cafe latte…

No, I think it's matcha latte…

Hey, Tan.

I know designing a deck
is not part of your job spec.

But please, put in a little effort.

I know, but…

You'd better revise it first.
Based on their values.

So you're not just
doing random design like this.

But…

Miss, can you get out?

Hey, bro.

This lady was here first.

You get out.

What's wrong?

Going to the 26th floor too?

I'm Tari, content writer for Daily Wave.

Baskara.

Where's the toilet?

It's straight ahead. Then turn left.

Thanks.

- Good morning, miss.
- Good morning.

I'm really sleepy right now.

Where's mine?

- Is this right?
- Yes, that's right. No foam.

Thanks.

You're welcome.

Thank you so much, Tar.

You really are special.

Nice!

Where are your manners?

- Where are you going?
- HR. This is it, right?

Yeah.

- Your friend, Dim?
- Content writer for sports.

He's great at sports.

And used to be a basketball athlete.

He was really good.

Oh right. I almost forgot.

There's an open pitching session
for a new program at the office later.

Why don't you try for it, Tar?

If you get through, you could be
promoted to content manager,

and your salary would increase too.

Okay, I'll think about it.

Are you coming to the party tonight?

I need to finish Tania's revision first.

Okay, I'll take these with me then.

Those are for you anyway.

I'm thinking about talking to Dad.

Tar. I've signed you up
for a support group.

So you can learn to be more open.

To be bolder in making decisions too.

Okay, but what about Mom?

Just bring her along.

I'll support whatever business
Mom wants to do.

You couldn't even get Mom to leave.

How could I?

Well, maybe it's different now.

If Mom doesn't want to come with you,
think about yourself first.

Just save yourself first.

Careful, Bas. Don't act up too much.

You've been drinking too much already.

Wow, there's
a basketball player in our office.

- Who?
- Baskara.

- Just a moment.
- Okay.

- Not much different, right?
- Yeah, we're not that different.

Baskara!

Do you all know him?

Shooting guard for Pelita Muda.
Rookie of the year.

Awesome.

Let's have a toast first. Cheers.

START WORKING FOR A PITCHING DECK!

So what happened?

Why did you act up during the finals?

You were so close to being champion.

And then the next year,
he was caught doping.

But, as a basketball fan,

I really appreciate your talent.

I mean, your dad is a legend
in Indonesian basketball.

He must be really
disappointed in you, right?

But well, it's in the past.

Now Baskara works in our office.

Thanks to an insider!

You're so funny, are you a comedian?

Name's Jaka, I just love joking around.

Hold on a second.

- You look so handsome, bro.
- No.

It's nothing special.

You bastard!

- Bas!
- Bas!

Dim!

- You're challenging me?
- Stop!

You want to hit me?

- Hey, stop!
- Say that again.

Say that again!

- Say it again.
- Get them out of here!

Bas!

- You think I'm afraid of you?
- What did you say?

Bas! Stop it!

Bas, enough!

You'd be dead if they didn't break us up.

Don't you know who I am?

- How can you hit people like that?
- Enough.

Hold him…

Help me…

- Bro!
- What's wrong, Dim?

- You idiot!
- Gravity is heavier than…

Wake up, Bas!

What's wrong, Dim?

He's…

He's drunk, what a pain in the ass!

Move it.

Ouch!

Damn it!

Just use Baskara's hoodie.

Hey! Wake up, Bas.

Is your friend always like this, Dim?

He just gets triggered easily.

If someone brings up his past.

You asshole!

Just watch it, okay?

Watch it.

My life actually isn't funny at all.

But every time I hang out with friends,
or at school…

they always ask me to do something.

"Ca, tell us a joke."

Well, I'm sorry.

Just because I'm a stand-up comedian,
do I have to be funny all the time?

It doesn't feel good.

Having to be funny

when we're at our lowest point.

When I was stuck in a toxic relationship.

At first I thought he could change, but…

the longer it went on…

the more my mental health was affected.

I was hurt.

I was controlled. I was abused.

And I started to feel…

I started to need…

To need affection from him.

I was so afraid of losing him.

I became a people pleaser.

When clearly I was the one being hurt.

I was the one being completely controlled.

My mental health was
being completely destroyed.

And the funny thing is,
when I told my other friends,

they said I was being ungrateful.

And from that I also learned that…

No one cares about me.

Except myself.

FIND A WAY BACK TO HAPPINESS
IN YOUR MARRIAGE!

- I'm heading back.
- Okay.

- I'll go first.
- Okay.

Maybe you need it, Mom.

What's this about, Tar?

Your dad and me are fine.

Are you sure?

Every marriage has its problems.

The important thing
is that they can be fixed.

Okay, it's up to you.

But just keep it, okay?

I'll go and wash up first, then we'll eat.

Okay.

Cipto.

Cip.

Are you lonely, Cip?

Just wait, Cip.

When I get my salary,
I'll buy you a big aquarium.

Feeling lonely, Cip?

It's okay. I'll buy you a friend.

So you won't be alone. Okay?

Just hang in there.

What do you mean with this?

You want to tell
your parents to get divorced?

Answer me.

When I ask you something, you answer.

I just want you to talk nicely with Mom
if there's a problem.

Who said your mom and I have a problem?

Was it Bunga? Did she tell you?

You dare to give this to your mom?

What else were you going to give her?

Listen.

I've lived longer than you have.

So don't act like you know everything.

Honey. That's enough.

She didn't mean it that way.

Then what did she mean?

If we have a problem.

Oh, so you think we have a problem?

What's the problem?

Tari. What problem do Mom and I have?

What problem do your mom and I have?

Enough, honey.

What problem do your mom and I have?

What problem do we have?

- Answer when I ask you!
- Cip!

You stay out of this.

You answer my question.

Tari!

Cip…

Look at the daughter you've raised.

No respect for her parents.

Cip…

Tari.

Don't cry, okay?

This is a gift for my amazing daughter.

I'm sorry, Cip.

I can't take care of you.

- SO? ARE YOU GOING TO RENT A HOUSE?
- I HAVE DECIDED.

Excuse me.

Come in, Bas.

Please have a seat.

I think I'll just sit over there, sir.

Okay.

Bas.

Look at that, Bas.

Someone has to ended up like that.

This guy needs to
learn to watch his mouth.

Besides… I only punched you once.

Why are you all bruised up like this?

Look, just apologize to Jaka now.

It's good enough
that he wants to make peace.

As long as you apologize.
That's all. Simple.

Come on.

Sorry.

Huh? What?

Sorry.

That's not how it's done.

I was hit in front of a lot of people.

You should apologize to everyone.

What are you doing?

Come on, Bas,
let's just get this over with.

Come on.

Not close enough. Can't see your face.

His face doesn't look sorry, sir.

Now do that apologize gesture.

No. Like in the emoji.

Right.

Hands like that, face looking sorry.
Then apologize to me.

Sorry.

Do it sincerely. One, two, three.

I'm sorry, Jaka.

Okay. I forgive you.

Don't do it again, okay?

Don't be naughty. Okay?

- Yeah, right?
- Yes.

- Promise?
- Promise.

We're done, sir.

It seems everything is clear now, sir.

There's nothing else to discuss.

I ask you to
reconsider your decision, sir.

Because I've been loyal
to your company for years, sir.

And you know my commitment to the company.

Sometimes I don't even
go home because of work.

You can't even explain
where the company's money has gone.

That might be my subordinate's fault, sir.

- Mr. Pras. That's enough.
- My wife…

There will still be severance pay
as a token of gratitude.

Pick up your resignation letter
at the office later.

Sir, please… I ask you to reconsider, sir.

Hello, sir?

I sent you something.

What is it?

A support group. Maybe
you can learn to control your emotions.

What support group?

Just go, Bas.

I'm not going to something like that.

Hey, jerk.

If something happens to you, I'll
be the first one Mr. Riko comes after.

Because you're acting
like a kid. You're a snitch.

You're the kid.

Always angry all the time.

Looking for trouble. Or hitting people.

YOU FAILED TO BECOME A BASKETBALL PLAYER,

SO NOW YOU WANT TO BE A BOXER?

What's your problem?

How did they know about this?

Okay.

Here, Bas.

What's this?

The hoodie I was wearing.

You threw up on me last night.

Don't you remember?

Huh?

Wake up, Bas!

Ouch!

Ouch…

Just put it down there.

I'm really sorry, Bas…

Is the data I asked for ready yet?

- They're waiting…
- Yes, I'm working on it now.

Guys, please listen.
This is a very important announcement.

The Open Pitching Program is now open.

For more detailed info,
just check the office group.

Thank you, everyone.

- Bro.
- Sorry, Bas. I'm with him.

Are you alone?

What? I'm with Tania.

Looking for a room to rent?

Oh, yeah.

- Did you find one?
- Not yet.

You can stay at my place.

Huh?

How about it?

- Don't be dirty-minded.
- What do you mean?

I mean there's an empty room at my place.

Okay. Can I have the number?

Sure.

But, you have to let me join your team.

For the open pitching.

See for yourself.
No one wants to team up with me.

I can't do that, Tar.
I can't leave your father.

So, are we just going to be
stuck here forever, Mom?

Stuck?

I don't feel stuck.

Marrying your father was my choice.

And I have to take
responsibility for that.

Yes.

And you've been
doing this for years, right?

Has Dad changed?

If you can defend Dad,
and fight for him so much…

I just want you to know,
this is my way of fighting for you.

I can't take it anymore, Mom.

Seeing you treated like that by Dad.

If you can't do it for yourself,
do it for your daughters.

Do it for me.

Do it for Bunga
who still hasn't come home.

Okay, Mom?

Just this once, Mom.

TAXI

Honey?

Honey?

I'm sorry, ma'am.
Have you been waiting long?

Sorry. I'm Kobra.

- Okay.
- Let's go up, shall we?

Tari!

Mom.

This is just temporary, okay?

Later, when they raise my salary,

I'll find a more
comfortable place for you.

This is good enough, Tar.

I'll hold onto your phone for now, okay?

Okay, fine.

Thank you, Mom.

Well, today… Okay.

Sorry I'm late, miss.

It's okay, Tari. Have a seat.

This is exciting.

Because the theme is "Draw How You Feel,"

express whatever you're feeling
through a drawing.

YOU'RE HERE TOO?

Afterwards, we can share
what we're feeling together

through the drawing.

You'll draw in your own notebooks.

But use these colored pencils.

What's this for?

It's like we're in kindergarten.

Let's just go along with it.

Are you drawing a ghost or something?

I can't see anything.

I don't know what to draw.

Has anyone finished their drawing?

When I was little,
my dad introduced me to cameras.

And finally when I grew up,
I made a living from photography.

Got jobs here and there,
met a lot of people.

But I think that's what made me…

materialistic.

Even my love and affection for my parents,

I measured with money.

I became very ambitious.

I wanted to prove to my dad…

that I could buy anything he wanted later.

Until there was a time

when I didn't want to meet my dad, because

why should I waste time meeting him

when I could use
that time to study cameras?

Which clearly had results.

I could meet him later.

Until finally my dad and I
had a big fight.

We had a cold war
for quite a long time because…

Because of my life choice
to become a photographer.

Suddenly he contacted me
asking to be photographed.

I always said, later, later.

"Later, Dad."

"I'm busy."

But slowly I realized,

that was probably his way

of apologizing to me…

before he passed away.

Now what can I buy for him?

Maybe flowers to scatter on his grave.

But now I believe

that love shouldn't be transactional.

It shouldn't be
measured by material things.

Well…

Bas, when are you coming home?

Stop by the house, okay?

I want to cook Pesmol for you.

We'll eat together at home.
Keep your mother company.

- HOW'S YOUR NEW JOB?
- I'M FINE. THANK YOU, MOM.

BROTHER. ARE YOU BUSY TOMORROW?

I KNOW YOU'RE ONLINE. REPLY ME.

I knew you were going to call me.

Did you really punch someone again?

How do you know about this?

I have many sources.

Don't let Mom and Dad find out
about my current job.

You know Dad is sick.

What if they find out
and Dad's condition gets worse?

Don't you think about that?

Stop trying to change the subject.

You remember Mom's birthday
is coming up soon, right?

Mom and Dad's favorite first child
has missed their birthdays multiple times.

I'll come later. Don't worry.

It's just that right now I'm…

I have some business
I need to take care of.

I don't understand you.

Every year
you always say you have this or that.

Maybe this "business"
only exists in your head.

Have you got the material?

Not yet.

Why do you want to
join this open pitching?

I want to become a content manager.

You're quite ambitious, aren't you?

Well, how should I put it?

This is the only way
I can ease my mother's burden.

Because if I rely on looks alone…

Well, I'm self-aware.

What's wrong with your appearance?

My face is full of acne.

I never have time to use skincare.

I wear braces, and I'm short too.

No one takes me seriously at the office.

So according to you, if a person is…

tall, they always use skincare…

that person is definitely okay?

Not necessarily. It's not a guarantee.

Besides, your appearance is fine.

So I'm cool then?

You see that tall building?

If you look from there, you're okay.

Hey!

So annoying.

Good afternoon, sir, how can I help you?

I'm looking for my daughter Tari.

I'll handle it, sir. It's okay.

You're looking for Tari?

Can you tell me which division?

Bentari Anandara.

I…

I don't know in what division she is in.

Bentari Anandara…

Oh… Right.

As it happens,
we used to be in the same division.

Used to?

Hasn't Tari told you anything?

Tari resigned from here, sir.

- Resigned?
- Yes.

Don't play games with me, okay?

Sir, I'm not playing games.

I'm being serious right now.

But it's okay if you want me
to take you inside to check.

We can do that. Right now.

I can take you.

Tari.

It's safe now. All good.

Mom!

Mom!

Mom!

Oh no, what should we do?
My mom's not here.

I'll try asking Bang Kobra.

- Okay, please.
- Hey, why don't you just call her?

I have her phone.

Alright, just a moment.

Mom!

We return to recognizing our breath.

Appreciate each exhale.

But only temporarily, right?

If your father has changed,
we'll go back, okay.

Answer!

Stop crying! Can't you hear me?

Answer when I ask you!

- Cip!
- Hey, you don't need to get involved!

Hey, you're home already.

Where have you been, Mom?

I said don't go anywhere!

I just bought some eggs at the store.

Sorry if I made you worry.

It's okay, I'm sorry, Mom.

I just panicked earlier.

Dad came to my office.

Luckily I managed to avoid him.

But if Dad is brave enough
to come to the office…

it means he might look for us
in places we've been to.

Don't you want to give him a chance?

Who knows, maybe he's looking for us
because he regrets what he did.

And he wants to apologize.

- Don't you think we should…
- Mom.

Someone who has
been cruel to you for years…

can't possibly change in a matter of days.

Tari!

I've checked…

- She's here.
- Bas.

- It's okay now. Thanks, Bas.
- Okay, I'll leave you two, then.

Thanks, Bas.

- Here you go.
- Thank you.

Can I have some crackers?

- One or two?
- Just one.

Here you go.

- What's wrong with you?
- It's too spicy.

But it's still good, it's okay.

Don't be like that.

- Excuse me.
- It's okay.

What's wrong?

My friend here ordered
non-spicy. Why is it spicy?

Really?

Yes, it's spicy.

But not spicier than my neighbors' gossip.

Here's some cold water.

But not any colder
than my ex's attitude towards me.

What's with this guy? He's so corny.

Look who's talking.

Thanks.

If there's something
you don't like, just say it.

Don't be afraid.

Okay.

What's wrong?

Got something in my eye.

What happened?

Don't know.
Maybe an insect? Try blowing it out.

Let me see.

Careful.

How am I supposed to blow?

Use your feelings.

Is it out yet?

We're like those Korean dramas, aren't we?

Fine, ask him to blow it out!

You want me to blow with my nose or mouth?

Nope. He smells like coal.

Where's your fried rice?

- He's still making it. Be patient.
- The guy's just playing cards.

- Here's the non-spicy one. Sorry.
- Thank you.

I have to go.

- Where are you going?
- I won't be long.

Bas!

Where have you been?

What are you doing here suddenly?

My boyfriend is going to propose to me.

Your ugly boyfriend?

What's with you?

Seriously, Mom
and Dad want you to come home

so we can all talk about this at home.

Sar, honestly, I…

Still can't?

This is about your own sister.

What issue is more important than family?

You don't know how
Dad asks about you every day.

Not to mention Mom,
who calls out your name in her sleep.

You don't understand, Sar.

Why are you blaming me?

Don't you realize how naive you are?

You think

you can repay Mom and Dad's love
by paying for a nurse?

Buying them this and that?

It's easy for you to talk like that.

You live an easy life,
you have a good job.

But me?

I'm just a son

who can't fulfill people's expectations.

- Whose expectations?
- Dad's, of course.

Who else?

Dad was an Indonesian basketball legend.

I'm nothing but trash.

You don't know how it feels to be me.

I've always tried my best
to be there for them.

But what?

Every day, they only talk about you.

The son who's never around.

Dad, Mom, and I

need you as you are.

As their child, and as my brother.

That's all.

I packed some fried rice for you.

Was that your sister?

You've been eavesdropping the whole time?

How does it feel to be like you?

You have a home.

You know where to return to.

Because many people can't feel that.

Like me, for example.

So, eat a lot, okay.

I've brought a lot for you.

I AM

Good afternoon.

I'm Nina from Life Mates.

Perhaps you'd like to join the session?

Our class is just about to start.

I'm looking for my daughter, Tari.

I know my daughter is here.

Tell me where she is.

Look, sir. It's Life Mates policy

that we cannot provide
any information about our participants.

Your father came here earlier.

My father?

Hey, calm down.

Remember the breathing method.

You're safe.

But for now, you need to be careful.

You're still hesitant. I understand.

But whenever you need help, I'm here.

Okay?

- Thank you, miss.
- Let's sit down.

MISSED CALL

WHERE ARE YOU? I'M SORRY,
I KNOW IT'S MY FAULT

HONEY

I'm going to my room for a bit, okay?

Okay, I'll catch up with my mom first.

Hello.

Mom, are you ready?

Of course.

Do I look pretty?

You're gorgeous!

- Shall we go now?
- Yes, let's go.

Let's go.

Thank you for saying I'm gorgeous.

Good evening, Paylater buddies!

You guys look like the crowd who fight
for a train at Manggarai in the morning.

Look at everyone here! Is this
the end of a factory shift or what?

Good, good.

My last ex was toxic.

He's tough, but sick.

She's funny, isn't she?

Too funny.

Come on, Mom. He's hopeless.
Don't encourage him to laugh.

His laughter muscles are torn.
All he can do is get mad.

- Says who?
- You're not laughing.

- I can laugh.
- Then do it.

You haven't laughed this whole time.

No. That's not a real laugh.

- Do it more sincerely then.
- I sound crazy.

No. Try laughing.

Okay, that's better.

You should smile more often.

I'm handsome when I smile, right?

Shut up!

We should go again sometime.

Finally…

I found you both.

I couldn't sleep, couldn't eat.

Looking for you.

Finally, I found you.

At first, I just wanted
to ask how he was doing.

But then he said he promised to change.

Right?

Let's go home.

I want to stay here.

Let's go home, now!

Let go!

It hurts, Dad!

- Let's go home.
- Sir.

She doesn't want to, she's in pain, sir.

Who are you? Get out of the way.

Bas, stop it. Tari, let's go home.

- Go home now.
- Dad, it hurts!

Dad, it hurts!

- Sir!
- You don't need to get involved!

Sorry, Tar.

I'm sorry, Tar…

I'm sorry, sir.

Sir…

Let's go home. Now.

Tar, I'm sorry…

From now on,

I'll pick you up and drop you off
wherever you go.

You're not allowed to leave this house
without my permission.

If you dare to disobey me,
you know the consequences.

Do you understand?

I know you must be disappointed in me.

But this is what's best for…

Best for who?

Your father will surely change, Tari.

Whatever you say, Mom.

Don't cry, okay.

Mom.

Can't I?

Just this once.

I want to cry.

All this time,

I've never asked for anything.

From Dad.

From you.

But I'm tired.

So tired.

Tired of pretending to be happy.

Tired of pretending…

that this family is okay.

Tired of feeling scared
every time I come home.

Wondering what will happen today.

What will I face today.

Is Mom going to be okay or not?

But I never complained, right?

I never left you.

So just let me, Mom.

Now…

I don't have to
pretend to be strong anymore.

Just let me be angry.

Which I couldn't do all this time.

Tar, listen to me.

Tar.

Tari.

Tar.

You're the one who said it.

We have to give our best for this deck.

You said you wanted
to be a content manager.

You wanted to help your mom.

Don't bring my mom into this.

It's not like that.

Tar, I know you're really angry at me.

But I'm really sorry.

I just couldn't stand seeing you
being treated roughly by your dad.

Bas.

How my dad treated me
is my business, okay?

So? You have to be the same as him?

Is giving in to your anger and violence
going to solve my problem?

No!

It makes my problem even heavier.

My advice is, before you meddle
with other people's problems,

take care of your own life problems first.

Why are you here?

I won't be long.
I don't really want to be here actually.

My proposal was postponed.

Why?

Mom and Dad gave a condition,

if I still want to marry
my current boyfriend,

I have to bring you

to talk with Mom and Dad at home.

Come on, Sar.

- Sorry…
- What else?

I don't need your apology.

But yeah, I'm just stupid.

Still hoping for someone
who doesn't care like you.

CONGRATULATIONS TO SEMESTA BERSAMAMU
PODCAST FOR THE SILVER PLAY BUTTON

Idiot!

Are you crazy?

- You're an idiot!
- Hey, you made it fall!

- Don't push!
- Stop!

- What's wrong? Why so sensitive?
- You knocked it down!

I feel like I tend to
push people away from me.

My sister, for example.

She failed to get married because of me.

I'm not ready.

But it's your sister
who wants to get married?

Why is it about you?

I'm not ready to go home.

I was not ready either.

But then it turned out my parents
were the ones ready to be called by God.

I was too late.

I don't know, but in my opinion,

the problem is just in your head.

You'd better go home while you still can.

Mom.

Bas?

Happy birthday, Mom.

Where have you been?

I'm sorry, Mom.

I haven't been able to give you a gift.

It's okay, son.

It's okay.

You coming home is more than enough.

Dad.

I'm sorry, Dad.

I've been away for too long.

I'm ashamed, Dad.

I always cause problems.

I've even tarnished your name.

Bas.

When…

have I ever demanded that

you be something?

Let alone to be like me.

I just want…

my son…

to be a responsible person.

I will be proud of you.

Forgive me, Dad.

I will be a better man.

BASKARA'S PART

THE CELEBRATION OF NUMBNESS

Tari.

I know you still don't want to talk to me.

But maybe you want to talk to this.

Cip!

Yeah…

Sucipto!

Miss me?

That's from Bang Kobra.

I realize I shouldn't
have done that to your dad.

I know that violence can't solve problems.

I know you're still angry at me.

Later, when you forgive me,
I promise you, Tar.

I will be a better person.

Alright.

Then what?

Then I promise I won't
punch people randomly,

and I'll be more patient.

And then?

I won't interfere in your business.

Unless you ask.

- And then?
- There's no more "then"!

See? You said you'd be patient.

Oh my goodness.

My bad.

Okay.

If you don't want to continue the project
or want to withdraw from this project…

- Or if you want--
- Who said we're withdrawing?

So we're still on?

But we don't have an idea yet.

The deck has been stuck since yesterday.

Idea, huh?

What could it be?

What are you doing?

Huh?

Something's in my eye.

The idea has been
in front of our eyes all along.

We didn't realize that
this is a source of inspiration.

Sucipto?

We need to
think of something out of the box.

So?

So I started my own research.

The good qualities of fish that would
be a great example to run a company.

First, adaptation and flexibility.

We need to be able to adapt, be flexible…

Tari.

Come on, Tari.

- Tari!
- This is for tomorrow's presentation.

In case you need it…

Let's go, Dad.

- Let's go.
- Sir.

Sir, I apologize.

Dad!

Bas!

- Let's go.
- Dad…

- Let's go!
- Bas!

Starting tomorrow, you don't need
to go to the office anymore.

- But I have to work.
- What for?

So you can be close to that scumbag?

Honey.

- What's going on?
- Don't interfere. You be quiet!

I'm holding on to your phone.

But, Dad. I have to work.

Let go!

Why is it so difficult?
Get out of the way!

Why is it so hard to listen
to your own parents?

I'm not a little kid anymore!

Enough of this, Dad.

You need to see a professional.

I can take you to find a therapist.

You're telling me to see a therapist?

Do you think I'm crazy?

People who see therapist
aren't necessarily crazy.

Now you act like
you know about my condition,

because you work, have your own money.

So now you feel like you're above me.

Why does it have to go there again?

Since when have you understood…?

Pras!

I'm sorry, dear.

If you want to cry…

just cry. Okay?

I've been silent for too long.

I was selfish.

My children had to bear
all the consequences.

I thought…

if I stayed strong…

Dad would change.

But I was wrong.

Forgive me, okay?

Please forgive me.

We have to leave this place, Tar.

Mom…

This time we have to face it.

Yes, but…

But I don't know where to go.

I know who to call.

Where are you going?

We're leaving.

Why?

What's wrong with you two?

We just don't want you…

to treat us like this anymore.

We want you to know
that we can't take it anymore.

Look, honey.

I always say.

You need to be strict
when raising your children!

Look at your upbringing.

She just does whatever she wants.

You…

You're not strict.

You're just too harsh.

And you always
force all your wishes on us.

You think you could live all this time
because of who?

Because of Bunga.

Because of Tari.

If it wasn't for them,
I would have given up on you long ago.

Why do you think I work all day?

It's for both of you!

And you think we're happy because of that?

Why do you think Bunga left the house

and hasn't come home?

Because she is tired of being treated
like a bad person by you.

Mom fought with you every day.

Had things thrown at her by you.
Got beaten by you.

But eventually I realized.

Mom doesn't
deserve to be treated like that.

You two should be grateful.

What don't you have?

You have everything!

I do have everything.

I have trauma.

I have problems expressing what I feel.

I have all the bad things from the person

who should have protected me
since I was little.

That's what I have.

Have you known all this time, Dad?

I know I was wrong.

I want to change.

Then go ahead.

But we're still leaving.

No, you can't leave.

You can't leave.

Who gave you permission to leave?

Who gave you permission to leave?

You can't leave!

No one is allowed to leave!

RELIGIOUS COURT OF EAST JAKARTA

If anyone is ready,

whatever the story,

go ahead.

Anyone?

Anyone ready?

Tari?

Go ahead.

I've never felt this calm and free before.

I'm happy too.

But, I'm sorry

we didn't get to present our deck.

But I did submit it.

Maybe we'll have another chance.

It's okay, don't worry about it.

Come on, bring it on!

- Got you!
- Watch out!

Take it easy.

- No way!
- What are you doing?

- Move it. We're playing.
- Dim, I'm playing here!

The boss still isn't satisfied
with the results of yesterday's pitch.

So, if you two are still interested,

this is your chance to pitch.

I can help you. How about it?

Can you do that?

Do you want to hear…

something disgusting and cringy?

Oh, what is it now?

I'm getting ready to go home.

Don't be like that!

Okay, fine. What is it?

I…

I want to spend

more time with you.

I want

to get to know you better.

And I want

us to be more than just work colleagues.

All this time
I've always kept my feelings to myself.

No one would know, except me.

And finally,

I became a person who

cared more about
other people's happiness and well-being.

I cared about what my family feels.

I became a "yes man."

Tari, how's the content I asked for?

- Still waiting for the article from--
- Just figure out how to speed it up.

It needs to be posted soon.

Office mates should back each other up.

Well, it's okay to back up
non-office matters once in a while.

Maybe that's because I was in denial too.

I thought,

"This can be overcome, everything's fine."

But over time

I got tired of being that kind of person.

And finally,

there was

one incident in my life

that hit

and shaped me.

Maybe those are
the two most appropriate words

to describe
the process of my life right now.

Tari.

Can you make me an infographic?

You can, right? Can you do it now?

I can't.

That's not in my job description.

Why can't you do it? You always help me.

I know, but this time I can't. Sorry.

Okay.

That's awesome.

That's more like it. Be brave.

- Problems should be faced.
- Get out of the way!

- Not kept to yourself.
- I want to play.

Do you want to challenge me?

It's okay to ask for help.

It's okay to say no.

It doesn't mean we're bad people.

And finally, I can

put myself first

and love myself.

So you're rejecting me?

Let's just be friends first.

You still want to be
friends with me, right?

No way, bye!

Bas!

Come on.

Of course I do.

Why are you rejecting me?

It hurts, you know.

Why are you being like that?

But let me know when you're ready.

Okay.

I want to thank all of you.

Because you are all

a part of the process
I'm going through right now.

Thank you.

Thank you, Tari.

Boo!

I packed some snacks for you earlier.

Hey, sweetie. Come here.

He wants to open it, Mommy.

Where's Dad? Let's open it.

- I wanna open it.
- Okay, let's open it.

This is my son.

- How handsome.
- Hello.

- You want me to open it?
- Let's open it.

- We'll open it.
- Let's open it, okay?

Let's take a photo first!

This is my husband.

- Let's take a photo.
- Okay. Let's do it together.

I'll take the photo. One, two, three.

Gosh, this is…

Yay!

Where's the kiss?

I want to open this.

- Come on, Honey.
- Bye-bye, be careful.

Guys. So next week,
I'm holding a special show.

So I'm inviting you all
to come. You should come.

I'll definitely come.

I love the tagline.
"Every wound can heal."

Yeah, right. Cool, huh?

Like an album. This is awesome.

Wait, I have a phone call.

You're in front? That was so fast.

Did you used nitro?

Alright. Bye.

- Who's that?
- Wow, who is that?

It's a secret.

I'm leaving, okay. Don't forget to come.

- Bye! See you!
- Be careful.

I'm heading out too. Anyone want a ride?

I'll go with you.

You want a ride? Sure, let's go.

It's really nice there. Oh right, bye!

- So…
- What is he talking about?

I don't know.

Ms. Nina's son is so cute. Oh my goodness.

And he's smart too.

He looks more like his dad.

- Really? More than Ms. Nina?
- Yeah.

So are you ready?

Ready for what?

Ready to go home?

Oh.

I'm ready to go home
if that's what you mean. Let's go.

What are you not ready for?

What are you not ready for?

- It's nice, right?
- Yes. Thank you so much.

- Are you happy?
- Very happy.

Finally, Mom.

Your dream has come true.

Bunga!

Did you…?

- Mom.
- Finally my sister comes home.

This is so cool.

Thank you for paying for my kiosk.

This is our dream.

Tari helped too.

The important thing is now
Mom can make cakes happily and peacefully.

Right.

Shall we clean up? So we can open soon.

Let's do it together.

What can I help with?

Just hang those paintings.

Okay, sir. Please.

Thank you.

Hello, everyone.

I am a husband, a father…

and a failed man.

Ever since my childhood,
I was raised harshly.

I often saw

my parents fighting.

I often experienced

physical punishment too.

I know it's painful.

It was wrong.

But stupidly,

I did the same thing to my family.

And now I have to lose them.

They left me.

If only they were in front of me now

I would say,

"I'm sorry."

"I was wrong."

"I should have been a home for you."

"Be a role model for you."

"And be your first love."

"But instead
I became your first heartbreak."

"I'm so sorry."

"I really want to cry with you."

"Please forgive me."

"I'm so sorry."

Thank you, Mr. Pras.

Actually, this is
something I never expected.

And this might be
one of the most special days for me.

While accompanying Life Mates here.

Well, that's what often happens.

The problem is often not out there.

So…

how is your mom?

Good.

She's fine.

Happy.

I…

I miss you.

I…

I brought Cipto a friend.

It doesn't feel right to be alone.

See you again.

Dad.

Dad.

Yes, dear?

Take care of yourself, okay?

Yes, dear.

You take care too, okay.

Say hi to Mom and Bunga for me.

Okay?

What?

Hey.

Who is that?

That's the Zumba instructor.

Is your face okay?

It hurts.

Can we do it one more time?

- Sorry.
- It's okay, dear.

Cut!

Cut!

Hey!

It's like…

Isolate.

We're not using the sound!

We're not using the audio…

Sorry, I thought you were recording Mom.
I looked at the camera.

I… This is because you talked.

We've talked so much. Sorry.

Do that first!

Sorry!

- Wait. Should I greet first?
- I'm…

- Stop grinning.
- I did not expect it.

Makes me want to cry.

One more time. Okay, we'll…

That surprised me.

Freedom!

Come here! Where are you going?

What candy is that?

The laundry's upstairs.

Do you know what this is?

- A heart?
- No. This is a lion.

- I joked around too much.
- It's okay.

You're Baskara's little sister.

That's correct. Do you know Baskara?

Yes. Do you know who I am?

You must be my grandfather.

No! I am your grandmother!

What are you doing here?

I'm looking for Baskara, my brother.

Just wait here.
He's going to come home soon.

- Okay. Excuse me.
- Just wait here, it's okay.

It's okay. Go ahead. But you have to do
one thing if you want to wait here.

- Look after my bird.
- Gosh.

- Want to hear a story about the bird?
- Of course. What is it?

The bird told me before.

- Told you what?
- It said this.

Do you know what this is?

- This thing? A heart?
- Yeah. No!

- I love you.
- No!

- I want you.
- No.

- I need you.
- This is a monkey!

- What do you mean a monkey?
- Excuse me.

- Do you want to hear my song?
- Okay.

You have to pay a fine?

That's when you got a ticket
from the police. I'm off, I want to sing.

- Excuse me.
- Thank you.