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- I'm gonna tell you a story.
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It's about an unspeakable crime.
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It's about terrible cruelty.
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It's about a fight for justice.
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It's a story you might find hard to believe.
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But this story is true, and it happened to me.
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- ♪ My blood runs cold
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- I was told that Matthew died in an accident.
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- I can't imagine sitting with the kind of mystery
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of what happened with your baby brother
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for a lifetime.
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- That is your own living hell.
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- This was a once-in-a-lifetime case.
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- Unimaginable trauma.
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- She was the keeper of secrets.
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- You would hear the yelling and the screaming.
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- My parents looked at me like a deer in headlights.
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- Tracy begins to realize they were hiding something.
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- We had prosecuted some cold cases.
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This was the coldest. This was frigid.
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- There are so many twists and turns.
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- To me, it felt like the case had started right there.
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- We all have to confront our demons.
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- We were amazed at what we saw.
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- No matter what your beliefs are,
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you've gotta believe that God knew the truth.
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- It absolutely blew us away.
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- Something doesn't wash here.
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- I don't think that I have done anything wrong.
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- That really bothered me.
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- I was fearless.
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- Medical records said that I had killed my baby brother.
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I--I don't unders-- I don't understand.
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- All my life, I knew there was something wrong
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with Matthew's death,
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but I was not prepared to learn the truth.
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- ♪ My blood runs cold
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- My memory works like a Polaroid.
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I have snapshots of things, and they're so vivid,
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I could draw them.
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But that is not always a good thing.
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My first memory is the day that Matthew died.
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- No, actually, I--
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it--it's--it's very odd to think
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your whole life is wrapped around somebody
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you can't remember, but no.
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Well, let's go back.
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I have all these baby pictures.
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Yeah, so me, 1970,
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just a baby, before Matthew.
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My brother, Matthew, was born August 9, 1971.
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And four months later, December 27th, he died.
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Very shortly after Matthew died.
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I mean, I was four days away from my second birthday, so--
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so I was not yet two.
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There's not very many pictures of Matthew.
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I am a generally happy person.
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I try to stay on the positive side.
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Me, the kids.
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Me and my grandchildren.
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I'm a mimi, not a grandmother.
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I also recognize at this point in life
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that you can definitely be conditioned
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to not show unhappiness,
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because if you are showing unhappiness,
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people ask questions, so.
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- I got involved with Tracyraquel in 1997.
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I covered all kinds of stories
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for local and national publications
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and was really intrigued by the backstory
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and everything that she had been through
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to really doggedly pursue the truth.
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Tracy grew up in the 1970s in Atlanta,
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in a suburban part of town, in the north end of town,
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DeKalb County.
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- We always joked that we lived in the hood.
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You know, a lot of the kids in our community
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that went to our school lived in big, fancy houses,
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and we lived in apartments.
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- I didn't live anywhere long enough
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to be anywhere until I was, I think,
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a sophomore in high school.
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There are benefits to that because if you change schools
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four times a year, every year, you get to do
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all the field trips again.
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But otherwise, no.
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I wouldn't say there was a childhood home, just a place.
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This is a picture of me being a goofy cheerleader
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at 11, 12 years old.
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It's kind of my personality.
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I love sports.
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I'm very competitive, and I'm ridiculously girly.
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So a skirt and pom poms was not very far of a stretch.
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And if there was some gymnastics and some stunting,
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I'm right there.
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It's the '80s, so braces and blue eyeliner.
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It's really bad.
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But yeah, I guess it's cute.
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- Tracy was always very responsible, independent,
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very respectful of her mom and other adults.
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I do remember thinking of her as an old soul.
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- What are cheerleaders but they're happy, peppy people
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who tell everybody to get happy and cheer somebody on?
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So I think there's probably some subconscious
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symbolism in that.
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- Tracyraquel's parents are Kathie Almon and Jan Sandlin.
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They were both born in 1950
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and met pretty early on at age 12.
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- Kathie dated Jan all through high school,
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but not publicly.
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- Jan was sort of a big man on campus.
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He was a very mischievous, domineering sort of person.
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And Kathie, she found him charming.
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He had a lot of the girls after him,
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and she was one of them.
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- But Kathie got pregnant at 15,
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and she was forbid to see him.
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Things were different.
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You know, it was 1965, and that was not acceptable.
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And her mother told her that
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someone was gonna come and just check to make sure
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that the baby and the pregnancy was okay.
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And the woman actually came to do an illegal abortion
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at the time.
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So I think that that probably solidified whatever heartbreak
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between the two of them.
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- Somehow, she was still, you know, very drawn to him
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really early in her life.
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- After all of that, she dated publicly this really nice boy,
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Ted Golder.
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And then when he was drafted,
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she found out she was pregnant with me.
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And so they got married.
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- Kathie, even while she was in a relationship with Ted,
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was sort of drawn back, like the moth to the flame, to Jan.
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- Ted went off to war, and Kathie sent him
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a Dear John letter while he was deployed over in Vietnam
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saying, you know what?
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This is--this is not your child.
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I don't love you. It's Jan's child.
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I'm in love with him.
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Eventually, Kathie got pregnant
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with my brother, Matthew.
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And Jan literally moved in with Kathie
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and Matthew and I right after that.
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She just was head over heels in love with him.
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The day that Matthew died.
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At the time, I didn't understand what all the lights
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and sirens are, and I don't really have a memory
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of an emotional state at that point.
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Just asking what they were doing.
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And my parents just kind of looked at me
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like a deer in headlights.
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- The day that Matthew died, Jan and Mathew
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were left alone in the apartment.
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Matthew would have been sleeping.
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Kathie and Tracy had been out running some errands.
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And then when they returned home...
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- Mr. Sandlin greeted them at the door
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and told Kathie that there was laundry downstairs
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that needed to be brought up to the apartment.
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- Jan took Tracy into the apartment.
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And when Kathie came back...
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- She went in like any mother wanting to go in
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and check on the child.
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- They go back there in the bedroom.
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And the child, the infant, Matthew Golder,
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is unresponsive.
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- They then went directly to the hospital.
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- They transported the child to Northside Hospital
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with injuries to the head,
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because that's where the child was born.
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But Northside did not have neurology on staff,
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especially for pediatrics, so they transported him
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immediately in an ambulance to DeKalb Medical Center.
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- I remember being in the car,
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standing, holding the headrest,
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and ambulances all around.
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- Matthew was taken into surgery pretty quickly
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after he got to the hospital.
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And then the neurosurgeon came out
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and said that while he was still alive,
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his prognosis was quite bleak,
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and that he probably wasn't going to live.
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- Subsequently, he died there at the hospital.
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- So that's my-- that's my first memory.
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- At the time that Matthew died,
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there was an elected coroner system
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instead of a forensic medical examiner system.
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And so the determinations of that elected coroner
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was that it was an accidental death.
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- Kathie said after the day that Matthew died,
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it's been torture for me ever since.
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Sort of from that point on, it was a big blur.
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- A couple of months after Matthew died--
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so I would have just turned two...
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My mother, she took me out and sat me
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on this second story balcony.
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I did not understand what was happening.
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And I remember Kathie...
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She climbed up on the thing and jumped.
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- I suspect Kathie was dealing with an awful lot,
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grieving the loss of her infant son
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and very sad about everything that had happened.
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She had a lot of pain.
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- She didn't die.
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She broke both legs and both arms.
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Yeah, it was a--
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it was a tough time.
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I remember days later and she was on the couch
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in this full-body cast,
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and she was yelling at me,
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telling me how to scramble eggs.
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Can you imagine scrambling eggs at two?
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Yeah.
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Those are moments of grief.
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Kathie was terribly unhappy.
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I know that--that she suffered a whole lot.
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Maybe she just didn't know how to function anymore.
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That's me and my gramps.
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And my gramps took me and tried to keep me out of harm's way,
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but he couldn't do that.
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Just, the law didn't allow that, so.
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- In December 1971, my children and I
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lived in an apartment complex.
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And lo and behold, in the apartments to the left of ours
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was Kathie, Jan, and Tracy.
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- I was three or four years old.
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There was this huge domestic situation that was going on.
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And I was sitting outside, alone by myself.
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So my parents were screaming bloody murder.
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- You would hear the yelling and the screaming
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coming out from the apartment.
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- I mean, I'm terrified.
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And there were people walking on the sidewalk
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across the street who were looking
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and obviously taking notice like, wow, that's really bad.
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But nobody did anything.
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They just walked on.
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- Looking at a difference between now and then,
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frankly, most people would not have gotten involved
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in cases like this, but the world was very
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different in the early 1970s.
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- I just felt like I wasn't important.
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Oh, unless you needed me to do something,
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which I was always very capable of doing.
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- Over the years after Matthew's death,
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things could get pretty dire between Kathie and Jan.
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- So Tracy played the role of a parent.
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She was the runner of the house.
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- I was cooking at three years old.
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I was paying bills at five, buying cigarettes and beer.
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- And then when Tracy is about four or five,
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her brother Jason is born.
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- Jason is Jan and Kathie's son.
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I don't know if it's just how it was back then
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or if it's just how it was for me,
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but I was always his caretaker.
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I had to take care of him.
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- She made sure that her brother, Jason,
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was gotten off the bus, did his homework.
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She made the meals, cleaned up afterwards.
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And with her mom--
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I remember her having to check on her mom a lot.
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- No child should have to be dealing with that.
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- Matthew's death was a deep blow to Kathie and Tracy,
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just in different ways.
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- I was always told that Matthew died in an accident.
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And it was crib death, that Matthew fell out of the bed,
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that he slipped between the mattress and the bars
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and suffocated.
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That was the general story amongst everyone in my family.
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And no one really talked about it.
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- Back in those days, there was a coroner.
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There was not a medical examiner.
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The coroner had classified the death as an accident.
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- And then one day, I was in the car with Kathie,
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and she said, you know, Matthew's birthday is gonna be
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day after tomorrow or something.
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But for some reason, I said,
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if you don't take me to see his grave,
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I'm never speaking to you again.
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I don't know why I said that, honestly.
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Her reaction was shocked.
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And we went back home as we were maybe a block away.
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And she told Jan, and he beat me with a belt.
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Some people think we all got whuppings
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with belts back in the day, but it wasn't like that.
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This was--
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No, it wasn't discipline.
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It was "don't ever talk about this again."
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He punished me...
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in the name of Matthew.
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- You don't know what's happening to you
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when you're young, but you know,
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I look back on that now, and that just blows my mind.
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- On the surface, Tracy is growing up
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to be a beautiful girl.
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She's a cheerleader, has friends.
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- Tracy was one of those friends who never
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realized her true beauty.
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We cheered together for a few years,
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and she was just so vivacious.
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But there was always a little bit of anxiety
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and sadness to her.
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- You might never have known how troubled she was.
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- Until I was ten,
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Jan was very much a part of Kathie's life.
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- Jan and Kathie, they would be together for some time,
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and then they would flit away, see other people.
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But they always seemed to be drawn back to each other.
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Sometimes Jan would be very romantic and bring her flowers
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and make her feel like, you know,
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she was the most important woman in the world.
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And then they would have heated arguments.
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And they seemed to repeat that cycle for--for years.
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- Tracy's mom was, um, a tricky one.
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I just remember her being very easy to anger,
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but also very despondent a lot of times.
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I know Tracy felt like she was walking on eggshells a lot,
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and, um, I felt a vibe that was definitely a little dark.
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- Now, I don't know if-- if she was more unhappy
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when Jan was gone, but Kathie and I butted heads.
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We didn't get along.
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- Together, there was tension.
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And this issue of Matthew always hung there,
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whether it was spoken or unspoken.
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Kathie, she's deeply troubled for many years.
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- I think she was miserable.
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And she was emotionally abusive and neglectful, in my opinion.
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I was in the first grade and, um, fell asleep with gum,
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got gum in my hair.
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Kathie's answer to that was just to shave my head...
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And then send me to school.
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When you think about that--
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like, I can't imagine doing that to my child.
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- You know, I never saw any kind of maternal gestures
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towards Tracy.
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I never saw comfort if Tracy was sad.
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I never saw encouragement for her.
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I definitely felt like she did everything she could,
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and it was never enough to get that kind of attention
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from her mom.
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- When Tracy was a teenager and, you know,
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going through a lot of the things that all teens do,
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she also had layered in this sort of deep sorrow
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about her family.
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- I was raised in the South.
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You're supposed to smile and nod
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and tell everybody that you're having a great day.
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We don't wanna burden anyone.
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- But looking back now,
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there was definitely something deeper
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brimming under the surface.
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- I was the most unhappy child at 13, 14 years old.
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And...
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- She tried to have me hospitalized.
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Kathie woke me in the middle of the night
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and took me to a state hospital.
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I think she was just trying to get rid of me.
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I spent 48 hours there.
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They were sick kids.
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They were violent criminals.
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It was a very scary,
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terrifying place, and... [sniffles]
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I didn't understand what was happening.
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[sniffles] It was my--my Aunt June who came and said,
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this is not gonna work and this is wrong,
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and took me back home.
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And then, on top of that, oh, by the way,
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I was always trying to figure out what happened to Matthew.
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And then, also, I had severe headaches, severe nightmares.
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And they did all these tests.
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And it turned out that I had a--
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a seizure disorder.
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And so they put me on a medication for it.
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Quite honestly, at that point, I was suicidal.
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I didn't wanna live, and I certainly didn't
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wanna live in that house.
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- And honestly, I thought I'd be with Matthew.
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- So I started saving medication to OD.
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- And--and I just took it all at once.
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- You're really just thinking, how do I--
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how do I get out of this?
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It was a sad day.
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I probably should have died, according to what they said.
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That just breaks my heart.
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- I woke up to Kathie standing over me,
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shaking my face and saying,
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oh, my God, what have you done now?
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And all I could think was, wow, I'm really still here?
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I was definitely at a breaking point.
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But rather than just looking at my own abuse and suffering,
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I took on this whole full thing of,
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I'm gonna find out what happened to Matthew.
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I was always just trying to understand how he died,
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what was his cause of death.
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And I would ask questions from everybody in my family
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until they would be like, okay, enough.
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Enough.
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There was a lot of pushback.
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- This is one of the biggest events in our family,
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and we don't talk about it?
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They would shut her down and tell her, don't go there.
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But she also begins to realize that her mother
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is hiding something.
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So she has another go-round with her mother to try to probe
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and find out what happened to Matthew.
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- She wouldn't say any details, with the exception of,
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when Matthew died, he suffered a head injury.
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- As she's really probing and pushing her mother,
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things get ratcheted up to a point where,
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you know, Kathie blurts out...
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- At the hospital, the surgeon came out and said,
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the injury to his head was as if you took your fist
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and put it through a watermelon.
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I'll never forget that.
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- As a mother, I can't even imagine hearing
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what the surgeon came out and said.
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It's so horrible, and it's shocking.
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But that was a turning point.
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Then it just really opened this whole thing
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where, what happened to him?
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Why didn't anybody do anything?
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Why is there no investigation?
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Why did we not look into this?
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- I can't imagine sitting with the kind of mystery
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of what happened with your baby brother for a lifetime.
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00:27:52,240 --> 00:27:54,630
- So when I was 15, I went down
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to DeKalb County Police Department,
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00:27:57,280 --> 00:28:01,380
and they came out and gave me an incident report.
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And it said that the police officer
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had arrived on the scene.
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00:28:05,510 --> 00:28:07,340
And what happened?
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Well, he's got a head injury, the ambulance is coming.
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00:28:10,860 --> 00:28:14,170
And they were transferring him from one hospital to another.
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And that's all.
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And there was no investigation.
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Nobody had ever done anything
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because it was an accident, supposedly.
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That just didn't make any kind of sense to me.
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00:28:30,400 --> 00:28:32,750
But unfortunately, nobody was listening
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to what I have to say.
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00:28:35,450 --> 00:28:38,630
- But that's when I started noticing a change with Tracy,
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and I didn't see her as often.
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I just thought Tracy was growing up
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and changing, getting deeper.
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00:28:50,030 --> 00:28:51,430
- I didn't know what I wanted to do.
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I didn't know who I was.
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But I needed to get out.
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I lived with Kathie until I was 18 or 19.
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And I think at some point, she just--
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nothing changed.
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Nothing changed with her.
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- When you live in an environment of trauma--
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she was just ready to escape.
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- And then I decided I was finished with Kathie
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and moved on.
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And I moved out on my own, worked four jobs,
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and, you know, just trying to be away.
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And then I joined the army.
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I thought, I'm gonna go in the army,
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I'm gonna jump out of airplanes,
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I'm gonna go to Ranger School,
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and I'm gonna learn all these skills
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that are gonna make me super, you know--
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super tough, and no one can ever hurt me.
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- She is shoulder to shoulder with the men.
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And the rigor of the training, all of the discipline,
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all of the physical challenges, really kind of turn her on.
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- I was stationed overseas.
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So I was learning who I was.
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You know, I had a little bit more confidence.
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Got married. I decided to have children.
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- And becoming a mother had a big effect on her.
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They light a fire under her to really
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pursue more of the deep background
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on what happened to Matthew.
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So this begins her quest into looking for
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as much information as she can get.
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- And for the first time since the age of 15,
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it occurred to me that, well, I can request medical records.
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I can--I can request death records, you know.
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And so I did.
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- When she gets the medical records back from the hospital,
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that's the big moment.
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- That's when the world kind of caved in around me.
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I wasn't prepared for what they said.
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First, there was the skull fractures,
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which led to his death.
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But then it got to where the surgeon and the doctors
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asked what happened.
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It stated, the mother states that...
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the baby sister threw him out of the bed.
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I had killed my baby brother.
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The realization that I killed Matthew,
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I just didn't see that coming.
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And all I could think was,
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I--I don't unders-- I don't understand.
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You have to say, wait a minute, did I black out?
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Is there any kind of possibility
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that I could have done this, that I had killed Matthew?
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So I called my grandmother first, and I--
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I asked her, do you know this?
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And she said, very matter of fact--
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not in a cruel way--but she said, honey, yes, we know this.
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00:32:26,680 --> 00:32:28,030
Everybody knows this.
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00:32:28,030 --> 00:32:31,040
It's--it's-- we've always known that.
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00:32:32,520 --> 00:32:34,430
Once I got Kathie on the phone, well, she said,
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well, you know, it was an accident.
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You picked him up, and you dropped him.
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Is this the horrible secret that's been going on?
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- From what I remember originally,
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on the date Matt died,
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Kathie had come home with Tracy and came upstairs
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and went to see how Matt was.
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Jan told her he's sleeping. Everything's good.
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00:33:17,950 --> 00:33:19,350
And so why don't you go downstairs
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and get the laundry from the car?
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00:33:22,570 --> 00:33:25,310
And so she did, and when she came back upstairs,
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Tracy was no longer sitting in the chair.
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And when she ran to find Tracy,
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she was playing in the crib,
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00:33:35,450 --> 00:33:37,580
and Matt was on the floor gasping for air.
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00:33:37,670 --> 00:33:40,710
And at that time, Jan told her it must have been an accident.
526
00:33:40,800 --> 00:33:44,980
Tracy must have thrown Matt out of the crib.
527
00:33:47,370 --> 00:33:52,290
And that's what we understood was the first version
528
00:33:52,380 --> 00:33:54,550
of what may have happened to Matt.
529
00:33:58,430 --> 00:34:03,220
Imagine all you know is that you had a brother.
530
00:34:03,300 --> 00:34:05,350
The brother died when he was four months.
531
00:34:05,430 --> 00:34:08,830
You've heard a variety of reasons for several years
532
00:34:08,960 --> 00:34:13,570
and ultimately being told you were responsible for it,
533
00:34:13,570 --> 00:34:15,230
that you killed him.
534
00:34:17,140 --> 00:34:19,140
- It just blows my mind.
535
00:34:19,230 --> 00:34:21,930
And of course, I was sad and betrayed.
536
00:34:22,020 --> 00:34:24,540
And I didn't understand.
537
00:34:24,630 --> 00:34:27,200
And I was angry.
538
00:34:27,330 --> 00:34:29,680
And I just didn't-- [sighs]
539
00:34:29,810 --> 00:34:32,720
I mean, honestly, it just didn't make any sense.
540
00:34:32,810 --> 00:34:35,070
So I really needed the answer myself.
541
00:34:35,200 --> 00:34:37,950
But also, I--I just didn't believe it.
542
00:34:38,030 --> 00:34:40,640
I just didn't believe that it was possible.
543
00:34:44,690 --> 00:34:45,910
- She wasn't big enough.
544
00:34:46,000 --> 00:34:48,090
She wasn't old enough.
545
00:34:48,170 --> 00:34:50,130
She couldn't have done that.
546
00:34:50,260 --> 00:34:53,130
I had children the same--you know, right at the same ages.
547
00:34:53,220 --> 00:34:55,960
They couldn't pick each other up.
548
00:34:57,830 --> 00:35:00,490
But everyone was saying she had done that.
549
00:35:00,620 --> 00:35:03,410
The police were at the apartments.
550
00:35:03,490 --> 00:35:05,190
And I made that statement, and I said,
551
00:35:05,190 --> 00:35:06,930
that kid couldn't do that.
552
00:35:07,020 --> 00:35:08,890
It's not humanly possible.
553
00:35:09,020 --> 00:35:11,720
And they said, no, she picked the baby up,
554
00:35:11,810 --> 00:35:13,500
and the rail wasn't down,
555
00:35:13,630 --> 00:35:16,900
and thrown the baby out of the bed.
556
00:35:16,900 --> 00:35:19,030
And it didn't make sense to me.
557
00:35:19,120 --> 00:35:21,510
But you went with it, and you just said,
558
00:35:21,640 --> 00:35:23,820
well, I can't see how that's possible,
559
00:35:23,820 --> 00:35:25,510
but you're the police.
560
00:35:25,600 --> 00:35:27,600
You know more than we do.
561
00:35:27,690 --> 00:35:29,560
- And basically, what the DeKalb Police Department
562
00:35:29,650 --> 00:35:33,260
told her was that it had been ruled as an accidental death,
563
00:35:33,350 --> 00:35:34,910
and she didn't do it on purpose.
564
00:35:34,920 --> 00:35:36,000
It was not a crime.
565
00:35:41,700 --> 00:35:45,450
- Years later, I was living in Savannah.
566
00:35:45,530 --> 00:35:48,670
And my daughter, Goldie, was 18 months old,
567
00:35:48,760 --> 00:35:50,450
getting close to two.
568
00:35:50,540 --> 00:35:52,710
Goldie's birthday is one day before mine,
569
00:35:52,720 --> 00:35:54,240
so it's pretty relative.
570
00:35:54,240 --> 00:35:56,110
We had brought groceries in,
571
00:35:56,200 --> 00:35:58,290
and there was a gallon of milk sitting in front of the door,
572
00:35:58,370 --> 00:36:00,980
and she was trying to lift this gallon of milk
573
00:36:01,120 --> 00:36:03,200
to get it in the kitchen.
574
00:36:03,290 --> 00:36:07,430
And she could not even drag it.
575
00:36:07,560 --> 00:36:10,260
A gallon of milk weighs eight or nine pounds.
576
00:36:10,340 --> 00:36:12,910
And at four months old,
577
00:36:13,000 --> 00:36:16,480
Matthew weighed almost double that.
578
00:36:16,570 --> 00:36:19,310
So how was it that I, at two years old,
579
00:36:19,390 --> 00:36:22,350
picked this four-month-old infant up,
580
00:36:22,480 --> 00:36:26,710
lifted him over the side of a crib,
581
00:36:26,790 --> 00:36:29,270
and threw him onto the floor?
582
00:36:30,710 --> 00:36:33,100
Rationally speaking, if something doesn't add up,
583
00:36:33,230 --> 00:36:34,670
then it--it just doesn't.
584
00:36:37,540 --> 00:36:40,200
I just couldn't get it out of my head.
585
00:36:40,330 --> 00:36:43,510
- Looking at that makes her realize
586
00:36:43,590 --> 00:36:46,200
that something doesn't wash here.
587
00:36:46,290 --> 00:36:48,510
- It's like a light went on.
588
00:36:48,510 --> 00:36:51,510
But if I didn't do it, who did?
589
00:36:56,210 --> 00:36:58,260
I think in my mind, everything just expedited.
590
00:37:00,610 --> 00:37:03,530
I called DeKalb County Police Department.
591
00:37:03,610 --> 00:37:05,750
I called the FBI. They didn't have time.
592
00:37:05,830 --> 00:37:08,050
You know, it's a cold case. It's an old case.
593
00:37:08,180 --> 00:37:11,790
There's no evidence, and there's no hope.
594
00:37:11,930 --> 00:37:14,100
I worked harder, made more calls,
595
00:37:14,190 --> 00:37:15,930
reached out to more people.
596
00:37:16,060 --> 00:37:17,370
I wasn't gonna stop.
597
00:37:20,190 --> 00:37:21,670
It was about doing the right thing
598
00:37:21,760 --> 00:37:23,720
and--and finding the truth.
599
00:37:26,460 --> 00:37:29,730
I called the DeKalb County Medical Examiner's Office.
600
00:37:31,860 --> 00:37:36,080
And I got an investigator for them who was retired Homicide
601
00:37:36,210 --> 00:37:38,300
from DeKalb County, Jim Mabe.
602
00:37:40,000 --> 00:37:44,480
- Tracy's case was 20-some-plus years old.
603
00:37:44,480 --> 00:37:46,180
And you may ask yourself, well, why--
604
00:37:46,310 --> 00:37:48,270
why would I take it?
605
00:37:48,400 --> 00:37:52,660
First of all, she wasn't interested in money, fame,
606
00:37:52,750 --> 00:37:54,790
or fortune, or anything like that.
607
00:37:54,880 --> 00:37:58,620
She was simply wanting to know the truth about what happened.
608
00:38:01,370 --> 00:38:02,980
Well, one of the mottos that we have
609
00:38:03,060 --> 00:38:04,370
in the medical examiner's office,
610
00:38:04,370 --> 00:38:06,240
it isn't justice that we seek.
611
00:38:06,330 --> 00:38:08,900
It's truth, so justice can be served.
612
00:38:09,030 --> 00:38:11,550
That was one reason I took it.
613
00:38:11,640 --> 00:38:17,300
The other reason, her father was Jan Barry Sandlin.
614
00:38:17,430 --> 00:38:20,430
The truth was, that shocked me.
615
00:38:30,920 --> 00:38:32,880
- Before I came to the medical examiner's office,
616
00:38:33,010 --> 00:38:35,530
I'd been assigned a cold case file
617
00:38:35,530 --> 00:38:37,530
where a police officer had been killed.
618
00:38:39,490 --> 00:38:41,710
Officer Corn was shot multiple times
619
00:38:41,840 --> 00:38:44,410
with his own handgun in an apartment complex
620
00:38:44,500 --> 00:38:46,280
that he was working security.
621
00:38:52,240 --> 00:38:55,680
And one of the people that I came across who became
622
00:38:55,770 --> 00:38:58,680
a person of interest in that police officer death
623
00:38:58,810 --> 00:39:01,900
was Jan Sandlin.
624
00:39:02,040 --> 00:39:03,340
I couldn't believe it. That was her dad.
625
00:39:06,300 --> 00:39:08,350
- Well, for me, it was just like, what?
626
00:39:11,870 --> 00:39:13,260
- It was back in the '70s.
627
00:39:13,350 --> 00:39:14,700
We were asked by the colonel
628
00:39:14,830 --> 00:39:17,180
who heads up the Criminal Investigation Division
629
00:39:17,270 --> 00:39:18,830
to look into it.
630
00:39:18,920 --> 00:39:20,920
There were so many avenues to go down.
631
00:39:21,010 --> 00:39:24,840
And when we got to Jan Sandlin,
632
00:39:24,930 --> 00:39:26,540
he was never charged because there was never
633
00:39:26,670 --> 00:39:28,710
enough evidence to even get a warrant for Jan.
634
00:39:37,640 --> 00:39:41,420
- Jan Barry Sandlin was ostensibly connected
635
00:39:41,510 --> 00:39:42,470
with the Dixie Mafia.
636
00:39:44,600 --> 00:39:46,730
They were known for stealing cars
637
00:39:46,820 --> 00:39:49,470
and running drugs throughout the South.
638
00:39:51,780 --> 00:39:54,520
When law enforcement started investigating them,
639
00:39:54,520 --> 00:39:55,650
they became very vicious.
640
00:39:59,140 --> 00:40:01,400
The district attorney in Jackson County, Georgia,
641
00:40:01,530 --> 00:40:04,180
who was investigating them, was blown up in his car.
642
00:40:08,450 --> 00:40:09,710
Our investigation showed Mr. Sandlin
643
00:40:09,800 --> 00:40:11,970
had ties with the Dixie Mafia
644
00:40:12,060 --> 00:40:15,200
and been involved in other crimes as well.
645
00:40:21,240 --> 00:40:24,770
- I was best friends with Jan Berry Sandlin's
646
00:40:24,900 --> 00:40:28,770
first wife, Nancy Tegeder.
647
00:40:28,860 --> 00:40:32,040
And before Jan was married to Kathie,
648
00:40:32,130 --> 00:40:35,130
Jan went out with Nancy.
649
00:40:35,260 --> 00:40:37,910
And she was pregnant.
650
00:40:38,000 --> 00:40:42,530
- It was alleged Jan Sandlin was not the father.
651
00:40:45,090 --> 00:40:49,490
And in September of 1971, Dan's first wife died
652
00:40:49,580 --> 00:40:51,540
of a gunshot wound to the abdomen.
653
00:40:54,150 --> 00:40:55,630
It was ruled a suicide.
654
00:40:58,590 --> 00:41:00,150
Of all the cases that I've worked,
655
00:41:00,240 --> 00:41:02,630
which is over 5,000 cases--
656
00:41:02,720 --> 00:41:05,460
I've had them overdose, hang themselves--
657
00:41:05,460 --> 00:41:07,990
I've never had a woman shoot herself in the abdomen,
658
00:41:08,070 --> 00:41:09,030
especially pregnant.
659
00:41:13,380 --> 00:41:15,600
- But, by the way, it's the same coroner
660
00:41:15,690 --> 00:41:20,130
at the time who said Matthew's was an accidental death, so.
661
00:41:24,610 --> 00:41:26,570
- Maybe a week or a couple weeks later
662
00:41:26,660 --> 00:41:31,790
after Nancy's death, Jan moves in with Kathie Almon.
663
00:41:31,880 --> 00:41:34,490
And then a couple months later, Matthew died.
664
00:41:37,450 --> 00:41:40,450
- In a matter of six months, three people died.
665
00:41:43,720 --> 00:41:45,020
- And then the police came one day.
666
00:41:47,030 --> 00:41:50,770
He had been arrested in Florida on multiple charges.
667
00:41:53,160 --> 00:41:57,250
- Jan is convicted of armed robbery, gets a life sentence,
668
00:41:57,250 --> 00:41:59,210
and for all intents and purposes,
669
00:41:59,300 --> 00:42:00,780
is out of their lives.
670
00:42:04,300 --> 00:42:07,180
- As a human being, I think you have a moment
671
00:42:07,260 --> 00:42:08,870
where you have to ask the question,
672
00:42:09,000 --> 00:42:12,490
is it possible Matthew's death wasn't an accident?
673
00:42:18,840 --> 00:42:23,020
- So I started to look into Matthew's death.
674
00:42:23,110 --> 00:42:25,330
It was intriguing enough and brought up enough red flags
675
00:42:25,460 --> 00:42:27,630
to at least look into the case.
676
00:42:27,720 --> 00:42:29,850
So I took it to Dr. Joe Burton,
677
00:42:29,940 --> 00:42:31,640
who, at that time, was the chief medical examiner
678
00:42:31,640 --> 00:42:33,160
for DeKalb County, Georgia,
679
00:42:33,290 --> 00:42:34,680
and showed him all that we had and said,
680
00:42:34,810 --> 00:42:36,340
can we investigate this?
681
00:42:36,420 --> 00:42:37,340
He said, absolutely.
682
00:42:40,950 --> 00:42:44,000
- Dr. Burton came to my office with Jim Mabe
683
00:42:44,080 --> 00:42:46,220
to talk about the case.
684
00:42:46,300 --> 00:42:49,130
Most cases start with a Homicide unit
685
00:42:49,260 --> 00:42:50,920
of the police department,
686
00:42:51,050 --> 00:42:53,960
and then the medical investigator,
687
00:42:54,050 --> 00:42:55,360
along with the medical examiner,
688
00:42:55,440 --> 00:42:57,180
determines cause of death.
689
00:42:57,310 --> 00:43:00,620
And together, they come see the district attorney.
690
00:43:00,710 --> 00:43:03,230
It is very rare for the medical examiner,
691
00:43:03,320 --> 00:43:06,150
on his or her own, to come see us and say,
692
00:43:06,150 --> 00:43:08,150
you need to take a hard look at this case.
693
00:43:11,550 --> 00:43:16,420
- When I was first asked to become involved in this case,
694
00:43:16,510 --> 00:43:20,770
medical records were obtained from the day
695
00:43:20,900 --> 00:43:23,690
that Matthew had become fatally injured,
696
00:43:23,780 --> 00:43:29,480
and Dr. Burton asked me to independently
697
00:43:29,560 --> 00:43:31,830
develop an opinion on what I think may have happened
698
00:43:31,910 --> 00:43:34,790
and what I think did not happen.
699
00:43:34,790 --> 00:43:36,660
- I remember Dr. Burton's exact words.
700
00:43:36,740 --> 00:43:38,620
There's no way in hell that this child died
701
00:43:38,750 --> 00:43:39,830
from being pushed out of a crib.
702
00:43:41,580 --> 00:43:43,880
- And that's when those wheels began to turn.
703
00:43:48,230 --> 00:43:50,630
- I first met Tracy at our office.
704
00:43:50,720 --> 00:43:54,760
She was quite the fighter and didn't take no for an answer.
705
00:43:56,810 --> 00:43:59,200
While we had prosecuted some cold cases,
706
00:43:59,290 --> 00:44:00,200
this was the coldest.
707
00:44:00,330 --> 00:44:01,250
This was frigid.
708
00:44:02,900 --> 00:44:04,600
- If I'm being honest, it was a case
709
00:44:04,690 --> 00:44:07,120
that I knew was going to have challenges,
710
00:44:07,210 --> 00:44:10,430
that there were lots of technical and legal issues
711
00:44:10,560 --> 00:44:11,870
with something that was so old.
712
00:44:11,950 --> 00:44:14,170
There were also some real practical issues
713
00:44:14,170 --> 00:44:18,220
of what kind of evidence would exist.
714
00:44:18,350 --> 00:44:21,050
- We just knew that 4 1/2 month-olds,
715
00:44:21,140 --> 00:44:24,100
they do fall out of cribs, and, sometimes,
716
00:44:24,230 --> 00:44:27,710
even that young where the bones have not calcified,
717
00:44:27,800 --> 00:44:29,930
you may get a hair fracture of the skull.
718
00:44:30,020 --> 00:44:32,540
You don't get death.
719
00:44:32,630 --> 00:44:34,500
Unless there was some underlying cause,
720
00:44:34,630 --> 00:44:36,720
I kept pushing them, saying that there could be
721
00:44:36,800 --> 00:44:38,940
other reasons that this child died
722
00:44:39,020 --> 00:44:41,200
that we don't know about and we cannot know about
723
00:44:41,330 --> 00:44:43,160
without an autopsy.
724
00:44:43,250 --> 00:44:44,990
There was no autopsy report.
725
00:44:46,860 --> 00:44:50,820
- Because his death had been ruled an accident,
726
00:44:50,910 --> 00:44:54,170
we knew we had possession of the medical records,
727
00:44:54,260 --> 00:44:56,430
and we knew what the findings were.
728
00:44:56,520 --> 00:44:59,220
And we knew that there was a skull fracture.
729
00:44:59,310 --> 00:45:01,960
And we knew collectively that that couldn't have been
730
00:45:02,050 --> 00:45:07,140
caused by Matt or his sister.
731
00:45:07,230 --> 00:45:10,880
- It would be extremely unusual for a child
732
00:45:10,970 --> 00:45:14,280
to have been essentially dropped
733
00:45:14,360 --> 00:45:18,020
no more than about 4 feet-- and probably less than that--
734
00:45:18,110 --> 00:45:20,940
without having been propelled in some fashion
735
00:45:21,020 --> 00:45:23,500
in order to receive the injuries he has.
736
00:45:23,630 --> 00:45:27,550
A two-year-old would not have been able to add any momentum
737
00:45:27,640 --> 00:45:31,550
to his flight through the air.
738
00:45:31,690 --> 00:45:34,380
That force was tremendous.
739
00:45:34,470 --> 00:45:37,170
- Then the next question was, who'd done it?
740
00:45:37,260 --> 00:45:40,390
And there were only two people possible.
741
00:45:40,480 --> 00:45:43,650
It was Jan Barry Sandlin and Kathie Almon.
742
00:45:43,740 --> 00:45:45,440
So whodunit is usually what happens
743
00:45:45,570 --> 00:45:47,270
in most criminal trials.
744
00:45:47,350 --> 00:45:50,270
But here we had to overcome the scientific burden
745
00:45:50,360 --> 00:45:53,010
that there was a child who died from maltreatment.
746
00:45:57,320 --> 00:46:02,800
- And if we were able to perform an autopsy,
747
00:46:02,890 --> 00:46:05,150
then Dr. Burton could corroborate
748
00:46:05,280 --> 00:46:09,720
the physical findings found by the incredibly qualified
749
00:46:09,720 --> 00:46:11,590
medical team at the hospital.
750
00:46:11,680 --> 00:46:14,160
We were committed to figure out
751
00:46:14,290 --> 00:46:17,250
and to prove what happened.
752
00:46:17,340 --> 00:46:20,040
And the way we thought about it, as I remember, was,
753
00:46:20,130 --> 00:46:22,480
this was 20-some years ago.
754
00:46:22,560 --> 00:46:26,480
I don't care how old of a case it is.
755
00:46:26,570 --> 00:46:29,700
You had a four-month-old who was begging
756
00:46:29,790 --> 00:46:32,310
for someone to do justice.
757
00:46:32,310 --> 00:46:34,400
So we looked around the room,
758
00:46:34,530 --> 00:46:36,920
and it's like, this is a no-brainer.
759
00:46:37,060 --> 00:46:38,450
Let's go exhume the body.
760
00:46:53,510 --> 00:46:56,600
- No one, to their knowledge, had ever heard
761
00:46:56,680 --> 00:46:59,030
of an exhumation of a child
762
00:46:59,160 --> 00:47:01,820
that had been underground for 25 years.
763
00:47:01,950 --> 00:47:05,690
- It seemed to me that we were disturbing a sleeping baby.
764
00:47:05,780 --> 00:47:07,910
And that really bothered me.
765
00:47:08,000 --> 00:47:11,350
- For 15 years, she's carried the burden
766
00:47:11,350 --> 00:47:15,310
that she was responsible for that child's death.
767
00:47:15,400 --> 00:47:17,100
- I wasn't prepared.
768
00:47:17,180 --> 00:47:18,790
It was really hard.
769
00:47:18,790 --> 00:47:20,320
- That was gonna be a problem.
770
00:47:20,400 --> 00:47:23,140
- I don't think that I have done anything wrong.
771
00:47:23,230 --> 00:47:25,190
- She said, you just don't understand.
772
00:47:25,280 --> 00:47:26,970
When you're in love with someone that much,
773
00:47:27,060 --> 00:47:28,450
you'll do anything.
774
00:47:28,580 --> 00:47:30,410
- It is a case for the history books.
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