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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:18,720 --> 00:00:19,720 We're almost there. 2 00:00:20,210 --> 00:00:21,540 Caden's got his camera! 3 00:00:25,420 --> 00:00:26,420 Ta-da! 4 00:00:26,550 --> 00:00:27,180 Oh! 5 00:00:27,210 --> 00:00:28,210 Isn’t it beautiful? 6 00:00:29,210 --> 00:00:32,990 Ooh my God. I didn’t know there was this much water left in Southern California. 7 00:00:34,360 --> 00:00:35,380 Oh! 8 00:00:36,040 --> 00:00:37,040 Alex! 9 00:00:37,480 --> 00:00:41,220 [Crowd hums.] 10 00:00:41,660 --> 00:00:42,990 Wait! 11 00:00:44,350 --> 00:00:46,440 Wait a minute. What's going on?! 12 00:00:46,950 --> 00:00:48,790 You're getting a marriage proposal, you idiot! 13 00:00:48,910 --> 00:00:50,100 Caden! No spoilers! 14 00:00:50,590 --> 00:00:52,330 Sorry. Sorry, man. Do your thing. 15 00:00:52,910 --> 00:00:53,910 Oh my... 16 00:00:55,560 --> 00:00:56,700 Oh my God. 17 00:00:57,080 --> 00:00:59,920 Lily, falling in love with you has been the greatest... 18 00:01:00,590 --> 00:01:01,590 And strangest 19 00:01:02,170 --> 00:01:05,170 - experience of my life. 20 00:01:05,350 --> 00:01:08,580 I can't imagine my world without you in it, so... 21 00:01:09,540 --> 00:01:10,690 will you marry me? 22 00:01:11,750 --> 00:01:13,860 Oh my God, you're crazy! Really?! 23 00:01:14,350 --> 00:01:17,230 Probably. But that wasn't the question. 24 00:01:17,320 --> 00:01:19,980 Yes, yes, yes, yes, of course! 25 00:01:20,850 --> 00:01:21,850 Put it on me. 26 00:01:22,470 --> 00:01:25,470 [Crowd cheers.] 27 00:01:35,340 --> 00:01:37,510 Why are you sitting in the dark? 28 00:01:37,780 --> 00:01:39,580 I saw the doctor today. 29 00:01:40,140 --> 00:01:41,510 How'd it go? 30 00:01:46,270 --> 00:01:49,270 You were right. It wasn't just a weird mole. 31 00:01:51,510 --> 00:01:53,900 Oh, God, Lily. 32 00:01:54,770 --> 00:01:56,620 "Malignant melanoma." 33 00:01:57,130 --> 00:01:59,400 - Malignant? 34 00:01:59,740 --> 00:02:02,740 Don't they have to do tests? A... biopsy? 35 00:02:04,510 --> 00:02:07,870 They will. But that's just going to tell us the prognosis. 36 00:02:09,840 --> 00:02:12,840 The Stage. 37 00:02:13,870 --> 00:02:16,870 The doctor didn't have any doubt about what it is. 38 00:02:35,410 --> 00:02:38,920 What is one thing about you that would surprise me? 39 00:02:42,090 --> 00:02:44,090 Okay. But you first. 40 00:02:44,490 --> 00:02:50,180 Um, there's a birthmark shaped like Texas on the back of my thigh. 41 00:02:50,320 --> 00:02:52,920 Already clocked it as soon as you took your pants off. Try again. 42 00:02:53,530 --> 00:02:58,790 I didn't always want to go into the glamorous world of information technology. 43 00:03:00,820 --> 00:03:03,820 When I was a kid. I wanted to be an artist. 44 00:03:05,060 --> 00:03:08,060 Why'd you change your mind? 45 00:03:08,800 --> 00:03:11,800 I got older, figured out you actually had to have talent. 46 00:03:13,430 --> 00:03:15,100 Have you been to the museum lately? 47 00:03:15,590 --> 00:03:17,420 Oh! Burn! 48 00:03:17,650 --> 00:03:20,650 I can say that cause I'm an artist. Aspiring. 49 00:03:21,380 --> 00:03:24,380 Technically, I'm a barista. 50 00:03:25,740 --> 00:03:28,740 If you create art, you're an artist. 51 00:03:29,140 --> 00:03:32,140 I like that. I'm going to steal it. 52 00:03:33,120 --> 00:03:36,120 Be my guest. Now your turn. 53 00:03:37,810 --> 00:03:42,590 Well, I have a semi-identical twin brother. 54 00:03:44,200 --> 00:03:46,120 That's... not a thing. 55 00:03:46,370 --> 00:03:49,610 Well, if you want to get all science-y about it, we are fraternal twins. 56 00:03:50,120 --> 00:03:53,120 But we're very close. He's my best friend. 57 00:03:53,530 --> 00:03:56,530 We invented our own language when we were toddlers. 58 00:03:56,860 --> 00:03:58,530 - I am already jealous of him. 59 00:03:58,730 --> 00:03:59,730 - Why? 60 00:04:00,010 --> 00:04:04,760 Because he spent nine months alone with you in a warm, dark place. 61 00:04:06,080 --> 00:04:09,080 And look how hard I am working to get you to go out with me on Friday! 62 00:04:11,620 --> 00:04:14,620 I already decided we were going to go out before we had sex. 63 00:04:17,900 --> 00:04:20,940 I may seem like a huge slut, but I only bring guys home that have potential. 64 00:04:22,520 --> 00:04:23,590 Oh! 65 00:04:23,760 --> 00:04:24,890 And you're going to love my brother. 66 00:04:24,910 --> 00:04:25,410 Mmm? 67 00:04:25,610 --> 00:04:28,610 Everybody does. I promise. 68 00:04:39,110 --> 00:04:43,180 I'm not going to sugar-coat this. Your melanoma is Stage IIIC. 69 00:04:44,390 --> 00:04:47,390 That's not good. That means the cancer has spread to your lymph nodes. 70 00:04:49,180 --> 00:04:52,180 How is that possible? I swear, it wasn't even there a few months ago. 71 00:04:53,070 --> 00:04:56,470 Well, melanoma can travel very quickly. And this seems to be a really aggressive one. 72 00:04:57,440 --> 00:05:00,440 Look, it's unusual in someone that's as young as you are. 73 00:05:01,010 --> 00:05:04,010 But it's not unheard of. 74 00:05:04,220 --> 00:05:06,080 So... what do we do? 75 00:05:06,260 --> 00:05:09,260 I'd remove the primary melanoma, of course, the affected lymph nodes. 76 00:05:10,510 --> 00:05:13,510 Then I would recommend aggressive chemotherapy and radiation. 77 00:05:14,930 --> 00:05:17,930 But if we do all that... she's going to be okay, right? 78 00:05:20,140 --> 00:05:24,730 There's no guarantee. Look, we've made a lot of progress in treating cancer. 79 00:05:25,660 --> 00:05:31,270 But one that's as aggressive as this, you really wish you'd caught it in an earlier stage. 80 00:05:34,270 --> 00:05:40,120 Look, the good news is, the five-year survival rate for this, it's nearly 50%. 81 00:05:40,900 --> 00:05:41,900 50%! 82 00:05:43,410 --> 00:05:44,930 I read it was closer to 40%. 83 00:05:45,310 --> 00:05:50,620 Yes, well, most patients diagnosed with this type of cancer, they're much older. 84 00:05:51,610 --> 00:05:54,610 And many of them die from other things. 85 00:05:55,180 --> 00:05:59,550 Look. Lily, you're young, you're strong... you've got a really good chance of beating the odds. 86 00:06:00,840 --> 00:06:04,880 But, we have to get very aggressive, and we have to start right away. 87 00:06:05,270 --> 00:06:08,270 So... when can you schedule surgery? 88 00:06:11,870 --> 00:06:14,870 Um... could we have a moment? 89 00:06:15,280 --> 00:06:16,280 Sure. 90 00:06:22,740 --> 00:06:24,480 Are you okay? 91 00:06:26,450 --> 00:06:31,980 Uh, no, no, I'm not fucking okay! Did you not hear that? I'm dying! 92 00:06:32,230 --> 00:06:35,230 That's... not what she said. 93 00:06:35,510 --> 00:06:38,510 That's what she said! Did you hear her talk about a cure? 94 00:06:39,280 --> 00:06:41,670 No, she was just talking about "survival rates!" 95 00:06:41,910 --> 00:06:44,910 I did some reading, too. Some people are cured. 96 00:06:45,590 --> 00:06:47,360 And you're going to be one of them. 97 00:06:47,720 --> 00:06:50,720 Doctors just don't want to make any promises. 98 00:06:50,820 --> 00:06:54,120 Stage III and IV are bad - really, really bad! 99 00:06:54,390 --> 00:06:55,790 I know. 100 00:06:59,290 --> 00:07:03,460 Well, one good thing... I don't have to look for a job anymore. 101 00:07:03,660 --> 00:07:06,660 Since fighting cancer is now my full-time gig. 102 00:07:07,500 --> 00:07:15,190 Benefits suck, but at least there's... yeah, I can't really think of an upside. 103 00:07:26,860 --> 00:07:28,960 - Can I get you a... 104 00:07:29,150 --> 00:07:32,150 - A drink? Yes, please. 105 00:07:32,930 --> 00:07:34,160 What would you like? 106 00:07:36,080 --> 00:07:40,540 Well, how about that expensive cab we got in Napa? 107 00:07:40,960 --> 00:07:42,810 No point in saving it now. 108 00:07:42,840 --> 00:07:43,930 Lily... 109 00:07:44,670 --> 00:07:47,670 Positive thoughts, right? Positive thoughts. 110 00:07:50,540 --> 00:07:56,820 Well, I say carpe the fucking Diem! Let's use the good china, drink the good wine. 111 00:07:57,840 --> 00:07:59,330 Spend the rainy-day fund. 112 00:08:00,370 --> 00:08:04,550 Because today, my love, we got hit by a fucking monsoon. 113 00:08:05,060 --> 00:08:10,750 Sis! I'm here! Whatever you need. 114 00:08:11,820 --> 00:08:14,040 I need to let the wine breathe. 115 00:08:14,330 --> 00:08:15,730 Tell me everything the doctor said. 116 00:08:15,760 --> 00:08:16,760 I will. Not right now. 117 00:08:17,020 --> 00:08:20,020 Right now, I just need alcohol. A lot of it. 118 00:08:21,190 --> 00:08:24,190 We've got a fine bottle of Cabernet. Care for a glass? 119 00:08:26,950 --> 00:08:29,950 You know me well. I never let anyone drink alone 120 00:08:30,070 --> 00:08:32,210 especially if they're providing the alcohol. 121 00:08:32,460 --> 00:08:35,460 Three glasses, then. 122 00:08:39,450 --> 00:08:42,450 "Golaku millee nafati." 123 00:08:45,000 --> 00:08:48,000 I'm going to go change. 124 00:09:00,220 --> 00:09:03,220 It's okay that Caden spends the night, right? 125 00:09:03,520 --> 00:09:06,640 I just didn't want him to drive home after we finished off that second bottle. 126 00:09:06,980 --> 00:09:08,240 Of course. 127 00:09:10,720 --> 00:09:11,830 But... 128 00:09:12,180 --> 00:09:13,360 No but. 129 00:09:16,950 --> 00:09:18,530 I never want you to feel left out. 130 00:09:19,390 --> 00:09:22,390 And I know that Caden agrees. He loves you. 131 00:09:23,920 --> 00:09:26,920 He loves me too, of course. 132 00:09:27,160 --> 00:09:30,160 Of course. 133 00:09:30,810 --> 00:09:33,810 You're irresistible. 134 00:09:39,990 --> 00:09:42,990 See, the thing is, 135 00:09:44,280 --> 00:09:47,280 I need you both, to fight through this. 136 00:09:47,340 --> 00:09:48,380 And I want us to work together. 137 00:09:48,400 --> 00:09:51,400 And I don't want to waste any energy worried about who's jealous, 138 00:09:51,550 --> 00:09:54,550 and who's feeling left out. 139 00:09:54,800 --> 00:09:55,800 I get it. 140 00:09:55,930 --> 00:09:56,780 I do. 141 00:09:56,930 --> 00:09:59,930 And I love Caden for being such a great brother to you. 142 00:10:03,340 --> 00:10:06,340 We're going to need him. 143 00:10:06,890 --> 00:10:09,230 I can take a leave of absence, you know. 144 00:10:09,290 --> 00:10:10,560 Whatever time off I need, I'm sure... 145 00:10:10,580 --> 00:10:11,960 No. No. No. This is a long haul. 146 00:10:12,130 --> 00:10:14,550 We can't afford you losing your job over this. 147 00:10:15,030 --> 00:10:18,030 Let's just be thankful Caden, he works freelance. 148 00:10:18,110 --> 00:10:20,670 He has a flexible schedule. 149 00:10:20,870 --> 00:10:25,220 Yes, I am. Very thankful. 150 00:10:27,370 --> 00:10:28,700 Really? 151 00:10:34,270 --> 00:10:37,270 Okay. Let's go to bed. 152 00:10:59,210 --> 00:10:59,990 - Hey! 153 00:11:00,010 --> 00:11:00,940 - Finally. 154 00:11:00,970 --> 00:11:02,910 Hi. I'm sorry I'm so late. 155 00:11:02,930 --> 00:11:04,910 I stopped at the drugstore. 156 00:11:05,140 --> 00:11:06,260 You are not shaving my head. 157 00:11:06,610 --> 00:11:09,610 No. Not for you. For me. For us. 158 00:11:09,890 --> 00:11:12,610 We'll shave our heads when your hair starts falling out. Solidarity! 159 00:11:12,700 --> 00:11:17,000 It would have been nice to have been asked, but... of course. 160 00:11:19,380 --> 00:11:22,930 I don't need to be reminded of the fact that I'm dying every single time that I look at you. 161 00:11:22,950 --> 00:11:24,390 You're not dying! 162 00:11:24,420 --> 00:11:27,180 We're all dying! I'm just dying a hell of a lot faster that you guys. 163 00:11:27,370 --> 00:11:29,670 I don't need to think about it when I see you bald head. 164 00:11:29,700 --> 00:11:30,980 Yeah. I didn't think about that. 165 00:11:31,420 --> 00:11:33,680 No, you didn't. But you know what? Sweet thought. 166 00:11:34,270 --> 00:11:37,250 And I might not actually lose my hair. 167 00:11:37,270 --> 00:11:38,750 Yeah, if I keep my scalp cold enough. 168 00:11:38,800 --> 00:11:40,950 Ice packs, it's a thing. I read about it. 169 00:11:41,240 --> 00:11:42,090 Let's get going. 170 00:11:42,200 --> 00:11:47,030 Would not want to miss out on the cancer getting gouged out of me! 171 00:12:07,410 --> 00:12:08,910 I'm sorry, Beau. 172 00:12:10,760 --> 00:12:12,140 For what? 173 00:12:14,680 --> 00:12:15,870 For not asking. 174 00:12:20,360 --> 00:12:21,760 About the head-shaving thing. 175 00:12:24,920 --> 00:12:26,360 The thing is, I knew you'd do it. 176 00:12:28,200 --> 00:12:29,580 Never was a doubt in my mind. 177 00:12:33,820 --> 00:12:36,820 I know you'd do anything for Lily. 178 00:12:40,660 --> 00:12:43,090 She's lucky to have you. 179 00:12:45,550 --> 00:12:47,620 She's lucky to have both of us. 180 00:12:52,830 --> 00:12:54,830 And we're lucky to have her. 181 00:12:58,810 --> 00:13:00,670 Yeah, that's us. 182 00:13:01,700 --> 00:13:03,590 Three lucky people. 183 00:13:07,290 --> 00:13:08,420 It's really good to finally meet you. 184 00:13:08,440 --> 00:13:10,380 And you too, Candace. 185 00:13:11,470 --> 00:13:12,060 - See you tonight? 186 00:13:12,080 --> 00:13:13,080 - Mmm-hmm. 187 00:13:20,240 --> 00:13:21,340 So, what do you think? 188 00:13:23,110 --> 00:13:26,180 He's uh... nice. 189 00:13:28,970 --> 00:13:31,970 Wha...? Meaning...? 190 00:13:32,410 --> 00:13:34,590 He's kind of like a Ken doll, isn't he? 191 00:13:34,610 --> 00:13:37,610 Why? Because he's not all tatted up and pierced in obvious places? 192 00:13:38,540 --> 00:13:41,540 Wait... does that mean he's pierced in non-obvious places? 193 00:13:41,940 --> 00:13:44,920 Ooh, sick. None of your business! 194 00:13:44,940 --> 00:13:47,940 Fine. Don't tell me. It's okay. 195 00:13:48,790 --> 00:13:51,790 But henceforth I'll be referring to him as Prince Albert. 196 00:13:52,150 --> 00:13:55,150 Please don't. Do not scare this one away. 197 00:13:57,890 --> 00:14:00,260 I think he may be "the one." 198 00:14:00,320 --> 00:14:02,510 What?! Why?! 199 00:14:02,580 --> 00:14:05,580 Because he's got a job and a great head of hair? 200 00:14:05,850 --> 00:14:07,530 No! Because... 201 00:14:09,400 --> 00:14:11,450 he's sweet. 202 00:14:11,550 --> 00:14:15,540 Ugh. Oh, God - sweet? 203 00:14:16,670 --> 00:14:18,270 I hope you never describe me as "sweet." 204 00:14:18,390 --> 00:14:20,080 Yeah, you? Not likely! 205 00:14:21,400 --> 00:14:23,480 Whoa! Hey! I have a softer side. 206 00:14:23,830 --> 00:14:24,850 You do. 207 00:14:25,070 --> 00:14:28,070 You are a puppy wrapped in marshmallow fluff 208 00:14:28,160 --> 00:14:29,470 when you're not acting like a dick. 209 00:14:29,490 --> 00:14:31,970 Well, that's not what women want! 210 00:14:32,400 --> 00:14:36,090 Women want a bad boy. Right, babe? 211 00:14:37,240 --> 00:14:38,240 Yeah. Whatever you say. 212 00:14:38,330 --> 00:14:44,110 As long as the bad boy has brushed his teeth after eating garlic chicken... which you haven't! Ugh. 213 00:14:45,950 --> 00:14:48,950 Ooh. Sick. 214 00:14:49,810 --> 00:14:54,880 But really, what do you guys think? 215 00:14:55,920 --> 00:14:57,900 I liked him. 216 00:14:57,920 --> 00:15:00,220 Ah! She likes him. 217 00:15:01,000 --> 00:15:03,700 I mean... he seems like a good guy. 218 00:15:03,930 --> 00:15:08,050 He's just... a bit conventional for you. 219 00:15:09,300 --> 00:15:10,480 - And old. 220 00:15:10,510 --> 00:15:13,510 - Um, he's six years older than us! 221 00:15:14,070 --> 00:15:17,070 And he's deeper than he looks. 222 00:15:18,320 --> 00:15:21,320 Well, good. 'Cause he looks like a freaking Ken doll. 223 00:15:24,500 --> 00:15:26,430 Oh, wait. You've got something on your face. 224 00:15:26,600 --> 00:15:29,600 Like butter? Sorry. 225 00:15:31,990 --> 00:15:36,280 "Mommy! Lily's hurting me!" 226 00:15:36,500 --> 00:15:38,130 Ooh, God. Enough. 227 00:15:49,930 --> 00:15:51,070 Give me your hand. 228 00:15:51,210 --> 00:15:52,770 Okay. I didn't get my legs removed. 229 00:15:53,530 --> 00:15:56,530 Just some skin and some lymph nodes. Calm down. 230 00:16:01,680 --> 00:16:03,520 You guys are too easy. 231 00:16:06,420 --> 00:16:09,420 I am feeling a little wiped. I'm going to lie down. 232 00:16:10,940 --> 00:16:12,690 Really, I'm fine. 233 00:16:13,010 --> 00:16:14,320 I wasn't trying to help! 234 00:16:15,210 --> 00:16:18,210 Can I give my wife a kiss? 235 00:16:27,890 --> 00:16:30,050 Well, I guess Lily's all right. 236 00:16:30,870 --> 00:16:33,870 So I should get out of your hair. 237 00:16:35,160 --> 00:16:38,160 I... DVRed the Argentina vs. France match 238 00:16:40,790 --> 00:16:42,620 if you're interested. 239 00:16:44,750 --> 00:16:49,000 Sure! Yeah. Fire it up! 240 00:16:50,070 --> 00:16:53,070 [Game plays. Beau and Caden cheer.] 241 00:17:26,530 --> 00:17:28,860 Are you sure this lady doctor is good? 242 00:17:28,880 --> 00:17:31,880 We have money saved up... we can afford the best. 243 00:17:32,180 --> 00:17:35,180 Dr. Bauman comes very highly recommended. 244 00:17:35,470 --> 00:17:38,470 Bauman... is that Jewish? 245 00:17:40,420 --> 00:17:42,630 I have no idea. 246 00:17:42,720 --> 00:17:45,720 Daddy only asks because Jewish doctors tend to be the best. 247 00:17:45,950 --> 00:17:47,260 Do they, Mom? 248 00:17:47,530 --> 00:17:49,280 And they're frugal too, I bet. 249 00:17:51,720 --> 00:17:54,030 I know this doesn't sound politically correct, 250 00:17:54,190 --> 00:17:56,410 but certain people are just better at certain things. 251 00:17:56,720 --> 00:18:01,060 Like when you want a great basketball player, you seek out a black man. 252 00:18:01,180 --> 00:18:04,180 And when you want a great doctor, you seek out a Jewish man. 253 00:18:04,950 --> 00:18:06,040 Or woman. 254 00:18:06,300 --> 00:18:07,110 Yeah, your mother's right. 255 00:18:07,280 --> 00:18:10,400 Jewish women tend to be excellent doctors... very nurturing. 256 00:18:11,150 --> 00:18:14,150 Well, I'm not quizzing my doctor on her ethnic origins, so... 257 00:18:17,390 --> 00:18:23,940 Mom, can you stop doing that for a minute and just react to what Lily told you? 258 00:18:24,310 --> 00:18:27,310 This is us reacting. I'm sorry if this is not what you wanted. 259 00:18:27,730 --> 00:18:30,370 But we're here for you. All of you. 260 00:18:30,530 --> 00:18:32,410 No matter what you need. 261 00:18:32,550 --> 00:18:35,370 Yes, yes. We can move back to the city and rent a little place 262 00:18:35,650 --> 00:18:38,640 so that we can drive you to your doctors' appointments... 263 00:18:38,670 --> 00:18:41,670 That's a really sweet offer, but... 264 00:18:42,580 --> 00:18:43,920 we'll be fine. 265 00:18:43,940 --> 00:18:46,480 I'll be fine. Caden's been helping. 266 00:18:46,880 --> 00:18:49,880 Beau's boss is very understanding. 267 00:18:50,330 --> 00:18:51,400 Mom! 268 00:18:55,120 --> 00:18:56,300 Hey. 269 00:18:57,830 --> 00:18:58,830 Stop. 270 00:18:59,260 --> 00:19:02,260 I'm young. I'm healthy... I'm going to kick cancer's ass! 271 00:19:03,470 --> 00:19:04,840 "Omaka cha!" 272 00:19:06,700 --> 00:19:09,700 If you do need anything, don't hesitate to call. 273 00:19:09,870 --> 00:19:12,870 Call your mom. Call me. Okay? We're here for you. 274 00:19:13,130 --> 00:19:16,130 Don't worry - I'll call. I'm fine. 275 00:19:16,700 --> 00:19:17,770 - I love you. 276 00:19:17,960 --> 00:19:19,290 - I love you. 277 00:19:35,710 --> 00:19:37,830 How's the pork? 278 00:19:38,180 --> 00:19:41,180 It's delicious. Thank you for cooking. 279 00:19:42,500 --> 00:19:45,500 It's chicken. And you haven't even tasted it. 280 00:19:48,610 --> 00:19:50,910 I'm not stupid, you know. I can see what you're doing. 281 00:19:51,150 --> 00:19:54,150 You're not supposed to be that smart. I married you for your looks. 282 00:19:54,710 --> 00:19:57,710 Lily, this isn't a game. You have to eat. 283 00:19:58,630 --> 00:19:59,630 - I'm not hungry! 284 00:19:59,780 --> 00:20:02,780 - I don't care. We're not going to let you starve yourself to death. 285 00:20:03,110 --> 00:20:04,350 I'm just going to throw it up. 286 00:20:04,600 --> 00:20:07,600 It's gross going in, it's even grosser coming back up. 287 00:20:07,870 --> 00:20:08,870 What's the point? 288 00:20:08,970 --> 00:20:11,970 "Garantha ni tabato." 289 00:20:14,320 --> 00:20:17,320 Well said! 290 00:20:24,400 --> 00:20:25,770 I'll try to get a few bites in. 291 00:20:26,830 --> 00:20:29,830 Thank you. That's all we ask. 292 00:20:36,300 --> 00:20:39,300 See? It is really good, huh? 293 00:20:54,150 --> 00:20:55,150 [Lily throws up.] 294 00:20:55,910 --> 00:20:58,900 Well, that's it for me. 295 00:20:58,920 --> 00:21:01,920 No, no, no. I'll clean it up. You finish eating. 296 00:21:21,800 --> 00:21:25,110 Ah, listen, I have to bring up something really awkward. 297 00:21:26,610 --> 00:21:28,960 More awkward than throwing up in the middle of dinner? 298 00:21:29,720 --> 00:21:31,810 A different kind of awkward. 299 00:21:32,820 --> 00:21:35,820 So, I'm getting kicked out of my apartment. 300 00:21:36,240 --> 00:21:37,000 What! Why? 301 00:21:37,170 --> 00:21:40,410 Well, they have this silly idea that I should be paying rent every fucking month. 302 00:21:40,610 --> 00:21:43,610 And uh... I just can't right now. 303 00:21:43,750 --> 00:21:45,030 - We'll loan you the money. How much do you need? 304 00:21:45,050 --> 00:21:46,400 - We're not loaning you money. 305 00:21:46,660 --> 00:21:47,720 What? 306 00:21:48,080 --> 00:21:50,410 It's stupid that you have an apartment that you don't pay for. 307 00:21:50,440 --> 00:21:51,440 You're always here. 308 00:21:51,530 --> 00:21:54,530 You should just move in, make it official. 309 00:21:56,430 --> 00:21:59,430 Lily-bear, I think this is something you guys gotta discuss. 310 00:21:59,870 --> 00:22:02,870 Uh, I'm dying and I want my only brother to be here with me. 311 00:22:04,590 --> 00:22:05,880 Beau... thoughts? 312 00:22:08,080 --> 00:22:11,080 You're not dying. And, uh... 313 00:22:13,330 --> 00:22:16,330 Welcome to out humble abode. 314 00:22:19,650 --> 00:22:22,650 You can't just pull the death card and get whatever you want. 315 00:22:23,140 --> 00:22:25,700 You guys have the rest of your lives to get whatever you want... 316 00:22:25,740 --> 00:22:28,740 I only have this right now. 317 00:22:31,860 --> 00:22:34,860 You sure you'd be all right with me moving in? 318 00:22:36,370 --> 00:22:39,370 I do need to spend more time at work. 319 00:22:40,310 --> 00:22:43,310 And I don't like leaving Lily alone. 320 00:22:47,390 --> 00:22:50,390 See? It's a win-win for all of us! 321 00:23:07,460 --> 00:23:09,620 I'm fine. 322 00:23:09,850 --> 00:23:12,260 The doctor said it's normal to feel weak. 323 00:23:26,980 --> 00:23:28,730 What?! 324 00:23:28,900 --> 00:23:30,880 Hey, Lils. Are you okay? 325 00:23:31,230 --> 00:23:34,230 I'm dying, actually. Thanks for asking. 326 00:23:36,190 --> 00:23:39,190 I don't want to bother you, but I was just worried. 327 00:23:40,010 --> 00:23:43,010 Shut up. I'm fine. I'm fine. 328 00:23:43,580 --> 00:23:46,580 Just... I'm just having a moment. 329 00:24:48,870 --> 00:24:51,870 Morning wood, anyone? 330 00:24:58,540 --> 00:25:01,200 It's biological! Get over it. 331 00:25:01,600 --> 00:25:02,890 Sorry, dude. 332 00:25:05,120 --> 00:25:07,140 I've got one, too. 333 00:25:08,570 --> 00:25:10,210 I mean about spooning you. 334 00:25:10,480 --> 00:25:11,760 I don't think I knew it was you. 335 00:25:11,800 --> 00:25:14,800 No, it's cool. It felt nice to be held. 336 00:25:16,850 --> 00:25:18,200 It's been a long time. 337 00:25:19,550 --> 00:25:20,960 You need to get out more. 338 00:25:26,300 --> 00:25:28,350 Tell me something I don't know. 339 00:25:34,900 --> 00:25:36,560 Wasn't this a great idea? 340 00:25:36,820 --> 00:25:39,820 Maybe, if I wasn't in terrible shape. 341 00:25:40,580 --> 00:25:43,580 We'll go slow, old man. We'll go slow. 342 00:25:44,870 --> 00:25:46,770 I don't want to hold you back. 343 00:25:47,250 --> 00:25:50,250 If I get too winded, just leave me behind. 344 00:25:51,430 --> 00:25:53,660 You can circle back and pick up my carcass. 345 00:25:54,180 --> 00:25:56,370 You're not that out of shape. 346 00:25:56,410 --> 00:25:59,410 I don't see any vultures coming by to feast on your carcass any time soon. 347 00:26:04,950 --> 00:26:07,590 Do you think we would have been friends? 348 00:26:07,870 --> 00:26:11,710 You know, if we'd met first... Before I got together with Lily? 349 00:26:12,450 --> 00:26:13,680 Why wouldn't we? 350 00:26:13,870 --> 00:26:15,510 We got a lot in common. 351 00:26:15,760 --> 00:26:16,780 Sure, now. 352 00:26:17,710 --> 00:26:20,710 I didn't always used to be the free spirit you see before you. 353 00:26:22,100 --> 00:26:23,100 I used to be... 354 00:26:28,430 --> 00:26:30,140 What, normal? 355 00:26:30,910 --> 00:26:32,430 I was going to say conventional. 356 00:26:32,700 --> 00:26:34,050 That's funny. 357 00:26:34,360 --> 00:26:37,360 That's the exact same word I used to describe you when I first met you. 358 00:26:38,060 --> 00:26:41,940 You know what? You wouldn't have been conventional or otherwise you wouldn't have fallen for Lily. 359 00:26:43,940 --> 00:26:46,940 She saw something in me that I didn't see. 360 00:26:47,460 --> 00:26:49,010 Yeah. She found your inner freak. 361 00:26:49,410 --> 00:26:52,410 That's what she does. It's Lily's gift. 362 00:26:55,070 --> 00:26:57,330 What am I going to do if she doesn't make it? 363 00:26:57,430 --> 00:26:58,960 Hey, don't think like that. 364 00:27:00,380 --> 00:27:01,830 Lily's strong. 365 00:27:02,880 --> 00:27:04,010 You really think so? 366 00:27:07,970 --> 00:27:09,730 Yeah, that's what I want to believe. 367 00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:14,540 I think I'm going to head back. 368 00:27:16,140 --> 00:27:18,090 You go on... finish the run. 369 00:27:25,430 --> 00:27:26,990 I'll come with you. 370 00:27:28,340 --> 00:27:30,020 Afraid the vultures will get me? 371 00:27:30,550 --> 00:27:32,170 A little bit. 372 00:27:32,570 --> 00:27:34,080 Come on. 373 00:27:34,290 --> 00:27:35,290 You're still running! 374 00:27:45,000 --> 00:27:46,260 That bad, huh? 375 00:27:48,760 --> 00:27:51,760 Your test results are not what we were hoping for. 376 00:27:54,710 --> 00:27:56,070 Fuck! 377 00:27:56,260 --> 00:27:56,810 - Lily! 378 00:27:56,890 --> 00:27:59,150 - It's okay. At least she didn't kick me. 379 00:27:59,580 --> 00:28:01,170 Be grateful you're behind the desk. 380 00:28:01,920 --> 00:28:04,430 So... what now? What's the next step? 381 00:28:05,020 --> 00:28:06,810 I think we change courses. 382 00:28:08,850 --> 00:28:10,390 Try a different kind of therapy. 383 00:28:11,430 --> 00:28:12,980 So no more chemo? 384 00:28:13,940 --> 00:28:16,470 It's different kind of chemo. 385 00:28:17,640 --> 00:28:20,320 Some patients respond very well to it. 386 00:28:21,060 --> 00:28:22,070 But... 387 00:28:22,230 --> 00:28:23,230 Worse side effects. 388 00:28:25,650 --> 00:28:28,260 That's why you didn't start with it. 389 00:28:28,700 --> 00:28:30,090 Yeah. 390 00:28:39,210 --> 00:28:42,890 You really think growing and eating our own organic vegetables is going to make a difference? 391 00:28:43,830 --> 00:28:45,280 Honestly, I don't know. 392 00:28:45,350 --> 00:28:48,470 But if it make her feel better, I'm happy to grow and eat the damn vegetables. 393 00:28:50,950 --> 00:28:53,950 I'd eat the Goddamned earthworms if I thought it would help... 394 00:28:54,200 --> 00:28:55,400 Yum. 395 00:28:55,730 --> 00:28:57,020 Make her feel better. 396 00:28:57,770 --> 00:29:00,770 Fucking, you fucking bastard! Fuck! Shit! 397 00:29:08,290 --> 00:29:11,290 I could use the sun anyway. Stupid. 398 00:29:14,470 --> 00:29:18,490 You know, it means the world to Lily that you're here. 399 00:29:21,700 --> 00:29:22,820 I know. 400 00:29:25,190 --> 00:29:28,190 And to me. I'm not sure I could do this without you. 401 00:29:30,250 --> 00:29:32,150 Don't be crazy. 402 00:29:32,440 --> 00:29:35,440 You're fucking Superman. You can do anything. 403 00:29:36,760 --> 00:29:37,760 I'm glad I can help. 404 00:29:38,570 --> 00:29:40,950 I can't imagine being anywhere else right now. 405 00:29:46,010 --> 00:29:49,010 You know, when Lily and I first started getting serious, 406 00:29:49,480 --> 00:29:51,030 I was kind of jealous of you. 407 00:29:56,130 --> 00:29:59,130 If we're being honest, I was pretty jealous of you, too. 408 00:30:00,680 --> 00:30:03,430 You were the first guy Lily ever loved more than me. 409 00:30:03,730 --> 00:30:06,730 Not more... just differently. 410 00:30:09,350 --> 00:30:11,070 And that's a good thing. 411 00:30:15,600 --> 00:30:17,100 So you're over it now? 412 00:30:18,330 --> 00:30:19,680 Yeah. You? 413 00:30:27,950 --> 00:30:29,270 What was that for? 414 00:30:30,910 --> 00:30:33,230 I'm slapping us on the back for being so Goddamned mature. 415 00:30:35,100 --> 00:30:38,100 Us? How come I'm the only one getting slapped? 416 00:30:41,050 --> 00:30:42,150 - Ow! 417 00:30:42,610 --> 00:30:43,610 - See? 418 00:30:43,850 --> 00:30:45,290 - You're just being a baby. 419 00:30:45,430 --> 00:30:46,430 - No, you are! 420 00:30:46,480 --> 00:30:47,040 - You are! 421 00:30:47,240 --> 00:30:47,980 - You are! 422 00:30:48,140 --> 00:30:49,140 - You are! 423 00:30:49,740 --> 00:30:52,740 [Shouting while wrestling.] 424 00:30:55,420 --> 00:30:57,440 One, two, three. 425 00:31:06,050 --> 00:31:08,550 I think you've got a man-crush on Caden. 426 00:31:08,760 --> 00:31:09,890 Maybe a little. 427 00:31:10,370 --> 00:31:12,640 I haven't had a best friend since, like, high school. 428 00:31:14,050 --> 00:31:15,570 What am I, chopped liver? 429 00:31:16,790 --> 00:31:18,120 What re you? Fanny Brice? 430 00:31:19,040 --> 00:31:21,260 You know what I mean. A guy friend. 431 00:31:22,400 --> 00:31:23,560 Does it bother you? 432 00:31:24,310 --> 00:31:25,340 No, I think it's great. 433 00:31:29,290 --> 00:31:31,890 And you're going to need each other more than ever once I'm gone. 434 00:31:34,260 --> 00:31:37,260 Don't talk like that. You're not going anywhere. 435 00:31:39,850 --> 00:31:40,900 Care to join me? 436 00:31:43,440 --> 00:31:45,470 I'm sorry. I'm not in the mood. 437 00:31:45,630 --> 00:31:46,850 No need to apologize. 438 00:32:09,670 --> 00:32:10,670 Hi! 439 00:32:12,140 --> 00:32:13,650 You know, I've worked here for a couple months. 440 00:32:13,670 --> 00:32:16,260 You might be the only person that reads actual books. 441 00:32:17,420 --> 00:32:20,420 Never a phone, never a tablet... always a book. 442 00:32:21,440 --> 00:32:25,650 I work in I.T., so I deal with all that stuff for a living. 443 00:32:26,230 --> 00:32:27,400 I get it. 444 00:32:28,000 --> 00:32:31,000 Working here has sort of spoiled coffee for me. 445 00:32:32,310 --> 00:32:33,380 You coming, Lily? 446 00:32:34,540 --> 00:32:36,180 Uh, you know, why don't you go ahead. 447 00:32:36,470 --> 00:32:37,710 I'll catch you tomorrow. 448 00:32:38,590 --> 00:32:39,820 Cool. Okay. 449 00:32:43,960 --> 00:32:46,960 So. You want to get out of here? 450 00:32:49,900 --> 00:32:51,500 I'm sorry. I'm confused. 451 00:32:52,630 --> 00:32:55,280 Is this, like, a pick-up? 452 00:32:56,180 --> 00:32:58,380 Yeah. Something like that. 453 00:32:59,810 --> 00:33:01,140 Aren't you gay? 454 00:33:01,470 --> 00:33:02,560 No. You? 455 00:33:04,330 --> 00:33:05,330 Uh. No. 456 00:33:05,920 --> 00:33:08,760 Great! So, let's go. 457 00:33:09,730 --> 00:33:11,730 If you're not gay, why are you wearing that shirt? 458 00:33:12,880 --> 00:33:14,290 Oh. My ex-girlfriend gave me this. 459 00:33:15,530 --> 00:33:18,630 Plus, I really do think the world would be a better place if the dykes were in charge. 460 00:33:18,650 --> 00:33:19,700 Don't you? 461 00:33:20,240 --> 00:33:21,240 - Your girlfriend? 462 00:33:21,360 --> 00:33:22,360 - Ex-girlfriend. 463 00:33:22,840 --> 00:33:23,990 - But you're not a lesbian? 464 00:33:25,160 --> 00:33:26,720 - No, just a college romance, you know. 465 00:33:28,700 --> 00:33:29,800 So... 466 00:33:30,490 --> 00:33:31,490 What do you say? 467 00:33:32,810 --> 00:33:33,990 One more question. 468 00:33:35,760 --> 00:33:37,790 Don't you have to wear shoes to work here? 469 00:33:38,210 --> 00:33:39,210 Oh, yeah. 470 00:33:39,440 --> 00:33:41,280 I just take them off as soon as my shift ends. 471 00:33:41,850 --> 00:33:44,130 I feel like shoes are prisons for your feet. 472 00:33:45,980 --> 00:33:48,980 Don't your feet, I don't know, get cut up and stuff? 473 00:33:49,480 --> 00:33:51,200 Nah. I've been going barefoot for too long. 474 00:33:51,520 --> 00:33:53,000 They're practically hooves. 475 00:33:54,240 --> 00:33:57,240 Sexy, I know. But the feet are part of the deal. 476 00:33:57,590 --> 00:33:58,590 So... 477 00:33:59,230 --> 00:34:00,440 You in or or you out? 478 00:34:02,680 --> 00:34:04,060 Oh, I'm in. 479 00:34:14,270 --> 00:34:15,270 Caden? 480 00:34:17,500 --> 00:34:18,700 Yes, Lily-bear? 481 00:34:19,460 --> 00:34:21,970 How come you haven't gotten any in forever? 482 00:34:22,340 --> 00:34:24,820 I've got other things on my mind. 483 00:34:26,950 --> 00:34:28,230 I know. 484 00:34:28,780 --> 00:34:30,580 And I am grateful. 485 00:34:30,840 --> 00:34:33,110 But you can't put your whole life on hold. 486 00:34:33,220 --> 00:34:34,500 I'm not. 487 00:34:36,290 --> 00:34:37,560 I'm not! 488 00:34:40,050 --> 00:34:41,300 Okay, maybe I am. 489 00:34:41,990 --> 00:34:43,500 But you and Beau are important to me. 490 00:34:45,130 --> 00:34:46,400 You need me. 491 00:34:48,140 --> 00:34:51,140 He's going to need you even more when I'm gone. 492 00:34:51,330 --> 00:34:53,320 Shut up. You're not going anywhere. 493 00:34:53,470 --> 00:34:55,100 Not today. Not tomorrow. 494 00:34:55,730 --> 00:34:58,490 But... there's only one way this ends. 495 00:34:58,620 --> 00:35:00,440 Stop it! I don't want to think about it. 496 00:35:00,630 --> 00:35:02,960 How do you think I feel? 497 00:35:05,790 --> 00:35:08,800 But... you can't pretend it's not happening. 498 00:35:09,310 --> 00:35:10,750 Can't we? Please? 499 00:35:12,610 --> 00:35:13,980 Just for a while? 500 00:35:14,790 --> 00:35:16,760 I've never been any good at faking. 501 00:35:17,970 --> 00:35:19,140 Just ask Beau. 502 00:35:20,760 --> 00:35:22,800 Ugh. There is such a thing as too much information. 503 00:35:22,950 --> 00:35:24,410 Even between us. 504 00:35:25,370 --> 00:35:26,110 - Uh-unh. 505 00:35:26,140 --> 00:35:26,870 - Yes. 506 00:35:26,960 --> 00:35:27,630 - Unh-uh. 507 00:35:27,660 --> 00:35:28,260 - Yes. 508 00:35:28,360 --> 00:35:28,900 - Nope. 509 00:35:29,070 --> 00:35:30,070 - Oof. 510 00:35:33,460 --> 00:35:36,460 Stop. You're hounding me like paparazzi. 511 00:35:38,490 --> 00:35:40,050 I look terrible. Stop. 512 00:35:40,360 --> 00:35:41,460 You're gorgeous. 513 00:35:41,870 --> 00:35:43,230 You're a fucking idiot. Stop it! 514 00:35:44,530 --> 00:35:46,170 And you, with the beets... enough. 515 00:35:46,280 --> 00:35:48,250 I'm not drinking that shit anymore. 516 00:35:48,310 --> 00:35:51,310 Seriously. I'm done. Okay? No more. 517 00:35:58,760 --> 00:35:59,480 Oh God! 518 00:35:59,680 --> 00:36:03,990 I made your photo essay, or whatever the hell it is you're working on? 519 00:36:06,360 --> 00:36:07,760 Uh, we'll see. 520 00:36:18,250 --> 00:36:22,800 Mmm. You know, this juice wouldn't be half bad if you put some vodka in it. 521 00:36:23,290 --> 00:36:24,710 - That kind of defeats the point. 522 00:36:26,020 --> 00:36:29,020 - Well, just a few drops and you can call it a cocktail. 523 00:36:29,220 --> 00:36:30,700 Then she might drink it. 524 00:36:35,100 --> 00:36:36,100 You know, 525 00:36:36,880 --> 00:36:38,600 Lily always used to say you were beautiful, 526 00:36:38,670 --> 00:36:40,430 but I didn't know what she was talking about. 527 00:36:41,380 --> 00:36:44,380 But looking at your face through the lens, 528 00:36:45,110 --> 00:36:47,040 I kind of see what she means. 529 00:36:48,230 --> 00:36:50,190 Something about the angles. 530 00:36:51,120 --> 00:36:52,750 The bones under the skin. 531 00:36:56,480 --> 00:36:57,880 You are beautiful. 532 00:36:59,310 --> 00:37:00,790 Uh... thanks. 533 00:37:04,290 --> 00:37:05,610 You ever think about posing nude? 534 00:37:06,260 --> 00:37:07,080 - Ow! 535 00:37:07,140 --> 00:37:08,200 - Oh, fuck. Fuck. 536 00:37:08,360 --> 00:37:11,360 I got you. I'm sorry. I am so sorry! Shit. 537 00:37:12,660 --> 00:37:14,210 I was just messing with you. 538 00:37:14,410 --> 00:37:16,050 I don't even do that kind of photography. 539 00:37:16,510 --> 00:37:17,510 Hilarious. 540 00:37:18,900 --> 00:37:23,240 With the extra iron this batch of juice should be quite potent... 541 00:37:31,090 --> 00:37:33,360 Really. I'm sorry. 542 00:37:33,660 --> 00:37:35,790 It's okay. It's not deep. 543 00:37:40,200 --> 00:37:42,720 I'd think you'd be used to my sense of humor by now. 544 00:37:43,570 --> 00:37:44,740 You'd think. 545 00:38:10,040 --> 00:38:11,130 What? 546 00:38:12,160 --> 00:38:14,200 Just admiring my beautiful wife. 547 00:38:22,080 --> 00:38:23,790 You seem to feel a little better today. 548 00:38:28,090 --> 00:38:29,330 I'm not in the mood. I'm sorry. 549 00:38:29,820 --> 00:38:33,610 What? That's not what I meant! 550 00:38:34,500 --> 00:38:36,940 After all these years, you think I don't know your sex voice? 551 00:38:38,300 --> 00:38:40,340 - Sorry. I didn't mean to... 552 00:38:41,260 --> 00:38:42,860 - Don't apologize. Stop. 553 00:38:43,180 --> 00:38:46,180 You're a health young man... you should be horny. 554 00:38:47,240 --> 00:38:48,460 But I just... can't. 555 00:38:48,550 --> 00:38:49,550 - I get that. It's fine. 556 00:38:50,830 --> 00:38:52,070 - It's not fine. It's horrible. 557 00:38:57,010 --> 00:38:58,410 Will you let me hold you? 558 00:39:00,650 --> 00:39:03,650 That's really what I need. Not sex... just... contact. 559 00:39:20,740 --> 00:39:22,210 - If you need an outlet, you should... 560 00:39:22,230 --> 00:39:22,960 - Shhh. 561 00:39:23,100 --> 00:39:25,610 No. No. We need to talk about this. 562 00:39:30,340 --> 00:39:33,030 I officially release you from your monogamy pledge. 563 00:39:33,580 --> 00:39:34,580 Stop being an idiot. 564 00:39:34,820 --> 00:39:36,380 I don't want to sleep with anyone else. 565 00:39:36,430 --> 00:39:38,750 I'm just saying I won't be mad. 566 00:39:39,580 --> 00:39:42,590 - I took you for better or for worse, remember? 567 00:39:42,620 --> 00:39:43,400 - I know. 568 00:39:43,440 --> 00:39:44,250 I meant it. 569 00:39:44,460 --> 00:39:45,460 I know that. 570 00:39:46,810 --> 00:39:50,090 I just think in a weird way, it would make me feel better if you'd go have some... 571 00:39:50,220 --> 00:39:52,440 meaningless sex with someone. 572 00:39:52,700 --> 00:39:54,970 Well, too bad... cause it's not happening. 573 00:39:55,850 --> 00:39:58,060 And by the way... you're a freak. 574 00:40:11,560 --> 00:40:13,920 You know what would make me really happy? 575 00:40:15,370 --> 00:40:16,690 Not having cancer? 576 00:40:17,740 --> 00:40:18,740 Yeah. 577 00:40:19,000 --> 00:40:21,050 I don't think that's in the cards... 578 00:40:23,620 --> 00:40:24,820 Then what? 579 00:40:26,600 --> 00:40:28,280 If you and Caden got together. 580 00:40:31,400 --> 00:40:32,550 Very funny. 581 00:40:40,830 --> 00:40:44,930 Has Caden said something that makes you think he wants something like that? 582 00:40:46,400 --> 00:40:48,020 He doesn't have to. 583 00:40:49,100 --> 00:40:52,100 So this is really just you having, like, a mini-stroke or something. 584 00:40:54,170 --> 00:40:55,470 The cancer's not in my brain... 585 00:40:56,860 --> 00:40:57,860 yet. 586 00:41:00,120 --> 00:41:01,530 I'm just telling you what I see. 587 00:41:03,840 --> 00:41:06,350 And what I see is... 588 00:41:07,570 --> 00:41:11,090 love and attraction. 589 00:41:17,490 --> 00:41:21,350 I love you... but you're a nut! 590 00:41:54,260 --> 00:41:55,660 Where are you going? 591 00:41:56,350 --> 00:41:58,110 I got a gig. 592 00:41:58,260 --> 00:42:02,150 A quinceanera. So it's a total hack, but it's good money. 593 00:42:04,480 --> 00:42:06,590 Remember... they may look like young women, 594 00:42:06,620 --> 00:42:09,620 but they're only fifteen. 595 00:42:09,960 --> 00:42:12,430 He's right. you haven't gotten laid since you moved in here 596 00:42:12,450 --> 00:42:15,430 and a man's right hand can only do so much. 597 00:42:15,450 --> 00:42:16,910 All right, first of all, 598 00:42:17,080 --> 00:42:20,080 I'm surprisingly limber and sometimes I use my feet. 599 00:42:20,850 --> 00:42:23,850 Secondly, no matter how horny I am, I haven't lost my mind. 600 00:42:25,310 --> 00:42:28,310 I have one word in regards to your self-control: 601 00:42:28,750 --> 00:42:30,070 Watermelon. 602 00:42:31,780 --> 00:42:34,780 No! That is not fair! I was thirteen! 603 00:42:35,110 --> 00:42:40,360 He'd heard that on a warm summer day, a perfectly shaped hole felt just like "the real thing." 604 00:42:41,490 --> 00:42:42,430 - And did it? 605 00:42:42,500 --> 00:42:44,130 - He thought so at the time! 606 00:42:44,770 --> 00:42:46,140 I heard him bragging to his friends. 607 00:42:46,160 --> 00:42:53,320 I have subsequently learned that the pleasures of a woman's anatomy bear little resemblance to the insides of a melon. 608 00:42:53,760 --> 00:42:55,740 Okay, yeah, time to go. Don't be late! 609 00:42:55,860 --> 00:42:58,900 And by the way, a watermelon is not going to charge you with statutory rape. 610 00:42:59,330 --> 00:43:00,670 Thank you for that. 611 00:43:01,340 --> 00:43:03,550 Oh, and no teen pregnancy! 612 00:43:03,740 --> 00:43:05,410 Love you! 613 00:43:17,580 --> 00:43:18,390 - Hey! 614 00:43:18,550 --> 00:43:19,550 - Hi. 615 00:43:20,530 --> 00:43:21,980 How'd it go? 616 00:43:23,510 --> 00:43:24,900 They love me. 617 00:43:25,110 --> 00:43:27,350 Probably get a few other jobs out of it, in fact. 618 00:43:28,520 --> 00:43:29,570 Good! 619 00:43:32,140 --> 00:43:33,390 Why are you up? 620 00:43:33,690 --> 00:43:34,980 Shouldn't you be resting? 621 00:43:38,560 --> 00:43:41,650 Well, I get a little anxious before radiation. 622 00:43:48,730 --> 00:43:51,730 You know, one good thing that's come out of all of this: 623 00:43:53,310 --> 00:43:54,980 You and Beau have gotten so close. 624 00:43:55,830 --> 00:43:58,350 Yeah. He's like a brother to me. 625 00:44:02,640 --> 00:44:05,760 A brother? Or... 626 00:44:06,110 --> 00:44:07,110 more? 627 00:44:09,620 --> 00:44:13,490 Oh, my God, you think I'm attracted to him? 628 00:44:13,510 --> 00:44:14,700 You're not? 629 00:44:16,220 --> 00:44:18,690 He's a beautiful man... a beautiful person. 630 00:44:18,830 --> 00:44:19,920 But we would never... 631 00:44:19,940 --> 00:44:21,060 - Because of me? 632 00:44:21,240 --> 00:44:23,470 - Because of all kinds of reasons! 633 00:44:23,730 --> 00:44:25,880 But mostly because you wouldn't want to hurt me. 634 00:44:27,890 --> 00:44:29,890 But what if I told you it wouldn't hurt me? 635 00:44:32,580 --> 00:44:35,580 What if I told you I think it's a great idea? 636 00:44:35,750 --> 00:44:38,750 You think it's a great idea for your husband and your brother to hook up? 637 00:44:39,530 --> 00:44:41,240 Hook up, no. No. 638 00:44:43,230 --> 00:44:46,230 Build a life together, maybe. 639 00:44:51,530 --> 00:44:53,770 Build a life together? 640 00:44:53,830 --> 00:44:55,940 Like, as a couple? 641 00:44:56,990 --> 00:44:59,170 You love each other. 642 00:44:59,260 --> 00:45:02,260 Yeah, we love each other, but not like... 643 00:45:02,790 --> 00:45:10,790 Okay, let's just strip away the labels, the taboos, the expectations we put on ourselves. 644 00:45:12,560 --> 00:45:14,760 If you could do that, can you imagine a life with Beau? 645 00:45:17,000 --> 00:45:18,790 And would that life make you happy? 646 00:45:22,700 --> 00:45:26,550 That's a lot of stripping away. 647 00:45:26,880 --> 00:45:28,490 It is. Most people couldn't do it. 648 00:45:28,730 --> 00:45:30,380 But you're not most people. 649 00:45:30,850 --> 00:45:32,070 And neither is Beau. 650 00:45:46,520 --> 00:45:47,970 How did the radiation go? 651 00:45:53,280 --> 00:45:54,120 - You have to get out of those clothes. 652 00:45:54,150 --> 00:45:55,190 - I want you to let me go. 653 00:45:56,160 --> 00:45:59,160 You sure? You still seem a bit shaky. 654 00:46:00,260 --> 00:46:01,530 That's not what I meant. 655 00:46:04,460 --> 00:46:05,460 - Um. 656 00:46:07,130 --> 00:46:08,890 Want me to draw you a bath? Sometimes that... 657 00:46:09,040 --> 00:46:10,540 - I don't want to do the radiation. 658 00:46:11,590 --> 00:46:12,840 - It can give you extra years. 659 00:46:13,680 --> 00:46:14,680 - Years like this? 660 00:46:17,060 --> 00:46:18,370 You can keep them. 661 00:46:22,560 --> 00:46:24,960 - You're tired. We can talk about this... 662 00:46:25,280 --> 00:46:28,280 - I'm not just tired! 663 00:46:30,140 --> 00:46:32,620 This isn't what I want to do with the rest of my time! 664 00:46:37,490 --> 00:46:39,570 How are you supposed to "live in the moment," when the moment sucks? 665 00:46:39,590 --> 00:46:41,000 It's not all going to be like this. 666 00:46:41,520 --> 00:46:43,640 You got to go through the bad days to buy yourself some good days. 667 00:46:43,670 --> 00:46:44,920 That's how this works. 668 00:46:45,180 --> 00:46:46,620 Yeah, well, it's a shitty trade-off. 669 00:46:47,660 --> 00:46:48,790 Yeah, well... 670 00:46:51,650 --> 00:46:53,120 it's what we got. 671 00:47:03,410 --> 00:47:07,450 I never expected life to be fair, but come on! 672 00:47:10,610 --> 00:47:13,100 I never smoked, I didn't abuse my body. 673 00:47:15,030 --> 00:47:16,240 Why would this happen? 674 00:47:18,260 --> 00:47:19,490 I don't know. 675 00:47:24,050 --> 00:47:27,050 Please don't make me stay. 676 00:47:28,080 --> 00:47:30,050 When I can't take it anymore. 677 00:47:36,030 --> 00:47:39,030 When have I ever been able to make you do anything? 678 00:47:44,990 --> 00:47:46,790 Good point. 679 00:47:51,390 --> 00:47:53,870 I'm sorry... I wish there were better news. 680 00:47:55,470 --> 00:47:56,830 You're not giving up on her, though, right? 681 00:47:56,850 --> 00:47:58,850 I mean, there's got to be other treatment options. 682 00:47:59,060 --> 00:48:00,100 There are. 683 00:48:00,390 --> 00:48:02,270 And we can pursue them for as long as you like. 684 00:48:03,890 --> 00:48:08,510 But in all honesty, once the cancer's gotten into your liver and your bones... 685 00:48:09,850 --> 00:48:12,830 we should be looking more towards palliative care. 686 00:48:12,850 --> 00:48:13,850 - Palliative care? 687 00:48:14,030 --> 00:48:15,150 - Pain management. 688 00:48:16,270 --> 00:48:19,470 That's where they give you the good drugs because they know you're already dead. 689 00:48:19,740 --> 00:48:21,490 Well, I wouldn't put it that way... 690 00:48:23,010 --> 00:48:26,010 Let's say we just quit all treatment 691 00:48:26,340 --> 00:48:27,880 we do the palliative care 692 00:48:29,630 --> 00:48:31,010 how long would I have? 693 00:48:31,990 --> 00:48:34,390 It's hard to say. Every patient is different. 694 00:48:34,830 --> 00:48:40,810 Ballpark. Are we talking days, weeks, months... years? 695 00:48:44,100 --> 00:48:45,710 Not years. 696 00:49:01,620 --> 00:49:03,520 You want to sit down or something? 697 00:49:03,690 --> 00:49:05,180 You look kind of dead on your feet. 698 00:49:05,210 --> 00:49:06,290 I'm okay. 699 00:49:13,650 --> 00:49:16,360 We just... got some bad news today. 700 00:49:18,330 --> 00:49:19,710 Yeah, Lily told me. 701 00:49:23,630 --> 00:49:26,630 She's being so brave, 702 00:49:28,600 --> 00:49:29,800 but the cancer doesn't care. 703 00:49:30,120 --> 00:49:34,070 Isn't cancer supposed to back off in the face of a positive attitude?! 704 00:49:35,240 --> 00:49:37,210 Those studies turned out to be bogus. 705 00:49:44,100 --> 00:49:47,350 Most of the time I want her to hang on as long as she can. 706 00:49:47,680 --> 00:49:51,040 But uh... sometimes I just want it to be over. 707 00:49:51,270 --> 00:49:52,690 Is that terrible? 708 00:49:53,100 --> 00:49:54,100 No. 709 00:49:55,740 --> 00:49:56,740 No. 710 00:49:58,310 --> 00:50:00,740 It kills me to see her suffering like this. 711 00:50:02,580 --> 00:50:03,760 And you? 712 00:50:04,980 --> 00:50:06,020 I'm fine. 713 00:50:07,360 --> 00:50:08,420 You're not fine. 714 00:50:10,170 --> 00:50:11,240 None of us are fine. 715 00:50:11,900 --> 00:50:12,900 Maybe not. 716 00:50:14,710 --> 00:50:15,990 But we have to be strong, right? 717 00:50:21,790 --> 00:50:23,200 I'm sorry for the late notice. 718 00:50:25,440 --> 00:50:26,440 Thank you. 719 00:50:31,220 --> 00:50:32,290 What was that? 720 00:50:35,310 --> 00:50:36,450 Lily, what's going on? 721 00:50:40,250 --> 00:50:42,270 I... canceled chemo for today. 722 00:50:49,470 --> 00:50:51,250 I canceled chemo forever. 723 00:50:59,100 --> 00:51:00,710 And radiation, too. 724 00:51:02,540 --> 00:51:04,830 You're sure this is what you want? 725 00:51:12,410 --> 00:51:14,030 I'm not in the 40%, Beau. 726 00:51:14,990 --> 00:51:18,180 - You don't know that. Dr. Bauman said there were still treatments we could try before you... 727 00:51:18,210 --> 00:51:19,210 - No. No. 728 00:51:22,910 --> 00:51:24,420 No treatment. 729 00:51:26,480 --> 00:51:29,480 Let's... we need to be realistic. 730 00:51:33,280 --> 00:51:34,430 I'm not thrilled either. 731 00:51:36,170 --> 00:51:38,600 But it's happening, and we need to talk about it, okay? 732 00:51:38,890 --> 00:51:40,060 Can you do that... for me? 733 00:51:54,060 --> 00:51:55,460 Okay. 734 00:51:55,700 --> 00:51:58,700 You know that I'm not a believer. I don't believe in any sort of afterlife. 735 00:51:59,150 --> 00:52:01,810 So I don't really care what you do with my body. 736 00:52:01,930 --> 00:52:05,120 Do whatever is easiest. Cremation. Donate it to medical science. 737 00:52:05,970 --> 00:52:10,420 Hell, you can stuff me and put me in a glass tomb like Vladimir Lenin. 738 00:52:10,570 --> 00:52:11,240 I don't care. 739 00:52:11,410 --> 00:52:13,050 I just don't want to talk about it, okay? 740 00:52:14,090 --> 00:52:15,300 Got it! Are we done? 741 00:52:16,950 --> 00:52:18,020 No. 742 00:52:21,230 --> 00:52:22,760 We need to talk about you. 743 00:52:23,070 --> 00:52:24,680 You're young and healthy. 744 00:52:26,510 --> 00:52:27,930 You better never forget about me... 745 00:52:28,850 --> 00:52:30,030 As if. 746 00:52:34,000 --> 00:52:35,530 But you need to move on. 747 00:52:41,750 --> 00:52:43,750 I want you to find love and happiness again. 748 00:52:46,210 --> 00:52:47,480 Promise me. 749 00:52:49,110 --> 00:52:50,860 Promise I'll be happy without you? 750 00:52:53,320 --> 00:52:54,440 I can't. 751 00:52:59,190 --> 00:53:00,240 What about Caden? 752 00:53:01,690 --> 00:53:02,710 What about him? 753 00:53:03,150 --> 00:53:05,310 Lily, I am not lusting after your brother! 754 00:53:06,230 --> 00:53:08,130 It's not an accusation. 755 00:53:09,180 --> 00:53:10,520 It's my aspiration. 756 00:53:11,460 --> 00:53:12,590 Your what? 757 00:53:12,920 --> 00:53:14,320 It's what I want for you. 758 00:53:15,750 --> 00:53:16,750 And him. 759 00:53:17,440 --> 00:53:18,440 To find love. 760 00:53:18,730 --> 00:53:19,730 - Lily... 761 00:53:20,390 --> 00:53:25,050 - The thought of you with another woman makes me more nauseous than chemo. 762 00:53:25,270 --> 00:53:30,230 But the thought of the men that I love finding love with each other... 763 00:53:30,760 --> 00:53:31,880 that makes me smile. 764 00:53:33,330 --> 00:53:37,040 Does that make me the biggest fag hag the world has ever seen? 765 00:53:37,490 --> 00:53:38,490 Probably. 766 00:53:39,670 --> 00:53:47,670 Look, I'm not going to deny I feel a depth of love for Caden I never imagined feeling for a man. 767 00:53:48,490 --> 00:53:49,490 But... 768 00:53:50,810 --> 00:53:53,810 I'm straight... and in love with you. 769 00:53:56,790 --> 00:53:58,620 Society sells us this bill of goods: 770 00:53:58,670 --> 00:53:59,960 You can only love a man or a woman, 771 00:53:59,990 --> 00:54:01,980 you have to love one person at a time. 772 00:54:02,000 --> 00:54:06,690 But human sexuality is so much more complex than man or woman, 773 00:54:06,750 --> 00:54:09,280 gay or straight, either/or. 774 00:54:10,520 --> 00:54:13,030 Sex is all tangled up in emotions... 775 00:54:13,050 --> 00:54:16,050 And emotions are freaking complicated. 776 00:54:16,670 --> 00:54:20,430 And I'm straight, and I fell in love with Barbara sophomore year. 777 00:54:20,890 --> 00:54:22,420 We had a wonderful affair. 778 00:54:23,840 --> 00:54:26,080 Remember that? I told you all about that. 779 00:54:26,260 --> 00:54:30,270 That story has been the subject of more than one masturbatory fantasy. 780 00:54:30,610 --> 00:54:33,610 But guys are not as heteroflexible as woman are. 781 00:54:35,350 --> 00:54:39,570 Because they truly aren't, or because the stigma is so strong with men? 782 00:54:39,590 --> 00:54:42,110 I don't know. Either way... It's the world we're stuck in. 783 00:54:42,280 --> 00:54:44,840 No! No. 784 00:54:45,180 --> 00:54:47,800 It's your world. It's your happiness. 785 00:54:47,860 --> 00:54:49,390 Fuck everybody else. 786 00:54:57,310 --> 00:54:59,270 Say yes. 787 00:55:16,430 --> 00:55:18,950 Hey! I'm taking a bath in here. 788 00:55:19,210 --> 00:55:21,710 Yeah. I know. Lily sent me. 789 00:55:21,890 --> 00:55:24,670 She said your back is bothering you. 790 00:55:24,930 --> 00:55:27,360 What are you doing? 791 00:55:27,820 --> 00:55:30,820 Giving you a neck and back massage. 792 00:55:31,450 --> 00:55:32,760 Lily's orders. 793 00:55:32,810 --> 00:55:35,360 While sitting in the tub... with me... naked? 794 00:55:35,740 --> 00:55:37,550 Japanese men bathe together all the time. 795 00:55:37,850 --> 00:55:39,800 We're not Japanese! I don't even eat sushi! 796 00:55:39,920 --> 00:55:41,300 Just relax! 797 00:55:43,430 --> 00:55:44,950 Your muscles are super tight. 798 00:55:46,550 --> 00:55:48,020 This is weird. 799 00:55:49,170 --> 00:55:50,170 Agreed. 800 00:55:50,420 --> 00:55:53,420 Especially since Lily pretty much ordered me to give you a happy ending. 801 00:55:54,410 --> 00:55:57,410 Beau, relax! I'm not going to rape you. 802 00:56:02,120 --> 00:56:05,120 Don't you think it's strange your sister wants us to get busy? 803 00:56:06,610 --> 00:56:09,000 What’s stranger is that it doesn’t feel completely crazy. 804 00:56:10,830 --> 00:56:12,680 Uh, yeah... it does. 805 00:56:17,290 --> 00:56:21,080 All right. All right. This has really gotten out of hand. 806 00:56:24,330 --> 00:56:25,620 Yeah, I can see that. 807 00:56:27,840 --> 00:56:30,840 Beau, you can run from me, but you can’t run from your feelings. 808 00:56:31,180 --> 00:56:34,180 Jesus Christ... did I just say that? I sound like a fucking Hallmark card! 809 00:56:34,510 --> 00:56:36,630 I’m pretty sure Hallmark doesn’t make cards for this. 810 00:56:37,330 --> 00:56:38,980 Beau, just calm down. 811 00:56:40,100 --> 00:56:41,370 We need to talk. 812 00:56:41,490 --> 00:56:43,400 I can’t talk to you when you’re naked. 813 00:57:02,060 --> 00:57:05,060 [Porn sounds] 814 00:57:13,760 --> 00:57:15,030 Good idea. 815 00:57:16,280 --> 00:57:17,000 - What? 816 00:57:17,030 --> 00:57:18,730 - Checking out how the other team plays? 817 00:57:25,160 --> 00:57:25,920 - Lily! 818 00:57:26,020 --> 00:57:29,020 - Semi-hard! It’s a turn-on, right? 819 00:57:29,860 --> 00:57:32,040 Two guys fucking is not exactly a turn-on. 820 00:57:34,140 --> 00:57:38,000 But there is something primal about it. 821 00:57:41,050 --> 00:57:45,390 I... I don’t know. All these guys are all really buff and good-looking, 822 00:57:46,080 --> 00:57:48,240 but... I can’t imagine touching them. 823 00:57:52,350 --> 00:57:53,550 What about Caden? 824 00:57:54,420 --> 00:57:55,420 Caden’s different. 825 00:57:55,570 --> 00:57:58,570 Obviously he’s a guy... And I know he’s a guy. But... 826 00:58:01,180 --> 00:58:02,830 I mostly just think of him as Caden. 827 00:58:05,790 --> 00:58:08,450 Kind of his own special category. 828 00:58:10,960 --> 00:58:12,550 A fuckable category? 829 00:58:18,480 --> 00:58:20,190 If I said yes, would that make you happy? 830 00:58:21,670 --> 00:58:24,670 In a weird way, it would. 831 00:58:26,950 --> 00:58:31,540 Let’s just say, it’s starting to not seem... impossible. 832 00:58:44,420 --> 00:58:47,420 Hey, I’m going to the store. Can I get you anything? 833 00:58:48,340 --> 00:58:49,530 Better drugs? 834 00:58:50,500 --> 00:58:53,500 Ones that take the pain away without making me comatose? 835 00:58:59,860 --> 00:59:03,030 You guys don’t have to wait on me like I’m the Queen of England. 836 00:59:03,700 --> 00:59:06,330 We want you to be as comfortable as possible. 837 00:59:06,750 --> 00:59:08,810 You know, my parents said they’d pay for a nurse. 838 00:59:09,090 --> 00:59:12,090 You don’t need a nurse. You have us. 839 00:59:12,430 --> 00:59:13,610 You guys have jobs 840 00:59:14,770 --> 00:59:18,220 Yeah, well, the occasional wedding or quinceañera isn’t exactly a career. 841 00:59:19,090 --> 00:59:20,190 We want to be here. 842 00:59:21,170 --> 00:59:22,970 You’re crazy. I don’t want to be here. 843 00:59:31,220 --> 00:59:32,390 Fuck. 844 00:59:38,260 --> 00:59:40,080 I said I wouldn’t be a pussy about this. 845 00:59:46,160 --> 00:59:48,370 Nothing to be afraid of, right? Not for me. 846 00:59:50,310 --> 00:59:51,540 I’ll just stop. 847 00:59:52,330 --> 00:59:54,040 Shh! 848 00:59:54,430 --> 00:59:55,430 Hey. 849 00:59:56,850 --> 00:59:58,610 It’s normal to be afraid. 850 00:59:59,970 --> 01:00:01,440 Probably hardwired into our DNA. 851 01:00:04,370 --> 01:00:05,970 It just sucks, you know. 852 01:00:07,680 --> 01:00:10,330 Why do I have to start being normal now? 853 01:00:19,610 --> 01:00:22,250 I need to know that you guys are going to take care of each other. 854 01:00:23,770 --> 01:00:24,770 Of course. 855 01:00:27,160 --> 01:00:29,280 And no matter what happens, you be brave. 856 01:00:33,130 --> 01:00:34,130 Promise me 857 01:00:36,790 --> 01:00:38,710 you're going to make your decisions out of love, 858 01:00:40,950 --> 01:00:41,980 not fear. 859 01:00:45,850 --> 01:00:47,080 For me. 860 01:01:01,770 --> 01:01:03,120 What are you doing up? 861 01:01:03,380 --> 01:01:04,380 Couldn’t sleep. 862 01:01:05,950 --> 01:01:08,640 I think I’m afraid she’ll die and I won’t be there to say goodbye. 863 01:01:11,560 --> 01:01:12,900 We’ve been saying goodbye. 864 01:01:13,770 --> 01:01:15,970 Mmmm. When did we get butter pecan? 865 01:01:17,650 --> 01:01:19,730 Today. You want some? 866 01:01:20,230 --> 01:01:21,530 No, I’m not hungry. 867 01:01:22,750 --> 01:01:25,010 Ice cream isn’t about being hungry. 868 01:01:39,440 --> 01:01:43,540 I’m sorry I kind of... fled the other day. 869 01:01:45,970 --> 01:01:47,340 In the bathtub? 870 01:01:47,520 --> 01:01:48,650 Yeah. 871 01:01:49,570 --> 01:01:50,570 Well, 872 01:01:51,780 --> 01:01:54,780 that whole scenario was a little awkward. 873 01:01:55,190 --> 01:01:58,190 You think? 874 01:01:59,100 --> 01:02:01,010 This is all new territory for me, too. 875 01:02:01,310 --> 01:02:04,310 I mean, I’ve fooled around with guys before, but... 876 01:02:04,670 --> 01:02:05,950 Wait! What? 877 01:02:06,940 --> 01:02:11,570 It was just sex. Never any romantic feelings... 878 01:02:14,040 --> 01:02:16,540 So you’re... bi? 879 01:02:20,390 --> 01:02:24,800 Bisexual. Pansexual. Sexually fluid. They’re all just labels. 880 01:02:27,530 --> 01:02:31,540 Right now I guess I’d have to describe myself as…Beau-sexual. 881 01:02:35,770 --> 01:02:43,770 Okay. Let’s say... hypothetically... We decide to act on these feelings. 882 01:02:47,490 --> 01:02:49,150 What does that mean? 883 01:02:49,590 --> 01:02:51,640 What would we actually do? 884 01:02:52,040 --> 01:02:55,040 I mean, who’s on top, who’s on bottom... and how the hell do we decide? 885 01:02:55,060 --> 01:02:58,060 If we arm-wrestle for it, I know I’m fucked. Literally. 886 01:02:58,690 --> 01:03:01,690 I don’t know. Maybe we take turns. 887 01:03:04,530 --> 01:03:09,190 I let a guy fuck me once. It was... interesting. 888 01:03:11,140 --> 01:03:12,320 Maybe you’ll like it. 889 01:03:13,870 --> 01:03:19,250 Ah, I don’t think so! It’s just... not who I am. 890 01:03:20,020 --> 01:03:24,120 Oh, cut the bullshit. If this were all me, we wouldn’t even be having this discussion. 891 01:03:24,310 --> 01:03:28,040 Sorry. Of course it’s not just you. 892 01:03:28,260 --> 01:03:30,220 It might be easier if it were. 893 01:03:31,240 --> 01:03:35,000 I know. Then you could just slug me and call me a faggot and tell me to get out of your house. 894 01:03:40,710 --> 01:03:43,890 There’s this voice in my head – I think it’s my Dad 895 01:03:45,890 --> 01:03:50,340 telling me to “man up” and stop thinking about this nonsense. 896 01:03:52,630 --> 01:03:53,690 Nonsense? 897 01:03:57,460 --> 01:03:58,460 My feelings. 898 01:03:59,770 --> 01:04:02,770 Hey. Your feelings aren’t nonsense. 899 01:04:06,120 --> 01:04:10,960 I miss her so much, and she’s not even gone yet! 900 01:04:12,380 --> 01:04:13,380 I know. 901 01:04:35,790 --> 01:04:37,810 I’m sorry. I can’t. 902 01:04:39,830 --> 01:04:40,830 I know. 903 01:05:19,170 --> 01:05:21,940 One of you the next of kin? 904 01:05:22,530 --> 01:05:24,110 We both are. 905 01:05:24,280 --> 01:05:25,590 We just need one signature. 906 01:05:35,140 --> 01:05:37,090 Sorry for your loss. 907 01:06:09,970 --> 01:06:12,140 I guess we should start calling people 908 01:06:23,820 --> 01:06:25,150 Not yet. 909 01:06:43,380 --> 01:06:44,670 What’s wrong? 910 01:06:47,380 --> 01:06:50,380 What’s wrong? Lily just died! 911 01:06:56,850 --> 01:06:58,350 Of course. I’m sorry. 912 01:07:03,970 --> 01:07:05,600 We should start calling people! 913 01:07:11,690 --> 01:07:15,570 Thanks. I will. Take care. 914 01:07:30,640 --> 01:07:32,680 I called everyone I could think of. 915 01:07:35,210 --> 01:07:37,080 My parents will be by in the morning. 916 01:07:41,340 --> 01:07:45,360 I told everyone no flowers, no fucking casseroles. Just... 917 01:07:47,640 --> 01:07:50,640 remember what a special person Lily was, 918 01:07:51,040 --> 01:07:56,700 and, if you like, make a donation to the cancer charity of your choice. 919 01:07:59,070 --> 01:08:00,670 I think you’re better at this than I am. 920 01:08:02,690 --> 01:08:03,900 Because it’s a contest? 921 01:08:13,200 --> 01:08:21,200 Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. It’s okay. It’s okay. It’s okay. 922 01:08:31,210 --> 01:08:32,870 Are you sure this is what you want? 923 01:08:34,610 --> 01:08:35,660 I’m not sure of anything. 924 01:09:49,650 --> 01:09:50,880 That tickles! 925 01:09:52,190 --> 01:09:53,720 Oh, that does not tickle! 926 01:10:10,910 --> 01:10:12,060 Wow. 927 01:10:15,130 --> 01:10:18,780 Not to cough up a cliche – 928 01:10:19,200 --> 01:10:23,470 but, um, was it good for you? 929 01:10:28,660 --> 01:10:32,280 I mean, it seemed like you were into it… 930 01:10:33,050 --> 01:10:34,950 Yeah. Yeah, I was into it. 931 01:10:36,970 --> 01:10:38,340 That’s what’s freaking me out. 932 01:10:41,130 --> 01:10:46,550 How could I feel so good – even just for a few minutes 933 01:10:48,440 --> 01:10:49,540 when Lily just died? 934 01:10:51,980 --> 01:10:53,640 It’s not like we forgot about Lily. 935 01:10:56,220 --> 01:10:57,290 At least I never did. 936 01:10:58,730 --> 01:11:00,050 Yeah, no, me neither. 937 01:11:02,940 --> 01:11:04,400 You don’t think that’s weird? 938 01:11:08,540 --> 01:11:11,540 If I worried about what was weird, I’d never get up in the morning. 939 01:11:19,530 --> 01:11:20,810 Speaking of getting up... 940 01:11:22,260 --> 01:11:25,450 I should probably go sleep in my room. Your parents are going to be here pretty early. 941 01:11:25,480 --> 01:11:26,770 Okay. 942 01:11:27,660 --> 01:11:30,350 Um, the dining room. 943 01:11:32,780 --> 01:11:34,010 Right. 944 01:11:40,320 --> 01:11:44,360 So you’re, um, you’re okay... with... this? 945 01:11:48,660 --> 01:11:51,650 I can’t... process it right now. 946 01:12:07,330 --> 01:12:09,740 Can we help with the arrangements? 947 01:12:11,360 --> 01:12:12,640 There are no “arrangements.” 948 01:12:14,440 --> 01:12:16,100 Lily didn’t want a funeral. 949 01:12:16,350 --> 01:12:18,290 But we have to have a funeral! 950 01:12:19,580 --> 01:12:21,300 People need to say goodbye. 951 01:12:23,020 --> 01:12:24,020 But what people? 952 01:12:25,950 --> 01:12:28,950 Everyone Lily really cared about is in this room. 953 01:12:29,810 --> 01:12:32,610 And she already got a chance to say goodbye to all of us. 954 01:12:33,940 --> 01:12:40,810 Well, lots of people loved Lily. And they’re expecting a funeral. They want to see her one last time. 955 01:12:41,470 --> 01:12:42,780 No. 956 01:12:44,320 --> 01:12:45,320 Pardon me? 957 01:12:45,990 --> 01:12:47,270 I’m sorry, but no. 958 01:12:50,180 --> 01:12:53,180 Lily gave me very explicit instructions 959 01:12:55,780 --> 01:13:01,850 to do whatever I needed to do to make the most painful transition of my life a little less horrible. 960 01:13:05,100 --> 01:13:08,100 So we won’t be filing past her waxen corpse. 961 01:13:09,230 --> 01:13:11,430 We're not going to listen to a pastor who never met her 962 01:13:11,550 --> 01:13:14,550 talk about some reward in heaven she didn’t believe in. 963 01:13:15,820 --> 01:13:19,810 Lily hated the way Americans do death, and so do I. 964 01:13:20,020 --> 01:13:22,100 So we're just not doing it that way. 965 01:13:28,910 --> 01:13:30,390 Well, that’s very selfish! 966 01:13:30,970 --> 01:13:32,020 Yes. 967 01:13:35,230 --> 01:13:37,530 But it’s what Lily wanted. 968 01:13:37,970 --> 01:13:42,410 Wow. Is this it, then? 969 01:13:43,440 --> 01:13:44,440 Yes. 970 01:13:44,900 --> 01:13:47,190 So, this is our ceremony? 971 01:13:48,880 --> 01:13:52,550 This is your time to do whatever you need to do. 972 01:13:53,260 --> 01:13:54,740 Great. Let’s pray. 973 01:13:57,450 --> 01:14:00,450 You go ahead. I won’t be joining you. 974 01:14:03,210 --> 01:14:04,420 Yeah, me neither. 975 01:14:04,440 --> 01:14:05,700 Caden! 976 01:14:05,720 --> 01:14:08,720 Mom, don’t act so shocked. 977 01:14:10,550 --> 01:14:13,550 You’ve known Lily and I were atheists since we were fourteen. 978 01:14:15,450 --> 01:14:19,200 You always said religion was a comfort in difficult times. 979 01:14:20,910 --> 01:14:22,720 I’m not comforted. 980 01:14:46,060 --> 01:14:48,220 Caden! Your parents are just in the other room. 981 01:14:48,250 --> 01:14:49,340 So what? 982 01:14:51,350 --> 01:14:53,220 Beau, I care about you. 983 01:14:53,240 --> 01:14:57,360 Aside from everything else, you’re my best friend and my sister’s husband. Why wouldn’t I try to comfort you? 984 01:14:57,390 --> 01:14:58,860 Straight guys... 985 01:14:59,690 --> 01:15:02,690 Brothers-in-law... do not touch each other the way you touched me. 986 01:15:04,540 --> 01:15:05,820 Who the fuck made up that rule? 987 01:15:05,980 --> 01:15:08,860 I don’t know. But I saw the way they looked at us when you took my hand. 988 01:15:09,580 --> 01:15:10,970 They’ve been through enough today. 989 01:15:11,200 --> 01:15:13,290 They don’t need to walk in here and find us canoodling. 990 01:15:13,310 --> 01:15:15,590 Canoodling? What the fuck, are we suddenly on TMZ? 991 01:15:15,800 --> 01:15:17,120 I’m just trying to be respectful. 992 01:15:17,690 --> 01:15:20,870 Well, I’m just trying to live my life with honesty and with integrity. 993 01:15:21,100 --> 01:15:25,100 Yeah, well, it feels like you’re trying to rub their faces in... whatever the hell it is we’re doing. 994 01:15:25,850 --> 01:15:27,050 I’m not. 995 01:15:27,490 --> 01:15:34,640 Look, I never planned to be in a relationship with a guy. But one thing I know I’m not going to be is some self-hating closet-case. 996 01:15:35,400 --> 01:15:39,800 Back when the Orlando massacre happened, you were right there posting “love is love” on Facebook and Twitter. 997 01:15:41,310 --> 01:15:42,380 Was that just bullshit? 998 01:15:42,890 --> 01:15:46,890 No. It’s what I truly believe. It’s just... 999 01:15:49,240 --> 01:15:50,350 Just what? 1000 01:15:51,230 --> 01:15:52,430 Are you ashamed of what we did? 1001 01:15:52,450 --> 01:15:54,170 Not ashamed. Scared. 1002 01:15:55,220 --> 01:15:56,450 - Of what? 1003 01:15:56,480 --> 01:15:58,120 - Of being hated. Of disappointing everyone. 1004 01:15:58,140 --> 01:16:02,180 I’ve always been the guy everyone likes! Now I’m going to be the guy who’s fucking his brother-in-law! 1005 01:16:04,270 --> 01:16:06,500 I just came in for a glass of water. 1006 01:16:08,000 --> 01:16:09,170 I’ll get it for you, Mom. 1007 01:16:11,440 --> 01:16:12,440 Mom, 1008 01:16:13,410 --> 01:16:16,060 this wasn’t how I was going to tell you… 1009 01:16:16,350 --> 01:16:18,120 I didn’t hear anything. 1010 01:16:27,900 --> 01:16:31,000 The parents are asleep. Or went to bed, in any case. 1011 01:16:33,030 --> 01:16:34,050 Good. 1012 01:16:39,200 --> 01:16:40,450 Do you want me to move out? 1013 01:16:41,750 --> 01:16:45,790 Now that Lily’s gone, I don’t – I don’t need to be here. 1014 01:16:47,950 --> 01:16:49,570 Whatever makes you happy. 1015 01:16:50,940 --> 01:16:51,970 I want you to be happy. 1016 01:16:53,880 --> 01:16:57,660 Under the circumstances, happy is not an option. 1017 01:17:00,820 --> 01:17:05,750 Yeah. Granted. But…what do you want? 1018 01:17:07,150 --> 01:17:08,440 I don’t know. 1019 01:17:14,490 --> 01:17:15,750 Beau– 1020 01:17:19,960 --> 01:17:23,620 You know what? Fuck you! 1021 01:17:34,840 --> 01:17:36,300 Take care of yourself, son. 1022 01:17:41,600 --> 01:17:42,700 - Call your mom. 1023 01:17:42,720 --> 01:17:43,940 - I will. 1024 01:17:45,820 --> 01:17:47,000 Be good, Dad. 1025 01:17:48,130 --> 01:17:49,480 Bye, Mom. 1026 01:17:50,620 --> 01:17:51,620 - I love you. 1027 01:17:51,870 --> 01:17:52,870 - I love you too. 1028 01:18:02,570 --> 01:18:07,760 Hey, Mom. Whatever you heard or didn’t hear... 1029 01:18:09,230 --> 01:18:10,950 I love you, Caden. 1030 01:18:12,430 --> 01:18:13,980 Just be happy. 1031 01:18:16,010 --> 01:18:17,180 I’m trying, Mom. 1032 01:18:18,960 --> 01:18:21,570 I don’t know how I raised two such odd children. 1033 01:18:23,660 --> 01:18:26,660 Your father and I are such paragons of normality. 1034 01:18:43,330 --> 01:18:45,590 It won’t take me too long to pack a few of my things. 1035 01:20:45,860 --> 01:20:46,950 Sorry! 1036 01:20:48,640 --> 01:20:51,640 I wanted to let you sleep, but I’ve got to get to work. 1037 01:20:55,180 --> 01:20:56,980 I should really get up. 1038 01:21:04,940 --> 01:21:06,840 I should start looking for a place. 1039 01:21:07,650 --> 01:21:11,460 No rush. You can stay on my couch as long as you need. 1040 01:21:13,330 --> 01:21:14,450 Thanks! 1041 01:21:14,800 --> 01:21:20,010 I really appreciate it. But this couch is a bit too narrow to be comfortable. 1042 01:21:21,330 --> 01:21:23,460 Plus, I don’t want to cramp your style. 1043 01:21:24,470 --> 01:21:29,660 Then come sleep in my room. It’ll solve both problems. 1044 01:21:32,880 --> 01:21:35,060 - Weren’t you the one who broke up with me? 1045 01:21:35,080 --> 01:21:38,080 - Yes. And I don’t want you back. 1046 01:21:40,140 --> 01:21:42,570 You were a pain in the ass as a boyfriend. 1047 01:21:43,570 --> 01:21:48,670 But that doesn’t mean that we can’t... play. 1048 01:21:51,850 --> 01:21:53,760 It’s tempting, but... 1049 01:21:54,010 --> 01:21:55,290 I’m kidding. 1050 01:21:57,400 --> 01:21:59,560 I know that you’re in love with someone else. 1051 01:22:01,670 --> 01:22:03,160 What are you talking about? 1052 01:22:03,790 --> 01:22:11,790 Come on! You’ve got a whole ‘nother vibe going on, on top of the mourning-the-death-of-my-sister thing. 1053 01:22:14,990 --> 01:22:17,060 Really? It’s that obvious? 1054 01:22:17,580 --> 01:22:19,040 Don’t tell me that you didn’t know? 1055 01:22:21,160 --> 01:22:23,780 I mean, I knew I had feelings. But… 1056 01:22:27,190 --> 01:22:28,490 love is a big word. 1057 01:22:30,200 --> 01:22:33,200 And one you never used with me, by the way... 1058 01:22:35,510 --> 01:22:37,380 God, you dodged a bullet. 1059 01:22:39,010 --> 01:22:42,010 I haven’t exactly made success of my life. 1060 01:22:43,660 --> 01:22:46,660 I mean, I’m basically homeless, not to mention depressed. 1061 01:22:48,610 --> 01:22:51,610 Overall, a real joy to be around... 1062 01:22:51,840 --> 01:22:54,840 Actually, it makes for a nice change. 1063 01:22:56,640 --> 01:23:04,170 You know, working at the “Happiest Amusement Park on Earth,” everyone’s so Goddamned cheerful it makes me want to scream. 1064 01:23:14,950 --> 01:23:16,190 Stay out of trouble. 1065 01:24:30,750 --> 01:24:32,650 I need to get the rest of my things. 1066 01:24:35,320 --> 01:24:36,670 Yeah, of course. 1067 01:25:20,000 --> 01:25:21,310 Are you okay? 1068 01:25:22,220 --> 01:25:24,460 You don’t…look great. 1069 01:25:25,700 --> 01:25:26,820 I’m not. 1070 01:25:30,430 --> 01:25:35,110 I should have been ready for this. We had weeks we knew this was coming. 1071 01:25:35,900 --> 01:25:38,640 I mean months really, but... 1072 01:25:39,020 --> 01:25:40,400 I wasn’t. 1073 01:25:42,790 --> 01:25:43,810 I'm not. 1074 01:25:49,480 --> 01:25:50,670 How about you? 1075 01:25:51,780 --> 01:25:53,050 How are you doing? 1076 01:25:54,250 --> 01:25:55,470 I miss Lily. 1077 01:25:56,730 --> 01:25:58,080 A lot. 1078 01:26:00,390 --> 01:26:02,320 And I miss you. 1079 01:26:03,070 --> 01:26:04,130 Yeah. Me, too. 1080 01:26:06,330 --> 01:26:11,440 Look if you don’t feel the same way about me as I do about you, that’s… 1081 01:26:12,650 --> 01:26:13,650 that’s fine 1082 01:26:14,490 --> 01:26:15,980 I can deal with that. 1083 01:26:18,550 --> 01:26:20,390 But I really don’t want to lose you, too. 1084 01:26:22,730 --> 01:26:25,730 Can we at least go back to being friends? 1085 01:26:29,590 --> 01:26:31,330 I don’t know what I want. 1086 01:26:37,160 --> 01:26:38,400 But... don’t go. 1087 01:26:40,390 --> 01:26:42,140 Just... 1088 01:26:42,620 --> 01:26:45,620 please... don’t go. 1089 01:26:47,720 --> 01:26:49,040 I’m not going anywhere. 1090 01:27:11,220 --> 01:27:12,810 I know it’s early, but, um, 1091 01:27:14,030 --> 01:27:15,270 I’m beat. 1092 01:27:17,530 --> 01:27:18,970 I think I’m going to go to bed. 1093 01:27:21,910 --> 01:27:23,510 Oh. Well, okay. 1094 01:27:24,260 --> 01:27:25,370 Where? 1095 01:27:26,300 --> 01:27:27,300 Where what? 1096 01:27:27,990 --> 01:27:29,340 Where should I be going to bed? 1097 01:27:30,370 --> 01:27:31,520 My room? 1098 01:27:32,770 --> 01:27:33,770 Yours? 1099 01:27:34,170 --> 01:27:35,390 Oh. Right. 1100 01:27:41,390 --> 01:27:42,670 I guess I’ll just be in my room. 1101 01:27:42,970 --> 01:27:43,640 - No. 1102 01:27:43,700 --> 01:27:44,700 - No? 1103 01:27:45,480 --> 01:27:46,610 Let’s try it. 1104 01:27:48,200 --> 01:27:50,400 No sex – just sleeping. 1105 01:27:57,470 --> 01:27:58,470 Okay. 1106 01:28:23,130 --> 01:28:24,280 I’m in here! 1107 01:28:28,330 --> 01:28:29,890 What’s that? 1108 01:28:34,300 --> 01:28:35,300 Lily. 1109 01:29:06,990 --> 01:29:07,990 Oh, sorry. 1110 01:29:41,820 --> 01:29:43,940 Do you think she's looking down on us from somewhere? 1111 01:29:44,310 --> 01:29:45,580 Or up, maybe. 1112 01:29:47,190 --> 01:29:48,750 Oh come on... 1113 01:29:48,910 --> 01:29:51,910 She was an atheist. If she was wrong, then I don’t know... 1114 01:29:52,170 --> 01:29:53,700 Do you think she was wrong? 1115 01:29:54,690 --> 01:29:55,690 No. 1116 01:29:57,670 --> 01:29:59,460 Sometimes I want... 1117 01:29:59,680 --> 01:30:01,090 to believe. 1118 01:30:02,620 --> 01:30:06,020 It would be great to think that somehow, in some way, we could all be together again. 1119 01:30:09,120 --> 01:30:11,680 But she didn't believe it and neither do I. 1120 01:30:14,220 --> 01:30:15,740 I think she's really gone. 1121 01:30:18,110 --> 01:30:20,330 All we have of her is what we remember. 1122 01:30:21,130 --> 01:30:22,130 And… 1123 01:30:22,510 --> 01:30:23,840 each other. 1124 01:30:26,040 --> 01:30:27,980 It thought the world would end when Lily died. 1125 01:30:29,490 --> 01:30:30,490 Yeah. 1126 01:30:31,340 --> 01:30:34,120 I thought it might end when your mother walked in the kitchen. 1127 01:30:34,310 --> 01:30:36,600 In fact, I kind of wanted her to. 1128 01:30:37,770 --> 01:30:38,970 But it didn’t. 1129 01:30:41,610 --> 01:30:48,700 I don’t know the first thing about being gay. I mean, do we have to stop watching sports? Start going to musical theater? 1130 01:30:48,720 --> 01:30:50,210 Oh yeah, I think so. 1131 01:30:50,810 --> 01:30:53,840 It’s in the by laws. You know, the “bi-laws?” 1132 01:30:54,020 --> 01:30:55,100 - I’m being silly, aren’t I? 1133 01:30:55,120 --> 01:30:56,440 - Yeah, and borderline offensive. 1134 01:30:57,300 --> 01:31:00,950 You’re right. Of course. We are still who we are. Now we’re just us... 1135 01:31:02,740 --> 01:31:05,180 in a romantic relationship. 1136 01:31:05,610 --> 01:31:07,200 How does that work? 1137 01:31:08,120 --> 01:31:09,010 You got me. 1138 01:31:09,050 --> 01:31:11,910 I never managed to figure out straight relationships. 1139 01:31:15,120 --> 01:31:17,310 All I know is... 1140 01:31:17,690 --> 01:31:19,110 I love you. 1141 01:31:25,010 --> 01:31:26,250 I love you, too. 1142 01:31:29,530 --> 01:31:30,830 Then we need to... 1143 01:31:31,700 --> 01:31:33,620 try to figure this out. 1144 01:31:35,290 --> 01:31:37,540 We’re going to get a lot of shit for this. 1145 01:31:37,970 --> 01:31:39,470 Like, a lot! 1146 01:31:40,920 --> 01:31:41,950 I don’t care. 1147 01:31:43,120 --> 01:31:44,500 Yeah, well, I do! 1148 01:31:45,030 --> 01:31:46,280 I wish I didn’t... but I do. 1149 01:31:46,470 --> 01:31:47,550 So then what are you saying? 1150 01:31:47,570 --> 01:31:48,570 I’m saying... 1151 01:31:49,770 --> 01:31:51,010 yes. 1152 01:31:52,330 --> 01:31:55,330 The universe has given me the weirdest possible chance for happiness... 1153 01:31:56,810 --> 01:31:59,410 And I’m saying yes. 1154 01:32:01,320 --> 01:32:07,000 But you’ve got to be patient with me. I am not like you and Lily. I can’t just say “fuck you” to the world. 1155 01:32:07,520 --> 01:32:08,520 So... 1156 01:32:09,730 --> 01:32:10,890 we’re really doing this then? 1157 01:32:13,900 --> 01:32:15,320 We’re really doing it. 1158 01:32:30,690 --> 01:32:33,070 The world didn’t end. 1159 01:32:33,780 --> 01:32:34,780 No. 1160 01:32:35,580 --> 01:32:36,950 Not even a tremor. 85026