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(soft music)

- [Woman] Hola, how you been?

- [Cassandro] I'm okay, and you?

- [Woman] Working, working, working.

Uh, where's Cassandro?

So sorry, Cassandro.

(indistinct talking)

(speaking in foreign language)

(laughs)

Technology.

- A lot of people see me as an exotico leader,

as an exotico goddess, that's why I'm called

the Liberace of Lucha Libre and the exotico queen.

And all this stuff, but I've been through a lot.

I've been stabbed.

I've been beat up.

I've been hurt, a lot of doors shut in my face

because of my sexual preferences,

because I've been an exotico,

because I was labeled like gay, exotico.

But people didn't give me the chance to see my work

inside the ring because, once they saw me inside the ring,

they were like, wow.

This guy doesn't even look like an exotico,

just because of his presence,

but he has more talent and he's such a great wrestler

than anybody else.

And that's when I was like, ah, see.

Now, you can see, but give me a chance to prove

why I'm inside the ring.

It's not only because I'm exotico

and I love to kiss my opponents or whatever.

No, I'm in the ring because I like to show my talent,

my skills.

I'm a very talented (speaking in foreign language)

and that speaks in itself.

Right now, I have three Championship belts in my waist

and I was the first exotico to be a world champion

back in 1991.

(bright music)

(bell ringing) (crowd cheering)

- [Crowd] Cassandro!

Cassandro!

Cassandro!

(crowd cheering)

Cassandro!

Cassandro!

(bell ringing)

(crowd cheering)

(crowd gasping)

(crowd cheering)

(singing in foreign language)

- Not a good idea drinking Diet Coke in the morning,

but I didn't do a coffee.

I was rushing.

(laughing)

Somebody's in a good mood this morning.

- [Woman] I am too.

- I know.

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Woman] Ah, okay.

Uh-huh.

(singing in foreign language)

- I don't know how to sing very lovely,

but I do it from the heart.

This is where all my doctors are.

- Yeah. - Over there.

And this is the hospital where I'm gonna get

all my surgeries.

- [Woman] Okay.

- I already did three there, so...

- They know you. - The next ones that

are coming up will be there too.

(singing in foreign language)

That's New Mexico, this is Texas.

That's Juarez, Mexico.

You see, two countries

and three states. - Three states.

(horn honking)

- [Cassandro] All this was prostitution, bars.

Nothing exists no more, everything was thrown down.

I used to go in this neighborhood that doesn't exist no more

and get high right here.

All this.

They threw everything down.

This is the gym where I started wrestling,

where I became a wrestler.

(dog barking) (flute screeching)

Wrestling is very important in Mexico,

it's part of a, it's like a religion in Mexico.

It's a family thing, so in Juarez,

after every Sunday, there were shows

every Sundays and Thursdays.

So, after we go to Mass, we went to Lucha Libre.

My first view of Lucha Libre was in television

in the black and white movies with

(speaking in foreign language)

And then, as time passed, I started going

to the Lucha Libre shows and it was just amazing.

It's like a free therapy session.

You forget all the stuff that happened to you at home

or in school and all the problems

and it's a screaming game like you tore out this language

and you took all your stress and frustrations

out on the wrestlers.

So, I loved it.

And then, of course, me being gay, I loved the men.

I was so intrigued with them with their

(speaking in foreign language)

and their masks.

(horns honking)

I was like, ooh la-la.

So, I went there and it was like, oh, nice.

Oh my god, but they kicked my ass so bad.

Oh, they beat me up so bad.

I had fever and I had body aches

and there was still a lot of homophobic going on and stuff,

but I didn't care.

It was the best thing that could have ever happened to me.

It was one of my best medications, Lucha Libre.

(horn honking)

(energetic music)

(crowd applauding) (crowd cheering)

(speaking in foreign language)

My hands.

Cut it here.

Those are all the scars of my 27 years

of bottle hits, bites, corner hits.

Left tibia fracture.

I had to have a plate with eight pins.

And now I'm gonna go and do ACL, PCL

and meniscus change.

Eight stitches in here.

Here.

So, that needs another surgery.

My new teeth.

I bought my teeth three times.

Five times, the rotator cuff has moved.

So, I have a torn ligament underneath my armpit.

I have a pop out.

I don't know, I have burns in my back somewhere there.

And I have a lot of nerve damage from my neck

to my arms to my waist.

And then I have a cut.

(crowd chanting)

(bell ringing)

(crowd cheering)

- [Crowd] Cassandro!

Cassandro!

Cassandro!

Cassandro!

Cassandro!

- And I been a world champion of UWA in 1991.

(train horn blaring)

(singing in foreign language)

It's hard to start my morning because I'm in a lot of pain.

- [Woman] I'm sure, yeah.

- Right now, I don't want to cry, I'm hurting so bad.

Let's see who's cute and who's not.

Who's gonna be the father of my baby?

(laughing)

- [Woman] You always have your bear?

- This bear has been with me

since 2000.

- [Woman] Okay.

- When I started professional help

with my therapist.

Because I was going through bad stuff.

Then when I got cleaned up,

when I left the drugs and the alcohol and everything,

I had the worst time.

I was not using, but all this stuff started coming up

and started coming up and started feeling.

And then I remember all the abuse as a kid and everything.

It was just like, oh my God.

So, I went to therapy for 10 years.

- [Woman] 10 years, hm.

- My therapist left a year and a half ago from here.

I miss her a lot.

She moved to Denver.

But I was only with her.

And every time I went to her room

and we started talking and stuff,

and then at the end of the session more or less,

She would give me the teddy bear.

And I just remember I would hug this teddy bear

and I would cry and cry and cry.

So, this was my therapy for many years.

And then when she left, she gave it to me.

(speaking in foreign language)

These are my recovery key tags.

This is when I first got cleaned up.

When I stop using drugs and alcohol.

This was June 4th 2003.

This was when I had 30 days.

60 days.

90 days.

Six months.

Nine months.

One year.

18 months.

Two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine,

10, 11 years.

June 4th.

I celebrate it.

- [Woman] That's fantastic.

- And these are the original ones.

So, I always keep 'em like right in my bed

where I can see them.

And it's says NA, Narcotics Anonymous,

because I do Narcotics Anonymous.

It's a 12-step program.

And it just says clean and serene.

So, these have a lot of pain and suffering

and everything else.

So, I work very hard for my key tags.

Yeah.

This is what saves my life.

This is what saves me from me.

(singing in foreign language)

(birds chirping)

Mothers give you that unconditional love,

regardless of what you are and where you are.

Mom passed away very young at 49 from two heart attacks.

I went into the refrigerator where she was laying dead.

I just uncovered her and I did her make-up.

I did her hair.

I put all the Estee Lauder she used to love

in her casket.

But I was using, but she never saw me clean.

She always saw me as a using drug addict.

So, that was very painful and it still is.

At times, the shame and the guilt comes,

but today I know that she sees me from wherever she is

and she's very proud of me.

She continues to be one of those forces that

push me to do better.

(bright music)

(singing in foreign language)

(crowd cheering)

My teacher always tell me,

I don't know when the hell you're gonna learn.

That you're already done.

You are already Cassandro.

People just love you for what you are.

Why do you continue to do all this crazy shit

to prove to somebody?

Why do you compete with the new cry babies

that are coming up?

And my teacher has a point 'cause Lucha Libre

is not a business no more for you.

You're the doctor's business now.

I'm like, yeah, that's true.

I've thought about retiring, but not now.

It's not my time.

My body tells me it's time, but my ego tells me

I can still go.

Fabric is like $35 a yard.

And I use 12 yards for a jacket and a gown.

- [Woman] How did you come with this idea

of this train which is really only you?

- This is Deeana's wedding dress.

Uh-huh.

I loved it.

And I just think it's so sophisticated

and it's so glamorous and so elegant and it's so me.

It goes with my personality and I like to dress well

and I did it, so.

This was made for Valentine's Day.

This has the longest train and I already cut it twice.

It's like 10 or 12 feet, I can't even remember.

So, I did this for my London tour in honor of Lady D.

She's one of my role models.

I love her, I love her.

(chattering)

(clapping)

I had to get two crowns from my dislocation of chin

and I've been hospitalized eight times

due to head concussions.

- [Woman] No.

Okay.

(laughs)

Happy you can laugh at it.

- I know.

- [Woman] So, four surgeries, eight head concussions,

twice the teeth plus the crowns, and anything else?

- Erm.

Um.

Now, what I'm struggling lately is with my hands,

that if I carry my phone on me, if I type or text,

it hurts.

I can't fold my thumb no more like this.

- [Woman] Okay.

- My thumb just goes this way.

- I can see. - It hurts a lot.

- [Woman] And does it mean because you cannot take any drug

or alcohol or stuff like that,

does it mean that your surgeries have to be done

in a different way?

- No.

No, they're done normally.

- [Woman] But you cannot take morphine or things like this

after for the pain.

- No, I don't take, I only take whatever they give me

in the hospital. - Okay.

- But when I'm released home, I come with Ibuprofen.

- Not very strong. - Or Tylenol or whatever

they give now.

But I don't do like the hard narcotic painkillers.

- Okay. - I don't take those.

That's why I'm always like, you know, in a lot of silence

and prayer when I'm at home 'cause it's really,

it hurts.

(screeching)

I'm a (mumbles)

(laughs)

I'm a cow girl.

These boots were made for walking.

This is where I started school in first grade.

And this was my (speaking in foreign language)

This is where also my molestation

and sexual abuse started in this house right here.

We used to live in that house right there

when I was six or seven.

And my elementary school was just right there.

Used to walk a lot.

Welcome to El Paso.

(people chattering)

It's beautiful, huh?

(fireworks popping)

(energetic music)

My father was just a provider.

He didn't know how to be a father.

He would just provide for us.

He's a Mexicano machista and I was his first son

and I'm gay.

And, for many years, we were not even close or nothing.

And now, from five years to now,

it's been the most amazing relationship a kid can ask for

because I was a fatherless kid for many years.

And today, the guy that I love the most is my father

(speaking in foreign language)

My father has been with me throughout all my injuries,

my surgeries and he's carrying me like a baby

and he's coming, he feeds me when I'm in bed,

when I couldn't get up.

And he finally tells me like I'm very proud of you.

I have so much respect for you.

I love you.

(energetic music)

♪ Little Lydia says my name ♪

♪ Jukebox baby playing a strange game ♪

♪ Not looking for fame ♪

♪ Jukebox baby, jukebox baby ♪

♪ Uh-huh, huh, huh, huh ♪

♪ Come to where I stay ♪

♪ Oh, jukebox baby ♪

♪ Oh, hotshot gambler looking for game ♪

♪ Jukebox baby, jukebox baby ♪

♪ Uh-huh ♪

♪ Uh-huh, huh, huh ♪

♪ Uh-huh, huh, huh, huh, huh ♪

(speaking in foreign language)

- Oh no, we're not in Japan.

Number one game.

When we were speaking in Japanese back there,

I'm like, wait a minute, we're in Europe,

we're not in Japan.

(bell tolling) Normally, all the wrestlers

we speak Spanish, English and Japanese.

We go to Japan a lot, very big in Japan.

(laughing)

(religious singing)

(speaking in foreign language)

(glass shattering)

(energetic music)

(yelling)

(crowd cheering)

See why I smell so good?

I don't care how much Versace costs.

(indistinct talking on television)

- [Announcer] Entrepreneurs must face the music.

Music and special treats come from the Royal Albert Hall

and whether it's royal guests, celebrities.

(cheering)

- [Cassandro] The blessing is

that I am not a victim no more.

I am victorious of everything that I've come through

because that made me stronger

and made me stand in the middle of the street.

(applause)

But I love my job as you can see right now.

I love my job because I'm a bad ass.

(laughing)

(applause)

There's been exoticos or gay people

since 1940s in wrestling,

but they were like the clowns of the circus.

They were to make people laugh.

And what I've done in over 26 years

is dignify, with respect and talent,

that we, sexually-diverse people,

can really kick some ass in the ring.

(applause)

- [Announcer] Cassandro, he is

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Cassandro] The make-up, the pantyhose,

the feathers, the boas,

it just turned to everything, 26 years later,

I can tell you it's been amazing

'cause now we have transgender

and there's a lot of bisexuals and stuff like that.

And then we have midgets, we have women.

We have the big diversity in Lucha Libre.

(speaking in foreign language)

(energetic music)

♪ Do you think I'd crumble ♪

♪ Did you think I'd lay down and die ♪

♪ Oh no, not I ♪

♪ I will survive ♪

(crowd chattering)

(crowd cheering)

- I need to get ready.

What am I gonna wear, what am I gonna wear?

I am have my train,

but what am I gonna wear?

Right now, I have to take my medication, ointments, spray.

Everything for La Lucha.

(singing in foreign language)

(cheering)

(people chattering)

- Front roll, stand up, back roll, stand up.

You're gonna do a front roll then a back roll.

Front roll, stand up, back roll, stand up.

We do a right and when we come back,

we're gonna do left.

Roll, right and left.

Right and left.

Yeah, that's it.

Next two.

(clapping)

First, do a suicide. - Okay.

- [Group] Oh!

- That's okay.

You next.

- [Man] You okay, mate?

- One more, one more, one more, one more,

Just a little bit more.

Nice! (cheering)

You guys, you guys, you guys, this is the thing.

This is the thing, you guys think,

I come and help you, yes.

But you guys help me a lot 'cause I need to stay young

and free and, yeah, you guys learn a lot from me,

but I learn a lot from you guys.

The thing is, keep doing it.

Don't beat up on yourself.

It takes time, it's not easy.

It's painful.

You guys know I just had a surgery 10 weeks ago

and I'm already fucking wrestling

and that's only because guys like you back home

that want to train, push me to do it,

that don't make me stay crying in my bed.

I get depressed, but I got to do it.

If not, I wouldn't be here.

Yeah, I'm a bitch, sorry.

(laughing)

But I love you and I hope you come back tomorrow.

Thank you.

Thank you to Diba.

(clapping)

♪ I got all my life to live ♪

♪ I got all my love to give ♪

♪ I'll survive ♪

♪ I will survive ♪

- [Announcer] Ladies and gentlemen.

(indistinct talking on microphone)

And thank you so much Cassandro

for being our Lucha Libre guide

and our spiritual mamacita.

(cheering)

♪ To convince her that loving me was not a mistake ♪

♪ She said she knew I'm happy to know ♪

♪ That I have excited you so ♪

♪ But romance with you would be so very wrong ♪

♪ Go back to Texas ♪

♪ And leave my Rosita here ♪

♪ Where she belongs ♪

♪ Rosita, lovely senorita ♪

♪ Rosita, you're sweeter than a rose ♪

♪ Will you be me esposa ♪

(people chattering)

- [Woman] As we say in French,

(speaking in foreign language)

it means break your leg.

- No say break a leg to Lucha Libre.

- No? - Say good luck.

♪ I learned how to live a lie ♪

♪ I just walked in to find you here ♪

♪ With that sad look upon your face ♪

♪ I should have changed that stupid lock ♪

(cheering)

♪ Go on now, go ♪

♪ Walk out the door ♪

♪ Just turn around now ♪

♪ 'Cause you're not welcome anymore ♪

- [Crowd] Cassandro!

Cassandro!

(cheering)

Cassandro!

Cassandro!

Cassandro!

Cassandro!

Cassandro!

Cassandro!

Cassandro!

Cassandro!

- [Woman] Were you able to wrestle or?

- Yeah, I was able to wrestle.

I got very tired and then I got out of breath

and then, at the end, I just couldn't go no more

and I could just hear (speaking in foreign language)

saying get up, get up.

(speaking in foreign language)

And all I said to the guys was like take me

in the dressing room.

I can't walk no more.

And then I finally had a breakdown in the dressing room.

Bobby came in, hugged me and I lost it.

I said, it's time to go, it's time to go.

I don't want to go, but it's time to go.

These are the signs that God is sending to me.

I have to go.

- [Woman] Oh Cassandro.

I wish I could give you a kiss.

It's a really bad period, but you've gone through

many worse one and you gonna get strong

and you're gonna be okay again.

It's just a bad moment.

And you're just really tired so it makes your emotion

goes down completely.

It's always that way, when you're tired you cry.

- Yeah.

I'll be fine.

Whatever the outcome is I'm gonna be okay.

That's what I, I've been through so much stuff.

- [Woman] Yeah, you have.

- I'm still here and I'm still alive

and this is just another bump in the road.

(screeching)

I have lost my hair three times in 29 years.

And that's the last one.

No more.

No more hair masks.

- [Woman] Can you explain what is a hair mask, Cassandro?

- A hair mask, well, me that I don't use a mask?

- Yeah. - The most valuable thing

is my hair, and this gives me identity,

gives me protection, gives me a lot of personality

and everything, and the guys that use the mask,

that's like their secret.

They cannot lose their mask because then you see

their real identity.

I mean, there's people that lose it

and then their life falls apart, their career goes south.

And there's people that enjoy it.

And when I wrestle with Peluchule Maldad,

he is one of the young guys from El Paso

(speaking in foreign language)

and the best guy that I could have wrestled.

So, that's what I say, it's more of an honor

for you to have my hair than for me to have

a fucking mask on.

But he killed me.

I mean, he took advantage that I'm really hurt

'cause he knew where to hit me.

And I knew it, I knew it because we have fought

one year to get to this.

And we've bleeded and he open my mouth

and then he hit me with the chairs on the back

and my back was all cut and I could barely move

and then I left my hand in his mask like on his cheeks

and it was horrible.

I'm so glad it's done.

I mean, yes, I care about my hair,

but it'll grow back.

My blonde hair.

My god, I look like a butch, like a lesbian.

Oh!

That's why I said please take me to get my eyebrows done

'cause I was looking too much like a man.

Uh!

(speaking in foreign language)

As much as I love men, I can't be around men.

(speaking in foreign language)

(singing in foreign language)

I don't know how I'm doing this.

I just like to hear the hairdryer.

I haven't heard it in a long time.

Look at all my white hair.

Oh!

See, this is where my... - I saw.

- I get it like this.

Then it has to go back to my room

so I have to push it like that.

Right now, I'm on my way.

It's a lot of clothes.

(mumbles)

Come on, baby.

Come on, baby.

Let's do this.

Woop.

Woop.

Woop.

(chanting)

(dog barking) (birds chirping)

(singing in foreign language)

(speaking in foreign language)

(wings flapping)

(chimes jingling)

(wind roaring)

(train horn blaring)

(drum beating)

(horn bellowing)

(chanting)

- [Crowd] Cassandro!

Cassandro!

(singing in foreign language)

(buzzing)

(dog barking)

- Take the camera off my face please.

I have regret I have smoke.

It's been years since I had a smoke.

- [Woman] Did you go to a meeting?

- [Cassandro] I'm going tonight.

- [Woman] Tonight?

- [Cassandro] With Liz.

(Cassandro coughing)

- [Woman] Does Liz know?

- [Cassandro] Nobody knows.

Have you seen me drunk?

Have you seen me drink?

- [Woman] I've seen nothing.

- I fucking give up.

(soft music)

For me, I want to get buried.

I want to be buried here in El Paso.

(bell ringing)

A lot of (speaking in foreign language)

they end up dead or killing their wives or kids or whatever

because for us, (speaking in foreign language)

physical pain and emotional pain is too much.

(wind roaring)

You learn along the way from everybody.

But the first one was my mom.

- [Woman] Yeah?

- 'Cause every day at 6:00 p.m.

she would get her stuff out

and she would just do her make-up

and she was like.

- [Woman] You learned?

- Yeah, a little bit.

No!

Mm.

- [Man] Do you want help?

- [Cassandro] No.

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Man] You want me to carry that?

- [Cassandro] No, it's okay.

(wind roaring)

(howling)

(crowd applauding)

(energetic music)

(dramatic music)