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- Everyone has a story.

I'm Heather, and this is mine.

- The lot is

pretty much where the truckers kinda tend to hang out,

you know, it's a place where they can stop over,

and they sleep when they're on their long-night ride

and all that.

- Hey lady.

I saw you earlier today.

You still working commercial companies?

- I'm walkin'.

- Walkin'?

Woah, woah, woah, come here, come here, come here.

Look, look, look, look.

Wanna party?

Come on in.

Atta girl, that's my girl.

That's my girl.

Think I'm some kinda faggot or somethin', huh?

You're gonna fuck me, God dammit.

That's what I'm

just fuckin' that asshole, huh?

That's it.

Fuckin' that asshole.

That's what you like.

That's what I like, isn't it?

I'm gonna come, fuck it.

Fuckin' bitch, I'm gonna come in your fuckin' asshole.

♪ I don't know what time it is

♪ And I

♪ Don't even know the day

♪ My eyes

♪ Fill up with tears for you darlin'

♪ You know

♪ I still love you today

♪ If, if

♪ If only dreams came true

♪ Then I

♪ Would be back in your arms again

♪ Yeah

♪ If this were

♪ Guessed it'd be too much for you baby

♪ You know ♪

- They don't care that I'm not beautiful.

I don't even think they look at me.

That's not what I'm there for.

Most times, they don't even want me

to be fuckin' naked.

Just hike up the skirt and bend at the waist.

And they sure don't want me to look at them.

Facin' them, or facin' away,

as long as I'm on my knees and not meetin' their eyes,

it's money well-spent.

There's a poetry to pain.

It's in all the storybooks, songs, movies.

I've always fuckin' hated that.

Pain is just somethin' that happens

while you live your life.

It doesn't make you special.

You do what you have to do to survive,

and if what you have to do sucks,

well, then it sucks.

There are no Prince Charmin's,

'cause at the end of the day,

every guy wants the same thing.

Property.

Something to show off to people,

to hang on his arm at parties and say,

look what the fuck I have.

Something he won, or earned, or paid for.

Property isn't supposed to feel or think.

It's just supposed to lay there and be walked on.

The world is the world and there's no point

fuckin' hatin' it.

Wasted energy.

Same with dreaming.

But still, it would be nice to once,

just once, know that I could look at someone,

and them at me,

and not still feel lonely.

- Yeah she was kind of a mystery,

and maybe that's part of what intrigued me about her

in the first place, 'cause she was so different

than everybody else in town.

Where did she come from?

And I knew, I knew she had a rough life,

I knew that she was probably runnin' from somethin'.

I know somethin' real bad happened,

and I never talked about it, I never asked.

I think, because, I didn't wanna have to ask.

Funny thing to say.

You know, 'cause she's a vrouw en alles, maar het ding

dat vrouwen meestal over mannen zeggen,

op die manier voelen ze beschermd en ze voelen zich veilig,

er was iets aan de hand Charlie die me het gevoel gaf

veilig bij haar en zorgde ervoor dat ik me beschermd voelde.

- Ik ben hier.

Ja.

Lange tijd, ja.

- Dus de laatste lading is binnen.

- Ik liet het achteraan achter.

Ja, achterste rij.

Achterste rij, ja.

Hagedisrij, hij is er.

- Je weet waar je bent, toch?

Houd een laag profiel en niet,

doe die shit niet die je altijd doet

en begin met neuken.

- Ik ga het niet verpesten, God.

- Je weet hoe je verdomde rotzooi.

Doe het gewoon niet.

- Ik weet het, ik weet het, lag laag.

Heb het, ik snap het.

Kijk, ik zal het beste doen wat ik kan.

- morgen meer haalbaar, oké?

- Juist.

Ik weet het, ik doe een ommekeer in de ochtend.

Ik ben alleen maar laag vanavond, en morgen ga ik weg.

Ja.

Oke.

Ja, dat is mijn laatste.

- De FBI is bucklin ' naar beneden, dus we gaan

we beginnen te rennen licht na deze.

Breng geen aandacht voor de operatie.

- Ik wil gewoon dat mijn schuld loont, dat is alles.

Dan wil ik klaar zijn.

We hebben de deal gesloten.

- Ja.

Ik weet.

- Dus je bent blij dat ik terug ben?

- Stomme trut.

- Charlie.

- Hallo!

Waar ben je geweest?

- Hang met mijn lagere metgezellen,

weet je, het gebruikelijke.

- Oh je bedoelt, zoals truckers?

Ze hebben een feestje in de straat, wil je gaan?

- Ik weet het niet, ga je?

- Natuurlijk.

Ik zal er zijn met een of andere onvermogen.

- Okee.

Fuck ja, goed, ik ga wel.

Ik zal je zien.

- Oke.

- Hé, er is dus veel gebeurd sinds ik je het laatst zag.

- Oh mijn god, ik weet het.

- Ja, helemaal goed,

nadat ik erachter kwam dat hij biseksueel was,

Ik liet hem de Harley rijden en haal de scheidingspapieren.

Rechts?

- Juist, denk ik, ja.

- Wat kan ik doen, man?

Wil je een ritje?

Wil je op zondag rijden?

- Ja, ik moet naar Texas gaan.

- Oke.

- De volgende keer.

- Oke Tuurlijk.

- Ja, heb je het gezien de tieten van die trut?

- Hallo.

Wat voor soort Halloween-kostuum is dit?

Wat is dat in vredesnaam eigenlijk?

Wat zou je in hemelsnaam moeten doen?

- Oh kom op, dat is de beste die je hebt?

- Oh, ik kan veel beter dan dat.

Ik heb veel beter.

- Goed, dat weet ik zeker.

- Ik doe.

Kom op, laten we plezier maken.

Laten we feesten.

- Okee.

Oké, ik ben zo terug.

- Oh sorry.

- Hallo.

Kerel, ik heb je gezocht.

- Ik dacht al snel.

Waar bent u naar op zoek?

Heb je Shiva?

- Ja, ik heb je zwart, hoeveel wil je?

- Halve stuk?

- Ik heb een halve stuk, 350?

- 320.

- Fuck.

Ja, ik zal het vanavond doen.

Maar dat is het daarvoor.

Wees voorzichtig, het is sterk.

- Okee.

Oké, goed je te zien

- Ik ga gewoon.

- Wat is er aan de hand, boterbloem?

- Ik voel me niet goed.

- Je bent oke, je hebt het alleen maar nodig om het af te lopen, dat is alles.

Kom op.

- Maar ik had die gewoon.

- Je komt in orde.

Ik heb je haar.

Dat is in orde.

Het gaat goed met je.

- Ik voel me beter.

- Ja, je voelt je nu echt goed.

- Nee, ik voel me goed, ik ga.

- Hé, waar ga je heen?

Hey, hey, come here.

You're not going anywhere.

- What?

No, no, no.

- The party is just beginning, honey.

Now you hold still.

- What are you doing?

Get off.

Don't!

- We're gonna have a little fun right now.

- Get the fuck off of me!

Stop it!

- You bitch!

You hit me?

You dare hit me?

You dare to hit me?

I'm gonna tear you up.

Woah, woah, woah.

All right now.

Hold on, take your finger off the trigger.

- Fuck you.

- Come on, now.

- Yeah.

What now?

- I shot someone.

Ducky, I don't know what to do.

- You shot someone?

- What do I do?

- You know what?

This is how you don't bring attention

to the operation.

- Should I come over there?

- No, you cannot come here.

- I'll do the last haul.

- Yeah, you will do the last haul.

- Okay, well what do I do?

- You'll get the money, and you'll send it here,

but don't call me ever again.

And you can start over wherever you want.

But do not contact me again.

- Okay, I'm hanging up.

- Charlie,

ze had deze duistere geest over haar,

weet je, het is zo als ik aan een kleur denk,

Ik denk dat ik aan zwart zou denken.

En ze hield ervan om zwart te dragen

de hele tijd, en zij had zwart haar en zwarte eyeliner,

zwarte broek, zwarte tank tops, zwarte shirts, weet je.

Ik zei altijd, weet je, misschien zou ze erin gooien

een beetje kleur hier en daar, maar ik weet het niet,

Ik denk dat ik misschien haar kleur was, weet je.

En zij was die neutrale toon.

Samen met dat was er altijd iets dat ze verstopte.

Misschien had ze geen inmenging pact met zichzelf

of iets verdomds.

Een belofte om niet open te gaan en laat iemand in haar gedachten

of haar hart.

Maar dat is goed.

Dat is bescherming.

Het is net als cellofaan bedekte.

Seran-ingepakt strak dus niets komt erin of eruit.

We waren allemaal gewoon de gewond lopen, hoe dan ook.

Longen inhaleren vol met fucking hash.

Het leven is kort, of het leven is lang.

Wie weet het eigenlijk?

Charlie was nauwelijks een heilige.

Aan de andere kant, misschien was ze dat wel.

- Daar is je kaart, directions to get there.

Hook up your rig and get outta here.

♪ Get down, get in her face

♪ My bad reputation got me the best place

♪ Gotta have it, gotta have it, they say

♪ Should no longer 'til we got up in your case ♪

- I have to say, Charlie came into town

like a lightning storm, or a hurricane or somethin'.

Suddenly, she was just there.

Yeah, she could knock down anyone's world.

She said she like livin' in isolation and that,

bein' a loner is better than bein' lonely.

I think she was lonely, though.

Funny thing is that nothing ever changes,

and Charlie knew that, and it worked for her.

Even in the Bible it says,

there's nothin' new under the sun.

I used to read the Bible.

♪ 17 days on the road and I'm as high as a kite ♪

- This place is dead.

- Yeah?

Just the way I like it.

- What's the matter, you don't like people?

♪ She made it out on Sunday mornin' ♪

- I've never been the saint,

and I've been doing the sinner since I was a kid.

Nothin' here in this shit town.

We just started chattin' a little bit,

and it was kinda funny, kinda nice,

I don't know, she just seemed like she

paid attention to me, you know?

♪ She's gonna see the way

♪ She's gonna find another way

♪ She's got a lifetime to remember

♪ Nothin' more to say when you feel alone ♪

- Got a ciggy?

- Smoking kills.

- I'm no quitter.

- Yeah, you got ambition.

- Look, I don't need new friends,

I just need to bum a fuckin' ciggy.

- Give me a lighter.

Busy lot here, yeah?

- Yeah, busy as a dead bee.

Or a cricket.

Just about every day I think I'm gonna

stick out my thumb and bail on this place.

Make it as far as the Eiffel Tower, or Mexico.

Maybe even Pasadena.

Pasadena, gonna go see that Golden Gate Bridge

they got out there.

- Pasadena, yeah, it's a bad idea

to hang around bridges.

- I seem to be good at bad ideas.

- Well if you hate it so much, why don't you just

ditch on out of here?

- And jeopardize my career?

- Yeah, you're really movin' up the ladder here, huh?

- I don't want your ciggies.

I got my own all by myself.

- I really don't think a girl like you

should be by herself.

- Spider well you just get in here

and shut the door.

- Itchy fur and like a porcupine or somethin'.

- You know,

I once scene porcupines humpin'.

- Like two cactuses in love, shit.

- I bet you didn't see anything.

- I did too.

- I saw a bat once, but it flew away.

It would have been romantic if it bit me.

- Bit like a porcupine.

- Spider.

Spider.

Spider.

- What's up?

- Do I look okay?

- You don't look as hot as you did in high school,

but you look okay, yeah.

- Just get out of here, just go.

I used to be beautiful.

At least that's what people say.

- You know, there's someone new in town.

Yeah, I saw her, she saw me, and I know

maybe nobody wants to hang around me anymore

like they did in high school, but she did talk to me.

I don't know, maybe she'll talk to me again.

Misschien kan ik praten haar, en zij kon luisteren.

Wat dan ook.

Misschien kunnen we samen feesten.

En dat is de wereld daarbuiten, oma.

Moeilijk om bij te houden.

Probeer het?

Okee.

We hebben het nodig om uit te faseren.

We hadden meer medicijnen nodig, en zij wist precies hoe ze te vinden.

Je hebt me de stuipen op het lijf gejaagd!

Je bent laat, je ziet eruit als stront.

- Ja, maar zie ik er goed uit?

- Zie ik er goed uit?

Oh, wel, stap in de auto.

- Wat, je verwachtte het Boogie Man of zoiets?

- Eng als de friggin 'Bogie Man.

Waar gaan we naartoe?

- Ik wist niet zeker of je me echt zou ontmoeten.

Deze dame, ze stierf aan kanker.

Ik omcirkelde en organiseerde alle overlijdensberichten,

zoals in volgorde van hoe ze stierf, waar ze aan stierven,

en dus kan ik weten wat voor soort voorgeschreven medicijnen.

- Oh ja, ja, ik begrijp het.

Dus ze zou pijn hebben van de kanker, toch?

Dus ze neemt pijnrecepten!

- Oké!

- Oh ja, oké.

Dus, maar we hebben een adres nodig.

- Ik heb het mortuarium gebeld, en vertelde hen dat ik familie was.

En ze gaven het je gewoon?

- Ik speelde de neef callin 'om bloemenkaart te verzenden.

Weet je, iedereen heeft een neef.

- Ik zie het wel, deze vlooien springen in elkaar.

Heb je iets gezien?

Moet je zien.

- Je bent in orde.

- Ik zie vlooien,

Ik zie ze overal springen.

Kan niet slapen.

Kan niet slapen.

- Ja, ik ook.

Maak je geen zorgen, ik heb dit eerder gedaan.

Volg mij.

Trek dit aan.

- Volg je voorbeeld.

- Hoe zie ik eruit?

- Dank je.

- Hoi, meneer Tabernacle?

Het spijt ons voor uw verlies.

- Wij zijn niet van Jehovah Getuigen, of mormonen,

of Avon, zoiets.

- Wie ben je?

- We zijn hier vanuit het ziekenhuis,

en we zijn hier om op te halen al je overleden echtgenotes

voorgeschreven medicijnen.

- Ja, dat doe je niet moet ze weggooien,

weet je, giftig afval en zo

is niet goed voor de samenleving.

- Sorry, dit is geen goed moment.

- Je bent verliefd.

Ik hou van liefde.

- Je doet?

- Ik hou van de gedachte, ja,

weet je, het is

- Ben je van het ziekenhuis?

- Yeah, yeah, yes, can we come in?

- Okay, come into the living room

and I'll get the prescriptions.

Don't touch anything.

- It's like a real home here.

Really homey and shit.

We should have brought flowers.

- I got her prescriptions.

Which ones do you want?

- All of them.

- All of them, everything, we need all of those.

Yeah!

- You are fucking crazy, girl!

- Yeah!

- Give me a swig of that shit.

- Where we goin'?

- I wanna show you somethin'.

Woo.

Yeah it was really excitin', you know,

something woke up in me that I had never

experienced before with men.

- Look.

These say take in anticipation of pain.

All right.

- Life is pain.

Oh.

Is that you rockin' the boat?

- Woah!

- Don't rock the boat.

Oh, I just chipped my tooth.

Everything I have ever known is right here

in the middle of nowhere like nothin'.

It all adds up to nothin'.

- Yeah, well I'd rather be nowhere

than somewhere that I'm not wanted, right?

Right?

- When I was a kid, my grandma used to bring me here

when my mama drank too much Boone's.

- Boone's?

Boone's, like Strawberry Hill?

Oh my god.

What's your mom like?

- Oh, no mom now.

Never knew of the dad.

- Yeah.

Do you know anybody who's got a dad?

- No.

Shit.

- No?

- Sorry I blew smoke right in your face.

- You're makin' me have ugly face again.

- Where are you takin' me, Charlie?

- Come on.

We're just exploring.

Stand right here.

- Why?

- Just stand there and relax.

- Why?

- Do you trust me?

- Trust is...

- Sh, close your eyes.

- Okay.

- Close, stay, keep them closed.

- They're closed.

- Okay.

My beauty queen.

- My trophy crown.

Miss Dairy Chill, 1998.

- Close your eyes!

- What?

- They told me at the bar this used to be yours,

so I stole it.

Okay, I borrowed it.

Stole it.

- Can I open my eyes, you shit?

- Okay.

Open your eyes.

God, you're beautiful.

- Charlie, I'm not a gay,

I'm not a dyke like you.

- Are you sure?

- Um.

No.

- Okay, look, look, look,

just don't put anything in a box, okay?

We don't need to be like checked off or something, okay?

I just,

I just wanna know you, okay?

All of you.

- It's just that...

It's just, I, I never kissed someone like you.

- Like me?

- Someone who matters.

- Okay, Charlie.

- Yeah?

- I just wanted to be with her.

It wasn't about who she was, or what she did,

or what she looked like, or any of that.

It was just, I don't know,

as pure as can be, and just bein' with someone

who cared about you, and who accepted you.

I mean, accepted me for everything I was, you know?

It didn't matter to her that I was a hooker

or a drug addict, you know?

None of that shit mattered.

She'd just look in my eyes, and I'd look in her eyes,

and we'd just forget about all that shit, you know?

So I guess maybe, in a way, it's another kind of addiction,

in a way, 'cause you know, we kind of

became addicted to each other.

I never kissed someone like you.

Someone who matters.

I guess what's funny about it, when I think about it now,

is that

a lot of that was a cover, you know,

that I didn't really realize at first,

I was kinda attracted to this tough exterior,

but it was that sort of soft interior

that I fell in love with.

- Hey.

What, what, what's in that

red box over there?

- I got you somethin'.

- Aw.

Oh, these, aw, these are real pretty.

I don't wanna ruin these.

I'm gonna save them for somethin' special.

- Yeah, I want you to wear 'em when you go to work,

that way whenever somebody like,

pulls your panties down, or rips 'em off or somethin',

you can think about me.

- Yeah.

Okay.

- Where'd you get these flowers?

- Well,

I kinda took 'em from the graveyard.

- You stole somebody's flowers from a,

you stole from a dead person.

- No, well you know, you can't really steal

from a dead person.

- You kiddin' me?

- A dead person's already dead.

- You stole flowers from a dead person.

- No, no, no, they were already dead.

Somebody else bought 'em for a dead person,

but they were dyin' anyways, so I take the flowers

that are gonna die, and I bring 'em here

and I try to plant 'em and give 'em some new life.

- Why don't you just plant them at the graveyard then,

you know, by the grave, instead of bringing them here

to your tub?

- 'Cause, I don't know, it's like a special place,

you know, that I used to come here with my grandma,

so I like to have the flowers here,

but they don't seem to grow very well, actually.

Most of the time they die.

- Well, there's a few that are dying.

- I'm thinking that eventually they'll take root, maybe.

- Maybe.

- So I think this is a good one.

- I can't even take care of myself, much less some flowers.

- I don't know, you seem to do pretty well.

It's just you in that big old truck, right?

- I can drive a rig.

I can drive the fuck out of a rig.

- You ever get lonely, Charlie?

- What kind of question is that?

You and your questions.

- What do you mean, what kind of question is that?

- You know, I heard about those programs that they have

for some of my trucks that you can

adopt a dog and take it out on the road with you.

They do that, and then they have their road dog

with 'em all the time, and then they're never lonely.

- Oh, that sounds good.

- Yeah, I don't know if I could keep a dog alive, you know,

I would have to do the plant first.

Keep the plant first, and then you get a dog,

and then you get a soul mate.

Or you could just skip right ahead.

- Do you ever have one of those?

- A plant?

- No.

You know, ah, you don't like those questions, never mind.

So Charlie was really kinda different

from regular people in town, and I think

she really freaked people out because she walked through

like, you know, she was somethin' special,

but in a good way.

So people didn't really fuck with her.

It was like they knew there was something there

just not to fuck with.

- All right, Jay, we'll catch you next week, all right?

- Folks, would you like a little more coffee over here?

So you think you can just pretty much

do anything you want in here, huh?

- Hey, we're just celebrating.

- It's just fun, like a game.

- Yup, she lost a bet.

- Well I don't know what they do in places

away from here, but here

we don't allow clitty-lickers.

Now get out.

- I'm sorry.

We didn't mean...

- Listen to me, you lesbo butch, macho-Mary,

you get your tails out of here,

you grab your dyke friend

and get the hell out of here right now.

- Who the fuck do you think you're talking to?

You don't fuckin' talk to me like that.

Fuck you.

- Get out!

- Whatever.

- Get on out of here!

- Fuck you!

Fuck you!

- I'll be prayin' for you.

- Fuck off!

- Charlie.

- What?

- Come over here.

Oh, does this mean I'm gay?

Such as I am.

Maybe I do believe you.

- Pull these down.

- Always askin' me to pull my pans down, my God.

Je broek ziet er beter uit.

- Hier, even hier.

O ja.

O ja.

O ja.

O ja.

Het is een grote verantwoordelijkheid.

Ik heb mijn eigen ruimte, weet je.

- Ja?

- Ja.

Toen werd het leven dagen voorbij.

De een na de ander en de herinneringen begonnen

terwijl we geen idee hadden dat we dat waren wonen midden in 'em.

Terwijl ze ronddraaiden, draaiden, draaiden voorbij.

- George Bush verkleed als een vrouw.

Het is goed, soms knik ik ook.

- Ze bleef thuis met oma terwijl ik werkte,

net als echte gezinnen doen

wanneer ze van elkaar houden.

- Ik verpletter mijn hersens hier.

Geen back-up fucking-plan, geen toekomstplan,

geen pad, geen toekomst, geen links, geen recht.

Heb je ooit iemand liefgehad?

- Waarom wil je dat weten?

- Ik wil alleen maar weten.

- Kan zijn.

Niets voordat dit van belang is.

Ik wed dat je oma het echt is blij als je hier bent.

- Ja.

Ik kan hier echter niet altijd zijn, weet je?

Soms moet ik gewoon wat lucht krijgen.

Krijg wat snoepgraan of drink iets.

- You know, if you could see

the beauty that I see in you, you wouldn't even

have to go out there on the lot and do what you do and...

- Charlie, you can never ask me to stop workin' the lot.

You gotta promise me.

I want you to fuckin' promise me.

See, I'm, I'm, I'm sick and tired

of bein' alone, and fuck, so

you and me, and we, we need each other in some way.

- Yeah, you wanna be your own boss,

just like me.

Oh ho.

- Oh, woop!

- Ah.

Don't push me now

- You fuckin' bitch.

- Do I look glamorous?

I just threw my ashes in the water.

Here.

I hate doin' dishes.

Nothin' worse than doin' dishes.

Okay, maybe I can think of a few things that are worse,

but not many.

- I can't stop smellin' dick.

And thinkin' about this town and the jobs and the men.

I think about the lake.

About how when you came here

it's like a came out of a trance or somethin'.

Like swimmin',

I was washed.

- Me too.

You know, it's kind of like I just

woke the fuck up or somethin'.

I have never felt more alive than I feel right here

right now, doin' dishes with you.

- Well, you know, I mean, I've been doin' drugs

since I was probably 12.

I mean, I just started early.

My mom's always been kind of been doin' speed, meth,

you know, I got into the cocaine

probably more than anything.

Meth was a little too much for me.

A little too jittery, you know,

but the cocaine, boy that just made me feel good,

and it just made me feel like I could do no wrong,

and I guess I needed something to get my brain

off of what was going on constantly in my life,

and when I was on cocaine, it was, I was,

you don't even have to think about that.

You just feel like you're on top of the world.

- You hear helicopters?

- Gotta to do that.

Fuckin fun to do.

- Get up.

- Here?

There?

- There.

There.

- I think I'm gonna be strangled by this tension.

I am dry ice.

Oh Charlie, let's talk.

Let's talk about something, you know?

Paper airplanes, and I'm gonna send to you,

and then you read it, and then

I'll talk, and then I'll write that down,

but you can't read it until I say, okay?

Okay.

And then you can talk like,

about history like Germany, or like Russia,

you know, Russia, it's got bombs, it's like Bam!

Okay, so just talk.

Just talk, talk about, about everything.

I wanna know, I wanna know about you, Charlie,

like, your life and things.

Oh my gosh, that was perfect.

Tell me what was before me.

- I fucked girls who didn't give a fuck.

- Where the fuck'd you get a gun, Charlie?

- Don't touch that, it's loaded.

- I love you, Charlie.

I know I love you.

- Give me that.

- I'm gonna blow your fucking brains out!

- You're fucked up.

You're fucked up.

- Just chill out, baby.

Just talk to me.

Tell me anything.

Tell me about yourself.

- What the fuck do you want me to tell you?

- I don't know who you are, Charlie.

Just talk.

- Come here...

- So, um, I have a story.

There's a story I have about a spider.

There was this spider, and it uh,

it went up this water cell,

no it went up a water spout, like,

you do it with your hands kind of, like this.

And then, but, it's not like a church steeple

or anything, it's not a steeple, it's just like a spider.

But it goes up the water spout,

and then there's this, um,

there's some rain, and the rain comes down.

And then after the rain comes and washes

the spider away or something, and then,

I don't know, the spider's gone, but then

it's not like a sad story.

I don't know.

The spider.

The spider and the water spout,

and then rain,

and then it washes it away.

I don't know why it's not bad that the spider

gets washed away, but I guess it's just washed away,

but I don't think it killed the spider,

or else they wouldn't kept tellin' that story.

Huh.

- And then she would disappear,

jut like a mirage.

There, then gone, then back again.

I never knew where she went or why,

but I missed her every moment she wasn't near.

♪ Don't cry baby

♪ I ain't gonna change my mind

♪ Some day, maybe

♪ You will be okay in time

♪ 'Cause everybody knows it's how the story goes

♪ Bound to leave you in the end

♪ Now baby's got new shoes

♪ But it won't take away those blues

♪ So you listen to the message I sent

♪ Don't cry baby

♪ You don't want the neighbors to see ♪

- I know I, I stashed a bag in here somewhere.

I can't find it.

I can't find it, I don't have anything left.

I hid it in one of these pockets

so that no one could find it, and now I can't.

- Fuck.

- Trucker got me.

- My veins are fucked.

Pull this shit.

- You're just gonna leave me

just like everybody else?

Is that it?

One more, fuckin' one more!

One more fuckin' fuckers leave me.

- Guess what?

Fuckin' what.

I wonder, too, okay.

I mean, where the fuck is everyone always goin'?

Huh?

Where's everyone goin' all the time?

Think I don't care?

I fuckin' do.

- Charlie.

- What?

- I want everythin'

you have in you to be put in me.

What were you like before here?

- You don't wanna know.

- Charlie, I need you right now.

- This doesn't last forever.

- I know.

I just thought that maybe

you could stay with me.

- This thing that I am, the person that I am,

I'm not gonna change.

I'm not gonna change this.

- It's too late.

- Too late for what?

- Too late for you.

- Hey lady,

I saw you earlier today.

Still working commercial companies?

- I'm walkin'.

- Walkin?

Woah, woah, woah.

Come here, come here, come here.

Look, look, look, look.

Wanna party?

Come on in.

Atta girl, that's my girl.

That's my girl.

♪ Jealous dream, chapters close

♪ Nothin' happens, nothin' smoked, yeah

♪ You saw a body bag

♪ Wishes and dreams don't always last

♪ Things arise from the inside

♪ So mad, don't smile, it's okay, it's all right

♪ All right

♪ It's a guillotine

♪ You know, you're killin' me, yeah

♪ You're so messed up, hold on too tight

♪ Too tight

♪ Now I can barely breathe

♪ You're fuckin' killin' me, yeah

♪ You kill me ♪

- It's like the more tricks you do,

the more drugs you take, the more sex you have,

the more got somebody pou-poun-poundin' you,

the more you don't think about

how fucked up your life really is.

♪ When I dream

♪ Just rise from the inside

♪ So mad, don't smile, it's okay, it's all right

♪ All right

♪ Like a guillotine

♪ You know you're killin' me, yeah

♪ You're so messed up, hold on too tight

♪ Too tight

♪ Now I can barely breathe

♪ You're fuckin' killin' me, yeah ♪

- Hey, hey there's a Sizzler in Houston, I think.

We should go sometime.

- Yeah.

I usually go to Taco Bell

when I eat hot food.

- Look, look, look.

Right there, that black.

That black right there.

- There's nothing there.

- It moved, it moved, it jumped.

- There's nothin' there.

- It just jumped, it just moved.

- There's nothin' there.

- Anxiety, it brings it to the surface.

Just when you, you think you can stop,

when you really wanna stop, it's just usin',

you can't, it's...

- See?

Anybody can stop with enough will power.

I choose not to stop.

I'm no quitter.

- It doesn't matter really, I love her.

You know, no matter what she did, I always loved her.

I don't know, I really thought

she wanted to get clean.

And she really did.

She really did, I know, fuck.

- So what the fuck do you want me to do?

- Hang in there.

- I'm gonna die.

- No, hang in there.

It's okay, it's okay.

- That was the baptism.

Demanding the evil be gone.

Get the darkness out.

We got it out, amen.

You know what I like?

Or what I always wanted to like?

- What?

- That I know who I am again.

And people don't expect much.

It's like my grandmother used to take me

to these dance lessons and I was too young

to even know where I was, or too young

to even understand, and she had

these hopes and these dreams, and you know,

they're all gone now, but

at least I know who I am.

I never found pain to be poetic, that's true.

But there is something cleansing about it.

If you can swim through the pain,

and if you walk through the rain, then maybe,

just maybe, you deserve at least some time in the sun.

Clean and forgiven.

Maybe it's my fault, that she just looked so...

She just wanted to do it one more time, you know.

Just one more.

She was gonna be fine, and I wanted

to make her happy.

I tried.

I tried to wake her up, you know, I just sat there with her

and I just held her and just shook her.

I never got a chance to say goodbye to her,

and tell her, I mean, I told her I loved her,

I did,

many times,

but I just wonder if she ever really understood

what that meant to me.

She changed my life.

I mean, I was nowhere, I was nothin'.

I couldn't do anything.

I couldn't think of anythin', and then she came

into my life, this one little bright spot.

She just held me in my arms and made me feel so special

and so loved, that I...

In spite all of this, it's the best thing

that ever happened to me, I mean,

it sounds absurd that I'm even fuckin' sayin' this,

because it's horrible for this to happen,

but you know, I mean, I felt somethin'

I had ever felt before.

♪ Love is a gift

♪ And this I give to you

♪ Love is the truth

♪ In which I live for you

♪ My heart is twisted inside my chest

♪ I bring your head down

♪ Gently upon my breasts

♪ And I cry

♪ For you

♪ And I die

♪ For you

♪ Would you die for me too

♪ Walkin' down the lonely street, I

♪ Find myself beneath the ground

♪ Things ain't like they used to be, baby

♪ Everything's been turned around

♪ Again

♪ I know what you miss me, brother

♪ A penny saved is a penny earned

♪ It burned

♪ Always been so sweet to one another

♪ Another fucking lesson learned

♪ And I cry

♪ For you

♪ And I die

♪ For you

♪ And I cry

♪ For you

♪ And I cry

♪ For you

♪ Would you cry for me ♪

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