1 00:00:59,434 --> 00:01:02,145 Why should we care that you make it? 2 00:01:03,438 --> 00:01:06,107 I don't care if y'all don't care if I do make it. 3 00:01:09,652 --> 00:01:13,198 This is my journey. It's not nobody else journey. 4 00:01:13,239 --> 00:01:15,992 Nobody's gonna walk, walk with these shoes 5 00:01:16,076 --> 00:01:17,410 I got on my feet. 6 00:01:17,452 --> 00:01:20,413 Only one that can walk with these shoes is me. 7 00:01:22,624 --> 00:01:23,583 Simple. 8 00:01:23,625 --> 00:01:25,978 You don't want nobody to walk with you? 9 00:01:26,002 --> 00:01:27,754 Of course. 10 00:01:27,796 --> 00:01:29,881 You can hold my hand. 11 00:01:29,923 --> 00:01:32,175 You can look back from a distance. 12 00:01:36,805 --> 00:01:39,265 You still won't feel what I feel. 13 00:01:40,391 --> 00:01:42,811 You still won't look at it from my point of view. 14 00:01:44,062 --> 00:01:46,272 When everybody got an opinion, 15 00:01:46,564 --> 00:01:47,816 judgement... 16 00:01:48,525 --> 00:01:50,151 Like they God... 17 00:01:51,152 --> 00:01:52,487 Okay. 18 00:01:53,154 --> 00:01:54,531 Okay. 19 00:02:37,407 --> 00:02:42,662 It's okay, baby. Okay, okay. Ready? 20 00:04:00,365 --> 00:04:02,992 Kiss me each morning 21 00:04:04,077 --> 00:04:08,665 For a million years 22 00:04:11,084 --> 00:04:14,128 Hold me each evening 23 00:04:14,170 --> 00:04:17,340 By your side 24 00:04:21,928 --> 00:04:24,847 Tell me you love me 25 00:04:24,889 --> 00:04:27,350 For a million... 26 00:04:27,976 --> 00:04:29,811 A million years 27 00:04:31,646 --> 00:04:37,151 - Then if it don't work out - If it don't work out... 28 00:04:37,193 --> 00:04:39,046 Man, shut the fuck up with that. 29 00:04:39,070 --> 00:04:40,363 I'm serious, I swear. 30 00:04:40,405 --> 00:04:41,507 It was more like matriphagy or some shit. 31 00:04:41,531 --> 00:04:43,116 What? What is that? 32 00:04:43,199 --> 00:04:44,635 Bro, I'm telling you. Like, the mom gives birth 33 00:04:44,659 --> 00:04:46,387 and then she feeds herself off to the baby 34 00:04:46,411 --> 00:04:48,180 till there's nothing left. It was crazy. 35 00:04:48,204 --> 00:04:50,432 Nigga, there ain't no crab spiders in the Bay. 36 00:04:50,456 --> 00:04:52,393 On my mama there is in my backyard. 37 00:04:52,417 --> 00:04:53,751 Nah, cuz. I'm not buying it. 38 00:04:53,835 --> 00:04:55,229 I'm telling you, it was the most sacrificial shit 39 00:04:55,253 --> 00:04:56,689 - I've ever seen. - Hell, nah. 40 00:04:56,713 --> 00:04:58,357 This was opened when I found it. 41 00:04:58,381 --> 00:04:59,566 It's missin' some pieces. 42 00:04:59,590 --> 00:05:01,884 I can only give you 15% off. 43 00:05:02,385 --> 00:05:03,720 Yes. 44 00:05:03,761 --> 00:05:05,805 That'll be $29.75. 45 00:05:12,020 --> 00:05:13,688 Your card is declined. 46 00:05:14,188 --> 00:05:16,190 Just put $28 on it. 47 00:05:17,984 --> 00:05:19,360 Thank you. 48 00:06:03,613 --> 00:06:05,257 - Hello? - Gia, 49 00:06:05,281 --> 00:06:07,676 they're already waiting. How long will it take to get here? 50 00:06:07,700 --> 00:06:09,178 Traffic's bad. Can you tell 'em 51 00:06:09,202 --> 00:06:10,596 - I'll be a little late? - How late? 52 00:06:10,620 --> 00:06:14,123 Your balance is $2.49. 53 00:06:14,207 --> 00:06:15,625 Make a payment. 54 00:06:15,708 --> 00:06:18,669 Make another one, curve it again. 55 00:06:18,711 --> 00:06:22,131 And then you use the yellow. 56 00:06:23,591 --> 00:06:27,553 Swirl it around and use the green. 57 00:06:42,652 --> 00:06:44,946 - You okay? - Yeah. 58 00:06:45,029 --> 00:06:47,031 Let's sit. Let's sit. 59 00:06:47,115 --> 00:06:48,783 All right, come on. 60 00:06:51,411 --> 00:06:52,829 Hey, you want to feel? 61 00:06:55,915 --> 00:06:58,126 - Do you feel that? - Yeah. 62 00:07:00,420 --> 00:07:02,701 I got something for you. 63 00:07:07,218 --> 00:07:09,154 Could wear 'em all together, see? 64 00:07:11,764 --> 00:07:15,017 When you look on the back, you can see what your mood is. 65 00:07:15,309 --> 00:07:16,644 Okay? 66 00:07:19,188 --> 00:07:21,166 Are they nice to you guys in the new place? 67 00:07:21,190 --> 00:07:23,192 - Yeah. - Yeah? 68 00:07:23,818 --> 00:07:27,530 Okay. See, Mama got you guys sticking together. 69 00:07:28,656 --> 00:07:30,241 You taking care of each other? 70 00:07:30,283 --> 00:07:31,659 Yeah. 71 00:07:32,827 --> 00:07:33,995 Shaynah? 72 00:07:37,248 --> 00:07:38,809 Shaynah, you at least gonna look at me? 73 00:07:42,753 --> 00:07:45,673 What's going on, baby? 74 00:07:48,301 --> 00:07:49,886 Is it 'cause I was late? 75 00:07:55,349 --> 00:07:56,893 Play, okay? 76 00:08:04,692 --> 00:08:06,235 Hmm? 77 00:08:15,828 --> 00:08:17,038 Shaynah. 78 00:08:19,290 --> 00:08:20,583 Shaynah. 79 00:08:25,421 --> 00:08:26,756 Listen. 80 00:08:30,051 --> 00:08:31,761 I'm trying my best. 81 00:08:34,639 --> 00:08:36,724 This is not so easy. 82 00:08:37,558 --> 00:08:39,227 But I'm right here. 83 00:08:41,562 --> 00:08:42,939 I'm here now. 84 00:08:44,565 --> 00:08:45,566 Shaynah. 85 00:08:45,608 --> 00:08:47,818 Don't be like that Mama. Look at me. 86 00:08:47,902 --> 00:08:50,005 How's it going, Shaynah, Trey? 87 00:08:50,029 --> 00:08:51,113 Shaynah? 88 00:08:52,990 --> 00:08:54,116 Shaynah? 89 00:08:54,659 --> 00:08:56,911 Shaynah? Shaynah? 90 00:08:56,994 --> 00:08:57,703 Shh. 91 00:08:57,745 --> 00:08:59,598 Everything okay, sweetie? 92 00:08:59,622 --> 00:09:00,849 What are you saying to her? 93 00:09:00,873 --> 00:09:04,043 Shaynah. At least say, "Bye, Mama." 94 00:09:04,418 --> 00:09:05,753 Shaynah. 95 00:09:18,474 --> 00:09:20,309 Come on, Trey. 96 00:09:20,351 --> 00:09:22,371 She'll be back soon. 97 00:09:22,395 --> 00:09:23,938 He doesn't want to go. 98 00:09:25,231 --> 00:09:26,899 Come on, now. 99 00:09:26,941 --> 00:09:30,152 - Come on, now. - He doesn't want to go, see? 100 00:09:30,778 --> 00:09:32,280 Come on, now. 101 00:09:37,201 --> 00:09:38,744 Come on, Trey. 102 00:09:39,453 --> 00:09:41,253 Okay. 103 00:10:21,537 --> 00:10:23,432 Your DSR hearing is next week 104 00:10:23,456 --> 00:10:24,624 on Friday at 3:00 p.m. 105 00:10:24,707 --> 00:10:26,351 I'm curious. What are your plans? 106 00:10:26,375 --> 00:10:27,585 For what? 107 00:10:27,627 --> 00:10:30,105 We're still completing your reunification requirement. 108 00:10:30,129 --> 00:10:31,690 - So... - So what? 109 00:10:33,549 --> 00:10:35,569 You started this case plan a year ago. 110 00:10:35,593 --> 00:10:36,903 Now there's four months left, 111 00:10:36,927 --> 00:10:39,347 six if I ask for some more time. 112 00:10:41,932 --> 00:10:44,810 Ms. Jasmine, I'm here for every visit. 113 00:10:44,894 --> 00:10:47,021 I've passed every test. 114 00:10:47,855 --> 00:10:49,207 I've gone to every class you put me in. 115 00:10:49,231 --> 00:10:50,959 Gia, you've been late on several occasions. 116 00:10:50,983 --> 00:10:54,362 You've yet to complete a successful home assessment. 117 00:10:54,445 --> 00:10:55,964 And you've missed child support payments. 118 00:10:55,988 --> 00:10:58,616 Ms. Jasmine, I can't get any more hours 119 00:10:58,699 --> 00:11:01,160 with all of the courses y'all are making me take. 120 00:11:01,243 --> 00:11:03,221 So how am I supposed to pay for all of that? 121 00:11:03,245 --> 00:11:05,474 I'll try to ensure this child remains in the home, 122 00:11:05,498 --> 00:11:06,892 at least while you're breastfeeding. 123 00:11:06,916 --> 00:11:08,518 But unless you complete the program, 124 00:11:08,542 --> 00:11:11,022 I can't guarantee the child will remain in the home. 125 00:11:11,879 --> 00:11:13,148 Your children need stability 126 00:11:13,172 --> 00:11:14,691 and at the moment, we haven't seen enough. 127 00:11:14,715 --> 00:11:15,901 What more do you need to see? 128 00:11:15,925 --> 00:11:18,195 Have you finished the housing application? 129 00:11:18,219 --> 00:11:19,220 Not yet. 130 00:11:19,261 --> 00:11:20,680 Look, we're here to ensure 131 00:11:20,763 --> 00:11:22,783 the best interests for your children. 132 00:11:22,807 --> 00:11:24,117 All you need are three more certificates... 133 00:11:24,141 --> 00:11:25,827 I don't need no fuckin' gold star 134 00:11:25,851 --> 00:11:27,436 to tell me I'm a good mom. 135 00:11:32,942 --> 00:11:34,586 If the courts require us to intervene, 136 00:11:34,610 --> 00:11:35,879 are there any other family members 137 00:11:35,903 --> 00:11:37,255 that can look after this child? 138 00:11:37,279 --> 00:11:38,715 - Someone we could recommend? - 'Cause I got no choice, 139 00:11:38,739 --> 00:11:40,616 but to be a single parent. 140 00:11:40,658 --> 00:11:42,052 I'm getting punished for that too? 141 00:11:42,076 --> 00:11:45,371 Gia, I don't need your disrespect in my office. 142 00:11:45,955 --> 00:11:47,748 Now, if you don't mind? 143 00:12:17,445 --> 00:12:18,779 Oh. 144 00:12:25,703 --> 00:12:28,372 I swear his little ass gonna come early. 145 00:12:30,166 --> 00:12:32,626 Okay. How was it? 146 00:12:32,710 --> 00:12:34,003 Talk to me. 147 00:12:35,212 --> 00:12:36,505 It's draining. 148 00:12:38,340 --> 00:12:40,176 You'll get 'em back, G. 149 00:12:40,926 --> 00:12:43,846 That's not what my caseworker saying. 150 00:12:43,888 --> 00:12:46,807 Don't listen to what your caseworker said. 151 00:12:46,849 --> 00:12:49,518 Miss C got her kids back after how long? 152 00:12:49,602 --> 00:12:51,061 Twenty-four months? 153 00:12:51,687 --> 00:12:54,273 Wouldn't you rather that than nothing at all? 154 00:12:54,315 --> 00:12:56,734 Sometimes that's just how this shit work. 155 00:12:56,776 --> 00:13:00,362 You got to play their game. And do what you got to do. 156 00:13:03,073 --> 00:13:06,327 I got some tacos. 157 00:13:11,207 --> 00:13:12,750 Hey, boo. 158 00:13:12,833 --> 00:13:16,003 Man, there's like 30 condoms in here. 159 00:13:18,714 --> 00:13:20,883 Well, well, well. 160 00:13:22,051 --> 00:13:24,261 You real slick, Miss C. 161 00:13:24,345 --> 00:13:25,554 Yeah. Thank you, Jesus. 162 00:13:25,596 --> 00:13:27,073 Miss Carmen, what you trying to say today? 163 00:13:27,097 --> 00:13:29,201 I mean, damn, how much fucking you think 164 00:13:29,225 --> 00:13:30,827 we about to be doing, Miss Carmen? 165 00:13:30,851 --> 00:13:32,037 That part. 166 00:13:32,061 --> 00:13:34,039 No, maintain family size, remember that. 167 00:13:34,063 --> 00:13:36,649 I mean, I can try to help you get your kids back home, 168 00:13:36,690 --> 00:13:38,919 but I can't if you keep multiplying the household. 169 00:13:38,943 --> 00:13:40,504 - Oh, okay, because... - All right, 170 00:13:40,528 --> 00:13:41,779 let's get going here. 171 00:13:46,742 --> 00:13:47,886 How do you think 172 00:13:47,910 --> 00:13:50,538 she feels, when you call her "Mom"? 173 00:13:50,621 --> 00:13:54,208 Can't tell if she's disappointed 174 00:13:55,000 --> 00:13:57,878 or embarrassed by me. 175 00:13:59,797 --> 00:14:02,216 She has that blank look on her face. 176 00:14:02,675 --> 00:14:04,260 Just ices me. 177 00:14:06,428 --> 00:14:08,681 It's as if me being there 178 00:14:08,722 --> 00:14:11,225 makes her feel worse about herself. 179 00:14:12,393 --> 00:14:15,062 At the end of the day, that's my mama. 180 00:14:16,188 --> 00:14:18,566 And that's gonna always be my mama. 181 00:14:21,235 --> 00:14:24,947 But you can't choose your parents... You know? 182 00:14:27,241 --> 00:14:28,576 So... 183 00:14:30,369 --> 00:14:31,579 it is what it is. 184 00:14:32,872 --> 00:14:36,417 Do you think speaking to her 185 00:14:37,668 --> 00:14:40,129 about how you feel would help? 186 00:14:44,341 --> 00:14:45,593 No, I don't. 187 00:14:46,844 --> 00:14:48,262 She's busy. 188 00:14:54,435 --> 00:14:59,607 Her addiction created an anxiety inside me. 189 00:15:00,983 --> 00:15:02,443 And, um... 190 00:15:03,444 --> 00:15:06,572 That anxiety has been passed down to my child. 191 00:15:08,782 --> 00:15:11,285 And I don't know how to save her from it. 192 00:15:14,622 --> 00:15:16,498 I'm scared to lose her to it. 193 00:15:18,834 --> 00:15:22,588 Instead of healing, I ignored it. 194 00:15:22,963 --> 00:15:24,465 Covered it up. 195 00:15:26,759 --> 00:15:28,594 Used substances, 196 00:15:29,053 --> 00:15:30,638 so I wouldn't feel. 197 00:15:32,348 --> 00:15:36,977 I used so much that when I stopped, I had to learn 198 00:15:37,561 --> 00:15:39,605 how to feel again. 199 00:15:42,524 --> 00:15:44,151 It's not easy. 200 00:15:52,826 --> 00:15:54,286 Gia. 201 00:15:55,621 --> 00:15:57,289 What about you? 202 00:16:03,087 --> 00:16:04,546 No? 203 00:16:06,799 --> 00:16:08,092 Okay. 204 00:16:08,133 --> 00:16:09,843 When you're ready. 205 00:16:09,885 --> 00:16:11,363 Well, we have someone new here today. 206 00:16:11,387 --> 00:16:14,306 Why don't you come up and introduce yourself? 207 00:16:19,645 --> 00:16:21,772 Hi, I'm... I'm Alexis. 208 00:16:21,855 --> 00:16:26,318 Um, I'm from Fresno, California, originally. 209 00:16:27,611 --> 00:16:28,862 And... 210 00:16:30,155 --> 00:16:31,549 There's nothing like a rambling-ass 211 00:16:31,573 --> 00:16:33,117 white bitch to piss me off. 212 00:16:33,158 --> 00:16:35,577 Gia, I don't get why you act like that. 213 00:16:37,121 --> 00:16:39,039 Act like what? 214 00:16:39,123 --> 00:16:41,226 You got to start speaking up in class. 215 00:16:41,250 --> 00:16:42,978 And pretend, like, you paying attention 216 00:16:43,002 --> 00:16:44,854 or these people gonna write you up. 217 00:16:44,878 --> 00:16:46,147 And you know that's the only way 218 00:16:46,171 --> 00:16:48,291 your court report is gonna change. 219 00:16:51,051 --> 00:16:52,862 I'm just trying to help you out. 220 00:16:52,886 --> 00:16:54,304 Well, you're not. 221 00:17:01,603 --> 00:17:03,188 What are you smiling at? 222 00:17:03,230 --> 00:17:05,566 Nothing. 223 00:17:05,607 --> 00:17:07,109 He's dumb. 224 00:17:08,610 --> 00:17:09,778 Nobody? 225 00:17:10,029 --> 00:17:12,448 No. Nobody. 226 00:17:13,991 --> 00:17:16,177 I don't know why you're being all shy. 227 00:17:16,201 --> 00:17:18,245 I'm not. 228 00:17:19,663 --> 00:17:21,623 How long? 229 00:17:23,250 --> 00:17:26,003 Uh, probably about 12 inches. 230 00:17:26,045 --> 00:17:29,006 I ain't even gonna hold you. 231 00:17:29,089 --> 00:17:31,925 For real, though. How long you been talking to him? 232 00:17:31,967 --> 00:17:34,029 It's been, like, a couple of months. 233 00:17:34,053 --> 00:17:36,114 A couple of months and you ain't told me shit? 234 00:17:36,138 --> 00:17:40,267 Yes, a couple of months, 'cause I don't need you judging me. 235 00:17:41,727 --> 00:17:42,811 Whatever. 236 00:17:44,354 --> 00:17:46,791 Whoever it is, just make sure they don't leave you hanging 237 00:17:46,815 --> 00:17:48,317 like the last one. 238 00:17:48,692 --> 00:17:50,069 Damn! 239 00:17:50,110 --> 00:17:52,213 This is exactly why I don't tell you nothing, Gia. 240 00:17:52,237 --> 00:17:54,174 Because you don't trust nobody. 241 00:17:54,198 --> 00:17:55,365 You're right. I don't. 242 00:17:55,449 --> 00:17:56,968 Eventually, you're gonna meet a real one 243 00:17:56,992 --> 00:17:59,054 and realize not every man is a nigga. 244 00:17:59,078 --> 00:18:01,038 Right. 245 00:18:01,080 --> 00:18:04,750 I just think right now, you're just too tense. 246 00:18:04,792 --> 00:18:07,169 You just need to be gripped up, 247 00:18:07,211 --> 00:18:09,588 flipped over, clapped. 248 00:18:09,630 --> 00:18:13,133 And thrashed. Like, relax. 249 00:18:13,217 --> 00:18:14,903 No thanks. 250 00:18:14,927 --> 00:18:16,571 I'd rather be single for the rest of my life. 251 00:18:16,595 --> 00:18:18,972 At least I know what to expect, then. 252 00:18:20,641 --> 00:18:21,785 Now, you and I both know 253 00:18:21,809 --> 00:18:23,703 that's some depressing-ass shit. 254 00:18:23,727 --> 00:18:25,187 Stop, please. 255 00:18:25,229 --> 00:18:27,523 I'm serious. 256 00:18:27,606 --> 00:18:30,150 It's the last mistake that I wanna make. 257 00:18:31,026 --> 00:18:33,695 Look, friend, it's not even a mistake. 258 00:18:33,737 --> 00:18:37,866 God was just looking down and wanted to bless your ass. 259 00:18:42,538 --> 00:18:44,849 But he need to be blessing you with a new car. 260 00:18:44,873 --> 00:18:47,073 This shit raggedy as hell. 261 00:18:50,754 --> 00:18:52,131 You ready? 262 00:18:52,214 --> 00:18:55,259 Three... 263 00:18:55,342 --> 00:18:57,112 - Hey, ma, check it out. - Yeah. 264 00:18:57,136 --> 00:18:58,696 Yeah, I know you went shopping for me, though. 265 00:18:58,720 --> 00:19:00,573 Hold on, listen. That's a new, little top you wearing? 266 00:19:00,597 --> 00:19:02,492 Why are you always looking like that? 267 00:19:02,516 --> 00:19:04,327 - No, I'm cool. - You sure, Mama? 268 00:19:04,351 --> 00:19:05,477 Yeah, I'm good. 269 00:19:05,519 --> 00:19:07,080 At least smile for somebody. 270 00:19:07,104 --> 00:19:08,581 You know damn well she don't never smile 271 00:19:08,605 --> 00:19:10,083 - with her mean ass. - Hella boosie though. 272 00:19:10,107 --> 00:19:11,334 Always trippin' and shit. 273 00:19:11,358 --> 00:19:12,877 All right, just... Just chill, man. 274 00:19:12,901 --> 00:19:14,170 Chill, bruh. Ya'll hella hyphy. 275 00:19:14,194 --> 00:19:15,672 Nah, man. Hey, check it out. 276 00:19:15,696 --> 00:19:17,423 It's always something with these females. 277 00:19:17,447 --> 00:19:18,716 Got a janky attitude. 278 00:19:18,740 --> 00:19:20,593 Take a long walk off a short bridge... 279 00:19:20,617 --> 00:19:22,512 Ooh, look back at it again. With an ass like that. 280 00:19:22,536 --> 00:19:24,180 - Like that. - Yeah, man. 281 00:19:24,204 --> 00:19:26,224 You peeking but you ain't speaking though. 282 00:19:27,916 --> 00:19:29,602 Stop playin' with them, bro. 283 00:19:29,626 --> 00:19:30,979 I just want to see if you want to hit 284 00:19:31,003 --> 00:19:32,254 the bottle or not. 285 00:19:32,296 --> 00:19:33,648 Why you actin' like you don't know nobody? 286 00:19:33,672 --> 00:19:35,832 - Kick rocks. - You know what? 287 00:19:36,133 --> 00:19:37,902 You're always talking a lot of shit 288 00:19:37,926 --> 00:19:39,320 for a bunch of little-assed niggas 289 00:19:39,344 --> 00:19:42,139 - who ain't getting no pussy. - Uh-uh. 290 00:19:42,181 --> 00:19:44,075 - With them dusty-assed dicks. - Oh. 291 00:19:44,099 --> 00:19:46,077 Nigga's just trying to love you, girl. 292 00:19:46,101 --> 00:19:47,704 - She talking to you. - She ain't talking to me. 293 00:19:47,728 --> 00:19:50,355 She talkin' to y'all. I don't know what you talkin' about. 294 00:19:51,315 --> 00:19:53,025 They always talking shit. 295 00:19:58,071 --> 00:20:00,824 You see they got new partners now, right? 296 00:20:00,866 --> 00:20:01,992 Cute? 297 00:20:02,075 --> 00:20:03,845 - Not your type. - And what's my type? 298 00:20:03,869 --> 00:20:05,909 Niggas with money. 299 00:20:05,954 --> 00:20:08,457 - I missed you, babe. - I miss you. 300 00:20:11,126 --> 00:20:12,628 Let me see, G. 301 00:20:16,048 --> 00:20:19,092 Shit, already this too much for me? 302 00:20:19,176 --> 00:20:22,262 I love you, but you're on your own with this one, girl. 303 00:20:22,763 --> 00:20:23,931 I'm out. 304 00:20:26,391 --> 00:20:29,019 Hey, sis. 305 00:20:29,061 --> 00:20:31,039 I'm gonna need the car tomorrow. 306 00:20:31,063 --> 00:20:33,315 Keys and stereo in the front. 307 00:20:34,942 --> 00:20:37,102 You're probably gonna need this. 308 00:20:38,320 --> 00:20:39,655 Thank you. 309 00:21:09,059 --> 00:21:10,602 You good? 310 00:21:11,144 --> 00:21:12,479 Yeah. 311 00:21:17,818 --> 00:21:19,361 Shit. 312 00:21:24,616 --> 00:21:26,776 Hey, what you need? 313 00:21:27,411 --> 00:21:30,414 I got you for 90. Where you at? 314 00:21:30,455 --> 00:21:32,392 The mother sacrifices herself 315 00:21:32,416 --> 00:21:36,044 by laying into her children and pressing against the web, 316 00:21:36,128 --> 00:21:38,505 encouraging their instinct to hunt. 317 00:21:39,423 --> 00:21:42,843 The baby spiders then swarm over their mother... 318 00:21:44,219 --> 00:21:47,681 up to 3,500 years. 319 00:21:48,265 --> 00:21:50,684 From this fallen redwood, 320 00:21:51,184 --> 00:21:53,020 new sprouts grow. 321 00:21:54,104 --> 00:21:56,148 These twisted knots of wood 322 00:21:56,231 --> 00:21:58,358 nourish a vast root system 323 00:21:58,400 --> 00:22:03,363 that has spanned generations and generations of human life. 324 00:23:05,550 --> 00:23:08,595 Okay, good. 325 00:23:08,929 --> 00:23:10,472 How about the dress? 326 00:23:11,139 --> 00:23:12,557 All right. 327 00:23:13,308 --> 00:23:15,811 I'mma get you. 328 00:23:28,365 --> 00:23:30,158 She's dead. 329 00:23:30,867 --> 00:23:35,664 Just been tryna figure it out. 330 00:23:36,456 --> 00:23:38,458 They took 'em last year. 331 00:23:39,584 --> 00:23:41,545 - Oh, man. - So... 332 00:23:41,628 --> 00:23:42,897 - You know. - Yeah. 333 00:23:42,921 --> 00:23:45,241 What about you, though? Where you been? 334 00:23:45,841 --> 00:23:48,802 - San Jo. - Feel like it's been forever. 335 00:23:49,886 --> 00:23:51,221 Yeah. 336 00:23:51,263 --> 00:23:53,282 Well, I was supposed to come back but, uh, 337 00:23:53,306 --> 00:23:55,183 well, Moms got sick. 338 00:23:55,976 --> 00:23:57,477 Damn, she all right? 339 00:23:59,104 --> 00:24:00,647 Mm... 340 00:24:01,314 --> 00:24:02,983 About a month ago... 341 00:24:04,484 --> 00:24:07,946 I went out a little later than usual. 342 00:24:07,988 --> 00:24:09,698 And, yeah, the next day, 343 00:24:09,781 --> 00:24:13,410 I woke up, lined up her meds, 344 00:24:13,452 --> 00:24:15,745 and walked in the room 345 00:24:15,829 --> 00:24:19,666 and she was completely still, face down on the pillow. 346 00:24:23,920 --> 00:24:25,172 So I came back. 347 00:24:27,132 --> 00:24:28,550 Are you all right? 348 00:24:31,094 --> 00:24:33,054 - Yeah. - Are you sure? 349 00:24:34,639 --> 00:24:37,684 Short and his girl let me in, so... 350 00:24:39,769 --> 00:24:41,706 What you doing Saturday, Mama? 351 00:24:41,730 --> 00:24:43,356 I don't know. What's up? 352 00:24:43,398 --> 00:24:45,042 I think there's gonna be a function. 353 00:24:45,066 --> 00:24:46,401 Do you wanna come? 354 00:24:46,485 --> 00:24:47,694 Maybe. We'll see. 355 00:24:47,736 --> 00:24:50,197 Well, I'll be around. Let me know. 356 00:24:50,280 --> 00:24:51,698 All right. 357 00:24:53,575 --> 00:24:55,702 - Thanks. - Mm-hm. 358 00:25:17,599 --> 00:25:19,226 I like your dress. 359 00:25:19,935 --> 00:25:21,186 Thank you. 360 00:25:30,445 --> 00:25:32,072 What do you think about this? 361 00:25:32,822 --> 00:25:35,158 Yeah, I like that. 362 00:25:35,242 --> 00:25:37,202 Okay, red one it is. 363 00:25:40,539 --> 00:25:43,291 - Yeah, I like that one. - Okay. 364 00:26:05,605 --> 00:26:07,816 Okay, come on in, sis. 365 00:26:09,317 --> 00:26:10,586 We're just gonna have you 366 00:26:10,610 --> 00:26:11,570 right in the center. 367 00:26:11,611 --> 00:26:13,113 You can come forward. 368 00:26:14,030 --> 00:26:15,740 Okay. Good. 369 00:26:19,369 --> 00:26:21,830 Gonna have you place your hands like this. 370 00:26:21,913 --> 00:26:25,083 Okay? No pressure, but just... Nice. 371 00:26:25,166 --> 00:26:28,086 Come on in. I'm gonna have you on this side. 372 00:26:30,213 --> 00:26:31,798 Maybe a hand here. 373 00:26:33,300 --> 00:26:36,344 Hmm, never mind. Come. 374 00:26:37,721 --> 00:26:39,264 This one here. 375 00:26:40,140 --> 00:26:42,976 Do whatever makes you feel comfortable, okay? 376 00:26:45,312 --> 00:26:47,147 Why don't you just ask him? 377 00:26:48,773 --> 00:26:50,609 I hate begging. 378 00:26:50,692 --> 00:26:51,877 I don't think it's begging. 379 00:26:51,901 --> 00:26:54,863 I mean, you work here 15 hours a week. 380 00:26:56,239 --> 00:26:58,033 You should be honest. 381 00:26:58,074 --> 00:27:00,994 He's not gonna deny you when you're this pregnant. 382 00:27:02,912 --> 00:27:04,832 - We'll see. - We'll see. 383 00:27:05,999 --> 00:27:07,125 Okay. 384 00:27:08,001 --> 00:27:09,044 Hi. 385 00:27:12,005 --> 00:27:14,716 - Uh, we prefer cash. - I got you. 386 00:27:16,760 --> 00:27:17,969 So my friend over there? 387 00:27:18,053 --> 00:27:21,139 She think you're kind of cute, so what's up? 388 00:27:21,222 --> 00:27:23,850 Mm, okay. 389 00:27:25,560 --> 00:27:28,355 - What's her name? - Her name Naia. 390 00:27:29,522 --> 00:27:32,859 Beautiful. 391 00:27:37,280 --> 00:27:39,407 Hey. Hi. 392 00:27:39,741 --> 00:27:42,494 Um, I was just wondering 393 00:27:42,577 --> 00:27:45,914 is there any way I could get a $100 advance? 394 00:27:47,040 --> 00:27:48,601 I just don't want my baby coming out 395 00:27:48,625 --> 00:27:50,418 with no clothes or nothing. 396 00:27:51,252 --> 00:27:52,420 Please? 397 00:29:04,033 --> 00:29:06,137 I can't believe it. Is that your stroller? 398 00:29:06,161 --> 00:29:07,638 The grey one? Yeah. Why? 399 00:29:07,662 --> 00:29:08,764 That woman just took something 400 00:29:08,788 --> 00:29:09,890 out of the back of it. 401 00:29:09,914 --> 00:29:11,954 - Really? - Yeah. 402 00:29:15,920 --> 00:29:17,505 Excuse me? 403 00:29:18,631 --> 00:29:20,216 Excuse me. 404 00:29:20,633 --> 00:29:22,177 Hello, ma'am. 405 00:29:22,510 --> 00:29:24,137 Excuse me. 406 00:29:25,305 --> 00:29:26,473 Stop. 407 00:29:26,556 --> 00:29:28,308 Are you fucking kidding me? 408 00:29:36,149 --> 00:29:37,317 Hey! 409 00:30:04,010 --> 00:30:05,170 Oh, fuck. 410 00:30:30,703 --> 00:30:33,414 You saw I snuck you some extra taquitos? 411 00:30:35,333 --> 00:30:36,501 You're welcome, bitch. 412 00:30:39,921 --> 00:30:41,589 In this program, 413 00:30:41,673 --> 00:30:44,843 we focus on your anxiety and why it results 414 00:30:44,884 --> 00:30:48,137 in uncontrollable impulse reactions. 415 00:30:48,179 --> 00:30:51,266 Because addicts must recognize their triggers 416 00:30:51,349 --> 00:30:55,603 if they want to take back control of their lives. 417 00:30:55,645 --> 00:30:57,706 I've seen most of you here before. 418 00:30:57,730 --> 00:30:59,607 And some of you are new. 419 00:30:59,691 --> 00:31:03,987 And I've seen you make the same mistakes. 420 00:31:04,028 --> 00:31:06,948 But the truth is you won't be able to graduate 421 00:31:07,031 --> 00:31:10,618 from this program unless you start to practice self-control. 422 00:31:10,660 --> 00:31:12,078 Talia. 423 00:31:23,798 --> 00:31:25,133 Forty-six. 424 00:31:31,806 --> 00:31:34,142 - What's your name? - Gia Wilson. 425 00:32:23,483 --> 00:32:26,986 Make another line, curve it again. 426 00:32:27,070 --> 00:32:28,631 And then 427 00:32:28,655 --> 00:32:30,448 you use the yellow. 428 00:32:31,783 --> 00:32:33,534 Swirl it around. 429 00:32:33,618 --> 00:32:35,328 And use the green. 430 00:32:51,052 --> 00:32:55,014 Imagine lowering yourself into the earth. 431 00:32:57,183 --> 00:33:00,186 The people around you 432 00:33:01,479 --> 00:33:02,730 supporting you. 433 00:33:04,190 --> 00:33:06,484 That thought running in your head? 434 00:33:10,405 --> 00:33:11,531 It's okay. 435 00:33:15,368 --> 00:33:18,746 It's not driving. You are. You're driving. 436 00:33:19,831 --> 00:33:21,958 And then, this bitch had the nerve 437 00:33:22,000 --> 00:33:24,585 to tell me to take the placenta 438 00:33:25,253 --> 00:33:26,963 and digest it as pills. 439 00:33:27,005 --> 00:33:28,399 - The fuck? - Oh. 440 00:33:28,423 --> 00:33:30,776 Isn't it supposed to be good for your system? 441 00:33:30,800 --> 00:33:32,135 That's some white people shit. 442 00:33:32,176 --> 00:33:34,405 Well, I bet you all our ancestors did it. 443 00:33:34,429 --> 00:33:36,573 My nana told me to bury it outside the house. 444 00:33:36,597 --> 00:33:39,077 It's like getting rid of an evil twin or some shit. 445 00:33:39,142 --> 00:33:40,744 Do you hear this shit? 446 00:33:40,768 --> 00:33:42,895 No. That is disgusting. 447 00:33:45,231 --> 00:33:48,234 Have you ever helped anybody with an open adoption? 448 00:33:49,444 --> 00:33:50,570 I have. 449 00:33:51,988 --> 00:33:55,742 And for some people, it's the best of both worlds. 450 00:33:55,783 --> 00:33:59,412 Finding a safe place for your kids 451 00:33:59,495 --> 00:34:01,873 and also being able to see them. 452 00:34:01,914 --> 00:34:05,793 But obviously, that's not an easy decision. 453 00:34:07,086 --> 00:34:08,421 No shit. 454 00:34:10,006 --> 00:34:12,300 And it can be difficult for some parents. 455 00:34:12,341 --> 00:34:14,427 You know, it's very hard to find 456 00:34:14,844 --> 00:34:16,596 parents willing to do them. 457 00:34:17,221 --> 00:34:20,141 - Why? - Hm. 458 00:34:21,142 --> 00:34:22,351 Um, okay. 459 00:34:22,435 --> 00:34:24,979 Nowadays, a lot of people go overseas. 460 00:34:25,063 --> 00:34:27,315 Over there, bam, it's guaranteed. 461 00:34:27,815 --> 00:34:29,484 They come back over here. 462 00:34:30,568 --> 00:34:33,279 Birth mothers, you know, 463 00:34:33,362 --> 00:34:36,616 they often back out last minute. 464 00:34:38,659 --> 00:34:42,497 But you don't need to make a decision straight away. 465 00:34:42,580 --> 00:34:45,708 You can see some of the family, see if you like 'em. 466 00:34:50,338 --> 00:34:53,341 It's not that I don't want this baby, Miss Carmen. 467 00:34:54,759 --> 00:34:56,135 I know. 468 00:34:56,636 --> 00:34:58,262 I don't think you do. 469 00:35:00,640 --> 00:35:01,766 I do. 470 00:35:04,102 --> 00:35:05,746 You do not have to 471 00:35:05,770 --> 00:35:07,814 tell me that, Gia. 472 00:35:09,232 --> 00:35:10,691 I love them. 473 00:35:12,110 --> 00:35:13,190 Of course, you do. 474 00:35:13,236 --> 00:35:14,463 I don't even know them yet. 475 00:35:14,487 --> 00:35:16,823 And I love them. I really love them. 476 00:35:23,746 --> 00:35:25,456 Hey. 477 00:35:26,165 --> 00:35:29,919 Why don't you meet some of the families, 478 00:35:30,002 --> 00:35:31,671 take a look at 'em? 479 00:35:55,153 --> 00:35:56,571 They all white? 480 00:35:58,823 --> 00:36:01,242 No, they not all white. 481 00:36:01,909 --> 00:36:03,244 Keep going. 482 00:36:04,287 --> 00:36:08,166 You know, we could choose a few and then 483 00:36:08,207 --> 00:36:10,269 maybe we could meet 'em in person. 484 00:36:10,293 --> 00:36:11,711 I don't know. 485 00:36:11,794 --> 00:36:13,254 It's kind of weird. 486 00:36:15,173 --> 00:36:17,842 I'll let you know. 487 00:36:20,511 --> 00:36:22,763 - See you later. - Mm-hm. 488 00:36:37,278 --> 00:36:38,905 What's up? 489 00:36:40,531 --> 00:36:42,617 I see you warmin' up to Miss C? 490 00:36:45,953 --> 00:36:47,413 Gia, listen to me. 491 00:36:48,539 --> 00:36:51,459 There's a lot of people expecting us to fail. 492 00:36:52,585 --> 00:36:56,088 My whole life, I had shit taken away from me. 493 00:36:56,589 --> 00:36:58,799 They tried to take our culture. 494 00:36:58,841 --> 00:37:00,843 They tried to take our homes. 495 00:37:00,885 --> 00:37:02,595 Tried to take our freedom. 496 00:37:04,222 --> 00:37:06,807 And you know they'll try to take our babies, too. 497 00:37:08,392 --> 00:37:10,537 Same shit that's happening to us right now 498 00:37:10,561 --> 00:37:13,981 happened to your mama, happened to my mama 499 00:37:14,023 --> 00:37:15,816 and it happened to they mamas. 500 00:37:18,194 --> 00:37:21,822 That's exactly why we can't stop fighting for our kids, G. 501 00:37:23,950 --> 00:37:28,329 It's our God-given right to have our kids. 502 00:37:31,374 --> 00:37:32,643 And I don't want you to allow 503 00:37:32,667 --> 00:37:35,461 anybody to convince you otherwise. 504 00:37:37,380 --> 00:37:39,460 I'm going to show you something. 505 00:37:42,468 --> 00:37:46,764 "For I know the plans I have for you, ' declares the Lord, 506 00:37:46,806 --> 00:37:50,476 "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, 507 00:37:50,518 --> 00:37:53,813 "plans to give you hope and a future." 508 00:37:56,691 --> 00:37:57,858 How do you know? 509 00:37:58,651 --> 00:38:00,194 How I know what? 510 00:38:00,236 --> 00:38:02,780 How do you know God plans for all of this? 511 00:38:04,365 --> 00:38:07,118 'Cause God gives his toughest battles 512 00:38:07,201 --> 00:38:08,995 to his toughest children. 513 00:38:45,364 --> 00:38:46,949 We used to be a team. 514 00:38:47,700 --> 00:38:50,661 Yeah, but you wanted to be the next Sprewell. 515 00:38:53,039 --> 00:38:55,374 I just never liked the idea 516 00:38:55,458 --> 00:38:57,626 of being in a women's league. 517 00:38:57,668 --> 00:39:00,254 Like, what the fuck is that? 518 00:39:00,296 --> 00:39:01,422 Right. 519 00:39:01,505 --> 00:39:03,985 Could body up any of them 'lil niggas in our class. 520 00:39:04,050 --> 00:39:06,090 Any day. 521 00:39:08,137 --> 00:39:09,221 Hold up, okay? 522 00:39:09,305 --> 00:39:10,598 Okay. 523 00:39:12,850 --> 00:39:14,453 - Thank you. - Mm-hm. 524 00:39:14,477 --> 00:39:16,797 Your balance is 96 cents. 525 00:39:16,854 --> 00:39:18,439 Make a payment. 526 00:39:19,690 --> 00:39:20,690 Hello? 527 00:39:24,070 --> 00:39:25,446 Hello? 528 00:39:28,908 --> 00:39:30,076 Trey? 529 00:39:31,452 --> 00:39:32,536 Is that you? 530 00:39:32,620 --> 00:39:35,414 I want you to pick me up. 531 00:39:36,207 --> 00:39:37,559 What's going on? Is everything okay? 532 00:39:37,583 --> 00:39:40,252 - What they do? - I don't know. 533 00:39:40,336 --> 00:39:42,129 When can we come home? 534 00:39:42,213 --> 00:39:43,798 I don't know, Trey. 535 00:39:44,340 --> 00:39:45,633 Soon. 536 00:39:46,884 --> 00:39:48,094 I promise. 537 00:39:49,845 --> 00:39:51,097 How's school? 538 00:39:52,139 --> 00:39:53,432 Good. 539 00:39:53,974 --> 00:39:55,601 Did you do your homework? 540 00:39:56,644 --> 00:39:59,438 I did my English essay. 541 00:39:59,480 --> 00:40:00,981 So what'd you write about? 542 00:40:01,857 --> 00:40:03,150 The beach. 543 00:40:05,111 --> 00:40:06,362 Okay. 544 00:40:06,404 --> 00:40:08,884 Maybe when you get back, we can go back there, okay? 545 00:40:10,199 --> 00:40:11,492 Okay. 546 00:40:12,618 --> 00:40:13,994 Where's your sister? 547 00:40:15,329 --> 00:40:16,622 In bed. 548 00:40:17,039 --> 00:40:18,624 Did you give her the ring? 549 00:40:19,083 --> 00:40:20,167 Mm. 550 00:40:21,961 --> 00:40:23,129 What color is it? 551 00:40:24,296 --> 00:40:28,217 I think it's dark blue or black. 552 00:40:28,300 --> 00:40:29,844 I'm not sure. 553 00:40:30,511 --> 00:40:31,971 It's okay. 554 00:40:34,473 --> 00:40:35,700 Why don't you get in bed, okay? 555 00:40:35,724 --> 00:40:37,810 Just pretend that I'm there. 556 00:40:38,978 --> 00:40:40,563 Okay... 557 00:40:40,646 --> 00:40:43,774 You want to hear that song? Help you get to sleep, too? 558 00:40:44,942 --> 00:40:46,193 Hmm. Yes. 559 00:40:47,153 --> 00:40:48,529 Okay. 560 00:41:11,093 --> 00:41:13,721 Kiss me each morning 561 00:41:14,555 --> 00:41:19,185 For a million years 562 00:41:21,645 --> 00:41:24,648 Hold me each evening 563 00:41:24,732 --> 00:41:27,860 By your side 564 00:41:32,239 --> 00:41:35,326 Tell me you'll love me 565 00:41:35,367 --> 00:41:40,080 For a million, a million years 566 00:41:41,582 --> 00:41:43,000 You sleep? 567 00:41:49,173 --> 00:41:50,549 Love you. 568 00:43:05,416 --> 00:43:07,018 Do you have a name yet? 569 00:43:07,042 --> 00:43:08,770 - We have some ideas. - We kind of want to 570 00:43:08,794 --> 00:43:11,130 wait till we see him to decide his name. 571 00:43:11,839 --> 00:43:14,039 That makes sense, yeah. 572 00:43:25,769 --> 00:43:27,872 You two have a beautiful family. 573 00:43:27,896 --> 00:43:29,982 - Thank you. - Yeah. 574 00:43:31,567 --> 00:43:33,193 What you have is rare. 575 00:43:33,235 --> 00:43:34,486 Right on, man. 576 00:43:35,112 --> 00:43:36,965 Well, trust me, we see a lot in here. 577 00:43:36,989 --> 00:43:39,029 - Appreciate y'all. - All right. 578 00:43:58,636 --> 00:44:02,348 I think it'd be okay if you wanted to eat something now. 579 00:44:03,057 --> 00:44:04,308 I'll wait. 580 00:44:04,850 --> 00:44:06,894 What you hungry for? 581 00:44:06,977 --> 00:44:10,898 Uh, probably the white sauce pasta and potato salad. 582 00:44:11,940 --> 00:44:13,484 I think I know her. 583 00:44:15,069 --> 00:44:17,613 I think that's the lady right there. 584 00:44:17,696 --> 00:44:20,282 Hey. Lovely to meet you. 585 00:44:20,366 --> 00:44:22,576 You, too. 586 00:44:22,618 --> 00:44:24,370 And this is Gia. 587 00:44:25,371 --> 00:44:27,164 - Hey. - Hi. 588 00:44:29,541 --> 00:44:30,810 - Hey. - Hey. 589 00:44:32,878 --> 00:44:35,923 Must be Amber. Oh, hey. 590 00:44:41,261 --> 00:44:43,055 We're so grateful to be here. 591 00:44:44,640 --> 00:44:45,700 Nice to meet you too. 592 00:44:45,724 --> 00:44:47,226 Nice to meet you, too. 593 00:44:48,018 --> 00:44:49,913 This weather is something else. 594 00:44:49,937 --> 00:44:52,981 - Would you like a water? - Yes, please. 595 00:44:53,023 --> 00:44:54,751 You want me to get you some of that... 596 00:44:54,775 --> 00:44:56,127 - What about you, Amber? - Alfredo from the buffet? 597 00:44:56,151 --> 00:44:57,587 - You want a bit of everything? - Thanks. 598 00:44:57,611 --> 00:44:59,464 - Yeah? Okay. - All right. 599 00:44:59,488 --> 00:45:01,907 - After you. - Thank you. 600 00:45:02,324 --> 00:45:03,826 I'm so sorry... 601 00:45:19,717 --> 00:45:21,802 Must be really hot for you. 602 00:45:22,511 --> 00:45:23,887 Yeah. 603 00:45:23,929 --> 00:45:25,597 It won't stop kicking, either. 604 00:45:25,639 --> 00:45:28,142 I think I got an athlete in there. 605 00:45:28,225 --> 00:45:32,271 - You play ball? - Yeah, but just JV. 606 00:45:32,312 --> 00:45:35,774 - What position? - Guard, but sometimes my coach 607 00:45:35,858 --> 00:45:37,943 switches me to forward, though. 608 00:45:38,569 --> 00:45:39,903 You play? 609 00:45:39,987 --> 00:45:43,407 I did. I just kept getting banged up. 610 00:45:43,490 --> 00:45:45,301 So skinny at your age. 611 00:45:45,325 --> 00:45:46,952 I just ended up quitting. 612 00:45:48,245 --> 00:45:49,455 You don't mind it? 613 00:45:49,872 --> 00:45:51,498 I don't like it much either, 614 00:45:51,540 --> 00:45:53,351 but I'm just trying to do whatever 615 00:45:53,375 --> 00:45:54,960 to get me to SF State. 616 00:45:55,043 --> 00:45:57,087 - That's good. - Yeah. 617 00:45:59,465 --> 00:46:00,734 You always wanted to go there? 618 00:46:00,758 --> 00:46:04,136 Well, my parents went there, so... 619 00:46:05,763 --> 00:46:07,931 I used to want to go there, too. 620 00:46:08,432 --> 00:46:09,516 Why didn't you? 621 00:46:10,392 --> 00:46:11,810 I had my son. 622 00:46:12,895 --> 00:46:14,688 You could still go. 623 00:46:14,730 --> 00:46:16,523 Just got different dreams now. 624 00:46:35,667 --> 00:46:37,395 So where are y'all from again? 625 00:46:37,419 --> 00:46:39,004 We live in Novato now. 626 00:46:39,087 --> 00:46:44,551 Not far from the high school on Rowland Drive but, uh... 627 00:46:45,719 --> 00:46:47,822 I grew up in Emeryville with my grandma. 628 00:46:47,846 --> 00:46:51,517 And I lived not far from the North Berkeley BART station. 629 00:46:52,476 --> 00:46:54,019 We met in college. 630 00:46:54,102 --> 00:46:55,705 Were both dating other people, 631 00:46:55,729 --> 00:46:59,399 but soon realized they weren't right for us, didn't we? 632 00:47:00,609 --> 00:47:02,378 She didn't leave me much choice. 633 00:47:04,696 --> 00:47:07,574 I got pregnant soon after that. 634 00:47:08,742 --> 00:47:13,038 We were young, but we had our friends, 635 00:47:13,121 --> 00:47:16,083 people who took care of her when we couldn't. 636 00:47:16,959 --> 00:47:19,586 We always wanted Amber to have a sibling, though. 637 00:47:19,628 --> 00:47:22,631 So we waited. 638 00:47:22,673 --> 00:47:25,300 Wanted to be in a good position 639 00:47:25,342 --> 00:47:26,927 for when we had another. 640 00:47:27,553 --> 00:47:29,471 Then, 641 00:47:29,555 --> 00:47:31,598 when we were finally ready, 642 00:47:32,766 --> 00:47:34,101 I couldn't. 643 00:47:35,060 --> 00:47:37,187 I, uh, 644 00:47:38,480 --> 00:47:40,107 didn't realize how lucky I was 645 00:47:40,148 --> 00:47:42,609 to have Amber at the time that I did. 646 00:47:42,651 --> 00:47:43,986 Mm. 647 00:47:44,027 --> 00:47:47,239 For the last four years, we've been trying to adopt. 648 00:47:47,865 --> 00:47:50,033 - It's a process. - Hm. 649 00:47:50,617 --> 00:47:51,785 Always is. 650 00:47:52,327 --> 00:47:54,389 Did you want to show her the, uh... 651 00:47:54,413 --> 00:47:56,039 Oh, yeah. 652 00:47:57,916 --> 00:48:01,879 I don't know if Trey and Shaynah 653 00:48:01,962 --> 00:48:04,131 are too old for this, but... 654 00:48:05,007 --> 00:48:07,217 Well, we thought it might be nice 655 00:48:07,259 --> 00:48:09,339 for the next time you see them. 656 00:48:10,262 --> 00:48:11,388 Um... 657 00:48:11,638 --> 00:48:12,973 Thank you. 658 00:48:13,348 --> 00:48:14,766 I'm sure they'll love it. 659 00:48:16,018 --> 00:48:17,704 It was Amber's idea, really. 660 00:48:17,728 --> 00:48:19,229 Mm. 661 00:48:19,271 --> 00:48:22,482 I would've loved to have an older sister like Amber. 662 00:48:30,157 --> 00:48:34,077 So, you live nearby here? 663 00:48:34,119 --> 00:48:36,496 No, not really, but... 664 00:48:39,041 --> 00:48:40,241 You're kind of out here. 665 00:48:40,292 --> 00:48:43,128 She's being private on that one. 666 00:48:43,211 --> 00:48:46,340 Amber, how's school going? 667 00:48:46,381 --> 00:48:48,067 - It's going good. Yeah. - Really? 668 00:48:48,091 --> 00:48:49,971 You're just saying that 'cause they're here now? 669 00:48:51,178 --> 00:48:52,471 Is she telling the truth? 670 00:48:52,512 --> 00:48:53,752 She's great, I mean, 671 00:48:53,805 --> 00:48:56,284 she's a lot brighter than I was when I was her age. 672 00:48:56,308 --> 00:48:57,785 She must get it from her mama. 673 00:48:57,809 --> 00:48:59,370 I don't know about that. 674 00:49:15,160 --> 00:49:16,536 So... 675 00:49:17,412 --> 00:49:18,538 What'd you think? 676 00:49:19,665 --> 00:49:21,667 I think they're great. 677 00:49:23,627 --> 00:49:24,711 Yeah? 678 00:49:26,046 --> 00:49:28,840 Amber, she's sweet. 679 00:49:28,924 --> 00:49:33,136 So you wanna meet other families, or you... 680 00:49:33,178 --> 00:49:35,430 - No? Right. - I don't think so. 681 00:49:36,014 --> 00:49:38,076 Because, you know, we don't have to do this 682 00:49:38,100 --> 00:49:39,685 if it doesn't feel right. 683 00:49:40,185 --> 00:49:41,687 Nah, it's not that. 684 00:49:44,898 --> 00:49:49,528 Maybe we can invite Monica 685 00:49:50,320 --> 00:49:53,532 to one of your doctor's appointments? 686 00:49:54,992 --> 00:49:56,719 Is that what's supposed to happen next? 687 00:49:56,743 --> 00:49:58,078 Yeah, sometimes. 688 00:49:58,120 --> 00:50:00,497 You know, we can play this however you want. 689 00:50:02,124 --> 00:50:04,376 There's no normal way to do this. 690 00:50:06,628 --> 00:50:08,213 When was your last checkup? 691 00:50:10,132 --> 00:50:11,550 I'm not sure. 692 00:50:11,591 --> 00:50:13,051 Maybe a couple months ago. 693 00:50:13,093 --> 00:50:16,263 Yeah. And they did the ultrasound? 694 00:50:16,722 --> 00:50:18,056 No, not yet. 695 00:50:19,516 --> 00:50:21,676 Don't you wanna hear the heartbeat? 696 00:50:22,394 --> 00:50:23,770 I do, I... 697 00:50:24,980 --> 00:50:27,691 I do, I just don't have insurance, so... 698 00:50:27,774 --> 00:50:29,854 No, no, I'll take care of that. 699 00:50:30,444 --> 00:50:33,572 We get you some Presumptive Eligibility. 700 00:50:35,365 --> 00:50:37,993 Yeah. We can go to our local clinic, you know. 701 00:50:38,035 --> 00:50:41,121 They take care of all my mamas. 702 00:50:43,415 --> 00:50:46,460 I know, I know it's not easy. 703 00:50:47,461 --> 00:50:51,214 But I promise you, it's a lot better than not going. 704 00:50:51,298 --> 00:50:53,425 Gotta make sure this baby 705 00:50:53,467 --> 00:50:58,430 has everything it needs to be healthy. 706 00:50:58,805 --> 00:50:59,973 You, too. 707 00:51:03,310 --> 00:51:05,470 What if I can get you in this week? 708 00:51:16,907 --> 00:51:19,451 Are you good, ma? 709 00:51:21,995 --> 00:51:25,540 Yo, Mama, those were people around. 710 00:51:25,582 --> 00:51:26,792 What? 711 00:51:26,875 --> 00:51:28,603 The ones poking through the windows. 712 00:51:28,627 --> 00:51:29,753 CPS? 713 00:51:30,128 --> 00:51:31,546 I guess so. 714 00:51:31,630 --> 00:51:32,798 What'd they do? 715 00:51:33,298 --> 00:51:34,841 Just kept knocking. 716 00:51:34,883 --> 00:51:36,218 No one was home. 717 00:51:36,301 --> 00:51:38,488 Good. I don't need them coming in before my hearing. 718 00:51:38,512 --> 00:51:40,531 Can't your sister help or something? 719 00:51:40,555 --> 00:51:42,325 If they found out how she make a living, 720 00:51:42,349 --> 00:51:44,035 I might never see my kids again. 721 00:51:44,059 --> 00:51:45,620 - Want to go? - All right. 722 00:51:54,027 --> 00:51:55,737 I never knew this was here. 723 00:51:55,946 --> 00:51:57,197 Yeah. 724 00:51:57,280 --> 00:52:00,659 We got the beach on one side and the forest on the other. 725 00:52:00,742 --> 00:52:02,494 And don't nobody even come. 726 00:52:03,328 --> 00:52:05,664 Except people trying to disappear. 727 00:52:16,133 --> 00:52:17,676 Why you don't answer? 728 00:52:17,759 --> 00:52:19,344 Ain't she your best friend? 729 00:52:21,638 --> 00:52:24,474 I'm thinkin' of givin' my baby up for adoption. 730 00:52:28,061 --> 00:52:30,897 And Trina, she be on some, 731 00:52:30,939 --> 00:52:33,358 "You siding with the devil" shit. 732 00:52:34,276 --> 00:52:36,194 Why she so obsessed with God? 733 00:52:37,362 --> 00:52:40,699 I don't know. Make her believe in herself more. 734 00:52:41,950 --> 00:52:43,243 I guess. 735 00:52:45,745 --> 00:52:47,622 Like, the way I'm feeling, 736 00:52:47,664 --> 00:52:50,959 at least this way, I know where she's going. 737 00:52:51,042 --> 00:52:53,162 And I can choose where she's going. 738 00:52:54,379 --> 00:52:58,925 I don't have to see my baby in a agency office. 739 00:53:00,719 --> 00:53:03,513 If the village ain't right, find a new one. 740 00:53:05,140 --> 00:53:06,701 I just want my kids to remember me 741 00:53:06,725 --> 00:53:07,934 as they grow older. 742 00:53:10,020 --> 00:53:11,563 Of course, they will. 743 00:53:12,772 --> 00:53:13,940 I'm not so sure. 744 00:53:14,983 --> 00:53:16,568 You'll always be their mama. 745 00:53:21,615 --> 00:53:23,217 And, you know, y'all got a way of doing that, 746 00:53:23,241 --> 00:53:26,286 just being there, even when you're not around. 747 00:53:27,162 --> 00:53:30,582 They just say shit like that to make it hurt less. 748 00:53:33,126 --> 00:53:36,129 Well, sometimes, uh, 749 00:53:36,213 --> 00:53:37,797 when I'm by myself, 750 00:53:39,382 --> 00:53:41,593 I feel a hand on my back. 751 00:53:41,635 --> 00:53:44,137 And I think I'm just tripping, you know? 752 00:53:44,179 --> 00:53:48,433 And then I realize it's just Moms, you know, 753 00:53:48,475 --> 00:53:51,269 letting me know that everything gonna be all good. 754 00:53:52,520 --> 00:53:54,689 Sound like some God shit to me. 755 00:53:54,773 --> 00:53:56,733 Nah, just spiritual. 756 00:53:58,944 --> 00:54:00,463 Same shit. 757 00:54:00,487 --> 00:54:02,989 Not at all. It's feelings, you know. 758 00:54:03,031 --> 00:54:05,450 Not some man-made law to live by. 759 00:54:07,118 --> 00:54:08,620 Does that comfort you? 760 00:54:09,120 --> 00:54:10,497 Yeah, somewhere. 761 00:54:23,426 --> 00:54:25,866 Hey, I wanna hear the story you wrote. 762 00:54:26,179 --> 00:54:27,681 For school? 763 00:54:27,722 --> 00:54:30,517 Mm-hm, that's the one you was tellin' me about, right? 764 00:54:31,851 --> 00:54:34,038 "When I lived with my mom, 765 00:54:34,062 --> 00:54:35,855 "we would go by the water. 766 00:54:35,939 --> 00:54:39,734 "Shaynah and me pretended we were kings and queens. 767 00:54:39,818 --> 00:54:44,906 "On our island, we found lots of silver., 768 00:54:44,990 --> 00:54:47,367 "I counted every piece. 769 00:54:47,450 --> 00:54:49,327 "We were rich. 770 00:54:49,369 --> 00:54:52,998 "Shaynah would dance in the leaves. 771 00:54:53,039 --> 00:54:57,752 "She loves the trees and how long the roots growed. 772 00:54:58,378 --> 00:55:03,758 "And when we were done, we'd lay on our throne, 773 00:55:03,842 --> 00:55:07,887 "and wait for Mama to come back for us." 774 00:55:11,141 --> 00:55:12,434 It's a great story. 775 00:55:12,517 --> 00:55:15,562 - Thank you. - Love it. Thank you. 776 00:55:20,859 --> 00:55:22,402 Do you want to read to us? 777 00:55:23,862 --> 00:55:25,172 - Okay, go 'head. - "The... 778 00:55:25,196 --> 00:55:28,408 "The mother bird stood 779 00:55:29,451 --> 00:55:32,495 "still un... 780 00:55:33,121 --> 00:55:39,544 "until her son came to her side." 781 00:55:40,587 --> 00:55:43,548 Good job. You want to keep going? 782 00:55:46,384 --> 00:55:47,844 "At... 783 00:55:48,928 --> 00:55:51,097 "At da..." 784 00:55:51,931 --> 00:55:53,516 Da-da-awn. 785 00:55:53,600 --> 00:56:01,066 "dawn that day, she had been feeding with him. 786 00:56:05,195 --> 00:56:09,407 "In the sil..." 787 00:56:09,491 --> 00:56:14,537 - Silent. - "...silent and fre... 788 00:56:14,579 --> 00:56:19,250 - "Fre..." Mmm. - Freshness. 789 00:56:19,292 --> 00:56:23,338 "freshness of the morning." 790 00:56:23,380 --> 00:56:24,714 Mm. 791 00:56:25,215 --> 00:56:26,549 Good job. 792 00:56:27,050 --> 00:56:28,635 Do you want to keep going? 793 00:56:30,595 --> 00:56:36,476 "Then... Then fain... 794 00:56:37,185 --> 00:56:39,813 Faintly. "faintly..." 795 00:56:49,823 --> 00:56:52,450 Let's see if we can have a power. 796 00:56:53,201 --> 00:56:55,537 Okay, one, two, three. 797 00:57:00,750 --> 00:57:02,961 See? 798 00:57:04,546 --> 00:57:05,922 That's good. 799 00:57:08,883 --> 00:57:11,219 It's the same color. It's crazy. 800 00:57:11,261 --> 00:57:13,096 Little purple and green. 801 00:57:22,689 --> 00:57:26,109 I won't let you guys down. I promise, okay? 802 00:59:04,541 --> 00:59:07,502 Probably, like, you know, 803 00:59:07,585 --> 00:59:09,438 five years old when they came in, and 804 00:59:09,462 --> 00:59:12,131 raided my mama house and took us. 805 00:59:13,049 --> 00:59:14,133 Yeah. 806 00:59:15,677 --> 00:59:17,762 I'll never forget that shit. 807 00:59:18,429 --> 00:59:19,931 I ain't understand it. 808 00:59:20,557 --> 00:59:24,102 From then on, it was just from house to house, 809 00:59:24,185 --> 00:59:25,436 group home to group home. 810 00:59:29,732 --> 00:59:32,110 You know, not having no stability. 811 00:59:33,069 --> 00:59:34,279 Really got to me. 812 00:59:36,406 --> 00:59:38,074 I might look tough, 813 00:59:39,534 --> 00:59:40,952 but, you know... 814 00:59:45,915 --> 00:59:48,018 I remember it like it was yesterday. 815 00:59:48,042 --> 00:59:51,838 My mom was holding me and this car just pulled up. 816 00:59:52,422 --> 00:59:53,715 They had suits on. 817 00:59:53,756 --> 00:59:56,156 They just grabbed me out of my mom's arms. 818 00:59:57,260 --> 00:59:59,429 Didn't say what's going on. 819 00:59:59,512 --> 01:00:00,888 Just, like, snatched me up 820 01:00:00,972 --> 01:00:03,412 like I'm being, like, abducted or something. 821 01:00:06,185 --> 01:00:08,896 From that day forward, my life ain't been the same. 822 01:00:08,980 --> 01:00:11,858 In and out of foster care, different ones, you know, 823 01:00:11,899 --> 01:00:14,086 and just wondering what's going on, what's happening. 824 01:00:14,110 --> 01:00:18,656 How'd it go from me being with my mom to total strangers? 825 01:00:25,288 --> 01:00:27,040 I just feel like... 826 01:00:28,458 --> 01:00:30,603 It just basically, like, broke me into pieces, 827 01:00:30,627 --> 01:00:32,211 you know, like... 828 01:00:38,926 --> 01:00:40,362 And, like, the shit I went through 829 01:00:40,386 --> 01:00:41,679 in those foster homes 830 01:00:41,721 --> 01:00:43,306 really put me on a bad path. 831 01:00:43,389 --> 01:00:47,393 And to this day, that's a path I still can't run from. 832 01:00:53,733 --> 01:00:55,068 But even through all that, 833 01:00:55,109 --> 01:00:57,390 I never once blamed my mom, you know. 834 01:02:45,094 --> 01:02:46,822 After the child is born 835 01:02:46,846 --> 01:02:49,682 the umbilical cord is snipped and clamped. 836 01:02:49,766 --> 01:02:52,810 Over the course of the baby's first five days of life, 837 01:02:52,894 --> 01:02:55,038 the cord dries out to a hard texture 838 01:02:55,062 --> 01:02:58,316 and shifts to a dark brown or black color. 839 01:02:58,900 --> 01:03:00,180 It's extremely important 840 01:03:00,234 --> 01:03:02,671 not to interfere with this natural process. 841 01:03:02,695 --> 01:03:05,198 Do not touch, cut or pull at the cord... 842 01:03:06,365 --> 01:03:08,552 as it could potentially harm the child. 843 01:03:10,787 --> 01:03:13,372 - Oh, hi. - Hey. 844 01:03:14,040 --> 01:03:16,125 - Hi. - Hi. 845 01:03:17,210 --> 01:03:18,377 Thank you. 846 01:03:22,882 --> 01:03:24,258 Where's everybody else? 847 01:03:24,342 --> 01:03:26,278 Oh, Amber and Paul wanted to come but... 848 01:03:26,302 --> 01:03:27,863 We just thought it would be best 849 01:03:27,887 --> 01:03:29,305 with Monica today. 850 01:03:29,764 --> 01:03:31,265 Maria Garcia. 851 01:03:31,307 --> 01:03:32,391 I see. 852 01:03:33,810 --> 01:03:35,228 How are you doing? 853 01:03:37,647 --> 01:03:39,767 I guess I'm just a little nervous. 854 01:03:40,858 --> 01:03:42,193 Hm. 855 01:03:44,320 --> 01:03:46,030 Well, what about you? 856 01:03:47,156 --> 01:03:48,241 Me, too. 857 01:03:50,451 --> 01:03:51,869 But excited. 858 01:03:56,374 --> 01:03:59,335 Thank you for inviting me. 859 01:04:06,050 --> 01:04:08,302 - Excuse me. - It's okay. 860 01:04:10,638 --> 01:04:11,889 Hey, Trina. 861 01:04:11,931 --> 01:04:13,283 What's up, G? Where you at? 862 01:04:13,307 --> 01:04:14,910 - The mall. - You want to tell me 863 01:04:14,934 --> 01:04:17,294 - why you been dodging me? - I'm not, I swear. 864 01:04:17,353 --> 01:04:18,145 Gia, come on. 865 01:04:18,187 --> 01:04:19,814 You know God's watching you. 866 01:04:19,897 --> 01:04:21,524 I'mma hit you after this. 867 01:04:27,864 --> 01:04:29,907 Gia? Gia Wilson? 868 01:04:37,582 --> 01:04:39,625 Bye. 869 01:04:41,002 --> 01:04:43,838 The bathroom is down the hall to the left. 870 01:04:43,921 --> 01:04:45,214 There's cups inside. 871 01:04:45,298 --> 01:04:47,150 Leave your sample on the counter. 872 01:04:47,174 --> 01:04:51,220 Then put this label on it. Then meet us in Room 3. 873 01:05:20,207 --> 01:05:22,519 And that... 874 01:05:22,543 --> 01:05:24,086 That's the heart. 875 01:06:26,774 --> 01:06:28,150 So your baby's head is down, 876 01:06:28,192 --> 01:06:30,253 and in good position for delivery. 877 01:06:30,277 --> 01:06:31,904 You're measuring 37 weeks now, 878 01:06:31,988 --> 01:06:34,132 which means your baby can come at any time. 879 01:06:34,156 --> 01:06:35,700 But it is healthy. 880 01:06:39,078 --> 01:06:40,496 Thank you. 881 01:06:40,997 --> 01:06:42,665 And here are your pics. 882 01:06:43,624 --> 01:06:44,667 One for you. 883 01:06:44,709 --> 01:06:46,103 - Thank you. - You're welcome. 884 01:06:46,127 --> 01:06:48,796 - Congratulations, ladies. - Mm-hm. 885 01:06:49,088 --> 01:06:50,297 Thank you. 886 01:06:50,381 --> 01:06:52,901 - Have a good day. - Have a good one. 887 01:06:54,468 --> 01:06:55,678 How you doing? 888 01:06:57,805 --> 01:06:59,306 I don't think I can do this. 889 01:06:59,348 --> 01:07:00,993 It's just... 890 01:07:01,017 --> 01:07:03,436 Well... it's okay. 891 01:07:03,894 --> 01:07:05,688 It's okay. 892 01:07:05,771 --> 01:07:07,791 I just don't want to let anybody down. 893 01:07:07,815 --> 01:07:09,251 Oh, no, no, you don't have to... 894 01:07:09,275 --> 01:07:11,444 You don't have to worry about that. 895 01:07:12,028 --> 01:07:13,446 I can't do this. 896 01:07:14,238 --> 01:07:16,866 Now, look, it's not a decision 897 01:07:17,324 --> 01:07:19,577 that you have to make today. 898 01:07:22,872 --> 01:07:24,373 I can't do this. 899 01:07:32,715 --> 01:07:33,799 Gia. 900 01:07:39,597 --> 01:07:40,765 Uh... 901 01:07:42,099 --> 01:07:43,434 One second. 902 01:07:50,941 --> 01:07:52,276 Gia. 903 01:07:55,613 --> 01:07:57,114 Um... 904 01:07:57,156 --> 01:07:59,658 - If she doesn't want to... - Oh, well... 905 01:08:43,327 --> 01:08:44,805 - What? - Can I get the keys? 906 01:08:44,829 --> 01:08:46,181 Man, nah, I'm busy. 907 01:08:46,205 --> 01:08:47,540 Ari, please? 908 01:08:48,332 --> 01:08:49,684 - Please? - I said I'm busy. 909 01:08:49,708 --> 01:08:51,645 Ari, let me get the fucking keys to the car. 910 01:08:51,669 --> 01:08:53,337 Man, get off my door, Gia. 911 01:08:54,380 --> 01:08:56,483 - Where you going? - Wanna come? 912 01:08:58,676 --> 01:09:00,219 We ain't doing shit? 913 01:09:01,595 --> 01:09:02,721 Let's go. 914 01:09:03,764 --> 01:09:05,182 Hey, bro, you driving later? 915 01:09:05,224 --> 01:09:08,060 Nah, brother. You know, I don't drive. 916 01:09:08,602 --> 01:09:10,747 But I do be yokin' this motherfucker. 917 01:09:10,771 --> 01:09:12,356 Let me slide through. 918 01:09:12,940 --> 01:09:14,543 Goddamn. Where's your car at? 919 01:09:14,567 --> 01:09:16,211 You acting ancient right now. 920 01:09:16,235 --> 01:09:18,255 What you talking about? You acting ancient. 921 01:09:18,279 --> 01:09:20,906 Walk your ancient ass on, then. Got something on my gas? 922 01:09:20,990 --> 01:09:23,200 - Yep. - How much you got? 923 01:09:37,173 --> 01:09:41,343 - Hey, man. - Wassup with, cus? 924 01:09:48,684 --> 01:09:51,729 Hey, slow down, it ain't going nowhere. 925 01:10:04,450 --> 01:10:06,136 I heard her heartbeat today. 926 01:10:06,160 --> 01:10:08,454 That's what's up. How's it sounding? 927 01:10:08,829 --> 01:10:11,290 Good, strong. 928 01:10:11,832 --> 01:10:12,917 But? 929 01:10:14,251 --> 01:10:16,371 I don't want to give her up. 930 01:10:18,130 --> 01:10:19,506 We'll figure it out, Mama. 931 01:10:19,548 --> 01:10:21,276 Don't worry. 932 01:10:21,300 --> 01:10:22,801 Come on, let's go. 933 01:10:37,274 --> 01:10:40,319 Bro, turn that shit off! Turn that shit off. 934 01:10:44,073 --> 01:10:46,575 Burh can't drive. You know he got no bars. 935 01:10:46,617 --> 01:10:48,494 Aw, shit! 936 01:11:11,892 --> 01:11:14,186 - G. - Let's go 937 01:11:14,228 --> 01:11:15,187 G. 938 01:11:15,229 --> 01:11:17,123 - Why are you running? - I'm not. 939 01:11:17,147 --> 01:11:19,108 Okay, then what you hiding? 940 01:11:19,149 --> 01:11:20,317 Nothing. 941 01:11:20,359 --> 01:11:22,027 Okay, Gia. 942 01:11:22,987 --> 01:11:24,822 This your partner now? 943 01:11:24,863 --> 01:11:26,365 At least she ain't a liar. 944 01:11:26,407 --> 01:11:28,534 I didn't lie. 945 01:11:28,617 --> 01:11:31,662 G, we 'posed to be in this together. 946 01:11:31,745 --> 01:11:32,871 And we are. 947 01:11:32,955 --> 01:11:36,000 So then why are you planning on giving your baby up? 948 01:11:36,834 --> 01:11:38,752 I haven't even decided to. 949 01:11:38,794 --> 01:11:42,298 I just think the devil got you so fucked up right now, 950 01:11:42,381 --> 01:11:44,508 you're not even thinking clear. 951 01:11:45,009 --> 01:11:46,176 Damn. 952 01:11:46,218 --> 01:11:48,698 Why the fuck you care about what I'm doing, anyways? 953 01:11:48,762 --> 01:11:52,016 Gia, you 'bout to make the biggest mistake of your life. 954 01:11:52,057 --> 01:11:54,643 Turning your back on your fucking kids? 955 01:11:54,727 --> 01:11:56,663 Your dumb ass don't even deserve no baby. 956 01:11:56,687 --> 01:11:59,398 - The fuck you say? - I said, your dumb ass don't 957 01:11:59,440 --> 01:12:01,668 - deserve no baby. - Get the fuck out my face. 958 01:12:01,692 --> 01:12:03,027 Or what? 959 01:12:03,110 --> 01:12:04,921 - Don't test me, Trina. - Or what, nigga? 960 01:12:04,945 --> 01:12:06,196 Get the fuck out my face. 961 01:12:06,280 --> 01:12:07,674 No, Trina! Trina! 962 01:12:07,698 --> 01:12:09,938 Step up and be a fucking mother! 963 01:12:10,701 --> 01:12:12,387 - She can't save you, G! - Come on now. 964 01:12:12,411 --> 01:12:14,431 Don't pay her no mind, Mama. She don't know 965 01:12:14,455 --> 01:12:16,016 - what she saying. - Stop callin' me that. 966 01:12:16,040 --> 01:12:20,002 - Ma, chill. We got this, Ma. - I'm not your fucking Moms. 967 01:12:20,210 --> 01:12:21,253 Okay? 968 01:12:21,295 --> 01:12:22,480 You know what? Fuck you, G! 969 01:16:54,484 --> 01:16:55,819 Okay. 970 01:16:56,403 --> 01:16:57,946 Okay, okay. 971 01:17:06,747 --> 01:17:08,057 Okay. 972 01:17:08,081 --> 01:17:09,809 Your balance is 4 cents. 973 01:17:09,833 --> 01:17:12,169 Make a payment. 974 01:17:15,464 --> 01:17:16,649 - Hello? - Your balance 975 01:17:16,673 --> 01:17:17,900 - is zero cents. - My water broke. 976 01:17:17,924 --> 01:17:19,485 Make a payment. 977 01:17:19,509 --> 01:17:21,845 My phone's cutting out. Can you... 978 01:17:21,887 --> 01:17:24,047 Can you just... 979 01:17:27,100 --> 01:17:28,185 Okay, fuck. 980 01:18:10,477 --> 01:18:11,770 Fuck. 981 01:18:59,860 --> 01:19:02,654 Abruption. Two liters estimated loss of blood. 982 01:19:02,738 --> 01:19:04,948 - How long? - Three weeks out. 983 01:19:05,031 --> 01:19:07,617 - Is the father here? - No, just a friend. 984 01:19:07,701 --> 01:19:08,845 Any word from her friend? 985 01:19:08,869 --> 01:19:10,138 Uh, water just broke. 986 01:19:10,162 --> 01:19:12,362 Are you doing okay? 987 01:19:56,792 --> 01:19:58,376 Here's your mama. 988 01:20:58,728 --> 01:21:00,768 Can you give us a minute? 989 01:21:01,940 --> 01:21:03,358 Of course. 990 01:21:04,818 --> 01:21:07,138 Let me know if you need anything, all right? 991 01:21:07,445 --> 01:21:08,613 I got you. 992 01:21:37,058 --> 01:21:41,146 The doctor told me the test results. 993 01:21:46,985 --> 01:21:48,612 What am I supposed to do? 994 01:21:52,866 --> 01:21:55,493 You've pushed yourself right into a corner. 995 01:21:56,119 --> 01:21:57,996 I didn't know what to do. 996 01:21:58,622 --> 01:22:00,081 I gave you options. 997 01:22:00,123 --> 01:22:02,000 How could I trust you? 998 01:22:03,668 --> 01:22:05,337 You get paid to sell kids. 999 01:22:07,797 --> 01:22:09,132 No. 1000 01:22:09,799 --> 01:22:12,469 I get paid to do my job. 1001 01:22:13,970 --> 01:22:15,823 Helping young mothers get out of a system 1002 01:22:15,847 --> 01:22:19,100 that was created to hurt people like us. 1003 01:22:19,142 --> 01:22:21,519 Do not put this on me. 1004 01:22:23,146 --> 01:22:26,942 You told me you wanted to do right by this baby. 1005 01:22:26,983 --> 01:22:28,318 I do. 1006 01:22:28,944 --> 01:22:30,362 Then what is this? 1007 01:22:31,821 --> 01:22:33,448 What are you doing? 1008 01:22:33,531 --> 01:22:37,077 I mean, why didn't you tell me you still had a problem? 1009 01:22:37,118 --> 01:22:38,495 I could've helped you. 1010 01:22:38,536 --> 01:22:40,139 It's not a problem. It was just the first time since... 1011 01:22:40,163 --> 01:22:41,974 And it's always the first time. 1012 01:22:41,998 --> 01:22:44,084 Miss Carmen, I swear. 1013 01:22:44,167 --> 01:22:48,088 I know you're 24, but you have got to grow up. 1014 01:22:48,171 --> 01:22:50,024 It's not just about you anymore. 1015 01:22:50,048 --> 01:22:52,384 I didn't mean to. 1016 01:22:53,760 --> 01:22:55,387 There's just so much going on. 1017 01:22:55,470 --> 01:22:58,348 Yeah, well, we all have a lot going on. 1018 01:22:59,099 --> 01:23:02,060 Doesn't mean that you can abuse your child. 1019 01:23:04,020 --> 01:23:06,189 I didn't abuse her. 1020 01:23:07,691 --> 01:23:09,734 - You did. - No. 1021 01:23:09,776 --> 01:23:11,337 - You did. - No, I didn't. 1022 01:23:11,361 --> 01:23:15,323 What you did to your body affected her. 1023 01:23:16,533 --> 01:23:18,576 You're both linked. 1024 01:23:30,797 --> 01:23:34,759 They, uh, already called your caseworker. 1025 01:23:46,062 --> 01:23:48,064 So what do you wanna do? 1026 01:23:49,774 --> 01:23:53,778 Because you've got a few hours before they'll decide for you. 1027 01:24:18,053 --> 01:24:19,471 I'm sorry. 1028 01:24:32,650 --> 01:24:33,818 I'm sorry. 1029 01:24:39,616 --> 01:24:40,825 I'm sorry. 1030 01:25:45,640 --> 01:25:47,350 She's beautiful. 1031 01:25:50,979 --> 01:25:52,313 Mm. 1032 01:25:59,946 --> 01:26:02,574 I can't believe she's really here. 1033 01:26:08,872 --> 01:26:10,498 Do you wanna hold her? 1034 01:26:24,387 --> 01:26:26,514 Hey, hey, hey. 1035 01:26:29,684 --> 01:26:31,227 Oh... 1036 01:26:34,856 --> 01:26:37,775 Look at your nose. 1037 01:26:42,322 --> 01:26:45,283 And your long eyelashes. 1038 01:26:53,041 --> 01:26:54,751 Just like your mama. 1039 01:27:02,258 --> 01:27:03,635 Can I? 1040 01:27:40,338 --> 01:27:42,924 What position you think she'll play? 1041 01:27:45,843 --> 01:27:48,346 I don't know, maybe point. 1042 01:27:54,686 --> 01:27:56,926 Don't let her get pushed around, though. 1043 01:27:59,315 --> 01:28:03,486 Gotta make sure she's a lot stronger than I was. 1044 01:29:58,309 --> 01:30:00,645 I'd much rather be in Las Vegas. 1045 01:30:02,647 --> 01:30:04,565 We got the strip right here. 1046 01:30:05,566 --> 01:30:06,984 What? That's the strip? 1047 01:30:07,026 --> 01:30:08,444 This is it. Little bit larger. 1048 01:30:08,486 --> 01:30:10,089 How can... You can't even tell. 1049 01:30:10,113 --> 01:30:11,239 Look how dark it is. 1050 01:30:11,322 --> 01:30:12,674 - It is a bit, yeah. - For Las Vegas? 1051 01:30:12,698 --> 01:30:14,510 For Las Vegas, yeah. How about this one? 1052 01:30:14,534 --> 01:30:16,994 - This is Vegas. Right? - Yeah, it looks a little... 1053 01:30:17,078 --> 01:30:18,389 - It looks better. - The desert? 1054 01:30:18,413 --> 01:30:19,681 But it just doesn't really look like Vegas. 1055 01:30:19,705 --> 01:30:21,475 - You don't think so? - Mm. 1056 01:30:21,499 --> 01:30:23,602 How about the hibiscus? Bahamas again. 1057 01:30:23,626 --> 01:30:26,462 Oh, yes. Well, I like hibiscus juice. 1058 01:30:26,546 --> 01:30:28,881 Do you? 1059 01:30:28,923 --> 01:30:30,091 Me too. 1060 01:30:30,133 --> 01:30:31,276 - Yes. - Beautiful. 1061 01:30:31,300 --> 01:30:32,653 The Bahamas is the spot to be at. 1062 01:30:32,677 --> 01:30:35,096 Beautiful. Okay. Let's talk about pricing. 1063 01:30:47,608 --> 01:30:49,026 You have a napkin? 1064 01:31:14,135 --> 01:31:15,988 And since she's been coming up 1065 01:31:16,012 --> 01:31:17,722 negative every time. 1066 01:31:17,805 --> 01:31:20,808 But we'll continue to monitor her progress. 1067 01:31:22,226 --> 01:31:23,561 I see. 1068 01:31:24,520 --> 01:31:26,981 Thank you. You may step down. 1069 01:31:27,857 --> 01:31:28,941 Sure. 1070 01:31:29,233 --> 01:31:30,568 Thank you. 1071 01:31:39,619 --> 01:31:41,037 Yes? 1072 01:31:47,877 --> 01:31:50,087 I don't want my kids going through 1073 01:31:50,171 --> 01:31:51,589 what I've been through. 1074 01:31:52,673 --> 01:31:54,833 Or what I'm going through right now. 1075 01:31:57,428 --> 01:31:59,013 They deserve to see me. 1076 01:31:59,680 --> 01:32:03,100 More than once a week, more than for an hour. 1077 01:32:05,394 --> 01:32:07,688 Look, I'm committed to my kids. 1078 01:32:08,356 --> 01:32:09,857 I've shown you that. 1079 01:32:12,401 --> 01:32:14,737 And although you might not believe 1080 01:32:14,779 --> 01:32:17,156 that I'm fit to parent them right now, 1081 01:32:17,865 --> 01:32:21,911 no matter what, I'll always be their mama. 1082 01:32:27,250 --> 01:32:28,793 So what I'm asking... 1083 01:32:29,627 --> 01:32:32,964 What I really, really want 1084 01:32:36,050 --> 01:32:40,972 is for you to consider more frequent, longer 1085 01:32:41,013 --> 01:32:44,892 and unsupervised visitations with my kids. 1086 01:32:50,147 --> 01:32:51,274 That's it. 1087 01:32:52,775 --> 01:32:54,735 Thank you. 1088 01:33:16,924 --> 01:33:19,635 Sometimes I feel like I'm not enough. 1089 01:33:20,428 --> 01:33:23,306 I... I just can't do enough. 1090 01:33:24,015 --> 01:33:26,118 I don't know if I'm more angry at my mother 1091 01:33:26,142 --> 01:33:30,146 for doing what she could with what she had. 1092 01:33:32,940 --> 01:33:38,321 Or if I'm angrier that I'm doing the same to my children. 1093 01:33:38,904 --> 01:33:42,325 It's so hard to explain to a child 1094 01:33:44,035 --> 01:33:46,329 that you don't know better yourself. 1095 01:33:47,163 --> 01:33:48,664 That you're learning. 1096 01:33:49,790 --> 01:33:53,210 That each day that goes by, you're just winging it. 1097 01:33:58,883 --> 01:34:01,552 I want to protect them like they need to be protected, 1098 01:34:01,594 --> 01:34:04,680 but nobody was there to protect me.