1 00:00:04,720 --> 00:00:06,040 I'm a psychic, actually. 2 00:00:06,360 --> 00:00:10,420 Wow. I've just always had a lot of energy around me and a lot of things 3 00:00:10,420 --> 00:00:11,580 happening around me. 4 00:00:12,900 --> 00:00:17,060 Interesting. So, I mean, your house is definitely haunted. 5 00:00:18,720 --> 00:00:19,720 That's terrifying. 6 00:00:19,960 --> 00:00:23,620 That's the exact same words I said to my mother. I feel that there definitely 7 00:00:23,620 --> 00:00:27,740 are presences there. Yeah. I believe it's a gentleman in my house. 8 00:00:28,020 --> 00:00:28,968 Mm -hmm. 9 00:00:28,970 --> 00:00:33,330 One of my really good friends is the number one ghost psychic in the whole 10 00:00:33,330 --> 00:00:36,430 world. Hold on one second. Let me just see if I can get her on the phone. 11 00:00:38,470 --> 00:00:39,470 Hi, honey. 12 00:00:41,350 --> 00:00:42,490 How are you, sweetie? 13 00:00:42,950 --> 00:00:43,950 Oh, I'm fine. 14 00:00:44,210 --> 00:00:47,210 I have a woman that has this ghost in a house. 15 00:00:47,470 --> 00:00:50,590 Is there anything that she could do? 16 00:00:51,270 --> 00:00:54,690 Fear will keep him in the house. 17 00:00:54,890 --> 00:00:58,210 You just have to be really firm with the ghost and tell them that. 18 00:00:58,590 --> 00:01:00,450 have to leave that house. 19 00:01:00,670 --> 00:01:01,970 She can get rid of them. 20 00:01:02,190 --> 00:01:03,390 All right, honey. Love you. 21 00:01:03,890 --> 00:01:05,190 Thanks. I love you too, honey. 22 00:01:05,910 --> 00:01:07,310 Call a ghost better. 23 00:01:11,690 --> 00:01:13,730 Do you wonder if the dead can see you? 24 00:01:14,390 --> 00:01:16,810 Get in my car and I'll show you they can. 25 00:01:19,290 --> 00:01:21,070 My name is Thomas John. 26 00:01:21,390 --> 00:01:26,190 I'm a psychic medium and I've become a ride share driver so I can share my gift 27 00:01:26,190 --> 00:01:27,190 with the masses. 28 00:01:27,390 --> 00:01:29,970 Another day, another mile. 29 00:01:30,270 --> 00:01:31,270 Coming up tonight. 30 00:01:31,310 --> 00:01:33,010 Did you used to be in beauty pageants? 31 00:01:33,970 --> 00:01:37,650 I was feeling like it was a very abrupt passing. 32 00:01:37,930 --> 00:01:42,170 He was murdered when I was young. Did you hold him for a little period of 33 00:01:42,310 --> 00:01:46,390 I don't know how to explain this to you other than I'm seeing somebody's 34 00:01:46,390 --> 00:01:48,790 drowning and the other person saved them. 35 00:01:49,770 --> 00:01:52,490 You've been gone a good long while. 36 00:01:52,930 --> 00:01:55,570 Another hill, another fall. 37 00:02:00,780 --> 00:02:02,580 Hey, how you doing, bud? Good, how are you? Good, I'm awesome. 38 00:02:07,080 --> 00:02:08,360 What's your name? I am Lance. 39 00:02:08,860 --> 00:02:09,860 Nice to meet you. 40 00:02:10,120 --> 00:02:11,640 Nice to meet you as well. I'm Thomas. 41 00:02:12,040 --> 00:02:13,360 Thomas, it's my pleasure. 42 00:02:13,820 --> 00:02:16,300 So non -sequitur question for you. Sure. 43 00:02:16,640 --> 00:02:21,260 Do you believe in psychics, mediums, ghosts, all that stuff? 44 00:02:22,000 --> 00:02:25,200 Ghosts, I'm a little hesitant on, but mediums, yeah. 45 00:02:25,400 --> 00:02:26,400 I'm a medium. 46 00:02:26,460 --> 00:02:30,180 All right. I feel things about certain people. I really can't control it. Got 47 00:02:30,180 --> 00:02:33,260 you. So, like, you get in my car, and, like, I feel there's people with you. 48 00:02:33,520 --> 00:02:34,279 Got you. 49 00:02:34,280 --> 00:02:37,480 So, do you want a reading right now? 50 00:02:37,940 --> 00:02:38,739 Sure, why not? 51 00:02:38,740 --> 00:02:41,840 You don't have anything that I can hold on to that you wear a lot, like maybe, 52 00:02:41,880 --> 00:02:43,280 like, a watch, or do you have anything? 53 00:02:43,720 --> 00:02:46,520 I see this ring. I wear this ring a lot. Yeah? Yeah. There you go. 54 00:02:47,000 --> 00:02:48,620 Yeah, just something to kind of get your energy. 55 00:02:49,140 --> 00:02:50,140 Interesting. 56 00:02:54,440 --> 00:02:55,820 Do you have a brother that died? 57 00:02:56,350 --> 00:02:57,350 Yeah. Okay. 58 00:02:57,710 --> 00:02:59,690 Was there a reason he would show me the letter C? 59 00:03:00,150 --> 00:03:01,890 His name is Caesar. 60 00:03:02,090 --> 00:03:03,090 Okay. 61 00:03:05,330 --> 00:03:06,330 He's kind of funny. 62 00:03:07,170 --> 00:03:09,410 He said you have a lot of luck with the ladies. 63 00:03:12,050 --> 00:03:13,890 I don't know. Is that true? Do you? 64 00:03:14,730 --> 00:03:15,730 I don't know. 65 00:03:16,630 --> 00:03:17,670 I put work in. 66 00:03:18,390 --> 00:03:23,610 He's talking about, like, you made a special trip to see him. He was very 67 00:03:23,610 --> 00:03:24,569 at the time. 68 00:03:24,570 --> 00:03:28,730 Yeah. Okay, because I feel like he's talking about you guys basically kind of 69 00:03:28,730 --> 00:03:32,070 said goodbye then, even though he lived months longer. 70 00:03:32,330 --> 00:03:33,330 Yep. 71 00:03:40,230 --> 00:03:45,730 So there's something he's showing me when you guys are young in this time, 72 00:03:45,950 --> 00:03:50,310 I don't know how to explain this to you other than I'm seeing two boys. 73 00:03:50,970 --> 00:03:51,970 Somebody's drowning. 74 00:03:52,330 --> 00:03:53,870 And the other person saved them. 75 00:03:55,090 --> 00:03:58,890 Yeah. And it's like your brother's talking about there was something where 76 00:03:58,890 --> 00:04:01,870 somebody was drowning and you saved them or something. 77 00:04:02,410 --> 00:04:05,110 Yeah, I did. I saved him. Yeah, he's talking about that. 78 00:04:09,010 --> 00:04:10,450 I always worried a lot about him. 79 00:04:15,810 --> 00:04:19,850 I don't know if it was his whole life, but your brother's showing me there was 80 00:04:19,850 --> 00:04:21,470 period of time where he... 81 00:04:22,440 --> 00:04:24,360 Got involved with drugs. 82 00:04:24,580 --> 00:04:25,620 I see jail. 83 00:04:26,680 --> 00:04:29,460 Could you understand that? Would that make sense to you? 84 00:04:30,060 --> 00:04:31,060 No. Okay. 85 00:04:31,220 --> 00:04:32,700 Because he's showing me that. 86 00:04:33,140 --> 00:04:36,120 I left Cincinnati, Ohio when I graduated from college. 87 00:04:36,520 --> 00:04:38,760 And I went basically to live in California. 88 00:04:39,360 --> 00:04:40,660 Here in Cincinnati, Ohio. 89 00:04:41,000 --> 00:04:42,260 Got involved with drugs. 90 00:04:42,980 --> 00:04:47,100 It's like he's showing me that even though you guys walked on different 91 00:04:47,100 --> 00:04:51,320 life, but I feel like he's saying, don't worry about me. I'm fine over here. 92 00:04:52,600 --> 00:04:56,940 He's proud of the person that you've grown up to be and how you how you live 93 00:04:56,940 --> 00:05:02,620 your life, and he made the right decisions He just wants you to know that 94 00:05:02,620 --> 00:05:04,420 tell like you saved him in that moment. 95 00:05:04,660 --> 00:05:10,560 You know he watches out for you now in that way I 96 00:05:10,560 --> 00:05:15,500 Looked after my brothers. I used to tie their ties where they went to church. I 97 00:05:15,500 --> 00:05:19,180 watched out for them So I had a responsibility for those kids. I mean my 98 00:05:19,180 --> 00:05:23,260 and so like Hearing Thomas say that my brother's looking out for me, it meant a 99 00:05:23,260 --> 00:05:23,879 lot to me. 100 00:05:23,880 --> 00:05:27,520 That's what love is about. It just made me feel stronger as a man. I don't have 101 00:05:27,520 --> 00:05:31,680 that many people in my family that I'm able to get that love from. 102 00:05:32,040 --> 00:05:33,580 So it's very special to me. 103 00:05:38,940 --> 00:05:45,540 I'm a medium. 104 00:05:46,180 --> 00:05:48,580 Really? I give readings to people. 105 00:05:49,510 --> 00:05:52,770 But only if you're open to it. Oh, hell yeah. I'm totally open. 106 00:05:53,010 --> 00:05:54,770 I don't know about your friend because he hasn't said anything. 107 00:05:55,610 --> 00:05:56,610 He's my boyfriend. 108 00:05:57,330 --> 00:05:58,330 I mean, 109 00:06:00,050 --> 00:06:02,570 it was weird because when you got in the car, I was feeling a lot of stuff 110 00:06:02,570 --> 00:06:03,570 connected to you. 111 00:06:03,730 --> 00:06:07,750 A maternal type figure. There was a really, really, really, really strong 112 00:06:07,750 --> 00:06:09,890 connection with you. Is your mom packed? 113 00:06:10,430 --> 00:06:11,430 Yeah. Okay. 114 00:06:12,770 --> 00:06:16,070 This is just what she's showing me, but hold on. Let me just go back there. 115 00:06:20,020 --> 00:06:25,000 Were you guys ever part of, like, a boat club or something? Or, like, a place 116 00:06:25,000 --> 00:06:28,100 where you put the boats or something? The Sarasota Yacht Club. You and her did 117 00:06:28,100 --> 00:06:28,919 that together? 118 00:06:28,920 --> 00:06:29,920 Yeah. Okay. 119 00:06:30,300 --> 00:06:33,840 I'm seeing something. It's right on the tip of my tongue. It's like my sister 120 00:06:33,840 --> 00:06:35,740 had one when we were growing up. 121 00:06:36,240 --> 00:06:39,020 Oh, my God, this is so weird. Okay, this is... Oh, God. 122 00:06:39,320 --> 00:06:41,800 What is the name of this thing? Hold on. 123 00:06:42,780 --> 00:06:46,400 It's not a dollhouse, but they were like a toy in the 90s. 124 00:06:46,620 --> 00:06:47,389 Uh -huh. 125 00:06:47,390 --> 00:06:51,710 They were almost like little things you could open up. I know exactly. Almost 126 00:06:51,710 --> 00:06:54,290 more like Legos, but they were for girls. 127 00:06:54,570 --> 00:06:59,010 Polly Pockets. Yes. Okay. So did your mom give you one ever? 128 00:06:59,230 --> 00:06:59,849 She did. 129 00:06:59,850 --> 00:07:01,070 Okay. This is insane. 130 00:07:02,290 --> 00:07:09,230 There's an acknowledgment also of... I see sickness for... It's 131 00:07:09,230 --> 00:07:11,890 not a brief thing. Like, was she sick for three years? 132 00:07:12,190 --> 00:07:13,190 Yeah. 133 00:07:14,240 --> 00:07:17,120 Felt like I needed to talk about some form of cancer. 134 00:07:19,120 --> 00:07:21,440 Would you be able to understand breast cancer? 135 00:07:25,320 --> 00:07:26,320 Yeah. 136 00:07:26,560 --> 00:07:28,560 My mom had breast cancer. Your mom had breast cancer. 137 00:07:32,040 --> 00:07:36,820 I just need to tell you, too, there's definitely an apology from her about the 138 00:07:36,820 --> 00:07:37,820 passing stuff. 139 00:07:47,720 --> 00:07:49,780 She was diagnosed a month after I moved here. 140 00:07:50,020 --> 00:07:52,780 And she didn't tell you that long? She didn't tell me. Right, okay, I 141 00:07:52,780 --> 00:07:53,780 understand. 142 00:07:54,480 --> 00:07:59,220 I remember she kept saying, like, the last, like, conscious thing she said to 143 00:07:59,220 --> 00:08:00,940 was, I'm so sorry I got sick. 144 00:08:05,300 --> 00:08:06,960 Did you used to be in beauty pageants? 145 00:08:07,560 --> 00:08:10,460 Yeah. Yeah? I competed in Miss America, yeah. 146 00:08:11,000 --> 00:08:14,720 Okay, because I feel like it's almost like she's showing me an image of that 147 00:08:14,720 --> 00:08:15,609 be like... 148 00:08:15,610 --> 00:08:19,210 You know, like it's almost like. No, I know exactly what you're saying. I was 149 00:08:19,210 --> 00:08:24,490 just looking at pictures. Yeah, I think that she feels like you're in a place 150 00:08:24,490 --> 00:08:29,070 where you're carrying a lot, you know. I feel paralyzed. Yeah, and I think it's 151 00:08:29,070 --> 00:08:32,750 a lot. I mean, I totally feel like it has mostly to do with her. 152 00:08:33,090 --> 00:08:37,789 I've gained 40 pounds. Like, I didn't do anything for a while. I took jobs that 153 00:08:37,789 --> 00:08:38,789 weren't right for me. 154 00:08:39,450 --> 00:08:40,570 She's telling me that. 155 00:08:41,200 --> 00:08:44,100 Right when she got sick, you were putting something out there? 156 00:08:44,340 --> 00:08:46,540 I was trying to record my album. 157 00:08:46,860 --> 00:08:48,440 She was like, just put it out. 158 00:08:49,220 --> 00:08:52,320 Feel like she wants you to keep going with it. 159 00:08:56,820 --> 00:09:03,100 When she left, 160 00:09:03,340 --> 00:09:04,700 it was so fast. 161 00:09:05,060 --> 00:09:10,000 I felt this inside of me deep down that went to the grave with her. 162 00:09:10,540 --> 00:09:13,900 But you have to continue to do what makes you feel whole. 163 00:09:14,320 --> 00:09:16,380 And I was so lost without that. 164 00:09:17,240 --> 00:09:22,640 She wants me to continue pursuing my music, and that is the biggest blessing. 165 00:09:22,920 --> 00:09:28,000 Hearing this message will allow me to not only live my life, but live my life 166 00:09:28,000 --> 00:09:29,000 the fullest again. 167 00:09:43,340 --> 00:09:49,180 I would take so many leaps of faith, like run away to an exotic place. The 168 00:09:49,180 --> 00:09:52,560 side is not like some place in the clouds where, you know, you can't get 169 00:09:52,560 --> 00:09:54,560 except you walk through, you know, a gate. 170 00:09:54,980 --> 00:09:59,040 The spirit world is amongst us. It's just like you're in the living room and 171 00:09:59,040 --> 00:10:01,700 they're in the kitchen. I mean, same house, different rooms. 172 00:10:04,840 --> 00:10:07,480 And I thought that was a dead person, but that's a real person over there. 173 00:10:14,220 --> 00:10:16,120 What's your name? Buckle up. Kiss on it. 174 00:10:16,320 --> 00:10:17,600 Do you watch a lot of TV? 175 00:10:18,000 --> 00:10:20,980 Oh my God, yeah. I'm like, I watch Lifetime. 176 00:10:21,220 --> 00:10:22,119 Oh, you do? 177 00:10:22,120 --> 00:10:23,900 Yeah, but Lifetime is my go -to. 178 00:10:25,520 --> 00:10:28,960 What about like those psychic medium shows? Do you ever watch those shows? 179 00:10:29,380 --> 00:10:30,380 No. 180 00:10:30,880 --> 00:10:37,440 Every psychic that I came across, it seems like they tried to... Like you 181 00:10:37,440 --> 00:10:40,760 like it was kind of like a gammy type of feeling? Yeah. 182 00:10:42,000 --> 00:10:43,000 I'm a psychic. 183 00:10:43,689 --> 00:10:44,810 Are you? Mm -hmm. 184 00:10:47,910 --> 00:10:49,090 I'm more of a medium. 185 00:10:49,450 --> 00:10:53,210 I feel people that have passed over, like when they're with loved ones. 186 00:10:53,810 --> 00:10:56,210 As soon as you got in the car, I felt your dad with you. 187 00:10:56,570 --> 00:10:57,850 Did I do? Mm -hmm. 188 00:10:58,190 --> 00:11:02,010 Do you have, like, photos from his wedding with your mom? He's talking 189 00:11:02,010 --> 00:11:06,930 photos of the wedding. Yeah. But he said that you were there. 190 00:11:07,130 --> 00:11:08,130 Were you at the wedding? 191 00:11:08,760 --> 00:11:10,320 It was in my mom's stomach. 192 00:11:10,660 --> 00:11:11,880 Oh. Yeah. 193 00:11:12,720 --> 00:11:15,120 Well, I guess you were there then. Yeah. Wow. 194 00:11:16,100 --> 00:11:19,480 Were you really connected to your dad? I felt like you guys were really close. 195 00:11:19,820 --> 00:11:21,080 Yeah, we were. Yeah. 196 00:11:21,620 --> 00:11:23,020 How did he know all this? 197 00:11:25,920 --> 00:11:31,360 I always get emotional when I talk about him and I blame his face. 198 00:11:34,320 --> 00:11:35,320 Okay, honey. 199 00:11:37,420 --> 00:11:38,700 Sometimes I get embarrassed. 200 00:11:40,320 --> 00:11:43,200 Oh, it's okay, sweetie. Nothing to be embarrassed about. Because I know some 201 00:11:43,200 --> 00:11:46,880 people say that you have to move on and let go, but this is something I will 202 00:11:46,880 --> 00:11:49,180 never... You'll never... You feel like you won't? Yeah, it's just like you're 203 00:11:49,180 --> 00:11:51,060 telling me to let go of my brother. 204 00:11:52,220 --> 00:11:53,500 Fuck, yes, you are good. 205 00:11:59,060 --> 00:12:02,360 I feel like something is off. 206 00:12:02,980 --> 00:12:05,780 I was feeling like it was a very abrupt passing. 207 00:12:07,020 --> 00:12:08,260 He didn't get to say goodbye. 208 00:12:09,220 --> 00:12:10,220 Yeah. 209 00:12:12,240 --> 00:12:14,340 He was mad when I was young. 210 00:12:19,240 --> 00:12:20,660 I'm very angry. 211 00:12:23,420 --> 00:12:28,580 It was not right, even though everyone dies, you know, at some point in their 212 00:12:28,580 --> 00:12:31,140 life, but his was taken from him. 213 00:12:31,340 --> 00:12:32,340 Right. 214 00:12:33,340 --> 00:12:38,080 Yeah, your dad keeps telling me something about you want to keep his 215 00:12:38,080 --> 00:12:39,600 you getting, like, married or anything? 216 00:12:39,900 --> 00:12:44,560 I've been single for a decade, but I plan to, and I always said I will keep 217 00:12:44,560 --> 00:12:47,560 name. Oh, you said you're going to keep your name when you get married, yeah. 218 00:12:47,760 --> 00:12:48,760 Yeah. 219 00:12:48,940 --> 00:12:54,660 But I feel like with your dad, some of the blocks that you might have meeting 220 00:12:54,660 --> 00:12:59,120 people, it may have some connection to your dad a little bit because there's 221 00:12:59,120 --> 00:13:01,380 kind of like an unresolved energy with your dad. 222 00:13:03,280 --> 00:13:04,460 Love life and stuff. 223 00:13:05,000 --> 00:13:08,940 I wish he was here, you know, to maybe show me. 224 00:13:09,600 --> 00:13:13,140 Like the right choice or something? Yeah, or how a man should treat. 225 00:13:13,380 --> 00:13:17,860 I never had really male figures in my life. Besides him, there's only about 226 00:13:17,860 --> 00:13:18,940 males in my family. 227 00:13:20,340 --> 00:13:24,560 I do feel that he would like you to focus on, you know, kind of settling 228 00:13:26,700 --> 00:13:30,300 I'm not sure. 229 00:13:31,020 --> 00:13:35,020 how to look for someone or know that they're the right person for me. 230 00:13:35,260 --> 00:13:41,860 And though I give a smile, I can't help but feel like I've been left 231 00:13:41,860 --> 00:13:42,860 behind. 232 00:13:43,280 --> 00:13:48,660 Knowing that my dad's watching over me and he's still protecting me, I can be a 233 00:13:48,660 --> 00:13:51,240 little bit more open to meeting someone. 234 00:14:02,440 --> 00:14:05,700 One of the most common things that people want to know from their loved 235 00:14:05,700 --> 00:14:08,640 the other side is just about love and relationship. 236 00:14:10,120 --> 00:14:13,220 Do you have any questions you would want to ask your dad since I feel like I was 237 00:14:13,220 --> 00:14:16,660 connecting with him a little bit? You know what? Ask him when's going to be 238 00:14:16,660 --> 00:14:18,220 time I'm going to find that girl. 239 00:14:18,440 --> 00:14:19,720 I came back from overseas. 240 00:14:20,020 --> 00:14:21,020 Are you single? 241 00:14:21,140 --> 00:14:22,140 Yes, looking. 242 00:14:22,420 --> 00:14:25,240 And you haven't been in a relationship in a while. 243 00:14:29,840 --> 00:14:31,380 He said he's sending you a boyfriend. 244 00:14:31,680 --> 00:14:34,600 Really? He's not telling me this is the only option. 245 00:14:35,020 --> 00:14:35,859 Quick update. 246 00:14:35,860 --> 00:14:38,120 Yes, I am dating. I do have options. 247 00:14:38,400 --> 00:14:41,000 They need two guys now, so whoop, whoop, whoop, whoop. 248 00:14:42,040 --> 00:14:46,120 You know, I have somebody I've been seeing on and off. 249 00:14:46,340 --> 00:14:50,180 Do you feel anything about him? He's going to open up more to you. 250 00:14:50,420 --> 00:14:55,780 We're moving in together, and he's in it to win it. Everything you talked about 251 00:14:55,780 --> 00:14:58,480 is coming to fruition, which is kind of scary. 252 00:15:00,650 --> 00:15:02,370 I used to date a psychic, actually. 253 00:15:03,050 --> 00:15:06,290 We had a fight about something that was supposed to happen in a few weeks, and 254 00:15:06,290 --> 00:15:09,010 he's like, I can't believe you're going to do that to me. I'm not making that 255 00:15:09,010 --> 00:15:12,570 up. How are you? 256 00:15:12,810 --> 00:15:14,610 Good, how are you? I'm good, I'm good. 257 00:15:15,130 --> 00:15:16,330 Are your cameras on? 258 00:15:16,670 --> 00:15:21,470 Yes, they are. I'm a medium, so, like, I communicate with people that are on the 259 00:15:21,470 --> 00:15:23,230 other side. I do readings. 260 00:15:23,610 --> 00:15:24,429 In a car? 261 00:15:24,430 --> 00:15:25,209 Yes, correct. 262 00:15:25,210 --> 00:15:26,210 Are you open to that? 263 00:15:26,370 --> 00:15:27,450 Oh. Oh, cool. 264 00:15:28,470 --> 00:15:29,470 Um... 265 00:15:29,580 --> 00:15:31,440 Well, let's see if I can make a connection. 266 00:15:34,440 --> 00:15:35,440 Okay, interesting. 267 00:15:35,820 --> 00:15:41,600 So I feel different spirits that are coming through. So it might get kind of 268 00:15:41,600 --> 00:15:42,600 crowded back there. 269 00:15:42,820 --> 00:15:49,660 There's a gentleman that's coming through that I feel is like a fatherly 270 00:15:49,660 --> 00:15:50,660 nature to me. 271 00:15:50,920 --> 00:15:55,060 He's got a very artistic type of feeling to him. 272 00:15:55,400 --> 00:15:56,760 Super creative. 273 00:15:58,940 --> 00:16:01,780 It's almost like the way he's coming through is like, yes, I was an artist. 274 00:16:02,120 --> 00:16:08,800 Yeah. And I would say it's more of a Richard. 275 00:16:09,000 --> 00:16:10,180 That's my dad. Okay. 276 00:16:11,860 --> 00:16:18,440 Now, your dad, he wants you to know that he's with your son. 277 00:16:19,900 --> 00:16:21,700 Have you lost a son, dear? 278 00:16:34,990 --> 00:16:36,010 Yeah, I have it myself. 279 00:16:40,270 --> 00:16:43,610 I feel that he did not live for a long time. 280 00:16:47,010 --> 00:16:49,710 I'm feeling a lot of stuff around the birth. 281 00:16:51,030 --> 00:16:53,470 Was there immediate issues at his birth? 282 00:16:53,810 --> 00:16:55,090 Yes, he was born premature. 283 00:16:55,770 --> 00:16:56,770 OK. 284 00:16:58,830 --> 00:17:01,290 He's showing me you did get to hold him. 285 00:17:01,680 --> 00:17:04,800 So did you hold him for a little period of time? 286 00:17:20,520 --> 00:17:21,520 Who's Renee? 287 00:17:22,920 --> 00:17:24,160 Oh, my gosh. 288 00:17:30,830 --> 00:17:33,050 That passed? Yes. Oh, God. Yeah. 289 00:17:33,990 --> 00:17:37,850 I felt like he... There's something where he's showing me at the end that he 290 00:17:37,850 --> 00:17:40,850 wasn't... I feel like he got to a dark place sometimes. 291 00:17:42,250 --> 00:17:43,670 That's what he keeps showing me. 292 00:17:43,910 --> 00:17:45,150 Did he have, like, depression? 293 00:17:46,570 --> 00:17:49,450 He had a lot of... Like, yeah, he had depression. 294 00:17:50,870 --> 00:17:52,230 He committed suicide. 295 00:17:56,430 --> 00:18:00,750 I feel that... I miss him. Tell him I... Yeah. I miss him so much. 296 00:18:01,810 --> 00:18:05,750 I just miss him. I miss him so much. 297 00:18:07,990 --> 00:18:14,950 I feel like this is something that was very pent up in him. He just wants 298 00:18:14,950 --> 00:18:19,410 to tell you that he's at peace now. He wants you to know that, you know, 299 00:18:19,410 --> 00:18:23,510 nothing that you personally could have done to take away that pain. 300 00:18:33,430 --> 00:18:39,590 Interesting, yeah. I think that these are things that are for your learning. I 301 00:18:39,590 --> 00:18:43,510 feel like for your soul's growth, one of the things that you came here to learn 302 00:18:43,510 --> 00:18:49,830 about was how a soul is not limited to a body. A soul goes on much longer than 303 00:18:49,830 --> 00:18:50,850 it is on the earth plane. 304 00:18:52,930 --> 00:18:54,630 Do you spend a lot of time alone? 305 00:18:55,170 --> 00:18:57,850 Are you by yourself a lot right now? 306 00:18:58,130 --> 00:18:59,130 Yeah. Okay. 307 00:19:00,230 --> 00:19:03,370 Your son's just saying that he doesn't want you to always be alone. 308 00:19:03,830 --> 00:19:05,570 They're definitely with you all the time. 309 00:19:06,310 --> 00:19:10,990 Your loved one wants you to keep your heart open. 310 00:19:18,910 --> 00:19:23,010 It's a lot to lose a child. It's a lot to lose a boyfriend. It's a lot to lose 311 00:19:23,010 --> 00:19:24,790 dad. It's hard sometimes. 312 00:19:29,960 --> 00:19:34,420 After the meeting with Thomas, it's just a greater sense of peace. We're here. 313 00:19:34,520 --> 00:19:35,520 It's okay. 314 00:19:35,580 --> 00:19:39,400 You know, you can let go because we're not letting you go. 315 00:19:40,080 --> 00:19:45,600 But there's another chapter out there for me. 316 00:19:48,060 --> 00:19:49,060 It's time.