1 00:00:10,840 --> 00:00:11,840 Hello. Hi. 2 00:00:11,960 --> 00:00:13,020 How are you? Fine. 3 00:00:14,600 --> 00:00:15,980 Could you put your seatbelt on, babe? 4 00:00:16,219 --> 00:00:18,320 I don't know why I just called you babe. That was rude. 5 00:00:21,960 --> 00:00:24,920 I got in the car with someone I didn't know. 6 00:00:25,320 --> 00:00:26,320 Who was a psychic. 7 00:00:26,560 --> 00:00:27,558 I am, too. 8 00:00:27,560 --> 00:00:32,680 Oh, okay. Oh, my God. Are you serious? We got to trade readings. Okay. Oh, my 9 00:00:32,680 --> 00:00:33,680 God. 10 00:00:36,880 --> 00:00:40,380 So you want me to tell you if I'm getting anything for you? As long as 11 00:00:40,380 --> 00:00:41,380 good. Okay. 12 00:00:42,340 --> 00:00:47,080 I see a lot of food stuff around you, but you put a lot of effort into... 13 00:00:47,080 --> 00:00:53,360 I'm sorry, my family will be crying. They call me a foodie. Yeah. Okay, go 14 00:00:53,400 --> 00:00:56,600 You do a lot of health stuff with it. I feel like you're healthy. 15 00:00:57,800 --> 00:01:02,100 Okay, so I just heard also that you're supposed to do more writing. They want 16 00:01:02,100 --> 00:01:07,510 you to do more writing. You are good. You know a little... Oh, my God. Okay. 17 00:01:08,630 --> 00:01:09,630 Are you moving? 18 00:01:10,570 --> 00:01:11,570 Yes. Okay. 19 00:01:11,710 --> 00:01:12,710 Oh, my God. 20 00:01:13,170 --> 00:01:14,170 Uh -huh. 21 00:01:14,230 --> 00:01:15,730 It's going to go well for you, though. 22 00:01:17,330 --> 00:01:18,630 Are you getting anything for me? 23 00:01:19,010 --> 00:01:20,470 Oh, my goodness. 24 00:01:20,910 --> 00:01:23,430 No. I don't have the light switch on. 25 00:01:25,470 --> 00:01:26,470 Okay. 26 00:01:27,490 --> 00:01:29,430 Do you wonder if the dead can see you? 27 00:01:30,130 --> 00:01:32,510 Get in my car, and I'll show you they can. 28 00:01:35,080 --> 00:01:36,780 My name is Thomas John. 29 00:01:37,020 --> 00:01:41,900 I'm a psychic medium, and I've become a rideshare driver, so I can share my gift 30 00:01:41,900 --> 00:01:42,900 with the masses. 31 00:01:45,520 --> 00:01:50,240 Coming up tonight... She's saying she wants you to connect more with your dad. 32 00:01:50,540 --> 00:01:51,540 Oh, my God! 33 00:01:51,720 --> 00:01:56,480 Your dad is talking about a will that was hidden from you. Yeah! Oh, my God, 34 00:01:56,500 --> 00:01:58,340 let's go around for five hours. 35 00:01:58,700 --> 00:02:00,360 There's a lot of issues. 36 00:02:01,050 --> 00:02:06,250 In this area, so I would feel like either like lungs, you know, breath, 37 00:02:06,250 --> 00:02:08,509 area. Okay, I've had enough. 38 00:02:08,830 --> 00:02:11,410 You've been gone a good long while. 39 00:02:11,750 --> 00:02:14,430 Another hill, another climb. 40 00:02:19,230 --> 00:02:20,230 How's your day today? 41 00:02:20,490 --> 00:02:23,390 Pretty good. How about you? Good. What have you been up to? 42 00:02:23,670 --> 00:02:25,490 Some tapping, a little retail therapy. 43 00:02:27,570 --> 00:02:28,850 I'm actually a medium. 44 00:02:29,440 --> 00:02:30,440 No way. 45 00:02:30,600 --> 00:02:31,600 I am, yeah. 46 00:02:33,200 --> 00:02:34,200 Are you serious? 47 00:02:34,220 --> 00:02:35,700 How long have you been doing this? 48 00:02:36,320 --> 00:02:39,460 Well, I've been a medium since I guess I was born. 49 00:02:39,740 --> 00:02:42,440 You know, like there's a car driving down the street. You know, there's a 50 00:02:42,440 --> 00:02:43,920 telephone pole. There's dead people. 51 00:02:44,140 --> 00:02:46,080 It's like that's just part of my reality. 52 00:02:46,460 --> 00:02:47,459 Do you see them? 53 00:02:47,460 --> 00:02:49,520 I can sometimes, yeah. Oh, my gosh. 54 00:02:49,760 --> 00:02:53,300 I'll be honest. I mean, I don't really believe that. What is it you're actually 55 00:02:53,300 --> 00:02:57,280 seeing? When you guys got in the car, for example, like somebody's dead 56 00:02:57,280 --> 00:02:58,540 grandmother got in with them. 57 00:02:59,210 --> 00:03:01,470 This might be more connected to you, I feel. 58 00:03:02,550 --> 00:03:04,830 It's on the paternal side of the family. 59 00:03:05,570 --> 00:03:08,650 Yeah. Very strong energy, very loving energy. 60 00:03:08,870 --> 00:03:10,330 And I see the letter N. 61 00:03:10,670 --> 00:03:11,730 Oh, my God! 62 00:03:14,630 --> 00:03:15,990 Her name was Nadine. 63 00:03:16,550 --> 00:03:17,550 Okay. 64 00:03:17,970 --> 00:03:21,290 Your grandma's saying about her dogs or something. I don't know. 65 00:03:21,770 --> 00:03:25,130 But she's showing me like you'd walk in and there would be dogs there. 66 00:03:25,770 --> 00:03:27,150 Are the dogs with her? 67 00:03:27,730 --> 00:03:29,210 Yeah, there's two dogs with her. 68 00:03:29,990 --> 00:03:32,650 Oh, my God. 69 00:03:33,250 --> 00:03:35,610 Was there a cat that was called Kitty? Yeah. 70 00:03:35,830 --> 00:03:40,510 Yeah. I think, yeah, there is a cat with her. Oh, God. 71 00:03:40,830 --> 00:03:43,290 And she also keeps bringing up something about her teeth. 72 00:03:43,530 --> 00:03:45,370 I don't know if she had something with teeth. 73 00:03:45,970 --> 00:03:46,970 Yeah. 74 00:03:47,170 --> 00:03:48,290 Oh, my God. 75 00:03:48,650 --> 00:03:53,170 After she passed, I went into my dad's bathroom and I found her teeth the day 76 00:03:53,170 --> 00:03:54,170 her funeral. 77 00:03:54,460 --> 00:03:58,340 I feel like she was one of the main people you've lost in your life. Yes. 78 00:03:58,500 --> 00:04:04,340 Yeah. I was very close to her. It was so hard to lose her. It really was because 79 00:04:04,340 --> 00:04:05,640 she was always my rock. 80 00:04:05,900 --> 00:04:10,640 She just got me through every phase of my life. 81 00:04:11,640 --> 00:04:16,540 She... Okay, 82 00:04:17,519 --> 00:04:18,519 I understand. Hold on. 83 00:04:19,200 --> 00:04:22,660 She's saying she wants you to connect more with your dad. I don't know. 84 00:04:25,020 --> 00:04:26,020 You know what I'm saying? 85 00:04:26,420 --> 00:04:28,380 Yes, yes, it's true. It's true. 86 00:04:28,960 --> 00:04:30,080 Okay. I mean, he's lonely. 87 00:04:30,800 --> 00:04:34,460 Yeah, I'm feeling like she's saying she wants you to reach out to him. She wants 88 00:04:34,460 --> 00:04:38,500 you to keep the family together and stuff. It's almost like you're the one 89 00:04:38,500 --> 00:04:39,680 can do this or something. 90 00:04:40,960 --> 00:04:43,820 She'll guide you in the right direction. I really feel she will. Oh, my God. 91 00:04:44,260 --> 00:04:46,180 I see your broken part. 92 00:04:47,620 --> 00:04:52,720 My parents divorced when I was really little, and my dad was really sad for a 93 00:04:52,720 --> 00:04:53,720 lot of years. 94 00:04:54,390 --> 00:04:58,730 He was very lonely. He never really moved on from his original family, which 95 00:04:58,730 --> 00:04:59,730 me and my mom. 96 00:05:00,470 --> 00:05:02,910 Every second feels like hours. 97 00:05:03,530 --> 00:05:05,710 I always felt like I was the only thing that he had. 98 00:05:06,590 --> 00:05:09,250 And I feel like I kind of deserted him. 99 00:05:09,570 --> 00:05:13,490 I don't go home as much as I used to. It's hard with the kids and work and my 100 00:05:13,490 --> 00:05:14,490 schedule. 101 00:05:14,510 --> 00:05:17,210 I think my grandmother is telling me to connect with him more. That's her way of 102 00:05:17,210 --> 00:05:19,530 telling me he needs me, which is my gut feeling. 103 00:05:37,380 --> 00:05:38,380 Hello. 104 00:05:38,680 --> 00:05:40,180 Hi. How are you? Good. 105 00:05:43,820 --> 00:05:44,820 What's your name? 106 00:05:44,840 --> 00:05:46,500 Kenneth. Hi, Kenneth. I'm Thomas. 107 00:05:51,460 --> 00:05:57,620 Well, I'm a medium, and so I connect to people's loved ones, so... Is that 108 00:05:57,620 --> 00:05:58,620 something you believe in? 109 00:05:59,320 --> 00:06:00,320 Uh... 110 00:06:01,870 --> 00:06:03,930 That's something that I would seek out. All right. 111 00:06:06,350 --> 00:06:07,990 So where do you get this gift? 112 00:06:08,630 --> 00:06:09,870 I feel from God. 113 00:06:10,290 --> 00:06:14,370 God gives different people gifts, you know? Is it the God of the Bible? Is it 114 00:06:14,370 --> 00:06:15,790 Buddha? Is it Allah? 115 00:06:16,070 --> 00:06:18,590 Is it Hindu? I mean, which God is it? 116 00:06:18,930 --> 00:06:22,190 I don't, I don't, I just feel like it's like universe creator. 117 00:06:22,410 --> 00:06:23,410 I just, you know. 118 00:06:26,410 --> 00:06:28,350 Interesting. I'm a pastor. 119 00:06:28,650 --> 00:06:30,750 Oh. In a church. 120 00:06:31,330 --> 00:06:35,690 Are you open to hearing what I'm getting for you? Yeah, I am. I am open to 121 00:06:35,690 --> 00:06:36,690 hearing. 122 00:06:37,190 --> 00:06:39,550 It'll be interesting to see what you come up with. 123 00:06:39,950 --> 00:06:40,950 Okay. 124 00:06:41,510 --> 00:06:43,090 Because I'm very skeptical. 125 00:06:43,450 --> 00:06:48,990 I've had people try to do this and I just stare at them and like, yeah, 126 00:06:48,990 --> 00:06:51,430 whatever. The information doesn't resonate? 127 00:06:51,710 --> 00:06:52,810 Not at all. Yeah. 128 00:06:53,070 --> 00:06:58,270 So, you know, it's kind of like the cookie cutter reading that they apply to 129 00:06:58,270 --> 00:06:59,670 everybody that they see. 130 00:07:02,980 --> 00:07:09,840 So I do feel a female that's very connected to you, like a partner, like a 131 00:07:09,840 --> 00:07:10,840 energy. 132 00:07:11,040 --> 00:07:17,500 I also felt when I was connecting with her that there's a lot of issues in this 133 00:07:17,500 --> 00:07:23,320 area. So I would feel like either like lungs, breath, there's a lot of 134 00:07:23,520 --> 00:07:27,300 That usually means that that's had to do with their passing. 135 00:07:28,140 --> 00:07:32,700 And she's just saying that she feels like you did a lot for her. She was 136 00:07:32,700 --> 00:07:34,080 that she got to know you. 137 00:07:34,840 --> 00:07:40,820 When I connect with her, there is people that are the same. 138 00:07:41,520 --> 00:07:45,920 I don't know if there's like two kids the same age or something, but she's 139 00:07:45,920 --> 00:07:52,500 talking about two kids. I think this is like a daughter or something. And she 140 00:07:52,500 --> 00:07:56,240 just feels like you have done a remarkable job with these people. 141 00:07:57,960 --> 00:08:02,440 She's got, like, a big smile, but I feel like maybe that's just how she wants to 142 00:08:02,440 --> 00:08:04,060 be. Okay, I'm heading up. 143 00:08:20,560 --> 00:08:21,560 Is he happy? 144 00:08:25,200 --> 00:08:28,280 Oh, very much so. I mean, I just get a peaceful feeling from her. 145 00:08:28,840 --> 00:08:31,280 She's very connected to your kids, for sure. 146 00:08:31,860 --> 00:08:34,679 She's talking about twins in the family. 147 00:08:35,559 --> 00:08:36,720 Oh, man. 148 00:08:37,039 --> 00:08:38,140 This is spooky. 149 00:08:40,460 --> 00:08:46,680 Um... My wife died nine years ago. 150 00:08:46,900 --> 00:08:48,740 Okay. Of breast cancer. 151 00:08:49,020 --> 00:08:54,260 Okay. I've been a single father of three daughters, two of whom are twins. 152 00:08:56,030 --> 00:09:01,670 Okay. And it's been a struggle to take care of them, but I've often wondered 153 00:09:01,670 --> 00:09:06,070 I'm doing and how she would talk about how I'm doing. 154 00:09:08,030 --> 00:09:13,830 And I've even 155 00:09:13,830 --> 00:09:18,750 wondered how she appreciated the level of care that I gave her when she was 156 00:09:18,750 --> 00:09:19,750 sick. 157 00:09:19,810 --> 00:09:22,390 We drive from California to Arizona. 158 00:09:25,130 --> 00:09:27,570 To make sure that she got treatment for her cancer. 159 00:09:30,750 --> 00:09:36,210 I feel like she feels like you're doing a great job. 160 00:09:36,650 --> 00:09:39,730 There's definitely an acknowledgement that I would have liked to have stayed 161 00:09:39,730 --> 00:09:44,870 longer, but I also feel like she really trusted you, and I feel like she knew 162 00:09:44,870 --> 00:09:46,610 that you would make the right decisions. 163 00:09:57,870 --> 00:10:00,390 I will never forget this experience. 164 00:10:04,950 --> 00:10:09,650 Hearing how well I'm taking care of my daughters and hearing how well I cared 165 00:10:09,650 --> 00:10:15,530 for her while she was alive really hit a spot in my heart to let me know that 166 00:10:15,530 --> 00:10:17,570 she was speaking through him. 167 00:10:19,090 --> 00:10:20,990 This is why I do this, because 168 00:10:21,900 --> 00:10:26,720 He's somebody who probably wouldn't normally come and see me, but could 169 00:10:26,720 --> 00:10:30,440 get some benefit from hearing a message from a loved one. 170 00:10:31,640 --> 00:10:33,280 Maybe we made a believer out of him. 171 00:10:39,540 --> 00:10:40,700 Oh, no, get in the back. 172 00:10:45,060 --> 00:10:48,700 Okay. All right, where do I put the umbrella? Wherever you want, honey. 173 00:10:49,220 --> 00:10:50,220 One, piggy. 174 00:10:50,280 --> 00:10:51,280 Two, piggy. 175 00:10:52,040 --> 00:10:53,040 Three. Ah! 176 00:10:53,880 --> 00:10:54,880 I'm in. 177 00:10:55,580 --> 00:10:56,820 I'm pinky, by the way. 178 00:10:57,820 --> 00:10:59,080 What are you doing this weekend? 179 00:10:59,840 --> 00:11:01,280 I want to go clubbing. 180 00:11:02,360 --> 00:11:04,180 Cool. I love clubbing. 181 00:11:05,760 --> 00:11:06,760 Love it. 182 00:11:07,500 --> 00:11:08,680 Let me ask you a question. 183 00:11:08,880 --> 00:11:09,699 Yes, go ahead. 184 00:11:09,700 --> 00:11:12,860 If I'm picking up vibes on from you, would you want to hear them? 185 00:11:13,180 --> 00:11:14,180 What are your vibes? 186 00:11:14,700 --> 00:11:15,700 I'm a psychic. 187 00:11:16,340 --> 00:11:18,040 What are the numbers of the lottery? 188 00:11:18,340 --> 00:11:19,800 Well, if I tell you that, we've got to split it. 189 00:11:20,360 --> 00:11:23,380 I can split it. No problem for Pinky. 190 00:11:23,680 --> 00:11:27,040 But you know something? I don't know if I believe in them, really. 191 00:11:27,440 --> 00:11:34,040 I guess, you know, the police use them. And if it helps find a child or finds 192 00:11:34,040 --> 00:11:40,140 the murderer that they have to capture, then I'm for it. But generally, I don't 193 00:11:40,140 --> 00:11:41,140 know. 194 00:11:42,120 --> 00:11:46,100 Um... Did you ever run for author? 195 00:11:47,500 --> 00:11:49,100 Oh, my God, this is... 196 00:11:49,870 --> 00:11:52,830 This is not... This is... Yeah. 197 00:11:53,170 --> 00:11:55,430 Okay. I ran for mayor of Los Angeles. 198 00:11:56,210 --> 00:11:59,550 So you already did that. Well, I was thinking of running for president, 199 00:11:59,650 --> 00:12:00,650 Oh. You know. 200 00:12:00,850 --> 00:12:02,230 I have a lot of ideas. 201 00:12:04,650 --> 00:12:07,510 There's definitely a father energy that I'm feeling. 202 00:12:07,810 --> 00:12:08,810 Okay. 203 00:12:10,170 --> 00:12:11,850 Your dad is talking about coins? 204 00:12:13,290 --> 00:12:15,750 Yes. Okay. There was something like... 205 00:12:16,000 --> 00:12:21,140 you know, paperwork or a will or something that was hidden from you. So 206 00:12:21,140 --> 00:12:26,120 passed, it was like you kind of got pushed out like a little bit? Yes! Okay. 207 00:12:26,160 --> 00:12:32,260 my gosh. Oh, my gosh. Let's go around for five hours. I want to hear all of 208 00:12:32,260 --> 00:12:35,720 this. This is getting eerie. This is, oh, my goodness. 209 00:12:35,960 --> 00:12:37,320 You're going to make me a believer. 210 00:12:41,000 --> 00:12:45,020 This has been bothering me because he was a very wealthy man. Not that money, 211 00:12:45,040 --> 00:12:48,820 you know, money comes and goes, but why didn't he protect me? 212 00:12:49,500 --> 00:12:51,560 He didn't provide for me. 213 00:12:52,900 --> 00:12:58,500 So I'm sensing that he just felt that he was going to be here to deal with it. 214 00:12:58,580 --> 00:13:02,420 He really just did not envision that he was going to pass away. 215 00:13:02,940 --> 00:13:05,680 My father would be like that. He thought he would live forever. 216 00:13:06,180 --> 00:13:09,520 He misjudged how much your mom was going to... 217 00:13:09,800 --> 00:13:11,160 Take advantage of the situation. 218 00:13:11,520 --> 00:13:12,520 I see. 219 00:13:12,580 --> 00:13:13,580 Yeah. 220 00:13:14,000 --> 00:13:20,440 Now, I want you to know I have entirely changed my mind 221 00:13:20,440 --> 00:13:26,120 about psychics. This was the best experience of my life. 222 00:13:26,340 --> 00:13:29,740 Oh, thank you. If you get in a mayor's office, you've got to help me with the, 223 00:13:29,740 --> 00:13:31,180 guess, sometimes parking ticket. 224 00:13:31,420 --> 00:13:32,420 We'll see. 225 00:13:32,440 --> 00:13:34,480 I don't know if I can do it. 226 00:13:34,700 --> 00:13:35,700 Well, 227 00:13:36,160 --> 00:13:37,039 thank you. 228 00:13:37,040 --> 00:13:38,040 All right, bye. 229 00:13:39,850 --> 00:13:42,330 It takes all kinds to make this world go around. 230 00:13:45,430 --> 00:13:51,270 You got anything planned for the weekend? 231 00:13:51,750 --> 00:13:54,890 I'll just stay in, playing with my cat at home, King Julian. 232 00:13:55,150 --> 00:13:56,150 He poops a lot. 233 00:13:57,290 --> 00:14:01,450 Cool. I know this is, like, sounds super crazy. I'm very much in the fairy 234 00:14:01,450 --> 00:14:02,450 realm. 235 00:14:05,730 --> 00:14:07,990 I know you, Matthew. 236 00:14:08,650 --> 00:14:10,570 No. No? You look like my friend Matt. 237 00:14:11,010 --> 00:14:13,850 Actually, you're about five to ten pounds heavier. 238 00:14:14,090 --> 00:14:15,270 Okay, you can step out of the car, sir. 239 00:14:18,290 --> 00:14:20,410 So I'm going to guess your favorite color is pink. 240 00:14:21,250 --> 00:14:22,250 Gorgeous pink. 241 00:14:22,310 --> 00:14:25,050 That's interesting, because your aura is really more of a blue. 242 00:14:28,210 --> 00:14:30,150 You have a mohawk made out of glass? 243 00:14:30,570 --> 00:14:33,510 Yes. That might be a little crazy, but it's a good crazy. 244 00:14:34,650 --> 00:14:36,290 People say that about me, too. 245 00:14:38,120 --> 00:14:40,580 I wouldn't trade you for gold. 246 00:14:45,660 --> 00:14:46,760 I'm a medium, actually. 247 00:14:47,000 --> 00:14:47,759 Are you really? 248 00:14:47,760 --> 00:14:48,760 Yeah. Cool. 249 00:14:49,160 --> 00:14:52,680 That was weird because when you got in the car, I did feel there was a woman 250 00:14:52,680 --> 00:14:53,559 with you. 251 00:14:53,560 --> 00:14:55,240 My mom passed away. 252 00:14:55,580 --> 00:14:56,359 Oh, okay. 253 00:14:56,360 --> 00:14:57,400 She likes your hair. 254 00:14:57,720 --> 00:14:58,760 She likes my hair? 255 00:14:58,960 --> 00:14:59,879 Yeah. 256 00:14:59,880 --> 00:15:01,580 I look more like her now. 257 00:15:02,120 --> 00:15:04,340 She was blonde. I dyed it blonde. Oh, I see. 258 00:15:07,240 --> 00:15:08,680 When you get quiet, are you listening? 259 00:15:09,080 --> 00:15:10,080 Yes. 260 00:15:10,500 --> 00:15:12,840 I'm trying to figure out what she's trying to show me here. 261 00:15:14,920 --> 00:15:17,740 In a way, was she kind of quiet like or shy? 262 00:15:18,160 --> 00:15:19,160 Yeah. Yeah. 263 00:15:19,200 --> 00:15:21,200 She seems kind of like she's quiet. 264 00:15:21,880 --> 00:15:25,480 Every time I'm trying to talk to her, she's shy like. Yeah. 265 00:15:26,060 --> 00:15:29,480 I can tell that she didn't really have it like easy in life. I felt like she 266 00:15:29,480 --> 00:15:30,480 a lot of hardships. 267 00:15:30,819 --> 00:15:35,140 Yeah, her childhood wasn't the best, and then it carried over into her adult 268 00:15:35,140 --> 00:15:37,620 life. Was it hard for her to go out of the house sometimes? 269 00:15:39,040 --> 00:15:42,360 Yeah. Uh -huh. She's shown me, like, being in the house a lot. 270 00:15:42,600 --> 00:15:47,540 She keeps telling me that it was sudden. Yeah, it was completely, um... Like, 271 00:15:47,540 --> 00:15:50,380 you didn't know, you didn't, like, have a plan that it was going to happen or 272 00:15:50,380 --> 00:15:52,520 something? No. She would watch my son every weekend. 273 00:15:52,800 --> 00:15:56,240 Mm -hmm. And when I picked him up that Sunday... 274 00:15:56,910 --> 00:15:58,550 I could tell she was super irritated. 275 00:15:58,770 --> 00:16:02,290 And with the depression and everything, sometimes she would just get like that. 276 00:16:02,330 --> 00:16:03,770 My whole life, she would just get like that. 277 00:16:04,350 --> 00:16:07,790 Monday, I went to her house, and I found her. 278 00:16:08,370 --> 00:16:11,110 We overdosed on prescription pills. 279 00:16:11,410 --> 00:16:12,410 OK. 280 00:16:19,010 --> 00:16:20,010 She's telling me. 281 00:16:20,130 --> 00:16:21,750 You feel guilty about that? 282 00:16:22,450 --> 00:16:23,450 I have guilt. 283 00:16:24,310 --> 00:16:26,950 because you feel like maybe you could have intervened or something? 284 00:16:27,230 --> 00:16:33,790 Usually, I talk to my mom every day, and for whatever reason, I didn't talk to 285 00:16:33,790 --> 00:16:37,530 her. When she doesn't answer her phone, I freak out, and I go check on her, and 286 00:16:37,530 --> 00:16:38,730 I should have called her that night. 287 00:16:39,850 --> 00:16:44,430 I wasn't sure if it was intentional or not, because I knew how depressed she 288 00:16:44,430 --> 00:16:50,110 was, and it was a concern that I had been having that he was going to make a 289 00:16:50,110 --> 00:16:51,110 decision. 290 00:16:51,450 --> 00:16:52,770 But I feel like... 291 00:16:53,440 --> 00:16:54,440 She had given up. 292 00:16:54,660 --> 00:16:57,200 I just, like, literally, I still don't know. 293 00:17:11,140 --> 00:17:15,099 I feel it was, like, an accident, not a suicide. 294 00:17:15,440 --> 00:17:16,460 I really thought that. 295 00:17:16,920 --> 00:17:18,880 No, honey, I don't think it was, though. No. 296 00:17:19,770 --> 00:17:23,290 I don't feel that at all. If I felt that, I would tell you because I 297 00:17:23,290 --> 00:17:24,730 But no, I don't think so. 298 00:17:29,770 --> 00:17:33,990 She would do that sometimes, take an extra one. Oh, I'm going to take two. 299 00:17:34,010 --> 00:17:35,310 she always liked her pills. 300 00:17:36,790 --> 00:17:39,510 Yeah, she always liked them. 301 00:17:40,370 --> 00:17:45,330 She's giving me this image that she's trying to help you a little bit. She 302 00:17:45,330 --> 00:17:46,350 like you're a little stuck. 303 00:17:47,000 --> 00:17:49,760 Have you felt a little stuck since she passed? Very. 304 00:17:50,180 --> 00:17:52,100 Have you moved since your mom passed? 305 00:17:52,420 --> 00:17:57,480 I had intentions to move. Yeah. But it's weird. I feel like she wants you to 306 00:17:57,480 --> 00:18:03,320 move. Yeah, she probably does because I really need to. I have an ex at my house 307 00:18:03,320 --> 00:18:04,900 that I tried to help. 308 00:18:05,140 --> 00:18:09,580 And then I have my stepmom at my house. 309 00:18:10,540 --> 00:18:14,580 And I'm turning into my mom in terms of depression. 310 00:18:15,530 --> 00:18:21,550 Always in my room now, like she used to be. Because I don't want to go out and 311 00:18:21,550 --> 00:18:23,870 see people in my house that I don't want there. 312 00:18:24,210 --> 00:18:25,910 So I don't stay in my room. 313 00:18:26,150 --> 00:18:32,370 She keeps telling me, you can't help others until you help yourself, you 314 00:18:32,970 --> 00:18:34,630 And that's an important thing to remember. 315 00:18:34,870 --> 00:18:36,590 You need to get up and out of that energy. 316 00:18:36,930 --> 00:18:39,810 Yeah. I'm just not happy. I'm so not happy there. 317 00:18:45,100 --> 00:18:49,200 Thomas answered the biggest question, which was whether or not my mom's death 318 00:18:49,200 --> 00:18:50,139 was intentional. 319 00:18:50,140 --> 00:18:54,300 I couldn't figure out why she would just give up. 320 00:18:54,800 --> 00:18:57,020 But now I know she didn't just give up. 321 00:18:57,800 --> 00:19:04,720 I hate to say that I was angry at her, but I was kind of 322 00:19:04,720 --> 00:19:05,720 mad at her. 323 00:19:06,120 --> 00:19:07,480 That's the best part of this. 324 00:19:07,920 --> 00:19:10,060 I can just not be mad at my mom anymore. 325 00:19:10,440 --> 00:19:13,800 It makes me feel not so alone. You always want your mom. 326 00:19:14,330 --> 00:19:16,270 So it feels good to know that your mom is with you.