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DR. LIM: Previously on
The Good Doctor...

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The aneurysm
caused his back pain.
Dr. Wolke missed it.

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I screwed up.

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(ALARM BLARING)
Compressions.

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(BREATHING HEAVILY)

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(EKG FLATLINING)
Dr. Wolke.

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He's dead.

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DR. LIM:
Take as much time
as you need.

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DR. LIM: The virus
has damaged
your mother's lungs.

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We're doing
everything we can
to help her.

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(FLATLINING)

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(PADDLES WHINE)
120 joules.

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I've got hydroxychloroquine,
ribavirin...

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I'm twice the size
of SJ General.

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I should have twice
the amount of tests.

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(FLATLINING)

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(SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE)

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(MOTORCYCLE REVVING)

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** I'm over the rainbow

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** No yellow brick road

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** Can't seem to find home

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** Over the rainbow

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** Ah, ah, ah,
ah, ah, ah, ah

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** Ah, ah, ah,
ah, ah, ah, ah

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** Ah, ah, ah,
ah, ah, ah, ah **

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(TIRES SQUEAL)

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WOMAN: Oh, my God,
what happened?

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(SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE)
MAN: Is he okay?

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I'm a doctor.
What happened?

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I don't know.
He was running.
I honked.

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All of a sudden,
he was in front
of my car.

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Pedestrian versus car,
GCS five at scene.

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Rigid abdomen
with active bleeding.

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Flail chest with pneumo.

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He needs an ex lap. Now.

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(MONITOR BEEPING)

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We've got
a massive
hemoperitoneum.

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I need two large
suctions and lap pads
in all four quadrants.

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There's a grade-three
liver laceration

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in right
lateral segments.

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CLAIRE: Liver stitch,
number 1 chromic

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on a blunt needle
and a combat gauze.

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What were you doing
on your bike
at that hour?

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Heading into work.

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Trying to prep
for my budget meeting
with Glassman.

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Mobilize the liver to
check for any associated
diaphragm injury.

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It's the other side
of town.

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I was taking
the scenic route.

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(ALARM BEEPING)
ASHER: BP's dropping.

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He's got another bleed.

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Add more lap pads
and run the bowel.

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There's a perforation
near the terminal ileum.

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Ah. Something
tore through
the intestinal wall.

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(BEEPING SLOWS)

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It's shrapnel.

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ASHER: From the accident?

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The coat's eroded.

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It looks like
it's been in there
a while.

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It must have gotten dislodged
in the accident.

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(METAL CLATTERS)

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(THEME MUSIC PLAYING)

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How does Asher
seem to you?

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He seems fine.

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Too fine for someone
who's just lost
their first patient.

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I don't have time to worry
about people being too fine.

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He's faking it.
Good.

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The brain releases serotonin
when you smile,

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even if you're miserable.

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I feel better already.

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Denial is not
a proven strategy

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for psychological
health.

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Dwelling on things you can't
change doesn't help either.

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(CELLPHONE CHIMES)

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(SIGHS)

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(SHOE SQUEAKS)

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24-year-old woman
came into the ER

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complaining of
abdominal pain
and headaches,

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and, surprise,
she's pregnant.

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Apparently not
a happy surprise.

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She wants
an abortion.

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Well, what's wrong
with her?

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I assume you haven't
recently learned
the value of sharing,

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which makes me think
there's another reason

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you're unloading this
onto the surgical department.

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She has a congenital
IgA deficiency

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and a history of
severe infections.

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She'll need
IV antibiotics

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and close
post-surgical
observation.

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I figured
one of your newbies

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may as well
learn something.

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TOY FROGS:
(IN RASPY VOICE)
** ...You'd say

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** What can make me
feel this way

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** My girl

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** My girl, my girl**

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(MUSIC STOPS)

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Lea's birthday
is tomorrow.

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There are many
cute frogs

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and many
romantic songs.

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I can't decide.

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It is my first gift
as her boyfriend.

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It needs to
be... awesome.

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Well, then, maybe
singing frogs,

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however cute,
might be a mistake.

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Try something
more personal
or romantic.

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And find a resident
who hasn't done
a suction DandC

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and teach them.

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Oh. No, n... no.

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I'll do it myself.

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I'm not going to
teach anymore.

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I'm a good surgeon.
I'll do surgery.

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Dr. Murphy, part of
your job as a surgeon
is to teach.

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You can't opt out
because it's difficult.

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I am opting out
because I'm bad at it.

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Well, you can't opt out
for any reason.

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But I may have given you
too much responsibility
too soon,

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so I will supervise
your supervision

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until you get
the hang of it.

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Pick someone.

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Did you two
lose something?

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(SIGHS)
Our patient.

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Rose Babcock.

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She's post-op from
repair of a distal
radius fracture.

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ENRIQUE: 60s.
White hair.

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Looks at you
like she's staring
into your soul.

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Does she have
a limp?

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ENRIQUE AND OLIVIA: No.

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Well, I think
she does now.

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Uh, Ms. Babcock,
did you fall
down again?

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Oh, no, I'm fine.

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But... But there's
a poor man
in room 318

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who's in
a lot of pain.

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DR. LIM:
Let's get you
back in bed.

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Ah.

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Yep.

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Apply a new Tegaderm,
not antibiotic ointment.

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(MONITOR BEEPING)

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They breathe.

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Don't make us
handcuff you
to the bed, Rose.

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We charge extra
for that.

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Dry the skin more
so it'll stick.

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You're doing
just fine, dear.

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(MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY)

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DR. PARK: Heart rate's
spiking in the 130s.

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BP 162 over 95.

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Are you feeling
any pressure
in your chest?

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No, it's just anxiety.

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Not mine.
It's one
of yours.

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We're gonna pretend,
since it's happening
in your chest,

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that it's yours.

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20 milligrams
IV labetalol.

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I'm fine.

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I'm an empath.

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I can feel
what other people
are feeling,

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and one of you
is very stressed out.

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Olivia, stay where you are.

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And one milligram
of Ativan.

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(BEEPING SLOWS)

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(CELLPHONE CHIMES)

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RUNNER: Keep away
from me!

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No!
Step back!

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DR. LIM: Sir,
you were in
an accident.

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We're taking care
of you.

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Stop. Stop it! Now!

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Get away from me!

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(WHISPERS) I need you
to hold him down
while I administer Haldol.

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Sir, please just...

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I'm warning you.
This room
is being cleared.

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WOMAN: No one
is gonna hurt you.

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Ben.

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Huh?

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You're having
a flashback.

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You're not
in Afghanistan.

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You're in the hospital.

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Look around.

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What do you see?

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Zoe?

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Yeah.
Yeah, baby, it's me.

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Zoe, I...
I couldn't sleep.

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I... I went for a run,
and I...

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I heard an explosion.

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(BREATH TREMBLING)

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(STUTTERS) And I don't...
I don't know what
happened after that.

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You were hit
by a car.

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We had to do surgery,
but you're gonna be okay.

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(SIGHS)
It's okay.

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Take him back
to his room,

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make sure
he didn't open
his wound.

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I'm sorry.

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Dr. Murphy?

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Rose is not
your patient.

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She was teaching me
about her gift.

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She says
the basis of empathy
is curiosity,

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which I find curious
because...

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I'm curious about the job
you're supposed to be doing.

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Who are you leading
through the DandC?

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None of them.

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The only one
who hasn't done one
does not want to,

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so I will.

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Which resident?

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Wanting to
is irrelevant.

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It's their job.

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Wanting to
is irrelevant.
It's your job.

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I'm a Christian.

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Performing an abortion
goes against my beliefs.

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Okay.

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You may encounter
a situation one day

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where this procedure
could save
a woman's life.

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Then I hope
someone else can...

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And it's my job to
make sure you can
perform all surgeries,

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including abortions.

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So where does that
leave us?

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I'll do
the surgery.

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I've only
done one.

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I'm sure
there's a lot
I still can learn.

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Dr. Murphy,
you have
a new student.

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Get her started running
pre-surgery assessments.

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Thank you,
Olivia.

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That's the kind
of ambition
I like to see.

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He did three tours.

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He came home
after he was
injured

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in some kind
of explosion.

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I don't really know
what happened.

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Some...
He's tried to tell me
about it several times,

224
00:10:08,508 --> 00:10:10,138
but he just...
He breaks down.

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When was he diagnosed
with PTSD?

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Two years ago.

227
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But he hasn't
been the same
since he got back.

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At first,
he was moody,
irritable.

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Little things
would set him off.

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Then the insomnia
started.

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(HIGH-PITCHED RINGING)

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His mind is just...
It's never at rest.

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Nights are the worst,
you know?

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He, um...

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He gets these
terrible nightmares.

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(RINGING STOPS)

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Flashbacks.

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Just... We can't sleep
in the same room
anymore.

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Make sure he stays
off his feet.

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Would you like us
to arrange
a psych consult?

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ZOE: We've been
down that road.

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Talk therapy,
group therapy,
exposure therapy...

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00:11:01,729 --> 00:11:02,799
(VOICE BREAKING)
endless medications.

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00:11:04,397 --> 00:11:05,267
Let us know
if you change
your mind.

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00:11:14,441 --> 00:11:15,181
(HIGH-PITCHED RINGING)

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00:11:29,757 --> 00:11:30,717
(DISTORTED VOICES)

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00:11:32,926 --> 00:11:33,926
(RINGING INTENSIFIES)

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(DRAWER OPENS)

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(DISTORTED VOICES CONTINUE)

250
00:11:40,267 --> 00:11:41,937
(FUTURE ROYALTY'S
"KEEP DIGGIN' UP DIRT"
PLAYS ON HEADPHONES)

251
00:11:42,069 --> 00:11:43,039
(RINGING CONTINUES)

252
00:11:48,809 --> 00:11:49,979
(MUSIC VOLUME INCREASES)

253
00:11:50,110 --> 00:11:52,680
** Keep diggin' up dirt

254
00:11:52,813 --> 00:11:54,383
** Keep diggin' up dirt **

255
00:11:59,486 --> 00:12:03,156
Jillian, I need those stats
on elective surgeries
for my budget meeting.

256
00:12:03,857 --> 00:12:04,617
And a coffee.

257
00:12:06,093 --> 00:12:07,263
(SIGHS)

258
00:12:07,394 --> 00:12:08,204
Jillian?

259
00:12:10,263 --> 00:12:12,003
She's not there.
I need approval
for this.

260
00:12:15,702 --> 00:12:16,442
And this.

261
00:12:18,271 --> 00:12:20,241
You said I couldn't
give her the frogs.

262
00:12:21,374 --> 00:12:23,884
Oh, you can't
give her this either.

263
00:12:24,011 --> 00:12:25,051
You don't know
what it is.

264
00:12:25,178 --> 00:12:26,248
I know
it would mean more

265
00:12:26,379 --> 00:12:27,549
if you had to
leave the building
to get it.

266
00:12:31,418 --> 00:12:35,088
I would like to do
the suction
DandC surgery.

267
00:12:35,222 --> 00:12:38,692
I assume your religious
convictions haven't changed
in the last few hours.

268
00:12:38,826 --> 00:12:40,256
No.

269
00:12:40,393 --> 00:12:42,563
But I believe I was
put in this program
for a reason.

270
00:12:42,695 --> 00:12:43,925
So, if you think
it's important for me

271
00:12:44,064 --> 00:12:46,074
to learn how to do
an abortion,

272
00:12:46,199 --> 00:12:47,199
then I should learn.

273
00:12:50,737 --> 00:12:53,367
Take Jordan
to the skills lab.
Run the surgery steps.

274
00:12:53,506 --> 00:12:55,276
You two will
handle the DandC
yourselves.

275
00:12:55,408 --> 00:12:56,378
With you.

276
00:12:58,145 --> 00:13:00,745
How are you
going to supervise
my supervision

277
00:13:00,881 --> 00:13:02,021
if you're not there?

278
00:13:02,149 --> 00:13:04,319
I will help you prep
and debrief afterwards.

279
00:13:04,451 --> 00:13:06,751
But this patient
doesn't need
a gallery of strangers

280
00:13:06,887 --> 00:13:08,987
standing around,
gawking at her most
private experience.

281
00:13:09,122 --> 00:13:10,562
Sorry
to interrupt.

282
00:13:10,690 --> 00:13:11,930
Ben woke up
complaining
of pain.

283
00:13:12,059 --> 00:13:13,729
Did you check
the incision?

284
00:13:13,861 --> 00:13:14,691
The pain is in his arm.

285
00:13:17,364 --> 00:13:18,904
Now test
external rotation
of the shoulder.

286
00:13:19,632 --> 00:13:20,802
(WINCES)

287
00:13:20,934 --> 00:13:21,974
We're almost done.
(EXHALES SHARPLY)

288
00:13:22,102 --> 00:13:23,242
Can you describe
the pain?

289
00:13:23,736 --> 00:13:24,736
Aah! (WINCES)

290
00:13:27,074 --> 00:13:28,414
We'll call it a 10.

291
00:13:28,541 --> 00:13:30,881
It's been hurting
for years, but, aah,
this is...

292
00:13:31,011 --> 00:13:32,181
This is something else.

293
00:13:32,312 --> 00:13:33,412
How did you injure
your shoulder before?

294
00:13:37,384 --> 00:13:38,254
I was in a... (SIGHS)

295
00:13:40,720 --> 00:13:43,260
I was in a convoy
in Kandahar,

296
00:13:44,124 --> 00:13:45,134
and there was a...

297
00:13:46,026 --> 00:13:46,756
(BREATH TREMBLING)

298
00:13:48,896 --> 00:13:51,796
(STAMMERS)
I dislocated my...

299
00:13:51,932 --> 00:13:52,972
You don't need to
discuss it with us.

300
00:13:55,135 --> 00:13:56,465
What did you find?

301
00:13:56,603 --> 00:13:59,043
Swelling,
sensitivity to touch,
discoloration.

302
00:13:59,172 --> 00:14:01,242
Could be CRPS.
What is that?

303
00:14:01,374 --> 00:14:02,844
Well, it appears
the car accident

304
00:14:02,976 --> 00:14:05,206
aggravated
a prior injury.

305
00:14:05,345 --> 00:14:07,645
You've developed
complex regional
pain syndrome.

306
00:14:07,780 --> 00:14:09,980
We'll start you
on Gabapentin
and Dilaudid.

307
00:14:10,117 --> 00:14:13,217
Opioids make me
a little insane.

308
00:14:13,353 --> 00:14:15,493
We could do a stellate
ganglion block.

309
00:14:15,622 --> 00:14:18,292
It's an injection
of anesthetic
near the spine

310
00:14:18,425 --> 00:14:19,985
that blocks
the pain signals,

311
00:14:20,127 --> 00:14:21,687
and could also help
the PTSD.

312
00:14:23,830 --> 00:14:26,370
I've been treated
for PTSD for years.

313
00:14:26,499 --> 00:14:27,629
Why haven't I heard
about this?

314
00:14:27,767 --> 00:14:30,037
It's experimental,
but promising.

315
00:14:30,170 --> 00:14:31,600
The procedure
comes with risks:

316
00:14:31,738 --> 00:14:34,238
vascular injury,
infection,
major hematoma.

317
00:14:34,374 --> 00:14:36,584
Dr. Lim,
I've been taking a risk
every time I go to sleep.

318
00:14:40,413 --> 00:14:41,853
I want to do it.

319
00:14:41,982 --> 00:14:44,582
Stellate block is
an accepted procedure
for treatment of pain.

320
00:14:44,717 --> 00:14:46,217
Which you wouldn't
have suggested

321
00:14:46,353 --> 00:14:47,823
if the patient didn't
also have a mental
health condition.

322
00:14:47,955 --> 00:14:49,285
(SHOES SQUEAK)

323
00:14:49,422 --> 00:14:50,692
(BIRDS CHIRPING)
I hear Jordan's back
on the DandC,

324
00:14:50,823 --> 00:14:52,593
in spite of her
righteous indignation.

325
00:14:52,725 --> 00:14:54,025
Is something
chirping?

326
00:14:54,161 --> 00:14:55,461
I think
you're being unfair.

327
00:14:55,595 --> 00:14:57,055
Well, if anyone's
being unfair, it's me.

328
00:14:57,197 --> 00:14:58,327
I told Jordan
to do it.

329
00:14:58,898 --> 00:15:00,398
I told her.

330
00:15:00,533 --> 00:15:02,503
We make decisions that
are hard to live with
all the time.

331
00:15:02,635 --> 00:15:03,735
We make them anyway.

332
00:15:03,870 --> 00:15:05,610
And I told her
pissing off the Chief

333
00:15:05,738 --> 00:15:07,838
was a very bad way
to start your residency.

334
00:15:07,975 --> 00:15:09,305
Glad to hear
you're still
moonlighting

335
00:15:09,442 --> 00:15:11,382
as surgical department
camp counselor,

336
00:15:11,511 --> 00:15:13,351
but I don't mean
you were being
unfair to Jordan.

337
00:15:13,480 --> 00:15:14,750
You're being unfair
to the patient.

338
00:15:14,881 --> 00:15:17,521
She's facing
an emotionally
fraught procedure.

339
00:15:17,650 --> 00:15:19,520
She needs the support
of her doctors.

340
00:15:19,652 --> 00:15:21,352
And who she's getting
is a rookie who thinks
she's committing murder.

341
00:15:22,822 --> 00:15:23,792
And Shaun.

342
00:15:27,961 --> 00:15:28,931
I have a point.

343
00:15:31,531 --> 00:15:33,331
I'll lead Jordan
through the DandC myself.

344
00:15:33,466 --> 00:15:34,526
You're happy.

345
00:15:34,667 --> 00:15:36,267
Dr. Murphy will be happy.

346
00:15:36,403 --> 00:15:37,973
My cup runneth over.

347
00:15:38,105 --> 00:15:39,965
Now get whatever's
in that box
out of my department.

348
00:15:45,378 --> 00:15:46,378
(SIGHS)

349
00:15:48,015 --> 00:15:48,745
(RETCHING)

350
00:15:50,583 --> 00:15:51,383
Morning sickness.

351
00:15:52,685 --> 00:15:54,115
Nurse Ella's.

352
00:15:54,254 --> 00:15:56,464
Rose claims she can feel
her pregnancy.

353
00:15:56,589 --> 00:15:58,389
She was right
about the guy
in Room 318.

354
00:15:58,525 --> 00:16:00,325
He had a clot
in his ankle.

355
00:16:00,460 --> 00:16:02,160
I'm sure she picked up
on some subtle clues,

356
00:16:02,295 --> 00:16:04,225
like the guy moaning
and grasping his ankle.

357
00:16:05,698 --> 00:16:08,398
Get a CT to rule out
abdominal injury
from her fall.

358
00:16:10,937 --> 00:16:13,137
DR. LIM: We're going to
insert a thin needle
into your neck

359
00:16:13,273 --> 00:16:14,943
so we can inject
the anesthetic.

360
00:16:15,075 --> 00:16:15,805
It may sting a bit.

361
00:16:22,115 --> 00:16:24,445
Use an in-plane approach
to place the needle

362
00:16:24,584 --> 00:16:26,424
between the C6 tubercle
and carotid artery.

363
00:16:50,610 --> 00:16:52,010
CLAIRE: You might feel
some discomfort.

364
00:16:57,016 --> 00:16:58,016
(LIQUID POURING)

365
00:17:01,421 --> 00:17:03,161
(HIGH-PITCHED RINGING)
(DISTORTED VOICES)

366
00:17:08,161 --> 00:17:08,931
(CELLPHONE CHIMES)

367
00:17:22,509 --> 00:17:23,479
DR. LIM:
What's wrong?

368
00:17:24,111 --> 00:17:24,811
Zoe's hurt.

369
00:17:24,944 --> 00:17:25,914
I'm okay.

370
00:17:26,045 --> 00:17:27,375
Get some ice.

371
00:17:27,514 --> 00:17:28,484
Let me take a look.

372
00:17:28,615 --> 00:17:29,745
What happened?

373
00:17:29,882 --> 00:17:30,852
I hit her.

374
00:17:30,983 --> 00:17:32,053
ZOE: I was laying
next to him.

375
00:17:32,185 --> 00:17:33,715
I know I shouldn't,

376
00:17:33,853 --> 00:17:36,123
but the shot
just made his pain
feel so much better.

377
00:17:36,256 --> 00:17:36,986
I thought...
Zo.

378
00:17:38,591 --> 00:17:39,491
You didn't do
anything wrong.

379
00:17:41,694 --> 00:17:42,904
There was a noise
in the hall.

380
00:17:43,029 --> 00:17:43,859
I lashed out.
I know.

381
00:17:45,198 --> 00:17:45,928
I didn't mean to.

382
00:17:46,566 --> 00:17:47,496
I'm sorry.

383
00:17:54,207 --> 00:17:55,877
Nothing's broken.

384
00:17:56,008 --> 00:17:57,608
I can get you something
for the swelling.

385
00:17:57,744 --> 00:17:59,414
No. I'm okay.
I'm gonna go home,
get cleaned up.

386
00:18:02,515 --> 00:18:03,515
I just need some time.

387
00:18:06,719 --> 00:18:07,519
I love you.

388
00:18:21,301 --> 00:18:23,171
I think
we can
help Ben.

389
00:18:23,303 --> 00:18:24,843
There have been
some promising
results

390
00:18:24,971 --> 00:18:27,741
using Vagal
Nerve Stimulation
to treat PTSD.

391
00:18:27,874 --> 00:18:29,014
DR. LIM:
His scarring would
make it impossible

392
00:18:29,142 --> 00:18:31,742
to expose and
find the nerve
without damaging it.

393
00:18:31,878 --> 00:18:34,808
Those scars
are the reason that
we need to try.

394
00:18:34,947 --> 00:18:38,287
Imagine reliving
your worst nightmare
over and over again.

395
00:18:38,418 --> 00:18:39,448
(SCOFFS) Why doesn't
anyone around here

396
00:18:39,586 --> 00:18:40,946
want to do the job
they were hired for?

397
00:18:41,087 --> 00:18:42,517
What Ben needs is
psychological help.

398
00:18:42,655 --> 00:18:43,985
I've ordered
a consult.

399
00:18:44,123 --> 00:18:45,563
Leave it to
the people who are
trained to do it.

400
00:18:47,727 --> 00:18:48,897
It sets
a bad precedent
to force a resident

401
00:18:49,028 --> 00:18:50,758
to do a procedure
they're not
comfortable with.

402
00:18:50,897 --> 00:18:52,867
Wow. Does anyone
around here not
have an opinion

403
00:18:52,999 --> 00:18:55,199
about who should do
that damn abortion?

404
00:18:55,335 --> 00:18:57,895
Jordan had a choice,
and in my opinion,
she made the right one.

405
00:18:58,037 --> 00:18:59,767
It's not a true choice
if you're coerced
by your boss.

406
00:18:59,906 --> 00:19:02,276
I asked her
to do her job.

407
00:19:02,409 --> 00:19:04,639
You took an opportunity
from a resident
who wants to learn

408
00:19:04,777 --> 00:19:06,407
in favor of
one who doesn't.

409
00:19:06,546 --> 00:19:08,646
Is this song and dance
about Jordan doing
the procedure

410
00:19:08,781 --> 00:19:10,581
or your niece
not doing it?

411
00:19:11,451 --> 00:19:13,121
Neither.

412
00:19:13,253 --> 00:19:16,693
There's a misconception that
Olivia came to St. Bonaventure
because of me.

413
00:19:16,823 --> 00:19:18,593
She's here because
of your reputation.

414
00:19:19,592 --> 00:19:21,032
The great Dr. Lim,

415
00:19:21,160 --> 00:19:24,160
a master class in
technique, professionalism,
empathy.

416
00:19:25,698 --> 00:19:27,228
Lately, it doesn't seem like
that reputation holds up.

417
00:19:33,640 --> 00:19:36,440
JORDAN: I'm giving you
an antibiotic
to prevent infection.

418
00:19:36,576 --> 00:19:38,776
The vacuum aspiration
will take about
15 minutes,

419
00:19:38,911 --> 00:19:40,611
and you'll be numbed
with a local anesthetic.

420
00:19:41,714 --> 00:19:43,984
Conscious sedation
is also an option,

421
00:19:44,116 --> 00:19:46,386
but you will need
someone to drive you
home afterwards.

422
00:19:50,757 --> 00:19:51,817
Do you have
any questions
for me?

423
00:19:57,664 --> 00:19:58,634
I'm scared.

424
00:20:07,474 --> 00:20:09,684
(SIGHS SOFTLY)

425
00:20:09,809 --> 00:20:12,209
Are you certain
you wanna go ahead
with the abortion?

426
00:20:20,520 --> 00:20:21,520
Yes.

427
00:20:24,657 --> 00:20:26,327
Then you don't
have to be scared.

428
00:20:27,960 --> 00:20:29,660
You're the making
the right decision
for you.

429
00:20:37,003 --> 00:20:38,673
Give her another
400 micrograms
of misoprostol.

430
00:20:39,572 --> 00:20:40,672
I'll be back
for the procedure.

431
00:20:43,009 --> 00:20:44,209
This doesn't work.

432
00:20:44,344 --> 00:20:46,054
I need these numbers
in spreadsheet format.

433
00:20:46,178 --> 00:20:47,478
Thank you.
DR. PARK:
Oh, excuse me.

434
00:20:51,818 --> 00:20:53,088
Dr. Park?

435
00:20:53,219 --> 00:20:53,949
Rose's CT was normal.

436
00:20:54,987 --> 00:20:56,317
Get an upper GI
barium study.

437
00:20:58,157 --> 00:21:00,227
First quarter
supply costs
you requested.

438
00:21:00,360 --> 00:21:01,690
Also, one of
your first-years
seems upset.

439
00:21:03,029 --> 00:21:04,559
He's been
in the stairwell
for a while.

440
00:21:08,368 --> 00:21:09,368
DR. LIM:
Everything okay
in here?

441
00:21:11,738 --> 00:21:13,538
I just needed
some quiet.

442
00:21:16,809 --> 00:21:19,649
Surgeons come
into the stairwell
for two reasons,

443
00:21:19,779 --> 00:21:21,079
fire drills
or doctor trauma.

444
00:21:22,549 --> 00:21:23,719
You having a fire drill?

445
00:21:26,353 --> 00:21:28,363
I just wish we had a more
effective treatment for Ben.

446
00:21:29,822 --> 00:21:32,392
His head's so messed up,
and we can't help him.

447
00:21:37,196 --> 00:21:38,726
I don't think
this is about Ben.

448
00:21:50,710 --> 00:21:51,910
Have you ever
lost a patient

449
00:21:53,145 --> 00:21:54,445
you knew
you could have saved?

450
00:22:00,620 --> 00:22:01,820
When COVID
was at its worst,

451
00:22:03,189 --> 00:22:05,629
we had to cancel
all non-urgent
procedures.

452
00:22:06,993 --> 00:22:09,133
A young mom with
a heart condition was

453
00:22:10,797 --> 00:22:11,927
more urgent
than I thought.

454
00:22:14,100 --> 00:22:16,170
And she died waiting
for me to put her
on the schedule.

455
00:22:23,643 --> 00:22:24,783
How do you
get past that?

456
00:22:27,847 --> 00:22:29,447
You get past it
because
that's the job.

457
00:22:32,652 --> 00:22:34,352
You will always
remember it.

458
00:22:36,088 --> 00:22:38,458
And you will
eventually
stop reliving it.

459
00:22:40,927 --> 00:22:41,857
How can you
be so sure?

460
00:22:45,297 --> 00:22:47,027
Because if you don't,
you can't be a surgeon.

461
00:22:51,070 --> 00:22:52,440
And I'm pretty sure
you're a surgeon.

462
00:22:59,846 --> 00:23:00,706
I should get
back to work.

463
00:23:14,293 --> 00:23:15,093
Insert the speculum.

464
00:23:24,704 --> 00:23:25,844
Now dilate
the cervix.

465
00:23:33,112 --> 00:23:33,852
Begin suction.

466
00:23:49,328 --> 00:23:51,428
Begin gentle suction
in the uterus.

467
00:23:58,505 --> 00:23:59,465
Is anything wrong?

468
00:24:00,707 --> 00:24:01,967
You're okay.

469
00:24:02,108 --> 00:24:03,078
Dr. Allen,
I can take it from here.

470
00:24:09,882 --> 00:24:10,822
(DOOR CLOSES)

471
00:24:10,950 --> 00:24:12,650
Don't worry.
We're almost done.

472
00:24:12,785 --> 00:24:13,785
You're gonna be
just fine.

473
00:24:18,357 --> 00:24:20,387
You have no idea
what that woman
was going through,

474
00:24:20,527 --> 00:24:21,527
and you made it
worse for her.

475
00:24:21,661 --> 00:24:23,301
I know.
I didn't...

476
00:24:23,429 --> 00:24:25,399
You had an opportunity
to opt out before you
walked into that room,

477
00:24:25,532 --> 00:24:26,802
but you agreed to do
the procedure,

478
00:24:26,933 --> 00:24:28,503
you took on
an obligation
to that patient,

479
00:24:28,635 --> 00:24:29,735
and you failed her.

480
00:24:29,869 --> 00:24:31,069
If you ever do anything
like that again,

481
00:24:31,203 --> 00:24:32,273
I will have you removed
from my program.

482
00:24:33,640 --> 00:24:35,110
Maybe you should be
cleaning bedpans
for a while.

483
00:24:35,241 --> 00:24:37,141
Hopefully there's
no moral objection
to that.

484
00:24:47,219 --> 00:24:48,319
Why are there
adult toys
on my desk?

485
00:24:49,756 --> 00:24:51,256
I've heard good things
about the Llama,

486
00:24:51,390 --> 00:24:53,490
but online reviews
aren't always accurate.

487
00:24:53,626 --> 00:24:54,926
Do you have
a favorite?

488
00:24:57,530 --> 00:24:59,130
They're for Lea.

489
00:24:59,265 --> 00:25:01,465
Which one do you like
the most, Claire?

490
00:25:01,601 --> 00:25:02,601
Uh...

491
00:25:05,137 --> 00:25:06,707
Uh...

492
00:25:06,839 --> 00:25:09,909
Evidence suggests
that trauma changes
the way the brain works.

493
00:25:10,042 --> 00:25:12,442
An overactive amygdala
can heighten
someone's response

494
00:25:12,579 --> 00:25:15,349
to emotional stimuli,
including fear.

495
00:25:15,481 --> 00:25:18,651
I think we should consider
amygdala ablation for Ben.

496
00:25:18,785 --> 00:25:20,845
That's crazy.

497
00:25:20,987 --> 00:25:23,117
And completely outside
the scope of our care.

498
00:25:23,255 --> 00:25:24,515
We're s...
(ADULT TOY VIBRATING)

499
00:25:25,592 --> 00:25:26,632
Oh.

500
00:25:26,759 --> 00:25:27,759
(VIBRATING STOPS)

501
00:25:29,361 --> 00:25:30,661
We're surgeons.

502
00:25:30,797 --> 00:25:32,527
We fix
physiological problems,
not mental ones.

503
00:25:32,665 --> 00:25:34,465
It is
a physiological problem.

504
00:25:34,601 --> 00:25:36,341
His brain isn't
functioning properly.

505
00:25:36,468 --> 00:25:38,298
If it was a tumor
that was causing
these reactions,

506
00:25:38,437 --> 00:25:39,967
you wouldn't hesitate
to remove it.

507
00:25:40,106 --> 00:25:41,506
But there is no tumor.

508
00:25:41,641 --> 00:25:44,211
You're talking about
inflicting damage
on his brain.

509
00:25:44,343 --> 00:25:46,713
He could suffer a stroke
or come out in a coma

510
00:25:46,846 --> 00:25:48,176
or not come out at all.

511
00:25:48,314 --> 00:25:50,724
SHAUN: If you use
a stereotactic
laser approach

512
00:25:50,850 --> 00:25:52,380
rather than
an open craniotomy,

513
00:25:52,518 --> 00:25:53,518
you would greatly
reduce the risks.

514
00:25:53,653 --> 00:25:55,323
This is not your case!

515
00:25:55,454 --> 00:25:56,864
You cannot jump
into this one

516
00:25:56,989 --> 00:25:58,729
because you don't
want to do the one
assigned to you,

517
00:25:58,858 --> 00:26:01,328
which is to teach,
which you've made
my problem

518
00:26:01,460 --> 00:26:03,930
just like you made
Lea's birthday gifts
my problem.

519
00:26:04,063 --> 00:26:06,003
You need to grow up
and accept some
responsibility.

520
00:26:32,158 --> 00:26:33,628
I was diagnosed
with PTSD last year.

521
00:26:36,729 --> 00:26:39,029
I kept it
mainly private.

522
00:26:40,967 --> 00:26:42,027
Melendez really
helped me
through it.

523
00:26:44,370 --> 00:26:47,740
It was nice
to have a friend
to lean on.

524
00:26:49,742 --> 00:26:50,712
So if you need one...

525
00:27:01,921 --> 00:27:02,921
(INHALES DEEPLY)

526
00:27:05,958 --> 00:27:07,088
I feel

527
00:27:08,895 --> 00:27:09,895
off.

528
00:27:12,531 --> 00:27:13,271
Disconnected.

529
00:27:15,334 --> 00:27:16,544
Like I can't
catch my breath.

530
00:27:19,939 --> 00:27:20,939
But

531
00:27:22,608 --> 00:27:23,338
it comes with the job.

532
00:27:24,711 --> 00:27:25,441
I'll get over it.

533
00:27:31,050 --> 00:27:31,780
(CELLPHONES CHIME, VIBRATE)

534
00:27:33,986 --> 00:27:34,986
It's Ben.

535
00:27:37,724 --> 00:27:38,934
Ben.

536
00:27:39,058 --> 00:27:39,958
No one
is gonna hurt you.

537
00:27:42,962 --> 00:27:43,762
You're having
a flashback.

538
00:27:50,402 --> 00:27:51,172
I know where I am.

539
00:27:54,140 --> 00:27:55,470
Every day
since I came home,

540
00:27:55,607 --> 00:27:57,107
I've felt like there's
a monster chasing me.

541
00:27:58,377 --> 00:27:59,307
I try to outrun it

542
00:28:02,081 --> 00:28:05,281
but I end up hurting
the one I love the most.

543
00:28:07,787 --> 00:28:09,317
I'm a threat to
everyone around me.

544
00:28:09,455 --> 00:28:11,315
No, Ben,
you just need help.

545
00:28:13,225 --> 00:28:14,125
Nothing helps.

546
00:28:16,062 --> 00:28:17,962
I can't smile.
I can't laugh.

547
00:28:18,097 --> 00:28:19,597
I can't feel anything
but pain.

548
00:28:23,870 --> 00:28:25,170
I make everyone
around me

549
00:28:27,473 --> 00:28:28,213
suffer.

550
00:28:34,981 --> 00:28:35,981
Ben.

551
00:28:37,149 --> 00:28:38,749
There's a surgery
that may help.

552
00:28:52,631 --> 00:28:53,371
(SIGHS)

553
00:29:01,640 --> 00:29:05,640
I would like to scrub in on
the amygdala ablation surgery.

554
00:29:05,778 --> 00:29:07,878
Rose said you're
feeling overwhelmed
and need...

555
00:29:08,014 --> 00:29:10,454
I don't wanna hear
any more things
that woman has said.

556
00:29:10,582 --> 00:29:12,382
Your job
is to supervise
your residents.

557
00:29:12,518 --> 00:29:14,718
Why are you here
instead of
doing that?

558
00:29:14,854 --> 00:29:17,724
You said you were
going to supervise
my supervision,

559
00:29:17,857 --> 00:29:18,827
but you didn't.

560
00:29:18,958 --> 00:29:20,328
You took over my case.

561
00:29:20,459 --> 00:29:22,559
I don't know
what I was supposed
to learn or how.

562
00:29:26,198 --> 00:29:27,198
Scrub in.

563
00:29:29,501 --> 00:29:30,241
(WHIRRING)

564
00:29:31,904 --> 00:29:35,114
Dr. Murphy,
walk Asher through
the probe placement

565
00:29:35,241 --> 00:29:36,211
and trajectory
to the amygdala.

566
00:29:39,611 --> 00:29:41,281
I will supervise
your supervision.

567
00:29:44,050 --> 00:29:45,780
Okay, insert
the probe

568
00:29:45,918 --> 00:29:47,518
perpendicular
to the cortical
surface.

569
00:30:02,101 --> 00:30:04,041
Stop!
You're off course.

570
00:30:04,170 --> 00:30:05,600
On the current trajectory,

571
00:30:05,737 --> 00:30:07,307
you will penetrate
a branch of
the choroidal artery

572
00:30:07,439 --> 00:30:08,409
and cause
a hemorrhage.

573
00:30:08,540 --> 00:30:09,510
Step away
from the probe.

574
00:30:09,641 --> 00:30:11,911
Your job
is to teach,

575
00:30:12,644 --> 00:30:13,414
not take over.

576
00:30:17,083 --> 00:30:18,083
(SIGHS)

577
00:30:22,388 --> 00:30:26,358
Adjust the probe
one millimeter
inferiorly.

578
00:30:26,492 --> 00:30:28,262
Avoid the temporal
horn on your right.

579
00:30:30,296 --> 00:30:31,696
I can't see it
on the image guidance.

580
00:30:36,135 --> 00:30:37,265
Tell Asher
what you see.

581
00:30:44,776 --> 00:30:50,016
It should point toward
your six o'clock
on the Y axis.

582
00:30:50,149 --> 00:30:51,319
You have to feel it.

583
00:30:54,753 --> 00:30:55,753
The...

584
00:30:57,789 --> 00:31:01,489
The tissue plane
along the parenchyma
is smooth.

585
00:31:01,627 --> 00:31:03,527
It should feel
like gliding.

586
00:31:13,639 --> 00:31:15,139
You've reached
the amygdala.

587
00:31:18,544 --> 00:31:20,384
CLAIRE: Ready to begin
thermal laser ablation.

588
00:31:26,085 --> 00:31:28,515
DR. PARK: (MUMBLING)
Rose's upper GI
and labs were normal.

589
00:31:28,654 --> 00:31:30,424
Should we keep her
another day
to observe?

590
00:31:30,556 --> 00:31:32,156
No. If she's stable,
let's send her home.

591
00:31:32,291 --> 00:31:33,591
Okay,
I'll have Olivia...
Open your mouth.

592
00:31:34,793 --> 00:31:35,793
Pardon me?

593
00:31:37,029 --> 00:31:38,329
Open your mouth.

594
00:31:43,235 --> 00:31:44,535
I can, uh...
Shut your mouth.

595
00:31:47,573 --> 00:31:49,343
DR. PARK:
There's this rat.
A mouse.

596
00:31:49,475 --> 00:31:50,975
A little dead mouse
in the garage,

597
00:31:51,110 --> 00:31:53,080
and the big, strong man
is afraid to get it out.

598
00:31:53,212 --> 00:31:54,852
Not afraid,
disgusted.

599
00:31:54,981 --> 00:31:56,581
Neither of us
wanna deal
with it,

600
00:31:56,715 --> 00:31:59,415
so we are settling it
in the only responsible
way, a bet.

601
00:31:59,551 --> 00:32:01,521
A dare. A series
of dares, actually.

602
00:32:01,653 --> 00:32:03,193
Whoever wusses out first
has to...

603
00:32:03,322 --> 00:32:05,022
Take those things
out of your mouth.

604
00:32:06,025 --> 00:32:07,325
I will discharge Rose.

605
00:32:07,459 --> 00:32:08,689
You two, go home.

606
00:32:08,827 --> 00:32:10,427
We were just...
Being idiots at work,

607
00:32:10,562 --> 00:32:12,162
while people
are sick and dying.

608
00:32:12,298 --> 00:32:13,268
Go home.

609
00:32:20,672 --> 00:32:22,372
All your tests
are normal.
We're discharging you.

610
00:32:25,477 --> 00:32:27,107
Right, because
you're psychic.

611
00:32:27,246 --> 00:32:29,946
I'm an empath,
not a psychic.

612
00:32:30,082 --> 00:32:32,582
Whatever the case,
I would suggest
you take it easy.

613
00:32:32,718 --> 00:32:34,148
No drinking,
no heavy lifting...

614
00:32:34,286 --> 00:32:35,286
You have to
let it out, dear.

615
00:32:36,188 --> 00:32:37,788
It was you.

616
00:32:37,923 --> 00:32:39,593
You made
my heart rate spike.

617
00:32:41,527 --> 00:32:42,887
You're about to implode.

618
00:32:46,798 --> 00:32:49,168
There's nothing wrong
with you... or me.

619
00:32:49,301 --> 00:32:52,141
(EKG FLATLINING)
(ALARM BEEPING)

620
00:32:52,271 --> 00:32:53,271
Code blue!

621
00:33:12,558 --> 00:33:13,428
(DRAWER OPENS)

622
00:33:17,063 --> 00:33:17,803
(POWERS ON)

623
00:33:28,940 --> 00:33:29,940
(KNOCK ON DOOR)

624
00:33:31,543 --> 00:33:32,513
Yeah?

625
00:33:32,644 --> 00:33:33,514
(DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)

626
00:33:35,981 --> 00:33:39,021
Dr. Lim,
my behavior yesterday
was inexcusable

627
00:33:39,151 --> 00:33:40,491
and unprofessional.

628
00:33:41,920 --> 00:33:44,520
I let you down.
I let the patient down.

629
00:33:44,656 --> 00:33:47,856
I am deeply sorry.

630
00:33:47,993 --> 00:33:49,533
And I promise
it will not
happen again.

631
00:33:51,797 --> 00:33:53,667
You let your personal
judgment get in the way
of doing your job.

632
00:33:56,502 --> 00:33:57,672
You're right.
That is inexcusable.

633
00:34:00,706 --> 00:34:01,966
(SIGHS)

634
00:34:02,108 --> 00:34:05,138
You said I had no idea
what the patient
was going through.

635
00:34:06,612 --> 00:34:08,882
The truth is I kinda do.

636
00:34:12,951 --> 00:34:16,191
Scared, alone,
afraid of anyone
finding out.

637
00:34:19,825 --> 00:34:22,485
I chose my career
over motherhood,

638
00:34:22,628 --> 00:34:23,858
over my faith.

639
00:34:25,997 --> 00:34:26,897
But I don't regret it.

640
00:34:31,002 --> 00:34:34,712
And I know God forgave me
because I get to be here,

641
00:34:34,840 --> 00:34:37,510
living my dream
of being a doctor.

642
00:34:43,615 --> 00:34:45,715
But I purposely try
not to think about it.

643
00:34:54,560 --> 00:34:55,530
You're off scut duty.

644
00:34:56,195 --> 00:34:56,895
That's not why I...

645
00:34:57,028 --> 00:34:58,198
Take it.

646
00:35:02,601 --> 00:35:04,101
(DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)

647
00:35:06,172 --> 00:35:07,412
My name is
Benjamin Alan Harris.

648
00:35:08,674 --> 00:35:12,214
I'm in St. Bonaventure
Hospital in San Jose.

649
00:35:13,579 --> 00:35:16,179
Language and memory
appear to be intact,

650
00:35:16,315 --> 00:35:18,375
and your
motor function
is normal.

651
00:35:18,517 --> 00:35:19,887
But that doesn't mean
it worked, does it?

652
00:35:20,018 --> 00:35:21,248
No.

653
00:35:21,387 --> 00:35:23,657
We'll have to do
an fMRI to see
how you respond

654
00:35:23,789 --> 00:35:25,559
to fear-inducing
stimuli.

655
00:35:25,691 --> 00:35:26,591
But we'll let you
rest for now.

656
00:35:28,594 --> 00:35:29,934
I'm not gonna rest
until I know
I'm better.

657
00:35:33,299 --> 00:35:35,069
I want you to know
how I got these scars.

658
00:35:35,201 --> 00:35:36,541
No. Not now.

659
00:35:36,668 --> 00:35:38,198
Just give yourself time.

660
00:35:38,337 --> 00:35:40,567
I was in a convoy
in Kandahar.

661
00:35:42,874 --> 00:35:46,084
I was in a Husky,
the big vehicle
at the front.

662
00:35:46,212 --> 00:35:48,212
Ben, you don't
have to do this.

663
00:35:48,347 --> 00:35:49,077
Ronnie was driving.

664
00:35:50,081 --> 00:35:51,051
He was telling me
a story,

665
00:35:52,117 --> 00:35:54,347
something about
a goat at the base,

666
00:35:54,486 --> 00:35:56,146
or maybe
it was a chicken.
I don't know. But...

667
00:35:58,990 --> 00:35:59,760
We were laughing.

668
00:36:06,798 --> 00:36:08,098
Then the world
was on fire.

669
00:36:17,809 --> 00:36:19,079
It's the Husky's job

670
00:36:21,447 --> 00:36:22,677
to spot IEDs.

671
00:36:29,355 --> 00:36:30,455
(VOICE BREAKING)
And I missed one.

672
00:36:35,927 --> 00:36:37,227
I can't see their faces.

673
00:36:40,232 --> 00:36:41,202
Just

674
00:36:42,668 --> 00:36:45,498
bodies everywhere.

675
00:36:51,243 --> 00:36:52,213
Dying alone,

676
00:36:53,912 --> 00:36:54,812
without their families.

677
00:36:57,182 --> 00:36:58,652
All I could do
was hold their hand.

678
00:37:01,287 --> 00:37:02,247
(CRYING)

679
00:37:10,862 --> 00:37:11,662
Are you okay, Ben?

680
00:37:19,638 --> 00:37:21,368
(HIGH-PITCHED RINGING)
(MUFFLED VOICES)

681
00:37:32,183 --> 00:37:32,923
(BREATHING DEEPLY)

682
00:37:34,653 --> 00:37:35,393
(VOICES AND RINGING CONTINUE)

683
00:37:48,033 --> 00:37:51,443
STAFF:
** Happy birthday to you

684
00:37:51,570 --> 00:37:55,870
** Happy birthday to you

685
00:37:56,007 --> 00:38:00,877
** Happy birthday, dear Lea

686
00:38:01,012 --> 00:38:02,052
** Happy birthday to you **

687
00:38:02,180 --> 00:38:03,280
OLIVIA: Fun day.

688
00:38:03,415 --> 00:38:04,715
(PEOPLE LAUGHING, CHEERING)

689
00:38:06,418 --> 00:38:07,148
What do you need?

690
00:38:08,119 --> 00:38:08,989
We have a diagnosis.

691
00:38:19,197 --> 00:38:19,927
(MONITOR BEEPING)

692
00:38:22,668 --> 00:38:23,638
(SIGHS SOFTLY)

693
00:38:24,703 --> 00:38:26,043
ROSE: I thought
I felt someone here.

694
00:38:28,940 --> 00:38:30,340
You've had a long day.

695
00:38:33,779 --> 00:38:36,149
You have
Prinzmetal's Angina,
Rose.

696
00:38:36,281 --> 00:38:38,121
A heart condition.
But it's very treatable.

697
00:38:39,451 --> 00:38:41,651
It explains
all your symptoms,

698
00:38:41,787 --> 00:38:43,457
and it's exacerbated
by stress,

699
00:38:43,589 --> 00:38:45,219
which is likely
what caused
your heart attack.

700
00:38:46,725 --> 00:38:50,255
You need to stop
seeking out
other people's pain.

701
00:38:50,396 --> 00:38:51,756
It's literally
killing you.

702
00:38:55,634 --> 00:38:57,174
You're the Chief
of Surgery.

703
00:38:57,302 --> 00:38:59,372
You could have sent
somebody else
to tell me this.

704
00:39:00,606 --> 00:39:01,666
Sure.

705
00:39:01,807 --> 00:39:03,437
But then I'd miss
my chance to gloat.

706
00:39:04,843 --> 00:39:06,553
You're here
because you're hurting

707
00:39:07,813 --> 00:39:09,213
and you don't know
where else to go.

708
00:39:12,484 --> 00:39:13,854
Go ahead.
Use your magic.

709
00:39:15,286 --> 00:39:16,816
Tell me
what's wrong with me.

710
00:39:18,924 --> 00:39:21,294
How do I stop
feeling like this?

711
00:39:22,761 --> 00:39:24,601
It doesn't work
that way.

712
00:39:24,730 --> 00:39:26,160
I don't have
a magic wand.

713
00:39:28,266 --> 00:39:29,796
I can only hold up
a mirror,

714
00:39:31,470 --> 00:39:32,500
make you slow down,

715
00:39:33,705 --> 00:39:34,865
look at the parts
of yourself

716
00:39:35,006 --> 00:39:37,706
that you've been
trying to ignore

717
00:39:37,843 --> 00:39:40,383
because you're afraid
if you look too closely,
you'll break.

718
00:39:45,350 --> 00:39:46,820
Maybe you will.
I don't know.

719
00:39:47,753 --> 00:39:49,623
Maybe breaking
is the point.

720
00:39:54,926 --> 00:39:56,796
You can't outrun
your pain, Dr. Lim.

721
00:39:56,928 --> 00:39:59,198
If you keep trying,
it's gonna kill you.

722
00:39:59,330 --> 00:40:03,270
** Oh, oh, oh-oh-oh,
oh, oh-oh-oh

723
00:40:05,336 --> 00:40:07,836
** Oh, oh, oh-oh-oh,
oh, oh-oh-oh

724
00:40:08,740 --> 00:40:11,240
** Where do my hands go?

725
00:40:11,376 --> 00:40:13,206
** Oh, oh, oh-oh-oh,
oh, oh-oh-oh

726
00:40:13,344 --> 00:40:14,514
(TIRES SQUEALING)

727
00:40:14,646 --> 00:40:21,216
** Have time to play
with my mind

728
00:40:23,622 --> 00:40:25,892
** Where does my tongue go? **

729
00:40:28,326 --> 00:40:29,056
(TIRES SCREECH)

730
00:40:37,936 --> 00:40:38,866
(ENGINE HISSING)

731
00:40:56,655 --> 00:40:58,385
(HIGH-PITCHED RINGING)

732
00:41:04,429 --> 00:41:05,159
(HISSING CONTINUES)

733
00:41:13,972 --> 00:41:14,912
(DISTORTED VOICES)

734
00:41:16,642 --> 00:41:18,842
MAN 1: Time of death, 12:34.

735
00:41:18,977 --> 00:41:21,547
WOMAN 1:
Time of death, 7:13.

736
00:41:21,680 --> 00:41:24,080
WOMAN 2:
Time of death, 2:25.

737
00:41:24,215 --> 00:41:27,245
WOMAN 3:
Time of death,
2100 hours.

738
00:41:27,385 --> 00:41:29,755
WOMAN 4: Time of death...
MAN 2: Time of death, 4:26.

739
00:41:29,888 --> 00:41:32,658
WOMAN 5: Time of death...
WOMAN 6: Time of death, 7:13.

740
00:41:32,791 --> 00:41:34,091
WOMAN 7: Time of death...
WOMAN 8: ...4:26.

741
00:41:34,225 --> 00:41:35,585
WOMAN 9: ...8:55.
DR. LIM: Time of death...

742
00:41:37,829 --> 00:41:39,829
(CLOSING THEME MUSIC PLAYING)