1 00:00:44,846 --> 00:00:46,915 We are here with Verity Crawford 2 00:00:46,981 --> 00:00:48,516 at her home in Vermont, 3 00:00:48,583 --> 00:00:50,818 the place she shares with her husband and the twins. 4 00:00:50,885 --> 00:00:53,153 I don't think there are enough superlatives 5 00:00:53,220 --> 00:00:55,188 to describe this woman. Let's pick one. 6 00:00:55,255 --> 00:00:59,192 Phenomenon, sensation, marvel. 7 00:00:59,259 --> 00:01:02,296 Uh, some would say "badass." I'll go with that. 8 00:01:02,362 --> 00:01:04,999 You are considered one of the bestselling authors 9 00:01:05,065 --> 00:01:06,133 on the planet. 10 00:01:06,199 --> 00:01:07,234 -Oh... -Let's take that in 11 00:01:07,301 --> 00:01:08,335 for just a second. 12 00:01:08,402 --> 00:01:09,871 -"On the planet." -Yes. 13 00:01:09,938 --> 00:01:12,172 Have you had time to take it all in? What it... 14 00:01:12,239 --> 00:01:13,875 What it is like to be able to provide 15 00:01:13,942 --> 00:01:16,844 such a beautiful life for the people you love so much? 16 00:01:16,911 --> 00:01:20,247 To me, it's all a miracle. 17 00:01:20,314 --> 00:01:22,349 Yeah, but some could say... 18 00:01:22,416 --> 00:01:24,919 it's a miracle built on villains. 19 00:02:05,693 --> 00:02:07,160 "I don't know that anyone 20 00:02:07,227 --> 00:02:08,930 "named Louie Longsutter 21 00:02:08,997 --> 00:02:11,131 "could even be dangerous. 22 00:02:11,198 --> 00:02:13,433 "But the way he stands there 23 00:02:13,501 --> 00:02:16,571 "just a little too close to the edge of the porch, 24 00:02:16,638 --> 00:02:18,039 "like he's been waiting for me 25 00:02:18,106 --> 00:02:19,339 "longer than he should have 26 00:02:19,406 --> 00:02:22,409 "makes me second-guess my assumptions. 27 00:02:22,476 --> 00:02:26,714 "I try to imagine a serial killer named Louie Longsutter. 28 00:02:26,781 --> 00:02:28,816 "I almost laugh at the absurdity of it, 29 00:02:28,883 --> 00:02:30,384 "but being a woman 30 00:02:30,450 --> 00:02:33,420 "about to embark on weeks of isolation, 31 00:02:33,487 --> 00:02:36,156 "the thought that he could be a threat sticks in my mind. 32 00:02:36,223 --> 00:02:38,225 "Unwanted and uncomfortable." 33 00:02:41,161 --> 00:02:42,597 Sorry. Sorry. 34 00:02:42,664 --> 00:02:43,531 Sorry. 35 00:02:43,598 --> 00:02:45,767 Hi, hi. No, I'm in a bookstore. 36 00:02:45,833 --> 00:02:47,735 Yeah, yeah, this is a good time. 37 00:02:50,605 --> 00:02:52,507 -Hey. -Hey. How'd it go? 38 00:02:52,573 --> 00:02:54,241 I don't want to talk about it. 39 00:02:54,307 --> 00:02:56,176 Where were you? You said you were gonna be here. 40 00:02:56,243 --> 00:02:57,477 You know I wouldn't miss it 41 00:02:57,545 --> 00:02:59,580 if I didn't have a good reason. 42 00:02:59,647 --> 00:03:02,150 Hachette Book Group called. 43 00:03:02,215 --> 00:03:03,584 They wanna meet you. 44 00:03:03,651 --> 00:03:06,120 For what? Who... Who... Who wants to meet me? 45 00:03:06,186 --> 00:03:07,421 They wouldn't say. 46 00:03:07,487 --> 00:03:09,590 It's all very top secret. 47 00:03:10,058 --> 00:03:11,125 When? 48 00:03:11,191 --> 00:03:13,094 3:00 p.m. sharp. 49 00:03:13,161 --> 00:03:14,261 I'll meet you there, okay? 50 00:03:14,327 --> 00:03:16,363 Oh, please, and dress nice. 51 00:03:16,430 --> 00:03:18,265 All right? 52 00:03:18,331 --> 00:03:19,801 Wait, Corey. 53 00:03:21,669 --> 00:03:22,804 Wow. 54 00:03:33,346 --> 00:03:36,784 People like me belong in overpopulated cities. 55 00:03:41,421 --> 00:03:44,458 In the tiny town where I grew up, 56 00:03:44,525 --> 00:03:47,260 everyone knew everything about everyone. 57 00:03:51,733 --> 00:03:54,001 But here, I'm invisible. 58 00:03:57,638 --> 00:03:59,406 I like it that way. 59 00:04:08,816 --> 00:04:10,084 Yo, mister, watch out! 60 00:04:14,922 --> 00:04:17,625 Oh, my God! Oh, my God! 61 00:04:17,692 --> 00:04:18,893 A man was riding his bike... 62 00:04:18,960 --> 00:04:20,528 -He's not good. -Hey? 63 00:04:20,595 --> 00:04:21,896 ...and a car just came out of nowhere, 64 00:04:21,963 --> 00:04:23,598 -and it hit him. -Oh, my God. 65 00:04:25,166 --> 00:04:26,868 Oh, no. 66 00:04:26,934 --> 00:04:28,603 There's been a terrible accident. 67 00:04:28,669 --> 00:04:31,806 A bike messenger was hit by a car. 68 00:04:40,214 --> 00:04:41,481 Are you hurt? 69 00:04:43,416 --> 00:04:45,853 Are you hurt? 70 00:04:45,920 --> 00:04:47,655 Is it on my face? 71 00:04:50,558 --> 00:04:51,959 There should be a bathroom in this coffee shop 72 00:04:52,026 --> 00:04:53,227 over here, okay? 73 00:04:53,293 --> 00:04:55,062 Look what you did! 74 00:05:03,237 --> 00:05:05,206 Oh... 75 00:05:05,273 --> 00:05:07,875 Hey, what are you doin' in there? It's the men's room. 76 00:05:09,076 --> 00:05:10,545 We'll be right out. 77 00:05:31,866 --> 00:05:33,634 Here, um... 78 00:05:34,168 --> 00:05:35,435 you can put this on. 79 00:05:37,305 --> 00:05:38,573 Thank you. 80 00:05:38,639 --> 00:05:39,907 Of course. 81 00:05:44,846 --> 00:05:47,615 I can't tell if you're calm or... 82 00:05:48,149 --> 00:05:49,550 if you're in shock. 83 00:05:51,719 --> 00:05:53,554 I don't know what I am. 84 00:05:57,558 --> 00:06:00,228 Are you okay? 85 00:06:00,294 --> 00:06:02,530 Uh, yeah. 86 00:06:02,597 --> 00:06:05,066 I've seen worse, unfortunately. 87 00:06:06,200 --> 00:06:07,702 Are you a doctor? 88 00:06:08,736 --> 00:06:10,605 I'm in real estate. 89 00:06:13,241 --> 00:06:15,042 Or at least, I used to be. 90 00:06:17,178 --> 00:06:18,746 What happened to you? 91 00:06:21,148 --> 00:06:22,884 You really wanna know? 92 00:06:28,556 --> 00:06:30,157 I pulled my 8-year-old daughter's body 93 00:06:30,224 --> 00:06:32,760 out of a lake last spring. 94 00:06:39,300 --> 00:06:41,035 I'm sorry. 95 00:06:42,904 --> 00:06:44,572 I'm sorry. 96 00:06:47,241 --> 00:06:49,810 My mom died last week. 97 00:06:50,845 --> 00:06:52,146 Oh... 98 00:06:52,213 --> 00:06:53,948 What happened to her? 99 00:06:54,015 --> 00:06:55,383 Uh, cancer. 100 00:06:55,448 --> 00:06:58,152 I was taking care of her in my apartment. 101 00:06:58,219 --> 00:06:59,452 She died in there. 102 00:06:59,520 --> 00:07:02,757 In my apartment. She died. Sorry. 103 00:07:05,660 --> 00:07:07,194 I have a meeting. I should... 104 00:07:07,261 --> 00:07:09,530 Yeah, me, too. 105 00:07:10,364 --> 00:07:11,832 Thank you for your help. 106 00:07:11,899 --> 00:07:13,167 Of course. 107 00:07:19,507 --> 00:07:21,242 I'm Jeremy, by the way. 108 00:07:21,409 --> 00:07:22,843 Lowen. 109 00:07:35,455 --> 00:07:37,058 God. 110 00:07:42,530 --> 00:07:44,398 Congratulations on your bonus. 111 00:07:44,464 --> 00:07:45,733 Thank you. 112 00:07:53,841 --> 00:07:55,843 -Hi. -Hi. How can I help you? 113 00:07:55,910 --> 00:07:57,378 I'm here to see Amanda Thomas. 114 00:07:57,445 --> 00:07:59,479 -Okay. -Lowen. 115 00:07:59,547 --> 00:08:00,614 Hi. I'm sorry I'm late. 116 00:08:00,681 --> 00:08:03,017 You're not late. You're on time. 117 00:08:03,951 --> 00:08:05,853 The actual meeting isn't until 3:30. 118 00:08:05,920 --> 00:08:09,924 But I'd figured you'd be late, as usual, so I told you 3:00. 119 00:08:10,224 --> 00:08:11,559 Sorry. 120 00:08:11,625 --> 00:08:13,327 If you had told me that, I could have avoided... 121 00:08:13,394 --> 00:08:15,196 What are you wearing? 122 00:08:17,164 --> 00:08:18,299 Um... 123 00:08:18,366 --> 00:08:19,700 It's like a fashion thing. 124 00:08:19,767 --> 00:08:20,968 Corey. Lowen. 125 00:08:21,035 --> 00:08:23,504 I'm Amanda's assistant, Olivia. 126 00:08:24,071 --> 00:08:25,106 Thank you. 127 00:08:25,172 --> 00:08:26,173 I'll show you to the conference room. 128 00:08:30,378 --> 00:08:31,912 You comin'? 129 00:08:35,349 --> 00:08:36,917 Oh, my God. 130 00:08:45,760 --> 00:08:47,094 Sorry about your mom. 131 00:08:48,329 --> 00:08:49,730 Don't be. 132 00:08:50,865 --> 00:08:52,566 Can I help with the will? 133 00:08:52,633 --> 00:08:54,635 I'm sure Edward can take a look. 134 00:08:54,702 --> 00:08:56,804 Mm, I don't need a lawyer. 135 00:08:56,871 --> 00:08:59,774 All she left me was debt. 136 00:09:00,141 --> 00:09:01,308 Showtime. 137 00:09:01,375 --> 00:09:02,410 Right this way. 138 00:09:02,476 --> 00:09:04,178 Oh... 139 00:09:05,679 --> 00:09:07,448 You must be Lowen Ashleigh. 140 00:09:07,516 --> 00:09:08,716 I am Amanda Thomas, 141 00:09:08,783 --> 00:09:10,418 Senior Editor here at Hachette. 142 00:09:10,484 --> 00:09:11,952 -Lowen. -Nice to see you. 143 00:09:12,019 --> 00:09:13,154 Corey. 144 00:09:13,220 --> 00:09:14,422 This is Barron Stephens, our lawyer, 145 00:09:14,488 --> 00:09:16,290 and Jeremy Crawford, our client. 146 00:09:20,428 --> 00:09:22,329 Please, have a seat. 147 00:09:28,936 --> 00:09:31,205 So I'll just cut to the chase. 148 00:09:31,272 --> 00:09:32,473 One of our authors 149 00:09:32,541 --> 00:09:34,442 is unable to fulfill a contract 150 00:09:34,509 --> 00:09:36,644 due to extenuating circumstances. 151 00:09:36,710 --> 00:09:38,179 We are in search of a writer 152 00:09:38,245 --> 00:09:41,115 who has experience with the same genre. 153 00:09:41,182 --> 00:09:42,850 She needs a little help. 154 00:09:42,917 --> 00:09:44,318 Before we continue, I would ask 155 00:09:44,385 --> 00:09:46,921 that you sign the non-disclosure agreement. 156 00:09:46,987 --> 00:09:48,689 We would like to keep our author's current situation 157 00:09:48,756 --> 00:09:51,092 out of the media. 158 00:10:01,469 --> 00:10:02,870 Thank you. 159 00:10:04,305 --> 00:10:07,374 Thank you, thank you. 160 00:10:09,743 --> 00:10:12,680 Verity Crawford is her name. 161 00:10:12,746 --> 00:10:15,749 I'm sure you're familiar with her work. 162 00:10:15,816 --> 00:10:18,919 Verity has a wildly successful series, 163 00:10:18,986 --> 00:10:20,321 The Noble Virtues, 164 00:10:20,387 --> 00:10:22,890 which we would hate to see go unfinished. 165 00:10:22,957 --> 00:10:24,825 So we need a writer who's able to step in 166 00:10:24,892 --> 00:10:26,660 on an accelerated timeline. 167 00:10:26,727 --> 00:10:27,928 So when will you need it by? 168 00:10:27,995 --> 00:10:29,497 Your wife? 169 00:10:29,564 --> 00:10:30,998 We're already behind, so we're looking to have 170 00:10:31,065 --> 00:10:32,766 the next book in the series within six months, 171 00:10:32,833 --> 00:10:35,769 and the final two in the next 24 months. 172 00:10:35,836 --> 00:10:37,738 Three books. 173 00:10:37,805 --> 00:10:40,374 $75,000 per book. 174 00:10:42,977 --> 00:10:46,080 So how does this sound, Lowen? 175 00:10:47,348 --> 00:10:49,850 Um... 176 00:10:52,621 --> 00:10:55,823 I appreciate the offer. 177 00:10:55,890 --> 00:10:58,826 I don't know that I can write for another author. 178 00:10:58,893 --> 00:11:00,895 I'm... 179 00:11:00,961 --> 00:11:04,298 Especially someone as popular as Verity Crawford... 180 00:11:04,832 --> 00:11:08,235 Her fans know her voice. 181 00:11:08,302 --> 00:11:10,771 They would know it's not her. 182 00:11:12,273 --> 00:11:13,741 I'm sorry. 183 00:11:13,807 --> 00:11:15,442 Let me talk to my client. 184 00:11:15,510 --> 00:11:17,211 All right? 185 00:11:17,278 --> 00:11:19,113 We'll step out. 186 00:11:19,180 --> 00:11:20,615 We have two other writers in mind. 187 00:11:20,681 --> 00:11:21,882 So if you could let us know something 188 00:11:21,949 --> 00:11:23,618 by tomorrow afternoon? 189 00:11:23,684 --> 00:11:25,554 We'll discuss. All right? 190 00:11:25,620 --> 00:11:27,321 Thank you. 191 00:11:34,762 --> 00:11:37,097 Could we possibly have a word in private? 192 00:11:39,934 --> 00:11:41,368 What the fuck? 193 00:11:42,403 --> 00:11:43,737 Fine. 194 00:11:43,804 --> 00:11:46,073 Sure. 195 00:11:46,140 --> 00:11:47,942 You got it. 196 00:11:52,514 --> 00:11:54,281 Are you okay? 197 00:11:54,348 --> 00:11:57,084 Twenty minutes ago, you watched someone die. 198 00:11:58,553 --> 00:12:00,154 So did you. 199 00:12:00,221 --> 00:12:01,590 Like I said... 200 00:12:01,656 --> 00:12:03,324 I've seen worse. 201 00:12:05,759 --> 00:12:07,596 You must have questions. 202 00:12:07,662 --> 00:12:09,129 Sure do. 203 00:12:09,363 --> 00:12:10,397 Shoot. 204 00:12:10,464 --> 00:12:11,999 Okay, well, for starters, 205 00:12:12,066 --> 00:12:13,568 did you go shopping 206 00:12:13,635 --> 00:12:17,438 or do you carry around spare shirts in your pocket? 207 00:12:20,675 --> 00:12:22,776 My hotel's just around the corner. 208 00:12:22,843 --> 00:12:25,246 I went back and got changed. 209 00:12:25,312 --> 00:12:28,215 Why can't your wife finish the series? 210 00:12:30,150 --> 00:12:32,520 Verity had a car accident. 211 00:12:34,855 --> 00:12:37,124 I'm sorry. 212 00:12:39,728 --> 00:12:41,495 Open Ended. 213 00:12:43,264 --> 00:12:46,233 It was one of Verity's favorite books last year. 214 00:12:48,536 --> 00:12:49,803 She read one of my books? 215 00:12:49,870 --> 00:12:51,305 Yeah. 216 00:12:54,709 --> 00:12:57,945 She said that you are a brilliant, 217 00:12:58,012 --> 00:13:00,515 undiscovered voice. 218 00:13:00,582 --> 00:13:02,751 Well, I'm not undiscovered. 219 00:13:02,816 --> 00:13:04,385 I am published. 220 00:13:04,451 --> 00:13:06,787 Just not in a big way. 221 00:13:06,854 --> 00:13:09,423 If anyone was to take over her series, 222 00:13:09,490 --> 00:13:13,127 I wanted it to be someone whose work she respected. 223 00:13:13,193 --> 00:13:15,996 You would have to spend some time at the house. 224 00:13:16,063 --> 00:13:17,331 In her office. 225 00:13:17,398 --> 00:13:20,568 She has years of notes and outlines, 226 00:13:20,635 --> 00:13:23,370 stuff I wouldn't know how to make sense of. 227 00:13:24,071 --> 00:13:27,308 Also, they're lowballing you. 228 00:13:27,374 --> 00:13:31,245 You should ask your agent to ask for half a million. 229 00:13:33,715 --> 00:13:35,049 We live in Vermont. 230 00:13:35,115 --> 00:13:37,918 You can stay for as long as you need to. 231 00:13:38,586 --> 00:13:39,654 I hope you change your mind. 232 00:13:39,721 --> 00:13:41,255 Wait. 233 00:13:41,322 --> 00:13:45,259 Did you know who I was earlier? 234 00:13:46,827 --> 00:13:49,463 Not until you said your name. 235 00:13:49,531 --> 00:13:52,066 There aren't that many Lowens running around. 236 00:13:54,001 --> 00:13:56,470 If you do come, bring my shirt back. 237 00:14:01,643 --> 00:14:04,478 Verity, welcome to Call Her Daddy. 238 00:14:04,546 --> 00:14:08,115 Who doesn't love a dirty, twisted thriller? 239 00:14:09,149 --> 00:14:12,119 Uh, maybe just my husband. 240 00:14:12,186 --> 00:14:15,557 Oh! Is it hard for him to read your work 241 00:14:15,623 --> 00:14:17,958 and then sleep next to you at night? 242 00:14:19,561 --> 00:14:21,796 I mean, your characters are pretty evil. 243 00:14:21,862 --> 00:14:23,765 Yeah, well, yeah, well, um... 244 00:14:23,832 --> 00:14:26,166 um... 245 00:14:26,233 --> 00:14:27,635 he was wondering if I was 246 00:14:27,702 --> 00:14:29,169 like the sociopath that was doing it. 247 00:14:29,236 --> 00:14:31,271 And I think he was maybe just checking. 248 00:14:31,338 --> 00:14:32,906 -For sure. -Just, like... 249 00:14:32,973 --> 00:14:33,775 -Who wouldn't? -Let's just... 250 00:14:33,842 --> 00:14:35,342 You know. 251 00:15:31,098 --> 00:15:33,333 Hope I'm not intruding. 252 00:15:33,400 --> 00:15:36,136 I'm here to celebrate your new gig. 253 00:15:39,440 --> 00:15:40,575 You're moving? 254 00:15:41,408 --> 00:15:44,311 I can't live here anymore. 255 00:15:44,378 --> 00:15:48,048 I'm also getting evicted, so... 256 00:15:48,115 --> 00:15:50,919 -Uh... -It all works out. 257 00:15:50,984 --> 00:15:54,589 Well, maybe with the money you'll get from this deal, 258 00:15:54,656 --> 00:15:57,926 you'll finally get a cover for that futon. 259 00:15:57,991 --> 00:15:59,828 Excuse me, that is not a futon. 260 00:15:59,894 --> 00:16:01,295 It's a mattress. 261 00:16:03,130 --> 00:16:04,732 Let's toast, yeah? 262 00:16:07,802 --> 00:16:09,804 Can't believe... 263 00:16:09,871 --> 00:16:12,372 you're staying at their house. 264 00:16:12,439 --> 00:16:16,410 There's, like, years' worth of notes and outlines. 265 00:16:16,477 --> 00:16:17,779 Somebody needs to sort through... 266 00:16:17,846 --> 00:16:19,179 You don't even know them. 267 00:16:21,415 --> 00:16:24,351 All I'm saying is that you have to be safe. 268 00:16:29,490 --> 00:16:30,625 Cheers. 269 00:16:32,359 --> 00:16:34,094 Cheers. 270 00:16:37,665 --> 00:16:39,667 Have you even read one of her books? 271 00:16:39,734 --> 00:16:43,270 I don't read books that you can buy in an airport. 272 00:16:43,805 --> 00:16:45,038 I'm afraid I'll like it 273 00:16:45,105 --> 00:16:47,007 and then I won't be able to resent her. 274 00:16:47,074 --> 00:16:49,844 Don't be fooled by her success. 275 00:16:49,911 --> 00:16:52,547 She's very, very dark. 276 00:16:52,614 --> 00:16:54,281 Like you. 277 00:16:57,084 --> 00:16:58,620 How's Becca? 278 00:16:59,821 --> 00:17:01,288 Who's Becca? 279 00:17:01,355 --> 00:17:04,291 There's pictures of you guys all over Instagram. 280 00:17:04,726 --> 00:17:06,928 It's just a fling. 281 00:17:06,995 --> 00:17:10,397 She looks sweet. 282 00:17:10,464 --> 00:17:13,300 You should take that seriously. 283 00:17:25,178 --> 00:17:27,080 Okay. 284 00:17:29,249 --> 00:17:31,753 I'm happy for you, Lowen. 285 00:17:32,687 --> 00:17:34,087 You deserve this. 286 00:17:41,696 --> 00:17:43,631 "I reach the door..." 287 00:17:43,698 --> 00:17:45,833 "push it open without knocking. 288 00:17:46,868 --> 00:17:50,137 "I smell the blood before I see it. 289 00:17:50,203 --> 00:17:52,840 "Lane is hunched over... 290 00:17:52,907 --> 00:17:55,810 "the knife stuck under his chin. 291 00:17:55,877 --> 00:17:59,279 "A steady flow of crimson seeps through his knuckles, 292 00:17:59,346 --> 00:18:02,016 "pours down his arm. 293 00:18:02,082 --> 00:18:04,351 "He reaches out to me, 294 00:18:04,418 --> 00:18:07,154 "desperate for my help. 295 00:18:07,220 --> 00:18:09,691 "I meet him halfway 296 00:18:09,757 --> 00:18:14,294 "and use my palm to push the knife in deeper. 297 00:18:14,361 --> 00:18:16,564 "I stare into his eyes, 298 00:18:16,631 --> 00:18:20,267 "wanting him to know how much I enjoy this." 299 00:19:00,407 --> 00:19:01,809 Hey, you made it. 300 00:19:01,876 --> 00:19:03,111 Hi. 301 00:19:03,176 --> 00:19:04,912 Uh, a little sooner than we expected. 302 00:19:04,979 --> 00:19:06,047 Sorry. 303 00:19:06,114 --> 00:19:07,782 No, no, no, no. No. 304 00:19:07,849 --> 00:19:09,449 It's totally fine. 305 00:19:09,517 --> 00:19:11,919 This is who I was talking about, buddy. 306 00:19:13,387 --> 00:19:16,189 I'm Lowen. What's your name? 307 00:19:16,256 --> 00:19:18,425 -I'm Crew. -Hi, Crew. 308 00:19:20,327 --> 00:19:22,329 He's so cute. 309 00:19:22,396 --> 00:19:24,699 He's a little shy. 310 00:19:24,766 --> 00:19:26,366 That's okay. 311 00:19:27,101 --> 00:19:29,403 I'm a little shy, too. 312 00:19:29,469 --> 00:19:31,806 Come on in. Let me take your bag. 313 00:19:31,873 --> 00:19:34,307 -Thank you. -Of course. 314 00:20:15,616 --> 00:20:17,217 Pretty amazing, huh? 315 00:20:18,886 --> 00:20:20,320 Is that a field? 316 00:20:21,823 --> 00:20:22,990 It's a lake. 317 00:20:27,528 --> 00:20:29,296 Do you want me to show your room? 318 00:20:29,362 --> 00:20:31,632 Or, I mean, are you hungry? You must be. 319 00:20:31,699 --> 00:20:34,401 I mean, it's such a long drive from the city. 320 00:20:34,468 --> 00:20:36,671 Crew and I are having PBJs and sliced apples, 321 00:20:36,738 --> 00:20:38,472 if you want some. I'm sure we can rustle up 322 00:20:38,539 --> 00:20:39,774 something a little better, though. 323 00:20:39,841 --> 00:20:41,441 I'm okay. Thank you. 324 00:20:41,509 --> 00:20:42,710 Yeah? 325 00:20:42,777 --> 00:20:44,879 Okay. Well, fridge is fully stocked. 326 00:20:44,946 --> 00:20:47,447 If you want anything, just help yourself. 327 00:20:47,515 --> 00:20:49,016 Can I go see Mommy? 328 00:20:49,083 --> 00:20:50,383 Yeah, of course, buddy. 329 00:20:50,450 --> 00:20:52,252 Just go talk to Anna first, all right? 330 00:20:56,657 --> 00:20:58,291 You get the main bedroom. 331 00:20:58,358 --> 00:20:59,761 I hope you don't mind. 332 00:20:59,827 --> 00:21:01,863 Um, we all sleep upstairs now, 333 00:21:01,929 --> 00:21:03,064 and so we just thought 334 00:21:03,131 --> 00:21:04,364 that this room would be best 335 00:21:04,431 --> 00:21:05,365 'cause it's closest to Verity's office, 336 00:21:05,432 --> 00:21:07,535 which is just right down there. 337 00:21:08,536 --> 00:21:10,270 Okay. 338 00:21:11,072 --> 00:21:12,339 The bathroom is all yours. 339 00:21:12,405 --> 00:21:13,708 Uh, there should be toiletries in there, 340 00:21:13,775 --> 00:21:15,643 but if there isn't, just let me know 341 00:21:15,710 --> 00:21:17,845 and we can get whatever you need. 342 00:21:20,681 --> 00:21:22,016 Wow. 343 00:21:22,315 --> 00:21:23,851 Thank you. 344 00:21:24,919 --> 00:21:26,854 Yep. 345 00:21:26,921 --> 00:21:29,724 So, do you want some time to just, like, get settled 346 00:21:29,791 --> 00:21:32,727 or do you want me to show you the office? 347 00:21:40,601 --> 00:21:42,737 -The office. -Okay. 348 00:21:47,775 --> 00:21:50,845 She saved everything on her computer, 349 00:21:50,912 --> 00:21:52,046 in boxes. 350 00:21:52,113 --> 00:21:53,948 There's no order to it, though. 351 00:21:54,015 --> 00:21:55,983 She wasn't the most organized person. 352 00:21:56,050 --> 00:21:58,385 Most writers aren't. 353 00:22:01,155 --> 00:22:02,890 -Wow. -Mm-hmm. 354 00:22:19,774 --> 00:22:21,576 Which one is your favorite? 355 00:22:23,010 --> 00:22:25,646 Honestly, I haven't read any of them since the first one. 356 00:22:25,713 --> 00:22:27,447 I didn't like being in her head. 357 00:22:27,515 --> 00:22:30,350 Hmm. Can I meet her? 358 00:22:45,333 --> 00:22:47,367 Anna, this is Lowen Ashleigh, 359 00:22:47,434 --> 00:22:48,870 the author I was telling you about. 360 00:22:48,936 --> 00:22:49,804 Hi, Crew. 361 00:22:49,871 --> 00:22:51,772 -Hi. -Lowen, 362 00:22:51,839 --> 00:22:55,042 this is Anna, Verity's nurse. 363 00:22:55,109 --> 00:22:56,911 Hi. Nice to meet you. 364 00:22:56,978 --> 00:22:58,378 Hello, Lowen. 365 00:22:58,445 --> 00:23:00,281 Nice to meet you, too. 366 00:23:00,348 --> 00:23:02,016 I thought you'd be older. 367 00:23:03,217 --> 00:23:05,853 Is now a good time? 368 00:23:05,920 --> 00:23:08,522 We were just about to take a walk. 369 00:23:11,592 --> 00:23:14,494 Verity, this is Lowen Ashleigh. 370 00:23:23,638 --> 00:23:27,008 Hi, Verity. How are you? 371 00:23:28,109 --> 00:23:30,443 How are you today, Verity? 372 00:23:32,713 --> 00:23:34,081 We're good. 373 00:23:34,148 --> 00:23:37,484 Took some meds and ready for the fresh air. 374 00:23:37,551 --> 00:23:40,021 Okay. Should be an easy evening then. 375 00:23:57,905 --> 00:24:00,041 Would you have come if you knew? 376 00:24:02,677 --> 00:24:04,011 We need to keep things close... 377 00:24:05,413 --> 00:24:06,847 because of the media. 378 00:24:06,914 --> 00:24:09,016 And if Hachette found out, it would just be... 379 00:24:09,083 --> 00:24:11,319 There's no way I can help her write. 380 00:24:11,385 --> 00:24:12,653 I... I can't. 381 00:24:12,720 --> 00:24:15,589 Verity was inspired by your writing. 382 00:24:16,424 --> 00:24:19,293 You're the only writer who can do this. 383 00:24:19,360 --> 00:24:20,761 I'm certain of it, Lowen. 384 00:24:42,750 --> 00:24:44,685 Chapter after chapter of intrigue 385 00:24:44,752 --> 00:24:47,822 and fucked-up characters. 386 00:24:47,888 --> 00:24:49,690 Really fucked-up characters. 387 00:24:54,662 --> 00:24:58,699 All her books are from the villain's point of view. 388 00:24:59,200 --> 00:25:01,135 That's new to me. 389 00:26:10,971 --> 00:26:13,207 "Author's note. 390 00:26:13,274 --> 00:26:17,378 "The thing I abhor most about autobiographies 391 00:26:17,445 --> 00:26:22,316 "are the counterfeit thoughts draped over every sentence. 392 00:26:22,383 --> 00:26:25,286 "A writer should never have the audacity, 393 00:26:25,352 --> 00:26:26,954 "to write about themselves 394 00:26:27,021 --> 00:26:28,722 "unless they are willing to separate 395 00:26:28,789 --> 00:26:30,257 "every layer of protection 396 00:26:30,324 --> 00:26:34,295 "between their soul and the book. 397 00:26:35,262 --> 00:26:36,897 "The words 398 00:26:36,964 --> 00:26:39,767 "should come directly from the center of the gut, 399 00:26:39,834 --> 00:26:42,504 "tearing through flesh and bone 400 00:26:42,571 --> 00:26:44,705 "as they break free. 401 00:26:44,772 --> 00:26:46,508 "Ugly 402 00:26:46,575 --> 00:26:48,309 "and honest 403 00:26:48,375 --> 00:26:49,677 "and bloody 404 00:26:49,743 --> 00:26:51,580 "and a little bit terrifying, 405 00:26:51,645 --> 00:26:54,815 "but completely exposed." 406 00:26:54,882 --> 00:26:57,084 Ow. 407 00:27:16,003 --> 00:27:18,739 "Autobiography encouraging the reader 408 00:27:18,806 --> 00:27:20,609 "to like the author 409 00:27:20,674 --> 00:27:23,978 "is not a true autobiography. 410 00:27:24,044 --> 00:27:26,213 "No one is likable..." 411 00:27:26,280 --> 00:27:29,016 "From the inside out. 412 00:27:30,017 --> 00:27:33,522 "One should only walk away from an autobiography 413 00:27:33,588 --> 00:27:36,690 "with, at best, 414 00:27:36,757 --> 00:27:39,493 "an uncomfortable distaste 415 00:27:39,561 --> 00:27:41,362 "for its author." 416 00:27:44,064 --> 00:27:45,299 Yet... 417 00:27:46,100 --> 00:27:49,236 even with my generous warning... 418 00:27:49,303 --> 00:27:53,207 you're going to continue to ingest my words... 419 00:27:53,274 --> 00:27:54,708 because... 420 00:27:55,644 --> 00:27:57,311 here you are... 421 00:27:58,312 --> 00:27:59,780 human... 422 00:28:01,749 --> 00:28:03,217 curious. 423 00:28:06,320 --> 00:28:07,421 Carry on. 424 00:28:14,428 --> 00:28:15,863 "But know one thing, 425 00:28:15,930 --> 00:28:19,333 "there is no light where we're going." 426 00:28:28,075 --> 00:28:30,077 "Chapter one. 427 00:28:30,144 --> 00:28:31,613 "I sometimes think back 428 00:28:31,680 --> 00:28:34,481 "on the night I met Jeremy and wonder... 429 00:28:34,549 --> 00:28:38,152 "'Was it my destiny to suffer from the beginning 430 00:28:38,219 --> 00:28:42,756 "'or is my tragic end the result of poor choices?'" 431 00:28:46,760 --> 00:28:49,598 "I wouldn't say I was lost before I met Jeremy, 432 00:28:49,664 --> 00:28:53,801 "but I had certainly never been found." 433 00:28:56,303 --> 00:28:58,973 "I had no interest in love. 434 00:28:59,039 --> 00:29:03,177 "I was just looking for a well-funded fling. 435 00:29:03,244 --> 00:29:07,181 "And, judging by the looks of Jeremy... 436 00:29:07,248 --> 00:29:09,149 "I was gonna leave that party an overachiever." 437 00:29:18,325 --> 00:29:21,262 Serve her only water for the rest of the evening. 438 00:29:25,866 --> 00:29:27,669 I'm perfectly capable of knowing 439 00:29:27,736 --> 00:29:29,436 when I've had enough to drink. 440 00:29:29,504 --> 00:29:30,538 I'm sure you are. 441 00:29:30,605 --> 00:29:31,640 I'd like another. 442 00:29:31,706 --> 00:29:32,873 I'm sorry, ma'am. 443 00:29:32,940 --> 00:29:35,409 I've been asked to serve you water. 444 00:29:37,845 --> 00:29:39,313 Is this some kind of prank? 445 00:29:41,248 --> 00:29:44,218 I've been watching you since I walked in. 446 00:29:44,285 --> 00:29:46,320 You've had three drinks in the last 45 minutes, 447 00:29:46,387 --> 00:29:47,821 and if you keep going at that rate, 448 00:29:47,888 --> 00:29:50,024 I'll feel uncomfortable 449 00:29:50,090 --> 00:29:52,960 asking you to leave with me. 450 00:29:53,027 --> 00:29:55,829 To make that choice, I would like you to be sober. 451 00:30:06,006 --> 00:30:08,309 I'll have a water. 452 00:30:08,610 --> 00:30:10,277 Make that two. 453 00:30:51,251 --> 00:30:53,020 "We were both in trouble. 454 00:30:53,087 --> 00:30:55,557 "But love is like that. 455 00:30:55,623 --> 00:30:57,625 "Total blindside." 456 00:31:08,102 --> 00:31:09,903 How long do we have? 457 00:31:09,970 --> 00:31:11,673 Where's your driver? 458 00:31:11,740 --> 00:31:13,508 I don't know. 459 00:31:13,575 --> 00:31:15,376 This isn't my car. 460 00:31:17,077 --> 00:31:18,713 Excuse me? 461 00:31:18,780 --> 00:31:20,548 I drive a Honda Civic. 462 00:31:20,615 --> 00:31:22,249 Hey! 463 00:31:22,316 --> 00:31:24,017 The fuck you guys doin' in my limo? 464 00:31:29,056 --> 00:31:31,258 Come on, we gotta go! 465 00:31:31,325 --> 00:31:33,661 "Before we knew it, we were hooked. 466 00:31:34,094 --> 00:31:35,663 "Junkies. 467 00:31:35,730 --> 00:31:37,532 -"I was his drug..." - Thanks! 468 00:31:37,599 --> 00:31:39,567 -Thank you so much! -"...and he was mine." 469 00:31:40,735 --> 00:31:42,102 Oh, my God! 470 00:31:42,169 --> 00:31:43,538 "Until he discovered the one thing 471 00:31:43,605 --> 00:31:46,173 "that meant more to him than I did." 472 00:33:36,250 --> 00:33:39,453 It's noisy. I know. 473 00:33:39,521 --> 00:33:41,990 -Oh... God, you scared me. -I didn't mean to. 474 00:33:42,055 --> 00:33:45,259 It's Verity's hospital bed. And it... 475 00:33:45,325 --> 00:33:46,861 I can turn it off if you want me to. 476 00:33:46,928 --> 00:33:48,796 No, it's fine. 477 00:33:48,863 --> 00:33:49,931 It's on a timer. 478 00:33:49,998 --> 00:33:51,465 It just takes the weight off 479 00:33:51,533 --> 00:33:53,467 her pressure points. 480 00:33:54,836 --> 00:33:56,436 It's really late. 481 00:33:56,504 --> 00:33:57,739 Are you hungry? 482 00:33:59,807 --> 00:34:02,242 Anna usually does meal prep, 483 00:34:02,309 --> 00:34:05,212 but I am a genius when it comes to putting... 484 00:34:05,279 --> 00:34:07,180 a slice of pizza in the microwave, so... 485 00:34:07,247 --> 00:34:09,149 Wow. 486 00:34:09,216 --> 00:34:10,785 -Thank you. -Enjoy. 487 00:34:12,020 --> 00:34:14,789 How's the excavation goin'? 488 00:34:14,856 --> 00:34:16,758 You were right. It is a lot. 489 00:34:16,824 --> 00:34:17,959 Yeah. 490 00:34:18,026 --> 00:34:20,595 She was constantly taking notes. 491 00:34:20,662 --> 00:34:24,131 There was this one time that we were at the zoo... 492 00:34:25,567 --> 00:34:27,035 and she didn't have anything to write on 493 00:34:27,100 --> 00:34:28,570 so she took a Sharpie 494 00:34:28,703 --> 00:34:32,239 and she wrote character names on Crew's diaper. 495 00:34:34,909 --> 00:34:37,377 How did you and Verity meet? 496 00:34:38,245 --> 00:34:40,982 We met at a party, 497 00:34:41,049 --> 00:34:42,316 and she was wearing pretty much 498 00:34:42,382 --> 00:34:44,619 the most amazing dress I'd ever seen. 499 00:34:46,054 --> 00:34:48,355 So we left the party together, 500 00:34:48,422 --> 00:34:49,857 and when we got outside, 501 00:34:49,924 --> 00:34:52,694 there was a limo, and I opened the door to it 502 00:34:52,760 --> 00:34:54,596 and she got in, 503 00:34:54,662 --> 00:34:56,196 and then the driver came back 504 00:34:56,263 --> 00:34:58,398 and I had to admit the limo wasn't mine. 505 00:35:18,452 --> 00:35:19,787 "One night, 506 00:35:19,854 --> 00:35:21,589 "he suggested I move in with him 507 00:35:21,656 --> 00:35:22,724 "during sex. 508 00:35:23,323 --> 00:35:25,125 "He does that sometimes. 509 00:35:25,192 --> 00:35:27,528 "Makes huge decisions about our lives together 510 00:35:27,595 --> 00:35:29,530 "while he's fucking me." 511 00:35:36,604 --> 00:35:38,372 Move in with me. 512 00:35:39,306 --> 00:35:41,274 Break your lease. 513 00:36:45,205 --> 00:36:47,340 "And that was that. 514 00:36:47,407 --> 00:36:49,944 "I was happier than I'd ever been." 515 00:36:54,381 --> 00:36:56,050 "But when Jeremy was transferred 516 00:36:56,117 --> 00:36:58,385 "to another city for work, 517 00:36:58,452 --> 00:37:00,988 "I didn't think I could survive." 518 00:37:03,524 --> 00:37:05,626 "And that is when I became a writer." 519 00:37:09,864 --> 00:37:13,433 "My days were filled with thoughts of Jeremy, 520 00:37:13,500 --> 00:37:16,104 "and if I didn't figure out how to fill them 521 00:37:16,170 --> 00:37:18,840 "with thoughts of something else until he returned, 522 00:37:18,906 --> 00:37:20,141 "I was afraid 523 00:37:20,208 --> 00:37:21,408 "I wouldn't be able to hide 524 00:37:21,475 --> 00:37:25,378 "how much his absence gutted me. 525 00:37:25,445 --> 00:37:29,282 "I wrote an entire novel in the few months he was gone. 526 00:37:29,349 --> 00:37:33,721 "I created a fictional Jeremy and called him 'Lane.'" 527 00:37:35,455 --> 00:37:37,091 "Never in my wildest dreams 528 00:37:37,158 --> 00:37:41,428 "could I have imagined where it would all lead." 529 00:37:41,495 --> 00:37:43,064 "When Jeremy finally returned home, 530 00:37:43,131 --> 00:37:44,899 "it was in the middle of the night." 531 00:37:44,966 --> 00:37:46,534 -Verity... -"I was fast asleep." 532 00:37:46,601 --> 00:37:47,668 -Hey, wake up... -Hi. 533 00:37:47,735 --> 00:37:49,737 -...wake up, wake up. -What? 534 00:37:50,238 --> 00:37:51,639 Hey. 535 00:37:52,372 --> 00:37:54,709 I read your manuscript. 536 00:37:55,408 --> 00:37:56,811 What? 537 00:37:58,345 --> 00:37:59,881 No. 538 00:38:00,480 --> 00:38:01,883 Jeremy, no. 539 00:38:01,949 --> 00:38:03,918 I told you not... You said... You promised. 540 00:38:03,985 --> 00:38:06,721 -I couldn't help myself. -How could you do that? 541 00:38:06,788 --> 00:38:07,855 It's good. 542 00:38:09,123 --> 00:38:10,323 What? 543 00:38:10,390 --> 00:38:12,927 It's really good. 544 00:38:14,529 --> 00:38:15,997 Say it again. 545 00:38:16,063 --> 00:38:17,732 You're fucking brilliant. 546 00:38:17,799 --> 00:38:19,767 "It was the first taste of what it felt like 547 00:38:19,834 --> 00:38:23,303 "for a reader to enjoy what I had created for them. 548 00:38:24,539 --> 00:38:26,073 "That one comment, 549 00:38:26,140 --> 00:38:29,544 "that one sweet, 550 00:38:29,610 --> 00:38:32,547 "simple comment 551 00:38:32,613 --> 00:38:34,782 "meant so much to me." 552 00:38:40,221 --> 00:38:41,889 You bit me. 553 00:38:43,858 --> 00:38:45,492 You deserve it. 554 00:39:00,508 --> 00:39:02,643 Marry me, Verity. 555 00:39:04,444 --> 00:39:05,947 Why? 556 00:39:06,514 --> 00:39:08,583 Because I'm your biggest fan. 557 00:39:11,484 --> 00:39:12,820 Okay. 558 00:39:13,955 --> 00:39:15,488 Thank you. 559 00:40:34,168 --> 00:40:36,103 "And here was another, and a pair of shoes, 560 00:40:36,170 --> 00:40:39,640 "and beside them a suitcase and an old rug. 561 00:40:39,707 --> 00:40:41,509 "If Grace had allowed that man 562 00:40:41,575 --> 00:40:43,110 "to put his things in her lobby, 563 00:40:43,177 --> 00:40:46,847 "then Grace would go tonight. Crisis had come." 564 00:40:48,481 --> 00:40:50,084 I'll be right back. 565 00:41:07,335 --> 00:41:11,439 All right. Crew is downstairs. Homework is over. 566 00:41:11,505 --> 00:41:14,575 Ready to go back? Okay. 567 00:41:21,916 --> 00:41:23,117 She's catatonic. 568 00:41:23,184 --> 00:41:26,153 She can't walk, she can't move. 569 00:41:26,220 --> 00:41:27,455 And then, 570 00:41:27,521 --> 00:41:29,423 this morning, I was watching her, 571 00:41:29,489 --> 00:41:31,525 and then she just suddenly turned 572 00:41:31,592 --> 00:41:33,194 and looked directly at me. 573 00:41:33,260 --> 00:41:35,663 Didn't you just say she can't move or talk? 574 00:41:35,730 --> 00:41:37,031 I know. I know. 575 00:41:37,098 --> 00:41:39,433 She can't. I feel like I'm losing my mind. 576 00:41:39,499 --> 00:41:42,303 Lowen, you are going through a lot right now. 577 00:41:42,370 --> 00:41:44,672 There's a lot you have to deal with. 578 00:41:44,739 --> 00:41:46,874 You're grieving, you're stressed. 579 00:41:46,941 --> 00:41:48,209 Mm-hmm. 580 00:41:48,275 --> 00:41:49,710 Just keep your head down, okay? 581 00:41:49,777 --> 00:41:52,880 You just need to do what you're there to do. 582 00:41:52,947 --> 00:41:56,951 And then just get the fuck outta there, okay? 583 00:41:57,018 --> 00:41:59,186 Yeah, okay. 584 00:42:45,766 --> 00:42:47,501 -Again! -No, no, no! 585 00:43:09,790 --> 00:43:11,058 Wham. Right here. 586 00:43:11,125 --> 00:43:12,059 Right there? Not over here? 587 00:43:12,126 --> 00:43:13,327 -Over here, right? -Okay... 588 00:43:13,394 --> 00:43:15,329 -No? -...put 'em right here! 589 00:43:15,396 --> 00:43:18,099 Right here! Oh, no, you didn't. 590 00:43:18,165 --> 00:43:20,501 -No, no, no! -Yes, I did. 591 00:43:20,569 --> 00:43:22,336 -Hey. -Hi. 592 00:43:22,403 --> 00:43:24,405 You've been in there all day. 593 00:43:24,472 --> 00:43:25,639 Are you making progress? 594 00:43:25,706 --> 00:43:27,007 Yeah. 595 00:43:27,074 --> 00:43:29,443 I'm starting to piece it all together. 596 00:43:29,511 --> 00:43:30,711 Yeah. 597 00:43:30,778 --> 00:43:31,946 What are you doing? 598 00:43:32,012 --> 00:43:33,981 You, um, making a big pile of wood? 599 00:43:34,048 --> 00:43:35,816 There's a rotted-out shed up there. 600 00:43:35,883 --> 00:43:37,519 Crew is the foreman. 601 00:43:37,586 --> 00:43:38,686 Cool. 602 00:43:38,752 --> 00:43:41,155 But big pile of wood. Yeah. 603 00:43:42,389 --> 00:43:43,858 Lowen? 604 00:43:45,392 --> 00:43:46,528 Hi. 605 00:43:46,595 --> 00:43:48,129 I'm heading out to the store. 606 00:43:50,164 --> 00:43:51,398 Okay. 607 00:43:51,465 --> 00:43:52,833 Verity is taking a nap. 608 00:43:52,900 --> 00:43:54,168 Okay. 609 00:44:02,577 --> 00:44:04,178 Yeah. 610 00:44:04,546 --> 00:44:06,013 Hi, Crew. 611 00:44:07,448 --> 00:44:08,849 Hi. 612 00:44:10,151 --> 00:44:12,887 I was just taking a little break from working. 613 00:44:12,953 --> 00:44:15,256 Can I come play with you? 614 00:44:15,322 --> 00:44:16,390 Um... 615 00:44:17,491 --> 00:44:19,193 I'm helping my dad. 616 00:44:19,727 --> 00:44:21,195 Okay. 617 00:44:22,396 --> 00:44:24,298 We can play another time. 618 00:44:24,533 --> 00:44:25,866 Okay. 619 00:45:25,292 --> 00:45:27,194 "It was around the third month, 620 00:45:27,261 --> 00:45:30,397 "a few weeks after I found out I was pregnant, 621 00:45:30,464 --> 00:45:33,267 "that I started to notice the difference. 622 00:45:34,735 --> 00:45:36,737 "My hand was flat on my stomach, 623 00:45:36,804 --> 00:45:38,939 "and I felt something foreign." 624 00:45:41,275 --> 00:45:42,977 "It was disgusting." 625 00:45:55,456 --> 00:45:56,524 Wow. 626 00:45:57,891 --> 00:45:59,760 Look at you. 627 00:46:01,128 --> 00:46:03,364 I still can't believe we're having twins. 628 00:46:10,705 --> 00:46:13,340 Are you still attracted to me? 629 00:46:13,407 --> 00:46:16,544 You're the most beautiful you've ever been. 630 00:46:17,778 --> 00:46:19,648 I'm so attracted to you. 631 00:46:19,714 --> 00:46:22,883 "It was a lie to make me feel better... 632 00:46:22,950 --> 00:46:24,785 "but I was grateful. 633 00:46:24,852 --> 00:46:26,387 "I squeezed his hands 634 00:46:26,453 --> 00:46:29,089 "and he spun me around to face him. 635 00:46:29,156 --> 00:46:30,525 "Then he kissed me 636 00:46:30,592 --> 00:46:32,993 "and lifted me onto the bathroom counter 637 00:46:33,060 --> 00:46:35,597 "and stood between my legs. 638 00:46:35,664 --> 00:46:38,399 "I was completely naked. 639 00:46:38,465 --> 00:46:41,201 "The only thing between us were his pants 640 00:46:41,268 --> 00:46:42,936 "and the grotesque pooch 641 00:46:43,003 --> 00:46:45,573 "I was still trying to suck in." 642 00:46:48,610 --> 00:46:49,943 "By six months, 643 00:46:50,010 --> 00:46:53,480 "I felt like I was about to pop." 644 00:46:53,548 --> 00:46:55,082 Mm... 645 00:46:55,149 --> 00:46:56,518 Someone's hungry. 646 00:46:56,751 --> 00:46:57,951 Mm... 647 00:46:58,018 --> 00:46:59,953 No, I'm not. 648 00:47:00,020 --> 00:47:02,022 Not you, baby. Them. 649 00:47:04,091 --> 00:47:05,859 Did you feel that one? 650 00:47:05,926 --> 00:47:07,895 Yeah. 651 00:47:12,567 --> 00:47:13,668 Jeremy? 652 00:47:13,735 --> 00:47:15,002 Yeah? 653 00:47:16,437 --> 00:47:17,905 Do you love them? 654 00:47:18,939 --> 00:47:21,141 I love them more than anything. 655 00:47:24,912 --> 00:47:26,581 More than me? 656 00:47:28,949 --> 00:47:31,018 Different from you. 657 00:47:31,653 --> 00:47:33,621 Different, yeah. 658 00:47:35,590 --> 00:47:37,391 But that's how it should be, right? 659 00:47:39,527 --> 00:47:41,061 Do you feel guilty because you love them 660 00:47:41,128 --> 00:47:42,996 more than you love me? 661 00:47:43,063 --> 00:47:45,099 Don't feel guilty. 662 00:47:46,066 --> 00:47:49,103 You should love them more than you love me. 663 00:47:49,169 --> 00:47:50,705 Our love for each other is conditional, 664 00:47:50,772 --> 00:47:53,140 but our love for them isn't. 665 00:47:57,277 --> 00:48:00,247 My love for you is unconditional. 666 00:48:04,151 --> 00:48:06,688 Yeah, baby. My love for you is unconditional, too. 667 00:48:06,755 --> 00:48:08,122 That's what I meant. 668 00:48:10,891 --> 00:48:14,662 "I started wishing I'd never got pregnant. 669 00:48:14,729 --> 00:48:17,599 "I fantasized that if we had no children, 670 00:48:17,665 --> 00:48:21,101 "he would make me his priority again. 671 00:48:21,168 --> 00:48:24,572 "But there was no turning back. 672 00:48:24,639 --> 00:48:25,840 "Jeremy wanted them, 673 00:48:25,906 --> 00:48:28,976 "and so that was that." 674 00:48:34,281 --> 00:48:36,183 Are you ready to move on to the next wing? 675 00:48:36,250 --> 00:48:38,085 Yes, I am. Thank you. 676 00:48:38,152 --> 00:48:40,187 -To you. -To you. 677 00:48:41,355 --> 00:48:42,690 Mm. 678 00:48:42,757 --> 00:48:44,592 Did any part of your cozy Chelsea apartment, 679 00:48:44,659 --> 00:48:46,126 where you wrote your first book, 680 00:48:46,193 --> 00:48:47,662 serve as a reference? 681 00:48:47,729 --> 00:48:49,062 You know, it's where our family started. 682 00:48:49,129 --> 00:48:52,299 It's where my career as a writer started. 683 00:48:55,469 --> 00:48:57,906 I love being able to tell my children stories, 684 00:48:57,971 --> 00:48:59,473 and then I love to, 685 00:48:59,541 --> 00:49:01,241 like I said, shut myself up in my lair 686 00:49:01,308 --> 00:49:04,679 and, um, terrorize the rest of the world. 687 00:49:04,746 --> 00:49:07,948 "I hate myself for thinking I could do this... 688 00:49:09,517 --> 00:49:11,151 "...and everything would be all right." 689 00:49:16,457 --> 00:49:19,694 "Everything was not all right." 690 00:49:21,195 --> 00:49:22,931 "Crew was fairly quiet, 691 00:49:22,996 --> 00:49:26,066 "but Harper cried 692 00:49:26,133 --> 00:49:28,101 "constantly." 693 00:49:29,671 --> 00:49:32,105 "It was like she was trying to punish me. 694 00:49:32,172 --> 00:49:33,942 "Telling me I was a bad mother. 695 00:49:34,007 --> 00:49:36,410 "I'm certain of it." 696 00:49:36,477 --> 00:49:37,946 -Hey. I'll be right back. -"When Jeremy finally 697 00:49:38,011 --> 00:49:39,480 "went back to work, 698 00:49:39,547 --> 00:49:41,248 "I was terrified of being left alone with them." 699 00:49:41,315 --> 00:49:42,382 -Bye. See ya. -Bye. 700 00:49:42,449 --> 00:49:43,952 "We couldn't afford a nanny 701 00:49:44,017 --> 00:49:45,285 "because the advance I had received 702 00:49:45,419 --> 00:49:48,222 "for the sale of my first book was too small. 703 00:49:49,624 --> 00:49:51,024 "However, 704 00:49:51,091 --> 00:49:52,594 "him leaving turned out to be 705 00:49:52,660 --> 00:49:54,762 "the best thing that ever happened to me." 706 00:49:56,296 --> 00:49:58,398 "He would leave at 7:00 in the morning 707 00:49:58,465 --> 00:50:00,167 "and I would wake up with him 708 00:50:00,234 --> 00:50:02,269 "so he could see me caring for the twins. 709 00:50:03,571 --> 00:50:05,507 "I would put them in their cribs, 710 00:50:05,573 --> 00:50:06,941 "unplug their monitors..." 711 00:50:07,007 --> 00:50:08,308 "...and go back to bed." 712 00:50:14,516 --> 00:50:15,984 "I began getting more sleep 713 00:50:16,049 --> 00:50:17,552 "than I think 714 00:50:17,685 --> 00:50:19,119 "I'd ever gotten." 715 00:50:22,657 --> 00:50:24,324 "Every night when he would 716 00:50:24,391 --> 00:50:26,761 "walk in the door, the babies would be calm. 717 00:50:26,828 --> 00:50:28,195 "The smell of dinner 718 00:50:28,262 --> 00:50:29,296 "would be coming from the kitchen. 719 00:50:29,363 --> 00:50:30,832 "And he'd be blown away 720 00:50:30,899 --> 00:50:33,300 "by how well I was tackling everything." 721 00:50:36,169 --> 00:50:38,305 "And the twins would sleep all night 722 00:50:38,372 --> 00:50:41,441 "from the exhaustion from crying all day. 723 00:50:41,509 --> 00:50:43,745 "It was probably good for them. 724 00:50:43,811 --> 00:50:45,379 "The best part was, 725 00:50:45,445 --> 00:50:46,881 "I was able to write most nights 726 00:50:46,948 --> 00:50:48,716 "while everyone slept. 727 00:50:48,783 --> 00:50:50,685 "The only place that was lacking 728 00:50:50,752 --> 00:50:52,486 "was in the bedroom." 729 00:50:53,888 --> 00:50:57,324 "It was like I was going through withdrawal." 730 00:50:58,927 --> 00:51:02,462 "Jeremy no longer worshiped me, no longer loved me." 731 00:51:08,570 --> 00:51:10,370 "When the twins were born, 732 00:51:10,437 --> 00:51:13,340 "Jeremy talked a lot about SIDS 733 00:51:13,407 --> 00:51:15,543 "and read a lot about it. 734 00:51:15,610 --> 00:51:18,813 "Which meant I listened to a lot about it. 735 00:51:18,880 --> 00:51:22,817 "What I found most fascinating was that 736 00:51:22,884 --> 00:51:25,987 "it's hard to tell the difference between SIDS 737 00:51:26,054 --> 00:51:27,120 "and suffocation." 738 00:51:41,468 --> 00:51:43,136 Hey. 739 00:51:43,203 --> 00:51:45,272 Hey. 740 00:51:45,339 --> 00:51:46,473 How's she doing? 741 00:51:46,541 --> 00:51:48,710 -She's fine. -Crew? 742 00:51:48,776 --> 00:51:51,144 I'm gonna check on him next. 743 00:51:55,583 --> 00:51:57,719 How did this get in here? 744 00:51:59,353 --> 00:52:02,189 Did I leave that in there when I put them down? 745 00:52:02,255 --> 00:52:03,524 It's okay. 746 00:52:03,591 --> 00:52:05,693 It's okay. 747 00:52:05,760 --> 00:52:07,895 "I have to accept this personal hell 748 00:52:07,962 --> 00:52:10,230 "where I'll be forced to raise these children 749 00:52:10,297 --> 00:52:13,601 "and act like I love them for the rest of their lives." 750 00:52:15,637 --> 00:52:16,704 Ugh. 751 00:52:37,859 --> 00:52:39,060 Can I help you find something? 752 00:52:47,869 --> 00:52:50,337 Is there any alcohol in the house? 753 00:52:51,105 --> 00:52:52,640 Yes. 754 00:53:00,982 --> 00:53:02,249 Thank you. 755 00:53:03,183 --> 00:53:04,519 Sure. 756 00:53:12,560 --> 00:53:15,395 What's going on? 757 00:53:18,398 --> 00:53:20,333 Your wife... 758 00:53:21,301 --> 00:53:24,304 She has this... 759 00:53:26,841 --> 00:53:28,208 Um... 760 00:53:28,275 --> 00:53:31,378 Her books freak me out. 761 00:53:31,445 --> 00:53:33,981 And yet you write... 762 00:53:34,048 --> 00:53:35,917 in the same genre. 763 00:53:35,983 --> 00:53:39,319 Yeah, well, sometimes my own writing... 764 00:53:40,420 --> 00:53:42,757 freaks me out, too. 765 00:53:42,824 --> 00:53:44,759 Maybe you should switch to romance. 766 00:53:46,694 --> 00:53:49,731 Mm-hmm. Yeah, I probably will. 767 00:53:55,268 --> 00:53:56,537 You missed dinner. 768 00:53:56,604 --> 00:53:57,538 This is still warm if you want some. 769 00:53:57,605 --> 00:53:59,774 Okay. I should eat. 770 00:53:59,841 --> 00:54:00,908 Okay. 771 00:54:04,779 --> 00:54:07,314 -Thank you. -'Course. 772 00:54:13,054 --> 00:54:14,555 Mm. 773 00:54:22,230 --> 00:54:25,432 Can I ask a question? 774 00:54:27,835 --> 00:54:28,870 'Course. 775 00:54:28,936 --> 00:54:32,339 Just tell me if I'm being too nosy. 776 00:54:33,273 --> 00:54:35,243 But... 777 00:54:35,308 --> 00:54:37,277 is it possible that 778 00:54:37,344 --> 00:54:39,947 Verity could make a full recovery? 779 00:54:40,882 --> 00:54:41,949 Um... 780 00:54:44,351 --> 00:54:45,853 No. 781 00:54:45,920 --> 00:54:50,357 The doctors don't think she'll ever walk or talk again. 782 00:54:50,892 --> 00:54:54,494 So she's paralyzed? 783 00:54:54,562 --> 00:54:56,831 There wasn't any damage to her spinal cord, 784 00:54:56,898 --> 00:54:59,033 but her mind is... 785 00:55:02,270 --> 00:55:03,771 She has basic reflexes. 786 00:55:03,838 --> 00:55:05,472 She can eat... 787 00:55:06,040 --> 00:55:08,308 and drink and blink... 788 00:55:08,976 --> 00:55:10,477 and move a little. 789 00:55:11,478 --> 00:55:13,748 But none of it's intentional. 790 00:55:16,284 --> 00:55:19,854 We hope that, with continued therapy, 791 00:55:19,921 --> 00:55:22,890 she'll be able to improve a little bit more. 792 00:55:24,091 --> 00:55:25,793 But who knows? 793 00:55:30,397 --> 00:55:32,967 Daddy? 794 00:55:33,034 --> 00:55:35,670 Hey, buddy. What's up? 795 00:55:35,736 --> 00:55:38,005 -Ready for bed. -Okay, yeah. 796 00:55:39,140 --> 00:55:40,340 Did you brush your teeth? 797 00:55:40,407 --> 00:55:42,710 -Yep. -Okay, good. Let me smell. 798 00:55:43,578 --> 00:55:45,580 Ah! Let's go say good night to Mommy. 799 00:55:45,646 --> 00:55:47,281 Good night, Lowen. 800 00:55:47,347 --> 00:55:48,649 Good night. 801 00:56:13,841 --> 00:56:17,144 That's Harper. 802 00:56:19,647 --> 00:56:21,649 What was she like? 803 00:56:21,716 --> 00:56:24,252 She was... 804 00:56:24,318 --> 00:56:26,053 She was amazing. 805 00:56:28,122 --> 00:56:30,591 Not sure Verity understood her the way I did. 806 00:56:34,095 --> 00:56:37,265 She had trouble expressing her emotions, 807 00:56:37,331 --> 00:56:38,599 but I felt like I could just read 808 00:56:38,666 --> 00:56:40,735 what she needed, you know? 809 00:56:40,801 --> 00:56:42,770 I knew what made her tick. 810 00:56:43,704 --> 00:56:46,406 What made her happy, what made her sad... 811 00:56:46,473 --> 00:56:48,542 even when she had a tough time 812 00:56:48,609 --> 00:56:50,477 revealing all of that to the world. 813 00:56:50,544 --> 00:56:53,114 But she was... 814 00:56:53,180 --> 00:56:54,649 amazing. 815 00:57:00,354 --> 00:57:02,990 Were they close, Harper and Crew? 816 00:57:03,557 --> 00:57:04,926 Yeah. 817 00:57:05,293 --> 00:57:06,761 They were. 818 00:57:12,033 --> 00:57:13,801 He... 819 00:57:13,868 --> 00:57:16,003 hasn't even asked about her. 820 00:57:18,139 --> 00:57:19,206 Not once. 821 00:57:20,942 --> 00:57:23,344 Hasn't even mentioned her name. 822 00:57:23,411 --> 00:57:27,447 I took him to therapy for a couple of months, and, uh, 823 00:57:27,515 --> 00:57:28,749 I was just afraid that maybe 824 00:57:28,816 --> 00:57:31,552 it was a weekly reminder of everything. 825 00:57:34,121 --> 00:57:35,656 So I pulled him out. 826 00:57:35,723 --> 00:57:37,591 But I'll bring him back... 827 00:57:38,693 --> 00:57:41,295 if he shows any signs of needing it 828 00:57:41,362 --> 00:57:43,698 and make sure he's okay. 829 00:57:50,104 --> 00:57:51,605 And you? 830 00:57:53,307 --> 00:57:55,109 What about me? 831 00:57:57,111 --> 00:57:58,646 How are you? 832 00:58:02,116 --> 00:58:03,851 I'm fine. 833 00:58:28,576 --> 00:58:29,844 Dad? 834 00:58:31,479 --> 00:58:33,247 Yeah, buddy. 835 00:58:33,314 --> 00:58:35,182 I can't sleep. 836 00:58:38,252 --> 00:58:40,688 Okay, I'm coming. 837 01:02:05,125 --> 01:02:07,328 Time for some applesauce. 838 01:02:10,831 --> 01:02:12,499 Okay. 839 01:02:17,938 --> 01:02:19,306 Hi, Lowen. 840 01:02:19,373 --> 01:02:20,741 So, where are you in your process? 841 01:02:20,808 --> 01:02:22,176 Our Marketing and PR team 842 01:02:22,243 --> 01:02:23,612 are eager to get an announcement out... 843 01:02:23,678 --> 01:02:26,548 That is all pending our approval, right? 844 01:02:26,615 --> 01:02:28,115 -Yes, of course. -Okay. 845 01:02:28,182 --> 01:02:29,517 But we do need some lead time. That's all. 846 01:02:29,584 --> 01:02:31,986 Well, Lowen is a very fast writer. 847 01:02:32,052 --> 01:02:33,588 Right, Low? 848 01:02:33,655 --> 01:02:36,991 Yes. Yeah. You'll have what you need. 849 01:03:10,424 --> 01:03:13,762 I've pretty much made it through all the notes, 850 01:03:13,827 --> 01:03:17,798 so I'll probably start writing soon. 851 01:03:20,568 --> 01:03:24,004 I think I'll leave in the next day or two. 852 01:03:25,607 --> 01:03:27,007 Yeah? 853 01:03:28,342 --> 01:03:29,910 Yeah. 854 01:03:29,977 --> 01:03:32,580 Thank you for letting me stay. 855 01:03:34,348 --> 01:03:36,950 Yeah, I wish it could have been a little longer. 856 01:03:38,085 --> 01:03:41,221 I feel like I barely got to know you. 857 01:03:42,256 --> 01:03:44,793 What do you wanna know? 858 01:03:45,959 --> 01:03:47,494 What's your birthday? 859 01:03:47,562 --> 01:03:50,598 God. 860 01:03:50,665 --> 01:03:52,534 What? What's so funny? 861 01:03:53,535 --> 01:03:57,271 My birthday was yesterday. 862 01:03:58,305 --> 01:03:59,406 Shut up. 863 01:03:59,541 --> 01:04:01,308 Seriously? 864 01:04:02,009 --> 01:04:03,712 You're lying. 865 01:04:03,778 --> 01:04:05,479 I'm not lying. 866 01:04:05,547 --> 01:04:07,881 We have to celebrate, obviously. 867 01:04:07,948 --> 01:04:10,150 -No. -Yeah. 868 01:04:11,519 --> 01:04:13,253 There's one good restaurant in town. 869 01:04:13,320 --> 01:04:18,959 It's the best Bavarian restaurant in rural Vermont. 870 01:04:19,026 --> 01:04:20,294 Hands down. 871 01:04:20,361 --> 01:04:22,463 It has amazing Wiener schnitzel. 872 01:04:22,530 --> 01:04:23,897 Wow. 873 01:04:23,964 --> 01:04:25,667 That sounds really irresistible. 874 01:04:25,734 --> 01:04:28,936 I'm... I'm really not a celebration person. 875 01:04:29,002 --> 01:04:30,638 Okay. 876 01:04:30,705 --> 01:04:32,640 Could be fun. 877 01:04:32,707 --> 01:04:35,109 We could get dressed up, order some good wine. 878 01:04:38,580 --> 01:04:41,382 I didn't pack for a special occasion. 879 01:04:43,685 --> 01:04:45,052 Verity has lots of fancy clothes 880 01:04:45,119 --> 01:04:46,554 if you wanna borrow something from her closet. 881 01:05:25,760 --> 01:05:27,261 Let's see... 882 01:05:27,327 --> 01:05:29,296 -Look, there's a... -No, no, no. If I get... 883 01:05:29,363 --> 01:05:31,298 -My stickies. -Don't fake cry. 884 01:05:31,365 --> 01:05:33,300 Don't fake cry to me. 885 01:05:35,102 --> 01:05:36,704 Ha-ha, you took the pieces. 886 01:05:36,771 --> 01:05:37,806 No, that's not right. 887 01:05:37,872 --> 01:05:39,139 Hi. 888 01:05:40,909 --> 01:05:42,677 Hi. 889 01:05:42,943 --> 01:05:44,879 Hi. 890 01:05:44,945 --> 01:05:46,714 Hey, Low. Can I tell you a joke? 891 01:05:46,781 --> 01:05:47,882 Yes, please. 892 01:05:47,948 --> 01:05:50,350 What is E.T. short for? 893 01:05:51,485 --> 01:05:52,352 Tell me. 894 01:05:52,419 --> 01:05:53,922 Because he has little legs. 895 01:05:53,987 --> 01:05:55,422 He has little legs. 896 01:05:55,489 --> 01:05:57,692 That's a good one. 897 01:05:57,759 --> 01:05:59,259 Um, knock, knock. 898 01:05:59,326 --> 01:06:01,128 -Who's there? -Interrupting cow. 899 01:06:01,195 --> 01:06:02,229 "Interrupting cow" who? 900 01:06:02,296 --> 01:06:05,199 Moo. 901 01:06:05,265 --> 01:06:07,167 That's a new one for the repertoire! 902 01:06:07,234 --> 01:06:08,903 That's a new one for the repertoire! 903 01:06:08,969 --> 01:06:10,370 Anna, we're leaving now. 904 01:06:10,437 --> 01:06:11,940 -Coming. Okay. -I'll see you 905 01:06:12,005 --> 01:06:13,575 -when we get back. -Okay. 906 01:06:13,641 --> 01:06:15,075 But probably more in the morning, okay? 907 01:06:15,142 --> 01:06:16,143 So you be good for Anna, all right? 908 01:06:16,210 --> 01:06:17,411 Okay. I love you. 909 01:06:17,478 --> 01:06:19,112 All right. I love you, too. 910 01:06:22,249 --> 01:06:25,854 Okay. So, what's your process? 911 01:06:25,920 --> 01:06:27,421 -My process? -Yeah. 912 01:06:27,488 --> 01:06:30,925 All writers have processes, don't they? What's yours? 913 01:06:30,991 --> 01:06:32,760 Oh, God. Um... 914 01:06:35,195 --> 01:06:36,931 Um... 915 01:06:36,997 --> 01:06:38,098 Uh... 916 01:06:38,165 --> 01:06:39,433 Well, I... 917 01:06:40,467 --> 01:06:42,202 start writing... 918 01:06:42,269 --> 01:06:44,873 and then I hate everything I write, 919 01:06:44,939 --> 01:06:46,808 but I keep writing, 920 01:06:46,875 --> 01:06:50,244 and then I finish the book, 921 01:06:50,310 --> 01:06:52,446 and I pretend I'm happy. 922 01:06:53,380 --> 01:06:54,582 That sounds healthy. 923 01:06:54,649 --> 01:06:57,150 -It's a really fun time. -Mm. 924 01:06:57,217 --> 01:06:58,753 Okay, I have one more question. 925 01:07:00,120 --> 01:07:02,256 Are you hating this? 926 01:07:03,323 --> 01:07:05,425 Are you having any fun at all? 927 01:07:06,126 --> 01:07:07,327 I'm having fun. 928 01:07:07,394 --> 01:07:09,196 Does it not look like I'm having fun? 929 01:07:09,263 --> 01:07:11,733 I can't tell from your... 930 01:07:11,799 --> 01:07:13,166 That's just my face. 931 01:07:13,233 --> 01:07:15,235 I have resting bored face. 932 01:07:15,302 --> 01:07:17,237 I get that a lot. 933 01:07:17,304 --> 01:07:20,008 But I am having a good time. I promise. 934 01:07:20,073 --> 01:07:22,744 -Okay. -This is, by far, the best 935 01:07:22,810 --> 01:07:25,245 Bavarian restaurant I've ever been to. 936 01:07:25,312 --> 01:07:26,981 I told you. It's the best. 937 01:07:27,047 --> 01:07:29,984 The lederhosen is a really nice touch. 938 01:07:30,050 --> 01:07:32,687 Makes me feel overdressed. 939 01:07:32,754 --> 01:07:34,121 No, no, it's like... 940 01:07:34,187 --> 01:07:36,390 this is, like, German formal wear. 941 01:07:39,627 --> 01:07:41,461 Can I ask you one more question? 942 01:07:41,930 --> 01:07:42,964 Yeah. 943 01:07:44,131 --> 01:07:47,669 Do you think that I should get Crew back into therapy? 944 01:07:47,735 --> 01:07:50,672 Yes. Definitely. 945 01:07:53,307 --> 01:07:55,375 Have you ever been in therapy? 946 01:07:55,677 --> 01:07:56,744 Yeah. 947 01:07:58,412 --> 01:08:01,983 It's the best thing that ever happened to me. 948 01:08:02,050 --> 01:08:04,819 I was really troubled as a kid, 949 01:08:04,886 --> 01:08:08,488 and this therapist helped me 950 01:08:08,556 --> 01:08:09,724 understand that 951 01:08:09,791 --> 01:08:13,126 there wasn't something wrong with me. 952 01:08:13,193 --> 01:08:17,297 And... after, like, years of, you know, 953 01:08:17,364 --> 01:08:20,635 being told that I started to believe it. 954 01:08:20,702 --> 01:08:23,437 But it... helped. 955 01:08:24,672 --> 01:08:27,240 Did your mom go with you? To therapy? 956 01:08:30,678 --> 01:08:31,746 No. 957 01:08:33,748 --> 01:08:34,816 No. 958 01:08:36,851 --> 01:08:38,853 We were just very distant. 959 01:08:40,088 --> 01:08:42,255 She actually reminds me a lot of... 960 01:08:44,692 --> 01:08:45,727 Uh... 961 01:08:45,793 --> 01:08:47,662 -Of who? -The, um... 962 01:08:49,564 --> 01:08:51,966 The main character in Verity's books. 963 01:08:52,033 --> 01:08:53,300 Oh. 964 01:08:54,669 --> 01:08:56,904 And that's bad? 965 01:08:56,971 --> 01:08:59,139 You really haven't read them? 966 01:08:59,206 --> 01:09:00,775 Only the first. 967 01:09:01,576 --> 01:09:03,410 Why? 968 01:09:03,477 --> 01:09:05,245 Because I couldn't fathom 969 01:09:05,312 --> 01:09:07,782 that that all came from her imagination. 970 01:09:09,416 --> 01:09:12,185 She would always get so angry at me 971 01:09:12,252 --> 01:09:15,255 for not reading her manuscripts. 972 01:09:15,322 --> 01:09:17,025 She needed my validation, for some reason, 973 01:09:17,091 --> 01:09:19,861 even though the whole world was validating her. 974 01:09:24,065 --> 01:09:25,533 Anyway... 975 01:09:28,201 --> 01:09:29,837 Where do you get your validation? 976 01:09:31,606 --> 01:09:33,407 I don't. 977 01:09:33,473 --> 01:09:35,543 My books aren't popular. I haven't... 978 01:09:36,544 --> 01:09:40,048 I mean, maybe I got, like, a nice review 979 01:09:40,114 --> 01:09:42,249 here or there. 980 01:09:43,450 --> 01:09:44,952 But I've never had the experience 981 01:09:45,019 --> 01:09:48,321 of somebody saying to my face, 982 01:09:48,388 --> 01:09:51,926 "Your writing matters to me, Lowen." 983 01:09:51,993 --> 01:09:54,428 I... I imagine that that would be nice. 984 01:09:54,494 --> 01:09:56,564 I have to tell you something. 985 01:09:59,734 --> 01:10:01,401 I lied to you. 986 01:10:03,071 --> 01:10:04,605 What did you lie about? 987 01:10:06,140 --> 01:10:09,409 Verity didn't read your book. 988 01:10:10,078 --> 01:10:12,312 Then why would you say that? 989 01:10:12,379 --> 01:10:15,049 I read your book. 990 01:10:15,116 --> 01:10:17,284 And it was... 991 01:10:17,350 --> 01:10:19,453 phenomenal. 992 01:10:19,987 --> 01:10:22,489 And I'm sorry, but I... 993 01:10:23,490 --> 01:10:26,527 I just knew that it wouldn't mean as much 994 01:10:26,594 --> 01:10:28,763 coming from me as it would from Verity, 995 01:10:28,830 --> 01:10:30,497 and for some reason, I really wanted it 996 01:10:30,565 --> 01:10:33,300 to mean something to you. 997 01:10:37,171 --> 01:10:38,740 'Cause the thing is, 998 01:10:38,806 --> 01:10:41,843 your writing matters to me, Lowen. 999 01:11:06,134 --> 01:11:10,370 ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 1000 01:11:10,437 --> 01:11:14,407 ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 1001 01:11:14,474 --> 01:11:18,713 ♪ Happy birthday, dear Lowen ♪ 1002 01:11:18,780 --> 01:11:23,651 ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 1003 01:11:23,718 --> 01:11:24,819 Thank you. 1004 01:11:24,886 --> 01:11:26,419 You're welcome. 1005 01:11:31,592 --> 01:11:33,393 What'd you wish for? 1006 01:11:33,460 --> 01:11:36,631 I can't tell you. 1007 01:11:40,268 --> 01:11:42,302 Hmm. 1008 01:11:42,369 --> 01:11:46,040 Do you know what the secret is to such a delicious cupcake? 1009 01:11:46,107 --> 01:11:47,508 Tell me. 1010 01:11:47,575 --> 01:11:49,644 It's vanilla pudding. 1011 01:11:49,710 --> 01:11:51,311 -Pudding? -Mm-hmm. 1012 01:11:56,184 --> 01:11:57,450 Mm. 1013 01:11:58,820 --> 01:12:00,988 -That's very good. Mm-hmm. -Yeah? 1014 01:12:01,055 --> 01:12:02,557 Told you. 1015 01:12:03,858 --> 01:12:05,293 You've got... 1016 01:12:05,392 --> 01:12:06,894 icing. 1017 01:12:07,195 --> 01:12:08,328 Where? 1018 01:12:15,368 --> 01:12:17,370 Just right here. 1019 01:12:52,273 --> 01:12:53,674 Fuck. 1020 01:13:39,520 --> 01:13:40,788 Verity? 1021 01:13:43,090 --> 01:13:44,358 Verity! 1022 01:13:44,424 --> 01:13:45,826 -Verity! Oh, God. -What? 1023 01:13:45,893 --> 01:13:47,561 She was just standing right... 1024 01:13:47,628 --> 01:13:49,130 I'm sorry. I shouldn't have kissed you. No, I... 1025 01:13:49,196 --> 01:13:50,765 God! 1026 01:13:50,831 --> 01:13:52,366 -Oh, God. -I'm sorry. 1027 01:13:52,432 --> 01:13:54,635 No, I just saw her. 1028 01:13:55,903 --> 01:13:57,004 She... 1029 01:13:57,571 --> 01:13:59,607 She can't walk, Lowen. 1030 01:13:59,674 --> 01:14:01,042 She was standing right there. 1031 01:14:01,108 --> 01:14:02,276 She was standing... 1032 01:14:02,343 --> 01:14:03,878 She was standing right there. 1033 01:14:03,945 --> 01:14:06,714 Your fucking wife was standing right there, Jeremy! 1034 01:14:06,781 --> 01:14:08,582 I know what I saw! 1035 01:14:30,571 --> 01:14:31,839 Hey. 1036 01:14:34,075 --> 01:14:36,410 So there's no one in the house. 1037 01:14:36,476 --> 01:14:37,912 Anna went home. 1038 01:14:39,113 --> 01:14:41,582 Crew's fast asleep. 1039 01:14:42,383 --> 01:14:43,718 And... 1040 01:14:44,552 --> 01:14:46,821 definitely wasn't Verity. 1041 01:14:47,455 --> 01:14:48,889 I checked. 1042 01:14:48,956 --> 01:14:50,558 Trust me. 1043 01:14:50,624 --> 01:14:52,793 This is my fault. 1044 01:14:52,860 --> 01:14:55,196 You've been working nonstop, 1045 01:14:55,262 --> 01:14:56,330 and you're exhausted. 1046 01:14:56,397 --> 01:14:57,898 And then I... 1047 01:14:58,933 --> 01:15:01,802 kissed... You know, we... And I just feel like... 1048 01:15:01,869 --> 01:15:03,604 Yeah, you're right. That's it. 1049 01:15:03,671 --> 01:15:06,874 It's probably paranoia and guilt. 1050 01:15:11,579 --> 01:15:13,914 This place is insane. 1051 01:15:15,116 --> 01:15:18,119 Jeremy, you are a prisoner in your own home. 1052 01:15:19,520 --> 01:15:21,122 Crew is a prisoner. 1053 01:15:22,089 --> 01:15:23,791 He needs to get away from here. 1054 01:15:23,858 --> 01:15:26,494 You need to go back to work. 1055 01:15:27,628 --> 01:15:30,231 Take moments, Jeremy. 1056 01:15:34,935 --> 01:15:37,605 You can take selfish moments. 1057 01:15:39,707 --> 01:15:42,243 You deserve to have a life... 1058 01:15:43,210 --> 01:15:44,412 where you have... 1059 01:15:45,346 --> 01:15:47,448 moments that have nothing to do with her 1060 01:15:47,516 --> 01:15:48,716 and everything to do 1061 01:15:48,783 --> 01:15:51,852 with just you and what you want. 1062 01:15:51,919 --> 01:15:54,321 -What I want? -Yes. 1063 01:15:58,292 --> 01:16:00,327 What do you want? 1064 01:16:01,562 --> 01:16:03,030 You. 1065 01:16:04,732 --> 01:16:06,934 I want you, Lowen. 1066 01:16:09,538 --> 01:16:11,205 Say it again. 1067 01:16:12,173 --> 01:16:13,307 I want you. 1068 01:18:13,394 --> 01:18:16,531 Those orange ones are so beautiful. 1069 01:18:20,401 --> 01:18:23,572 Mix red and blue and you get purple. 1070 01:18:27,808 --> 01:18:30,444 When will you be back from Boston? 1071 01:18:30,512 --> 01:18:32,947 Uh, shouldn't be too late. 1072 01:18:34,315 --> 01:18:37,418 Daddy, you were supposed to take us canoeing! 1073 01:18:37,818 --> 01:18:39,621 Sweetie. 1074 01:18:39,688 --> 01:18:40,788 Mommy can take you. 1075 01:18:40,854 --> 01:18:43,123 Yay! 1076 01:18:43,190 --> 01:18:44,593 You're okay with that, right? 1077 01:18:44,659 --> 01:18:45,527 You can take 'em out on the lake. 1078 01:18:45,594 --> 01:18:46,628 Yay! 1079 01:18:46,695 --> 01:18:47,728 I wanna go in the water. 1080 01:18:47,795 --> 01:18:49,564 Would that make you happy? 1081 01:18:49,631 --> 01:18:51,131 Yay! 1082 01:18:51,198 --> 01:18:52,866 Awesome! 1083 01:18:52,933 --> 01:18:54,569 I wanna hear all about it when I get back, okay? 1084 01:18:54,636 --> 01:18:56,437 I'll be back by... What's this? 1085 01:18:56,503 --> 01:18:57,572 It's for you. 1086 01:18:57,639 --> 01:18:59,674 Are you kidding? 1087 01:18:59,740 --> 01:19:01,242 Isn't it so pretty? 1088 01:19:01,308 --> 01:19:02,843 I love it. 1089 01:19:02,910 --> 01:19:04,745 It's a whale. 1090 01:19:04,812 --> 01:19:06,581 I love you so much, Harper! 1091 01:19:06,648 --> 01:19:08,048 I love you, Crew. 1092 01:19:08,115 --> 01:19:10,784 -You be good for Mommy, okay? -Okay. 1093 01:19:10,851 --> 01:19:12,186 Bye. 1094 01:19:12,253 --> 01:19:13,320 Bye. 1095 01:19:14,121 --> 01:19:15,322 See ya. 1096 01:19:20,995 --> 01:19:23,330 How come your stuff is so pretty? 1097 01:19:28,603 --> 01:19:30,838 It's blue, just like out on the lake. 1098 01:19:42,584 --> 01:19:43,784 I need it! 1099 01:19:43,851 --> 01:19:46,153 -No! -I need it! 1100 01:19:50,257 --> 01:19:53,227 "Jeremy went to Boston for work." 1101 01:19:58,465 --> 01:20:01,335 "I took the kids out in the canoe." 1102 01:20:03,437 --> 01:20:06,574 "Harper was sitting in the front of the boat. 1103 01:20:06,641 --> 01:20:08,976 "Crew was in the middle. 1104 01:20:10,444 --> 01:20:13,515 "None of us were wearing life vests. 1105 01:20:14,882 --> 01:20:17,752 "Then I shifted all my weight. 1106 01:20:17,818 --> 01:20:21,455 "And the boat tipped over." 1107 01:21:13,974 --> 01:21:15,643 Lowen. 1108 01:21:15,710 --> 01:21:17,779 I'm leaving now. 1109 01:21:17,846 --> 01:21:19,814 Verity's watching TV. 1110 01:21:19,880 --> 01:21:21,115 Okay. 1111 01:21:21,181 --> 01:21:23,083 Good night, Lowen. 1112 01:21:32,827 --> 01:21:34,328 Hi, Crew. 1113 01:21:34,395 --> 01:21:35,929 Hi. 1114 01:21:36,765 --> 01:21:38,132 What are you doing? 1115 01:21:38,198 --> 01:21:41,502 I'm just playing this game on my iPad. 1116 01:21:43,103 --> 01:21:45,272 Crew, can I ask you a question? 1117 01:21:45,339 --> 01:21:48,375 Yep. 1118 01:21:50,845 --> 01:21:53,414 Did you ever have a canoe? 1119 01:21:55,249 --> 01:21:56,350 Yes. 1120 01:22:07,194 --> 01:22:09,029 Do you remember being in the canoe 1121 01:22:09,096 --> 01:22:11,432 with your mommy and Harper? 1122 01:22:19,273 --> 01:22:21,609 Crew, how did the canoe tip over? 1123 01:22:22,610 --> 01:22:25,412 Mommy said I shouldn't talk to you 1124 01:22:25,479 --> 01:22:28,015 if you ask me questions about her. 1125 01:22:33,053 --> 01:22:35,122 Your mommy talks to you? 1126 01:22:36,758 --> 01:22:38,392 Crew? 1127 01:22:38,459 --> 01:22:40,895 Is your mommy pretending like she can't talk? 1128 01:22:42,129 --> 01:22:44,398 Oh! Oh! 1129 01:22:47,301 --> 01:22:48,603 Jeremy! 1130 01:22:49,804 --> 01:22:51,338 -What happened? -Um... 1131 01:22:51,405 --> 01:22:53,974 Yeah, he... Yeah, he bit the knife. I don't know... 1132 01:23:05,820 --> 01:23:07,287 Should I come with you? 1133 01:23:07,354 --> 01:23:10,357 Uh, no, urgent care could take a while. 1134 01:23:10,424 --> 01:23:12,459 I need somebody to stay here with Verity. 1135 01:23:42,189 --> 01:23:45,058 Especially this old fool, companion, 1136 01:23:45,125 --> 01:23:46,794 gigolo. 1137 01:23:46,861 --> 01:23:49,597 How many years she's kept him dangling on promises. 1138 01:23:49,664 --> 01:23:51,866 Well, sometimes it's convenient to have a man, 1139 01:23:51,933 --> 01:23:54,669 especially when he comes cheaper than servants. 1140 01:24:22,597 --> 01:24:25,232 I know what you did to Harper. 1141 01:24:28,703 --> 01:24:30,203 How could you do that? 1142 01:24:33,775 --> 01:24:35,743 How could you be so cruel? 1143 01:24:43,317 --> 01:24:44,786 Say something. 1144 01:24:47,287 --> 01:24:48,690 I know you're faking it. 1145 01:24:48,756 --> 01:24:50,858 I know you're faking it! 1146 01:25:04,237 --> 01:25:05,540 Say something. 1147 01:25:06,741 --> 01:25:08,241 Say something. 1148 01:25:22,122 --> 01:25:24,659 You have this life. 1149 01:25:24,726 --> 01:25:26,460 You have this... 1150 01:25:27,494 --> 01:25:29,664 perfect life and... 1151 01:25:30,732 --> 01:25:34,535 And you have everything that anyone... 1152 01:25:35,435 --> 01:25:37,304 could ever want... 1153 01:25:38,305 --> 01:25:40,173 that I want. 1154 01:25:41,075 --> 01:25:42,844 And you don't deserve it. 1155 01:25:47,447 --> 01:25:49,784 And I'm gonna take it from you. 1156 01:25:51,986 --> 01:25:53,855 All of it. 1157 01:25:55,056 --> 01:25:56,490 Your house. 1158 01:25:58,158 --> 01:25:59,694 Your career. 1159 01:26:01,194 --> 01:26:02,697 Your husband. 1160 01:26:04,398 --> 01:26:06,233 So keep pretending like you don't hear me 1161 01:26:06,299 --> 01:26:08,201 and you don't see me. 1162 01:26:10,337 --> 01:26:11,539 I dare you. 1163 01:26:25,452 --> 01:26:29,757 You deserve to rot in your sad little robot bed. 1164 01:26:33,493 --> 01:26:37,765 You selfish, Machiavellian cunt. 1165 01:27:26,748 --> 01:27:28,549 "The police took my report. 1166 01:27:28,616 --> 01:27:30,450 "Twice. It's their job." 1167 01:27:30,518 --> 01:27:32,920 Harper leaned over the edge of the canoe... 1168 01:27:32,987 --> 01:27:34,354 "Their questions were simple enough. 1169 01:27:34,421 --> 01:27:35,823 "Easy to answer." 1170 01:27:35,890 --> 01:27:37,290 It tipped over. 1171 01:27:37,357 --> 01:27:41,495 We all went under the water, but... But... 1172 01:27:42,663 --> 01:27:45,365 Harper never came up. 1173 01:27:45,432 --> 01:27:48,636 And I tried to find her, but I... 1174 01:27:48,703 --> 01:27:49,937 I was running out of air, 1175 01:27:50,004 --> 01:27:52,339 and I needed to get Crew to safety. 1176 01:27:58,179 --> 01:28:00,081 "I think my performance was so good, 1177 01:28:00,148 --> 01:28:02,784 "it made them uncomfortable to ask me more questions. 1178 01:28:04,552 --> 01:28:06,120 "Jeremy was shattered." 1179 01:28:07,588 --> 01:28:09,924 "But I figured it would pass, and... 1180 01:28:09,991 --> 01:28:13,460 "finally, he was going to be mine again. 1181 01:28:14,529 --> 01:28:16,531 "The irony was... 1182 01:28:16,597 --> 01:28:19,432 "I instantly started writing again. 1183 01:28:20,535 --> 01:28:23,704 "The words were flowing out of me. But... 1184 01:28:23,771 --> 01:28:27,307 "with Jeremy acting like such a sad sack, 1185 01:28:27,374 --> 01:28:28,576 "and no end in sight..." 1186 01:28:31,546 --> 01:28:34,481 "It feels as though there's nothing left to say. 1187 01:28:34,549 --> 01:28:36,284 "No future to write about." 1188 01:28:36,349 --> 01:28:38,351 I'm going out for a bit. 1189 01:28:38,418 --> 01:28:39,987 "No past to redeem." 1190 01:28:47,161 --> 01:28:50,998 "He's become such a drag now that Harper's dead, 1191 01:28:51,065 --> 01:28:53,801 "I almost wish I hadn't killed her. 1192 01:28:56,170 --> 01:28:58,806 "If that's the case, 1193 01:28:58,873 --> 01:29:00,208 "so be it. 1194 01:29:01,042 --> 01:29:04,477 "I'll just drive my car into a tree. 1195 01:29:04,545 --> 01:29:05,813 "The end." 1196 01:29:10,918 --> 01:29:12,385 Hey. 1197 01:29:12,452 --> 01:29:13,821 Hi. 1198 01:29:13,888 --> 01:29:15,488 How's Crew? 1199 01:29:15,923 --> 01:29:17,792 Uh... 1200 01:29:17,859 --> 01:29:20,862 Six stitches and a bunch of pain meds. But... 1201 01:29:21,562 --> 01:29:24,232 he'll be okay. 1202 01:29:24,298 --> 01:29:26,801 He's out cold for the rest of the night. 1203 01:29:28,035 --> 01:29:29,570 Poor guy. 1204 01:29:30,905 --> 01:29:33,040 The power goes in and out when it storms like this. 1205 01:29:33,107 --> 01:29:35,843 So I'm gonna take a shower while I still can. I am... 1206 01:29:37,144 --> 01:29:38,946 covered in dried blood. 1207 01:29:40,848 --> 01:29:42,350 It's kind of starting to be our thing, 1208 01:29:42,415 --> 01:29:43,918 being covered in blood. 1209 01:29:47,755 --> 01:29:49,557 Why do you have this? 1210 01:29:53,227 --> 01:29:55,763 Why is there a camera in Verity's room? 1211 01:29:57,999 --> 01:30:00,467 I can explain that. We... We... We... 1212 01:30:01,936 --> 01:30:03,503 We need to talk. 1213 01:30:11,112 --> 01:30:13,247 Your wife is not 1214 01:30:13,314 --> 01:30:15,349 who you think she is. 1215 01:30:15,415 --> 01:30:16,951 She's not. 1216 01:30:17,084 --> 01:30:19,654 She has been lying to you since the day you met her. 1217 01:30:20,988 --> 01:30:22,023 Lowen. 1218 01:30:22,089 --> 01:30:24,358 Crew told me that she talks to him. 1219 01:30:24,424 --> 01:30:26,727 She's helpless, Lowen! 1220 01:30:26,794 --> 01:30:28,195 I know you have a writer's imagination, 1221 01:30:28,262 --> 01:30:29,597 but are you listening to what you're saying? 1222 01:30:29,664 --> 01:30:32,199 Goddamn it, Jeremy! She killed Harper! 1223 01:30:32,266 --> 01:30:33,834 What? 1224 01:30:34,335 --> 01:30:36,436 She killed Harper! 1225 01:30:37,672 --> 01:30:39,206 I can prove it. 1226 01:30:39,273 --> 01:30:40,541 Here. 1227 01:30:40,908 --> 01:30:42,944 Read this. 1228 01:30:43,010 --> 01:30:44,712 Read it. 1229 01:30:44,779 --> 01:30:46,514 It's a confession. 1230 01:30:46,580 --> 01:30:48,249 It's Verity's confession. She wrote it. 1231 01:30:48,316 --> 01:30:49,750 I found it on a thumb drive. 1232 01:30:51,319 --> 01:30:54,755 It's... It's everything! You need to know the truth. 1233 01:31:05,366 --> 01:31:07,034 She killed Harper. 1234 01:31:13,374 --> 01:31:14,942 She's a liar. 1235 01:31:19,479 --> 01:31:20,915 See? 1236 01:31:25,219 --> 01:31:26,821 What are you doing? 1237 01:31:27,555 --> 01:31:29,023 Shit. 1238 01:31:47,575 --> 01:31:49,110 Verity. 1239 01:32:21,475 --> 01:32:23,644 When I walk out that door, 1240 01:32:23,711 --> 01:32:25,146 I'm taking your manuscript 1241 01:32:25,212 --> 01:32:27,415 straight to the police, 1242 01:32:27,481 --> 01:32:29,316 and you will be locked up 1243 01:32:29,383 --> 01:32:32,853 and you will never see Crew or I again... 1244 01:32:34,088 --> 01:32:36,290 unless you tell me what exactly 1245 01:32:36,357 --> 01:32:38,826 is happening in this house. 1246 01:32:43,697 --> 01:32:45,900 Please, please... 1247 01:32:47,134 --> 01:32:48,769 Please... 1248 01:32:49,503 --> 01:32:51,839 let me explain. 1249 01:32:52,807 --> 01:32:55,176 What the fuck, Verity? 1250 01:32:55,242 --> 01:32:56,577 Jeremy, 1251 01:32:56,644 --> 01:32:57,945 I had to. 1252 01:32:58,012 --> 01:33:01,415 This whole time, you've just been... 1253 01:33:01,482 --> 01:33:02,950 what? 1254 01:33:03,017 --> 01:33:04,718 Please don't hurt me. Please! 1255 01:33:04,785 --> 01:33:06,720 Don't hurt you? 1256 01:33:06,787 --> 01:33:10,124 You murdered our daughter! 1257 01:33:13,027 --> 01:33:15,196 Shit! 1258 01:33:16,163 --> 01:33:17,731 Jeremy! 1259 01:33:18,165 --> 01:33:19,366 Jeremy! 1260 01:33:23,070 --> 01:33:23,904 Jeremy! 1261 01:33:25,639 --> 01:33:29,009 Stop! Stop! God, Jeremy! Stop! Stop! 1262 01:33:32,514 --> 01:33:33,781 Stop! 1263 01:33:33,848 --> 01:33:35,483 Stop! You're crushing her windpipe! 1264 01:33:35,850 --> 01:33:37,284 Jeremy, stop! 1265 01:33:39,687 --> 01:33:41,322 She killed Harper! 1266 01:33:41,388 --> 01:33:42,890 Think about Crew! 1267 01:33:42,957 --> 01:33:46,894 He won't have a mother or a father if you do this! 1268 01:33:46,961 --> 01:33:49,598 They'll know you killed her! 1269 01:34:10,184 --> 01:34:12,753 You have to make it look like an accident. 1270 01:34:15,289 --> 01:34:16,490 No. 1271 01:34:16,558 --> 01:34:17,825 No! 1272 01:34:17,892 --> 01:34:19,528 No! 1273 01:34:19,594 --> 01:34:21,829 Cover her nose and mouth until she stops breathing. 1274 01:34:21,896 --> 01:34:23,864 No! No! 1275 01:34:23,931 --> 01:34:25,966 Don't leave any marks. 1276 01:34:26,834 --> 01:34:28,869 No! No! 1277 01:35:26,727 --> 01:35:27,928 Hey. 1278 01:35:27,995 --> 01:35:29,964 It's okay. It's okay. 1279 01:35:30,898 --> 01:35:32,299 You're okay. 1280 01:35:33,702 --> 01:35:36,136 We're gonna come up with a story. 1281 01:35:36,203 --> 01:35:38,005 You and me. We're gonna come up with a story, 1282 01:35:38,072 --> 01:35:41,475 and then the truth is just gonna stay with us... 1283 01:35:41,543 --> 01:35:44,378 just between us forever. 1284 01:35:44,445 --> 01:35:46,914 Okay. 1285 01:35:46,981 --> 01:35:49,850 We did the right thing. 1286 01:35:51,085 --> 01:35:53,053 We're good people. 1287 01:35:55,690 --> 01:35:56,790 It's okay. 1288 01:35:59,426 --> 01:36:01,295 It's okay. 1289 01:36:33,695 --> 01:36:35,362 It was done. 1290 01:36:36,897 --> 01:36:39,099 It could not be undone. 1291 01:36:40,568 --> 01:36:43,538 We were free from Verity. 1292 01:36:43,605 --> 01:36:47,875 Her cruel manipulations could no longer touch us... 1293 01:36:48,743 --> 01:36:50,344 or Crew. 1294 01:37:07,061 --> 01:37:08,596 Did you have any interaction 1295 01:37:08,663 --> 01:37:09,798 with Verity last night? 1296 01:37:09,863 --> 01:37:13,067 No, I was working in the office. 1297 01:37:13,133 --> 01:37:16,070 I was hired to help her write, 1298 01:37:16,136 --> 01:37:18,540 and then I went to bed really early... 1299 01:37:18,606 --> 01:37:21,543 maybe, I don't know, 10:00. 1300 01:37:22,209 --> 01:37:23,578 Did you hear anything? 1301 01:37:23,645 --> 01:37:25,580 Any idea when she might have left the house? 1302 01:37:25,647 --> 01:37:27,281 No, no, um... 1303 01:37:27,348 --> 01:37:29,617 I mean, she's been bedridden, you know, so... 1304 01:37:29,684 --> 01:37:33,153 -But she's in and out of... -If she got out of bed, I... 1305 01:37:33,220 --> 01:37:35,322 I can't even imagine what her mental state would be. 1306 01:37:35,389 --> 01:37:37,324 I'm just worried that she might have been confused 1307 01:37:37,391 --> 01:37:38,359 or distraught, 1308 01:37:38,425 --> 01:37:40,928 and, uh, gone looking for Harper... 1309 01:37:40,994 --> 01:37:42,429 or something, you know? 1310 01:37:42,496 --> 01:37:43,631 Is there anything else you remember 1311 01:37:43,698 --> 01:37:46,867 about last night? Anything that could help? 1312 01:37:50,705 --> 01:37:52,574 No. 1313 01:37:52,640 --> 01:37:55,342 I'm sorry. I wish I could be 1314 01:37:55,409 --> 01:37:56,910 more helpful. 1315 01:37:57,645 --> 01:37:59,647 Okay. Thank you. 1316 01:38:03,384 --> 01:38:06,521 There is one more thing I have to ask. 1317 01:38:08,623 --> 01:38:10,324 What? 1318 01:38:11,425 --> 01:38:14,261 Were you and Verity, by chance... 1319 01:38:14,328 --> 01:38:17,364 working on the new Noble Virtue book? 1320 01:38:22,269 --> 01:38:23,671 Perhaps. 1321 01:38:24,071 --> 01:38:25,507 Sorry. 1322 01:38:25,573 --> 01:38:27,441 I'm such a fan. 1323 01:38:27,509 --> 01:38:29,943 Been waiting so long for this one. 1324 01:38:31,846 --> 01:38:33,947 Don't worry. 1325 01:38:36,785 --> 01:38:39,119 It'll be the best one yet. 1326 01:38:40,622 --> 01:38:42,156 Sweet. 1327 01:39:15,155 --> 01:39:16,524 Hi, guys. 1328 01:39:27,234 --> 01:39:29,804 -Hello? -Hey, good morning, sunshine. 1329 01:39:30,971 --> 01:39:32,339 Happy moving day. 1330 01:39:32,406 --> 01:39:33,842 Thank you. 1331 01:39:33,908 --> 01:39:35,209 I just got here. Hi. 1332 01:39:35,275 --> 01:39:37,779 Jeremy and Crew are almost ready to go. 1333 01:39:37,846 --> 01:39:39,313 I came to pick them up. 1334 01:39:39,379 --> 01:39:41,381 Hachette approved the outline for the next book. 1335 01:39:41,448 --> 01:39:43,450 So you are good to start writing. 1336 01:39:43,518 --> 01:39:44,552 Oh, wonderful. 1337 01:39:44,619 --> 01:39:46,921 Um, but I'm actually gonna need you 1338 01:39:46,987 --> 01:39:48,790 to ask them for an extension. 1339 01:39:49,022 --> 01:39:50,057 I can ask. 1340 01:39:50,123 --> 01:39:51,559 Okay. 1341 01:39:51,626 --> 01:39:53,293 I'll talk to you soon. 1342 01:39:59,801 --> 01:40:02,637 Oh, my God, I missed you. 1343 01:40:02,704 --> 01:40:04,037 -Hi. -Hi. 1344 01:40:04,104 --> 01:40:06,173 -I have something. -What? 1345 01:40:06,240 --> 01:40:07,509 -I have a thing! -Okay. 1346 01:40:07,575 --> 01:40:09,309 -Close your eyes. -What is it? 1347 01:40:09,376 --> 01:40:11,144 -Close them. Close your eyes. -Close my eyes? Okay. 1348 01:40:11,211 --> 01:40:13,180 Hold out your hands. Put them here like this. 1349 01:40:13,247 --> 01:40:15,349 -Don't move. -Okay. 1350 01:40:18,485 --> 01:40:19,821 -Okay... -Should I keep waiting? 1351 01:40:19,888 --> 01:40:21,589 -Yeah. -Okay. 1352 01:40:24,057 --> 01:40:26,126 -It's amazing. -I know. 1353 01:40:26,193 --> 01:40:27,494 It's an advance copy. 1354 01:40:27,562 --> 01:40:29,396 You're the first to have it in your hands. 1355 01:40:29,463 --> 01:40:30,965 I can't wait to read it. 1356 01:40:31,031 --> 01:40:32,967 -That's me. -Yeah. 1357 01:40:33,033 --> 01:40:34,636 Yeah. 1358 01:40:34,702 --> 01:40:37,005 I'm so proud of you. You did it. 1359 01:40:37,070 --> 01:40:40,675 -We did it. -Hmm. Mm. 1360 01:40:40,742 --> 01:40:42,010 LowLow! 1361 01:40:42,075 --> 01:40:43,410 Hi! 1362 01:40:43,477 --> 01:40:45,112 Hey, hey, hey. 1363 01:40:45,178 --> 01:40:46,346 Be careful with your little sister. 1364 01:40:46,413 --> 01:40:48,516 -He's okay. -I know. I know. 1365 01:40:48,583 --> 01:40:49,617 Hi. 1366 01:40:49,684 --> 01:40:51,653 I'm so happy to see you. I missed you. 1367 01:40:51,719 --> 01:40:53,922 Are you excited for our next adventure? 1368 01:40:53,988 --> 01:40:57,257 It's a really long drive to Southport, North Carolina. 1369 01:40:57,324 --> 01:40:58,893 -Yay! -Yay! 1370 01:40:58,960 --> 01:41:00,327 Okay, let's go! 1371 01:41:00,394 --> 01:41:02,229 Do you wanna say goodbye to your room? 1372 01:41:02,296 --> 01:41:03,998 Oh, my pictures! 1373 01:41:04,064 --> 01:41:05,332 What pictures? 1374 01:41:05,967 --> 01:41:07,301 Crew! 1375 01:41:17,812 --> 01:41:19,781 -Boo! -God! 1376 01:41:21,816 --> 01:41:23,985 Don't scare me like that. 1377 01:41:24,052 --> 01:41:25,118 What are you doing? 1378 01:41:25,185 --> 01:41:28,155 I got my pictures. See? 1379 01:41:28,221 --> 01:41:30,024 Where did you get these? 1380 01:41:30,090 --> 01:41:32,225 From my secret hiding place. 1381 01:41:32,292 --> 01:41:33,661 Can't tell you where it is, though. 1382 01:41:33,728 --> 01:41:35,195 You better tell me where it is. 1383 01:41:35,262 --> 01:41:36,598 You better tell me where it is right now. 1384 01:41:39,099 --> 01:41:40,935 Why don't you, um, go wait outside 1385 01:41:41,002 --> 01:41:43,437 and I'll be there in a second. And then we'll go. Okay? 1386 01:42:17,872 --> 01:42:19,406 "Dear Jeremy, 1387 01:42:19,473 --> 01:42:21,042 "if you're reading this letter, 1388 01:42:21,109 --> 01:42:24,545 "it means that Crew and I are somewhere safe. 1389 01:42:24,612 --> 01:42:26,179 "As much as I try to forget 1390 01:42:26,246 --> 01:42:28,281 "where it all started to go wrong, 1391 01:42:28,348 --> 01:42:32,219 "I was cursed with this mind 1392 01:42:32,285 --> 01:42:36,124 "that never forgets a single thing. 1393 01:42:36,189 --> 01:42:39,060 "It was at dinner with Amanda. 1394 01:42:39,127 --> 01:42:41,495 "I was discussing my next novel. 1395 01:42:41,562 --> 01:42:42,930 "I don't know if you tuned 1396 01:42:42,997 --> 01:42:43,965 "this part of the conversation out, 1397 01:42:44,032 --> 01:42:45,399 "but I'm guessing you did 1398 01:42:45,465 --> 01:42:48,036 "because writer talk always bored you. 1399 01:42:48,102 --> 01:42:49,904 "That's when she told me 1400 01:42:49,971 --> 01:42:52,239 "to try an exercise she called 1401 01:42:52,305 --> 01:42:54,408 "'antagonistic journaling.'" 1402 01:42:54,474 --> 01:42:55,877 It's a writing exercise 1403 01:42:55,943 --> 01:42:57,444 I guarantee will help 1404 01:42:57,512 --> 01:42:59,614 get into the mind of an evil character. 1405 01:42:59,681 --> 01:43:02,550 So, you start by writing a journal of your life, 1406 01:43:02,617 --> 01:43:05,419 except you flip your inner dialogue 1407 01:43:05,485 --> 01:43:07,622 to the opposite of what you were thinking on the day, 1408 01:43:07,689 --> 01:43:10,124 the opposite of who you are. 1409 01:43:10,190 --> 01:43:13,094 Try it. Write a journal of your daily life 1410 01:43:13,161 --> 01:43:15,697 and layer in sinister inner dialogue. 1411 01:43:16,531 --> 01:43:19,834 To be the evil, twisted, self-serving me? 1412 01:43:19,901 --> 01:43:22,003 Sure. 1413 01:43:22,070 --> 01:43:23,671 Buckle up. 1414 01:43:23,738 --> 01:43:27,041 "It sounded simple, harmless. 1415 01:43:27,108 --> 01:43:28,475 "I got better and better 1416 01:43:28,543 --> 01:43:31,311 "at being inside the mind of a villain. 1417 01:43:31,378 --> 01:43:34,448 "It was exhilarating, and it helped. 1418 01:43:34,515 --> 01:43:36,150 "It helped immensely, 1419 01:43:36,216 --> 01:43:39,687 "which is why I was able to create such realistic, 1420 01:43:39,754 --> 01:43:43,024 "terrifying characters in my novels. 1421 01:43:43,091 --> 01:43:44,659 "It's why they sold, 1422 01:43:44,726 --> 01:43:48,295 "because I was good at it. 1423 01:43:48,361 --> 01:43:50,665 "After Harper's death, 1424 01:43:50,732 --> 01:43:54,068 "my mind was in such a dark space. 1425 01:43:54,135 --> 01:43:57,471 "I was trying anything I could to help me process 1426 01:43:57,538 --> 01:43:59,006 "every day, 1427 01:43:59,073 --> 01:44:01,909 "pushing to make my writing more jarring, 1428 01:44:01,976 --> 01:44:03,644 "more disturbing." 1429 01:44:07,148 --> 01:44:09,817 "And then the day came when... 1430 01:44:09,884 --> 01:44:13,621 "I left the file open on the computer. 1431 01:44:14,522 --> 01:44:16,924 "And you read it." 1432 01:44:16,991 --> 01:44:18,593 Oh, my God. 1433 01:44:21,294 --> 01:44:23,430 "But it was just an exercise. 1434 01:44:25,133 --> 01:44:26,801 "It wasn't real. 1435 01:44:28,936 --> 01:44:32,807 "You haven't read anything of mine in so long. 1436 01:44:35,143 --> 01:44:37,612 "After all those years of marriage, how could you, 1437 01:44:37,678 --> 01:44:39,180 "even for one second, 1438 01:44:39,247 --> 01:44:41,314 "believe any of that manuscript to be true? 1439 01:44:41,381 --> 01:44:44,451 "I mean, seriously, Jeremy, 1440 01:44:44,519 --> 01:44:47,755 "do you know me at all? 1441 01:44:47,822 --> 01:44:50,558 "Every memory we had ever had as a family was erased 1442 01:44:50,625 --> 01:44:52,325 "with every new word of the manuscript 1443 01:44:52,392 --> 01:44:54,461 "that you had read. Gone. 1444 01:44:54,529 --> 01:44:56,697 "There was nothing left inside you but hatred." 1445 01:45:06,774 --> 01:45:08,475 "I'll never forget the look on your face 1446 01:45:08,543 --> 01:45:09,911 "as you stood there and looked at me. 1447 01:45:09,977 --> 01:45:13,080 "It was complete and utter misery." 1448 01:45:19,887 --> 01:45:22,590 "At least, that's what I thought 1449 01:45:22,657 --> 01:45:25,458 "until the moment I felt dizzy. 1450 01:45:25,526 --> 01:45:28,395 "And everything became a blur. 1451 01:45:28,461 --> 01:45:32,432 "And I realized that you believed it. 1452 01:45:38,005 --> 01:45:41,075 "I looked out the windshield, all I saw were trees. 1453 01:45:41,142 --> 01:45:44,444 "And in that moment, I knew what you were doing. 1454 01:45:44,512 --> 01:45:45,913 "You were gonna kill me, 1455 01:45:45,980 --> 01:45:47,748 "and make my death look like an accident. 1456 01:45:47,815 --> 01:45:49,517 -"I had unknowingly..." -No. 1457 01:45:49,584 --> 01:45:50,885 "...written my own death 1458 01:45:50,952 --> 01:45:53,254 "into the last two sentences of my manuscript." 1459 01:46:41,869 --> 01:46:44,272 "Your plan didn't work out, 1460 01:46:44,338 --> 01:46:46,140 "did it, Jeremy? 1461 01:46:48,309 --> 01:46:50,311 "Inconveniently, 1462 01:46:50,378 --> 01:46:52,980 "I was still alive. 1463 01:46:53,047 --> 01:46:55,983 "So I made a plan. 1464 01:46:57,385 --> 01:46:59,486 "I knew you wouldn't believe me if I tried 1465 01:46:59,553 --> 01:47:01,355 "to deny that manuscript." 1466 01:47:03,423 --> 01:47:06,861 "And if you were aware that I had recovered, 1467 01:47:06,928 --> 01:47:09,462 "you would turn me in to the police 1468 01:47:09,530 --> 01:47:11,933 "or finish the job yourself. 1469 01:47:14,467 --> 01:47:16,270 "I needed to escape 1470 01:47:16,337 --> 01:47:18,739 "and take Crew with me. 1471 01:47:20,074 --> 01:47:22,343 "The thought of leaving you alone 1472 01:47:22,410 --> 01:47:25,478 "in the home where we shared so many memories together 1473 01:47:25,546 --> 01:47:27,815 "makes me ache for you. 1474 01:47:33,387 --> 01:47:35,690 "Everything I've done from the day I woke up 1475 01:47:35,756 --> 01:47:37,158 "has been for Crew." 1476 01:47:38,693 --> 01:47:41,262 Hey, Crew. Hey. 1477 01:47:43,030 --> 01:47:44,231 "He's the only one who knows I'm still in here..." 1478 01:47:44,298 --> 01:47:45,833 Come on, come on, come on. 1479 01:47:45,900 --> 01:47:49,203 "...that I still have thoughts and a voice." 1480 01:47:49,270 --> 01:47:50,871 You wanna play a game? 1481 01:47:50,938 --> 01:47:52,540 Okay, but... 1482 01:47:53,473 --> 01:47:54,608 it's a secret. 1483 01:47:54,675 --> 01:47:56,110 Lowen? 1484 01:47:56,544 --> 01:47:57,845 Oh, God. 1485 01:47:58,846 --> 01:48:00,648 -Where are you, baby? -Oh, God. 1486 01:48:01,048 --> 01:48:02,116 Oh, God. 1487 01:48:05,319 --> 01:48:06,921 I'm here. 1488 01:48:09,423 --> 01:48:10,958 Oh, God. 1489 01:48:13,027 --> 01:48:14,328 Hey. 1490 01:48:14,395 --> 01:48:15,663 Hey. 1491 01:48:17,398 --> 01:48:18,699 Hey. 1492 01:48:19,633 --> 01:48:22,169 -Are you all right? -Mm-hmm. 1493 01:48:22,236 --> 01:48:23,704 Are you sure? 1494 01:48:23,771 --> 01:48:25,406 It's just a... 1495 01:48:25,473 --> 01:48:28,275 weird, emotional day. 1496 01:48:28,342 --> 01:48:29,977 Okay. 1497 01:48:33,547 --> 01:48:34,648 Yeah. 1498 01:48:39,754 --> 01:48:42,089 Crew's in the car. 1499 01:48:42,156 --> 01:48:44,191 -Okay. Mm-hmm. -We should get goin'... 1500 01:48:44,258 --> 01:48:45,693 Okay. 1501 01:48:45,760 --> 01:48:47,028 ...if we're gonna get to the city for dinner. 1502 01:48:47,094 --> 01:48:48,929 Yeah, I'll be there in a second. 1503 01:48:48,996 --> 01:48:51,699 I'm just gonna do one last sweep. 1504 01:48:52,333 --> 01:48:53,667 Love you. 1505 01:48:55,803 --> 01:48:57,538 This house... 1506 01:49:31,405 --> 01:49:33,641 Her manuscript, 1507 01:49:33,707 --> 01:49:35,576 her letter, 1508 01:49:36,343 --> 01:49:38,145 her husband. 1509 01:49:39,580 --> 01:49:42,149 I have no idea what to believe. 1510 01:49:43,984 --> 01:49:46,821 The only thing I know for certain 1511 01:49:46,887 --> 01:49:48,756 is that Verity was a master 1512 01:49:48,823 --> 01:49:51,358 at manipulating the truth. 1513 01:49:53,227 --> 01:49:55,763 The only question that remains is, 1514 01:49:55,830 --> 01:49:58,533 which truth was she manipulating? 1515 01:50:15,483 --> 01:50:17,051 So, each novel in your series 1516 01:50:17,118 --> 01:50:19,620 is based on nine moral and ethical guidelines. 1517 01:50:19,687 --> 01:50:21,322 Mm-hmm. 1518 01:50:21,388 --> 01:50:23,257 Which of those themes was the most fun to corrupt? 1519 01:50:24,725 --> 01:50:26,293 Truth. 1520 01:50:26,360 --> 01:50:28,496 And I wanted to see how far you could push it. 1521 01:50:28,563 --> 01:50:31,265 How certain I could make the audience 1522 01:50:31,332 --> 01:50:33,067 before showing them that maybe 1523 01:50:33,134 --> 01:50:35,369 certainty wasn't the wisest choice.