1 00:01:20,597 --> 00:01:22,254 I want to be at my best tonight. 2 00:01:25,499 --> 00:01:27,156 For her. 3 00:01:34,611 --> 00:01:36,924 I saw her in my dream last night. 4 00:01:37,062 --> 00:01:38,995 She was playing the piano and singing. 5 00:01:41,031 --> 00:01:42,792 I can'’t remember what she sang 6 00:01:42,930 --> 00:01:44,828 but she was so happy. 7 00:01:46,106 --> 00:01:47,831 And then she looked at me and she said 8 00:01:49,005 --> 00:01:51,490 'I am finally with you girls.' 9 00:01:51,628 --> 00:01:54,114 I swear to God, I thought it was for real. 10 00:01:55,115 --> 00:01:56,668 And when I woke up this morning 11 00:01:56,806 --> 00:01:58,359 I couldn't stop thinking about her. 12 00:01:58,497 --> 00:02:00,327 It's like she is right here. 13 00:02:00,465 --> 00:02:02,432 Right now. 14 00:02:02,570 --> 00:02:04,503 Even thinking about it gives me goosebumps. 15 00:02:08,542 --> 00:02:10,199 Oh dear. 16 00:02:18,138 --> 00:02:19,415 Too much? 17 00:02:19,553 --> 00:02:21,244 Yeah. 18 00:02:25,145 --> 00:02:26,698 That's better. 19 00:02:26,836 --> 00:02:28,389 Thank you. 20 00:02:28,527 --> 00:02:29,977 I gotta run. 21 00:02:30,115 --> 00:02:30,702 Okay. 22 00:02:30,840 --> 00:02:32,082 I'’ll see you later. 23 00:02:32,221 --> 00:02:33,912 See you later. 24 00:03:49,194 --> 00:03:49,712 Hey. 25 00:03:49,850 --> 00:03:50,402 Hey. 26 00:03:50,540 --> 00:03:51,507 Can I come in? 27 00:03:51,645 --> 00:03:53,647 Yeah sure, come in. 28 00:03:53,785 --> 00:03:55,442 What'’s up? 29 00:03:56,512 --> 00:03:58,755 I think I left my earrings here last time. 30 00:03:58,893 --> 00:03:59,618 Pink box yeah? 31 00:03:59,756 --> 00:04:01,413 That'’s the one. 32 00:04:02,690 --> 00:04:03,277 Here we go. 33 00:04:03,415 --> 00:04:05,106 Great thanks. 34 00:04:06,798 --> 00:04:08,696 It's Friday night and you're not out. 35 00:04:08,834 --> 00:04:10,146 What's wrong with you? 36 00:04:10,284 --> 00:04:11,975 Let'’s go and get a drink. Come on. 37 00:04:13,598 --> 00:04:16,946 Sometimes I just don'’t get you Alex. I really don'’t. 38 00:04:18,637 --> 00:04:19,776 Ok Ok. 39 00:04:19,914 --> 00:04:20,984 I'’m just going to grab a shower 40 00:04:21,122 --> 00:04:22,641 and I'’ll meet you in the pub downstairs. 41 00:04:22,779 --> 00:04:23,953 For a quick one. 42 00:04:24,091 --> 00:04:25,782 Always a quick one with you. 43 00:05:06,340 --> 00:05:07,721 You fuck off fucking bitch! 44 00:05:07,859 --> 00:05:10,137 What got into you Alex? He was just joking. 45 00:05:10,275 --> 00:05:11,449 I don't think so. 46 00:05:11,587 --> 00:05:13,865 Now you have this bruise. 47 00:05:14,003 --> 00:05:15,660 What about your audition tomorrow? 48 00:05:16,626 --> 00:05:18,421 I can dance with a bruise. 49 00:05:18,559 --> 00:05:19,664 In fact, it might just become a thing. 50 00:05:19,802 --> 00:05:20,596 Like dancing with a bruise. 51 00:05:20,734 --> 00:05:21,769 A thing? 52 00:05:21,907 --> 00:05:22,770 Yeah. Kinda cool. 53 00:05:22,908 --> 00:05:24,772 Dancing with a bruise. 54 00:05:24,910 --> 00:05:27,706 Well, I think you're very pretty even with a bruise. 55 00:05:29,225 --> 00:05:30,399 Now, let'’s get you home, 56 00:05:30,537 --> 00:05:31,814 put some ice on it 57 00:05:31,952 --> 00:05:35,576 a little make up and it won't be too noticeable tomorrow. 58 00:05:35,714 --> 00:05:38,096 Hopefully. 59 00:05:38,234 --> 00:05:40,029 It's okay. 60 00:05:40,167 --> 00:05:41,789 Thanks Kate. 61 00:05:41,927 --> 00:05:43,308 I'll be fine. 62 00:05:43,446 --> 00:05:44,447 Are you sure? 63 00:05:44,585 --> 00:05:46,276 Yeah. 64 00:05:47,277 --> 00:05:48,969 I'’ll see you soon. 65 00:06:06,435 --> 00:06:07,228 Hello. 66 00:06:07,367 --> 00:06:09,092 This is Tom. Sorry to call so late. 67 00:06:09,230 --> 00:06:11,232 Yeah. No worries. 68 00:06:11,371 --> 00:06:12,786 I'm still awake. 69 00:06:12,924 --> 00:06:13,890 We'’ve managed to locate the individual 70 00:06:14,028 --> 00:06:16,168 you wanted us to find. 71 00:06:16,306 --> 00:06:17,549 Yeah go on. 72 00:06:17,687 --> 00:06:19,551 Listen Alex, it'’s a bit complicated. 73 00:06:19,689 --> 00:06:21,381 I'’d rather give you the details in person. 74 00:06:23,348 --> 00:06:25,212 Let'’s meet tomorrow at the same place? 75 00:06:25,350 --> 00:06:27,076 Yeah sure. 76 00:06:27,214 --> 00:06:28,146 What time? 77 00:06:28,284 --> 00:06:29,112 Eleven AM? 78 00:06:29,250 --> 00:06:31,529 Okay. All right. I'’ll be there. 79 00:06:31,667 --> 00:06:33,358 See you tomorrow Alex. 80 00:06:37,535 --> 00:06:38,812 Morning Alex. 81 00:06:38,950 --> 00:06:39,985 I'’ve ordered you a strong black tea 82 00:06:40,123 --> 00:06:41,953 just the way you like it. 83 00:06:42,091 --> 00:06:44,231 Thank you. 84 00:06:44,369 --> 00:06:46,198 Okay. Go on. I'’m ready. 85 00:06:51,100 --> 00:06:52,791 Here you go. 86 00:07:07,496 --> 00:07:08,738 Are you sure it's him? 87 00:07:08,876 --> 00:07:10,740 Absolutely. 88 00:07:10,878 --> 00:07:12,535 There is no doubt about that. 89 00:07:14,157 --> 00:07:16,539 Fuck. I didn't expect that. 90 00:07:17,989 --> 00:07:20,992 That's life for you. Full of surprises. 91 00:07:27,377 --> 00:07:29,069 That's the address of his work. 92 00:07:30,450 --> 00:07:33,142 Give me a call if you need anything else. 93 00:07:33,280 --> 00:07:34,971 Thanks. 94 00:07:43,842 --> 00:07:45,637 Any word from your Julia? 95 00:07:45,775 --> 00:07:47,328 No, 96 00:07:47,467 --> 00:07:49,296 my daughter is ignoring me. 97 00:07:49,434 --> 00:07:51,056 I'’m sorry babe. 98 00:07:51,194 --> 00:07:52,541 I'’m here. 99 00:07:52,679 --> 00:07:54,266 I know. 100 00:07:54,404 --> 00:07:56,061 We'’re like a married couple. 101 00:07:56,199 --> 00:07:58,478 Always together but never have sex. 102 00:08:00,307 --> 00:08:02,343 You'’ve been my rock all these years. 103 00:08:03,517 --> 00:08:05,381 Are you getting all sentimental on me again? 104 00:08:06,382 --> 00:08:08,867 You know how I get on her anniversary. 105 00:08:09,005 --> 00:08:10,559 Twenty two years today. 106 00:08:10,697 --> 00:08:13,527 Well look at me and my dream pet. 107 00:09:01,679 --> 00:09:03,370 So how can I help you today? 108 00:09:04,751 --> 00:09:06,442 Something happened. 109 00:09:10,550 --> 00:09:12,241 I don'’t know what to do. 110 00:09:13,794 --> 00:09:15,485 And how does this make you feel? 111 00:09:19,697 --> 00:09:21,940 Angry. 112 00:09:22,078 --> 00:09:23,770 Yeah. 113 00:09:24,874 --> 00:09:26,427 I'’m very angry. 114 00:09:26,566 --> 00:09:28,844 But... 115 00:09:28,982 --> 00:09:30,639 But...? 116 00:09:31,950 --> 00:09:33,538 But I'’m also 117 00:09:33,676 --> 00:09:35,367 very excited. 118 00:09:38,163 --> 00:09:39,820 So what happens now? 119 00:09:58,943 --> 00:09:59,978 Hey. 120 00:10:00,116 --> 00:10:01,704 What'’s the strongest spirit you'’ve got? 121 00:10:05,950 --> 00:10:07,607 Rough night? 122 00:10:08,642 --> 00:10:10,333 Make it a double. 123 00:10:22,760 --> 00:10:23,381 Rough life! 124 00:10:23,519 --> 00:10:25,038 Oh! 125 00:10:25,176 --> 00:10:26,833 You're so cute! 126 00:10:32,114 --> 00:10:33,563 Go on. 127 00:10:33,702 --> 00:10:35,393 It'’s on the house. 128 00:10:42,572 --> 00:10:44,436 Thanks. 129 00:10:44,574 --> 00:10:46,266 I needed it. 130 00:10:47,336 --> 00:10:48,578 Your first time here? 131 00:10:48,717 --> 00:10:50,166 Yes. 132 00:10:50,304 --> 00:10:51,858 I'’m Gloria Hole virgin. 133 00:10:51,996 --> 00:10:53,998 Well you're in for a treat. 134 00:10:55,102 --> 00:10:57,346 We'll see. 135 00:10:57,484 --> 00:10:59,175 Go on. 136 00:11:48,984 --> 00:11:51,676 Life is a code of many colours 137 00:11:55,197 --> 00:11:57,751 it is never black and white. 138 00:12:00,858 --> 00:12:03,861 Can'’t have one without the other 139 00:12:06,691 --> 00:12:09,280 the dark without the light. 140 00:12:13,111 --> 00:12:15,700 In the summer we were lovers 141 00:12:18,461 --> 00:12:21,706 with a flame our hearts would burn, 142 00:12:24,019 --> 00:12:29,783 a flame the autumn would smother and leave this heart to yearn. 143 00:12:33,442 --> 00:12:35,133 Forever blue. 144 00:12:38,999 --> 00:12:40,690 Forever blue. 145 00:12:45,592 --> 00:12:49,389 I'’m putting on a show for the world to see. 146 00:12:52,047 --> 00:12:55,326 No one will ever know that without you, 147 00:12:55,464 --> 00:12:57,155 I'’m forever blue. 148 00:13:03,990 --> 00:13:08,477 No more waking up early, just to watch you sleep. 149 00:13:15,173 --> 00:13:20,765 We turn the blind eye to worry but such times will never keep. 150 00:13:26,253 --> 00:13:29,601 I'’ve found a new smile this morning, 151 00:13:31,983 --> 00:13:34,986 that doesn'’t come out as a frown. 152 00:13:37,540 --> 00:13:43,788 A smile to wear while performing and to hide the tears of this clown. 153 00:13:46,756 --> 00:13:48,448 Forever blue. 154 00:13:52,521 --> 00:13:54,212 Forever blue. 155 00:13:59,079 --> 00:14:02,876 I'’m putting on a show for the world to see. 156 00:14:05,430 --> 00:14:08,848 No one will ever know that without you, 157 00:14:08,986 --> 00:14:10,677 I'’m forever blue. 158 00:14:15,924 --> 00:14:20,135 Yeah I'’m putting on a show for the world to see. 159 00:14:22,102 --> 00:14:25,692 No one will ever know that without you, 160 00:14:29,558 --> 00:14:31,249 I'’m forever blue. 161 00:14:42,812 --> 00:14:46,023 Your pussy was on fire big time tonight. 162 00:14:46,161 --> 00:14:50,682 I haven't enjoyed myself like that in a very long time. 163 00:14:50,820 --> 00:14:52,512 We got to celebrate. 164 00:14:54,134 --> 00:14:55,998 Fancy sleeping at mine tonight? 165 00:14:56,136 --> 00:14:58,414 Girls night in? 166 00:14:58,552 --> 00:15:00,244 Not tonight babe. 167 00:15:12,256 --> 00:15:13,913 You seem distant recently. 168 00:15:16,156 --> 00:15:17,330 I'm not. 169 00:15:17,468 --> 00:15:19,504 I'm just tired. 170 00:15:19,642 --> 00:15:21,644 Tired? 171 00:15:21,782 --> 00:15:23,474 Yeah. With work and everything. 172 00:15:25,338 --> 00:15:26,995 What's going on Gloria? 173 00:15:28,341 --> 00:15:29,998 Tell me. 174 00:15:32,241 --> 00:15:33,725 Your dream 175 00:15:33,863 --> 00:15:35,417 What about my dream? 176 00:15:35,555 --> 00:15:37,212 Can'’t stop thinking about it. 177 00:15:40,422 --> 00:15:42,217 I couldn't sleep last night. 178 00:15:42,355 --> 00:15:44,046 Gloria 179 00:15:46,014 --> 00:15:47,705 I see her everywhere. 180 00:15:50,018 --> 00:15:52,813 I went to the supermarket and I swear I saw her there. 181 00:15:55,437 --> 00:15:57,128 I feel like I'’m going mad. 182 00:16:04,964 --> 00:16:06,655 Pet 183 00:16:22,188 --> 00:16:24,362 Sorted. 184 00:16:24,500 --> 00:16:27,469 Why would you be spending twenty pounds on a haircut when I can do it for you? 185 00:16:27,607 --> 00:16:28,263 Can you? 186 00:16:28,401 --> 00:16:29,471 Of course. 187 00:16:29,609 --> 00:16:31,024 I cut Julia'’s hair for years. 188 00:16:31,162 --> 00:16:32,336 Julia'’s. 189 00:16:32,474 --> 00:16:33,268 Yeah. Years. 190 00:16:33,406 --> 00:16:35,028 Have you cut dude'’s hair before? 191 00:16:35,995 --> 00:16:37,375 Always a first time darling. 192 00:16:37,513 --> 00:16:38,514 Okay. 193 00:16:38,652 --> 00:16:39,895 Actually 194 00:16:40,033 --> 00:16:41,724 I need my clips. One sec. 195 00:16:45,452 --> 00:16:46,039 Hi. 196 00:16:46,177 --> 00:16:47,144 Hey bro. 197 00:16:47,282 --> 00:16:48,869 The audition is at two o'’clock tomorrow. 198 00:16:49,008 --> 00:16:50,561 What audition? 199 00:16:50,699 --> 00:16:52,356 Gloria Hole's new show. 200 00:16:53,736 --> 00:16:55,428 I mean this is why you'’re here for, isn'’t it? 201 00:16:57,464 --> 00:16:58,569 Yeah. 202 00:16:58,707 --> 00:17:00,398 I am. 203 00:17:02,262 --> 00:17:03,953 Thanks. 204 00:17:05,265 --> 00:17:06,956 Good luck. 205 00:17:10,374 --> 00:17:11,030 Don'’t fuck it up. 206 00:17:11,168 --> 00:17:11,996 Just don'’t fuck it up. 207 00:17:12,134 --> 00:17:13,066 Honestly. 208 00:17:13,204 --> 00:17:14,343 Darling, 209 00:17:14,481 --> 00:17:15,206 I love you. 210 00:17:15,344 --> 00:17:16,932 I know. I know. I love you too. 211 00:17:19,072 --> 00:17:23,697 'Gloria Hole in search of new drag generation. Enquire within'’. 212 00:17:45,478 --> 00:17:47,135 I don't know what to do anymore. 213 00:17:48,136 --> 00:17:50,379 I really don't. 214 00:17:50,517 --> 00:17:51,760 I'm sorry my love. 215 00:17:51,898 --> 00:17:53,589 I really am. 216 00:17:55,004 --> 00:17:56,075 Where did you see her? 217 00:17:56,213 --> 00:17:57,248 In Chelsea. 218 00:17:57,386 --> 00:17:58,594 Chelsea? 219 00:17:58,732 --> 00:17:59,802 What were you doing there? 220 00:17:59,940 --> 00:18:01,287 The bloody District line got suspended 221 00:18:01,425 --> 00:18:03,668 so I ended up taking a bus instead. 222 00:18:03,806 --> 00:18:05,463 The bloody district line is always suspended. 223 00:18:06,637 --> 00:18:08,156 So I am walking to the bus stop 224 00:18:08,294 --> 00:18:09,536 and I saw her 225 00:18:09,674 --> 00:18:12,643 with him of course. Looking so pretentious. 226 00:18:12,781 --> 00:18:14,127 Fuck them. 227 00:18:14,265 --> 00:18:16,681 She didn't even say hello to me. It's like I don't exist anymore. 228 00:18:19,167 --> 00:18:20,168 Maybe I should talk to her? 229 00:18:20,306 --> 00:18:22,480 She used to listen to me. 230 00:18:22,618 --> 00:18:24,344 Used to. 231 00:18:24,482 --> 00:18:25,690 Not anymore. 232 00:18:25,828 --> 00:18:27,382 We're too cheap for her. 233 00:18:27,520 --> 00:18:29,177 Don't say that. 234 00:18:30,178 --> 00:18:32,421 Maybe it's just a phase she is going through. 235 00:18:32,559 --> 00:18:34,906 I'm just tired of trying you know? 236 00:18:35,044 --> 00:18:36,736 I know. 237 00:18:39,808 --> 00:18:41,810 Do you want to stay and help me pick the one? 238 00:18:41,948 --> 00:18:43,605 It might cheer you up a little. 239 00:18:45,089 --> 00:18:46,780 I know. 240 00:19:08,492 --> 00:19:09,493 Hey. 241 00:19:09,631 --> 00:19:11,633 You must be here for the Gloria Hole audition? 242 00:19:11,771 --> 00:19:12,944 Yes. 243 00:19:13,082 --> 00:19:13,738 It'’s that way. 244 00:19:13,876 --> 00:19:15,568 Thank you. 245 00:19:16,569 --> 00:19:18,226 What a tragedy. 246 00:19:46,737 --> 00:19:49,015 Hello young lady. 247 00:19:49,153 --> 00:19:50,844 I'm Gloria. 248 00:19:54,676 --> 00:19:55,608 What'’s your name? 249 00:19:55,746 --> 00:19:56,574 I am... 250 00:19:56,712 --> 00:19:57,541 I'’m Kandi. 251 00:19:57,679 --> 00:19:59,750 Kandi Flare. 252 00:19:59,888 --> 00:20:01,579 Don'’t do the voice. 253 00:20:03,063 --> 00:20:04,755 I love your accent though. 254 00:20:04,893 --> 00:20:06,377 So international. 255 00:20:06,515 --> 00:20:08,379 Where are you from? 256 00:20:08,517 --> 00:20:10,209 I am French. 257 00:20:12,038 --> 00:20:13,729 How majestic. 258 00:20:14,868 --> 00:20:16,525 Well it'’s nice to meet you Kandi. 259 00:20:17,561 --> 00:20:19,218 Who did your make up? 260 00:20:20,633 --> 00:20:22,290 I did it. 261 00:20:23,705 --> 00:20:25,707 I see. 262 00:20:25,845 --> 00:20:27,467 Kandi, 263 00:20:27,605 --> 00:20:29,262 tell me about your act. 264 00:20:30,298 --> 00:20:32,921 Well I'm a dancer and an acrobat. 265 00:20:33,059 --> 00:20:34,750 Dance for me. 266 00:20:35,751 --> 00:20:37,408 I'm thinking about 267 00:21:09,060 --> 00:21:10,441 How interesting. 268 00:21:10,579 --> 00:21:12,271 Thank you. 269 00:21:14,238 --> 00:21:15,929 Kandi, 270 00:21:18,207 --> 00:21:19,899 how long have you been doing drag? 271 00:21:25,491 --> 00:21:27,941 I'm totally new to this actually. 272 00:21:28,079 --> 00:21:29,771 I'm a drag virgin. 273 00:21:31,428 --> 00:21:33,119 I thought so. 274 00:21:34,810 --> 00:21:36,640 Like a virgin. 275 00:21:36,778 --> 00:21:38,883 Touched for the very first time. 276 00:21:43,854 --> 00:21:46,097 Please leave your details with the guys. I'll be in touch. 277 00:22:13,055 --> 00:22:15,334 I told you not to leave these glasses here. 278 00:22:16,369 --> 00:22:19,338 - Yeah you did. - Then don'’t leave them here Richard. 279 00:22:19,476 --> 00:22:21,132 Fuck will you get a grip? 280 00:22:21,270 --> 00:22:22,962 Sorry. 281 00:22:30,383 --> 00:22:32,074 Is there anything I can do? 282 00:22:34,939 --> 00:22:37,183 Sorry babe. I just lost it. 283 00:22:37,321 --> 00:22:38,287 It's ok. 284 00:22:38,426 --> 00:22:40,117 Mama is here now. 285 00:22:42,119 --> 00:22:43,948 How did it go? 286 00:22:44,086 --> 00:22:45,156 Okay I suppose. 287 00:22:45,294 --> 00:22:46,986 Anyone you like? 288 00:22:47,987 --> 00:22:49,022 A few actually. 289 00:22:49,160 --> 00:22:51,059 That's great, isn't it? 290 00:22:51,197 --> 00:22:53,406 There is one girl. She is new. 291 00:22:53,544 --> 00:22:54,787 New and foreign. 292 00:22:54,925 --> 00:22:57,686 Everything about her is wrong but I really like her. 293 00:23:00,413 --> 00:23:02,691 You'’ll never guess what she did for me. 294 00:23:02,829 --> 00:23:05,142 Flamenco. 295 00:23:05,280 --> 00:23:06,971 Flamenco? 296 00:23:09,974 --> 00:23:11,079 Got to go. 297 00:23:11,217 --> 00:23:12,874 You call me if you need anything. 298 00:23:18,293 --> 00:23:19,984 See you later. 299 00:23:25,300 --> 00:23:26,991 I'’m sorry pet. 300 00:23:27,923 --> 00:23:29,615 Don'’t be. 301 00:23:52,258 --> 00:23:53,708 I couldn't get hold of you. 302 00:23:53,846 --> 00:23:55,986 I was busy. 303 00:23:56,124 --> 00:23:57,401 I spoke to Dave 304 00:23:57,539 --> 00:23:59,230 and he said he hadn'’t seen you in the studio since Monday. 305 00:24:02,095 --> 00:24:04,546 I had to fix something. 306 00:24:04,684 --> 00:24:06,306 Some family stuff. 307 00:24:06,445 --> 00:24:08,136 You never talk about your family. 308 00:24:10,276 --> 00:24:11,139 Even this apartment. 309 00:24:11,277 --> 00:24:12,623 How can you afford it on your salary? 310 00:24:14,073 --> 00:24:14,832 Please Kate 311 00:24:14,970 --> 00:24:16,109 can we just stop this? 312 00:24:16,247 --> 00:24:18,077 Stop what? You never tell me anything. 313 00:24:18,215 --> 00:24:19,768 This interrogation. 314 00:24:19,906 --> 00:24:20,182 Ok. 315 00:24:20,320 --> 00:24:20,976 Ok. 316 00:24:21,114 --> 00:24:22,391 Sorry. 317 00:24:22,530 --> 00:24:24,014 I'’m sorry. 318 00:24:24,152 --> 00:24:24,808 I'’m sorry. 319 00:24:24,946 --> 00:24:26,810 Come on. Not now. 320 00:24:26,948 --> 00:24:28,639 Just relax. 321 00:24:41,410 --> 00:24:43,102 What's this? 322 00:24:44,828 --> 00:24:46,105 Just some stuff. 323 00:24:46,243 --> 00:24:47,451 Stuff. 324 00:24:47,589 --> 00:24:49,626 Yeah. 325 00:24:49,764 --> 00:24:51,351 Alex what's going on? 326 00:24:51,490 --> 00:24:53,388 Nothing. 327 00:24:53,526 --> 00:24:54,493 Are you shagging someone else? 328 00:24:54,631 --> 00:24:56,322 Come on. It'’s just for work. 329 00:24:57,357 --> 00:24:59,359 Yeah. 330 00:24:59,498 --> 00:25:00,291 Right. 331 00:25:00,429 --> 00:25:02,121 Fuck you Alex. 332 00:25:15,548 --> 00:25:17,239 Are they coming in? 333 00:25:18,447 --> 00:25:20,139 I'’m looking forward to seeing her. 334 00:25:22,590 --> 00:25:23,763 Hey guys. 335 00:25:23,901 --> 00:25:25,938 This is Kandi. She'’ll be working with us from now on. 336 00:25:26,076 --> 00:25:28,630 Hello Kandi. Richard. Nice to meet you. 337 00:25:28,768 --> 00:25:30,183 Hi Kandi. 338 00:25:30,321 --> 00:25:31,909 I'm Toni. 339 00:25:32,047 --> 00:25:33,635 I'm Toni. I own this lovely place. 340 00:25:33,773 --> 00:25:36,086 Nice to meet you Toni. 341 00:25:36,224 --> 00:25:37,915 Have we met before? 342 00:25:39,227 --> 00:25:40,573 I don't think so. 343 00:25:40,711 --> 00:25:41,540 Richard 344 00:25:41,678 --> 00:25:43,369 can you get Kandi a drink? 345 00:25:45,336 --> 00:25:47,028 So? 346 00:25:51,895 --> 00:25:53,310 What age are you by the way? 347 00:25:53,448 --> 00:25:55,139 I'’m twenty two. 348 00:25:56,244 --> 00:25:58,315 My daughter is twenty two. 349 00:25:58,453 --> 00:26:00,144 I didn'’t know you had a daughter. 350 00:26:00,282 --> 00:26:01,663 I do. 351 00:26:01,801 --> 00:26:02,837 What'’s her name? 352 00:26:02,975 --> 00:26:05,287 Julia. 353 00:26:05,425 --> 00:26:07,358 That'’s an interesting name. 354 00:26:07,496 --> 00:26:09,188 It'’s very special name. 355 00:27:04,139 --> 00:27:05,175 Much better. 356 00:27:05,313 --> 00:27:07,004 Thank you. 357 00:27:17,497 --> 00:27:19,568 Do you have any pictures of you as a man? 358 00:27:19,707 --> 00:27:21,743 Why do you ask that? 359 00:27:21,881 --> 00:27:23,814 I would like to see them. That'’s all. 360 00:27:23,952 --> 00:27:25,954 You would like to see me as a man? 361 00:27:26,092 --> 00:27:28,094 Yes. 362 00:27:28,232 --> 00:27:29,717 Maybe one day. 363 00:27:29,855 --> 00:27:31,788 I don't want to disappoint you just yet. 364 00:27:31,926 --> 00:27:33,893 Come on. I won't be disappointed. 365 00:27:36,309 --> 00:27:37,966 I live my life in drag. 366 00:27:39,071 --> 00:27:41,556 I come to and from home in drag. 367 00:27:41,694 --> 00:27:43,558 Drag is my life. 368 00:27:43,696 --> 00:27:44,801 Really? 369 00:27:44,939 --> 00:27:46,630 Drag is your life? 370 00:27:49,115 --> 00:27:50,358 Yes. 371 00:27:50,496 --> 00:27:52,187 It'’s become my life. 372 00:27:54,051 --> 00:27:56,640 My therapist says I am hiding beneath my drag. 373 00:27:56,778 --> 00:27:59,194 Beneath my desire to do drag. 374 00:27:59,332 --> 00:28:01,024 Hiding from what? 375 00:28:02,094 --> 00:28:04,061 You sound like my therapist now! 376 00:28:04,199 --> 00:28:05,442 Sorry. 377 00:28:05,580 --> 00:28:07,271 No, it's ok. 378 00:28:09,239 --> 00:28:10,412 I guess I'm hiding from 379 00:28:10,550 --> 00:28:11,828 love and rejection 380 00:28:11,966 --> 00:28:13,657 and all the mistakes I made as a man 381 00:28:20,215 --> 00:28:22,424 You're so sweet Kandi. 382 00:28:22,562 --> 00:28:24,150 No one has asked me that before. 383 00:28:24,288 --> 00:28:26,705 Ask you what? 384 00:28:26,843 --> 00:28:28,948 To see me as a man! 385 00:28:29,086 --> 00:28:30,743 Not for a long time. 386 00:28:31,779 --> 00:28:33,470 To see the real me in a way. 387 00:28:35,161 --> 00:28:36,266 Well, 388 00:28:36,404 --> 00:28:37,439 I guess I'm just a bit curious. 389 00:28:37,577 --> 00:28:41,098 I would like to see a drag transformation. 390 00:28:41,236 --> 00:28:42,893 Dragformation! 391 00:28:44,136 --> 00:28:45,793 Exactly. 392 00:28:53,973 --> 00:28:56,527 Right. Anyway. Let's get down to business? 393 00:29:07,746 --> 00:29:09,437 I'’ll put some music on. 394 00:30:25,789 --> 00:30:27,895 Sorry boss. 395 00:30:28,033 --> 00:30:29,551 Julia is here to see you. 396 00:30:29,689 --> 00:30:30,725 Julia? 397 00:30:30,863 --> 00:30:32,623 As in Toni'’s daughter Julia? 398 00:30:32,761 --> 00:30:35,178 Yep. 399 00:30:35,316 --> 00:30:36,731 Isn't Toni around? 400 00:30:36,869 --> 00:30:37,836 No. 401 00:30:37,974 --> 00:30:40,045 She left about half an hour ago. 402 00:30:40,183 --> 00:30:42,702 Ok thanks. I'll be with her in a minute. 403 00:30:44,187 --> 00:30:45,464 Sorry Kandi. 404 00:30:45,602 --> 00:30:47,915 - Can you wait here? I won'’t be long. - No problem. 405 00:31:03,033 --> 00:31:04,310 I can't believe it! 406 00:31:04,448 --> 00:31:05,622 Julia darling! 407 00:31:05,760 --> 00:31:06,830 Long time no see. 408 00:31:06,968 --> 00:31:07,693 I know 409 00:31:07,831 --> 00:31:09,591 Hi Uncle Sam. 410 00:31:09,729 --> 00:31:12,077 And it's auntie Gloria outside the house! 411 00:31:12,215 --> 00:31:13,872 Of course. 412 00:31:15,666 --> 00:31:16,771 But I'’m sorry. 413 00:31:16,909 --> 00:31:19,084 You'’ve just missed your mother. She isn't here. 414 00:31:19,222 --> 00:31:21,258 Good 415 00:31:21,396 --> 00:31:23,709 I actually came to talk to you 416 00:31:23,847 --> 00:31:25,262 To me? 417 00:31:25,400 --> 00:31:27,402 Of course dear 418 00:31:27,540 --> 00:31:29,266 Gosh 419 00:31:29,404 --> 00:31:31,061 I don't even know where to start. 420 00:31:33,270 --> 00:31:35,065 Is everything okay darling? 421 00:31:35,203 --> 00:31:37,033 If you need anything, you just have to ask 422 00:31:38,724 --> 00:31:40,277 You know we'’ll do anything for you. 423 00:31:40,415 --> 00:31:42,107 It's not that. 424 00:31:43,142 --> 00:31:45,282 What is it? 425 00:31:45,420 --> 00:31:47,698 Can you please 426 00:31:47,836 --> 00:31:49,528 talk to mum? 427 00:31:51,392 --> 00:31:53,049 Can you tell her I need some time off? 428 00:31:54,222 --> 00:31:55,154 How do you mean? 429 00:31:55,292 --> 00:31:56,569 I would like 430 00:31:56,707 --> 00:31:58,571 not to see her for a while. 431 00:32:00,608 --> 00:32:02,437 - I don't understand. - I don't want to see her right now. 432 00:32:04,957 --> 00:32:06,510 Marcus 433 00:32:06,648 --> 00:32:09,030 just proposed 434 00:32:09,168 --> 00:32:09,997 and 435 00:32:10,135 --> 00:32:11,895 I haven't told him about you guys yet 436 00:32:13,379 --> 00:32:15,968 I just need to figure out how to do it I guess. 437 00:32:17,970 --> 00:32:19,868 Tell him what dear? 438 00:32:20,007 --> 00:32:21,732 This. 439 00:32:21,870 --> 00:32:24,045 About you and mum working here 440 00:32:25,633 --> 00:32:28,153 He is from a completely different world. His parents are 441 00:32:28,291 --> 00:32:29,982 I understand. 442 00:32:30,120 --> 00:32:31,156 But 443 00:32:31,294 --> 00:32:32,951 honey we're your family. 444 00:32:34,331 --> 00:32:35,988 We love you 445 00:32:39,095 --> 00:32:41,304 Just talk to mum. 446 00:32:41,442 --> 00:32:42,512 This will break her heart. 447 00:32:42,650 --> 00:32:44,824 It's just temporary. 448 00:32:44,963 --> 00:32:46,654 Until I figure out what to do. 449 00:32:48,967 --> 00:32:50,658 I'’m sorry. 450 00:32:59,874 --> 00:33:01,462 Sorry to keep you waiting darling. 451 00:33:01,600 --> 00:33:02,877 No problem. 452 00:33:03,015 --> 00:33:03,982 Shall we continue? 453 00:33:04,120 --> 00:33:04,844 Yeah sure. 454 00:33:04,983 --> 00:33:06,363 Let's pick up where we left off? 455 00:33:09,159 --> 00:33:10,850 Is everything all right? 456 00:33:11,817 --> 00:33:14,233 You look a bit upset. 457 00:33:14,371 --> 00:33:15,131 Do I? 458 00:33:15,269 --> 00:33:16,960 Yeah. A little bit yes. 459 00:33:19,790 --> 00:33:21,516 It's just my friend 460 00:33:21,654 --> 00:33:23,518 needs some help 461 00:33:23,656 --> 00:33:25,555 and I'm not sure how to help her 462 00:33:25,693 --> 00:33:27,695 Can I help? 463 00:33:27,833 --> 00:33:29,490 Kandi, thank you for saying this. 464 00:33:34,081 --> 00:33:35,772 You're sweet to your mama, aren't you? 465 00:33:38,257 --> 00:33:40,190 I'’m your drag daughter now. 466 00:33:40,328 --> 00:33:42,020 So if I can help 467 00:33:44,505 --> 00:33:46,472 Fuck it Kandi. I'’m so jealous of you. 468 00:33:49,130 --> 00:33:51,615 I don'’t know what the word is 469 00:33:51,753 --> 00:33:52,789 innocence 470 00:33:52,927 --> 00:33:54,515 innocence maybe. 471 00:33:54,653 --> 00:33:57,207 You promise me wherever you go and whatever you do, 472 00:33:57,345 --> 00:34:00,038 you won'’t lose that in this fucking cruel world? 473 00:34:00,176 --> 00:34:02,212 I promise I won'’t. 474 00:34:02,350 --> 00:34:03,731 Good girl. 475 00:34:03,869 --> 00:34:06,354 But I'm not that innocent. 476 00:34:10,117 --> 00:34:11,325 Oh yes you are. 477 00:34:11,463 --> 00:34:13,120 You're innocent to me. 478 00:34:17,434 --> 00:34:19,091 Thank you. 479 00:34:30,620 --> 00:34:31,586 Oh it's you. 480 00:34:31,724 --> 00:34:33,036 Am I not welcome in this house anymore? 481 00:34:33,174 --> 00:34:34,865 I just wasn'’t expecting you. 482 00:34:44,772 --> 00:34:46,325 Look what I brought. 483 00:34:46,463 --> 00:34:48,120 Your favourite! 484 00:34:57,785 --> 00:34:59,476 What'’s happened? 485 00:34:59,614 --> 00:35:01,271 Are you okay? 486 00:35:05,724 --> 00:35:07,864 Julia was in the bar earlier. 487 00:35:08,002 --> 00:35:08,899 Julia? 488 00:35:09,037 --> 00:35:10,142 Yes. 489 00:35:10,280 --> 00:35:11,971 Why didn't you call me? 490 00:35:12,903 --> 00:35:14,595 Let's sit down maybe. 491 00:35:18,564 --> 00:35:20,463 She wants to keep her distance for a while. 492 00:35:24,122 --> 00:35:25,813 What the fuck does that mean? 493 00:35:28,091 --> 00:35:29,575 She said she wants to 494 00:35:29,713 --> 00:35:31,370 stay away from us for a while. 495 00:35:33,510 --> 00:35:34,787 Us? 496 00:35:34,925 --> 00:35:36,272 Well 497 00:35:36,410 --> 00:35:38,515 you. 498 00:35:38,653 --> 00:35:40,310 And me too I guess. 499 00:35:43,727 --> 00:35:45,419 What? 500 00:35:48,560 --> 00:35:50,458 Apparently Marcus proposed and 501 00:35:51,942 --> 00:35:54,290 she doesn'’t know how to introduce us to his family. 502 00:36:11,514 --> 00:36:13,861 Fuck Gloria. 503 00:36:13,999 --> 00:36:15,690 She is ashamed of me. 504 00:36:18,037 --> 00:36:19,694 Maybe it's just... 505 00:36:19,832 --> 00:36:21,075 A phase? 506 00:36:21,213 --> 00:36:22,904 Don't you use that line with me. 507 00:36:24,389 --> 00:36:26,287 I'm sorry babe 508 00:36:26,425 --> 00:36:28,116 I love you. 509 00:36:29,152 --> 00:36:30,843 What did I do wrong? 510 00:36:31,913 --> 00:36:34,053 Was I a bad mother to her? 511 00:36:34,192 --> 00:36:35,779 You have been a great mother. 512 00:36:35,917 --> 00:36:37,885 You are a great mother. 513 00:36:38,023 --> 00:36:40,370 I don't know anymore 514 00:36:40,508 --> 00:36:42,200 Maybe she belongs to an another world. 515 00:36:44,685 --> 00:36:47,066 Too clever for us. 516 00:36:47,205 --> 00:36:48,758 Too educated. 517 00:36:48,896 --> 00:36:50,587 Don't say that. 518 00:36:52,762 --> 00:36:54,419 Maybe we should have sent her to the nuns. 519 00:36:56,455 --> 00:36:57,629 Yeah 520 00:36:57,767 --> 00:37:00,804 to live under the vows of poverty, chastity and obedience! 521 00:37:01,805 --> 00:37:02,979 Obedience! 522 00:37:03,117 --> 00:37:04,325 Right?! 523 00:37:04,463 --> 00:37:06,154 Can you imagine? 524 00:37:10,711 --> 00:37:12,644 I know it's tough 525 00:37:12,782 --> 00:37:15,025 but she will come back to us. 526 00:37:15,163 --> 00:37:16,855 To you 527 00:37:20,583 --> 00:37:22,240 Maybe 528 00:38:00,070 --> 00:38:02,003 What we need is a show stopper. 529 00:38:02,141 --> 00:38:06,042 Something that only a drag mother and her drag daughter would do. Okay. 530 00:38:07,388 --> 00:38:08,631 Such as? 531 00:38:08,769 --> 00:38:10,426 Let me think. 532 00:38:12,738 --> 00:38:14,119 A fight? 533 00:38:14,257 --> 00:38:15,500 Actually. 534 00:38:15,638 --> 00:38:18,088 Fighting on stage could be a good idea. 535 00:38:18,226 --> 00:38:20,677 Okay. So we fight. 536 00:38:20,815 --> 00:38:21,816 Then we make up 537 00:38:21,954 --> 00:38:23,611 and then we fight again. 538 00:38:23,749 --> 00:38:25,820 Fight like only drag queens can. Okay? 539 00:38:38,177 --> 00:38:42,043 Yes that'’s perfect. But maybe a bit more face slapping. Okay? 540 00:39:03,962 --> 00:39:04,687 Where do you live? 541 00:39:04,825 --> 00:39:06,482 In Chiswick. 542 00:39:07,690 --> 00:39:09,174 Cool. 543 00:39:09,312 --> 00:39:11,418 It's on my way 544 00:39:11,556 --> 00:39:13,247 I'’ll give you a lift. I'’m driving today 545 00:39:26,812 --> 00:39:28,331 After you madame. 546 00:39:28,469 --> 00:39:29,297 Thank you darling. 547 00:39:29,436 --> 00:39:30,506 So 548 00:39:30,644 --> 00:39:31,783 This is your place? 549 00:39:31,921 --> 00:39:32,818 Yes 550 00:39:32,956 --> 00:39:33,957 It's lovely 551 00:39:34,095 --> 00:39:35,787 Thanks 552 00:39:40,550 --> 00:39:41,551 I like it 553 00:39:41,689 --> 00:39:43,381 It makes me feel like home. 554 00:39:44,554 --> 00:39:47,902 This place must be expensive. How can you afford it? 555 00:39:48,040 --> 00:39:49,697 I don't pay you that much. 556 00:39:51,181 --> 00:39:53,218 I have rich parents. 557 00:39:53,356 --> 00:39:55,600 Good for you. 558 00:39:55,738 --> 00:39:57,395 Where are your parents? 559 00:40:01,053 --> 00:40:02,158 Do you want a drink? 560 00:40:02,296 --> 00:40:03,987 Just some water please. 561 00:40:08,440 --> 00:40:10,200 I never see you drink anything other than water. 562 00:40:11,305 --> 00:40:13,480 I drink tea sometimes. 563 00:40:13,618 --> 00:40:14,377 Very black 564 00:40:14,515 --> 00:40:15,689 very strong! 565 00:40:15,827 --> 00:40:17,484 Me too. 566 00:40:22,005 --> 00:40:25,561 You know I meant that you don't touch alcohol at all. 567 00:40:25,699 --> 00:40:27,390 I never do. 568 00:40:31,221 --> 00:40:33,154 Why not? 569 00:40:33,292 --> 00:40:35,640 It'’s a long story. I won'’t bore you to death with it. 570 00:40:44,683 --> 00:40:46,720 Come on. Let'’s dance. 571 00:40:46,858 --> 00:40:48,998 Are you serious? 572 00:40:49,136 --> 00:40:50,517 We have been dancing all evening. 573 00:40:50,655 --> 00:40:52,864 No. We have been doing drag all evening. 574 00:40:53,002 --> 00:40:54,659 Come on. Show me your moves 575 00:40:55,660 --> 00:40:57,247 Your non drag moves. 576 00:40:57,385 --> 00:40:58,110 No way. 577 00:40:58,248 --> 00:40:59,905 I'm way too shy for that. 578 00:41:00,043 --> 00:41:01,424 You're so not shy. 579 00:41:01,562 --> 00:41:03,253 You're a professional dancer for god's sake! 580 00:41:04,427 --> 00:41:05,497 Come on 581 00:41:05,635 --> 00:41:06,291 I'll lead then. 582 00:41:06,429 --> 00:41:07,637 Ok 583 00:41:07,775 --> 00:41:09,467 Be gentle 584 00:41:27,692 --> 00:41:29,383 I don't think it's a good idea. 585 00:41:30,384 --> 00:41:32,110 Or maybe it is. 586 00:41:32,248 --> 00:41:33,939 Who knows. 587 00:41:54,339 --> 00:41:55,996 You'll have to take your wig off too now. 588 00:42:14,462 --> 00:42:16,154 Hold on. 589 00:43:11,209 --> 00:43:12,900 You're so beautiful. 590 00:43:18,216 --> 00:43:19,907 So are you. 591 00:45:19,786 --> 00:45:21,580 No. 592 00:45:21,719 --> 00:45:23,410 I want to see you. 593 00:48:18,136 --> 00:48:19,966 Hello Alex. Long time no see. 594 00:48:20,104 --> 00:48:20,621 Hey buddy. 595 00:48:20,759 --> 00:48:21,726 How's your sex life? 596 00:48:21,864 --> 00:48:23,072 Excuse me? 597 00:48:23,210 --> 00:48:24,902 Was that fit bird not coming out of your flat the other day? 598 00:48:25,040 --> 00:48:25,730 And? 599 00:48:25,868 --> 00:48:26,351 I would. 600 00:48:26,489 --> 00:48:27,697 Fuck you. 601 00:48:27,835 --> 00:48:29,699 Next time don't be so selfish. 602 00:48:29,837 --> 00:48:31,529 Send her to me too. 603 00:48:32,910 --> 00:48:34,394 Hello pet. It's me 604 00:48:34,532 --> 00:48:36,534 Just checking in on you as you aren't here yet. 605 00:48:37,949 --> 00:48:39,640 Call me or whatsapp me. 606 00:48:45,819 --> 00:48:46,958 Toni, is Gloria here? 607 00:48:47,096 --> 00:48:49,892 Oh my God Kandi, is that you? 608 00:48:50,030 --> 00:48:50,858 Of course it's me. 609 00:48:50,997 --> 00:48:53,344 Come here. Let me look at you. 610 00:48:53,482 --> 00:48:55,001 You're so handsome. 611 00:48:55,139 --> 00:48:56,450 I didn't recognise you. 612 00:48:56,588 --> 00:48:59,177 Please. Do you know where she is? I really have to talk to her. 613 00:48:59,315 --> 00:49:01,800 - She isn't here yet. - Oh my god. 614 00:49:01,939 --> 00:49:03,733 Do you have her address or anything I can use? Anything? 615 00:49:03,871 --> 00:49:06,150 Sure. What'’s the matter Kandi? 616 00:49:06,288 --> 00:49:08,773 Alex. Just please call me Alex. 617 00:49:08,911 --> 00:49:10,602 Okay. Okay. Okay. 618 00:49:13,329 --> 00:49:14,917 I just called her. She isn't picking up. 619 00:49:15,055 --> 00:49:16,850 She should be here any second. 620 00:49:16,988 --> 00:49:17,955 And so should you. 621 00:49:18,093 --> 00:49:19,784 - Thanks - Kandi. Alex 622 00:49:26,515 --> 00:49:28,206 Gloria. 623 00:49:36,904 --> 00:49:38,596 We have to talk. 624 00:49:44,843 --> 00:49:46,535 Gloria. 625 00:50:13,665 --> 00:50:14,390 Hey. 626 00:50:14,528 --> 00:50:15,564 I thought it was you! 627 00:50:15,702 --> 00:50:16,910 Hi beautiful. 628 00:50:17,048 --> 00:50:19,085 Come sit with me. 629 00:50:19,223 --> 00:50:20,914 What's wrong? 630 00:50:24,745 --> 00:50:26,437 Nothing is wrong. 631 00:50:27,610 --> 00:50:30,337 Something is wrong if you're giving me compliments. That's a fact. 632 00:50:33,720 --> 00:50:35,825 You're beautiful aren't you? 633 00:50:35,963 --> 00:50:37,103 Oh. 634 00:50:37,241 --> 00:50:38,587 You're drunk. 635 00:50:38,725 --> 00:50:41,038 Of course. Makes sense. 636 00:50:41,176 --> 00:50:42,591 Come on Kate. 637 00:50:42,729 --> 00:50:44,386 Stay with me. Just for a drink. Quick one. 638 00:50:45,939 --> 00:50:47,630 Always a quick one. 639 00:51:11,896 --> 00:51:14,519 Believe me or not I'm really glad to see you. 640 00:51:16,659 --> 00:51:19,938 I need someone normal. Like fucking normal. 641 00:51:21,181 --> 00:51:23,528 Good to know I'm normal 642 00:51:41,788 --> 00:51:43,479 Hello. 643 00:52:27,040 --> 00:52:28,731 I'm sorry. 644 00:52:33,805 --> 00:52:35,462 What'’s the matter pet? 645 00:52:40,260 --> 00:52:41,951 Did you spend the night? 646 00:52:46,542 --> 00:52:48,579 What about the show? 647 00:52:48,717 --> 00:52:50,719 I cancelled it. 648 00:52:50,857 --> 00:52:52,514 I said you came down with the flu. 649 00:52:54,550 --> 00:52:56,207 Thank you 650 00:52:58,278 --> 00:53:00,177 You'’d better block your nose or something tonight. 651 00:53:03,352 --> 00:53:05,803 Yes 652 00:53:05,941 --> 00:53:07,632 Are you going to be okay? 653 00:53:08,599 --> 00:53:10,256 I'll be fine. 654 00:53:12,154 --> 00:53:13,811 Do you want me to call Doctor Marshall? 655 00:53:15,468 --> 00:53:17,642 No. 656 00:53:17,780 --> 00:53:19,437 I'll be fine. Honest. 657 00:53:29,067 --> 00:53:30,759 Before I forget. 658 00:53:31,898 --> 00:53:33,555 Alex was looking for you yesterday. 659 00:53:35,177 --> 00:53:36,868 Alex? 660 00:53:37,938 --> 00:53:39,146 Kandi. 661 00:53:39,285 --> 00:53:40,976 He came as a guy. 662 00:53:42,011 --> 00:53:43,944 I didn'’t recognise him at first. 663 00:53:44,082 --> 00:53:45,670 It'’s so strange 664 00:53:45,808 --> 00:53:48,535 It'’s only then that I realised I'’ve only ever seen him as Kandi, 665 00:53:48,673 --> 00:53:50,468 pretty naive drag. 666 00:53:53,989 --> 00:53:55,162 But hey 667 00:53:55,301 --> 00:53:57,164 he is a very attractive young man. 668 00:53:57,303 --> 00:53:58,994 Have you seen him as a guy? 669 00:54:01,652 --> 00:54:03,412 Yes. I think once. 670 00:54:03,550 --> 00:54:05,725 He caught me by surprise that's for sure. 671 00:54:07,934 --> 00:54:09,487 What did he want? 672 00:54:09,625 --> 00:54:11,282 Something to do with the show. 673 00:54:13,733 --> 00:54:15,528 Okay. 674 00:54:15,666 --> 00:54:17,323 I'll call him later 675 00:54:19,325 --> 00:54:21,016 It'’s a good idea. 676 00:54:22,431 --> 00:54:24,122 Anyway 677 00:54:26,159 --> 00:54:27,850 I'm going to head off now. 678 00:55:16,174 --> 00:55:18,038 Morning. 679 00:55:18,176 --> 00:55:19,868 Morning. 680 00:55:23,250 --> 00:55:25,494 Last night was great. 681 00:55:25,632 --> 00:55:26,599 I never 682 00:55:26,737 --> 00:55:28,221 remember you being so 683 00:55:28,359 --> 00:55:29,671 passionate. 684 00:55:29,809 --> 00:55:31,120 Angry even. 685 00:55:31,258 --> 00:55:32,121 Sorry. 686 00:55:32,259 --> 00:55:33,675 Sorry? 687 00:55:33,813 --> 00:55:35,366 For what? 688 00:55:35,504 --> 00:55:37,748 Every girl needs angry sex occasionally. 689 00:55:37,886 --> 00:55:40,371 You were great. 690 00:55:40,509 --> 00:55:42,684 Yeah. Thanks. 691 00:55:42,822 --> 00:55:45,065 You want a repeat of last night? 692 00:55:45,203 --> 00:55:46,895 I have to go. 693 00:55:49,035 --> 00:55:50,726 So typical of you. 694 00:55:57,561 --> 00:55:59,252 Alex, the 695 00:56:03,705 --> 00:56:04,982 I'm sorry. 696 00:56:05,120 --> 00:56:06,811 Is Alex here? 697 00:56:08,503 --> 00:56:10,677 Yeah. You are? 698 00:56:10,815 --> 00:56:13,093 Tell him it's Sam from work. 699 00:56:13,231 --> 00:56:14,923 OK 700 00:56:15,061 --> 00:56:16,752 Yeah, come on in. I'll go and get him. 701 00:56:31,802 --> 00:56:32,699 Hi Alex. 702 00:56:32,837 --> 00:56:34,494 I'd like a word please. 703 00:56:36,013 --> 00:56:38,153 It's about work. 704 00:56:38,291 --> 00:56:40,362 I'm busy now. 705 00:56:40,500 --> 00:56:42,191 It's not the best time really. 706 00:56:43,158 --> 00:56:44,849 Please 707 00:56:47,404 --> 00:56:49,267 Okay. 708 00:56:49,406 --> 00:56:51,097 I'll be back in two minutes. 709 00:56:55,170 --> 00:56:57,275 What are you doing here? 710 00:56:57,414 --> 00:56:59,208 I'm sorry about leaving like that yesterday. 711 00:57:01,901 --> 00:57:03,523 But 712 00:57:03,661 --> 00:57:05,352 we need to talk. 713 00:57:07,769 --> 00:57:09,909 I don't think I can see you right now. 714 00:57:10,047 --> 00:57:12,014 - Please - I'll call you later. 715 00:57:12,152 --> 00:57:13,740 I just 716 00:57:13,878 --> 00:57:15,673 I said I'd call you. 717 00:57:20,575 --> 00:57:23,405 I'll be waiting. Call anytime. 718 00:57:30,377 --> 00:57:32,069 Here you go. 719 00:57:33,829 --> 00:57:34,761 All done? 720 00:57:34,899 --> 00:57:36,556 All done as requested. 721 00:57:40,664 --> 00:57:42,355 I can'’t. Not now. 722 00:57:45,289 --> 00:57:47,049 Anything else I can do? 723 00:57:47,187 --> 00:57:48,879 No thanks. 724 00:57:57,543 --> 00:57:59,752 Alex. 725 00:57:59,890 --> 00:58:01,581 Come in 726 00:58:04,239 --> 00:58:06,448 Alex. 727 00:58:06,586 --> 00:58:07,829 Should I call you Alex? 728 00:58:07,967 --> 00:58:10,107 Of course you should. I'm Alex. 729 00:58:10,245 --> 00:58:11,798 Let's get back to real world from now on. 730 00:58:11,936 --> 00:58:13,697 Ok, Ok 731 00:58:13,835 --> 00:58:15,388 Alex. 732 00:58:15,526 --> 00:58:18,011 I just want to say that I'm here for you and we'll sort it all out. 733 00:58:18,149 --> 00:58:20,393 I promise. 734 00:58:20,531 --> 00:58:23,189 This is just so fucked up. 735 00:58:23,327 --> 00:58:25,743 Things happen for a reason sometimes 736 00:58:25,881 --> 00:58:27,055 Reason? 737 00:58:27,193 --> 00:58:28,884 What reason? 738 00:58:29,885 --> 00:58:32,578 Look, I was still hoping this wasn'’t true but it is. 739 00:58:39,274 --> 00:58:42,035 I'm your son. Your real son 740 00:58:42,173 --> 00:58:46,143 Forget about drag daughter and drag family. What about the son? 741 00:58:46,281 --> 00:58:47,972 Blood relative?! 742 00:58:56,325 --> 00:58:58,017 I know you're my son. 743 00:58:59,570 --> 00:59:01,261 I found the photograph of your mother. 744 00:59:04,817 --> 00:59:06,508 I have the same photograph. 745 00:59:07,751 --> 00:59:09,442 I carry it everywhere. 746 00:59:10,719 --> 00:59:12,410 That way it'’s like she is always with me 747 00:59:15,413 --> 00:59:18,037 I'’ve had this photograph of her since 748 00:59:18,175 --> 00:59:19,521 I was a little boy. 749 00:59:19,659 --> 00:59:21,834 Since I can remember myself. 750 00:59:21,972 --> 00:59:24,146 When I found the photo 751 00:59:24,284 --> 00:59:25,838 I thought I was going mad 752 00:59:25,976 --> 00:59:27,667 I couldn't believe it. 753 00:59:28,875 --> 00:59:31,844 Even took me a few minutes to realise that maybe you are my son 754 00:59:33,155 --> 00:59:34,812 And you are my son. 755 00:59:36,987 --> 00:59:38,644 This is crazy. 756 00:59:42,440 --> 00:59:44,097 I shouldn'’t have left like that. 757 00:59:45,512 --> 00:59:47,135 I panicked. 758 00:59:47,273 --> 00:59:48,964 Please forgive me. 759 00:59:50,000 --> 00:59:51,657 I came to your flat. 760 00:59:51,795 --> 00:59:53,935 I needed to talk but you weren't there. 761 00:59:56,938 --> 00:59:57,904 I'm sorry 762 00:59:58,042 --> 01:00:00,389 I'm so sorry. 763 01:00:00,527 --> 01:00:02,806 But I'’m here now 764 01:00:02,944 --> 01:00:04,601 and I'm not going anywhere. 765 01:00:06,292 --> 01:00:08,535 That night. Fuck. 766 01:00:08,674 --> 01:00:10,607 You were just so nice 767 01:00:10,745 --> 01:00:11,953 so close, 768 01:00:12,091 --> 01:00:13,886 so familiar in some way 769 01:00:14,852 --> 01:00:16,371 I know. 770 01:00:16,509 --> 01:00:18,200 I felt it too. 771 01:00:19,443 --> 01:00:21,307 And when I saw your face, 772 01:00:21,445 --> 01:00:22,860 my father's face, 773 01:00:22,998 --> 01:00:26,174 I so desperately needed to be loved. 774 01:00:27,554 --> 01:00:29,971 I understand 775 01:00:30,109 --> 01:00:31,766 And I'm here to love you if you let me. 776 01:00:48,506 --> 01:00:50,198 You're so beautiful. 777 01:01:20,090 --> 01:01:21,747 I need to know what happened. 778 01:01:38,522 --> 01:01:40,835 When your mother told me she was pregnant with you 779 01:01:42,319 --> 01:01:44,010 I was so happy 780 01:01:45,046 --> 01:01:46,703 It was the happiest day of my life. 781 01:01:48,705 --> 01:01:50,396 Believe me we both wanted you. 782 01:01:52,570 --> 01:01:54,227 I had never seen your mother happier. 783 01:01:58,093 --> 01:01:59,750 And then from heaven to hell in one day. 784 01:02:01,821 --> 01:02:03,512 I was away 785 01:02:04,479 --> 01:02:06,136 and we didn't expect you so soon. 786 01:02:08,069 --> 01:02:10,312 You were ten days early. 787 01:02:10,450 --> 01:02:12,107 By the time I got to the hospital 788 01:02:14,731 --> 01:02:16,422 It was too late 789 01:02:18,389 --> 01:02:20,046 Your mother died while giving birth to you. 790 01:02:24,223 --> 01:02:25,880 After they told me that she died, 791 01:02:27,329 --> 01:02:28,986 they gave you to me. 792 01:02:31,506 --> 01:02:33,197 I put you in my arms. 793 01:02:36,373 --> 01:02:38,030 You were so small and red 794 01:02:39,307 --> 01:02:40,757 I looked at you and 795 01:02:40,895 --> 01:02:42,413 I just cried 796 01:02:42,551 --> 01:02:44,105 I was shocked 797 01:02:44,243 --> 01:02:45,900 I didn'’t know what to do. 798 01:02:46,935 --> 01:02:48,626 I couldn'’t bear to have you around me. 799 01:02:51,422 --> 01:02:53,079 You reminded me of her. 800 01:02:54,218 --> 01:02:55,875 You were part of her. 801 01:03:02,848 --> 01:03:04,539 I blamed you for her death. 802 01:03:05,574 --> 01:03:07,266 I did 803 01:03:09,889 --> 01:03:11,684 It took me five years of therapy to work that one out 804 01:03:15,032 --> 01:03:16,896 Three months later 805 01:03:17,034 --> 01:03:19,209 I knew I'’ve made a terrible mistake 806 01:03:19,347 --> 01:03:21,004 but I couldn'’t get you back. 807 01:03:27,044 --> 01:03:28,735 I started doing drag because of your mother. 808 01:03:30,737 --> 01:03:32,084 Julia. 809 01:03:32,222 --> 01:03:34,258 She was the most amazing person I had ever met. 810 01:03:36,364 --> 01:03:38,607 The first time I put on one of her dresses 811 01:03:41,818 --> 01:03:43,509 it was like I had air again. 812 01:03:47,168 --> 01:03:48,825 I felt alive again 813 01:03:53,553 --> 01:03:55,624 The first drag show I did 814 01:03:55,762 --> 01:03:57,454 was called Julia 815 01:03:58,558 --> 01:04:00,733 and I lip-synced to all of her favourite songs. 816 01:04:04,392 --> 01:04:06,049 You see, it'’s all about your mother. 817 01:04:27,242 --> 01:04:29,279 When did you find out? 818 01:04:29,417 --> 01:04:31,798 A few days ago 819 01:04:31,937 --> 01:04:33,593 That explains the vodka. 820 01:04:33,731 --> 01:04:35,147 Indeed 821 01:04:35,285 --> 01:04:36,942 Did he tell you himself? 822 01:04:37,908 --> 01:04:39,082 Not exactly. 823 01:04:39,220 --> 01:04:40,911 Pet, are you testing my fucking patience? 824 01:04:44,604 --> 01:04:46,296 I found the photograph in his flat. 825 01:04:47,504 --> 01:04:49,161 Julia's photograph. 826 01:04:50,127 --> 01:04:51,818 The same photograph I have got in my wallet. 827 01:04:56,375 --> 01:04:58,032 Except it wasn't my photograph. 828 01:04:59,378 --> 01:05:01,069 It was his 829 01:05:04,901 --> 01:05:06,903 I left it with him in the orphanage all these years ago. 830 01:05:09,595 --> 01:05:11,252 And he kept it all these years. 831 01:05:14,186 --> 01:05:15,877 And on the back there was a note. 832 01:05:17,914 --> 01:05:19,605 My mother 833 01:05:24,403 --> 01:05:25,611 This is unbelievable. 834 01:05:25,749 --> 01:05:27,406 This is just unbelievable. Are you sure? 835 01:05:28,786 --> 01:05:29,891 Of course I'm sure. 836 01:05:30,029 --> 01:05:32,411 You know the drag queen with no drag experience 837 01:05:32,549 --> 01:05:34,240 and him wanting to see me as a man. 838 01:05:34,378 --> 01:05:36,449 What'’s the fuck was I thinking? 839 01:05:36,587 --> 01:05:38,969 He is my son Toni 840 01:05:39,107 --> 01:05:40,798 He's my son. 841 01:05:42,007 --> 01:05:44,837 He even did the DNA test to be sure so no doubts now. 842 01:05:44,975 --> 01:05:46,287 I have got to see him. 843 01:05:46,425 --> 01:05:48,116 You will. 844 01:05:52,672 --> 01:05:54,364 There is one more thing.. 845 01:06:05,237 --> 01:06:06,928 We had sex. 846 01:06:11,070 --> 01:06:12,761 Twice. 847 01:06:14,039 --> 01:06:15,730 The first time I didn't know. 848 01:06:18,595 --> 01:06:20,252 But the second time I knew 849 01:06:27,638 --> 01:06:29,882 And I loved it. 850 01:06:30,020 --> 01:06:32,160 I wanted it and I needed it. 851 01:06:32,298 --> 01:06:34,542 It was like being with Julia after all these years. 852 01:06:36,130 --> 01:06:37,924 He is a part of her. 853 01:06:38,063 --> 01:06:40,099 Of us. 854 01:06:40,237 --> 01:06:41,928 Oh pet. 855 01:06:43,171 --> 01:06:45,277 And if he wanted to do it again, 856 01:06:45,415 --> 01:06:47,106 I would 857 01:06:56,357 --> 01:06:58,014 Am I a pervert? 858 01:07:22,038 --> 01:07:23,729 Julia. 859 01:08:12,640 --> 01:08:14,331 Oh Alex 860 01:08:15,298 --> 01:08:16,989 I'm so glad they kept your name. 861 01:08:18,439 --> 01:08:20,751 Your mother always wanted you to be called Alex 862 01:08:21,821 --> 01:08:22,926 Like her father 863 01:08:23,064 --> 01:08:24,307 and like his father before him. 864 01:08:24,445 --> 01:08:25,239 Wait 865 01:08:25,377 --> 01:08:26,688 She will explain 866 01:08:26,826 --> 01:08:28,483 I met your mother at the hospital 867 01:08:29,864 --> 01:08:31,590 She was pregnant with you 868 01:08:31,728 --> 01:08:33,419 and I was pregnant with Julia 869 01:08:34,386 --> 01:08:36,974 I had flown from Ireland to have an abortion that morning you see 870 01:08:39,425 --> 01:08:41,117 I was tired 871 01:08:42,463 --> 01:08:45,362 Gosh I will never forget the minute I met your mother. 872 01:08:45,500 --> 01:08:46,950 I was wearing my fur jacket 873 01:08:47,088 --> 01:08:49,711 and she made a joke about me looking so posh in it. 874 01:08:49,849 --> 01:08:51,541 She was so much fun 875 01:08:55,269 --> 01:08:56,960 Oh pet 876 01:08:58,444 --> 01:09:00,757 Meeting your mother changed my life forever. 877 01:09:02,207 --> 01:09:04,140 She was so kind and so nice 878 01:09:04,278 --> 01:09:06,383 we immediately became friends, more like sisters. 879 01:09:07,971 --> 01:09:09,869 We only knew each other for seven months 880 01:09:11,319 --> 01:09:16,359 but the impact she had on my life was and still is enormous. 881 01:09:18,292 --> 01:09:19,983 She was my soul mate 882 01:09:21,053 --> 01:09:23,262 And when they told me she died 883 01:09:23,400 --> 01:09:25,333 I went into labour sooner than expected 884 01:09:26,714 --> 01:09:28,371 I was so traumatised 885 01:09:32,202 --> 01:09:33,893 I couldn't push Julia out of me. 886 01:09:35,274 --> 01:09:36,965 I was aching 887 01:09:40,555 --> 01:09:42,212 All our lives changed for ever 888 01:09:43,489 --> 01:09:45,181 in that moment. 889 01:09:59,402 --> 01:10:01,369 I wanted to keep you. 890 01:10:01,507 --> 01:10:03,613 I tried to keep you but they wouldn't let me. 891 01:10:03,751 --> 01:10:06,098 I wasn't your relative or anything. 892 01:10:06,236 --> 01:10:07,927 Oh Alex 893 01:10:09,446 --> 01:10:10,689 please forgive me. 894 01:10:10,827 --> 01:10:12,484 I didn'’t know how to cope with Julia 895 01:10:13,450 --> 01:10:15,349 so I eventually gave up hope of having you. 896 01:10:19,076 --> 01:10:19,974 And your father, 897 01:10:20,112 --> 01:10:22,425 Gloria 898 01:10:22,563 --> 01:10:24,220 Sam was in a state of shock. 899 01:10:24,358 --> 01:10:26,049 He needed me too. 900 01:10:28,741 --> 01:10:30,950 Thinking about it 901 01:10:31,088 --> 01:10:32,780 still breaks my heart. 902 01:10:34,437 --> 01:10:36,232 Your mother made me keep my Julieta 903 01:10:38,234 --> 01:10:39,925 And yet I never kept you, 904 01:10:41,444 --> 01:10:43,135 her son. 905 01:11:04,950 --> 01:11:07,401 It's been just over a week now. 906 01:11:07,539 --> 01:11:09,403 I tried calling but he doesn'’t answer his phone. 907 01:11:11,543 --> 01:11:14,339 He must be confused. He just needs some time. 908 01:11:14,477 --> 01:11:15,719 Join the club. 909 01:11:15,857 --> 01:11:17,376 I'’m just scared he'’ll reject me after all the drama. 910 01:11:18,550 --> 01:11:20,241 He has been through so much in his life. 911 01:11:21,967 --> 01:11:23,279 Rejection 912 01:11:23,417 --> 01:11:25,557 Scares you for life. 913 01:11:25,695 --> 01:11:27,455 First parents reject their children 914 01:11:27,593 --> 01:11:29,526 and then children reject us, their parents. 915 01:11:34,151 --> 01:11:35,601 Sorry babe. 916 01:11:35,739 --> 01:11:36,499 I wasn'’t thinking. 917 01:11:36,637 --> 01:11:37,948 I'm sorry. 918 01:11:38,086 --> 01:11:40,088 That's okay. 919 01:11:40,226 --> 01:11:41,918 I miss her too you know. 920 01:11:53,826 --> 01:11:55,207 Sorry Kate. 921 01:11:55,345 --> 01:11:57,036 I really am. 922 01:11:58,072 --> 01:11:59,763 I hope we can stay friends. 923 01:12:01,109 --> 01:12:02,801 Okay. Thanks. 924 01:12:03,802 --> 01:12:05,493 Speak later. 925 01:12:24,409 --> 01:12:26,031 We're worried about you. 926 01:12:26,169 --> 01:12:27,826 Your father is worried about you. 927 01:12:29,897 --> 01:12:31,174 Just tell him that I'm okay. 928 01:12:31,312 --> 01:12:33,452 He tried to call you but you aren't picking up your phone. 929 01:12:34,833 --> 01:12:36,490 I didn't feel like talking. 930 01:12:37,698 --> 01:12:39,355 I just didn't know what to say. 931 01:12:54,266 --> 01:12:55,957 This is so nice 932 01:12:59,340 --> 01:13:01,031 I know. 933 01:13:09,695 --> 01:13:10,800 By the way 934 01:13:10,938 --> 01:13:12,905 you did see me before. 935 01:13:13,043 --> 01:13:15,183 I mean as Alex. 936 01:13:15,321 --> 01:13:17,185 I was just so nervous, 937 01:13:17,323 --> 01:13:18,946 you poured me a drink 938 01:13:19,084 --> 01:13:20,741 you even tried to flirt with me. 939 01:13:24,434 --> 01:13:26,298 Then I was just so overwhelmed 940 01:13:26,436 --> 01:13:28,334 and I left half way through the show. 941 01:13:30,336 --> 01:13:32,338 I'm so glad you came back to us Alex. 942 01:13:34,927 --> 01:13:36,584 I have been thinking about love a lot. 943 01:13:40,657 --> 01:13:42,348 Who are we allowed to love? 944 01:13:45,593 --> 01:13:47,284 Interesting question. 945 01:13:50,529 --> 01:13:52,220 Tell me more. 946 01:13:55,396 --> 01:13:57,087 Not much to tell really. 947 01:13:59,987 --> 01:14:01,678 It'’s like 948 01:14:03,473 --> 01:14:05,441 my mind, my mind has gone blank again. 949 01:14:23,251 --> 01:14:24,943 Keep your eyes closed for now. 950 01:14:30,362 --> 01:14:32,053 What can you see? 951 01:14:47,966 --> 01:14:49,864 Hello mumsy. 952 01:14:50,002 --> 01:14:50,589 I thought it was you 953 01:14:50,727 --> 01:14:52,246 Hello darling. 954 01:14:52,384 --> 01:14:54,041 I have never seen you with dark roots before. 955 01:14:55,042 --> 01:14:55,698 What do you think? 956 01:14:55,836 --> 01:14:57,493 I think I quite like it. 957 01:14:59,218 --> 01:15:00,254 Me too. 958 01:15:00,392 --> 01:15:02,428 Well if you need anything, just give me a shout. 959 01:15:02,567 --> 01:15:03,982 See you later. 960 01:15:04,120 --> 01:15:05,811 Ciao Ciao 961 01:15:07,779 --> 01:15:09,125 Hello Julia darling. 962 01:15:09,263 --> 01:15:10,954 It's auntie Gloria. 963 01:15:12,508 --> 01:15:13,957 Just a quick call 964 01:15:14,095 --> 01:15:15,752 to check you'’re okay. 965 01:15:17,996 --> 01:15:19,825 Please give me a call if you need anything. 966 01:15:22,794 --> 01:15:25,106 I love you. 967 01:15:25,244 --> 01:15:26,936 We love you. 968 01:15:28,247 --> 01:15:29,939 Bye. 969 01:17:45,212 --> 01:17:46,869 I saw her in my dream last night. 970 01:17:47,973 --> 01:17:49,665 She was playing the piano and singing 971 01:17:51,736 --> 01:17:53,634 I can'’t remember what she sang 972 01:17:53,772 --> 01:17:55,463 but she was so happy 973 01:17:56,672 --> 01:17:58,363 And then she looked at me and she said 974 01:17:59,571 --> 01:18:01,262 I am finally with you.