1 00:00:01,101 --> 00:00:09,009 A WAKAMATSU PRODUCTION FILM 2 00:02:59,179 --> 00:03:01,079 Let go of such a delusion. 3 00:03:05,185 --> 00:03:07,119 It's not a delusion. I'm serious. 4 00:03:10,991 --> 00:03:13,983 They just ran away, that's all. 5 00:03:16,096 --> 00:03:17,996 You want to run away too, 6 00:03:18,131 --> 00:03:22,034 With the excuse that you're bored of your situation. 7 00:03:23,236 --> 00:03:28,197 But what will you do once you have run away from yourself, and from me? 8 00:03:34,014 --> 00:03:37,245 I don't believe you when you say you're bored with politics, with having fun, with sex. 9 00:03:38,218 --> 00:03:40,209 It's true that I'm bored with everything. 10 00:03:41,254 --> 00:03:43,245 I don't feel like doing anything any more. 11 00:03:44,257 --> 00:03:48,023 So, in order to not do anything... 12 00:03:49,129 --> 00:03:50,221 You don't love me any more, do you? 13 00:03:53,233 --> 00:03:56,066 If so, you should just say it. 14 00:04:28,201 --> 00:04:29,191 I... 15 00:04:32,105 --> 00:04:33,095 I... 16 00:04:34,141 --> 00:04:36,041 Do I want to die now...? 17 00:04:45,152 --> 00:04:46,119 Ryoko! 18 00:04:47,154 --> 00:04:48,121 Ryoko! 19 00:05:11,178 --> 00:05:20,212 THE WOMAN WHO WANTED TO DIE 20 00:05:20,987 --> 00:05:22,011 YUKIO MISHIMA COMMITS HARA-KIRI 21 00:05:23,990 --> 00:05:25,185 AN ACT OF MADNESS OR AN ACT FROM THE HEART? 22 00:05:38,205 --> 00:05:42,199 If I disembowel myself, will you decapitate me? 23 00:05:45,045 --> 00:05:46,206 Forget about those people. 24 00:05:50,050 --> 00:05:53,247 If you want to die, let's make a suicide pact. 25 00:05:54,321 --> 00:05:56,255 A suicide pact wouldn't mean anything. 26 00:06:02,062 --> 00:06:03,996 I'm going home after all. 27 00:06:19,079 --> 00:06:21,275 WRITTEN AND DIRECTED BY KOJI WAKAMATSU 28 00:06:21,982 --> 00:06:23,074 SCRIPT BY DERU DEGUCHI 29 00:06:23,116 --> 00:06:26,017 CAMERA: HIDEO ITO LIGHTING: HAJIME ISOGAI 30 00:06:36,196 --> 00:06:41,191 STARRING ERIKO SHIMA HIROSHI YAJIMA, TAKESHI SHIMA 31 00:07:48,201 --> 00:07:56,040 I'm... Damn it... I'm... not just... not just a big baby. 32 00:07:57,143 --> 00:07:59,976 I'm serious. I'm serious. 33 00:08:01,047 --> 00:08:03,141 That's right. You are serious. 34 00:08:04,050 --> 00:08:08,078 The more serious you become, the more you become a naive big baby. 35 00:08:08,955 --> 00:08:10,150 It's your own fault. 36 00:08:10,190 --> 00:08:11,180 Isn't it? 37 00:08:11,257 --> 00:08:14,955 I'm no longer as good-natured as I used to be. 38 00:08:15,996 --> 00:08:20,058 I'm getting married because I want to see myself as a mature adult. 39 00:09:54,194 --> 00:09:55,218 You must be tired after today. 40 00:09:56,129 --> 00:09:58,188 Yes... But it's not too bad. 41 00:10:03,203 --> 00:10:06,195 I'm very grateful to you. 42 00:10:23,156 --> 00:10:27,218 This marriage is the start of a new life for me. 43 00:10:28,261 --> 00:10:35,998 I will take you as my wife, love you for ever, as my better half. 44 00:10:36,035 --> 00:10:37,025 Yes. 45 00:10:38,071 --> 00:10:40,062 I love you, from my heart. 46 00:10:40,273 --> 00:10:42,241 I love you too. 47 00:13:30,209 --> 00:13:32,143 Damn it... 48 00:13:41,220 --> 00:13:46,021 As I had imagined... You are lovely. 49 00:13:48,227 --> 00:13:50,025 You are a lovely woman. 50 00:13:51,230 --> 00:13:53,130 My husband... 51 00:13:56,169 --> 00:13:58,035 I'll never let you go. 52 00:13:59,238 --> 00:14:02,071 I'm exhausted... 53 00:14:06,112 --> 00:14:07,170 I want to... 54 00:14:09,115 --> 00:14:10,207 Exhaust you much more. 55 00:14:12,218 --> 00:14:14,186 Please... 56 00:14:14,220 --> 00:14:16,120 I can't take any more. 57 00:14:17,090 --> 00:14:18,080 No. 58 00:14:20,093 --> 00:14:22,084 I'm not letting you off. 59 00:14:24,297 --> 00:14:26,231 You weren't a virgin. 60 00:14:28,101 --> 00:14:29,125 That's right. 61 00:14:30,236 --> 00:14:32,227 I'm a bad woman. 62 00:14:36,042 --> 00:14:37,134 No, you're not. 63 00:14:39,245 --> 00:14:41,213 It doesn't matter any more anyway. 64 00:14:43,249 --> 00:14:44,239 But... 65 00:14:46,252 --> 00:14:48,152 You know a lot about sex. 66 00:14:50,123 --> 00:14:51,113 But... 67 00:14:52,158 --> 00:14:55,128 I love you from my heart. 68 00:14:58,231 --> 00:14:59,221 You... 69 00:15:01,067 --> 00:15:02,057 Are my wife. 70 00:15:05,071 --> 00:15:09,201 I don't know what sort of men have been through you. 71 00:15:12,078 --> 00:15:14,206 Nobody went through me. 72 00:15:16,015 --> 00:15:17,073 Nobody. 73 00:15:17,283 --> 00:15:20,082 Nobody went right through me. 74 00:15:25,124 --> 00:15:26,091 I... 75 00:15:29,095 --> 00:15:30,995 love you much, much more 76 00:15:32,298 --> 00:15:36,235 Than any of those men. 77 00:15:42,008 --> 00:15:42,998 Ryoko. 78 00:16:15,975 --> 00:16:16,965 Damn it! 79 00:16:22,081 --> 00:16:26,040 What a state to be in just because you've been dumped by a women or two. 80 00:16:26,085 --> 00:16:27,109 You're still young, aren't you? 81 00:16:29,188 --> 00:16:31,054 Yes. 82 00:16:31,090 --> 00:16:32,080 I'm young. 83 00:16:34,093 --> 00:16:37,188 I'm still just 20. 84 00:16:38,231 --> 00:16:39,995 So... 85 00:16:40,032 --> 00:16:42,126 Please don't use the phrase "been dumped". 86 00:16:44,103 --> 00:16:47,095 I squandered my chance to die, you know. 87 00:16:48,241 --> 00:16:50,107 You're being over the top! 88 00:16:50,142 --> 00:16:53,112 All this talk of wanting to die or squandering your chance to die. 89 00:16:54,146 --> 00:16:55,204 I'm not over the top! 90 00:16:55,248 --> 00:16:56,238 It's the truth! 91 00:17:01,087 --> 00:17:04,079 I... I squandered my chance to die. 92 00:17:05,157 --> 00:17:07,057 I was with a woman... 93 00:17:08,194 --> 00:17:09,958 I fell for her... 94 00:17:10,196 --> 00:17:12,995 And... I squandered my chance to die. 95 00:17:26,078 --> 00:17:27,068 What's funny?! 96 00:17:27,980 --> 00:17:33,009 You sound like one of the 47 Ronin who got left behind. 97 00:17:33,052 --> 00:17:36,044 You're just like that samurai, what was his name? 98 00:17:39,025 --> 00:17:39,992 That's right. 99 00:17:40,226 --> 00:17:42,024 I am... 100 00:17:42,061 --> 00:17:43,051 I am a samurai! 101 00:17:44,130 --> 00:17:49,000 I see, you're copying that great writer who committed hara-kiri? 102 00:17:49,035 --> 00:17:50,230 I don't have time for dramatics. 103 00:17:51,137 --> 00:17:55,165 I just came because the maid was worried that you might kill yourself. 104 00:17:55,207 --> 00:17:56,197 Wait! 105 00:18:06,953 --> 00:18:11,049 Laughing at other people's sincere feelings, that is the problem with us Japanese. 106 00:18:15,061 --> 00:18:16,187 You've taken the joke too far. 107 00:18:18,164 --> 00:18:19,188 It's not a joke. 108 00:18:21,067 --> 00:18:22,000 Please, 109 00:18:22,201 --> 00:18:23,965 Die with me. 110 00:18:25,071 --> 00:18:26,095 Let go! 111 00:19:13,953 --> 00:19:16,047 I understand now that you are serious. 112 00:19:17,189 --> 00:19:19,988 I'm sorry I lost it. 113 00:19:22,194 --> 00:19:26,097 But if you die for a woman now... 114 00:19:27,099 --> 00:19:29,067 You will be dying as a copycat. 115 00:19:30,169 --> 00:19:31,193 If you don't mind that, 116 00:19:32,104 --> 00:19:34,095 Then go and die with that woman. 117 00:19:34,173 --> 00:19:35,197 Make a suicide pact! 118 00:19:39,979 --> 00:19:41,105 Or can you, from your heart, 119 00:19:42,114 --> 00:19:44,014 Die with me? 120 00:19:52,024 --> 00:19:53,287 OK, hand that over. 121 00:19:58,097 --> 00:19:59,189 This scar... 122 00:20:01,133 --> 00:20:03,033 Is from a failed attempt to die. 123 00:20:04,203 --> 00:20:06,103 The suicide pact went wrong. 124 00:20:07,206 --> 00:20:09,072 I too... 125 00:20:09,108 --> 00:20:10,098 Want to die. 126 00:21:44,236 --> 00:21:45,226 Morning. 127 00:21:46,238 --> 00:21:48,036 Good morning. 128 00:21:48,274 --> 00:21:50,265 Let's go for a walk around here today. 129 00:21:51,043 --> 00:21:52,169 Yes. 130 00:21:52,244 --> 00:21:55,214 There are a lot of things I would like to tell you. 131 00:21:55,247 --> 00:21:57,079 Take me with you. 132 00:22:23,042 --> 00:22:26,137 I was 17, he was 20. 133 00:22:27,213 --> 00:22:31,241 At first I thought he must have had his heart broken or something, and I felt sorry for him. 134 00:22:31,317 --> 00:22:34,252 Because he would just stay in his room and cry, day after day. 135 00:22:36,222 --> 00:22:39,055 I was young, so I fell fast for a man like that. 136 00:22:40,226 --> 00:22:43,093 Everyone tried to stop me but I wouldn't listen, 137 00:22:43,128 --> 00:22:44,254 And I got close to him. 138 00:22:46,232 --> 00:22:48,200 I dreamed of a love story 139 00:22:48,234 --> 00:22:51,329 Between the innkeeper's daughter and a heartbroken student. 140 00:22:52,037 --> 00:22:53,163 I was completely infatuated. 141 00:22:56,141 --> 00:22:57,233 But... 142 00:22:57,276 --> 00:23:02,180 He intended to kill himself, to follow his lover who had died on Mount Tanigawa. 143 00:23:05,985 --> 00:23:07,009 I... 144 00:23:09,021 --> 00:23:10,182 Actually thought that was OK. 145 00:23:12,124 --> 00:23:15,094 I trusted this man with my young girl's heart that knew nothing, 146 00:23:15,127 --> 00:23:17,994 And my body that knew nothing. 147 00:23:19,198 --> 00:23:20,996 I was so happy. 148 00:23:28,040 --> 00:23:29,201 You were happy, weren't you? 149 00:23:33,012 --> 00:23:33,308 Yes. 150 00:23:35,114 --> 00:23:37,014 I was so happy, 151 00:23:37,249 --> 00:23:42,119 I said to the man, who had started to overcome his grief, that we should die now. 152 00:23:43,255 --> 00:23:45,121 It was your idea? 153 00:23:47,159 --> 00:23:49,127 Then he... 154 00:23:49,161 --> 00:23:53,223 Said that if we were to die now, he would be able to follow his lover, 155 00:23:54,266 --> 00:23:57,167 As well as dying happy, because he had met me. 156 00:23:58,270 --> 00:23:59,999 He said that while making love to me. 157 00:24:08,113 --> 00:24:10,104 We decided to throw ourselves off here. 158 00:24:45,017 --> 00:24:48,009 Now we can't be separated, OK? 159 00:25:23,088 --> 00:25:24,180 No, I can't do it. 160 00:25:26,191 --> 00:25:27,181 Let's not. 161 00:25:30,229 --> 00:25:31,993 We must. 162 00:25:32,998 --> 00:25:34,090 We must die. 163 00:25:45,244 --> 00:25:49,112 I'll follow straight after you, OK? 164 00:26:14,206 --> 00:26:20,168 He... He slashed me, but couldn't quite do it to himself. 165 00:26:21,113 --> 00:26:22,274 He got scared and ran away. 166 00:26:29,121 --> 00:26:33,080 When... I tried to stop him... 167 00:26:35,994 --> 00:26:37,223 W... Wait! 168 00:26:38,997 --> 00:26:40,021 Wait! 169 00:26:44,002 --> 00:26:44,992 I can't... 170 00:26:45,204 --> 00:26:47,104 I can't after all... 171 00:26:50,109 --> 00:26:51,201 Wait! 172 00:26:53,212 --> 00:26:59,015 Die... with... me... 173 00:27:00,185 --> 00:27:01,949 Please... 174 00:27:10,195 --> 00:27:12,061 Wait! 175 00:27:14,066 --> 00:27:15,090 Wait! 176 00:27:20,272 --> 00:27:22,172 Unbelievable... 177 00:27:27,112 --> 00:27:28,204 He... 178 00:27:30,015 --> 00:27:31,210 He... ran away! 179 00:28:25,070 --> 00:28:35,070 NAKAYA INN 180 00:28:52,998 --> 00:28:54,193 It doesn't matter. 181 00:28:56,301 --> 00:28:58,201 He's not worth it. 182 00:29:01,039 --> 00:29:02,165 Your woman ran away too, didn't she? 183 00:29:18,957 --> 00:29:21,085 It's my fault too, for failing to die. 184 00:29:24,062 --> 00:29:27,054 Don't think about it any more. 185 00:29:28,100 --> 00:29:31,934 - But... - What? You were dumped, remember? 186 00:29:31,970 --> 00:29:34,200 We haven't come to a conclusion yet. 187 00:29:35,974 --> 00:29:37,203 And we haven't experienced death. 188 00:29:38,210 --> 00:29:40,201 You're as good as dead. 189 00:29:42,080 --> 00:29:43,104 Landlady... 190 00:29:44,283 --> 00:29:46,081 I didn't know... 191 00:29:47,085 --> 00:29:49,213 He was going around as if nothing had happened. 192 00:29:50,222 --> 00:29:52,213 And he was with such a pretty girl. 193 00:29:53,225 --> 00:29:55,125 Don't talk like that! 194 00:29:56,194 --> 00:29:57,992 She... 195 00:29:59,097 --> 00:30:01,088 looked just like me when I was young. 196 00:30:21,119 --> 00:30:22,245 It's fine like this. 197 00:30:24,222 --> 00:30:25,314 "Like this"? 198 00:30:27,059 --> 00:30:30,051 This is the way to live on, for one who failed to die. 199 00:30:31,029 --> 00:30:32,224 "The way to live on"? 200 00:31:04,996 --> 00:31:05,986 No... 201 00:31:07,132 --> 00:31:08,998 I can't, after all. 202 00:31:10,001 --> 00:31:10,991 I can't... 203 00:31:53,145 --> 00:31:54,135 I'll get it. 204 00:32:08,026 --> 00:32:09,118 Can I help you? 205 00:32:12,197 --> 00:32:14,188 We're in the middle of dinner. 206 00:32:14,232 --> 00:32:17,031 Please come back later. 207 00:32:18,003 --> 00:32:19,129 I want you to come with me. 208 00:32:20,105 --> 00:32:22,005 As I said, we can talk after dinner. 209 00:32:24,109 --> 00:32:25,099 You fool! 210 00:32:36,254 --> 00:32:37,221 You... 211 00:32:38,156 --> 00:32:40,989 This has nothing to do with you, stay out of it. 212 00:32:41,026 --> 00:32:43,017 I've come to settle things with Ryoko. 213 00:32:43,061 --> 00:32:44,051 Ryoko? 214 00:32:46,264 --> 00:32:48,198 She is my wife. 215 00:32:48,233 --> 00:32:51,100 So if you have something to say, say it to me. 216 00:32:51,136 --> 00:32:53,104 I don't want a third party to get involved. 217 00:32:53,138 --> 00:32:55,038 I want to talk to her alone. 218 00:32:55,240 --> 00:32:57,174 She says she doesn't want to. 219 00:33:01,213 --> 00:33:03,079 Is that true? 220 00:33:06,084 --> 00:33:07,176 Are you a friend of hers? 221 00:33:08,086 --> 00:33:09,076 What's your name? 222 00:33:10,188 --> 00:33:11,212 I'm Ichiro Yoko. 223 00:33:11,289 --> 00:33:12,984 I know that! 224 00:33:13,992 --> 00:33:17,087 I also know you botched your suicide pact with the landlady at Nakaya Inn. 225 00:33:20,098 --> 00:33:21,190 Ryoko, 226 00:33:21,233 --> 00:33:24,225 Now I more or less understand why 227 00:33:24,302 --> 00:33:26,236 You got together with a man like this. 228 00:33:27,239 --> 00:33:30,106 So please, listen to what I have to say. 229 00:33:30,141 --> 00:33:33,167 I've been thinking about my own way of dying. 230 00:33:33,211 --> 00:33:34,201 That's enough! 231 00:33:34,246 --> 00:33:37,147 I've already told you, this has nothing to do with you! 232 00:33:37,215 --> 00:33:38,148 Stay away from me! 233 00:33:39,050 --> 00:33:41,018 Please, just leave me alone. 234 00:33:47,158 --> 00:33:48,250 He's unbelievable! 235 00:34:00,105 --> 00:34:02,164 There's nothing to worry about any more. 236 00:34:02,207 --> 00:34:05,177 If he comes back again, I'll chase him out. 237 00:34:06,211 --> 00:34:08,043 Hold me! 238 00:34:08,079 --> 00:34:09,979 Please, hold me! 239 00:38:22,167 --> 00:38:23,965 Your own actions 240 00:38:25,203 --> 00:38:27,194 Can return you to your raw self... 241 00:38:31,176 --> 00:38:33,110 Brave men carrying swords 242 00:38:34,179 --> 00:38:36,170 Rattling in their sheaths 243 00:38:37,982 --> 00:38:40,076 Have endured for many years 244 00:38:40,118 --> 00:38:42,177 Until today's first frost 245 00:38:44,088 --> 00:38:45,112 Damn it... 246 00:38:45,190 --> 00:38:46,988 What am I to do? 247 00:38:50,028 --> 00:38:52,019 I have been bearing it for ten years. 248 00:38:54,232 --> 00:38:56,098 But what have I been bearing? 249 00:39:23,161 --> 00:39:24,959 Maybe I should just... 250 00:39:57,095 --> 00:39:58,221 This sword-scar... 251 00:40:01,032 --> 00:40:03,000 This old face... 252 00:40:04,235 --> 00:40:06,101 Because I survived... 253 00:40:08,039 --> 00:40:10,030 I have ended up meeting him again. 254 00:40:13,011 --> 00:40:14,001 Landlady! 255 00:40:16,047 --> 00:40:17,139 You have a visitor. 256 00:40:20,218 --> 00:40:21,151 Who is it? 257 00:40:54,185 --> 00:40:56,085 You have become a fine man. 258 00:40:57,288 --> 00:41:01,191 Congratulations on your marriage. 259 00:41:08,132 --> 00:41:09,224 It's been a while. 260 00:41:33,024 --> 00:41:34,116 I didn't expect... 261 00:41:35,126 --> 00:41:38,027 To ever be able to see you again. 262 00:41:39,163 --> 00:41:41,063 Please don't say any more. 263 00:41:42,166 --> 00:41:43,156 It's just that... 264 00:41:44,135 --> 00:41:48,231 I didn't know that you were alive until today. 265 00:41:51,075 --> 00:41:52,167 I do apologize. 266 00:41:53,244 --> 00:41:56,145 It's certainly not as if I survived because I wanted to. 267 00:41:57,148 --> 00:41:58,240 But I couldn't quite die. 268 00:42:07,091 --> 00:42:08,183 Plus... 269 00:42:08,226 --> 00:42:11,287 Back then, you were a young man with a bright future ahead of you. 270 00:42:11,996 --> 00:42:17,162 So I thought it was best if you didn't hear from your partner in a botched suicide pact. 271 00:42:17,201 --> 00:42:20,000 Please, stop your sarcasm. 272 00:42:20,038 --> 00:42:24,236 I wanted to tell you how I have been living since then. 273 00:42:25,209 --> 00:42:28,008 You were investigated by the police after that... 274 00:42:28,046 --> 00:42:31,038 And you must have heard that I had survived. 275 00:42:32,116 --> 00:42:33,311 Why lie, all these years later? 276 00:42:35,119 --> 00:42:36,143 Please forgive me. 277 00:42:37,155 --> 00:42:39,249 It was all because I was weak. 278 00:42:42,160 --> 00:42:43,218 I... 279 00:42:44,228 --> 00:42:46,128 Have been cursing you. 280 00:42:49,233 --> 00:42:53,261 It's been hard for me too. Ever since that day... 281 00:42:55,139 --> 00:42:57,039 I've been so troubled, I've hardly been alive. 282 00:43:02,180 --> 00:43:03,170 At least 283 00:43:05,116 --> 00:43:07,983 I haven't pretended to live as if I had already died. 284 00:43:10,088 --> 00:43:12,216 The fact that I got married 285 00:43:12,990 --> 00:43:14,287 And the fact that I chose this place for our honeymoon... 286 00:43:16,127 --> 00:43:18,027 It's all because 287 00:43:19,030 --> 00:43:23,092 Subconsciously I have been thinking about what it might have been like 288 00:43:23,234 --> 00:43:29,298 If we hadn't had the suicide pact, if we had stayed together and carried on. 289 00:43:30,241 --> 00:43:32,107 Please... 290 00:43:33,010 --> 00:43:34,239 Don't say any more... 291 00:44:04,008 --> 00:44:05,066 Natsu... 292 00:44:47,251 --> 00:44:48,218 Natsu, 293 00:44:50,054 --> 00:44:51,215 I'm happy that we met again. 294 00:45:25,089 --> 00:45:26,989 It's been... 295 00:45:27,024 --> 00:45:29,083 Ten whole years. 296 00:45:30,027 --> 00:45:31,017 Yes. 297 00:45:32,129 --> 00:45:33,995 Ten years. 298 00:45:36,100 --> 00:45:37,090 It's... 299 00:45:39,103 --> 00:45:41,128 Too late now, isn't it? 300 00:45:45,243 --> 00:45:47,109 Yes, it's too late now. 301 00:45:59,223 --> 00:46:00,918 While the world and its people 302 00:46:00,958 --> 00:46:02,949 Hesitate to fall 303 00:46:03,261 --> 00:46:05,059 A night tempest goes before them saying, 304 00:46:05,096 --> 00:46:07,030 "To fall is the essence of blossom" 305 00:46:07,064 --> 00:46:08,930 Brave men carrying swords 306 00:46:08,966 --> 00:46:11,128 Rattling in their sheaths 307 00:46:11,168 --> 00:46:12,966 Have endured for many years 308 00:46:13,004 --> 00:46:14,165 Until today's first frost 309 00:46:16,073 --> 00:46:18,064 I feel the same every time I think it over. 310 00:46:18,109 --> 00:46:20,976 We are both losers who failed to die. 311 00:46:21,178 --> 00:46:22,168 It's not too late. 312 00:46:26,984 --> 00:46:30,215 If you miss the chance, there won't be another one. It's no use chasing after it. 313 00:46:31,088 --> 00:46:32,214 We can't try again? 314 00:46:35,192 --> 00:46:38,218 I heard the story about my husband and the landlady. 315 00:46:39,230 --> 00:46:41,995 Once spilt, water cannot be returned. 316 00:46:42,300 --> 00:46:48,034 I want to run like water too, and run on and on for ever. 317 00:46:48,239 --> 00:46:50,207 You are the big baby. 318 00:46:50,241 --> 00:46:54,235 Do you think you helped us all get into this state or something? 319 00:46:56,213 --> 00:46:57,305 That's right. 320 00:46:58,015 --> 00:46:59,983 I set everybody on this journey, 321 00:47:00,051 --> 00:47:01,041 Saying, "Be sure to die". 322 00:47:02,186 --> 00:47:04,052 Don't make me laugh! 323 00:47:04,088 --> 00:47:05,988 I stayed with you. 324 00:47:07,058 --> 00:47:12,087 The others just ran away. 325 00:47:24,208 --> 00:47:26,973 The hara-kiri drama is fashionable right now 326 00:47:27,111 --> 00:47:30,945 So your words are meaningless. 327 00:47:30,981 --> 00:47:31,971 It's ridiculous. 328 00:47:32,983 --> 00:47:34,075 Whatever I choose to believe, 329 00:47:34,118 --> 00:47:35,210 That's up to me, isn't it? 330 00:47:36,120 --> 00:47:38,987 You and I both ran away, didn't we? 331 00:47:40,024 --> 00:47:43,119 But neither of us could do anything. 332 00:47:47,131 --> 00:47:48,121 Come. 333 00:47:49,033 --> 00:47:50,194 Why? 334 00:47:50,234 --> 00:47:52,032 Just come with me. 335 00:48:04,081 --> 00:48:05,242 Let's try again. 336 00:48:07,985 --> 00:48:09,180 Could we do it? 337 00:48:10,154 --> 00:48:13,146 In any case, it was worth starting from square one 338 00:48:14,959 --> 00:48:16,188 And coming to see you. 339 00:48:18,996 --> 00:48:20,964 I don't have the confidence to attempt to die again. 340 00:48:20,998 --> 00:48:22,056 Don't be stupid. 341 00:48:22,099 --> 00:48:23,157 We're not going to die. 342 00:48:24,068 --> 00:48:26,002 We're going to try to live again. 343 00:48:27,071 --> 00:48:28,163 I want to die. 344 00:48:29,206 --> 00:48:30,196 No matter what? 345 00:48:32,009 --> 00:48:32,999 Yes. 346 00:49:15,186 --> 00:49:17,086 Even though I was always lost in play, 347 00:49:19,156 --> 00:49:21,181 Even though I didn't do much in this world, 348 00:49:24,061 --> 00:49:25,961 Once my mind is sparked 349 00:49:27,164 --> 00:49:28,188 I want blood, 350 00:49:30,000 --> 00:49:30,990 I feel murderous, 351 00:49:32,269 --> 00:49:34,067 I seek death. 352 00:49:42,179 --> 00:49:44,011 While the world and its people 353 00:49:45,015 --> 00:49:47,074 Hesitate to fall 354 00:49:48,185 --> 00:49:52,213 A night tempest goes before them saying, "To fall is the essence of blossom" 355 00:49:53,991 --> 00:49:55,982 Their madness was real. 356 00:49:57,094 --> 00:49:58,084 Because... 357 00:49:59,129 --> 00:50:02,030 Spitting out their words while their own blood spilled, 358 00:50:03,200 --> 00:50:07,296 They tried to prove something through their own deaths. 359 00:50:15,045 --> 00:50:16,240 When I look at this blade 360 00:50:18,015 --> 00:50:20,006 There's definitely something that's compelling. 361 00:50:21,151 --> 00:50:23,017 I don't know... 362 00:50:24,054 --> 00:50:26,022 I don't know what it is. 363 00:50:29,126 --> 00:50:32,152 I think I could die right now. 364 00:50:37,034 --> 00:50:38,058 Will you die with me? 365 00:50:41,238 --> 00:50:42,228 Yes, I will. 366 00:50:43,274 --> 00:50:46,107 Then why did you marry that man? 367 00:50:46,143 --> 00:50:47,133 Throwing me away? 368 00:50:48,078 --> 00:50:50,046 I don't know why, but... 369 00:50:50,247 --> 00:50:52,238 I was sick of my insipid self 370 00:50:53,250 --> 00:50:55,241 And everything seemed ludicrous. 371 00:50:56,153 --> 00:50:57,245 Say the reason why you're going to die. 372 00:51:01,091 --> 00:51:03,082 I don't have one in particular. 373 00:51:03,127 --> 00:51:05,221 Anyway, we don't need a reason to die, do we? 374 00:51:07,231 --> 00:51:09,029 Damn... 375 00:51:22,212 --> 00:51:23,202 Stop it! 376 00:51:30,054 --> 00:51:33,046 I also don't have any reason whatsoever to die right now! 377 00:51:34,124 --> 00:51:35,216 Please, stop! 378 00:51:35,259 --> 00:51:37,023 What are you playing at? 379 00:54:26,230 --> 00:54:28,221 I am truly sorry, but... 380 00:54:29,199 --> 00:54:31,190 We have decided to give it another try. 381 00:54:32,202 --> 00:54:36,139 It feels good to swim against the flow. 382 00:54:39,109 --> 00:54:42,101 Maybe it's thanks to you two. 383 00:54:42,312 --> 00:54:44,007 Thank you. 384 00:54:46,016 --> 00:54:47,211 You're going to do it, once and for all? 385 00:54:47,251 --> 00:54:48,241 Yes. 386 00:54:49,219 --> 00:54:55,215 I feel like a weight has lifted off me, my troubled feelings are sorted out. 387 00:54:58,128 --> 00:54:59,960 When you say "sorted out", 388 00:54:59,997 --> 00:55:01,158 Do you mean your reason to die? 389 00:55:04,067 --> 00:55:05,262 You're going to try again? 390 00:55:07,971 --> 00:55:09,097 Then... 391 00:55:09,973 --> 00:55:10,963 No. 392 00:55:11,108 --> 00:55:13,133 We wouldn't call it trying again. 393 00:55:13,177 --> 00:55:16,977 Ten years ago, we failed in our double suicide. 394 00:55:17,214 --> 00:55:19,114 We survived 395 00:55:19,183 --> 00:55:20,207 Until today. 396 00:55:21,185 --> 00:55:27,022 For me, to live was to live every single day struggling against death. 397 00:55:27,291 --> 00:55:28,224 That's right. 398 00:55:29,126 --> 00:55:30,992 For the past ten years 399 00:55:32,996 --> 00:55:37,092 The guilt, and the horrible feeling, of having failed to die 400 00:55:37,134 --> 00:55:39,068 Made us living corpses. 401 00:55:39,102 --> 00:55:45,200 We kept telling ourselves that there must be some reason to live 402 00:55:45,242 --> 00:55:47,233 And just continued to bear it. 403 00:55:48,245 --> 00:55:50,111 I married you... 404 00:55:52,149 --> 00:55:54,208 And as I continued to bear those feelings 405 00:55:55,252 --> 00:56:00,190 I tried to somehow get back my true self of flesh and blood. 406 00:56:01,158 --> 00:56:02,250 That's why I came here. 407 00:56:04,061 --> 00:56:06,029 What do you mean by your self of flesh and blood? 408 00:56:06,063 --> 00:56:08,964 That's right, my raw self. 409 00:56:10,100 --> 00:56:14,059 My self that was bearing all those feelings was my self that had died. 410 00:56:14,104 --> 00:56:16,072 However much I lied to myself 411 00:56:16,106 --> 00:56:18,074 That was the one truth I could not evade. 412 00:56:18,108 --> 00:56:19,200 That's why we want to die. 413 00:56:20,177 --> 00:56:21,201 That's right. 414 00:56:22,112 --> 00:56:24,171 It was in the words: "I want to die". 415 00:56:25,082 --> 00:56:28,211 We only want to live as our raw selves. 416 00:56:31,188 --> 00:56:32,212 That's just selfish! 417 00:56:33,123 --> 00:56:38,027 Damn you, you've lost your reasons for wanting to die. 418 00:56:38,095 --> 00:56:41,121 That just means you continue where you left off ten years ago. 419 00:56:42,232 --> 00:56:45,065 It's perverse to commit double suicide now. 420 00:56:45,102 --> 00:56:49,198 What do you intend to prove by dying? 421 00:56:52,009 --> 00:56:54,103 No, it's not for anyone else. 422 00:56:55,012 --> 00:56:56,138 It's not for anything else. 423 00:56:56,213 --> 00:56:59,239 We want to die for ourselves. 424 00:57:08,191 --> 00:57:13,095 My self that is holding you like this is, after all, my self that failed to die. 425 00:57:14,965 --> 00:57:19,163 And this is my self that failed to die. 426 00:57:20,170 --> 00:57:22,138 Why don't you just kill yourselves, then? 427 00:57:22,172 --> 00:57:23,970 I'll assist you. 428 00:57:24,007 --> 00:57:25,065 He's right. 429 00:57:25,108 --> 00:57:28,043 I... I can't die but... 430 00:57:28,078 --> 00:57:30,274 If you two can really do it, 431 00:57:30,981 --> 00:57:32,972 I'll be witness to it, and then I will die too. 432 00:57:37,187 --> 00:57:38,120 No. 433 00:57:39,089 --> 00:57:42,081 I don't have such a wild delusion. 434 00:57:43,093 --> 00:57:46,961 I just want peace in the little time that is left. 435 00:57:46,997 --> 00:57:50,023 The few breaths that I have left to breathe are heading towards my death. 436 00:57:53,203 --> 00:57:55,103 I'll put this through you. 437 00:57:57,107 --> 00:57:58,097 Don't. 438 00:57:59,209 --> 00:58:04,147 You can't live on as a mere assistant to our deaths. 439 00:58:04,982 --> 00:58:06,074 That's not true. 440 00:58:07,084 --> 00:58:10,076 I have killed people like this before, and continued to live! 441 00:58:10,153 --> 00:58:12,952 That's a lie. 442 00:58:12,990 --> 00:58:15,186 I can well understand why you would lie. 443 00:58:16,159 --> 00:58:19,026 The truth is you just want to die, too. 444 00:58:19,062 --> 00:58:22,054 But you can't quite do it, so you talk this nonsense about helping others. 445 00:58:22,099 --> 00:58:23,089 Shut up! 446 00:58:25,969 --> 00:58:28,063 I've given up that sort of pretence. 447 00:58:29,072 --> 00:58:31,939 Fine. Kill yourselves then. 448 00:58:31,975 --> 00:58:33,966 Kill yourselves in front of me. 449 00:58:36,079 --> 00:58:38,070 We came to see you because that is our intention. 450 00:58:39,016 --> 00:58:46,082 We came to see you because we wanted to know how selfish our selfishness was. 451 00:58:52,195 --> 00:58:55,062 We really want you to be witness to our deaths. 452 00:58:55,098 --> 00:59:00,127 We have arranged everything so that there will be no problems for you afterwards. 453 00:59:01,138 --> 00:59:02,936 We are counting on you. 454 00:59:05,942 --> 00:59:07,137 Please do this for us. 455 00:59:18,188 --> 00:59:20,156 THE HORROR OF MISHIMA'S "BEAUTIFUL DESTRUCTION" 456 00:59:20,190 --> 00:59:22,090 HE CUT STRAIGHT ACROSS HIS ABDOMEN 457 00:59:49,119 --> 00:59:50,109 OK. 458 01:00:29,159 --> 01:00:31,025 That was kind of easy. 459 01:00:31,061 --> 01:00:32,051 Yeah. 460 01:00:33,130 --> 01:00:35,121 But I don't think I could kill myself after all. 461 01:00:35,232 --> 01:00:36,222 Right. 462 01:00:44,040 --> 01:00:46,236 They had a reason to die from ten years ago, after all. 463 01:00:47,177 --> 01:00:50,044 It was us who reminded them of that. 464 01:00:51,081 --> 01:00:52,207 NEWS FLASH: YUKIO MISHIMA COMMITS HARA-KIRI 465 01:00:52,249 --> 01:00:54,081 AN ACT OF MADNESS OR AN ACT FROM THE HEART? A 90-MINUTE DRAMA 466 01:00:54,151 --> 01:00:56,245 YUKIO MISHIMA'S "MADNESS" AND AESTHETICS