1 00:00:01,961 --> 00:00:05,961 One day, 2 00:00:06,099 --> 00:00:09,805 in the forest, 3 00:00:09,952 --> 00:00:13,352 I found myself 4 00:00:13,407 --> 00:00:18,641 with a bear. 5 00:00:22,183 --> 00:00:25,064 A song repeats endlessly in my head. 6 00:00:26,424 --> 00:00:30,706 A song about a girl who meets a bear in the forest. 7 00:00:31,946 --> 00:00:34,887 The bear tells her to run away and she does. 8 00:00:36,127 --> 00:00:40,409 But in the process, he drops something, something important. 9 00:00:41,669 --> 00:00:44,650 For the life of me, I can't remember what he dropped. 10 00:00:45,870 --> 00:00:50,892 That's why the song keeps repeating incessantly in my head. 11 00:00:56,383 --> 00:00:59,585 The forest is full of things that arouse my curiosity. 12 00:01:00,565 --> 00:01:04,687 But when I get too absorbed in it, I get disoriented and forget where I am. 13 00:01:05,968 --> 00:01:08,529 Sometimes I even forget that I'm lost to begin with. 14 00:01:09,570 --> 00:01:11,591 That's how it was when I met the bear. 15 00:01:12,771 --> 00:01:16,253 He was lost in the forest, singing an endless song. 16 00:01:22,070 --> 00:01:24,552 This is a story about the forest. 17 00:01:25,833 --> 00:01:31,778 The forest has a way of changing shape, reflecting a different image in each pair of eyes. 18 00:01:33,379 --> 00:01:36,982 But we all live in a forest that only we can see. 19 00:01:38,523 --> 00:01:42,947 A forest for one, never to be shared. 20 00:01:44,716 --> 00:01:49,067 This is the story of how he met the bear in the forest. 21 00:01:49,127 --> 00:01:53,176 The story of a song we have all heard before. 22 00:03:15,447 --> 00:03:18,048 My first rape happened as a chance coincidence. 23 00:03:20,471 --> 00:03:29,614 I had just started university and all the serious studying I had done for the entrance exams left me in shock and suffering from insomnia. 24 00:03:31,135 --> 00:03:33,276 A disturbing numbness came over me. 25 00:03:35,717 --> 00:03:42,559 After much thought, I consulted a psychiatrist who prescribed me tranquilizers and medications to help me sleep. 26 00:03:43,480 --> 00:03:49,262 The Halcyon drug would knock me out within 15 minutes and I would be fast asleep for at least a good three hours. 27 00:03:55,967 --> 00:03:59,769 The drug worked so well that I became curious about its effect. 28 00:04:01,049 --> 00:04:04,171 I met a girl at a party and I offered her a ride home. 29 00:04:06,191 --> 00:04:08,733 I mixed the drug in a tea can and gave it to him. 30 00:04:10,273 --> 00:04:12,554 Shortly after getting into my car, she fell asleep. 31 00:04:14,095 --> 00:04:18,457 I stopped the car, but she remained unconscious. 32 00:04:21,018 --> 00:04:22,359 I put my hand on her skirt. 33 00:04:24,387 --> 00:04:27,209 He pulled down her panties and raped her. 34 00:04:29,271 --> 00:04:32,754 For a moment I felt freed from that numbness. 35 00:04:34,135 --> 00:04:38,959 I felt like I was about to remember something very important that I had forgotten for so long. 36 00:04:40,160 --> 00:04:42,242 At that moment, the song started playing in my head. 37 00:04:43,102 --> 00:04:46,265 The song about a girl who meets a bear in the forest. 38 00:04:48,927 --> 00:04:51,289 The girl invited me in, but I declined. 39 00:04:52,210 --> 00:04:53,691 I already got what I needed from her. 40 00:05:00,644 --> 00:05:03,468 A decent girl would never go with someone she doesn't know well. 41 00:05:05,311 --> 00:05:14,864 She would make up an excuse like, I'm waiting for my friend or I have to go home, feed my bird and escape as quickly as possible. 42 00:05:19,021 --> 00:05:21,542 A decent girl would never walk alone down a dark street. 43 00:05:22,903 --> 00:05:27,966 Si fuera absolutamente necesario, hablaría por su teléfono celular para disuadir a cualquier atacante potencial. 44 00:05:29,868 --> 00:05:31,929 You could even pretend to be talking to someone. 45 00:05:33,150 --> 00:05:38,013 The reasoning behind this is that someone is on the other end of the line and would hear the commotion. 46 00:05:39,094 --> 00:05:43,237 But realistically, even if they did find out, they are too far away to help. 47 00:05:44,537 --> 00:05:49,180 If you take the phone away from them and hang up, they will assume it's just a bad connection. 48 00:05:53,923 --> 00:06:04,930 In other words, in the city, an individual's crisis quickly becomes buried under the enormous mass of information and material possessions, 49 00:06:04,950 --> 00:06:09,573 like products lined up in a rental store or convenience store. 50 00:06:15,982 --> 00:06:21,124 I have finished university and I no longer suffer from insomnia. 51 00:06:22,765 --> 00:06:24,085 But the numbness persists. 52 00:06:25,426 --> 00:06:27,107 I am insensitive to the feelings of others. 53 00:06:28,667 --> 00:06:34,770 I feel surrounded by people who, unlike me, do not have deep thoughts or emotions. 54 00:06:36,271 --> 00:06:42,033 For me they are like trees in a forest and their voices are the rustling of the leaves. 55 00:06:43,997 --> 00:06:52,302 I feel alone and scared, abandoned in this forest, while the song grows louder and louder in my head, 56 00:06:53,483 --> 00:06:56,204 until I can't hear anything at all. 57 00:06:57,285 --> 00:07:03,829 That's when I feel the need to violate, to recover for a moment some form of stability in my heart. 58 00:07:06,731 --> 00:07:08,492 Now I rape quite regularly. 59 00:07:10,244 --> 00:07:13,025 Every waking hour, I think about rape. 60 00:07:15,725 --> 00:07:16,925 Rape has many dangers. 61 00:07:17,966 --> 00:07:22,127 You could be injured during the attack or even caught by the police. 62 00:07:25,267 --> 00:07:28,168 The eye and the penis are the weakest points of the man. 63 00:07:29,248 --> 00:07:33,709 However, the act of rape requires that she be exposed and defenseless. 64 00:07:35,929 --> 00:07:37,710 I must be very careful. 65 00:07:47,099 --> 00:07:52,281 Rape is a crime subject to prosecution only if the victim takes legal action. 66 00:07:54,121 --> 00:08:01,283 According to statistics compiled by the Metropolitan Police Department, the number of rapes that led to lawsuits last year is 1,500. 67 00:08:01,383 --> 00:08:04,724 Of these, 1,410 led to the arrest of 1,160 suspects. 68 00:08:04,784 --> 00:08:07,305 This puts the arrest rate at 94%. 69 00:08:15,429 --> 00:08:21,172 If these statistics alone are taken into account, the rape success rate is less than 1 in 10. 70 00:08:23,974 --> 00:08:32,699 However, if the number of rapes that go unreported each year is included, the total increases more than 50 times. 71 00:08:36,141 --> 00:08:40,364 In other words, the actual arrest rate is less than 1 in 50. 72 00:08:42,335 --> 00:08:52,600 In my experience, if you are very careful and act bravely, the chance of getting caught for rape is as close to zero as possible. 73 00:08:58,243 --> 00:09:00,945 My life is pretty grounded when I think about rape. 74 00:09:02,165 --> 00:09:07,108 Thanks to the rape I was able to graduate from school and even find a job. 75 00:09:09,004 --> 00:09:12,527 It may seem strange to you, but I even have a girlfriend. 76 00:09:13,608 --> 00:09:17,071 We go out once a week and have sex once every two weeks. 77 00:09:18,252 --> 00:09:21,335 But I can't get rid of the numbness I feel toward other people. 78 00:09:22,496 --> 00:09:26,660 To make matters worse, it has spread to include even me. 79 00:09:28,902 --> 00:09:31,384 I no longer have any sensations in my daily life. 80 00:09:32,730 --> 00:09:37,977 When I eat, I can taste the food, but it doesn't fill me up. 81 00:09:38,037 --> 00:09:43,244 When I bathe and shave, I feel like I'm bathing and shaving someone else. 82 00:09:45,067 --> 00:09:49,853 And that song about the girl in the forest continues to resonate. 83 00:10:01,067 --> 00:10:04,688 Rape is an act that turns women into an object. 84 00:10:06,129 --> 00:10:09,610 Completely ignores her as a living, feeling individual. 85 00:10:11,051 --> 00:10:16,753 And although it is something similar to prostitution, it completely lacks any type of communication. 86 00:10:18,093 --> 00:10:20,254 That's right, communication. 87 00:10:22,595 --> 00:10:30,038 Since suffering from the numbness, I have found myself unable to carry out the common human function of communication. 88 00:10:32,508 --> 00:10:40,174 New information enters through my eyes, overcomes my brain and goes directly to the organs, causing them to react. 89 00:10:41,655 --> 00:10:46,379 The old information stored in my brain helps me lead a normal life. 90 00:10:48,100 --> 00:10:51,683 Sex with my girlfriend is like solving an algebra equation. 91 00:10:53,024 --> 00:10:58,788 I ejaculate only after my brain has fully calculated the process leading to ejaculation. 92 00:11:02,364 --> 00:11:06,527 When I see a girl, my eyes send the information to my penis. 93 00:11:07,528 --> 00:11:13,393 That's when my brain finally realizes what's happening and starts preparing for the act. 94 00:11:16,376 --> 00:11:21,500 When my brain is busy preparing for rape, I temporarily release the numbness. 95 00:11:23,309 --> 00:11:30,593 Thinking about committing the perfect rape, reviewing past mistakes, considering ways to add more adventure to the act. 96 00:11:31,633 --> 00:11:36,156 This is the only time I feel complete and safe. 97 00:11:47,222 --> 00:11:49,903 Let me tell you about my typical rape procedure. 98 00:11:52,607 --> 00:11:57,590 First, I go to a store at night and look for a girl who lives alone. 99 00:11:58,591 --> 00:12:00,673 You can tell by what's in their shopping cart. 100 00:12:02,314 --> 00:12:04,815 They usually buy their dinners around this time. 101 00:12:05,796 --> 00:12:08,638 A bento box, salad, yogurt. 102 00:12:10,559 --> 00:12:17,244 Buying large quantities of food or a men's magazine is a good way to avoid becoming a target for rape. 103 00:12:19,558 --> 00:12:23,063 Once I have marked my prey, I follow it home. 104 00:12:25,125 --> 00:12:28,450 The light that comes on indicates where you live. 105 00:12:31,625 --> 00:12:34,706 Then I check how easily the apartment can be broken into. 106 00:12:35,586 --> 00:12:38,447 The ideal location is on the third or fourth floor. 107 00:12:39,368 --> 00:12:46,030 Residents on these levels tend to leave their terrace door open, feeling a false sense of security being at the top. 108 00:12:46,850 --> 00:12:49,871 Any room higher than this is too dangerous to climb. 109 00:12:51,352 --> 00:12:54,413 I find a girl who meets these criteria about once a month. 110 00:12:55,293 --> 00:12:59,675 And when I do, a feeling of insurmountable satisfaction fills me. 111 00:13:02,628 --> 00:13:07,992 My mission starts around 3 a.m. m., sneaking in after the girl has gone to bed. 112 00:13:10,093 --> 00:13:19,520 I make sure she is fast asleep before closing the porch door behind me to avoid waking her abruptly and causing a commotion. 113 00:13:21,682 --> 00:13:23,143 I whisper softly in his ear. 114 00:13:24,674 --> 00:13:26,576 The trick here is to do this from behind. 115 00:13:27,718 --> 00:13:34,926 Not being able to see the attacker increases the fear factor, thus deactivating their senses and preventing them from screaming. 116 00:13:36,909 --> 00:13:41,715 As I continue to shower her with threatening words, I make her lie face down. 117 00:13:43,542 --> 00:13:47,204 Expecting to be attacked face up, she gets confused. 118 00:13:48,965 --> 00:13:58,910 Not being able to see what is happening terrifies her, but at the same time, she is almost glad not to see the face of the feared attacker. 119 00:14:03,612 --> 00:14:11,316 With the girl frozen in fear, I take out my Wenger knife, which I carry with me on my keychain. 120 00:14:13,300 --> 00:14:14,621 I don't even need to open it. 121 00:14:15,882 --> 00:14:24,369 Just the feeling of cold metal against his neck and the sound of keys clashing are enough to bring his fear to a climax. 122 00:14:27,631 --> 00:14:34,977 Lying close to her, I lift the covers and tear off her pants and panties in a single movement. 123 00:14:37,839 --> 00:14:41,322 Knowing that it would no longer hold out, I put the knife away. 124 00:14:45,151 --> 00:14:49,596 My penis is hard and erect, like a completely separate living being. 125 00:14:50,757 --> 00:14:56,543 I lubricate quickly as I get on top of her and rub the tip of my penis against her anus. 126 00:14:59,056 --> 00:15:08,264 The girl, thinking that she will be vaginally raped, becomes even more confused, causing her to react by tensing her muscles. 127 00:15:08,404 --> 00:15:13,348 This is when I tell him from behind, if I force myself to be so tight and delicate, 128 00:15:13,808 --> 00:15:17,371 It will tear your muscles and your butt will be loose for the rest of your life. 129 00:15:18,732 --> 00:15:20,454 It's silly, but it works. 130 00:15:21,474 --> 00:15:23,816 She is too scared to think clearly. 131 00:15:23,896 --> 00:15:26,559 She surrenders and relaxes her body. 132 00:15:29,727 --> 00:15:33,830 I deliberately enter her slowly, enough to bury the head of my penis. 133 00:15:34,791 --> 00:15:38,133 The girl remains still, surprised by being anally penetrated. 134 00:15:40,075 --> 00:15:41,736 I never hinder the act with a condom. 135 00:15:42,597 --> 00:15:50,022 As my penis obediently reacts to the stimulus it receives, my brain is filled with the satisfaction that I am about to achieve release. 136 00:15:51,583 --> 00:15:56,227 I inhale the smell of her hair while I ejaculate in her rectum. 137 00:16:00,393 --> 00:16:03,294 When I'm done, I lift the blanket over the girl's head. 138 00:16:04,215 --> 00:16:10,677 I carefully review my escape route and leave the scene in the same manner as I entered. 139 00:16:10,737 --> 00:16:16,900 The girl never sees my face and the shame of being anally raped will prevent her from talking about it. 140 00:16:25,615 --> 00:16:29,277 During rape is the only vivid sensation I have. 141 00:16:30,658 --> 00:16:38,282 For that brief moment, I was released from the numbness that had been tormenting me and a sense of calm like no other came over me. 142 00:16:49,869 --> 00:16:53,871 I was on my way home from a typical rape when it happened. 143 00:16:55,517 --> 00:16:57,778 Suddenly I was attacked by three men. 144 00:16:59,859 --> 00:17:01,580 At first I thought it was a robbery. 145 00:17:02,961 --> 00:17:06,023 I didn't have much money on me, so there was nothing to worry about. 146 00:17:07,764 --> 00:17:11,186 I was a little afraid that they might hurt me or even kill me. 147 00:17:12,786 --> 00:17:16,128 But his true intention was something I least expected. 148 00:17:19,870 --> 00:17:23,032 I have always been extremely careful with my acts of rape. 149 00:17:25,395 --> 00:17:29,198 But I never imagined that I could ever be a victim of rape. 150 00:17:32,340 --> 00:17:37,043 The three of them took turns ejaculating in my anus and in my mouth. 151 00:17:38,764 --> 00:17:39,985 I was so full of fear. 152 00:17:41,086 --> 00:17:43,728 It was all I could do to submit to their demands. 153 00:17:45,693 --> 00:17:50,097 They raped me again and again and again. 154 00:17:51,679 --> 00:17:54,501 My mind went completely blank. 155 00:18:38,387 --> 00:18:40,148 I lost all notion of time. 156 00:18:42,189 --> 00:18:44,369 It was already daylight when I came to. 157 00:18:46,730 --> 00:18:52,533 I returned home, filled the bathtub with hot water and soaked my aching body. 158 00:18:54,013 --> 00:18:57,475 The song about the forest sounded louder and louder in my head. 159 00:18:58,575 --> 00:19:00,316 The hot water stung my anus. 160 00:19:02,177 --> 00:19:04,938 I got dressed and headed to the proctologist's office. 161 00:20:09,553 --> 00:20:10,294 People die. 162 00:20:11,494 --> 00:20:12,495 It's a fact of life. 163 00:20:14,296 --> 00:20:16,538 But it's not every day you see someone die. 164 00:20:18,319 --> 00:20:21,261 It's even rarer to see someone die in front of your eyes. 165 00:20:23,062 --> 00:20:24,483 Or almost die yourself. 166 00:20:26,965 --> 00:20:31,588 But we all know that one day we will all die. 167 00:20:34,129 --> 00:20:35,190 People die every day. 168 00:20:36,751 --> 00:20:37,992 The world is full of death. 169 00:20:39,816 --> 00:20:50,078 922,139 The number of people who died in Japan in one year at the end of the century. 170 00:20:51,794 --> 00:20:58,197 15,147 Number of people killed in traffic accidents. 171 00:20:59,597 --> 00:21:04,099 5,911 The number of people who fell and died. 172 00:21:05,976 --> 00:21:14,652 5,588 people drowned and 3,846 people died in food-related accidents. 173 00:21:17,237 --> 00:21:19,720 30,000 accidental deaths. 174 00:21:26,290 --> 00:21:34,474 In one year at the end of the century, 255 people were stabbed to death, 170 strangled, 175 00:21:34,534 --> 00:21:39,316 Six received the death penalty and almost 500 were killed in other ways. 176 00:21:40,404 --> 00:21:48,885 922,139 dead, almost 1 in every 2,000 murdered. 177 00:21:50,496 --> 00:21:56,179 There is a one in 150,000 chance that a living person will die in one year. 178 00:21:58,661 --> 00:22:00,742 And it all depends on luck. 179 00:22:09,667 --> 00:22:10,728 He is a murderer. 180 00:22:11,988 --> 00:22:13,269 Kill constantly. 181 00:22:14,390 --> 00:22:15,550 But they never catch him. 182 00:22:16,891 --> 00:22:17,652 I don't know why. 183 00:22:18,772 --> 00:22:19,813 This is how it works. 184 00:22:23,375 --> 00:22:27,436 When he kills, he does so at random and does not hide the bodies. 185 00:22:29,236 --> 00:22:33,737 Because when a person dies, that person no longer exists in this world. 186 00:22:35,098 --> 00:22:36,238 The body is irrelevant. 187 00:22:37,938 --> 00:22:41,599 It is finally discovered that the person is missing and then dead. 188 00:22:42,979 --> 00:22:45,680 The problem is not the body, but the relationship with the body. 189 00:22:47,360 --> 00:22:51,261 As long as the connection between him and the body is unknown, there is no problem. 190 00:22:52,785 --> 00:22:54,906 That's why it doesn't do anything unnecessary. 191 00:22:56,548 --> 00:23:00,570 That's why he only kills strangers and doesn't hide the body. 192 00:23:01,971 --> 00:23:03,072 He just kills. 193 00:23:04,573 --> 00:23:06,234 Maintains a simple connection. 194 00:23:07,095 --> 00:23:09,616 The person who kills and the person who is killed. 195 00:23:10,797 --> 00:23:13,539 They spend only a few brief moments together. 196 00:23:15,000 --> 00:23:15,981 This is important. 197 00:23:17,401 --> 00:23:19,363 That's how he thinks. 198 00:23:27,780 --> 00:23:29,822 He is the king of the forest. 199 00:23:31,464 --> 00:23:33,526 In the forest his power is absolute. 200 00:23:34,947 --> 00:23:37,810 His primitive instincts keep him away from danger. 201 00:23:39,572 --> 00:23:41,033 That's why they don't catch him. 202 00:23:42,995 --> 00:23:44,957 It is invisible to the law. 203 00:23:50,463 --> 00:23:53,824 This is how he kills. 204 00:23:53,864 --> 00:23:55,324 How he uses his military knife. 205 00:23:57,005 --> 00:24:00,766 Grab the person's face and slam the back of their head into the ground. 206 00:24:01,606 --> 00:24:03,806 The victim goes into shock and cannot move. 207 00:24:05,127 --> 00:24:12,849 He takes out his Wenger razor and slowly inserts it behind his ear, right into his brain. 208 00:24:14,849 --> 00:24:18,130 The person bleeds to death in a state of semi-consciousness. 209 00:24:20,262 --> 00:24:24,166 The average human being dies when he loses a third of his blood. 210 00:24:28,430 --> 00:24:29,791 He doesn't like to kill. 211 00:24:31,132 --> 00:24:33,575 He does not kill as a religious sacrifice. 212 00:24:35,136 --> 00:24:36,157 He doesn't accept your money. 213 00:24:38,299 --> 00:24:39,300 Then why does he kill? 214 00:24:41,682 --> 00:24:43,003 Do you have a regular job? 215 00:24:44,725 --> 00:24:45,426 I will never know. 216 00:24:47,838 --> 00:24:50,199 But there is one thing I know for sure. 217 00:24:52,199 --> 00:25:00,322 He is the one who painted the path of bright red blood that guides my lost soul through the thick, 218 00:25:00,682 --> 00:25:01,923 green forest. 219 00:25:06,284 --> 00:25:09,685 One day, suddenly, I saw him. 220 00:25:11,846 --> 00:25:14,847 He's killing someone. 221 00:25:14,867 --> 00:25:15,607 I'm not moving. 222 00:25:18,025 --> 00:25:21,987 He knows I'm watching, but he remains silent. 223 00:25:24,922 --> 00:25:29,871 After finishing the killing, he slowly walks towards me. 224 00:25:32,772 --> 00:25:34,493 My natural reaction is panic. 225 00:25:35,534 --> 00:25:36,594 He's going to kill me. 226 00:25:38,935 --> 00:25:41,217 My body refuses to obey my mind. 227 00:25:43,018 --> 00:25:43,798 I'm frozen. 228 00:25:45,987 --> 00:25:48,189 He undresses me and starts caressing me. 229 00:25:49,210 --> 00:25:51,912 I can't resist. 230 00:25:51,992 --> 00:25:53,413 His penis penetrates me. 231 00:25:55,034 --> 00:25:57,096 There is no pain. 232 00:25:57,156 --> 00:25:57,776 No pleasure. 233 00:25:59,298 --> 00:26:00,298 No sensation. 234 00:26:02,620 --> 00:26:04,502 My mind feels nothing. 235 00:26:06,924 --> 00:26:10,386 My body doesn't feel anything. 236 00:26:10,426 --> 00:26:12,408 I don't even know if this is really happening. 237 00:26:14,650 --> 00:26:19,491 Only one thing floated vaguely in my mind. 238 00:26:19,531 --> 00:26:21,131 The concept of death. 239 00:26:23,812 --> 00:26:26,392 Even before I met him, I was possessed by death. 240 00:26:28,472 --> 00:26:35,414 I thought about death until everything around me disappeared and I found myself lost in the forest. 241 00:26:37,634 --> 00:26:41,035 That's when I met him. 242 00:26:41,155 --> 00:26:43,455 I saw him kill and I realized something. 243 00:26:45,427 --> 00:26:46,807 Death is not a concept. 244 00:26:48,468 --> 00:26:50,789 Death exists right here in reality. 245 00:26:52,829 --> 00:26:57,090 Now every time he kills, he calls me. 246 00:26:57,130 --> 00:26:59,591 When it's over, we have sex. 247 00:27:01,291 --> 00:27:04,532 That's how I started photographing corpses. 248 00:27:08,694 --> 00:27:13,575 I have changed since I started taking photographs of bodies. 249 00:27:14,995 --> 00:27:16,256 I exercise more now. 250 00:27:17,697 --> 00:27:20,358 Every day I jog for two hours and swim for one. 251 00:27:22,379 --> 00:27:30,924 When my body runs out of oxygen and my breathing becomes labored, when my muscles produce lactic acid and start to ache and get tired, 252 00:27:32,525 --> 00:27:35,167 this is when I become aware of my physical body. 253 00:27:37,252 --> 00:27:45,654 After exercising, I can clearly hear the sound of my lungs breathing, the beating of my heart, 254 00:27:47,234 --> 00:27:48,875 a slight ringing in my ears. 255 00:27:50,595 --> 00:27:59,197 These sounds confirm to me that my body is here and alive, and I wonder if these sounds are gone forever. 256 00:28:02,938 --> 00:28:04,238 My mind goes blank. 257 00:28:07,658 --> 00:28:11,240 I focus on my physical body. 258 00:28:11,421 --> 00:28:15,043 Oxygen enters the capillaries through the bronchi and alveoli. 259 00:28:16,244 --> 00:28:18,385 The heart pumps this blood to the body. 260 00:28:20,467 --> 00:28:25,010 The digestive system absorbs nutrients from food that are converted into energy. 261 00:28:26,411 --> 00:28:29,193 Yes, my body is really here. 262 00:28:30,894 --> 00:28:33,676 I move and react. 263 00:28:38,101 --> 00:28:42,704 The more I observe my own body, the more I understand corpses. 264 00:28:44,445 --> 00:28:46,426 A corpse is no longer a person. 265 00:28:47,927 --> 00:28:51,129 He is undoubtedly and overwhelmingly dead. 266 00:28:53,490 --> 00:28:56,832 The existence of death transforms the air that surrounds the body. 267 00:28:58,674 --> 00:29:04,337 When life disappears from inside a body, a vacuum is created that sucks in the air around it. 268 00:29:06,245 --> 00:29:15,853 The current created by this movement is intensely cold to the touch, but this sensation cannot be recorded with a camera. 269 00:29:18,415 --> 00:29:27,863 When a person becomes a thing, an object, that is when death can finally be captured in the form of a photograph. 270 00:29:29,965 --> 00:29:32,547 But this is not the true form of death. 271 00:29:34,956 --> 00:29:42,079 When a body loses life and the void is filled with air, the body becomes an object, 272 00:29:42,099 --> 00:29:43,400 a lifeless entity. 273 00:29:45,141 --> 00:29:51,383 As soon as the body stops being a living being, it begins to function as something else. 274 00:29:56,166 --> 00:29:59,067 Decomposition begins in the digestive system. 275 00:30:00,802 --> 00:30:04,644 When alive, the stomach and intestines work to digest food. 276 00:30:06,084 --> 00:30:09,626 After death, they begin to be digested. 277 00:30:12,647 --> 00:30:16,849 Over time, bacteria are produced that accelerate decomposition. 278 00:30:18,150 --> 00:30:21,271 Blue, red, black, white. 279 00:30:22,671 --> 00:30:28,354 The gases released contain hydrogen sulfide, which combines with hemoglobin in the blood. 280 00:30:34,441 --> 00:30:39,224 The abdominal region turns blue and then spreads to the rest of the body. 281 00:30:44,046 --> 00:30:47,907 The body swells and decomposes even more. 282 00:30:47,947 --> 00:30:50,389 Little by little it acquires a reddish brown color. 283 00:30:51,949 --> 00:30:55,851 It continues to swell, looking like a grotesque balloon. 284 00:30:57,401 --> 00:31:02,562 When it can no longer swell, the skin splits and begins to rot. 285 00:31:04,583 --> 00:31:06,623 The body emits a strong stench. 286 00:31:08,344 --> 00:31:12,725 Then it turns black as decomposition juices are secreted. 287 00:31:17,806 --> 00:31:22,947 Over time, the bones become exposed. 288 00:31:22,967 --> 00:31:24,828 This usually takes three months. 289 00:31:26,969 --> 00:31:34,834 With the help of worms to devour the meat and muscle, it can be accelerated by up to 10 days. 290 00:31:43,739 --> 00:31:45,801 Bodies are constantly changing. 291 00:31:47,302 --> 00:31:48,743 I photograph the changes. 292 00:31:50,424 --> 00:31:52,625 I scan the photos into the computer. 293 00:31:54,607 --> 00:31:57,109 Digitized image of corpses. 294 00:31:59,011 --> 00:32:01,633 Death expressed in numerical patterns. 295 00:32:03,854 --> 00:32:05,276 I rearrange the numbers. 296 00:32:07,437 --> 00:32:09,159 These are the digital effects. 297 00:32:11,541 --> 00:32:13,542 Death with rearranged shapes. 298 00:32:15,064 --> 00:32:16,244 Inverted colors. 299 00:32:17,806 --> 00:32:19,247 Expanded or reduced. 300 00:32:20,497 --> 00:32:30,122 turned upside down, scribbled, death with swirls, waves, copied and pasted parts, 301 00:32:30,602 --> 00:32:39,107 partially erased, cracked, with holes divided into parts, out of focus, painted with noise, 302 00:32:39,867 --> 00:32:55,035 Stronger or weaker contrast, twisted, elongated, stained. For me, a computer is deeply connected to death. 303 00:33:04,477 --> 00:33:06,378 A year ago, my friend was raped. 304 00:33:07,658 --> 00:33:11,639 A stranger entered her room in the middle of the night and anally raped her. 305 00:33:15,240 --> 00:33:16,760 She came to me for support. 306 00:33:18,412 --> 00:33:22,295 I could feel their pain and I wanted to help. 307 00:33:22,556 --> 00:33:23,857 We became very close. 308 00:33:25,986 --> 00:33:28,821 One day she confessed to me what she felt for me. 309 00:33:30,470 --> 00:33:31,764 We became lovers. 310 00:33:33,512 --> 00:33:35,554 It felt strangely natural. 311 00:33:37,148 --> 00:33:41,458 Apart from the fact that we were both women, we were an atypical couple. 312 00:33:43,113 --> 00:33:44,594 We had similar interests. 313 00:33:46,378 --> 00:33:49,659 I enjoyed being with her more than anything in the world. 314 00:33:51,087 --> 00:33:52,593 I cared for her deeply. 315 00:33:53,607 --> 00:33:56,328 I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. 316 00:33:57,669 --> 00:34:01,103 And I thought she felt the same way about me too. 317 00:34:04,531 --> 00:34:08,052 One day we went out to buy him a computer. 318 00:34:09,485 --> 00:34:14,600 We loaded the hard drive, monitor, scanner and printer in the back seat of my car. 319 00:34:16,562 --> 00:34:18,482 After some tea, we headed home. 320 00:34:20,323 --> 00:34:23,550 We stopped at a railroad crossing. 321 00:34:23,890 --> 00:34:25,797 The red warning lights were flashing. 322 00:34:27,038 --> 00:34:29,265 Suddenly, he opened the door. 323 00:34:30,571 --> 00:34:32,559 She looked at me and said something. 324 00:34:33,805 --> 00:34:36,180 I couldn't hear his voice over the warning bells. 325 00:34:37,813 --> 00:34:40,956 He had a smile on his face. 326 00:34:40,981 --> 00:34:45,949 It sounded like she was saying, "Give my regards to the bear." 327 00:34:47,213 --> 00:34:51,054 Or it could have been, give Margaret some air. 328 00:34:52,908 --> 00:34:56,436 With a vague smile on my face, I asked, what? 329 00:34:58,210 --> 00:35:02,625 But she just got out of the car and walked towards the train tracks. 330 00:35:04,833 --> 00:35:10,335 A moment later she was run over by an eight-car express train. 331 00:35:15,892 --> 00:35:22,996 One year at the end of the century, 19,875 people committed suicide. 332 00:35:24,143 --> 00:35:26,752 That's an average of 54 per day. 333 00:35:28,086 --> 00:35:36,470 According to a statistic, suicides occur most frequently on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and less frequently on Sundays. 334 00:35:37,784 --> 00:35:39,818 That day was Saturday. 335 00:35:41,259 --> 00:35:44,047 That was my first real experience with death. 336 00:35:45,535 --> 00:35:50,679 And I was left with a computer and an obsession with death. 337 00:36:00,127 --> 00:36:02,128 That's when I lost all feeling. 338 00:36:03,850 --> 00:36:05,291 Life went on as usual. 339 00:36:06,532 --> 00:36:09,714 My health was good and I had a good appetite. 340 00:36:11,075 --> 00:36:12,897 My menstrual periods were regular. 341 00:36:14,580 --> 00:36:18,563 But the healthier my body was, the more lost my mind was. 342 00:36:20,545 --> 00:36:22,567 I can move, but I can't feel. 343 00:36:24,008 --> 00:36:25,629 I can't taste my food. 344 00:36:27,411 --> 00:36:28,512 There is no pain. 345 00:36:30,833 --> 00:36:32,375 I don't talk much anymore. 346 00:36:40,221 --> 00:36:42,203 I bought a mirror as a last resort. 347 00:36:44,152 --> 00:36:45,733 Confirm my own existence. 348 00:36:47,094 --> 00:36:51,017 I stand in front of the mirror and look closely at the image reflected in the glass. 349 00:36:53,099 --> 00:36:54,500 I also bought a camera. 350 00:36:55,521 --> 00:36:58,543 I photograph my image in the mirror to confirm that it is real. 351 00:36:59,624 --> 00:37:03,407 I take pictures of the things I see to make sure I'm really seeing them. 352 00:37:04,588 --> 00:37:05,509 I was desperate. 353 00:37:06,850 --> 00:37:10,873 If I don't do something to prove my existence, I could disappear completely. 354 00:37:12,319 --> 00:37:15,521 I was desperately trying to stay in one piece. 355 00:37:17,682 --> 00:37:18,943 That's when I met him. 356 00:37:20,284 --> 00:37:22,486 He who kills again and again. 357 00:37:23,666 --> 00:37:27,729 And I began to grasp the death he left behind. 358 00:37:32,232 --> 00:37:33,573 Decomposing bodies. 359 00:37:35,154 --> 00:37:38,656 I use digital effects to highlight details. 360 00:37:40,430 --> 00:37:43,691 Various colors, various shapes. 361 00:37:46,372 --> 00:37:50,054 I create something unimaginable from the original images. 362 00:37:52,235 --> 00:37:52,875 How beautiful. 363 00:37:58,977 --> 00:38:00,478 Freshly dead corpses. 364 00:38:02,098 --> 00:38:03,479 They still seem alive. 365 00:38:05,121 --> 00:38:09,862 I use the effects to twist the contours of the eyes, nose and mouth. 366 00:38:11,042 --> 00:38:12,083 How grotesque. 367 00:38:13,883 --> 00:38:15,243 What is beautiful? 368 00:38:16,564 --> 00:38:17,564 What is ugly? 369 00:38:18,904 --> 00:38:21,485 Values become increasingly ambiguous. 370 00:38:23,165 --> 00:38:24,446 Beauty and ugliness. 371 00:38:25,426 --> 00:38:26,526 Joy and sadness. 372 00:38:27,406 --> 00:38:28,426 Pain and pleasure. 373 00:38:29,627 --> 00:38:31,027 Dynamic and static. 374 00:38:32,127 --> 00:38:33,188 Treasure and trash. 375 00:38:34,008 --> 00:38:34,908 Black and white. 376 00:38:36,432 --> 00:38:46,998 common and uncommon, day and night, signs and noise, fluid and stagnant, spirit and body, 377 00:38:47,678 --> 00:38:57,503 red and green, good and evil, favorable and unfavorable, forward and backward, inorganic and organic, 378 00:38:58,644 --> 00:39:07,595 expansion and contraction, beginning and end, man and woman, He and I. 379 00:39:09,376 --> 00:39:11,458 Life and death. 380 00:39:13,479 --> 00:39:19,224 I use the effects to wander the ambiguous ravine between life and death. 381 00:39:23,307 --> 00:39:27,711 I continue photographing the bodies and rearranging them with digital effects. 382 00:39:29,432 --> 00:39:34,156 I continue to exercise and have sex with him after he kills. 383 00:39:36,195 --> 00:39:38,496 However, I still don't feel anything. 384 00:39:40,538 --> 00:39:45,060 Even when his penis enters me, I can barely feel it inside me. 385 00:39:46,701 --> 00:39:51,804 But this day was different. 386 00:39:51,864 --> 00:39:53,826 This day, he was different. 387 00:39:55,346 --> 00:39:56,627 He didn't use his knife. 388 00:39:58,028 --> 00:39:59,789 He strangled the person to death. 389 00:40:01,390 --> 00:40:02,791 The sex was also different. 390 00:40:04,269 --> 00:40:08,533 There was no foreplay, just immediate insertion. 391 00:40:10,035 --> 00:40:11,536 This has never happened before. 392 00:40:13,799 --> 00:40:18,684 Then, suddenly, an indescribable pain invaded my anus. 393 00:40:20,065 --> 00:40:25,991 I felt as if all the sensations that I had not felt in recent years came back to me. 394 00:40:26,892 --> 00:40:27,573 all at once. 395 00:40:31,798 --> 00:40:34,079 I move away from him on reflex. 396 00:40:35,379 --> 00:40:37,620 I turn and look behind me. 397 00:40:39,520 --> 00:40:41,121 I see him standing there. 398 00:40:42,961 --> 00:40:46,142 The pain makes it difficult to focus my eyes. 399 00:40:48,523 --> 00:40:52,724 There are two penises covered in blood. 400 00:40:54,645 --> 00:40:56,265 I can't see very clearly. 401 00:40:58,546 --> 00:40:59,726 Both are erect. 402 00:41:01,870 --> 00:41:02,810 I look closer. 403 00:41:04,291 --> 00:41:05,131 The one above. 404 00:41:06,151 --> 00:41:07,532 The one that entered my anus. 405 00:41:09,493 --> 00:41:10,493 It's not a penis. 406 00:41:12,554 --> 00:41:13,874 It is a steel tube. 407 00:41:16,035 --> 00:41:17,475 There is someone behind him. 408 00:41:19,396 --> 00:41:20,636 The man he had killed. 409 00:41:23,457 --> 00:41:25,698 The pain is unbearable. 410 00:41:27,979 --> 00:41:28,579 The pain. 411 00:42:28,513 --> 00:42:29,173 I wake up. 412 00:42:30,794 --> 00:42:32,254 The pain is still there. 413 00:42:35,195 --> 00:42:38,476 There is already light. 414 00:42:38,496 --> 00:42:39,516 Probably in the morning. 415 00:42:41,396 --> 00:42:42,517 I put on my pants. 416 00:42:46,758 --> 00:42:47,358 And now what? 417 00:42:50,439 --> 00:42:51,079 I am alone. 418 00:42:53,299 --> 00:42:55,700 My anus hurts a lot. 419 00:42:58,777 --> 00:43:01,157 I head towards the proctologist. 420 00:43:56,557 --> 00:43:58,458 What do you do to protect your privacy? 421 00:43:59,299 --> 00:44:01,520 Get an answering machine and screen your calls? 422 00:44:02,361 --> 00:44:04,882 Watch your back to make sure you're not followed? 423 00:44:06,043 --> 00:44:07,644 There are more practical solutions. 424 00:44:08,604 --> 00:44:11,146 Let me tell you about one of them. 425 00:44:11,326 --> 00:44:13,087 Be careful what you throw away. 426 00:44:14,028 --> 00:44:15,028 Get started now. 427 00:44:15,949 --> 00:44:18,911 Because garbage is a storehouse of information. 428 00:44:20,072 --> 00:44:22,133 It can reveal everything about you. 429 00:44:24,761 --> 00:44:29,783 When I walk around the city, I see the streets brimming with personal information. 430 00:44:31,144 --> 00:44:37,407 In this modern consumer society, old and unwanted things are constantly thrown away without a second thought. 431 00:44:38,887 --> 00:44:42,689 Most people forget about these things as soon as they lose sight of them. 432 00:44:42,809 --> 00:44:44,050 How ridiculous. 433 00:44:44,090 --> 00:44:48,512 If you think about it for a second, it is clear that they have not disappeared from this world. 434 00:44:49,845 --> 00:44:53,787 From the garbage can they are collected in a truck and taken to the incinerator. 435 00:44:55,068 --> 00:44:58,490 Until then, they contain an immeasurable amount of information. 436 00:44:59,410 --> 00:45:03,953 Diaries and daily planners, copies of paychecks and credit card bills. 437 00:45:05,234 --> 00:45:07,855 Not many people go so far as to burn them themselves. 438 00:45:09,156 --> 00:45:10,136 So where are you going? 439 00:45:12,017 --> 00:45:16,580 One day, they simply abandon them, carelessly, on the side of the street. 440 00:45:18,532 --> 00:45:21,613 The city is full of fragments of people's lives. 441 00:45:22,493 --> 00:45:25,674 They are left exposed and defenseless to the outside world. 442 00:45:29,375 --> 00:45:34,737 I wander the streets at night, looking to spy on people's private lives. 443 00:45:40,959 --> 00:45:46,601 The Wenger knife and key light are always on my keychain to avoid attracting attention. 444 00:45:50,625 --> 00:45:54,191 You might wonder if I'm embarrassed to be seen rummaging through the trash. 445 00:45:55,413 --> 00:45:57,396 But why should I care what strangers think? 446 00:45:58,538 --> 00:46:00,421 Strangers are like trees in a forest. 447 00:46:01,623 --> 00:46:03,866 Garbage is acorns and animals. 448 00:46:05,374 --> 00:46:06,115 They don't argue. 449 00:46:07,437 --> 00:46:08,198 They don't lie. 450 00:46:09,900 --> 00:46:13,825 They speak to me calmly and frankly. 451 00:46:13,925 --> 00:46:16,268 The sound of their voices fills me with peace. 452 00:46:17,729 --> 00:46:24,398 As I look at the world through the information I find in the trash, I begin to feel like I'm living in a deep forest. 453 00:46:29,322 --> 00:46:36,564 Items found in trash can be separated into several categories based on the stories they tell. 454 00:46:38,285 --> 00:46:41,806 One category consists of mangas and magazines. 455 00:46:43,546 --> 00:46:49,448 If I follow a certain course regularly, I can end up with a lot of free subscriptions. 456 00:46:51,641 --> 00:46:58,684 Manga and comics, celebrity gossip, news and entertainment, parenting advice, fashion and trends, 457 00:46:59,364 --> 00:47:00,485 magazines for teenagers. 458 00:47:02,305 --> 00:47:05,207 Most of these I would never read if they weren't in the trash. 459 00:47:06,287 --> 00:47:11,169 In a sense, scavenging has broadened my horizons. 460 00:47:11,249 --> 00:47:16,811 Converted into cash, these subscriptions will be worth more than $200 a month. 461 00:47:18,892 --> 00:47:20,533 Sometimes I feel like I have made a profit. 462 00:47:22,040 --> 00:47:25,042 But, anyway, they are not things I need. 463 00:47:26,243 --> 00:47:31,586 Sometimes I find small coins at the bottom of bags containing used pencils, 464 00:47:31,706 --> 00:47:34,067 pens, staples and other office supplies. 465 00:47:35,268 --> 00:47:43,013 It's not much, but for the first time I realize that there are people who consider pennies and nickels to be trash. 466 00:47:46,600 --> 00:47:48,341 I also often find photographs. 467 00:47:49,781 --> 00:47:56,423 Most are girls with one eye closed or with a cheeky or embarrassing facial expression. 468 00:47:59,044 --> 00:48:03,125 I am very moved by these images that should not be seen by anyone else. 469 00:48:05,605 --> 00:48:10,747 I listen to the voices in the photographs and I masturbate. 470 00:48:16,617 --> 00:48:23,681 About a year ago, I began finding a series of particularly strange photographs in a young woman's trash. 471 00:48:23,761 --> 00:48:28,504 Nude self-portraits taken as reflections in a mirror or with a self-timer. 472 00:48:30,005 --> 00:48:32,286 I usually masturbated to the voices in the photos. 473 00:48:33,467 --> 00:48:34,287 But these were different. 474 00:48:35,088 --> 00:48:37,549 I couldn't hear any voices. 475 00:48:37,569 --> 00:48:41,912 The voices of the trash are those of humans aware of themselves as pride and shame. 476 00:48:43,412 --> 00:48:45,353 And in these photos they were completely missing. 477 00:48:46,573 --> 00:48:47,774 It's like she's not human. 478 00:48:50,855 --> 00:48:56,978 Sometimes, while searching for food, I come across the presence of something terribly enigmatic that lives deep in the forest. 479 00:49:02,817 --> 00:49:08,661 Items created to satisfy sexual desires are often abandoned in cardboard boxes taped shut. 480 00:49:10,182 --> 00:49:13,105 When I open these boxes, the voices jump out of me. 481 00:49:14,205 --> 00:49:17,208 The voices of desire come from primitive animal instincts. 482 00:49:18,308 --> 00:49:20,350 They cling to my body and won't let go. 483 00:49:22,460 --> 00:49:25,022 TVs can be found lying quietly at night. 484 00:49:25,902 --> 00:49:28,504 At first glance, most of them appear to be working. 485 00:49:29,865 --> 00:49:32,187 The more TVs I have in my room, the better. 486 00:49:33,328 --> 00:49:35,469 The light they emit has mysterious powers. 487 00:49:36,710 --> 00:49:42,134 I fill my small room with photosynthetic light that gently lights and invigorates my heart. 488 00:49:43,575 --> 00:49:47,378 They feel like the sun's rays shining through the trees in the forest. 489 00:49:49,154 --> 00:49:56,274 The forest is here It's where I gather acorns and listen to the voices of birds and insects 490 00:49:58,142 --> 00:49:59,502 This is my life 491 00:50:12,201 --> 00:50:19,036 One afternoon, about a year after I started scavenging, I found some photos on the ground near a trash collection area. 492 00:50:19,889 --> 00:50:23,750 Couple photos, typical snapshots of a trip somewhere. 493 00:50:24,771 --> 00:50:28,452 They appeared to have fallen through a tear into the black garbage bag next to them. 494 00:50:31,233 --> 00:50:38,815 Until then I had only collected books, video tapes, CDs, cassettes, things that could still be used. 495 00:50:40,338 --> 00:50:46,019 But when I saw these photos, they stimulated something inside me that I had never felt before. 496 00:50:47,899 --> 00:50:51,580 I quickly grabbed the bag and took it home to better inspect its contents. 497 00:50:53,100 --> 00:50:54,460 More photos from the trip. 498 00:50:55,561 --> 00:50:56,921 Photos taken with friends. 499 00:50:58,401 --> 00:50:59,941 And a single photo of a girl. 500 00:51:01,502 --> 00:51:03,402 The same one from the trip photos. 501 00:51:05,282 --> 00:51:06,742 This must be your trash. 502 00:51:08,283 --> 00:51:09,723 My curiosity increased. 503 00:51:11,300 --> 00:51:16,002 I have seen this girl at the local store and at the train station. 504 00:51:16,022 --> 00:51:21,504 I remember her clearly because I found her quite attractive. 505 00:51:23,425 --> 00:51:27,967 I was excited to think that I was spying on his private life. 506 00:51:29,188 --> 00:51:33,249 I searched further and found an unfinished letter. 507 00:51:34,010 --> 00:51:37,131 She was confiding in a friend about her younger boyfriend. 508 00:51:38,358 --> 00:51:39,919 They had been college sweethearts. 509 00:51:40,980 --> 00:51:45,684 After graduating and getting a job, he found himself in a different environment. 510 00:51:47,325 --> 00:51:51,088 Her boyfriend suddenly started to seem immature and childish. 511 00:51:52,089 --> 00:51:57,413 He always expects her to pay and insists on hanging out at arcades and karaoke clubs. 512 00:52:00,076 --> 00:52:03,578 The other day he asked her to take photos of him having sex. 513 00:52:05,240 --> 00:52:07,842 Apparently they can sell for good money in the right magazines. 514 00:52:09,698 --> 00:52:12,800 She is fed up with him and wants to break up the relationship. 515 00:52:14,821 --> 00:52:17,562 She wrote the letter, but never sent it. 516 00:52:18,783 --> 00:52:22,544 I also found invoices, bank statements and other personal information. 517 00:52:23,625 --> 00:52:26,586 I even found used panties and menstrual products. 518 00:52:28,107 --> 00:52:29,848 That was when I heard the voices for the first time. 519 00:52:31,449 --> 00:52:35,991 That night I masturbated four times listening to the voices. 520 00:52:38,611 --> 00:52:43,855 Inadvertently, I learned more about this girl than anyone else could know. 521 00:52:45,156 --> 00:52:51,702 And I realized for the first time that a bag of trash is a treasure trove of information. 522 00:52:55,125 --> 00:53:03,552 Fantasizing about a stranger's life is more stimulating and meaningful than living my own banal life. 523 00:53:05,747 --> 00:53:09,029 I can't even validate the existence of my own life. 524 00:53:11,350 --> 00:53:16,813 Forest creatures are not aware of themselves. 525 00:53:24,237 --> 00:53:30,881 Even families that seem completely normal and happy on the surface have secrets hidden in the trash. 526 00:53:32,595 --> 00:53:36,217 There is a fancy looking apartment building around the corner from my house. 527 00:53:38,799 --> 00:53:43,382 They have their own collection bin, which is always full of interesting items. 528 00:53:45,583 --> 00:53:49,806 A family of three lives on the fifth floor of this building. 529 00:53:56,790 --> 00:53:59,392 The father works in an advertising agency. 530 00:54:00,560 --> 00:54:03,763 The mother is fit and beautiful. 531 00:54:03,863 --> 00:54:06,265 The teenage daughter attends a private high school. 532 00:54:07,707 --> 00:54:09,889 The father's trash was the most interesting. 533 00:54:10,830 --> 00:54:14,774 Infinity of envelopes stamped with his company logo addressed to him. 534 00:54:16,155 --> 00:54:20,119 They contained letters from the receptionist with whom he was evidently having an affair. 535 00:54:22,338 --> 00:54:32,205 As I read the carefully handwritten words, I began to imagine a beautiful woman with a somewhat dark past analyzing her feelings as she writes. 536 00:54:36,448 --> 00:54:44,113 Empty diet food packages fill the kitchen trash, proving that beauty requires hard work. 537 00:54:45,074 --> 00:54:54,976 Three diaries emerged from the daughter's trash. On June 12, she had her first period and had to sit out during gym class. 538 00:54:57,978 --> 00:55:00,799 I could hear the voice of a girl turning into a woman. 539 00:55:02,640 --> 00:55:05,982 I heard the voice and I masturbated. 540 00:55:07,563 --> 00:55:10,965 Shortly after, letters from the receptionist stopped appearing. 541 00:55:12,005 --> 00:55:15,207 Almost at the same time, the father gets an Internet connection. 542 00:55:16,481 --> 00:55:23,027 The discarded user manual contained scribbled codes, passwords and Internet server addresses. 543 00:55:24,028 --> 00:55:31,556 I bribed a computer expert I know with some porn videos I found and asked him to hack into the father's email without anyone noticing. 544 00:55:32,937 --> 00:55:36,420 I have you periodically check and print any interesting emails. 545 00:55:37,770 --> 00:55:42,393 As expected, massive amounts of erotic mail dwarf work mail. 546 00:55:43,254 --> 00:55:47,857 They talk about trips to the hot springs or a new pair of sexy underwear. 547 00:55:49,358 --> 00:55:54,101 Meanwhile, I started finding a lot of liquor containers in the kitchen trash. 548 00:55:55,042 --> 00:55:59,504 I know the father doesn't drink and the daughter wouldn't be so careless with empty containers. 549 00:56:00,855 --> 00:56:08,416 An average of 1.8 liters of alcohol are emptied per day by carefully folding and throwing away paper containers. 550 00:56:08,876 --> 00:56:12,017 Perhaps the mother has realized about her husband's affair. 551 00:56:12,557 --> 00:56:15,198 It seems she has become a kitchen drinker. 552 00:56:21,019 --> 00:56:24,819 The daughter started working part-time at a fast food restaurant. 553 00:56:25,859 --> 00:56:28,660 Your shifts are marked with a marker in your daily schedule. 554 00:56:29,755 --> 00:56:33,457 She is paid about $6.25 an hour to work the cash registers. 555 00:56:34,770 --> 00:56:41,091 Around this time, cell phone bills begin to materialize among the trash, as well as cosmetic containers. 556 00:56:41,971 --> 00:56:45,552 The father and his lover have become quite bold and adventurous. 557 00:56:46,492 --> 00:56:51,433 The email subjects said: I can't wait to lick your cute ass. 558 00:56:52,273 --> 00:56:54,874 Armpit hair removal is prohibited for one month. 559 00:56:55,754 --> 00:57:00,075 And a list of lustful and obscene situations for the month of July. 560 00:57:01,892 --> 00:57:05,273 Seen through the garbage, all people are equally abnormal. 561 00:57:06,473 --> 00:57:10,334 In the forest, a million mysteries hide in the deep fog. 562 00:57:12,914 --> 00:57:14,315 The mother has stopped drinking. 563 00:57:15,235 --> 00:57:20,236 Liquor containers have been replaced by abnormal quantities of cream puff packets. 564 00:57:21,596 --> 00:57:23,917 However, it does not seem to weigh any more than before. 565 00:57:25,377 --> 00:57:27,797 He must be vomiting them up. 566 00:57:28,978 --> 00:57:30,658 The poor woman is a disaster. 567 00:57:33,573 --> 00:57:36,534 The daughter has become passionate about famous brands. 568 00:57:37,434 --> 00:57:39,815 Gucci, Chanel, Prada. 569 00:57:40,535 --> 00:57:43,095 None of which your meager salary can buy. 570 00:57:43,555 --> 00:57:45,256 She still works at the fast food place. 571 00:57:45,976 --> 00:57:48,037 Your schedule is the same as before. 572 00:57:48,677 --> 00:57:50,697 Their cell phone bills have quintupled. 573 00:57:51,517 --> 00:57:55,918 To make matters worse, she has been taking strange pills and pregnancy tests. 574 00:57:59,219 --> 00:58:01,840 So far she is not pregnant. 575 00:58:04,154 --> 00:58:12,684 While the father is busy licking ass with his receptionist, his 16-year-old daughter is high and goes on a $1,000 shopping spree. 576 00:58:13,224 --> 00:58:16,368 And the mother binges and purges herself on cream puffs at home. 577 00:58:17,049 --> 00:58:22,154 And every Sunday they get together and pretend that everything is normal while they go out to dinner as a family. 578 00:58:22,976 --> 00:58:25,997 I can hear the conversations they have through the trash items. 579 00:58:26,497 --> 00:58:33,098 The voices are terrifyingly silent and laugh like shivers that run up the spine, like the murmur of sounds in the forest. 580 00:58:33,718 --> 00:58:40,519 From the outside, the light of the forest seems seductive, but if you take one step forward you will sink into quicksand. 581 00:58:41,179 --> 00:58:43,380 It is a feeling similar to ecstasy. 582 00:58:46,360 --> 00:58:49,081 I test everything I find that can still be used. 583 00:58:50,054 --> 00:58:58,598 When I found a pair of false eyelashes, I put on some makeup and women's clothes I had found earlier and had my own little drag show. 584 00:59:00,719 --> 00:59:03,860 One night I found two unused packets of enemas. 585 00:59:04,680 --> 00:59:07,302 They come from a college student's trash. 586 00:59:08,502 --> 00:59:11,443 I got excited as I fantasized about using one of these. 587 00:59:12,284 --> 00:59:14,665 That night I decided to try one. 588 00:59:16,025 --> 00:59:24,225 I could feel the cold liquid enter my anus and rectum. Shortly after, I felt a sudden, strong urge to defecate. 589 00:59:25,245 --> 00:59:28,026 It felt refreshing, like my intestines were being washed. 590 00:59:29,026 --> 00:59:31,747 The next night I decided to try the other one. 591 00:59:32,947 --> 00:59:35,188 The cold liquid is calming upon entering. 592 00:59:36,488 --> 00:59:37,648 But something's not right. 593 00:59:38,749 --> 00:59:41,930 The inside of my anus becomes hot and inflamed. 594 00:59:43,850 --> 00:59:45,971 The burning sensation is intense. 595 01:00:29,782 --> 01:00:32,102 Panicking, I frantically pushed at the liquid. 596 01:00:32,923 --> 01:00:34,523 The pain decreased slightly. 597 01:00:35,863 --> 01:00:36,423 What happened? 598 01:00:37,463 --> 01:00:38,343 Was the enema old? 599 01:00:39,224 --> 01:00:41,024 Or was the liquid replaced with something else? 600 01:00:42,344 --> 01:00:43,464 Who would do such a thing? 601 01:00:48,165 --> 01:00:49,725 I soaked in the bathtub to think. 602 01:00:50,826 --> 01:00:52,646 But thinking won't take away the pain. 603 01:00:53,846 --> 01:00:58,327 The next day my anus was still sore, so I decided to visit the proctologist. 604 01:03:21,714 --> 01:03:23,001 You should know better. 605 01:03:24,607 --> 01:03:31,254 Not here. Sit there. 606 01:03:35,036 --> 01:03:38,182 You better listen to him. 607 01:03:38,329 --> 01:03:43,609 You don't want to make him angry. 608 01:03:44,293 --> 01:03:47,320 Use your imagination. 609 01:03:53,041 --> 01:03:55,221 Do you see this? 610 01:03:55,841 --> 01:03:57,074 It's a remote control. 611 01:04:07,566 --> 01:04:11,373 Sorry for the delay... 612 01:04:57,127 --> 01:04:59,487 Cool, huh? 613 01:04:59,731 --> 01:05:07,144 You better move before I get you too. 614 01:06:11,200 --> 01:06:14,563 The next moment, we found ourselves in the same forest. 615 01:06:15,784 --> 01:06:23,311 Thinking about it, now I see that we have been repeating the same things over and over again to find ourselves. 616 01:06:24,472 --> 01:06:25,252 It was inevitable. 617 01:06:26,673 --> 01:06:30,697 I finally realized that everything happened in this one moment. 618 01:06:38,428 --> 01:06:44,847 Sing us that 'bear in the woods' song, huh? 619 01:06:56,496 --> 01:07:03,256 It's... inevitable 620 01:07:12,669 --> 01:07:16,535 One day in the forest 621 01:07:16,995 --> 01:07:20,735 I met a bear 622 01:07:21,245 --> 01:07:26,006 On a path of flowers 623 01:07:26,345 --> 01:07:32,464 I met a bear 624 01:07:32,964 --> 01:07:35,764 Mr. Bear told me 625 01:07:36,120 --> 01:07:38,040 Stop, stop! 626 01:07:38,299 --> 01:07:40,426 Why aren't you singing? 627 01:07:40,490 --> 01:07:43,083 Everyone has to sing together! 628 01:07:43,203 --> 01:07:45,337 Trust in the inevitable. 629 01:08:16,504 --> 01:08:17,611 What a shame! 630 01:08:17,784 --> 01:08:21,704 Anyway, we only need three. 631 01:08:21,871 --> 01:08:22,878 Ok, continue. 632 01:08:25,997 --> 01:08:30,171 A day in the forest 633 01:08:31,303 --> 01:08:35,370 I met a bear 634 01:08:36,448 --> 01:08:40,761 On the flower path 635 01:08:41,402 --> 01:08:45,736 I met a bear 636 01:08:46,582 --> 01:08:50,755 Mr. Bear told me 637 01:08:51,418 --> 01:08:56,190 Miss, you better run. 638 01:09:06,805 --> 01:09:10,979 But as things were, I looked back. 639 01:09:12,013 --> 01:09:16,146 To see the bear following me 640 01:09:17,027 --> 01:09:21,540 Jogging and trot-trot-trot-trot 641 01:09:22,029 --> 01:09:26,582 Jogging and trot-trot-trot-trot 642 01:09:27,446 --> 01:09:31,980 Miss, could you wait a moment? 643 01:09:32,306 --> 01:09:37,700 You dropped something and here it is. 644 01:10:34,381 --> 01:10:45,589 A little fight with a white shell 645 01:10:46,959 --> 01:10:50,746 Oh, Mr. Bear, thank you very much. 646 01:10:51,636 --> 01:10:55,336 In exchange, I will sing for you. 647 01:10:56,140 --> 01:10:59,633 Lalala-la-la-la 648 01:11:00,193 --> 01:11:03,673 Lalala-la-la-la 649 01:11:10,796 --> 01:11:13,289 Very good, very inevitable. 650 01:11:15,124 --> 01:11:17,570 It's just not... realistic. 651 01:11:19,734 --> 01:11:23,134 You guys look very good now. 652 01:11:39,971 --> 01:11:46,865 A spaceship cannot take you to space. 653 01:11:47,199 --> 01:11:55,800 It's a device. Does not work outdoors. 654 01:11:56,965 --> 01:12:04,957 Is that no longer realistic? Right? 655 01:12:05,467 --> 01:12:14,100 You can go to space or you can come back. 656 01:12:14,537 --> 01:12:15,510 Should we? 657 01:12:27,862 --> 01:12:29,215 See you later! 658 01:17:40,136 --> 01:17:44,256 Miss, could you wait a moment? 659 01:17:45,315 --> 01:17:48,348 You dropped something and here it is. 660 01:17:49,386 --> 01:17:54,399 A small earring 661 01:17:54,945 --> 01:17:58,938 With a white shell 662 01:18:00,592 --> 01:18:16,538 Written and directed by Kenji GODA 663 01:18:21,798 --> 01:18:25,899 I am free from the forest in the open air. 664 01:18:28,120 --> 01:18:30,240 I can go anywhere I want from here. 665 01:18:32,662 --> 01:18:34,003 There is nothing that can hurt me. 666 01:18:36,404 --> 01:18:37,665 Nothing to protect me. 667 01:18:39,706 --> 01:18:42,487 I just keep walking. 668 01:18:46,452 --> 01:18:53,378 There are no acorns to gather here, nor the soft light of the sun shining on me through the trees or the rustling of the leaves. 669 01:18:54,859 --> 01:19:04,247 The dry sun covers each and every corner of my body, and a silence like the ringing in my ears envelops my head. 670 01:19:05,928 --> 01:19:08,530 I break the silence and move on. 671 01:19:09,791 --> 01:19:11,213 I am myself again. 672 01:19:16,482 --> 01:19:18,023 I'm out of the forest. 673 01:19:20,064 --> 01:19:28,027 I am here at the end of a journey that lasted an eternity, but ended in a single moment. 674 01:19:30,120 --> 01:19:38,290 Every detail is clearly etched in my mind, but at the same time everything seems like a dream. 675 01:19:40,193 --> 01:19:41,835 The endless song has ended. 676 01:19:43,176 --> 01:19:49,210 In its place appears the image of a tiny earring with a white shell. 677 01:19:49,652 --> 01:19:51,872 Subtitles by: contodoresperto :D