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The thing about me and Bob,
and pretty much all of us
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was we hated rednecks
more than anything else, period.
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Because rednecks for us
were America incarnate.
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And America?
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Well, fuck America.
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So, hey,
what do you wanna do now?
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Let's score.
I gotta get some pelt tonight
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-or my balls are gonna drop off.
- I hear that.
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Yeah!
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Come on, cowboy!
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Let's go, come on.
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What can I say?
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We weren't much more
than a couple of young punks.
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Good morning, Bob.
Rise and shine.
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Beautiful fucking day.
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All right.
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Two more hours.
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But that's it.
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To be an anarchist in Salt Lake City
was certainly no easy task,
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especially in 1985.
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And having no money, no job,
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no plans for the future,
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the true anarchist position
was in itself a strenuous job.
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And our tribe was small.
I mean, at the center was me, Stevo
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and Bob, my roommate.
Heroin Bob.
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Oh, Bob didn't really do heroin.
In fact, he hated needles.
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Bob's irrational fear of needles
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was in contrast to
everything about the guy.
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You'd think he was a madman
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which, you know, he was.
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But he was also one of the most
uptight guys I'd ever met.
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He didn't do anything
about the cut on his hand.
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I mean, absolutely nothing.
He wrapped it up
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in a dirty old T-shirt
and he left it like that for weeks.
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Is he gonna be okay?
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Oh, yeah. He'll be fine, I'm sure.
Thank you, though.
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Hi. How we doing?
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Okay. Can I take a look at that?
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Okay. All right.
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What the heck did we do here?
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That wound's the most infected thing
I've ever seen.
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I hate doctors, man. I hate them.
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Well, you're lucky those boys
brought you here.
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Okay? Because without me,
you'd be dead.
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Patty, we need
a gram of amoxicillin in here, stat.
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That's a nasty cut you got.
How did you manage that?
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I fell off my bike.
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Oh, sweetheart, I'm sorry.
Does it still hurt?
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-That's a nice kid.
-Yeah, sad, really.
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-How's that?
-Kids.
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There's not much future for them.
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-We all die, Stevo.
-Security to the loading dock.
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That's true. Very true, Mike.
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No, no, no. No, I'm fine. I'm fine.
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Get that fucking needle
away from me, man.
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No, I don't do needles.
Get off me. Get off!
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Goddamn it. No, no.
You pack of murderers. No!
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No needles!
Help me. Help. No, no, please.
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So Heroin Bob was named as such
because he was afraid of needles.
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But not just needles.
The guy was afraid of drugs too.
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We couldn't even get him
to take a damn aspirin.
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He drank and he smoked cigarettes,
but that's it. He'd say:
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You know that shit you guys do?
You're fucking yourselves up, man.
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Fucking acid. Acid.
It never leaves your body.
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It's in your fucking spinal cord forever.
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Let me tell you something
about the nature of chemicals, man.
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You know that dude, Napoleon?
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He was banished to an island
when the French got sick of him.
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That's right. He supposedly
died of stomach problems, right?
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Wrong. He was actually poisoned
over a long period of time.
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Murdered by arsenic,
a preservative.
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-And you know how?
-No idea.
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-His hair.
-His hair?
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His fucking hair. It was arsenic.
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You could tell how long
he was being poisoned
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by following the traces
of poison up his hair.
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Dude, dude, dude, if you do
enough hits of it, you're dead.
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-It makes you think, doesn't it?
-Think what?
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That chemistry's the wrong
fucking major for you.
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-It's the wrong major, Bob.
-You should lay off the acid anyways.
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-You heard about Sean?
-No, what happened?
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You know he was selling acid, right?
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No, man. I told you $25, man, $25.
It's inflation.
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Shit's getting expensive.
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-Thanks, man.
-No problem.
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-Nice spikes.
-Nice fucking suit.
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-Thanks.
-Let me ask you something, Sean.
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What the fuck
did you become a punk for?
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Hey, man. Come on. The kid wants
to be a punk, let him be a punk.
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You see, Russ.
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Mods are pussies, man.
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-Shit's fucking dead.
-If we catch you tonight,
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-we're kicking your ass.
-Come on. Kid's all right.
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Kick my ass?
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-Let's go.
-Get on your bikes and ride away.
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-Hey, fuck you.
-No, thanks, sweetheart. All right.
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Your mom's driving us to practice?
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-Four o'clock.
-You guys enjoy.
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So Sean puts all this acid
in his pocket and the school cop--
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-Where was this?
-Southeast High, man.
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So he takes off running
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and he's running through
the track field
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and the sprinklers are on.
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So the water
soaks through his pants
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and melts the acid,
which went through his pants
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onto the skin on his leg.
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So, you know,
over 100 hits of acid
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dissolved into Sean's leg.
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Fried him.
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I went to see him a week later
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and it had just snowed,
and he was sitting outside in the cold.
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Sean?
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What are you doing outside, man?
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Are you him?
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-Yeah, I'm him.
-Jesus!
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Have I sinned
or am I going to heaven?
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You're frying, man.
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-How much acid did you take?
-Wait, you're not Jesus.
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-You're Bob.
-I'm Bob. How goes it?
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-How are you doing that?
-Doing what?
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Walking on water. If I get off this chair,
I'll drown. Wanna know why, Bob?
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-Because I can't swim.
-Oh, I get it.
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So, Sean,
do you see land anywhere?
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No. Just water.
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-Say, Bob?
-Yeah.
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You are Jesus.
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That's right, I am. Why do you ask?
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Satan is in the house.
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He killed my mom
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and turned her into a bull.
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Oh, I didn't hear you come in.
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-What? What?
-Come here.
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I gotta kill her!
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Okay! Hold still!
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Put your hands in the air
and slowly turn around.
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-I'm saved! I'm saved!
-Put your hands up.
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-Yeah, sure, Sean. You're saved.
-I said, put your hands in the air.
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Chemicals, man.
They'll fuck you up.
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I wondered what happened
to that crazy little shit.
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It's a crazy, fucked-up world and
we're all just barely floating along
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waiting for somebody
that can walk on water.
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Bob was like that.
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A real asshole when it came
to reading into things.
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He liked to wrap things up into neat
little packages that implied the world.
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See, Sean was fucked up,
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not the world.
The world was just confused.
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And not the world, really,
just the people in it.
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Bob was confused. And more,
Bob was paranoid as fuck.
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That's right, quarantine. The doctor
said that Bob's infection was so bad
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that it had become a lethal virus.
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So he was under quarantine
for some weeks.
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It was the beginning of the fall
and the rest of our lives.
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We both graduated college
and were taking summer classes.
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A feat, considering
our aim in college
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was to be as destructive
as possible.
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Our mission after leaving high school
as two aspiring young punks,
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the only two punks
in Salt Lake City at the time,
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was to go to university
and bring down the system.
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Why? Well, for obvious reasons.
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Anarchy.
The only system of government
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that seemed to make any sense.
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And the irony was we had
made it through. I did well, even.
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My father was hell-bent
on getting me to go
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to Harvard Law, like he had done
when he was a kid.
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My father tried to get me to go
right after high school.
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Thank you for giving us your time.
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Your mother and I
found this to be rather important.
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You finished high school.
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Thank God.
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Now it's your time to do good.
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This rebellion thing you're
going through, I understand it.
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Not completely, but I respect it.
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Now, you should think about
what is right for you.
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I mean, be free, darling, always.
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Yeah. Be practical, Steve.
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You got a chance to go to Harvard.
You've got me as an alumnus.
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-That can't hurt.
-Only if it makes you happy.
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Look, if you wanna rebel there,
you can do it. I went to Woodstock.
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Me and the guys had a lot of fun.
We did our thing.
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We got behind some causes, though.
We fought for some very strong causes.
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We ended-- Collectively,
we ended that goddamn war in Nam
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so that guys like you could be free.
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There's all these possibilities, Steven.
Carry the torch now.
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I can see by looking at you
that you're ready.
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-I'm proud that you're an individual.
-Very proud.
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So proud.
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One thing.
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This may not be easy to hear,
but the hair.
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Maybe tone it down.
The whole thing that you're doing.
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In my day, it was, you know hair--
Long hair, beatniks, paisley.
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You know, that stuff and...
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Not liked, that kind of thing.
This whole thing you're doing,
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this statement about
the American Indian.
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I'm baffled, and not just me.
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A regular guy in the street's
gonna be baffled too.
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And we're hip, we're cool.
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It's just those guys on the East Coast
are never gonna get it. With that:
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They're not gonna get this
in New York, you know?
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Oh, Jesus.
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-Darling, we sound like our parents.
-Yeah.
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-It's difficult, dear.
-We just wanna support you.
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A hundred percent. Take the ball
and run with it. Make a difference.
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But always with love.
Remember that, Steven.
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-Always with love.
-Oh, time-out.
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I just wanna ask real quick,
if I can,
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you believe in rebellion,
freedom and love, right?
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-Absolutely, yes.
-Rebellion, freedom, love.
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You two are divorced, so love failed.
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Two: Mom, you're a New Ager
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clinging to any scrap
of Eastern religion
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that may justify why
the above said love failed.
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Three: Dad, you're a slick,
corporate, preppy-ass lawyer.
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I don't have to say anything else
about you, do I, Dad?
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Four: You moved
from New York City,
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the mecca and hub of the
cultural world, to Utah, nowhere,
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to change nothing, to perpetuate
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this cycle of money, greed,
fascism and triviality.
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Your movement of, by
and for the people got you nothing.
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You just hide behind some lost sense
of drugs, sex, rock 'n' roll.
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Oh, "Kumbaya."
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I am the future. I am
the future of this great nation,
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which you, Father,
so arrogantly saved this world for.
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Look, I have my own agenda.
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Harvard, out. University of Utah, in.
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I'm gonna get a 4.0 in damage.
I love you guys.
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Don't get me wrong. It's all about this.
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But for the first time in my life, I'm 18,
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and I can say, "Fuck you!"
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Steven, I didn't sell out, son.
I bought in.
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Keep that in mind.
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That kid is gonna make
one hell of a lawyer.
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-Yeah, he takes after his father.
-Well, thanks.
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He's a son of a bitch.
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Fuck you, dear.
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And now, four years later,
I was a college graduate.
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We did what we could to fuck
things up, but the system is strong
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and they were many
and we were still few.
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But this fall was gonna be
the fall, all right.
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Bob and the rest of us had made
an oath to do absolutely nothing.
240
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We were gonna waste
our educated minds.
241
00:16:06,570 --> 00:16:08,160
We had no other way of fighting.
242
00:16:08,240 --> 00:16:10,990
As I said,
there just weren't enough of us.
243
00:16:22,500 --> 00:16:25,420
Sure, there's more punks
than there was four years earlier
244
00:16:25,510 --> 00:16:27,430
but there was also
as many posers.
245
00:16:27,510 --> 00:16:29,890
Posers were people
that looked like punks
246
00:16:29,970 --> 00:16:32,010
but they did it for fashion.
247
00:16:32,100 --> 00:16:35,470
-And they were fools. They'd say:
-"Anarchy in the U.K."
248
00:16:35,560 --> 00:16:39,770
You see? Posers.
"Anarchy in the UK"
249
00:16:39,850 --> 00:16:41,190
What the fuck's that?
250
00:16:41,270 --> 00:16:43,650
What good is that to those of us
in Utah, America?
251
00:16:43,730 --> 00:16:46,110
It was a Sex Pistols thing, right?
From England.
252
00:16:46,190 --> 00:16:47,780
British. That's what they did.
253
00:16:47,860 --> 00:16:50,620
They were allowed to go on about
anarchy in the U.K.
254
00:16:50,700 --> 00:16:53,280
You don't live your life by lyrics.
255
00:16:53,370 --> 00:16:55,700
That's all you ever heard
from these trendy fucks.
256
00:16:55,790 --> 00:16:59,620
Like, "Did you hear the new
Smiths album? It's fucking terrif."
257
00:16:59,710 --> 00:17:03,130
Kids walking around Utah saying
"terrif" with a stupid English twang.
258
00:17:03,210 --> 00:17:06,260
See what I mean? What the fuck's up
with the England bullshit?
259
00:17:06,340 --> 00:17:08,340
Union Jack is a fag.
260
00:17:08,420 --> 00:17:11,510
I knew a girl who'd only have sex
with a guy if he had an accent.
261
00:17:11,590 --> 00:17:13,550
Can you think of anything
more ludicrous?
262
00:17:13,640 --> 00:17:15,470
So every asshole in Salt Lake City
263
00:17:15,560 --> 00:17:18,430
and let me tell you, plenty of assholes
in this region,
264
00:17:18,520 --> 00:17:19,850
that wanna do a little of this,
265
00:17:19,940 --> 00:17:22,610
would get her drunk and put on
some stupid accent, like:
266
00:17:22,690 --> 00:17:26,150
"Hey, hey, mistress,
do you fancy a shag?"
267
00:17:26,230 --> 00:17:28,150
And there she would,
knees in the sky.
268
00:17:28,240 --> 00:17:31,280
Sad. It made me really sad.
Poor girl had no self-respect.
269
00:17:31,360 --> 00:17:36,240
See, to me England was nothing
more than a big American state
270
00:17:36,330 --> 00:17:39,250
like North Dakota or Canada.
271
00:17:39,330 --> 00:17:40,750
You gotta look at me and say:
272
00:17:40,830 --> 00:17:43,540
"Hey, buddy, why are you so mad?"
And I'll tell you.
273
00:17:43,630 --> 00:17:46,460
For all the fawning that went
over the English bands,
274
00:17:46,550 --> 00:17:49,470
those English chaps could
only say shit about Americans.
275
00:17:49,550 --> 00:17:51,340
All we were to them was hicks.
276
00:17:51,430 --> 00:17:54,010
Well, you know what?
I'm not a fucking hick.
277
00:17:54,100 --> 00:17:56,510
I don't wear cowboy boots.
I hate the rodeo.
278
00:17:56,600 --> 00:17:58,180
Horses smell like shit to me.
279
00:17:58,270 --> 00:18:00,180
I don't fuck anyone
in my own bloodline.
280
00:18:00,270 --> 00:18:03,850
By definition, I'm not a redneck
and, goddamn it, I ain't a fucking hick.
281
00:18:03,940 --> 00:18:06,150
Oh, the sun never sets
on the British Empire.
282
00:18:06,230 --> 00:18:09,240
Well, the sun never sets
on my asshole.
283
00:18:09,320 --> 00:18:12,700
Another thing that pissed me off,
talking about who started punk rock.
284
00:18:12,780 --> 00:18:15,240
Was it Sex Pistols in England?
285
00:18:15,320 --> 00:18:18,330
Was it the Ramones and
the Velvet Underground in New York?
286
00:18:18,410 --> 00:18:20,830
"It was the Ramones."
"It was the Sex Pistols."
287
00:18:20,910 --> 00:18:24,330
Who cares who started it?
It's music.
288
00:18:24,420 --> 00:18:26,750
I don't know who started it.
I don't give a fuck.
289
00:18:26,840 --> 00:18:29,840
The one thing I do know
is that we did it harder,
290
00:18:29,920 --> 00:18:31,630
goddamn it, we did it faster,
291
00:18:31,720 --> 00:18:35,430
and we definitely did it
with more love, baby.
292
00:18:35,510 --> 00:18:37,560
You can't take that away from us.
293
00:18:37,640 --> 00:18:39,270
Exhibit A.
294
00:18:41,480 --> 00:18:43,980
It's my only exhibit, really,
but you know what?
295
00:18:44,060 --> 00:18:45,690
I think it's pretty fucking good.
296
00:18:47,020 --> 00:18:48,150
Fuck off and die.
297
00:19:17,390 --> 00:19:19,560
If you were a fucking man,
you'd fuck me.
298
00:19:19,640 --> 00:19:23,430
I said if you were a fucking man,
you'd fuck me right here and now.
299
00:19:34,780 --> 00:19:36,240
Fuckers.
300
00:19:39,830 --> 00:19:41,870
Hey, wasn't she with you?
301
00:19:41,950 --> 00:19:44,540
-Who?
-Sandy.
302
00:19:45,960 --> 00:19:47,210
Last week, dude.
303
00:19:47,290 --> 00:19:51,380
We hung out, but nobody's anybody's.
Anyway, I got my eye on Trish.
304
00:19:51,460 --> 00:19:53,550
Hey, where is Trish?
I have to talk to her.
305
00:19:53,630 --> 00:19:55,970
She's setting up for the after-party
for the band.
306
00:19:56,050 --> 00:19:58,260
Hey, isn't Trish, like, 30-something?
307
00:19:58,340 --> 00:20:00,600
Yeah, dude.
She's fucking smart as hell too.
308
00:20:00,680 --> 00:20:02,970
I could listen to her talk for,
like, hours.
309
00:20:03,060 --> 00:20:06,270
Yeah, that's good for you
because all she ever does is talk.
310
00:20:13,860 --> 00:20:16,570
I see Stevo is getting along tonight.
311
00:20:17,820 --> 00:20:19,240
I gotta do something.
312
00:20:40,850 --> 00:20:43,310
So, Mark, how are you doing,
old man?
313
00:20:44,350 --> 00:20:45,560
Fuck!
314
00:20:46,980 --> 00:20:48,440
I am not old, motherfucker.
315
00:20:48,520 --> 00:20:52,190
Oh, no. I just-- You know, I mean,
you're older than anyone else here.
316
00:20:52,270 --> 00:20:54,570
It depends on how you look at it.
317
00:20:54,650 --> 00:20:56,570
I'm young in my heart,
318
00:20:56,650 --> 00:20:59,780
younger than any of these sad souls
over there.
319
00:21:02,620 --> 00:21:05,660
You know, Bob,
he's always looking for pain.
320
00:21:05,740 --> 00:21:08,040
That's why I don't understand
you Americans.
321
00:21:08,120 --> 00:21:09,750
You're always looking for pain.
322
00:21:09,830 --> 00:21:13,170
Yeah, well, you know what?
It pains me to hear you say that, Mark.
323
00:21:13,250 --> 00:21:15,250
It really does.
324
00:21:31,270 --> 00:21:32,810
Hold these.
325
00:21:32,900 --> 00:21:34,900
More pain you're looking for?
326
00:21:34,980 --> 00:21:36,900
No, I have to go take care
of something.
327
00:21:54,840 --> 00:21:57,000
-Hey, that's Bob!
-What?
328
00:21:57,090 --> 00:21:59,420
-Bob.
-Yeah, Bob!
329
00:22:46,390 --> 00:22:47,760
Fuck you!
330
00:23:02,530 --> 00:23:06,410
The police. What an untidy group
of little fascists.
331
00:23:06,490 --> 00:23:08,870
What do you expect
in a town of God?
332
00:23:08,950 --> 00:23:10,240
Mormons run the state
333
00:23:10,330 --> 00:23:13,000
and that is
the state of things, I'm afraid.
334
00:23:19,130 --> 00:23:20,210
-Listen.
-Poser.
335
00:23:20,300 --> 00:23:21,550
Let me explain.
336
00:23:21,630 --> 00:23:24,970
It was my instinct to react that way
because you punched my friend.
337
00:23:25,050 --> 00:23:28,430
I'm the bouncer for the band.
It's my job.
338
00:23:28,510 --> 00:23:29,930
Yes, but this is a punk show.
339
00:23:30,010 --> 00:23:32,640
And mayhem and punk shows,
it's like peas and carrots.
340
00:23:32,730 --> 00:23:34,390
I's common to jump on stage
341
00:23:34,480 --> 00:23:36,520
and then he jumps right off again.
342
00:23:36,600 --> 00:23:38,730
Look, I'm really sorry
about the beating.
343
00:23:38,810 --> 00:23:41,190
I hope your stay
in America is more pleasant.
344
00:23:42,940 --> 00:23:45,490
-You're under arrest, son.
-For selling pot?
345
00:23:45,570 --> 00:23:47,700
-It's harmless.
-No, no, the pot's fine.
346
00:23:47,780 --> 00:23:50,950
However, this shirt happens to be
illegal in several states.
347
00:23:51,410 --> 00:23:54,540
I see. It should be a torn shirt, huh?
348
00:23:54,620 --> 00:23:58,580
With a picture of Ronald Reagan on it,
maybe with a bullet hole in his head?
349
00:24:00,210 --> 00:24:03,170
-That would be more punk?
-Yeah, you're a good man, Mark.
350
00:24:03,260 --> 00:24:05,720
We need more men like you
in America.
351
00:24:05,800 --> 00:24:07,800
I rest easier now that you say this.
352
00:24:08,550 --> 00:24:09,680
-Eddie.
-Bobby.
353
00:24:09,760 --> 00:24:12,220
-Hey. Fuck you, man.
-Hey.
354
00:24:12,310 --> 00:24:14,180
-Hey, you're that singer dude.
-Hey.
355
00:24:14,270 --> 00:24:16,190
So, what'd you think,
good show or--?
356
00:24:16,270 --> 00:24:18,480
No, man.
I'll never play this town again, mate.
357
00:24:18,560 --> 00:24:20,730
It's too tame for you British types?
358
00:24:20,810 --> 00:24:23,860
-No, it's too bleeding violent.
-Thank you.
359
00:24:23,940 --> 00:24:26,360
Come with me.
I've got something to show you.
360
00:24:31,660 --> 00:24:33,700
So here's this band.
361
00:24:33,790 --> 00:24:37,330
ECP, Extreme Corporal Punishment.
362
00:24:37,410 --> 00:24:40,460
One of the toughest,
most hard-core bands in the U.K.
363
00:24:40,540 --> 00:24:42,920
Good band as well.
They come to Salt Lake City,
364
00:24:43,000 --> 00:24:44,590
they think it's too tough.
365
00:24:44,670 --> 00:24:47,420
An 18-year-old punk
beat the shit out of their bouncer.
366
00:24:47,510 --> 00:24:49,010
I rest my case on this.
367
00:24:49,090 --> 00:24:52,010
In a country of lost souls,
368
00:24:52,100 --> 00:24:53,930
rebellion comes hard.
369
00:24:54,010 --> 00:24:56,850
But in a religiously
oppressive city,
370
00:24:56,930 --> 00:25:01,110
which half its population
isn't even of that religion,
371
00:25:01,190 --> 00:25:03,770
it comes like fire.
372
00:25:12,910 --> 00:25:14,450
You're here to visit?
373
00:25:14,540 --> 00:25:18,210
Yes. I think we're all excited
to see how he's doing.
374
00:25:18,290 --> 00:25:20,790
Have you seen The Exorcist?
375
00:25:20,870 --> 00:25:23,090
-Yeah.
-Did you like it?
376
00:25:24,170 --> 00:25:26,550
Yeah. Is this dangerous?
377
00:25:26,630 --> 00:25:28,090
Not clinically.
378
00:25:30,630 --> 00:25:32,140
What does that mean?
379
00:25:37,680 --> 00:25:39,850
-Jesus.
-Hey, Bob.
380
00:25:39,940 --> 00:25:41,810
Are you alive?
381
00:25:41,900 --> 00:25:43,810
I want a cigarette, man.
382
00:25:45,150 --> 00:25:47,990
-I wanna get out of here, man.
-Listen. We got good news.
383
00:25:48,070 --> 00:25:50,650
Now, they say
today's gonna be your last day.
384
00:25:50,740 --> 00:25:52,450
-Today?
-Today.
385
00:25:52,530 --> 00:25:56,490
Thank God.
These doctors can kiss my ass.
386
00:25:56,580 --> 00:25:59,200
Knock it off, tough guy,
or I'll give you another shot.
387
00:25:59,290 --> 00:26:01,330
Woman fucking hates me, man.
388
00:26:01,420 --> 00:26:03,210
You look good.
What's with the tape?
389
00:26:03,290 --> 00:26:06,210
Don't tell me you're going poser
on me, you big loser.
390
00:26:06,300 --> 00:26:10,760
No, dude. I'm going crazy, man.
How long have I been in here?
391
00:26:10,840 --> 00:26:13,010
-Three weeks.
-Oh, my God.
392
00:26:13,090 --> 00:26:16,510
-Anyone come visit you?
-No, no. Just you. Just you guys.
393
00:26:16,600 --> 00:26:20,430
You did. I've been quarantined, man.
They named a disease after me.
394
00:26:20,520 --> 00:26:23,440
-You are a disease.
-What about your father, Bob?
395
00:26:23,980 --> 00:26:26,940
-What about my father?
- I just thought-- He didn't--
396
00:26:27,020 --> 00:26:29,530
Oh, no, no, no. He didn't come.
397
00:26:29,610 --> 00:26:32,360
He's-- He's-- He's drunk, you know.
398
00:26:32,450 --> 00:26:34,490
But I'm free, huh? I'm free.
399
00:26:37,830 --> 00:26:39,660
You know, I love the guy.
400
00:26:39,750 --> 00:26:42,290
Now the fall of hate
could really get started.
401
00:26:42,370 --> 00:26:45,210
The first order of business,
a party at our apartment.
402
00:26:45,290 --> 00:26:48,090
This is, like,
the first party of the fall, right?
403
00:26:48,170 --> 00:26:50,880
The whole tribe's here.
Everyone's in the house.
404
00:26:50,960 --> 00:26:52,300
Let me make introductions.
405
00:26:52,380 --> 00:26:56,390
-You remember Bob, of course. He's--
-Hey, stop fucking with that stereo!
406
00:26:56,470 --> 00:26:59,350
He's also one of the hosts.
It's his fucking stereo.
407
00:26:59,430 --> 00:27:02,730
And this-- Oh, my God.
This is Trish.
408
00:27:02,810 --> 00:27:04,900
She's, like, a bohemian queen.
409
00:27:04,980 --> 00:27:08,320
She is the goddess of the scene.
Everybody really wants her.
410
00:27:08,400 --> 00:27:10,480
Hey, come on. Let's keep going.
411
00:27:10,570 --> 00:27:14,150
Now stay close, because, like,
I don't really know everyone here.
412
00:27:14,240 --> 00:27:16,070
There's a lot of posers.
413
00:27:16,160 --> 00:27:19,950
This kid, though.
This kid, he's not a fucking poser.
414
00:27:20,040 --> 00:27:23,250
He's not a poser.
He looks like a total nerd, right?
415
00:27:23,330 --> 00:27:25,750
This guy looks like a geek,
but his name's Mike.
416
00:27:25,830 --> 00:27:28,170
He's one of the most hard-core guys
in the scene.
417
00:27:28,250 --> 00:27:30,750
Watch. Stay where you are.
I'll be right back.
418
00:27:30,840 --> 00:27:33,130
This is great. It's my favorite part.
419
00:27:33,840 --> 00:27:34,880
This guy.
420
00:27:38,800 --> 00:27:42,520
You see what I mean? Punk rock!
421
00:27:42,600 --> 00:27:45,060
It's punk rock!
422
00:27:45,140 --> 00:27:47,940
The party's in full swing.
Let's continue.
423
00:27:50,270 --> 00:27:53,400
Hey. Hey, Mark, how's it rolling?
424
00:27:53,490 --> 00:27:54,950
Rolling fine.
425
00:27:56,530 --> 00:27:59,280
-Here. It's on me.
-For me??
426
00:27:59,370 --> 00:28:02,540
But be careful,
that stuff can make you stupid.
427
00:28:02,620 --> 00:28:04,580
Fuck you!
428
00:28:04,660 --> 00:28:07,330
More stupid than you already are.
429
00:28:07,420 --> 00:28:11,800
Hey, this is Mark.
Now, Mark is not a punk rocker.
430
00:28:11,880 --> 00:28:14,130
He's nothing, really.
He's not even a peer.
431
00:28:14,210 --> 00:28:16,380
Everybody knew him.
All the tribes love him
432
00:28:16,470 --> 00:28:18,760
because he always had
pot and acid.
433
00:28:18,840 --> 00:28:22,720
What this crazy foreign fuck was doing
behind this iron curtain, I had no idea.
434
00:28:22,810 --> 00:28:24,980
I don't think anyone in Utah
really knew
435
00:28:25,060 --> 00:28:29,350
but we did know that he was rich,
loaded with killer bud
436
00:28:29,440 --> 00:28:32,520
and completely out
of his fucking mind.
437
00:28:32,610 --> 00:28:35,030
Mark was rich,
but not because he was a pusher
438
00:28:35,110 --> 00:28:38,240
which he really wasn't.
He was independently wealthy.
439
00:28:38,320 --> 00:28:42,330
His whole family died in a plane crash
over in Europe when he was 4.
440
00:28:42,410 --> 00:28:45,750
The thing was, he liked
to buy stuff and show it off.
441
00:28:45,830 --> 00:28:48,870
His bank account bulged
from the insurance off the crash.
442
00:28:48,960 --> 00:28:51,840
You'd have to sit through
some shit if you wanted to score
443
00:28:51,920 --> 00:28:54,340
because one thing about Mark,
he loved company.
444
00:28:54,420 --> 00:28:59,090
This looks like a silver record,
but it's not a silver record.
445
00:28:59,180 --> 00:29:01,180
It's a laser disc.
446
00:29:01,260 --> 00:29:03,140
This one is a waterbed.
447
00:29:03,220 --> 00:29:07,140
But it's not a normal waterbed
because a normal one goes like this:
448
00:29:07,230 --> 00:29:11,650
Lots of waves. Funny thing is,
this one doesn't have any waves.
449
00:29:12,810 --> 00:29:17,240
Well, why didn't you just buy
a normal mattress
450
00:29:17,320 --> 00:29:19,030
that doesn't have waves?
451
00:29:20,860 --> 00:29:22,280
This one doesn't have waves.
452
00:29:22,370 --> 00:29:27,040
See, it also comes in silver, but
I bought black because it looks cooler.
453
00:29:27,120 --> 00:29:29,040
-Yeah, but--
-This is the masterpiece.
454
00:29:29,120 --> 00:29:32,040
It has one, two, three,
four, five, six, seven--
455
00:29:32,130 --> 00:29:34,590
Seven settings for optimum comfort,
456
00:29:34,670 --> 00:29:36,920
all of which
I will gladly show you now.
457
00:29:37,630 --> 00:29:39,470
It has this projector in the back.
458
00:29:39,550 --> 00:29:42,510
Five thousand bucks.
You can buy a fucking car for that.
459
00:29:42,590 --> 00:29:44,970
This thing here
has a little platinum thing.
460
00:29:45,060 --> 00:29:46,520
There's a movie on there.
461
00:29:46,600 --> 00:29:50,140
And so it never, never, ever
gets, like, dirty. The--
462
00:29:50,230 --> 00:29:53,480
I don't buy records. I only buy CDs
because they sound much better.
463
00:29:53,560 --> 00:29:56,400
-That's great.
-Hey, there's more.
464
00:29:56,480 --> 00:29:58,110
-A lot more?
-Much more.
465
00:29:58,900 --> 00:30:00,070
Wake up.
466
00:30:00,150 --> 00:30:02,740
It was a character flaw, sure,
but we all have those.
467
00:30:02,820 --> 00:30:05,580
This part didn't concern me.
The main problem with Mark
468
00:30:05,660 --> 00:30:08,660
was that he was intimidating
and he had a tendency to snap.
469
00:30:08,750 --> 00:30:10,580
He was afraid of getting ripped off.
470
00:30:10,660 --> 00:30:13,580
At the same time, he ripped
things off without shame or guilt.
471
00:30:13,670 --> 00:30:16,170
Chaos in man, although hopeful,
472
00:30:16,250 --> 00:30:19,170
could also be, you know,
a little tiresome.
473
00:30:19,260 --> 00:30:22,300
I had two bags of grass
in this kitchen.
474
00:30:22,380 --> 00:30:24,760
They are always trying to stiff me,
you know?
475
00:30:24,850 --> 00:30:26,850
-Who is?
-Who?
476
00:30:26,930 --> 00:30:28,010
Who?
477
00:30:28,930 --> 00:30:30,680
Everybody.
478
00:30:30,770 --> 00:30:33,230
You know I give to everybody, Stevo.
You know that.
479
00:30:33,310 --> 00:30:36,860
And they just go ahead
and try to take whatever they want.
480
00:30:38,440 --> 00:30:40,190
It makes me wanna kill...
481
00:30:42,240 --> 00:30:44,990
which I've done in the past,
believe me.
482
00:30:45,070 --> 00:30:49,200
I'm not saying it makes me a man.
I'm just passing on the information.
483
00:30:50,370 --> 00:30:52,370
When did you kill?
484
00:30:52,460 --> 00:30:54,710
In Miami, I shot two men.
485
00:30:54,790 --> 00:30:57,460
Why do you think I'm here?
Because I love this place?
486
00:30:57,540 --> 00:30:59,340
Salt Lake Shitty?
487
00:31:00,800 --> 00:31:04,510
They tried to rob me,
so I shot them in the head.
488
00:31:06,600 --> 00:31:10,430
You have to put at least one bullet
in the head just to make sure.
489
00:31:12,930 --> 00:31:15,310
Get out of here. Come on.
490
00:31:15,400 --> 00:31:18,150
You didn't kill anybody. Fuck you.
491
00:31:18,230 --> 00:31:21,280
-You don't believe me, huh?
-No.
492
00:31:22,280 --> 00:31:23,530
Well.
493
00:31:26,200 --> 00:31:28,070
-Hey.
-With this.
494
00:31:28,160 --> 00:31:30,200
You wanna be a cowboy,
I show you cowboy.
495
00:31:30,290 --> 00:31:32,540
Just put that thing away.
I hate those things.
496
00:31:32,620 --> 00:31:36,170
Put it away. I get the joke.
Now put it away.
497
00:31:36,250 --> 00:31:38,960
When I was a kid,
my family died in a crash.
498
00:31:42,460 --> 00:31:44,630
-Yeah, I know.
-You know?
499
00:31:47,300 --> 00:31:48,850
My mother told us to buckle up
500
00:31:48,930 --> 00:31:50,930
because things
were going to get bumpy.
501
00:31:51,010 --> 00:31:54,020
So I did.
I looked at her and she smiled.
502
00:31:54,100 --> 00:31:57,980
And then like this, boom,
the plane was going down.
503
00:31:58,060 --> 00:32:01,940
My dad was next to the pilot
and he told us not to worry.
504
00:32:02,030 --> 00:32:04,570
But, hey, even at 5,
I knew we had trouble
505
00:32:04,650 --> 00:32:06,530
because the pilot was crying.
506
00:32:07,780 --> 00:32:11,660
So I looked at my sister. She was like,
"Oh, man. We're getting close."
507
00:32:11,740 --> 00:32:16,080
So I looked at my mom again
and she smiled at me again
508
00:32:16,160 --> 00:32:18,040
and so this time I smiled.
509
00:32:18,120 --> 00:32:20,340
And then we hit the ground
510
00:32:20,420 --> 00:32:23,210
and something
came through that plane
511
00:32:23,300 --> 00:32:25,670
and cut my mother's head off.
512
00:32:25,760 --> 00:32:30,890
So now this head
was flying straight at me
513
00:32:30,970 --> 00:32:33,640
and she never took her eyes
off of me.
514
00:32:33,720 --> 00:32:36,060
That's when I passed out.
515
00:32:36,140 --> 00:32:41,110
And when I woke up, my family
was all around me in pieces.
516
00:32:41,190 --> 00:32:43,940
I saw my mother's arm,
my sister's leg,
517
00:32:44,030 --> 00:32:45,990
my brother's head.
518
00:32:46,950 --> 00:32:48,860
But I couldn't find my father.
519
00:32:48,950 --> 00:32:50,780
I wanted to, though,
520
00:32:50,870 --> 00:32:54,160
because I was going to
kick his fucking dead body.
521
00:32:55,870 --> 00:32:57,330
Because he lied.
522
00:32:58,920 --> 00:33:01,130
You know what
I'm trying to tell you, Stevo?
523
00:33:02,210 --> 00:33:06,510
It's so easy, so easy
to get it taken away from you.
524
00:33:06,590 --> 00:33:10,090
And they try.
Every chance they get, they try.
525
00:33:16,270 --> 00:33:17,680
It's bad.
526
00:33:19,600 --> 00:33:21,310
I mean, it's really bad.
527
00:33:24,480 --> 00:33:26,030
Do you trust Bob?
528
00:33:28,320 --> 00:33:29,530
Bob?
529
00:33:30,780 --> 00:33:32,160
Yeah.
530
00:33:37,080 --> 00:33:39,540
I think he might have taken my stuff.
531
00:33:42,880 --> 00:33:45,130
Well, he's asleep.
532
00:33:45,210 --> 00:33:47,300
What about when we were upstairs?
533
00:33:47,380 --> 00:33:49,050
He could have taken it then.
534
00:33:50,760 --> 00:33:53,090
Right. Well, I don't think so.
535
00:33:53,180 --> 00:33:55,260
I mean, it's not like Bob.
He's not a thief.
536
00:33:55,350 --> 00:33:58,730
How do you know? You know what?
I think we should ask him.
537
00:33:58,810 --> 00:34:00,690
No. No. Hey, Mark. Wait.
538
00:34:00,770 --> 00:34:03,190
Hey, Mark. Come on.
Just chill out, man.
539
00:34:03,270 --> 00:34:05,360
-Oh, Jesus. Hey, wake up.
-Hey, you!
540
00:34:05,440 --> 00:34:07,360
Get up. You have my shit.
541
00:34:07,440 --> 00:34:09,690
Put that shit away
before I kick your ass.
542
00:34:11,450 --> 00:34:13,410
-Shit. Are you all right?
-It's all right.
543
00:34:13,490 --> 00:34:16,160
Get off my back!
I don't wanna hurt you.
544
00:34:16,240 --> 00:34:18,160
Come here.
545
00:34:18,240 --> 00:34:20,290
-What? What?
-Come on. Empty your pockets.
546
00:34:20,370 --> 00:34:24,210
-This is fucking uncool, Mark!
-We'll see about cool in a minute.
547
00:34:24,290 --> 00:34:27,170
-All right.
-He doesn't have anything. I told you.
548
00:34:27,250 --> 00:34:30,800
-Shut up! Man!
-That's it. That's it, dude.
549
00:34:41,060 --> 00:34:42,480
I'm sorry.
550
00:34:44,600 --> 00:34:48,020
-You're sorry?
-Yeah, I just thought you had my shit.
551
00:34:48,110 --> 00:34:49,530
Yeah, well, fuck you, man.
552
00:34:49,610 --> 00:34:52,150
Hey, don't say that, "Fuck you."
I said I'm sorry.
553
00:34:52,240 --> 00:34:54,490
-No, fuck you.
- I said sorry.
554
00:34:54,570 --> 00:34:57,030
-Come on. You're like my brother.
-No. Get away.
555
00:34:57,120 --> 00:35:00,200
-All right. All right. I'm not mad. Yeah.
-You're my friend, huh?
556
00:35:00,790 --> 00:35:02,960
-Give me a kiss.
-All right.
557
00:35:03,040 --> 00:35:04,870
Here you go.
558
00:35:04,960 --> 00:35:07,090
Hey, did I scare you?
559
00:35:07,170 --> 00:35:10,840
- It didn't scare me.
-It was a joke, you know.
560
00:35:11,630 --> 00:35:13,930
-That's funny.
-Yeah. Okay.
561
00:35:14,010 --> 00:35:16,430
-Good one, buddy.
-Okay.
562
00:35:16,510 --> 00:35:19,430
-You shot the couch.
-You know what? I buy a new one.
563
00:35:19,510 --> 00:35:24,350
-Oh, there you go.
-I say we go out and steal a car, huh?
564
00:35:24,980 --> 00:35:26,900
-All right.
-Okay? Okay, let's go.
565
00:35:26,980 --> 00:35:29,610
Punk rock. Maybe you should
just leave the gun, though.
566
00:35:29,690 --> 00:35:33,820
So Mark and Bob made up because,
you know, that's just how Mark was.
567
00:35:33,900 --> 00:35:38,030
What could you do? Later he stole
a car. Not that he needed a car.
568
00:35:38,120 --> 00:35:40,700
He already had, like,
I don't know, three cars.
569
00:35:40,790 --> 00:35:42,750
But I guess fun is fun.
570
00:35:42,830 --> 00:35:45,540
We drove around for a while,
got stoned. Me and Mark.
571
00:35:45,620 --> 00:35:47,080
Bob just drank beers.
572
00:35:47,170 --> 00:35:51,630
We talked and listened to Mark's
nonsense theories about everything.
573
00:35:51,710 --> 00:35:55,720
You know what the funny thing is
about Ronald Reagan?
574
00:35:55,800 --> 00:35:57,340
Actually, it's not that funny
575
00:35:57,430 --> 00:36:00,060
because the poor guy
has only one testicle left.
576
00:36:00,140 --> 00:36:03,100
-No shit.
-It's true. I saw a picture once.
577
00:36:04,140 --> 00:36:07,190
-Fuck, dude.
-That explains a lot.
578
00:36:07,270 --> 00:36:08,770
Ronnie.
579
00:36:10,270 --> 00:36:14,570
The world has no way to clean itself.
That's why there is so much dust.
580
00:36:14,650 --> 00:36:20,080
There's this underground road,
and it leads from Texas to D.C.
581
00:36:20,160 --> 00:36:23,950
You know what?
They smuggle UFOs through there.
582
00:36:24,660 --> 00:36:26,410
It's a bad thing.
583
00:36:26,500 --> 00:36:28,960
Unidentified flying objects?
584
00:36:29,040 --> 00:36:32,800
Did you know
that dolphins are man-evolved?
585
00:36:32,880 --> 00:36:34,840
Did you know that?
586
00:36:34,920 --> 00:36:37,470
I saw once a half-dolphin,
half-man in Greece.
587
00:36:37,550 --> 00:36:41,600
And as the night closed,
Mark decided to dump the stolen car.
588
00:36:41,680 --> 00:36:43,770
You know, evidence.
589
00:36:46,890 --> 00:36:48,230
Sink.
590
00:36:53,230 --> 00:36:54,860
Sink, you fool.
591
00:36:56,070 --> 00:36:57,820
Hey, why won't she sink?
592
00:36:57,900 --> 00:37:01,240
Well, it's because
it's the Great Salt Lake.
593
00:37:01,320 --> 00:37:04,290
-And?
-Yeah, dude. There's salt in it.
594
00:37:04,370 --> 00:37:06,620
It's, like,
the saltiest lake in the world.
595
00:37:06,700 --> 00:37:10,500
-It makes things buoyant, you know?
-Buoyant. It floats.
596
00:37:10,580 --> 00:37:13,380
-You've gotta be kidding me.
-No.
597
00:37:15,260 --> 00:37:16,670
Sink, you fool!
598
00:37:16,760 --> 00:37:21,260
You fucking stupid
bastard lake! Sink!
599
00:37:23,010 --> 00:37:25,970
-What are you trying to do to me?
-All right. Okay. No, no, no.
600
00:37:26,060 --> 00:37:29,020
-That's okay. Let's go.
-Guys! Guys!
601
00:37:29,100 --> 00:37:31,690
I'm not done with you!
602
00:37:34,320 --> 00:37:37,690
And when all was said and done,
Mark was an okay guy
603
00:37:37,780 --> 00:37:41,160
and an evening with him
was proof of anarchy.
604
00:37:42,370 --> 00:37:45,870
So we accepted him,
and he came to our parties.
605
00:37:45,950 --> 00:37:49,040
Hey, I'll catch you later, all right?
606
00:37:49,120 --> 00:37:51,210
Not if I see you first.
607
00:37:51,290 --> 00:37:52,960
-I know.
-Excuse me.
608
00:37:53,040 --> 00:37:54,340
-Can I get through?
-Stevo.
609
00:37:54,420 --> 00:37:57,210
-Hey, Jen!
-Oh, I love your house.
610
00:37:57,300 --> 00:37:59,630
Thank you.
Hey, look it, Jennifer, look it.
611
00:37:59,720 --> 00:38:02,340
This is Jennifer. She's 17.
She looks a lot older.
612
00:38:02,430 --> 00:38:05,010
She looks older because
this lifestyle hardens you.
613
00:38:05,100 --> 00:38:07,850
It takes the piss out of you.
And she's got this brother--
614
00:38:07,930 --> 00:38:11,020
Easy over there!
She's got this brother named Chris.
615
00:38:11,100 --> 00:38:14,060
He's this death-rock punk guy,
and he's, like--
616
00:38:14,150 --> 00:38:17,320
I don't know why I'm telling you.
You'll meet that kid later.
617
00:38:17,400 --> 00:38:21,070
Now this girl, absolutely beautiful,
sweet as pie,
618
00:38:21,150 --> 00:38:24,030
is the greatest child
God ever put on this earth.
619
00:38:24,120 --> 00:38:27,370
But you do not wanna mess with her
when she hasn't had her medication
620
00:38:27,450 --> 00:38:28,950
in a dark, deserted alley.
621
00:38:29,040 --> 00:38:31,790
She will-- I repeat,
she will rip your head off.
622
00:38:31,870 --> 00:38:33,920
This girl is a carnivore.
623
00:38:34,000 --> 00:38:37,800
Look, carnivore. Be careful.
624
00:38:37,880 --> 00:38:40,380
-Who else can I introduce you to?
-Stevo.
625
00:38:40,470 --> 00:38:44,050
- I have been looking for you.
-Oh, yeah, baby.
626
00:38:45,470 --> 00:38:48,930
This is Sandy. Oh, my God, Sandy.
I like Sandy.
627
00:38:49,020 --> 00:38:52,350
Now, Sandy has nothing to do
with anarchy in general.
628
00:38:52,440 --> 00:38:55,650
She's just a beautiful,
wonderful, funny, witty,
629
00:38:55,730 --> 00:38:59,610
loving, sexy, tough-as-nails,
little weird girl,
630
00:38:59,690 --> 00:39:03,530
and I absolutely adore her.
I like Sandy a lot.
631
00:39:03,610 --> 00:39:06,530
This is John the mod.
Now, mods aren't punks.
632
00:39:06,620 --> 00:39:09,290
We get in a lot of spats with mods,
but he's okay.
633
00:39:09,370 --> 00:39:11,080
He's one of those kinds of guys.
634
00:39:11,160 --> 00:39:15,750
He goes in between the tribes freely,
like a diplomat.
635
00:39:15,830 --> 00:39:19,840
-Gandhi!
-He always brings gifts.
636
00:39:19,920 --> 00:39:23,470
-Where'd you get the beer?
-Wyoming. Where else?
637
00:39:23,550 --> 00:39:25,130
This needs some explanation.
638
00:39:25,220 --> 00:39:27,100
Beers in supermarkets
in Utah is weak.
639
00:39:27,180 --> 00:39:29,510
Three points instead of
the normal six of alcohol.
640
00:39:29,600 --> 00:39:32,310
It's the religious influence,
and a pain in the ass.
641
00:39:32,390 --> 00:39:35,310
It makes no sense. If you
got alcohol, you got alcohol.
642
00:39:35,400 --> 00:39:37,020
So why three instead of six?
643
00:39:37,110 --> 00:39:40,150
You know a drunk's gonna drink
twice as many beers to get drunk.
644
00:39:40,230 --> 00:39:42,400
Not only do you have a drunk
on your hands
645
00:39:42,490 --> 00:39:44,820
but you got a drunk
who's fat and gross.
646
00:39:44,900 --> 00:39:48,370
There's nothing worse. So if you want
real beer, you have two choices:
647
00:39:48,450 --> 00:39:49,990
A, the state-run liquor store.
648
00:39:50,080 --> 00:39:53,450
Here, you can buy regular beer.
There are three stores
649
00:39:53,540 --> 00:39:57,000
in Salt Lake City to buy it
and their hours suck. Oppression.
650
00:39:57,080 --> 00:40:00,500
Also, not just beer. These were
the only places to buy any alcohol
651
00:40:00,590 --> 00:40:02,010
outside of private clubs.
652
00:40:02,090 --> 00:40:04,800
Who can afford those,
except for guys like my dad?
653
00:40:04,880 --> 00:40:08,340
Don't. Quit it. Knock it off.
Come on. Don't do that. So, yeah.
654
00:40:08,430 --> 00:40:10,680
What do they call you?
Do you have a nickname?
655
00:40:10,760 --> 00:40:13,520
-They do. Yeah.
-TLM.
656
00:40:13,600 --> 00:40:16,770
-"The long man"?
-"Third-leg material.”
657
00:40:16,850 --> 00:40:19,360
You could get whiskey, gin, wine.
658
00:40:19,440 --> 00:40:22,190
Here's where they kept it.
And here's the worst part:
659
00:40:22,280 --> 00:40:23,440
IDs, boys.
660
00:40:25,650 --> 00:40:28,240
See, now, this teller,
he's not just a teller.
661
00:40:28,320 --> 00:40:30,620
He's a cop. This guy right there,
a fucking cop.
662
00:40:30,700 --> 00:40:32,080
We buy beer, me and Bob
663
00:40:32,160 --> 00:40:34,580
and this guy's calling
a squad car to follow us.
664
00:40:34,660 --> 00:40:36,210
One look at us and he knows:
665
00:40:36,290 --> 00:40:38,250
"Gosh, those guys
are gonna be trouble."
666
00:40:39,580 --> 00:40:41,880
Now, Bob and I
may not be innocent
667
00:40:41,960 --> 00:40:45,210
but we are usually
pretty law-abiding. Usually.
668
00:40:45,300 --> 00:40:48,550
On this occasion, we had done
absolutely nothing wrong.
669
00:40:48,630 --> 00:40:51,550
We looked suspicious, yes,
but in all the years of prelaw,
670
00:40:51,640 --> 00:40:54,020
I uncovered contradictions
in the system
671
00:40:54,100 --> 00:40:57,060
but I had found nothing
that told me looking suspicious
672
00:40:57,140 --> 00:40:58,690
was a crime in and of itself.
673
00:40:58,770 --> 00:41:01,190
Come on. Just give me a shot.
Come on.
674
00:41:01,270 --> 00:41:04,440
-Okay.
-There you go! Come on.
675
00:41:15,200 --> 00:41:18,920
But this was not about the law,
this was about rednecks.
676
00:41:19,000 --> 00:41:21,000
The battle continued.
Who's to blame them?
677
00:41:21,080 --> 00:41:23,500
I mean, the cops were rednecks,
our mortal enemies.
678
00:41:23,590 --> 00:41:26,260
Worse than mods, worse than
rockers, worse than posers.
679
00:41:26,340 --> 00:41:28,130
So we took our beatings
when we could.
680
00:41:28,220 --> 00:41:31,840
But in this complex world of fascism
that was Utah state policy,
681
00:41:31,930 --> 00:41:34,850
we had only one choice
if we wanted real beer.
682
00:41:34,930 --> 00:41:36,890
Choice B, Wyoming.
683
00:41:47,740 --> 00:41:49,740
The state line
was one hour and one half,
684
00:41:49,820 --> 00:41:53,620
a short ride to Evans ton, Wyoming.
You could get booze like a free man.
685
00:41:53,700 --> 00:41:56,950
Like boozers used to go to Canada
for the poison during Prohibition.
686
00:41:57,040 --> 00:41:59,710
So we rode that morning
before the party with Eddie.
687
00:41:59,790 --> 00:42:02,710
Eddie wasn't an anarchist.
He wasn't even really a punk.
688
00:42:02,790 --> 00:42:04,790
Eddie was into women.
689
00:42:05,590 --> 00:42:08,970
But not in a macho, jerky kind of way.
He was a true romantic.
690
00:42:09,050 --> 00:42:12,470
He had his ass beat several times
for being gay, which he was not.
691
00:42:12,550 --> 00:42:15,350
Imagine, fag-bashed
without the benefits.
692
00:42:15,430 --> 00:42:18,560
I could give a shit what
the rednecks in this town think.
693
00:42:18,640 --> 00:42:21,640
I know I'm not gay.
The ladies know I'm not gay.
694
00:42:21,730 --> 00:42:23,230
I have no problem with gay guys.
695
00:42:23,310 --> 00:42:26,770
As a matter of fact, they are
some of the coolest guys that I know.
696
00:42:26,860 --> 00:42:28,940
The only reason
half these guys start shit--
697
00:42:29,030 --> 00:42:31,240
I's not because
they wanna fight me.
698
00:42:31,320 --> 00:42:33,160
It's because they wanna fuck me.
699
00:42:33,240 --> 00:42:34,530
I don't know, man.
700
00:42:34,620 --> 00:42:37,950
If somebody called me something
that I wasn't, I could see getting mad.
701
00:42:38,040 --> 00:42:41,040
The problem with somebody
giving you shit about being gay--
702
00:42:41,120 --> 00:42:44,500
It's not that they're wrong about you,
it's that they're giving you shit.
703
00:42:45,210 --> 00:42:47,960
-Get it?
-So do you like this music, man?
704
00:42:48,050 --> 00:42:51,970
-Yeah. It rocks.
- I think it's for posers.
705
00:42:52,050 --> 00:42:53,680
-Well, I think you're a fag.
-Fag.
706
00:42:53,760 --> 00:42:56,800
-Fuck you.
-Fuck yourself. You'll get more pussy.
707
00:42:59,060 --> 00:43:02,520
If looking the way we did in Utah
was unusual,
708
00:43:02,600 --> 00:43:05,520
in Wyoming, affectionately
called "The Cowboy State,"
709
00:43:05,610 --> 00:43:09,150
we were fucking aliens.
710
00:43:40,810 --> 00:43:43,230
What the hell are you?
711
00:43:44,690 --> 00:43:47,940
We come from the east
in search of the Messiah.
712
00:43:48,020 --> 00:43:49,940
We followed that big star.
713
00:43:50,020 --> 00:43:52,690
Yeah, we bring gold
and frankincense.
714
00:43:52,780 --> 00:43:54,700
-Myrrh.
-Myrrh.
715
00:43:54,780 --> 00:43:57,820
-You do what?
-Followed the star.
716
00:43:58,530 --> 00:44:02,790
Oh, my God. Who let you boys
out of the state institute?
717
00:44:02,870 --> 00:44:05,080
We'd better get you boys
back in the hospital.
718
00:44:05,160 --> 00:44:07,080
No, no, no. It's all right, man.
719
00:44:07,170 --> 00:44:10,550
We're. We're.
We're from England.
720
00:44:10,630 --> 00:44:12,590
-England?
-Yeah.
721
00:44:12,670 --> 00:44:17,300
That's right. That's probably why
we seem so weird to you, man.
722
00:44:17,390 --> 00:44:19,430
England, huh?
723
00:44:20,510 --> 00:44:22,810
Well, that explains it, I guess.
724
00:44:23,390 --> 00:44:28,310
You boys enjoying your stay here
in the good old U.S. of A.?
725
00:44:28,400 --> 00:44:30,480
Oh, sure thing. It's a great land.
726
00:44:30,570 --> 00:44:33,780
-What the hell is that?
-It's all right, Mother.
727
00:44:33,860 --> 00:44:35,740
They're from England.
728
00:44:35,820 --> 00:44:38,820
Oh, that figures, don't it?
729
00:44:38,910 --> 00:44:41,660
What the hell did they do
to your hair?
730
00:44:41,740 --> 00:44:44,290
My God, you look like
a goldurned Indian.
731
00:44:44,370 --> 00:44:47,670
It was a medical experiment,
but he's gonna be okay.
732
00:44:47,750 --> 00:44:50,210
You poor boy.
733
00:44:50,290 --> 00:44:52,710
That's why there's so many
floods and earthquakes.
734
00:44:52,800 --> 00:44:54,760
There is a curse on the land.
735
00:44:54,840 --> 00:44:56,630
-The end is at hand.
-That's so true.
736
00:44:56,720 --> 00:44:59,220
Excuse me, ma'am, but, you know,
737
00:44:59,300 --> 00:45:01,720
there have been, like,
floods and earthquakes
738
00:45:01,800 --> 00:45:03,810
since the beginning of time, dude.
739
00:45:03,890 --> 00:45:07,980
That is so, but never have
so many of Satan's followers
740
00:45:08,060 --> 00:45:10,310
been amassed on the Earth
as there are now.
741
00:45:10,400 --> 00:45:12,320
And the Scripture states clearly
742
00:45:12,400 --> 00:45:14,900
that Satan's followers
will be in the majority
743
00:45:14,980 --> 00:45:17,610
and then God will raise his head
744
00:45:17,700 --> 00:45:20,160
and fire will spew from his snout
745
00:45:20,240 --> 00:45:22,870
and vengeance
will burn in his eyes.
746
00:45:22,950 --> 00:45:26,450
You have not seen such fury
like the wrath of God.
747
00:45:26,540 --> 00:45:30,170
So you guys have lots of devil
worshipers around these parts?
748
00:45:30,250 --> 00:45:32,210
Oh, more than ever.
They bear the mark.
749
00:45:32,290 --> 00:45:34,420
-Amen.
-Well, what about World War 11?
750
00:45:34,500 --> 00:45:37,170
I mean, the Nazis were as good
as Satan's army
751
00:45:37,260 --> 00:45:41,470
-and the world didn't end then.
-Yeah, dude. What about the Nazis?
752
00:45:41,550 --> 00:45:44,760
I don't see Nazis
as devil worshipers.
753
00:45:44,850 --> 00:45:46,220
Oh, you don't?
754
00:45:46,310 --> 00:45:49,390
I see them more like
a gathering of people.
755
00:45:49,480 --> 00:45:51,980
What? What did y--?
756
00:45:52,060 --> 00:45:55,230
What's this about a mark? You guys
said something about a mark.
757
00:45:55,320 --> 00:45:59,030
666, the mark will be on all of them.
758
00:45:59,110 --> 00:46:00,820
The mark.
759
00:46:01,820 --> 00:46:02,910
-Father!
-Oh, my God!
760
00:46:02,990 --> 00:46:04,990
- I fear you, Father!
-Oh, my God!
761
00:46:05,080 --> 00:46:07,580
-My Padre!
-Oh, my God.
762
00:46:11,960 --> 00:46:13,250
Oh, shit.
763
00:46:13,330 --> 00:46:15,750
-Go, go, go!
-Told you those boys were trouble.
764
00:46:16,340 --> 00:46:17,550
Oh, shit.
765
00:46:27,220 --> 00:46:30,100
The Wyoming folk--
Well, they were okay, I guess.
766
00:46:30,180 --> 00:46:32,190
Just confused like the rest of us.
767
00:46:32,270 --> 00:46:36,400
But Nazis always pissed us off.
There were a few Nazi punks in town.
768
00:46:36,480 --> 00:46:38,440
Now, I don't know
what these guys wanted.
769
00:46:38,530 --> 00:46:41,280
They had the shaved heads
and wore those stupid armbands.
770
00:46:41,360 --> 00:46:43,360
Rebellion is one thing.
That I understood.
771
00:46:43,450 --> 00:46:45,660
But there are some things
that are just sacred.
772
00:46:45,740 --> 00:46:47,240
Not to mention that anarchy,
773
00:46:47,330 --> 00:46:49,250
a system less society,
which is what I wanted,
774
00:46:49,330 --> 00:46:50,710
no government, no rules.
775
00:46:50,790 --> 00:46:53,750
Well, that was the complete opposite
of Nazi fascism.
776
00:46:53,830 --> 00:46:57,210
So we kicked the shit out of
these kids every chance we could.
777
00:46:58,340 --> 00:47:00,260
-Bitch!
-And that was that.
778
00:47:03,220 --> 00:47:05,300
Hi, my name's Eddie.
779
00:47:07,510 --> 00:47:09,890
You exist in a world of dreams, Bob.
780
00:47:09,970 --> 00:47:13,390
You know, I was just sitting over there,
in that chair in the corner.
781
00:47:13,480 --> 00:47:16,110
I didn't feel the particular urge
to talk to anybody
782
00:47:16,190 --> 00:47:17,650
and then I saw you walk in.
783
00:47:17,730 --> 00:47:21,740
You are like a treasure.
I have found a treasure.
784
00:47:21,820 --> 00:47:23,280
Something came over me,
785
00:47:23,360 --> 00:47:26,200
this unbelievable urge
to come over here and talk to you.
786
00:47:26,280 --> 00:47:28,780
I am Aladdin and this is my lamp.
787
00:47:28,870 --> 00:47:31,620
I wished for you and here you are.
788
00:47:33,040 --> 00:47:38,000
-You"re like a poet, dude.
-No, it's you who are the poet.
789
00:47:38,090 --> 00:47:41,300
Your face is like Ginsberg
790
00:47:41,380 --> 00:47:43,720
or Wilde or even Hawthorne.
791
00:47:43,800 --> 00:47:47,300
Great fucking party! Fuck, yeah!
792
00:47:47,390 --> 00:47:49,510
What are you?
793
00:47:50,180 --> 00:47:53,560
I'm an ant
staring up at a human being.
794
00:47:53,640 --> 00:47:57,860
I wait with great intensity
to be squashed by you.
795
00:48:00,270 --> 00:48:04,320
You wanna--?
Who the fuck threw that?
796
00:48:04,860 --> 00:48:06,320
Great fucking party!
797
00:48:25,970 --> 00:48:27,470
The fight. What does it mean
798
00:48:27,550 --> 00:48:29,890
and where does it come from?
An essay.
799
00:48:30,640 --> 00:48:34,930
Homo sapien. A man.
He is alone in the universe.
800
00:48:35,020 --> 00:48:37,310
A punker. Still a man.
801
00:48:37,390 --> 00:48:41,440
He is alone in the universe.
But he connects. How?
802
00:48:41,520 --> 00:48:43,570
They hit each other.
803
00:48:43,650 --> 00:48:46,860
No clearer way to evaluate
whether or not you're alive.
804
00:48:47,360 --> 00:48:50,120
Now, complications.
805
00:48:50,200 --> 00:48:53,330
A reason to fight:
Somebody different.
806
00:48:53,990 --> 00:48:58,210
Difference creates dispute.
Dispute is a reason to fight.
807
00:48:58,290 --> 00:49:02,130
Now, to fight is a reason to feel pain.
Life is pain.
808
00:49:02,210 --> 00:49:07,010
So to fight with reason
is to be alive with reason.
809
00:49:07,090 --> 00:49:11,140
Final analysis.
To fight, a reason to live.
810
00:49:11,220 --> 00:49:13,930
Problems and contradictions:
I am an anarchist.
811
00:49:14,010 --> 00:49:16,680
I believe that there should be
no rules, only chaos.
812
00:49:16,770 --> 00:49:20,480
Fighting appears to be chaos and
when we slam in a pit at a show, it is.
813
00:49:20,560 --> 00:49:24,110
But when we fight for a reason,
like rednecks, there is a system.
814
00:49:24,190 --> 00:49:27,360
We fight for what we stand for, chaos.
But fighting is a structure.
815
00:49:27,440 --> 00:49:30,700
Fighting is to establish power,
power is government
816
00:49:30,780 --> 00:49:32,580
and government is not anarchy.
817
00:49:32,660 --> 00:49:34,740
Government is war
and war is fighting.
818
00:49:34,830 --> 00:49:37,330
The circle goes like this:
Our redneck skirmishes
819
00:49:37,410 --> 00:49:39,920
are cheaper versions
of conventional warfare.
820
00:49:40,000 --> 00:49:41,580
War implies extreme government
821
00:49:41,670 --> 00:49:45,340
because wars are fought to
enforce rules or ideals, even freedom.
822
00:49:45,420 --> 00:49:47,840
But other people's ideals
forced on someone else,
823
00:49:47,920 --> 00:49:50,840
even if it is something like freedom,
is still a rule,
824
00:49:50,930 --> 00:49:52,470
not anarchy.
825
00:49:52,550 --> 00:49:55,760
This contradiction was becoming
clear to me in the fall of '85.
826
00:49:55,850 --> 00:49:58,680
Even as early as my first party,
why did I love to fight?
827
00:49:58,770 --> 00:50:01,480
I framed it,
but I still don't understand it.
828
00:50:01,560 --> 00:50:05,770
It goes against my beliefs as
a true anarchist, but there it was.
829
00:50:05,860 --> 00:50:09,950
Competition, fighting, capitalism,
government, the system.
830
00:50:10,030 --> 00:50:11,860
It's what we did,
what we always did.
831
00:50:11,950 --> 00:50:14,910
Rednecks kicked the shit
out of punks. Punks, mods.
832
00:50:14,990 --> 00:50:17,620
Mods, skinheads. Skinheads
took out the heavy-metal guys.
833
00:50:17,700 --> 00:50:20,290
Heavy-metal guys beat
the shit out of new wavers
834
00:50:20,370 --> 00:50:23,330
and the new wavers did nothing.
They were the new hippies.
835
00:50:23,420 --> 00:50:25,420
What was the point?
Final summation?
836
00:50:26,500 --> 00:50:27,550
None.
837
00:50:39,770 --> 00:50:42,770
So I'll just close up
if you guys give me a second.
838
00:50:44,810 --> 00:50:48,900
Dude, she's, like--
Like, responsible, you know?
839
00:50:48,980 --> 00:50:51,110
She's a businesswoman.
Owns her own store.
840
00:50:51,200 --> 00:50:53,700
She's making a contribution
to society.
841
00:50:53,780 --> 00:50:57,200
Bob, she owns a head shop.
She sells bongs, Bob.
842
00:50:57,280 --> 00:50:59,580
No, no, no. It's not what you sell.
843
00:51:01,120 --> 00:51:04,170
Why do you gotta be so cynical?
Why don't you grow up?
844
00:51:06,420 --> 00:51:07,840
You bitch.
845
00:51:07,920 --> 00:51:10,840
-Hey, Mark.
-Hey. Great party last week.
846
00:51:10,920 --> 00:51:15,180
-We aim to please.
-Animals. I've always loved animals.
847
00:51:15,260 --> 00:51:17,350
It was a little violent at the end.
848
00:51:17,430 --> 00:51:20,680
Violent? Look who's talking,
Mr. NRA.
849
00:51:20,770 --> 00:51:22,480
What are you doing here?
850
00:51:22,560 --> 00:51:24,770
Well, actually,
I came by to say I'm off.
851
00:51:24,850 --> 00:51:27,190
-Where are you going?
-I'm going to Miami.
852
00:51:27,270 --> 00:51:30,440
-What the hell is in Miami?
-Hell is in Miami.
853
00:51:30,530 --> 00:51:33,900
Don't worry, I'll be back.
You can always count on that.
854
00:51:33,990 --> 00:51:37,320
Why would you ever come back
to a place like this, man?
855
00:51:37,410 --> 00:51:41,370
It's like any other place, Bob.
People, houses, roads, cars.
856
00:51:41,450 --> 00:51:43,250
What else do you think is out there?
857
00:51:43,330 --> 00:51:46,000
-Freedom.
-Yeah.
858
00:51:46,080 --> 00:51:47,380
Freedom.
859
00:51:48,000 --> 00:51:49,880
It's not out there.
860
00:51:49,960 --> 00:51:53,760
Freedom is another way
of saying death.
861
00:51:53,840 --> 00:51:55,380
You know what I mean?
862
00:51:56,090 --> 00:51:59,350
You're pretty fucking weird, man.
You know that?
863
00:52:00,510 --> 00:52:03,180
-I'm off.
-All right, man. See you.
864
00:52:03,270 --> 00:52:05,350
Hey, Mark, if you ever get lonely
865
00:52:05,440 --> 00:52:07,690
or if you ever need someone
to talk to,
866
00:52:08,360 --> 00:52:10,570
Bob's there for you.
867
00:52:10,650 --> 00:52:11,940
Hey, Stevo.
868
00:52:12,820 --> 00:52:14,070
Fuck you.
869
00:52:14,150 --> 00:52:15,780
That was the last
we saw of Mark.
870
00:52:15,860 --> 00:52:18,660
Never came back from Florida,
if that's where he was going.
871
00:52:18,740 --> 00:52:19,870
Rumor flew around
872
00:52:19,950 --> 00:52:23,750
that he had died in a plane crash
like he was supposed to years ago.
873
00:52:23,830 --> 00:52:26,620
Anyways, that was Salt Lake.
People came in and they went out.
874
00:52:26,710 --> 00:52:31,630
-Oh, no. Fuck you.
-Fuck you.
875
00:52:32,210 --> 00:52:34,880
So, Trish, are we hanging out later?
876
00:52:34,970 --> 00:52:37,630
I'll tell you what, Bob.
You're coming with me.
877
00:52:37,720 --> 00:52:40,470
- I am??
-That's right.
878
00:52:40,550 --> 00:52:43,140
-I own you now.
-Oh, yeah. That's right.
879
00:52:43,220 --> 00:52:46,890
I forgot to tell you.
I sold myself to Trish for 36 bucks.
880
00:52:46,980 --> 00:52:50,310
Thirty-six bucks?
Wow, Trish, that's a good deal.
881
00:52:50,900 --> 00:52:52,520
Salt Lake City.
882
00:52:53,190 --> 00:52:54,900
Land of the dead sea.
883
00:52:55,990 --> 00:53:00,490
Zion, as the Mormons call it.
It really is the Holy Land.
884
00:53:03,910 --> 00:53:05,540
See you, Stevo.
885
00:53:15,050 --> 00:53:17,050
You can't afford me, old man.
886
00:53:20,050 --> 00:53:23,100
-How are things going these days?
-Not so bad.
887
00:53:23,180 --> 00:53:25,970
-How are the ladies treating you?
-The ladies?
888
00:53:27,430 --> 00:53:31,360
I tell you, the women in this town
are so miserable.
889
00:53:31,440 --> 00:53:33,270
I'd give anything to get the hell out.
890
00:53:33,360 --> 00:53:36,990
You know, you gave up a good thing
in my mother, sir.
891
00:53:37,070 --> 00:53:38,570
Maybe so.
892
00:53:38,650 --> 00:53:40,610
So, good news.
893
00:53:42,410 --> 00:53:44,490
The world is coming to its end?
894
00:53:44,580 --> 00:53:47,160
-Better.
-Shit.
895
00:53:47,250 --> 00:53:49,710
Better than that?
The people are revolting.
896
00:53:49,790 --> 00:53:51,210
-You...
-Yeah?
897
00:53:51,290 --> 00:53:54,670
...have been invited
to attend Harvard Law School.
898
00:53:55,750 --> 00:53:56,800
Yeah.
899
00:53:58,050 --> 00:54:03,140
Dad, you and I really gotta work
on your definition of "good news."
900
00:54:03,220 --> 00:54:07,390
Steven, this is great news.
You've already gone through prelaw.
901
00:54:07,470 --> 00:54:10,600
Why not finish the process,
and in the best possible way?
902
00:54:11,650 --> 00:54:13,560
That's so funny,
because, gosh, Father,
903
00:54:13,650 --> 00:54:16,280
don't even remember
applying to Harvard Law.
904
00:54:16,360 --> 00:54:19,320
- I applied for you.
-You mean you signed my name?
905
00:54:19,400 --> 00:54:23,200
-Yeah.
-Hey, congratulations, old man.
906
00:54:23,280 --> 00:54:26,580
Hope you enjoy your second tour
of Harvard Law School.
907
00:54:27,660 --> 00:54:30,460
Steven. What, are you gonna
walk around like this forever?
908
00:54:30,540 --> 00:54:34,500
You went to school, you got
great grades, and what else is there?
909
00:54:34,590 --> 00:54:37,090
I cheated, Dad.
I cheated all through college.
910
00:54:37,170 --> 00:54:40,470
Oh, that's right.
Yeah, you cheated. But why?
911
00:54:40,550 --> 00:54:43,050
You obviously cared enough
about your grades to do well.
912
00:54:43,140 --> 00:54:46,100
See, I know you, Steve.
You're just like me.
913
00:54:46,180 --> 00:54:48,640
I'm like you maybe,
but not completely.
914
00:54:48,720 --> 00:54:50,230
Then why prelaw?
915
00:54:50,310 --> 00:54:54,860
Why not liberal science?
Why go at all?
916
00:54:54,940 --> 00:54:56,820
I studied law
because I wanted to learn
917
00:54:56,900 --> 00:54:59,940
how completely full of shit
your life's ambition was.
918
00:55:00,030 --> 00:55:02,280
That's crazy, you know that.
919
00:55:02,360 --> 00:55:06,240
You know what I think it is?
I think you've become a fascist.
920
00:55:06,330 --> 00:55:08,790
-A fascist?
-You're a Nazi.
921
00:55:08,870 --> 00:55:10,910
Nazi. I'm Jewish.
How can I be a Nazi?
922
00:55:11,000 --> 00:55:14,630
That's the worst. Dad, look at this.
What kind of car is this?
923
00:55:14,710 --> 00:55:15,920
This would be a Porsche.
924
00:55:16,000 --> 00:55:18,550
A Porsche that you bought
at a Volkswagen dealership.
925
00:55:18,630 --> 00:55:21,170
Volkswagen.
926
00:55:21,260 --> 00:55:23,510
You know, right?
For the people. Who designed it?
927
00:55:23,590 --> 00:55:26,720
Who made that possible?
Let me give you a hint. Adolf Hitler.
928
00:55:26,800 --> 00:55:28,970
-It's just a car, okay?
-Yeah, absolutely.
929
00:55:29,060 --> 00:55:30,930
I completely understand that point.
930
00:55:31,020 --> 00:55:33,850
But it's a car that was built,
designed and created
931
00:55:33,940 --> 00:55:36,610
on the blood and pain
of your people.
932
00:55:36,690 --> 00:55:38,730
-Let me take you to lunch.
-Okay.
933
00:55:40,900 --> 00:55:42,150
Hang on.
934
00:55:43,990 --> 00:55:47,370
My dad wasn't all bad.
He just, you know, had no clue.
935
00:55:47,450 --> 00:55:48,910
I liked to bust his balls.
936
00:55:48,990 --> 00:55:52,500
What pissed me off, though,
was he was right about one thing.
937
00:55:52,580 --> 00:55:55,420
Why'd I do so well in school?
I didn't want to.
938
00:55:55,500 --> 00:55:58,460
I mean, I tried not to give a shit.
I knew it was all bullshit
939
00:55:58,540 --> 00:56:01,880
and they were just trying to mold me
into cannon fodder for their wars.
940
00:56:01,960 --> 00:56:04,720
And I knew
that meaning lie elsewhere.
941
00:56:04,800 --> 00:56:07,970
But somehow [ studied,
and somehow I got the grades
942
00:56:08,050 --> 00:56:12,270
and now somehow I was accepted
to a fucking Ivy [League school.
943
00:56:12,350 --> 00:56:14,810
Last place on the planet
for a guy like me.
944
00:56:14,890 --> 00:56:18,190
I mean, I wouldn't go there
unless it was to set it on fire.
945
00:56:18,270 --> 00:56:22,320
Hey, what are you staring at?
Did you get a good picture?
946
00:56:22,900 --> 00:56:25,450
There was this issue of
a lifelong struggle with poverty
947
00:56:25,530 --> 00:56:27,780
which was beginning
to cause reflection
948
00:56:27,860 --> 00:56:30,530
after I ran into someone
from my past a few days earlier.
949
00:56:30,620 --> 00:56:33,700
You guys wouldn't happen to have
a dollar or a little something?
950
00:56:33,790 --> 00:56:35,460
Yeah, I got something.
951
00:56:36,290 --> 00:56:38,080
Oh, shit. Sean.
952
00:56:38,170 --> 00:56:41,670
-Yeah?
-Hey, it's me, Stevo.
953
00:56:42,590 --> 00:56:45,300
-Bob.
-No, Stevo.
954
00:56:45,380 --> 00:56:47,630
Stevo. How you doing, man?
955
00:56:47,720 --> 00:56:50,510
There you go. You have
no idea who I am, do you?
956
00:56:50,600 --> 00:56:52,390
Remember?
High school. Mohawk.
957
00:56:52,470 --> 00:56:54,350
Yeah, you had the fucking mohawk.
958
00:56:54,430 --> 00:56:56,440
-Yeah. Punk.
-How you doing?
959
00:56:56,520 --> 00:56:58,940
Good. How are you doing?
960
00:56:59,020 --> 00:57:02,690
-I heard they put you away.
-But they let me out. I'm a free man.
961
00:57:02,770 --> 00:57:05,860
Oh, hey, this is Sandy.
962
00:57:05,940 --> 00:57:07,780
Sandy, this is Sean.
Sean, this is Sandy.
963
00:57:07,860 --> 00:57:09,030
-Hi.
-Hi.
964
00:57:09,110 --> 00:57:11,070
-Nice to meet you.
-Likewise.
965
00:57:11,160 --> 00:57:12,990
So, what you been
doing with yourself, man?
966
00:57:13,080 --> 00:57:16,580
Oh, man, I'm a fucking beggar now.
It fucking sucks.
967
00:57:17,370 --> 00:57:20,710
-Wow, you should get a job.
- I tried that.
968
00:57:20,790 --> 00:57:23,460
I fucking tried that. Okay?
969
00:57:30,720 --> 00:57:33,760
-Hey!
- I gotta go.
970
00:57:35,390 --> 00:57:38,810
-Can I help you?
-Yeah, I called about the job.
971
00:57:38,890 --> 00:57:42,190
-You called?
-Yeah, I wanna sell clothes.
972
00:57:42,270 --> 00:57:43,940
Women's clothes.
973
00:57:44,020 --> 00:57:47,400
I don't know.
Have you had experience?
974
00:57:47,490 --> 00:57:49,910
-With what?
-Women's clothes.
975
00:57:50,860 --> 00:57:53,410
What the fuck would I be doing
in women's clothes?
976
00:57:54,240 --> 00:57:58,040
What do I look like, a transvestite?
I'm not no fucking transvestite.
977
00:57:58,120 --> 00:58:01,830
No, no, no. I mean,
have you ever worked in retail?
978
00:58:03,090 --> 00:58:06,250
You know, selling clothes.
979
00:58:06,340 --> 00:58:09,420
Well, if I was selling clothes already,
what would I be doing here?
980
00:58:09,510 --> 00:58:12,720
I really don't think this is the right way
to start a working relationship.
981
00:58:12,800 --> 00:58:16,810
You got a real bad attitude, lady.
In fact, I don't even want your job.
982
00:58:16,890 --> 00:58:20,730
I don't care how much you'd pay me
because I got integrity.
983
00:58:20,810 --> 00:58:22,310
In-fucking-tegrity!
984
00:58:25,150 --> 00:58:27,900
It's like impossible. It really is.
It's like the hardest thing.
985
00:58:27,980 --> 00:58:30,570
-There's nothing out there for me.
-That's really tough.
986
00:58:30,650 --> 00:58:32,450
And I'm a bum now.
That's what I do.
987
00:58:34,490 --> 00:58:36,240
-Here, man.
-Oh, hey.
988
00:58:36,870 --> 00:58:38,580
Thanks.
989
00:58:38,660 --> 00:58:40,580
-What about your parents?
-My parents?
990
00:58:40,660 --> 00:58:44,420
Oh, you mean my mom.
My mom is scared of me.
991
00:58:44,500 --> 00:58:46,670
She won't even let me in the house.
It's not like
992
00:58:46,750 --> 00:58:49,300
I killed anybody
or hurt anybody, you know.
993
00:58:49,380 --> 00:58:53,140
-It's just, you know, she's scared.
-Yeah.
994
00:58:54,590 --> 00:58:56,470
Hey, you know what?
We gotta get out of here.
995
00:58:56,560 --> 00:58:59,810
I couldn't even look at the guy.
I felt a pain in my stomach.
996
00:58:59,890 --> 00:59:00,980
Take it easy.
997
00:59:01,060 --> 00:59:04,310
I didn't like it so I turned my back,
just like everybody else.
998
00:59:04,400 --> 00:59:06,610
-I'll see you guys in the rebound.
-On the rebound.
999
00:59:06,690 --> 00:59:11,320
Right. On the rebound. On the fuck--
On the fucking re--
1000
00:59:11,400 --> 00:59:15,620
It really fucked me up.
Not Sean, but turning my back.
1001
00:59:15,700 --> 00:59:17,620
Ignoring the truth.
1002
00:59:17,700 --> 00:59:20,410
So what did I do? I dropped acid
with Sandy in Highland Park
1003
00:59:20,500 --> 00:59:22,870
as to further ignore the truth.
1004
00:59:22,960 --> 00:59:26,880
This shit is good. I got it from Trish.
Trish got it from Mark.
1005
00:59:26,960 --> 00:59:29,460
That's a weird couple,
Bob and Trish.
1006
00:59:29,550 --> 00:59:32,840
-Do you think they're in love?
-Don't know.
1007
00:59:32,920 --> 00:59:34,930
I'll have to ask him that.
1008
00:59:35,010 --> 00:59:37,350
-It's weird.
-What's that?
1009
00:59:37,430 --> 00:59:40,220
The park is so dead.
1010
00:59:40,310 --> 00:59:42,890
-This town is dead.
-It's what?
1011
00:59:42,980 --> 00:59:47,560
It's dead. Dead, dead, dead.
1012
00:59:47,650 --> 00:59:50,230
-Maybe we're dead.
-Wouldn't that be nice?
1013
00:59:50,320 --> 00:59:52,650
That's the canyon
where the devil worshipers go.
1014
00:59:52,740 --> 00:59:53,990
You wanna check it out?
1015
00:59:57,530 --> 00:59:58,870
Look at the colors.
1016
00:59:58,950 --> 01:00:02,040
You know, before the--
You know, before the--
1017
01:00:02,120 --> 01:00:04,330
Before the Mormons
settled this valley
1018
01:00:04,410 --> 01:00:06,420
this is where
the Donner Party came through.
1019
01:00:06,500 --> 01:00:08,250
-Cannibals?
-Yeah, the cannibals.
1020
01:00:08,340 --> 01:00:10,000
Two families. Two families.
1021
01:00:10,090 --> 01:00:13,300
The head of the one family was right.
He said, "We should go south.
1022
01:00:13,380 --> 01:00:15,010
We shouldn't go over the mountains.
1023
01:00:15,090 --> 01:00:17,760
We should go down around
the Sierras and get to California.”
1024
01:00:17,840 --> 01:00:19,550
But they got in this fight,
and this guy
1025
01:00:19,640 --> 01:00:22,350
ended up killing one of the members
of the Donner Party.
1026
01:00:22,430 --> 01:00:24,020
There was a raging battle.
1027
01:00:24,100 --> 01:00:27,650
They kicked him out. Outcast.
By himself, alone in the wilderness.
1028
01:00:27,730 --> 01:00:31,320
He did it. He went south, around
the Sierras to California by himself.
1029
01:00:31,400 --> 01:00:33,690
Alone in the wilderness,
to be by himself.
1030
01:00:33,780 --> 01:00:36,530
It was actually him. That guy.
That guy came back
1031
01:00:36,610 --> 01:00:38,410
and he saved
the Donner Party's ass
1032
01:00:38,490 --> 01:00:40,580
when they got snowed in.
1033
01:00:40,660 --> 01:00:43,870
Stevo! Come here.
1034
01:00:54,420 --> 01:00:56,220
Help me. I'm dying.
1035
01:00:57,260 --> 01:01:00,300
Feel me. Look. I'm--
All right? I'm just right here.
1036
01:01:00,390 --> 01:01:04,220
I'm right here. Feel, all right?
Do you feel me? That's it.
1037
01:01:04,310 --> 01:01:06,430
They just threw him out
for him to die.
1038
01:01:06,520 --> 01:01:09,980
They threw him out while they're
sitting there eating themselves--
1039
01:01:20,910 --> 01:01:22,410
I can see everything!
1040
01:01:25,910 --> 01:01:28,540
What the fuck is happening to me?
1041
01:01:29,370 --> 01:01:32,290
-No, I'm not.
-Yes, you're dying.
1042
01:01:32,380 --> 01:01:36,260
Why are you always dying?
Why is everyone dying?
1043
01:01:45,220 --> 01:01:47,310
I think the world will really end.
1044
01:01:47,390 --> 01:01:50,480
-Why do you say that?
-There's no place else for it to go.
1045
01:01:50,560 --> 01:01:53,480
You're right.
But when's it gonna end?
1046
01:01:53,570 --> 01:01:56,070
-That I can't tell you.
-No, that you must tell me.
1047
01:01:56,150 --> 01:01:57,400
I can't.
1048
01:01:57,490 --> 01:02:01,570
Come on, little kooky surprise.
Come with us!
1049
01:02:02,410 --> 01:02:04,330
-Please tell me.
- I can show you.
1050
01:02:10,540 --> 01:02:14,670
-See it? It's beautiful, right?
-As beautiful as it can be.
1051
01:02:15,630 --> 01:02:18,630
I guess. Beautiful like you.
1052
01:02:18,720 --> 01:02:20,590
You wanna see
something else beautiful?
1053
01:02:21,090 --> 01:02:22,300
Sure.
1054
01:02:28,730 --> 01:02:32,230
Beauty's the end, Stevo. The end.
1055
01:02:45,410 --> 01:02:47,700
The question lingered in my mind
about Bob and Trish.
1056
01:02:47,790 --> 01:02:50,460
Were they in love?
So I thought I'd just ask outright.
1057
01:02:50,540 --> 01:02:52,920
-You guys in love?
-Who?
1058
01:02:53,000 --> 01:02:56,750
-You and Trish.
- I don't know.
1059
01:02:56,840 --> 01:03:00,170
- I have to think about that.
-It's not really a thinking question.
1060
01:03:00,260 --> 01:03:02,300
Well, you know, I...
1061
01:03:02,380 --> 01:03:05,430
I worship her and all.
She's like a goddess, you know.
1062
01:03:05,510 --> 01:03:07,220
If she died, I'd die.
1063
01:03:07,310 --> 01:03:10,930
If she told me to cut off my left arm,
I'd probably do it.
1064
01:03:11,020 --> 01:03:13,940
If she told me to lick a cop's asshole,
I'd probably do it.
1065
01:03:14,020 --> 01:03:18,980
-All right, all right, I get it.
-30, yeah, I guess I love Trish.
1066
01:03:19,070 --> 01:03:21,490
It's weird, man.
I never thought I'd fall in love.
1067
01:03:21,570 --> 01:03:23,320
Yeah, I was just wondering.
1068
01:03:24,610 --> 01:03:27,240
-Always thought you were a poser.
-Why am I a poser?
1069
01:03:27,330 --> 01:03:28,580
You fell in love with a girl.
1070
01:03:28,660 --> 01:03:30,580
Only posers fall in love,
SO you're a poser.
1071
01:03:30,660 --> 01:03:34,120
-All right, fine. I guess I'm a poser.
-That's what I said. You're a poser.
1072
01:03:38,380 --> 01:03:41,760
Bob. I don't really think
you're a poser.
1073
01:03:42,300 --> 01:03:45,340
- I was just busting on you.
-No, I know, I know.
1074
01:03:45,430 --> 01:03:47,390
I didn't think you thought I was.
1075
01:03:50,970 --> 01:03:53,690
Where were we going?
I mean, really, what was happening?
1076
01:03:53,770 --> 01:03:57,110
This life, it was crazy.
And I felt tired.
1077
01:03:57,190 --> 01:04:00,190
Halfway through the season,
I just felt inside I was so tired
1078
01:04:00,280 --> 01:04:03,570
and I had this wave of melancholy
1079
01:04:03,650 --> 01:04:07,990
just, like, sweep through me
and this impending sense
1080
01:04:08,070 --> 01:04:13,040
that my philosophies, anarchy,
was falling apart.
1081
01:04:13,120 --> 01:04:15,710
What do you do when your
foundation falls apart? I don't know.
1082
01:04:15,790 --> 01:04:17,630
They don't teach you that in school.
1083
01:04:18,330 --> 01:04:20,670
Then there was this party at Chris's.
1084
01:04:20,750 --> 01:04:25,300
Chris lived on the outskirts of town
in suburbia, surrounded by Mormons.
1085
01:04:25,380 --> 01:04:28,180
His house was like a commune.
I told you about Chris earlier.
1086
01:04:28,260 --> 01:04:31,640
At that first party
he had that sister Jennifer, red hair.
1087
01:04:31,720 --> 01:04:35,390
Remember her?
Really sexy-like, carnivore.
1088
01:04:37,900 --> 01:04:39,900
You remember, right? This is Jen.
1089
01:04:39,980 --> 01:04:42,150
-Stevo. Stevo, how you doing?
-Good. How you doing?
1090
01:04:42,230 --> 01:04:45,700
Great. Great. I'm really doing--
I'm really doing well. Really.
1091
01:04:45,780 --> 01:04:48,820
-God, what are you on tonight?
-Nothing. That's exactly my point.
1092
01:04:48,910 --> 01:04:51,660
I stopped taking my medications
and everything just--
1093
01:04:51,740 --> 01:04:52,990
It feels so much better.
1094
01:04:53,080 --> 01:04:56,960
Chris told me to stop taking them
because then I would believe in God
1095
01:04:57,040 --> 01:04:58,670
and that, like, I would dissolve.
1096
01:04:58,750 --> 01:05:00,840
And so I stopped
because I'm really superstitious.
1097
01:05:00,920 --> 01:05:03,590
Everything is so much clearer
right now.
1098
01:05:03,670 --> 01:05:05,420
-Seriously. So pure, you know?
-Right.
1099
01:05:05,510 --> 01:05:08,380
This is Jen,
looking a lot like Ophelia tonight.
1100
01:05:08,470 --> 01:05:11,720
So Chris's house was kind of like
a commune. All the regulars were there.
1101
01:05:11,810 --> 01:05:14,640
Freaky Deaky,
Bob was hanging out with Trish.
1102
01:05:14,720 --> 01:05:17,690
Then there was Mike. He was quiet
all night, just sat in the corner.
1103
01:05:17,770 --> 01:05:20,860
The whole party was weird.
This vibe was going on. Strange night.
1104
01:05:20,940 --> 01:05:24,070
Stevo, I see things clearly,
like my brother sees them.
1105
01:05:24,150 --> 01:05:27,070
-Where's your brother?
-He's downstairs just talking.
1106
01:05:27,150 --> 01:05:29,200
They talk all the time
and it's so lame--
1107
01:05:29,280 --> 01:05:32,370
-Right. I wanna go talk.
-No, no, no.
1108
01:05:34,580 --> 01:05:36,000
Hey.
1109
01:05:43,290 --> 01:05:45,210
It's Stevo.
1110
01:05:47,550 --> 01:05:50,220
Hey, Chris. Definitely a hippie.
1111
01:05:50,300 --> 01:05:52,300
There you-- There you go.
1112
01:05:52,390 --> 01:05:54,180
I can't tell you how good it is
to see you.
1113
01:05:54,260 --> 01:05:58,390
-Yeah, it's good to see you, Chris.
-My heart has been so heavy, Stevo.
1114
01:06:03,440 --> 01:06:04,820
That's a mighty nice hookah.
1115
01:06:04,900 --> 01:06:08,570
Yeah, I've been trying to get stoned,
but it won't happen.
1116
01:06:08,650 --> 01:06:10,410
I've been smoking since I was born.
1117
01:06:10,490 --> 01:06:12,660
Why'd you tell Jennifer
to get off her medication?
1118
01:06:12,740 --> 01:06:16,660
You know she completely is out of her
mind when she's off her medication.
1119
01:06:16,740 --> 01:06:19,790
Isn't she beautiful?
I mean, have you seen her gown?
1120
01:06:19,870 --> 01:06:22,920
That's my sister.
She's not a lithium Barbie doll.
1121
01:06:23,000 --> 01:06:25,250
-She needs to be who she is.
-Yes.
1122
01:06:25,340 --> 01:06:27,090
And she should be who she is.
1123
01:06:27,170 --> 01:06:29,260
-But who she is--
-Is evaporating.
1124
01:06:29,340 --> 01:06:31,680
Well, I don't think she really knows
who she is.
1125
01:06:31,760 --> 01:06:34,930
I think we're starting to talk
about pain here, Stevo.
1126
01:06:35,010 --> 01:06:36,930
A human being
must go through pain.
1127
01:06:37,020 --> 01:06:39,560
-What is Jones doing?
-Satanic bible.
1128
01:06:39,640 --> 01:06:43,940
I'm gonna prove there's no Satan.
He doesn't exist!
1129
01:06:44,020 --> 01:06:47,230
He's going to try to summon the beast
tonight at midnight
1130
01:06:47,320 --> 01:06:49,990
and he isn't going to come.
When he doesn't come
1131
01:06:50,070 --> 01:06:52,910
Jones will have proved
that science is the only truth.
1132
01:06:52,990 --> 01:06:56,410
-Have you met my other sister?
-There's a lightning storm coming.
1133
01:06:56,490 --> 01:06:59,080
I need to get a picture of it.
Hi, Stevo.
1134
01:06:59,160 --> 01:07:02,580
-That's my sister.
-Your whole family is a little strange.
1135
01:07:02,670 --> 01:07:05,420
Yes, but we are strange.
1136
01:07:05,500 --> 01:07:07,300
-Let's speak of anarchy.
-Yeah.
1137
01:07:07,380 --> 01:07:10,130
So we started our debate.
This was our custom.
1138
01:07:10,210 --> 01:07:12,880
He believed in structure,
I believed in chaos.
1139
01:07:12,970 --> 01:07:15,350
It was an ongoing fight.
He seemed to be winning.
1140
01:07:15,430 --> 01:07:17,430
Parties are like this in Salt Lake
for us punks.
1141
01:07:17,510 --> 01:07:19,350
The days would pass.
There would be a party
1142
01:07:19,430 --> 01:07:21,180
and then a fight,
then another day.
1143
01:07:21,270 --> 01:07:24,650
This was the cycle.
It was getting old, though.
1144
01:07:24,730 --> 01:07:26,650
I was feeling old.
1145
01:07:26,730 --> 01:07:29,650
Anyway, it was a weird night.
1146
01:07:34,490 --> 01:07:39,950
The school of science says the world
moves from order to disorder. Chaos.
1147
01:07:40,040 --> 01:07:41,620
They're fools, Stevo.
1148
01:07:41,700 --> 01:07:46,830
I mean, you know, life goes
from order to disorder to order.
1149
01:07:46,920 --> 01:07:49,380
Atoms come together randomly
to form a structure.
1150
01:07:49,460 --> 01:07:51,380
-An infant is born--
-A child, yeah.
1151
01:07:51,460 --> 01:07:55,430
A child, exactly. It grows,
it gets older, it dies, it decomposes...
1152
01:07:55,510 --> 01:07:57,720
-Exactly.
-...back to the ground and into chaos.
1153
01:07:57,800 --> 01:07:59,890
-Nothing. Exactly. Anarchy.
-Right--
1154
01:07:59,970 --> 01:08:04,190
But then those atoms
are reformed into something else.
1155
01:08:04,270 --> 01:08:07,810
A blade of grass, a tree,
a flower, whatever.
1156
01:08:07,900 --> 01:08:09,900
-The cycle, man.
- I got it.
1157
01:08:13,900 --> 01:08:15,410
Stevo.
1158
01:08:16,660 --> 01:08:18,240
The cycle, man.
1159
01:08:20,410 --> 01:08:23,450
Yeah, I get you. The cycle.
1160
01:08:24,660 --> 01:08:28,250
The time is now. I'm gonna go out
and I'm gonna prove
1161
01:08:28,330 --> 01:08:32,130
that all your faith and
all your prayers are unfounded!
1162
01:08:32,630 --> 01:08:33,920
You coming?
1163
01:08:34,010 --> 01:08:36,760
-Is he serious?
-He's always serious, Stevo.
1164
01:08:36,840 --> 01:08:39,930
I'm gonna go watch.
I'll see you later.
1165
01:08:40,850 --> 01:08:43,980
- I treasure these talks, Stevo.
-Not as much as I do.
1166
01:08:44,060 --> 01:08:46,980
We've got science to celebrate
and demons to dispel.
1167
01:08:47,060 --> 01:08:48,810
Off your butt, Pippy. Come on!
1168
01:08:48,900 --> 01:08:51,480
We're gonna go show that science
is the only truth.
1169
01:08:51,570 --> 01:08:54,320
-Hey, dude. I think we're gonna cut.
-This makes me uncomfortable.
1170
01:08:54,400 --> 01:08:57,030
He shouldn't be playing
with something he doesn't know.
1171
01:08:57,110 --> 01:09:01,660
I don't blame you. I'll get a ride home
with Sandy. Have you guys seen her?
1172
01:09:01,740 --> 01:09:04,200
- I saw her in the back earlier.
-So did I.
1173
01:09:04,290 --> 01:09:07,210
-All right, I'll see you later.
-Okay.
1174
01:09:10,920 --> 01:09:11,960
What?
1175
01:09:13,760 --> 01:09:15,630
What? What do you want?
1176
01:09:21,220 --> 01:09:24,390
It wasn't that I loved Sandy.
I knew that we had an understanding.
1177
01:09:24,470 --> 01:09:26,180
I discovered then
that Chris was right.
1178
01:09:26,270 --> 01:09:28,230
All things had systems, even me.
1179
01:09:28,310 --> 01:09:30,230
I was about to
beat the shit out of this guy
1180
01:09:30,310 --> 01:09:31,940
because he had
invaded my territory.
1181
01:09:32,020 --> 01:09:35,860
It was my territory, no question
about it, just like in the wild.
1182
01:09:35,940 --> 01:09:38,070
I was following nature,
nature was order
1183
01:09:38,150 --> 01:09:40,280
and order is the system.
1184
01:09:40,360 --> 01:09:42,780
Stevo! Stevo!
1185
01:09:42,870 --> 01:09:46,200
-Shut the fuck up!
-Stop it! Stop it!
1186
01:09:46,830 --> 01:09:48,210
Stop it.
1187
01:09:48,290 --> 01:09:51,500
Get off me! Get the fuck off me!
1188
01:09:56,300 --> 01:10:00,930
You're such a fucking pussy.
What the fuck did you do that for?
1189
01:10:01,010 --> 01:10:02,930
Fuck you.
1190
01:10:07,680 --> 01:10:10,560
In the name of Satan,
ruler of the Earth
1191
01:10:10,650 --> 01:10:12,190
and king of the underworld,
1192
01:10:12,270 --> 01:10:16,030
I command the forces of darkness
to dispel their infernal...
1193
01:10:16,110 --> 01:10:19,030
Jones didn't need to prove
the devil did not exist,
1194
01:10:19,110 --> 01:10:24,080
not as a supernatural being,
because I had seen the devil.
1195
01:10:24,160 --> 01:10:25,490
He was in that room with Sandy.
1196
01:10:25,580 --> 01:10:27,250
He was me, he was Harvard,
1197
01:10:27,330 --> 01:10:29,870
he was my mom and dad,
he was all of us.
1198
01:10:29,960 --> 01:10:33,170
Jones was just making
all of this up anyway, so who cared?
1199
01:10:33,250 --> 01:10:36,500
"Fuck them," I thought.
"Fuck him, fuck this party
1200
01:10:36,590 --> 01:10:38,510
and fuck everything.
1201
01:10:38,590 --> 01:10:42,590
Above all, fuck anarchy."
1202
01:10:44,220 --> 01:10:46,760
I don't know.
We were, like, just kicking it,
1203
01:10:46,850 --> 01:10:49,140
smoking cigarettes.
1204
01:10:49,230 --> 01:10:53,230
And Trish had, like,
candy corn, dude, and...
1205
01:10:53,310 --> 01:10:56,020
We were just watching birds
and I was thinking.
1206
01:10:56,110 --> 01:10:57,360
I just started thinking,
1207
01:10:57,440 --> 01:11:00,440
you know, Salt Lake
ain't that bad, you know?
1208
01:11:00,530 --> 01:11:02,570
You know what I'm saying?
1209
01:11:02,660 --> 01:11:04,570
No, I mean, I know it sucks and all
1210
01:11:04,660 --> 01:11:08,910
but, you know, this is, like--
This is, like, home, you know?
1211
01:11:09,000 --> 01:11:10,870
Dude, what the fuck
are you talking about?
1212
01:11:10,960 --> 01:11:14,130
All I'm saying is that,
you know, if you think about it,
1213
01:11:14,210 --> 01:11:16,380
no matter where you go,
you gotta have a home.
1214
01:11:16,460 --> 01:11:20,170
And Salt Lake is,
like, you know-- It's home.
1215
01:11:24,760 --> 01:11:27,100
This place is never
gonna be my home.
1216
01:11:27,180 --> 01:11:31,020
-No, I'm just saying--
-You said what you were gonna say.
1217
01:11:32,640 --> 01:11:34,900
Get it? Now you fucking listen
to what I'm gonna say.
1218
01:11:34,980 --> 01:11:37,440
Look at this fucking place, all right?
It's a shithole!
1219
01:11:37,520 --> 01:11:40,650
Look out there, Bob,
and tell me what you see. Nothing.
1220
01:11:40,740 --> 01:11:43,200
Nothing piled upon fucking nothing.
1221
01:11:43,280 --> 01:11:46,450
It's like fucking Jesus Christ
took a shit and it landed right here.
1222
01:11:46,530 --> 01:11:49,870
So you can be happy
all you fucking want. All right?
1223
01:11:49,950 --> 01:11:52,910
See, I used to think we were alike,
we were similar.
1224
01:11:53,000 --> 01:11:54,670
We had something together, like this.
1225
01:11:54,750 --> 01:11:57,540
You know what I mean? We thought
alike, we felt the same way.
1226
01:11:57,630 --> 01:11:59,170
But you...
1227
01:11:59,750 --> 01:12:01,590
Fuck you.
1228
01:12:02,340 --> 01:12:05,890
Grow up, Bobby. All right?
Look around and grow up.
1229
01:12:06,890 --> 01:12:11,220
Because I swear to God, man,
I'll fucking write you off like that.
1230
01:12:12,730 --> 01:12:13,890
Fucking...
1231
01:12:13,980 --> 01:12:17,560
This is your home?
You know what? Fuck your home.
1232
01:12:29,780 --> 01:12:32,330
And this city was still the same.
Just look at it.
1233
01:12:32,410 --> 01:12:33,960
There's nothing going on.
1234
01:12:34,040 --> 01:12:37,790
That's what I saw when I looked out
over the city, nothing.
1235
01:12:37,880 --> 01:12:40,420
How the Mormon settlers
looked upon this valley
1236
01:12:40,500 --> 01:12:43,840
and felt that it was
the promised land is beyond me.
1237
01:12:43,920 --> 01:12:46,590
I don't know,
maybe it looked different back then.
1238
01:13:03,650 --> 01:13:06,030
I mean, look at this thing,
this temple.
1239
01:13:06,110 --> 01:13:07,490
When I was 7 and we moved here,
1240
01:13:07,570 --> 01:13:09,450
my mom and dad told me
this was Disneyland.
1241
01:13:09,530 --> 01:13:14,580
Rightfully so. Been living with Mickey,
Donald, Daffy, the whole crew since.
1242
01:13:14,660 --> 01:13:17,580
And now Mike, a good friend of mine,
was getting out.
1243
01:13:18,120 --> 01:13:19,170
What?
1244
01:13:19,250 --> 01:13:21,290
I'm leaving.
I'm going to Notre Dame.
1245
01:13:21,380 --> 01:13:26,050
-Mike, how could you do that?
-I'm 18. I gotta go to college.
1246
01:13:26,130 --> 01:13:28,260
Mike, I'm gonna miss you, man.
1247
01:13:28,340 --> 01:13:30,260
It's gonna suck around here
without you.
1248
01:13:30,340 --> 01:13:32,930
-What's your major gonna be, dude?
-Botany.
1249
01:13:33,010 --> 01:13:35,350
-What's that?
-Plants.
1250
01:13:35,430 --> 01:13:38,440
-You're gonna study plants?
-I wanna save the rain forests,
1251
01:13:38,520 --> 01:13:41,940
you know?
Somebody's gotta fight for them.
1252
01:13:45,900 --> 01:13:49,160
You believe this guy?
He's going off to save the plants.
1253
01:13:49,240 --> 01:13:54,200
This guy, he was one of the most
hard-core sons of bitches I ever met
1254
01:13:54,290 --> 01:13:57,200
and he's going off
to save the plants.
1255
01:13:57,290 --> 01:13:58,710
I mean.
1256
01:13:59,250 --> 01:14:01,880
I remember this time,
he was drunk
1257
01:14:01,960 --> 01:14:05,590
and he got the idea in his head
that all the cars on his block
1258
01:14:05,670 --> 01:14:08,510
would look better without windows.
1259
01:14:25,190 --> 01:14:27,030
Get down, bitch!
1260
01:14:27,860 --> 01:14:30,910
He took them all on, all of them.
They needed to call backup.
1261
01:14:30,990 --> 01:14:34,660
Finally they got him
in the back of a squad car.
1262
01:14:40,580 --> 01:14:42,170
The cops thought
he was on angel dust.
1263
01:14:42,250 --> 01:14:46,090
"The only way he could do it."
Not so. Just-- That was just Mike.
1264
01:14:46,170 --> 01:14:47,760
He broke those goddamn handcuffs,
1265
01:14:47,840 --> 01:14:49,800
kicked the window
out of the squad car, drunk.
1266
01:14:49,880 --> 01:14:53,890
That's it. Never got caught either.
Story was all over the papers.
1267
01:14:53,970 --> 01:14:58,810
It took weeks for us to get him to
admit that it was him that had done it.
1268
01:14:58,890 --> 01:15:00,890
Now he's going off to hug a tree.
1269
01:15:00,980 --> 01:15:03,230
I kind of knew it was the end.
1270
01:15:03,310 --> 01:15:07,570
All that was left was Bob and me.
Me and Bob. First two punks.
1271
01:15:07,650 --> 01:15:09,440
Last two punks.
1272
01:15:10,440 --> 01:15:13,610
Then again, I was getting
the impression I was all that was left.
1273
01:15:13,700 --> 01:15:15,240
Bob was in love.
1274
01:15:15,320 --> 01:15:18,620
Stevo, I wanna introduce you
to a young friend of mine.
1275
01:15:18,700 --> 01:15:20,660
I think you'd like her.
1276
01:15:20,750 --> 01:15:22,290
Yeah? Why do you think that?
1277
01:15:24,040 --> 01:15:25,170
I don't know.
1278
01:15:25,920 --> 01:15:27,380
She's smart
1279
01:15:28,090 --> 01:15:29,510
and she's ambitious.
1280
01:15:29,590 --> 01:15:32,720
-I'm not ambitious.
-Not yet, dude.
1281
01:15:34,590 --> 01:15:36,140
Stevo.
1282
01:15:37,810 --> 01:15:40,850
I love you, Bob loves you.
1283
01:15:43,270 --> 01:15:45,810
-What's the matter?
-Nothing.
1284
01:15:45,900 --> 01:15:47,940
Nothing's the matter.
I'm right as rain.
1285
01:15:48,020 --> 01:15:50,360
Dude, why are you always
depressed all the time?
1286
01:15:50,440 --> 01:15:52,030
I'm not depressed.
1287
01:15:54,780 --> 01:15:56,910
I think Sandy really got you.
1288
01:15:57,950 --> 01:15:59,160
No.
1289
01:16:00,620 --> 01:16:02,660
You know, dude, it's no big deal.
1290
01:16:04,120 --> 01:16:08,960
I'm, like-- You're like my brother
and I love you and all.
1291
01:16:09,040 --> 01:16:12,170
But what that fucking bitch did,
you should fucking kill her.
1292
01:16:12,260 --> 01:16:14,050
No, she had the right.
1293
01:16:14,130 --> 01:16:16,510
She had the right.
It was the agreement.
1294
01:16:16,590 --> 01:16:18,300
Just, you know...
1295
01:16:19,140 --> 01:16:20,970
should've been more careful.
1296
01:16:22,930 --> 01:16:27,230
-Stevo's got a big heart.
- I don't have a big heart, Trish.
1297
01:16:27,310 --> 01:16:29,360
I have a heart the size of a pea.
1298
01:16:30,690 --> 01:16:33,280
It's okay, though.
I mean, you guys are--
1299
01:16:34,740 --> 01:16:36,700
You guys are happy. That's okay.
1300
01:16:37,820 --> 01:16:40,160
Please, just don't pity me.
1301
01:16:40,990 --> 01:16:44,750
I get off on pain. Hey, Bob,
tell her I get off on pain, please.
1302
01:16:44,830 --> 01:16:46,920
Yeah, he does, you know.
1303
01:16:47,000 --> 01:16:50,210
I've mellowed out a lot,
but Stevo's fucking hard-core.
1304
01:16:51,710 --> 01:16:55,720
Hard-core or not,
I think he should meet Brandy.
1305
01:16:55,800 --> 01:16:58,720
She's having a party
at her parents' next week.
1306
01:16:58,800 --> 01:17:01,430
Yeah, she's a rich girl, dude.
1307
01:17:01,510 --> 01:17:02,850
That's okay.
1308
01:17:03,930 --> 01:17:05,680
I'm a rich boy, right?
1309
01:17:05,770 --> 01:17:08,980
Yeah, but, I mean,
you're a cool rich boy.
1310
01:17:09,060 --> 01:17:11,360
I don't know about that
anymore but...
1311
01:17:12,190 --> 01:17:14,610
Brandy. That sounds kind of fun.
1312
01:17:14,690 --> 01:17:15,900
Yeah?
1313
01:17:21,700 --> 01:17:22,990
See?
1314
01:17:24,040 --> 01:17:25,330
Nothing.
1315
01:17:26,210 --> 01:17:28,790
Miles of nothing. Just space.
1316
01:17:30,500 --> 01:17:32,920
You could fall in
and never come out.
1317
01:17:34,880 --> 01:17:36,800
So it came to this.
1318
01:17:36,880 --> 01:17:39,590
A blind date, my first.
1319
01:17:39,680 --> 01:17:42,470
What the hell? I didn't wanna let
them down. They were good people.
1320
01:17:42,560 --> 01:17:46,730
The thing was, I didn't need a date.
I needed an answer.
1321
01:17:46,810 --> 01:17:48,230
The year was a waste, all right,
1322
01:17:48,310 --> 01:17:50,230
but not the kind of waste
I was looking for.
1323
01:17:50,310 --> 01:17:56,320
Not a glorious wastefulness filled
with parties and fights and good sex.
1324
01:17:56,400 --> 01:17:58,150
No.
1325
01:17:58,240 --> 01:18:00,490
Instead...
1326
01:18:00,570 --> 01:18:03,160
it was more like the waste.
1327
01:18:03,990 --> 01:18:06,790
The waste that is the salt flats.
1328
01:18:22,340 --> 01:18:24,310
What are we doing here?
1329
01:18:25,060 --> 01:18:26,680
It's his birthday, dude.
1330
01:18:30,100 --> 01:18:31,440
Oh, yeah?
1331
01:18:32,690 --> 01:18:34,020
How old is he?
1332
01:18:35,770 --> 01:18:37,150
I don't know.
1333
01:18:37,900 --> 01:18:39,740
I don't think he knows.
1334
01:18:40,280 --> 01:18:43,240
He's old, though. I know that.
1335
01:18:44,740 --> 01:18:47,450
You wanna look presentable
for your old man.
1336
01:18:55,590 --> 01:18:56,840
Aren't you gonna wake him up?
1337
01:18:57,460 --> 01:18:59,880
I don't know. What do you think?
1338
01:18:59,970 --> 01:19:02,550
I don't know, man. It's your dad.
1339
01:19:02,640 --> 01:19:07,100
Yeah, I know. It's just, you know,
he's kind of crazy sometimes.
1340
01:19:07,180 --> 01:19:08,430
What do you mean by crazy?
1341
01:19:09,890 --> 01:19:14,020
Well, I mean, like, you know, he thinks
the CIA's after him and stuff.
1342
01:19:14,810 --> 01:19:16,570
What the hell do you want?
1343
01:19:16,650 --> 01:19:20,280
-Hey. Dad, it's me.
-What do you want with me?
1344
01:19:20,360 --> 01:19:21,490
It's Bob.
1345
01:19:22,200 --> 01:19:24,700
Your son. Happy birthday.
1346
01:19:26,580 --> 01:19:28,740
How do you know it's my birthday?
1347
01:19:29,830 --> 01:19:31,210
You people know everything.
1348
01:19:31,290 --> 01:19:34,670
What the hell do you want?
I don't know anything.
1349
01:19:34,750 --> 01:19:38,340
Now you're in trouble.
This is my house, you dummies.
1350
01:19:38,420 --> 01:19:41,840
I was born here. I'm an American!
This is my piece of the pie.
1351
01:19:41,920 --> 01:19:43,590
I don't give a shit who sent you.
1352
01:19:43,680 --> 01:19:45,550
I'm gonna blow
your goddamn heads off.
1353
01:19:50,810 --> 01:19:54,100
Next time, you'd better
bring back the army.
1354
01:19:54,190 --> 01:19:55,900
Goddamn CIA.
1355
01:19:55,980 --> 01:19:58,400
In all those years,
! had never met Bob's dad
1356
01:19:58,480 --> 01:20:01,400
but I suddenly felt
I knew my friend a lot better.
1357
01:20:01,490 --> 01:20:04,150
I felt bad for him.
I didn't like that feeling.
1358
01:20:04,240 --> 01:20:06,700
He's kind of a lunatic, you know?
1359
01:20:06,780 --> 01:20:08,450
Yeah, I'll say.
1360
01:20:14,580 --> 01:20:15,830
Sorry.
1361
01:20:19,170 --> 01:20:21,090
Don't-- Don't be.
1362
01:20:22,720 --> 01:20:24,300
It's not your fault.
1363
01:20:25,930 --> 01:20:28,010
You're my friend, that's all.
1364
01:20:29,600 --> 01:20:31,010
I'm sorry.
1365
01:20:35,390 --> 01:20:37,900
It was the last party of my youth
and I was to meet Brandy.
1366
01:20:37,980 --> 01:20:41,980
I'm gonna say it, people. Brandy
was the woman I was gonna marry.
1367
01:20:42,070 --> 01:20:44,490
I didn't know it then.
Didn't even know what she was like.
1368
01:20:44,570 --> 01:20:48,120
Hell, I wasn't even sure if I was gay,
asexual, or a punk, or a mod,
1369
01:20:48,200 --> 01:20:50,200
my dad, Bob, Sean the beggar.
1370
01:20:50,280 --> 01:20:52,750
I didn't know
a goddamn thing that night.
1371
01:20:52,830 --> 01:20:55,580
If I knew what was ahead of me,
I may have stayed in bed
1372
01:20:55,660 --> 01:20:58,000
or I may have felt better
about that night. Who knows?
1373
01:20:58,080 --> 01:21:02,090
Life is like that.
We change, that's all.
1374
01:21:02,170 --> 01:21:05,340
You see, the guy I am now
was not the guy I was then.
1375
01:21:05,420 --> 01:21:08,510
If the guy I was then
met the guy I am now,
1376
01:21:08,590 --> 01:21:10,510
he'd beat the shit out of me.
1377
01:21:10,600 --> 01:21:12,680
Those are the facts.
1378
01:21:12,770 --> 01:21:15,100
But still, I lied awake.
1379
01:21:16,020 --> 01:21:17,730
Was I afraid?
1380
01:21:18,440 --> 01:21:20,770
Was I angry?
1381
01:21:21,980 --> 01:21:23,860
Or was it just the end?
1382
01:21:26,110 --> 01:21:28,450
Was it just the end and I knew it?
1383
01:22:03,940 --> 01:22:05,480
Stevo, this is Brandy.
1384
01:22:06,610 --> 01:22:09,740
Come on in, you guys.
Drinks in the back.
1385
01:22:09,820 --> 01:22:13,450
It was the hardest punch I ever took.
Knocked the wind right out of me.
1386
01:22:13,530 --> 01:22:17,000
I was hers. That was it. One smile.
1387
01:22:18,750 --> 01:22:21,120
We got acquainted
as the party raged around us.
1388
01:22:21,210 --> 01:22:23,540
I have to ask you something.
1389
01:22:23,630 --> 01:22:25,460
Yeah, go ahead. Ask me.
1390
01:22:25,550 --> 01:22:30,050
Well, why do you go out of your way
to look like a bum?
1391
01:22:30,590 --> 01:22:34,010
- I look like a bum?
-Well, not in a bad way.
1392
01:22:34,100 --> 01:22:37,640
-I mean--
- I look like a bum in a good way.
1393
01:22:37,720 --> 01:22:40,600
Aren't you, like,
rebelling against society?
1394
01:22:40,690 --> 01:22:45,320
-Put that simply, kind of, yeah.
-Hey, Brandy. What's going on?
1395
01:22:45,400 --> 01:22:48,740
-What are you doing with this fucker?
-Just talking.
1396
01:22:48,820 --> 01:22:51,490
-Shit.
-See you later.
1397
01:22:52,200 --> 01:22:54,240
You were saying something
about the way I looked.
1398
01:22:54,320 --> 01:22:57,620
Wouldn't it be more
of an act of rebellion
1399
01:22:57,700 --> 01:23:01,250
if you didn't spend so much time
buying blue hair dye
1400
01:23:01,330 --> 01:23:04,380
and going out
to get punky clothes?
1401
01:23:04,460 --> 01:23:05,710
It seems so petty.
1402
01:23:05,790 --> 01:23:07,670
Stop me if I'm being offensive.
1403
01:23:07,750 --> 01:23:11,550
Oh, no, go right ahead.
It's-- No, it's fine.
1404
01:23:11,630 --> 01:23:13,640
You wanna be an individual, right?
1405
01:23:13,720 --> 01:23:16,930
You look like you're wearing a uniform.
I mean, you look like a punk.
1406
01:23:17,010 --> 01:23:19,850
That's not rebellion, that's fashion.
1407
01:23:20,430 --> 01:23:23,100
-Then what's rebellion?
-Rebellion happens in the mind.
1408
01:23:23,190 --> 01:23:28,030
You can't create it,
you just are that way.
1409
01:23:28,110 --> 01:23:29,440
Right.
1410
01:23:30,190 --> 01:23:31,320
How old are you?
1411
01:23:32,030 --> 01:23:35,740
I'm 19. What does that
have to do with anything?
1412
01:23:35,820 --> 01:23:38,660
Nothing. I was just, you know--
I was just wondering.
1413
01:23:38,740 --> 01:23:41,040
What you're basically saying
1414
01:23:41,120 --> 01:23:44,460
is that you wouldn't like a guy
like me because I have...
1415
01:23:45,210 --> 01:23:49,800
You know, I have silly hair
and I dress kind of funny, right?
1416
01:23:49,880 --> 01:23:51,840
No, not at all.
1417
01:23:51,920 --> 01:23:54,010
I like you, actually.
1418
01:23:55,890 --> 01:23:58,310
I mean, we just met.
1419
01:23:58,850 --> 01:24:02,230
This is my party
and I'm hanging out with you all night.
1420
01:24:05,600 --> 01:24:08,820
I mean, wear what you want.
I don't care about things like that.
1421
01:24:08,900 --> 01:24:12,900
I was just posing a theory
1422
01:24:12,990 --> 01:24:16,280
and trying to understand.
1423
01:24:16,370 --> 01:24:17,950
So...
1424
01:24:19,080 --> 01:24:20,790
then you do like me.
1425
01:24:24,000 --> 01:24:25,620
Mildly.
1426
01:24:42,470 --> 01:24:44,730
What was I doing?
What, was I an asshole?
1427
01:24:44,810 --> 01:24:47,310
I was in love
and I just met this person.
1428
01:24:47,400 --> 01:24:50,150
I hated her ideas
because they were critical of me
1429
01:24:50,230 --> 01:24:52,440
but I loved her anyway.
1430
01:24:52,530 --> 01:24:55,280
It was a curse.
No, it was a punishment.
1431
01:24:55,360 --> 01:24:57,110
I went with it
and we talked all night.
1432
01:25:03,870 --> 01:25:05,210
You okay?
1433
01:25:06,710 --> 01:25:08,330
I got a headache.
1434
01:25:09,040 --> 01:25:11,090
I gotta go to the bathroom.
1435
01:25:15,050 --> 01:25:18,640
-Bob! How goes it?
-What's going on?
1436
01:25:18,720 --> 01:25:21,260
- I got a fucking headache.
- I have some pills for that.
1437
01:25:21,350 --> 01:25:23,890
This fucking music.
No, I don't take pills, dude.
1438
01:25:23,970 --> 01:25:27,770
-It's candy.
-They're just vitamins. Here you are.
1439
01:25:35,440 --> 01:25:37,530
Headache in a bottle?
1440
01:25:58,130 --> 01:26:00,090
-What'd you do?
- I don't like the mirror.
1441
01:26:00,800 --> 01:26:04,470
-What happened?
- I don't like fucking mirrors! All right?
1442
01:26:06,020 --> 01:26:07,980
-You're drunk, Bob.
-I'm sorry.
1443
01:26:08,060 --> 01:26:09,690
What did he do?
1444
01:26:09,770 --> 01:26:13,070
He just-- He gets crazy
when he's drunk, that's all.
1445
01:26:13,820 --> 01:26:16,690
-Okay, everybody out.
-That's it. Party's over.
1446
01:26:16,780 --> 01:26:18,110
Out, out, out.
1447
01:26:18,200 --> 01:26:21,410
I'm sorry about that window.
I didn't mean to--
1448
01:26:21,490 --> 01:26:23,080
You know what,
I'll buy you a new one.
1449
01:26:23,160 --> 01:26:27,040
-No, I'll tell them it was an accident.
-It's seven years bad luck.
1450
01:26:27,120 --> 01:26:30,830
No, it's seven years bad luck.
It's seven years bad luck!
1451
01:26:30,920 --> 01:26:34,380
All right, I'll take him home.
I'll get him out of here. Let's go.
1452
01:26:34,460 --> 01:26:37,090
-Where are we going?
-Come up here. Let's go.
1453
01:26:37,170 --> 01:26:39,840
All right, you guys.
Everything's cool.
1454
01:26:39,930 --> 01:26:42,840
-Hey, can I call you tomorrow?
-No.
1455
01:26:42,930 --> 01:26:46,060
I mean, yeah. That'd be cool.
1456
01:26:46,140 --> 01:26:49,480
-Yeah, okay. Good.
-Okay.
1457
01:26:51,190 --> 01:26:54,440
Sorry. I had a great time tonight.
I really did.
1458
01:26:54,520 --> 01:26:56,320
Me too.
1459
01:26:56,400 --> 01:27:00,320
-Great time. It was a good party.
-Yeah.
1460
01:27:00,400 --> 01:27:01,820
How you feeling, buddy?
1461
01:27:03,450 --> 01:27:05,870
Dude, I'm not like my dad,
you know.
1462
01:27:08,160 --> 01:27:11,290
I'm not gonna cry, dude.
You know what I mean?
1463
01:27:12,710 --> 01:27:14,330
Fine. Don't cry.
1464
01:27:15,420 --> 01:27:17,250
You think I let him down?
1465
01:27:17,960 --> 01:27:20,840
-Think I let my dad down?
-No.
1466
01:27:20,920 --> 01:27:22,840
If anything, I think he let you down.
1467
01:27:28,560 --> 01:27:30,560
I wanna marry Trish.
1468
01:27:33,270 --> 01:27:36,190
-I'm serious, dude.
-Yeah, all right. Yeah.
1469
01:28:03,090 --> 01:28:06,470
Come on! Jesus Christ.
1470
01:28:07,390 --> 01:28:12,180
Come on. I swear to God, you're
like a high school girl. Come on.
1471
01:28:15,310 --> 01:28:17,150
Jesus Christ.
1472
01:28:17,230 --> 01:28:19,320
Good night, asshole.
1473
01:28:28,910 --> 01:28:32,160
Oh, Jesus Christ.
Hey, Bobby, get up.
1474
01:28:32,250 --> 01:28:35,120
Get up. It's, like, 3:00.
Let's get something to eat.
1475
01:28:54,310 --> 01:28:57,350
Oh, fuck.
1476
01:29:04,650 --> 01:29:06,070
God.
1477
01:29:22,630 --> 01:29:24,670
Fucking poser.
1478
01:29:25,920 --> 01:29:29,390
Only posers die, you fucking idiot!
1479
01:29:32,640 --> 01:29:35,480
Now what am I gonna do
for a friend?
1480
01:29:39,190 --> 01:29:42,150
You're my only friend!
1481
01:29:43,020 --> 01:29:46,110
Please wake up now!
1482
01:29:47,740 --> 01:29:50,320
Please! I'm sorry!
1483
01:29:56,870 --> 01:29:58,960
Oh, fuck.
1484
01:30:05,630 --> 01:30:09,590
Oh, man. Oh, jeez.
1485
01:30:09,680 --> 01:30:11,510
Oh, my God.
1486
01:30:13,720 --> 01:30:16,020
I wasn't ready for this.
1487
01:30:18,020 --> 01:30:20,190
I wasn't ready.
1488
01:30:21,270 --> 01:30:23,520
And we put him under the ground.
1489
01:30:23,610 --> 01:30:25,570
The official cause of death?
1490
01:30:25,650 --> 01:30:27,150
Overdose from Percodan.
1491
01:30:27,240 --> 01:30:29,990
That's what John's girlfriend
gave him for his headache.
1492
01:30:30,070 --> 01:30:32,280
That, mixed with the booze,
did him in.
1493
01:30:32,370 --> 01:30:36,240
Heroin Bob, the guy who never did
any drug in his life outside of beer
1494
01:30:36,330 --> 01:30:38,580
died from a narcotic overdose.
1495
01:30:39,410 --> 01:30:41,080
And that was it.
1496
01:30:41,170 --> 01:30:42,880
He fell
1497
01:30:42,960 --> 01:30:44,420
and I went on.
1498
01:30:45,090 --> 01:30:46,590
What else was I gonna do?
1499
01:30:46,670 --> 01:30:49,340
You know, Bob got me into this whole
punk-fashion-anarchy trip
1500
01:30:49,420 --> 01:30:50,550
in the first place.
1501
01:30:50,630 --> 01:30:53,470
It hit me after the funeral.
It was always Bob.
1502
01:30:53,550 --> 01:30:57,520
Started way back when we were Kids,
maybe 14.
1503
01:30:58,480 --> 01:31:00,270
We were such losers back then.
1504
01:31:00,350 --> 01:31:02,770
Those guys that sat alone
in the cafeteria
1505
01:31:02,850 --> 01:31:04,270
getting shit from the jocks,
1506
01:31:04,360 --> 01:31:07,940
wishing to God they could be cool
for just, like, one minute.
1507
01:31:08,030 --> 01:31:10,400
And then one day
Bob had had enough.
1508
01:31:10,490 --> 01:31:14,450
Being a dweeb was not
what he had in mind for our future.
1509
01:31:14,530 --> 01:31:18,660
-Hey, Bob. You're early.
-Dad was flipping out. I had to get out.
1510
01:31:18,750 --> 01:31:21,000
Mike and Eddie are coming
so it should be a good game.
1511
01:31:21,080 --> 01:31:23,830
- I have this really good dungeon.
-You know, Stevo,
1512
01:31:23,920 --> 01:31:26,590
this DandD shit, it sucks.
1513
01:31:26,670 --> 01:31:28,130
-What'd you say?
- I said it sucks.
1514
01:31:28,210 --> 01:31:32,010
But you're a seventh-level magic user.
What do you have to complain about?
1515
01:31:32,090 --> 01:31:34,090
Things are going great
for your character.
1516
01:31:34,180 --> 01:31:38,140
Stevo, it's bullshit, though.
"Magic user." What the hell's that?
1517
01:31:38,220 --> 01:31:41,560
These elves and dwarves
and dragons, man.
1518
01:31:41,640 --> 01:31:44,190
-This music--
-Rush is a very good band.
1519
01:31:44,270 --> 01:31:46,360
Their music is very complex,
and the perfection...
1520
01:31:46,440 --> 01:31:50,150
I'm not saying they're not talented
and all, and yeah, they rock
1521
01:31:50,240 --> 01:31:51,950
but it's not the only music
out there.
1522
01:31:52,030 --> 01:31:54,820
-I've got a John Denver record.
-I'm serious.
1523
01:31:54,910 --> 01:31:58,030
Anyway, I like them.
You know, they rock, man.
1524
01:31:58,120 --> 01:32:01,250
There's a whole world out there.
People are having fun.
1525
01:32:01,330 --> 01:32:03,460
We should be
going to parties, dude,
1526
01:32:03,540 --> 01:32:06,750
and getting drunk and getting laid
and being wild, you know?
1527
01:32:06,840 --> 01:32:09,340
The last time we went to a party,
we got our asses kicked.
1528
01:32:09,420 --> 01:32:11,210
Well, maybe we should have
our own parties.
1529
01:32:11,300 --> 01:32:12,590
Just give me a chance.
1530
01:32:12,670 --> 01:32:16,010
-How about we turn this off--?
-Don't touch my stereo, Bob.
1531
01:32:16,090 --> 01:32:18,180
Give it a chance. Give me a chance.
1532
01:32:20,220 --> 01:32:23,690
- I got this from a guy I know in L.A.
-You know a guy in L.A.?
1533
01:32:29,520 --> 01:32:32,490
You tell me if this doesn't rock.
1534
01:32:37,320 --> 01:32:40,120
-This isn't anything.
-Just give it a chance.
1535
01:32:42,540 --> 01:32:44,290
Well, what is it?
1536
01:32:44,370 --> 01:32:47,040
-What is it?
-Yeah, what is it, Bob?
1537
01:32:49,790 --> 01:32:51,170
It's new.
1538
01:33:13,440 --> 01:33:15,030
Okay.
1539
01:33:23,580 --> 01:33:25,040
And so there I was.
1540
01:33:25,120 --> 01:33:27,830
I was gonna go to Harvard.
It was obvious.
1541
01:33:27,920 --> 01:33:31,250
I was gonna be a lawyer
and play in the goddamn system
1542
01:33:31,340 --> 01:33:32,670
and that was that.
1543
01:33:32,750 --> 01:33:35,220
I was my old man. He knew.
1544
01:33:35,300 --> 01:33:38,010
So what else could I do?
I mean, there's no future in anarchy.
1545
01:33:38,090 --> 01:33:40,260
I mean, let's face it.
But when I was into it
1546
01:33:40,350 --> 01:33:42,100
there was never a thought
of the future.
1547
01:33:42,180 --> 01:33:44,060
We were certain
the world was gonna end.
1548
01:33:44,140 --> 01:33:46,480
But when it didn't,
I had to do something.
1549
01:33:46,560 --> 01:33:49,230
So fuck it. I could always be
a litigator in New York
1550
01:33:49,310 --> 01:33:51,270
and piss the shit
out of the judges.
1551
01:33:51,360 --> 01:33:54,280
I mean, that was me,
a troublemaker of the future.
1552
01:33:54,360 --> 01:33:55,940
The guy that was
one of those guys
1553
01:33:56,030 --> 01:33:58,820
that my parents so arrogantly
saved the world for
1554
01:33:58,910 --> 01:34:01,030
So we could fuck it up.
1555
01:34:01,120 --> 01:34:04,540
I could do a hell of a lot more damage
in the system than outside of it.
1556
01:34:05,250 --> 01:34:07,660
That was the final irony, I think.
1557
01:34:07,750 --> 01:34:10,290
That and, well, this.
1558
01:34:10,380 --> 01:34:12,460
And fuck you
if you're already thinking it.
1559
01:34:12,540 --> 01:34:14,250
I guess, when all was said and done,
1560
01:34:14,340 --> 01:34:18,680
I was nothing more than
a goddamn trendy-ass poser.