1 00:02:36,251 --> 00:02:38,019 Meanwhile, work goes on for the Brits 2 00:02:38,043 --> 00:02:40,168 who relocated to the Costa. 3 00:02:41,084 --> 00:02:44,144 Running a bar in the sun is the classic British dream. 4 00:02:44,168 --> 00:02:46,227 It can easily turn into a nightmare, 5 00:02:46,251 --> 00:02:47,894 but Gary and Cherry from Macclesfield 6 00:02:47,918 --> 00:02:49,102 have made it work. 7 00:02:49,126 --> 00:02:51,394 The Bamboo Bar is a success. 8 00:04:42,751 --> 00:04:46,126 ♪ Ay, ay, ay, ay ♪ 9 00:04:47,585 --> 00:04:49,751 ♪ Feels like fire. ♪ 10 00:04:50,668 --> 00:04:53,418 ♪ I'm so in love with you ♪ 11 00:05:00,626 --> 00:05:01,709 Hello. 12 00:05:02,709 --> 00:05:03,793 Hello. 13 00:05:04,751 --> 00:05:06,501 I saw you looking at me from the street. 14 00:05:07,626 --> 00:05:08,727 I've seen you a bunch of times 15 00:05:08,751 --> 00:05:10,459 coming and going with your head down. 16 00:05:12,876 --> 00:05:14,876 One day, it'll be for real, that alarm. 17 00:05:15,376 --> 00:05:16,418 Hmm. 18 00:05:20,168 --> 00:05:21,227 We're basically the only ones here. 19 00:05:21,251 --> 00:05:22,310 Can you fucking believe that? 20 00:05:22,334 --> 00:05:24,459 I mean they haven't got security guards yet. 21 00:05:26,668 --> 00:05:27,834 I'm Harry. 22 00:05:30,418 --> 00:05:31,418 Adam. 23 00:05:35,793 --> 00:05:37,251 How do you cope? 24 00:05:42,293 --> 00:05:43,626 With, with what? 25 00:05:44,126 --> 00:05:45,251 Listen. 26 00:05:58,043 --> 00:06:00,144 It's so quiet. 27 00:06:00,168 --> 00:06:01,227 I mean, London's out there 28 00:06:01,251 --> 00:06:02,611 but we can't hear a fucking thing. 29 00:06:04,751 --> 00:06:05,852 I play music, right, 30 00:06:05,876 --> 00:06:07,376 but it's worse when it ends. 31 00:06:08,209 --> 00:06:10,894 Yeah, I even got one of those, um, 32 00:06:10,918 --> 00:06:12,935 white noise machines, right? 33 00:06:12,959 --> 00:06:14,019 But it's like there's someone 34 00:06:14,043 --> 00:06:15,843 in the corner of the room whispering about me. 35 00:06:17,168 --> 00:06:19,727 I mean, we can't even open, the windows, but I guess 36 00:06:19,751 --> 00:06:21,209 they don't really want us to jump. 37 00:06:22,459 --> 00:06:24,376 It's bad for business. You know, 38 00:06:25,001 --> 00:06:26,477 bodies broken on the concrete. 39 00:06:26,501 --> 00:06:28,668 I mean, who's gonna move in then? 40 00:06:31,668 --> 00:06:32,834 Drink? 41 00:06:33,584 --> 00:06:34,876 It's Japanese. 42 00:06:35,584 --> 00:06:36,810 It's meant to be the best in the world, 43 00:06:36,834 --> 00:06:39,168 but I, I couldn't tell you why, so... 44 00:06:41,293 --> 00:06:42,709 - No, thanks. - Okay, um... 45 00:06:44,626 --> 00:06:46,459 Okay. How about I come in anyway? 46 00:06:48,293 --> 00:06:49,793 If not for a drink, 47 00:06:51,418 --> 00:06:53,043 then for whatever else you might want. 48 00:06:58,334 --> 00:06:59,709 Um... 49 00:07:02,543 --> 00:07:03,977 I don't think that's a good idea. 50 00:07:04,001 --> 00:07:06,168 Do I scare you? 51 00:07:10,251 --> 00:07:11,501 No. 52 00:07:13,209 --> 00:07:15,668 We don't have to do anything if I'm not your type. 53 00:07:18,918 --> 00:07:21,043 There's vampires at my door. 54 00:07:38,043 --> 00:07:39,084 Huh. 55 00:14:15,334 --> 00:14:16,334 Hi. 56 00:14:19,084 --> 00:14:20,126 Hi. 57 00:14:20,876 --> 00:14:23,251 I bought something strong for a night like this. 58 00:14:31,293 --> 00:14:32,376 No thanks. 59 00:14:34,501 --> 00:14:35,501 Shall we go? 60 00:14:36,209 --> 00:14:37,793 Go where? 61 00:14:42,334 --> 00:14:43,418 Home. 62 00:14:57,376 --> 00:14:59,001 She's gonna be over the moon to see ya. 63 00:15:01,751 --> 00:15:03,751 Guess who I found loitering in the park. 64 00:15:04,251 --> 00:15:05,394 Is it him? 65 00:15:05,418 --> 00:15:07,043 Oh, yeah, it's definitely him. 66 00:15:08,334 --> 00:15:09,501 Look in his eyes. 67 00:15:11,584 --> 00:15:12,751 Yes, it is you. 68 00:15:15,793 --> 00:15:16,834 Hi. 69 00:15:18,626 --> 00:15:19,751 Hi. 70 00:15:21,209 --> 00:15:23,793 Don't just stand there. Get yourself inside. 71 00:15:26,584 --> 00:15:28,019 So, where are you living now? 72 00:15:28,043 --> 00:15:29,769 Not around here, I'm sure. 73 00:15:29,793 --> 00:15:31,269 Uh... I'm, I'm in London. 74 00:15:31,293 --> 00:15:33,310 Fancy. DAD: Whereabouts? 75 00:15:33,334 --> 00:15:34,477 Do you live by yourself? 76 00:15:34,501 --> 00:15:35,769 Do you own your own place? 77 00:15:35,793 --> 00:15:38,644 Uh, yeah, it's just a, it's just a flat. 78 00:15:38,668 --> 00:15:40,852 What did I tell ya? What did I tell ya? 79 00:15:40,876 --> 00:15:42,435 I told you he'd be doing well for himself, didn't I? 80 00:15:42,459 --> 00:15:44,852 Can't be cheap living up there in the smoke. 81 00:15:44,876 --> 00:15:46,060 And what is it that you do? 82 00:15:46,084 --> 00:15:47,935 - I'm a writer. - And what did I tell you? 83 00:15:47,959 --> 00:15:49,102 No, no, no. 84 00:15:49,126 --> 00:15:52,560 I'm not particularly rich or anything. Not really. 85 00:15:52,584 --> 00:15:54,918 Well, I always knew you'd be creative. 86 00:15:58,543 --> 00:16:00,060 And what kind of writer are you? 87 00:16:00,084 --> 00:16:01,810 You know how I love, um, Stephen King. 88 00:16:01,834 --> 00:16:03,227 Carrie, Cujo, Different Seasons. 89 00:16:03,251 --> 00:16:04,810 No, no, no. I'm not a proper writer. 90 00:16:04,834 --> 00:16:06,376 I, I write scripts. 91 00:16:07,543 --> 00:16:10,751 Uh, for film, TV. When I have to. 92 00:16:11,626 --> 00:16:13,751 A writer. 93 00:16:14,501 --> 00:16:16,394 God, this is so bloody exciting. 94 00:16:16,418 --> 00:16:17,477 If I knew the neighbors, 95 00:16:17,501 --> 00:16:18,602 I'd run over and I'd tell them right now. 96 00:16:18,626 --> 00:16:21,394 I've always said that writers know less about the real world 97 00:16:21,418 --> 00:16:22,898 - than almost anyone else. - Mmm. 98 00:16:23,668 --> 00:16:24,810 What the hell would you know? 99 00:16:24,834 --> 00:16:26,185 You can barely write 100 00:16:26,209 --> 00:16:27,959 - joined up. - That's true. But... 101 00:16:31,043 --> 00:16:32,251 A writer. 102 00:16:33,834 --> 00:16:34,959 Our son. 103 00:16:37,168 --> 00:16:38,560 We're very bloody pleased 104 00:16:38,584 --> 00:16:39,834 to see you doing so well, then. 105 00:16:40,584 --> 00:16:41,584 Yeah. 106 00:16:43,418 --> 00:16:44,793 Enough of that poofy shit. 107 00:16:45,626 --> 00:16:47,376 - Our boy's back home. - Hmm. 108 00:16:51,376 --> 00:16:52,709 What are you puttin' on? 109 00:16:53,959 --> 00:16:55,084 Oh, you'll see. 110 00:16:58,459 --> 00:16:59,519 Oh, do you remember 111 00:16:59,543 --> 00:17:01,019 your little red car that you had? 112 00:17:01,043 --> 00:17:02,144 You loved it and you wanted 113 00:17:02,168 --> 00:17:03,269 to take it out onto the main road, 114 00:17:03,293 --> 00:17:04,602 and drive it with all the big cars. 115 00:17:04,626 --> 00:17:06,310 Yeah. That's my first memory, actually. 116 00:17:06,334 --> 00:17:08,334 It was a Ford Granada that hit him, wasn't it? 117 00:17:08,918 --> 00:17:09,977 - No, it, it was... - Yeah. It was. 118 00:17:10,001 --> 00:17:12,519 It was racing green. Do you remember that? 119 00:17:12,543 --> 00:17:13,935 Mmm. DAD: It, it, flung you 120 00:17:13,959 --> 00:17:15,310 like a rag doll. 121 00:17:15,334 --> 00:17:16,644 You went so high up in the air. 122 00:17:16,668 --> 00:17:18,102 - I'll never forget it. - Oh, but you were fine, though. 123 00:17:18,126 --> 00:17:19,685 You were fine. You had a couple of bruises. 124 00:17:19,709 --> 00:17:20,769 I think they thought I was exaggerating 125 00:17:20,793 --> 00:17:21,977 when I took you in. 126 00:17:22,001 --> 00:17:23,560 What about that one Bonfire Night 127 00:17:23,584 --> 00:17:24,977 when you lost it? 128 00:17:25,001 --> 00:17:26,560 You remember that Bonfire Night? 129 00:17:26,584 --> 00:17:27,977 How old were you? Six? 130 00:17:28,001 --> 00:17:30,227 No, he was not. He was older than that. 131 00:17:30,251 --> 00:17:31,727 Well, when the fireworks went off, 132 00:17:31,751 --> 00:17:33,394 poor boy, started screaming and howling. 133 00:17:33,418 --> 00:17:34,477 I had to carry him all the way home. 134 00:17:34,501 --> 00:17:35,685 - You did? - Yeah. 135 00:17:35,709 --> 00:17:37,977 You fell asleep on my shoulder. 136 00:17:38,001 --> 00:17:39,060 I don't remember that. 137 00:17:39,084 --> 00:17:41,435 You were, you were really beside yourself. 138 00:17:41,459 --> 00:17:42,560 You were really having a hard time, 139 00:17:42,584 --> 00:17:43,644 and I was trying, 140 00:17:43,668 --> 00:17:46,060 we were just trying to get you to enjoy the fireworks. 141 00:17:46,084 --> 00:17:47,352 And you didn't... 142 00:17:47,376 --> 00:17:49,626 You've always been a sensitive boy, haven't you? 143 00:17:50,959 --> 00:17:51,977 Maybe. 144 00:17:52,001 --> 00:17:54,060 Are you still afraid of fireworks now? 145 00:17:54,084 --> 00:17:55,584 No! 146 00:17:56,001 --> 00:17:56,978 Do you know who you sound like? 147 00:17:57,002 --> 00:17:58,060 You sound just like my mother. 148 00:17:58,084 --> 00:17:59,144 He does. 149 00:17:59,168 --> 00:18:00,644 - Doesn't he? You noticed that? - Yeah, no, he does. 150 00:18:00,668 --> 00:18:01,810 You did say something earlier. 151 00:18:01,834 --> 00:18:03,060 Yeah. It's when, it's when you said, 152 00:18:03,084 --> 00:18:04,894 it's when you said, "I'm not a proper writer." 153 00:18:04,918 --> 00:18:06,435 Say it again. DAD: Go on. 154 00:18:06,459 --> 00:18:07,519 Say it again. ADAM: Don't make me say it. 155 00:18:07,543 --> 00:18:08,602 Say it. DAD: Come on. Just say it. 156 00:18:08,626 --> 00:18:09,685 Say, "a proper writer," again. 157 00:18:09,709 --> 00:18:10,810 Like Nan or like me? 158 00:18:10,834 --> 00:18:12,060 - No. Say it like you. - "Like Nan or like me." 159 00:18:12,084 --> 00:18:13,564 Say it like you. 160 00:18:16,793 --> 00:18:18,394 It's so bloody lovely to see you again. 161 00:18:18,418 --> 00:18:19,560 Yeah. 162 00:18:19,584 --> 00:18:20,784 Weren't sure if we ever would. 163 00:18:22,209 --> 00:18:23,209 Here you are. 164 00:18:24,084 --> 00:18:25,168 Here I am. 165 00:18:29,168 --> 00:18:30,501 Come back soon, hmm? 166 00:18:31,209 --> 00:18:32,543 One of us will be in. 167 00:18:35,626 --> 00:18:36,626 Hmm? 168 00:18:37,626 --> 00:18:38,668 Please. 169 00:18:42,084 --> 00:18:43,084 Yeah, I will. 170 00:18:43,876 --> 00:18:44,876 Good. 171 00:18:47,709 --> 00:18:48,810 - Let's go in, eh? - Night. 172 00:18:48,834 --> 00:18:50,060 - Good night, sweetheart. - Good night, son. 173 00:18:50,084 --> 00:18:51,168 Night. 174 00:19:47,084 --> 00:19:48,334 - Hello. - Hi. 175 00:19:54,293 --> 00:19:56,001 I'm really sorry about the other night. 176 00:19:56,501 --> 00:19:57,751 Oh, that's all right. 177 00:19:59,918 --> 00:20:01,043 Don't worry about it. 178 00:20:06,876 --> 00:20:08,352 See ya. 179 00:20:08,376 --> 00:20:09,459 See ya. 180 00:20:10,251 --> 00:20:12,876 I actually do like whiskey if you want, um, 181 00:20:13,501 --> 00:20:14,959 wanna have a drink or... 182 00:21:42,626 --> 00:21:47,519 ♪ Clambering ♪ ♪ men in big bad boots. ♪ 183 00:21:47,543 --> 00:21:51,084 ♪ Dug up my den, dug up my roots. ♪ 184 00:21:51,626 --> 00:21:55,602 ♪ Treated us like plasticine town ♪ 185 00:21:56,709 --> 00:22:00,251 ♪ They built us up and knocked us down. ♪ 186 00:22:08,751 --> 00:22:12,293 ♪ From Meccano to Legoland. ♪ 187 00:22:13,251 --> 00:22:16,834 ♪ Here they come with a brick in their hand. ♪ 188 00:22:17,668 --> 00:22:21,060 ♪ Men with heads filled up with sand. ♪ 189 00:22:21,084 --> 00:22:25,519 ♪ Let's build... ♪ 190 00:22:25,543 --> 00:22:27,269 ♪ Let's build a house... ♪ 191 00:22:27,293 --> 00:22:28,685 Hi. 192 00:22:30,876 --> 00:22:31,876 Hello. 193 00:22:32,543 --> 00:22:34,685 Hi. 194 00:22:34,709 --> 00:22:35,793 Hi. 195 00:22:38,168 --> 00:22:39,668 - Do you wanna come in? - Sure. 196 00:22:44,251 --> 00:22:45,334 Do you want a drink? 197 00:22:46,168 --> 00:22:47,584 Yeah, what have you got? 198 00:22:48,543 --> 00:22:52,102 Uh... I got vodka and some beer. 199 00:22:52,126 --> 00:22:53,668 I got some weed if you prefer that. 200 00:22:53,834 --> 00:22:55,168 Yeah, weed's better. 201 00:22:55,709 --> 00:22:56,918 I'm off alcohol... 202 00:23:04,918 --> 00:23:06,001 Do you like living here? 203 00:23:06,584 --> 00:23:07,602 I think I'll like it more 204 00:23:07,626 --> 00:23:08,685 when people move in. 205 00:23:08,709 --> 00:23:10,001 If people move in. 206 00:23:10,709 --> 00:23:11,876 You got friends nearby? 207 00:23:14,376 --> 00:23:15,876 No, not really. 208 00:23:16,501 --> 00:23:17,501 Do you? 209 00:23:18,793 --> 00:23:19,793 No, not really. 210 00:23:20,459 --> 00:23:22,179 Most of my friends have moved out of London. 211 00:23:23,293 --> 00:23:25,685 Wanna have gardens for their kids, 212 00:23:25,709 --> 00:23:26,977 and they want to be near the grandparents 213 00:23:27,001 --> 00:23:28,281 so they can look after the kids. 214 00:23:29,376 --> 00:23:31,256 I'm guessing you didn't want to move too? 215 00:23:33,043 --> 00:23:35,001 Uh, no. 216 00:23:37,751 --> 00:23:39,501 What am I gonna do in Dorking? 217 00:23:40,459 --> 00:23:42,459 It's not for people like me. 218 00:23:47,168 --> 00:23:48,959 I'm just checking. You are queer, right? 219 00:23:49,959 --> 00:23:51,852 Yeah. Yeah. 220 00:23:51,876 --> 00:23:53,376 That's good. 221 00:23:58,293 --> 00:23:59,560 Or gay. 222 00:23:59,584 --> 00:24:00,644 - Right. - Queer, I'm not... 223 00:24:00,668 --> 00:24:03,019 I can't get used to calling myself queer. 224 00:24:03,043 --> 00:24:04,523 - It was always such an insult. - Hmm. 225 00:24:05,168 --> 00:24:06,888 It's probably why we hate "gay" so much now. 226 00:24:07,584 --> 00:24:09,418 I mean, it was always like, um, 227 00:24:11,001 --> 00:24:13,019 uh "Your haircut's gay," 228 00:24:13,043 --> 00:24:15,334 or "This sofa's gay,". 229 00:24:16,626 --> 00:24:17,894 "Your trainers are gay." 230 00:24:17,918 --> 00:24:19,793 "Your schoolbag's gay." 231 00:24:20,418 --> 00:24:21,418 Yeah. 232 00:24:22,709 --> 00:24:24,935 Queer does feel polite, somehow, though, you know. 233 00:24:24,959 --> 00:24:26,043 It's like, um... 234 00:24:29,209 --> 00:24:30,186 I don't know, it's like 235 00:24:30,210 --> 00:24:31,730 all the dick sucking's been taken out. 236 00:24:35,126 --> 00:24:37,918 Yeah. I'm assuming you're not with anyone. 237 00:24:39,168 --> 00:24:40,418 I never see you with anyone. 238 00:24:42,126 --> 00:24:43,876 - No. - No. 239 00:24:44,626 --> 00:24:45,626 You often single? 240 00:24:47,168 --> 00:24:48,626 - Am I often single? - Mmm-hmm. 241 00:24:49,209 --> 00:24:50,209 Uh... 242 00:24:52,834 --> 00:24:54,084 I suppose so. Yeah. 243 00:24:56,668 --> 00:24:57,918 - Are you? - Yeah. 244 00:24:58,793 --> 00:25:01,834 Yeah, but not for want of trying. 245 00:25:21,459 --> 00:25:22,751 How about I kiss ya? 246 00:25:26,043 --> 00:25:27,043 Yeah, all right. 247 00:26:12,501 --> 00:26:13,769 Ooh! 248 00:26:13,793 --> 00:26:15,709 - Sorry. - No. 249 00:26:16,209 --> 00:26:17,769 - You all right? - No. Yeah, yeah. 250 00:26:17,793 --> 00:26:19,876 Just haven't done... 251 00:26:20,668 --> 00:26:21,727 I haven't done this in a while. 252 00:26:21,751 --> 00:26:22,852 I have to remember to, remember to breathe. 253 00:26:22,876 --> 00:26:25,251 - Okay. - Yeah, yeah. It's okay. 254 00:26:26,209 --> 00:26:27,186 Okay. 255 00:26:27,210 --> 00:26:28,269 - It's okay. - You all right? 256 00:26:28,293 --> 00:26:29,376 Uh-huh. 257 00:26:54,084 --> 00:26:55,084 Yeah. 258 00:28:57,084 --> 00:28:58,084 Is this you? 259 00:28:58,709 --> 00:28:59,810 Afraid it is. 260 00:28:59,834 --> 00:29:01,668 You were cute. 261 00:29:03,251 --> 00:29:04,626 I hate my photos. 262 00:29:05,918 --> 00:29:06,959 I was a fat kid. 263 00:29:07,876 --> 00:29:08,876 Right, but, 264 00:29:09,334 --> 00:29:10,644 when you're a fat kid, no one asks 265 00:29:10,668 --> 00:29:11,977 why you don't have a girlfriend. 266 00:29:15,501 --> 00:29:17,101 We'd have been friends for sure, though. 267 00:29:17,959 --> 00:29:20,043 Bunked off football to spy on the boys. 268 00:29:24,001 --> 00:29:25,001 Is this your dad? 269 00:29:26,751 --> 00:29:27,751 Yeah. 270 00:29:28,793 --> 00:29:29,834 He's handsome. 271 00:29:31,126 --> 00:29:32,126 Yeah. 272 00:29:34,459 --> 00:29:36,543 I'm... I'm trying to write about them at the moment. 273 00:29:37,251 --> 00:29:38,251 Is that what you do? 274 00:29:38,918 --> 00:29:39,918 Yeah. 275 00:29:40,751 --> 00:29:41,751 How's it going? 276 00:29:42,918 --> 00:29:44,918 Uh, strangely. 277 00:29:46,709 --> 00:29:48,168 I don't see my dad much. 278 00:29:50,293 --> 00:29:52,501 Do you, do you see yours, no? 279 00:29:53,334 --> 00:29:54,418 No, they died. 280 00:29:55,959 --> 00:29:57,501 Just before I was twelve. 281 00:29:59,793 --> 00:30:00,793 Both of them? 282 00:30:01,168 --> 00:30:03,043 Yeah. Yeah, car crash. 283 00:30:06,334 --> 00:30:07,959 Not the most original of deaths. 284 00:30:12,959 --> 00:30:14,043 I'm really sorry. 285 00:30:15,251 --> 00:30:16,685 No, thanks, it was a long time ago. 286 00:30:16,709 --> 00:30:18,126 Yeah, I don't think that matters. 287 00:30:21,501 --> 00:30:22,501 Well. 288 00:30:29,584 --> 00:30:31,001 I'd like to see you again. 289 00:30:34,876 --> 00:30:35,876 Yeah, okay. 290 00:30:37,751 --> 00:30:39,334 I could stay the night if you... 291 00:30:42,626 --> 00:30:44,293 How about, actually, better idea... 292 00:30:45,209 --> 00:30:46,769 Not tonight. Yeah? 293 00:30:46,793 --> 00:30:47,894 No, no. I would like to s... 294 00:30:47,918 --> 00:30:49,144 - No, you... - I would like 295 00:30:49,168 --> 00:30:50,977 - you don't need to explain. - To see you again. I'm just... 296 00:30:51,001 --> 00:30:52,001 Okay? 297 00:30:52,918 --> 00:30:54,918 Okay. 298 00:30:56,043 --> 00:30:57,020 Thanks. 299 00:31:23,459 --> 00:31:25,060 Sweetheart, you came back. 300 00:31:25,084 --> 00:31:26,310 Of course I came back. 301 00:31:26,334 --> 00:31:27,810 Jesus, you're sodden. 302 00:31:27,834 --> 00:31:29,227 Come on, take it all off. 303 00:31:29,251 --> 00:31:30,810 No, I'm, I'm not taking my clothes off. 304 00:31:30,834 --> 00:31:33,334 Don't be silly, it's only me. Come on, arms up. 305 00:31:34,209 --> 00:31:35,709 I'll put them in the dryer. 306 00:31:37,209 --> 00:31:38,793 It's just me today. Is that all right? 307 00:31:40,209 --> 00:31:41,449 - Yeah, of course it is. - Good. 308 00:31:41,918 --> 00:31:42,977 There's so much I want to know. 309 00:31:43,001 --> 00:31:44,060 I want to hear everything. 310 00:31:44,084 --> 00:31:45,524 Right, go on. Upstairs, get changed. 311 00:31:45,793 --> 00:31:47,626 My goodness. This is so exciting. 312 00:32:55,209 --> 00:32:56,894 Suppose nothing's gonna fit you anymore, is it? 313 00:32:56,918 --> 00:32:57,977 Nope. 314 00:32:58,001 --> 00:33:00,361 Yeah. Well, I brought you some of your dad's things instead. 315 00:33:00,626 --> 00:33:01,644 - Okay. - Oh, Look. 316 00:33:01,668 --> 00:33:02,810 Come on, take these off as well 317 00:33:02,834 --> 00:33:04,514 and I'll put them in to dry with the rest. 318 00:33:05,209 --> 00:33:06,644 Uh... 319 00:33:06,668 --> 00:33:08,209 Oh, will you take them off, Adam? 320 00:33:09,918 --> 00:33:10,918 Honestly. 321 00:33:18,126 --> 00:33:19,168 God, look at you. 322 00:33:20,126 --> 00:33:21,126 What? 323 00:33:26,668 --> 00:33:27,959 You were just a boy. 324 00:33:30,793 --> 00:33:31,876 And now you're not. 325 00:33:34,126 --> 00:33:35,126 No. 326 00:33:37,107 --> 00:33:39,459 You look totally different, but it's still you. 327 00:33:45,501 --> 00:33:46,821 Well, I thought you'd be hairier. 328 00:33:47,418 --> 00:33:48,935 Like your dad. 329 00:33:48,959 --> 00:33:50,168 Okay, sorry. 330 00:33:52,876 --> 00:33:54,376 I like a hairy chest, myself. 331 00:33:54,751 --> 00:33:56,376 Okay. 332 00:34:00,043 --> 00:34:02,001 Christ, you know who you remind me of? 333 00:34:02,876 --> 00:34:03,876 Uh, who? 334 00:34:05,876 --> 00:34:07,459 You look just like my dad. 335 00:34:08,751 --> 00:34:09,751 Really? 336 00:34:10,126 --> 00:34:11,126 Hmm. 337 00:34:12,084 --> 00:34:14,124 How I remember him anyway, when I was a little girl. 338 00:34:15,626 --> 00:34:17,043 God, isn't that mad? 339 00:34:18,834 --> 00:34:21,334 It's like seeing you both at exactly the same time. 340 00:34:26,085 --> 00:34:27,168 Oh. 341 00:34:28,043 --> 00:34:29,020 I've made your favorite. 342 00:34:29,044 --> 00:34:30,564 Well, I hope it's still your favorite. 343 00:34:31,126 --> 00:34:32,269 I'll just go and pop the kettle on, 344 00:34:32,293 --> 00:34:34,084 and then you can tell me everything. 345 00:35:03,876 --> 00:35:05,019 Delicious. 346 00:35:05,043 --> 00:35:06,185 Good. 347 00:35:06,209 --> 00:35:07,644 Now, your dad told me not to ask, 348 00:35:07,668 --> 00:35:08,810 and I don't see a wedding ring, 349 00:35:08,834 --> 00:35:10,310 so I'm presuming you're not married, 350 00:35:10,334 --> 00:35:11,668 but have you got a girlfriend? 351 00:35:13,543 --> 00:35:14,543 Hmm? 352 00:35:15,334 --> 00:35:16,602 I'm picturing her with brown hair, 353 00:35:16,626 --> 00:35:17,685 not too skinny. 354 00:35:17,709 --> 00:35:19,043 Smart, obviously. 355 00:35:24,334 --> 00:35:25,334 Well? 356 00:35:27,793 --> 00:35:28,793 Well, what? 357 00:35:29,501 --> 00:35:30,501 Do you? 358 00:35:33,793 --> 00:35:35,126 I don't have a girlfriend. No. 359 00:35:38,209 --> 00:35:39,209 That's a shame. 360 00:35:49,501 --> 00:35:51,727 I don't have a girlfriend because I'm not into girls, 361 00:35:51,751 --> 00:35:53,084 into women. 362 00:35:53,584 --> 00:35:54,584 What'd you mean? 363 00:35:55,709 --> 00:35:56,709 I mean... 364 00:35:59,376 --> 00:36:01,168 I'm gay. 365 00:36:02,376 --> 00:36:03,685 As in homosexual? 366 00:36:03,709 --> 00:36:05,626 As in that, yeah. 367 00:36:06,376 --> 00:36:07,459 - Really? - Yeah. 368 00:36:08,668 --> 00:36:09,668 Since when? 369 00:36:10,376 --> 00:36:12,001 Uh, since a long time. 370 00:36:12,584 --> 00:36:13,584 How long? 371 00:36:14,876 --> 00:36:15,876 Forever. 372 00:36:16,418 --> 00:36:18,001 You don't look gay. 373 00:36:19,543 --> 00:36:21,168 Well, I'm not sure what that means. 374 00:36:21,709 --> 00:36:23,549 It means what it means. You know what it means. 375 00:36:30,501 --> 00:36:32,060 Well, bet you're glad 376 00:36:32,084 --> 00:36:33,418 you don't know the neighbors now. 377 00:36:34,709 --> 00:36:36,834 Hmm. I must admit I'm a bit surprised. 378 00:36:38,584 --> 00:36:40,251 Not really sure what I feel about it. 379 00:36:41,126 --> 00:36:43,769 What, you didn't, didn't think it would be a possibility? 380 00:36:43,793 --> 00:36:44,959 No, of course not. 381 00:36:45,918 --> 00:36:47,394 What parent wants to think that about their child? 382 00:36:47,418 --> 00:36:48,709 No parent that I know. 383 00:36:54,376 --> 00:36:55,793 Well, I'm very okay with it, so. 384 00:36:57,001 --> 00:36:58,602 But aren't people nasty to you? 385 00:36:58,626 --> 00:37:00,477 Um, no, no. 386 00:37:00,501 --> 00:37:01,918 No, things are different now. 387 00:37:02,584 --> 00:37:03,664 What, so they aren't nasty? 388 00:37:04,126 --> 00:37:05,709 Not out loud, anyway. 389 00:37:06,709 --> 00:37:08,209 Well, does everybody know? 390 00:37:08,459 --> 00:37:10,059 I mean, are you open about it? I mean... 391 00:37:10,459 --> 00:37:12,339 I don't know, down the High Street at WHSmith's? 392 00:37:12,918 --> 00:37:14,918 Well, it depends on the, on the street. 393 00:37:15,834 --> 00:37:18,126 Yeah. Everybody knows, everyone's fine. 394 00:37:20,251 --> 00:37:22,211 Well, don't you want to get married and have kids? 395 00:37:22,543 --> 00:37:23,935 I can have kids. 396 00:37:23,959 --> 00:37:26,043 Men can marry. Women, too. 397 00:37:27,751 --> 00:37:29,293 What, to each other? 398 00:37:29,959 --> 00:37:31,751 - Yeah. - Why? 399 00:37:32,501 --> 00:37:33,560 What do you mean "why"? 400 00:37:33,584 --> 00:37:36,126 Well, isn't that like having your cake and eating it? 401 00:37:40,668 --> 00:37:42,428 So, do you want to get married and have kids? 402 00:37:42,751 --> 00:37:44,519 I don't know. It wasn't a possibility 403 00:37:44,543 --> 00:37:45,602 for such a long time. 404 00:37:45,626 --> 00:37:46,810 So, I didn't think it was worth the effort 405 00:37:46,834 --> 00:37:48,668 of wanting to get married and have kids. 406 00:37:53,751 --> 00:37:54,751 Huh. 407 00:37:55,418 --> 00:37:57,459 Oh. 408 00:38:05,959 --> 00:38:07,834 - You okay? - Hmm, I'm fine. 409 00:38:09,709 --> 00:38:10,709 Sure? 410 00:38:13,293 --> 00:38:15,060 I suppose I never did know what was going on 411 00:38:15,084 --> 00:38:16,459 in that odd little head of yours. 412 00:38:20,084 --> 00:38:21,918 You were always running away. Do you remember? 413 00:38:23,876 --> 00:38:24,853 Yeah. 414 00:38:24,877 --> 00:38:26,602 There was that time 415 00:38:26,626 --> 00:38:27,977 that you got as far as the train station, 416 00:38:28,001 --> 00:38:29,435 but then you'd lost your money 417 00:38:29,459 --> 00:38:30,560 and so you couldn't buy a ticket. 418 00:38:30,584 --> 00:38:31,894 Do you remember that? 419 00:38:31,918 --> 00:38:34,435 Yes, it was Granny's five-pound note. 420 00:38:34,459 --> 00:38:35,668 Yeah, that was it. 421 00:38:37,918 --> 00:38:39,251 Where were you hoping to go? 422 00:38:43,084 --> 00:38:44,084 Don't know. 423 00:38:46,543 --> 00:38:48,751 London, I guess. 424 00:38:50,543 --> 00:38:51,543 London? 425 00:38:53,293 --> 00:38:54,293 God. 426 00:38:56,501 --> 00:38:58,060 Oh, there was that time that you got as far as 427 00:38:58,084 --> 00:39:00,727 the bottom of the garden, but then you cut your thumb 428 00:39:00,751 --> 00:39:02,852 on an old milk bottle and you came running back up 429 00:39:02,876 --> 00:39:04,685 all sheepish with blood all over your shirt, 430 00:39:04,709 --> 00:39:05,977 and you were banging and banging 431 00:39:06,001 --> 00:39:07,834 - on that window to be let in. - Yeah. 432 00:39:08,543 --> 00:39:09,543 There it is. 433 00:39:10,959 --> 00:39:11,936 Just. 434 00:39:11,960 --> 00:39:13,793 Hmm. 435 00:39:15,834 --> 00:39:17,959 They say it's a very lonely kind of life. 436 00:39:21,626 --> 00:39:23,751 They don't actually say that anymore. 437 00:39:25,709 --> 00:39:26,834 So, you're not lonely? 438 00:39:30,834 --> 00:39:32,459 If I am, it's not because I'm gay. 439 00:39:34,334 --> 00:39:35,334 Not really. 440 00:39:37,459 --> 00:39:38,459 Not really. 441 00:39:46,668 --> 00:39:49,144 Oh, God. And what about this awful, ghastly disease? 442 00:39:49,168 --> 00:39:51,394 I've seen the adverts on the, on the news, and the, 443 00:39:51,418 --> 00:39:52,477 and with the gravestone. 444 00:39:52,501 --> 00:39:53,602 Should I be worried about that? 445 00:39:53,626 --> 00:39:55,418 No. Jesus. 446 00:39:59,584 --> 00:40:00,876 Everything's different now. 447 00:40:05,418 --> 00:40:06,668 Everything's different. 448 00:40:10,793 --> 00:40:12,433 Well, I guess I wouldn't know about that. 449 00:40:22,918 --> 00:40:24,168 Your clothes will be dry now. 450 00:40:26,959 --> 00:40:28,352 You should take these flapjacks with you, 451 00:40:28,376 --> 00:40:29,816 if you want. I won't be eating them. 452 00:41:14,001 --> 00:41:15,001 What's wrong? 453 00:41:17,293 --> 00:41:18,376 I'm okay. 454 00:41:20,501 --> 00:41:22,001 I just got a bit of a chill. 455 00:41:23,418 --> 00:41:25,644 Hey, you're hot. 456 00:41:25,668 --> 00:41:26,751 Yeah. 457 00:41:27,626 --> 00:41:29,084 I was just, I was just... 458 00:41:29,709 --> 00:41:30,959 I just got caught in the rain. 459 00:41:31,501 --> 00:41:32,478 Okay. 460 00:41:32,502 --> 00:41:35,043 Well, why don't I run you a hot bath? 461 00:41:35,584 --> 00:41:36,894 My nan says there's literally nothing 462 00:41:36,918 --> 00:41:38,102 a hot bath couldn't solve. 463 00:41:38,126 --> 00:41:39,435 I don't really like baths. 464 00:41:39,459 --> 00:41:41,918 Fuck off. Who doesn't like baths? 465 00:41:43,793 --> 00:41:45,376 You don't need to be shy around me. 466 00:41:46,709 --> 00:41:48,685 Yes, that's easier said than done. 467 00:41:58,709 --> 00:42:00,060 Would you like me to close my eyes? 468 00:42:00,084 --> 00:42:01,876 - Yes, please. - Okay. 469 00:42:04,043 --> 00:42:05,043 Better? 470 00:42:08,084 --> 00:42:09,418 - Yeah. - Hmm. 471 00:42:11,668 --> 00:42:13,668 Been thinking about you all week, today. 472 00:42:14,626 --> 00:42:15,626 Hmm. 473 00:42:16,418 --> 00:42:17,435 Was thinking about 474 00:42:17,459 --> 00:42:19,501 watching crappy TV with you on a Friday night. 475 00:42:23,126 --> 00:42:25,001 Eating take-away on your sofa. 476 00:42:27,293 --> 00:42:29,227 Watching all the episodes of Top of the Pops 477 00:42:29,251 --> 00:42:30,894 from before I was born. 478 00:42:34,293 --> 00:42:37,001 Yeah. I thought about something else, too. 479 00:42:39,543 --> 00:42:40,876 Thought about fucking you. 480 00:42:42,876 --> 00:42:44,084 - Yeah? - Yeah. 481 00:42:45,168 --> 00:42:47,376 Or you fuck me. I don't really care which. 482 00:42:49,251 --> 00:42:50,251 Are you into that? 483 00:42:54,543 --> 00:42:55,543 Yeah. 484 00:42:56,168 --> 00:42:57,145 It's okay if you're not. 485 00:42:57,169 --> 00:42:58,649 We all don't need to be into fucking. 486 00:42:58,751 --> 00:43:00,543 Well, I wasn't for the longest time, 487 00:43:01,168 --> 00:43:02,251 for obvious reasons. 488 00:43:03,668 --> 00:43:04,959 Obvious reasons? 489 00:43:06,376 --> 00:43:09,959 I thought that if I fucked anybody, I'd die. 490 00:43:12,876 --> 00:43:15,918 It's probably pretty difficult for you to imagine, isn't it? 491 00:43:16,709 --> 00:43:17,709 A little. 492 00:43:43,501 --> 00:43:44,793 Yeah. Come on. 493 00:43:59,751 --> 00:44:01,876 You said the other day you don't see your dad much. 494 00:44:03,418 --> 00:44:04,418 Yeah. 495 00:44:07,543 --> 00:44:08,543 What about your mum? 496 00:44:09,501 --> 00:44:10,501 Yeah, same. 497 00:44:12,584 --> 00:44:13,584 How come? 498 00:44:15,334 --> 00:44:16,560 They know you're queer? 499 00:44:16,584 --> 00:44:17,876 Yeah, course. 500 00:44:20,668 --> 00:44:22,668 - Are they okay with it? - Yeah. 501 00:44:24,043 --> 00:44:25,043 They're okay. 502 00:44:25,876 --> 00:44:27,251 I mean, they're really old school. 503 00:44:28,459 --> 00:44:31,043 Probably less okay than everyone's meant to be. 504 00:44:32,376 --> 00:44:34,668 Yeah. But they got used to it, sort of, it's just, 505 00:44:35,668 --> 00:44:37,043 they don't say too much. 506 00:44:40,334 --> 00:44:41,918 You could say that I have 507 00:44:43,959 --> 00:44:45,876 drifted to the edge. 508 00:44:47,668 --> 00:44:49,459 Or right up to the edge, almost. 509 00:44:50,209 --> 00:44:51,251 Over the edge. 510 00:44:55,584 --> 00:44:56,602 What's that mean? 511 00:44:56,626 --> 00:44:58,251 I'm edge of the family. 512 00:45:00,543 --> 00:45:01,852 My sister and her kids, 513 00:45:01,876 --> 00:45:04,626 and my older brother who just got married, 514 00:45:06,126 --> 00:45:10,293 they've all, they got this spot in the center. 515 00:45:13,293 --> 00:45:14,293 But it's okay. 516 00:45:17,959 --> 00:45:19,001 Why is it okay? 517 00:45:21,834 --> 00:45:23,418 Because, 518 00:45:25,084 --> 00:45:26,793 I don't go home much. 519 00:45:30,918 --> 00:45:32,084 Does that make you sad? 520 00:45:35,084 --> 00:45:38,668 Um. No, I think it's just inevitable, really. 521 00:45:42,709 --> 00:45:43,709 Why? 522 00:45:48,293 --> 00:45:50,543 Um... 523 00:45:56,543 --> 00:45:59,019 I've always felt like a stranger in my own family. 524 00:45:59,043 --> 00:46:00,126 And then, 525 00:46:01,668 --> 00:46:03,310 coming out just puts a name 526 00:46:03,334 --> 00:46:05,334 to that difference that's always been there. 527 00:46:10,334 --> 00:46:11,376 So, in the end, 528 00:46:12,584 --> 00:46:14,168 it's not really anyone's fault. 529 00:46:28,543 --> 00:46:29,626 Hmm. What's wrong? 530 00:46:35,418 --> 00:46:36,459 It's funny. 531 00:46:39,918 --> 00:46:42,043 Things are better now. Course they are, 532 00:46:47,376 --> 00:46:50,584 but doesn't take much to make you feel the way you felt, 533 00:46:53,126 --> 00:46:55,418 back there again, skin all raw. 534 00:47:04,709 --> 00:47:05,793 Am I still hot? 535 00:47:09,834 --> 00:47:10,834 Just a little. 536 00:47:30,001 --> 00:47:31,043 You wanna stay the night? 537 00:48:17,959 --> 00:48:19,168 Sure she won't be long. 538 00:48:20,543 --> 00:48:21,543 It's okay. 539 00:48:22,584 --> 00:48:23,793 Just wanted to talk to her. 540 00:48:24,334 --> 00:48:25,334 Yeah, I know you do. 541 00:48:27,834 --> 00:48:29,194 This was your granddad's favorite. 542 00:48:30,626 --> 00:48:32,334 I never really liked it much at the time, 543 00:48:33,668 --> 00:48:34,709 but it's grown on me. 544 00:48:36,834 --> 00:48:38,185 If you wanna see your mum really lose her shit, 545 00:48:38,209 --> 00:48:39,689 go ahead and break that bloody thing. 546 00:48:43,334 --> 00:48:44,814 Come on then, lad. Sit yourself down. 547 00:48:45,084 --> 00:48:47,269 ♪ I don't want. ♪ 548 00:48:47,293 --> 00:48:52,084 ♪ To set the world on fire. ♪ 549 00:48:54,751 --> 00:48:57,352 ♪ I just want to start... ♪ 550 00:48:57,376 --> 00:48:58,459 Well, she told you then? 551 00:49:00,793 --> 00:49:02,153 Was scared you wouldn't come back. 552 00:49:04,418 --> 00:49:05,435 But you know what your mum's like. 553 00:49:05,459 --> 00:49:08,519 You know, don't be, don't be too disappointed in her. 554 00:49:08,543 --> 00:49:09,602 No, I'm not. 555 00:49:09,626 --> 00:49:10,852 Yeah, she just needs 556 00:49:10,876 --> 00:49:11,935 to rearrange some things in her head, 557 00:49:11,959 --> 00:49:13,751 and all the stories that she's built up. 558 00:49:14,834 --> 00:49:17,293 Yeah. She'll soon realize it's not actually about her. 559 00:49:23,376 --> 00:49:24,376 What about you? 560 00:49:26,584 --> 00:49:27,584 What about me? 561 00:49:28,126 --> 00:49:29,126 What do you think? 562 00:49:31,334 --> 00:49:34,126 Well, I mean, it was hardly a shock. 563 00:49:36,543 --> 00:49:38,223 I always knew you were a bit tutti-frutti. 564 00:49:38,459 --> 00:49:40,060 Couldn't throw a ball for shit, 565 00:49:40,084 --> 00:49:41,852 no matter how many times I tried to teach you. 566 00:49:41,876 --> 00:49:43,227 - Jesus. - Couldn't for shit. 567 00:49:43,251 --> 00:49:44,394 Couldn't do it. 568 00:49:44,418 --> 00:49:46,084 You make me sound like a horrible cliché. 569 00:49:46,418 --> 00:49:47,395 Well, can you throw a ball? 570 00:49:47,419 --> 00:49:48,894 - Not at all. - Well, there you go. 571 00:49:51,834 --> 00:49:56,001 ♪ To set the world on fire... ♪ 572 00:49:59,334 --> 00:50:00,814 Would you have liked me to have known? 573 00:50:02,459 --> 00:50:03,459 I don't know. 574 00:50:04,709 --> 00:50:06,751 I would hear you crying in your room after school. 575 00:50:09,459 --> 00:50:10,668 Did the boys bully you, then? 576 00:50:13,459 --> 00:50:14,501 Not just the boys. 577 00:50:15,668 --> 00:50:16,709 What would they do? 578 00:50:18,668 --> 00:50:20,501 Oh, call me a girl, 579 00:50:22,293 --> 00:50:24,102 ignore me, refuse to play with me, 580 00:50:24,126 --> 00:50:25,876 stick my head down the toilet, 581 00:50:26,751 --> 00:50:28,227 flick drawing pins in my face. 582 00:50:28,251 --> 00:50:29,584 Christ's sake. 583 00:50:31,251 --> 00:50:33,959 Yeah. Well, you know, 584 00:50:35,834 --> 00:50:37,234 kids are little cunts, aren't they? 585 00:50:41,876 --> 00:50:44,376 ♪ And that one desire is you. ♪ 586 00:50:45,459 --> 00:50:46,810 ♪ And I know... ♪ 587 00:50:46,834 --> 00:50:47,977 So, why didn't you come into my room 588 00:50:48,001 --> 00:50:49,084 if you heard me crying? 589 00:50:50,501 --> 00:50:52,541 Why didn't you tell me what was happening at school? 590 00:50:54,209 --> 00:50:55,918 You know, you answer me first. 591 00:50:57,043 --> 00:50:58,043 Be honest. 592 00:51:01,001 --> 00:51:02,269 I just didn't want to think of you as the kind of boy 593 00:51:02,293 --> 00:51:03,727 that the other lads would pick on. 594 00:51:03,751 --> 00:51:05,935 And I knew that if I was at your school, 595 00:51:05,959 --> 00:51:07,399 I'd probably have picked on you too. 596 00:51:10,251 --> 00:51:13,001 Yeah, I think I always probably thought that, anyway. 597 00:51:16,043 --> 00:51:17,020 Probably why I didn't tell you 598 00:51:17,044 --> 00:51:18,477 what was happening to me at school. 599 00:51:18,501 --> 00:51:20,935 ♪ Set the world on... ♪ 600 00:51:20,959 --> 00:51:22,168 Well... 601 00:51:22,959 --> 00:51:24,376 ♪ Fire ♪ 602 00:51:26,127 --> 00:51:30,685 ♪ I just want to start. ♪ 603 00:51:30,709 --> 00:51:31,769 ♪ A flame ♪ 604 00:51:31,793 --> 00:51:33,668 You know, when she told me, 605 00:51:35,376 --> 00:51:37,876 it did make me think about all the jokes that we make, 606 00:51:40,918 --> 00:51:42,019 and, you know, we did impressions 607 00:51:42,043 --> 00:51:43,102 of your English teacher, 608 00:51:43,126 --> 00:51:45,102 when he went around with his limp wrist. 609 00:51:47,293 --> 00:51:48,793 You told me not to cross my legs, 610 00:51:49,293 --> 00:51:51,209 like a woman over, and over, and over again. 611 00:51:56,043 --> 00:51:57,043 Did I? 612 00:52:00,168 --> 00:52:01,209 Yeah, I still... 613 00:52:01,876 --> 00:52:04,293 Still think about it every time I cross my legs. 614 00:52:13,376 --> 00:52:14,935 I have good memories, too. 615 00:52:14,959 --> 00:52:16,501 Yeah, I hope so. Fuck. 616 00:52:17,084 --> 00:52:19,293 I hope so. I hope you did. 617 00:52:22,084 --> 00:52:24,293 Remember you used to love decorating the tree. 618 00:52:27,084 --> 00:52:28,168 That's... 619 00:52:29,043 --> 00:52:31,334 You were crazy for it, every year. 620 00:52:32,459 --> 00:52:34,293 And you'd always let me, um, 621 00:52:34,834 --> 00:52:36,019 put the fairy on top of the tree. 622 00:52:36,043 --> 00:52:37,477 The fairy. I did. 623 00:52:57,293 --> 00:52:58,270 I'm sorry I never came in your room 624 00:52:58,294 --> 00:52:59,418 when you were crying. 625 00:53:00,334 --> 00:53:01,311 No, really, it's okay. 626 00:53:01,335 --> 00:53:02,935 No, it's not okay, though, really, is it? 627 00:53:02,959 --> 00:53:04,727 - It's not. - Dad. Dad, I get it. 628 00:53:04,751 --> 00:53:05,852 It was, it was so long... 629 00:53:07,126 --> 00:53:09,876 It was so long ago. Stop! 630 00:53:21,501 --> 00:53:22,584 Can I hug you now? 631 00:53:24,209 --> 00:53:25,584 Yeah, please. 632 00:53:36,418 --> 00:53:37,543 You're all right, son. 633 00:53:38,459 --> 00:53:39,876 You're all right. 634 00:54:11,126 --> 00:54:12,126 After this, 635 00:54:14,959 --> 00:54:16,043 I wanna go out. 636 00:54:17,876 --> 00:54:18,876 You, 637 00:54:19,543 --> 00:54:21,769 and me... 638 00:54:21,793 --> 00:54:23,668 Together... 639 00:54:24,668 --> 00:54:25,727 Into the world. 640 00:54:29,376 --> 00:54:33,626 ♪ My dog will ♪ ♪ bark at any passers-by. ♪ 641 00:54:36,834 --> 00:54:42,626 ♪ Oh, you can get lonely. ♪ 642 00:54:45,001 --> 00:54:45,978 ♪ I want a dog... ♪ 643 00:54:46,002 --> 00:54:49,251 - What do you want to drink? - Uh... A pint. 644 00:54:51,293 --> 00:54:52,459 Thank you. 645 00:54:56,584 --> 00:54:57,918 Sorry. 646 00:54:59,668 --> 00:55:00,876 Whoops, sorry. 647 00:55:03,209 --> 00:55:04,209 Sorry. 648 00:55:10,834 --> 00:55:12,668 Ah fuck. I've missed this feeling. 649 00:55:13,084 --> 00:55:14,084 I can't hear ya. 650 00:55:14,959 --> 00:55:15,959 Do you dance? 651 00:55:16,501 --> 00:55:17,793 If I'm wasted enough. 652 00:55:18,543 --> 00:55:20,084 Then let's get wasted enough. 653 00:55:25,584 --> 00:55:27,126 C'mon. 654 00:56:00,293 --> 00:56:01,293 Yeah. 655 00:56:01,793 --> 00:56:02,770 Where'd you get this? 656 00:56:02,794 --> 00:56:04,043 Found it in my wallet. 657 00:56:04,959 --> 00:56:06,060 Fuck knows how long it's been there. 658 00:56:15,918 --> 00:56:17,001 I think that's Ketamine. 659 00:56:18,376 --> 00:56:19,560 - Really? - Mmm-hmm. 660 00:56:19,584 --> 00:56:20,793 Have you done it before? 661 00:56:21,251 --> 00:56:22,251 No. 662 00:56:23,376 --> 00:56:25,560 - Will you look after me? - I'll do my best. 663 00:56:25,584 --> 00:56:27,418 - Okay. That'll have to do. - Okay. 664 00:56:51,918 --> 00:56:54,876 ♪ MAN: (SINGING) The death of the party. ♪ 665 00:56:57,876 --> 00:57:00,418 ♪ Came as no surprise. ♪ 666 00:57:03,584 --> 00:57:07,251 ♪ Why did we bother. ♪ 667 00:57:09,668 --> 00:57:11,751 ♪ Should have stayed away. ♪ 668 00:57:14,084 --> 00:57:17,251 ♪ Another night. ♪ 669 00:57:18,668 --> 00:57:21,959 ♪ And I thought well well. ♪ 670 00:57:25,376 --> 00:57:29,751 ♪ Go to another party. ♪ 671 00:57:30,501 --> 00:57:33,209 ♪ And hang myself. ♪ 672 00:57:35,001 --> 00:57:38,852 ♪ Gently on the shelf ♪ 673 00:58:05,334 --> 00:58:09,084 ♪ Another night. ♪ 674 00:58:10,084 --> 00:58:13,584 ♪ And I thought well well. ♪ 675 00:58:16,834 --> 00:58:21,043 ♪ Go to another party. ♪ 676 00:58:21,918 --> 00:58:24,668 ♪ And hang myself. ♪ 677 00:58:26,459 --> 00:58:31,418 ♪ Gently on the shelf. ♪ 678 00:59:08,334 --> 00:59:11,251 ♪ Another party. ♪ 679 00:59:12,709 --> 00:59:16,334 ♪ And I thought well well. ♪ 680 00:59:20,001 --> 00:59:23,001 ♪ Go to another party. ♪ 681 00:59:24,668 --> 00:59:27,084 ♪ And hang myself ♪ 682 01:00:28,168 --> 01:00:29,769 ...for the next 30 minutes, 683 01:00:29,793 --> 01:00:31,376 some surely good tunes coming your way. 684 01:00:31,543 --> 01:00:34,352 Like down here, we have 685 01:00:34,376 --> 01:00:37,060 at number four, The Pet Shop Boys 686 01:00:37,084 --> 01:00:39,418 and You Were Always on My Mind. 687 01:00:48,418 --> 01:00:49,458 Adam. 688 01:00:50,334 --> 01:00:51,418 What's wrong? 689 01:00:53,834 --> 01:00:55,126 Oh, you're really hot. 690 01:00:55,584 --> 01:00:56,668 No, he's really hot. 691 01:00:57,334 --> 01:00:58,334 What? 692 01:01:01,293 --> 01:01:02,876 Now, here you go. 693 01:01:03,959 --> 01:01:05,001 Come on. 694 01:01:07,293 --> 01:01:08,876 Squeeze in, squeeze in, squeeze in. 695 01:01:11,334 --> 01:01:14,501 ♪ Little things ♪ ♪ I should have said and done. ♪ 696 01:01:15,084 --> 01:01:18,084 ♪ I never took the time. ♪ 697 01:01:18,709 --> 01:01:21,168 ♪ You were always on my mind. ♪ 698 01:01:22,418 --> 01:01:25,709 ♪ You were always on my mind ♪ 699 01:01:26,543 --> 01:01:29,043 ♪ Maybe I didn't hold you. ♪ 700 01:01:30,251 --> 01:01:33,001 ♪ All those lonely, lonely times. ♪ 701 01:01:33,876 --> 01:01:36,543 ♪ And I guess I never told you. ♪ 702 01:01:37,626 --> 01:01:40,501 ♪ I'm so happy that you're mine. ♪ 703 01:01:41,918 --> 01:01:45,418 ♪ If I made you feel second best ♪ 704 01:01:45,584 --> 01:01:48,876 ♪ I'm so sorry I was blind. ♪ 705 01:01:49,584 --> 01:01:55,584 ♪ You were always on my mind. ♪ 706 01:01:56,626 --> 01:02:00,394 ♪ Tell me. ♪ 707 01:02:00,418 --> 01:02:04,310 ♪ Tell me that your sweet love hasn't died. ♪ 708 01:02:04,334 --> 01:02:08,019 ♪ Give me. ♪ 709 01:02:08,043 --> 01:02:11,769 ♪ One more chance to keep you satisfied. ♪ 710 01:02:11,793 --> 01:02:13,894 ♪ Satisfied ♪ 711 01:02:22,626 --> 01:02:23,685 Okay, get together. 712 01:02:23,709 --> 01:02:25,876 Yeah. Yeah. Are you ready? I'm gonna press it. 713 01:02:26,709 --> 01:02:27,751 Okay, it's going. 714 01:02:28,501 --> 01:02:30,821 All right, we have to be quick 'cause it goes off in a sec. 715 01:02:32,043 --> 01:02:33,227 It's about 10 seconds. 716 01:02:33,251 --> 01:02:34,876 - Merry Christmas. - Merry Christmas. 717 01:02:35,668 --> 01:02:36,645 - Here we go! - Merry Christmas. 718 01:02:36,669 --> 01:02:37,751 - Merry Christmas! - Go... 719 01:02:39,168 --> 01:02:41,876 ♪ You ♪ ♪ were always on my mind. ♪ 720 01:02:42,668 --> 01:02:45,501 ♪ Tell me ♪ 721 01:02:53,543 --> 01:02:54,668 Is this real? 722 01:02:56,834 --> 01:02:58,043 Does it feel real? 723 01:02:59,834 --> 01:03:00,959 Yeah. 724 01:03:01,959 --> 01:03:03,043 There you go, then. 725 01:03:05,626 --> 01:03:06,709 For how long, though? 726 01:03:07,709 --> 01:03:08,876 I can't answer that. 727 01:03:12,751 --> 01:03:15,251 I suppose we don't get to decide when it's over. 728 01:03:22,084 --> 01:03:23,644 You're not going out now, are you? 729 01:03:24,418 --> 01:03:25,698 Where would we go? 730 01:03:26,168 --> 01:03:27,293 The Walsh's. 731 01:03:27,793 --> 01:03:29,001 The Walsh's? 732 01:03:31,418 --> 01:03:32,395 The Walsh's. 733 01:03:32,419 --> 01:03:34,626 No, no. Wait. 734 01:03:35,126 --> 01:03:37,019 Promise me you're not gonna go out now. 735 01:03:37,043 --> 01:03:38,126 I promise. 736 01:03:38,709 --> 01:03:40,751 We're just gonna be asleep next door. 737 01:03:42,876 --> 01:03:44,126 Promise. 738 01:03:45,501 --> 01:03:46,501 All right? 739 01:03:48,584 --> 01:03:49,584 Get some sleep. 740 01:04:07,709 --> 01:04:08,709 No. 741 01:04:13,918 --> 01:04:15,038 What is it, sweetheart? 742 01:04:17,751 --> 01:04:18,793 I can't sleep. 743 01:04:25,876 --> 01:04:27,001 Well, do you wanna get in? 744 01:04:29,834 --> 01:04:31,584 - Can I? - 'Course, you can. 745 01:04:53,376 --> 01:04:54,959 Still smells the same in here. 746 01:04:58,251 --> 01:04:59,810 You'd creep in here night after night, 747 01:04:59,834 --> 01:05:01,001 saying you couldn't sleep. 748 01:05:03,251 --> 01:05:04,793 You're always scared of something. 749 01:05:07,584 --> 01:05:10,043 Murderers breaking in, or rabies, 750 01:05:11,001 --> 01:05:12,168 or nuclear war. 751 01:05:14,043 --> 01:05:15,418 Do people still get rabies? 752 01:05:16,876 --> 01:05:18,834 - No. - Oh! 753 01:05:21,626 --> 01:05:22,977 I was desperate for you to grow up 754 01:05:23,001 --> 01:05:24,310 just so I could get a good night's sleep. 755 01:05:30,168 --> 01:05:31,168 Sorry. 756 01:05:32,793 --> 01:05:33,876 What are you sorry for? 757 01:05:37,043 --> 01:05:38,126 I'm the sorry one. 758 01:05:40,751 --> 01:05:42,626 I should've relished you driving me bananas. 759 01:05:59,334 --> 01:06:00,418 Where did you go? 760 01:06:02,543 --> 01:06:03,626 You know, afterwards. 761 01:06:06,543 --> 01:06:07,626 I lived with Granny. 762 01:06:08,584 --> 01:06:09,709 She took me to Dublin. 763 01:06:10,251 --> 01:06:11,376 Yeah, I thought so. 764 01:06:13,501 --> 01:06:14,894 Why didn't you live with his lot? 765 01:06:14,918 --> 01:06:16,418 Why didn't you live with Granny May? 766 01:06:18,126 --> 01:06:19,793 They said she was too heartbroken. 767 01:06:20,501 --> 01:06:21,501 About what? 768 01:06:22,668 --> 01:06:24,084 Well, she'd lost her son. 769 01:06:24,668 --> 01:06:25,894 Oh, I see. But my mother was fine 770 01:06:25,918 --> 01:06:27,227 about losing her only daughter? 771 01:06:27,251 --> 01:06:28,543 No, no. 772 01:06:30,334 --> 01:06:31,751 She was not fine. 773 01:06:33,043 --> 01:06:34,394 I just can't believe that she 774 01:06:34,418 --> 01:06:35,876 got to look after you and I didn't. 775 01:06:39,751 --> 01:06:41,251 Are any of them still around now? 776 01:06:43,584 --> 01:06:44,584 No. 777 01:06:45,209 --> 01:06:46,609 Guess they wouldn't be, would they? 778 01:06:49,001 --> 01:06:51,001 And how did you get on over there with Mum? 779 01:06:53,001 --> 01:06:54,959 Did you manage to fit in better at school? 780 01:06:58,001 --> 01:06:59,084 I made sure I did. 781 01:07:06,501 --> 01:07:07,935 I hate that we weren't around 782 01:07:07,959 --> 01:07:09,501 when you needed us most, sweetheart. 783 01:07:13,043 --> 01:07:14,519 And I hate even more 784 01:07:14,543 --> 01:07:16,102 that I wasn't there before that, not really. 785 01:07:16,126 --> 01:07:18,185 No, that's not true. 786 01:07:18,209 --> 01:07:20,584 Come on. Well, I was hardly Mother of the Year, was I? 787 01:07:23,293 --> 01:07:24,685 But I like to think that 788 01:07:24,709 --> 01:07:26,209 I would've got better at it in time. 789 01:07:27,918 --> 01:07:29,168 You know, given time. 790 01:07:33,751 --> 01:07:35,168 You know, when I was a teenager, 791 01:07:36,459 --> 01:07:39,459 or even later, into my twenties, 792 01:07:40,376 --> 01:07:42,126 I used to plot it all out. 793 01:07:43,251 --> 01:07:44,251 What'd you mean? 794 01:07:47,084 --> 01:07:49,043 What we might've done together 795 01:07:51,376 --> 01:07:55,043 in intricate detail. Trips to the Whitgift Centre 796 01:07:55,834 --> 01:07:57,001 birthdays, 797 01:07:58,084 --> 01:07:59,293 trips to London, 798 01:08:00,418 --> 01:08:03,310 The Planetarium, the London Dungeon. 799 01:08:03,334 --> 01:08:04,644 Oh, I always wanted to go there. 800 01:08:05,959 --> 01:08:08,043 I know. 801 01:08:09,251 --> 01:08:10,519 There were holidays 802 01:08:10,543 --> 01:08:11,894 that we might've gone on together. 803 01:08:11,918 --> 01:08:13,310 Did we make it to Disneyland? 804 01:08:13,334 --> 01:08:14,584 We did. 805 01:08:14,918 --> 01:08:16,126 When I was 14. 806 01:08:17,251 --> 01:08:19,644 - It rained nonstop. - Oh! 807 01:08:19,668 --> 01:08:21,793 And they shut down Space Mountain. 808 01:08:22,418 --> 01:08:24,501 And we fought every day. 809 01:08:25,043 --> 01:08:26,269 Why did we have to fight? 810 01:08:26,293 --> 01:08:28,626 Because that's what everyone did with their parents. 811 01:08:30,084 --> 01:08:31,310 They fought and bickered 812 01:08:31,334 --> 01:08:32,644 and pretended that they 813 01:08:32,668 --> 01:08:34,001 were ruining each other's lives. 814 01:08:36,501 --> 01:08:37,626 Did we make up? 815 01:08:40,209 --> 01:08:41,584 No, we didn't need to make up. 816 01:08:43,834 --> 01:08:44,959 We were together, 817 01:08:46,418 --> 01:08:47,418 so, 818 01:08:49,626 --> 01:08:50,709 so it didn't matter. 819 01:08:57,959 --> 01:08:59,084 You okay? 820 01:09:03,501 --> 01:09:04,941 - No. - You're okay, son. 821 01:09:15,793 --> 01:09:16,918 You're okay. 822 01:09:21,251 --> 01:09:22,310 What are you doing here? 823 01:09:22,334 --> 01:09:23,574 You're not supposed to be here. 824 01:11:34,876 --> 01:11:38,352 Mum? Mum? 825 01:11:43,501 --> 01:11:44,501 You're okay. 826 01:11:45,959 --> 01:11:47,019 You're okay. 827 01:11:49,084 --> 01:11:51,543 - What day... What day is it? - Sunday. 828 01:11:53,584 --> 01:11:54,584 Why is it... 829 01:11:55,168 --> 01:11:57,459 How come... How... Why is it still Sunday? 830 01:11:58,001 --> 01:11:59,894 You kept screaming out for your parents 831 01:11:59,918 --> 01:12:01,435 over and over again in the club. 832 01:12:01,459 --> 01:12:02,543 And then, 833 01:12:03,084 --> 01:12:05,168 I didn't know what to do so I just, 834 01:12:06,584 --> 01:12:09,334 took you back here and lay with you till you fell asleep. 835 01:12:14,834 --> 01:12:16,418 You looked so scared. 836 01:12:19,876 --> 01:12:21,060 I am. 837 01:12:21,084 --> 01:12:23,293 Hey, come here. Come here. 838 01:12:24,126 --> 01:12:25,209 Hey, come here. 839 01:12:32,584 --> 01:12:33,852 I'm here. It's okay. 840 01:12:40,834 --> 01:12:41,834 You're okay. 841 01:12:48,751 --> 01:12:50,310 I was sleeping in their bed 842 01:12:50,334 --> 01:12:52,251 the night they went out. 843 01:12:53,334 --> 01:12:54,459 I was meant to go with them. 844 01:12:55,751 --> 01:12:59,543 To Christmas drinks at the Walsh's. 845 01:13:01,126 --> 01:13:04,126 Around midnight, um... 846 01:13:04,334 --> 01:13:07,751 Two police came to the door. A man and a woman. 847 01:13:12,001 --> 01:13:15,060 He had really beautiful, kind eyes, 848 01:13:15,084 --> 01:13:17,685 and this thick, dark stubble. 849 01:13:17,709 --> 01:13:19,084 Looked like it had been drawn on. 850 01:13:23,376 --> 01:13:26,001 The car skidded on black ice. 851 01:13:27,001 --> 01:13:28,709 Both of them had been drinking. 852 01:13:31,126 --> 01:13:34,126 Dad was killed right away, but they took Mum to, uh, 853 01:13:34,709 --> 01:13:37,376 Saint Mary's in Croydon, and she died a few days later. 854 01:13:37,918 --> 01:13:39,376 Did you get to see her? 855 01:13:42,251 --> 01:13:43,810 What'd you mean? To say goodbye? 856 01:13:43,834 --> 01:13:44,918 Mmm-hmm. Yeah. 857 01:13:45,501 --> 01:13:46,501 No. 858 01:13:47,168 --> 01:13:49,685 My granny thought it would be too scarring. 859 01:13:51,334 --> 01:13:53,102 Mum went through the windscreen 860 01:13:53,126 --> 01:13:54,477 and she lost an eye, 861 01:13:54,501 --> 01:13:57,185 so she was pretty fucked up. 862 01:13:57,209 --> 01:13:58,394 Jesus. 863 01:13:58,418 --> 01:13:59,501 Yeah. 864 01:14:03,251 --> 01:14:04,459 I went looking for that eye. 865 01:14:08,043 --> 01:14:11,126 I don't know why. Didn't want anyone else to find it. 866 01:14:12,584 --> 01:14:14,304 Thought it would be on the side of the road. 867 01:14:16,751 --> 01:14:19,834 Staring up at me. "Hi." 868 01:14:23,334 --> 01:14:25,852 I did find a tiny piece 869 01:14:25,876 --> 01:14:27,793 of the windscreen glass, though. 870 01:14:32,834 --> 01:14:34,185 In my head, it had blood on it, 871 01:14:34,209 --> 01:14:35,709 but maybe that's not true. 872 01:14:39,834 --> 01:14:41,769 The nurse said that Mum woke up 873 01:14:41,793 --> 01:14:43,376 just before she died. 874 01:14:46,751 --> 01:14:49,543 She must've been so confused. Can't hardly see and... 875 01:14:50,959 --> 01:14:52,501 Dad wasn't there, I wasn't there. 876 01:14:55,543 --> 01:14:58,001 I can't even begin to imagine how you felt. 877 01:15:00,084 --> 01:15:01,668 How lonely you must've been. 878 01:15:03,043 --> 01:15:06,560 Yeah, but, like, I'd always felt lonely, 879 01:15:06,584 --> 01:15:07,876 even before. 880 01:15:09,584 --> 01:15:11,084 This was a new feeling. 881 01:15:12,584 --> 01:15:13,584 Like 882 01:15:19,418 --> 01:15:20,543 a terror, 883 01:15:22,168 --> 01:15:25,084 that I'd always be alone now. 884 01:15:30,584 --> 01:15:33,293 And then, as I got older, that feeling just, 885 01:15:35,459 --> 01:15:37,001 just solidified. 886 01:15:39,251 --> 01:15:40,251 Just a... 887 01:15:40,876 --> 01:15:43,251 Just a knot here all the time. 888 01:15:44,918 --> 01:15:46,935 And then losing them, 889 01:15:46,959 --> 01:15:49,084 it just got tangled up with all the other stuff, 890 01:15:50,126 --> 01:15:51,501 about being gay, 891 01:15:54,209 --> 01:15:55,626 and just feeling, like, 892 01:16:00,918 --> 01:16:02,293 the future doesn't matter. 893 01:16:08,126 --> 01:16:09,168 Does that make sense? 894 01:16:13,334 --> 01:16:14,376 Yeah. 895 01:16:15,959 --> 01:16:16,959 Mmm-hmm. 896 01:16:20,376 --> 01:16:23,376 I know how easy it can be to stop caring about yourself. 897 01:16:28,501 --> 01:16:29,543 Yeah. 898 01:16:36,334 --> 01:16:37,334 Yeah. 899 01:16:43,584 --> 01:16:44,584 Adam. 900 01:16:51,918 --> 01:16:52,918 Will you come with me? 901 01:16:56,959 --> 01:16:58,043 Where to? 902 01:16:59,751 --> 01:17:02,209 Just let me show you. 903 01:17:24,918 --> 01:17:25,918 Whose house is this? 904 01:17:27,459 --> 01:17:28,459 My parents'. 905 01:17:29,376 --> 01:17:31,626 Yeah. Who lives here now? 906 01:17:35,209 --> 01:17:37,418 It's okay. Don't worry. 907 01:17:51,918 --> 01:17:52,918 Hello? 908 01:17:54,251 --> 01:17:55,251 Adam. 909 01:18:13,334 --> 01:18:15,126 Hello? 910 01:18:16,168 --> 01:18:17,501 - Where are they? - Who? 911 01:18:20,626 --> 01:18:21,626 Hello? 912 01:18:22,626 --> 01:18:23,852 Who? 913 01:18:23,876 --> 01:18:25,126 My parents. 914 01:18:26,126 --> 01:18:27,560 This is our house. This is our kitchen. 915 01:18:27,584 --> 01:18:30,019 This is our wallpaper. That's our table where we had 916 01:18:30,043 --> 01:18:31,144 fish and chips every Friday night, 917 01:18:31,168 --> 01:18:32,310 so my mother could pretend 918 01:18:32,334 --> 01:18:33,394 we were still Catholic. 919 01:18:33,418 --> 01:18:35,394 Adam I want to go home. Let me take you home. 920 01:18:35,418 --> 01:18:37,185 - This is my home. - No, it used to be. 921 01:18:37,209 --> 01:18:38,560 - It's not anymore. Adam! - Mum? 922 01:18:38,584 --> 01:18:39,685 - Dad? - Adam, listen. 923 01:18:39,709 --> 01:18:40,935 Let me take you home. 924 01:18:40,959 --> 01:18:42,293 You go home! 925 01:18:42,668 --> 01:18:44,043 You go home. I'm not going. 926 01:18:48,751 --> 01:18:49,793 Where are they? 927 01:18:51,501 --> 01:18:52,478 Where are they? 928 01:18:54,168 --> 01:18:55,251 Mum? 929 01:18:56,209 --> 01:18:57,543 - Adam, stop it. - Dad? 930 01:19:02,126 --> 01:19:03,293 Can you see them? 931 01:19:13,918 --> 01:19:14,918 Let me in. 932 01:19:15,626 --> 01:19:16,793 Please. 933 01:19:18,043 --> 01:19:19,209 Please let me in. 934 01:19:21,584 --> 01:19:22,751 Please let me in. 935 01:19:27,876 --> 01:19:29,144 He has to stop now. 936 01:19:29,168 --> 01:19:30,310 He has to get on with his life. 937 01:19:30,334 --> 01:19:31,394 He can't keep coming here. 938 01:19:31,418 --> 01:19:33,477 We're not allowing him to get on with his life. 939 01:19:33,501 --> 01:19:35,519 I think we are helping him. 940 01:19:35,543 --> 01:19:37,602 No, we're not. It's not normal. 941 01:19:37,626 --> 01:19:39,834 - It's not... - Why didn't you let us in? 942 01:19:44,168 --> 01:19:46,310 Where is he? Is he here? Is Harry here? 943 01:19:46,334 --> 01:19:47,418 No. 944 01:19:49,334 --> 01:19:50,459 We did see him, though. 945 01:19:53,959 --> 01:19:55,418 But I wanted you to meet him. 946 01:19:56,834 --> 01:19:59,043 I know, but I don't think this works like that. 947 01:19:59,543 --> 01:20:01,063 Looked like a handsome fellow, though. 948 01:20:03,459 --> 01:20:06,334 Is he your special friend? 949 01:20:09,834 --> 01:20:10,811 Do you mean my boyfriend? 950 01:20:10,835 --> 01:20:12,668 Is he my boyfriend? You can say it. 951 01:20:13,584 --> 01:20:16,209 Okay. Well, is he your boyfriend? 952 01:20:17,459 --> 01:20:21,709 Um... Uh, I don't know. 953 01:20:24,834 --> 01:20:26,043 Are you in love with him? 954 01:20:30,584 --> 01:20:31,959 Why is that so strange? 955 01:20:35,626 --> 01:20:38,751 I don't know, I've never been in love before, so... 956 01:20:40,418 --> 01:20:41,459 Not really. 957 01:20:42,126 --> 01:20:43,126 So, this... 958 01:20:44,668 --> 01:20:46,793 I don't know if this is it. 959 01:20:48,084 --> 01:20:49,334 Sweetheart. 960 01:20:50,793 --> 01:20:51,793 Well, 961 01:20:52,751 --> 01:20:55,001 he certainly seems to care about you a whole heap, 962 01:20:56,043 --> 01:20:58,834 in my not so humble opinion. 963 01:21:02,959 --> 01:21:04,799 Do you think you'd like to be in love with him? 964 01:21:10,168 --> 01:21:11,168 Yeah? 965 01:21:32,584 --> 01:21:34,543 - Son, I think we... - No. 966 01:21:35,084 --> 01:21:36,168 Don't say it. 967 01:21:36,918 --> 01:21:38,852 - Please don't say it. - No, we have to. 968 01:21:38,876 --> 01:21:40,126 We have to. 969 01:21:40,834 --> 01:21:42,084 Um... 970 01:21:43,168 --> 01:21:44,418 Me and your mum, 971 01:21:45,626 --> 01:21:48,043 we think that it's best you don't come visit us anymore. 972 01:21:50,334 --> 01:21:51,334 All right. 973 01:21:52,334 --> 01:21:54,709 You're just gonna keep coming and coming, I know you are. 974 01:21:56,001 --> 01:21:57,668 And we can see what this is doing to you. 975 01:21:59,293 --> 01:22:00,477 It's not doing anything to me. 976 01:22:00,501 --> 01:22:01,709 Yes, it is. 977 01:22:02,626 --> 01:22:04,126 It won't let you move on. 978 01:22:05,251 --> 01:22:06,626 Okay, well, I'll come less. 979 01:22:07,168 --> 01:22:10,060 I'll come once a year. I'll come at Christmas. 980 01:22:10,084 --> 01:22:11,293 Come on, lad, we... 981 01:22:11,793 --> 01:22:12,810 You have to have known 982 01:22:12,834 --> 01:22:13,894 that this wasn't gonna last forever. 983 01:22:13,918 --> 01:22:16,269 I'm not asking for it to last forever. 984 01:22:16,293 --> 01:22:17,376 I'm just... 985 01:22:18,501 --> 01:22:19,793 It hasn't been long enough. 986 01:22:21,876 --> 01:22:23,293 Hasn't been close to long enough. 987 01:22:28,834 --> 01:22:30,626 I know, but it never could be, could it? 988 01:22:44,418 --> 01:22:45,543 Hey, listen. 989 01:22:46,709 --> 01:22:47,876 I've got an idea. 990 01:22:49,043 --> 01:22:50,168 How's about... 991 01:22:52,293 --> 01:22:53,852 How's about we go to your favorite place 992 01:22:53,876 --> 01:22:56,918 in the whole bloody world, huh? 993 01:22:58,876 --> 01:23:00,418 I'm sure it's still open. 994 01:23:01,918 --> 01:23:03,435 It's the next best thing to Disneyland. 995 01:23:03,459 --> 01:23:04,644 It's fucking cheaper too. 996 01:23:11,834 --> 01:23:13,194 What do you think? 997 01:23:25,293 --> 01:23:29,584 ♪ If ♪ ♪ I could see the world. ♪ 998 01:23:30,209 --> 01:23:33,959 ♪ Through the eyes of a child. ♪ 999 01:23:34,626 --> 01:23:38,644 ♪ What a wonderful world. ♪ 1000 01:23:38,668 --> 01:23:42,126 ♪ This would be. ♪ 1001 01:23:43,001 --> 01:23:44,435 ♪ There'd be no trouble... ♪ 1002 01:23:44,459 --> 01:23:47,751 Uh, can I get the "family special", please? 1003 01:23:48,584 --> 01:23:49,744 That's a lot of food. 1004 01:23:50,793 --> 01:23:51,793 That's okay. 1005 01:23:57,209 --> 01:23:58,334 Not really very hungry. 1006 01:23:58,834 --> 01:24:00,334 - No, me neither. - No. 1007 01:24:07,126 --> 01:24:08,310 Hey, I wanna ask you something. 1008 01:24:08,334 --> 01:24:10,294 - God, no, don't ask. - No, no, I'm gonna ask him. 1009 01:24:11,709 --> 01:24:13,019 - Was it quick? - Oh, Jesus. 1010 01:24:13,043 --> 01:24:15,102 - I told you not to ask. - You're the... You wanna know. 1011 01:24:15,126 --> 01:24:16,519 Yeah, but what if it was slow and horribly painful? 1012 01:24:16,543 --> 01:24:17,602 Yeah, but what difference does it make? 1013 01:24:17,626 --> 01:24:18,727 It makes a big difference. 1014 01:24:18,751 --> 01:24:19,834 It was quick. 1015 01:24:21,334 --> 01:24:22,626 - Was it? - Yeah. 1016 01:24:24,543 --> 01:24:25,543 For both of us? 1017 01:24:26,459 --> 01:24:27,459 Mmm-hmm. 1018 01:24:28,001 --> 01:24:29,560 No, you don't seem sure. 1019 01:24:29,584 --> 01:24:30,644 Don't be fibbing now. 1020 01:24:30,668 --> 01:24:31,751 It was quick. 1021 01:24:32,209 --> 01:24:33,209 It was really quick. 1022 01:24:36,668 --> 01:24:37,668 Well, okay. 1023 01:24:37,876 --> 01:24:38,876 Yeah, yeah. 1024 01:24:39,001 --> 01:24:41,584 Yeah, but that's a relief, isn't it? Of sorts. 1025 01:24:42,459 --> 01:24:44,019 It's been playing on my mind, that has. 1026 01:24:50,001 --> 01:24:51,019 What do you think we should say 1027 01:24:51,043 --> 01:24:52,126 to each other? 1028 01:24:55,501 --> 01:24:57,501 Not sure I have much wisdom to share. 1029 01:24:59,001 --> 01:25:01,644 I don't know, maybe, Adam being older, 1030 01:25:01,668 --> 01:25:03,334 should be sharing some with us. 1031 01:25:07,001 --> 01:25:08,376 Maybe we shouldn't say anything. 1032 01:25:09,126 --> 01:25:10,126 Maybe. 1033 01:25:13,459 --> 01:25:14,644 Although, I will say that getting 1034 01:25:14,668 --> 01:25:16,251 to know you has made us very proud, son. 1035 01:25:19,959 --> 01:25:22,019 I haven't done anything to be proud of. 1036 01:25:22,043 --> 01:25:24,203 - I've just muddled through. - No, but you got through. 1037 01:25:24,918 --> 01:25:26,060 Some tough times, I'm sure, 1038 01:25:26,084 --> 01:25:27,793 and you're still here. 1039 01:25:30,459 --> 01:25:31,539 That's what we're proud of. 1040 01:25:35,918 --> 01:25:36,959 Yeah. 1041 01:25:47,293 --> 01:25:48,293 Dad? 1042 01:25:49,376 --> 01:25:50,418 Hmm? 1043 01:25:53,293 --> 01:25:56,935 Stay. Stay. Stay a bit longer. 1044 01:25:56,959 --> 01:25:58,334 No, I don't think so, son. 1045 01:25:58,959 --> 01:26:00,084 Love you, darling. 1046 01:26:03,668 --> 01:26:04,668 You do? 1047 01:26:08,251 --> 01:26:10,043 Sometimes, I wasn't so sure. 1048 01:26:11,834 --> 01:26:13,060 Whatever problems we had, 1049 01:26:13,084 --> 01:26:15,126 I'm glad we got to be together at the end. 1050 01:26:22,251 --> 01:26:23,251 Me too. 1051 01:26:25,459 --> 01:26:26,459 Now, I... 1052 01:26:28,084 --> 01:26:30,209 I know I was never good at saying it. 1053 01:26:31,001 --> 01:26:32,376 I just couldn't get the words out. 1054 01:26:35,959 --> 01:26:37,501 I do love you very much. 1055 01:26:40,918 --> 01:26:43,501 Somehow, even more, now that I know you. 1056 01:26:54,043 --> 01:26:55,834 It's important that you believe me. 1057 01:26:57,251 --> 01:26:58,293 I do. 1058 01:27:00,209 --> 01:27:01,769 And I love you very much. 1059 01:27:03,543 --> 01:27:04,543 Dad? 1060 01:27:06,793 --> 01:27:09,477 Dad, did... Dad, did you hear that? 1061 01:27:09,501 --> 01:27:13,477 Oh, Adam, are you there? 1062 01:27:13,501 --> 01:27:15,751 I can't see you. Why can't I see you? 1063 01:27:17,293 --> 01:27:18,376 I'm here, Mum. 1064 01:27:20,043 --> 01:27:21,209 Oh, there you are. 1065 01:27:24,584 --> 01:27:25,834 I can feel you. 1066 01:27:28,084 --> 01:27:29,793 Skin's lovely and warm. 1067 01:27:31,501 --> 01:27:32,501 Now, you listen. 1068 01:27:33,543 --> 01:27:34,959 You promise me 1069 01:27:35,626 --> 01:27:37,626 that you're gonna try with this Harry boy. 1070 01:27:39,209 --> 01:27:40,394 Yeah. 1071 01:27:40,418 --> 01:27:42,251 I'd have liked him. I know it. 1072 01:27:43,251 --> 01:27:45,131 He might need a bit of taking care of, mind you. 1073 01:27:47,376 --> 01:27:49,251 He's got such a sad face. 1074 01:27:53,126 --> 01:27:54,935 - Do you hear me? - Yeah. 1075 01:27:54,959 --> 01:27:56,918 Yeah, I hear you. 1076 01:27:59,668 --> 01:28:00,918 That's good. 1077 01:28:02,751 --> 01:28:05,543 I hope you make each other a bit happier. 1078 01:28:18,501 --> 01:28:21,876 Such a kind and gentle boy. 1079 01:28:54,501 --> 01:28:55,959 - Enjoy. - Thank you. 1080 01:31:52,418 --> 01:31:53,418 Harry? 1081 01:33:52,543 --> 01:33:54,209 What are you doing down here? 1082 01:34:02,084 --> 01:34:04,126 I came to find you. 1083 01:34:08,334 --> 01:34:09,418 Why are you here? 1084 01:34:14,251 --> 01:34:17,084 I... I said goodbye to them, so I came to see you. 1085 01:34:33,501 --> 01:34:34,935 - It's okay. - It's not okay, though, 1086 01:34:34,959 --> 01:34:36,043 is it? 1087 01:34:46,293 --> 01:34:49,793 I was so scared that night. I just needed to not be alone. 1088 01:34:56,459 --> 01:34:57,459 I know. 1089 01:35:10,334 --> 01:35:11,334 I'm sorry. 1090 01:35:14,334 --> 01:35:15,709 I was too scared 1091 01:35:20,709 --> 01:35:21,751 to let you in. 1092 01:35:40,293 --> 01:35:41,668 I'm in there, aren't I? 1093 01:35:46,168 --> 01:35:48,185 - Let's just go upstairs. - No, no, no. 1094 01:35:48,209 --> 01:35:50,251 I just need you to tell me, okay? 1095 01:35:52,751 --> 01:35:54,793 Because I can smell it. I can 1096 01:35:56,209 --> 01:35:57,709 taste it in my throat. 1097 01:36:09,043 --> 01:36:10,543 How come no one found me? 1098 01:36:16,918 --> 01:36:18,834 Where was my mum and my dad? 1099 01:36:21,668 --> 01:36:23,060 - I found you... - I know, 1100 01:36:23,084 --> 01:36:24,519 but I... Adam, I don't want you 1101 01:36:24,543 --> 01:36:25,977 to see me like that in there. It's... 1102 01:36:26,001 --> 01:36:27,894 You're not in there. You're not in there. 1103 01:36:27,918 --> 01:36:29,001 You're not in there. 1104 01:36:31,626 --> 01:36:32,668 You're here. 1105 01:36:34,543 --> 01:36:35,543 You're here. 1106 01:36:39,043 --> 01:36:40,043 You're here. 1107 01:36:42,584 --> 01:36:43,584 With me. 1108 01:36:50,626 --> 01:36:51,668 Let's just go upstairs. 1109 01:37:11,918 --> 01:37:13,126 I saw her, you know. 1110 01:37:14,293 --> 01:37:15,293 Your mum. 1111 01:37:16,584 --> 01:37:18,209 Your dad, too, at the house. 1112 01:37:22,126 --> 01:37:23,501 They saw you, too. 1113 01:37:24,376 --> 01:37:25,376 They did? 1114 01:37:25,543 --> 01:37:26,543 Mmm-hmm. 1115 01:37:28,876 --> 01:37:31,144 My dad says you're a handsome fellow. 1116 01:37:35,293 --> 01:37:36,293 Hmm. 1117 01:37:37,084 --> 01:37:38,204 They'd have loved you. 1118 01:37:40,043 --> 01:37:41,168 They both would. 1119 01:37:41,793 --> 01:37:42,834 That's good. 1120 01:37:45,043 --> 01:37:46,876 Did you get to say what you wanted to say? 1121 01:37:50,501 --> 01:37:52,101 I don't know, but I got to be with them. 1122 01:37:54,168 --> 01:37:55,959 It's good that you were all together. 1123 01:37:58,168 --> 01:37:59,168 Yeah. 1124 01:38:08,626 --> 01:38:09,793 I'm scared. 1125 01:38:12,668 --> 01:38:13,668 I know. 1126 01:38:18,543 --> 01:38:20,084 But I'm here with you. 1127 01:38:29,126 --> 01:38:30,959 Don't let this get tangled up again. 1128 01:38:52,251 --> 01:38:53,293 Okay, come on. 1129 01:38:53,793 --> 01:38:54,793 Okay. 1130 01:39:21,793 --> 01:39:23,293 It's so quiet. 1131 01:39:27,793 --> 01:39:31,084 Never could stand how quiet this place was. 1132 01:39:34,959 --> 01:39:36,418 Will you put a record on? 1133 01:39:38,793 --> 01:39:40,668 - What would you like? - You choose. 1134 01:39:56,793 --> 01:39:58,876 "I'll protect you from the hooded claw." 1135 01:40:01,001 --> 01:40:03,376 "Keep the vampires from your door." 1136 01:40:13,168 --> 01:40:16,168 ♪ Ay, ay, ay, ay. ♪ 1137 01:40:17,626 --> 01:40:20,501 ♪ Feels like fire. ♪ 1138 01:40:21,043 --> 01:40:24,043 ♪ I'm so in love with you. ♪ 1139 01:40:26,626 --> 01:40:30,185 ♪ Dreams are like angels. ♪ 1140 01:40:30,209 --> 01:40:34,126 ♪ They keep bad at bay, bad at bay. ♪ 1141 01:40:34,626 --> 01:40:36,769 ♪ Love is the light. ♪ 1142 01:40:36,793 --> 01:40:42,626 ♪ Scaring darkness away, yeah. ♪ 1143 01:40:44,459 --> 01:40:47,185 ♪ I'm so in love with you. ♪ 1144 01:40:47,209 --> 01:40:49,501 ♪ Purge the soul. ♪ 1145 01:40:52,001 --> 01:40:57,043 ♪ Make love your goal. ♪ 1146 01:40:59,501 --> 01:41:03,310 ♪ The power of love. ♪ 1147 01:41:03,334 --> 01:41:07,602 ♪ A force from above. ♪ 1148 01:41:07,626 --> 01:41:11,168 ♪ Cleaning my soul. ♪ 1149 01:41:15,084 --> 01:41:18,352 ♪ Flame on, burn desire. ♪ 1150 01:41:18,376 --> 01:41:22,310 ♪ Love with tongues of fire. ♪ 1151 01:41:22,334 --> 01:41:25,060 ♪ Purge the soul. ♪ 1152 01:41:25,084 --> 01:41:31,084 ♪ Make love your goal. ♪ 1153 01:41:45,793 --> 01:41:49,834 ♪ I'll protect you from the hooded claw. ♪ 1154 01:41:50,043 --> 01:41:53,435 ♪ Keep the vampires from your door. ♪ 1155 01:41:53,459 --> 01:41:57,810 ♪ When the chips are down I'll be around. ♪ 1156 01:41:57,834 --> 01:42:03,293 ♪ With my undying, ♪ ♪ death-defying love for you. ♪ 1157 01:42:04,251 --> 01:42:08,019 ♪ Envy will hurt itself. ♪ 1158 01:42:08,043 --> 01:42:11,852 ♪ Let yourself be beautiful. ♪ 1159 01:42:11,876 --> 01:42:17,876 ♪ Sparkling love, flowers ♪ ♪ And pearls and pretty girls. ♪ 1160 01:42:17,918 --> 01:42:21,685 ♪ Love is like an energy. ♪ 1161 01:42:21,709 --> 01:42:27,709 ♪ Rushin' an' rushin' inside of me, eh. ♪ 1162 01:42:33,043 --> 01:42:36,852 ♪ The power of love. ♪ 1163 01:42:36,876 --> 01:42:40,668 ♪ A force from above. ♪ 1164 01:42:41,293 --> 01:42:44,626 ♪ Cleaning my soul. ♪ 1165 01:42:48,668 --> 01:42:51,977 ♪ Flame on, burn desire. ♪ 1166 01:42:52,001 --> 01:42:55,894 ♪ Love with tongues of fire. ♪ 1167 01:42:55,918 --> 01:42:58,644 ♪ Purge the soul. ♪ 1168 01:42:58,668 --> 01:43:04,251 ♪ Make love your goal. ♪ 1169 01:43:18,418 --> 01:43:21,543 ♪ This time we go sublime. ♪ 1170 01:43:22,334 --> 01:43:25,352 ♪ Lovers entwine, divine, divine. ♪ 1171 01:43:25,376 --> 01:43:29,459 ♪ Love is danger, love is pleasure. ♪ 1172 01:43:30,001 --> 01:43:34,001 ♪ Love is pure, the only treasure. ♪ 1173 01:43:35,751 --> 01:43:41,043 ♪ I'm so in love with you Purge the soul. ♪ 1174 01:43:43,668 --> 01:43:48,668 ♪ Make love your goal. ♪ 1175 01:43:56,959 --> 01:44:00,727 ♪ The power of love. ♪ 1176 01:44:00,751 --> 01:44:04,459 ♪ A force from above. ♪ 1177 01:44:05,126 --> 01:44:09,626 ♪ Cleaning my soul. ♪ 1178 01:44:12,501 --> 01:44:16,394 ♪ The power of love. ♪ 1179 01:44:16,418 --> 01:44:20,310 ♪ A force from above. ♪ 1180 01:44:20,334 --> 01:44:26,334 ♪ A sky-scraping dove. ♪ 1181 01:44:27,959 --> 01:44:31,435 ♪ Flame on, burn desire. ♪ 1182 01:44:31,459 --> 01:44:35,310 ♪ Love with tongues of fire. ♪ 1183 01:44:35,334 --> 01:44:38,102 ♪ Purge the soul. ♪ 1184 01:44:38,126 --> 01:44:44,126 ♪ Make love your goal. ♪ 1185 01:45:10,334 --> 01:45:13,209 ♪ I'll protect you from the hooded claw. ♪ 1186 01:45:15,334 --> 01:45:18,584 ♪ Keep the vampires from your door ♪