1 00:00:25,420 --> 00:00:27,620 The goal is to get home by nightfall. 2 00:00:28,580 --> 00:00:29,580 I'm exhausted. 3 00:00:30,200 --> 00:00:31,460 Oh, what is that? 4 00:00:32,080 --> 00:00:33,220 Oh, it's a platypus. 5 00:00:34,000 --> 00:00:35,000 Wow. 6 00:00:35,300 --> 00:00:36,820 I'm very glad to be here. 7 00:00:37,420 --> 00:00:39,380 I want to be out here for 90 days. 8 00:00:40,020 --> 00:00:41,020 Oh, yes. 9 00:00:41,380 --> 00:00:42,540 Definitely a paddy melon. 10 00:00:42,800 --> 00:00:44,720 Make that trap now while the animal's there. 11 00:00:44,980 --> 00:00:47,380 The quicker I finish this, the quicker I could possibly be eating it. 12 00:00:48,140 --> 00:00:50,540 I'm starting to feel how harsh this place can be. 13 00:00:51,520 --> 00:00:53,660 It's like a cane pit from hell. 14 00:00:54,320 --> 00:00:55,660 Where you just can't leave. 15 00:00:56,700 --> 00:00:58,860 Man, my brain is just scattered. 16 00:00:59,360 --> 00:01:03,540 Starting to lose a bit of hope on my abilities to catch food out here. 17 00:01:03,780 --> 00:01:06,000 Suddenly going downhill very, very fast. 18 00:01:06,500 --> 00:01:09,080 Fuck this. I'm over it. I'm fucking over it. 19 00:01:11,000 --> 00:01:14,160 We're halfway to the South Pole. We're going to be totally alone. 20 00:01:15,460 --> 00:01:18,360 It's Tasmania. It's cold. It's rain. It's snow. 21 00:01:20,000 --> 00:01:22,520 We're all going to leave changed forever. 22 00:01:29,260 --> 00:01:30,920 Mother nature's kicking my ass. 23 00:01:32,520 --> 00:01:39,460 This experience... You fucker! ...is just as much a mind 24 00:01:39,460 --> 00:01:40,700 game... Oh, my heart. 25 00:01:40,940 --> 00:01:42,780 ...as it is a survival game. 26 00:01:42,980 --> 00:01:43,980 Check it out. 27 00:01:46,900 --> 00:01:48,100 Let's hear it another way. 28 00:01:51,140 --> 00:01:56,060 A $250,000 prize would change my life. 29 00:02:48,330 --> 00:02:53,430 Man, yesterday afternoon was just emotionally challenging. 30 00:02:57,170 --> 00:03:00,630 I don't know, I've never experienced hunger like this before. 31 00:03:02,050 --> 00:03:06,850 The environment's perfect. It's just what the lack of food is doing to my 32 00:03:06,850 --> 00:03:07,850 mind. 33 00:03:08,030 --> 00:03:10,330 In a lot of ways, it scares me. I don't like it. 34 00:03:12,230 --> 00:03:16,710 What the hell is the answer here? Like, how do I continue this journey? 35 00:03:17,920 --> 00:03:22,720 and keep achieving my motives if I can't fuel my brain. 36 00:03:23,960 --> 00:03:27,880 I just need a sign that's going to be alright. 37 00:03:31,340 --> 00:03:37,520 Maybe I'm not as mentally resilient as I thought I'd grown to be. 38 00:03:41,800 --> 00:03:46,280 This is just, unfortunately, the end of my time here. 39 00:04:12,650 --> 00:04:13,650 You're fucking kidding me. 40 00:04:23,850 --> 00:04:29,610 That fishing line is moving. 41 00:04:30,150 --> 00:04:31,450 I kid you not. 42 00:04:44,460 --> 00:04:45,460 No way 43 00:05:12,750 --> 00:05:13,750 No shit. 44 00:05:28,330 --> 00:05:32,890 What the hell? 45 00:05:36,850 --> 00:05:40,630 I feel like I should be more excited, like, but I'm... 46 00:05:41,080 --> 00:05:42,660 I'm absolutely in shock. 47 00:05:44,340 --> 00:05:45,340 Unbelievable. 48 00:05:57,360 --> 00:05:58,600 Look at these eggs. 49 00:05:59,180 --> 00:06:00,940 Oh, no way. 50 00:06:02,720 --> 00:06:04,440 Look at that. 51 00:06:07,960 --> 00:06:09,100 That is... 52 00:06:09,940 --> 00:06:10,940 Absolutely nuts. 53 00:06:16,260 --> 00:06:17,260 Wow. 54 00:06:17,960 --> 00:06:19,760 I'm just gonna soup it up, the whole thing. 55 00:06:22,480 --> 00:06:23,480 OK. 56 00:06:24,600 --> 00:06:25,820 I can go in there like that. 57 00:06:31,540 --> 00:06:32,920 Don't never not ever give up. 58 00:06:44,510 --> 00:06:45,530 Food's in the belly. 59 00:06:46,670 --> 00:06:47,670 Morale is high. 60 00:06:49,070 --> 00:06:50,070 Positivity. 61 00:06:52,310 --> 00:06:55,250 There's nowhere else I want to be right now than here. 62 00:06:55,730 --> 00:06:57,990 And that's honestly the truth. 63 00:07:29,119 --> 00:07:33,880 Today, I need to air my everything. 64 00:07:34,200 --> 00:07:35,700 I just need air on my everything. 65 00:07:37,800 --> 00:07:44,420 So I will now show you why you don't like medical stuff or 52-year-old 66 00:07:44,420 --> 00:07:47,320 woman's thighs. Just go make a cup of tea. 67 00:07:50,100 --> 00:07:55,400 Okay, how's this for absolutely horrible? 68 00:07:56,750 --> 00:07:57,970 Don't you wish you were me? 69 00:08:00,670 --> 00:08:06,810 Yep. I think I've figured out what's really aggravating this hives reaction 70 00:08:06,810 --> 00:08:09,410 thing that I'm having. I think it's heat. 71 00:08:11,390 --> 00:08:12,830 I'm not used to wearing clothes. 72 00:08:13,070 --> 00:08:16,330 Like, I normally have, like, one layer of cotton on and that's it, even in 73 00:08:16,330 --> 00:08:19,990 winter. I mean, I don't even wear undies. I haven't worn undies in 20 74 00:08:19,990 --> 00:08:20,990 years. 75 00:08:21,310 --> 00:08:22,310 30 years. 76 00:08:22,490 --> 00:08:23,510 And now I... 77 00:08:23,720 --> 00:08:28,100 constantly have like layers on on my skin and my it's not breathing 78 00:08:28,100 --> 00:08:35,039 so apologies if anything shows 79 00:08:35,039 --> 00:08:39,620 that shouldn't but yeah i need it for my health 80 00:08:39,620 --> 00:08:45,560 so 81 00:08:45,560 --> 00:08:51,800 today's task is enclose this shelter 82 00:08:54,960 --> 00:09:01,160 I would like to have it done by tonight so that this shelter is as insulated as 83 00:09:01,160 --> 00:09:06,640 possible so I can be warm without having all the layers of clothes on so that I 84 00:09:06,640 --> 00:09:08,400 can actually have a comfortable night's sleep tonight. 85 00:09:13,520 --> 00:09:18,460 My strategy is still not to even worry about food, just to work on this 86 00:09:18,460 --> 00:09:19,460 shelter. 87 00:09:19,800 --> 00:09:22,940 I'm losing energy because I'm uncomfortable. 88 00:09:23,670 --> 00:09:27,430 in my living situation and I need to fix that. 89 00:09:32,630 --> 00:09:39,250 I need a front door so I'm going to set up a bush loom so I can 90 00:09:39,250 --> 00:09:40,390 weave my grass door. 91 00:09:42,830 --> 00:09:48,370 Okay I'm going to pound these two wire sticks in. 92 00:09:48,910 --> 00:09:53,620 I should have bevelled the top of these so that they don't fray but I'm just too 93 00:09:53,620 --> 00:09:54,640 bloody knackered actually. 94 00:09:55,680 --> 00:09:58,520 And then there's gonna be a crossbar across here that a whole bunch of 95 00:09:58,520 --> 00:09:59,520 strings are tied to. 96 00:10:03,300 --> 00:10:08,020 And then I've got seven individual sticks that get driven into the ground 97 00:10:08,020 --> 00:10:09,020 there. 98 00:10:09,220 --> 00:10:10,220 Ow. 99 00:10:10,440 --> 00:10:11,440 All right. 100 00:10:12,120 --> 00:10:16,100 Then there's another seven strings that go in between those sticks. 101 00:10:19,760 --> 00:10:21,700 Oh my God, I can make a musical instrument. 102 00:10:22,670 --> 00:10:29,110 I'm making a nest for my 103 00:10:29,110 --> 00:10:30,110 home. 104 00:10:31,230 --> 00:10:38,070 And tonight I'm gonna sleep 105 00:10:38,070 --> 00:10:41,190 like a baby alone. 106 00:10:44,170 --> 00:10:49,930 So what happens is... 107 00:10:50,460 --> 00:10:56,700 I'm going to put a row of sedge in through here and then 108 00:10:56,700 --> 00:11:00,240 pull this up to trap it. 109 00:11:00,540 --> 00:11:03,620 And then insert another row and pull it down. 110 00:11:03,840 --> 00:11:05,520 And it'll end up being a weave. 111 00:11:07,480 --> 00:11:08,940 It's a bit of a schmuzzle. 112 00:11:10,180 --> 00:11:11,940 However, it's working. 113 00:11:14,280 --> 00:11:17,680 I really wanted to finish it by tonight because I think it's going to be a cold 114 00:11:17,680 --> 00:11:18,680 night. 115 00:11:19,930 --> 00:11:22,450 I'm halfway there and I'm just too buggered. 116 00:11:23,790 --> 00:11:25,990 So I'm going to have a little rest and then I'm going to keep plodding. 117 00:11:51,810 --> 00:11:52,810 Slurps up. 118 00:11:57,530 --> 00:11:59,910 Frontside 50-50, backside three out. 119 00:12:03,590 --> 00:12:04,569 Slurps up. 120 00:12:04,570 --> 00:12:07,210 Now, I've been missing surfing that much. 121 00:12:09,770 --> 00:12:13,490 Slurps up. That I've created my own kind of surfing. 122 00:12:14,230 --> 00:12:16,290 Whoa. It's called slurping. 123 00:12:17,490 --> 00:12:19,250 Yeah, got it. 124 00:12:21,770 --> 00:12:26,950 My shelter is right in front of water, but here's the thing, the snags and 125 00:12:26,950 --> 00:12:31,310 lower lying waters isn't really suitable for catching fish. 126 00:12:34,510 --> 00:12:38,270 Today I'm gonna go explore that far bay. 127 00:12:39,270 --> 00:12:44,550 Have a show of what this beautiful place has to offer as far as food source goes. 128 00:12:46,730 --> 00:12:49,990 Now how in the world do I get across all this? 129 00:12:51,270 --> 00:12:52,810 It's the only way around. 130 00:12:58,110 --> 00:12:59,110 Yeah. 131 00:13:04,350 --> 00:13:07,170 I'll tell you what this last week's brought for me. 132 00:13:07,390 --> 00:13:10,370 It's brought on an appreciation for food. 133 00:13:11,270 --> 00:13:16,950 I've had next to nothing for seven days and I'm really, really hungry. Like, 134 00:13:16,950 --> 00:13:19,010 yeah, like proper hungry. 135 00:13:21,260 --> 00:13:28,160 Look down there no snags a chance for me to throw a line out Hopefully get 136 00:13:28,160 --> 00:13:32,000 some nice food Wouldn't that be lovely? 137 00:13:36,980 --> 00:13:37,500 Wow 138 00:13:37,500 --> 00:13:46,460 Sinkers 139 00:13:46,460 --> 00:13:48,360 and floats were not part of my 10 items 140 00:13:49,800 --> 00:13:56,680 So what I've got is this tightening up 141 00:13:56,680 --> 00:13:59,680 doobie wacker off my rain jacket. 142 00:14:00,480 --> 00:14:04,700 I'm pretty sure it's got a spring in it so it might be kind of weighted but kind 143 00:14:04,700 --> 00:14:06,020 of floats. We'll find out. 144 00:14:06,880 --> 00:14:07,940 Use that as a float. 145 00:14:11,580 --> 00:14:14,880 It's funny how just the littlest things like this remind you of just playing 146 00:14:14,880 --> 00:14:15,880 with your son. 147 00:14:16,620 --> 00:14:20,900 This reminds me of a car spring, one of the springs off the Sky Electric cars 148 00:14:20,900 --> 00:14:21,900 that he has at home. 149 00:14:22,380 --> 00:14:24,140 Just doing little repairs with him. 150 00:14:27,600 --> 00:14:28,600 You miss it. 151 00:14:30,320 --> 00:14:31,320 Definitely do. 152 00:14:33,260 --> 00:14:38,000 Doing this survival stuff makes you appreciate a lot in life, eh? I could 153 00:14:38,000 --> 00:14:40,860 just go home and be with the kitties. 154 00:14:42,180 --> 00:14:43,460 It doesn't float. 155 00:14:48,300 --> 00:14:52,660 My heritage is in a nation of Wannerua, up in Murrundy, New South Wales. 156 00:14:53,540 --> 00:14:58,420 I have a large extended family with all my little nieces and nephews that I love 157 00:14:58,420 --> 00:14:59,420 dearly. 158 00:14:59,940 --> 00:15:03,140 We're like a little mob, we still hang out on weekends together. 159 00:15:05,220 --> 00:15:10,480 And I just love seeing my own children with my nieces and nephews playing 160 00:15:10,480 --> 00:15:14,380 around and learning off each other. It's something that's so important and really 161 00:15:14,380 --> 00:15:15,380 beautiful. 162 00:15:18,760 --> 00:15:25,080 Life is so beautiful and precious back home that it's making me question how 163 00:15:25,080 --> 00:15:27,500 long do I really want to go without all that? 164 00:15:32,720 --> 00:15:34,520 Got my trusty bottle rod. 165 00:15:44,000 --> 00:15:45,980 Stickfish. Bloody hell. 166 00:15:53,040 --> 00:15:59,900 My stomach's saying, hurry up and feed me something decent. 167 00:16:01,700 --> 00:16:03,160 Let's have another go, eh? 168 00:16:07,840 --> 00:16:11,380 If I'm not coming back with a fish, it's going to affect me big time. 169 00:16:36,490 --> 00:16:40,850 that is beautiful honestly let's just go for a swim 170 00:16:40,850 --> 00:16:47,770 let's get out there in the surf go and rip 171 00:16:47,770 --> 00:16:53,670 it up whoa is 172 00:16:53,670 --> 00:17:00,550 he gonna get naked is he 173 00:17:00,550 --> 00:17:04,210 no because i'm watching these 174 00:17:06,760 --> 00:17:07,760 Fuck, this is getting cold. 175 00:17:16,920 --> 00:17:18,140 Oh, yes. 176 00:17:18,960 --> 00:17:20,599 This is not like a bath. 177 00:17:22,819 --> 00:17:28,880 That trout did give me a new sense of what is available and felt like a bit of 178 00:17:28,880 --> 00:17:29,880 an omen. 179 00:17:32,300 --> 00:17:36,300 It just reiterates that I'm here for a reason and I can do this. 180 00:17:37,540 --> 00:17:39,660 Thank you, Palawa! 181 00:17:42,800 --> 00:17:43,360 God 182 00:17:43,360 --> 00:17:50,880 almighty, 183 00:17:51,040 --> 00:17:52,040 that's bloody cold! 184 00:17:53,320 --> 00:17:54,320 Wow, 185 00:17:56,140 --> 00:17:57,140 it feels nice though. 186 00:17:57,840 --> 00:18:00,540 The whole day is good if I don't... 187 00:18:00,810 --> 00:18:06,850 get overwhelmed the whole experience is awesome if i don't cross that line 188 00:18:06,850 --> 00:18:11,970 i guess i scared any fish off the next five days 189 00:18:11,970 --> 00:18:18,650 oh i feel good i feel nice oh today has been such a 190 00:18:18,650 --> 00:18:25,590 change i feel like we've done a full 180 getting that fish 191 00:18:25,590 --> 00:18:26,590 having a feed 192 00:18:33,770 --> 00:18:35,730 It's a good mental health day today. 193 00:18:38,130 --> 00:18:41,030 Recover and replenish the soul. 194 00:18:53,730 --> 00:18:56,470 It's been many years since I got out of the army. 195 00:18:58,830 --> 00:19:03,070 Yeah, I definitely gained some little side effects, we can say, some mental 196 00:19:03,070 --> 00:19:04,070 health challenges. 197 00:19:06,010 --> 00:19:10,570 You know, I hit the bottle pretty hard after Iraq and, you know, lots of 198 00:19:10,570 --> 00:19:11,570 substance abuse. 199 00:19:13,910 --> 00:19:19,810 Whether it's guilt or shame or whatnot, but I want to sort of, you know, spend 200 00:19:19,810 --> 00:19:21,570 my life making up for those things. 201 00:19:25,430 --> 00:19:26,430 Voila! 202 00:19:54,700 --> 00:19:55,960 I wanted to show you something. 203 00:19:57,740 --> 00:20:04,700 These pants were like ridiculously too small for me when I came in at 94 204 00:20:04,700 --> 00:20:11,620 kilos. A friend of mine sewed this kind of like panel in so 205 00:20:11,620 --> 00:20:13,300 I'd be able to actually wear them. 206 00:20:13,680 --> 00:20:16,940 But look how close I am to actually doing them up. 207 00:20:18,400 --> 00:20:19,400 Breathe in! 208 00:20:20,980 --> 00:20:23,280 No, because if I break the button I'm screwed. 209 00:20:23,920 --> 00:20:27,740 Anyway, so... Stop saying so! 210 00:20:30,020 --> 00:20:35,520 So... And that to me says I have lost at least seven kilos. 211 00:20:36,580 --> 00:20:37,860 And possibly more. 212 00:20:40,580 --> 00:20:44,280 That's a lot, considering I'm coming in with 30 kilos to lose. 213 00:20:46,520 --> 00:20:51,140 When you're fasting for this long, bodies, they switch over. 214 00:20:51,850 --> 00:20:57,770 I've definitely switched over into ketosis, which means I'm not burning 215 00:20:57,770 --> 00:21:00,810 carbohydrates for fuel anymore. I'm burning fat, obviously. 216 00:21:03,430 --> 00:21:10,310 I just went and got a whole lot more sausage, and I am going to finish this 217 00:21:10,310 --> 00:21:12,610 for tonight so that tonight I'm going to be warm. 218 00:21:13,310 --> 00:21:14,350 Proper warm. 219 00:21:15,310 --> 00:21:17,570 Snuggly, toasty, yummy warm. 220 00:21:34,860 --> 00:21:35,860 I got a door. 221 00:21:36,600 --> 00:21:42,600 I can just walk in and then I can close the door. 222 00:21:44,440 --> 00:21:45,440 Ha! 223 00:21:46,040 --> 00:21:47,320 Bit by bit. 224 00:21:48,020 --> 00:21:49,720 Bit by fucking bit. 225 00:21:52,480 --> 00:21:54,160 My house is warm. 226 00:21:55,020 --> 00:21:56,740 The first time. 227 00:21:59,240 --> 00:22:01,520 Coming into this, everyone... 228 00:22:01,880 --> 00:22:04,920 He's asking me, why? Why are you doing this? Like, what's your why? 229 00:22:06,280 --> 00:22:08,320 Is it to be the first woman to win? 230 00:22:08,660 --> 00:22:11,420 Yeah, sure. Is it to this? Is it to that? Yeah, sure. 231 00:22:14,760 --> 00:22:20,600 I think the universe bends its attention and holds its breath 232 00:22:20,600 --> 00:22:27,340 whenever humans make a stand for something, whatever 233 00:22:27,340 --> 00:22:28,340 it is. 234 00:22:30,190 --> 00:22:37,130 I think part of my why, my deeper, deeper why, is that I'm making a stand 235 00:22:37,130 --> 00:22:42,890 for remembering a way of being that 236 00:22:42,890 --> 00:22:46,770 my culture has largely forgotten. 237 00:22:50,110 --> 00:22:56,950 I feel such kinship with that way of life, a way of 238 00:22:56,950 --> 00:22:57,950 living where 239 00:22:58,640 --> 00:23:01,320 You can be in harmony with nature. 240 00:23:03,100 --> 00:23:04,740 Because I know it's possible. 241 00:23:05,140 --> 00:23:07,620 I know, I know it's possible. 242 00:23:13,880 --> 00:23:15,280 So that's my why. 243 00:23:18,540 --> 00:23:20,540 That's why I'm here, really. 244 00:23:59,440 --> 00:24:02,220 Big picture-wise, pretty happy with where I'm at. 245 00:24:02,620 --> 00:24:08,360 I've made most of a kayak, made a fishing rod, made a net, got a paddy 246 00:24:08,360 --> 00:24:09,360 melon trap on the ground. 247 00:24:09,880 --> 00:24:14,160 I haven't lit a fire, and I'll continue not to have a fire until I actually need 248 00:24:14,160 --> 00:24:18,180 one, which could be tonight if I get this paddy melon. 249 00:24:19,180 --> 00:24:22,100 It is the time I have been waiting for all day. 250 00:24:22,700 --> 00:24:24,720 I'm going to go up and check the trap. 251 00:24:25,860 --> 00:24:29,600 I haven't really eaten anything for the week other than... um you know one lot 252 00:24:29,600 --> 00:24:36,400 of shoots so i'm hoping now that all that hard work over this last week will 253 00:24:36,400 --> 00:24:42,600 um start producing something i always don't want to look 254 00:24:42,600 --> 00:24:49,600 it's too nerve-wracking okay getting closer 255 00:25:00,680 --> 00:25:01,680 Damn it. 256 00:25:02,600 --> 00:25:03,660 Logged us up a tree. 257 00:25:05,060 --> 00:25:06,740 And the trap did not go off. 258 00:25:08,160 --> 00:25:09,840 All right, let's see what's on the trail camera. 259 00:25:13,480 --> 00:25:14,480 That's me. 260 00:25:17,880 --> 00:25:20,940 It's not standing on the net. He's inspecting the net with his nose. 261 00:25:23,780 --> 00:25:27,560 God, it doesn't make sense. Like he actually sniffs the trap, walked through 262 00:25:27,560 --> 00:25:28,560 the middle of it. 263 00:25:28,840 --> 00:25:33,840 next to the trip line and it didn't bite him. So I don't know why they're being 264 00:25:33,840 --> 00:25:34,980 cautious, but they are. 265 00:25:37,800 --> 00:25:40,880 I have provided them an alternate route. 266 00:25:42,020 --> 00:25:47,420 One around that side and one around that side. So I'm just going to block 267 00:25:47,420 --> 00:25:51,180 something there and put another block just there. 268 00:25:54,250 --> 00:25:58,950 The difference between winning this or not is whether you can bring in food. 269 00:25:59,150 --> 00:26:03,050 And I've got some pretty elaborate ways of doing that. But if I don't pull in 270 00:26:03,050 --> 00:26:05,330 food, then it's really just a starvation competition. 271 00:26:05,630 --> 00:26:08,010 And I don't want to do that. Like, I want to see if I can live off the land 272 00:26:08,010 --> 00:26:09,090 properly without starving. 273 00:26:12,750 --> 00:26:13,750 Oh, well. 274 00:26:15,290 --> 00:26:16,290 That's that. 275 00:26:20,690 --> 00:26:22,310 I'm going to leave it there and... 276 00:26:22,570 --> 00:26:24,770 My attention now is going to go back to the fire setup. 277 00:26:25,310 --> 00:26:30,090 So if I do get a paddy miller, that groundwork is done, so I can just cook 278 00:26:30,090 --> 00:26:31,090 them up. 279 00:26:35,890 --> 00:26:40,390 Because it rains so frequently, I need to put a cover over this fire, otherwise 280 00:26:40,390 --> 00:26:42,110 it's just going to go out every 10 minutes. 281 00:26:42,330 --> 00:26:45,550 And it takes a lot of effort to start a fire out here in the wet, particularly 282 00:26:45,550 --> 00:26:46,550 with a ferro rod. 283 00:26:47,010 --> 00:26:50,630 So I'm going to gather something that goes over. 284 00:26:51,800 --> 00:26:52,800 that. 285 00:26:53,420 --> 00:26:57,740 And I think the best bet is to go find a stringybark and use that. 286 00:27:00,900 --> 00:27:05,800 In order to look after the tree, I'll only take about a third. 287 00:27:09,840 --> 00:27:14,600 Now I've read that Aboriginal people wouldn't take it off the tree unless 288 00:27:14,600 --> 00:27:16,180 they could separate it with their hands. 289 00:27:17,520 --> 00:27:21,960 because if you can't separate it with your hands, it means that it's too dry. 290 00:27:22,100 --> 00:27:24,280 Then the bark won't be flexible enough to bend. 291 00:27:25,320 --> 00:27:26,680 This place is super wet. 292 00:27:28,480 --> 00:27:29,860 And I can use my hands. 293 00:27:30,600 --> 00:27:36,380 My survival skills have come from a range of different areas. 294 00:27:37,260 --> 00:27:39,660 Some of the most important ones were when I was a kid. 295 00:27:40,040 --> 00:27:41,040 That's a good sound. 296 00:27:41,800 --> 00:27:44,760 I didn't play sports on the weekends because I didn't want to waste my 297 00:27:44,760 --> 00:27:47,180 weekends playing sport. I just wanted to be out fishing and camping. 298 00:27:48,140 --> 00:27:49,380 It's been a lifelong passion. 299 00:27:51,240 --> 00:27:54,940 This very shortly is going to fall off. 300 00:27:55,540 --> 00:27:56,540 Ready? 301 00:27:59,940 --> 00:28:00,940 Yeah. 302 00:28:02,820 --> 00:28:03,820 Awesome. 303 00:28:05,740 --> 00:28:08,160 Oh, man, it weighs a ton. 304 00:28:09,040 --> 00:28:10,160 It's full of water. 305 00:28:10,740 --> 00:28:13,220 So as you get older, you just keep getting better because you've had more 306 00:28:13,220 --> 00:28:14,220 time together skills. 307 00:28:14,540 --> 00:28:19,240 You know, I'm 45 now. By the time I'm 65, I'll probably have almost double the 308 00:28:19,240 --> 00:28:20,320 amount of experience that I've got now. 309 00:28:21,640 --> 00:28:24,300 That's part of the joy of it, is that you're always getting better at it. 310 00:28:33,080 --> 00:28:35,280 Definitely don't want to be treading over logs with this on my head. 311 00:28:38,240 --> 00:28:40,380 Oh, I'm having to bend it to get through these trees. 312 00:28:40,820 --> 00:28:41,940 I hope it doesn't snap. 313 00:28:42,600 --> 00:28:44,680 Ah, shit. 314 00:28:47,780 --> 00:28:54,360 If I can get that paddy melon, that is potentially a 315 00:28:54,360 --> 00:28:55,640 game winner for me. 316 00:28:56,420 --> 00:29:02,800 Yeah. If that's a regular thing, once a week, I get a paddy melon, I've probably 317 00:29:02,800 --> 00:29:03,800 won. 318 00:29:06,700 --> 00:29:07,700 Peace, peace. 319 00:29:21,940 --> 00:29:23,140 I need food. 320 00:29:24,360 --> 00:29:25,880 I'd love something hot. 321 00:29:26,600 --> 00:29:29,200 Just something warm in the belly would be amazing. 322 00:29:30,780 --> 00:29:33,660 I want to go back over to Big Bay to go for another fish. 323 00:29:35,220 --> 00:29:36,220 Fuck, it's a... 324 00:29:36,730 --> 00:29:38,470 Freaking tricky little hike though. 325 00:29:38,890 --> 00:29:40,290 You just fucked me up there. 326 00:29:43,770 --> 00:29:44,250 I 327 00:29:44,250 --> 00:29:52,190 feel 328 00:29:52,190 --> 00:29:55,570 like I'm losing so much energy just trying to get there and back. 329 00:29:59,810 --> 00:30:05,630 I'm wishing I had my little boat, my wife, my two kids right now. 330 00:30:09,420 --> 00:30:12,560 I need to feel love and give love. 331 00:30:21,660 --> 00:30:23,600 Maybe it's time to just pack it up. 332 00:30:29,620 --> 00:30:30,620 Come on. 333 00:30:31,040 --> 00:30:32,180 Get away from there. 334 00:30:34,760 --> 00:30:35,800 Here we go. 335 00:30:37,070 --> 00:30:38,730 There we go. There we go. 336 00:30:40,650 --> 00:30:41,650 Yes. 337 00:30:42,770 --> 00:30:43,770 Guys. 338 00:30:48,130 --> 00:30:49,130 Yes. 339 00:30:51,590 --> 00:30:53,150 Get out. Come on. 340 00:30:54,670 --> 00:30:55,670 Beautiful. 341 00:30:57,230 --> 00:30:58,230 Yes. 342 00:31:01,830 --> 00:31:02,830 I'm happy. 343 00:31:04,030 --> 00:31:05,030 Thank you. 344 00:31:07,180 --> 00:31:13,820 Get back and get him prepped up hopefully on a nice fire and fry him if 345 00:31:13,820 --> 00:31:15,720 my wood's dry enough. We'll see. 346 00:31:16,640 --> 00:31:17,640 Long walk back. 347 00:31:39,790 --> 00:31:41,250 It's so much colder today. 348 00:31:44,650 --> 00:31:51,010 So, today's plan is finishing that wall so that it's rainproof. 349 00:31:51,330 --> 00:31:54,310 We're still getting drips coming through it, so it'd just be nice to have it 350 00:31:54,310 --> 00:31:55,310 drier here. 351 00:31:55,950 --> 00:32:02,130 So, pull out that foliage, stack it vertical, make a bit of a frame out from 352 00:32:02,130 --> 00:32:05,410 here so everything can stand up on and not fall this way either. 353 00:32:06,330 --> 00:32:07,910 That should have that wall finished. 354 00:32:10,670 --> 00:32:11,930 But it won't be the end. 355 00:32:13,350 --> 00:32:15,770 It won't even be the beginning of the end. 356 00:32:16,830 --> 00:32:19,710 It will be the end of the beginning. 357 00:32:25,530 --> 00:32:26,850 If I can get started. 358 00:32:29,350 --> 00:32:34,070 For those of you who think you'd have to be crazy to do this, you're probably 359 00:32:34,070 --> 00:32:35,070 right. 360 00:32:35,470 --> 00:32:37,070 But I like crazy. 361 00:32:40,460 --> 00:32:45,160 A drop. I'll let you know that I was not going to quit. I was going to stick with 362 00:32:45,160 --> 00:32:47,900 it to the end. And that was my solemn vow and promise. 363 00:32:49,180 --> 00:32:55,780 Dear God, I take this land to be my home through sunshine and 364 00:32:55,780 --> 00:33:02,540 bad weather until medivac or I'm the last one 365 00:33:02,540 --> 00:33:03,540 standing. 366 00:33:03,880 --> 00:33:06,480 This is my solemn vow and promise. 367 00:33:10,820 --> 00:33:12,940 So I'm out here for the long haul. 368 00:33:13,860 --> 00:33:14,940 I'm in it to win it. 369 00:33:20,160 --> 00:33:22,720 It's a little damper than I'd like for working outside. 370 00:33:23,380 --> 00:33:24,520 I can manage it. 371 00:33:25,380 --> 00:33:26,380 I'll be strong. 372 00:33:29,980 --> 00:33:31,400 It'd be nice to have a shower. 373 00:33:32,180 --> 00:33:36,840 It'd be nice to go out on a date with my wife, to hug my kids. 374 00:33:39,050 --> 00:33:43,750 But it's very important to be able to be content whether you've got plenty or 375 00:33:43,750 --> 00:33:44,750 little. 376 00:33:45,530 --> 00:33:50,390 We'll get through the storm when it comes next and be thankful for this time 377 00:33:50,390 --> 00:33:51,390 spent here. 378 00:33:55,430 --> 00:33:57,210 Oh, careful with your shelter, Michael. 379 00:33:58,130 --> 00:34:00,990 My faith has taught me not to rely on luxuries in life. 380 00:34:04,430 --> 00:34:07,490 I'm here to test my limits, to take them. 381 00:34:07,870 --> 00:34:12,270 myself to the end of my limits and once I've got there to lean on God to carry 382 00:34:12,270 --> 00:34:13,270 me further. 383 00:34:15,210 --> 00:34:18,210 Just a couple more handfuls to go and we might be done. 384 00:34:24,530 --> 00:34:29,370 Great, done. 385 00:34:30,630 --> 00:34:32,469 That is pretty good there. 386 00:34:33,110 --> 00:34:34,449 It's a massive improvement. 387 00:34:55,630 --> 00:34:59,130 Don't tell me this tinder is still not dry enough. 388 00:35:02,990 --> 00:35:03,990 That's got to be. 389 00:35:06,810 --> 00:35:09,710 I need fire to fucking cook. 390 00:35:12,570 --> 00:35:17,150 Freaking stuck this tinder up my fucking ass to try and get warm enough and dry 391 00:35:17,150 --> 00:35:18,150 enough. 392 00:35:19,230 --> 00:35:22,370 It's just not. It lights up and then turns black. 393 00:35:26,640 --> 00:35:27,820 Fuck, what am I doing out here? 394 00:35:47,860 --> 00:35:51,420 Lucky it's a fish species that you can eat raw. 395 00:35:55,720 --> 00:35:58,940 I think about all the good things back home I could be doing. 396 00:36:01,060 --> 00:36:07,140 But what happens three, four days, five days when I'm back home might hit me and 397 00:36:07,140 --> 00:36:08,240 go, oh. 398 00:36:09,540 --> 00:36:16,420 Or do I push on, try and beat these mental barriers and 399 00:36:16,420 --> 00:36:21,560 stay on for as long as I absolutely can? 400 00:36:25,900 --> 00:36:28,580 Alone Australia is brought to you by Kia. 401 00:36:28,880 --> 00:36:33,420 Experience the ultimate human endurance as 10 contestants battle to survive 402 00:36:33,420 --> 00:36:37,840 alone in the Tasmanian wilderness, with the winner taking home a prize worth 403 00:36:37,840 --> 00:36:39,260 $250,000. 404 00:36:52,760 --> 00:36:54,560 Just went to put my hat on. 405 00:36:55,120 --> 00:37:01,300 One of the cheeky fat flies of this area was in it buzzing right inside my head 406 00:37:01,300 --> 00:37:03,860 or under it. Anything else in there? 407 00:37:04,860 --> 00:37:05,860 What's that? 408 00:37:06,920 --> 00:37:07,920 Yuck. 409 00:37:08,840 --> 00:37:10,040 Fly maggot. 410 00:37:11,260 --> 00:37:13,160 My hat got maggoted. 411 00:37:14,360 --> 00:37:17,080 I think I'll just spend the next half hour tweezering them off. 412 00:37:21,560 --> 00:37:23,440 And how many maggots do I have in my hair? 413 00:37:27,660 --> 00:37:29,600 Kookaburras are laughing. Come on. 414 00:37:33,320 --> 00:37:35,460 Oh, you can eat maggots. That's right. 415 00:37:37,100 --> 00:37:41,060 Go away, guys. 416 00:37:49,540 --> 00:37:52,480 Just remember your personal hygiene, Michael. 417 00:38:02,180 --> 00:38:05,740 Priority one for today is a wash. 418 00:38:07,040 --> 00:38:10,020 I was thinking about having a wash this morning as I lay in bed. 419 00:38:12,020 --> 00:38:17,760 And as much as I love the outdoors, I love coming home for a shower 420 00:38:17,760 --> 00:38:18,760 afterwards. 421 00:38:19,760 --> 00:38:20,760 Being fresh. 422 00:38:21,680 --> 00:38:23,780 So I'm going to enjoy having a wash today. 423 00:38:27,440 --> 00:38:29,200 So this will be my bathtub, I think. 424 00:38:29,740 --> 00:38:31,180 It's meant to be a backpack cover. 425 00:38:32,360 --> 00:38:36,420 and chuck some rocks in the fire so I can make myself some nice warm bath 426 00:38:36,420 --> 00:38:37,420 water. 427 00:38:38,900 --> 00:38:41,360 These are my hot water fire rocks. 428 00:38:44,200 --> 00:38:46,220 Hot, smoky water. 429 00:38:51,080 --> 00:38:52,280 I think this will work. 430 00:38:52,580 --> 00:38:55,240 We are ready to start filling with water. 431 00:38:59,760 --> 00:39:05,430 Somebody told me If you hot rock boil, you won't burn the plastic bag that 432 00:39:05,430 --> 00:39:06,430 you're boiling in. 433 00:39:07,830 --> 00:39:09,110 Today we'll find out. 434 00:39:13,810 --> 00:39:14,810 Yep, it's hot. 435 00:39:34,090 --> 00:39:35,090 Okay, that's hot enough. 436 00:39:38,330 --> 00:39:39,330 Yep. 437 00:39:41,130 --> 00:39:42,130 Well, 438 00:39:43,530 --> 00:39:44,790 let's have a feel of the water. 439 00:39:48,010 --> 00:39:50,870 Temperature is cool bath. 440 00:39:53,050 --> 00:39:55,530 And cool bath's better than no bath, so let's take it. 441 00:39:58,650 --> 00:39:59,930 You know how a bath goes. 442 00:40:00,930 --> 00:40:03,050 You'll see naked people, but you won't see me. 443 00:40:12,060 --> 00:40:13,060 Wow. 444 00:40:18,780 --> 00:40:25,120 You don't know how much I needed that just to wash myself and to be clean. 445 00:40:26,860 --> 00:40:31,700 It's like I can go on. I can do this if I can give myself a wash once a week. 446 00:40:33,020 --> 00:40:34,680 It's just so relieving. 447 00:41:05,960 --> 00:41:12,900 I've been running out of toilet paper and I just stumbled across this dogwood, 448 00:41:12,960 --> 00:41:17,120 I think it's called, but it's got this really nice soft underside to the 449 00:41:17,120 --> 00:41:18,940 leaves, so I'm going to stock up. 450 00:41:22,240 --> 00:41:23,300 Today, plants. 451 00:41:23,600 --> 00:41:28,300 I think I saw some acacia or wattle yesterday and then I remembered that 452 00:41:28,300 --> 00:41:33,180 some wattles, the leaves, if you scruff them up, they have like a chemical... 453 00:41:33,870 --> 00:41:37,770 in them that sort of acts as soap. So I was like, oh, hang on. 454 00:41:39,350 --> 00:41:40,350 Cool. 455 00:41:40,730 --> 00:41:44,650 And one of the key things that I'm looking for here is it's got this 456 00:41:44,650 --> 00:41:49,490 parallel venation, so little veins on the leaves that all go in line. 457 00:41:52,730 --> 00:41:55,990 It's the self-care that feels so nice and it makes this place feel more 458 00:41:55,990 --> 00:41:56,990 homely. 459 00:42:00,990 --> 00:42:01,990 Yeah, baby. 460 00:42:04,150 --> 00:42:05,150 Check this out. 461 00:42:06,050 --> 00:42:07,270 I got bush soap. 462 00:42:11,350 --> 00:42:13,450 I'm really happy with that. Clean hands. 463 00:42:13,930 --> 00:42:17,090 I think any day is a good day that I make my life a little bit nicer here. 464 00:42:17,530 --> 00:42:19,030 It feels so good. 465 00:42:23,950 --> 00:42:27,070 When I was a little girl, I wanted to join the Cub Scouts, but, you know, in a 466 00:42:27,070 --> 00:42:31,710 small country town, girls were not allowed to be Cub Scouts, even after my 467 00:42:31,710 --> 00:42:35,300 mum... much down there and said Kate can join the Cub Scouts and they're like 468 00:42:35,300 --> 00:42:36,300 nope. 469 00:42:36,880 --> 00:42:41,260 That could have been that barrier to me feeling comfortable outdoors. 470 00:42:41,980 --> 00:42:44,560 I don't want there to be barriers to other people. 471 00:42:45,160 --> 00:42:49,500 Cool. To be able to experience the joy of being in nature, to be able to 472 00:42:49,500 --> 00:42:53,420 experience the awe and the healing properties that nature has. 473 00:42:55,520 --> 00:42:59,480 I've got all these small cuts on my hands that aren't really healing that 474 00:42:59,480 --> 00:43:01,580 well. I guess I'm just concerned. 475 00:43:02,110 --> 00:43:07,110 that if I leave these untreated they could, you know, get infected and that 476 00:43:07,110 --> 00:43:11,810 could see me out. So I just want to have some sort of method for trying to look 477 00:43:11,810 --> 00:43:12,810 after them. 478 00:43:13,410 --> 00:43:18,770 I remember the Palawa people used tree fern croziers, the little unfurling 479 00:43:18,770 --> 00:43:22,710 leaf, as a treatment for minor cuts and stings. 480 00:43:23,670 --> 00:43:30,130 I'm finding heaps of tree ferns but none of them that have the croziers that I'm 481 00:43:30,130 --> 00:43:31,130 after. 482 00:43:34,700 --> 00:43:36,020 Ooh, I might have found one. 483 00:43:42,360 --> 00:43:43,360 Got him. 484 00:43:45,240 --> 00:43:46,240 Rozzia! 485 00:43:48,880 --> 00:43:52,060 Just got a river stone and I'm just gonna crush it up. 486 00:43:53,140 --> 00:43:55,940 I love botany and I love plants. 487 00:43:56,840 --> 00:44:01,320 So as an ecologist, it really excites me that there's always more to learn. 488 00:44:02,540 --> 00:44:06,350 So now... I'm going to put it on these little cuts. 489 00:44:07,710 --> 00:44:13,110 It's actually interesting. It looks almost like, I don't know, like betadine 490 00:44:13,110 --> 00:44:14,490 or something on my fingers. 491 00:44:15,510 --> 00:44:16,510 That's cool. 492 00:44:20,850 --> 00:44:22,150 I love nature. 493 00:44:23,110 --> 00:44:26,670 It warms my heart and makes me feel so emotional. 494 00:44:28,410 --> 00:44:31,750 It's such a blessing to be out here. It's so nice to... 495 00:44:32,120 --> 00:44:33,200 Embrace the conditions. 496 00:44:33,900 --> 00:44:36,400 It's being in it. It's witnessing it. 497 00:44:36,620 --> 00:44:39,160 It's appreciating those small things. 498 00:44:53,520 --> 00:45:00,100 So the last couple of days, I've been working on a little art piece of mine. 499 00:45:01,900 --> 00:45:03,840 I find it very soothing. 500 00:45:05,120 --> 00:45:07,300 It takes me to another place when I do it. 501 00:45:08,640 --> 00:45:11,200 Time just goes non-existent. 502 00:45:12,680 --> 00:45:18,880 I love telling a story through the land and place and space that has meaning. 503 00:45:19,540 --> 00:45:26,340 And so I've inscribed my place, my 504 00:45:26,340 --> 00:45:29,960 shack, and me being near it, and then the... 505 00:45:30,300 --> 00:45:33,760 Rough outline of the lands and the little bays. 506 00:45:38,200 --> 00:45:40,120 Bird and fish. 507 00:45:40,440 --> 00:45:43,120 The little fish and big fish. The water flowing. 508 00:45:43,940 --> 00:45:45,540 The rolling lands. 509 00:45:45,800 --> 00:45:46,800 The flowing waters. 510 00:45:47,320 --> 00:45:48,880 My place and me. 511 00:45:50,160 --> 00:45:51,160 The hills. 512 00:45:52,540 --> 00:45:53,700 Flow of the water. 513 00:45:56,000 --> 00:45:59,720 The other side of this axe is... 514 00:46:00,270 --> 00:46:04,770 The contrast of me being out here 515 00:46:04,770 --> 00:46:08,730 alone. 516 00:46:10,030 --> 00:46:14,170 Remind me that I'm alone and what I need. 517 00:46:14,610 --> 00:46:17,950 Connection, alone, connections. 518 00:46:25,630 --> 00:46:27,530 Just before I got into this. 519 00:46:29,800 --> 00:46:33,660 My mum said, you'll be fine. You'll be fine by yourself. 520 00:46:37,720 --> 00:46:41,220 How far from that was she? 521 00:46:45,640 --> 00:46:48,360 Alone Australia is brought to you by Kia. 522 00:46:48,840 --> 00:46:53,140 Experience the ultimate human endurance as 10 contestants battle to survive 523 00:46:53,140 --> 00:46:57,580 alone in the Tasmanian wilderness, with the winner taking home a prize worth 524 00:46:57,580 --> 00:46:59,020 $250,000. 525 00:47:31,820 --> 00:47:35,060 In my family, we all have a spirit bird. 526 00:47:36,260 --> 00:47:38,000 My wife's bird is a raven. 527 00:47:41,860 --> 00:47:44,600 I hadn't seen a raven the whole time I've been here. 528 00:47:45,580 --> 00:47:49,020 And then one flies down next to me on the branch. 529 00:47:50,780 --> 00:47:57,160 Just as I was thinking about what she would think, I saw it as a sign just not 530 00:47:57,160 --> 00:47:59,120 to worry and she'll have my back. 531 00:48:04,590 --> 00:48:10,350 And that just made me feel her presence and feel that my decision 532 00:48:10,350 --> 00:48:12,770 was okay. 533 00:48:14,650 --> 00:48:16,950 So now I'm in it too. 534 00:48:18,070 --> 00:48:19,070 Thank you. 535 00:48:20,970 --> 00:48:21,970 It's been great. 536 00:48:34,640 --> 00:48:37,260 Hi, it's Dwayne. I'm officially tapping out. 537 00:49:02,480 --> 00:49:03,660 That was something. 538 00:49:04,060 --> 00:49:09,920 really special to have a nice swim and say farewell to the waters and 539 00:49:09,920 --> 00:49:11,440 thank you. 540 00:49:37,230 --> 00:49:38,750 I just need social interaction. 541 00:49:38,990 --> 00:49:40,690 I can't be alone. 542 00:49:41,450 --> 00:49:42,850 It's plain and simple. 543 00:49:48,070 --> 00:49:53,130 It showed me more of a way of how life was for my ancestors. 544 00:49:54,070 --> 00:50:00,730 You can see how moiety and kinship and connection into relationships 545 00:50:00,730 --> 00:50:05,450 and the environment is so important because that is truly what has sustained 546 00:50:05,450 --> 00:50:06,950 us for... 547 00:50:07,210 --> 00:50:08,210 millennia. 548 00:50:21,670 --> 00:50:27,030 It's about oneness with nature, but sharing it collectively. 549 00:50:28,970 --> 00:50:33,490 Kindness, actions towards other people, not being alone out here. 550 00:50:35,630 --> 00:50:40,270 Maybe it's a little bit of me caring maybe too much about other people, but 551 00:50:40,270 --> 00:50:41,590 that's just me. 552 00:50:45,170 --> 00:50:49,350 I have to stop losing weight now. I'm turning my thoughts to food. 553 00:50:55,390 --> 00:50:58,970 It'd be nice to have a date that he's finished on. It's hard not knowing. 554 00:51:01,110 --> 00:51:03,550 It's funny how the mind can change so quickly. 555 00:51:06,030 --> 00:51:09,190 There it is. Post-traumatic fucking stress disorder. 556 00:51:09,730 --> 00:51:14,830 The kayak, to me, is a very, very important survival tool. Thank you. 557 00:51:35,610 --> 00:51:41,730 Text 0477 13 11 14 lifeline.org.au 558 00:51:41,730 --> 00:51:48,690 beyondblue 1300 224 636 beyondblue.org.au 559 00:51:48,690 --> 00:51:55,490 Open Arms Veterans and Families Counselling 1800 011 046 560 00:51:55,490 --> 00:51:58,090 openarms.gov.au