1 00:00:16,779 --> 00:00:18,654 - Mom? - Yes my dear? 2 00:00:18,739 --> 00:00:20,197 Do I cut all this? 3 00:00:20,782 --> 00:00:23,785 That's a lot. Maybe not everything fits in the pan. 4 00:00:25,037 --> 00:00:26,995 I always miss Uganda. 5 00:00:27,081 --> 00:00:32,709 So we eat beans and Ugandan food more or less once a week. 6 00:00:34,963 --> 00:00:37,797 Selah, what do you miss most? in Uganda? Is it the food? 7 00:00:37,882 --> 00:00:38,923 - No. - No? 8 00:00:39,009 --> 00:00:42,427 - Is it your friends that you miss the most? - Yes. 9 00:00:43,763 --> 00:00:46,932 Selah, who is 10 years old, hears conversations. 10 00:00:47,018 --> 00:00:49,144 You know a little about what's going on 11 00:00:49,229 --> 00:00:51,687 and why we can't go back to Uganda. 12 00:00:53,064 --> 00:00:55,691 And it's incredibly unfair to her. 13 00:00:55,776 --> 00:00:56,734 How does it taste? 14 00:00:57,277 --> 00:01:00,404 She didn't ask to appear on the first page 15 00:01:00,488 --> 00:01:03,032 with the mother being called of "serial killer". 16 00:01:03,117 --> 00:01:04,867 MENTOR 17 00:01:04,952 --> 00:01:08,122 - Mommy! - That? 18 00:01:10,583 --> 00:01:14,126 Some of the wildest accusations what they did to me 19 00:01:14,210 --> 00:01:16,795 I killed 800 children... 20 00:01:16,880 --> 00:01:17,921 ARREST HER. 21 00:01:18,006 --> 00:01:19,256 SKIN HER ALIVE. 22 00:01:19,341 --> 00:01:21,843 ...who performed medical experiments in children. 23 00:01:21,927 --> 00:01:24,845 I was compared to Adolf Hitler... 24 00:01:24,929 --> 00:01:25,970 IS HITLER YOUR FATHER? 25 00:01:26,055 --> 00:01:27,640 ...who was part of the KKK. 26 00:01:27,725 --> 00:01:29,599 SOMEONE WHO KILLS THIS MEMBER OF THE KKK. 27 00:01:29,684 --> 00:01:31,685 I shed a lot of tears, 28 00:01:31,770 --> 00:01:34,980 because I realized that, whether it's true or not, 29 00:01:35,065 --> 00:01:41,696 people truly believe that I went to Uganda to help people 30 00:01:41,780 --> 00:01:44,531 but that I killed people instead. 31 00:01:44,617 --> 00:01:46,366 Hot, hot, hot! 32 00:01:46,451 --> 00:01:49,704 We thank you Lord for today and we love You very much. 33 00:01:49,788 --> 00:01:51,872 - In Your name, we pray. Am�m. - Amen. 34 00:01:53,543 --> 00:01:57,421 I feel like I'm suffering the consequences for all white people 35 00:01:57,505 --> 00:01:59,421 that have ever set foot in Uganda. 36 00:01:59,506 --> 00:02:03,175 "WAIT FOR THE LORD; ONLY STRONG AND FILL YOUR HEART WITH COURAGE. 37 00:02:03,260 --> 00:02:04,634 WAIT FOR THE LORD!” PSALM 27:14 38 00:02:09,599 --> 00:02:13,602 I had never heard God speak to me so clearly in my entire life. 39 00:02:15,731 --> 00:02:18,815 I heard His voice distinctly, inside my body. 40 00:02:18,901 --> 00:02:19,942 MISSION-GIRL JINJA 41 00:02:20,027 --> 00:02:23,862 I gave my life. The Lord said to me, "That's where you're going." 42 00:02:23,948 --> 00:02:26,114 He called me. God put it in my heart... 43 00:02:26,200 --> 00:02:28,158 This is what the Lord has told me. 44 00:02:28,244 --> 00:02:29,869 We have to go to Africa. 45 00:02:35,041 --> 00:02:39,086 My name is Renee Bach. I came to Uganda for the first time in 2007 46 00:02:39,170 --> 00:02:42,131 and the Lord made me fall in love by the people of Uganda. 47 00:02:42,216 --> 00:02:45,634 I founded a non-profit organization called "Serving His Children." 48 00:02:45,719 --> 00:02:47,345 It started a long time ago. 49 00:02:48,763 --> 00:02:51,431 These organizations believe which are a divine gift. 50 00:02:52,226 --> 00:02:55,645 It's as if God's excuse was the only necessary argument. 51 00:02:55,729 --> 00:02:58,356 And they don't use it to justify anything. 52 00:03:04,781 --> 00:03:07,531 CHAPTER 1 "GOD DOES NOT CHOOSE THE QUALIFIED, 53 00:03:07,615 --> 00:03:11,577 BUT EMPOWERS THE CHOSEN" 54 00:03:17,459 --> 00:03:20,753 BEDFORD, VIRGINIA 55 00:03:20,839 --> 00:03:25,341 I think it's complicated when people ask, "What is it like to be chosen by God? 56 00:03:25,426 --> 00:03:26,550 How does it feel?" 57 00:03:29,055 --> 00:03:31,848 Because, honestly, I think it's different for everyone. 58 00:03:31,932 --> 00:03:33,517 Hello, friend. So? 59 00:03:36,479 --> 00:03:38,896 We attend a Baptist church in children. 60 00:03:40,273 --> 00:03:43,151 Therefore, the tradition of serving others comes from behind. 61 00:03:45,654 --> 00:03:48,280 My parents had a hippotherapy center 62 00:03:48,366 --> 00:03:50,115 for children with special needs 63 00:03:50,201 --> 00:03:52,493 on the farm where I grew up... 64 00:03:53,580 --> 00:03:58,208 ...which was also a good way for me to learn to serve, 65 00:03:58,291 --> 00:04:02,211 and being able to help and love people. 66 00:04:02,295 --> 00:04:03,254 This is Renee. 67 00:04:05,298 --> 00:04:07,008 Can you wave to Renee? 68 00:04:09,554 --> 00:04:14,098 But I never wanted to be a "missionary". 69 00:04:14,183 --> 00:04:17,435 I had never thought to go abroad. 70 00:04:19,562 --> 00:04:22,356 So, I was starting my last high school... 71 00:04:22,440 --> 00:04:24,065 Beautiful boy! 72 00:04:24,152 --> 00:04:28,947 ...when I heard a man's sermon called Clayton King. 73 00:04:29,032 --> 00:04:32,743 But if you are tired of playing safe and predictable, 74 00:04:32,825 --> 00:04:35,368 and you want to say, "My God, I'll go wherever you send me..." 75 00:04:36,080 --> 00:04:38,748 We know there is a whole world who needs help. 76 00:04:39,917 --> 00:04:42,376 And, honestly, I don't know what came over me. 77 00:04:44,339 --> 00:04:47,423 Because it was so overwhelming. 78 00:04:49,635 --> 00:04:53,012 And after high school, I started watching flights 79 00:04:53,096 --> 00:04:58,725 from a territory in Virginia to volunteer in Uganda. 80 00:05:03,982 --> 00:05:06,066 It's a very lively team. Ariel, say hello. 81 00:05:06,150 --> 00:05:07,191 Hello! 82 00:05:07,278 --> 00:05:09,112 In my volunteer program... 83 00:05:09,738 --> 00:05:11,739 - Let's see. Say hello, Tracy. - Hello! 84 00:05:11,823 --> 00:05:14,533 ...there were many other young women. 85 00:05:14,618 --> 00:05:19,580 They had finished high school or were doing a semester break from college. 86 00:05:19,665 --> 00:05:21,415 They also came to the safari. 87 00:05:24,670 --> 00:05:26,002 It's the African savannah. 88 00:05:27,505 --> 00:05:30,632 - Renee, are you filming this? - They're running! 89 00:05:31,511 --> 00:05:33,385 They look... crazy. 90 00:05:33,471 --> 00:05:34,971 How cute! 91 00:05:35,722 --> 00:05:37,806 � Simba and Nala, guys! 92 00:05:37,890 --> 00:05:40,059 - What a scene, Renee. - He's looking at us. 93 00:05:41,562 --> 00:05:44,855 The mother will freak out if we get closer to the cubs. 94 00:05:44,941 --> 00:05:49,194 "Mom, she's getting too close of the mzungus (white people).” 95 00:05:49,278 --> 00:05:53,114 I wasn't well traveled at all. I had never left the USA. 96 00:05:54,949 --> 00:05:58,619 All good natured white girl He wore an African scarf on his head. 97 00:05:59,872 --> 00:06:01,204 And it didn't look good on us. 98 00:06:07,630 --> 00:06:08,796 Hello! 99 00:06:15,095 --> 00:06:19,766 It didn't take me long to get to Jinja and settling in there. 100 00:06:19,850 --> 00:06:21,725 JESUS IS THE LORD 101 00:06:23,770 --> 00:06:25,730 I don't remember the exact number, 102 00:06:25,815 --> 00:06:29,233 but there were several hundred associations non-profit based in Jinja. 103 00:06:29,817 --> 00:06:33,987 It was a hodgepodge of orphanages, schools, clinics... 104 00:06:35,282 --> 00:06:39,201 ...various humanitarian groups who did cool things. 105 00:06:53,134 --> 00:06:57,429 So yes, I was able to get involved in several different areas 106 00:06:57,512 --> 00:06:59,930 of humanitarian and missionary aid. 107 00:07:00,808 --> 00:07:04,893 We finally arrived home of volunteers in Jinja, Uganda. 108 00:07:07,440 --> 00:07:10,066 - What are you doing? - We are filling bags 109 00:07:10,150 --> 00:07:13,111 for women, with Bibles, 110 00:07:13,737 --> 00:07:16,363 sweets and toothbrushes, so your teeth don't rot. 111 00:07:17,074 --> 00:07:19,368 I didn't want them to film me singing. 112 00:07:20,076 --> 00:07:22,036 But I've been rehearsing for a while. 113 00:07:23,039 --> 00:07:25,957 Today we taught an English class. 114 00:07:26,042 --> 00:07:28,752 A, B, C, D... 115 00:07:31,256 --> 00:07:34,049 Today we went to the orphanage. It was really cool. 116 00:07:34,132 --> 00:07:37,843 This is the Gecko House where the boys are. 117 00:07:39,263 --> 00:07:41,179 What sound is that? 118 00:07:41,265 --> 00:07:44,766 - It's the sound of water. - The different girl... 119 00:07:50,566 --> 00:07:53,277 Being here in Uganda with the volunteers 120 00:07:53,359 --> 00:07:56,694 left me impressed with their dedication. 121 00:07:57,989 --> 00:08:02,409 - How long have you been in Africa? - About three weeks ago. 122 00:08:02,494 --> 00:08:03,786 It was three weeks ago yesterday. 123 00:08:05,081 --> 00:08:08,165 There is so much lack, so much poverty. There's so much missing, 124 00:08:08,250 --> 00:08:09,916 but the hand of God brought me here. 125 00:08:12,046 --> 00:08:13,253 My heart is here now. 126 00:08:18,260 --> 00:08:19,760 All the little things, 127 00:08:19,846 --> 00:08:21,387 every little thing counts. 128 00:08:23,850 --> 00:08:25,099 Yes, Renee is like that. 129 00:08:25,183 --> 00:08:28,144 You never know when we're in the mood. Go there. It's called "sarcasm." 130 00:08:28,228 --> 00:08:31,438 - I don't want to use that. - What are we going to do today? 131 00:08:31,524 --> 00:08:34,275 Today, we are going to a village called Masese. 132 00:08:34,359 --> 00:08:37,904 The families are very poor and, many Sometimes they only have one meal a day. 133 00:08:37,989 --> 00:08:39,990 Prepare for chaos. 134 00:08:40,075 --> 00:08:43,868 We're going to look really bad. Let's shout at the boys. 135 00:08:43,952 --> 00:08:45,912 There will probably be pushback. 136 00:08:45,996 --> 00:08:48,664 There will probably be men beating in children with a stick. 137 00:08:48,748 --> 00:08:50,750 But it is still a success. 138 00:08:50,834 --> 00:08:54,045 And it's not just the food that's important, It is also the impact 139 00:08:54,129 --> 00:08:56,673 of our help, of the actual act of the service provided. 140 00:09:00,678 --> 00:09:02,469 - Hello! - Hello! 141 00:09:12,523 --> 00:09:14,149 Look at them! 142 00:09:14,234 --> 00:09:16,318 Damn! They're already lining up. 143 00:09:30,291 --> 00:09:31,708 How do you feel? 144 00:09:31,792 --> 00:09:34,086 A little nervous, but I'm fine. 145 00:09:37,547 --> 00:09:42,092 During this period, I began to realize that maybe that's what you should do 146 00:09:42,178 --> 00:09:45,263 in the next chapter of my life. 147 00:09:45,347 --> 00:09:47,973 A quick message from me, from here in Africa. 148 00:09:48,058 --> 00:09:50,976 I just wanted to say thank you very much for your prayers and support. 149 00:09:51,060 --> 00:09:53,144 See you soon. Bye, guys. 150 00:10:04,200 --> 00:10:06,992 Without Jesus, there is no life! 151 00:10:07,077 --> 00:10:11,205 The Bible says that, after creating man in His image... 152 00:10:11,289 --> 00:10:12,831 ... assigned him to dominate! 153 00:10:12,917 --> 00:10:16,419 They were created to dominate, so they can govern! 154 00:10:24,469 --> 00:10:27,721 LeBron, look at them. What do you think? 155 00:10:27,806 --> 00:10:30,683 They are good, but the problem is that they are white. 156 00:10:30,768 --> 00:10:31,809 - Are they white? - Yes. 157 00:10:31,893 --> 00:10:32,934 OLIVIA ALASO ACTIVIST 158 00:10:33,020 --> 00:10:34,396 What color should they be? 159 00:10:34,479 --> 00:10:36,230 - They should have been black. - Why? 160 00:10:36,315 --> 00:10:39,109 Because this is our country. We're supposed to be black. 161 00:10:39,192 --> 00:10:42,027 Yes. We love our color! Fantastic. I love it. 162 00:10:44,489 --> 00:10:45,947 I was born in Jinja. 163 00:10:46,033 --> 00:10:50,535 And growing up in Jinja you expose us to white people. 164 00:10:53,499 --> 00:10:54,458 Mzungu! 165 00:10:58,921 --> 00:11:01,506 Everyone said: "White people love coming to Jinja." 166 00:11:02,215 --> 00:11:06,094 And they said: "Africa appears to them In dreams, call them." 167 00:11:09,599 --> 00:11:12,058 They're filming our houses. 168 00:11:12,142 --> 00:11:13,726 Are you going to give us food? 169 00:11:15,645 --> 00:11:18,897 For us children, what we knew about them 170 00:11:18,983 --> 00:11:22,152 was that they had left their country covered in snow 171 00:11:22,236 --> 00:11:26,406 and had come to our country to bring us Jesus. 172 00:11:27,908 --> 00:11:30,994 Jesus' children you have nothing to worry about. 173 00:11:31,578 --> 00:11:34,080 We thought we were to do you a favor. 174 00:11:39,544 --> 00:11:41,921 What will be What are these people up to? 175 00:11:46,885 --> 00:11:50,344 I always thought they were more blessed than us. 176 00:11:51,599 --> 00:11:53,223 We are walking with the white people. 177 00:11:55,603 --> 00:11:58,312 They take photos of us and publish them. 178 00:11:58,898 --> 00:12:02,191 Because in my church they look alike with the Jesus who is hanging there. 179 00:12:03,610 --> 00:12:06,862 He died on the cross for us. 180 00:12:07,530 --> 00:12:08,696 Jesus was white. 181 00:12:13,496 --> 00:12:17,791 As a child, I was devastated for so many doubts. 182 00:12:18,625 --> 00:12:22,127 If Jesus was white, Why are we like this? 183 00:12:22,755 --> 00:12:26,465 She has such a beautiful face As if washed with milk 184 00:12:26,549 --> 00:12:28,925 She is gifted... 185 00:12:39,896 --> 00:12:41,980 We never said that we didn't want white people. 186 00:12:42,065 --> 00:12:45,484 But we know they shouldn't be the hero of the story. 187 00:12:49,741 --> 00:12:53,911 We have to talk about Gerard Butler, the white savior complex. 188 00:12:53,994 --> 00:12:58,872 Extending a plastic plate as if you were feeding a dog. 189 00:12:58,958 --> 00:13:01,917 As a black girl, It is the typical representation... 190 00:13:02,002 --> 00:13:03,253 WENDY LUBEGA NO WHITE SAVIORS 191 00:13:03,336 --> 00:13:06,963 ...from the black African continent in the position of the recipient. 192 00:13:07,050 --> 00:13:09,885 - He is the hero of the story. - He saves! 193 00:13:11,846 --> 00:13:14,513 Our group, In White Saviors, it's a campaign. 194 00:13:14,598 --> 00:13:15,639 NO WHITE SAVIORS 195 00:13:15,724 --> 00:13:19,394 We denounce the white savior complex in mission and development work. 196 00:13:19,478 --> 00:13:21,647 "IF YOU ARE NOT BOTHERED, NOT LISTENING" 197 00:13:21,730 --> 00:13:24,815 Gerard Butler. What do they call it? The Rebel Savior. 198 00:13:29,321 --> 00:13:33,573 Helping the children was the only good thing what I did in life. 199 00:13:34,618 --> 00:13:36,202 It's a film about the white savior. 200 00:13:36,286 --> 00:13:38,495 That's all I can say about him. 201 00:13:39,123 --> 00:13:43,376 People have to understand like things like that movie 202 00:13:43,460 --> 00:13:48,882 create a narrative about black and white, about Africa. 203 00:13:48,965 --> 00:13:52,884 It is no coincidence that, in these films, 204 00:13:52,969 --> 00:13:55,555 America is always portrayed as winner 205 00:13:55,640 --> 00:14:00,184 or white always takes the role which represents "good". It's not by chance. 206 00:14:03,688 --> 00:14:06,315 Hello, CEO! 207 00:14:06,399 --> 00:14:07,358 Kelsey! 208 00:14:08,735 --> 00:14:09,943 My name is Kelsey Nielsen. 209 00:14:10,029 --> 00:14:11,778 I helped co-found No White Saviors. 210 00:14:11,863 --> 00:14:13,697 KELSEY NIELSEN CO-FOUNDER 211 00:14:13,783 --> 00:14:15,908 This content from Gerard Butler. 212 00:14:15,994 --> 00:14:17,578 We should issue a statement. 213 00:14:17,662 --> 00:14:19,371 Do you think we should put together a video 214 00:14:19,454 --> 00:14:21,873 of O Rebelde Salvador is published? 215 00:14:21,957 --> 00:14:23,247 I think so. 216 00:14:23,333 --> 00:14:25,668 People love clips like this. 217 00:14:27,254 --> 00:14:28,880 - I can save children. - Calm down. 218 00:14:28,964 --> 00:14:30,506 Don't tell me to calm down! 219 00:14:32,677 --> 00:14:36,847 I think being the "white savior" makes us feel good about ourselves. 220 00:14:36,930 --> 00:14:39,640 If you know me, You know I'm a true humanitarian. 221 00:14:39,725 --> 00:14:44,437 We are glorified when we need it to do much more 222 00:14:44,522 --> 00:14:46,814 without having to receive praise for it. 223 00:14:46,900 --> 00:14:49,400 BLACK CHILDREN ARE NOT PROPS OF PHOTOGRAPHIC SESSIONS 224 00:14:49,486 --> 00:14:51,070 WHEN YOUR WHITE COLOR CONVINCES YOU 225 00:14:51,154 --> 00:14:53,446 THAT YOUR PRESENCE IN OTHER COUNTRIES IT IS INHERENTLY USEFUL 226 00:14:53,531 --> 00:14:57,450 The mentality, from my point of view, It's living in a myth of sacrifice and saying: 227 00:14:57,534 --> 00:14:59,451 "I have good intentions." 228 00:15:00,120 --> 00:15:01,204 WHITE SAVIOR KIT 229 00:15:01,288 --> 00:15:05,458 "Are intentions good enough?" That's what you should ask. 230 00:15:05,543 --> 00:15:07,502 THE TIME OF THE WHITE SAVIORS HAS OPENED. 231 00:15:07,587 --> 00:15:09,628 PRETEND YOU KNOW HOW TO SOLVE COMPLEX PROBLEMS! 232 00:15:09,713 --> 00:15:11,963 Because Africa is not your playground. 233 00:15:15,011 --> 00:15:18,596 It's strange for a white person to be part of a team called the No White Saviors. 234 00:15:18,681 --> 00:15:23,143 We call my title and role on the team of "white savior in recovery". 235 00:15:25,520 --> 00:15:27,271 I grew up in the evangelical church. 236 00:15:27,355 --> 00:15:30,857 When I first went to Uganda, I was 20 years old 237 00:15:30,943 --> 00:15:33,277 as part of the Jinja missionaries 238 00:15:33,361 --> 00:15:35,655 with a desire to do good and meet needs. 239 00:15:36,490 --> 00:15:39,910 Then in 2014, I met Olivia. 240 00:15:40,829 --> 00:15:44,539 I started working as a social worker and Kelsey was my boss. 241 00:15:44,623 --> 00:15:46,789 COUNTDOWN TO KINDNESS INTERVIEW 242 00:15:46,875 --> 00:15:49,376 The truth is that I had no power in that organization, 243 00:15:49,462 --> 00:15:51,546 Therefore, I decided to resign. 244 00:15:52,465 --> 00:15:57,051 But I remained close to Kelsey. We maintained the dialogue. 245 00:15:59,096 --> 00:16:04,142 Maybe it wasn't the worst white person arriving in Jinja, 246 00:16:04,225 --> 00:16:06,394 but the more I knew and heard 247 00:16:06,478 --> 00:16:10,690 about the harm I had caused, that other white people had caused here, 248 00:16:10,774 --> 00:16:13,901 but I realized of complete miseducation 249 00:16:13,986 --> 00:16:17,822 that we receive internationally over the African continent, 250 00:16:17,906 --> 00:16:19,657 especially in relation to Uganda. 251 00:16:19,741 --> 00:16:22,200 JUST A COMMUNITY ACTIVIST NOT A WHITE SAVIOR 252 00:16:22,286 --> 00:16:26,163 As white people, we want to help and we know that the needs exist, 253 00:16:26,248 --> 00:16:30,794 but we refuse to recognize the origin of all this misery, 254 00:16:30,879 --> 00:16:32,963 and why it continues to be perpetuated. 255 00:16:35,632 --> 00:16:36,673 BRITISH COLONIAL ERA 256 00:16:36,759 --> 00:16:38,301 much of the complex of the white savior 257 00:16:38,385 --> 00:16:40,594 �, without a doubt, a legacy of colonialism. 258 00:16:41,723 --> 00:16:45,767 Uganda, one of the three territories from British East Africa. 259 00:16:46,519 --> 00:16:49,521 Just a few years ago, the people here were primitive. 260 00:16:51,272 --> 00:16:54,149 Now, through road construction, housing projects, 261 00:16:54,235 --> 00:16:57,778 hospitals and health services and educational schemes, 262 00:16:57,864 --> 00:17:00,449 England is helping to the development of Uganda. 263 00:17:01,409 --> 00:17:04,494 They said that colonization was the best thing that could have happened 264 00:17:04,578 --> 00:17:09,499 to the African continent and that we should feel very grateful. 265 00:17:10,166 --> 00:17:12,501 But they had your own intentions. 266 00:17:13,420 --> 00:17:16,631 It was about our land and control. 267 00:17:18,092 --> 00:17:21,177 FRICA IS NOT POOR, �FRICA IS EXPLORED. 268 00:17:21,261 --> 00:17:24,930 Since we met you, 500 years ago, 269 00:17:25,015 --> 00:17:28,893 look at us, we gave everything and you keep taking it. 270 00:17:29,477 --> 00:17:30,643 It's true. 271 00:17:30,730 --> 00:17:36,693 Where would the Western world be without Africa? 272 00:17:36,777 --> 00:17:40,279 Our cocoa, our wood, our gold, 273 00:17:40,364 --> 00:17:43,823 our diamonds, our platinum. 274 00:17:43,909 --> 00:17:46,993 Everything you have came from us. 275 00:17:49,916 --> 00:17:52,500 It is Independence Day in Uganda. 276 00:17:52,585 --> 00:17:54,460 Will we really be independent? 277 00:17:54,545 --> 00:17:56,755 That's the big question. 278 00:17:59,675 --> 00:18:02,426 Missionary work is an extension of colonialism. 279 00:18:02,512 --> 00:18:04,220 OLIVIA'S VOICE NWS PODCAST 280 00:18:04,305 --> 00:18:06,598 They want to force me to believe in your God 281 00:18:06,683 --> 00:18:10,226 which, in turn, helps you to justify your conduct. 282 00:18:10,311 --> 00:18:15,105 YOU ARE GLORIFIED AT THE COST OF THE PEOPLE WHO ARE "SAVING". 283 00:18:17,943 --> 00:18:21,445 BELIEVE 284 00:18:21,531 --> 00:18:25,492 I'm seeing if any of these photos It's from when you went to Uganda. 285 00:18:25,576 --> 00:18:27,578 - That's it. - Ready. 286 00:18:27,661 --> 00:18:31,080 When you told me, I said: "What? Where do you want to go?" 287 00:18:31,165 --> 00:18:34,166 Do you remember when you said that God called you to the north zone... 288 00:18:34,251 --> 00:18:35,376 KELSEY'S MOTHER 289 00:18:35,460 --> 00:18:37,794 ...where that movie Was Rebel Salvador filmed? 290 00:18:37,880 --> 00:18:39,714 - What's it called? - My God... 291 00:18:39,799 --> 00:18:41,633 Haven't you met the "Rebel Savior"? 292 00:18:41,717 --> 00:18:43,385 - It's terrible. - In northern Uganda? 293 00:18:43,470 --> 00:18:46,555 You said, "I think God is with me calling to the northern part of Uganda." 294 00:18:46,639 --> 00:18:49,307 - Did I say that? - Yes. And I said, "Nothing is wrong!" 295 00:18:50,184 --> 00:18:54,646 I don't think we can separate the missionary work of the white savior, 296 00:18:54,729 --> 00:18:59,483 because it comes down to belief that we have an understanding of God 297 00:18:59,569 --> 00:19:01,777 and how the world works that others don't have. 298 00:19:01,863 --> 00:19:03,821 I remember you bragging. 299 00:19:03,905 --> 00:19:06,574 You appeared in some newspaper articles 300 00:19:06,659 --> 00:19:10,829 and when someone from the church or from the neighborhood approached me 301 00:19:10,912 --> 00:19:14,123 and knew what you were doing, said, "You must be so proud." Of course it was. 302 00:19:15,083 --> 00:19:19,128 I went to Africa to honor God in the best possible way. 303 00:19:19,838 --> 00:19:21,965 But it is a form of indoctrination. 304 00:19:22,049 --> 00:19:24,007 It's something that can be learned and taught. 305 00:19:28,723 --> 00:19:32,142 Because when we were kids, We go to mass every Sunday. 306 00:19:32,227 --> 00:19:36,229 �amos is "pre-mass". We went to mass before mass. 307 00:19:41,359 --> 00:19:44,861 Then, two or three hours at night, we participated in a group of young people 308 00:19:44,947 --> 00:19:47,573 where they showed us photographs and films 309 00:19:47,658 --> 00:19:50,493 about missionaries who went to meet of unevangelized peoples. 310 00:19:51,537 --> 00:19:54,956 And missionaries came to the church to speak. 311 00:19:55,040 --> 00:19:59,251 At 18, I decided to go live in the other side of the ocean with the heart 312 00:19:59,337 --> 00:20:01,338 determined to change the world. 313 00:20:01,422 --> 00:20:03,880 We went there, we gave love to those people. 314 00:20:03,967 --> 00:20:05,174 We pray for them. 315 00:20:05,260 --> 00:20:08,261 There is so much need and so much destruction in our world. 316 00:20:08,346 --> 00:20:09,511 We need Jesus so much. 317 00:20:09,596 --> 00:20:11,556 STUDENTS CHANGE THE WORLD AS MISSIONARIES 318 00:20:11,639 --> 00:20:13,723 Afterwards, we see that these people are celebrated. 319 00:20:13,809 --> 00:20:16,769 It's one day at a time with Jesus, It's fantastic. 320 00:20:17,646 --> 00:20:20,564 - You really are a star. - Captivating story 321 00:20:20,650 --> 00:20:22,816 of a Mother Teresa of modern times. 322 00:20:22,901 --> 00:20:24,485 A MOTHER TERESA FROM MODERN TIMES 323 00:20:24,571 --> 00:20:27,530 We saw that and we thought that was a possibility. 324 00:20:27,615 --> 00:20:30,284 KELSEY FOLLOWS HER HEART TO HELP THE NEEDY IN UGANDA. 325 00:20:30,366 --> 00:20:32,992 But we were all young in our 20s or even teenagers. 326 00:20:33,078 --> 00:20:35,371 "I LOVE LOVING UGANDEANS" 327 00:20:35,456 --> 00:20:37,664 When we don't have skills for what we do, 328 00:20:37,749 --> 00:20:41,711 and we live only from passion or the call of God, 329 00:20:41,796 --> 00:20:44,463 there will be a lot of people to be harmed by this. 330 00:20:46,467 --> 00:20:49,718 There is the mentality that God does not choose the qualified. 331 00:20:49,804 --> 00:20:51,303 He empowers the chosen ones. 332 00:20:51,389 --> 00:20:53,431 KELSEY'S VOICE PODCAST "GOOD PEOPLE" 333 00:20:53,516 --> 00:20:58,602 Let's go to the field without any degree, training or experience, 334 00:20:58,688 --> 00:21:03,274 We think God will equip us and give us the necessary skills. 335 00:21:10,950 --> 00:21:13,909 I'M JUST A GIRL FROM VIRGINIA WHO HEARD GOD'S CALL 336 00:21:13,994 --> 00:21:16,287 AND HE WENT TO ANOTHER COUNTRY TO SERVE HIM! 337 00:21:16,872 --> 00:21:19,791 I LOVE AFRICA MORE THAN WHAT I CAN EXPRESS IN WORDS 338 00:21:19,875 --> 00:21:23,334 AND I WANT TO SPEND MY LIFE FEEDING THE CHILDREN THERE! 339 00:21:23,421 --> 00:21:25,255 Welcome to Ministry Spotlight, 340 00:21:25,339 --> 00:21:29,299 a program about ministries who serve the Lord throughout the world. 341 00:21:29,384 --> 00:21:30,802 RENEE BACH INTERVIEW FM TEAM 342 00:21:30,886 --> 00:21:33,304 I'm in the studio with Renee Bach, originally from Bedford, 343 00:21:33,390 --> 00:21:35,724 who went on a mission trip at 19 years old. 344 00:21:35,807 --> 00:21:40,060 The Lord called her back to Uganda to start a missionary work. 345 00:21:40,146 --> 00:21:42,146 And I can only think, "that's crazy", 346 00:21:42,231 --> 00:21:46,233 because it never crossed my mind start missionary work at age 19. 347 00:21:46,318 --> 00:21:49,738 Obviously, the Lord had a special plan for you. 348 00:21:51,408 --> 00:21:55,618 We moved by faith and I went to a small community called Masese, 349 00:21:55,702 --> 00:21:58,913 which is like our favela. - Alone, right? 350 00:21:58,997 --> 00:22:00,914 - Yes sir. - Very good. 351 00:22:01,000 --> 00:22:03,750 I THINK WE DON'T NEED A HOUSE SO BIG, BUT GOD YES. 352 00:22:03,837 --> 00:22:06,505 That's when I founded Serving His Children. 353 00:22:15,722 --> 00:22:17,848 When Serving His Children began, 354 00:22:17,934 --> 00:22:21,353 it made sense to create a nutritional program, 355 00:22:21,437 --> 00:22:24,273 because it was something I had already done and with which she was familiar. 356 00:22:26,275 --> 00:22:29,986 At the risk of sounding cliché, one of my favorite things 357 00:22:30,070 --> 00:22:34,616 It's looking at the face of someone who doesn't has nothing, according to world standards, 358 00:22:34,701 --> 00:22:38,829 and see their eyes overflow joy and Jesus. 359 00:22:38,912 --> 00:22:41,830 You are my leader, Jesus. 360 00:22:44,667 --> 00:22:46,709 Thank you for this day. 361 00:22:46,795 --> 00:22:49,798 Thank you for this day. 362 00:22:49,881 --> 00:22:52,341 Thank you for our family. 363 00:22:52,427 --> 00:22:54,885 I HAVE A THOUSAND CHILDREN IN MY BACKYARD TUESDAYS AND THURSDAYS 364 00:22:54,971 --> 00:22:58,430 What did your parents say? What said family and friends? 365 00:22:58,515 --> 00:23:01,434 They have supported me immensely from the earliest days. 366 00:23:01,519 --> 00:23:03,019 DON'T YOU SEE WHERE THE PATH LEADS YOU, 367 00:23:03,104 --> 00:23:05,229 GO FIRST WHERE THERE IS NO PATH AND LEAVE A TRACE 368 00:23:09,735 --> 00:23:13,571 When Serving His Children began, Many friends said the same: 369 00:23:13,656 --> 00:23:16,491 "I saw those pictures of Renee on the blog." 370 00:23:16,575 --> 00:23:21,078 They couldn't understand: "It's her mother and let her do that?" 371 00:23:21,162 --> 00:23:22,203 LAURI BACH REN�E'S MOTHER 372 00:23:22,290 --> 00:23:24,540 My role is not to give you permission, 373 00:23:24,626 --> 00:23:26,125 when she is old enough. 374 00:23:28,797 --> 00:23:31,130 Good job! Look at you! 375 00:23:31,216 --> 00:23:35,386 I taught at home to five incredible children. 376 00:23:35,468 --> 00:23:37,010 I want to take a picture of this. 377 00:23:38,473 --> 00:23:42,184 We wanted to give them the opportunity to explore different things. 378 00:23:43,186 --> 00:23:46,021 And all these things were preparing Renee 379 00:23:46,106 --> 00:23:50,734 to live alone in Uganda without this if it presented him as an obstacle. 380 00:23:53,778 --> 00:23:56,863 As a mother, I am proud of my daughter. 381 00:23:56,949 --> 00:23:58,949 How not to be? 382 00:23:59,035 --> 00:24:02,620 When we realized it was meant to last, 383 00:24:02,706 --> 00:24:07,333 I became the director here in the USA with The goal is to support her work there. 384 00:24:07,418 --> 00:24:10,210 LAURI BACH AMERICAN DIRECTOR 385 00:24:12,839 --> 00:24:16,675 This is for my family, who want to see what is happening here. 386 00:24:21,348 --> 00:24:24,975 Selah, do you want to say hello to your uncles, Is it your aunt and grandfather? 387 00:24:26,811 --> 00:24:29,521 Selah, you punched yourself. 388 00:24:32,276 --> 00:24:36,988 It was on this trip that I met Selah for the first time. 389 00:24:39,116 --> 00:24:40,826 I'm not a baby person, 390 00:24:40,909 --> 00:24:45,913 but as soon as I caught that child, 391 00:24:45,998 --> 00:24:50,083 I simply knew, without a shadow of a doubt, that that was my granddaughter. 392 00:24:55,342 --> 00:24:57,592 I never planned to adopt at 20, 393 00:24:58,260 --> 00:25:02,763 but Selah's biological mother he was very ill and passed away. 394 00:25:04,141 --> 00:25:08,519 He had no direct family, I had no aunts or uncles, 395 00:25:08,604 --> 00:25:12,732 which left her in a complicated situation about who would take care of her. 396 00:25:12,818 --> 00:25:14,902 THE LORD CALLED ME TO BE SELAH'S MOTHER 397 00:25:15,736 --> 00:25:17,320 WHEN I READ THIS, I THOUGHT, OF COURSE! 398 00:25:17,404 --> 00:25:18,779 It was a long process. 399 00:25:18,865 --> 00:25:19,906 CONGRATULATIONS! 400 00:25:19,990 --> 00:25:21,031 THANK YOU, JESUS! 401 00:25:21,116 --> 00:25:23,827 But I don't even know what it would be like my life if I weren't a mother. 402 00:25:27,081 --> 00:25:29,500 WORK OF LOVE: LOCAL WOMAN HELP UGANDIAN CHILDREN 403 00:25:29,584 --> 00:25:32,084 This little peanut inside a Christmas stocking 404 00:25:32,169 --> 00:25:34,003 It's our granddaughter Selah. 405 00:25:34,629 --> 00:25:35,796 It was so tiny. 406 00:25:37,007 --> 00:25:41,011 We have passed from the "work of love, 407 00:25:41,094 --> 00:25:46,474 local woman helps Ugandan children" for, a little later, 408 00:25:46,560 --> 00:25:49,061 "beat hunger, one child at a time". 409 00:25:49,145 --> 00:25:51,730 OVERCOME HUNGER ONE CHILD AT A TIME 410 00:25:51,813 --> 00:25:55,817 In fact, it was when I was there and she adopted Selah... 411 00:25:55,902 --> 00:26:00,614 What started with a dietary program ended up transforming 412 00:26:00,698 --> 00:26:05,118 and Renee started doing what was necessary to end malnutrition. 413 00:26:05,910 --> 00:26:08,954 JINJA, UGANDA 414 00:26:09,039 --> 00:26:12,250 JINJA REGIONAL HOSPITAL CHILDREN'S UNIT 415 00:26:14,753 --> 00:26:18,631 DR. ABNER TAGOOLA HEAD OF PEDIATRICS, JINJA HOSPITAL 416 00:26:18,716 --> 00:26:24,805 Nalufenya is the pediatric unit from Jinja Regional Hospital. 417 00:26:26,306 --> 00:26:31,102 A child is only hospitalized here if you are severely malnourished. 418 00:26:34,149 --> 00:26:35,690 How long have you been sick? 419 00:26:35,775 --> 00:26:36,940 One month. 420 00:26:37,027 --> 00:26:38,110 A month? 421 00:26:38,485 --> 00:26:41,446 She couldn't eat anything! We no longer knew what to do. 422 00:26:43,908 --> 00:26:48,286 This hospital was built to accommodate between 100 and 150 children. 423 00:26:48,370 --> 00:26:54,334 But we are receiving around 250 children per month. 424 00:26:55,210 --> 00:26:57,879 The unit is always overcrowded. 425 00:26:58,506 --> 00:27:02,884 And that puts pressure on limited human resources 426 00:27:02,968 --> 00:27:05,679 as well as material resources available in the unit. 427 00:27:07,431 --> 00:27:10,766 Rehabilitation is a very time-consuming process. 428 00:27:11,478 --> 00:27:13,936 We don't have enough space. 429 00:27:14,021 --> 00:27:19,609 One of our biggest challenges is having to discharge children prematurely. 430 00:27:19,693 --> 00:27:22,820 And it is common for most NGOs that is fixed here 431 00:27:22,906 --> 00:27:25,866 offer support 432 00:27:25,950 --> 00:27:29,536 that the main hospital cannot offer. 433 00:27:31,162 --> 00:27:34,080 And we contact them to ask for help. 434 00:27:34,541 --> 00:27:38,795 That's how I started working with Renee Bach. 435 00:27:39,672 --> 00:27:42,881 I RECEIVED A CALL TO GO TO SEE TWO VERY MALNUTRITED BABIES 436 00:27:42,968 --> 00:27:44,635 TO JINJA PEDIATRIC HOSPITAL 437 00:27:44,718 --> 00:27:48,972 I received a call from someone. Even today, I don't know how you got my number. 438 00:27:49,056 --> 00:27:53,184 But she said, "I heard that has a dietary program 439 00:27:53,268 --> 00:27:54,560 and we have two children here. 440 00:27:54,645 --> 00:27:57,147 Clinically, they are fine, but you have to gain weight 441 00:27:57,231 --> 00:27:58,523 to reach the ideal weight, 442 00:27:58,608 --> 00:28:01,318 but parents don't have resources to keep them here. 443 00:28:01,402 --> 00:28:05,197 Can you admit them to your program?” 444 00:28:05,280 --> 00:28:07,782 I was a little confused when they called me, and said: 445 00:28:07,866 --> 00:28:12,746 "We only give rice and beans to the children. Children don't stay here. I don't..." 446 00:28:12,830 --> 00:28:14,289 And she: "No problem." 447 00:28:14,373 --> 00:28:18,252 They just need a place where to stay and eat." 448 00:28:18,335 --> 00:28:22,089 And I thought, "Well... Okay." 449 00:28:25,675 --> 00:28:26,633 Hello! 450 00:28:29,054 --> 00:28:33,350 The children got fat, they played and ate. 451 00:28:35,852 --> 00:28:36,810 You're so sweet! 452 00:28:39,106 --> 00:28:42,023 And honestly, From this experience, 453 00:28:42,109 --> 00:28:45,320 I started seeing malnutrition everywhere. 454 00:28:47,699 --> 00:28:51,368 Children with swollen bellies, bleached hair. 455 00:28:56,207 --> 00:29:00,584 And I found myself thinking about it, because I realized: 456 00:29:00,670 --> 00:29:03,128 "Perhaps nutritional rehabilitation 457 00:29:03,213 --> 00:29:06,006 be something we can work on as an organization 458 00:29:06,091 --> 00:29:10,219 to meet a need for the which there is not enough response in the area." 459 00:29:12,806 --> 00:29:18,687 Sometimes, God tells us, in our hearts: "That's what you have to do." 460 00:29:20,982 --> 00:29:23,608 SHOW ME WHAT TO DO. JUST MY EYES. GUIDE MY HANDS. 461 00:29:23,693 --> 00:29:27,111 I KNOW YOU ARE IN CONTROL. I WILL FOLLOW YOU. I WILL TRUST. 462 00:29:28,989 --> 00:29:30,699 We closed the food program. 463 00:29:33,160 --> 00:29:38,080 We turned SHC into a rehabilitation center full-time malnutrition 464 00:29:38,832 --> 00:29:41,542 to keep children who had left the hospital 465 00:29:41,628 --> 00:29:44,463 and that they only needed to reach your ideal weight. 466 00:29:44,547 --> 00:29:45,797 Hello! 467 00:29:47,383 --> 00:29:49,133 Hello, Kamut! 468 00:29:49,218 --> 00:29:52,595 Her collaboration was very welcome. 469 00:29:52,679 --> 00:29:56,474 You're almost there. You're almost there. 470 00:29:56,558 --> 00:29:59,394 For the children we discharged, 471 00:30:00,438 --> 00:30:03,315 she could give them shelter 472 00:30:03,398 --> 00:30:07,402 in a very clean environment until they are fully rehabilitated. 473 00:30:07,487 --> 00:30:08,903 BEFORE - 5 MONTHS AFTER 474 00:30:08,988 --> 00:30:10,530 BEFORE - 2 MONTHS AFTER 475 00:30:10,615 --> 00:30:12,157 BEFORE - 5 MONTHS AFTER 476 00:30:12,241 --> 00:30:14,410 Renee was supporting us. 477 00:30:14,494 --> 00:30:20,623 And he even reinforced it by trying hire local medical personnel. 478 00:30:20,708 --> 00:30:23,042 WE FOUND A WONDERFUL CHRISTIAN. 479 00:30:23,127 --> 00:30:26,128 CONSTANCE COMES ALL WEDNESDAY MORNINGS. 480 00:30:30,051 --> 00:30:33,303 There are songs to sing 481 00:30:33,387 --> 00:30:36,390 In the house of my God, hallelujah 482 00:30:36,473 --> 00:30:40,310 In the house of my God I'm a winner 483 00:30:40,394 --> 00:30:41,561 CHIEF NURSE 484 00:30:41,646 --> 00:30:43,396 In the name of the Lord, I am victorious 485 00:30:43,480 --> 00:30:45,273 You win like a winner 486 00:30:45,357 --> 00:30:47,191 I'm a winner 487 00:30:47,277 --> 00:30:49,485 - In the name of the Lord - In the name of the Lord 488 00:30:50,779 --> 00:30:54,574 Blessing is now six years old and five months. 489 00:30:54,659 --> 00:30:58,911 Favor is four years and three months old. 490 00:30:59,372 --> 00:31:02,331 Favor wants to be a nurse when you grow up. 491 00:31:06,630 --> 00:31:08,672 Like me, she is very organized. 492 00:31:12,301 --> 00:31:16,804 In the first hospital where I worked, Many people appeared there every day. 493 00:31:16,889 --> 00:31:19,515 "I'm Kate." 494 00:31:19,601 --> 00:31:22,978 And the next day, another came: "Hi, I'm Lindsay." 495 00:31:24,145 --> 00:31:29,983 It was at that time that I remember to know her, but I didn't know... 496 00:31:30,069 --> 00:31:32,527 "Is that Renee? What, who?" It didn't matter. 497 00:31:32,614 --> 00:31:34,947 We all called each other the same. They were white people. 498 00:31:37,451 --> 00:31:40,077 NUTRITIONAL REHABILITATION PROGRAM 499 00:31:40,162 --> 00:31:44,790 When we started this, the first year, I worked alone with Renee. 500 00:31:46,626 --> 00:31:48,418 My job is to receive. 501 00:31:53,551 --> 00:31:57,762 We note the child's weight. Afterwards, We measure the circumference of the arm. 502 00:31:57,846 --> 00:32:00,389 And this is the tool by which we guide ourselves. 503 00:32:00,473 --> 00:32:02,350 Is it increasing or reducing? 504 00:32:03,060 --> 00:32:05,270 It looks better, eats easily. 505 00:32:08,524 --> 00:32:09,650 And Renee learned from me. 506 00:32:11,570 --> 00:32:14,071 Let me feed the children. 507 00:32:16,407 --> 00:32:18,448 Without wanting to diminish 508 00:32:18,534 --> 00:32:21,953 medical procedures which are extremely important, 509 00:32:22,037 --> 00:32:26,666 but in the world of medicine, some of the things I learned to do, 510 00:32:26,750 --> 00:32:29,502 These are really very simple things. 511 00:32:32,005 --> 00:32:35,967 But if the child has a problem, I tell you: 512 00:32:36,052 --> 00:32:38,177 "We have to take this child to the hospital." 513 00:32:40,974 --> 00:32:42,516 PEDIATRIC HOSPITAL 514 00:32:43,101 --> 00:32:44,517 Give him a painkiller. 515 00:32:44,603 --> 00:32:46,437 The hospital wrote prescriptions 516 00:32:46,520 --> 00:32:50,107 and we were at the pharmacy buy the medicines. 517 00:32:53,151 --> 00:32:55,986 We started to buy some of these mass medicines, 518 00:32:56,072 --> 00:33:00,908 things like amoxicillin or paracetamol and medication for malaria. 519 00:33:02,203 --> 00:33:06,040 And since we weren't a large organization, we really needed help. 520 00:33:14,423 --> 00:33:16,340 Nobody likes to do fundraising. 521 00:33:16,426 --> 00:33:17,800 There to the back. 522 00:33:17,885 --> 00:33:19,385 But it is necessary. 523 00:33:21,098 --> 00:33:26,060 Especially in the beginning, it wasn't being It's easy to get support and raise funds, 524 00:33:26,143 --> 00:33:28,937 and then Renee wrote a blog entry... 525 00:33:29,855 --> 00:33:31,897 WHAT A WEEK IN MASESE 526 00:33:31,982 --> 00:33:36,027 And the reactions received were overwhelming. 527 00:33:36,111 --> 00:33:37,152 YOU INSPIRE ME. 528 00:33:37,239 --> 00:33:38,280 YOU ARE AN ANGEL. 529 00:33:38,365 --> 00:33:41,032 YOUR HEART AND YOUR HOPE THEY ARE SO INSPIRING. 530 00:33:41,116 --> 00:33:44,743 And we received a check in the mail. 531 00:33:46,414 --> 00:33:47,371 At a trot. 532 00:33:47,916 --> 00:33:51,585 So I thought, if we can more support through her blog 533 00:33:51,670 --> 00:33:54,797 to respond to supplies and medicines, 534 00:33:55,548 --> 00:33:57,965 we will be able to help many more people. 535 00:33:58,049 --> 00:34:01,176 IF YOU WANT TO FILL THE NEEDS OF HUNGRY CHILDREN IN AFRICA, 536 00:34:01,262 --> 00:34:03,596 CONSIDER BEING PART FROM SERVING HIS CHILDREN 537 00:34:04,473 --> 00:34:09,895 And obviously, the more dramatic the story, 538 00:34:09,979 --> 00:34:12,063 the better was the reaction. 539 00:34:12,148 --> 00:34:13,189 DONATE 540 00:34:13,274 --> 00:34:15,482 ... because everyone wants to make a difference. 541 00:34:15,568 --> 00:34:18,068 I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND BECAUSE GOD ALLOW THESE HORRIBLE THINGS 542 00:34:18,154 --> 00:34:21,989 My mother said: "We need money." 543 00:34:23,242 --> 00:34:27,121 I'M JUST A 21 YEAR OLD GIRL TRYING TO FOLLOW THE DIVINE CALL. 544 00:34:27,204 --> 00:34:28,245 WHAT DO I KNOW? 545 00:34:28,331 --> 00:34:31,041 At the same time, I thought: "Oh my God", 546 00:34:31,124 --> 00:34:33,001 because I felt so many emotions. 547 00:34:34,420 --> 00:34:35,712 Boy. 548 00:34:42,344 --> 00:34:44,846 Joseph, hello! 549 00:34:45,557 --> 00:34:49,268 Initially, all our admissions were carried out through the public hospital. 550 00:34:50,435 --> 00:34:56,316 But as we discharged the children and these returned to the communities... 551 00:34:57,027 --> 00:34:57,984 Will you show me a smile? 552 00:35:00,655 --> 00:35:05,783 ...suddenly, they started to appear to us so many children at the door, 553 00:35:05,868 --> 00:35:07,325 Is looking for help. 554 00:35:16,880 --> 00:35:19,256 I said to Renee, "Look, 555 00:35:19,340 --> 00:35:22,551 these mothers with malnourished children, 556 00:35:22,635 --> 00:35:24,886 there were heights in what was considered to be negligence, 557 00:35:24,971 --> 00:35:29,683 but most of the time it was because they lived in the greatest misery." 558 00:35:33,522 --> 00:35:36,691 When a mother goes to a public hospital, 559 00:35:37,315 --> 00:35:39,775 They ask their mother to buy medicine. 560 00:35:40,485 --> 00:35:42,694 "Can you go buy the syringes?" 561 00:35:44,114 --> 00:35:46,491 at these times who take their children and go home. 562 00:35:46,576 --> 00:35:50,120 Children die at home, because they have no option. 563 00:35:53,498 --> 00:35:59,294 But Serving Your Children never refused to pay 564 00:35:59,379 --> 00:36:01,338 the treatment of any child. 565 00:36:09,140 --> 00:36:12,018 Some mothers recommend the institution to other people. 566 00:36:13,019 --> 00:36:15,853 It's a kind of word of mouth and they come to you. 567 00:36:19,108 --> 00:36:20,650 When they return home: 568 00:36:20,734 --> 00:36:24,112 "We stayed with some people. 569 00:36:24,196 --> 00:36:25,739 They're so good. 570 00:36:25,823 --> 00:36:28,533 They give us food, they give us soap, 571 00:36:28,618 --> 00:36:30,659 even money for transportation." 572 00:36:30,745 --> 00:36:34,330 So this one talks to that one and that one talks to that other. 573 00:36:34,415 --> 00:36:38,585 So those who have malnourished children They start coming to see you alone. 574 00:36:40,797 --> 00:36:42,714 They could come. They could come. 575 00:36:54,686 --> 00:36:56,478 The problem 576 00:36:56,562 --> 00:37:00,732 It's because children came into our hands already in a very serious condition. 577 00:37:00,815 --> 00:37:03,109 NOTE: YES, I WAS VERY TIRED IN THIS PHOTOGRAPH. 578 00:37:03,194 --> 00:37:04,694 SATURDAY WAS THE SIXTH DAY WITHOUT SLEEPING. 579 00:37:04,779 --> 00:37:09,615 We received so many children So, but so sick. 580 00:37:13,121 --> 00:37:14,538 Hello, my beautiful! 581 00:37:18,541 --> 00:37:22,461 And I must say that this is something to which we, as an organization, 582 00:37:22,547 --> 00:37:25,423 we were not prepared, 583 00:37:25,508 --> 00:37:27,925 and for which I personally I wasn't prepared. 584 00:37:35,308 --> 00:37:38,935 I grew up in an environment quite calm and stable. 585 00:37:39,522 --> 00:37:40,479 We are filming. 586 00:37:46,947 --> 00:37:53,368 The biggest crisis I went through as a child 587 00:37:53,451 --> 00:37:59,332 That's when my brother cut himself on a barbed wire fence. 588 00:38:13,305 --> 00:38:16,891 And suddenly I started to have so many stories to tell 589 00:38:16,975 --> 00:38:20,978 of children who appeared at our house. 590 00:38:21,564 --> 00:38:25,275 parents who took son's body 591 00:38:25,358 --> 00:38:28,110 who had died, by taxi, by boat... 592 00:38:29,238 --> 00:38:31,446 ...on top of a motorbike. 593 00:38:37,414 --> 00:38:39,247 Suddenly we think, "Oh my God, 594 00:38:39,331 --> 00:38:42,458 I don't know what to do, because there is so much death. 595 00:38:43,336 --> 00:38:47,129 And there are so many emergencies happening around me." 596 00:38:47,840 --> 00:38:50,508 And it's something we get sucked into. 597 00:38:51,469 --> 00:38:53,469 MY HEART HAMMERED IN MY CHEST 598 00:38:53,555 --> 00:38:55,555 For example, they came to me 599 00:38:55,640 --> 00:38:59,017 and said, "This child He doesn't seem to be breathing well." 600 00:38:59,100 --> 00:39:00,767 2:30 AM 601 00:39:00,853 --> 00:39:04,147 And we urgently take the child to the hospital. 602 00:39:04,232 --> 00:39:06,733 MY BAREFEET THEY HIT HEAVY 603 00:39:06,818 --> 00:39:09,820 AGAINST THE COLD CEMENT FLOOR. 604 00:39:09,905 --> 00:39:11,947 I WAS LOOKING DESPERATELY OXYGEN. 605 00:39:12,032 --> 00:39:14,575 And they said, "We're using the two sources of oxygen 606 00:39:14,660 --> 00:39:17,078 on someone else, We no longer have oxygen available." 607 00:39:17,161 --> 00:39:20,204 We think, "Okay." So, We went to another hospital and they said: 608 00:39:20,290 --> 00:39:22,416 "We are without power. The concentrator doesn't work." 609 00:39:23,918 --> 00:39:26,419 WHENEVER I ENTERED ANOTHER HOSPITAL, 610 00:39:26,504 --> 00:39:29,005 I FOUND THE SAME SCENARIO. 611 00:39:29,091 --> 00:39:31,258 Then we went to another hospital and they said: 612 00:39:31,343 --> 00:39:34,345 "Our oxygen concentrator It's broken." 613 00:39:35,595 --> 00:39:38,764 How we had to decide which hospital to take the child to, 614 00:39:38,849 --> 00:39:40,517 we feel totally responsible. 615 00:39:41,645 --> 00:39:43,937 EVERY TIME I RETURNED TO THE CAR, 616 00:39:44,021 --> 00:39:45,605 I FEEL ME EVERY TIME LESS HOPEFUL. 617 00:39:45,690 --> 00:39:49,901 IN THE BACK SEAT WAS A BABY 11 MONTH OLD CALLED HARRINGTON. 618 00:39:49,986 --> 00:39:53,821 THE PREGNANT MOTHER HUGGED HIM TIGHT. 619 00:39:56,575 --> 00:39:58,534 All these little things combined, 620 00:39:58,619 --> 00:40:03,289 create an impossible environment to receive any treatment. 621 00:40:05,668 --> 00:40:07,960 Then we think, "What should I do?" 622 00:40:10,047 --> 00:40:12,632 SOMETIMES, WHEN I'M IN THE SHADOW OF DEATH VALLEY, 623 00:40:13,217 --> 00:40:18,346 I'M AFRAID. 624 00:40:20,391 --> 00:40:23,978 I KNEEL OVER HARRINGTON AND I HIT HIM IN THE CHEST, 625 00:40:24,728 --> 00:40:28,523 WHILE BEGGING GOD MAY YOU BRING HIM BACK. 626 00:40:29,108 --> 00:40:32,277 FELT LIKE MY OWN HEART HAD STOPPED BEATING. 627 00:40:33,738 --> 00:40:38,741 WE MISS YOU, BABY HARRINGTON. WE LOVE YOU. 628 00:40:38,826 --> 00:40:41,704 There was a lot of apathy, it seems to me. 629 00:40:42,954 --> 00:40:45,914 AS CHRISTIANS, WE ARE CALLED LOVING THE POOR. THE RFOS. THE WIDOWS. 630 00:40:45,999 --> 00:40:47,624 NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. 631 00:40:47,709 --> 00:40:49,377 Which got me thinking: 632 00:40:49,462 --> 00:40:51,712 "We need us to deal with this." 633 00:40:54,593 --> 00:40:56,467 We started raising more money. 634 00:41:00,013 --> 00:41:04,017 Today, I wanted to share with you some stories 635 00:41:04,726 --> 00:41:05,851 and I'll probably cry. 636 00:41:07,521 --> 00:41:11,858 A primeira hist�ria que quero compartilhar com voc� � sobre dois beb�s g�meos. 637 00:41:13,151 --> 00:41:16,112 QUERO QUE CONHE�AM MEUS AMIGOS 638 00:41:16,196 --> 00:41:19,616 J� devem ter me ouvido falar do hospital pedi�trico 639 00:41:19,701 --> 00:41:22,118 and how it is a very dirty environment. 640 00:41:22,746 --> 00:41:26,916 O hospital havia dito � m�e deles that they would die. 641 00:41:27,000 --> 00:41:32,796 As a mother, she started to move away from her children 642 00:41:32,879 --> 00:41:37,549 e a aceitar o fato that they would probably die. 643 00:41:39,094 --> 00:41:42,429 And when the hospital called me, disseram: "N�s tent�mos", 644 00:41:42,516 --> 00:41:44,307 and that's what everyone tells me. 645 00:41:44,392 --> 00:41:48,687 "We tried. We tried to treat these children and we failed." 646 00:41:48,771 --> 00:41:51,688 So, call me, girl 21 years old, without a medical degree, 647 00:41:52,274 --> 00:41:53,858 to go get them. 648 00:41:54,569 --> 00:41:57,027 So I trusted in the Lord to save them, 649 00:41:57,113 --> 00:42:02,325 but I too have already resigned and prepared for the worst. 650 00:42:02,411 --> 00:42:08,624 But God was preparing me for that I could witness a miracle. 651 00:42:09,917 --> 00:42:12,084 THE SKINNY AND DESPERATE BABIES THEY DISAPPEARED. 652 00:42:12,169 --> 00:42:14,712 IN ITS PLACE ARE TWO BABIES FAT, HEALTHY AND LOVED 653 00:42:14,798 --> 00:42:17,508 Like Renee, I want to help this world, 654 00:42:17,592 --> 00:42:20,260 I want to make it a better place for children. 655 00:42:23,013 --> 00:42:26,266 But Renee is lucky, because she is American. 656 00:42:26,976 --> 00:42:31,854 And it comes from a context where communities are funded. 657 00:42:32,524 --> 00:42:34,482 And that must be the frustrating part, 658 00:42:34,567 --> 00:42:40,031 because as I am someone who received specialized training for this, 659 00:42:40,113 --> 00:42:44,491 we are here, but the money went directly to her. 660 00:42:45,036 --> 00:42:49,372 And I think that, from the height of your wisdom, she thought she could do it 661 00:42:49,458 --> 00:42:53,752 as much as the Regional Hospital. 662 00:42:53,835 --> 00:42:56,461 I don't even have medical training. 663 00:42:57,964 --> 00:43:02,509 It is just confirmation that it is God who saves those children. 664 00:43:02,594 --> 00:43:04,429 He is the one who supports these lives. 665 00:43:04,514 --> 00:43:08,766 SERVING HER CHILDREN, RENEE BACH UGANDA, AFRICA 666 00:43:08,851 --> 00:43:10,602 2011 - 85% OF DONATIONS IT WAS TO UGANDA! 667 00:43:10,686 --> 00:43:13,187 And it was from then on that we obtained financial support 668 00:43:13,272 --> 00:43:15,564 which allowed us to buy provisions 669 00:43:16,275 --> 00:43:22,239 and material that other hospitals had difficulty providing. 670 00:43:23,949 --> 00:43:26,868 THANK YOU EVERYONE THOSE WHO MADE A DONATION 671 00:43:26,954 --> 00:43:28,703 It's very simple. 672 00:43:28,787 --> 00:43:32,331 They can buy a concentrator of oxygen on Amazon, if you want. 673 00:43:32,416 --> 00:43:33,583 Can you tickle? 674 00:43:35,211 --> 00:43:38,797 Without a doubt, I was learning. 675 00:43:38,882 --> 00:43:42,175 I learned from people like Constance, 676 00:43:43,428 --> 00:43:47,264 putting in an IV or cleaning a wound. 677 00:43:48,056 --> 00:43:49,097 "FAITH IN ACTION" 678 00:43:49,183 --> 00:43:54,353 In a remote rural area, the missionaries who are there are 112. 679 00:43:54,940 --> 00:43:58,483 And then I took a medical course two week missionary, 680 00:43:58,568 --> 00:44:01,903 taught by an organization called Equip International. 681 00:44:01,987 --> 00:44:08,284 Dreaded diseases such as tuberculosis, HIV, malaria, diarrhea, malnutrition. 682 00:44:08,368 --> 00:44:11,120 These are the ones we fight with greater assertiveness. 683 00:44:11,706 --> 00:44:15,250 When the students leave here, leave full of confidence 684 00:44:15,335 --> 00:44:18,003 that the medical issue It's not that big of a mystery. 685 00:44:21,007 --> 00:44:22,090 RENEE BACH FOUNDER 686 00:44:22,175 --> 00:44:24,134 � IN LOVE FOR THE CHILDREN OF UGANDA 687 00:44:24,219 --> 00:44:26,428 AND LOVES THE PRACTICAL ENGAGEMENT IN MEDICAL CARE 688 00:44:26,512 --> 00:44:30,807 However, what is not debatable is that she came to us, she is a mzungu. 689 00:44:30,892 --> 00:44:33,185 For us, the mzungu is a white person. 690 00:44:34,978 --> 00:44:39,357 And there are many social constructs and cultural aspects around a mzungu. 691 00:44:39,442 --> 00:44:42,402 They have money. They have a good heart. 692 00:44:42,487 --> 00:44:44,446 They are ready to help. 693 00:44:44,531 --> 00:44:46,657 And she was all that. 694 00:44:48,243 --> 00:44:52,036 Why would I compete with her? How can I compete with that? 695 00:44:52,120 --> 00:44:55,999 WHERE ARE YOU GOING? HEAVEN OR HELL 696 00:44:56,084 --> 00:44:58,876 SPOKANE, WASHINGTON 697 00:45:11,265 --> 00:45:16,936 Many missionaries have an extraordinary spiritual story 698 00:45:17,021 --> 00:45:20,608 about why they left, the signs that led them to leave. 699 00:45:20,691 --> 00:45:21,941 JACKIE KRAMLICH FORMER VOLUNTEER 700 00:45:23,402 --> 00:45:25,862 But I think I just wanted get to know the world. 701 00:45:30,617 --> 00:45:33,995 He had been to Cambodia, I had been to Costa Rica, 702 00:45:35,582 --> 00:45:38,541 and then I met Chris. 703 00:45:39,252 --> 00:45:42,546 It was interesting, because a the first conversations we had 704 00:45:42,629 --> 00:45:44,713 it was about us going somewhere to the outside. 705 00:45:45,716 --> 00:45:50,094 And, shortly after, I found Renee's blogs. 706 00:45:50,805 --> 00:45:53,097 THERE WERE A DIFFICULT DAYS, BUT GOD IS ALWAYS FAITHFUL 707 00:45:53,182 --> 00:45:55,099 AND I DEPOSIT IN IT ALL MY CONFIDENCE! 708 00:45:55,184 --> 00:45:57,393 She was a very young American 709 00:45:57,479 --> 00:46:00,564 who had dived head first in the sea of misery 710 00:46:00,648 --> 00:46:04,525 and I just wanted to help, without rules or limits. 711 00:46:04,610 --> 00:46:07,362 I remember reading the blog and what she wrote was... 712 00:46:07,447 --> 00:46:10,865 It was inspiring enough to convince us to go. 713 00:46:12,993 --> 00:46:15,912 In the name of Chris, of Jackie and their respective families, 714 00:46:15,996 --> 00:46:20,876 I welcome you to the celebration of this Christian marriage. 715 00:46:21,419 --> 00:46:23,836 Like Jackie, I grew up in the church. 716 00:46:24,880 --> 00:46:29,175 When me and Jackie we talked about going to Uganda, 717 00:46:29,261 --> 00:46:30,551 It seemed to us that it was... 718 00:46:30,636 --> 00:46:31,970 CHRIS KRAMLICH FORMER VOLUNTEER 719 00:46:32,055 --> 00:46:35,140 ...the right thing to do if we took Jesus seriously. 720 00:46:35,725 --> 00:46:39,602 Jesus humbled himself for love of us. 721 00:46:39,687 --> 00:46:41,729 And we are asked to give back with the same love. 722 00:46:49,572 --> 00:46:53,574 Jackie was starting the last year of nursing. 723 00:46:54,786 --> 00:46:56,702 Therefore, we contacted a Serving His Children 724 00:46:56,787 --> 00:47:00,331 and we started the process for when she finished the course. 725 00:47:00,416 --> 00:47:02,500 SERVING YOUR CHILD VOLUNTEERING 726 00:47:02,586 --> 00:47:05,755 We know that Renee had received home education. 727 00:47:05,839 --> 00:47:08,507 We found out about it on the blog, or by Lauri, the mother. 728 00:47:08,590 --> 00:47:11,509 YOU DON'T NEED TO BE A TEACHER TO TEACH 729 00:47:11,594 --> 00:47:16,472 And I remember thinking that I could be very useful to you as a nurse. 730 00:47:24,981 --> 00:47:26,982 Crew, prepare to land. Thanks. 731 00:47:31,030 --> 00:47:32,823 WE ARRIVED SAFE AND SAFE. 732 00:47:32,908 --> 00:47:35,159 We were so excited. 733 00:47:36,869 --> 00:47:39,370 - Come on. - No, not with you! 734 00:47:43,000 --> 00:47:44,418 - Hello! - Hello! 735 00:47:48,131 --> 00:47:51,549 I'd rather climb a hill than going down a hill. 736 00:47:51,635 --> 00:47:52,801 Yes? 737 00:47:52,886 --> 00:47:54,219 Don't pry. 738 00:47:54,304 --> 00:47:55,262 Understood. 739 00:48:02,311 --> 00:48:04,188 Am I going this way? Or do I go this way? 740 00:48:09,068 --> 00:48:11,070 MY BODY AND HEART THEY MAY WEAK... 741 00:48:11,153 --> 00:48:13,613 And I remember getting there. 742 00:48:25,835 --> 00:48:29,504 There were children in different phases of rehabilitation. 743 00:48:42,394 --> 00:48:46,063 The blog is very explicit in relation to what is happening, 744 00:48:46,772 --> 00:48:49,191 but I think that just being there, Just seeing... 745 00:48:51,318 --> 00:48:54,154 And you smell it, 746 00:48:54,239 --> 00:48:57,782 a smell like... the smell of skin... 747 00:48:58,577 --> 00:49:05,498 ...which, in a way, is decomposing, for being so... malnourished. 748 00:49:05,582 --> 00:49:11,504 And only at that time, do we realize how intense it is. 749 00:49:18,388 --> 00:49:20,263 I was looking forward to meeting Renee. 750 00:49:22,016 --> 00:49:23,223 Cute. 751 00:49:23,308 --> 00:49:25,101 I remember being amazed. 752 00:49:27,063 --> 00:49:31,233 Just put a match in that hole and run it. 753 00:49:32,944 --> 00:49:36,195 She had several injections in her hands 754 00:49:36,280 --> 00:49:39,074 and was talking to me, showing me everything. 755 00:49:39,158 --> 00:49:41,992 And as it passed by several children, 756 00:49:42,077 --> 00:49:44,871 she just did... One after the other. 757 00:49:44,956 --> 00:49:47,081 And I remember, at the time, thinking: 758 00:49:47,166 --> 00:49:50,335 "Damn, she really understands this, 759 00:49:50,419 --> 00:49:55,299 knows what to do and is so confident" and I thought it was spectacular, 760 00:49:56,300 --> 00:49:58,342 because I felt a little scared. 761 00:50:00,763 --> 00:50:04,767 And that was before to enter the red room. 762 00:50:12,442 --> 00:50:14,443 OUR SOUL WAITS IN THE LORD 763 00:50:17,362 --> 00:50:21,366 It was there that children received a series of medications. 764 00:50:22,535 --> 00:50:24,119 Intravenous medication. 765 00:50:28,290 --> 00:50:30,083 It was there that they received oxygen. 766 00:50:35,798 --> 00:50:38,174 Yes. That part was difficult, 767 00:50:38,259 --> 00:50:41,721 because I think it wasn't something that we expected to find. 768 00:50:43,724 --> 00:50:47,183 I remember Jackie saying, "That's a scenario that is seen in hospitals, 769 00:50:47,267 --> 00:50:48,434 but this is not a hospital." 770 00:50:51,230 --> 00:50:56,526 Yes. That room was a kind of crossover 771 00:50:56,610 --> 00:50:58,820 between a clinic and... 772 00:50:59,780 --> 00:51:05,786 No, that was a NICU. It was an intensive care room. 773 00:51:09,249 --> 00:51:11,959 That was beyond me as a nurse. 774 00:51:14,921 --> 00:51:19,382 What did Renee do? was the competence of a doctor, 775 00:51:19,466 --> 00:51:22,385 it was a specialized level of care. 776 00:51:24,472 --> 00:51:29,266 But there was no doctor on duty there nor any doctor nearby. None of that. 777 00:51:31,271 --> 00:51:34,522 I just remember a nurse being there, to Constance. 778 00:51:39,487 --> 00:51:41,654 Constance followed orders. 779 00:51:44,326 --> 00:51:46,911 And it became clear to me 780 00:51:46,994 --> 00:51:50,372 that Renee was primarily responsible by medical treatment. 781 00:51:53,209 --> 00:51:56,585 She evaluated the children, prescribed medication, 782 00:51:56,671 --> 00:51:58,255 made diagnoses. 783 00:52:04,720 --> 00:52:08,931 And that red room was her area. 784 00:52:10,976 --> 00:52:14,438 It was almost as if, the sicker they got, 785 00:52:14,522 --> 00:52:16,188 the more she took over his care. 786 00:52:16,273 --> 00:52:19,693 Gotta take this off and extract air from the stomach. 787 00:52:24,449 --> 00:52:27,451 So I started asking questions, 788 00:52:27,535 --> 00:52:30,994 asking about medication, really basic questions. 789 00:52:31,997 --> 00:52:34,249 They didn't say: "We started with amoxicillin 790 00:52:34,334 --> 00:52:37,503 and if that fails, we move on to this and we do it like this, for this or that." 791 00:52:40,090 --> 00:52:41,715 There were no answers. 792 00:52:44,802 --> 00:52:49,221 Then there was a child who died at that time. 793 00:52:49,307 --> 00:52:50,681 And I went to see his file. 794 00:52:50,766 --> 00:52:52,017 FORM INTENSIVE CARE 795 00:52:52,102 --> 00:52:56,814 The dosage administered was not adequate taking into account the child's weight. 796 00:52:56,897 --> 00:53:00,024 The portions were very high, it was an overdose... 797 00:53:00,108 --> 00:53:02,026 It was a whole range of medicines. 798 00:53:03,195 --> 00:53:05,321 I thought, "What's going on here?" 799 00:53:06,491 --> 00:53:10,327 And I analyzed the children's files who had died 800 00:53:10,411 --> 00:53:12,620 and many of them died 801 00:53:12,705 --> 00:53:15,832 within five days after entering the facilities. 802 00:53:18,794 --> 00:53:20,212 Something was going on there. 803 00:53:21,547 --> 00:53:25,049 Whether it was under our control or No, but we had to find out what it was. 804 00:53:26,553 --> 00:53:28,387 So I started my own research. 805 00:53:29,722 --> 00:53:32,390 TREAT SEVERE ACUTE UNDERNUTRITION 806 00:53:32,475 --> 00:53:37,396 I discovered mountains of research, protocols and guidelines 807 00:53:37,480 --> 00:53:42,733 available and tested by WHO and all other health authorities. 808 00:53:43,861 --> 00:53:48,114 And one of the biggest risks that these children run 809 00:53:48,200 --> 00:53:52,702 during rehabilitation, the It is refeeding syndrome. 810 00:53:52,786 --> 00:53:55,454 REFEEDING SYNDROME: WHAT IT IS, HOW TO PREVENT AND TREAT 811 00:53:55,540 --> 00:53:58,040 POTENTIAL CHANGES FLUID AND ELECTROLYTE FATALITIES 812 00:53:58,126 --> 00:54:00,961 MAY OCCUR WHEN UNDERNUTRITED RECEIVE ARTIFICIAL FEEDBACK 813 00:54:01,045 --> 00:54:05,298 We look at the children and they appear to be dehydrated. 814 00:54:05,383 --> 00:54:07,134 It looks like an emergency. 815 00:54:07,218 --> 00:54:08,676 START SMALL AND SLOWLY 816 00:54:08,761 --> 00:54:13,473 Offer a child small sips that she can drink from a glass 817 00:54:13,557 --> 00:54:16,851 has more positive results than intravenous solutions. 818 00:54:17,812 --> 00:54:19,146 POTENTIALLY FATAL 819 00:54:19,230 --> 00:54:22,191 Providing intense fluids to a child 820 00:54:22,276 --> 00:54:25,110 puts the heart under a lot of pressure and this one may simply give way. 821 00:54:27,405 --> 00:54:32,366 This raised an alert, because when a child came in, 822 00:54:32,451 --> 00:54:35,662 often, Renee went straight to the IV. 823 00:54:37,374 --> 00:54:39,959 What this tells me is that, yes, 824 00:54:40,043 --> 00:54:43,045 there is an inherent risk It is refeeding syndrome. 825 00:54:44,130 --> 00:54:47,299 Although it is a risk that could occur anywhere, 826 00:54:48,176 --> 00:54:52,219 refeeding syndrome It's not a joke and it kills children. 827 00:54:54,724 --> 00:54:56,975 And they added to that many medicines 828 00:54:57,060 --> 00:54:59,560 whose doses greatly exceeded that they should be taking. 829 00:55:00,355 --> 00:55:04,441 And at that time, I was on maximum alert. 830 00:55:07,403 --> 00:55:09,738 And I tried to talk to her about it. 831 00:55:11,490 --> 00:55:13,325 I remember clearly, because it was a moment 832 00:55:13,410 --> 00:55:16,954 in which I felt she was more frank with me than usual. 833 00:55:18,664 --> 00:55:21,542 And she said, "I know it seems strange, 834 00:55:21,626 --> 00:55:26,670 but sometimes, I feel like God tells me what to do." 835 00:55:30,094 --> 00:55:33,221 Said he received a kind of God's presentiment. 836 00:55:34,180 --> 00:55:37,766 And in church there was a phrase who kept repeating: 837 00:55:37,851 --> 00:55:40,519 "God does not choose the capable. Empower the chosen.” 838 00:55:42,064 --> 00:55:47,235 Skills are always necessary, This is the interpretation I make. 839 00:55:51,489 --> 00:55:55,575 But instead, I think Renee believed in the fantasy 840 00:55:55,660 --> 00:56:01,248 that she was ordained, that was special and different from the others, 841 00:56:01,333 --> 00:56:04,960 and that she was naturally a doctor. 842 00:56:10,216 --> 00:56:11,591 Do you think Renee is a murderer? 843 00:56:13,594 --> 00:56:16,679 No. Well, I... 844 00:56:19,851 --> 00:56:20,934 I don't... 845 00:56:21,020 --> 00:56:22,853 Heavens, that's a good question.