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<i>I was 18
when I wrote my novel "Sarah.</i>

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<i>Never thought it'd become a best seller
with all these fancy people</i>

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<i>wantin' to meet me,
the elusive JT Leroy,</i>

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<i>but I prefer to be a shut-in 'cause
when I'm writin' or on the phone,</i>

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<i>I get to show people
exactly what I wanna show 'em.</i>

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<i>I can focus on the words
and just... leave my body behind.</i>

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- Dude, it's so good.
- Yeah?

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We just got the demos back
from the studio,

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so, yeah, I'm pretty fuckin' excited.

10
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- Is that her? Is that Laura?
- Uh-huh. Yeah, no, that's her.

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- Cool.
- Pretty fucking great, right?

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Yeah.

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Man, she's...

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I just can't wait for you to meet her.

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I fucking live here now.
I can't believe this.

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Fuck, yes, you live here!

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Dude, you made it out of Mom's place.

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You're going up in the world.
I'm proud of you. Proud of you.

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Thanks.

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Hey, hey!

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Hey, come in. This is us.

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Kitchen's right over here. Cooker.
Careful. There's books everywhere.

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- These are beautiful.
- I wouldn't touch that.

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We got lead. I had it tested.

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All right, this is it.
This is where the magic happens.

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- This is so cool, Geoff.
- Right? Now, listen.

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Couch opens up. Make yourself comfy
and I'll make some tea. You want a tea?

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I'd love a beer.

29
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Beer. Right on. OK. You're in luck.

30
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I just made a fresh batch
of home brew. Cool.

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Hey, yo! Come meet my sister!

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Be right there!

33
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Anyway, every time I tell 'em no,

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I can feel 'em wantin' more.

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They just can't believe this itty-bitty
Southern rent boy is denying 'em.

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I gotta admit, I like having the power.

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All right, yeah. Yeah, thanks.

38
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Same time tomorrow. Bye.

39
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Where is she?

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- Where is she?
- Hey.

41
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Oh, look at you. Oh, Savannah.

42
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Geoff's baby sister.

43
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- Oh, I see your soul in your smile.
- Cool, you guys have met.

44
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- You guys have met.
- Look at this creature.

45
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- Welcome to our little chateau.
- Just as you said.

46
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- The smile I fell in love with.
- You made this?

47
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- I'm getting good at this.
- You're good at everything, baby.

48
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I heard the music in the car.

49
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- It is good. It's really...
- Amazing, right?

50
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It's so cool! He's in a zone!

51
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- I'm just writin' lyrics.
- She's just writing...? No, no.

52
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This woman is turning my music
into these beautiful songs.

53
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We're writing two, three songs a day.
It's insane.

54
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- He's on fire.
- Sounds like it's happening.

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- You're on fire.
- We're on fire.

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- What's that?
- Oh, it's just this thing I made.

57
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I had an extra roll of duct tape
lying around.

58
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- Wait a minute. Hold on.
- That's pretty cool.

59
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Yeah. Just a thing you made?
That is not just a thing.

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What is that, like magical unicorn
backpack? That is blowing my mind.

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That's pure art.
That's like creative genius.

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Don't... Don't put that stuff down.
Right, baby?

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Hm-hmm.

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- Yeah. Yeah. No, fuck, yeah. Of course.
- Right?

65
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You gotta take her
to Lee's party.

66
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- Right?
- You gotta go.

67
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- We gotta go! We gotta go!
- Yeah, first night!

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- You're gonna come?
- Of course.

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- Anything you wanna do, I'm open.
- You gonna come?

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- She just got here. You've gotta come.
- If you want me to come...

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Come on, we don't want you to come,
we need you to come.

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- You're pulling me in.
- We need you.

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You're dragging me into a celebration!

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You're going to Lee's party!
Sav's in San Francisco!

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Yo, what's up?

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Hey, what's up?

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I'll put this on you. We share clothes.
God, it looks amazing with your hair.

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Oh, Samuel!

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This is Geoff's sister Savannah!

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She's taking over his old apartment.

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- I'm Sav, nice to meet you.
- Twist and Scream poster is on the wall.

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Oh, shit!

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That's so beautiful.
That's our band. Yeah.

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No way!

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- So you're an artist?
- Yeah. Yeah.

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- What's your name?
- Sophie.

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- Sophie. What kind of art?
- It's, like, conceptual.

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And the writing has been amazing.

89
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I'm finally not paying the rent
with phone sex.

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And I'm getting some offers.
It's like...

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- You say you did phone sex?
- Yeah. Oh, yeah.

92
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It's one of the more creative jobs ever.

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You know, you have to get
into the role-play of it.

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But as a writer, it's in the madness
of creating a character,

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you know what I mean?

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And then their attention
turns to Sophie?

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Because of her rinky-dink paintings?

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I mean, I'm sorry, but, like, she's
getting that 'cause she's a cute girl

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with a cute little fucking ass,
and her cute little art.

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Can you imagine
if they knew I was JT Leroy?

101
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Right?

102
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If they knew I was
a New York Times best-selling author?

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- I mean, that's so crazy.
- Yeah, well, then tell them!

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Geoff.

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You know I can't do that.

106
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<i>I've got an idea.</i>

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<i>What if I do go out,
but with some kind of disguise?</i>

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Oh!

109
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- What's up?
- You wanna keep a secret?

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What's this?

111
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It's my book Sarah.
My shot at immortality.

112
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Oh, so JT's like your pen name.

113
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More like my avatar.

114
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Who is this kid?

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That's just a photo
I found at a thrift store.

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I loved it 'cause he looks like a kid
in a Dennis Cooper novel.

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- I love Dennis Cooper.
- Of course you do. Oh!

118
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Hey, do you know Mary Gaitskill?

119
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Um, yeah, but I haven't... I haven't
read any of her stuff. I want to.

120
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Oh, you're gonna love it.

121
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I'm just finishing the Colette books
right now.

122
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My God, I remember the first time
I read Colette.

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I'd feel so French and...

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All this great writing
that comes from distress.

125
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But it has beauty in it too, you know?

126
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Like, JT certainly had that.

127
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Like, his grandparents
were fundamentalists, super sadistic.

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- Hey, let me know what you think.
- Of course. Yeah.

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Hello? Hi.

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<i>It's my first day on the lot.</i>

131
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<i>I'm wearing the golden Rapunzel wig
bestowed upon me by my mother, Sarah.</i>

132
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<i>The legendary beauty
and fiercest hooker</i>

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<i>that ever did work
a truck stop down South.</i>

134
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<i>In her high heels, I strut between
the long shimmering lines of big rigs.</i>

135
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<i>Cash's hand is like
the maw of some big animal</i>

136
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<i>as he opens it
revealing a raccoon penis bone,</i>

137
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<i>the talisman that distinguishes
his asphalt girls from all others.</i>

138
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<i>The bigger the bone, the more in demand
her soft girl material is.</i>

139
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<i>If you didn't notice
the raccoon penis bone necklaces</i>

140
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<i>and you didn't know what that meant,</i>

141
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<i>you'd never know
they were actually boys.</i>

142
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<i>You got to earn that raccoon...</i>

143
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<i>The mob surrounds me, tearing
at my lace, ripping my hard-won finery.</i>

144
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<i>"It's a goddamn boy!" they yell,</i>

145
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<i>hungry jackals baying at the moon
while chasing me through the woods.</i>

146
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<i>This is all I am.</i>

147
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<i>A bloody, glittering heart thumping
under a bruise-black sky,</i>

148
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<i>refusing to let anyone tell me
who I'm supposed to be.</i>

149
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<i>I found it so beautiful. It's crazy.</i>

150
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I've never read anything like it,
and it's really painful, you know,

151
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but, like, fucking magic
and I can't even...

152
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<i>I can't think of the right way</i>

153
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<i>to describe how it makes me feel,
honestly.</i>

154
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Oh, my God!

155
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That's so beautiful
to hear you talk about it that way.

156
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God! Of course you so get it.

157
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<i>I don't know if Geoff told you.
I was in such a dark place, you know?</i>

158
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The soul or spirit
or whatever you wanna call it

159
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just... embodied me.

160
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This Jeremiah Terminator LeRoy.

161
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Jeremiah Terminator LeRoy...

162
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Wow.

163
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<i>Then he started calling this therapist
who told JT,</i>

164
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<i>"Hey, you should write
your story down."</i>

165
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It's kind of amazing
sharing this with you 'cause...

166
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um... when I first saw you,
I thought you looked like him.

167
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- Huh?
- <i>It's why I was just...</i>

168
00:11:07,041 --> 00:11:09,794
I wanted to ask you if I could
take a picture of you as him.

169
00:11:10,378 --> 00:11:12,421
Well, what do you mean? Like...

170
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<i>I've been JT on the phone for years,</i>

171
00:11:15,383 --> 00:11:18,469
<i>and people need to see him now.</i>

172
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I mean, I'm... a girl, you know,
just to state the obvious.

173
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<i>No! No!</i>

174
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That's what's beautiful.
He's androgynous. You know? He's like,

175
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<i>you know, discovering his own identity.
Boy, girl. He's in disguise.</i>

176
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I'd pay you 50 bucks.
It's for <i>Interview</i> magazine.

177
00:11:37,738 --> 00:11:40,366
Sav! <i>Interview</i> magazine.

178
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<i>What do you think?</i>

179
00:11:44,829 --> 00:11:47,415
I mean... Yeah, sure. Why not?

180
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Oh, really? This is what it looks like?

181
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- Yeah.
- Ew.

182
00:12:27,955 --> 00:12:29,749
- Looks great.
- Yeah.

183
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So put your chin down. Perfect.

184
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Little bit to the right.
New just give me eyes though.

185
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A little bit... Perfect.

186
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Oh, my God, I'm getting chills.

187
00:13:06,619 --> 00:13:08,704
- Sav, you look great.
- That's JT.

188
00:13:08,829 --> 00:13:11,540
- It's fucking perfect.
- You don't wanna do one more?

189
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Are you kidding?
These are $12 a box. Let's go!

190
00:13:18,047 --> 00:13:19,423
<i>I did it.</i>

191
00:13:19,548 --> 00:13:24,804
<i>This is a whole new beginning for me.
Like a whole new world.</i>

192
00:13:42,989 --> 00:13:45,533
Here you go. You all good?

193
00:13:46,409 --> 00:13:48,411
That hair looks good on you.

194
00:13:49,495 --> 00:13:52,623
Thank you. I was noticing your shoes.

195
00:13:53,624 --> 00:13:56,168
- I've never seen that.
- Yeah.

196
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Free the toes and the rest will follow.

197
00:14:01,590 --> 00:14:05,011
You've been in here. I've seen you
in here. Do you live nearby?

198
00:14:06,345 --> 00:14:09,390
Pretty close. Mission.

199
00:14:09,890 --> 00:14:12,518
- You?
- Uh, SoMa.

200
00:14:13,352 --> 00:14:14,437
Right.

201
00:14:21,444 --> 00:14:24,238
If you need anything,
I'm gonna be working here

202
00:14:24,363 --> 00:14:27,450
for the rest of the time
you'll be here, so...

203
00:14:28,784 --> 00:14:30,911
- OK.
- OK.

204
00:14:43,841 --> 00:14:44,842
Hello?

205
00:14:44,967 --> 00:14:47,053
<i>Savannah. It's Laura.
Oh, my God, how are you?</i>

206
00:14:47,178 --> 00:14:49,138
<i>Can you do it one more time?</i>

207
00:14:51,098 --> 00:14:53,559
Hey, I'm JT Leroy.

208
00:14:54,351 --> 00:14:56,395
Hey, I'm JT Leroy.

209
00:14:58,856 --> 00:15:01,150
Hey, I'm JT Leroy.

210
00:15:01,609 --> 00:15:03,652
Hey, I'm JT Leroy.

211
00:15:06,405 --> 00:15:07,531
It's great.

212
00:15:09,325 --> 00:15:11,243
I mean, it's one thing taking a photo,

213
00:15:11,368 --> 00:15:14,872
maybe saying like, "Hey, I'm JT Leroy,"
but it's another thing being him.

214
00:15:14,997 --> 00:15:17,225
No, no! First of all,
I did the interview already.

215
00:15:17,249 --> 00:15:19,251
It's not like
he's trying to talk to you.

216
00:15:19,376 --> 00:15:20,711
He just wants to get the picture.

217
00:15:20,836 --> 00:15:23,214
And besides,
when you're meeting someone new,

218
00:15:23,339 --> 00:15:25,466
would you ever question
who they say they are?

219
00:15:26,634 --> 00:15:28,052
It's gonna be perfect. Here.

220
00:15:28,177 --> 00:15:32,014
This is an interview with JT
so you can listen to the voice.

221
00:15:32,139 --> 00:15:33,724
Oh, I've gotta show you.

222
00:15:33,849 --> 00:15:38,187
There's this unbelievably, like,
hot-as-fuck actress,

223
00:15:38,312 --> 00:15:42,274
Eva Avelin, from Europe.
The book is doing really well there.

224
00:15:42,399 --> 00:15:44,151
She's been calling JT every night.

225
00:15:44,276 --> 00:15:47,780
Just, like, obsessing and we're
finishing each other's sentences.

226
00:15:49,281 --> 00:15:52,952
- Whoa.
- Yeah. D'you want a cookie?

227
00:15:55,496 --> 00:15:58,040
No, cookies produce curves.
I can't do it.

228
00:15:58,958 --> 00:16:02,128
What? You can't, like, eat cookies
and be goth?

229
00:16:03,003 --> 00:16:06,257
I'm... I'm not goth.

230
00:16:06,924 --> 00:16:08,092
Just skinny?

231
00:16:08,217 --> 00:16:12,388
No, not necessarily, just no... curves.

232
00:16:12,513 --> 00:16:17,059
Is that why you're, like, binding it up
and wearing sports bras all the time?

233
00:16:17,768 --> 00:16:18,978
That's perfect for JT.

234
00:16:19,311 --> 00:16:21,188
Get rid of the boobs,
you're already there.

235
00:16:21,522 --> 00:16:22,523
Yeah.

236
00:16:23,232 --> 00:16:26,110
<i>Today I'm speaking with JT Leroy,</i>

237
00:16:26,235 --> 00:16:27,778
<i>the young writer of "Sarah",</i>

238
00:16:27,903 --> 00:16:30,614
<i>a best-selling novel
based on his experience</i>

239
00:16:30,739 --> 00:16:35,077
<i>as the son of a prostitute
who worked truck stops in the South.</i>

240
00:16:35,202 --> 00:16:40,082
<i>JT, your mother used to pass you off
as her younger sister?</i>

241
00:16:40,207 --> 00:16:42,334
<i>Yeah. I mean...</i>

242
00:16:42,459 --> 00:16:46,130
<i>Sarah, she knew that johns
didn't like having a boy around,</i>

243
00:16:46,255 --> 00:16:49,258
<i>so she made it two pretty girls.</i>

244
00:16:49,383 --> 00:16:52,303
<i>'Cause she knew
they'd get twice the attention.</i>

245
00:16:52,428 --> 00:16:53,804
Sav, you're cool with this, right?

246
00:16:53,929 --> 00:16:56,974
I mean, you don't have to do it
if you don't want to.

247
00:16:57,516 --> 00:17:00,102
Yeah, no, no, totally. I'm into it.

248
00:17:00,436 --> 00:17:04,064
<i>Did your mother expect you
to engage in prostitution?</i>

249
00:17:04,190 --> 00:17:07,151
<i>I mean,
she didn't force me or nothin', but...</i>

250
00:17:07,276 --> 00:17:09,671
- She didn't force me or nothin'.
- <i>Part of me really liked it.</i>

251
00:17:09,695 --> 00:17:11,780
I don't quite understand it
a hundred percent, but...

252
00:17:11,906 --> 00:17:14,992
Yeah, it's... it's... complicated.

253
00:17:15,117 --> 00:17:17,244
- <i>I loved dressing up...</i>
- I loved dressing up...

254
00:17:17,369 --> 00:17:19,622
- <i>Putting on clothes.</i>
- Putting on clothes.

255
00:17:19,747 --> 00:17:22,750
- <i>Turning into someone else.</i>
- Turning into someone else.

256
00:17:22,875 --> 00:17:25,753
<i>Look, Laura is on the phone
all the time as JT,</i>

257
00:17:25,878 --> 00:17:28,589
<i>but she also pretends
to be his manager, Speedie.</i>

258
00:17:28,714 --> 00:17:32,885
- And she deemed me Astor.
- Astor?

259
00:17:33,010 --> 00:17:36,805
Astor's, like, Speedie's boyfriend,
and we saved JT from the streets.

260
00:17:36,931 --> 00:17:39,391
Now we're like this "happy family"
and shit.

261
00:17:39,516 --> 00:17:42,811
<i>My books are fiction.
I mean, I tell stories,</i>

262
00:17:42,937 --> 00:17:46,232
<i>but sometimes the lies
are more true than the truth.</i>

263
00:17:46,357 --> 00:17:47,816
More true than the truth.

264
00:17:47,942 --> 00:17:50,986
Sometimes the lie is more true
than the truth.

265
00:17:51,737 --> 00:17:55,074
<i>Trust me, this whole thing
is crazy for me too.</i>

266
00:17:55,199 --> 00:17:57,243
I mean, didn't expect
to be moving in

267
00:17:57,368 --> 00:18:02,081
with a teenage male prostitute
and an obnoxious, loud British woman.

268
00:18:02,915 --> 00:18:05,000
Obnoxious, loud British woman?

269
00:18:05,125 --> 00:18:07,711
Oh, yeah, yeah.
That's... That's Speedie.

270
00:18:08,963 --> 00:18:11,715
Well, 'ello,
you right little bugger.

271
00:18:11,840 --> 00:18:13,968
I thought you weren't gonna show.

272
00:18:14,093 --> 00:18:17,429
Ready for the shoot?
Bruce, this is JT!

273
00:18:18,055 --> 00:18:20,599
- Hi, JT.
- Say 'ello.

274
00:18:22,017 --> 00:18:23,143
Hi.

275
00:18:27,690 --> 00:18:29,858
Yeah. He gets a bit nervous.

276
00:18:30,859 --> 00:18:35,072
And also, by the way,
he don't like to be touched, all right?

277
00:18:35,197 --> 00:18:38,867
So I give you full permission.
Poke around, find your shot,

278
00:18:38,993 --> 00:18:40,661
but, like, in this room.

279
00:18:40,786 --> 00:18:44,248
Hey, JT. I'm so glad
that we could make this work.

280
00:18:44,373 --> 00:18:47,251
- Right.
- I bought this from you online.

281
00:18:47,376 --> 00:18:48,460
Oh!

282
00:18:48,585 --> 00:18:50,879
And I know how much you like chocolate.

283
00:18:51,005 --> 00:18:54,675
What? Nothin' for the handler?
I like it too.

284
00:18:55,968 --> 00:18:57,636
- Great room.
- Great.

285
00:18:57,761 --> 00:18:59,305
My sister's got great taste.

286
00:18:59,430 --> 00:19:03,350
So, JT, why you don't tell me
where you two guys live?

287
00:19:06,061 --> 00:19:07,563
Well, I live in...

288
00:19:08,188 --> 00:19:10,065
- Tenderloin.
- Yeah. Over there.

289
00:19:10,190 --> 00:19:11,650
Oh, cool.

290
00:19:11,942 --> 00:19:13,569
- There we go.
- You know,

291
00:19:13,694 --> 00:19:16,655
if you can get
that Twist and Scream poster in,

292
00:19:16,780 --> 00:19:20,659
that's me sister's band and JT loves it.
You'd like that, right?

293
00:19:21,201 --> 00:19:24,204
I think we need
to loosen up a little bit.

294
00:19:24,330 --> 00:19:25,581
- Oh, loosen up?
- Yeah, we do.

295
00:19:25,706 --> 00:19:30,586
Shake up them muscles, little lovey.
You like that?

296
00:19:30,711 --> 00:19:33,255
Great. Great. I got an idea.

297
00:19:33,380 --> 00:19:34,548
Why don't you, um...

298
00:19:37,009 --> 00:19:38,635
just try standing on this?

299
00:19:42,139 --> 00:19:45,726
I'm not really a skater,
so it's kinda weird.

300
00:19:46,185 --> 00:19:47,561
OK, how about...

301
00:19:47,686 --> 00:19:49,313
You know what? Wait.

302
00:19:49,438 --> 00:19:50,439
Um...

303
00:19:51,231 --> 00:19:54,777
I've got... JT loves makeup.

304
00:19:55,027 --> 00:19:57,404
What about lipstick? Right?

305
00:19:57,529 --> 00:20:00,699
You wanna put some lipstick on, love?
In the mirror?

306
00:20:00,824 --> 00:20:03,577
- It could be good, right?
- Let's try it. We can get right...

307
00:20:04,161 --> 00:20:06,413
This is nice.

308
00:20:06,538 --> 00:20:07,915
Do you like it?

309
00:20:08,040 --> 00:20:10,918
- Good. Really nice. Slowly.
- Nice!

310
00:20:11,043 --> 00:20:14,046
- Apply it slowly to your face.
- I'm worried that that skateboard...

311
00:20:14,171 --> 00:20:15,214
Lean into the mirror.

312
00:20:15,339 --> 00:20:18,175
- Speedie, you're in the shot.
- Oh. Sorry.

313
00:20:18,300 --> 00:20:20,219
Come out. Come on out. Good.

314
00:20:20,344 --> 00:20:23,055
Beautiful, JT. Beautiful.

315
00:20:23,180 --> 00:20:25,057
- Beautiful.
- Shit.

316
00:20:25,182 --> 00:20:27,059
- Beautiful.
- It's all right.

317
00:20:27,184 --> 00:20:29,269
- I'm just gonna take a leak.
- OK.

318
00:20:31,897 --> 00:20:37,569
- Yeah, I think he's done.
- Ooh, I just... I only shot one roll.

319
00:20:37,694 --> 00:20:40,447
No, no, you don't know how fortunate
you are to get the shot at all.

320
00:20:40,572 --> 00:20:41,657
I understand that.

321
00:20:41,782 --> 00:20:43,782
You're the first person
who's ever taken his photo.

322
00:20:43,867 --> 00:20:44,868
Thank you.

323
00:20:44,993 --> 00:20:46,553
He's been in the house
for three months.

324
00:20:46,620 --> 00:20:48,747
But my editor's gonna want
more than one shot.

325
00:20:48,872 --> 00:20:51,375
- I know, but he's delicate.
- Hey, JT.

326
00:20:53,419 --> 00:20:55,421
What do you say
we do a couple more, huh?

327
00:20:56,296 --> 00:20:57,381
Um...

328
00:20:59,133 --> 00:21:00,926
JT, you...

329
00:21:01,885 --> 00:21:05,055
Yeah, nah, I think we're done, Bruce.

330
00:21:05,597 --> 00:21:07,224
Thank you for understanding.

331
00:21:07,349 --> 00:21:11,437
But I bet you got a great shot, right?

332
00:21:11,562 --> 00:21:13,730
- Thank you, JT, for your time.
- Yeah, thanks.

333
00:21:13,856 --> 00:21:16,042
- It was a real pleasure.
- You did great.

334
00:21:16,066 --> 00:21:20,070
- Speedie?
- All right, thank you, Bruce.

335
00:21:20,195 --> 00:21:23,866
- Thank you.
- I'm sure it will be great.

336
00:21:23,991 --> 00:21:26,827
- And we'll see the shots soon.
- OK. Great.

337
00:21:26,952 --> 00:21:28,620
All right then.

338
00:21:37,671 --> 00:21:39,798
- You were fuckin' great!
- Disaster vibes.

339
00:21:39,923 --> 00:21:42,176
- You were great!
- Oh, my God! I'm so sorry.

340
00:21:42,301 --> 00:21:43,343
Sorry?

341
00:21:43,469 --> 00:21:45,721
- What are you talking about?
- I can't do that accent.

342
00:21:45,846 --> 00:21:48,599
He could so see that I was a girl.
I could see him looking at me.

343
00:21:48,724 --> 00:21:52,311
Not at all. He never suspected anything.
It was the opposite.

344
00:21:52,436 --> 00:21:54,688
He wanted you to go home with him.

345
00:21:54,813 --> 00:21:59,318
Fuck, you were great.
And playing Speedie was so cool, right?

346
00:21:59,443 --> 00:22:01,653
Like, not giving a fuck
what anybody thinks of you,

347
00:22:01,778 --> 00:22:04,698
you just say whatever the fuck's
on your mind! I love 'er!

348
00:22:04,823 --> 00:22:07,701
What about when you answered every
question for me? It was so obvious.

349
00:22:07,826 --> 00:22:09,828
No, that's so JT. He's nervous.

350
00:22:09,953 --> 00:22:12,456
He can't speak for himself.
That was perfect.

351
00:22:13,749 --> 00:22:15,584
Oh, Sav, trust me.

352
00:22:15,709 --> 00:22:18,003
I learned about this
from my phone sex days.

353
00:22:18,128 --> 00:22:20,839
You establish yourself
as someone else, right?

354
00:22:20,964 --> 00:22:25,010
You can do that. Then drop the accent
and nobody even notices.

355
00:22:25,886 --> 00:22:30,432
And he's elusive. That's the mystery
and people love mystery.

356
00:22:30,557 --> 00:22:33,143
I almost puked when I walked in.

357
00:22:33,268 --> 00:22:36,438
Oh, that's so JT.
That was what was so perfect.

358
00:22:36,563 --> 00:22:39,942
He looked nauseous
and nervous and awkward.

359
00:22:40,067 --> 00:22:43,946
Oh, my God, on Friday night,
we've got the reading

360
00:22:44,071 --> 00:22:46,323
and there are all these fabulous people
that will show up

361
00:22:46,448 --> 00:22:48,492
and read for him
'cause he's never there.

362
00:22:48,617 --> 00:22:51,745
What if you just showed up
and just, like, hyperventilate?

363
00:22:51,870 --> 00:22:53,789
- No way.
- Run out like you're gonna throw up?

364
00:22:53,914 --> 00:22:56,041
- No way.
- Yes way!

365
00:22:56,166 --> 00:22:58,627
I can't. It was sickening.

366
00:22:58,752 --> 00:23:02,130
That's that feeling.
That's what's so beautiful.

367
00:23:02,256 --> 00:23:05,801
It's that feeling we all get, like,
right before we do something important.

368
00:23:15,185 --> 00:23:18,397
You know what? Don't worry about it.

369
00:23:18,522 --> 00:23:19,940
I can get somebody else next time.

370
00:23:20,482 --> 00:23:23,235
I gotta go 'cause Geoff and I
have band practice.

371
00:23:24,611 --> 00:23:26,321
Shit. I'm late.

372
00:23:26,446 --> 00:23:28,865
I'm just gonna go like this.
OK, Sav. Here.

373
00:23:28,991 --> 00:23:30,200
Oh, thanks. I...

374
00:23:30,325 --> 00:23:34,079
As promised, love.
Thank you, ta very much.

375
00:23:34,997 --> 00:23:37,457
- Oh, my God, that was so fun.
- See ya.

376
00:23:45,924 --> 00:23:49,553
Thank you.
JT actually isn't feeling well,

377
00:23:49,678 --> 00:23:53,473
so I'm sorry to say
he won't be joining us after all.

378
00:23:57,728 --> 00:23:59,563
Told you. This is some sort of hoax.

379
00:23:59,688 --> 00:24:01,148
Right?

380
00:25:17,516 --> 00:25:18,558
Hello?

381
00:25:18,684 --> 00:25:21,603
<i>Sav. Can you come over tonight?
I have big news.</i>

382
00:25:22,312 --> 00:25:24,106
My God! Get in here.

383
00:25:24,231 --> 00:25:26,942
You're not gonna believe
what I'm gonna tell you. Are you ready?

384
00:25:27,067 --> 00:25:30,904
A Hollywood producer
wants to make Sarah into a movie.

385
00:25:31,029 --> 00:25:34,157
- What? No way. Are you serious?
- Can you imagine?

386
00:25:34,700 --> 00:25:37,285
Sarah on the big screen?

387
00:25:38,453 --> 00:25:40,247
Yeah, yeah. That'd be epic.

388
00:25:40,372 --> 00:25:43,250
JT can do his thing
and say, you know,

389
00:25:43,375 --> 00:25:47,546
hey, I'm an agoraphobe who just wants
his autonomy respected, but...

390
00:25:48,630 --> 00:25:51,550
I don't think so.
I think this is too big an opportunity.

391
00:25:55,429 --> 00:25:57,639
You... us... tonight?

392
00:25:57,764 --> 00:26:02,060
No, no, silly. This weekend. In LA.

393
00:26:02,644 --> 00:26:04,271
We'd stay at her house.

394
00:26:04,396 --> 00:26:06,690
There's a party, a reading,
a photo shoot.

395
00:26:06,815 --> 00:26:09,151
Come on, it'll be fun.

396
00:26:09,276 --> 00:26:11,611
No, just 'cause I...
I'm working this weekend.

397
00:26:11,737 --> 00:26:13,405
That's... That's the only thing.

398
00:26:15,157 --> 00:26:16,575
Sweet girl.

399
00:26:17,909 --> 00:26:19,828
I know the photo shoot was intense.

400
00:26:20,287 --> 00:26:22,414
Right? It was a lot.

401
00:26:23,248 --> 00:26:26,960
But, Sav, there was a light in you.

402
00:26:28,336 --> 00:26:30,046
And I...

403
00:26:30,172 --> 00:26:35,635
I felt him leave my body
and enter yours.

404
00:26:40,557 --> 00:26:46,897
I mean, I was in high school when,
I don't know, he was turning tricks.

405
00:26:48,732 --> 00:26:51,943
Am I interesting enough to, like,
be him?

406
00:26:52,068 --> 00:26:53,278
What?

407
00:26:53,403 --> 00:26:56,990
You are interesting.
Are you kidding me? Sav.

408
00:26:58,116 --> 00:26:59,618
You're incredible.

409
00:26:59,743 --> 00:27:03,330
I don't hate myself, I just...
That's so different.

410
00:27:03,455 --> 00:27:05,457
I think you gotta think about this
differently.

411
00:27:06,082 --> 00:27:10,754
I mean, we're talking Warhol,
Ziggy Stardust, Grace Jones.

412
00:27:11,463 --> 00:27:14,143
What if you wake up one morning
and say, "I wanna be somebody else?"

413
00:27:14,216 --> 00:27:17,177
That's what they did.
They didn't wait for permission.

414
00:27:17,302 --> 00:27:20,305
Well, yeah, I... I know that feeling.

415
00:27:22,182 --> 00:27:24,518
I knew I wanted to be an artist,
right?

416
00:27:25,769 --> 00:27:28,522
'Cause I was like, I wanna have a life.

417
00:27:28,647 --> 00:27:32,567
I don't wanna live in a fuckin' cubicle
nine to fucking five.

418
00:27:33,318 --> 00:27:34,778
That's not who I am.

419
00:27:35,529 --> 00:27:38,281
Fine! Fine! Spend my life,
"Hello, hi. Wanna fuck?"

420
00:27:38,406 --> 00:27:40,450
Doing phone sex for the rest of my life?

421
00:27:40,575 --> 00:27:42,494
No. I'm a writer.

422
00:27:43,328 --> 00:27:46,915
I spent my twenties and thirties
waiting for somebody to discover me,

423
00:27:47,040 --> 00:27:50,043
somebody to give me permission?

424
00:27:50,710 --> 00:27:52,462
Nobody gives you anything.

425
00:27:52,587 --> 00:27:53,839
You have to take it.

426
00:27:55,382 --> 00:27:56,925
Are you gonna take it?

427
00:27:59,594 --> 00:28:02,597
You've got all these selves
inside of you. Explore them.

428
00:28:02,722 --> 00:28:05,851
This is your time.
Find out who the fuck you are.

429
00:28:16,528 --> 00:28:18,280
- Oh, shit.
- Are we out of chips?

430
00:28:18,405 --> 00:28:19,781
We ate three bags of chips?

431
00:28:20,615 --> 00:28:22,409
I'm gonna be sweating potato chips.

432
00:28:22,534 --> 00:28:26,413
Don't worry. No food tomorrow,
but we need the sweet with the salty.

433
00:28:26,538 --> 00:28:28,748
- I don't.
- Secret stash.

434
00:28:30,083 --> 00:28:31,376
- Chocolate.
- I'm OK.

435
00:28:32,252 --> 00:28:33,295
- Yeah?
- Uh-uh.

436
00:28:36,256 --> 00:28:39,718
- Tell me about this boy.
- Sean? What about him?

437
00:28:39,843 --> 00:28:42,929
Well, you date men?

438
00:28:44,389 --> 00:28:48,560
Sometimes.
If they're as cute as he is, I do.

439
00:28:48,685 --> 00:28:51,021
But I'm open. I like girls, obviously.

440
00:28:52,022 --> 00:28:54,691
I can't go to any more dyke nights.
It makes me so uncomfortable.

441
00:28:54,816 --> 00:28:57,569
It's so embarrassing.
The music's so awful.

442
00:28:57,694 --> 00:29:00,739
Did Geoff ever tell you I pretended
to be a dyke when we first met?

443
00:29:00,864 --> 00:29:03,033
No. Why?

444
00:29:03,158 --> 00:29:06,620
Because...
he was just so good-looking.

445
00:29:07,412 --> 00:29:10,081
You know, I wanted to know
if he liked me for me.

446
00:29:10,707 --> 00:29:11,958
Ah.

447
00:29:12,626 --> 00:29:15,503
Test the waters
and not be the fat girl swooning.

448
00:29:16,254 --> 00:29:17,380
Hey.

449
00:29:17,505 --> 00:29:22,052
I was a hundred pounds fatter
than I am now.

450
00:29:22,886 --> 00:29:25,305
Oh. I didn't realize that.

451
00:29:25,972 --> 00:29:28,391
Good thing
I'm not terrified of the knife.

452
00:29:30,727 --> 00:29:32,646
But I've been with women before.

453
00:29:33,355 --> 00:29:35,023
Especially in the group home.

454
00:29:36,066 --> 00:29:37,317
How was that?

455
00:29:38,777 --> 00:29:40,278
Sex was amazing.

456
00:29:40,403 --> 00:29:42,614
No, I mean the group home.

457
00:29:43,323 --> 00:29:44,991
Oh.

458
00:29:45,116 --> 00:29:46,159
Rough.

459
00:29:47,744 --> 00:29:50,163
But it gave me the tough skin I live in.

460
00:29:52,999 --> 00:29:57,087
You know I used to sneak out at night
and call suicide hotlines for help,

461
00:29:57,212 --> 00:30:01,049
and I could never... be me.

462
00:30:02,884 --> 00:30:05,720
I'd create characters, usually boys.

463
00:30:07,597 --> 00:30:10,183
Some of them didn't make it, but JT...

464
00:30:12,519 --> 00:30:14,312
JT kept calling.

465
00:30:16,147 --> 00:30:19,526
And it felt so good
to not have to be in this body.

466
00:30:20,402 --> 00:30:23,530
You know?
To be as far away from it as possible.

467
00:30:26,199 --> 00:30:27,325
I get that.

468
00:30:58,940 --> 00:30:59,941
JT!

469
00:31:00,066 --> 00:31:01,443
Oh, my God!

470
00:31:02,235 --> 00:31:03,361
JT!

471
00:31:04,738 --> 00:31:07,365
Oh, my God,
it's so good to finally meet you.

472
00:31:08,366 --> 00:31:11,995
- This is amazing!
- Right?

473
00:31:12,120 --> 00:31:15,373
JT, keep writing them books.
Maybe you'll get a house like this.

474
00:31:15,498 --> 00:31:17,792
Oh, no, JT,
the real money's in screenwriting.

475
00:31:17,917 --> 00:31:21,046
You should write me a part. A cool part.
I could play a lot lizard.

476
00:31:21,171 --> 00:31:25,383
- Oh. You already got an actor.
- The guest bedroom's this way.

477
00:31:25,967 --> 00:31:29,095
I don't think
we've been in a guest room.

478
00:31:29,888 --> 00:31:30,930
It's amazing.

479
00:31:31,056 --> 00:31:34,225
- Oh, my God, what a house.
- Thank you.

480
00:31:34,851 --> 00:31:38,980
Oh, and JT brought you
a little prezzie.

481
00:31:39,105 --> 00:31:40,148
Ah.

482
00:31:40,273 --> 00:31:42,525
Not really from Neiman Marcus.

483
00:31:42,650 --> 00:31:45,904
I stole that bag out of
my neighbor's recycling, but...

484
00:31:48,948 --> 00:31:52,285
Oh, little mini onions. How cute.

485
00:31:53,453 --> 00:31:54,621
And...

486
00:31:54,746 --> 00:31:56,915
baked beans.

487
00:31:58,500 --> 00:32:02,045
- Oh, God. I've needed one of these.
- Those are great, right?

488
00:32:05,548 --> 00:32:09,052
I love that
you're quite good at that.

489
00:32:09,177 --> 00:32:11,471
That's all I'm gonna say.

490
00:32:15,016 --> 00:32:16,059
Oh!

491
00:32:16,184 --> 00:32:20,980
And JT wrote all the lyrics
to our band's songs, Twist and Scream.

492
00:32:21,856 --> 00:32:23,441
Thought you'd love it.

493
00:32:23,566 --> 00:32:25,026
Oh, that's so cool.

494
00:32:25,735 --> 00:32:27,946
JT, did you get that book I sent you?

495
00:32:30,532 --> 00:32:31,699
Yeah, we loved it.

496
00:32:32,075 --> 00:32:33,868
Yeah, yeah. It's real good.

497
00:32:35,870 --> 00:32:37,872
JT, what are you wearing?

498
00:32:40,416 --> 00:32:42,335
What... What is going on?

499
00:32:42,460 --> 00:32:44,712
What's happening to all the money?

500
00:32:45,880 --> 00:32:48,216
There's not much money though yet.

501
00:32:50,176 --> 00:32:52,470
Why do you keep answering for him?

502
00:32:55,473 --> 00:32:58,434
He's a deaf mute.

503
00:32:59,769 --> 00:33:03,565
That's the way it feels
because he hates talking about money,

504
00:33:03,690 --> 00:33:05,233
hates business talk.

505
00:33:05,358 --> 00:33:08,695
You know, it's like art, art, art.
Keep it pure.

506
00:33:08,820 --> 00:33:12,031
I mean, we're two orphans, fuck,
who found each other.

507
00:33:12,157 --> 00:33:15,201
I don't know these things either,
so you're right. That's great advice.

508
00:33:15,326 --> 00:33:19,497
We need a guide, you know.
I'll get someone.

509
00:33:20,915 --> 00:33:23,084
OK, all right, Oliver Twist.

510
00:33:26,880 --> 00:33:27,922
Come on.

511
00:33:30,008 --> 00:33:31,092
Hi, David.

512
00:33:31,217 --> 00:33:35,054
Oh, my God. JT, listen to this.
Trying to emulate the icons.

513
00:33:35,180 --> 00:33:38,183
If I have to talk
to all of JT's friends as JT...

514
00:33:38,308 --> 00:33:40,602
We work off each other. You're perfect.

515
00:33:40,727 --> 00:33:42,270
<i>Totally trust yourself.</i>

516
00:33:44,981 --> 00:33:46,149
JT, are you OK?

517
00:33:46,274 --> 00:33:50,111
JT's a genius and Sav's a genius.
Don't you ever forget that.

518
00:33:51,487 --> 00:33:53,323
The bacon-wrapped dates are amazing.

519
00:33:53,448 --> 00:33:54,866
Oh, we don't eat pork.

520
00:33:55,742 --> 00:33:57,342
Well, I was just being polite, but yeah.

521
00:33:57,452 --> 00:33:59,704
If you don't understand a reference,
just go with it.

522
00:33:59,829 --> 00:34:01,414
Do what I do. Hang a lantern on it.

523
00:34:01,539 --> 00:34:02,957
What is... what is that?

524
00:34:03,082 --> 00:34:05,682
You're so funny with the sunglasses, JT.
D'you ever take them off?

525
00:34:05,710 --> 00:34:08,004
It means if it's obvious,
make it more obvious.

526
00:34:08,129 --> 00:34:11,007
Let 'em see these beauties.

527
00:34:11,132 --> 00:34:12,508
Your eyes are so beautiful.

528
00:34:12,634 --> 00:34:14,552
<i>It's like those Chinese finger puzzles.</i>

529
00:34:14,677 --> 00:34:16,763
You go in further to get out.

530
00:34:16,888 --> 00:34:20,099
Baby, we're at play
in the fields of the Lord.

531
00:34:24,103 --> 00:34:27,941
Look, there's Eva Avelin.
She's dying to do <i>Sarah.</i>

532
00:34:28,066 --> 00:34:29,609
To direct and star in it.

533
00:34:32,528 --> 00:34:36,032
JT? Hi. John Bradwell.

534
00:34:36,157 --> 00:34:38,451
- We loved the piece you did on JT.
- Oh.

535
00:34:38,576 --> 00:34:41,537
- Thoughtful, investigative.
- Wow.

536
00:34:41,663 --> 00:34:44,874
- Really a great piece.
- Thank you. Thank you.

537
00:34:45,875 --> 00:34:49,003
Um, I'm still living in San Francisco,

538
00:34:49,128 --> 00:34:52,257
so if you wanted to meet up
and continue that conversation...

539
00:34:52,382 --> 00:34:53,508
Yeah, definitely.

540
00:34:53,633 --> 00:34:56,010
- I'm just gonna grab...
- Right.

541
00:34:56,886 --> 00:34:57,929
OK.

542
00:35:03,726 --> 00:35:04,978
JT.

543
00:35:05,728 --> 00:35:07,897
Oh, Eva. Hey.

544
00:35:10,066 --> 00:35:11,401
<i>Enfant.</i>

545
00:35:14,279 --> 00:35:16,239
You are here at last.

546
00:35:16,781 --> 00:35:19,993
Um, I'm here, pretty sure.

547
00:35:20,660 --> 00:35:22,954
How's the snail story coming along?

548
00:35:23,579 --> 00:35:25,498
- Good.
- Excuse me one second.

549
00:35:26,124 --> 00:35:28,376
Does the snail still have
a <i>visage brute?</i>

550
00:35:29,002 --> 00:35:32,630
- Um...
- <i>Visage brute?</i> Sorry, I'm Speedie.

551
00:35:33,256 --> 00:35:34,966
JT was just tellin' me about that.

552
00:35:35,091 --> 00:35:38,136
"Ugly face" or somethin'. I love it!

553
00:35:38,803 --> 00:35:40,972
- Just give us a minute?
- Like a title...

554
00:35:41,097 --> 00:35:42,515
Oh, sure.

555
00:35:42,640 --> 00:35:44,183
Are you staying here?

556
00:35:44,559 --> 00:35:47,770
Um, hm-hmm. I'm just in that room there.

557
00:35:47,895 --> 00:35:51,316
OK, cool. I'm just kinda worried
about you staying at some hotel,

558
00:35:51,441 --> 00:35:53,151
running off and getting into trouble.

559
00:35:54,694 --> 00:35:57,196
I don't really get
in that kind of trouble anymore.

560
00:35:57,322 --> 00:35:58,323
Hm-hmm.

561
00:35:58,448 --> 00:36:00,742
You have trouble written all over you.

562
00:36:01,826 --> 00:36:04,662
Oh, my God. You are so fucking cute.

563
00:36:04,787 --> 00:36:07,081
Why are you so shy?
Soak up the attention.

564
00:36:07,206 --> 00:36:10,585
- Everybody's here for you.
- Yeah, it's crazy.

565
00:36:11,294 --> 00:36:12,879
Eva!

566
00:36:16,424 --> 00:36:17,425
All right.

567
00:36:17,550 --> 00:36:19,802
- Find me at the bar?
- OK.

568
00:36:19,927 --> 00:36:21,012
OK.

569
00:36:23,097 --> 00:36:26,434
Oh, hey, Eva, is... are you gonna be
at the reading tomorrow?

570
00:36:27,101 --> 00:36:30,229
Baby, what are you talking about?
I'm one of the readers.

571
00:36:30,813 --> 00:36:32,273
Oh, yeah.

572
00:36:32,648 --> 00:36:34,817
Well, I was... I was thinkin'...

573
00:36:36,694 --> 00:36:37,820
Fuck.

574
00:36:48,081 --> 00:36:49,207
Perfect.

575
00:36:49,749 --> 00:36:51,501
Nice. Just shake it out.

576
00:36:52,001 --> 00:36:53,544
There we go.

577
00:36:53,669 --> 00:36:54,921
Look at that.

578
00:36:55,671 --> 00:36:57,048
Up a little bit.

579
00:37:31,499 --> 00:37:32,500
JT!

580
00:37:33,376 --> 00:37:36,671
So sorry to bother you. I, um...

581
00:37:37,255 --> 00:37:40,216
I just wanted to tell you
how much your work means to me.

582
00:37:40,675 --> 00:37:43,553
I was on the streets for a while too.

583
00:37:43,678 --> 00:37:47,682
When I read your book,
I was like, someone gets me.

584
00:37:49,225 --> 00:37:51,394
Your voice means a lot.

585
00:37:52,979 --> 00:37:54,105
Thank you.

586
00:37:56,649 --> 00:37:58,693
Do you see that? Huh?

587
00:37:59,986 --> 00:38:02,738
Your work, you're helping people.
It's beautiful.

588
00:38:13,458 --> 00:38:14,500
Thank you.

589
00:38:17,587 --> 00:38:18,629
It looks nice.

590
00:38:19,755 --> 00:38:21,340
Come to Paris. OK?

591
00:38:23,551 --> 00:38:24,719
JT?

592
00:38:25,595 --> 00:38:26,804
JT!

593
00:38:30,725 --> 00:38:31,976
<i>Au revoir.</i>

594
00:38:45,531 --> 00:38:48,451
<i>I feel alive
for the first time in my life.</i>

595
00:38:51,496 --> 00:38:53,289
<i>Sav, you're never gonna believe this.</i>

596
00:38:53,956 --> 00:38:58,211
<i>JT's French publishers are flying us
to Paris for a press conference.</i>

597
00:38:58,336 --> 00:38:59,754
Holy fucking shit.

598
00:39:00,755 --> 00:39:03,633
Get the fuck out of here.
I can't believe this is happening.

599
00:39:04,175 --> 00:39:06,886
<i>And Eva's throwing the after party.</i>

600
00:39:07,887 --> 00:39:10,848
OK, I kinda gotta go. I'll talk to you.
I'll call you tomorrow.

601
00:39:10,973 --> 00:39:12,350
<i>OK, bye.</i>

602
00:39:18,773 --> 00:39:21,025
- You're making us headbands?
- Yeah.

603
00:39:21,150 --> 00:39:22,902
- Cute.
- Thanks.

604
00:39:29,283 --> 00:39:33,079
So I have to go to Paris
in, like, two weeks.

605
00:39:34,038 --> 00:39:35,998
- Shit.
- Yeah.

606
00:39:36,123 --> 00:39:38,751
Wow. That's... What... What for?

607
00:39:39,460 --> 00:39:41,379
Um, Laura has some work there,

608
00:39:41,504 --> 00:39:44,549
so I'm gonna go assist her.
She needs some help.

609
00:39:45,174 --> 00:39:47,176
- That's so cool.
- Yeah.

610
00:39:47,301 --> 00:39:48,461
- Have you ever been?
- Uh-uh.

611
00:39:48,553 --> 00:39:49,679
- No?
- Uh-uh.

612
00:39:49,804 --> 00:39:51,639
- Have you?
- I wish.

613
00:39:52,557 --> 00:39:54,225
Well, where's my invite?

614
00:39:56,561 --> 00:39:58,229
You wanna fit in my backpack?

615
00:39:58,354 --> 00:40:00,314
- You can come.
- Oh.

616
00:40:01,148 --> 00:40:03,234
I can fit in very small places.

617
00:40:09,740 --> 00:40:10,866
I'll miss you.

618
00:40:13,536 --> 00:40:14,870
Yeah, I'll miss you too.

619
00:40:15,663 --> 00:40:16,789
<i>Eva...</i>

620
00:40:17,665 --> 00:40:20,001
<i>You haven't taken it off? Really?</i>

621
00:40:20,126 --> 00:40:23,212
I love that. You know I can't stop.

622
00:40:23,337 --> 00:40:25,715
You got my bone around your neck.

623
00:40:25,840 --> 00:40:27,800
But you started it.

624
00:40:28,759 --> 00:40:31,137
I can't wait to see you again too.

625
00:40:31,929 --> 00:40:33,973
OK. All right. Call me right back.

626
00:40:38,436 --> 00:40:41,314
They sent enough money
for first-class tickets.

627
00:40:42,481 --> 00:40:44,233
I mean, we'll go coach
and pocket the rest,

628
00:40:44,358 --> 00:40:48,529
but I tried to get another ticket
for Astor and they just won't budge,

629
00:40:48,654 --> 00:40:52,283
so I figured we'll just buy one if...

630
00:40:52,408 --> 00:40:54,619
Yeah, why would I wanna go to Europe?

631
00:40:54,744 --> 00:40:57,079
We have a recording session next week.

632
00:40:57,204 --> 00:41:00,166
We have a recording session next week.

633
00:41:00,291 --> 00:41:01,667
I know, babe.

634
00:41:01,792 --> 00:41:06,589
I figured we'd move it and it'd give you
a little more time to work on the music,

635
00:41:06,714 --> 00:41:11,052
refine things. I mean, we're gonna be
just jamming through that press.

636
00:41:11,177 --> 00:41:14,889
It'll be a nightmare and I know you hate
that whole world anyways, so...

637
00:41:15,014 --> 00:41:17,850
Yeah, I don't exactly wanna be
the caboose on the JT train,

638
00:41:17,975 --> 00:41:21,562
but, Laura, we're in a band, you know?

639
00:41:22,188 --> 00:41:24,774
Like, that's our pack.
It's a band, it's a bond.

640
00:41:24,899 --> 00:41:30,071
Hey. What do we always say?
By any means...

641
00:41:30,196 --> 00:41:34,492
Necessary. Yeah, for the band.
You know, for the music.

642
00:41:34,617 --> 00:41:37,578
- It <i>is</i> for the music.
- How is this for the music?

643
00:41:37,703 --> 00:41:40,748
Babe! JT's gonna plug the shit
out of this band.

644
00:41:40,873 --> 00:41:42,500
Are you kidding?

645
00:41:42,625 --> 00:41:44,960
It's massive worldwide press.

646
00:41:45,086 --> 00:41:49,382
And I'm, like, this close
to getting us a review in Spin.

647
00:41:50,758 --> 00:41:51,801
I mean,

648
00:41:51,926 --> 00:41:54,261
Madonna sent us Kabbalah books.

649
00:41:54,887 --> 00:41:58,057
Madonna is in our world!

650
00:41:58,474 --> 00:42:00,810
Yeah, that's great, Laura.
No, really great.

651
00:42:01,477 --> 00:42:03,562
What world are you in?

652
00:42:03,979 --> 00:42:05,272
Eva...

653
00:42:05,648 --> 00:42:06,941
Yeah.

654
00:42:07,858 --> 00:42:10,778
Yeah, I've gotta have creative control.

655
00:42:11,612 --> 00:42:13,030
It's my life.

656
00:42:14,824 --> 00:42:16,826
I'm the only one who knows the truth.

657
00:42:16,951 --> 00:42:20,413
Look, I get it. You wanna go to Europe,
you know? It's cool.

658
00:42:24,083 --> 00:42:25,418
Of course.

659
00:42:25,793 --> 00:42:28,462
I mean, the only thing is,

660
00:42:28,587 --> 00:42:30,868
you don't think what we're doing
is totally fucked, right?

661
00:42:34,301 --> 00:42:35,928
No, no. I mean...

662
00:42:36,846 --> 00:42:38,139
No, right?

663
00:42:39,765 --> 00:42:41,767
I mean I guess technically it's lying.

664
00:42:41,892 --> 00:42:45,187
Like, on paper,
we're... lying to people,

665
00:42:45,312 --> 00:42:47,440
but I feel like...

666
00:42:49,275 --> 00:42:51,235
It feels like I'm making something.

667
00:42:51,360 --> 00:42:56,782
It feels like a performance,
and I'm so compelled to do it, I...

668
00:42:58,242 --> 00:43:00,703
I love that feeling,
I've wanted that feeling forever,

669
00:43:00,828 --> 00:43:03,548
and I never knew really what was gonna,
like, give me that, you know?

670
00:43:03,581 --> 00:43:06,021
You have it. You play guitar,
you've played since you were 12.

671
00:43:06,125 --> 00:43:08,502
I see your face when you do it, like...

672
00:43:08,627 --> 00:43:10,796
It's that feeling.

673
00:43:13,340 --> 00:43:19,638
I guess I'm really good at pretending
to be a feral 19-year-old street kid.

674
00:43:19,764 --> 00:43:21,557
That's not weird, right?

675
00:43:23,184 --> 00:43:24,185
No.

676
00:43:25,936 --> 00:43:27,021
Oh, man.

677
00:44:05,768 --> 00:44:06,769
Welcome.

678
00:44:08,229 --> 00:44:10,481
How was your flight? All right?

679
00:44:11,148 --> 00:44:12,775
JT's hungry.

680
00:44:13,067 --> 00:44:15,611
<i>Vraiment?</i> You did not indulge
in the first-class fare?

681
00:44:15,736 --> 00:44:19,198
Bugger slept the whole flight.
Maybe some eggs.

682
00:44:19,990 --> 00:44:21,510
We don't have much time.

683
00:44:21,617 --> 00:44:23,744
He loves eggs, so if we can grab...

684
00:44:24,411 --> 00:44:27,373
First time in Paris? <i>Voil?.</i>

685
00:44:28,499 --> 00:44:31,377
Fucking take my... Fuckin' French.

686
00:44:42,012 --> 00:44:45,266
Quite mature trees, aren't they?

687
00:44:47,059 --> 00:44:49,603
You never see that in America.

688
00:44:50,604 --> 00:44:51,939
It's gorgeous.

689
00:44:52,606 --> 00:44:56,318
Europe, I love it. You know?
It's fantastic.

690
00:44:57,027 --> 00:44:58,028
I'm gonna barf.

691
00:44:58,153 --> 00:45:01,782
I can't believe they wouldn't
stop for eggs. I can't live off snacks.

692
00:45:01,907 --> 00:45:04,910
You need to be my advocate
and speak up or we'll never eat.

693
00:45:05,035 --> 00:45:06,036
Sorry.

694
00:45:06,161 --> 00:45:09,498
You'll have to take the jacket off too.
We gotta see the whole band name.

695
00:45:09,623 --> 00:45:11,542
- You can see it.
- No, it's promotion.

696
00:45:11,667 --> 00:45:13,168
- It's good for Geoff.
- JT?

697
00:45:14,044 --> 00:45:15,421
Ah.

698
00:45:16,964 --> 00:45:18,465
Hello!

699
00:45:19,633 --> 00:45:20,885
Hi.

700
00:45:21,010 --> 00:45:22,553
- Hey, Speedie.
- Hey, Eva.

701
00:45:22,678 --> 00:45:26,223
- You look gorgeous as usual.
- How are you?

702
00:45:26,348 --> 00:45:28,642
- What's up? You nervous?
- Yeah, of course.

703
00:45:28,767 --> 00:45:32,354
Don't be. You look great.
I love your jacket. Hey!

704
00:45:32,479 --> 00:45:35,566
You're gonna be fuckin' great.
I'm so proud of you, baby.

705
00:45:36,734 --> 00:45:38,527
I have something for you.

706
00:45:45,534 --> 00:45:48,329
All right. Should we...? You know what?

707
00:45:48,454 --> 00:45:52,666
I think it's best I come with you
so that we can check the venue and...

708
00:45:57,296 --> 00:45:59,173
So you gave me your talisman.

709
00:46:02,426 --> 00:46:03,928
I'm gonna give you mine.

710
00:46:06,889 --> 00:46:08,641
It belonged to my grandfather.

711
00:46:12,853 --> 00:46:16,106
Oh... Oh, it's incredible.

712
00:46:16,231 --> 00:46:19,693
- I shouldn't accept that. You know...
- Yes, you should.

713
00:46:32,998 --> 00:46:36,418
We have to go.

714
00:46:45,719 --> 00:46:47,471
JT LeRoy.

715
00:46:52,768 --> 00:46:54,561
JT!

716
00:47:09,576 --> 00:47:10,869
Hi.

717
00:47:15,249 --> 00:47:18,377
Oui?

718
00:47:25,342 --> 00:47:28,554
Your mother put you through
some awful situations.

719
00:47:28,679 --> 00:47:31,306
How does she feel
about your exposé of her behavior?

720
00:47:32,433 --> 00:47:33,475
Um...

721
00:47:35,227 --> 00:47:36,520
She's not...

722
00:47:37,813 --> 00:47:39,565
with us anymore,

723
00:47:40,524 --> 00:47:43,652
so I don't really know.

724
00:47:43,777 --> 00:47:45,320
We cannot hear you, JT!

725
00:47:46,321 --> 00:47:47,781
You can't hear me? Um...

726
00:47:47,906 --> 00:47:50,576
I...

727
00:47:52,119 --> 00:47:54,079
I was just sayin' that, um...

728
00:47:55,706 --> 00:48:00,711
my... my mom isn't here anymore, and...

729
00:48:01,628 --> 00:48:05,591
Also the books are fiction, so, yeah.

730
00:48:11,764 --> 00:48:13,307
JT?

731
00:48:15,225 --> 00:48:17,895
You wrote on your website
that writing is your lifesaver.

732
00:48:18,020 --> 00:48:21,065
It's painful but I need it.

733
00:48:21,190 --> 00:48:25,069
- What do your friends think?
- The truth in fiction...

734
00:48:25,194 --> 00:48:28,322
JT, why do you
tend to avoid public events?

735
00:48:28,447 --> 00:48:30,532
Protection, I think, and...

736
00:48:32,117 --> 00:48:36,121
Speak to your choice of wearing
a quote unquote "disguise."

737
00:48:36,246 --> 00:48:39,583
Anonymity's kinda like
losing your virginity.

738
00:48:39,708 --> 00:48:42,252
They are based on your real experiences,
right, JT?

739
00:48:42,377 --> 00:48:47,299
Fiction's sort of a lie,
but can be more true than the truth.

740
00:48:48,759 --> 00:48:53,263
JT, you sound like a woman to me,
but you insist you are a man.

741
00:48:59,186 --> 00:49:00,437
Uh...

742
00:49:01,772 --> 00:49:04,650
You know,
it's not really my responsibility

743
00:49:04,775 --> 00:49:12,032
to help lead you through your own
discomfort on how I make you feel.

744
00:49:14,243 --> 00:49:18,247
- I can be whomever I wanna be.
- Fuck, yeah!

745
00:49:20,457 --> 00:49:23,585
And as for sounding like a woman, um,

746
00:49:23,710 --> 00:49:25,879
well, I'd say thank you.

747
00:49:27,840 --> 00:49:28,924
But, JT,

748
00:49:29,049 --> 00:49:31,552
are you really who you say you are?

749
00:49:31,677 --> 00:49:34,429
Are you really who you say you are?

750
00:49:37,432 --> 00:49:38,475
I...

751
00:49:39,268 --> 00:49:41,186
I can't really tell. Are you a man?

752
00:49:42,312 --> 00:49:45,399
Prove your masculinity right now.
Pull your cock out.

753
00:49:57,077 --> 00:49:59,663
All right, it's done.

754
00:49:59,788 --> 00:50:01,790
It's done.

755
00:50:02,916 --> 00:50:04,459
It's done.

756
00:50:09,882 --> 00:50:11,175
<i>Merci.</i>

757
00:50:12,551 --> 00:50:15,304
- You know what I mean? That's the key.
- Hold on a second.

758
00:50:15,429 --> 00:50:17,890
In America it's different.

759
00:50:19,266 --> 00:50:20,809
In America...

760
00:50:20,934 --> 00:50:22,769
You handled that so well, baby.

761
00:50:24,646 --> 00:50:26,190
Super cool...

762
00:50:33,655 --> 00:50:37,659
JT? This young man
would love for you to sign his book.

763
00:50:39,494 --> 00:50:40,537
<i>Bonjour, JT.</i>

764
00:50:40,996 --> 00:50:42,998
Eva... Eva.

765
00:50:45,834 --> 00:50:46,835
Eva.

766
00:50:49,421 --> 00:50:52,966
I need to take JT back to the hotel now.
We need a proper meal.

767
00:50:53,091 --> 00:50:55,260
- Nonsense.
- Nah, he's drinking too much.

768
00:50:55,385 --> 00:50:57,638
And I can't stand all this smoke.

769
00:50:58,555 --> 00:51:00,766
Speedie, come on.

770
00:51:00,891 --> 00:51:03,393
Stop interfering with his life
all the time.

771
00:51:05,229 --> 00:51:08,148
She's interfering with my life,
actually.

772
00:51:09,066 --> 00:51:10,525
Excuse me.

773
00:51:12,611 --> 00:51:13,862
JT.

774
00:51:13,987 --> 00:51:17,658
- Let's go back to the hotel.
- I'm not ready to go yet.

775
00:51:18,325 --> 00:51:22,162
Well, this place is
filled with toxicity. Let's go.

776
00:51:23,580 --> 00:51:25,958
At play in the fields of the Lord,
remember?

777
00:51:27,918 --> 00:51:29,169
My words.

778
00:51:30,045 --> 00:51:31,713
See you later, Speedie.

779
00:51:49,815 --> 00:51:50,816
Ennio!

780
00:51:52,609 --> 00:51:54,111
This look is everything!

781
00:52:06,540 --> 00:52:09,334
Oh, man! It's our favorite song.

782
00:52:09,876 --> 00:52:11,295
Oh, right.

783
00:52:12,838 --> 00:52:13,964
Sorry.

784
00:52:18,093 --> 00:52:19,386
What's up, JT?

785
00:52:20,429 --> 00:52:21,930
Where are you?

786
00:52:23,890 --> 00:52:24,975
I'm...

787
00:52:27,686 --> 00:52:31,023
I'm totally right here. I'm just...

788
00:52:32,524 --> 00:52:34,443
I'm just tired, you know?

789
00:52:50,167 --> 00:52:51,293
Hi.

790
00:52:54,004 --> 00:52:55,130
Hi.

791
00:52:58,467 --> 00:53:01,094
You have a very different vibe
than on the phone.

792
00:53:04,056 --> 00:53:05,390
Yeah, I'm...

793
00:53:06,975 --> 00:53:08,393
so jetlagged.

794
00:53:14,691 --> 00:53:17,069
What's the deal
with you and Speedie? Huh?

795
00:53:18,779 --> 00:53:21,990
I mean, you barely give each other
room to breathe.

796
00:53:23,617 --> 00:53:25,243
She's so obnoxious.

797
00:53:27,704 --> 00:53:30,248
I know she's your friend.
I'm sorry, but...

798
00:53:31,875 --> 00:53:35,295
No, it seems weird from the outside.

799
00:53:35,420 --> 00:53:36,546
Um...

800
00:53:39,216 --> 00:53:41,468
But I wouldn't even exist without her.

801
00:53:44,054 --> 00:53:45,055
What?

802
00:53:52,187 --> 00:53:54,147
I don't really wanna go there, but...

803
00:53:56,483 --> 00:53:59,403
where are we
with the option for the film?

804
00:54:01,988 --> 00:54:03,365
Um...

805
00:54:04,699 --> 00:54:07,911
I just, you know,
I'd be so fuckin' honored to direct it,

806
00:54:08,036 --> 00:54:10,580
and play your mother.

807
00:54:13,250 --> 00:54:17,170
You know, she's such a character
obsessed with her own downfall.

808
00:54:17,295 --> 00:54:20,382
I've always just related
to that kind of woman, you know?

809
00:54:21,800 --> 00:54:24,469
And I really think it's important
to show how...

810
00:54:24,594 --> 00:54:27,139
how you absorbed her pain, you know?

811
00:54:27,264 --> 00:54:29,307
I wanna do it justice.

812
00:54:36,773 --> 00:54:39,818
I'd probably need, like,
full control of the script.

813
00:54:41,403 --> 00:54:43,780
You know, 'cause it's my life, but...

814
00:54:50,787 --> 00:54:51,830
Deal.

815
00:55:02,591 --> 00:55:04,092
You're so beautiful.

816
00:55:40,545 --> 00:55:42,214
Oh, shit!

817
00:55:48,803 --> 00:55:49,804
Oh, baby.

818
00:56:10,033 --> 00:56:12,536
Oh.

819
00:56:13,411 --> 00:56:16,164
It's the famous JT!

820
00:56:17,541 --> 00:56:19,709
So, JT LeRoy, tell me.

821
00:56:21,044 --> 00:56:26,216
How do you have time to write
your amazing best-selling books, huh?

822
00:56:26,591 --> 00:56:29,970
Because it seems like
you just stay out all night partying.

823
00:56:30,095 --> 00:56:33,598
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I know.

824
00:56:34,891 --> 00:56:36,560
What were you doing?

825
00:56:38,103 --> 00:56:39,604
I thought it was earlier.

826
00:56:39,729 --> 00:56:43,775
You can't go out so long without me,
and you're drinking.

827
00:56:43,900 --> 00:56:47,487
Who knows what you said.
The whole thing could have fallen apart.

828
00:56:48,280 --> 00:56:52,492
I secured full creative control
over the script, so... there's that.

829
00:56:53,952 --> 00:56:56,538
- What?
- Yeah.

830
00:57:00,834 --> 00:57:02,836
Well, I didn't ask you to do that.

831
00:57:04,588 --> 00:57:05,755
But, I...

832
00:57:07,007 --> 00:57:08,675
I mean that's good news.

833
00:57:11,678 --> 00:57:13,972
What did she say?
I mean, how did that go?

834
00:57:14,097 --> 00:57:16,537
I need to know everything.
I gotta get on the phone right away

835
00:57:16,641 --> 00:57:19,311
and make sure
she said what she meant and...

836
00:57:19,436 --> 00:57:21,646
I'd love to know
what you talk about on the phone.

837
00:57:22,188 --> 00:57:24,065
If I knew
what you talked about on the phone,

838
00:57:24,190 --> 00:57:27,193
maybe I wouldn't sound like
a stammering idiot around her.

839
00:57:27,319 --> 00:57:30,447
I need more to talk about
than stuff I read in interviews.

840
00:57:30,572 --> 00:57:31,865
I want her to feel...

841
00:57:34,534 --> 00:57:35,994
like...

842
00:57:37,537 --> 00:57:39,205
Oh, my God.

843
00:57:40,874 --> 00:57:42,459
Did you fuck her?

844
00:57:43,960 --> 00:57:45,086
I...

845
00:57:45,211 --> 00:57:49,382
It's a Chinese finger puzzle, right?
You go further in to get out?

846
00:57:50,258 --> 00:57:53,553
Fuck! Savy. Goddamn it!

847
00:57:53,678 --> 00:57:55,263
It's not as bad as you think, honestly.

848
00:57:55,388 --> 00:57:57,766
- It's not even like that.
- Are you fucking kidding me?

849
00:57:58,224 --> 00:58:02,604
Baby girl, she doesn't want you.

850
00:58:03,229 --> 00:58:07,734
OK? She wants the person
she talked to on the phone.

851
00:58:08,151 --> 00:58:10,153
She wants JT.

852
00:58:10,362 --> 00:58:13,239
In fact, she doesn't even want that.

853
00:58:13,365 --> 00:58:15,700
She wants the fucking rights
to the movie!

854
00:58:21,206 --> 00:58:23,208
Oh, I'm being mean.

855
00:58:25,377 --> 00:58:28,046
I just hate myself. I binged all night.

856
00:58:29,130 --> 00:58:31,132
I was worried.

857
00:58:31,966 --> 00:58:36,721
I need you here to keep me on track.
I just... Oh, God.

858
00:58:37,389 --> 00:58:38,515
Damn it!

859
00:58:40,308 --> 00:58:42,435
Don't you think this is ridiculous?

860
00:58:43,645 --> 00:58:45,480
You should write as you.

861
00:58:46,481 --> 00:58:49,484
Savy, come on.

862
00:58:49,609 --> 00:58:53,530
You're out of it.
Nobody listens to me as me.

863
00:58:54,447 --> 00:58:56,282
They listen to you as JT.

864
00:58:57,784 --> 00:59:01,121
But JT doesn't exist, you know?
He's not real.

865
00:59:01,246 --> 00:59:06,501
I mean, he's super real for some people,
you know? Like... personal.

866
00:59:08,002 --> 00:59:10,755
- I see it.
- Is it real for them?

867
00:59:15,009 --> 00:59:16,511
I got left.

868
00:59:18,471 --> 00:59:23,852
I got tricked...
and put in a mental home for grown-ups.

869
00:59:28,398 --> 00:59:29,607
Abused...

870
00:59:31,526 --> 00:59:35,447
Used up by men, my mom...

871
00:59:36,364 --> 00:59:39,117
I was that kid.

872
00:59:39,242 --> 00:59:41,077
And it is real.

873
00:59:42,495 --> 00:59:44,080
I didn't say it wasn't.

874
00:59:45,415 --> 00:59:47,500
That's not what I'm saying.

875
00:59:47,625 --> 00:59:49,210
You're so mean.

876
00:59:49,335 --> 00:59:53,173
You are so manipulative.
You don't have to do that with me.

877
00:59:53,298 --> 00:59:55,508
I'm the last person
you have to do that with.

878
00:59:55,633 --> 01:00:00,388
We're in Paris because of me,

879
01:00:02,182 --> 01:00:03,850
because of my writing,

880
01:00:05,018 --> 01:00:06,936
because of my genius.

881
01:00:08,605 --> 01:00:11,316
I'm glad you know how
to put an outfit together,

882
01:00:12,901 --> 01:00:16,237
but all you do is show up.

883
01:00:16,362 --> 01:00:19,032
I don't inhabit him,
he doesn't inhabit me,

884
01:00:19,157 --> 01:00:20,837
he doesn't leap out of your body
into mine?

885
01:00:20,867 --> 01:00:23,828
We're not making something together.
All this bullshit that you say to me

886
01:00:23,953 --> 01:00:25,705
to get me to do this crazy shit?

887
01:00:26,706 --> 01:00:29,542
No, no, if all I do is show up,
honestly,

888
01:00:29,667 --> 01:00:32,587
why don't I fucking go ahead
and stop showing up?

889
01:00:41,095 --> 01:00:43,181
Stop being a drama queen.

890
01:00:49,395 --> 01:00:53,942
<i>I feel lost in
a limitless hall of desire and longing.</i>

891
01:00:54,943 --> 01:00:56,736
<i>What was I thinkin'?</i>

892
01:01:12,043 --> 01:01:15,380
Hey. I have to tell you something.

893
01:01:23,847 --> 01:01:25,598
- What?
- Yeah.

894
01:01:28,101 --> 01:01:30,436
- Sav...
- Yeah.

895
01:01:31,312 --> 01:01:32,981
I've seen pictures of JT.

896
01:01:33,106 --> 01:01:35,400
- I bet.
- Yeah, and I read Sarah.

897
01:01:35,525 --> 01:01:37,235
- I know.
- And never connected the dots.

898
01:01:37,360 --> 01:01:38,570
I noticed that.

899
01:01:39,821 --> 01:01:41,364
Wow. Um...

900
01:01:41,489 --> 01:01:43,491
OK, so wait.

901
01:01:43,616 --> 01:01:45,451
When you...
when you talk to people in person,

902
01:01:45,577 --> 01:01:47,912
they don't notice that
it's not Laura's voice?

903
01:01:50,331 --> 01:01:52,959
And they all think that you're a boy?

904
01:01:54,210 --> 01:01:57,130
It's like <i>The Emperor's New Clothes</i>
kinda deal, you know?

905
01:01:57,255 --> 01:02:00,258
Every time someone questions it,
Laura just throws it right back on them

906
01:02:00,383 --> 01:02:02,719
and is like, "What do you mean,
the emperor has no clothes?

907
01:02:02,844 --> 01:02:04,679
That's his very best outfit."

908
01:02:05,597 --> 01:02:06,890
I mean...

909
01:02:07,807 --> 01:02:11,644
I wanted to tell you, I just think
I really valued the secret of it

910
01:02:11,769 --> 01:02:14,772
and... wanted to protect her.

911
01:02:14,898 --> 01:02:19,485
I would just fucking die
if I, like, ruined that for her, and...

912
01:02:22,030 --> 01:02:23,448
Yeah.

913
01:02:23,740 --> 01:02:26,993
This is literally the craziest thing
I've ever heard.

914
01:02:27,118 --> 01:02:30,914
I'm really not sure if I should,
like, ask more questions or...

915
01:02:31,039 --> 01:02:32,874
- I don't know, run away.
- Run out of here.

916
01:02:32,999 --> 01:02:34,250
Yeah.

917
01:02:35,168 --> 01:02:36,961
Am I... terrible?

918
01:02:40,423 --> 01:02:41,925
- I mean...
- Also it's over.

919
01:02:42,050 --> 01:02:43,676
I'm not gonna do it anymore,

920
01:02:43,801 --> 01:02:46,638
which is why it was, like, a lot easier
to tell you this, to be honest.

921
01:02:47,722 --> 01:02:49,933
- You're not gonna do it anymore?
- No.

922
01:02:52,352 --> 01:02:54,812
<i>??If I could be</i>

923
01:02:54,938 --> 01:02:56,856
<i>??What you wanted</i>

924
01:02:57,941 --> 01:02:59,734
<i>??If you wanted...</i>

925
01:03:02,570 --> 01:03:04,238
Come and be my one?

926
01:03:04,364 --> 01:03:08,326
<i>??If I could be what you wanted...</i>

927
01:03:08,451 --> 01:03:11,091
<i>No, it's not that
I don't want to. I've just been...</i>

928
01:03:11,120 --> 01:03:14,958
I feel like if I leave the house,
I'm gonna fall into old habits.

929
01:03:16,834 --> 01:03:18,670
No, I know.

930
01:03:19,671 --> 01:03:23,925
Dennis, I know you know,
but I feel stuck...

931
01:03:24,050 --> 01:03:26,469
No, I really wanna go, Jason.

932
01:03:27,303 --> 01:03:30,139
I do. I just...

933
01:03:30,515 --> 01:03:35,728
For my health,
I need to focus on me right now.

934
01:03:35,853 --> 01:03:39,732
I know it's probably not something
I should relive, but...

935
01:03:40,274 --> 01:03:44,570
I mean... But they're making a movie
on my life.

936
01:03:46,239 --> 01:03:49,450
<i>Well, they keep asking for me
to come down to the set and...</i>

937
01:03:50,702 --> 01:03:51,703
<i>Yeah.</i>

938
01:03:53,371 --> 01:03:55,873
<i>No, but how do I say no to that?</i>

939
01:03:57,041 --> 01:04:02,046
<i>Yeah, Eva and I have been having
phone sex lately and...</i>

940
01:04:04,632 --> 01:04:07,719
<i>I know it's not healthy, but...</i>

941
01:04:08,803 --> 01:04:11,139
<i>the heart wants
what the heart wants, right?</i>

942
01:04:28,740 --> 01:04:30,700
Hey.

943
01:04:30,825 --> 01:04:31,951
Hey.

944
01:04:34,620 --> 01:04:36,539
- How you doin'?
- Is that Sav?

945
01:04:36,664 --> 01:04:38,458
I'm OK. Yeah, it's Sav.

946
01:04:39,167 --> 01:04:42,628
Oh, my God.
Get her in here, it's like Christmas.

947
01:04:42,754 --> 01:04:45,506
Look at all this stuff
that JT gets for free.

948
01:04:45,631 --> 01:04:48,176
Thank God you're here, you guys.
Start taking stuff.

949
01:04:48,301 --> 01:04:50,678
Here, Astor bow ties.

950
01:04:50,803 --> 01:04:53,514
- Look at those!
- What? No.

951
01:04:53,639 --> 01:04:56,726
Did you tell her about Astor
doing the music for the movie?

952
01:04:59,187 --> 01:05:02,774
Yeah, well, Laura's been speaking to Eva
about maybe, right,

953
01:05:02,899 --> 01:05:06,319
you know, doing the score
for the whole movie, so...

954
01:05:06,444 --> 01:05:09,197
Definitely. I'm talking to her.
We're gonna push this through.

955
01:05:10,948 --> 01:05:12,325
How's she doin'?

956
01:05:12,450 --> 01:05:15,244
She's good. She's really good.

957
01:05:15,369 --> 01:05:18,873
I mean, she's I think overwhelmed.

958
01:05:18,998 --> 01:05:20,875
You know, it's a lot, making a movie.

959
01:05:21,751 --> 01:05:26,005
She said she wants JT to design
an outfit for her to wear in the movie.

960
01:05:26,130 --> 01:05:29,467
Oh, my God, this is beautiful.

961
01:05:29,592 --> 01:05:30,843
You gotta try this.

962
01:05:33,054 --> 01:05:37,558
Look at that on. Oh, please.
Anzevino's been sending all this stuff.

963
01:05:37,683 --> 01:05:40,144
- Like this and all this fabric.
- It's really nice.

964
01:05:40,269 --> 01:05:42,396
He wants to support
JT the designer.

965
01:05:42,522 --> 01:05:44,232
Do you think I could talk to her?

966
01:05:45,024 --> 01:05:46,692
Uh...

967
01:05:47,777 --> 01:05:49,987
I just got an email. You wanna see it?

968
01:05:50,530 --> 01:05:51,989
I just got one from her.

969
01:05:55,785 --> 01:05:56,911
I just, I think

970
01:05:57,036 --> 01:05:58,788
talking to her would be hard

971
01:05:58,913 --> 01:06:03,334
'cause we're talking so much
and it might get a little mucky, but...

972
01:06:03,918 --> 01:06:05,044
Subject line.

973
01:06:05,169 --> 01:06:07,255
"Please, please, please
come to Tennessee.

974
01:06:09,632 --> 01:06:12,635
Baby boy, I miss your soft lips.

975
01:06:13,469 --> 01:06:15,555
I dream of your skin."

976
01:06:16,180 --> 01:06:17,557
I love this.

977
01:06:17,682 --> 01:06:21,185
"I wanna pull on your hair
like a horse's mane."

978
01:06:21,936 --> 01:06:25,106
She is so into your pheromones.
I love that.

979
01:06:25,231 --> 01:06:27,733
I mean you're talking to her as me,
you know? Like...

980
01:06:30,403 --> 01:06:31,487
Yeah.

981
01:06:32,572 --> 01:06:33,865
I mean...

982
01:06:34,991 --> 01:06:36,993
I'm talking to her as JT.

983
01:06:43,040 --> 01:06:46,210
We had, like, a thing.
Like, a real thing.

984
01:06:46,335 --> 01:06:48,379
It wasn't bullshit, it wasn't...

985
01:06:48,880 --> 01:06:50,840
I... I know that.

986
01:06:51,549 --> 01:06:52,925
Sav...

987
01:06:54,218 --> 01:06:56,804
you're as much a part of JT as me.

988
01:06:59,056 --> 01:07:00,975
That's the truth.

989
01:07:01,601 --> 01:07:06,689
Not some adolescent talking to you
in Paris saying dumb shit

990
01:07:08,107 --> 01:07:12,111
because she was jealous
and felt left out and lonely.

991
01:07:12,653 --> 01:07:16,616
I'm so sorry. It's embarrassing.

992
01:07:18,701 --> 01:07:24,123
And the Eva thing
actually turned out to be great.

993
01:07:24,957 --> 01:07:27,418
Why shouldn't you wanna be intimate
with her? My God.

994
01:07:27,543 --> 01:07:29,754
You guys have this connection, so...

995
01:07:31,422 --> 01:07:32,798
This is crazy.

996
01:07:34,884 --> 01:07:36,510
And this whole Tennessee thing.

997
01:07:36,636 --> 01:07:41,766
I don't know what to do. I mean,
it would be... great for Astor to go

998
01:07:41,891 --> 01:07:43,559
because of the music, and I...

999
01:07:44,727 --> 01:07:49,899
You know, she really wants us to be
on set and see the experience, but...

1000
01:07:50,775 --> 01:07:54,528
I don't know if you wanna be JT again.

1001
01:07:55,238 --> 01:07:57,865
That's... That's for you to decide.

1002
01:08:21,639 --> 01:08:22,890
It's the wardrobe.

1003
01:08:30,773 --> 01:08:32,191
Makeup.

1004
01:09:17,111 --> 01:09:18,863
Well, well, well!

1005
01:09:18,988 --> 01:09:21,115
Hi, there, baby boy!

1006
01:09:23,993 --> 01:09:26,912
Ain't this a pretty little thing
that JT made for me?

1007
01:09:28,164 --> 01:09:32,043
- Everything looks real good.
- Oh, thank you, honeypie.

1008
01:09:35,546 --> 01:09:37,465
Hey, there, Momma.

1009
01:09:40,634 --> 01:09:42,094
Hey, Speedie.

1010
01:09:42,511 --> 01:09:45,056
Oi. There's your music man.

1011
01:09:45,931 --> 01:09:48,684
- Hey.
- Oh, hey. Astor.

1012
01:09:48,809 --> 01:09:52,563
Oh, my God, I'm so glad you're here.
It's been a fucking nightmare.

1013
01:09:52,688 --> 01:09:54,607
It's just been me
and these fucking idiots.

1014
01:09:54,732 --> 01:09:56,525
Honestly, I have to fight
for everything.

1015
01:10:00,237 --> 01:10:03,366
You know what, Speedie? I kind of
understand what you're going through

1016
01:10:03,491 --> 01:10:05,117
with this little rascal over here.

1017
01:10:05,242 --> 01:10:09,955
You know, keeping him clothed and fed
and out of mischief.

1018
01:10:10,081 --> 01:10:12,666
I mean, it's exactly what I'm going
through on this fucking set.

1019
01:10:12,792 --> 01:10:15,378
You have no idea. All these men.
It's like herding cats.

1020
01:10:15,961 --> 01:10:19,965
They all need attention, they all need
to express their opinions to me.

1021
01:10:20,091 --> 01:10:22,385
Honestly, would they treat a male
director like this?

1022
01:10:22,510 --> 01:10:23,844
I don't think so.

1023
01:10:25,137 --> 01:10:27,306
You know, I'm JT's mother,
I'm the movie's mother,

1024
01:10:27,431 --> 01:10:29,725
I'm the fucking world's mother.
It's exhausting.

1025
01:10:32,061 --> 01:10:33,729
But you're doing OK though, right?

1026
01:10:36,107 --> 01:10:38,818
Baby, I'm so happy you're here.

1027
01:10:38,943 --> 01:10:41,862
You know, you ground me.
Calm me down.

1028
01:10:45,241 --> 01:10:46,992
I gotta finish this scene.

1029
01:10:47,118 --> 01:10:50,663
Gotta be perfect, right?
Gotta be better than the guys.

1030
01:10:51,247 --> 01:10:53,082
- Eva, we need you on set!
- John!

1031
01:10:53,207 --> 01:10:57,753
I told you this is not the right place.
Where are we gonna put this? What?

1032
01:10:58,796 --> 01:11:00,464
She looks fuckin' wrecked.

1033
01:11:02,216 --> 01:11:03,634
Fuck.

1034
01:11:09,974 --> 01:11:12,268
I can't describe what I'm feeling.

1035
01:11:12,601 --> 01:11:17,565
It's like this... déj? vu feeling.

1036
01:11:20,943 --> 01:11:22,987
But I feel like I'm home.

1037
01:11:32,955 --> 01:11:34,540
JT...

1038
01:11:40,171 --> 01:11:42,673
And Eva, that was so spooky.

1039
01:11:46,427 --> 01:11:48,053
Looking at Sarah...

1040
01:11:49,513 --> 01:11:52,641
You know, like, all these things
she's picking up on.

1041
01:11:53,309 --> 01:11:56,395
I've never, ever told anybody about it.

1042
01:11:57,188 --> 01:12:01,942
All about Sarah, my best friend
in the group home.

1043
01:12:02,985 --> 01:12:05,446
It's like looking right at her.

1044
01:12:08,991 --> 01:12:10,576
Art is...

1045
01:12:12,661 --> 01:12:15,122
eerie shit, man.

1046
01:12:25,382 --> 01:12:26,967
This is so crazy.

1047
01:12:31,889 --> 01:12:33,516
I have to tell Eva the truth.

1048
01:12:35,643 --> 01:12:37,019
Are you sure?

1049
01:12:39,396 --> 01:12:40,731
- Baby.
- Hey.

1050
01:12:41,190 --> 01:12:43,317
Hey, I'm so glad you came.

1051
01:12:44,902 --> 01:12:46,779
Can you believe it's all happening?

1052
01:12:46,904 --> 01:12:48,489
- It's crazy.
- Right?

1053
01:12:50,366 --> 01:12:52,826
Are you doing OK?
A little bit better from earlier?

1054
01:12:52,952 --> 01:12:56,497
Yeah. I'm sorry about that.
I just, I had the worst fucking day.

1055
01:12:56,622 --> 01:12:58,457
- But it's all gonna be fucking amazing.
- JT.

1056
01:12:58,582 --> 01:13:01,022
It's gonna be great.
Sit down, I'm gonna get you a drink.

1057
01:13:01,126 --> 01:13:03,337
Nice to fucking meet you in person.

1058
01:13:04,296 --> 01:13:05,965
- Hey.
- Hey.

1059
01:13:06,966 --> 01:13:09,927
I am so excited
to be in your fucking movie.

1060
01:13:11,095 --> 01:13:13,264
He knows that already, silly.

1061
01:13:13,389 --> 01:13:16,600
I've never acted in anything,
and it's so cool.

1062
01:13:17,601 --> 01:13:18,936
You're doing a really good job.

1063
01:13:20,729 --> 01:13:22,690
So, is it, like, weird for you?

1064
01:13:24,108 --> 01:13:25,317
What?

1065
01:13:25,442 --> 01:13:28,737
Like seeing your whole life
recreated and shit?

1066
01:13:30,906 --> 01:13:34,201
Uh... Yeah, it's weird.

1067
01:13:39,164 --> 01:13:41,667
I've been working on that song
we were talkin' about.

1068
01:13:42,251 --> 01:13:44,336
Hmm, play it.

1069
01:13:50,050 --> 01:13:52,386
<i>??I told you to tell me</i>

1070
01:13:52,761 --> 01:13:55,055
<i>??To sign on the dotted line</i>

1071
01:13:55,514 --> 01:13:59,727
<i>??Any time I gotta sell my soul</i>

1072
01:14:00,519 --> 01:14:01,895
<i>??For the...</i>

1073
01:14:04,398 --> 01:14:06,859
Did we settle on first or second?
I can't remember.

1074
01:14:13,115 --> 01:14:14,742
- First.
- Yeah.

1075
01:14:15,075 --> 01:14:18,203
You gotta get that recorded, baby,
so it's ready for the soundtrack.

1076
01:14:18,329 --> 01:14:19,872
I... I'm gonna.

1077
01:14:21,081 --> 01:14:26,587
It's really cool that Astor's got
some stuff for the soundtrack too.

1078
01:14:26,712 --> 01:14:30,841
Oh, my God, JT.
I really can't talk about this again.

1079
01:14:38,932 --> 01:14:40,351
I'm sorry, babe.

1080
01:14:43,103 --> 01:14:44,855
I am thinkin' about it.

1081
01:14:45,481 --> 01:14:46,815
OK.

1082
01:14:48,025 --> 01:14:51,570
Remember, babe, that scene tomorrow
that I was talking about earlier?

1083
01:14:51,695 --> 01:14:53,781
When you see Jeremiah
in the basement?

1084
01:14:54,782 --> 01:14:57,785
I was gonna shoot it with the dolly
when I told you about it earlier,

1085
01:14:57,910 --> 01:15:01,163
but I feel like... I feel like I need
to shoot it handheld, behind you.

1086
01:15:01,288 --> 01:15:02,414
You mind if I take a shower?

1087
01:15:02,539 --> 01:15:04,619
- I've been running around all day.
- Yeah, go, babe.

1088
01:15:04,708 --> 01:15:06,308
- I feel really dirty.
- It's over there.

1089
01:15:06,335 --> 01:15:07,544
I think it'd be much cooler...

1090
01:15:42,705 --> 01:15:44,123
Hey.

1091
01:15:45,332 --> 01:15:47,626
- You're not helping.
- I'm helping you!

1092
01:15:47,751 --> 01:15:52,256
Stop! Stop it! I'm tired, let's go.
Oh, my God.

1093
01:15:53,465 --> 01:15:54,466
All right.

1094
01:15:54,591 --> 01:15:57,594
Hey.
It's so late, babe. Just crash here.

1095
01:15:57,720 --> 01:16:01,807
This is actually super comfy.
Manson stayed on it last week.

1096
01:16:01,932 --> 01:16:03,058
We're gonna go to bed.

1097
01:16:03,183 --> 01:16:05,269
- I'm so fucking tired.
- Night, JT.

1098
01:16:06,061 --> 01:16:07,396
- Goodnight.
- Night.

1099
01:16:07,521 --> 01:16:08,522
Hey.

1100
01:16:56,653 --> 01:16:59,406
<i>She's not really quitting, right?</i>

1101
01:16:59,531 --> 01:17:00,908
I mean,

1102
01:17:01,992 --> 01:17:04,203
she'll come around, huh?

1103
01:17:05,162 --> 01:17:08,123
- We're a team.
- No, baby. No.

1104
01:17:08,248 --> 01:17:14,004
Look, I'm sorry, I gotta set a boundary
here, OK? Either you stop or I'm out.

1105
01:17:14,129 --> 01:17:15,422
Hey.

1106
01:17:16,381 --> 01:17:18,509
You know what that means for me.

1107
01:17:30,437 --> 01:17:32,022
OK, it's done.

1108
01:17:34,358 --> 01:17:35,484
OK.

1109
01:17:36,235 --> 01:17:37,569
OK.

1110
01:18:51,768 --> 01:18:53,520
- Hm-hmm?
- Hm-hmm.

1111
01:18:53,645 --> 01:18:55,188
All right, I gotta jet.

1112
01:18:55,981 --> 01:18:57,608
I'll be back soon, OK?

1113
01:19:04,197 --> 01:19:06,325
<i>Don't worry,
I'll get back to writin'.</i>

1114
01:19:07,326 --> 01:19:09,620
No. Trust me, you.

1115
01:19:09,745 --> 01:19:11,997
I can't really answer that, Dot.

1116
01:19:12,497 --> 01:19:17,794
They say I don't exist, so I'm not even
talkin' to you right now, right?

1117
01:19:18,503 --> 01:19:20,088
<i>When shit gets this bleak,</i>

1118
01:19:21,298 --> 01:19:24,885
you have no idea where I could go,
what I could do to myself.

1119
01:19:27,012 --> 01:19:28,597
You have no idea.

1120
01:19:33,518 --> 01:19:34,853
JT?

1121
01:19:35,896 --> 01:19:36,980
I...

1122
01:19:38,357 --> 01:19:42,611
I think you've got the wrong person.
But I'll send your server over.

1123
01:19:43,445 --> 01:19:45,113
OK.

1124
01:19:46,114 --> 01:19:48,700
<i>Jason, no. I don't...</i>

1125
01:19:50,744 --> 01:19:51,912
What?

1126
01:19:52,788 --> 01:19:55,749
Really? That's crazy.

1127
01:19:57,501 --> 01:20:00,963
No, I ain't workin' at no restaurant.

1128
01:20:01,088 --> 01:20:03,048
Life's the same old thing.

1129
01:20:03,173 --> 01:20:07,052
People just tryin' to cut me down,
say I don't exist,

1130
01:20:07,177 --> 01:20:11,974
and I'm out there,
say I'm workin' in a restaurant

1131
01:20:12,099 --> 01:20:13,892
when I'm here talkin' to you.

1132
01:20:18,772 --> 01:20:22,901
Eva, why would you for one second
listen to some dumb rumor?

1133
01:20:23,026 --> 01:20:25,487
Rumors have been circling me for years.

1134
01:20:25,612 --> 01:20:30,158
I mean, come on, you know
my spirit, my soul, my art.

1135
01:20:30,283 --> 01:20:33,704
We're creative partners.
You gotta trust me on this.

1136
01:20:33,829 --> 01:20:35,038
How can I prove...?

1137
01:20:35,956 --> 01:20:37,958
The premiere?

1138
01:20:38,083 --> 01:20:42,587
Of course I wanna come,
but you know how hard travel is on me.

1139
01:20:43,755 --> 01:20:45,465
Yeah, OK.

1140
01:20:45,590 --> 01:20:49,177
I get it. I get... I'll go.

1141
01:20:50,012 --> 01:20:51,763
I'll be there.

1142
01:21:10,657 --> 01:21:12,325
Everything OK?

1143
01:21:12,451 --> 01:21:13,577
Yeah.

1144
01:21:19,958 --> 01:21:21,209
Was that Laura?

1145
01:21:25,756 --> 01:21:26,965
I can tell.

1146
01:21:29,426 --> 01:21:34,514
Eva's movie or JT's movie or whatever
got into the Cannes Film Festival.

1147
01:21:37,851 --> 01:21:39,936
And they want JT to go.

1148
01:21:41,855 --> 01:21:46,234
They're pretty desperate for him
to be there, like, to promote the movie.

1149
01:21:47,861 --> 01:21:50,489
And they'd pay me, like,
a thousand dollars a day.

1150
01:21:51,656 --> 01:21:54,242
People are skeptical too, you know?
Especially Eva.

1151
01:21:54,367 --> 01:21:57,537
If JT doesn't go, the whole thing
will be over for Laura, you know?

1152
01:21:58,455 --> 01:22:01,041
I know, but so what?

1153
01:22:02,667 --> 01:22:06,088
Every time you come back from being JT,
you're a mess.

1154
01:22:06,213 --> 01:22:08,673
I could use the money.
It's a lot of money.

1155
01:22:08,799 --> 01:22:10,884
And use a few more people
while you're at it?

1156
01:22:12,803 --> 01:22:18,225
That's a... really reductive,
simplified version of it.

1157
01:22:19,017 --> 01:22:20,811
We've talked about that.

1158
01:22:22,104 --> 01:22:25,607
OK. Let's get real for a second.

1159
01:22:29,152 --> 01:22:32,322
People respond to JT
because of who they think he is.

1160
01:22:33,365 --> 01:22:35,117
But what you guys are doing
is just, like...

1161
01:22:35,242 --> 01:22:39,121
People get just as much
as they... put into it.

1162
01:22:39,246 --> 01:22:42,958
It's like they use us, we use them.
Everyone uses each other.

1163
01:22:43,083 --> 01:22:45,293
- That's like how it is.
- Oh, my God.

1164
01:22:47,045 --> 01:22:48,964
You've already decided, haven't you?

1165
01:22:50,006 --> 01:22:51,550
It's one more time.

1166
01:22:52,342 --> 01:22:56,930
I mean, do you hear yourself right now?
Just one more time again? Like...

1167
01:22:57,055 --> 01:22:58,682
You sound like an addict.

1168
01:22:58,807 --> 01:23:03,145
Honestly, I'm... missing something.

1169
01:23:03,270 --> 01:23:05,397
Like I... I miss it.

1170
01:23:06,106 --> 01:23:08,233
Please. We both know this is about Eva.

1171
01:23:11,653 --> 01:23:13,113
You miss her.

1172
01:23:15,198 --> 01:23:17,117
Do you wanna see her?

1173
01:23:17,868 --> 01:23:19,661
But that's not happenin', Sav.

1174
01:23:20,495 --> 01:23:22,164
I mean, it's crazy.

1175
01:23:22,289 --> 01:23:25,250
She's into who she thinks JT is,
not you.

1176
01:23:29,713 --> 01:23:31,590
I fucked her in Paris.

1177
01:23:34,217 --> 01:23:37,053
- What?
- I should've told you. I...

1178
01:23:37,387 --> 01:23:38,889
I'm sorry.

1179
01:23:45,896 --> 01:23:47,939
I always knew you had a crush.

1180
01:23:49,482 --> 01:23:51,401
I mean, it was fuckin' obvious.

1181
01:23:53,111 --> 01:23:56,740
But of course I...
I didn't think it really meant anything.

1182
01:23:57,866 --> 01:23:59,743
I mean, you know me.

1183
01:23:59,868 --> 01:24:03,079
Had you told me earlier, I wouldn't
have freaked out, but to lie about it?

1184
01:24:06,541 --> 01:24:09,628
Just think about what you want and what
you're doing, and then we can talk.

1185
01:27:20,318 --> 01:27:23,113
- Oi!
- Hey, Eva. Hey.

1186
01:27:23,238 --> 01:27:25,865
They want the two of you
to introduce the film.

1187
01:27:25,990 --> 01:27:27,867
- No. No.
- Eva! Eva!

1188
01:27:28,868 --> 01:27:30,412
- No.
- What?

1189
01:27:31,121 --> 01:27:32,789
- Babyhead!
- Oh, my God.

1190
01:27:32,914 --> 01:27:36,042
What's...? Come here. What's wrong?

1191
01:27:38,086 --> 01:27:39,796
<i>I don't know what I was thinking.</i>

1192
01:27:40,672 --> 01:27:43,174
I really thought something
could have worked out between us.

1193
01:27:43,299 --> 01:27:45,135
I feel like a complete idiot.

1194
01:27:46,928 --> 01:27:50,181
Don't blame yourself. OK?

1195
01:27:50,306 --> 01:27:53,643
Oh, my God. What? For going there?

1196
01:27:53,768 --> 01:27:56,646
If we never let ourselves go there,
we'll never grow.

1197
01:27:57,730 --> 01:28:00,066
So you're stuck, right?

1198
01:28:00,191 --> 01:28:04,362
Some emotional vortex with her.
There's no way around that,

1199
01:28:04,487 --> 01:28:07,824
so you need to talk to her
about what happened in Tennessee.

1200
01:28:09,325 --> 01:28:12,078
You're at an impasse,
my beautiful friend.

1201
01:28:13,705 --> 01:28:16,499
- OK?
- Hmm.

1202
01:28:16,958 --> 01:28:19,627
It's like one of those sores
that scabs over

1203
01:28:19,752 --> 01:28:22,130
and all kinds of dirt are underneath.

1204
01:28:22,672 --> 01:28:25,425
You just gotta go back in
and take that dirt out.

1205
01:28:25,550 --> 01:28:26,593
Yeah.

1206
01:28:26,718 --> 01:28:29,596
Talk to her
and clean up this mess, right?

1207
01:28:29,721 --> 01:28:31,806
Yeah.

1208
01:28:31,931 --> 01:28:35,143
Hey. I love you.

1209
01:28:37,103 --> 01:28:38,855
Come on.

1210
01:28:43,443 --> 01:28:47,113
<i>You took a film about truck-stop
hookers to the Cannes Film Festival.</i>

1211
01:28:47,572 --> 01:28:49,866
People know you're only involved
if it's edgy,

1212
01:28:49,991 --> 01:28:51,826
if it's relevant, if it's real.

1213
01:28:51,951 --> 01:28:55,997
More importantly, JT is interested
in taking the problems

1214
01:28:56,122 --> 01:29:00,793
of the soul, the spirit,
and transforming them into craft.

1215
01:29:00,919 --> 01:29:04,464
Oh, my God!
He does it with his own designs.

1216
01:29:04,589 --> 01:29:05,715
You design?

1217
01:29:18,686 --> 01:29:21,564
I just wanted to say something...

1218
01:29:29,197 --> 01:29:33,910
Just that in... Tennessee,
I was feeling,

1219
01:29:35,078 --> 01:29:37,872
like, really hurt 'cause,

1220
01:29:37,997 --> 01:29:42,043
you know, that you were with... Ben.

1221
01:29:42,418 --> 01:29:45,588
Not that you shouldn't have been.
It's just...

1222
01:29:47,298 --> 01:29:49,425
I shouldn't have been there and...

1223
01:29:50,760 --> 01:29:53,137
it was awkward and shitty.

1224
01:29:54,347 --> 01:29:55,598
Really?

1225
01:29:56,182 --> 01:29:58,726
That's what you wanna talk about, JT?

1226
01:30:02,105 --> 01:30:03,982
What did you expect?

1227
01:30:04,107 --> 01:30:07,485
Like one drunk fuck and I was gonna
run off into the sunset with you,

1228
01:30:07,610 --> 01:30:11,114
and be in some
sweet little lesbian relationship?

1229
01:30:13,199 --> 01:30:15,118
I mean you wrote all those...

1230
01:30:18,162 --> 01:30:19,372
emails.

1231
01:30:23,960 --> 01:30:25,962
I guess you just wanted the film rights.

1232
01:30:30,341 --> 01:30:32,093
I've put my whole life
in this movie.

1233
01:30:34,971 --> 01:30:38,933
I made a movie
that is based on a true story, right?

1234
01:30:39,058 --> 01:30:40,852
I made this film for you.

1235
01:30:42,729 --> 01:30:44,689
I mean, you kinda made it
for yourself too though.

1236
01:30:44,814 --> 01:30:47,525
You know what? Don't tell me
who I made this movie for, all right?

1237
01:30:47,650 --> 01:30:50,695
And don't pretend like you don't know
what I'm trying to talk about.

1238
01:30:52,155 --> 01:30:55,450
Do you know how many times
I had to defend you?

1239
01:30:55,575 --> 01:30:59,412
Like, tell people,
"No, JT is actually real"?

1240
01:31:01,456 --> 01:31:04,626
If this whole thing
turns out to be bullshit...

1241
01:31:11,007 --> 01:31:14,552
I'm gonna be devastated, JT, OK?

1242
01:31:16,512 --> 01:31:18,222
You gotta tell me.

1243
01:31:19,098 --> 01:31:22,518
Please tell me that your story is real.

1244
01:31:23,603 --> 01:31:25,521
Tell me that you wrote these books

1245
01:31:27,607 --> 01:31:29,859
and that you are who you say you are.

1246
01:31:41,245 --> 01:31:42,747
Eva...

1247
01:31:50,672 --> 01:31:53,091
I mean, JT's whoever you want him to be.

1248
01:31:59,764 --> 01:32:01,474
Oh, my God.

1249
01:32:35,550 --> 01:32:38,219
<i>I feel like... we're salmon</i>

1250
01:32:38,344 --> 01:32:40,513
<i>returning to our ocean home.</i>

1251
01:32:40,638 --> 01:32:43,224
<i>And we're finally leavin' the chrysalis</i>

1252
01:32:43,349 --> 01:32:47,520
<i>to become the monarch butterflies
of our own selves.</i>

1253
01:32:48,271 --> 01:32:51,065
<i>I feel like I've arrived.</i>

1254
01:32:51,190 --> 01:32:55,278
<i>Like I've finally found my true self.</i>

1255
01:33:01,033 --> 01:33:03,703
<i>Laura, this is John Bradwell
from "The Guardian".</i>

1256
01:33:03,828 --> 01:33:05,621
<i>I'm running a piece about JT,</i>

1257
01:33:05,747 --> 01:33:08,833
<i>in particular, about the photo
I found online of Savannah.</i>

1258
01:33:08,958 --> 01:33:11,335
<i>It looks strikingly like Mr. LeRoy.</i>

1259
01:33:12,378 --> 01:33:15,173
<i>It'd really be in your best interests
to return my call.</i>

1260
01:33:16,549 --> 01:33:17,550
Fuck.

1261
01:33:17,675 --> 01:33:19,218
<i>Geoff. Bradwell with "The Guardian"</i>

1262
01:33:19,343 --> 01:33:21,095
<i>calling again to confirm
that Savannah...</i>

1263
01:33:21,220 --> 01:33:23,681
Yeah, Savannah, my sister,

1264
01:33:23,806 --> 01:33:27,769
was the body of... of JT Leroy, yeah.

1265
01:33:27,894 --> 01:33:31,606
But, Laura... Laura was the voice.
She... She did all the writing.

1266
01:33:32,231 --> 01:33:35,026
<i>Savannah, Bradwell calling again.</i>

1267
01:33:35,151 --> 01:33:37,445
<i>Listen, I know for a fact
that you're JT,</i>

1268
01:33:37,570 --> 01:33:42,116
<i>so at this point you should really just
make a statement before my story runs.</i>

1269
01:33:45,620 --> 01:33:49,290
This may sound crazy, but the
whole thing was never a big scheme.

1270
01:33:49,415 --> 01:33:52,043
Never at all. I mean, it was just...

1271
01:33:52,168 --> 01:33:54,879
I dunno, it just got out of hand.
It snowballed, I guess.

1272
01:34:03,888 --> 01:34:06,474
What the fuck?

1273
01:34:07,058 --> 01:34:10,394
I guess we betrayed some people, sure.

1274
01:34:17,610 --> 01:34:19,946
Baby, did you get followed?

1275
01:34:20,071 --> 01:34:21,781
I don't know, I don't think so.

1276
01:34:23,032 --> 01:34:25,993
Fuck. This is a fucking witch-hunt.

1277
01:34:27,286 --> 01:34:30,706
Do you... Do you want a tea?
Or I can make you eggs or something.

1278
01:34:30,832 --> 01:34:32,625
No, I can't eat anything. I'm OK.

1279
01:34:34,710 --> 01:34:35,920
Oh, my God.

1280
01:34:36,629 --> 01:34:37,672
Babe.

1281
01:34:43,886 --> 01:34:45,638
They know who I am now.

1282
01:34:51,853 --> 01:34:53,646
I'm so ashamed.

1283
01:34:58,651 --> 01:35:01,112
I just wanna fucking disappear.

1284
01:35:05,741 --> 01:35:07,410
How are you holding up?

1285
01:35:09,120 --> 01:35:12,540
I mean, I figured
I'd feel some kind of relief.

1286
01:35:15,501 --> 01:35:18,379
But I'm kind of at a loss.
I'm just like...

1287
01:35:20,840 --> 01:35:23,384
- At a loss.
- Yeah.

1288
01:35:26,053 --> 01:35:27,263
Babyhead.

1289
01:35:29,473 --> 01:35:32,476
It's the fucking end
of the book.

1290
01:35:32,602 --> 01:35:34,562
It's like the end of Sarah.

1291
01:35:36,063 --> 01:35:39,442
JT's, like, running naked
through the woods.

1292
01:35:39,942 --> 01:35:41,402
They have pitchforks.

1293
01:35:42,945 --> 01:35:44,780
They're fucking after him.

1294
01:35:46,282 --> 01:35:48,326
Mad 'cause he's actually a boy.

1295
01:35:52,455 --> 01:35:54,957
You could have written
a different ending.

1296
01:35:57,335 --> 01:35:59,045
It had to be that ending.

1297
01:36:06,594 --> 01:36:08,512
It's a great fucking ending.

1298
01:36:20,566 --> 01:36:23,194
<i>They think
that the work is fraudulent.</i>

1299
01:36:26,113 --> 01:36:29,450
You know, this ain't a hoax,
this ain't fraud.

1300
01:36:29,575 --> 01:36:31,243
My books are real.

1301
01:36:35,164 --> 01:36:36,290
Hello?

1302
01:36:39,335 --> 01:36:40,503
Hello?

1303
01:37:19,667 --> 01:37:24,046
Without further ado, let's give
a warm welcome to Laura Albert.

1304
01:37:44,066 --> 01:37:45,735
Tom Waits...

1305
01:37:47,069 --> 01:37:52,199
wanted to do an interview
with JT LeRoy for <i>Vanity Fair.</i>

1306
01:37:53,826 --> 01:37:55,661
JT declined...

1307
01:37:58,205 --> 01:38:00,499
because he was notoriously shy.

1308
01:38:06,005 --> 01:38:10,176
One of the reasons JT was so shy

1309
01:38:12,261 --> 01:38:14,847
is JT didn't have a body.

1310
01:38:17,224 --> 01:38:19,351
JT was an avatar.

1311
01:38:21,270 --> 01:38:23,606
We are given this persona,

1312
01:38:24,607 --> 01:38:27,151
and then we are given this body.

1313
01:38:27,693 --> 01:38:31,572
And there's no promise
from whomever made us

1314
01:38:31,697 --> 01:38:33,657
that the two will be in sync.

1315
01:38:35,284 --> 01:38:39,205
And, hey, I say we can be in the misery

1316
01:38:40,915 --> 01:38:43,042
of trying to get them to match up,

1317
01:38:45,252 --> 01:38:47,505
or we can create our own world.

1318
01:38:50,466 --> 01:38:51,967
Let me take you back.

1319
01:38:53,094 --> 01:38:55,012
I was in a group home,

1320
01:38:55,429 --> 01:38:57,681
I'm in my pain,

1321
01:38:57,807 --> 01:39:00,226
and there's pain all around,

1322
01:39:00,351 --> 01:39:01,727
and I'm...

1323
01:39:02,269 --> 01:39:04,688
I'm looking for the tools...

1324
01:39:06,357 --> 01:39:08,734
for other people to feel that pain,

1325
01:39:09,860 --> 01:39:11,612
to understand it,

1326
01:39:13,030 --> 01:39:16,909
and I can't be in this body, you know?

1327
01:39:17,034 --> 01:39:21,956
Because my biggest fear
is if I tell you my pain,

1328
01:39:23,541 --> 01:39:26,001
you'll say, "You deserved it.

1329
01:39:26,127 --> 01:39:28,254
You're disgusting.

1330
01:39:28,379 --> 01:39:29,797
You're horrible."

1331
01:39:31,799 --> 01:39:36,512
And I'm seeing
these blond, blue-eyed boys

1332
01:39:36,637 --> 01:39:39,140
on after-school specials,
and I'm like...

1333
01:39:41,225 --> 01:39:43,060
I gotta find another body.

1334
01:39:46,605 --> 01:39:49,108
So I start calling suicide hotlines.

1335
01:39:51,068 --> 01:39:52,862
And I meet JT.

1336
01:39:54,864 --> 01:39:57,700
I was as surprised as everyone else

1337
01:39:59,869 --> 01:40:02,037
what JT wrote.

1338
01:40:04,498 --> 01:40:06,250
Then I was sad

1339
01:40:07,960 --> 01:40:13,424
'cause I couldn't give
JT the body he wanted.

1340
01:40:17,011 --> 01:40:18,971
The body he deserved.

1341
01:40:23,809 --> 01:40:27,396
And he found that in Savannah.

1342
01:40:33,444 --> 01:40:36,197
- Um, but to be back is...
- Oh, I know.

1343
01:40:36,322 --> 01:40:38,324
- ...meta.
- It's incredible.

1344
01:40:38,449 --> 01:40:39,617
- What's your name?
- Mikayla.

1345
01:40:39,742 --> 01:40:42,077
Mikayla. Pleasure.

1346
01:40:42,203 --> 01:40:43,871
- Thank you.
- Really.

1347
01:40:43,996 --> 01:40:45,039
Hey.

1348
01:40:46,624 --> 01:40:48,626
Babyhead. Get in here.

1349
01:40:49,001 --> 01:40:50,461
It's been a long time.

1350
01:40:51,962 --> 01:40:53,756
I'm... I'm really glad that I came.

1351
01:40:53,881 --> 01:40:55,507
I'm really glad you did too.

1352
01:40:55,633 --> 01:40:56,842
- What's your name?
- DJ.

1353
01:40:56,967 --> 01:40:59,678
- DJ. Thanks for coming.
- Thank you so much.

1354
01:41:00,596 --> 01:41:02,097
How's Geoff?

1355
01:41:02,223 --> 01:41:06,060
He's good. You know, he's being Geoff.
Making music.

1356
01:41:06,560 --> 01:41:08,062
I like what you said earlier too.

1357
01:41:08,187 --> 01:41:10,856
Thank you for connecting
to Sarah like that.

1358
01:41:10,981 --> 01:41:12,233
It's really beautiful.

1359
01:41:12,358 --> 01:41:14,443
Oh, can we just get
a picture of you guys?

1360
01:41:14,568 --> 01:41:16,946
- Sure.
- Yeah, sure.

1361
01:41:18,030 --> 01:41:19,657
Wow.

1362
01:41:19,782 --> 01:41:20,783
Here we are.

1363
01:41:23,661 --> 01:41:28,582
Well, I also came to say goodbye.
Um, I'm gonna move to New York.

1364
01:41:29,166 --> 01:41:30,292
I'm excited.

1365
01:41:30,417 --> 01:41:33,545
Wow. I guess. That's a big one for you.

1366
01:41:34,004 --> 01:41:35,673
- What's your name?
- Thomas.

1367
01:41:42,346 --> 01:41:46,892
Congratulations. And, you know,
maybe I'll see you out in the world.

1368
01:41:47,017 --> 01:41:49,395
Out playing in the fields of the Lord.

1369
01:41:49,520 --> 01:41:51,021
- What's your name?
- Alex.

1370
01:41:56,527 --> 01:41:57,778
Hey, Sav.

1371
01:41:59,071 --> 01:42:02,491
I heard you were, uh... writing.

1372
01:42:03,242 --> 01:42:06,203
- Yeah.
- Just remember.

1373
01:42:06,328 --> 01:42:09,128
Just 'cause you played
a writer, doesn't mean you are one.

1374
01:42:15,838 --> 01:42:17,089
Good luck.

1375
01:42:19,758 --> 01:42:20,926
Thank you.

1376
01:42:22,553 --> 01:42:24,054
- What's your name?
- Eva.

1377
01:42:24,179 --> 01:42:25,973
Eva...

1378
01:42:38,235 --> 01:42:40,237
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