2 00:00:49,063 --> 00:00:53,098 All of these aspects of myself, 3 00:00:53,100 --> 00:00:59,403 all of these thoughts, how do we heal them? 4 00:00:59,405 --> 00:01:00,307 How do I unify them? 5 00:01:03,377 --> 00:01:07,282 How do we create the we to an I? 6 00:01:11,752 --> 00:01:16,721 Every evil we experience in this world 7 00:01:16,723 --> 00:01:19,393 is actually the world in perfect balance with itself. 8 00:01:22,529 --> 00:01:27,866 I'm only a vessel for your unfoldment. 9 00:01:27,868 --> 00:01:30,769 I am only here for you. 10 00:01:30,771 --> 00:01:35,107 So when a conflict arises in me, the universe 11 00:01:35,109 --> 00:01:40,010 then sends a runner to manifest that conflict in a form 12 00:01:40,012 --> 00:01:47,084 that I can see, to deal with outside myself, 13 00:01:47,086 --> 00:01:49,389 to create the harmony that I've lost within me. 14 00:01:52,458 --> 00:02:02,834 But the fear, a fear of not having, a fear of not knowing, 15 00:02:02,836 --> 00:02:06,804 a fear of being left behind. 16 00:02:06,806 --> 00:02:11,176 The fear, the fear, the fear, hardly 17 00:02:11,178 --> 00:02:12,380 leaves any room for love. 18 00:02:16,182 --> 00:02:19,483 Love is a reality. 19 00:02:19,485 --> 00:02:20,420 Love is the only reality. 20 00:02:23,857 --> 00:02:31,529 Had I run from it, I run from the things that heal me, 21 00:02:31,531 --> 00:02:34,766 because I need to feel powerful. 22 00:02:34,768 --> 00:02:36,371 I need to feel validated. 23 00:02:38,938 --> 00:02:44,509 I need to give expression to these tears that I have inside, 24 00:02:44,511 --> 00:02:45,780 because without them, who am I? 25 00:02:49,216 --> 00:02:50,118 Who am I? 26 00:02:53,753 --> 00:02:54,489 I'm an illusion. 27 00:02:58,591 --> 00:02:59,991 I'm not even here. 28 00:03:25,918 --> 00:03:27,118 Mom? 29 00:03:27,120 --> 00:03:29,921 It's not a great time, honey. 30 00:03:29,923 --> 00:03:31,989 I'm out with the girls. 31 00:03:31,991 --> 00:03:34,024 I don't know what he wants. 32 00:03:34,026 --> 00:03:34,792 Hang on. 33 00:03:34,794 --> 00:03:36,261 I'm finding out. 34 00:03:36,263 --> 00:03:38,230 Honey, what's the problem? 35 00:03:38,232 --> 00:03:40,130 What happened? 36 00:03:40,132 --> 00:03:41,600 I don't know. 37 00:03:41,602 --> 00:03:42,868 What do you mean you don't know? 38 00:03:42,870 --> 00:03:44,835 Um, a friend came over. 39 00:03:44,837 --> 00:03:47,238 What did you guys, break something? 40 00:03:47,240 --> 00:03:50,107 No. 41 00:03:50,109 --> 00:03:52,646 Mom, just come home, please. 42 00:03:55,615 --> 00:03:56,581 I need help. 43 00:04:23,810 --> 00:04:27,879 We need one another so that we can 44 00:04:27,881 --> 00:04:31,215 get to that place of balance. 45 00:04:31,217 --> 00:04:35,754 If we knew what balance was, we would just achieve it. 46 00:04:35,756 --> 00:04:36,056 No. 47 00:04:39,025 --> 00:04:43,662 We have to feel our way like blind men, 48 00:04:43,664 --> 00:04:48,232 walking in a vast room, looking for the walls to hang on to, 49 00:04:48,234 --> 00:04:51,872 to feel, so they can look for a way out. 50 00:04:56,943 --> 00:04:57,244 Mom? 51 00:05:04,284 --> 00:05:07,251 Am I bad? 52 00:05:07,253 --> 00:05:10,254 No. 53 00:05:10,256 --> 00:05:11,256 Of course not, honey. 54 00:05:15,929 --> 00:05:16,931 Why did this happen then? 55 00:05:20,133 --> 00:05:21,536 I'll explain when you're older. 56 00:05:26,373 --> 00:05:29,607 You'll listen to them and do what they say. 57 00:05:29,609 --> 00:05:29,910 OK? 58 00:05:33,145 --> 00:05:36,681 How long will I be there? 59 00:05:36,683 --> 00:05:39,718 That depends on you. 60 00:05:39,720 --> 00:05:43,187 It's time you took responsibility for yourself. 61 00:05:43,189 --> 00:05:47,060 You'll have to choose your own path and follow it to the end. 62 00:05:50,229 --> 00:05:53,163 You have that key I gave you, right? 63 00:05:53,165 --> 00:05:56,134 Yeah. 64 00:05:56,136 --> 00:05:57,035 That's a good boy. 65 00:06:49,121 --> 00:06:51,456 Welcome to the clinic. 66 00:06:51,458 --> 00:06:54,792 Your treatment awaits you. 67 00:06:54,794 --> 00:07:00,331 Please make yourself at home and be one with the others. 68 00:07:00,333 --> 00:07:07,037 Breathe in, breathe out. 69 00:07:07,039 --> 00:07:12,410 Close your eyes and think of your new self, 70 00:07:12,412 --> 00:07:18,883 a self without limits, that can create new worlds, where 71 00:07:18,885 --> 00:07:22,420 anything is possible. 72 00:07:22,422 --> 00:07:28,826 Breathe in, breathe out. 73 00:07:28,828 --> 00:07:33,997 Breathe in, breathe out. 74 00:07:33,999 --> 00:07:40,739 Your mind exists only in the form you allow it to. 75 00:07:40,741 --> 00:07:47,145 Breathe in, breathe out. 76 00:07:47,147 --> 00:07:53,751 Breathe in, breathe out. 77 00:07:53,753 --> 00:07:54,518 Breathe in-- 78 00:09:16,036 --> 00:09:17,234 Go ahead. 79 00:09:17,236 --> 00:09:19,304 This is your room. 80 00:09:19,306 --> 00:09:21,238 You may unpack if you wish. 81 00:09:30,917 --> 00:09:33,117 The others. 82 00:09:33,119 --> 00:09:34,419 Why are they here? 83 00:09:34,421 --> 00:09:37,421 They are all on their own journey. 84 00:09:37,423 --> 00:09:38,923 Journeys a lot like yours. 85 00:10:32,378 --> 00:10:33,911 What happens here? 86 00:10:33,913 --> 00:10:36,280 We are here to help. 87 00:10:36,282 --> 00:10:38,916 Once you select a path, you'll see. 88 00:10:44,456 --> 00:10:45,957 What's that room? 89 00:10:45,959 --> 00:10:47,592 Selection room. 90 00:10:47,594 --> 00:10:51,161 When you are ready you can select a path there. 91 00:10:51,163 --> 00:10:56,034 Once you make a choice, the treatment can begin. 92 00:10:56,036 --> 00:10:59,170 Treatment? 93 00:10:59,172 --> 00:11:01,705 Why don't you get some rest? 94 00:11:01,707 --> 00:11:03,373 You can meet the others later. 95 00:11:24,229 --> 00:11:33,070 I created an automaton, and then two, 96 00:11:33,072 --> 00:11:42,348 and then four, until I was surrounded with them. 97 00:11:50,389 --> 00:11:57,428 When I caught that reality, I could replicate anything 98 00:11:57,430 --> 00:12:10,742 that was already in existence and call it my own 99 00:12:10,744 --> 00:12:11,445 and feel powerful. 100 00:12:18,084 --> 00:12:22,185 It's almost as if I'm lost in my own dreams. 101 00:13:13,605 --> 00:13:15,405 Your trainers will be here soon. 102 00:13:50,643 --> 00:13:52,510 How can I be your mother 103 00:13:52,512 --> 00:13:53,680 and not feel responsible? 104 00:13:56,816 --> 00:13:58,051 You are my son. 105 00:14:03,623 --> 00:14:07,527 I look in your face and find no other eyes but my own. 106 00:14:15,301 --> 00:14:17,671 I'd hoped that you would turn out different. 107 00:14:22,609 --> 00:14:24,478 I wanted you to be perfect. 108 00:14:29,449 --> 00:14:35,486 But I can't help but wonder, is perfection something 109 00:14:35,488 --> 00:14:36,253 this world needs? 110 00:14:47,800 --> 00:14:49,766 No. 111 00:14:49,768 --> 00:14:51,169 Perfection is horrible. 112 00:14:54,641 --> 00:14:56,607 It will destroy us all. 113 00:15:47,226 --> 00:15:47,660 What happened? 114 00:15:51,598 --> 00:15:52,733 Tell me what's going on. 115 00:15:56,369 --> 00:15:58,535 You have to tell me what's going on. 116 00:15:58,537 --> 00:15:59,837 I don't know. 117 00:15:59,839 --> 00:16:01,941 We can't help you unless you open up. 118 00:16:05,611 --> 00:16:08,011 I don't know. 119 00:16:08,013 --> 00:16:09,981 The danger is still real. 120 00:16:18,957 --> 00:16:20,958 Hi. 121 00:16:20,960 --> 00:16:21,659 Were you-- 122 00:16:21,661 --> 00:16:22,492 No. 123 00:16:22,494 --> 00:16:23,526 I was just-- um-- 124 00:16:23,528 --> 00:16:24,694 Sorry. 125 00:16:24,696 --> 00:16:26,497 I was trying to find my room. 126 00:16:26,499 --> 00:16:27,968 Um, I'm guessing it's this. 127 00:16:31,037 --> 00:16:32,569 What's your name? 128 00:16:32,571 --> 00:16:32,873 Sarah. 129 00:16:37,442 --> 00:16:39,376 Where you from? 130 00:16:39,378 --> 00:16:41,312 Me? 131 00:16:41,314 --> 00:16:46,416 Um, I grew up pretty far away. 132 00:16:46,418 --> 00:16:48,919 Do you feel out of place here? 133 00:16:48,921 --> 00:16:50,788 No. 134 00:16:50,790 --> 00:16:54,558 I think everyone's on similar journeys. 135 00:16:54,560 --> 00:16:55,525 What about you? 136 00:16:55,527 --> 00:16:58,828 Where are you from? 137 00:16:58,830 --> 00:17:01,365 Not too far away. 138 00:17:01,367 --> 00:17:03,434 My mom came here when she was younger 139 00:17:03,436 --> 00:17:10,607 and she thought they could, um, fix me. 140 00:17:10,609 --> 00:17:11,478 Fix you? 141 00:17:14,880 --> 00:17:18,784 I've been having these strange visions. 142 00:17:21,753 --> 00:17:24,055 Hm. 143 00:17:24,057 --> 00:17:25,556 Have you made your selection yet? 144 00:17:25,558 --> 00:17:26,026 Not yet. 145 00:17:28,794 --> 00:17:32,863 What are you waiting for to start your journey? 146 00:17:32,865 --> 00:17:36,399 I don't know. 147 00:17:36,401 --> 00:17:38,735 You have to evolve past your own nature. 148 00:17:38,737 --> 00:17:40,037 You have to get to the next place 149 00:17:40,039 --> 00:17:42,807 if you want to get along in here. 150 00:17:42,809 --> 00:17:45,376 You're doing that? 151 00:17:45,378 --> 00:17:46,743 Evolving? 152 00:17:46,745 --> 00:17:49,680 Yeah. 153 00:17:49,682 --> 00:17:52,015 Come with me. 154 00:17:59,125 --> 00:18:01,424 When every space that we see 155 00:18:01,426 --> 00:18:07,464 is empty, there's a story being played out. 156 00:18:07,466 --> 00:18:14,637 There's a universe unfolding between two people. 157 00:18:14,639 --> 00:18:16,574 There may be thousands upon thousands 158 00:18:16,576 --> 00:18:23,813 of realities happening that they may not be aware of. 159 00:18:23,815 --> 00:18:26,817 I need to make my selection. 160 00:18:26,819 --> 00:18:28,386 OK. 161 00:18:28,388 --> 00:18:29,089 Please hurry. 162 00:18:32,157 --> 00:18:35,425 You see, for those two people, who 163 00:18:35,427 --> 00:18:37,994 see each other, they're vibrating 164 00:18:37,996 --> 00:18:48,438 at a specific frequency, one that allows the other person 165 00:18:48,440 --> 00:18:52,143 to be manifest before them. 166 00:18:52,145 --> 00:18:58,449 But the true process, the one that brings them together, 167 00:18:58,451 --> 00:18:59,553 is so much more subtle. 168 00:19:06,993 --> 00:19:07,992 Hey. 169 00:19:07,994 --> 00:19:10,560 Check it out. 170 00:19:10,562 --> 00:19:11,928 Girls in outer space. 171 00:19:20,138 --> 00:19:22,940 What's wrong? 172 00:19:22,942 --> 00:19:23,574 Come on. 173 00:19:23,576 --> 00:19:24,942 Tell me. 174 00:19:24,944 --> 00:19:26,577 I can tell you were thinking about something. 175 00:19:26,579 --> 00:19:33,587 I mean, you look so familiar. 176 00:19:38,523 --> 00:19:39,123 Weird. 177 00:19:39,125 --> 00:19:39,693 You know that? 178 00:19:56,042 --> 00:19:59,242 You're putting her at risk. 179 00:19:59,244 --> 00:20:00,944 Why are you here? 180 00:20:00,946 --> 00:20:04,248 To fix this, this problem. 181 00:20:04,250 --> 00:20:07,518 Why haven't you chosen a path then? 182 00:20:07,520 --> 00:20:11,688 Don't you remember what happened to your girlfriend? 183 00:20:11,690 --> 00:20:12,990 It was like I was-- 184 00:20:12,992 --> 00:20:14,191 I was in a dream. 185 00:20:14,193 --> 00:20:15,095 What did you see? 186 00:20:19,898 --> 00:20:21,732 I was terrified. 187 00:20:21,734 --> 00:20:23,533 I had no control. 188 00:20:23,535 --> 00:20:26,703 I-- I couldn't do anything. 189 00:20:26,705 --> 00:20:30,640 It was like I was on a ride I couldn't get off of. 190 00:20:30,642 --> 00:20:38,147 But at the same time, deep down, I liked it, and then-- 191 00:20:38,149 --> 00:20:38,982 and then I woke up. 192 00:20:50,295 --> 00:20:53,664 Are you ready to be in treatment? 193 00:20:53,666 --> 00:20:55,732 You're endangering her. 194 00:20:55,734 --> 00:20:57,100 What will it do? 195 00:20:57,102 --> 00:21:00,637 Transgenic in vivo microbionic implants 196 00:21:00,639 --> 00:21:02,306 will cure you. 197 00:21:02,308 --> 00:21:05,842 This technology can mutate your perception 198 00:21:05,844 --> 00:21:09,178 and free you from your base program. 199 00:21:09,180 --> 00:21:12,649 It's a choice you can make. 200 00:21:12,651 --> 00:21:16,819 You can become something better, something 201 00:21:16,821 --> 00:21:25,029 more refined, more evolved, but you have to act now. 202 00:21:25,031 --> 00:21:29,599 This miracle process can only work if you start your journey 203 00:21:29,601 --> 00:21:32,069 and allow it to take its course. 204 00:21:32,071 --> 00:21:33,703 Are you ready? 205 00:21:33,705 --> 00:21:34,271 Yes. 206 00:25:00,111 --> 00:25:00,879 Good morning. 207 00:25:04,149 --> 00:25:06,549 Congratulations on starting your journey. 208 00:25:25,538 --> 00:25:26,106 Come closer. 209 00:25:30,275 --> 00:25:33,510 This is how your packages will be delivered. 210 00:25:33,512 --> 00:25:36,346 Because this is a personal process, 211 00:25:36,348 --> 00:25:40,584 you will install the upgrades yourself. 212 00:25:40,586 --> 00:25:49,292 Package for patient 1379. 213 00:25:49,294 --> 00:25:51,028 Thank you. 214 00:25:51,030 --> 00:25:53,196 Just follow the instructions. 215 00:25:53,198 --> 00:25:54,897 I'm here if you need help. 216 00:26:07,446 --> 00:26:11,447 Step one, remove this first item from the package. 217 00:26:35,241 --> 00:26:39,643 Step two, use the item to draw the specific lines. 218 00:27:10,341 --> 00:27:13,210 Step three, press the button. 219 00:27:31,429 --> 00:27:37,401 Step four, use the item to penetrate. 220 00:27:37,403 --> 00:27:39,636 The pain will only be temporary. 221 00:28:20,512 --> 00:28:24,280 Step five, remove the abcess from your body. 222 00:28:46,138 --> 00:28:51,377 Step six, take out the beautiful and clean treatment. 223 00:28:56,682 --> 00:28:58,647 Apply the treatment in cavity. 224 00:29:10,029 --> 00:29:14,233 You are one step closer to completion and being pure. 225 00:29:17,703 --> 00:29:20,302 Let go. 226 00:29:20,304 --> 00:29:21,073 Try to be free. 227 00:31:07,678 --> 00:31:11,248 You chose a path. 228 00:31:11,250 --> 00:31:12,151 Where were you? 229 00:31:14,686 --> 00:31:18,320 I you think you're great, but I think we should continue 230 00:31:18,322 --> 00:31:21,857 our transition separately. 231 00:31:21,859 --> 00:31:26,799 I'm too far ahead of you, and I see you like a man sees an ant. 232 00:31:30,869 --> 00:31:34,870 But I wish you well on your way. 233 00:31:34,872 --> 00:31:35,774 This is goodbye. 234 00:31:38,877 --> 00:31:40,476 Thanks for showing me my room. 235 00:32:16,581 --> 00:32:18,615 The chrysalis is the pupal stage 236 00:32:18,617 --> 00:32:21,984 of the butterfly. 237 00:32:21,986 --> 00:32:26,889 Chrys s is Greek for gold. 238 00:32:26,891 --> 00:32:28,892 It's called that because of the metallic gold 239 00:32:28,894 --> 00:32:31,864 color found in the pupae of many butterflies. 240 00:32:34,966 --> 00:32:44,507 When the caterpillar is fully grown, 241 00:32:44,509 --> 00:32:50,512 it fuses itself with silk to a twig, 242 00:32:50,514 --> 00:32:52,784 then the caterpillar's skin comes off. 243 00:32:59,858 --> 00:33:03,663 Under this old skin is a hard covering. 244 00:33:06,998 --> 00:33:08,366 The chrysalis. 245 00:33:19,378 --> 00:33:20,609 Hi. 246 00:33:20,611 --> 00:33:20,912 Hey, mom. 247 00:33:25,984 --> 00:33:28,652 Sorry I haven't called. 248 00:33:28,654 --> 00:33:29,722 How are things going? 249 00:33:33,492 --> 00:33:35,024 Are you happy? 250 00:33:35,026 --> 00:33:35,694 Trying to be. 251 00:33:38,664 --> 00:33:41,030 Nothing's really changed yet, but I'm 252 00:33:41,032 --> 00:33:42,267 committed to making it work. 253 00:33:45,637 --> 00:33:46,703 Well, that's good. 254 00:33:59,384 --> 00:34:01,287 What kind of stuff are they having you do there? 255 00:34:06,925 --> 00:34:09,925 Mom, there's this girl here. 256 00:34:09,927 --> 00:34:11,661 You would like her. 257 00:34:11,663 --> 00:34:14,931 Be careful, sweetheart. 258 00:34:14,933 --> 00:34:16,832 Take it easy. 259 00:34:16,834 --> 00:34:17,335 I am. 260 00:34:20,371 --> 00:34:22,605 Don't get too close. 261 00:34:22,607 --> 00:34:24,708 You meet anyone else there? 262 00:34:24,710 --> 00:34:26,476 Anyone that works there? 263 00:34:26,478 --> 00:34:28,781 There's this voice who talks to me through the intercom. 264 00:34:31,882 --> 00:34:39,855 I feel like this is my fault, like I wasn't there enough. 265 00:34:39,857 --> 00:34:42,125 It's not your fault. 266 00:34:42,127 --> 00:34:47,130 Maybe if-- if I was a better mother-- 267 00:34:47,132 --> 00:34:48,732 No. 268 00:34:48,734 --> 00:34:49,733 That's not it, Mom. 269 00:37:29,226 --> 00:37:31,763 This has already passed, just not yet. 270 00:37:36,835 --> 00:37:38,237 It's happening, but somewhere else. 271 00:37:41,272 --> 00:37:44,075 How do I reconcile that when things feel so real? 272 00:37:48,078 --> 00:37:48,746 So who are you? 273 00:37:52,317 --> 00:37:55,751 Are you my adversary? 274 00:37:55,753 --> 00:37:56,221 Are you my enemy? 275 00:38:00,157 --> 00:38:01,757 Are you a thing that I must control? 276 00:38:12,703 --> 00:38:17,040 The way out is really the way in. 277 00:38:17,042 --> 00:38:21,813 And the deeper in that I go, the more free that I become. 278 00:38:26,284 --> 00:38:27,150 You are the person. 279 00:38:27,152 --> 00:38:29,152 You are the guide. 280 00:38:29,154 --> 00:38:31,186 You are the one that will lead me back to myself. 281 00:41:39,277 --> 00:41:43,445 In this great delusion of love, an object 282 00:41:43,447 --> 00:41:49,184 can not exist without something else 283 00:41:49,186 --> 00:41:52,391 to reflect itself back unto itself. 284 00:42:54,585 --> 00:42:56,184 How's the boy? 285 00:42:56,186 --> 00:42:57,089 Price-shachou. 286 00:43:03,862 --> 00:43:05,194 I didn't hear you come in. 287 00:43:12,502 --> 00:43:14,038 Is everything on schedule? 288 00:43:18,942 --> 00:43:21,112 I think we are about to find out. 289 00:43:26,183 --> 00:43:30,418 He's grown so much since I last saw him. 290 00:43:30,420 --> 00:43:31,422 He's becoming a man. 291 00:43:35,493 --> 00:43:39,094 I don't have much more time left. 292 00:43:39,096 --> 00:43:43,099 You will need to start the transfer soon. 293 00:43:43,101 --> 00:43:45,101 Yes, Price-shachou. 294 00:45:17,761 --> 00:45:18,527 Sarah? 295 00:45:32,743 --> 00:45:35,344 Stay with me. 296 00:45:35,346 --> 00:45:36,648 It's not an option. 297 00:45:40,717 --> 00:45:41,619 I need you. 298 00:45:44,721 --> 00:45:48,456 Have to let me go. 299 00:45:48,458 --> 00:45:51,626 You can't follow me where I'm going. 300 00:45:51,628 --> 00:45:53,161 That's not how it goes. 301 00:45:53,163 --> 00:45:59,168 Please, stay with me. 302 00:45:59,170 --> 00:46:02,137 I need you. 303 00:46:02,139 --> 00:46:05,141 Don't leave me, please. 304 00:46:05,143 --> 00:46:06,541 Don't leave. 305 00:46:17,522 --> 00:46:20,025 You are her, aren't you? 306 00:46:25,128 --> 00:46:26,529 I just need more time. 307 00:46:26,531 --> 00:46:28,400 We don't have any more time. 308 00:46:31,502 --> 00:46:32,003 Sorry. 309 00:46:37,107 --> 00:46:40,108 When you're at the end of your journey, 310 00:46:40,110 --> 00:46:43,478 you'll come for me, in here. 311 00:47:57,188 --> 00:47:59,124 - I - can feel myself changing. 312 00:48:02,826 --> 00:48:05,226 My mind is becoming less known. 313 00:48:08,833 --> 00:48:09,835 I need to release myself. 314 00:48:33,357 --> 00:48:33,657 Hey. 315 00:48:38,763 --> 00:48:42,234 I want to know every detail about your entire life. 316 00:48:46,737 --> 00:48:47,703 Really? 317 00:48:47,705 --> 00:48:50,706 Yeah. 318 00:48:50,708 --> 00:48:53,308 Wait here for a second. 319 00:48:53,310 --> 00:48:55,311 Yeah. 320 00:48:55,313 --> 00:48:58,246 My mom gave me it when she was younger. 321 00:48:58,248 --> 00:48:58,813 Don't stop. 322 00:49:04,654 --> 00:49:09,257 I came here because I killed my-- 323 00:49:21,639 --> 00:49:26,875 The bow of God's wrath is bent, 324 00:49:26,877 --> 00:49:32,848 and the arrow made ready on the string. 325 00:49:32,850 --> 00:49:38,554 And it is justice that bends the arrow at your heart, 326 00:49:38,556 --> 00:49:39,958 and it strains the bow. 327 00:49:42,793 --> 00:49:52,835 And it is nothing but the mere pleasure of God 328 00:49:52,837 --> 00:49:55,507 and that of an angry God. 329 00:50:00,511 --> 00:50:08,050 That without any promise or obligation at all that 330 00:50:08,052 --> 00:50:16,291 keeps the arrow one moment from being drunk with your blood. 331 00:50:16,293 --> 00:50:19,994 If your right eye causes you to stumble, 332 00:50:19,996 --> 00:50:23,898 then tear it out and throw it from you. 333 00:50:23,900 --> 00:50:30,338 For it is far better to lose one of the parts of your body 334 00:50:30,340 --> 00:50:35,643 than to have your entire body thrown into hell. 335 00:50:35,645 --> 00:50:41,616 The visions are triggered by intense social connection. 336 00:50:41,618 --> 00:50:44,652 You yourself are still quite susceptible, 337 00:50:44,654 --> 00:50:45,889 and are therefore in danger. 338 00:50:55,532 --> 00:51:00,601 Every time you open up, you are putting everyone at risk. 339 00:51:00,603 --> 00:51:02,371 I can't believe you know that. 340 00:51:02,373 --> 00:51:03,938 That is the purpose of the clinic. 341 00:51:12,549 --> 00:51:13,350 Tell me the truth. 342 00:51:16,052 --> 00:51:18,020 What's wrong with me? 343 00:51:18,022 --> 00:51:23,726 Your animal brain, bred for harsh life on the savanna, 344 00:51:23,728 --> 00:51:26,094 is not suited to the present-day world 345 00:51:26,096 --> 00:51:28,632 of civilization and discipline. 346 00:51:32,069 --> 00:51:36,771 You need to open up yourself to complete reprogramming. 347 00:51:36,773 --> 00:51:38,773 Only then will you have peace of mind. 348 00:51:38,775 --> 00:51:39,511 You don't get it. 349 00:51:43,913 --> 00:51:47,949 Even if I can evolve, it'll never 350 00:51:47,951 --> 00:51:50,652 be enough to earn peace of mind. 351 00:51:50,654 --> 00:51:51,322 That's the thing. 352 00:51:54,525 --> 00:51:55,994 How could I ever trust myself again? 353 00:51:58,728 --> 00:52:02,463 How could I ever get close to anyone again? 354 00:52:02,465 --> 00:52:04,768 Well, for instance, through a radio. 355 00:52:11,040 --> 00:52:11,743 Ozawa. 356 00:52:15,880 --> 00:52:17,045 That's your name. 357 00:52:17,047 --> 00:52:17,916 How do you know? 358 00:52:23,654 --> 00:52:26,154 Control yourself. 359 00:52:26,156 --> 00:52:28,991 Don't lose focus. 360 00:52:28,993 --> 00:52:31,462 Stay right here with me. 361 00:52:34,531 --> 00:52:36,800 Listen, you must exercise will. 362 00:52:41,438 --> 00:52:42,837 I've just felt like this before. 363 00:52:42,839 --> 00:52:45,773 Stay right here with me. 364 00:52:53,817 --> 00:52:55,750 Yes. 365 00:52:55,752 --> 00:52:56,453 Let it all go. 366 00:52:59,690 --> 00:53:02,458 Let it all go out. 367 00:53:02,460 --> 00:53:04,460 It's OK. 368 00:53:04,462 --> 00:53:04,763 Yes. 369 00:55:11,721 --> 00:55:13,188 What happened? 370 00:55:13,190 --> 00:55:16,023 I need more. 371 00:55:16,025 --> 00:55:18,192 You've already reached the limits of what 372 00:55:18,194 --> 00:55:20,027 we can safely do for you. 373 00:55:20,029 --> 00:55:21,762 I'm not clean. 374 00:55:21,764 --> 00:55:22,965 I'm not pure. 375 00:55:22,967 --> 00:55:24,632 I'm not perfect yet. 376 00:55:24,634 --> 00:55:26,268 What is this place? 377 00:55:26,270 --> 00:55:29,204 Does this stuff even work? 378 00:55:29,206 --> 00:55:32,010 Of course it works, but it's not instant. 379 00:55:34,811 --> 00:55:37,244 And it's also up to you. 380 00:55:37,246 --> 00:55:40,081 You have to be able to accept the changes, 381 00:55:40,083 --> 00:55:43,184 to let yourself be pure. 382 00:55:43,186 --> 00:55:45,353 What if I end my treatment? 383 00:55:45,355 --> 00:55:49,358 If you wish to end your treatment now, 384 00:55:49,360 --> 00:55:51,029 I'll have to recommend you be confined. 385 00:55:54,297 --> 00:55:55,797 Confined? 386 00:55:55,799 --> 00:55:57,335 Unfortunately you are still a danger. 387 00:56:03,373 --> 00:56:06,875 Then I will continue my treatment. 388 00:56:06,877 --> 00:56:07,645 Are you sure? 389 00:56:10,748 --> 00:56:12,114 Yes. 390 00:56:12,116 --> 00:56:12,813 Yes. 391 00:56:12,815 --> 00:56:14,949 I need it. 392 00:56:14,951 --> 00:56:17,219 There's one final level. 393 00:56:17,221 --> 00:56:20,021 We usually don't recommend it to people transitioning 394 00:56:20,023 --> 00:56:21,422 for the first time. 395 00:56:21,424 --> 00:56:24,692 But in your case, an exception might 396 00:56:24,694 --> 00:56:28,663 be made if you feel it would help you progress. 397 00:56:28,665 --> 00:56:31,800 But I will need approval. 398 00:56:31,802 --> 00:56:32,670 Please. 399 00:56:37,373 --> 00:56:39,241 Please. 400 00:56:39,243 --> 00:56:40,074 Please. 401 00:56:40,076 --> 00:56:40,909 I fucking need it. 402 00:56:40,911 --> 00:56:42,978 Please. 403 00:56:42,980 --> 00:56:43,281 Please. 404 00:56:46,250 --> 00:56:47,416 Perhaps we should stop. 405 00:57:00,697 --> 00:57:01,398 I think we should try. 406 00:57:04,301 --> 00:57:07,469 A true purification might simply be too much for him. 407 00:57:19,315 --> 00:57:20,851 We owe him our best efforts. 408 00:57:24,288 --> 00:57:28,223 I'll talk to him. 409 00:57:28,225 --> 00:57:29,190 Assess the risks. 410 00:57:55,485 --> 00:57:58,052 Time to get up. 411 00:57:58,054 --> 00:57:59,487 Don't worry. 412 00:57:59,489 --> 00:58:00,387 It'll all work out. 413 00:58:00,389 --> 00:58:02,224 You'll be OK. 414 00:58:02,226 --> 00:58:04,793 Who are you? 415 00:58:04,795 --> 00:58:06,194 My name's Dr. Hamilton Price. 416 00:58:16,072 --> 00:58:17,371 Do you know your mother came here 417 00:58:17,373 --> 00:58:18,743 to this clinic as a young woman? 418 00:58:22,212 --> 00:58:22,714 Yes. 419 00:58:25,782 --> 00:58:40,094 Well, I founded this clinic 420 00:58:40,096 --> 00:58:41,965 and I treated your mother. 421 00:58:48,505 --> 00:58:58,413 And let's just say I fell in love with my work. 422 00:59:19,869 --> 00:59:20,772 You mean you're my-- 423 00:59:30,214 --> 00:59:36,087 Yes, both figuratively and literally. 424 00:59:40,556 --> 00:59:41,556 What's wrong with me? 425 00:59:51,101 --> 00:59:52,369 There's nothing wrong with you. 426 00:59:55,205 --> 00:59:56,007 I have made mistakes. 427 00:59:58,641 --> 00:59:59,509 Lots of them. 428 01:00:05,047 --> 01:00:05,917 But you're not one. 429 01:00:08,951 --> 01:00:11,121 You've just been a slave to other people's bad choices. 430 01:00:19,362 --> 01:00:26,236 Your mother and I, we've accepted our responsibility. 431 01:00:29,906 --> 01:00:33,909 And now we're going to fix that. 432 01:00:33,911 --> 01:00:34,612 We're going to free you. 433 01:00:39,917 --> 01:00:42,683 Would you like that? 434 01:00:42,685 --> 01:00:43,451 Yes. 435 01:00:54,665 --> 01:00:55,663 Let me see your hands. 436 01:01:14,016 --> 01:01:20,457 I'm going to help you, with this. 437 01:01:26,163 --> 01:01:27,063 Just lay back. 438 01:01:37,540 --> 01:01:51,152 We know a reflection never really knows itself, 439 01:01:51,154 --> 01:01:54,926 never knows it's real, because it isn't. 440 01:01:58,761 --> 01:01:59,994 Let's make you beautiful. 441 01:03:15,304 --> 01:03:16,170 Damn. 442 01:03:16,172 --> 01:03:18,273 This is good stuff. 443 01:03:18,275 --> 01:03:20,175 I feel it already. 444 01:03:35,558 --> 01:03:37,791 Think about it. 445 01:03:37,793 --> 01:03:39,062 I'll always be a danger. 446 01:03:41,730 --> 01:03:43,234 I don't know when I'm doing it. 447 01:03:45,835 --> 01:03:46,803 I can't even trust myself. 448 01:03:51,340 --> 01:04:01,648 I've been thinking about that, and I have an idea, 449 01:04:01,650 --> 01:04:02,752 if you're willing to trust me. 450 01:04:09,426 --> 01:04:12,694 You shall be closer to that source that 451 01:04:12,696 --> 01:04:15,395 brought us into being. 452 01:04:15,397 --> 01:04:21,271 You, as am I. I'm merely the vessel of this creator. 453 01:04:29,746 --> 01:04:35,483 But I have created this clinic to free us 454 01:04:35,485 --> 01:04:41,855 from the will of the maker, for that we may freely 455 01:04:41,857 --> 01:04:45,763 give ourselves back to the same life. 456 01:04:52,835 --> 01:04:54,737 You need to look inside yourself. 457 01:04:57,806 --> 01:05:01,808 Myself. 458 01:05:01,810 --> 01:05:02,809 Let's sit. 459 01:05:24,333 --> 01:05:25,235 Close your eyes. 460 01:05:34,310 --> 01:05:35,211 Now breathe. 461 01:05:40,683 --> 01:05:44,284 Breathe in. 462 01:05:44,286 --> 01:05:45,589 Now breathe out. 463 01:05:48,324 --> 01:05:57,732 Your breath is a ball of energy, moving down your spine 464 01:05:57,734 --> 01:05:59,235 and the top of your head. 465 01:06:09,746 --> 01:06:13,250 Focus those thoughts inward and see yourself. 466 01:06:16,987 --> 01:06:20,288 Puraisu-shacho, you'd better take a look at this. 467 01:06:20,290 --> 01:06:21,623 I'm busy here. 468 01:06:21,625 --> 01:06:22,889 It's rejecting the treatment, attacking 469 01:06:22,891 --> 01:06:23,860 like an invading army. 470 01:06:31,900 --> 01:06:32,800 This isn't right. 471 01:06:32,802 --> 01:06:33,835 We have to stop this. 472 01:06:50,819 --> 01:06:52,820 It's working beautifully. 473 01:06:55,558 --> 01:06:56,824 Go on, Son. 474 01:06:56,826 --> 01:06:58,826 Accept it. 475 01:06:58,828 --> 01:06:59,730 Accept it. 476 01:07:05,435 --> 01:07:07,402 This is what you call working? 477 01:07:07,404 --> 01:07:10,438 This is monstrous. 478 01:07:10,440 --> 01:07:11,838 We have to help him. 479 01:08:00,422 --> 01:08:02,725 What a beautiful delusion I lived in. 480 01:08:10,699 --> 01:08:11,467 I had no idea. 481 01:08:17,741 --> 01:08:19,877 I summoned you thinking that I would be safe. 482 01:08:24,781 --> 01:08:28,149 When I saw you, I ran. 483 01:08:28,151 --> 01:08:30,087 I ran to the edges of my own reality. 484 01:08:33,522 --> 01:08:41,662 I ran to the place that I never knew existed, the place where 485 01:08:41,664 --> 01:08:42,433 I would find myself. 486 01:08:45,435 --> 01:08:51,572 And I hid there for a while, in plain sight. 487 01:08:51,574 --> 01:08:56,711 I must have looked like a madman, overtaken 488 01:08:56,713 --> 01:08:59,116 with fear and grief. 489 01:09:03,719 --> 01:09:07,054 You had to go. 490 01:09:07,056 --> 01:09:11,492 You had to go far away to forget what I saw 491 01:09:11,494 --> 01:09:16,130 and what I felt, and everything and everyone associated 492 01:09:16,132 --> 01:09:29,042 to that, and create a new reality because, you see, 493 01:09:29,044 --> 01:09:30,246 you destroyed my old one. 494 01:09:34,116 --> 01:09:35,785 So there was no going back. 495 01:09:39,856 --> 01:09:43,457 How have we changed ourselves? 496 01:09:43,459 --> 01:09:45,529 From one thing into another. 497 01:09:48,664 --> 01:09:54,668 I think the first step is to allow our mind 498 01:09:54,670 --> 01:09:59,674 to ponder the possibility that we may be nothing at all. 499 01:09:59,676 --> 01:10:03,510 That what we think we are is actually 500 01:10:03,512 --> 01:10:10,150 a projection, a projection of a fractured ego, 501 01:10:10,152 --> 01:10:11,855 a projection of a damaged mind. 502 01:10:17,960 --> 01:10:20,060 Failing to gorge your senses 503 01:10:20,062 --> 01:10:22,762 from the social contagion, picking meat 504 01:10:22,764 --> 01:10:25,899 from the incisors of hellhounds. 505 01:10:25,901 --> 01:10:30,604 So we're mixing herbs between our toes as lightning strikes 506 01:10:30,606 --> 01:10:35,076 to reboot your antiquated IBM desktop computer, 507 01:10:35,078 --> 01:10:39,046 and finally give you something older to die for. 508 01:11:37,173 --> 01:11:39,340 But there was very little that 509 01:11:39,342 --> 01:11:40,544 was original in my life. 510 01:11:45,815 --> 01:11:47,247 Everything was stolen from the moment 511 01:11:47,249 --> 01:11:49,151 that I had seen somewhere before. 512 01:11:52,855 --> 01:11:59,827 It made me feel comfortable. 513 01:11:59,829 --> 01:12:05,800 It made me feel connected. 514 01:12:05,802 --> 01:12:11,171 It made me feel in control of my destiny. 515 01:12:11,173 --> 01:12:13,808 His name-- his name-- his name-- 516 01:12:13,810 --> 01:12:26,854 you see, back then I thought that that was what power was, 517 01:12:26,856 --> 01:12:28,292 to control the world around you. 518 01:12:33,396 --> 01:12:39,367 I feel like I'm meeting myself everywhere I go. 519 01:12:39,369 --> 01:12:42,970 It can be daunting. 520 01:12:42,972 --> 01:12:43,970 It can be lonely. 521 01:13:12,869 --> 01:13:14,135 I am the vessel. 522 01:13:14,137 --> 01:13:20,277 Yet I'm always running from that vessel. 523 01:13:25,213 --> 01:13:33,386 And in that and all that big story, life-- 524 01:13:33,388 --> 01:13:43,633 life seems to find me and embrace me, but I fight it. 525 01:13:43,633 --> 01:13:49,970 life seems to find me and embrace me, but I fight it. 526 01:13:49,972 --> 01:13:51,273 I never give in. 527 01:13:54,343 --> 01:13:56,743 And as I do, I sink deeper into it. 528 01:14:36,451 --> 01:14:38,187 So there was no going back. 529 01:14:45,128 --> 01:14:53,000 The problem with the truth is that once you know the truth 530 01:14:53,002 --> 01:14:56,170 you can't unknow it. 531 01:14:56,172 --> 01:14:59,540 It will haunt you. 532 01:14:59,542 --> 01:15:06,012 You will see it in everything, and it will consume you. 533 01:15:45,221 --> 01:15:55,261 You see, I, like you, I came into this world fighting, 534 01:15:55,263 --> 01:15:59,099 fighting to exist, fighting to stay in existence. 535 01:16:25,594 --> 01:16:27,161 Oh my god. 536 01:16:39,075 --> 01:16:43,077 And for the first in life, 537 01:16:43,079 --> 01:16:49,049 in this experience that I call life, did-- did-- did I -- 538 01:16:49,051 --> 01:16:51,551 did I see myself being seen? 539 01:16:51,553 --> 01:16:52,653 Did I-- did I-- 540 01:16:52,655 --> 01:16:54,421 being saved? 541 01:16:54,423 --> 01:16:58,658 And your eyes looked at me. 542 01:16:58,660 --> 01:17:03,930 For the first time I felt the separation of myself-- 543 01:17:03,932 --> 01:17:07,134 looking back at me-- 544 01:17:07,136 --> 01:17:08,668 I was so scared. 545 01:17:08,670 --> 01:17:13,373 Close your eyes and listen. 546 01:17:13,375 --> 01:17:15,341 And in that life-- 547 01:17:15,343 --> 01:17:18,479 To hear the ocean. 548 01:17:18,481 --> 01:17:21,081 That life that I've been hiding from. 549 01:17:21,083 --> 01:17:23,917 Became you. 550 01:17:23,919 --> 01:17:28,225 Be baptised, son, and breathe in life. 551 01:17:31,326 --> 01:17:33,394 The water is a symbol and you will 552 01:17:33,396 --> 01:17:38,000 be reborn as the ripples travel across the surface. 553 01:17:41,437 --> 01:17:43,604 You will know the innocence and bliss you deserve. 554 01:17:55,584 --> 01:17:59,623 You'll start feeling less aware, less present. 555 01:18:03,325 --> 01:18:06,726 There will be no more growing. 556 01:18:06,728 --> 01:18:09,729 Not anymore. 557 01:18:09,731 --> 01:18:10,730 You're home. 558 01:18:41,664 --> 01:18:44,264 My baby. 559 01:18:44,266 --> 01:18:45,168 I'm here. 560 01:18:49,672 --> 01:18:50,671 I love you. 561 01:22:48,576 --> 01:22:53,247 I'm here to fix Kemet's last sun soaked proto-computer. 562 01:22:53,249 --> 01:22:56,649 I heard it sputtering out incomplete Communist Party word 563 01:22:56,651 --> 01:23:00,253 search results that'd skipped from digital fuzz, 564 01:23:00,255 --> 01:23:04,591 coughing out ghost red briefs, buffering mid-sentences, 565 01:23:04,593 --> 01:23:07,793 mind police come to feed. 566 01:23:07,795 --> 01:23:11,631 You buried the building blocks of stylish dissent, minced 567 01:23:11,633 --> 01:23:14,967 in the watermelon dance smoothie spill. 568 01:23:14,969 --> 01:23:19,973 Hand over your definition for e-vites, to orgy bathing, 569 01:23:19,975 --> 01:23:23,676 and the chance to be the single black friend 570 01:23:23,678 --> 01:23:27,980 to the sea of white merry-folk. 571 01:23:27,982 --> 01:23:32,885 Reselling dirty water with top freshly digested favelas. 572 01:23:32,887 --> 01:23:36,823 Running past improvised encampments. 573 01:23:36,825 --> 01:23:40,527 Radiating internet signals from polished teeth, 574 01:23:40,529 --> 01:23:45,564 producing genetically altered Pomeranians from phone apps. 575 01:23:45,566 --> 01:23:51,537 Making multi-million dollar mistakes every god damn day. 576 01:23:51,539 --> 01:23:54,373 Voicing updates on your pocket calculator 577 01:23:54,375 --> 01:23:56,842 from a bed of constructive criticisms. 578 01:23:56,844 --> 01:23:59,979 Sandwiches of repurposed ego meat, 579 01:23:59,981 --> 01:24:01,883 chewed into a personality disorder. 580 01:24:05,553 --> 01:24:08,654 Lime here to wipe the drive clean 581 01:24:08,656 --> 01:24:11,692 and reinstall the guts of your computer, 582 01:24:11,694 --> 01:24:15,528 as you have become the safe nigger, with a temperament 583 01:24:15,530 --> 01:24:19,599 that of an amicable butler, be-speckled and disarmed. 584 01:24:19,601 --> 01:24:21,801 Behind ulterior motives, your printer 585 01:24:21,803 --> 01:24:26,073 spits out sheets of acid, completely tripping. 586 01:24:26,075 --> 01:24:30,042 Failing to guard your senses from the social contagion, 587 01:24:30,044 --> 01:24:33,713 picking meat from the incisors of hellhounds. 588 01:24:33,715 --> 01:24:38,385 So we're mixing herbs between our toes as lightning strikes 589 01:24:38,387 --> 01:24:43,090 to reboot your antiquated IBM desktop computer 590 01:24:43,092 --> 01:24:46,462 and finally give you something older to die for. 591 01:24:53,401 --> 01:24:54,670 Free Black Press. 592 01:24:57,740 --> 01:24:59,976 I don't write rhymes, I write code. 593 01:25:03,011 --> 01:25:08,547 We went to the Grammys to be dubbed the King of Niggers. 594 01:25:08,549 --> 01:25:12,418 Spin dunking above gourmet chicken. 595 01:25:12,420 --> 01:25:14,755 Screaming street names and sports 596 01:25:14,757 --> 01:25:18,658 coverage of police shootings. 597 01:25:18,660 --> 01:25:20,760 We're all surprised you took the time away 598 01:25:20,762 --> 01:25:26,565 from spearhead sharpening and dice game refereeing to accept. 599 01:25:26,567 --> 01:25:31,470 Your hand slick with the blood of fragile, young white women, 600 01:25:31,472 --> 01:25:34,975 pulverized under your concept. 601 01:25:34,977 --> 01:25:37,411 There are imaginary emotional triggers 602 01:25:37,413 --> 01:25:42,549 howling at the moral barometer. 603 01:25:42,551 --> 01:25:44,784 Exploding screams on the cell walls 604 01:25:44,786 --> 01:25:47,787 of a militarized touchy subject. 605 01:25:47,789 --> 01:25:52,993 You are dangerous and need to be defanged before you can be cast 606 01:25:52,995 --> 01:25:55,595 in the multi-cultural milieu. 607 01:25:55,597 --> 01:26:00,833 So kneel or die broke. 608 01:26:00,835 --> 01:26:03,202 Your Grammy is placed on a clean mantel 609 01:26:03,204 --> 01:26:06,806 as snipers flick fingernails and tip jars, 610 01:26:06,808 --> 01:26:09,208 choke chains around oversight panels. 611 01:26:09,210 --> 01:26:13,212 Bullets stacking up in dressing rooms. 612 01:26:13,214 --> 01:26:15,215 Shine it. 613 01:26:15,217 --> 01:26:18,784 Make it the touch tone to your cosmopolitan chugging. 614 01:26:18,786 --> 01:26:21,188 Lizard tongues licking glowing teeth, 615 01:26:21,190 --> 01:26:25,158 as bubbledy blood splashes behind them. 616 01:26:25,160 --> 01:26:28,060 Make it the badges of your success. 617 01:26:28,062 --> 01:26:30,162 Make it the end of your struggle. 618 01:26:30,164 --> 01:26:34,234 Unhook your jaw and hand it to your sponsor. 619 01:26:34,236 --> 01:26:36,439 Toss your genitals to the European doctors. 620 01:26:39,508 --> 01:26:39,876 And cry aloud.