1 00:00:08,509 --> 00:00:13,481 * 2 00:00:27,061 --> 00:00:41,942 * 3 00:00:41,975 --> 00:00:56,924 * 4 00:00:56,924 --> 00:01:01,962 * 5 00:01:01,995 --> 00:01:10,871 * 6 00:01:25,419 --> 00:01:27,655 Hey, Lisa. 7 00:01:30,057 --> 00:01:32,660 How you doin'? 8 00:01:32,693 --> 00:01:35,396 Can I ask you a question real quick? 9 00:01:35,429 --> 00:01:38,532 Are your new neighbors real nice? 10 00:01:47,575 --> 00:01:49,410 Hi. 11 00:01:49,443 --> 00:01:51,512 I don't want to invade your privacy... 12 00:01:51,545 --> 00:01:52,180 -Mm-hm. ...but my name 13 00:01:52,213 --> 00:01:54,114 is Cheryl Sanford. 14 00:01:54,148 --> 00:01:55,383 I grew up in this house. 15 00:01:58,752 --> 00:02:00,854 I lived here my whole life. 16 00:02:00,888 --> 00:02:01,755 Last couple weeks, 17 00:02:01,789 --> 00:02:03,657 I've been meeting a lot of neighbors, 18 00:02:03,691 --> 00:02:04,825 and her name comes up a lot, 19 00:02:04,858 --> 00:02:06,126 I think a lot of people remember you. 20 00:02:06,160 --> 00:02:07,695 That's sweet. 21 00:02:07,728 --> 00:02:09,530 'Cause they were good people, they are-- 22 00:02:09,563 --> 00:02:11,165 you have some-- you have some good people. 23 00:02:14,535 --> 00:02:16,704 You know, having Mom, 24 00:02:16,737 --> 00:02:20,140 seeing her washing dishes, you know. 25 00:02:20,174 --> 00:02:24,212 Cookin' dinner, you know. 26 00:02:24,245 --> 00:02:25,713 You know. 27 00:02:25,746 --> 00:02:27,681 But I thought I was gonna get a chance 28 00:02:27,715 --> 00:02:31,151 to be a grandma like that too. 29 00:02:31,185 --> 00:02:33,153 You never know. 30 00:02:33,187 --> 00:02:35,656 Life is funny, it is. 31 00:02:35,689 --> 00:02:40,728 * 32 00:02:40,761 --> 00:02:43,631 You know, mm... 33 00:02:43,664 --> 00:02:45,699 * 34 00:02:48,202 --> 00:02:51,772 * 35 00:02:51,805 --> 00:02:58,045 My actions caused a chain reaction 36 00:02:58,078 --> 00:03:02,115 and put things in motion that should not have been. 37 00:03:02,149 --> 00:03:07,621 * 38 00:03:07,655 --> 00:03:10,658 Everything that was about to take place 39 00:03:10,691 --> 00:03:13,794 changed in one night. 40 00:03:16,664 --> 00:03:21,201 * 41 00:03:23,237 --> 00:03:29,843 * 42 00:03:29,877 --> 00:03:31,779 He loved his family, 43 00:03:31,812 --> 00:03:35,816 he would do anything for his family. 44 00:03:35,849 --> 00:03:38,085 And I just wish that I coulda told him 45 00:03:38,118 --> 00:03:40,888 that I love him, 'cause I do love him. 46 00:03:40,921 --> 00:03:52,099 * 47 00:03:52,132 --> 00:03:56,770 -Put it on his head, shawty! -Hey, you gonna take that? 48 00:03:56,804 --> 00:03:59,239 -Hey! -Run it, run it, run it! 49 00:03:59,273 --> 00:04:03,611 -No, you got the ball... -I missed it! 50 00:04:03,644 --> 00:04:04,745 -Oh my... -You missed! 51 00:04:04,778 --> 00:04:08,616 Hey. Hey! 52 00:04:08,649 --> 00:04:10,718 What'd I tell you? 53 00:04:10,751 --> 00:04:11,985 What'd I tell you? 54 00:04:12,019 --> 00:04:14,788 What'd I tell you? Ball, please. 55 00:04:21,295 --> 00:04:22,262 What y'all got? 56 00:04:22,296 --> 00:04:24,332 What y'all got? 57 00:04:24,365 --> 00:04:27,167 -Fourteen. -Him and you. Come on. 58 00:04:27,200 --> 00:04:29,637 -And me! -Fourteen now! 59 00:04:29,670 --> 00:04:30,804 Fourteen now, we gotta do something! 60 00:04:30,838 --> 00:04:31,872 Get your man, Tim, get your man, 61 00:04:31,905 --> 00:04:33,941 keep it tight! 62 00:04:33,974 --> 00:04:35,309 Damn! 63 00:04:37,010 --> 00:04:38,746 Now that's 15, man. 64 00:04:41,782 --> 00:04:44,718 * 65 00:04:44,752 --> 00:04:45,786 No Tim Hardaway. 66 00:04:45,819 --> 00:04:48,055 * 67 00:04:48,088 --> 00:04:50,824 * But he never even... 68 00:04:50,858 --> 00:04:52,225 Put it up, baby! 69 00:04:52,259 --> 00:04:53,894 * 70 00:04:53,927 --> 00:04:56,930 -Come on, girls. -Lemme see that. 71 00:04:56,964 --> 00:04:58,699 It's my turn, it's still my turn. 72 00:04:58,732 --> 00:05:01,301 * 73 00:05:15,716 --> 00:05:22,356 * 74 00:05:25,292 --> 00:05:40,207 * 75 00:05:40,240 --> 00:05:41,341 * 76 00:05:45,178 --> 00:05:47,781 My family and I are from Washington, DC. 77 00:05:47,815 --> 00:05:51,385 * 78 00:05:51,419 --> 00:05:53,353 In the summer of 1999, 79 00:05:53,387 --> 00:05:55,288 we lived on Kentucky Avenue. 80 00:05:55,322 --> 00:05:59,092 * 81 00:05:59,126 --> 00:06:01,929 We had to move around a lot before that. 82 00:06:01,962 --> 00:06:04,832 * 83 00:06:04,865 --> 00:06:07,167 But eventually, we lucked up 84 00:06:07,200 --> 00:06:08,869 and came into a very good situation 85 00:06:08,902 --> 00:06:10,303 for all of us. 86 00:06:10,337 --> 00:06:20,080 * 87 00:06:20,113 --> 00:06:22,883 My name is Cheryl, C-H-E-R-Y-L, 88 00:06:22,916 --> 00:06:29,957 Denice Catherine Cashwell Alizea Santiago Sanford. 89 00:06:29,990 --> 00:06:32,793 That's my name. 90 00:06:32,826 --> 00:06:34,161 Cashwell is my maiden name; 91 00:06:34,194 --> 00:06:35,796 Catherine is my confirmation name; 92 00:06:35,829 --> 00:06:36,664 Denice is my middle name, 93 00:06:40,868 --> 00:06:42,202 One of her daughters or something? 94 00:06:42,235 --> 00:06:47,107 -Yeah? 'Scuse me? -Look, this thing says-- 95 00:06:47,140 --> 00:06:51,945 this thing says 16 problems--I mean... 96 00:06:51,979 --> 00:06:53,847 -It says... -...32 problems, 97 00:06:53,881 --> 00:06:55,983 -but I only see 16. -"...math book, page 250, 98 00:06:56,016 --> 00:06:58,285 first 32 problems, 99 00:06:58,318 --> 00:07:01,722 reading handout and spelling definitions." 100 00:07:01,755 --> 00:07:05,225 The first 32 problems on page 250. 101 00:07:05,258 --> 00:07:06,894 Sixteen and sixteen, that's thirty-two. 102 00:07:06,927 --> 00:07:09,863 You gotta do these and these. 103 00:07:09,897 --> 00:07:11,431 Yeah. 104 00:07:11,465 --> 00:07:14,768 I got a lot of homework. 105 00:07:14,802 --> 00:07:17,838 Uh, this is actually my video, 106 00:07:17,871 --> 00:07:20,474 and this is the only reason I host this show, so... 107 00:07:31,051 --> 00:07:32,820 Smurf, that's my firstborn son. 108 00:07:32,853 --> 00:07:34,922 Akil James Sanford. 109 00:07:34,955 --> 00:07:37,825 He was born 11/24/83. 110 00:07:37,858 --> 00:07:40,327 I have Denice Shamel Durant, 111 00:07:40,360 --> 00:07:43,897 and she was born August the 20th, 1987. 112 00:07:43,931 --> 00:07:46,867 And then I have Emmanuel Durant Jr., 113 00:07:46,900 --> 00:07:49,837 and he was born January the 14th, 1990. 114 00:07:49,870 --> 00:07:51,539 "Akil" means "to think with reason." 115 00:07:51,572 --> 00:07:54,207 "Denice" means "dear one," 116 00:07:54,241 --> 00:07:56,076 and "Emmanuel" means "child of God." 117 00:08:18,331 --> 00:08:19,600 -Smurf! -What? 118 00:08:19,633 --> 00:08:21,301 Come here! 119 00:08:23,704 --> 00:08:25,038 Look. 120 00:08:28,441 --> 00:08:33,013 You could record yourself. 121 00:08:33,046 --> 00:08:33,614 How'd you do that, man? 122 00:08:37,484 --> 00:08:40,020 That make it better. 123 00:08:41,755 --> 00:08:43,490 Yeah, that's it right there. 124 00:08:43,523 --> 00:08:46,794 Oh. 125 00:08:46,827 --> 00:08:50,731 My name is Emmanuel, I'm nine. 126 00:08:50,764 --> 00:08:53,433 My subject is math and reading, 127 00:08:53,466 --> 00:08:55,502 English, social studies, 128 00:08:55,535 --> 00:09:00,741 PE, and talking on the phone. 129 00:09:00,774 --> 00:09:04,945 Playing basketball, and I'm a superstar. 130 00:09:04,978 --> 00:09:07,114 Yeah! 131 00:09:07,147 --> 00:09:11,585 Mm...and my other favorite thing is... 132 00:09:11,619 --> 00:09:15,455 is just eatin' good food, ah! 133 00:09:15,488 --> 00:09:22,029 * 134 00:09:31,805 --> 00:09:34,808 Man, get that outta my face, man! 135 00:09:34,842 --> 00:09:37,611 My brother, he's not in school. 136 00:09:37,645 --> 00:09:39,947 I'm in school, I'm doing fine. 137 00:09:39,980 --> 00:09:42,515 Denice, she's in school, she's doing fine, 138 00:09:42,549 --> 00:09:44,685 but she always skip first period. 139 00:09:44,718 --> 00:09:48,789 Turn it upside down... cheese! 140 00:09:48,822 --> 00:09:50,390 And that's a picture of 141 00:09:50,423 --> 00:09:53,393 my brother, my sister, and me. 142 00:10:01,534 --> 00:10:04,137 She's the one that spoiled me. 143 00:10:11,078 --> 00:10:12,780 You know who she is? 144 00:10:12,813 --> 00:10:13,647 I mean, she is gorgeous. 145 00:10:16,717 --> 00:10:18,686 -I think she's so pretty. -That's you. 146 00:10:18,719 --> 00:10:20,153 That's not me! 147 00:10:20,187 --> 00:10:22,856 That's you! 148 00:10:22,890 --> 00:10:26,059 'Cause you got that shirt in your closet. 149 00:10:27,961 --> 00:10:30,731 I was raised in Northeast Washington, 150 00:10:30,764 --> 00:10:33,000 in a very nice part of Washington. 151 00:10:33,033 --> 00:10:35,502 Middle class, lower middle class, whatever, 152 00:10:35,535 --> 00:10:36,937 government worker family. 153 00:10:36,970 --> 00:10:38,505 I went to private school. 154 00:10:38,538 --> 00:10:39,940 I went to an elite junior high, 155 00:10:39,973 --> 00:10:43,576 which was like an uppity school called Gordon. 156 00:11:08,635 --> 00:11:10,537 I'm on my way now. 157 00:11:13,606 --> 00:11:15,876 * 158 00:11:15,909 --> 00:11:18,245 I always dreamed of being a movie star 159 00:11:18,278 --> 00:11:20,781 or an actress, a model, entertainer. 160 00:11:20,814 --> 00:11:24,617 * 161 00:11:24,651 --> 00:11:26,553 My mother kept telling me I was gonna be a teacher, 162 00:11:26,586 --> 00:11:27,988 but in my mind, 163 00:11:28,021 --> 00:11:30,123 I was gonna be a Marilyn Monroe. 164 00:11:30,157 --> 00:11:32,259 * 165 00:11:32,292 --> 00:11:34,561 But unfortunately, 166 00:11:34,594 --> 00:11:35,863 life had different plans for me. 167 00:11:35,896 --> 00:11:41,769 * 168 00:12:02,655 --> 00:12:04,524 They're books that you can read. 169 00:12:04,557 --> 00:12:06,794 Ooh! Y'all say thank you? 170 00:12:06,827 --> 00:12:08,661 -Thank you, Granddaddy. -Thank you, Granddaddy. 171 00:12:15,702 --> 00:12:17,838 Can you see us? 172 00:12:17,871 --> 00:12:19,973 Hi! 173 00:12:20,007 --> 00:12:21,708 What is the strangest set of breasts 174 00:12:21,741 --> 00:12:23,543 you've ever seen on this beach? 175 00:12:25,745 --> 00:12:27,815 * 176 00:12:27,848 --> 00:12:30,117 -I don't know. -He's at a loss for words. 177 00:12:30,150 --> 00:12:32,585 Okay, lemme ask you the biggest that you've seen. 178 00:12:32,619 --> 00:12:35,122 Was it that double-D that you were talkin' about? 179 00:12:35,155 --> 00:12:36,824 - Yeah, these old. - But were they down 180 00:12:36,857 --> 00:12:37,858 or did they have a little bit of firmness 181 00:12:37,891 --> 00:12:39,726 -to 'em? -Nah, no firmness, 182 00:12:39,759 --> 00:12:41,261 you see some nasty-ass watermelons out here. 183 00:12:41,294 --> 00:12:42,695 So that's not just me, though, 184 00:12:42,729 --> 00:12:44,031 you don't want nasty watermelons. 185 00:12:44,064 --> 00:12:46,633 I feel you on that, man, can't be mad at you. 186 00:12:46,666 --> 00:12:48,802 A big, big, big breast man. 187 00:12:48,836 --> 00:12:50,971 She fine as shit. 188 00:12:51,004 --> 00:12:53,706 That's the only reason why I gave her the 8. 189 00:12:53,740 --> 00:12:56,977 'Cause she looks all good. 190 00:12:57,010 --> 00:13:00,080 -I put 8? -I can see about Chantelle 191 00:13:00,113 --> 00:13:02,883 -of being the 8. -I ain't fuck Chantelle. 192 00:13:02,916 --> 00:13:05,152 I ain't fuck Chantelle, I ain't fuck Chantelle. 193 00:13:05,185 --> 00:13:07,587 I ain't fucking girls out front, you know? 194 00:13:07,620 --> 00:13:09,356 But I ain't fuckin' her, you ain't never seen her. 195 00:13:09,389 --> 00:13:12,225 It would be an 8 or nah, I gotta-- 196 00:13:12,259 --> 00:13:15,762 I gotta cross that out, 'cause she ugly. 197 00:13:15,795 --> 00:13:17,297 The six and a half. 198 00:13:17,330 --> 00:13:21,568 * 199 00:13:29,009 --> 00:13:34,982 * 200 00:13:35,015 --> 00:13:38,919 I never knew it was that hard to raise children. 201 00:13:38,952 --> 00:13:41,121 But then, I came up with a mom and a dad, 202 00:13:41,154 --> 00:13:43,190 and they're coming up with a single parent. 203 00:13:43,223 --> 00:13:44,757 So it's a big difference, I guess. 204 00:13:44,791 --> 00:13:46,693 I don't know. 205 00:13:49,362 --> 00:13:55,135 * 206 00:13:55,168 --> 00:13:57,971 Here you go, right here. 207 00:13:58,005 --> 00:14:00,040 I met his, like, sisters and cousins. 208 00:14:00,073 --> 00:14:02,742 I met his side of my family or whatever, 209 00:14:02,775 --> 00:14:05,012 and they say I act like him and I resemble him and stuff. 210 00:14:05,045 --> 00:14:07,881 * 211 00:14:17,958 --> 00:14:19,826 But just like same thing happened 212 00:14:19,859 --> 00:14:21,895 and his father got killed, too. 213 00:14:21,929 --> 00:14:25,999 I can't make-- it make me sad, but I wasn't... 214 00:14:26,033 --> 00:14:27,767 I can see if it happened to me 215 00:14:27,800 --> 00:14:28,835 when I was old enough to understand, 216 00:14:28,868 --> 00:14:30,437 but I wasn't, so. 217 00:14:30,470 --> 00:14:31,304 I only hear what my mother told me, 218 00:14:33,941 --> 00:14:36,643 * 219 00:14:42,983 --> 00:14:44,817 In the kitchen, it's a big-- 220 00:14:44,851 --> 00:14:48,855 it's a big argument goin' on with a lot of smoke. 221 00:14:48,888 --> 00:14:52,825 Woo! Look at this kitchen. 222 00:14:52,859 --> 00:14:54,794 Woo! 223 00:14:54,827 --> 00:14:56,829 Look at this kitchen. 224 00:14:56,863 --> 00:14:58,999 * 225 00:14:59,032 --> 00:15:00,968 Joe is somewhat like me, 226 00:15:01,001 --> 00:15:04,037 someone that had experienced a lot of pain in his life, 227 00:15:04,071 --> 00:15:07,874 and I really thought that him and I were going to 228 00:15:07,907 --> 00:15:12,845 live the life that him and I both thought was correct. 229 00:15:12,879 --> 00:15:14,714 What's your favorite thing? 230 00:15:21,021 --> 00:15:23,790 And I was searching for someone to be a father figure 231 00:15:23,823 --> 00:15:26,059 for my children. 232 00:15:29,362 --> 00:15:41,874 * 233 00:15:45,212 --> 00:15:46,879 Don't come up here with that camera. 234 00:15:46,913 --> 00:15:49,249 Take--go back downstairs. 235 00:15:49,282 --> 00:15:52,719 Why is you--go back down-- I'm gonna throw somethin'. 236 00:15:55,088 --> 00:15:56,423 Go back downstairs. 237 00:16:01,494 --> 00:16:03,230 Who is you talking to? 238 00:16:03,263 --> 00:16:06,866 Oh. You better be talking to her and not me. 239 00:16:06,899 --> 00:16:09,469 If you was talkin' to me, you woulda got straight slapped. 240 00:16:13,973 --> 00:16:16,843 No, your ass goin' home, Shayna. 241 00:16:16,876 --> 00:16:18,878 Your ass needs to go home. 242 00:16:26,253 --> 00:16:29,056 Shayna, who we have homework from? 243 00:16:42,535 --> 00:16:45,805 It's hard 244 00:16:45,838 --> 00:16:48,541 knowing that they know 245 00:16:48,575 --> 00:16:51,944 what she does, you know? 246 00:16:51,978 --> 00:16:55,082 I wanna be the difference in her life. 247 00:16:55,115 --> 00:17:00,053 I wanna be the reason for her to get herself together. 248 00:17:00,087 --> 00:17:01,588 And it's not her fault, you know? 249 00:17:01,621 --> 00:17:03,290 I do fucked-up shit. 250 00:17:03,323 --> 00:17:06,126 I'm still on drugs, uh, I still drink, 251 00:17:06,159 --> 00:17:09,296 I still do things I'm not supposed to do. 252 00:17:09,329 --> 00:17:10,963 But I thought Cheryl was my answer. 253 00:17:27,614 --> 00:17:33,453 * 254 00:17:38,391 --> 00:17:41,394 It's just gonna make you just get out the trouble, 255 00:17:41,428 --> 00:17:43,896 make you get out-- it's gonna make you drop out, 256 00:17:43,930 --> 00:17:46,799 make you a failure and stuff 257 00:17:46,833 --> 00:17:48,568 and you don't wanna be a failure. 258 00:17:48,601 --> 00:17:51,771 You wanna go to college and get you a great job, 259 00:17:51,804 --> 00:17:55,375 making 400 or 600 or 1,000 or, like, 260 00:17:55,408 --> 00:17:59,646 a million dollars every week or every month. 261 00:17:59,679 --> 00:18:03,416 I'll be having me two grand probably every week 262 00:18:03,450 --> 00:18:04,584 or every month. 263 00:18:04,617 --> 00:18:06,853 I'll be living in me a castle. 264 00:18:06,886 --> 00:18:09,356 They'll be knocking on my door for food. 265 00:18:09,389 --> 00:18:10,056 -Go on. -What's the problem? 266 00:18:15,495 --> 00:18:17,597 Get away from-- get away from me, 267 00:18:17,630 --> 00:18:19,399 I don't want you to hold me! 268 00:18:19,432 --> 00:18:20,767 -I'm gonna hold you. -And I don't want you to hold me 269 00:18:20,800 --> 00:18:23,002 and I don't need you to hold me! 270 00:18:23,035 --> 00:18:24,837 Joe, leave me alone. 271 00:18:24,871 --> 00:18:26,806 -Just calm down. -Just leave me alone! 272 00:18:26,839 --> 00:18:28,808 -Just calm down. -Didn't I say leave me alone? 273 00:18:28,841 --> 00:18:31,478 I just want you to calm down. 274 00:18:31,511 --> 00:18:33,146 A'ight? Just give me ten seconds, 275 00:18:33,180 --> 00:18:35,615 just count to ten. 276 00:18:35,648 --> 00:18:37,617 Joe, I told you. 277 00:18:37,650 --> 00:18:40,620 I don't need you around, okay? 278 00:18:40,653 --> 00:18:41,954 -And I meant that. -She don't understand 279 00:18:41,988 --> 00:18:45,091 -somebody loves her. -You love me? 280 00:18:45,124 --> 00:18:45,525 You love me? 281 00:18:47,126 --> 00:18:47,694 on the steps? 282 00:18:49,596 --> 00:18:50,830 a minute ago, right? 283 00:18:50,863 --> 00:18:52,565 -You love me. -I didn't hit you. 284 00:18:52,599 --> 00:18:56,669 Well, you ain't going to. 285 00:18:56,703 --> 00:18:59,572 -You gonna learn something... -Film that knife in her hands... 286 00:18:59,606 --> 00:19:01,741 -Yeah, film it, film it. -...please, get it on film. 287 00:19:01,774 --> 00:19:03,743 'Cause I'm gon' fucking cut your goddamned throat. 288 00:19:03,776 --> 00:19:06,679 That's what's gon' happen. 289 00:19:06,713 --> 00:19:07,914 Either you gonna grow the fuck up 290 00:19:07,947 --> 00:19:10,583 and act like you're 37, or you--you can-- 291 00:19:10,617 --> 00:19:12,552 you can get it on tape. 292 00:19:12,585 --> 00:19:16,856 I got a scar in my head and papers at the hospital. 293 00:19:16,889 --> 00:19:19,892 The kids know that we're not living right. 294 00:19:19,926 --> 00:19:22,695 We--what I'm saying-- we're not livin' right. 295 00:19:22,729 --> 00:19:24,497 'Cause I'm a part of this, 296 00:19:24,531 --> 00:19:26,999 because I condone it. 297 00:19:27,033 --> 00:19:30,670 If I'm not part of the answer, I'm part of the problem. 298 00:19:34,073 --> 00:19:44,150 * 299 00:19:48,755 --> 00:19:51,224 Okay. I'm gonna let you out. 300 00:20:08,741 --> 00:20:10,543 I don't understand, man. 301 00:20:10,577 --> 00:20:16,983 * 302 00:20:17,016 --> 00:20:20,119 She's a stupid motherfucker sometimes. 303 00:20:27,660 --> 00:20:34,601 * 304 00:20:34,634 --> 00:20:36,469 I'm lazy, man,. 305 00:20:39,238 --> 00:20:43,610 Aww, you lie like shit, dog, you're a liar. 306 00:20:43,643 --> 00:20:46,579 -Lie about what? Cleanin'? -Knife, watch the knife. 307 00:20:46,613 --> 00:20:48,014 Cleanin'? 308 00:20:51,684 --> 00:20:55,021 * 309 00:20:55,054 --> 00:20:56,789 That's what I'm saying... 310 00:20:56,823 --> 00:20:58,691 , start all over. 311 00:21:15,742 --> 00:21:17,544 At five years old, 312 00:21:17,577 --> 00:21:20,847 I started trying to teach Smurf not to do drugs. 313 00:21:20,880 --> 00:21:24,684 And then, when he turned around 15, 314 00:21:24,717 --> 00:21:26,953 he wanted to drop out of school, which he did, 315 00:21:26,986 --> 00:21:31,123 and he wanted to get into the life. 316 00:21:31,157 --> 00:21:33,693 And I can't blame Smurf for being in the life, 317 00:21:33,726 --> 00:21:35,795 because I exposed the life to him. 318 00:21:35,828 --> 00:21:40,232 * 319 00:22:09,128 --> 00:22:12,365 -Damn, punk, nice push-off. -I pushed you off? 320 00:22:12,399 --> 00:22:15,034 I just jumped in the way. 321 00:22:26,813 --> 00:22:29,682 -Catch him, yo. -What? 322 00:22:29,716 --> 00:22:31,851 Wait, man, I seen him... 323 00:22:35,822 --> 00:22:37,590 I don't have nothin'! 324 00:22:45,031 --> 00:22:59,946 * 325 00:22:59,979 --> 00:23:03,883 * 326 00:23:06,018 --> 00:23:08,821 Help! Help! 327 00:23:13,760 --> 00:23:18,397 Help! Help! Help! Help! 328 00:23:21,968 --> 00:23:31,377 * 329 00:23:31,410 --> 00:23:33,379 Yeah! 330 00:23:33,412 --> 00:23:37,784 * 331 00:23:37,817 --> 00:23:38,618 Hi, everybody, thank you for joining us. 332 00:23:38,651 --> 00:23:39,686 We're gonna start with the latest 333 00:23:39,719 --> 00:23:41,020 from Southeast DC, 334 00:23:41,053 --> 00:23:42,955 because that's where one man is dead 335 00:23:42,989 --> 00:23:46,092 and two others injured following gunfire overnight, 336 00:23:46,125 --> 00:23:47,827 and why neighbors are upset with the crime rate as well. 337 00:23:47,860 --> 00:23:49,696 Kevin. 338 00:25:11,177 --> 00:25:26,092 * 339 00:25:26,125 --> 00:25:26,926 * 340 00:25:26,959 --> 00:25:29,796 Hope. Hope? 341 00:25:29,829 --> 00:25:31,798 What about hope? 342 00:25:31,831 --> 00:25:35,067 Hope is real, hope is alive. 343 00:25:35,101 --> 00:25:37,904 We have hope; everyone has hope. 344 00:25:37,937 --> 00:25:42,274 I mean, that's what keeps this world going, functioning. 345 00:25:42,308 --> 00:25:44,310 Because, you know, like, you got things that get you down 346 00:25:44,343 --> 00:25:46,512 every day, and you got a lot of problems, 347 00:25:46,545 --> 00:25:47,079 you got a lot of pressure, 348 00:25:49,348 --> 00:25:51,918 you got a lot of dysfunctional things happen. 349 00:25:51,951 --> 00:25:54,954 But there's hope for tomorrow, there's hope for better. 350 00:25:54,987 --> 00:25:56,522 That's all we got. 351 00:25:56,555 --> 00:25:58,057 We know. 352 00:25:58,090 --> 00:25:59,225 As long as we keep that alive, 353 00:25:59,258 --> 00:26:00,827 as long as we keep hoping and praying, 354 00:26:00,860 --> 00:26:02,094 it works. 355 00:26:02,128 --> 00:26:06,899 You know, that's my thought. 356 00:26:06,933 --> 00:26:08,467 I believe in hope. 357 00:26:08,500 --> 00:26:18,310 * 358 00:26:26,152 --> 00:26:31,457 * 359 00:26:31,490 --> 00:26:35,795 * Many say that I'm too young 360 00:26:35,828 --> 00:26:42,869 * To let you know just where I'm coming from, yeah * 361 00:26:42,902 --> 00:26:44,937 * But you will see... 362 00:26:44,971 --> 00:26:47,506 When we first came here, they were surprised. 363 00:26:47,539 --> 00:26:48,975 It was like, "There's nothing to do 364 00:26:49,008 --> 00:26:50,677 in this neighborhood!" 365 00:26:50,710 --> 00:26:52,511 And I'm like, "Well, there's lots of things to do," 366 00:26:52,544 --> 00:26:53,846 you know? 367 00:26:53,880 --> 00:26:56,582 You can read, you know? 368 00:26:56,615 --> 00:27:00,552 They have a rec center, there's lots of things to do. 369 00:27:00,586 --> 00:27:02,722 * ...of ghetto life 370 00:27:02,755 --> 00:27:06,659 * Everyone is so uptight, yeah, yeah * 371 00:27:06,693 --> 00:27:11,731 * Nothing's wrong, it's alright, my man * 372 00:27:11,764 --> 00:27:13,632 I just like the area, 373 00:27:13,666 --> 00:27:16,803 it's peaceful and quiet and, you know, 374 00:27:16,836 --> 00:27:19,806 there wasn't anyone on the corners, you know, 375 00:27:19,839 --> 00:27:22,942 so I'm happy with it. 376 00:27:22,975 --> 00:27:26,612 * Givin' him something he can feel * 377 00:27:26,645 --> 00:27:29,916 * Giving him, giving him, giving him, giving him * 378 00:27:46,465 --> 00:27:47,599 Whoo! 379 00:28:28,941 --> 00:28:30,777 It is not fun cooking. 380 00:28:30,810 --> 00:28:32,711 It really isn't. 381 00:28:56,602 --> 00:28:57,804 That is so hot. 382 00:29:04,643 --> 00:29:06,946 Now that I have a child, it's so different. 383 00:29:06,979 --> 00:29:09,115 There's no more just getting up and leaving 384 00:29:09,148 --> 00:29:11,250 and going to do what I want. 385 00:29:11,283 --> 00:29:12,952 'Cause I have to find babysitters 386 00:29:12,985 --> 00:29:14,620 and all types of that stuff. 387 00:29:14,653 --> 00:29:18,090 It's the same, just a little bit different. 388 00:29:18,124 --> 00:29:20,126 Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa, I know I didn't just 389 00:29:20,159 --> 00:29:21,593 make this for nothing. 390 00:29:21,627 --> 00:29:22,929 You better eat this, come here. 391 00:29:22,962 --> 00:29:24,263 Look, you can't do it yourself. 392 00:29:24,296 --> 00:29:27,533 Look, you gonna make a big, big mess, oh. 393 00:29:27,566 --> 00:29:29,101 Come sit at the table, I knew that's what it was. 394 00:29:29,135 --> 00:29:32,805 You was really thinking you a big boy now. 395 00:29:43,682 --> 00:29:45,818 -What are you doing? -Myself. 396 00:29:49,221 --> 00:29:51,257 * 397 00:29:51,290 --> 00:29:53,259 When Justin was first born, 398 00:29:53,292 --> 00:29:55,962 Emmanuel, he adopted him as his own. 399 00:29:55,995 --> 00:29:57,897 That was his child. 400 00:30:01,667 --> 00:30:04,303 Being that Justin's father doesn't help him 401 00:30:04,336 --> 00:30:06,072 or doesn't be in his life, 402 00:30:06,105 --> 00:30:08,640 Emmanuel, he's a very good positive role model 403 00:30:08,674 --> 00:30:13,579 and a father figure to Justin. 404 00:30:13,612 --> 00:30:15,247 You driving us? 405 00:30:18,684 --> 00:30:21,187 Oh, damn, y'all gotta get in the car. 406 00:30:21,220 --> 00:30:22,754 You scared? 407 00:30:22,788 --> 00:30:24,056 I ain't about to hold you! 408 00:30:24,090 --> 00:30:25,858 Boy, I am not gonna up and hold you, 409 00:30:25,892 --> 00:30:27,726 that is not gonna work. 410 00:30:27,759 --> 00:30:29,761 Uh-uh. 411 00:30:29,795 --> 00:30:31,663 Uh-uh, I can't do it! 412 00:30:31,697 --> 00:30:33,032 Come on, let's go in the house. 413 00:30:33,065 --> 00:30:34,666 'Cause you're going in the house, come on. 414 00:30:34,700 --> 00:30:36,335 Let's walk in the house, come on, go get Mamaw. 415 00:30:53,719 --> 00:30:55,888 Emmanuel really amazed everybody, 416 00:30:55,922 --> 00:30:57,689 'cause he got good grades. 417 00:30:57,723 --> 00:31:00,726 Especially with getting the scholarship. 418 00:31:00,759 --> 00:31:02,128 But the thing that did it, 419 00:31:02,161 --> 00:31:04,863 he met this girl that goes to John Carroll, 420 00:31:04,897 --> 00:31:06,098 to private school, 421 00:31:06,132 --> 00:31:07,934 and he's in love with her. 422 00:31:07,967 --> 00:31:10,036 And so, she's no-nonsense. 423 00:31:10,069 --> 00:31:14,106 She's about this big, she weighs about 85 pounds! 424 00:31:14,140 --> 00:31:15,841 Carmen, she's a sweet girl. 425 00:31:19,811 --> 00:31:22,982 This is Carmen Lolita Matthews Payne, 426 00:31:23,015 --> 00:31:24,716 this is Emmanuel's future wife, 427 00:31:24,750 --> 00:31:26,285 they're gonna get married and have ugly little 428 00:31:26,318 --> 00:31:28,820 big-head rodents. 429 00:31:28,854 --> 00:31:31,290 Why do you like Emmanuel? 430 00:31:31,323 --> 00:31:32,658 'Cause he's sweet. 431 00:31:34,793 --> 00:31:35,827 I don't know about he's sweet to his family, 432 00:31:35,861 --> 00:31:36,929 but he's nice to me. 433 00:31:42,334 --> 00:31:46,305 * 434 00:31:46,338 --> 00:31:48,007 -Justin! -Get over here. 435 00:31:48,040 --> 00:31:51,944 Get over here. Get over here. 436 00:31:51,978 --> 00:31:53,312 Get over here. 437 00:31:53,345 --> 00:31:54,746 Come here. 438 00:31:54,780 --> 00:31:57,449 * 439 00:31:57,483 --> 00:31:58,684 Emmanuel! 440 00:31:58,717 --> 00:31:59,851 How did we meet? 441 00:32:07,726 --> 00:32:09,962 He sent me a message or something like that. 442 00:32:09,996 --> 00:32:12,031 Don't laugh. 443 00:32:12,064 --> 00:32:13,099 And then people be like, 444 00:32:13,132 --> 00:32:15,434 "You know, you be getting killed and kidnapped," 445 00:32:15,467 --> 00:32:17,970 so I was like, "I hope not," I was scared. 446 00:32:18,004 --> 00:32:19,838 He looked a little crazy. 447 00:32:19,871 --> 00:32:21,173 My mother always tellin' me, 448 00:32:21,207 --> 00:32:22,941 "Don't be talking to nobody on Myspace!" 449 00:32:22,975 --> 00:32:25,177 But, you know, it's a place for friends! 450 00:32:25,211 --> 00:32:26,012 That's what it says: 451 00:32:28,847 --> 00:32:33,852 * 452 00:32:45,097 --> 00:32:47,033 -He do? -Yeah! 453 00:32:47,066 --> 00:32:48,434 Oh. 454 00:32:48,467 --> 00:32:50,336 I didn't know that. 455 00:32:50,369 --> 00:32:55,874 * 456 00:33:08,387 --> 00:33:10,889 Smurf has two children. 457 00:33:10,922 --> 00:33:13,892 Akil Jr.'s birthday is 3/19 458 00:33:13,925 --> 00:33:19,098 and Takel was born 9/15. 459 00:33:19,131 --> 00:33:22,934 Here we go. 460 00:33:42,121 --> 00:33:43,489 We wanna be comfortable 461 00:33:43,522 --> 00:33:45,357 and our conditions is uncomfortable, 462 00:33:45,391 --> 00:33:48,026 and when you uncomfortable, you make bad decisions. 463 00:33:48,060 --> 00:33:49,861 So that's what it is. 464 00:33:49,895 --> 00:33:52,131 These streets, man, they vicious. 465 00:33:52,164 --> 00:33:54,433 You know what they do? They soak your ass up. 466 00:33:59,605 --> 00:34:04,810 I always buy something, don't say anything. 467 00:34:04,843 --> 00:34:06,912 -I don't do nothing for myself? -Nope. 468 00:34:06,945 --> 00:34:08,514 Look, he just bought hisself his first pair of shoes 469 00:34:08,547 --> 00:34:11,283 probably in like five years. 470 00:34:11,317 --> 00:34:13,952 Shit! He ain't never bought hisself no pair of shoes. 471 00:34:13,985 --> 00:34:16,255 I been home since '07, home since '02. 472 00:34:16,288 --> 00:34:18,090 Since I been home, he never-- 473 00:34:18,124 --> 00:34:20,892 '07, '06--I mean, '07, '08, '09. 474 00:34:20,926 --> 00:34:22,328 Since I been home for two years, 475 00:34:22,361 --> 00:34:24,130 I just seen him buy his first pair of shoes. 476 00:34:24,163 --> 00:34:26,132 -Now, he bought some Nikes... -Air Force 1s. 477 00:34:26,165 --> 00:34:28,134 -Them little... -Some Jordans. 478 00:34:28,167 --> 00:34:30,836 That's my style. 479 00:34:36,375 --> 00:34:38,009 Smurf, I pray for him, 480 00:34:38,043 --> 00:34:40,546 'cause he's out gang-bangin' for real. 481 00:34:40,579 --> 00:34:42,348 Standin' on a corner, you know, 482 00:34:42,381 --> 00:34:44,082 trying to sell drugs, 483 00:34:44,116 --> 00:34:46,418 and so, things can happen. 484 00:34:55,026 --> 00:34:56,428 He go to work, he come back home. 485 00:34:56,462 --> 00:34:59,565 He's content to be in the house. 486 00:34:59,598 --> 00:35:02,301 He kinda likes to be with his girl 487 00:35:02,334 --> 00:35:07,373 and attend functions that are not on that wild side. 488 00:35:07,406 --> 00:35:08,840 He doesn't drink, he doesn't smoke, 489 00:35:11,610 --> 00:35:12,878 He's pretty cool. 490 00:35:18,784 --> 00:35:21,653 * 491 00:35:21,687 --> 00:35:23,021 "In the face of many challenges 492 00:35:23,054 --> 00:35:24,890 that students face in high school, 493 00:35:24,923 --> 00:35:27,626 today, you have reached one of the most important milestones 494 00:35:27,659 --> 00:35:29,661 of your way to higher achievement. 495 00:35:29,695 --> 00:35:31,697 Congratulations. 496 00:35:31,730 --> 00:35:34,533 I hope that you are deeply proud of this accomplishment 497 00:35:34,566 --> 00:35:36,802 and that you use it to reach even higher goals for yourself 498 00:35:36,835 --> 00:35:38,470 in future years." 499 00:35:38,504 --> 00:35:42,574 * 500 00:35:45,010 --> 00:35:47,979 Go to trade school, become a firefighter right now. 501 00:35:48,013 --> 00:35:49,415 All right. 502 00:35:55,053 --> 00:35:56,655 I am. 503 00:35:56,688 --> 00:35:57,556 -I ain't gon' be like-- -His friend's staying 504 00:36:00,526 --> 00:36:02,694 so she stays on top of him. 505 00:36:06,164 --> 00:36:08,934 * 506 00:36:08,967 --> 00:36:11,002 He was proud. 507 00:36:11,036 --> 00:36:12,871 It's not every day your grandson shows you 508 00:36:12,904 --> 00:36:14,706 diplomas and stuff. 509 00:36:14,740 --> 00:36:19,010 It was--every kid don't walk across the stage. 510 00:36:19,044 --> 00:36:21,480 July 11th, I graduated from 511 00:36:21,513 --> 00:36:24,216 Theodore Roosevelt Senior High School at what, 512 00:36:24,250 --> 00:36:26,552 I think, 6:00, 7:00 at night? 513 00:36:26,585 --> 00:36:29,621 And then I got a scholarship from Kappa Foundation. 514 00:36:32,758 --> 00:36:35,761 Here you go, my school picture right here for cap and gown. 515 00:36:35,794 --> 00:36:37,128 It felt good. 516 00:36:47,773 --> 00:36:50,709 Instead of me, you know, focusing on one thing, 517 00:36:50,742 --> 00:36:57,048 I let greed get in the way of what was important. 518 00:36:57,082 --> 00:37:00,619 I made a vow, oh, not less than three months ago, 519 00:37:00,652 --> 00:37:02,721 two months ago, I told God I would never pawn it again 520 00:37:02,754 --> 00:37:03,622 for that. 521 00:37:06,858 --> 00:37:08,894 to get money for drugs, okay. 522 00:37:08,927 --> 00:37:10,962 And I did that, okay? 523 00:37:10,996 --> 00:37:12,964 Well--yeah, I did that. 524 00:37:12,998 --> 00:37:15,667 And being too high or under the influence, 525 00:37:15,701 --> 00:37:18,504 I don't know, I messed it up, I messed it up. 526 00:37:18,537 --> 00:37:20,272 'Cause I knew I couldn't be ready in time. 527 00:37:20,306 --> 00:37:23,509 And I know it hurt him, I know it hurt him. 528 00:37:23,542 --> 00:37:26,011 Because he really had accomplished something. 529 00:37:26,044 --> 00:37:30,215 But that's the kinda things that a person does 530 00:37:30,248 --> 00:37:33,585 that messes their children up, you know? 531 00:37:33,619 --> 00:37:39,825 * 532 00:37:42,628 --> 00:37:50,602 * 533 00:37:50,636 --> 00:37:52,938 One, two, three. 534 00:37:52,971 --> 00:37:57,142 -Happy Fourth of July! -Happy Fourth of July! 535 00:37:57,175 --> 00:38:00,045 * Oh yeah 536 00:38:00,078 --> 00:38:04,883 * We got to share our love in secrecy * 537 00:38:04,916 --> 00:38:07,118 * Nobody must know... 538 00:38:07,152 --> 00:38:09,688 -Love you! Oww! -* ...about you and me 539 00:38:09,721 --> 00:38:12,691 -Don't love you. -* We can't take 540 00:38:12,724 --> 00:38:15,260 too much liberty * 541 00:38:15,293 --> 00:38:19,631 * Until the time he sets you free * 542 00:38:19,665 --> 00:38:21,166 * And I got to tell you 543 00:38:21,199 --> 00:38:22,968 * 544 00:38:23,001 --> 00:38:25,203 * I'm gonna hold you 545 00:38:25,236 --> 00:38:27,906 * I'm gonna squeeze you 546 00:38:27,939 --> 00:38:29,941 * No matter when 547 00:38:29,975 --> 00:38:32,844 * No matter where 548 00:38:32,878 --> 00:38:35,280 * I'm gonna hold you, baby 549 00:38:40,686 --> 00:38:55,634 * 550 00:38:55,667 --> 00:39:01,773 * 551 00:39:04,376 --> 00:39:15,086 * 552 00:39:15,120 --> 00:39:16,922 See it? 553 00:39:16,955 --> 00:39:19,257 Look, look! 554 00:39:19,290 --> 00:39:34,205 * 555 00:39:34,239 --> 00:39:47,986 * 556 00:39:58,396 --> 00:40:07,939 * 557 00:40:10,108 --> 00:40:12,778 Two dudes came in here try and rob Smurf, 558 00:40:12,811 --> 00:40:14,680 and they shot Emmanuel. 559 00:40:14,713 --> 00:40:17,182 * 560 00:40:17,215 --> 00:40:19,417 Once he turned around and saw that gun in his face, 561 00:40:19,451 --> 00:40:21,419 he knew how it was gonna play out in his head, 562 00:40:21,453 --> 00:40:22,320 he just knew it, 563 00:40:24,956 --> 00:40:26,391 and they probably was gonna kill everybody, 564 00:40:26,424 --> 00:40:27,693 and he did not want that, 565 00:40:27,726 --> 00:40:29,260 so he tried to fight for it, 566 00:40:29,294 --> 00:40:31,463 he tried to fight his hardest for that gun, 567 00:40:31,497 --> 00:40:33,465 but he couldn't get it. 568 00:40:33,499 --> 00:40:36,468 And when he tried to run, they shot him. 569 00:40:36,502 --> 00:40:37,969 And he died. 570 00:40:38,003 --> 00:40:40,806 * 571 00:40:40,839 --> 00:40:42,273 Man, he was innocent, man, 572 00:40:42,307 --> 00:40:45,911 he wasn't no gang banger, he didn't smoke drugs, 573 00:40:45,944 --> 00:40:48,947 he didn't even drink, he didn't smoke cigarettes. 574 00:40:48,980 --> 00:40:50,782 He was good. 575 00:40:50,816 --> 00:40:53,952 He was good! 576 00:40:53,985 --> 00:40:55,954 His last words was to get his-- 577 00:40:55,987 --> 00:40:59,057 he wanted to make sure all the kids and I was safe. 578 00:40:59,090 --> 00:41:01,159 He just wanted us to get out, like he told us, 579 00:41:01,192 --> 00:41:03,228 "Get out the house and run." 580 00:41:03,261 --> 00:41:05,964 They got all the money anybody had in this house, 581 00:41:05,997 --> 00:41:07,966 which was $200. 582 00:41:07,999 --> 00:41:09,801 They thought they was gonna come in here and get more 583 00:41:09,835 --> 00:41:11,136 and still didn't get more, 584 00:41:11,169 --> 00:41:13,171 and still left killing my little brother 585 00:41:13,204 --> 00:41:14,906 and $200 in their pocket. 586 00:41:14,940 --> 00:41:26,918 * 587 00:41:26,952 --> 00:41:29,087 I wish I woulda stayed on the phone longer 588 00:41:29,120 --> 00:41:32,123 if I knew that it was the last time. 589 00:41:32,157 --> 00:41:33,859 Not long after Carmen Payne hung up the phone 590 00:41:33,892 --> 00:41:36,261 with her fiancé, 19-year-old Emmanuel Durant, 591 00:41:36,294 --> 00:41:39,264 police say he was murdered by two masked men 592 00:41:39,297 --> 00:41:41,199 who they believe were trying to rob his family 593 00:41:41,232 --> 00:41:43,268 inside their home on Webster Street. 594 00:41:43,301 --> 00:41:45,170 Payne, a freshman at Virginia State University, 595 00:41:45,203 --> 00:41:47,272 says they were waiting to get married. 596 00:41:47,305 --> 00:41:48,073 She held my hand as she showed us 597 00:41:51,109 --> 00:41:52,477 He loved his family. 598 00:41:52,510 --> 00:41:55,080 He would do anything for his family. 599 00:41:55,113 --> 00:41:57,849 And I just wish that I coulda told him 600 00:41:57,883 --> 00:42:01,119 that I love him, 'cause I do love him. 601 00:42:04,089 --> 00:42:11,029 * 602 00:42:14,966 --> 00:42:16,534 -Careful. -Justin. 603 00:42:16,568 --> 00:42:17,502 Watch out, boo. 604 00:42:23,208 --> 00:42:24,943 Come on. 605 00:42:24,976 --> 00:42:29,514 * 606 00:42:29,547 --> 00:42:34,119 Certain pain is worth another pain. 607 00:42:34,152 --> 00:42:37,522 You know? 608 00:42:37,555 --> 00:42:40,058 And certain pain does not go away. 609 00:42:40,091 --> 00:42:42,894 You have to... 610 00:42:42,928 --> 00:42:44,963 you have to just keep carrying that pain. 611 00:42:44,996 --> 00:42:59,911 * 612 00:42:59,945 --> 00:43:00,478 * 613 00:43:00,511 --> 00:43:01,947 Emmanuel was on his way. 614 00:43:01,980 --> 00:43:05,617 * 615 00:43:05,651 --> 00:43:08,019 This is like kinda hurtin' my faith. 616 00:43:08,053 --> 00:43:17,963 * 617 00:43:20,732 --> 00:43:26,504 * 618 00:44:27,699 --> 00:44:29,100 No, I'm not! 619 00:44:33,805 --> 00:44:37,575 * 620 00:45:51,582 --> 00:45:59,925 * 621 00:45:59,958 --> 00:46:01,592 Yeah, they definitely said, 622 00:46:01,626 --> 00:46:03,228 you know, to get a copy photo. 623 00:46:03,261 --> 00:46:04,695 I assume that's Emmanuel over there? 624 00:46:04,729 --> 00:46:06,597 Yes. 625 00:46:06,631 --> 00:46:09,801 He had just got accepted to be a cadet 626 00:46:09,835 --> 00:46:11,769 for the fire department. 627 00:46:11,803 --> 00:46:14,105 And that's what he was looking forward to. 628 00:46:14,139 --> 00:46:16,074 That's all he talked about. 629 00:46:16,107 --> 00:46:19,644 So he was already in rescue mode in his head, you know? 630 00:46:19,677 --> 00:46:21,612 Wow. 631 00:46:21,646 --> 00:46:22,680 So they're feeling it was random, 632 00:46:22,713 --> 00:46:24,649 as far as they know right now? 633 00:46:24,682 --> 00:46:27,552 Yeah, but... 634 00:46:27,585 --> 00:46:28,619 Yeah, you gotta get in the mind of a criminal, 635 00:46:28,653 --> 00:46:31,522 -right, so how do you... -Mm-hm. 636 00:46:31,556 --> 00:46:34,893 -And they could have seen ya... -Well, it's him. 637 00:46:34,926 --> 00:46:36,761 Seen him. 638 00:46:36,794 --> 00:46:39,630 * 639 00:46:39,664 --> 00:46:41,967 I mean, Smurf, I'm not trying to upset him, 640 00:46:42,000 --> 00:46:43,869 but I'm trying to make him realize 641 00:46:43,902 --> 00:46:46,604 what took place, and he still doesn't get it. 642 00:46:46,637 --> 00:46:47,772 He doesn't wanna accept that. 643 00:46:47,805 --> 00:46:51,877 He doesn't wanna accept that... 644 00:46:51,910 --> 00:46:53,912 he doesn't wanna accept the fact that 645 00:46:53,945 --> 00:46:55,646 somebody got jealous. 646 00:46:55,680 --> 00:46:56,547 He doesn't wanna accept that. 647 00:46:59,650 --> 00:47:02,620 and thought that he had money, 648 00:47:02,653 --> 00:47:03,855 you follow what I'm saying? 649 00:47:03,889 --> 00:47:05,823 That he had money because of his car 650 00:47:05,857 --> 00:47:07,658 and the way he was dressing 651 00:47:07,692 --> 00:47:08,759 and what they saw. 652 00:47:08,793 --> 00:47:13,064 * 653 00:47:13,098 --> 00:47:14,966 I'm just hurting, you know, in a way, 654 00:47:15,000 --> 00:47:18,303 because one son triggered the events 655 00:47:18,336 --> 00:47:19,938 to cause this situation. 656 00:47:19,971 --> 00:47:25,043 * 657 00:47:25,076 --> 00:47:27,345 He really does need to take a look at hisself. 658 00:47:27,378 --> 00:47:39,824 * 659 00:47:47,365 --> 00:47:51,302 What you want the shirt to say? 660 00:47:51,336 --> 00:47:52,870 "Save me a spot up there." 661 00:47:52,904 --> 00:47:55,873 put it on their shirt. 662 00:47:55,907 --> 00:48:00,078 "You'll be my man forever, I love you." 663 00:48:00,111 --> 00:48:02,613 That's about it, "I miss you, cuzo." 664 00:48:02,647 --> 00:48:05,050 That's about it. 665 00:48:05,083 --> 00:48:07,986 "Till we meet again, we'll always miss you"? 666 00:48:08,019 --> 00:48:09,854 Okay. 667 00:48:09,887 --> 00:48:12,823 All right. 668 00:48:12,857 --> 00:48:16,127 Damn, this person's birthday was a day before Emmanuel's 669 00:48:16,161 --> 00:48:18,896 and he died four months before Emmanuel. 670 00:48:20,798 --> 00:48:24,869 Okay. I want this picture 671 00:48:24,902 --> 00:48:28,073 and the picture that has, um, 672 00:48:28,106 --> 00:48:32,143 Carmen and Emmanuel, the prom picture. 673 00:48:32,177 --> 00:48:33,945 Ma'am, the picture is already scanned, so I'm gonna-- 674 00:48:33,979 --> 00:48:37,915 Okay, yeah. I wonder, can you merge the two of 'em 675 00:48:37,949 --> 00:48:41,019 -like kinda together? -Yeah. 676 00:48:45,823 --> 00:48:47,792 How many prints for this? 677 00:48:47,825 --> 00:48:49,894 I got two shirts over there. 678 00:48:53,064 --> 00:48:56,767 Yeah, mm-hm. 679 00:48:59,804 --> 00:49:01,872 * 680 00:49:05,143 --> 00:49:08,846 * I could have another you by tomorrow * 681 00:49:08,879 --> 00:49:13,251 * You must not know 'bout me, you must not know 'bout me * 682 00:49:13,284 --> 00:49:16,021 * I could have another you in a minute * 683 00:49:16,054 --> 00:49:20,691 * Matter fact he'll be here in a minute, baby * 684 00:49:20,725 --> 00:49:26,097 * 685 00:49:28,499 --> 00:49:38,009 * 686 00:49:44,015 --> 00:49:47,418 Uh, this is a Christmas card that I gave him. 687 00:49:47,452 --> 00:49:48,953 It said "Merry Christmas." 688 00:49:48,986 --> 00:49:51,122 I used to--like, I used to tell him I hate him, 689 00:49:51,156 --> 00:49:53,091 and I'd be like, "Where's my money at?" 690 00:49:53,124 --> 00:49:55,860 So I put that in the card. 691 00:50:08,806 --> 00:50:11,809 Yeah. I guess somebody he went to school with, maybe. 692 00:50:13,411 --> 00:50:15,012 Yeah. 693 00:50:15,046 --> 00:50:18,015 Oh, look, that person is buried at Harmony, 694 00:50:18,049 --> 00:50:19,917 same place where he's gonna be buried at. 695 00:50:19,950 --> 00:50:22,053 So, hopefully, maybe this is one of his friends. 696 00:50:22,087 --> 00:50:25,856 He'll be, you know, there with one of his friends. 697 00:50:25,890 --> 00:50:27,858 I bought him this little alarm clock 698 00:50:27,892 --> 00:50:30,228 so he could put-- just so he could have one, 699 00:50:30,261 --> 00:50:33,931 I guess just to have. 700 00:50:33,964 --> 00:50:36,234 And I guess that's it. 701 00:50:36,267 --> 00:50:38,103 I want to take his deodorant 702 00:50:38,136 --> 00:50:39,837 so I can have his smell with me. 703 00:50:39,870 --> 00:50:43,040 I think I'll take that. 704 00:50:43,074 --> 00:50:45,009 Even though it's been a while since he's been in here, 705 00:50:45,042 --> 00:50:47,345 but it's still just-- 706 00:50:47,378 --> 00:50:50,381 No, you know this was Emmanuel's room. 707 00:50:57,188 --> 00:51:03,060 * 708 00:51:05,896 --> 00:51:20,811 * 709 00:51:20,845 --> 00:51:21,279 * 710 00:51:21,312 --> 00:51:23,181 My baby. 711 00:51:23,214 --> 00:51:25,183 My baby. 712 00:51:25,216 --> 00:51:33,057 * 713 00:51:33,090 --> 00:51:35,226 I can't dispute what God has done. 714 00:51:35,260 --> 00:51:38,563 I just don't think it was your time, baby. 715 00:51:38,596 --> 00:51:41,098 I just don't. 716 00:51:41,132 --> 00:51:44,135 But I love you, and I want you back so much. 717 00:51:44,169 --> 00:51:47,238 I want you back, I wish you would come back. 718 00:51:47,272 --> 00:51:49,407 I wish they hadn't done this to you. 719 00:51:49,440 --> 00:51:52,109 I wish this hadn't happened, baby. 720 00:51:52,143 --> 00:51:54,145 You're too young. 721 00:51:56,247 --> 00:52:05,223 * 722 00:52:08,058 --> 00:52:12,463 * 723 00:52:17,101 --> 00:52:28,313 * 724 00:52:28,346 --> 00:52:32,450 Why do bad things happen to good people? 725 00:52:32,483 --> 00:52:35,620 Now that's been in question for however long 726 00:52:35,653 --> 00:52:37,522 human beings have been on the earth. 727 00:52:37,555 --> 00:52:39,457 In fact, if you explore Job, 728 00:52:39,490 --> 00:52:42,159 that's what Job is really questioning. 729 00:52:42,193 --> 00:52:45,162 "Look, I'm not deserving of any of this! 730 00:52:45,196 --> 00:52:48,165 I'm not deserving of any of this calamity 731 00:52:48,199 --> 00:52:50,000 that has happened to me and my family 732 00:52:50,034 --> 00:52:51,969 because I've been a good man, 733 00:52:52,002 --> 00:52:54,539 I've been a man who has worshiped God 734 00:52:54,572 --> 00:52:57,007 even when folk around me were not doing 735 00:52:57,041 --> 00:52:58,609 what they were supposed to be doing. 736 00:52:58,643 --> 00:53:01,946 I'm the one that got up in the morning 737 00:53:01,979 --> 00:53:05,283 looking to the Lord, and how could all this stuff go on?" 738 00:53:05,316 --> 00:53:07,352 * 739 00:53:07,385 --> 00:53:11,322 God, how could you allow brother Emmanuel Durant 740 00:53:11,356 --> 00:53:13,624 to be taken away from us? 741 00:53:13,658 --> 00:53:15,493 * 742 00:53:15,526 --> 00:53:18,095 I have set before you today 743 00:53:18,128 --> 00:53:20,698 the ways of life and death. 744 00:53:20,731 --> 00:53:23,301 Which will you choose? 745 00:53:23,334 --> 00:53:33,177 * 746 00:53:47,157 --> 00:53:58,002 * 747 00:53:58,035 --> 00:54:00,471 Emmanuel's case now is a cold case. 748 00:54:00,505 --> 00:54:02,473 * 749 00:54:02,507 --> 00:54:05,175 They probably did want to find Emmanuel's killer, 750 00:54:05,209 --> 00:54:07,812 but they're regular cops. 751 00:54:07,845 --> 00:54:10,581 * 752 00:54:10,615 --> 00:54:12,683 At the end of the day, they had no leads 753 00:54:12,717 --> 00:54:14,919 or there was no witnesses. 754 00:54:14,952 --> 00:54:18,155 Nobody saw their faces, so I feel they did their job 755 00:54:18,188 --> 00:54:21,659 to the best of their ability. 756 00:54:21,692 --> 00:54:24,629 The way shit works right now and the way stuff goin' in DC, 757 00:54:24,662 --> 00:54:26,664 these cops got too much. 758 00:54:26,697 --> 00:54:29,767 Like, now, DC got over a hundred-something homicides, 759 00:54:29,800 --> 00:54:31,569 and that's just this year alone. 760 00:54:31,602 --> 00:54:33,037 Every year it grows. 761 00:54:33,070 --> 00:54:35,773 It's hard to focus on one person's death 762 00:54:35,806 --> 00:54:39,076 when you've got 90 more cases just like it. 763 00:54:39,109 --> 00:54:40,778 * 764 00:54:43,213 --> 00:54:46,250 * 765 00:54:48,719 --> 00:54:53,724 * 766 00:54:56,293 --> 00:54:57,695 Eat it up. 767 00:55:16,180 --> 00:55:17,748 Come on, it's time to get up. 768 00:55:19,617 --> 00:55:21,652 Justin... 769 00:55:23,821 --> 00:55:25,222 Justin! 770 00:55:26,924 --> 00:55:29,093 Jay! 771 00:55:29,126 --> 00:55:31,228 Jay, Jay, come on, it's time to wake up. 772 00:55:31,261 --> 00:55:33,531 Come on, get up! 773 00:55:36,166 --> 00:55:37,602 Get up. 774 00:55:37,635 --> 00:55:40,037 Get up, get up, get up. 775 00:55:40,070 --> 00:55:41,706 I'm gonna let you fall, if you don't want to fall, 776 00:55:41,739 --> 00:55:44,174 you better start walking. 777 00:55:44,208 --> 00:55:46,176 Time to get ready for school. 778 00:55:55,686 --> 00:55:58,022 My name is Justin Sanford. 779 00:55:58,055 --> 00:55:59,990 I am nine years old. 780 00:56:00,024 --> 00:56:03,293 My favorite subjects are math, science, 781 00:56:03,327 --> 00:56:05,996 social studies, and reading. 782 00:56:07,698 --> 00:56:10,334 I could wear these. 783 00:56:10,367 --> 00:56:12,637 I will wear these. 784 00:56:12,670 --> 00:56:14,739 They look like shorts. 785 00:56:14,772 --> 00:56:18,308 * 786 00:56:18,342 --> 00:56:21,345 I live with my mom, Denice. 787 00:56:21,378 --> 00:56:23,914 I live with my Uncle Smurf. 788 00:56:23,948 --> 00:56:25,950 I live with my sister, Faith, 789 00:56:25,983 --> 00:56:28,686 my turtle, Turtle Wayne, 790 00:56:28,719 --> 00:56:31,321 the other turtle, Turtle Wayne, Jr., 791 00:56:31,355 --> 00:56:33,824 and one bunny. 792 00:56:33,858 --> 00:56:36,694 * 793 00:56:49,006 --> 00:56:52,042 * 794 00:56:52,076 --> 00:56:57,047 Some people say I remind them of my Uncle Emmanuel 795 00:56:57,081 --> 00:56:59,717 because of the way my feet look, 796 00:56:59,750 --> 00:57:01,185 the way we stand. 797 00:57:01,218 --> 00:57:03,688 Sometimes they say the way we smile, 798 00:57:03,721 --> 00:57:06,090 sometimes they say the way we act, 799 00:57:06,123 --> 00:57:10,027 sometimes they say the way we play or fight, 800 00:57:10,060 --> 00:57:12,997 or sometimes they'll just say the ears. 801 00:57:13,030 --> 00:57:15,933 * 802 00:57:21,706 --> 00:57:23,040 * 803 00:57:23,073 --> 00:57:25,009 I grew up in this house. 804 00:57:25,042 --> 00:57:26,110 * 805 00:57:26,143 --> 00:57:31,782 I moved back in 2011 because my father passed away. 806 00:57:31,816 --> 00:57:34,284 * 807 00:57:34,318 --> 00:57:36,386 But we've decided to sell 808 00:57:36,420 --> 00:57:40,224 because we cannot get a loan, 809 00:57:40,257 --> 00:57:42,727 and it's senseless to let the house 810 00:57:42,760 --> 00:57:44,862 continue to deteriorate. 811 00:57:44,895 --> 00:57:46,697 * 812 00:57:46,731 --> 00:57:48,933 There's a rag over there in the bucket. 813 00:57:48,966 --> 00:57:50,034 There should be two rags over there. 814 00:57:50,067 --> 00:57:53,904 Get the rags, start wiping some of this stuff off. 815 00:57:59,143 --> 00:58:00,811 That's Uncle Emmanuel. 816 00:58:02,813 --> 00:58:04,414 He was my uncle. 817 00:58:04,448 --> 00:58:07,117 -Was he a fun uncle? -Yes. 818 00:58:07,151 --> 00:58:10,454 We went to stores, we played games. 819 00:58:10,487 --> 00:58:12,189 He saved our life. 820 00:58:12,222 --> 00:58:14,725 When he was about-- when he was about-- 821 00:58:14,759 --> 00:58:18,796 when he was shot, he--he told us to get out. 822 00:58:18,829 --> 00:58:20,698 Why did he tell us to get out of the house? 823 00:58:20,731 --> 00:58:24,735 -Who was in the house? -Robbers, and they had guns, 824 00:58:24,769 --> 00:58:29,106 and they were trying to rob Uncle Smurf. 825 00:58:29,139 --> 00:58:31,976 And, then, Uncle Emmanuel came downstairs 826 00:58:32,009 --> 00:58:35,179 and he was trying to help Uncle Smurf, 827 00:58:35,212 --> 00:58:38,015 and he started beating up the man, 828 00:58:38,048 --> 00:58:39,817 then the gun fell inside. 829 00:58:39,850 --> 00:58:41,185 Uncle Emmanuel tried to pick it up, 830 00:58:41,218 --> 00:58:44,889 but then the other boy shot him in the leg. 831 00:58:44,922 --> 00:58:45,990 I don't know. 832 00:59:09,513 --> 00:59:13,150 On January 13th of 2016, 833 00:59:13,183 --> 00:59:17,855 the defendant was in a vehicle that was traveling 834 00:59:17,888 --> 00:59:20,925 without a functioning front left headlight. 835 00:59:20,958 --> 00:59:23,027 That vehicle was pulled over 836 00:59:23,060 --> 00:59:25,329 in accordance with the traffic stop, 837 00:59:25,362 --> 00:59:28,999 and when the officers did a search of the vehicle, 838 00:59:29,033 --> 00:59:31,401 the officers recovered a vial 839 00:59:31,435 --> 00:59:34,371 that was filled with an amber liquid 840 00:59:34,404 --> 00:59:37,074 consisting with PCP. 841 00:59:39,977 --> 00:59:41,145 Mr. Sanford, I've received your plea agreement 842 00:59:41,178 --> 00:59:42,546 and waiver of trial. 843 00:59:42,579 --> 00:59:44,348 Has anyone promised you anything else 844 00:59:44,381 --> 00:59:46,884 in exchange for your decision to plead guilty? 845 00:59:46,917 --> 00:59:48,252 -No, Your Honor. -Has anyone forced you 846 00:59:48,285 --> 00:59:51,255 to waive your right to have a trial? 847 00:59:51,288 --> 00:59:53,123 Have you had enough time to think about your decision 848 00:59:53,157 --> 00:59:55,960 to enter into the guilty plea? 849 00:59:55,993 --> 00:59:57,494 And, Ms. Cresta-Savage, could you place on the record 850 00:59:57,527 --> 00:59:59,063 what you've advised Mr. Sanford 851 00:59:59,096 --> 01:00:02,800 concerning the maximum sentence that he could face? 852 01:00:02,833 --> 01:00:05,069 Yes, Your Honor, in this case, 853 01:00:05,102 --> 01:00:09,940 uh, the maximum sentence, I believe, is 30 years 854 01:00:09,974 --> 01:00:13,978 -and/or a $500,000 fine. -Okay, and, Mr. Sanford, 855 01:00:14,011 --> 01:00:15,512 do you have any questions about the maximum sentence 856 01:00:15,545 --> 01:00:17,547 that you could face? 857 01:00:17,581 --> 01:00:20,084 So, Mr. Sanford then will remain released 858 01:00:20,117 --> 01:00:22,820 pending sentencing in this case. 859 01:00:25,055 --> 01:00:31,896 * 860 01:00:34,498 --> 01:00:36,266 * 861 01:00:36,300 --> 01:00:39,403 Smurf is haunted by the fact 862 01:00:39,436 --> 01:00:43,207 that his actions caused that tragedy. 863 01:00:43,240 --> 01:00:51,581 * 864 01:00:51,615 --> 01:00:55,119 And there's one thing 865 01:00:55,152 --> 01:00:59,056 that the demon still has around him. 866 01:00:59,089 --> 01:01:01,892 * 867 01:01:01,926 --> 01:01:04,594 I don't see what he sees in putting embalming fluid 868 01:01:04,628 --> 01:01:07,064 into his system. 869 01:01:07,097 --> 01:01:09,133 * 870 01:01:09,166 --> 01:01:11,936 I think it makes him numb and forget, 871 01:01:11,969 --> 01:01:16,240 but it's killing him and he needs to stop. 872 01:01:16,273 --> 01:01:23,881 * 873 01:01:23,914 --> 01:01:25,615 All I'm doing is skipping rocks. 874 01:01:32,622 --> 01:01:34,859 High score! 875 01:01:49,039 --> 01:01:51,909 Around here, there's like all-- 876 01:01:51,942 --> 01:01:55,679 You see all these shoes that be hanging up, 877 01:01:55,712 --> 01:01:58,983 it means somebody--they died 878 01:01:59,016 --> 01:02:01,518 because people get shot around here. 879 01:02:05,689 --> 01:02:07,057 Let's go. 880 01:02:07,091 --> 01:02:08,926 Hm. 881 01:02:11,161 --> 01:02:18,035 * 882 01:02:23,073 --> 01:02:28,178 * 883 01:02:30,614 --> 01:02:42,592 * 884 01:02:44,561 --> 01:02:55,840 * 885 01:03:00,978 --> 01:03:02,847 But my mom said I could come out 886 01:03:02,880 --> 01:03:05,749 after I put my pants on. 887 01:03:10,520 --> 01:03:12,656 Three days snowed in. 888 01:03:14,524 --> 01:03:15,792 And not enough space. 889 01:03:15,826 --> 01:03:18,495 This apartment is not big enough. 890 01:03:18,528 --> 01:03:21,899 Like I said, the apartment is too small. 891 01:03:21,932 --> 01:03:24,201 Hey, hey, let's not have a conniption 892 01:03:24,234 --> 01:03:26,503 in the small kitchen, let's go out there 893 01:03:26,536 --> 01:03:27,771 to the even smaller living room 894 01:03:27,804 --> 01:03:29,940 to have a conniption. 895 01:03:29,974 --> 01:03:32,609 I don't care if I was in a matchbox. 896 01:03:32,642 --> 01:03:35,579 Okay, it gets kind of-- it gets kind of hectic in here. 897 01:03:35,612 --> 01:03:38,782 All right, I'm not gonna fold, I'm not gonna lie, 898 01:03:38,815 --> 01:03:41,518 I'm not gonna say-- I'm kind of lazy. 899 01:03:41,551 --> 01:03:42,920 Once upon a time, we had to live-- 900 01:03:42,953 --> 01:03:45,655 we had to live in a room, all of us. 901 01:03:45,689 --> 01:03:50,294 But, but I'm the one who gets up, 902 01:03:50,327 --> 01:03:52,696 go to work, yeah. 903 01:03:52,729 --> 01:03:54,698 My hat is off to you when it comes to that, 904 01:03:54,731 --> 01:03:57,902 but--but my hat--my hat-- 905 01:03:57,935 --> 01:04:00,037 my hat stays on my head 906 01:04:00,070 --> 01:04:03,941 when it comes to your organization. 907 01:04:03,974 --> 01:04:05,876 I know I can do better, but hey. 908 01:04:05,910 --> 01:04:08,812 How many times a day do I clean the bathroom, huh? 909 01:04:08,845 --> 01:04:10,647 Why are you asking them? What do they know? 910 01:04:10,680 --> 01:04:12,983 -They know. -I'm kind of lazy. 911 01:04:13,017 --> 01:04:17,854 Having Cheryl move back has been hard. 912 01:04:17,888 --> 01:04:21,058 It's back like when I was 913 01:04:21,091 --> 01:04:24,028 a child or something. 914 01:04:24,061 --> 01:04:27,264 But Cheryl has a lot of issues of her own. 915 01:04:29,166 --> 01:04:31,268 A lot of problems that go wrong in her life, 916 01:04:31,301 --> 01:04:32,836 she wants someone to blame 917 01:04:32,869 --> 01:04:36,907 instead of pointing the finger at herself. 918 01:04:36,941 --> 01:04:40,577 I mean, she still does her coke thing. 919 01:04:40,610 --> 01:04:43,080 Her usage is almost now like an everyday thing. 920 01:04:43,113 --> 01:04:46,716 Like, before, it wasn't like that. 921 01:04:46,750 --> 01:04:48,352 I can't force her to stop. 922 01:04:48,385 --> 01:04:50,020 It's her own decision. 923 01:04:50,054 --> 01:04:52,689 But I don't know, it's just getting 924 01:04:52,722 --> 01:04:54,724 to be too much now. 925 01:04:56,994 --> 01:05:03,733 * 926 01:05:03,767 --> 01:05:07,704 It doesn't make me forget or make me numb. 927 01:05:07,737 --> 01:05:10,674 It makes me feel, and that's what I want to do sometimes, 928 01:05:10,707 --> 01:05:12,642 I want to feel. 929 01:05:12,676 --> 01:05:18,015 * 930 01:05:18,048 --> 01:05:20,784 Why would I want to be faced every day 931 01:05:20,817 --> 01:05:23,887 that I know that my family is not complete anymore, 932 01:05:23,920 --> 01:05:28,025 you know, that he was robbed of his life, he was stolen? 933 01:05:28,058 --> 01:05:30,727 I feel there's a parallel universe 934 01:05:30,760 --> 01:05:33,998 where he's not dead and he's married to Carmen, 935 01:05:34,031 --> 01:05:34,898 and they have children, 936 01:05:34,931 --> 01:05:37,834 and he's the chief of the fire department, 937 01:05:37,867 --> 01:05:42,039 and I visit, we have cookouts, we go to the beach, 938 01:05:42,072 --> 01:05:44,641 we go on vacation together. 939 01:05:44,674 --> 01:05:46,743 It's just like some of those love stories 940 01:05:46,776 --> 01:05:48,745 you see on Lifetime, okay? 941 01:05:48,778 --> 01:05:49,779 That's how it is. 942 01:05:49,813 --> 01:05:51,681 The big Christmas, you know, 943 01:05:51,715 --> 01:05:54,651 where on Christmas Eve the whole family comes over 944 01:05:54,684 --> 01:05:56,420 to Grandma's house and everybody spends the night, 945 01:05:56,453 --> 01:05:58,055 and we go to midnight mass, 946 01:05:58,088 --> 01:05:59,723 then we come back and eat some food, 947 01:05:59,756 --> 01:06:01,891 and open up one present, and go to bed, 948 01:06:01,925 --> 01:06:03,160 and then in the morning, we get up 949 01:06:03,193 --> 01:06:05,929 and eat a big breakfast, and everybody opens up 950 01:06:05,962 --> 01:06:06,796 their presents, you know? 951 01:06:06,830 --> 01:06:09,666 It's--it's real. 952 01:06:09,699 --> 01:06:11,368 It's real. 953 01:06:27,817 --> 01:06:29,853 What's your name? What's your whole name? 954 01:06:29,886 --> 01:06:32,422 -Faith. -Faith what? 955 01:06:32,456 --> 01:06:36,093 Faith Carmen Destiny Sanford. 956 01:06:36,126 --> 01:06:39,963 Right. Faith Carmen Destiny Sanford. 957 01:06:39,996 --> 01:06:42,332 I told her it was gonna be Emmanuel or Carmen. 958 01:06:42,366 --> 01:06:43,933 So I named her Carmen. 959 01:06:50,174 --> 01:06:52,076 If Emmanuel was here, I probably would have 960 01:06:52,109 --> 01:06:53,943 a baby by now. 961 01:06:53,977 --> 01:06:56,113 I'd probably be married. 962 01:06:56,146 --> 01:06:59,449 But the hardest part was anniversary time 963 01:06:59,483 --> 01:07:01,818 or, like, in the beginning, 964 01:07:01,851 --> 01:07:03,853 I didn't really--I didn't really want to go to Outback, 965 01:07:03,887 --> 01:07:05,889 and everybody knows Outback is my favorite restaurant. 966 01:07:05,922 --> 01:07:07,957 I can go to Outback every day. 967 01:07:07,991 --> 01:07:09,293 But I don't want to be bothered with Outback 968 01:07:09,326 --> 01:07:10,460 because that's where Emmanuel--me and Emmanuel 969 01:07:10,494 --> 01:07:12,129 used to go all the time. 970 01:07:12,162 --> 01:07:14,731 And I guess when relationships started to fail, 971 01:07:14,764 --> 01:07:16,900 like I after I started dating, if they failed, 972 01:07:16,933 --> 01:07:19,169 I got very angry, just like, "Well, if Emmanuel was here, 973 01:07:19,203 --> 01:07:20,837 I wouldn't have to deal with this," 974 01:07:20,870 --> 01:07:22,806 or, "Emmanuel would never let this happen." 975 01:07:22,839 --> 01:07:24,808 I still do that to this day. 976 01:07:24,841 --> 01:07:26,843 And I used to, you know, offend. 977 01:07:26,876 --> 01:07:29,246 I think I said it in front of one of my boyfriends one time 978 01:07:29,279 --> 01:07:32,048 and he got very offended, but I really didn't care. 979 01:07:32,082 --> 01:07:35,219 No one will be able to replace Emmanuel in her heart 980 01:07:35,252 --> 01:07:37,454 because Emmanuel will always be Emmanuel, 981 01:07:37,487 --> 01:07:40,490 but she will find love. 982 01:07:44,828 --> 01:07:50,033 * 983 01:07:50,066 --> 01:07:53,036 My brother, he--he looked up to me. 984 01:07:53,069 --> 01:07:55,272 * 985 01:07:55,305 --> 01:07:59,409 And I want to prove to him that I can do better 986 01:07:59,443 --> 01:08:01,145 'cause I can. 987 01:08:01,178 --> 01:08:02,846 * 988 01:08:02,879 --> 01:08:04,514 "Larry turned my dollar over and over, 989 01:08:04,548 --> 01:08:06,116 and I started getting nervous. 990 01:08:06,150 --> 01:08:07,884 'You know what, Kenny?' 991 01:08:07,917 --> 01:08:09,353 'What?' I held my breath. 992 01:08:09,386 --> 01:08:11,288 'This is some real strange stuff, 993 01:08:11,321 --> 01:08:15,959 but I lost 50 cents over on Kennelworth yesterday.'" 994 01:08:15,992 --> 01:08:17,527 Last time I got locked up, 995 01:08:17,561 --> 01:08:20,397 this was, like, 2013, 996 01:08:20,430 --> 01:08:22,199 when I came home, Takel was like, 997 01:08:22,232 --> 01:08:23,400 "I thought you said you wouldn't 998 01:08:23,433 --> 01:08:25,969 get locked up no more, Dad." 999 01:08:26,002 --> 01:08:28,905 Certain things hit you hard. 1000 01:08:28,938 --> 01:08:30,507 I want to make my sons proud. 1001 01:08:30,540 --> 01:08:33,076 I want to set an example. 1002 01:08:33,109 --> 01:08:36,180 My example is--it's not good. 1003 01:08:36,213 --> 01:08:42,085 * 1004 01:08:42,118 --> 01:08:44,154 What you want to eat 'cause y'all are some picky people. 1005 01:08:44,188 --> 01:08:45,589 I'm not about to go ahead 1006 01:08:45,622 --> 01:08:47,557 and whip up eight different things. 1007 01:08:47,591 --> 01:08:49,293 So what--what would you like? 1008 01:08:49,326 --> 01:08:52,829 What I have to eat that I was making for my children, 1009 01:08:52,862 --> 01:08:53,997 that they're gonna eat 'cause there ain't gonna be 1010 01:08:54,030 --> 01:08:55,832 no ifs, ands, or buts, 1011 01:08:55,865 --> 01:08:57,567 was some roast that we made last night. 1012 01:08:57,601 --> 01:08:58,835 Now if you don't want roast, 1013 01:08:58,868 --> 01:09:01,137 let me give you another option. 1014 01:09:01,171 --> 01:09:03,207 Noodles or bread and water. 1015 01:09:03,240 --> 01:09:04,541 -I want noodles! -Noodles! 1016 01:09:04,574 --> 01:09:07,143 -Noodles! -I want noodles! 1017 01:09:07,177 --> 01:09:09,145 Everybody want noodles? 1018 01:09:09,179 --> 01:09:11,915 What did I sign myself up for? 1019 01:09:13,883 --> 01:09:17,954 Smurf got in trouble and got his dumb ass arrested 1020 01:09:17,987 --> 01:09:19,989 right out front of the house. 1021 01:09:20,023 --> 01:09:24,294 It's frustrating 'cause we all getting older, 1022 01:09:24,328 --> 01:09:27,964 and then with everything that's going on with our mother, 1023 01:09:27,997 --> 01:09:31,000 it's getting played out. 1024 01:09:31,034 --> 01:09:32,869 I love all my nieces and nephews, 1025 01:09:32,902 --> 01:09:35,104 but I have to raise my own kids. 1026 01:09:35,138 --> 01:09:36,473 So if he get locked up, 1027 01:09:36,506 --> 01:09:37,974 I'm not taking that responsibility 1028 01:09:38,007 --> 01:09:40,344 like I've done before. 1029 01:09:40,377 --> 01:09:44,113 Please don't get no noodles on my bed or my floor! 1030 01:09:44,147 --> 01:09:46,250 They just don't care, uh-uh, uh-uh. 1031 01:09:46,283 --> 01:09:48,585 Where is Smurf? 1032 01:09:51,221 --> 01:09:54,291 * 1033 01:09:54,324 --> 01:09:56,125 The bathroom don't lock no more. 1034 01:09:56,159 --> 01:09:58,127 I can't even go to the bathroom 1035 01:09:58,161 --> 01:10:00,330 'cause they bust in the bathroom. 1036 01:10:00,364 --> 01:10:02,232 They want something every two seconds. 1037 01:10:02,266 --> 01:10:04,234 "I'm hungry, I'm thirsty." 1038 01:10:04,268 --> 01:10:07,136 I love my kids, that's what I'm supposed to do, 1039 01:10:07,170 --> 01:10:10,006 but shit, I be wanting, like, ten minutes, 1040 01:10:10,039 --> 01:10:11,975 just ten minutes to just do anything. 1041 01:10:12,008 --> 01:10:15,211 Like, I don't even get that. 1042 01:10:15,245 --> 01:10:17,013 I got paid today. 1043 01:10:17,046 --> 01:10:20,650 My check was literally $700. 1044 01:10:20,684 --> 01:10:22,352 My rent is 535, 1045 01:10:22,386 --> 01:10:25,088 my motherfucking gas, two-something. 1046 01:10:25,121 --> 01:10:26,089 My whole fucking check gone. 1047 01:10:26,122 --> 01:10:27,257 I didn't care. 1048 01:10:27,291 --> 01:10:29,058 I didn't cry about it. 1049 01:10:29,092 --> 01:10:32,195 I came in here and paid all my bills. 1050 01:10:32,228 --> 01:10:35,198 * 1051 01:10:38,101 --> 01:10:40,670 Oh my God, you're heavy! 1052 01:10:40,704 --> 01:10:44,040 Walk! Start walking 'cause I can't... 1053 01:10:44,073 --> 01:10:45,942 See, look, I fell back down, look. 1054 01:10:45,975 --> 01:10:48,177 Come on, start walking. 1055 01:10:50,380 --> 01:10:53,016 I don't know where to go. 1056 01:10:54,684 --> 01:10:58,187 , I'm sorry. 1057 01:11:18,207 --> 01:11:19,609 -Okay. -Thank you. 1058 01:11:21,878 --> 01:11:24,781 I was looking at you, you got a long history. 1059 01:11:24,814 --> 01:11:26,750 And I noticed it started in 2002. 1060 01:11:26,783 --> 01:11:28,718 Didn't you say your brother passed? 1061 01:11:28,752 --> 01:11:29,853 So I was coming up, 1062 01:11:29,886 --> 01:11:31,855 but definitely since my brother passed. 1063 01:11:31,888 --> 01:11:34,458 Around that time, maybe I do get a little depressed 1064 01:11:34,491 --> 01:11:36,225 and want to probably use more. 1065 01:11:36,259 --> 01:11:38,728 But, um, he said something about counseling, 1066 01:11:38,762 --> 01:11:39,863 and I never thought about 1067 01:11:39,896 --> 01:11:41,731 getting counseling or none of that. 1068 01:11:41,765 --> 01:11:44,668 When you've experienced some trauma like that 1069 01:11:44,701 --> 01:11:46,903 and just the different things you've been going through, 1070 01:11:46,936 --> 01:11:47,904 it'd probably be in your best interest 1071 01:11:47,937 --> 01:11:50,707 to get with a counselor, just get out what it is 1072 01:11:50,740 --> 01:11:52,776 inside you, what's happening. 1073 01:11:52,809 --> 01:11:55,645 But the light has to come on, you've got to want that. 1074 01:11:55,679 --> 01:11:58,181 My mother has been fighting a long addiction 1075 01:11:58,214 --> 01:11:59,048 throughout her life. 1076 01:12:02,519 --> 01:12:04,588 "Maybe if I show her that I could, you know, 1077 01:12:04,621 --> 01:12:05,922 stay on the right path 1078 01:12:05,955 --> 01:12:07,123 and continue to stay on this right path, 1079 01:12:07,156 --> 01:12:09,893 then she'll look at me and want to do something different." 1080 01:12:09,926 --> 01:12:11,227 Then I got my children, that's the thing 1081 01:12:11,260 --> 01:12:12,829 that I think about most. 1082 01:12:12,862 --> 01:12:14,898 My older son, he 11, his brother about to be ten, 1083 01:12:14,931 --> 01:12:16,600 so you know, they're getting to that age 1084 01:12:16,633 --> 01:12:19,669 where I just want to put as much time in with 'em I can. 1085 01:12:19,703 --> 01:12:21,070 As a matter of fact, here's the thing, 1086 01:12:21,104 --> 01:12:24,608 a decision was made and consequences follow, 1087 01:12:24,641 --> 01:12:26,810 so it doesn't matter whether the decision was made today 1088 01:12:26,843 --> 01:12:29,913 or whether it was made 30 years ago, it impacts. 1089 01:12:29,946 --> 01:12:31,915 So right now, you're making a decision 1090 01:12:31,948 --> 01:12:34,017 to want the right path, and trust me, 1091 01:12:34,050 --> 01:12:36,686 it's gonna have an impact on your children, 1092 01:12:36,720 --> 01:12:38,221 your grandchildren, your great-grandchildren, 1093 01:12:38,254 --> 01:12:39,989 years from now. 1094 01:12:40,023 --> 01:12:41,257 It's hard to believe, but you do have 1095 01:12:41,290 --> 01:12:42,792 that impact on your family. 1096 01:12:59,709 --> 01:13:01,277 How is everybody doing this evening? 1097 01:13:01,310 --> 01:13:03,580 -Good! -Good, sir! 1098 01:13:03,613 --> 01:13:05,281 The weather is a little touchy out there, isn't it? 1099 01:13:05,314 --> 01:13:07,050 Yes, sir! 1100 01:13:07,083 --> 01:13:09,118 That's not everybody's voice. 1101 01:13:09,152 --> 01:13:11,621 -Yes, sir! -Everybody say, "Yes, sir!" 1102 01:13:11,655 --> 01:13:14,290 Yes, sir! 1103 01:13:16,726 --> 01:13:21,130 * 1104 01:13:21,164 --> 01:13:25,802 My hope for Justin is to be something in life. 1105 01:13:25,835 --> 01:13:28,037 He wants to be a firefighter like Emmanuel, 1106 01:13:28,071 --> 01:13:31,575 but if not a firefighter, to me, anything. 1107 01:13:31,608 --> 01:13:34,944 Just more than what people think of black men. 1108 01:13:34,978 --> 01:13:36,980 * 1109 01:13:37,013 --> 01:13:39,683 Like, now, I try to get him in sports and stuff, 1110 01:13:39,716 --> 01:13:43,186 just so he doesn't have to be on the streets. 1111 01:13:43,219 --> 01:13:44,854 * 1112 01:13:44,888 --> 01:13:47,891 I will work my butt off just to help him strive 1113 01:13:47,924 --> 01:13:49,726 to stay motivated to be a better person 1114 01:13:49,759 --> 01:13:52,796 'cause I don't want him to know what a jail looks like. 1115 01:13:52,829 --> 01:13:53,830 * 1116 01:13:53,863 --> 01:13:57,333 I want more for both of my children. 1117 01:13:59,769 --> 01:14:03,873 * 1118 01:14:13,783 --> 01:14:14,918 Okay, it shouldn't be too long. 1119 01:14:17,220 --> 01:14:19,989 What are we in? April, April showers. 1120 01:14:20,023 --> 01:14:21,925 Okay. 1121 01:15:12,341 --> 01:15:14,410 * 1122 01:15:16,846 --> 01:15:23,853 * 1123 01:15:25,789 --> 01:15:27,824 * 1124 01:15:27,857 --> 01:15:31,928 Hi, I don't mean to invade your privacy, 1125 01:15:31,961 --> 01:15:33,930 but my name is Cheryl Sanford. 1126 01:15:33,963 --> 01:15:36,700 I grew up in this house. 1127 01:15:36,733 --> 01:15:38,134 Okay. When did you grow up here? 1128 01:15:38,167 --> 01:15:41,304 Oh, I lived here my whole life. 1129 01:15:41,337 --> 01:15:43,172 * 1130 01:15:43,206 --> 01:15:47,443 When I was 12, I started to go to little parties, 1131 01:15:47,476 --> 01:15:49,445 little house parties. 1132 01:15:49,478 --> 01:15:51,815 And the social network 1133 01:15:51,848 --> 01:15:54,450 that my mother was pushing me into 1134 01:15:54,483 --> 01:15:57,821 was the upper elite crowd. 1135 01:15:57,854 --> 01:16:00,456 * 1136 01:16:00,489 --> 01:16:03,492 She was trying to get me to hobnob 1137 01:16:03,526 --> 01:16:06,362 with a better class of people. 1138 01:16:06,395 --> 01:16:09,733 * 1139 01:16:09,766 --> 01:16:14,437 And these boys decided I didn't belong. 1140 01:16:14,470 --> 01:16:15,839 * 1141 01:16:15,872 --> 01:16:16,906 They called and asked permission 1142 01:16:16,940 --> 01:16:19,142 to take me to a party. 1143 01:16:19,175 --> 01:16:21,177 He picks me up and then he goes 1144 01:16:21,210 --> 01:16:25,749 and picks up, like, five more guys. 1145 01:16:25,782 --> 01:16:28,317 He took me to the party, but he comes to me and lies. 1146 01:16:28,351 --> 01:16:31,220 He says, "Oh, I got to be home by 10:00, 1147 01:16:31,254 --> 01:16:34,023 so I've got to take you home now." 1148 01:16:34,057 --> 01:16:36,192 I don't know, so I get back in the car, 1149 01:16:36,225 --> 01:16:39,863 but here comes all these guys piling in the car, 1150 01:16:39,896 --> 01:16:42,165 and then another carload behind us. 1151 01:16:42,198 --> 01:16:45,368 And instead, they go to Rock Creek Park. 1152 01:16:45,401 --> 01:16:47,871 * 1153 01:16:47,904 --> 01:16:49,973 I was abused, I was raped. 1154 01:16:50,006 --> 01:16:53,409 But--well, they called that "gangbanging" back then. 1155 01:16:53,442 --> 01:16:54,911 * 1156 01:16:54,944 --> 01:16:57,881 That's called "gangbanging." 1157 01:16:57,914 --> 01:17:05,855 * 1158 01:17:10,894 --> 01:17:14,931 * 1159 01:17:14,964 --> 01:17:17,433 I've lost so much. 1160 01:17:17,466 --> 01:17:18,567 * 1161 01:17:18,601 --> 01:17:20,503 You know? 1162 01:17:20,536 --> 01:17:26,375 * 1163 01:17:26,409 --> 01:17:29,512 You just can't jump back into life, 1164 01:17:29,545 --> 01:17:31,414 you know what I'm saying? 1165 01:17:31,447 --> 01:17:33,516 You have to heal. 1166 01:17:33,549 --> 01:17:35,184 * 1167 01:17:35,218 --> 01:17:37,453 You have to heal. 1168 01:17:37,486 --> 01:17:40,890 * 1169 01:17:43,492 --> 01:17:51,534 * 1170 01:17:53,937 --> 01:18:00,143 * 1171 01:18:02,578 --> 01:18:13,322 * 1172 01:18:13,356 --> 01:18:16,860 For the past few years, I've been doing double shifts 1173 01:18:16,893 --> 01:18:19,228 at a daycare center. 1174 01:18:19,262 --> 01:18:21,097 * 1175 01:18:21,130 --> 01:18:25,001 But, now, I'm trying to become a special police officer 1176 01:18:25,034 --> 01:18:28,504 which is a security officer who can carry a gun. 1177 01:18:30,940 --> 01:18:35,344 * 1178 01:18:35,378 --> 01:18:37,146 It's a really dangerous job, 1179 01:18:37,180 --> 01:18:40,583 and it doesn't pay well, 13 bucks an hour. 1180 01:18:40,616 --> 01:18:43,219 * 1181 01:18:43,252 --> 01:18:46,489 But I take pride in protecting my neighborhood. 1182 01:18:46,522 --> 01:18:48,624 * 1183 01:18:48,657 --> 01:18:50,159 And it's the kind of job 1184 01:18:50,193 --> 01:18:52,261 that would've made Emmanuel proud. 1185 01:18:52,295 --> 01:18:59,468 * 1186 01:18:59,502 --> 01:19:02,505 I can't do it, it's too hard. 1187 01:19:02,538 --> 01:19:05,674 -I can't catch like that. -Keep your hands just like that 1188 01:19:05,708 --> 01:19:08,411 and wait for the ball. 1189 01:19:08,444 --> 01:19:10,479 Good job! 1190 01:19:10,513 --> 01:19:11,480 Throw it. 1191 01:19:13,716 --> 01:19:16,152 Every day, I always go over to Denice's house 1192 01:19:16,185 --> 01:19:17,987 to see Faith and Justin 1193 01:19:18,021 --> 01:19:21,724 'cause that's all my pride, those are my babies. 1194 01:19:21,757 --> 01:19:24,894 And I end up meeting someone 1195 01:19:24,928 --> 01:19:26,695 that lived in the same neighborhood 1196 01:19:26,729 --> 01:19:29,565 and it just took off from there. 1197 01:19:31,567 --> 01:19:35,004 With my new boyfriend, it is hard for him to understand 1198 01:19:35,038 --> 01:19:39,042 the love and dedication that I have to the family. 1199 01:19:39,075 --> 01:19:42,745 Faith and Justin feel like the kids 1200 01:19:42,778 --> 01:19:46,549 that me and Emmanuel would've had. 1201 01:19:46,582 --> 01:19:48,684 I mean, I treat them like they're my kids. 1202 01:19:48,717 --> 01:19:50,553 And it's kind of hard to explain 1203 01:19:50,586 --> 01:19:52,688 'cause I don't really know a lot of people who have 1204 01:19:52,721 --> 01:19:54,590 the kind of relationship that I have 1205 01:19:54,623 --> 01:19:56,625 with Denice and them. 1206 01:19:56,659 --> 01:19:58,227 * 1207 01:19:58,261 --> 01:20:00,463 My boyfriend had to come around. 1208 01:20:00,496 --> 01:20:03,166 It, you know, it took time, which is expected. 1209 01:20:03,199 --> 01:20:04,600 But, then, we worked on it. 1210 01:20:04,633 --> 01:20:05,935 Then, next thing you know, 1211 01:20:05,969 --> 01:20:08,905 he's buying something for Faith. 1212 01:20:08,938 --> 01:20:12,842 You can only grow to love this family. 1213 01:20:12,876 --> 01:20:19,082 * 1214 01:20:21,084 --> 01:20:23,552 Hi, my name is Cheryl Sanford, how are you? 1215 01:20:23,586 --> 01:20:25,554 Cheryl, A.J. Mitchell. 1216 01:20:25,588 --> 01:20:29,893 And what's got you coming in to get some help? 1217 01:20:29,926 --> 01:20:31,727 What made me come to this decision? 1218 01:20:31,760 --> 01:20:35,564 My age, one, and my family, two. 1219 01:20:35,598 --> 01:20:36,900 I want to break the cycle. 1220 01:20:36,933 --> 01:20:39,568 I don't want to see my grandchildren 1221 01:20:39,602 --> 01:20:40,736 go down this path. 1222 01:20:40,769 --> 01:20:42,638 I don't want to see... 1223 01:20:44,707 --> 01:20:46,742 ...my children continue to do 1224 01:20:46,775 --> 01:20:48,544 the little things that they do. 1225 01:20:48,577 --> 01:20:51,814 Mm-hm. How old were you when your son died? 1226 01:20:51,847 --> 01:20:54,517 -That was six years ago. -And how did he die? 1227 01:20:54,550 --> 01:20:57,887 -He was murdered. -Wow. 1228 01:20:57,921 --> 01:20:59,155 Yeah. 1229 01:20:59,188 --> 01:21:02,525 And it was the result of... 1230 01:21:02,558 --> 01:21:06,996 I'm not gonna say it was my fault, but I know 1231 01:21:07,030 --> 01:21:10,533 my thought process played a key part in it 1232 01:21:10,566 --> 01:21:13,836 and my environment. 1233 01:21:13,869 --> 01:21:15,104 Let me ask you this: 1234 01:21:15,138 --> 01:21:18,975 What are you willing to do to stop it? 1235 01:21:19,008 --> 01:21:22,011 -Whatever is necessary. -Oh, that's pretty broad. 1236 01:21:22,045 --> 01:21:24,948 What I find is necessary for me today, 1237 01:21:24,981 --> 01:21:26,882 I have to be confined somewhere 1238 01:21:26,916 --> 01:21:30,619 for a certain amount of time. 1239 01:21:30,653 --> 01:21:31,988 Okay. 1240 01:21:32,021 --> 01:21:33,889 And, today, I can sit here comfortably 1241 01:21:33,923 --> 01:21:36,993 and let you know that it's possible. 1242 01:21:37,026 --> 01:21:39,695 And, you know, some of this stuff 1243 01:21:39,728 --> 01:21:42,698 may take some time to get through it, 1244 01:21:42,731 --> 01:21:46,035 but you've got to do the work and it's got to come from you. 1245 01:21:46,069 --> 01:21:48,004 I know you love your grandkids and your daughter 1246 01:21:48,037 --> 01:21:50,839 and all this, but they can't... 1247 01:21:50,873 --> 01:21:53,142 Uh-uh. I know that, yeah. 1248 01:21:53,176 --> 01:21:55,644 Okay. I'm gonna set it up for you. 1249 01:21:55,678 --> 01:21:58,181 I appreciate it. 1250 01:22:00,783 --> 01:22:15,698 * 1251 01:22:15,731 --> 01:22:18,567 * 1252 01:22:24,107 --> 01:22:26,009 Akil, that's my little man. 1253 01:22:26,042 --> 01:22:28,077 He don't even want to be around me like that. 1254 01:22:28,111 --> 01:22:29,245 I don't know, maybe 'cause he getting old, 1255 01:22:29,278 --> 01:22:30,746 I don't know what it is. 1256 01:22:30,779 --> 01:22:34,717 But reading that letter, 1257 01:22:34,750 --> 01:22:37,886 I just want to be there for 'em 1258 01:22:37,920 --> 01:22:40,356 as they get older. 1259 01:22:40,389 --> 01:22:42,058 * 1260 01:22:42,091 --> 01:22:44,093 -Daddy, guess what? -What? 1261 01:22:44,127 --> 01:22:48,764 I got $20 for doing 110 push-ups. 1262 01:22:48,797 --> 01:22:52,035 The first 50 were with no stops. 1263 01:22:52,068 --> 01:22:54,103 But, then--but then the second 59-- 1264 01:22:54,137 --> 01:22:56,105 Do 50 straight right here now. 1265 01:22:56,139 --> 01:22:58,941 I can do 20 straight. 1266 01:23:08,817 --> 01:23:10,086 Is it like this? 1267 01:23:10,119 --> 01:23:13,822 Push up, straighten your body out, the back. 1268 01:23:13,856 --> 01:23:14,890 Hey, what are you doing? 1269 01:23:14,923 --> 01:23:16,792 Your arms are too in. 1270 01:23:16,825 --> 01:23:19,362 Diamond, this helps you. 1271 01:23:33,309 --> 01:23:34,777 * 1272 01:23:38,847 --> 01:23:42,185 Seven, eight, nine, ten, 1273 01:23:42,218 --> 01:23:45,754 eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen... 1274 01:23:45,788 --> 01:23:49,092 Hey, Justin, you're the same exact age 1275 01:23:49,125 --> 01:23:52,295 Emmanuel was when he got his first video camera 1276 01:23:52,328 --> 01:23:54,963 and started recording everything. 1277 01:23:54,997 --> 01:23:58,033 Right, mm-hm. 1278 01:23:58,067 --> 01:24:01,170 It's almost like I'm witnessing it 1279 01:24:01,204 --> 01:24:04,973 all over again, like it's been a rerun, you know? 1280 01:24:05,007 --> 01:24:06,842 Does that mean I got-- does that mean I got 1281 01:24:06,875 --> 01:24:08,444 eleven more years until I die? 1282 01:24:08,477 --> 01:24:10,879 Oh, no! 1283 01:24:10,913 --> 01:24:13,682 Uh-uh, don't say that! 1284 01:24:15,484 --> 01:24:16,485 Mm-mm. 1285 01:24:16,519 --> 01:24:17,720 Twelve, sir! 1286 01:24:17,753 --> 01:24:18,787 Thirteen, sir! 1287 01:24:18,821 --> 01:24:19,788 Fourteen, sir! 1288 01:24:19,822 --> 01:24:20,789 Fifteen, sir! 1289 01:24:20,823 --> 01:24:21,790 Sixteen, sir! 1290 01:24:21,824 --> 01:24:22,458 Seventeen, sir! 1291 01:24:22,491 --> 01:24:23,459 Eighteen, sir! 1292 01:24:23,492 --> 01:24:24,793 Nineteen, sir! 1293 01:24:24,827 --> 01:24:26,028 Twenty, sir! 1294 01:24:26,061 --> 01:24:29,064 -All the white belts, stand up! -Yes, sir! 1295 01:24:29,098 --> 01:24:31,334 Okay, the judges want to see that all together 1296 01:24:31,367 --> 01:24:32,868 as one team. 1297 01:24:32,901 --> 01:24:33,869 Again. 1298 01:24:38,974 --> 01:24:40,843 * 1299 01:24:40,876 --> 01:24:43,078 -Ha! -Good, white belts, yeah? 1300 01:24:43,112 --> 01:24:45,013 Yes, sir! 1301 01:24:45,047 --> 01:24:48,917 -Face the window. -Yes, sir! 1302 01:24:48,951 --> 01:24:51,019 White belts, take off that belt. 1303 01:24:53,489 --> 01:24:58,461 * 1304 01:24:58,494 --> 01:24:59,895 Justin Sanford! 1305 01:25:02,165 --> 01:25:06,935 * 1306 01:25:06,969 --> 01:25:08,771 Justin, congratulations. 1307 01:25:08,804 --> 01:25:09,838 Thank you, sir. 1308 01:25:09,872 --> 01:25:11,874 Turn around, hold it up. 1309 01:25:11,907 --> 01:25:13,509 -Give him a hand. -Go, Justin! 1310 01:25:13,542 --> 01:25:15,043 Hold it up high! 1311 01:25:15,077 --> 01:25:17,413 Eh, Justin! 1312 01:25:17,446 --> 01:25:30,092 * 1313 01:25:34,163 --> 01:25:37,566 All righty! 1314 01:25:37,600 --> 01:25:39,134 I'm so proud of you! 1315 01:25:39,168 --> 01:25:41,069 -Hang it up there. -Oh, boy! 1316 01:25:41,103 --> 01:25:43,806 You got the real yellow belt. 1317 01:25:43,839 --> 01:25:47,443 -I told you. -My baby got a yellow belt! 1318 01:25:47,476 --> 01:25:49,878 He's on his way. 1319 01:25:49,912 --> 01:25:52,415 He's on his way. 1320 01:25:52,448 --> 01:26:01,457 * 1321 01:26:01,490 --> 01:26:03,559 This is what has to be done. 1322 01:26:03,592 --> 01:26:05,394 * 1323 01:26:05,428 --> 01:26:07,263 I'm not the person that I could have been 1324 01:26:07,296 --> 01:26:09,097 for my children, and I'm not the person 1325 01:26:09,131 --> 01:26:12,167 I could be for my grandchildren. 1326 01:26:12,201 --> 01:26:15,571 I'm 61, and it has cost me my life. 1327 01:26:15,604 --> 01:26:17,139 * 1328 01:26:17,172 --> 01:26:19,242 I'm going to detox 1329 01:26:19,275 --> 01:26:23,546 'cause I want to be totally abstinent. 1330 01:26:23,579 --> 01:26:38,461 * 1331 01:26:38,494 --> 01:26:41,997 * 1332 01:26:46,635 --> 01:26:50,172 * 1333 01:26:50,205 --> 01:26:53,175 For the last 12 years, he's repeatedly picked up 1334 01:26:53,208 --> 01:26:56,379 drug charges and distribution charges. 1335 01:26:56,412 --> 01:27:02,084 At this point, we feel that some jail time is appropriate. 1336 01:27:02,117 --> 01:27:04,186 Ms. Cresta-Savage, on behalf of Mr. Sanford. 1337 01:27:04,219 --> 01:27:06,355 I don't think anything would be served 1338 01:27:06,389 --> 01:27:09,191 by incarcerating this individual at this time. 1339 01:27:09,224 --> 01:27:10,393 He's been on time for every hearing, 1340 01:27:10,426 --> 01:27:12,928 he's been very conscientious about this, 1341 01:27:12,961 --> 01:27:14,997 and I believe that he's turning his life around 1342 01:27:15,030 --> 01:27:18,501 and can prove to the court that he will continue to do so 1343 01:27:18,534 --> 01:27:20,068 given that he's employed 1344 01:27:20,102 --> 01:27:23,138 and taking care of his family, et cetera. 1345 01:27:23,171 --> 01:27:24,473 I think if you hang time over his head, 1346 01:27:24,507 --> 01:27:26,509 he'll show you that he'll be worthy 1347 01:27:26,542 --> 01:27:28,377 of probation, Your Honor. 1348 01:27:28,411 --> 01:27:29,645 And, Mr. Sanford, do you maintain 1349 01:27:29,678 --> 01:27:32,114 your employment with Giant? 1350 01:27:32,147 --> 01:27:35,217 Okay, and what are your job responsibilities there? 1351 01:27:40,289 --> 01:27:43,191 Okay, and are your children currently residing with you? 1352 01:27:47,262 --> 01:27:51,233 Okay, and, Mr. Sanford, what would you attribute 1353 01:27:51,266 --> 01:27:54,337 your turnaround with your drug testing to? 1354 01:27:54,370 --> 01:27:55,704 What do you think has been the cause of that? 1355 01:27:55,738 --> 01:27:57,239 What's been most helpful for you? 1356 01:28:09,117 --> 01:28:11,420 Okay, well, in this case, 1357 01:28:11,454 --> 01:28:13,055 I think Mr. Sanford should be commended 1358 01:28:13,088 --> 01:28:16,158 for the fact that since February 16th 1359 01:28:16,191 --> 01:28:19,061 he appears to have refrained from any illicit drug use 1360 01:28:19,094 --> 01:28:22,197 as well as maintain stable, verifiable employment. 1361 01:28:22,230 --> 01:28:25,133 And so, in this case, I'd be inclined to agree 1362 01:28:25,167 --> 01:28:27,436 with the defense that I think it would be a disservice 1363 01:28:27,470 --> 01:28:30,105 to the community and a disservice to Mr. Sanford 1364 01:28:30,138 --> 01:28:32,441 who has achieved a level of stability 1365 01:28:32,475 --> 01:28:35,010 to take Mr. Sanford out of the community 1366 01:28:35,043 --> 01:28:37,112 perhaps only to disrupt the substantial progress 1367 01:28:37,145 --> 01:28:38,614 -that he's made. -Okay. 1368 01:28:42,518 --> 01:28:46,922 * 1369 01:28:46,955 --> 01:28:50,192 The judge, instead of incarcerating me, 1370 01:28:50,225 --> 01:28:52,528 she gave me probation. 1371 01:28:52,561 --> 01:28:53,896 * 1372 01:28:53,929 --> 01:28:56,932 I feel ecstatic, relieved, joyful 1373 01:28:56,965 --> 01:28:59,768 because instead of hanging with my son, 1374 01:28:59,802 --> 01:29:02,705 I could be sitting in a jail cell. 1375 01:29:02,738 --> 01:29:04,807 Come on over. 1376 01:29:04,840 --> 01:29:08,811 But like I said, the judge, she's seeing something in me 1377 01:29:08,844 --> 01:29:11,714 that I'm seeing now, a change. 1378 01:29:11,747 --> 01:29:20,556 * 1379 01:29:25,761 --> 01:29:28,697 You know, since I've been in here, 1380 01:29:28,731 --> 01:29:32,935 I've had a lot of time to think about a lot of things, 1381 01:29:32,968 --> 01:29:36,505 and you and I have not had one moment 1382 01:29:36,539 --> 01:29:39,241 where you and I grieved together about Emmanuel. 1383 01:29:39,274 --> 01:29:40,275 Mm-hm. 1384 01:29:42,110 --> 01:29:45,280 At one time, I was very angry with you 1385 01:29:45,313 --> 01:29:47,883 and I felt like 1386 01:29:47,916 --> 01:29:50,919 it was your fault. 1387 01:29:50,953 --> 01:29:54,623 But I don't harbor those feelings anymore. 1388 01:29:54,657 --> 01:29:59,528 I'm not angry anymore, and I don't blame you anymore. 1389 01:29:59,562 --> 01:30:02,631 I just ask you to forgive me. 1390 01:30:02,665 --> 01:30:04,967 You have a life that you have to live for your children. 1391 01:30:05,000 --> 01:30:06,702 And the main thing I want you to know 1392 01:30:06,735 --> 01:30:12,007 is I don't want my mistakes that I made with you, 1393 01:30:12,040 --> 01:30:14,710 for you to make the same mistakes 1394 01:30:14,743 --> 01:30:18,013 in the rearing of your children. 1395 01:30:18,046 --> 01:30:20,983 My decisions I made, I don't blame you for none of that. 1396 01:30:21,016 --> 01:30:22,985 Like, in my phone I got "Number One Ma" 1397 01:30:23,018 --> 01:30:24,687 'cause I love you, you know. 1398 01:30:24,720 --> 01:30:27,322 I don't, you know, you're the number one mom to me, 1399 01:30:27,355 --> 01:30:28,624 you know what I'm saying? 1400 01:30:28,657 --> 01:30:29,892 I moved forward, you know. 1401 01:30:29,925 --> 01:30:32,127 It's like I always think about Emmanuel, 1402 01:30:32,160 --> 01:30:35,731 but like you said, I still have my children 1403 01:30:35,764 --> 01:30:38,701 and my own life, so I don't want to be depressed daily, 1404 01:30:38,734 --> 01:30:39,968 so I try to, you know, 1405 01:30:40,002 --> 01:30:41,804 I just think about positive stuff, 1406 01:30:41,837 --> 01:30:45,207 and I want you to do the same. 1407 01:30:45,240 --> 01:30:48,210 It makes me... 1408 01:30:48,243 --> 01:30:49,812 very happy. 1409 01:30:49,845 --> 01:30:51,614 And I'm grateful 1410 01:30:51,647 --> 01:30:54,349 that you don't hold any grudges against me 1411 01:30:54,382 --> 01:30:58,286 or feel that I was a bad mom. 1412 01:30:58,320 --> 01:31:01,990 Thank you for saying that here. 1413 01:31:02,024 --> 01:31:04,827 -I love you. -Love you, too, honey. 1414 01:31:11,800 --> 01:31:24,379 * 1415 01:31:26,849 --> 01:31:35,357 * 1416 01:31:35,390 --> 01:31:37,325 I see. 1417 01:31:37,359 --> 01:31:52,240 * 1418 01:31:52,274 --> 01:32:07,222 * 1419 01:32:07,222 --> 01:32:12,260 * 1420 01:32:12,294 --> 01:32:27,242 * 1421 01:32:27,242 --> 01:32:32,280 * 1422 01:32:32,314 --> 01:32:47,262 * 1423 01:32:47,262 --> 01:32:52,300 * 1424 01:32:52,334 --> 01:33:07,282 * 1425 01:33:07,282 --> 01:33:12,320 * 1426 01:33:12,354 --> 01:33:16,892 * 1427 01:33:16,925 --> 01:33:19,027 "Emmanuel Durant, Jr. 1428 01:33:19,061 --> 01:33:21,830 January 14th, 1990. 1429 01:33:21,864 --> 01:33:24,733 December 31, 2009. 1430 01:33:24,767 --> 01:33:28,370 Our loving hero, son, brother, and uncle." 1431 01:33:28,403 --> 01:33:43,318 * 1432 01:33:43,351 --> 01:33:47,890 * 1433 01:34:49,217 --> 01:35:04,132 * 1434 01:35:04,166 --> 01:35:19,114 * 1435 01:35:19,114 --> 01:35:24,152 * 1436 01:35:24,186 --> 01:35:39,134 * 1437 01:35:39,134 --> 01:35:44,172 * 1438 01:35:44,206 --> 01:35:59,154 * 1439 01:35:59,154 --> 01:36:04,192 * 1440 01:36:04,226 --> 01:36:19,174 * 1441 01:36:19,174 --> 01:36:24,212 * 1442 01:36:24,246 --> 01:36:37,625 * 1443 01:36:40,028 --> 01:36:54,977 * 1444 01:36:55,010 --> 01:37:09,958 * 1445 01:37:09,958 --> 01:37:14,997 * 1446 01:37:15,030 --> 01:37:29,978 * 1447 01:37:29,978 --> 01:37:35,017 * 1448 01:37:35,050 --> 01:37:49,998 * 1449 01:37:49,998 --> 01:37:55,037 * 1450 01:37:55,070 --> 01:38:10,018 * 1451 01:38:10,018 --> 01:38:15,057 * 1452 01:38:15,090 --> 01:38:20,028 *