1 00:00:11,701 --> 00:00:14,669 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:14,704 --> 00:00:21,331 ♪ 3 00:00:21,366 --> 00:00:24,886 - I feel guilty, wasting time and space 4 00:00:24,921 --> 00:00:26,543 that could be used in a better way. 5 00:00:26,578 --> 00:00:27,889 Boom! 6 00:00:27,924 --> 00:00:30,409 My journey is selfish and self-serving. 7 00:00:30,444 --> 00:00:33,067 - The biggest question I have is just, 8 00:00:33,102 --> 00:00:34,413 "What am I doing this for? " 9 00:00:34,448 --> 00:00:36,381 I'm ready to go. I'm tapping out. 10 00:00:36,415 --> 00:00:38,935 - I just can't get enough to eat. 11 00:00:38,969 --> 00:00:40,385 I have to finish my net. 12 00:00:40,419 --> 00:00:42,076 And if that doesn't attract fish, 13 00:00:42,111 --> 00:00:43,388 I don't know what else to do. 14 00:00:43,422 --> 00:00:45,562 - I'm part of the ecosystem here. 15 00:00:45,597 --> 00:00:47,944 The bears and I forage on the beach 16 00:00:47,978 --> 00:00:49,428 together at the same time. 17 00:00:49,463 --> 00:00:51,085 Looks like we got something! 18 00:00:51,120 --> 00:00:52,259 We're all eating well. 19 00:00:52,293 --> 00:00:55,089 Everything is underwater. 20 00:00:55,124 --> 00:00:56,470 But you know what? That doesn't matter. 21 00:00:56,504 --> 00:00:57,954 It's day 22. 22 00:00:57,988 --> 00:01:00,646 I need to get to the top of that mountain. 23 00:01:00,681 --> 00:01:02,648 - Who are you when everything's been stripped away? 24 00:01:02,683 --> 00:01:03,787 [bleep]. 25 00:01:03,822 --> 00:01:05,444 [yelping] 26 00:01:05,479 --> 00:01:07,791 - It's scary out here in these woods. 27 00:01:07,826 --> 00:01:10,139 - I have not had a serious meal in a week. 28 00:01:10,173 --> 00:01:12,624 - If I can't get a fire, then I can't stay here. 29 00:01:12,658 --> 00:01:14,108 - It's always in the back of your mind, 30 00:01:14,143 --> 00:01:15,454 "Well, I could tap out." 31 00:01:15,489 --> 00:01:17,456 - Putting up with this filming [bleep]? 32 00:01:17,491 --> 00:01:19,286 - Running into a predator, it's not an if. 33 00:01:19,320 --> 00:01:20,287 It's a when. 34 00:01:20,321 --> 00:01:21,460 Get the hell out of here. 35 00:01:21,495 --> 00:01:23,842 I see you. Get out of here! 36 00:01:23,876 --> 00:01:25,844 - I'm living a hand-to-mouth existence. 37 00:01:25,878 --> 00:01:27,190 Yes! Ah! 38 00:01:27,225 --> 00:01:29,019 - $500,000 is a lot of money. 39 00:01:29,054 --> 00:01:30,469 - It's just gonna keep getting harder. 40 00:01:30,504 --> 00:01:31,850 - It's not the world that needs to change. 41 00:01:31,884 --> 00:01:34,335 It's me that needs to change. 42 00:01:34,370 --> 00:01:36,510 [moans] 43 00:01:36,544 --> 00:01:41,515 ♪ 44 00:01:41,549 --> 00:01:44,518 [pensive music] 45 00:01:44,552 --> 00:01:52,388 ♪ 46 00:01:59,429 --> 00:02:01,776 [water rushing] 47 00:02:01,811 --> 00:02:04,745 [saw scraping] 48 00:02:04,779 --> 00:02:09,439 ♪ 49 00:02:09,474 --> 00:02:12,615 - Man, a chain saw would be amazing... 50 00:02:12,649 --> 00:02:14,237 or a lightsaber. 51 00:02:14,272 --> 00:02:16,136 [imitates lightsaber buzzing] 52 00:02:16,170 --> 00:02:19,587 Oh, I want a lightsaber so bad. 53 00:02:19,622 --> 00:02:21,002 Seriously, okay, if you're gonna have 54 00:02:21,037 --> 00:02:24,005 any of your science fiction weapons, 55 00:02:24,040 --> 00:02:27,664 the lightsaber is the coolest. 56 00:02:27,699 --> 00:02:31,323 [imitates lightsaber warbling and buzzing] 57 00:02:31,358 --> 00:02:32,635 Oh, yeah. 58 00:02:32,669 --> 00:02:34,292 A lightsaber here-- 59 00:02:34,326 --> 00:02:36,121 now, could you chop firewood with a lightsaber 60 00:02:36,156 --> 00:02:37,191 and not have it light on fire? 61 00:02:37,226 --> 00:02:38,986 I don't know. 62 00:02:39,020 --> 00:02:40,850 But it's a fantasy weapon, so I'm saying 63 00:02:40,884 --> 00:02:42,679 there's probably a setting on there that says, 64 00:02:42,714 --> 00:02:44,647 "Yeah, chop firewood, don't light it on fire." 65 00:02:44,681 --> 00:02:46,200 [imitates lightsaber buzzing] 66 00:02:46,235 --> 00:02:47,822 Oh, yeah. 67 00:02:47,857 --> 00:02:50,860 [rain pattering] 68 00:02:50,894 --> 00:02:52,517 Yeah, the lightsaber. 69 00:02:52,551 --> 00:02:56,072 [imitates lightsaber warbling and buzzing] 70 00:02:58,592 --> 00:03:00,870 Yeah, a lightsaber, that'd be it. 71 00:03:00,904 --> 00:03:04,356 I'd be happy if I had a lightsaber. 72 00:03:04,391 --> 00:03:06,358 [pensive music] 73 00:03:06,393 --> 00:03:08,705 It's just weird to thinkthat as 74 00:03:08,740 --> 00:03:10,362 in my shelter, a million people 75 00:03:10,397 --> 00:03:12,537 could possibly be watching this moment 76 00:03:12,571 --> 00:03:14,573 in my life. 77 00:03:14,608 --> 00:03:16,092 There's some guy sitting there, 78 00:03:16,126 --> 00:03:17,576 and he's got a chicken thigh, 79 00:03:17,611 --> 00:03:18,957 and he's just eating his chicken thigh, 80 00:03:18,991 --> 00:03:21,408 and he's watching me out here starving to death. 81 00:03:21,442 --> 00:03:23,789 Yeah--I'm happy for him. 82 00:03:23,824 --> 00:03:24,928 I really am. 83 00:03:24,963 --> 00:03:27,276 I'm happy for you, guy. 84 00:03:27,310 --> 00:03:30,106 You know, enjoy the people around you. 85 00:03:30,140 --> 00:03:31,590 Look to your right; look to your left 86 00:03:31,625 --> 00:03:33,592 and realize that if you were me, 87 00:03:33,627 --> 00:03:35,939 you'd be missing those people, okay? 88 00:03:35,974 --> 00:03:37,251 ♪ 89 00:03:37,286 --> 00:03:40,116 And give them a hug. 90 00:03:40,150 --> 00:03:41,980 I don't care who it is. Could be your uncle Harry. 91 00:03:42,014 --> 00:03:44,638 You know what I mean? Give the man a hug. 92 00:03:44,672 --> 00:03:47,157 [sniffs] 93 00:03:47,192 --> 00:03:49,470 Because being alone... 94 00:03:49,505 --> 00:03:51,645 ♪ 95 00:03:51,679 --> 00:03:53,854 Being alone is a hard thing. 96 00:03:53,888 --> 00:03:56,995 ♪ 97 00:03:57,029 --> 00:03:59,169 [sniffs] 98 00:03:59,204 --> 00:04:02,690 [rain pattering] 99 00:04:02,725 --> 00:04:05,831 [birds chirping] 100 00:04:05,866 --> 00:04:08,006 ♪ 101 00:04:08,040 --> 00:04:12,182 Apparently last night, I did not catch any fish. 102 00:04:12,217 --> 00:04:13,667 [sighs] 103 00:04:13,701 --> 00:04:16,532 Frustration. 104 00:04:16,566 --> 00:04:19,397 I've made a gill net. 105 00:04:19,431 --> 00:04:21,882 It's a great gill net. 106 00:04:21,916 --> 00:04:25,575 I just, apparently, suck at setting gill nets. 107 00:04:25,610 --> 00:04:28,060 They're very snooty little fish. 108 00:04:28,095 --> 00:04:30,373 I don't know what they want. 109 00:04:30,408 --> 00:04:33,100 I can feel myself getting skinny. 110 00:04:33,134 --> 00:04:34,377 ♪ 111 00:04:34,412 --> 00:04:37,277 I haven't been skinny since... 112 00:04:37,311 --> 00:04:38,554 never. 113 00:04:38,588 --> 00:04:42,247 I've never been skinny. 114 00:04:42,282 --> 00:04:45,285 I don't have the energy to do all the things I need to do. 115 00:04:45,319 --> 00:04:47,942 ♪ 116 00:04:47,977 --> 00:04:49,427 The high tide brought one of those 117 00:04:49,461 --> 00:04:52,119 big, yellow cedar logs in. 118 00:04:52,153 --> 00:04:55,156 If a half-ton log goes flying through my net 119 00:04:55,191 --> 00:04:58,125 at some point, it's just gonna tear it to shreds. 120 00:04:58,159 --> 00:05:01,956 So I've got to try and get a rope on it 121 00:05:01,991 --> 00:05:04,131 and then float it back someplace where 122 00:05:04,165 --> 00:05:05,960 it won't be interfering with the net. 123 00:05:05,995 --> 00:05:10,171 ♪ 124 00:05:10,206 --> 00:05:12,346 This cove is an unforgiving place. 125 00:05:12,381 --> 00:05:16,039 It does not bend to my wishes at all. 126 00:05:21,528 --> 00:05:23,840 I'ma try and roll this thing out into deeper water 127 00:05:23,875 --> 00:05:26,705 and then drag it down the beach. 128 00:05:26,740 --> 00:05:28,707 But it's not cooperating. 129 00:05:28,742 --> 00:05:30,675 Now I got to wait until the tide comes in 130 00:05:30,709 --> 00:05:32,366 and drag it out of the vicinity of my-- 131 00:05:32,401 --> 00:05:34,368 of my nets. 132 00:05:34,403 --> 00:05:37,371 [surf lapping] 133 00:05:40,581 --> 00:05:43,273 This might not seem like a really good use for my time. 134 00:05:43,308 --> 00:05:46,760 Getting that net up and getting it set right 135 00:05:46,794 --> 00:05:48,244 is so much work. 136 00:05:48,278 --> 00:05:49,556 And to have a log like this 137 00:05:49,590 --> 00:05:51,903 just drift through and destroy everything 138 00:05:51,937 --> 00:05:54,388 and ruin that asset-- here we go. 139 00:05:54,423 --> 00:05:57,736 Come on, move, move. 140 00:05:57,771 --> 00:06:01,913 [dreary music] 141 00:06:01,947 --> 00:06:03,777 There's no sense in me just walking away 142 00:06:03,811 --> 00:06:05,295 from this log right now. 143 00:06:05,330 --> 00:06:07,090 I got it this far, I've got to get it tied off, 144 00:06:07,125 --> 00:06:09,299 because way the current circulates in the bay, 145 00:06:09,334 --> 00:06:11,129 it would take it right back to that corner. 146 00:06:11,163 --> 00:06:19,965 ♪ 147 00:06:20,000 --> 00:06:21,484 This sucks. 148 00:06:21,519 --> 00:06:23,797 I got a brand-new log out there. 149 00:06:23,831 --> 00:06:26,972 I just can't allow 150 00:06:27,007 --> 00:06:29,147 these thousand-pound logs 151 00:06:29,181 --> 00:06:33,013 to drift around in the bay. 152 00:06:33,047 --> 00:06:36,016 [dramatic music] 153 00:06:36,050 --> 00:06:42,678 ♪ 154 00:06:42,712 --> 00:06:45,197 [eagle chittering] 155 00:06:45,232 --> 00:06:47,199 ♪ 156 00:06:47,234 --> 00:06:49,857 - Who are you? That's an eagle. 157 00:06:49,892 --> 00:06:52,239 [eagle chittering] 158 00:06:52,273 --> 00:06:54,379 Oh, that's a nice sound. 159 00:06:54,414 --> 00:06:56,864 I wish I could see you. 160 00:06:56,899 --> 00:06:58,901 This is what I've been working on. 161 00:06:58,935 --> 00:07:00,212 The ropes are in. 162 00:07:00,247 --> 00:07:02,698 The rest of the boat is completed. 163 00:07:02,732 --> 00:07:05,045 And now that I have the frame of the boat built, 164 00:07:05,079 --> 00:07:07,427 I'm ready to put the skin on. 165 00:07:07,461 --> 00:07:12,432 The tarp I have for a skin is way thin. 166 00:07:12,466 --> 00:07:14,295 It's not nearly 167 00:07:14,330 --> 00:07:17,264 strong enough for a proper skin-on-frame boat, 168 00:07:17,298 --> 00:07:18,783 but it'll have to do, I guess. 169 00:07:18,817 --> 00:07:21,268 I just have to really, 170 00:07:21,302 --> 00:07:24,029 really try to not touch the bottom 171 00:07:24,064 --> 00:07:25,445 when I go in and out of the boat. 172 00:07:25,479 --> 00:07:28,448 ♪ 173 00:07:28,482 --> 00:07:30,588 When you go hungry so long 174 00:07:30,622 --> 00:07:32,935 day after day after day, 175 00:07:32,969 --> 00:07:36,007 that's really difficult. 176 00:07:36,041 --> 00:07:39,182 My father, rest in peace, was born in 1928 177 00:07:39,217 --> 00:07:41,840 and went through the Spanish Civil War as a kid. 178 00:07:41,875 --> 00:07:44,671 He knew what it was to be hungry, 179 00:07:44,705 --> 00:07:47,639 and I have learned so much about his point of view 180 00:07:47,674 --> 00:07:49,848 from being hungry out here. 181 00:07:49,883 --> 00:07:52,333 This is basically a gamble I'm taking, 182 00:07:52,368 --> 00:07:54,163 expending a lot of time and energy, 183 00:07:54,197 --> 00:07:55,509 instead of conserving it, 184 00:07:55,544 --> 00:07:58,650 towards moving to wilderness living 185 00:07:58,685 --> 00:08:00,341 and away from survival, 186 00:08:00,376 --> 00:08:04,035 basically away from survival and into thrival. 187 00:08:04,069 --> 00:08:06,209 The survival is fear-based. 188 00:08:06,244 --> 00:08:08,246 Wilderness living is love-based. 189 00:08:08,280 --> 00:08:10,524 They're actually opposite things. 190 00:08:10,559 --> 00:08:12,906 The skin really worries me. 191 00:08:12,940 --> 00:08:16,392 If it so much as lightly scrapes against 192 00:08:16,426 --> 00:08:18,705 a barnacle or a stone, 193 00:08:18,739 --> 00:08:22,053 it'll spring a leak immediately, or worse. 194 00:08:22,087 --> 00:08:23,882 ♪ 195 00:08:23,917 --> 00:08:27,403 If I have a boat ready, I can catch the salmon run. 196 00:08:27,437 --> 00:08:30,233 But, um, I'm so pressed for time, 197 00:08:30,268 --> 00:08:32,304 wondering if those salmon are running yet 198 00:08:32,339 --> 00:08:35,100 and I'm already missing the salmon migration. 199 00:08:35,135 --> 00:08:36,481 I have no way to know. 200 00:08:36,516 --> 00:08:39,139 I need to finish the boat fast 201 00:08:39,173 --> 00:08:40,968 and get out on the water. 202 00:08:41,003 --> 00:08:43,937 [foreboding music] 203 00:08:43,971 --> 00:08:52,808 ♪ 204 00:08:52,842 --> 00:08:56,294 Today is day 22. 205 00:08:56,328 --> 00:08:59,469 I decided that on day 22, 206 00:08:59,504 --> 00:09:01,333 I was gonna climb a mountain. 207 00:09:01,368 --> 00:09:03,370 [sighs] 208 00:09:03,404 --> 00:09:05,993 ♪ 209 00:09:06,028 --> 00:09:10,342 My shelter is about at least 6 inches underwater. 210 00:09:10,377 --> 00:09:12,552 But you know what? That doesn't matter. 211 00:09:12,586 --> 00:09:15,831 Today is all about doing something 212 00:09:15,865 --> 00:09:19,835 for the 22 veterans a day that commit suicide. 213 00:09:19,869 --> 00:09:21,353 ♪ 214 00:09:21,388 --> 00:09:24,529 'Cause I'm gonna climb this damn mountain. 215 00:09:24,564 --> 00:09:28,395 ♪ 216 00:09:28,429 --> 00:09:30,224 Um, 217 00:09:30,259 --> 00:09:32,261 I'm winded already. 218 00:09:33,607 --> 00:09:35,609 This is not day 1. 219 00:09:35,644 --> 00:09:37,922 This is day 22. 220 00:09:37,956 --> 00:09:40,062 Um, 221 00:09:40,096 --> 00:09:42,271 so I'm already 222 00:09:42,305 --> 00:09:45,412 you know, wore out. 223 00:09:45,446 --> 00:09:46,896 With everything that's going on-- 224 00:09:46,931 --> 00:09:51,073 a lack of food, my shelter underwater-- 225 00:09:51,107 --> 00:09:54,248 kind of really at the bottom of my rope right now, 226 00:09:54,283 --> 00:09:56,630 so I need this. 227 00:09:56,665 --> 00:09:58,321 What I wanted to accomplish out here 228 00:09:58,356 --> 00:10:02,153 was to serve as some sort of inspiration 229 00:10:02,187 --> 00:10:05,294 for--for the veterans that are out there 230 00:10:05,328 --> 00:10:06,778 that are struggling, 231 00:10:06,813 --> 00:10:09,470 people I consider brothers and sisters. 232 00:10:09,505 --> 00:10:11,783 It's more symbolic, I think, than anything. 233 00:10:11,818 --> 00:10:13,647 But if I can summit this mountain, 234 00:10:13,682 --> 00:10:16,512 maybe it will let other veterans know 235 00:10:16,546 --> 00:10:17,824 that it can get better. 236 00:10:17,858 --> 00:10:19,998 ♪ 237 00:10:20,033 --> 00:10:21,966 [brush rustling] 238 00:10:22,000 --> 00:10:24,520 About to go 239 00:10:24,554 --> 00:10:27,005 pretty much straight up here. 240 00:10:27,040 --> 00:10:29,007 This is gonna be 241 00:10:29,042 --> 00:10:32,355 pretty tough because it's all deadfall. 242 00:10:32,390 --> 00:10:35,669 [foreboding music] 243 00:10:35,704 --> 00:10:38,845 So this is extremely dangerous. 244 00:10:38,879 --> 00:10:42,365 ♪ 245 00:10:42,400 --> 00:10:44,885 It's like a damn jungle, really. 246 00:10:44,920 --> 00:10:52,893 ♪ 247 00:10:54,930 --> 00:10:56,276 Ow. 248 00:10:56,310 --> 00:11:04,249 ♪ 249 00:11:04,284 --> 00:11:05,457 Oh, [bleep]. 250 00:11:05,492 --> 00:11:07,943 [groans] 251 00:11:07,977 --> 00:11:10,911 And this is exactly what I'm talking about, 252 00:11:10,946 --> 00:11:12,292 right here. 253 00:11:12,326 --> 00:11:14,743 You know, you hit one of these wrong, 254 00:11:14,777 --> 00:11:17,504 you can break an ankle really quick. 255 00:11:19,471 --> 00:11:21,266 ♪ 256 00:11:21,301 --> 00:11:24,476 [sighs] 257 00:11:24,511 --> 00:11:26,962 You know, I chose this path 258 00:11:26,996 --> 00:11:29,792 'cause I thought it might be a little easier 259 00:11:29,827 --> 00:11:31,691 going through the woods. 260 00:11:31,725 --> 00:11:33,485 ♪ 261 00:11:33,520 --> 00:11:35,142 Boy, was I wrong. 262 00:11:35,177 --> 00:11:38,974 ♪ 263 00:11:39,008 --> 00:11:39,975 [bleep]. 264 00:11:40,009 --> 00:11:41,839 [groaning] 265 00:11:45,221 --> 00:11:48,328 [dramatic music] 266 00:11:48,362 --> 00:11:56,025 ♪ 267 00:12:02,445 --> 00:12:05,034 [groans] 268 00:12:05,069 --> 00:12:08,072 [groans] 269 00:12:08,106 --> 00:12:09,556 [sighs] 270 00:12:09,590 --> 00:12:15,389 ♪ 271 00:12:15,424 --> 00:12:16,390 [grunts] 272 00:12:16,425 --> 00:12:17,391 I'ma get up. 273 00:12:17,426 --> 00:12:26,918 ♪ 274 00:12:26,953 --> 00:12:29,783 My foot slipped between these two, 275 00:12:29,818 --> 00:12:33,614 and then I fell right inside of my knee. 276 00:12:33,649 --> 00:12:35,927 Uh, felt something pull. 277 00:12:35,962 --> 00:12:38,309 Not sure how bad it is. 278 00:12:38,343 --> 00:12:39,655 Um... 279 00:12:41,968 --> 00:12:43,935 Sometimes that stuff can take a little bit 280 00:12:43,970 --> 00:12:47,111 to actually start swelling up. 281 00:12:47,145 --> 00:12:48,319 So I don't know. 282 00:12:48,353 --> 00:12:49,803 I'll, uh, 283 00:12:49,838 --> 00:12:53,048 keep an eye on it and... 284 00:12:56,534 --> 00:12:57,500 See how it goes. 285 00:12:57,535 --> 00:13:00,503 [pensive music] 286 00:13:00,538 --> 00:13:02,333 ♪ 287 00:13:02,367 --> 00:13:04,507 This is where I'm going, 288 00:13:04,542 --> 00:13:06,164 straight up this way. 289 00:13:06,199 --> 00:13:08,822 And the rock's wet. 290 00:13:08,857 --> 00:13:10,548 This is not gonna be fun. 291 00:13:13,068 --> 00:13:16,381 If this were any other climb, 292 00:13:16,416 --> 00:13:20,247 on any other day, 293 00:13:20,282 --> 00:13:23,043 there would probably not be any way on earth 294 00:13:23,078 --> 00:13:25,390 that I would actually do it. 295 00:13:25,425 --> 00:13:27,876 Today is special. 296 00:13:27,910 --> 00:13:30,568 And so I'm getting to the top of this damn mountain. 297 00:13:30,602 --> 00:13:32,259 I don't care. 298 00:13:37,782 --> 00:13:39,749 But I don't, uh, 299 00:13:39,784 --> 00:13:43,063 don't normally condone 300 00:13:43,098 --> 00:13:44,927 grabbing onto roots, 301 00:13:44,962 --> 00:13:47,654 but when that's all that there is... 302 00:13:52,141 --> 00:13:54,937 All right, we just broke into, uh, 303 00:13:54,972 --> 00:13:57,457 "[bleep] got real" status. 304 00:13:57,491 --> 00:13:58,630 One wrong move here... 305 00:13:58,665 --> 00:14:01,116 [birds chittering] 306 00:14:01,150 --> 00:14:03,843 [panting] 307 00:14:03,877 --> 00:14:05,672 And I'm done. 308 00:14:05,706 --> 00:14:08,468 [dramatic music] 309 00:14:08,502 --> 00:14:12,955 ♪ 310 00:14:12,990 --> 00:14:17,995 So I have to be very careful 311 00:14:18,029 --> 00:14:20,549 where I'm putting my hands, feet, everything else. 312 00:14:20,583 --> 00:14:23,000 ♪ 313 00:14:23,034 --> 00:14:26,175 My knee is starting to hurt. 314 00:14:26,210 --> 00:14:30,870 So hopefully I didn't screw it up too bad. 315 00:14:30,904 --> 00:14:36,013 If this is the last day, 316 00:14:36,047 --> 00:14:39,361 it was worth it. 317 00:14:39,395 --> 00:14:40,534 It was worth it. 318 00:14:40,569 --> 00:14:48,439 ♪ 319 00:14:56,102 --> 00:14:58,242 I've officially gained 320 00:14:58,276 --> 00:15:01,935 as much elevation 321 00:15:01,970 --> 00:15:03,764 as I can 322 00:15:03,799 --> 00:15:04,800 on this mountain. 323 00:15:04,834 --> 00:15:07,803 [uplifting music] 324 00:15:07,837 --> 00:15:16,674 ♪ 325 00:15:16,708 --> 00:15:18,641 Whoo! 326 00:15:18,676 --> 00:15:20,816 ♪ 327 00:15:20,850 --> 00:15:22,128 Yeah! 328 00:15:22,162 --> 00:15:29,307 ♪ 329 00:15:29,342 --> 00:15:34,485 I don't get too excited about--much, but... 330 00:15:34,519 --> 00:15:36,832 this is pretty awesome. 331 00:15:36,866 --> 00:15:39,869 And on day 22. 332 00:15:39,904 --> 00:15:42,389 This is beautiful. 333 00:15:42,424 --> 00:15:45,358 I don't even know how to describe it. 334 00:15:45,392 --> 00:15:47,877 And to any of you guys out there 335 00:15:47,912 --> 00:15:48,878 that are... 336 00:15:48,913 --> 00:15:53,193 ♪ 337 00:15:53,228 --> 00:15:55,368 That are struggling to make that climb, 338 00:15:55,402 --> 00:15:57,542 you know what I'm-- you know what I mean... 339 00:15:57,577 --> 00:16:01,546 ♪ 340 00:16:01,581 --> 00:16:04,377 You can do it. You can. 341 00:16:04,411 --> 00:16:05,930 [sighs] 342 00:16:05,965 --> 00:16:07,587 You can. 343 00:16:09,796 --> 00:16:11,591 [spits] 344 00:16:11,625 --> 00:16:13,282 Just don't give up. 345 00:16:16,320 --> 00:16:18,287 Just don't give up. 346 00:16:22,636 --> 00:16:25,639 [dramatic music] 347 00:16:25,674 --> 00:16:34,096 ♪ 348 00:16:34,131 --> 00:16:36,650 [rain pattering] 349 00:16:36,685 --> 00:16:38,307 - It's still raining, but we're getting 350 00:16:38,342 --> 00:16:40,516 a brief break from the pouring rain. 351 00:16:40,551 --> 00:16:42,139 I don't know how long this break will last, 352 00:16:42,173 --> 00:16:45,004 so it still looks like it's coming in pretty hard, 353 00:16:45,038 --> 00:16:47,316 so I'm gonna take full advantage of this break 354 00:16:47,351 --> 00:16:49,008 and go check my lines. 355 00:16:49,042 --> 00:16:51,148 My wool hat on now and feeling warm, 356 00:16:51,182 --> 00:16:53,702 so time to go check. 357 00:16:53,736 --> 00:16:55,152 Fingers crossed for a fish. 358 00:16:55,186 --> 00:16:58,017 [laughs] 359 00:16:58,051 --> 00:17:01,020 [foreboding music] 360 00:17:01,054 --> 00:17:04,023 ♪ 361 00:17:04,057 --> 00:17:05,369 I don't know if you can see it, 362 00:17:05,403 --> 00:17:09,200 but there's a bear behind me. 363 00:17:09,235 --> 00:17:13,549 I think that's the male. 364 00:17:13,584 --> 00:17:15,068 The mama and cubs are usually here, 365 00:17:15,103 --> 00:17:16,207 so I think it's the male. 366 00:17:16,242 --> 00:17:19,072 And it's kind of coming my way, so... 367 00:17:19,107 --> 00:17:20,901 See where it goes. 368 00:17:20,936 --> 00:17:23,732 ♪ 369 00:17:23,766 --> 00:17:25,941 Is it going to my gill net? 370 00:17:25,975 --> 00:17:29,738 ♪ 371 00:17:29,772 --> 00:17:32,223 It is in my net. 372 00:17:32,258 --> 00:17:35,088 It is at my net. 373 00:17:35,123 --> 00:17:36,986 What is it gonna do? 374 00:17:37,021 --> 00:17:39,127 ♪ 375 00:17:39,161 --> 00:17:40,956 Probably smells me on it. 376 00:17:40,990 --> 00:17:46,617 ♪ 377 00:17:46,651 --> 00:17:49,137 Good, bear, go around the net. 378 00:17:49,171 --> 00:17:50,793 That's a smart bear. 379 00:17:50,828 --> 00:17:53,486 ♪ 380 00:17:53,520 --> 00:17:55,315 Oh, my God, the bear's coming this way. 381 00:17:55,350 --> 00:17:56,454 [dramatic music] 382 00:17:56,489 --> 00:17:57,628 [gasps] 383 00:17:57,662 --> 00:17:58,974 [whispering] 384 00:17:59,008 --> 00:18:00,286 [gasps] 385 00:18:00,320 --> 00:18:05,049 ♪ 386 00:18:05,084 --> 00:18:10,675 [gasps] 387 00:18:10,710 --> 00:18:18,580 ♪ 388 00:18:23,205 --> 00:18:25,897 [rain pattering] 389 00:18:25,932 --> 00:18:27,899 ♪ 390 00:18:27,934 --> 00:18:29,038 [gasps] 391 00:18:29,073 --> 00:18:30,592 [whispering] 392 00:18:30,626 --> 00:18:32,214 [gasps] 393 00:18:32,249 --> 00:18:34,285 Oh. 394 00:18:36,943 --> 00:18:38,600 [gasps] 395 00:18:55,444 --> 00:18:56,928 That was the male. 396 00:18:56,963 --> 00:18:59,068 There's the mom and two cubs 397 00:18:59,103 --> 00:19:00,449 that are right here, and then there's this male 398 00:19:00,484 --> 00:19:01,450 that hangs out right here. 399 00:19:01,485 --> 00:19:03,142 And that's the male. 400 00:19:03,176 --> 00:19:04,798 And that was a good-sized bear. 401 00:19:04,833 --> 00:19:07,456 Came up around and basically right 402 00:19:07,491 --> 00:19:08,630 where my gill net was 403 00:19:08,664 --> 00:19:10,494 and thent into the woods there. 404 00:19:10,528 --> 00:19:12,979 So it might come around. It's possible. 405 00:19:13,013 --> 00:19:14,498 Um, hopefully it'll stay a little distance 406 00:19:14,532 --> 00:19:16,810 from, like, right back-- from right in my camp, 407 00:19:16,845 --> 00:19:18,467 but you never know what they're gonna do. 408 00:19:18,502 --> 00:19:21,367 [pensive music] 409 00:19:23,541 --> 00:19:29,513 ♪ 410 00:19:37,383 --> 00:19:40,524 - Good morning. It's day 23. 411 00:19:40,558 --> 00:19:42,353 Uh, it's moving day. 412 00:19:42,388 --> 00:19:45,563 So... 413 00:19:45,598 --> 00:19:48,532 we're gonna take, uh... 414 00:19:48,566 --> 00:19:52,225 take this shelter completely apart 415 00:19:52,260 --> 00:19:55,401 and move it 416 00:19:55,435 --> 00:19:57,748 over by the island today. 417 00:19:57,782 --> 00:19:59,612 ♪ 418 00:19:59,646 --> 00:20:01,269 Last couple days have been rough. 419 00:20:01,303 --> 00:20:02,925 I woke up the other morning 420 00:20:02,960 --> 00:20:07,102 to my entire shelter floor soaking wet. 421 00:20:07,136 --> 00:20:09,794 And it's just not feasible to stay there 422 00:20:09,829 --> 00:20:11,589 for an extended period of time. 423 00:20:11,624 --> 00:20:13,971 Just a devastating blow. 424 00:20:14,005 --> 00:20:17,768 Moving is-- is a huge undertaking. 425 00:20:17,802 --> 00:20:21,116 I've thought, "Well, maybe after I get done 426 00:20:21,150 --> 00:20:23,946 "climbing a mountain, then I'll just-- 427 00:20:23,981 --> 00:20:26,155 I'll just hang it up." 428 00:20:26,190 --> 00:20:28,157 And right now, 429 00:20:28,192 --> 00:20:29,814 that's the last thing on my mind. 430 00:20:29,849 --> 00:20:33,162 I feel recharged, reenergized, 431 00:20:33,197 --> 00:20:35,199 and I feel like I can take on the world. 432 00:20:35,234 --> 00:20:36,649 ♪ 433 00:20:36,683 --> 00:20:39,824 All right, there you have it 434 00:20:39,859 --> 00:20:43,311 in all its glory, 435 00:20:43,345 --> 00:20:46,175 uh, completely disassembled. 436 00:20:46,210 --> 00:20:47,349 ♪ 437 00:20:47,384 --> 00:20:49,006 It's hard to believe that something 438 00:20:49,040 --> 00:20:51,180 that took that long to build 439 00:20:51,215 --> 00:20:53,044 came down that quickly. 440 00:20:54,391 --> 00:20:56,220 [sighs] 441 00:20:56,255 --> 00:21:01,536 Being up on the mountain and coming down, 442 00:21:01,570 --> 00:21:05,367 it got me to a place to where 443 00:21:05,402 --> 00:21:09,095 I said, "Okay. I can--I can do this." 444 00:21:09,129 --> 00:21:11,718 ♪ 445 00:21:11,753 --> 00:21:14,238 I've been looking around through the woods 446 00:21:14,273 --> 00:21:16,758 at places that have higher elevations 447 00:21:16,792 --> 00:21:20,071 than the last place that I was at with the groundwater. 448 00:21:20,106 --> 00:21:22,281 I found a place that's fairly open. 449 00:21:22,315 --> 00:21:24,421 It requires a little bit of clearing out, 450 00:21:24,455 --> 00:21:26,630 you know, brush and debris and stuff like that. 451 00:21:26,664 --> 00:21:29,426 I think I can do a-- 452 00:21:29,460 --> 00:21:33,119 basically like a triangle double lean-to shelter. 453 00:21:33,153 --> 00:21:34,154 ♪ 454 00:21:34,189 --> 00:21:36,329 So here goes nothing. 455 00:21:36,364 --> 00:21:39,608 I also think that I can 456 00:21:39,643 --> 00:21:41,955 suspend my hammock up 457 00:21:41,990 --> 00:21:45,442 and make a--basically a raised bed for myself 458 00:21:45,476 --> 00:21:48,445 to where I don't need, necessarily, flat ground 459 00:21:48,479 --> 00:21:50,170 on the bottom of the shelter. 460 00:21:50,205 --> 00:21:54,485 So that's-- that's what I'm gonna do. 461 00:21:54,520 --> 00:21:56,522 And I don't have to worry about groundwater. 462 00:21:56,556 --> 00:21:58,524 I don't have to worry about the tide coming in. 463 00:21:58,558 --> 00:22:02,528 And it should be a decent place for me to put a shelter. 464 00:22:05,047 --> 00:22:07,843 Should be set up 465 00:22:07,878 --> 00:22:10,708 to get the bed into place. 466 00:22:13,884 --> 00:22:16,542 Tired and thirsty and hungry... 467 00:22:18,613 --> 00:22:21,236 And whiny. [chuckles] 468 00:22:21,270 --> 00:22:22,582 All right. 469 00:22:26,103 --> 00:22:30,072 It's, uh-- it's bed-testing time. 470 00:22:30,107 --> 00:22:34,387 We'll have just enough room to get in here 471 00:22:34,422 --> 00:22:37,563 and then lay down. 472 00:22:37,597 --> 00:22:41,394 Oh, man. 473 00:22:41,429 --> 00:22:43,292 [sighs] 474 00:22:44,777 --> 00:22:47,642 Ah, yeah. 475 00:22:47,676 --> 00:22:48,815 [sniffs] 476 00:22:51,162 --> 00:22:53,130 [exhales] 477 00:22:53,164 --> 00:22:56,133 [dramatic music] 478 00:22:56,167 --> 00:23:02,795 ♪ 479 00:23:02,829 --> 00:23:05,798 [water splashing] 480 00:23:05,832 --> 00:23:08,076 ♪ 481 00:23:08,110 --> 00:23:09,318 There's a fish caught in the gill net, 482 00:23:09,353 --> 00:23:11,010 and I have to get to itbefore the bear does. 483 00:23:11,044 --> 00:23:12,805 "Hello, human coming! 484 00:23:12,839 --> 00:23:15,704 Bop-bop-bop-bop!" 485 00:23:15,739 --> 00:23:17,844 I'm not actually sure it's in my net. 486 00:23:17,879 --> 00:23:19,846 My gill net is down on one side, 487 00:23:19,881 --> 00:23:21,710 so it must have been fighting it. 488 00:23:23,056 --> 00:23:24,023 All right. 489 00:23:24,057 --> 00:23:25,680 Ha. 490 00:23:25,714 --> 00:23:28,890 I do need to put the other side up that came down. 491 00:23:28,924 --> 00:23:31,237 I'm cutting the head off it so it stops 492 00:23:31,271 --> 00:23:32,238 doing that. 493 00:23:32,272 --> 00:23:34,516 Oh, yeah, sorry, honey. 494 00:23:34,551 --> 00:23:36,035 You're dinner... 495 00:23:36,069 --> 00:23:38,071 and lunch for a few days. 496 00:23:38,106 --> 00:23:39,383 [dramatic music] 497 00:23:39,418 --> 00:23:41,523 It's a really big one. 498 00:23:41,558 --> 00:23:49,255 ♪ 499 00:23:49,289 --> 00:23:50,774 I'm actually having trouble eating it all. 500 00:23:50,808 --> 00:23:53,086 I usually don't eat this much. 501 00:23:53,121 --> 00:23:56,918 [pensive music] 502 00:23:56,952 --> 00:24:00,749 Not just all about fish and limpets and mushrooms and-- 503 00:24:00,784 --> 00:24:02,958 got to get some greens in you. 504 00:24:02,993 --> 00:24:04,788 I'm gonna go on a little foray 505 00:24:04,822 --> 00:24:07,963 to look for some greens, maybe different mushrooms, 506 00:24:07,998 --> 00:24:11,277 um, maybe some roots I can dig. 507 00:24:11,311 --> 00:24:12,623 This is where the bears live up here, 508 00:24:12,658 --> 00:24:15,626 so probably let 'em know I'm coming. 509 00:24:15,661 --> 00:24:17,973 Hello! 510 00:24:18,008 --> 00:24:19,147 Hey, bear! 511 00:24:19,181 --> 00:24:22,184 Bop-bop-bop-bop-bop! 512 00:24:22,219 --> 00:24:24,497 Oh, no, salmonberry. 513 00:24:24,532 --> 00:24:26,326 My areas of survival expertise 514 00:24:26,361 --> 00:24:28,674 are medicinal herbs, plants. 515 00:24:28,708 --> 00:24:30,641 I make all my own tinctures and medicines 516 00:24:30,676 --> 00:24:32,643 from what's around me in the woods. 517 00:24:32,678 --> 00:24:33,989 Hello. 518 00:24:34,024 --> 00:24:36,509 [clapping] 519 00:24:36,544 --> 00:24:37,855 I have a masters in marine biology, 520 00:24:37,890 --> 00:24:39,512 which is helpful because 521 00:24:39,547 --> 00:24:42,032 I know the intertidal species very, very well. 522 00:24:42,066 --> 00:24:43,861 I know what you can eat. I know what you can't eat. 523 00:24:43,896 --> 00:24:46,036 I know, uh, about the ecosystem, 524 00:24:46,070 --> 00:24:48,038 but plants are definitely 525 00:24:48,072 --> 00:24:51,420 in my--a big thing that's in my wheelhouse. 526 00:24:51,455 --> 00:24:54,389 I look up and down at the same time because up-- 527 00:24:54,423 --> 00:24:55,701 ooh, there's some nice licorice fern in there. 528 00:24:55,735 --> 00:24:57,530 I want to go get that. 529 00:24:57,565 --> 00:25:00,706 I've been--I had to use that for my tummy the other day. 530 00:25:00,740 --> 00:25:03,432 Running a little short. 531 00:25:04,572 --> 00:25:07,057 Oh, yeah, here's some good, 532 00:25:07,091 --> 00:25:09,611 some good licorice root. 533 00:25:09,646 --> 00:25:12,096 I love this stuff. 534 00:25:12,131 --> 00:25:13,753 You only need a little of it. 535 00:25:13,788 --> 00:25:17,481 It's really nice chopped up and made into a tea, but... 536 00:25:17,516 --> 00:25:21,450 if you're just eating it plain like this, 537 00:25:21,485 --> 00:25:24,592 those few little nibbles-- I'm gonna save this for later. 538 00:25:24,626 --> 00:25:26,145 I'm gonna go to Bear River, as I call it, 539 00:25:26,179 --> 00:25:27,491 or Bear Creek. 540 00:25:27,526 --> 00:25:31,599 [dramatic music] 541 00:25:31,633 --> 00:25:34,118 Here is the leftovers of one bear's meal. 542 00:25:34,153 --> 00:25:36,604 I'm seeing--I'm seeing bear tracks all around. 543 00:25:36,638 --> 00:25:38,157 ♪ 544 00:25:38,191 --> 00:25:40,987 Tore into that 545 00:25:41,022 --> 00:25:43,921 but didn't finish it. 546 00:25:43,956 --> 00:25:45,164 I don't know why it didn't finish it; 547 00:25:45,198 --> 00:25:47,166 sure looks fresh. 548 00:25:47,200 --> 00:25:48,995 So there's also some small tracks around. 549 00:25:49,030 --> 00:25:52,516 So mama bear's been here and cubs have been here, 550 00:25:52,551 --> 00:25:55,346 looks like this morning. 551 00:25:55,381 --> 00:25:58,349 You can see the teeth, 552 00:25:58,384 --> 00:26:00,386 the salmon they've been eating. 553 00:26:04,045 --> 00:26:07,393 Yep, bear-y bears have been very busy. 554 00:26:07,427 --> 00:26:10,051 And there's where we're headed. 555 00:26:10,085 --> 00:26:12,432 [clapping] 556 00:26:12,467 --> 00:26:15,263 ♪ 557 00:26:15,297 --> 00:26:17,058 Hello, bear-bear! 558 00:26:17,092 --> 00:26:20,406 ♪ 559 00:26:20,440 --> 00:26:21,269 [water splashes] [gasps] 560 00:26:24,272 --> 00:26:27,275 [dramatic music] 561 00:26:27,309 --> 00:26:35,283 ♪ 562 00:26:41,669 --> 00:26:43,947 [water rushing] 563 00:26:43,981 --> 00:26:46,466 [clapping] 564 00:26:46,501 --> 00:26:48,158 - Hello, bear-bear! 565 00:26:48,192 --> 00:26:51,471 ♪ 566 00:26:51,506 --> 00:26:54,509 [water splashes] [gasps] 567 00:26:54,543 --> 00:26:57,167 Salmon! 568 00:26:57,201 --> 00:26:59,790 The salmon are spawning right here. 569 00:26:59,825 --> 00:27:01,965 [water running] 570 00:27:01,999 --> 00:27:04,174 Well, that was cool; we got to see salmon 571 00:27:04,208 --> 00:27:06,348 going up the river; this is a good river. 572 00:27:06,383 --> 00:27:07,833 [water splashes] 573 00:27:07,867 --> 00:27:10,352 Look at them go, look, look, look, look. 574 00:27:10,387 --> 00:27:11,871 The bears are smart. 575 00:27:11,906 --> 00:27:13,390 [laughs] 576 00:27:13,424 --> 00:27:14,391 Wow. 577 00:27:14,425 --> 00:27:15,841 All right. 578 00:27:15,875 --> 00:27:18,360 For now, let's keep walking. 579 00:27:18,395 --> 00:27:21,053 [pensive music] 580 00:27:21,087 --> 00:27:23,020 ♪ 581 00:27:23,055 --> 00:27:25,195 So this 582 00:27:25,229 --> 00:27:27,024 is yarrow. 583 00:27:27,059 --> 00:27:29,406 And it is antibacterial; it's good for wounds 584 00:27:29,440 --> 00:27:30,856 and all sorts of stuff. 585 00:27:30,890 --> 00:27:32,443 But I find after I'm cleaning fish, 586 00:27:32,478 --> 00:27:33,721 if I wipe my hands with this, 587 00:27:33,755 --> 00:27:36,275 it gets rid of the smell completely 588 00:27:36,309 --> 00:27:38,622 so I don't smell fishy. 589 00:27:38,657 --> 00:27:40,451 ♪ 590 00:27:40,486 --> 00:27:41,729 Oh, plantain! 591 00:27:41,763 --> 00:27:43,075 Oh, my God! I'm so excited. 592 00:27:43,109 --> 00:27:45,733 I haven't seen any here yet. 593 00:27:45,767 --> 00:27:48,252 So this is plantain. 594 00:27:48,287 --> 00:27:49,633 You probably know it from your yard, 595 00:27:49,668 --> 00:27:51,290 and you're like, "It's a weed," 596 00:27:51,324 --> 00:27:52,912 but it is edible. 597 00:27:52,947 --> 00:27:55,432 It is also very, very medicinal. 598 00:27:55,466 --> 00:27:57,089 This is the go-to plant, right here, 599 00:27:57,123 --> 00:27:58,607 is plantain. 600 00:27:58,642 --> 00:28:01,472 So these stalks, 601 00:28:01,507 --> 00:28:03,474 these things, these seeds, 602 00:28:03,509 --> 00:28:04,959 are all edible. 603 00:28:04,993 --> 00:28:09,688 ♪ 604 00:28:09,722 --> 00:28:12,311 Plantain is cious, and you know what? 605 00:28:12,345 --> 00:28:14,140 I need some greens. 606 00:28:14,175 --> 00:28:16,487 So I'm actually gonna collect some of this 607 00:28:16,522 --> 00:28:20,319 for dinner tonight. 608 00:28:20,353 --> 00:28:21,492 'Cause you cook it up, 609 00:28:21,527 --> 00:28:23,978 and it's a little bit like spinach. 610 00:28:24,012 --> 00:28:26,808 Knowing the plants has been so useful, 611 00:28:26,843 --> 00:28:28,810 because surrounding me is my grocery store, 612 00:28:28,845 --> 00:28:30,709 and surrounding me is my pharmacy. 613 00:28:30,743 --> 00:28:33,021 Oh, my God, I'm in heaven. 614 00:28:33,056 --> 00:28:35,230 Seriously, this is awesome. 615 00:28:35,265 --> 00:28:37,716 ♪ 616 00:28:37,750 --> 00:28:39,718 Hey, kids, do I have something in my teeth? 617 00:28:39,752 --> 00:28:41,202 Is there something in my teeth? 618 00:28:41,236 --> 00:28:42,721 Or am I good? Am I good? 619 00:28:42,755 --> 00:28:44,550 Okay. Just checking, yeah. 620 00:28:44,584 --> 00:28:46,897 No. [chuckles] 621 00:28:46,932 --> 00:28:49,210 Man, that's tasty. 622 00:28:49,244 --> 00:28:52,213 All right, it's time to head on back. 623 00:28:52,247 --> 00:28:55,872 I can have my plantain tacos with my salmon. 624 00:28:55,906 --> 00:28:58,909 [dramatic music] 625 00:28:58,944 --> 00:29:06,814 ♪ 626 00:29:10,507 --> 00:29:12,440 - This is not what I was hoping to find 627 00:29:12,474 --> 00:29:13,924 this morning, folks. 628 00:29:13,959 --> 00:29:15,961 This is my gill net-- 629 00:29:15,995 --> 00:29:19,102 actually, both of my gill nets. 630 00:29:19,136 --> 00:29:22,622 And rough surf came in and destroyed everything last night. 631 00:29:22,657 --> 00:29:23,623 [waves splashing] 632 00:29:23,658 --> 00:29:25,798 Look at these waves. 633 00:29:25,833 --> 00:29:28,490 ♪ 634 00:29:28,525 --> 00:29:30,009 I, uh--wow. 635 00:29:33,185 --> 00:29:34,496 [exhales] 636 00:29:34,531 --> 00:29:36,188 It's one of them "deep breath" moments 637 00:29:36,222 --> 00:29:38,500 where you just take a deep breath. 638 00:29:38,535 --> 00:29:41,538 [surf splashing] 639 00:29:47,855 --> 00:29:49,857 I mean, I don't know what to do with this thing. 640 00:29:54,931 --> 00:29:58,727 Hopefully there's something I can do with it. 641 00:29:58,762 --> 00:30:00,384 Trying very hard not to think about 642 00:30:00,419 --> 00:30:02,214 anything other than today. 643 00:30:02,248 --> 00:30:04,078 My whole strategy in getting through this thing 644 00:30:04,112 --> 00:30:07,219 is to take life one day at a time, 645 00:30:07,253 --> 00:30:08,876 and I'm gonna do my best at it, 646 00:30:08,910 --> 00:30:10,567 so I've got to fix a gill net. 647 00:30:10,601 --> 00:30:11,913 [pensive music] 648 00:30:11,948 --> 00:30:13,432 This is an exercise in patience. 649 00:30:13,466 --> 00:30:16,780 Getting emotionally upset only slows the process. 650 00:30:16,815 --> 00:30:19,058 I have to just take a deep breath, 651 00:30:19,093 --> 00:30:20,439 and if it takes me all day 652 00:30:20,473 --> 00:30:22,061 to get this thing to the point 653 00:30:22,096 --> 00:30:25,271 that it needed to be, it will take all day to do it. 654 00:30:25,306 --> 00:30:27,446 ♪ 655 00:30:27,480 --> 00:30:29,448 Seriously, everything I know about gillnetting, 656 00:30:29,482 --> 00:30:30,829 I learned watching season one of this show, 657 00:30:30,863 --> 00:30:34,108 so that sounds horrible, 658 00:30:34,142 --> 00:30:35,488 but it's the truth, 659 00:30:35,523 --> 00:30:37,939 I've just never had to gillnet anything, 660 00:30:37,974 --> 00:30:40,286 ever, anywhere. 661 00:30:40,321 --> 00:30:42,806 And to be quite honest, 662 00:30:42,841 --> 00:30:43,945 season one made gillnetting 663 00:30:43,980 --> 00:30:46,810 look like an easy thing. 664 00:30:46,845 --> 00:30:50,849 ♪ 665 00:30:50,883 --> 00:30:52,678 One gill net preserved, 666 00:30:52,712 --> 00:30:54,542 ready to go again. 667 00:30:54,576 --> 00:30:59,167 ♪ 668 00:30:59,202 --> 00:31:01,514 Getting apprehensive about the weight loss. 669 00:31:01,549 --> 00:31:04,345 Honestly, it is... 670 00:31:04,379 --> 00:31:05,518 It is worrisome. 671 00:31:05,553 --> 00:31:07,210 I--you know, it would be different 672 00:31:07,244 --> 00:31:08,867 if I could just eat every day, 673 00:31:08,901 --> 00:31:14,010 but that's proving more difficult than I thought. 674 00:31:14,044 --> 00:31:15,528 Seriously, the average American family 675 00:31:15,563 --> 00:31:17,185 throws more food away in a single day 676 00:31:17,220 --> 00:31:19,049 than I've had in the three weeks out here. 677 00:31:19,084 --> 00:31:21,396 It's an eye-opener. 678 00:31:21,431 --> 00:31:23,571 ♪ 679 00:31:23,605 --> 00:31:24,917 All those simple things in life 680 00:31:24,952 --> 00:31:27,609 that I've been taking for granted, 681 00:31:27,644 --> 00:31:30,440 I get to put those in perspective right now. 682 00:31:30,474 --> 00:31:31,924 And just drive through your neighborhood 683 00:31:31,959 --> 00:31:33,408 and look at all the restaurants. 684 00:31:33,443 --> 00:31:35,410 We have such an abundance and a variety of food 685 00:31:35,445 --> 00:31:38,103 that it's entertainment to us. 686 00:31:38,137 --> 00:31:39,587 Our entire diet is entertainment, 687 00:31:39,621 --> 00:31:43,625 and to be totally cut off from all food, 688 00:31:43,660 --> 00:31:47,422 even a subsistence level of calories coming in, 689 00:31:47,457 --> 00:31:50,632 it puts it in perspective, believe me. 690 00:31:50,667 --> 00:31:52,669 I took that for granted. 691 00:31:52,703 --> 00:31:55,292 I mean, I'm wasting away in here. 692 00:31:55,327 --> 00:31:56,949 This should be like 693 00:31:56,984 --> 00:31:59,952 stand naked in front of the camera for 20 seconds, 694 00:31:59,987 --> 00:32:03,818 do a nice profile shot, you know? 695 00:32:03,852 --> 00:32:06,821 It'd look like one of those weight loss commercials. 696 00:32:06,855 --> 00:32:08,650 [dramatic music] 697 00:32:08,685 --> 00:32:09,858 Some days, it's hard. 698 00:32:09,893 --> 00:32:11,826 You just bear up under this, 699 00:32:11,860 --> 00:32:13,483 and you continue to do this day after day after day, 700 00:32:13,517 --> 00:32:15,140 knowing that I could make a phone call 701 00:32:15,174 --> 00:32:17,314 and end my suffering. 702 00:32:17,349 --> 00:32:19,696 This evening, I could be in a warm bed 703 00:32:19,730 --> 00:32:21,353 and a warm meal and a hot shower. 704 00:32:21,387 --> 00:32:24,390 ♪ 705 00:32:28,429 --> 00:32:31,535 [dramatic music] 706 00:32:31,570 --> 00:32:39,405 ♪ 707 00:32:47,103 --> 00:32:49,795 - I found sea lion bones in the water. 708 00:32:49,829 --> 00:32:52,246 It's been in the water for, who knows, 709 00:32:52,280 --> 00:32:53,937 weeks, maybe months, 710 00:32:53,972 --> 00:32:58,079 so should be a bit softer than it normally would be. 711 00:32:58,114 --> 00:33:00,254 This sea lion bone 712 00:33:00,288 --> 00:33:02,946 is an important component of my boatbuilding. 713 00:33:02,981 --> 00:33:07,088 To put on the skin, you need to do some sewing. 714 00:33:07,123 --> 00:33:09,435 I'm basically kind of chiseling it out 715 00:33:09,470 --> 00:33:11,299 and try to get a needle out of it. 716 00:33:14,854 --> 00:33:16,477 Almost out. 717 00:33:16,511 --> 00:33:17,685 But if I pry hard on it, 718 00:33:17,719 --> 00:33:20,653 it could break through the eye of the needle, 719 00:33:20,688 --> 00:33:24,657 which is a weak spot. 720 00:33:24,692 --> 00:33:26,832 So I have to finesse it a little bit more. 721 00:33:26,866 --> 00:33:28,316 [dramatic music] 722 00:33:28,351 --> 00:33:30,146 I was blessed with a father that, when I said, 723 00:33:30,180 --> 00:33:32,493 "I want a boat" or "I want an airplane," 724 00:33:32,527 --> 00:33:34,322 'cause I saw one on TV, he said, 725 00:33:34,357 --> 00:33:35,530 "Why don't we build one?" 726 00:33:35,565 --> 00:33:36,876 That's the kind of father I had, 727 00:33:36,911 --> 00:33:39,155 and has it ever come in handy. 728 00:33:39,189 --> 00:33:40,673 I have good hands. 729 00:33:40,708 --> 00:33:43,021 I grew up with somebody training my hands, 730 00:33:43,055 --> 00:33:47,232 and I can build and craft like there's no tomorrow. 731 00:33:47,266 --> 00:33:48,716 This is a delicate part. 732 00:33:48,750 --> 00:33:49,924 If I break the eye of the needle, 733 00:33:49,958 --> 00:33:52,064 the whole work was for nothing. 734 00:33:52,099 --> 00:33:53,203 ♪ 735 00:33:53,238 --> 00:33:55,412 Okay. 736 00:33:55,447 --> 00:33:59,244 This most precious feature, 737 00:33:59,278 --> 00:34:00,900 the eye of the needle, 738 00:34:00,935 --> 00:34:03,903 that's what makes it into a good tool. 739 00:34:03,938 --> 00:34:04,904 ♪ 740 00:34:04,939 --> 00:34:07,217 [scraping] 741 00:34:07,252 --> 00:34:11,221 I'm really anxious about that skin being so thin 742 00:34:11,256 --> 00:34:14,259 that I--after all this work, it can puncture through 743 00:34:14,293 --> 00:34:15,984 the moment it scrapes against something. 744 00:34:16,019 --> 00:34:17,952 I'm thinking and thinking of ways 745 00:34:17,986 --> 00:34:20,092 to prevent that, of course. 746 00:34:20,127 --> 00:34:22,267 I have a plan in my head, 747 00:34:22,301 --> 00:34:26,616 plan A and B and C, of course, as usual. 748 00:34:26,650 --> 00:34:28,618 And I hope they work out. 749 00:34:28,652 --> 00:34:31,621 [dramatic music] 750 00:34:31,655 --> 00:34:35,280 ♪ 751 00:34:35,314 --> 00:34:38,283 [birds chirping] 752 00:34:38,317 --> 00:34:43,011 ♪ 753 00:34:43,046 --> 00:34:44,668 Good morning, sunshines. 754 00:34:44,703 --> 00:34:46,360 It's, uh, sun and clouds now. 755 00:34:46,394 --> 00:34:48,327 The sun sometimes even peeks out. 756 00:34:48,362 --> 00:34:50,674 A little bit of fog. 757 00:34:50,709 --> 00:34:52,159 It's good weather for me to build, 758 00:34:52,193 --> 00:34:53,677 so I want to be building, 759 00:34:53,712 --> 00:34:55,196 finish that boat. 760 00:34:55,231 --> 00:34:58,510 The chum salmon show signs of starting to run. 761 00:34:58,544 --> 00:35:00,546 I best hurry, give it a go. 762 00:35:00,581 --> 00:35:02,169 And with these cold nights, 763 00:35:02,203 --> 00:35:04,171 I'm sure the water temperature is lowering, 764 00:35:04,205 --> 00:35:05,689 and they'll get in the mood soon 765 00:35:05,724 --> 00:35:08,382 if they're not there already. 766 00:35:08,416 --> 00:35:11,212 I just wish I had more time and more calories here 767 00:35:11,247 --> 00:35:12,731 to build and craft more. 768 00:35:12,765 --> 00:35:14,112 I laid the skin on it, 769 00:35:14,146 --> 00:35:17,080 and I could have just gone on skinning, 770 00:35:17,115 --> 00:35:19,565 but I want to protect that skin 771 00:35:19,600 --> 00:35:21,084 as much as I can, 772 00:35:21,119 --> 00:35:23,742 so I'm gonna install some skid plates 773 00:35:23,776 --> 00:35:26,952 and try to protect the skin 774 00:35:26,986 --> 00:35:29,920 in the places where it's more-- most likely to chafe 775 00:35:29,955 --> 00:35:32,406 against the keel and the stringers. 776 00:35:32,440 --> 00:35:35,236 ♪ 777 00:35:35,271 --> 00:35:37,963 This is the hardest stitch in the whole boat. 778 00:35:37,997 --> 00:35:40,793 ♪ 779 00:35:40,828 --> 00:35:43,313 This needle has a hard time. 780 00:35:43,348 --> 00:35:45,626 Is it... 781 00:35:45,660 --> 00:35:47,283 I didn't bring any cordage, 782 00:35:47,317 --> 00:35:50,286 hoping that I would find something just beachcombing. 783 00:35:50,320 --> 00:35:55,153 There is a lot of cordage material right here. 784 00:35:55,187 --> 00:35:57,845 I don't have to worry about that for now. 785 00:35:57,879 --> 00:36:00,468 So that was a lucky find. 786 00:36:00,503 --> 00:36:02,643 This is very... 787 00:36:02,677 --> 00:36:04,990 ♪ 788 00:36:05,024 --> 00:36:06,888 Well, homemade. 789 00:36:10,547 --> 00:36:14,068 [scissors cutting] 790 00:36:14,102 --> 00:36:17,071 But... 791 00:36:17,105 --> 00:36:18,383 if she floats 792 00:36:18,417 --> 00:36:22,525 and keeps floating for a while, 793 00:36:22,559 --> 00:36:24,389 I'll be grateful. 794 00:36:28,565 --> 00:36:31,568 [dramatic music] 795 00:36:31,603 --> 00:36:39,576 ♪ 796 00:36:43,304 --> 00:36:45,410 I've spent so much time 797 00:36:45,444 --> 00:36:48,447 working on my gill net, 798 00:36:48,482 --> 00:36:50,760 and now, 799 00:36:50,794 --> 00:36:52,244 unfortunately I got torpedoed 800 00:36:52,279 --> 00:36:54,936 by a giant, yellow cedar log. 801 00:36:54,971 --> 00:36:57,939 I've got a 600-pound log that floated in 802 00:36:57,974 --> 00:37:00,148 over top of my gill net, 803 00:37:00,183 --> 00:37:02,427 and now I got to figure out how to get that thing 804 00:37:02,461 --> 00:37:04,808 out of there and up onto the beach. 805 00:37:04,843 --> 00:37:08,329 And that water's too deep for me to get into right now. 806 00:37:08,364 --> 00:37:09,986 [somber music] 807 00:37:10,020 --> 00:37:11,298 And I have to get fish. 808 00:37:11,332 --> 00:37:14,680 I just have to get this cove figured out. 809 00:37:14,715 --> 00:37:17,304 Where are the fish? 810 00:37:17,338 --> 00:37:19,651 It's hard to do this without food. 811 00:37:19,685 --> 00:37:21,653 ♪ 812 00:37:21,687 --> 00:37:23,310 The isolation, the loneliness, 813 00:37:23,344 --> 00:37:25,657 the lack of communication, the hard labor, 814 00:37:25,691 --> 00:37:27,175 and then very little return. 815 00:37:27,210 --> 00:37:29,005 You work all day. 816 00:37:29,039 --> 00:37:30,696 You come home hungry. 817 00:37:30,731 --> 00:37:32,042 If I don't get some solid food 818 00:37:32,077 --> 00:37:33,216 out of that ocean, 819 00:37:33,251 --> 00:37:35,218 I'm not gonna make it. 820 00:37:35,253 --> 00:37:36,530 ♪ 821 00:37:36,564 --> 00:37:41,259 Part of me just is screaming to go home, 822 00:37:41,293 --> 00:37:44,227 but I can't do that to my kids. 823 00:37:44,262 --> 00:37:46,540 ♪ 824 00:37:46,574 --> 00:37:50,060 Pray for my kids every night. 825 00:37:50,095 --> 00:37:52,718 And I really miss 'em. 826 00:37:52,753 --> 00:37:55,756 [surf splashing] 827 00:37:59,794 --> 00:38:01,624 [sighs] 828 00:38:16,363 --> 00:38:19,642 That's the hardest thing about being here. 829 00:38:19,676 --> 00:38:22,783 Everything else, I can handle. 830 00:38:22,817 --> 00:38:23,784 Everything else, I can handle. 831 00:38:23,818 --> 00:38:26,338 I start thinking about my kids, it just 832 00:38:26,373 --> 00:38:27,995 nails me. 833 00:38:31,861 --> 00:38:34,346 They've had to deal with a lot in life. 834 00:38:34,381 --> 00:38:38,177 [somber music] 835 00:38:38,212 --> 00:38:40,835 And to have a chance to, uh... 836 00:38:40,870 --> 00:38:44,667 to change their lives, 837 00:38:44,701 --> 00:38:47,359 to make their lives easier... 838 00:38:47,394 --> 00:38:50,500 ♪ 839 00:38:50,535 --> 00:38:52,847 Ultimately, that's what winning this thing 840 00:38:52,882 --> 00:38:54,849 would do for me, 841 00:38:54,884 --> 00:38:58,059 is to be able to-- for me to 842 00:38:58,094 --> 00:39:01,546 ah, help my kids 843 00:39:01,580 --> 00:39:04,238 in ways they haven't been able to. 844 00:39:04,272 --> 00:39:07,897 And to cop out on that 845 00:39:07,931 --> 00:39:09,381 because I'm cold or wet 846 00:39:09,416 --> 00:39:12,073 or hungry... 847 00:39:12,108 --> 00:39:14,248 no way. 848 00:39:14,282 --> 00:39:15,732 I can't do that. 849 00:39:15,767 --> 00:39:18,770 ♪ 850 00:39:18,804 --> 00:39:20,392 Because I wouldn't be able to live with myself, 851 00:39:20,427 --> 00:39:22,946 having given that chance up to change their lives. 852 00:39:22,981 --> 00:39:26,122 I can't quit, okay? 853 00:39:26,156 --> 00:39:27,813 I just can't quit. 854 00:39:27,848 --> 00:39:29,125 Whatever I got to do, I can do, 855 00:39:29,159 --> 00:39:30,954 but I can't quit. 856 00:39:30,989 --> 00:39:33,371 ♪ 857 00:39:38,652 --> 00:39:46,660 ♪ 858 00:39:56,048 --> 00:39:58,016 Good morning. 859 00:39:58,050 --> 00:39:59,224 Gonna eat some breakfast. 860 00:39:59,258 --> 00:40:01,191 Breakfast of champions, eat my salmon. 861 00:40:01,226 --> 00:40:03,193 And, uh, 862 00:40:03,228 --> 00:40:07,370 I wanted to go check my gill net first. 863 00:40:07,405 --> 00:40:10,062 Well, I've got a live one. 864 00:40:10,097 --> 00:40:12,202 But I've got salmon right now I can eat on 865 00:40:12,237 --> 00:40:14,032 all day today for three meals. 866 00:40:14,066 --> 00:40:15,896 It's really hard to predict when you're gonna get fish, 867 00:40:15,930 --> 00:40:19,244 but on the other hand, 868 00:40:19,278 --> 00:40:21,211 I don't want to catch 'em when I don't need 'em. 869 00:40:21,246 --> 00:40:23,731 [pensive music] 870 00:40:23,766 --> 00:40:24,905 Hi, sweetheart. 871 00:40:24,939 --> 00:40:26,562 [water splashing] Whoo. 872 00:40:26,596 --> 00:40:30,117 You are a live one. Good morning. 873 00:40:30,151 --> 00:40:32,084 Got to you in time. 874 00:40:32,119 --> 00:40:34,570 We're gonna let you go today, okay? 875 00:40:34,604 --> 00:40:37,918 Gonna walk you through it. I've done this before. 876 00:40:37,952 --> 00:40:41,266 I'm sorry you're so tangled up in this net. 877 00:40:41,300 --> 00:40:43,924 And I don't really need it-- oh, honey. 878 00:40:43,958 --> 00:40:45,926 Yeah, all right. 879 00:40:45,960 --> 00:40:47,755 I know many people-- people may think I'm weird 880 00:40:47,790 --> 00:40:50,275 to set the fish free, 881 00:40:50,309 --> 00:40:53,140 but, you know, I could use a new one tomorrow, 882 00:40:53,174 --> 00:40:54,969 but today, I'm still eating on the fish I caught 883 00:40:55,004 --> 00:40:56,488 the other day. 884 00:40:56,523 --> 00:40:57,972 And if this were tomorrow, 885 00:40:58,007 --> 00:40:59,629 I would eat this fish. 886 00:40:59,664 --> 00:41:01,976 But right now, 887 00:41:02,011 --> 00:41:04,634 it feels like it would just be wrong 888 00:41:04,669 --> 00:41:06,981 to take something that I don't need. 889 00:41:07,016 --> 00:41:08,155 ♪ 890 00:41:08,189 --> 00:41:10,502 You are really stuck in there, wow. 891 00:41:13,367 --> 00:41:15,162 [sighs] 892 00:41:15,196 --> 00:41:17,336 ♪ 893 00:41:17,371 --> 00:41:18,855 I don't mind cutting my gill net to save you, 894 00:41:18,890 --> 00:41:23,204 but I would like to save as much of my net as possible. 895 00:41:23,239 --> 00:41:25,690 I've been able to catch so many fish. 896 00:41:25,724 --> 00:41:28,865 I mean, I really feel blessed. 897 00:41:28,900 --> 00:41:32,213 I have; I've been really lucky. 898 00:41:32,248 --> 00:41:34,526 You're out. 899 00:41:34,561 --> 00:41:35,562 All right. 900 00:41:35,596 --> 00:41:38,219 I'm gonna go put this fish 901 00:41:38,254 --> 00:41:39,876 out in the deep water 902 00:41:39,911 --> 00:41:42,258 and let it swim away. 903 00:41:42,292 --> 00:41:44,053 I have to do this fairly quickly. 904 00:41:44,087 --> 00:41:45,882 You're good. 905 00:41:45,917 --> 00:41:48,782 I got you. You are feisty; I'm glad. 906 00:41:48,816 --> 00:41:52,751 You are alive and mad and living proud. 907 00:41:52,786 --> 00:41:54,442 Yeah. 908 00:41:54,477 --> 00:41:56,928 Make it out deep. 909 00:41:56,962 --> 00:41:58,446 You're gonna do it fast so you don't... 910 00:41:58,481 --> 00:42:01,277 [water splashing] 911 00:42:01,311 --> 00:42:03,624 All right. You ready? 912 00:42:03,659 --> 00:42:04,763 Ohh. 913 00:42:04,798 --> 00:42:07,801 Oh! Look at him swim away! 914 00:42:07,835 --> 00:42:09,285 [water splashes] Whoo! 915 00:42:09,319 --> 00:42:12,599 [laughing] 916 00:42:12,633 --> 00:42:14,152 ♪ 917 00:42:14,186 --> 00:42:16,292 Bye. 918 00:42:16,326 --> 00:42:20,641 I'm loving connecting with this beautiful land around me. 919 00:42:20,676 --> 00:42:23,644 I feel at home. 920 00:42:23,679 --> 00:42:24,990 I have everything I need. 921 00:42:25,025 --> 00:42:27,821 All my needs are being met right now, 922 00:42:27,855 --> 00:42:29,857 and I couldn't be more thrilled. 923 00:42:29,892 --> 00:42:32,170 [laughs] 924 00:42:32,204 --> 00:42:35,000 - I'm coming to the conclusion that I have to exploit 925 00:42:35,035 --> 00:42:37,175 every last resource of food. 926 00:42:37,209 --> 00:42:38,176 I'm getting worried. 927 00:42:38,210 --> 00:42:39,695 Ohh. 928 00:42:39,729 --> 00:42:41,386 Look at that! 929 00:42:41,420 --> 00:42:45,701 Just thick and squished like a damn pancake, baby. 930 00:42:45,735 --> 00:42:48,393 - My mind is practically screaming, 931 00:42:48,427 --> 00:42:50,050 "Just give up." 932 00:42:50,084 --> 00:42:53,260 - The kayak is finished, ready to try it out. 933 00:42:53,294 --> 00:42:56,574 In the end, the ocean will decide 934 00:42:56,608 --> 00:42:59,404 if she's seaworthy or not. 935 00:42:59,438 --> 00:43:00,854 Whoa. [grunts] 936 00:43:00,888 --> 00:43:03,339 ♪