1 00:00:06,131 --> 00:00:08,338 I think I'm gonna start making photo albums again 2 00:00:08,342 --> 00:00:11,132 because it's just fun to have all these memories. 3 00:00:11,136 --> 00:00:14,052 No, it's not. I'm not in any of these. 4 00:00:14,056 --> 00:00:16,387 Look at this, remember when everybody was goth? 5 00:00:16,391 --> 00:00:18,473 This is blackmail material for Aunt Esti. 6 00:00:18,477 --> 00:00:20,266 - And you. - What? 7 00:00:20,270 --> 00:00:22,018 Mm, look at my baby girl. 8 00:00:22,022 --> 00:00:23,561 Were you out or in then? 9 00:00:23,565 --> 00:00:25,563 Don't you remember I did your hair that day? 10 00:00:25,567 --> 00:00:27,106 Look at those twists. 11 00:00:27,110 --> 00:00:29,025 You think white folk can do that? 12 00:00:29,029 --> 00:00:31,110 - No. - Okay. 13 00:00:31,114 --> 00:00:33,821 So you would take the photo, but you wouldn't see it for months? 14 00:00:33,825 --> 00:00:35,406 Yeah, and when you finally got them back, 15 00:00:35,410 --> 00:00:38,576 they were terrible, and you would feel awful, 16 00:00:38,580 --> 00:00:40,370 but then you would go and get a disposable camera 17 00:00:40,374 --> 00:00:42,288 and start the whole process all over again. 18 00:00:42,292 --> 00:00:44,040 Well, it sounds like there were less dick pics. 19 00:00:44,044 --> 00:00:45,834 - Yeah. - Yeah, they just had to be tasteful, man. 20 00:00:45,838 --> 00:00:47,252 What? 21 00:00:47,256 --> 00:00:49,003 Did-Did I say that? 22 00:00:49,007 --> 00:00:51,718 No, I didn't, I didn't say that. 23 00:00:52,135 --> 00:00:54,092 So, why you goin' all "Live, Laugh, Love"? 24 00:00:54,096 --> 00:00:58,304 Uh, well, I heard from an old friend from college, Kiki, 25 00:00:58,308 --> 00:01:00,598 and I don't know, it just got me in a reminiscing mood. 26 00:01:00,602 --> 00:01:03,438 Hey, here's baby me and my dad. 27 00:01:03,981 --> 00:01:06,984 What?! Let me see. 28 00:01:07,526 --> 00:01:11,363 - Oh, look at this adorable baby. - Let me see it. 29 00:01:12,865 --> 00:01:16,197 Finneas Alexander, you were a handsome baby. 30 00:01:16,201 --> 00:01:18,199 - Stop it. - You were. Here, here. 31 00:01:18,203 --> 00:01:19,951 Where was this? 32 00:01:19,955 --> 00:01:23,288 Uh, I think it was at our old place on Garfield? 33 00:01:23,292 --> 00:01:25,081 Yeah, he used to give you baths. 34 00:01:25,085 --> 00:01:28,418 - He did? - Yeah, when he was home. 35 00:01:28,422 --> 00:01:31,921 - How often was that? - Not often. 36 00:01:31,925 --> 00:01:35,133 Dad, look, I found one of you. 37 00:01:35,137 --> 00:01:38,469 - Ooh! That jacket was so fly. - Look at that. Look. 38 00:01:38,473 --> 00:01:41,472 - He hasn't changed. - Oh, man. Sookie-Sookie now. 39 00:01:41,476 --> 00:01:43,349 Uh, uh, uh. 40 00:01:43,353 --> 00:01:45,518 - What? - You know people don't have respect 41 00:01:45,522 --> 00:01:48,479 - for turquoise the way they used to. - I think that's teal. 42 00:01:48,483 --> 00:01:50,773 Finn, what color is that? 43 00:01:50,777 --> 00:01:51,900 - Okay, okay. - Turquoise! 44 00:01:51,904 --> 00:01:53,651 - Let's just say it's turquoise. - What color is it? 45 00:01:53,655 --> 00:01:54,944 - Turquoise. - Gaslight Mom. 46 00:01:54,948 --> 00:01:57,113 - "Gaslight Mom"? - Let's gaslight her some more. 47 00:01:57,117 --> 00:01:59,032 - Kiki-from-college Kiki? - Yeah, yeah. 48 00:01:59,036 --> 00:02:00,658 Wants to see you? You guys were obsessed. 49 00:02:00,662 --> 00:02:03,161 I know. Did you ever have an instant best friend like that? 50 00:02:03,165 --> 00:02:05,538 - Yeah, you. - No, come on, that doesn't count. 51 00:02:05,542 --> 00:02:07,415 - We're related. - Rude. 52 00:02:07,419 --> 00:02:10,126 From the moment I met Kiki in line at Coffman Union, 53 00:02:10,130 --> 00:02:12,629 we spent every minute together, we told each other everything. 54 00:02:12,633 --> 00:02:15,924 We knew every word to every Prince song. 55 00:02:15,928 --> 00:02:17,425 - Mm. - I never told you this, 56 00:02:17,429 --> 00:02:20,057 but one night, we almost kissed. 57 00:02:21,308 --> 00:02:22,514 How did you never tell me this? 58 00:02:22,518 --> 00:02:24,224 Well, because there's nothing to tell, you know? 59 00:02:24,228 --> 00:02:26,309 I basically freaked out and ran off, 60 00:02:26,313 --> 00:02:28,603 and then I sorta stopped talking to her. 61 00:02:28,607 --> 00:02:32,444 - Wow, you invented ghosting? - Oh, I did. 62 00:02:32,903 --> 00:02:34,651 She was probably so mad at me. 63 00:02:34,655 --> 00:02:36,819 What if this is part of her 20-year revenge plan? 64 00:02:36,823 --> 00:02:37,904 That stuff happens. 65 00:02:37,908 --> 00:02:40,865 No, now she is a big-time editor, 66 00:02:40,869 --> 00:02:43,993 and she thinks that I could sell a book about relationships. 67 00:02:43,997 --> 00:02:46,746 You mean, like, Dating with Daddy Issues? 68 00:02:46,750 --> 00:02:48,122 Oh, that's actually really good. 69 00:02:48,126 --> 00:02:49,833 How about Fucking Without Fallacies? 70 00:02:49,837 --> 00:02:51,209 - No. - Or should it be "Fellatio"? 71 00:02:51,213 --> 00:02:52,794 - Please stop. - I got it, I got it. 72 00:02:52,798 --> 00:02:55,884 - Trusting While Thrusting. - You need to stop talking. 73 00:03:01,306 --> 00:03:03,054 Looks nice. 74 00:03:03,058 --> 00:03:05,974 Man, if you see who puttin' their foot up on this table, 75 00:03:05,978 --> 00:03:07,058 you need to tell me. 76 00:03:07,062 --> 00:03:08,852 I thought you were against snitches. 77 00:03:08,856 --> 00:03:11,066 I don't snitch, but you can. 78 00:03:13,485 --> 00:03:18,152 Look, Edwin, I need to let you know one of your associates got popped, Sadiiq. 79 00:03:18,156 --> 00:03:21,155 Well, now, Mal, I don't fool with those niggas anymore, man. 80 00:03:21,159 --> 00:03:22,323 You know that. 81 00:03:22,327 --> 00:03:26,290 Alright. Well, I'm glad 'cause he's got a situation. 82 00:03:26,999 --> 00:03:29,622 - For what? - Conspiracy to distribute. 83 00:03:29,626 --> 00:03:31,541 I said, man, I don't fool with those dudes. 84 00:03:31,545 --> 00:03:34,131 Mal, I... don't need to hear this. 85 00:03:35,257 --> 00:03:36,258 Okay. 86 00:03:53,275 --> 00:03:55,899 Hi, sweet angel, ya good? 87 00:03:55,903 --> 00:03:59,736 No. I would be if I knew how to solve the differential for cosine X. 88 00:03:59,740 --> 00:04:02,572 The only math you'll ever need is how to tip 22% 89 00:04:02,576 --> 00:04:03,907 and that's hard enough. 90 00:04:03,911 --> 00:04:07,577 Mm, mm! You were so cute. 91 00:04:07,581 --> 00:04:09,579 He's so Johnny. 92 00:04:09,583 --> 00:04:11,293 Not really there. 93 00:04:12,336 --> 00:04:14,751 Is it weird that I barely know him? 94 00:04:14,755 --> 00:04:18,588 You know, I know nothing about the people who had sex, 95 00:04:18,592 --> 00:04:20,548 got pregnant, then dropped me off at an orphanage. 96 00:04:20,552 --> 00:04:23,718 Though I do wonder about their teeth. My teeth were jacked before braces. 97 00:04:23,722 --> 00:04:25,678 That's really all you know about your real parents? 98 00:04:25,682 --> 00:04:28,723 Yeah, my parents are like UFOs. 99 00:04:28,727 --> 00:04:30,771 I know they exist, I just don't have proof. 100 00:04:31,980 --> 00:04:32,977 Damn, that sucks. 101 00:04:32,981 --> 00:04:36,689 Well, I joined a Facebook group of other Korean adoptees 102 00:04:36,693 --> 00:04:38,900 who know what it's like when you're with your family 103 00:04:38,904 --> 00:04:41,861 and you get mistaken for a foreign exchange student, 104 00:04:41,865 --> 00:04:44,572 so... should we find a group for you? 105 00:04:44,576 --> 00:04:47,158 Yeah, Sons of Dads Who Don't Care. 106 00:04:47,162 --> 00:04:49,706 Hey, he cares. 107 00:04:50,415 --> 00:04:53,043 He dedicated his one good album to you. 108 00:04:54,294 --> 00:04:55,504 In the liner notes? 109 00:04:56,421 --> 00:04:58,336 Do you even know what liner notes are? 110 00:04:58,340 --> 00:04:59,879 No, I don't. 111 00:04:59,883 --> 00:05:03,303 Oh, your generation was robbed. 112 00:05:03,762 --> 00:05:04,972 What are the liner... 113 00:05:06,807 --> 00:05:08,429 - Yeah, Google it. - What are they? 114 00:05:08,433 --> 00:05:10,306 And then the algorithm served me your TED Talk 115 00:05:10,310 --> 00:05:12,600 and I imagined how much trouble you probably had deciding 116 00:05:12,604 --> 00:05:14,561 between that dress and a blue one. 117 00:05:14,565 --> 00:05:17,772 Kiki, you still know me so well. 118 00:05:17,776 --> 00:05:20,859 Do you still have magazines with nail polish on the back? 119 00:05:20,863 --> 00:05:23,615 Of course, I mean, I don't wanna get nail polish on my table. 120 00:05:25,868 --> 00:05:27,240 God, I'm so proud of you. 121 00:05:27,244 --> 00:05:29,617 - Oh. - You're a big deal! 122 00:05:29,621 --> 00:05:32,579 No, I'm like a medium deal at best. 123 00:05:32,583 --> 00:05:34,038 I went deep on your Insta, 124 00:05:34,042 --> 00:05:37,917 and not only are you still the most compelling person I've ever met, 125 00:05:37,921 --> 00:05:39,548 you're really helping people. 126 00:05:42,217 --> 00:05:48,261 Okay, so, to that end, I do have a possible book idea. 127 00:05:48,265 --> 00:05:50,638 It's Dating with Daddy Issues. 128 00:05:50,642 --> 00:05:53,600 Oh, my God, my favorite chapter's going to be, 129 00:05:53,604 --> 00:05:55,226 "I've Never Had a One-Night Stand"? 130 00:05:55,230 --> 00:05:56,519 Ew, of course not. I still haven't. 131 00:05:56,523 --> 00:05:58,813 I mean, I don't wanna wake up in some stranger's bed. 132 00:05:58,817 --> 00:06:00,982 - When was the last time... - ...he washed the sheets?! 133 00:06:00,986 --> 00:06:03,071 Exactly! 134 00:06:04,156 --> 00:06:07,159 It's really good to see you. 135 00:06:08,118 --> 00:06:11,534 Okay, I feel like I need to apologize. 136 00:06:11,538 --> 00:06:14,454 - For what? - It was crazy the way I just ran 137 00:06:14,458 --> 00:06:16,748 - outta that room when... - When we almost kissed? 138 00:06:16,752 --> 00:06:17,832 - Right. - Oh, my God, stop, 139 00:06:17,836 --> 00:06:20,376 we were so young and wrinkle-free, 140 00:06:20,380 --> 00:06:22,420 and high off of a Chumbawamba show. 141 00:06:22,424 --> 00:06:23,963 I think maybe I was afraid to learn 142 00:06:23,967 --> 00:06:25,882 something about myself that I didn't wanna know. 143 00:06:25,886 --> 00:06:27,971 You were repressed and you couldn't deal with it. 144 00:06:29,139 --> 00:06:30,140 Yeah. 145 00:06:31,475 --> 00:06:33,477 I actually understood. 146 00:06:34,228 --> 00:06:37,439 I still missed you. Maybe a lot. 147 00:06:41,318 --> 00:06:43,070 How long are you in town? 148 00:06:44,071 --> 00:06:46,277 Thursday. My husband has to get back to New York. 149 00:06:46,281 --> 00:06:50,619 Now, I saw him on your Insta. He's so cute. 150 00:06:52,746 --> 00:06:53,956 We're open. 151 00:06:57,125 --> 00:07:00,128 Oh, oh, okay, oh! 152 00:07:01,380 --> 00:07:03,006 What are you doing later? 153 00:07:05,801 --> 00:07:07,715 It's a Honeyed Alabama Chicken... 154 00:07:07,719 --> 00:07:11,928 - Hm. - ...yam puree, and collard green salad. 155 00:07:11,932 --> 00:07:13,596 - Wow! - Bam! 156 00:07:13,600 --> 00:07:16,140 Oh, oh, uh, the chicken's hot, just give it a minute. 157 00:07:16,144 --> 00:07:18,852 When are you gonna actually start cooking for a living? 158 00:07:18,856 --> 00:07:22,188 Oh, trust me, ma. I'm tryin' right now just to put 159 00:07:22,192 --> 00:07:25,608 - some things together, you know? - Good, because it's the second-best thing 160 00:07:25,612 --> 00:07:27,068 you're good at. 161 00:07:27,072 --> 00:07:30,405 And the first-best thing I'm good at is... 162 00:07:30,409 --> 00:07:34,246 That would be illegal, everywhere but the state of Nevada. 163 00:07:36,164 --> 00:07:37,499 I need a favor, Nadine. 164 00:07:38,292 --> 00:07:41,708 - Uh-oh. - No, i-it's nothin' bad. 165 00:07:41,712 --> 00:07:45,837 - Fox's nephew caught a case. - Don't ask me to do anything sketchy. 166 00:07:45,841 --> 00:07:48,298 I'm just tryna find out what the DA has on him. 167 00:07:48,302 --> 00:07:51,176 - I really would rather not. - Uh, oh, okay. Okay. 168 00:07:51,180 --> 00:07:53,595 I mean, don't you think it might look a little strange 169 00:07:53,599 --> 00:07:58,099 for a director in the mayor's office to be calling the DA about some drug case? 170 00:07:58,103 --> 00:08:00,351 I'm not trying to jeopardize anything, Nadine. 171 00:08:00,355 --> 00:08:03,525 I swear to God I'm not. It's just a phone call. 172 00:08:04,276 --> 00:08:07,025 I'm trying to turn this thing around, Nadine. 173 00:08:07,029 --> 00:08:08,488 You know I am. 174 00:08:11,533 --> 00:08:15,245 ♪ I see the morning sun creep through your windowpane ♪ 175 00:08:15,996 --> 00:08:19,829 ♪ That love won't let me wait ♪ 176 00:08:19,833 --> 00:08:22,081 Okay, I'll do it. 177 00:08:22,085 --> 00:08:25,627 But only because that is the best thing I've ever put in my mouth. 178 00:08:25,631 --> 00:08:27,132 Thank you, baby. 179 00:08:29,176 --> 00:08:31,178 Well, the second-best thing. 180 00:08:35,516 --> 00:08:37,726 Oh. 181 00:08:38,185 --> 00:08:41,813 Hello, 1999. 182 00:08:45,400 --> 00:08:46,818 Hey, Dad. 183 00:08:47,736 --> 00:08:50,193 You seeing what I'm seeing? He's hiding somethin'. 184 00:08:50,197 --> 00:08:52,278 No, no, he-he just looked at his phone. 185 00:08:52,282 --> 00:08:55,114 You know when this man is being legally dubious. 186 00:08:55,118 --> 00:08:56,991 And right now, he's being dubious as hell. 187 00:08:56,995 --> 00:09:00,123 - I don't see that. - PTSD will do that. 188 00:09:00,707 --> 00:09:02,455 So, we know how this goes. 189 00:09:02,459 --> 00:09:06,167 First, he's preoccupied... 190 00:09:06,171 --> 00:09:08,002 then he'll be all upbeat. 191 00:09:08,006 --> 00:09:11,260 Hey, baby girl, how was your day? 192 00:09:13,387 --> 00:09:14,634 It was fine. 193 00:09:14,638 --> 00:09:16,306 Then he'll be all sentimental. 194 00:09:17,224 --> 00:09:19,643 You know I love you, right, Paige? 195 00:09:21,645 --> 00:09:23,017 Whoop, there it is! 196 00:09:23,021 --> 00:09:25,649 Okay, you're gonna let me handle this like an adult, okay? 197 00:09:27,609 --> 00:09:29,524 - Dad. - Yeah, baby. 198 00:09:29,528 --> 00:09:32,819 Um... are you sure that everything's okay? 199 00:09:32,823 --> 00:09:34,279 Because right now you're doing what you do 200 00:09:34,283 --> 00:09:36,614 - when you're doing something wrong. - Whoa, what? 201 00:09:36,618 --> 00:09:42,120 No. No, no, no, no, no. No! I don't care, it's fine. 202 00:09:42,124 --> 00:09:44,418 Nope! 203 00:09:45,377 --> 00:09:47,588 Whoa, baby girl. 204 00:09:49,298 --> 00:09:51,045 - I had lunch with Kiki. - Yeah? 205 00:09:51,049 --> 00:09:52,213 It was just like college. 206 00:09:52,217 --> 00:09:54,424 She asked to see me tonight and I ran. 207 00:09:54,428 --> 00:09:56,509 Wow, I didn't know you were such a Flo-Jo. 208 00:09:56,513 --> 00:09:58,803 - A what? - Yeah, a runner. R... Flo-Jo's a runner. 209 00:09:58,807 --> 00:10:00,889 Okay, so, I think that I might be afraid 210 00:10:00,893 --> 00:10:02,849 to go there with her, like, go there go there, 211 00:10:02,853 --> 00:10:06,186 because she's great, I feel very pulled toward her. 212 00:10:06,190 --> 00:10:08,605 But what does that mean? Am I a lesbian? Am I bi? 213 00:10:08,609 --> 00:10:10,190 But wouldn't I know that by now? 214 00:10:10,194 --> 00:10:11,774 Does she make you tingle down there? 215 00:10:11,778 --> 00:10:15,820 I mean, maybe, I don't know. I-I-I wanna be in her energy. 216 00:10:15,824 --> 00:10:18,156 Do you look at her boobs when you're talking to her? 217 00:10:18,160 --> 00:10:20,241 - I mean, they're there, I see them, right? - Mm-hm. 218 00:10:20,245 --> 00:10:22,327 I see the boobs, but it's not about the boobs, right? 219 00:10:22,331 --> 00:10:25,163 I-I, I feel like I need to learn something here. 220 00:10:25,167 --> 00:10:27,499 Like, no, I don't wanna be in a relationship with her, 221 00:10:27,503 --> 00:10:31,669 but I do want to... What? No, no, oh, no, no, no. 222 00:10:31,673 --> 00:10:36,674 I need to figure out this part of myself. 223 00:10:36,678 --> 00:10:38,510 What if all of your relationship problems 224 00:10:38,514 --> 00:10:40,428 were just that you were having sex with the wrong sex? 225 00:10:40,432 --> 00:10:42,889 Honestly, that would be a relief. 226 00:10:42,893 --> 00:10:45,642 I wish I was a lesbian. I just like balls too much. 227 00:10:45,646 --> 00:10:47,940 See, now, balls stress me out. 228 00:10:49,316 --> 00:10:50,438 I should text her. 229 00:10:50,442 --> 00:10:51,898 Yeah, ya should. 230 00:10:51,902 --> 00:10:53,483 - I should? Really? - Mm-hm. 231 00:10:53,487 --> 00:10:54,859 I should text her? 232 00:10:54,863 --> 00:10:56,486 - Okay. If you're gonna... - Oh, my gosh. 233 00:10:56,490 --> 00:10:57,862 ...be with a woman, 234 00:10:57,866 --> 00:11:00,031 - we gotta get you one of these. - What? 235 00:11:00,035 --> 00:11:02,325 Oh, no, what is that? I don't... What do I do with that? 236 00:11:02,329 --> 00:11:04,873 It's not complicated, you just strap it on and thrust. 237 00:11:06,208 --> 00:11:07,413 You've used one of those? 238 00:11:07,417 --> 00:11:08,915 What? Why would you not tell me this? 239 00:11:08,919 --> 00:11:11,004 Mm, I guess we're even. 240 00:11:17,219 --> 00:11:19,092 Thanks a lot, man. 241 00:11:19,096 --> 00:11:20,635 There he is. 242 00:11:20,639 --> 00:11:22,140 Hey, Fox. 243 00:11:24,726 --> 00:11:27,642 - Think I'm wearin' a wire? - You think I'm wearing a wire? 244 00:11:27,646 --> 00:11:29,147 Hell no. 245 00:11:30,607 --> 00:11:31,817 Fuck no. 246 00:11:33,485 --> 00:11:34,816 How's your nephew doing? 247 00:11:34,820 --> 00:11:37,485 - I haven't heard. - I heard three cop cars pulled up. 248 00:11:37,489 --> 00:11:39,908 Yeah, motherfuckers ruined my grass. 249 00:11:40,742 --> 00:11:43,032 He wouldn't cooperate, now would he, Fox? 250 00:11:43,036 --> 00:11:45,789 - Honestly? - Yeah, honestly. 251 00:11:46,498 --> 00:11:47,871 Who knows, man? 252 00:11:47,875 --> 00:11:49,998 Fuck you mean, "Who knows?" 253 00:11:50,002 --> 00:11:53,418 You got my freedom on the line with folk I can't trust, man? 254 00:11:53,422 --> 00:11:54,502 - Man, it's not my fault. - What? 255 00:11:54,506 --> 00:11:56,425 You know these young people are different. 256 00:11:59,261 --> 00:12:03,595 - I-I'ma disappear for a minute. - But I can't do that, Fox! 257 00:12:03,599 --> 00:12:06,556 I got a family, I got a whole life, man! 258 00:12:06,560 --> 00:12:08,478 That's why you go! 259 00:12:09,438 --> 00:12:11,648 - You wanna wreck that? - Okay... 260 00:12:12,482 --> 00:12:14,105 this what I know. 261 00:12:14,109 --> 00:12:17,942 I picked up a car in Alabama and I dropped it off in Minneapolis, 262 00:12:17,946 --> 00:12:19,903 and I don't know nothin' else about it. 263 00:12:19,907 --> 00:12:21,617 It was just a car. 264 00:12:22,159 --> 00:12:23,990 I don't need to run. 265 00:12:23,994 --> 00:12:25,704 Up to you, Edwin. 266 00:12:26,330 --> 00:12:27,539 Up to you. 267 00:12:28,123 --> 00:12:29,746 Ain't nobody around here. You need a ride? 268 00:12:29,750 --> 00:12:32,044 No, no, no, I'm good. You go 'head. 269 00:12:38,717 --> 00:12:41,053 I don't know where the fuck I am. 270 00:12:42,721 --> 00:12:44,135 Come on! 271 00:12:44,139 --> 00:12:47,430 Hi, I'm going full-force aunt today. 272 00:12:47,434 --> 00:12:50,938 - Why you being so weird? - I have something for you. 273 00:12:51,730 --> 00:12:53,148 No way. 274 00:12:53,607 --> 00:12:54,729 Is that my dad's album? 275 00:12:54,733 --> 00:12:56,902 The good one, yep. 276 00:13:00,155 --> 00:13:03,158 Oh, this is crazy, thank you. 277 00:13:03,617 --> 00:13:07,283 Yeah, well... I know what it's like. 278 00:13:07,287 --> 00:13:10,916 If my birth parents had an album, I'd probably want a copy too, so. 279 00:13:12,000 --> 00:13:15,625 But not sure if your mom should know about this, 280 00:13:15,629 --> 00:13:19,049 so... I'm leaving it up to you. 281 00:13:32,229 --> 00:13:33,689 Hi. 282 00:13:34,106 --> 00:13:35,190 Hey. 283 00:13:36,859 --> 00:13:41,359 And so, there he was, you know, all of a sudden, my dad living with me. 284 00:13:41,363 --> 00:13:44,487 I can't even imagine how overwhelming that was, on every level. 285 00:13:44,491 --> 00:13:48,449 Yeah, my brain was flooded with the cortisol and adrenaline, 286 00:13:48,453 --> 00:13:50,831 and I, I could barely think straight. 287 00:13:51,832 --> 00:13:53,166 I mean, that's a book. 288 00:13:53,625 --> 00:13:55,707 Yes, that's my book. 289 00:13:55,711 --> 00:13:57,292 - Right? - Yes! 290 00:13:57,296 --> 00:13:59,711 Well, how's your son doing? 291 00:13:59,715 --> 00:14:01,629 - Um, he's anxious... - Mm. 292 00:14:01,633 --> 00:14:03,923 ...but he loves having my dad around. 293 00:14:03,927 --> 00:14:08,303 They have this dude bond that I do not understand. 294 00:14:08,307 --> 00:14:10,430 Well, maybe your dad isn't always talking about feelings. 295 00:14:10,434 --> 00:14:13,725 Yes, I am still like that. 296 00:14:13,729 --> 00:14:16,315 Oh, and you should be, and I'm glad. 297 00:14:19,193 --> 00:14:24,402 Is it just me or are we here in the exact situation 298 00:14:24,406 --> 00:14:27,284 you ran away from 22 years ago? 299 00:14:27,659 --> 00:14:30,204 It is not just you. 300 00:14:31,580 --> 00:14:33,165 I didn't think so. 301 00:14:34,499 --> 00:14:37,127 So what am I gonna do this time? 302 00:14:38,921 --> 00:14:40,255 What are you gonna do? 303 00:14:42,591 --> 00:14:46,053 ♪ You know you're making it hard for me ♪ 304 00:14:47,513 --> 00:14:50,470 ♪ Baby, us dancing so close ♪ 305 00:14:50,474 --> 00:14:53,473 ♪ Ain't a good idea ♪ 306 00:14:53,477 --> 00:14:56,480 ♪ 'Cause I'ma want you now and here ♪ 307 00:14:57,189 --> 00:14:59,733 ♪ The way that you shake it on me ♪ 308 00:15:00,526 --> 00:15:04,780 ♪ Makes me want you so bad sexually ♪ 309 00:15:05,656 --> 00:15:07,403 ♪ Oh girl... ♪ 310 00:15:07,407 --> 00:15:08,488 Well? 311 00:15:08,492 --> 00:15:11,203 Would it be okay if I used the bathroom? 312 00:15:11,578 --> 00:15:13,409 - Sure. Yeah. - You sure? 313 00:15:13,413 --> 00:15:14,702 - Super quick. - Okay. 314 00:15:14,706 --> 00:15:17,209 Super quick. I'll be right back. 315 00:15:21,296 --> 00:15:22,589 Ah! 316 00:15:22,965 --> 00:15:26,714 We are embarrassingly cis-hetero. 317 00:15:26,718 --> 00:15:28,716 - Mm-hm. - But you knew that. 318 00:15:28,720 --> 00:15:32,387 There's still something about her that just makes me feel so seen. 319 00:15:32,391 --> 00:15:34,514 Hello? There's a whole word for that. 320 00:15:34,518 --> 00:15:36,224 - What? - Intimacy. 321 00:15:36,228 --> 00:15:38,772 - Intimacy? - Into-Me-You-See. 322 00:15:39,314 --> 00:15:41,229 Oh. Oh! 323 00:15:41,233 --> 00:15:45,108 - Like, Into-Me-You-See? - Yeah. 324 00:15:45,112 --> 00:15:46,276 I've never heard that one. 325 00:15:46,280 --> 00:15:48,695 Of course, you have. I'm you. 326 00:15:48,699 --> 00:15:50,196 - Right. - Yeah. 327 00:15:50,200 --> 00:15:54,117 Okay, so, what we're saying is I don't want Kiki. 328 00:15:54,121 --> 00:15:57,996 I mean, I do, I do, I want Kiki, but make it a man. 329 00:15:58,000 --> 00:16:00,415 Well, I want a Blow Pop without gum in the middle, 330 00:16:00,419 --> 00:16:03,168 but you can't have everything you want. 331 00:16:03,172 --> 00:16:07,843 I feel like I could get that for you. 332 00:16:09,386 --> 00:16:11,384 Okay, here's the thing, 333 00:16:11,388 --> 00:16:13,303 I did really want to kiss you... 334 00:16:13,307 --> 00:16:15,388 ...but I'm not into women, which I think I already knew, 335 00:16:15,392 --> 00:16:18,433 but what I am into is intimacy. 336 00:16:18,437 --> 00:16:20,602 Paige, this is my husband, Miguel. 337 00:16:20,606 --> 00:16:22,441 Y... W... Oh. 338 00:16:31,742 --> 00:16:34,240 I can never do that for you again, do you understand? 339 00:16:34,244 --> 00:16:36,201 It put me in a terrible spot! 340 00:16:36,205 --> 00:16:38,494 Okay, I'm sorry, but I needed to know, baby. 341 00:16:38,498 --> 00:16:40,792 - I... And I thank you. - Okay. 342 00:16:42,294 --> 00:16:46,503 Well, the good news is Sadiiq isn't gonna take a plea bargain. 343 00:16:46,507 --> 00:16:49,797 - Okay. - But that doesn't mean that he won't. 344 00:16:49,801 --> 00:16:51,341 Right. 345 00:16:51,345 --> 00:16:54,344 Right, right. Right. 346 00:16:54,348 --> 00:16:57,639 - So what are you gonna do? - I don't know. 347 00:16:57,643 --> 00:16:59,724 You know, normally this is right where I disappear, 348 00:16:59,728 --> 00:17:01,188 but I don't know, Nadine. 349 00:17:02,856 --> 00:17:06,193 Well, as someone who's been on the receiving end of you disappearing, 350 00:17:06,777 --> 00:17:09,863 all I'll say is: it hurts. 351 00:17:13,367 --> 00:17:14,868 Hey. 352 00:17:18,247 --> 00:17:21,830 You're just... very miss-able. 353 00:17:21,834 --> 00:17:24,833 Woman, you did just fine without me. 354 00:17:24,837 --> 00:17:27,836 - Yeah, I did. - I... Yeah, I know. 355 00:17:27,840 --> 00:17:32,427 But still... there is only one you, Edwin. 356 00:17:37,057 --> 00:17:42,062 There's no one else I'd rather be in a... situations hip with. 357 00:17:46,191 --> 00:17:47,730 Hey, everybody. 358 00:17:47,734 --> 00:17:51,568 So, I've been on social media Ozempic for a minute, 359 00:17:51,572 --> 00:17:55,071 and I've been thinking about why am I making these videos? 360 00:17:55,075 --> 00:18:00,159 Is it for me? Is it for you? And the answer is: yes, both. 361 00:18:00,163 --> 00:18:04,664 Because I think healing in public helps me heal, 362 00:18:04,668 --> 00:18:07,167 and I think it helps you heal too, wherever you are. 363 00:18:07,171 --> 00:18:09,836 So, speaking of healing, 364 00:18:09,840 --> 00:18:13,965 this week, I got some unexpected healing from the past 365 00:18:13,969 --> 00:18:17,260 because the past slid into my DMs. 366 00:18:17,264 --> 00:18:19,470 And here's what I learned: 367 00:18:19,474 --> 00:18:22,682 being willing to look at the past 368 00:18:22,686 --> 00:18:26,227 actually helps us make sense of who we really are. 369 00:18:26,231 --> 00:18:29,272 And when we can see who we are, 370 00:18:29,276 --> 00:18:31,983 other people can start to really see you too, 371 00:18:31,987 --> 00:18:34,152 and that's what we all want, right? 372 00:18:34,156 --> 00:18:39,578 To see and be seen by the people who matter the most. 373 00:18:45,459 --> 00:18:46,998 - Hey. - Hey. 374 00:18:47,002 --> 00:18:49,546 Oh, my, um, dad said he would be a minute. 375 00:18:52,758 --> 00:18:54,547 - How's Ava? - She's good. 376 00:18:54,551 --> 00:18:55,840 - We're good. - Oh! Good. 377 00:18:55,844 --> 00:18:58,096 - Yeah, yeah. Mm-hm. - Good. 378 00:19:00,182 --> 00:19:02,809 Edwin told me about family therapy. 379 00:19:03,519 --> 00:19:05,521 I bet it's bringin' up a lot. 380 00:19:07,189 --> 00:19:10,817 Yeah, but it's not a bad "a lot." 381 00:19:12,694 --> 00:19:16,819 I mean, it's working. You look more open and lighter. 382 00:19:16,823 --> 00:19:18,321 - Oh. - Even more than usual. 383 00:19:18,325 --> 00:19:19,405 - Really? - Mm-hm. 384 00:19:19,409 --> 00:19:23,409 Wow, I guess I'm just figuring shit out. 385 00:19:23,413 --> 00:19:25,286 - Thank you. - Yeah. 386 00:19:25,290 --> 00:19:28,293 - For seeing me. - Mm. 387 00:19:41,890 --> 00:19:43,972 - Hey. - Hey. 388 00:19:43,976 --> 00:19:45,473 What's goin' on? 389 00:19:45,477 --> 00:19:50,774 I'm just... takin' in everything I missed. 390 00:19:52,192 --> 00:19:54,820 Time is a bitch. 391 00:19:59,408 --> 00:20:00,617 Hm. 392 00:20:02,536 --> 00:20:04,993 - Dad? - Yeah. 393 00:20:04,997 --> 00:20:08,625 I'm really sorry that I freaked out on you before. 394 00:20:09,877 --> 00:20:14,169 I just have these well-traveled neural pathways 395 00:20:14,173 --> 00:20:18,886 and... they were telling me that you were up to something. 396 00:20:22,347 --> 00:20:26,476 And I think, in the past, I wouldn't have... 397 00:20:27,769 --> 00:20:32,149 asked you directly because what if you said something that terrified me. 398 00:20:33,150 --> 00:20:36,361 But I really want to know. 399 00:20:37,321 --> 00:20:42,784 So... do you have something you need to tell me? 400 00:20:44,828 --> 00:20:46,830 Sadiiq got arrested, Paige. 401 00:20:47,998 --> 00:20:50,918 And I thought he was gonna... take me down with him. 402 00:20:52,169 --> 00:20:55,631 Don't look at me like that, baby, please. 403 00:20:57,216 --> 00:20:59,714 - Did you do something bad? - I didn't think so. 404 00:20:59,718 --> 00:21:02,804 "Think" implies doubt. 405 00:21:04,806 --> 00:21:07,639 When we went to Alabama, I did a job. 406 00:21:07,643 --> 00:21:09,269 Oh, wow. 407 00:21:10,354 --> 00:21:12,185 I drove a car for Fox. 408 00:21:12,189 --> 00:21:14,103 Whoa. 409 00:21:14,107 --> 00:21:16,193 Uhh... 410 00:21:17,861 --> 00:21:19,817 you lied to us? 411 00:21:19,821 --> 00:21:21,277 I was trying to help you fix the roof. 412 00:21:21,281 --> 00:21:25,156 Oh, God, I, I don't know how to feel about that. 413 00:21:25,160 --> 00:21:28,952 Fox is getting ready to leave town. He told me I need to do the same thing. 414 00:21:28,956 --> 00:21:30,870 But I ain't goin', Paige. 415 00:21:30,874 --> 00:21:32,960 I ain't goin' anywhere. 416 00:21:34,628 --> 00:21:36,338 I'm stayin' right here. 417 00:21:39,299 --> 00:21:41,844 Thank you for telling me the truth. 418 00:21:43,929 --> 00:21:45,760 You cannot keep things from me. 419 00:21:45,764 --> 00:21:48,058 And I won't, baby... 420 00:21:49,601 --> 00:21:50,811 ever again. 421 00:21:52,104 --> 00:21:53,522 Okay. 422 00:21:55,858 --> 00:21:57,689 Hey. 423 00:21:57,693 --> 00:22:01,109 Hey. Can I use your record player? 424 00:22:01,113 --> 00:22:02,823 Yes, you can. 425 00:22:03,574 --> 00:22:05,409 What you got there? 426 00:22:06,994 --> 00:22:08,783 - You wanna play that? - Mm-hm. 427 00:22:08,787 --> 00:22:12,082 He has that one song, it's in that annoying asthma commercial. 428 00:22:14,251 --> 00:22:17,000 But I kinda just wanna hear the whole thing, so. 429 00:22:17,004 --> 00:22:18,714 Yeah, yeah, yeah. 430 00:22:19,756 --> 00:22:21,592 Did you know him? My dad? 431 00:22:22,885 --> 00:22:24,303 Little bit. 432 00:22:25,470 --> 00:22:26,722 Here, let me play that for you. 433 00:22:37,816 --> 00:22:39,818 I reached out to him. 434 00:22:41,236 --> 00:22:43,447 Your dad? Is that, is that right? 435 00:22:44,198 --> 00:22:45,199 Yeah. 436 00:22:46,116 --> 00:22:49,453 And... he texted me back. 437 00:22:50,829 --> 00:22:52,247 And how did that feel? 438 00:22:52,748 --> 00:22:54,374 I'm not sure. 439 00:22:55,459 --> 00:22:59,796 But, um, if you could just... not tell my mom. 440 00:23:22,069 --> 00:23:23,612 Okay. 441 00:23:26,823 --> 00:23:29,697 ♪ A lot can happen in one year ♪ 442 00:23:29,701 --> 00:23:32,742 ♪ One day you're happy floating on air ♪ 443 00:23:32,746 --> 00:23:36,830 ♪ The next day your whole closet's full of tears ♪ 444 00:23:36,834 --> 00:23:39,123 ♪ 445 00:23:39,127 --> 00:23:41,918 ♪ Through the highs and through the lows ♪ 446 00:23:41,922 --> 00:23:45,213 ♪ In the darkness, find your home ♪ 447 00:23:45,217 --> 00:23:48,971 ♪ I'll be there, no matter where you are ♪ 448 00:23:50,973 --> 00:23:52,808 ♪ Hey! Take one breath ♪ 449 00:23:54,101 --> 00:23:56,766 ♪ Before you leave ♪ 450 00:23:56,770 --> 00:23:59,352 ♪ I'll show you off ♪ 451 00:23:59,356 --> 00:24:02,276 ♪ Be a part of my dreams ♪ 452 00:24:02,818 --> 00:24:05,529 ♪ Hey! Feel the air ♪ 453 00:24:06,154 --> 00:24:08,407 ♪ And find your peace ♪ 454 00:24:09,157 --> 00:24:11,410 ♪ Breathe and believe ♪ 455 00:24:12,202 --> 00:24:14,329 ♪ Breathe and believe ♪ 456 00:24:15,622 --> 00:24:18,913 ♪ Hey! You know you gotta be yourself ♪ 457 00:24:18,917 --> 00:24:22,250 ♪ 'Cause you'll never be nobody else ♪ 458 00:24:22,254 --> 00:24:24,586 ♪ You know you gotta be yourself ♪ 459 00:24:24,590 --> 00:24:27,259 ♪ Hey! Oooh... ♪ 460 00:24:28,427 --> 00:24:30,596 ♪ You know you gotta be yourself ♪ 461 00:24:31,305 --> 00:24:33,473 ♪ 'Cause you'll never be nobody else ♪ 462 00:24:39,354 --> 00:24:40,647 Woo-hoo!