1 00:01:16,032 --> 00:01:20,471 [WAVES SPLASHING] 2 00:01:22,256 --> 00:01:26,086 [DREAMY MUSIC PLAYING] 3 00:02:20,488 --> 00:02:22,142 [TV PLAYING IN THE DISTANCE] 4 00:02:26,102 --> 00:02:28,278 I'm pouring a glass. Do you want some? 5 00:02:28,322 --> 00:02:29,497 MAN: No, I'm good! 6 00:02:34,806 --> 00:02:38,027 [DOOR RATTLING] 7 00:02:42,510 --> 00:02:44,251 -[KNOCK ON DOOR] -Who's there? 8 00:02:44,294 --> 00:02:45,295 [KNOCKING CONTINUES] 9 00:02:45,948 --> 00:02:47,210 Hello? 10 00:02:47,254 --> 00:02:48,298 WOMAN: Mom, it's me. 11 00:02:48,994 --> 00:02:50,039 [KNOCKING ON DOOR] 12 00:02:50,082 --> 00:02:51,083 Mom! 13 00:02:53,738 --> 00:02:55,479 AUTOMATED VOICE: Door one. 14 00:02:55,523 --> 00:02:57,438 [STUTTERS] Uh, my key doesn't work. 15 00:03:00,919 --> 00:03:01,920 No, we, uh... 16 00:03:03,661 --> 00:03:05,315 We changed the locks last year 17 00:03:05,359 --> 00:03:07,230 after you and Eric stole the guitars. 18 00:03:10,102 --> 00:03:12,670 The deal was you wouldn't come back 19 00:03:12,714 --> 00:03:13,845 until you were clean. 20 00:03:13,889 --> 00:03:15,064 [GASPS] Wait, wait, wait. 21 00:03:15,107 --> 00:03:17,327 [STUTTERING] That is why I'm here. I am... 22 00:03:18,154 --> 00:03:19,155 I'm done. 23 00:03:19,808 --> 00:03:21,418 I wanna come home. 24 00:03:21,462 --> 00:03:23,203 Are you done? Are you out of drugs? 25 00:03:24,291 --> 00:03:26,249 I ended it with Eric. 26 00:03:26,293 --> 00:03:28,382 He's gone. I've been living on my own on the streets 27 00:03:28,425 --> 00:03:32,386 for maybe like a week or maybe even more. 28 00:03:32,429 --> 00:03:34,475 You know, I've been thinking about all the things 29 00:03:34,518 --> 00:03:36,738 that you said to me since I was like a little girl 30 00:03:36,781 --> 00:03:38,740 and I've had these, like, realizations like, 31 00:03:38,783 --> 00:03:43,266 these big, big realizations that I wanna go back to school 32 00:03:43,310 --> 00:03:44,354 and I wanna get a job 33 00:03:44,398 --> 00:03:47,227 and I just wanna get my kids back... 34 00:03:47,270 --> 00:03:49,011 Molly, stop. Just stop. 35 00:03:49,054 --> 00:03:50,839 I've heard this speech for 10 years. 36 00:03:50,882 --> 00:03:53,102 [WHEEZING] Mom, I need to be home. 37 00:03:53,145 --> 00:03:55,800 You know, I do not do well when I'm left on my own 38 00:03:56,540 --> 00:03:58,063 and I wanna detox 39 00:04:00,501 --> 00:04:02,764 and I can do that here. [CRYING] 40 00:04:02,807 --> 00:04:05,767 No. Come back when you're clean. 41 00:04:05,810 --> 00:04:06,811 No, Mom, please. 42 00:04:08,160 --> 00:04:11,294 I'll see you when you're clean. 43 00:04:11,338 --> 00:04:13,905 -MOLLY: Mom! Please! Mom! -[KNOCKING ON DOOR] 44 00:04:13,949 --> 00:04:16,168 -[SIGHS WEARILY] -MOLLY: It's me! 45 00:04:16,212 --> 00:04:17,561 -[KNOCKING CONTINUES] -Come here, come here. 46 00:04:17,953 --> 00:04:19,346 Oh! 47 00:04:19,389 --> 00:04:20,782 -[KNOCKING STOPS] -You're doing the right thing. 48 00:04:20,825 --> 00:04:22,784 If you let her in, she's gonna blow up your life. 49 00:04:22,827 --> 00:04:25,090 Oh, you know, don't talk about her like that. 50 00:04:25,134 --> 00:04:26,396 She's not a bomb. 51 00:04:26,440 --> 00:04:28,311 I'm just saying this is what you have to do. 52 00:04:28,355 --> 00:04:30,400 She won't walk if you carry her. 53 00:04:30,444 --> 00:04:31,662 Oh, fuck off. 54 00:04:34,143 --> 00:04:35,144 Okay. 55 00:04:35,971 --> 00:04:37,320 [KNOCKING ON DOOR] 56 00:04:45,633 --> 00:04:47,330 [KNOCKING INTENSIFIES] 57 00:04:47,374 --> 00:04:48,375 [SIGHS WEARILY] 58 00:04:52,335 --> 00:04:53,293 [SIGHS] 59 00:04:56,861 --> 00:04:58,950 Don't make me call the police. 60 00:04:58,994 --> 00:05:00,778 MOLLY: Oh, my God. Who are you? 61 00:05:00,822 --> 00:05:03,520 Every time you come into this house, something disappears. 62 00:05:03,564 --> 00:05:05,000 MOLLY: I'll stay at a hotel. 63 00:05:05,043 --> 00:05:08,308 I just need some place safe that I can get clean. 64 00:05:08,351 --> 00:05:09,961 Just money for a hotel then. 65 00:05:12,834 --> 00:05:14,183 You want me to give you money? 66 00:05:15,010 --> 00:05:16,359 Are you crazy? 67 00:05:16,403 --> 00:05:19,449 Like the money you needed for shoes or for glasses? 68 00:05:19,493 --> 00:05:23,323 Or for, uh, oh, online cosmetology classes? 69 00:05:23,366 --> 00:05:26,064 Or Zumba lessons to get back in shape? 70 00:05:27,762 --> 00:05:30,068 How much heroin have I paid for? 71 00:05:30,112 --> 00:05:31,853 You're right. 72 00:05:31,896 --> 00:05:34,725 I'll just detox under a highway 73 00:05:34,769 --> 00:05:36,074 with prostitutes and rats, 74 00:05:36,118 --> 00:05:37,728 'cause that's a much better plan, Mom. 75 00:05:37,772 --> 00:05:39,164 Why are you covering your mouth? 76 00:05:41,906 --> 00:05:42,994 Let me see. 77 00:05:44,213 --> 00:05:45,214 Show me. 78 00:05:49,261 --> 00:05:50,262 Oh, my God. 79 00:05:58,967 --> 00:06:01,404 [SOBBING] Can I please just have a pillow and a blanket? 80 00:06:01,448 --> 00:06:03,145 It gets really cold at night. 81 00:06:03,928 --> 00:06:04,929 Get well, Molly. 82 00:06:09,499 --> 00:06:11,022 [TV PLAYING] 83 00:06:18,247 --> 00:06:19,291 [SIGHS IN EXASPERATION] 84 00:06:19,335 --> 00:06:20,336 I set the alarm. 85 00:06:23,731 --> 00:06:24,732 [EXHALES] 86 00:06:27,169 --> 00:06:31,347 Why did you say before that she blows up my life? 87 00:06:31,391 --> 00:06:33,828 I mean what you really meant was our life? 88 00:06:33,871 --> 00:06:35,917 -Yes. -So why didn't you just say that... 89 00:06:35,960 --> 00:06:37,440 Do I need to? 90 00:06:37,484 --> 00:06:39,616 I'm tired of what we've been through. 91 00:06:39,660 --> 00:06:41,575 I'm scared for you whenever she's around. 92 00:06:41,618 --> 00:06:44,882 Just don't let her suck you in. 93 00:06:44,926 --> 00:06:46,406 She doesn't suck me in. 94 00:06:47,102 --> 00:06:48,582 [EXHALES] 95 00:06:48,625 --> 00:06:52,107 Whenever I've decided to reengage with her, 96 00:06:52,150 --> 00:06:54,979 I've always done it with my eyes wide open. 97 00:06:58,983 --> 00:06:59,984 [EXHALES] 98 00:07:36,630 --> 00:07:38,501 -[DOOR BEEPS] -AUTOMATED VOICE: Door one. 99 00:07:38,545 --> 00:07:41,417 If you're hoping for pity, there's none coming. 100 00:07:41,461 --> 00:07:43,811 -Go to a shelter. -I need to be home. 101 00:07:45,160 --> 00:07:46,770 Go, please. 102 00:08:43,305 --> 00:08:44,306 [SIGHS SOFTLY] 103 00:08:48,397 --> 00:08:50,834 [SIGHS IN FRUSTRATION] Oh, God damn it, you are stubborn. 104 00:08:51,705 --> 00:08:52,793 You're like a mule. 105 00:08:53,707 --> 00:08:55,447 If there's anyone or anything 106 00:08:55,491 --> 00:08:58,755 more fucking relentless than heroin, it's you. 107 00:08:58,799 --> 00:09:01,236 That's my one glimmer of hope in all this here. 108 00:09:04,544 --> 00:09:06,458 If you're serious, 109 00:09:06,502 --> 00:09:09,113 I'll drive you to detox right now. 110 00:09:09,157 --> 00:09:13,683 Okay, but first can I stay here a couple of days. 111 00:09:13,727 --> 00:09:16,512 -No. -Getting into detox is not that simple... 112 00:09:16,556 --> 00:09:18,688 Molly, we can definitely try. 113 00:09:18,732 --> 00:09:20,298 Beds open up every day. 114 00:09:20,342 --> 00:09:21,691 -They do not open up everyday. -Either we leave right now, 115 00:09:21,735 --> 00:09:23,780 or you can get used to sleeping on the porch. 116 00:09:23,824 --> 00:09:27,567 Fuck! Were you always this heartless bitch? Huh? 117 00:09:30,004 --> 00:09:31,875 I guess I must have forgotten. 118 00:09:31,919 --> 00:09:35,009 Can I at least come inside and shower? 119 00:09:35,052 --> 00:09:37,054 I haven't showered in weeks. 120 00:09:38,665 --> 00:09:40,754 [SOBBING] I'm... I'm on my period. 121 00:09:43,147 --> 00:09:46,411 No. I'll go get my things. 122 00:09:48,239 --> 00:09:49,371 Molly, wait here. 123 00:09:49,414 --> 00:09:51,591 -I'll go with you. -Wait here. 124 00:10:02,340 --> 00:10:03,341 [ENGINE REVVING] 125 00:10:15,353 --> 00:10:16,354 [SNIFFS] 126 00:10:25,276 --> 00:10:26,277 Seat belt. 127 00:10:36,984 --> 00:10:39,290 We'll pick up tampons on the way. Okay? 128 00:10:40,727 --> 00:10:42,859 No. I don't need any. 129 00:10:42,903 --> 00:10:43,904 You're not on... 130 00:10:47,385 --> 00:10:48,386 Okay. 131 00:11:02,183 --> 00:11:04,098 -Hello. -Hello. 132 00:11:04,881 --> 00:11:06,143 -Name? -Molly... 133 00:11:06,187 --> 00:11:08,319 Molly Wheeler Margaret. 134 00:11:09,451 --> 00:11:10,931 Do you have your Medicaid card? 135 00:11:10,974 --> 00:11:11,975 Yeah. 136 00:11:15,370 --> 00:11:16,719 What drugs are you using? 137 00:11:16,763 --> 00:11:20,723 Heroin, methadone and some crack. 138 00:11:20,767 --> 00:11:24,596 Uh, if I get any, then maybe Adderall. 139 00:11:24,640 --> 00:11:26,381 Last time you used? 140 00:11:26,424 --> 00:11:29,645 Yesterday morning so I'm hurting. 141 00:11:30,777 --> 00:11:32,169 How long have you been addicted? 142 00:11:33,083 --> 00:11:34,911 -Hmm. -Ten years or more. 143 00:11:36,608 --> 00:11:38,132 Have you ever been through detox? 144 00:11:38,175 --> 00:11:39,829 -Uh-huh. -How many times? 145 00:11:40,395 --> 00:11:41,396 Um... 146 00:11:42,223 --> 00:11:43,659 Fourteen. 147 00:11:43,703 --> 00:11:46,270 -Excuse me? -Fourteen times. 148 00:11:50,579 --> 00:11:52,668 Okay, so you know the drill. 149 00:11:52,712 --> 00:11:54,191 Medicaid pays for three nights. 150 00:11:54,235 --> 00:11:56,106 -After that, you're on your own. -Mm-hmm. 151 00:11:56,150 --> 00:11:59,327 You get a cot, two towels, three meals a day, if you can tolerate them. 152 00:11:59,370 --> 00:12:01,024 Muscle spasms, cold sweats, 153 00:12:01,068 --> 00:12:04,071 fever, vomiting, paranoia, insomnia. All that's normal. 154 00:12:04,114 --> 00:12:07,814 But if you start to have trouble breathing, speak up. 155 00:12:07,857 --> 00:12:10,338 The only open bed is in a shared woman's room. 156 00:12:12,209 --> 00:12:13,210 Sign here. 157 00:12:28,225 --> 00:12:29,226 Okay. 158 00:12:29,661 --> 00:12:31,228 Let's go. 159 00:12:31,272 --> 00:12:34,841 Okay. You've made your point. Can I please come home now? 160 00:12:34,884 --> 00:12:38,105 No. I'll pick you up in three days. 161 00:12:38,148 --> 00:12:40,368 Really? [STUTTERS] You're not gonna help? 162 00:12:41,195 --> 00:12:43,284 You're gonna walk away? 163 00:12:43,327 --> 00:12:44,546 It's your thing, huh? 164 00:12:45,155 --> 00:12:46,591 Fucking walk away! 165 00:12:51,074 --> 00:12:52,075 Come on. 166 00:13:07,961 --> 00:13:12,792 [CRYING] Oh, fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck. 167 00:13:24,891 --> 00:13:26,631 You motherfucker. 168 00:13:38,165 --> 00:13:39,166 [EXHALES] 169 00:13:51,961 --> 00:13:53,876 [WHIMPERING] 170 00:14:00,752 --> 00:14:02,189 She's in hell right now. 171 00:14:05,888 --> 00:14:06,846 What? 172 00:14:08,108 --> 00:14:10,197 She's in pain from head to toe 173 00:14:11,763 --> 00:14:13,287 and I kicked her to the curb. 174 00:14:14,810 --> 00:14:18,553 You should call your mothers' group. 175 00:14:19,423 --> 00:14:20,947 Don't want their goddamn pity. 176 00:14:20,990 --> 00:14:22,339 [CHUCKLES SOFTLY] 177 00:14:22,383 --> 00:14:24,037 It helps, you know. It helps. 178 00:14:25,516 --> 00:14:27,997 -You're all in the same boat. -Yeah. 179 00:14:28,650 --> 00:14:30,173 Sinking 24/7. 180 00:14:31,696 --> 00:14:32,697 [SIGHS SOFTLY] 181 00:14:34,830 --> 00:14:36,440 Sometimes I get the feeling that... 182 00:14:39,704 --> 00:14:41,184 I don't want to love her anymore. 183 00:14:42,882 --> 00:14:44,057 Scares the shit out of me. 184 00:14:46,537 --> 00:14:47,930 I'm gonna keep loving her, right? 185 00:14:48,975 --> 00:14:50,063 Of course. 186 00:14:52,500 --> 00:14:53,501 Oh. 187 00:14:56,417 --> 00:14:58,158 This is the mess you married into. 188 00:14:58,985 --> 00:15:00,334 I'm okay with it. 189 00:15:00,377 --> 00:15:02,162 Yeah, then you really are an idiot. 190 00:15:05,339 --> 00:15:06,862 You always talk to me like that 191 00:15:06,906 --> 00:15:08,908 whenever she's around. Have you noticed that? 192 00:15:11,345 --> 00:15:12,346 Stop doing it. 193 00:15:14,000 --> 00:15:14,957 Okay? 194 00:15:16,524 --> 00:15:17,873 I'm sorry, honey. 195 00:15:28,666 --> 00:15:31,321 [SIGHS IN RELIEF] Oh, that feels so good. 196 00:15:32,583 --> 00:15:33,715 You're the best, Deb. 197 00:15:36,283 --> 00:15:38,720 Oh, did I tell you we just got back from a trip to Napa? 198 00:15:39,242 --> 00:15:40,548 Oh, really? 199 00:15:40,591 --> 00:15:43,377 -How was it? -It was incredible. 200 00:15:43,420 --> 00:15:45,988 Walter's client let us say in his house. 201 00:15:46,032 --> 00:15:48,599 [CHUCKLES] House was not really a word for it. 202 00:15:48,643 --> 00:15:49,687 It's ridiculous. 203 00:16:05,094 --> 00:16:06,226 DOCTOR: I'm gonna level with you, Molly, 204 00:16:06,269 --> 00:16:07,923 because you don't have time for more bull. 205 00:16:09,751 --> 00:16:12,232 You have gone through this 15 times. 206 00:16:12,275 --> 00:16:15,322 Statistically, you are likely to be back again. 207 00:16:15,365 --> 00:16:18,455 Heroin has a 97 percent relapse rate. 208 00:16:18,499 --> 00:16:21,545 You've already blown through the veins in your arms, your ankles, 209 00:16:22,416 --> 00:16:24,461 hands, feet. 210 00:16:24,505 --> 00:16:26,594 Yeah, you stayed away from your neck so far, 211 00:16:26,637 --> 00:16:29,205 but most people go there sooner or later. 212 00:16:29,249 --> 00:16:31,251 You have put yourself in quite a situation. 213 00:16:31,294 --> 00:16:34,819 -No, actually, you all put her in this situation. -Oh, my God, Mom. Please. 214 00:16:34,863 --> 00:16:37,257 Her problem started in a doctor's office just like this. 215 00:16:37,300 --> 00:16:38,954 When she was 17, 216 00:16:38,998 --> 00:16:41,304 she sprained her knee water skiing 217 00:16:41,348 --> 00:16:44,873 and walked out with a prescription for 75 Oxy 218 00:16:44,916 --> 00:16:47,354 and never a refill denied. 219 00:16:47,397 --> 00:16:49,312 Now that's, that's terrible. 220 00:16:49,356 --> 00:16:51,358 -I'm sorry. -You and me both. 221 00:16:53,012 --> 00:16:54,056 What are your triggers? 222 00:16:55,492 --> 00:17:01,020 Boredom, anxiety, shame, loneliness. 223 00:17:01,063 --> 00:17:03,805 My life. Basically my life's a trigger. 224 00:17:05,111 --> 00:17:06,112 You're not alone. 225 00:17:06,808 --> 00:17:08,027 I'm 31 years old, 226 00:17:08,070 --> 00:17:10,333 and I've done nothing but go down in life. 227 00:17:10,377 --> 00:17:12,509 So I can sit around and feel all of that, 228 00:17:12,553 --> 00:17:15,164 or I can do something about it and feel good 229 00:17:16,035 --> 00:17:17,036 and numb. 230 00:17:18,646 --> 00:17:22,867 She's always been really sensitive to things like that. 231 00:17:22,911 --> 00:17:24,391 To feelings. 232 00:17:24,434 --> 00:17:26,915 It's always what she said since she was a teenager. 233 00:17:26,958 --> 00:17:28,569 How would you know? You weren't even there... 234 00:17:28,612 --> 00:17:30,919 Molly, I'm here now. 235 00:17:30,962 --> 00:17:34,401 Let's talk about our options. Hmm? 236 00:17:34,444 --> 00:17:37,099 Do either of you know what an opioid antagonist is? 237 00:17:37,621 --> 00:17:38,753 No. 238 00:17:38,796 --> 00:17:40,407 It's a shot we give you once a month, 239 00:17:40,450 --> 00:17:43,323 and it blocks opioids from getting into your system. 240 00:17:43,366 --> 00:17:46,326 Heroin, Oxy, narco. 241 00:17:46,369 --> 00:17:49,503 The shot essentially makes you immune to getting high. 242 00:17:49,546 --> 00:17:51,113 Now it's not a magic bullet. 243 00:17:51,157 --> 00:17:53,289 You still have to do the active work of recovery. 244 00:17:53,333 --> 00:17:54,812 Twelve-steps therapy, all of it. 245 00:17:57,337 --> 00:17:58,338 Is it safe? 246 00:17:59,904 --> 00:18:01,210 Are you fucking kidding me? 247 00:18:02,690 --> 00:18:04,257 You've spent 10 years 248 00:18:04,300 --> 00:18:07,738 shooting up heroin laced with what, 249 00:18:07,782 --> 00:18:11,002 rat poison and baby powder and God knows what else. 250 00:18:11,046 --> 00:18:13,701 And now all of a sudden, your body's a temple. 251 00:18:13,744 --> 00:18:16,617 Is it fucking safe? Oh, God. 252 00:18:17,574 --> 00:18:18,923 Jesus, Molly. 253 00:18:18,967 --> 00:18:20,403 Yes, it's safe. 254 00:18:20,447 --> 00:18:21,448 FDA approved. 255 00:18:22,666 --> 00:18:24,973 You have to be clean for at least a week. 256 00:18:25,016 --> 00:18:26,409 Now if you still have drugs in your system 257 00:18:26,453 --> 00:18:27,802 when you get this shot, 258 00:18:27,845 --> 00:18:29,760 it puts you into something called rapid withdrawal. 259 00:18:29,804 --> 00:18:30,979 That's very dangerous. 260 00:18:31,719 --> 00:18:32,720 Emergency room stuff. 261 00:18:34,287 --> 00:18:36,071 And then a shot once a month. 262 00:18:41,250 --> 00:18:42,251 It's a chance. 263 00:18:43,426 --> 00:18:44,732 Take it, Moll. 264 00:18:44,775 --> 00:18:46,386 It's my call, Mom. 265 00:18:46,429 --> 00:18:47,430 [SIGHS] 266 00:18:53,480 --> 00:18:55,221 Fine. Yeah, okay. 267 00:18:55,264 --> 00:18:56,700 DOCTOR: I think that's a good choice. 268 00:18:57,919 --> 00:19:00,661 You have been in detox four days already. 269 00:19:00,704 --> 00:19:03,054 You should do four more to be safe. 270 00:19:03,098 --> 00:19:05,100 So let's shoot for 9:00 a.m., Friday. 271 00:19:05,144 --> 00:19:06,623 Wait. Four more days? Seriously? 272 00:19:06,667 --> 00:19:09,148 She can't wait that long. She might be using in an hour. 273 00:19:09,191 --> 00:19:11,019 -Thanks for the vote of confidence. -Can't she stay here? 274 00:19:11,062 --> 00:19:14,283 -No. -No. Unfortunately, we need the bed. 275 00:19:14,327 --> 00:19:16,329 You need to be somewhere not alone 276 00:19:16,372 --> 00:19:17,678 and away from other users. 277 00:19:25,990 --> 00:19:26,991 Four more days. 278 00:19:29,429 --> 00:19:31,126 I can do that. All right? 279 00:19:31,170 --> 00:19:32,214 -Yeah. -Yeah. 280 00:19:33,215 --> 00:19:34,782 -Yeah, you can. -Yeah. 281 00:19:37,785 --> 00:19:39,265 That guy should be shot. 282 00:19:42,442 --> 00:19:43,878 [GROANING] 283 00:19:45,096 --> 00:19:47,229 -Okay. -Yeah. So sorry. 284 00:19:47,273 --> 00:19:49,405 Your gums are very inflamed. 285 00:19:49,449 --> 00:19:51,538 I'm gonna give you some ointment to take home. 286 00:19:51,581 --> 00:19:54,454 -Non-narcotic, but use it sparingly anyway. -Hmm. 287 00:19:55,759 --> 00:19:58,371 Now, these are temps. 288 00:19:58,414 --> 00:20:00,199 Let's try them for size. 289 00:20:00,242 --> 00:20:02,201 Uh, okay. 290 00:20:02,244 --> 00:20:03,898 Ow! 291 00:20:03,941 --> 00:20:05,900 I'll give you call in a couple of weeks 292 00:20:05,943 --> 00:20:07,206 when the real ones come in. 293 00:20:08,119 --> 00:20:09,120 They hurt. 294 00:20:10,296 --> 00:20:12,211 Yes, they'll take some getting used to. 295 00:20:12,863 --> 00:20:13,864 Let me see. 296 00:20:21,655 --> 00:20:23,831 -[DOOR BEEPS] -AUTOMATED VOICE: Door one. 297 00:20:28,183 --> 00:20:30,011 Get in here. 298 00:20:30,054 --> 00:20:33,362 -You sure? I don't wanna impose. -[CHUCKLES] 299 00:20:33,406 --> 00:20:34,842 If now's a bad time, 300 00:20:34,885 --> 00:20:36,931 -I can always come back later. -Oh, screw you. 301 00:21:16,318 --> 00:21:18,407 Molly's amazing salon. 302 00:21:18,451 --> 00:21:21,062 Remember the time I accidentally dyed your hair pink? 303 00:21:21,105 --> 00:21:23,543 [CHUCKLES] Accidentally? Sure. 304 00:21:23,586 --> 00:21:26,589 Why do you keep all this crap? It's like a museum. 305 00:21:26,633 --> 00:21:29,375 Oh, you know, a lot of good memories. 306 00:21:29,418 --> 00:21:31,159 Yeah, from before I was a fuck up. 307 00:21:33,292 --> 00:21:34,423 Remember what this is? 308 00:21:35,468 --> 00:21:36,512 Argh! 309 00:21:36,556 --> 00:21:38,122 BOTH: Smallest violin in the world. 310 00:21:39,515 --> 00:21:42,866 Where the fuck are my perfumes? My... My jewelry. 311 00:21:42,910 --> 00:21:47,567 You sold the perfume and you pawned all the jewelry 312 00:21:49,003 --> 00:21:53,529 along with my wedding ring, my engagement ring, 313 00:21:55,749 --> 00:21:56,837 your grandmother's. 314 00:22:10,241 --> 00:22:11,242 Jesus. 315 00:22:12,983 --> 00:22:14,202 Did you shoot up in here? 316 00:22:15,508 --> 00:22:18,249 I don't know. I guess I must have after rehab. 317 00:22:18,293 --> 00:22:21,296 Oh! [LAUGHS] That's reassuring. 318 00:22:21,340 --> 00:22:22,950 [PACKET RUSTLING] 319 00:22:22,993 --> 00:22:24,734 Oh, what the fuck? 320 00:22:27,694 --> 00:22:28,695 Oh! 321 00:22:34,265 --> 00:22:36,790 So, um, I'm supposed to work tonight. 322 00:22:37,791 --> 00:22:40,228 The casino's booked solid, 323 00:22:40,271 --> 00:22:42,796 but I'll have my phone on me, 324 00:22:42,839 --> 00:22:45,451 and it'll only be a couple of hours. 325 00:22:47,757 --> 00:22:48,758 Chris will be here. 326 00:22:49,280 --> 00:22:50,717 He's out back. 327 00:22:50,760 --> 00:22:52,675 But if you need anything, call me... 328 00:22:52,719 --> 00:22:54,460 Did you tell him that I was staying here? 329 00:22:55,156 --> 00:22:56,418 Of course, I did. 330 00:22:56,462 --> 00:22:58,072 [CHUCKLES] I called him. 331 00:22:59,378 --> 00:23:00,379 He's... 332 00:23:02,076 --> 00:23:03,077 He's fine with it. 333 00:23:10,084 --> 00:23:11,085 [CLEARS THROAT] 334 00:23:13,914 --> 00:23:15,132 I'm happy you're home. 335 00:23:47,469 --> 00:23:48,775 I'm gonna go have a cigarette. 336 00:23:49,515 --> 00:23:50,777 [BEEPING] 337 00:23:50,820 --> 00:23:52,822 Jesus. What is that sound? 338 00:23:52,866 --> 00:23:53,954 It's the alarm. 339 00:23:53,997 --> 00:23:57,261 What? Can you turn it off? 340 00:23:57,305 --> 00:23:59,481 I need it to beep every time the door opens. 341 00:23:59,525 --> 00:24:01,875 Why? This is like the safest neighborhood in the world. 342 00:24:13,843 --> 00:24:15,366 [ALARM BEEPS] 343 00:24:15,410 --> 00:24:16,411 [DOOR SLAMS] 344 00:24:22,548 --> 00:24:24,811 -[DOOR OPENS] -[ALARM BEEPING] 345 00:24:28,379 --> 00:24:30,077 This puzzle been here this whole time? 346 00:24:30,120 --> 00:24:32,122 Oh. Yeah. I didn't want to touch it. 347 00:24:32,166 --> 00:24:34,168 I thought maybe you'd like to finish it someday. 348 00:24:34,211 --> 00:24:35,212 No, I hate it. 349 00:24:36,823 --> 00:24:39,260 This is a pay as you go. 350 00:24:39,303 --> 00:24:41,523 So, uh, let me know if you run out of minutes. 351 00:24:41,567 --> 00:24:42,829 [CHUCKLES] 352 00:24:42,872 --> 00:24:45,266 Ran out of minutes? Who am I gonna call? 353 00:24:45,309 --> 00:24:48,095 I entered my number. 354 00:24:48,138 --> 00:24:51,490 Your sister's, the kids', the clinic and your dad's. 355 00:24:53,361 --> 00:24:54,797 When was the last time I was here? 356 00:24:56,233 --> 00:25:01,804 Um, well, I guess it was about a year and a half ago. 357 00:25:01,848 --> 00:25:04,285 I woke up the next morning and you were gone. 358 00:25:09,725 --> 00:25:11,031 Can you open the garage door? 359 00:25:13,555 --> 00:25:15,862 [DOOR OPENING] 360 00:25:26,350 --> 00:25:27,569 Hi. 361 00:25:29,049 --> 00:25:30,050 Is that her? 362 00:25:31,704 --> 00:25:32,792 Close it. 363 00:25:42,236 --> 00:25:43,411 Are you gonna be all right? 364 00:25:43,454 --> 00:25:44,760 Mmm-hmm. 365 00:25:45,456 --> 00:25:47,502 Okay, I'm leaving. 366 00:25:52,638 --> 00:25:55,162 [BEEPING] 367 00:25:57,294 --> 00:25:59,514 -[BEEPING] -What? 368 00:26:01,603 --> 00:26:03,605 Sorry. 369 00:26:03,649 --> 00:26:05,346 Let me know if you need anything, huh? 370 00:26:05,389 --> 00:26:07,043 Yeah. Thank you. 371 00:26:08,001 --> 00:26:09,002 Okay. 372 00:26:10,917 --> 00:26:11,961 [BEEPING] 373 00:26:41,382 --> 00:26:42,470 [BEEPING] 374 00:26:42,513 --> 00:26:43,689 AUTOMATED VOICE: Door one. 375 00:26:56,876 --> 00:26:59,443 [BEEPING] 376 00:27:08,539 --> 00:27:09,932 [MOLLY SHIVERING] 377 00:27:12,805 --> 00:27:13,980 [GASPS] 378 00:27:17,461 --> 00:27:18,462 [GASPS] 379 00:27:20,334 --> 00:27:21,640 -[GASPS] -It's me. 380 00:27:23,337 --> 00:27:24,338 I... 381 00:27:24,904 --> 00:27:26,688 I'm freezing. 382 00:27:26,732 --> 00:27:28,385 I thought withdrawals were supposed to be over. 383 00:27:30,344 --> 00:27:31,475 [MOLLY GASPS] 384 00:27:35,044 --> 00:27:36,829 No. Stay. Stay. 385 00:27:36,872 --> 00:27:38,395 Oh, Molly. 386 00:27:38,439 --> 00:27:39,875 [SIGHS] I'm tired. 387 00:27:41,181 --> 00:27:43,270 Did I really sell your wedding rings? 388 00:27:46,447 --> 00:27:47,448 [SIGHS] 389 00:27:48,188 --> 00:27:49,624 You know, just... 390 00:27:49,668 --> 00:27:51,582 just don't worry about it. 391 00:27:51,626 --> 00:27:53,149 -Oh. -This is a disease. 392 00:27:53,193 --> 00:27:54,237 This isn't you. 393 00:27:54,890 --> 00:27:56,413 -It's not. -No. 394 00:27:56,457 --> 00:27:58,285 No, it's another you. 395 00:27:58,328 --> 00:27:59,808 It's not the real you. 396 00:28:00,330 --> 00:28:02,289 She isn't you. 397 00:28:03,116 --> 00:28:05,379 Ah, mind bending, Mom. 398 00:28:06,859 --> 00:28:07,990 Do you remember... 399 00:28:09,078 --> 00:28:10,906 right after I left your dad, 400 00:28:11,994 --> 00:28:13,735 I opened that... 401 00:28:13,779 --> 00:28:16,390 [CHUCKLES] ...that pottery painting store 402 00:28:16,433 --> 00:28:18,218 way out of the mall. 403 00:28:18,261 --> 00:28:20,002 Oh, God, that was such a bad idea. 404 00:28:20,046 --> 00:28:21,830 It was a terrible location, 405 00:28:22,744 --> 00:28:26,182 but I was so tired of... 406 00:28:26,226 --> 00:28:29,185 trying to get out from under your dad, 407 00:28:29,229 --> 00:28:31,231 finding something of my own. 408 00:28:32,536 --> 00:28:36,976 You know that place was so quiet, 409 00:28:37,019 --> 00:28:38,586 just like a mausoleum. 410 00:28:39,630 --> 00:28:40,719 [SHIVERING] 411 00:28:40,762 --> 00:28:42,590 All those empty chairs. 412 00:28:44,026 --> 00:28:46,725 And even after all, I put you through, 413 00:28:48,204 --> 00:28:49,423 leaving you, 414 00:28:52,034 --> 00:28:54,689 you started coming all the way out there after school, 415 00:28:56,691 --> 00:28:59,912 dragging your friends with you. 416 00:28:59,955 --> 00:29:03,219 You even hosted a birthday party there for God's sake. 417 00:29:04,568 --> 00:29:05,700 And after a couple of months, 418 00:29:05,744 --> 00:29:09,835 you had so many of those damn coffee mugs. 419 00:29:13,839 --> 00:29:15,144 That was pretty great. 420 00:29:16,798 --> 00:29:18,713 That was you. 421 00:29:25,415 --> 00:29:27,591 Almost one day down, 422 00:29:28,854 --> 00:29:29,985 three more to go. 423 00:29:31,944 --> 00:29:33,815 Does Dad know that I'm home? 424 00:29:38,341 --> 00:29:39,560 I'll tell him. 425 00:29:43,956 --> 00:29:45,609 -[SIGHS WEARILY] -Good night, kiddo. 426 00:30:03,627 --> 00:30:04,933 [MACHINE WHIRRING SOFTLY] 427 00:30:06,282 --> 00:30:07,414 It's 10:00 am. 428 00:30:08,850 --> 00:30:09,851 They're not here. 429 00:30:11,113 --> 00:30:13,246 It's, uh, 10:03. 430 00:30:13,899 --> 00:30:15,204 Oh, relax. 431 00:30:16,640 --> 00:30:17,859 I bet they don't come. Why? 432 00:30:17,903 --> 00:30:19,905 -Why would they come? -Oh, stop that. 433 00:30:22,385 --> 00:30:23,778 Have you heard from your sister? 434 00:30:24,866 --> 00:30:27,129 No. Why? 435 00:30:27,173 --> 00:30:29,088 Well, she wants to see you. 436 00:30:30,959 --> 00:30:33,135 Since when did she have the time to see anyone? 437 00:30:34,528 --> 00:30:35,746 Where are your teeth? 438 00:30:37,400 --> 00:30:38,793 Oh, okay. 439 00:30:38,837 --> 00:30:40,229 They hurt. 440 00:30:40,273 --> 00:30:41,927 [SIGHS] 441 00:30:46,105 --> 00:30:47,671 Hi! 442 00:30:47,715 --> 00:30:49,064 [LAUGHING] 443 00:30:49,108 --> 00:30:51,066 -COLTON: Grandma! -CHLOE: Grandma! 444 00:30:51,110 --> 00:30:52,676 -CHLOE: Hi, Grandma! -It's so good to see you. 445 00:30:52,720 --> 00:30:54,896 -DEB: Oh, hi, sweetie. -COLTON: I missed you. 446 00:30:54,940 --> 00:30:57,638 DEB: Oh, how are you? [KISSES] 447 00:30:57,681 --> 00:31:00,075 Ah, go hug your mom. 448 00:31:04,427 --> 00:31:05,776 -Hi, kiddo. -DEB: Hi, Sean. 449 00:31:06,299 --> 00:31:07,474 Hi, Deb. 450 00:31:09,215 --> 00:31:11,173 Hey, we, uh... 451 00:31:11,217 --> 00:31:14,002 we can't stay long, couple hours or so. 452 00:31:14,960 --> 00:31:17,310 DEB: Okay, well, let's go inside. 453 00:31:17,788 --> 00:31:18,964 Come on. 454 00:31:19,965 --> 00:31:21,183 You want some coffee? 455 00:31:21,227 --> 00:31:22,663 Yeah, sure. 456 00:31:27,407 --> 00:31:28,582 You look good. 457 00:31:28,625 --> 00:31:29,757 [SCOFFS] 458 00:31:30,627 --> 00:31:32,107 No, but thanks. 459 00:31:38,113 --> 00:31:39,593 Ta-da! 460 00:31:40,333 --> 00:31:42,161 -All right. -Ah... 461 00:31:42,204 --> 00:31:44,337 -Here, eat up. -One. 462 00:31:44,380 --> 00:31:45,904 -Mmm. -One. 463 00:31:52,823 --> 00:31:54,042 So how's work? 464 00:31:55,217 --> 00:31:57,437 It's... it's real good. 465 00:31:57,480 --> 00:31:59,743 There's so much of it. 466 00:31:59,787 --> 00:32:01,963 Thinking about opening up a second body shop. 467 00:32:02,007 --> 00:32:04,357 Uh-hmm. Wait, why are you doing that? 468 00:32:04,400 --> 00:32:05,706 You love nuts. 469 00:32:05,749 --> 00:32:09,144 I do. But the doctor says I can't have any. 470 00:32:09,188 --> 00:32:11,755 Well, we found out last year that some nuts 471 00:32:11,799 --> 00:32:13,670 make her tummy hurt. 472 00:32:17,152 --> 00:32:20,982 Um, I broke my ankle, I was in a cast. 473 00:32:21,026 --> 00:32:23,680 -Oh, wow. -CHLOE: It wasn't broken. 474 00:32:23,724 --> 00:32:24,986 -Was too. -No. 475 00:32:25,030 --> 00:32:26,640 -Shut up, moron. -Come on, guys. 476 00:32:26,683 --> 00:32:27,946 We talked about this. 477 00:32:29,817 --> 00:32:33,473 He got a hairline fracture flying off a swing set. 478 00:32:33,516 --> 00:32:34,865 -Hmm. -SEAN: Knucklehead. 479 00:32:36,084 --> 00:32:37,390 They're good kids, though. 480 00:32:38,043 --> 00:32:39,479 Yeah. 481 00:32:39,522 --> 00:32:42,177 Yeah, I know. I know they're good kids. 482 00:32:47,139 --> 00:32:48,270 How's Dad? 483 00:32:50,969 --> 00:32:52,492 Go for it. 484 00:32:52,535 --> 00:32:54,102 -He's grumpy. -What? 485 00:32:54,146 --> 00:32:55,669 -You are. -COLTON: But he's okay. 486 00:32:55,712 --> 00:32:57,453 He helps us with homework and stuff. 487 00:32:57,497 --> 00:32:59,586 -I am not grumpy. -He farts a lot. 488 00:32:59,629 --> 00:33:00,935 Now that's a lie. 489 00:33:00,979 --> 00:33:02,284 COLTON: Chill, bruh. We like you. 490 00:33:02,328 --> 00:33:04,025 I'm not your "bruh," bruh. 491 00:33:04,069 --> 00:33:05,635 -You're a "duh." -Duh. 492 00:33:05,679 --> 00:33:07,463 [BOTH LAUGHING] 493 00:33:08,464 --> 00:33:10,249 Oh, and he has a girlfriend. 494 00:33:11,119 --> 00:33:12,468 She's a chef. 495 00:33:13,774 --> 00:33:15,123 Her food is yummy. 496 00:33:20,911 --> 00:33:22,391 MOLLY: Get him, get him. 497 00:33:22,435 --> 00:33:23,871 Come on, get him! 498 00:33:23,914 --> 00:33:25,568 Come on! Come on! 499 00:33:25,612 --> 00:33:28,223 -Uh, boom! You got got. -Oh... no. 500 00:33:29,442 --> 00:33:30,660 [JOYSTICK CLATTERS] 501 00:33:30,704 --> 00:33:32,010 Kiddo. 502 00:33:34,186 --> 00:33:35,752 [TALKING INDISTINCTLY] 503 00:33:35,796 --> 00:33:36,927 -Mm. -SEAN: Hold on, baby. 504 00:33:37,754 --> 00:33:39,191 Can I play? 505 00:33:39,234 --> 00:33:40,453 Sure. 506 00:33:46,937 --> 00:33:48,896 Phew. Ready. 507 00:33:48,939 --> 00:33:50,419 [SHOOTING ON VIDEO GAME] 508 00:33:52,204 --> 00:33:53,988 [ELECTRONIC GUNSHOTS] 509 00:33:54,032 --> 00:33:55,076 -[BLAST] -Come on. 510 00:33:55,120 --> 00:33:56,947 Come on. No, no, no, don't press that. 511 00:33:56,991 --> 00:33:58,906 -[MOLLY LAUGHS] -[VIDEO GAME CONTINUES] 512 00:33:58,949 --> 00:34:01,082 No, no, no, no, no. That's cheating. 513 00:34:01,126 --> 00:34:03,345 You can't do that. You can't do that. 514 00:34:03,389 --> 00:34:06,000 You can't do that. [LAUGHS] 515 00:34:06,044 --> 00:34:07,306 Come on. 516 00:34:07,349 --> 00:34:08,655 Come on. Come on. 517 00:34:08,698 --> 00:34:10,700 -Oh, no, no, no. -[ALARM SOUNDING IN VIDEO GAME] 518 00:34:10,744 --> 00:34:12,963 -Oh, no! -Ha. 519 00:34:13,007 --> 00:34:15,966 Mom, you suck. You totally suck. 520 00:34:16,619 --> 00:34:17,881 MOLLY: Hey. 521 00:34:17,925 --> 00:34:19,361 You suck. You suck. 522 00:34:19,405 --> 00:34:21,102 You suck. You suck! 523 00:34:21,146 --> 00:34:23,017 You suck! You suck. 524 00:34:23,061 --> 00:34:25,280 You suck! You suck! 525 00:34:25,324 --> 00:34:26,890 You suck. 526 00:34:31,808 --> 00:34:32,809 I... 527 00:34:41,514 --> 00:34:43,124 -You suck. You suck. -Stop it. Stop it. 528 00:34:43,168 --> 00:34:45,213 [SCREAMS] You suck. You suck. You suck. 529 00:34:45,257 --> 00:34:46,997 Now who sucks, huh? Cheater? 530 00:34:47,041 --> 00:34:48,477 You suck. Give me the remote. 531 00:34:48,521 --> 00:34:50,131 -COLTON: I won. No. -Give me this. 532 00:34:50,175 --> 00:34:51,393 That's what you get for sucking. 533 00:34:51,437 --> 00:34:53,656 -No. You stop it. Stop it. -No. No. 534 00:34:53,700 --> 00:34:55,310 Mom! Mom, he's touching me. 535 00:34:56,137 --> 00:34:58,922 [KIDS LAUGHING] 536 00:34:58,966 --> 00:35:01,795 MOLLY: It's so beautiful out here. 537 00:35:03,840 --> 00:35:05,059 Right now. 538 00:35:05,538 --> 00:35:07,322 DEB: Yeah. 539 00:35:07,366 --> 00:35:09,585 Just wish life could be more like this. 540 00:35:10,543 --> 00:35:12,284 One moment... 541 00:35:12,327 --> 00:35:14,024 then another. 542 00:35:14,851 --> 00:35:16,157 DEB: Isn't it? 543 00:35:16,201 --> 00:35:18,116 I mean, what's the alternative? 544 00:35:19,334 --> 00:35:20,422 MOLLY: Uh, I don't know. 545 00:35:20,466 --> 00:35:22,468 I'm always thinking about the past, 546 00:35:22,511 --> 00:35:24,513 or worrying about the future. 547 00:35:26,124 --> 00:35:28,735 You know, even before I did drugs, 548 00:35:28,778 --> 00:35:31,303 I remember worrying about what was next. 549 00:35:31,346 --> 00:35:34,393 Like, I just couldn't live with the uncertainty. 550 00:35:36,699 --> 00:35:39,049 I just want now to be now. 551 00:35:40,181 --> 00:35:41,791 The way it is for kids, 552 00:35:41,835 --> 00:35:44,620 or animals, plants. 553 00:35:46,927 --> 00:35:48,407 Yeah, I never thought of that. 554 00:35:51,236 --> 00:35:53,847 You've always been so smart, Moll. 555 00:35:55,718 --> 00:35:57,372 Yeah. And look at where that's gotten me. 556 00:36:00,114 --> 00:36:01,202 [RECORDED] Hey, this is Dale. 557 00:36:01,246 --> 00:36:03,378 -Leave a message or don't. -[BEEP] 558 00:36:03,422 --> 00:36:05,206 Hey, it's me. 559 00:36:05,250 --> 00:36:07,339 Um... 560 00:36:07,382 --> 00:36:09,689 I think you should know that Molly is home. 561 00:36:09,732 --> 00:36:11,081 She's clean. 562 00:36:11,125 --> 00:36:13,519 As rickety as hell. 563 00:36:13,562 --> 00:36:15,260 And I know you don't like talking about this stuff, 564 00:36:15,303 --> 00:36:17,871 but it really seems different this time. 565 00:36:17,914 --> 00:36:21,004 I haven't seen her like this since... 566 00:36:21,048 --> 00:36:22,658 [SIGHS] I don't know when. 567 00:36:22,702 --> 00:36:24,704 She's really trying, Dale, 568 00:36:24,747 --> 00:36:26,575 and she keeps asking about you. 569 00:36:26,619 --> 00:36:29,361 So I was wondering if you could give her a call? 570 00:36:29,404 --> 00:36:31,754 Um, you know, she's... 571 00:36:31,798 --> 00:36:33,452 she needs support. 572 00:36:33,495 --> 00:36:35,758 And I think it might really help. 573 00:36:35,802 --> 00:36:38,979 All right, so don't be an asshole. 574 00:36:39,022 --> 00:36:40,589 Just call. 575 00:36:41,329 --> 00:36:42,852 Okay. Bye. 576 00:36:44,463 --> 00:36:45,942 [MOLLY SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY] 577 00:36:45,986 --> 00:36:47,814 How do you guys still have so much energy? 578 00:36:47,857 --> 00:36:49,685 -CHLOE: I don't know. -How's that possible. 579 00:36:49,729 --> 00:36:51,383 We had PE today. 580 00:36:51,426 --> 00:36:53,472 MOLLY: Well, you must love running. 581 00:36:53,515 --> 00:36:55,517 So I know we talked about them 582 00:36:55,561 --> 00:36:57,476 staying with you over the holiday weekend. 583 00:36:58,738 --> 00:37:02,263 Or they can also stay with my sister, 584 00:37:02,307 --> 00:37:04,091 depending on how things were going. 585 00:37:04,134 --> 00:37:05,484 Oh, no, no, I'll be fine. 586 00:37:05,527 --> 00:37:07,137 You know, I could totally... 587 00:37:12,230 --> 00:37:13,361 Yeah, I'm okay. 588 00:37:13,405 --> 00:37:15,058 -Let me know. -I'll call you next week. 589 00:37:15,102 --> 00:37:17,322 [KIDS TALKING INDISTINCTLY] 590 00:37:17,365 --> 00:37:19,889 -Bye. -Thanks for coming. 591 00:37:19,933 --> 00:37:21,848 All right. Come on, guys. Let's go, Let's go. 592 00:37:23,284 --> 00:37:24,720 Oh. 593 00:37:24,764 --> 00:37:26,244 [DEB CHUCKLES] 594 00:37:26,287 --> 00:37:27,636 Bye, kiddo. 595 00:37:28,507 --> 00:37:30,117 -Bye, baby. -CHLOE: Bye. 596 00:37:34,861 --> 00:37:36,166 Hey. 597 00:37:43,130 --> 00:37:46,002 When can we come back? 598 00:37:46,046 --> 00:37:47,047 Soon. 599 00:37:48,570 --> 00:37:51,007 -Can we sleep over? -Uh... 600 00:37:51,051 --> 00:37:53,488 -Sure. -Yeah, that'd be fine. 601 00:37:53,532 --> 00:37:55,229 -Please, Dad? -We'll see, buddy. 602 00:37:55,273 --> 00:37:56,622 [ENGINE STARTS] 603 00:38:04,586 --> 00:38:06,632 [CHUCKLES] 604 00:38:06,675 --> 00:38:09,199 Ah, those kids are golden. 605 00:38:10,288 --> 00:38:12,028 After all, they've been through. 606 00:38:14,770 --> 00:38:16,032 They're wonderful. 607 00:38:16,076 --> 00:38:17,077 Yeah. 608 00:38:18,557 --> 00:38:20,080 How was it with Sean? 609 00:38:22,735 --> 00:38:24,171 What, not good? 610 00:38:25,520 --> 00:38:27,087 He hurt his back. 611 00:38:27,130 --> 00:38:28,784 He wants me to get him pain killers. 612 00:38:29,698 --> 00:38:31,221 Are you kidding me? 613 00:38:32,397 --> 00:38:34,224 I should call the police on him right now. 614 00:38:34,268 --> 00:38:36,531 You're not gonna do that because the kids will end up in foster care. 615 00:38:36,575 --> 00:38:38,228 DEB: No, they won't. They could stay with me. 616 00:38:38,272 --> 00:38:39,969 Maybe. But until the court rules on it, 617 00:38:40,013 --> 00:38:41,057 they'll be in a foster home. 618 00:38:41,101 --> 00:38:42,755 You know this, please just stop. 619 00:38:50,066 --> 00:38:51,329 [BEEPING] 620 00:38:51,372 --> 00:38:53,679 That sound is driving me crazy. 621 00:38:53,722 --> 00:38:55,376 How am I supposed to get better 622 00:38:55,420 --> 00:38:57,378 with that thing beeping every five minutes, 623 00:38:57,422 --> 00:39:00,860 reminding me you suck, you suck, you suck. 624 00:39:02,514 --> 00:39:04,254 Jesus, it's like I'm in prison. 625 00:39:04,298 --> 00:39:06,387 I hate it as well, but it's just our reality. 626 00:39:08,171 --> 00:39:10,391 You want something from the store? 627 00:39:10,435 --> 00:39:11,740 Can you please just give me 20 bucks 628 00:39:11,784 --> 00:39:13,133 and I'll go by myself? 629 00:39:13,176 --> 00:39:14,874 I feel like a toddler. 630 00:39:14,917 --> 00:39:16,354 Well, that's a pretty good idea, 631 00:39:16,397 --> 00:39:17,398 but I think it might be easier 632 00:39:17,442 --> 00:39:19,182 if I just ordered in some heroin. 633 00:39:26,407 --> 00:39:27,408 MOLLY: Okay, 634 00:39:27,452 --> 00:39:29,192 cigarettes, cupcakes. 635 00:39:29,584 --> 00:39:30,629 Soda. 636 00:39:35,938 --> 00:39:36,939 What? 637 00:39:37,810 --> 00:39:38,854 You all right? 638 00:39:38,898 --> 00:39:39,986 MOLLY: Yeah. 639 00:39:40,029 --> 00:39:41,204 Your eyes look a little red. 640 00:39:42,467 --> 00:39:43,511 I'm tired. 641 00:39:45,774 --> 00:39:47,428 Jesus, what do you want me to say? 642 00:39:47,472 --> 00:39:49,735 That I'm bored shitless and craving? 643 00:39:51,214 --> 00:39:53,869 I'm bored shitless and craving. 644 00:39:54,566 --> 00:39:55,958 Okay. 645 00:39:56,002 --> 00:39:57,351 Just two more days. 646 00:39:57,395 --> 00:39:59,005 You just have to hang in there, 647 00:39:59,048 --> 00:40:00,398 two more days. 648 00:40:00,441 --> 00:40:01,877 No. It's-- It's more than that. 649 00:40:03,531 --> 00:40:06,273 Sixty hours. Less. 650 00:40:06,316 --> 00:40:08,406 -You can do it. -Yeah, but can you? 651 00:40:09,189 --> 00:40:10,712 You're so wound up, 652 00:40:10,756 --> 00:40:12,758 you're gonna drop dead of a heart attack. 653 00:40:12,801 --> 00:40:14,150 -[CHUCKLES] -[MOLLY SCOFFS] 654 00:40:21,157 --> 00:40:22,158 [SIGHS] 655 00:40:27,599 --> 00:40:30,428 All right, Moll, come with me. 656 00:40:32,430 --> 00:40:33,431 Come on. 657 00:40:36,999 --> 00:40:38,000 [MAN ON PA] 658 00:41:16,865 --> 00:41:17,997 [CART RATTLING] 659 00:41:19,825 --> 00:41:22,349 Pick any one, it's just food coloring and sugar. 660 00:41:24,525 --> 00:41:25,483 WOMAN: Molly. 661 00:41:26,658 --> 00:41:27,702 Wow. 662 00:41:28,790 --> 00:41:30,313 Coach Miller. 663 00:41:30,357 --> 00:41:32,490 -Hi. -How are you? 664 00:41:32,533 --> 00:41:33,621 I'm good. 665 00:41:33,969 --> 00:41:35,275 Good. 666 00:41:35,318 --> 00:41:36,537 -Hey, Deb. -Hey. 667 00:41:36,581 --> 00:41:38,060 Long time, my goodness. 668 00:41:39,409 --> 00:41:42,195 We've all been rooting for you over the years. 669 00:41:43,892 --> 00:41:44,937 Thank you. 670 00:41:45,764 --> 00:41:47,374 Well, you look good. 671 00:41:47,417 --> 00:41:48,462 -You do. -DEB: Yeah. 672 00:41:48,506 --> 00:41:49,550 COACH: Did you know that 673 00:41:49,594 --> 00:41:50,943 I moved over to Lincoln last year. 674 00:41:50,986 --> 00:41:52,597 They got me teaching health and wellness. 675 00:41:53,902 --> 00:41:55,208 Did you ever take that class? 676 00:41:55,251 --> 00:41:56,644 The car crash videos? 677 00:41:56,688 --> 00:41:57,863 Exactly. 678 00:41:57,906 --> 00:41:59,604 Except the videos just put them to sleep. 679 00:41:59,647 --> 00:42:01,344 These kids think they're invincible. 680 00:42:01,388 --> 00:42:03,259 -Hmm. -That doesn't change, right? 681 00:42:05,653 --> 00:42:07,307 I'm in recovery. 682 00:42:07,350 --> 00:42:09,048 -COACH: Good for you. -Hm. 683 00:42:09,091 --> 00:42:11,572 I wish someone like you would come and talk to these kids. 684 00:42:11,616 --> 00:42:14,053 I mean, someone who's gone through... 685 00:42:14,096 --> 00:42:16,229 addiction troubles and come out the other side. 686 00:42:16,272 --> 00:42:17,447 You should think about it. 687 00:42:18,710 --> 00:42:19,841 It's just that, uh... 688 00:42:19,885 --> 00:42:21,930 I'm not one for public speaking. So... 689 00:42:21,974 --> 00:42:24,106 We've already had two kids overdose this year. 690 00:42:27,632 --> 00:42:29,764 You said Lincoln in, um... 691 00:42:29,808 --> 00:42:31,374 In southeast, is that right? 692 00:42:31,418 --> 00:42:32,550 Yeah. Tough neighborhood. 693 00:42:33,551 --> 00:42:34,726 You'll make a big impact. 694 00:42:39,774 --> 00:42:40,775 I'll think about it. 695 00:42:41,123 --> 00:42:42,734 Okay. 696 00:42:42,777 --> 00:42:43,778 COACH: Good to see you. 697 00:42:44,649 --> 00:42:45,606 Great to see you. 698 00:42:50,393 --> 00:42:51,612 [CUTLERY CLATTERING] 699 00:42:55,442 --> 00:42:57,792 [PHONE VIBRATING] 700 00:43:04,016 --> 00:43:05,060 Who was that? 701 00:43:05,757 --> 00:43:06,975 My dealer. 702 00:43:07,019 --> 00:43:08,586 He said he'll be here in 15 minutes. 703 00:43:08,629 --> 00:43:11,284 [CHUCKLES] Ha-ha. 704 00:43:11,327 --> 00:43:13,808 MOLLY: If I wasn't a junkie, would you even ask? 705 00:43:14,679 --> 00:43:15,680 Probably not. 706 00:43:17,899 --> 00:43:19,031 Has your dad called? 707 00:43:19,684 --> 00:43:20,641 No. 708 00:43:25,515 --> 00:43:26,691 Oh, don't go out there yet. 709 00:43:27,735 --> 00:43:28,823 Come on, sit with me. 710 00:43:33,436 --> 00:43:35,569 Oh, I forgot. 711 00:43:36,657 --> 00:43:37,876 I have something for you. 712 00:43:44,099 --> 00:43:45,144 What is it? 713 00:43:46,101 --> 00:43:47,189 Open it. 714 00:43:51,541 --> 00:43:53,892 Are you selling the house or buying me one? 715 00:43:53,935 --> 00:43:55,589 [CHUCKLES] 716 00:43:55,633 --> 00:43:57,373 Do you recognize her? 717 00:43:57,417 --> 00:43:59,201 -No. -Take a closer look. 718 00:44:01,639 --> 00:44:03,205 Mom, I don't know who this is. 719 00:44:03,249 --> 00:44:04,685 It's Colson Kirsebom. 720 00:44:05,991 --> 00:44:06,992 No. 721 00:44:07,557 --> 00:44:08,776 DEB: Mm-hmm. 722 00:44:08,820 --> 00:44:10,386 Oh, my God. 723 00:44:10,430 --> 00:44:13,868 I think it was pretty hard for his, her parents. 724 00:44:14,826 --> 00:44:15,870 But you know what? 725 00:44:15,914 --> 00:44:17,393 I think everything's okay now. 726 00:44:17,437 --> 00:44:18,612 Holy shit. 727 00:44:20,266 --> 00:44:22,877 The prom king is now a queen. 728 00:44:22,921 --> 00:44:24,836 [LAUGHS] Why is that so funny? 729 00:44:24,879 --> 00:44:26,576 I don't know, but we shouldn't laugh. 730 00:44:26,620 --> 00:44:28,013 -Uh-huh. -Good for her. 731 00:44:29,971 --> 00:44:32,191 That's one way to reboot your life, huh? 732 00:44:32,234 --> 00:44:34,236 Yeah, right. Yeah. 733 00:44:34,672 --> 00:44:35,716 Hmph. 734 00:44:35,760 --> 00:44:37,500 Do you know I used to date him? 735 00:44:37,544 --> 00:44:39,328 -You did? -Mm-hmm. 736 00:44:39,372 --> 00:44:40,982 Freshman year. 737 00:44:41,026 --> 00:44:43,463 Right around the time you left for, like, a couple of weeks. 738 00:44:45,421 --> 00:44:46,727 Oh, okay. 739 00:44:46,771 --> 00:44:48,207 I'm so sorry. 740 00:44:49,556 --> 00:44:50,775 Wish I'd been around. 741 00:44:53,429 --> 00:44:55,475 Yeah, you should have been. 742 00:44:57,912 --> 00:44:59,479 Like, it was just so sudden. 743 00:45:00,610 --> 00:45:02,134 You know, one day you were... 744 00:45:03,048 --> 00:45:04,484 putting notes in my lunch box, 745 00:45:04,527 --> 00:45:05,920 and then the next, you disappeared 746 00:45:05,964 --> 00:45:08,357 on your little two-year hiatus. 747 00:45:10,620 --> 00:45:13,885 I thought you couldn't stand to be around us, around me. 748 00:45:13,928 --> 00:45:14,973 That wasn't it. 749 00:45:15,016 --> 00:45:16,975 You know that's not true. 750 00:45:17,018 --> 00:45:18,063 Do I? 751 00:45:19,934 --> 00:45:21,806 Haven't we been over this a lot? 752 00:45:30,510 --> 00:45:32,294 I got pregnant with your sister. 753 00:45:33,339 --> 00:45:34,383 Unplanned. 754 00:45:35,994 --> 00:45:38,474 And in a couple of months, 755 00:45:38,518 --> 00:45:41,173 I found myself with a baby, 756 00:45:41,782 --> 00:45:43,566 and I quit my job, 757 00:45:43,610 --> 00:45:46,352 and I was married to a man 758 00:45:46,395 --> 00:45:49,224 who I really didn't know very well, 759 00:45:50,008 --> 00:45:51,487 and he was... 760 00:45:52,445 --> 00:45:54,882 [SIGHS] He was difficult. 761 00:45:56,275 --> 00:45:57,972 Me too, maybe. 762 00:45:59,017 --> 00:46:01,846 And when your sister was eight, 763 00:46:01,889 --> 00:46:04,022 I got pregnant again and we were, 764 00:46:04,065 --> 00:46:05,458 were really happy about that. 765 00:46:05,501 --> 00:46:06,851 We were... 766 00:46:06,894 --> 00:46:08,853 I think we were at a pretty good point. 767 00:46:08,896 --> 00:46:11,290 Me and your dad, you know, for a moment. 768 00:46:12,247 --> 00:46:14,597 Then for 15 years, 769 00:46:14,641 --> 00:46:15,860 I held everything together... 770 00:46:16,817 --> 00:46:18,688 trying not to disappoint, 771 00:46:20,865 --> 00:46:23,606 swallowing your father's fucking bullshit. 772 00:46:23,650 --> 00:46:26,653 His temper tantrums, his moods. 773 00:46:29,134 --> 00:46:31,310 And then one night I came home 774 00:46:31,353 --> 00:46:34,182 and I heard him started to rev up one of his fits. 775 00:46:34,226 --> 00:46:35,880 Something about the house. 776 00:46:35,923 --> 00:46:37,229 I don't know... 777 00:46:38,447 --> 00:46:39,535 and I just... 778 00:46:45,280 --> 00:46:46,325 That was it. 779 00:46:48,675 --> 00:46:49,807 I left that night. 780 00:46:53,462 --> 00:46:55,943 You were the head of the fucking PTA. 781 00:46:57,902 --> 00:46:59,425 You were so put together. 782 00:47:00,078 --> 00:47:01,601 I was pretending. 783 00:47:02,341 --> 00:47:03,342 [SCOFFS] 784 00:47:08,129 --> 00:47:10,479 I just... I am so sorry 785 00:47:10,523 --> 00:47:12,394 for causing you so much pain, 786 00:47:13,918 --> 00:47:17,443 but I can't apologize for trying to survive. 787 00:47:17,486 --> 00:47:18,531 I just can't. 788 00:47:21,360 --> 00:47:22,448 That would be lying. 789 00:47:28,628 --> 00:47:30,456 You think it's my fault 790 00:47:30,499 --> 00:47:31,718 that you're an addict. 791 00:47:42,424 --> 00:47:43,469 MOLLY: Mm. 792 00:47:44,078 --> 00:47:46,385 This is amazing. 793 00:47:49,388 --> 00:47:51,172 Take some deep breaths. 794 00:47:55,002 --> 00:47:56,047 [EXHALES SOFTLY] 795 00:48:00,094 --> 00:48:01,400 [EXHALES SOFTLY] 796 00:48:24,945 --> 00:48:25,946 MOLLY: Hm. 797 00:48:44,399 --> 00:48:45,618 [EXHALING] 798 00:48:58,631 --> 00:48:59,893 So she's too busy to come? 799 00:49:01,242 --> 00:49:02,852 Oh, I'm fine, Ashley. 800 00:49:02,896 --> 00:49:03,941 How are you? 801 00:49:05,464 --> 00:49:06,508 Sorry. 802 00:49:07,292 --> 00:49:08,380 How are you, Mom? 803 00:49:08,423 --> 00:49:09,555 Oh, same old. 804 00:49:10,425 --> 00:49:12,819 -You? -I'm good. 805 00:49:12,862 --> 00:49:14,995 Kids, work. I'm tired all the time. 806 00:49:15,039 --> 00:49:16,823 But looking really good on Instagram. 807 00:49:16,866 --> 00:49:18,085 My kids are a gift. 808 00:49:18,129 --> 00:49:19,957 I'm thriving. I'm living my best life. 809 00:49:22,481 --> 00:49:23,873 Ladies. 810 00:49:23,917 --> 00:49:25,397 Uh, I'll just have coffee, thanks. 811 00:49:25,440 --> 00:49:26,485 Uh, make that two, 812 00:49:26,528 --> 00:49:28,226 -and have a side of fries. -Okay. 813 00:49:29,140 --> 00:49:30,358 Fries for breakfast? 814 00:49:30,402 --> 00:49:32,491 Why not? That'd make me feel good. 815 00:49:34,058 --> 00:49:35,059 So where is she? 816 00:49:35,102 --> 00:49:36,582 She wanted to come, 817 00:49:36,625 --> 00:49:39,715 but she chickened out at the last minute. 818 00:49:40,890 --> 00:49:42,588 No, she, um... 819 00:49:42,631 --> 00:49:44,155 she tried to build up her self-esteem. 820 00:49:45,199 --> 00:49:46,548 And I'm working against that? 821 00:49:46,592 --> 00:49:48,115 No. 822 00:49:48,159 --> 00:49:49,464 It's not about you. 823 00:49:49,508 --> 00:49:51,075 No, it never is. 824 00:49:52,728 --> 00:49:55,775 [SIGHS] Anyway, I'm really glad that it's just us 825 00:49:55,818 --> 00:49:58,865 because I need a break from all the craziness. 826 00:49:58,908 --> 00:50:00,693 What craziness? I thought you said she's doing good. 827 00:50:00,736 --> 00:50:03,609 Well, no, she is. She is. It's just, you know... 828 00:50:03,652 --> 00:50:06,046 it's a little crazy at the house right now. 829 00:50:06,090 --> 00:50:08,396 She sits around smoking, twitching, 830 00:50:08,440 --> 00:50:10,659 and I am there watching her like a hawk 831 00:50:10,703 --> 00:50:12,835 and pretending that I'm not. 832 00:50:12,879 --> 00:50:15,316 You know Chris. He's addicted to the news. 833 00:50:15,360 --> 00:50:17,362 He's on his iPad all the time. 834 00:50:17,405 --> 00:50:21,409 He can't get enough of the world falling apart. 835 00:50:21,453 --> 00:50:23,672 I really don't think they should allow men to retire. 836 00:50:25,587 --> 00:50:27,720 So how, how is she? 837 00:50:29,678 --> 00:50:32,029 Pale, thin. 838 00:50:32,899 --> 00:50:34,466 Toothless. 839 00:50:34,509 --> 00:50:38,513 But, you know, pretty damn good under the circumstances. 840 00:50:39,732 --> 00:50:42,169 I was seeing glimpses of the old Moll. 841 00:50:42,213 --> 00:50:43,518 Really? 842 00:50:43,997 --> 00:50:45,042 That's good. 843 00:50:45,085 --> 00:50:46,826 I don't know, Ash. 844 00:50:46,869 --> 00:50:49,437 I think she might make it this time. 845 00:50:49,481 --> 00:50:53,224 If she can only hang on for a couple more days. 846 00:50:53,267 --> 00:50:55,095 Then she could get the shot, 847 00:50:55,139 --> 00:50:58,185 and one month clean will turn into two months 848 00:51:00,840 --> 00:51:02,233 and two months into six. 849 00:51:05,192 --> 00:51:06,280 God willing. 850 00:51:08,413 --> 00:51:09,457 Mom. 851 00:51:09,501 --> 00:51:10,937 Since when do you believe in God? 852 00:51:12,025 --> 00:51:13,809 Since not believing didn't work. 853 00:51:17,161 --> 00:51:19,293 I know I shouldn't get my hopes up, 854 00:51:19,337 --> 00:51:21,165 but... 855 00:51:21,208 --> 00:51:24,646 [SIGHS] at this point, all I have left is hope. 856 00:51:27,301 --> 00:51:28,737 WAITRESS: Here we go. 857 00:51:28,781 --> 00:51:29,825 Thank you. 858 00:51:29,869 --> 00:51:31,088 -Thank you. -You're welcome. 859 00:51:41,185 --> 00:51:43,796 So I won my trial last week. 860 00:51:44,536 --> 00:51:46,059 The class action suit. 861 00:51:46,103 --> 00:51:48,757 -Oh, I am so sorry, Ash. I didn't even ask. -It's fine. 862 00:51:48,801 --> 00:51:50,890 -Congratulations. -Thank you. 863 00:51:50,933 --> 00:51:53,501 I am such a self-absorbed asshole. 864 00:51:53,545 --> 00:51:54,981 You're Molly-absorbed asshole. 865 00:51:55,024 --> 00:51:57,026 It's just that I don't have to worry about you. 866 00:51:59,638 --> 00:52:00,943 No rush, whenever you're ready. 867 00:52:00,987 --> 00:52:02,771 -Thank you. -Thank you. 868 00:52:02,815 --> 00:52:04,817 [CLEARING THROAT] 869 00:52:06,949 --> 00:52:08,168 Oh, my God. 870 00:52:10,127 --> 00:52:12,172 I think I left my wallet at home. 871 00:52:12,216 --> 00:52:15,044 -I think I can buy us a cup of coffee, Mom. -Fuck! You're right. 872 00:52:15,088 --> 00:52:17,221 -I-I gotta go. -Mom, I'm sure it's fine. 873 00:52:17,264 --> 00:52:19,005 It's probably under the pillow or something. 874 00:52:19,048 --> 00:52:21,181 No. How could I possibly forget it? 875 00:52:21,225 --> 00:52:23,749 No. Relax. You, you just said she was doing good. 876 00:52:23,792 --> 00:52:24,924 Remember? 877 00:52:24,967 --> 00:52:26,795 Please let it go. Please. 878 00:52:26,839 --> 00:52:28,275 Okay. 879 00:52:42,463 --> 00:52:46,598 So, um, how... 880 00:52:48,252 --> 00:52:50,645 -How's your boyfriend? -Oh. 881 00:52:51,559 --> 00:52:54,083 -Gone. Good riddance. -Oh. 882 00:52:55,215 --> 00:52:56,999 He was so clingy. 883 00:52:57,043 --> 00:53:00,351 But I have a new boyfriend. 884 00:53:00,394 --> 00:53:03,528 I met him up Rachel Nixon's engagement party. 885 00:53:03,571 --> 00:53:05,791 And he owns his own plumbing company. 886 00:53:05,834 --> 00:53:09,751 He's funny, you know, which is always great, right? 887 00:53:09,795 --> 00:53:16,367 And we're, without giving too much away, very in sync, intimately. 888 00:53:16,410 --> 00:53:19,108 But there is one catch if it's going to last 889 00:53:19,152 --> 00:53:21,067 because he says that we're... 890 00:53:41,653 --> 00:53:42,741 [BEEPING] 891 00:53:42,784 --> 00:53:45,004 AUTOMATED VOICE: Door One. 892 00:53:45,787 --> 00:53:47,659 -Hey. -Hey. 893 00:53:49,182 --> 00:53:50,183 [TV PLAYING] 894 00:54:14,120 --> 00:54:16,557 The blue Caribbean and the pearl green... 895 00:54:16,601 --> 00:54:20,082 Any one of these would be totally captivating... 896 00:54:22,346 --> 00:54:23,956 You okay? 897 00:54:23,999 --> 00:54:26,001 Yeah. 898 00:54:26,045 --> 00:54:30,354 You look like shit. You should really chill. 899 00:54:53,551 --> 00:54:55,466 Yeah. Okay, so, um... 900 00:54:57,468 --> 00:55:01,428 I guess some of you may have heard about the heroin epidemic. 901 00:55:03,865 --> 00:55:04,866 Um... 902 00:55:06,738 --> 00:55:08,305 So, I, uh... 903 00:55:09,871 --> 00:55:15,007 I was a straight A student who never graduated high school. 904 00:55:17,749 --> 00:55:19,620 I live at home with my mom, 905 00:55:19,664 --> 00:55:22,971 but last week I was sleeping on the streets. 906 00:55:26,975 --> 00:55:28,063 Don't have a job. 907 00:55:30,718 --> 00:55:33,852 Or any job skills or a dollar to my name. 908 00:55:38,117 --> 00:55:41,381 Some of my teeth aren't even mine. 909 00:55:52,958 --> 00:55:55,656 See that, um, that lady in the back. 910 00:55:58,050 --> 00:55:59,051 It's my mom. 911 00:56:01,445 --> 00:56:04,839 She drove me here today 912 00:56:04,883 --> 00:56:09,409 because I, uh... my license was suspended because of so many DUIs. 913 00:56:13,065 --> 00:56:15,154 But even if I did have my license, 914 00:56:15,197 --> 00:56:17,461 she wouldn't trust me with her car. 915 00:56:19,376 --> 00:56:20,768 Because I have... 916 00:56:20,812 --> 00:56:22,379 I have robbed her blind. 917 00:56:23,989 --> 00:56:27,819 Money, jewelry, credit cards. 918 00:56:30,430 --> 00:56:33,738 And I have... 919 00:56:33,781 --> 00:56:37,350 degraded myself 920 00:56:37,394 --> 00:56:38,569 for drugs, in ways... 921 00:56:44,139 --> 00:56:45,793 In ways that you don't want to know. 922 00:56:48,840 --> 00:56:51,364 The only thing... 923 00:56:51,408 --> 00:56:55,760 The only thing I care about is getting high 924 00:56:55,803 --> 00:56:58,632 because getting high makes me forget 925 00:56:58,676 --> 00:57:01,853 about the mess that I have made of my life getting high. 926 00:57:03,202 --> 00:57:04,290 Then just don't. 927 00:57:06,161 --> 00:57:07,162 Excuse me? 928 00:57:08,512 --> 00:57:10,862 Sorry. It's just... 929 00:57:10,905 --> 00:57:13,255 I would never let myself fall that far. 930 00:57:16,345 --> 00:57:20,437 Right. Right, of course. 931 00:57:20,480 --> 00:57:23,135 Do you know how many times that I have told myself that? 932 00:57:23,178 --> 00:57:29,054 That I'm not going to let myself steal to get high? 933 00:57:29,097 --> 00:57:35,147 That I'm not gonna let myself lose custody of my children to get high? 934 00:57:35,190 --> 00:57:38,933 That I'm not gonna let myself stab a needle into my arm? 935 00:57:38,977 --> 00:57:41,806 I'm not going to let myself stab it into my chest. 936 00:57:43,851 --> 00:57:48,203 I have woken up almost every morning 937 00:57:48,247 --> 00:57:51,511 for the past couple of years and told myself 938 00:57:54,819 --> 00:57:57,256 that this is it. That today... 939 00:57:58,475 --> 00:58:00,302 Today I'm not going to get high. 940 00:58:02,261 --> 00:58:06,526 And an hour, an hour later, I am meeting up with my dealer 941 00:58:06,570 --> 00:58:07,658 to get high. 942 00:58:11,096 --> 00:58:14,839 I fail every single day. 943 00:58:19,844 --> 00:58:21,454 I'm so sorry, Mom. 944 00:58:28,156 --> 00:58:30,332 DEB: Oh, my God. 945 00:58:30,376 --> 00:58:33,379 I haven't seen you like that for so long. 946 00:58:33,422 --> 00:58:34,772 Like what? 947 00:58:34,815 --> 00:58:39,777 Confident, honest. Taking full responsibility. 948 00:58:39,820 --> 00:58:44,869 Just... I don't know. Just being yourself. 949 00:58:44,912 --> 00:58:46,827 You should have seen the way they were looking at you. 950 00:58:46,871 --> 00:58:48,089 Just riveted. 951 00:58:49,961 --> 00:58:50,962 Yeah, I feel good. 952 00:58:52,050 --> 00:58:53,834 Strong. 953 00:58:53,878 --> 00:58:56,576 If there's anyone who has the strength to break free of this shit, 954 00:58:56,620 --> 00:58:58,099 it's you. 955 00:58:58,143 --> 00:58:59,448 I really believe that. 956 00:59:02,190 --> 00:59:03,191 I'm proud of you. 957 00:59:18,424 --> 00:59:19,425 Can you make a right up here? 958 00:59:20,992 --> 00:59:22,689 What for? 959 00:59:22,733 --> 00:59:23,951 I want to show you something. 960 00:59:27,607 --> 00:59:28,695 Pull over right here. 961 00:59:28,739 --> 00:59:29,957 -Here? -Yeah. 962 00:59:35,354 --> 00:59:36,573 You see that building over there? 963 00:59:38,836 --> 00:59:40,054 Eric and I used to live there. 964 00:59:41,099 --> 00:59:42,187 For how long? 965 00:59:43,667 --> 00:59:45,799 Year, year and a half. 966 00:59:48,236 --> 00:59:49,455 Were you terrified? 967 00:59:50,978 --> 00:59:51,979 I was high. 968 00:59:53,677 --> 00:59:56,505 Did you have running water at least? 969 00:59:56,549 --> 00:59:59,247 Yeah, and room service. Come on. 970 01:00:04,644 --> 01:00:07,647 You know, I've been wanting to ask you something, 971 01:00:07,691 --> 01:00:10,998 but I do not want you to take it in the wrong way. 972 01:00:11,042 --> 01:00:13,958 Yeah. -I just... No judgement. 973 01:00:14,001 --> 01:00:16,003 Okay. Just come out with it. 974 01:00:18,571 --> 01:00:19,572 Did you ever... 975 01:00:21,705 --> 01:00:22,967 prostitute yourself? 976 01:00:27,667 --> 01:00:29,147 I never had sex for money, 977 01:00:31,453 --> 01:00:33,325 but I have had sex for drugs. 978 01:00:33,368 --> 01:00:35,806 -Well, that's not prostitution. -Well... 979 01:00:35,849 --> 01:00:37,372 No, that's survival. 980 01:00:37,416 --> 01:00:41,855 That's, uh, a sick person trying to survive. 981 01:00:41,899 --> 01:00:44,336 Yeah, but if I had had sex for money to buy drugs, 982 01:00:44,379 --> 01:00:46,033 would that make me a prostitute? 983 01:00:49,123 --> 01:00:50,647 So what's the verdict, Mom? 984 01:00:52,474 --> 01:00:55,782 Whore? Not whore? 985 01:00:58,655 --> 01:01:00,178 Wait, wait, wait, sorry. 986 01:01:00,221 --> 01:01:02,136 Since we're already here, I meant to ask you, 987 01:01:02,180 --> 01:01:04,704 can we go and find a friend of mine? 988 01:01:04,748 --> 01:01:08,099 Her name is Sammy, we used to live together sometimes. 989 01:01:08,142 --> 01:01:09,709 -Who? -Sammy? 990 01:01:09,753 --> 01:01:11,189 We used to look out for each other. 991 01:01:11,232 --> 01:01:13,757 She texted me two days ago from someone else's phone, 992 01:01:13,800 --> 01:01:15,323 and then she just vanished. 993 01:01:15,367 --> 01:01:16,585 I think that she's in trouble. 994 01:01:17,456 --> 01:01:19,371 Look, I want to go help her. 995 01:01:19,414 --> 01:01:22,156 -No, I don't want to stay. -Come on, Mom, I would just like to help her. 996 01:01:22,200 --> 01:01:27,640 We're already here-- She's 15, Mom, she's 15. 997 01:01:31,644 --> 01:01:33,820 This isn't one of your schemes. 998 01:01:34,952 --> 01:01:37,171 You are so close to getting that shot. 999 01:01:39,086 --> 01:01:40,087 Mom, look at me. 1000 01:01:43,612 --> 01:01:44,744 I'm doing good. 1001 01:01:45,789 --> 01:01:47,529 I just want to build momentum. 1002 01:01:47,573 --> 01:01:50,663 I want to start helping people, to just start making up 1003 01:01:50,707 --> 01:01:53,710 for all the shit that I have put everybody through. 1004 01:01:53,753 --> 01:01:55,494 That's all. 1005 01:01:55,537 --> 01:01:58,279 Please. I am begging you. Just give me 15 minutes. 1006 01:01:59,585 --> 01:02:02,762 Fine, five minutes. I know where she lives. 1007 01:02:05,069 --> 01:02:08,463 Mom, maybe if she sees me doing good, it will help her get help. 1008 01:02:14,034 --> 01:02:15,122 Please. 1009 01:02:17,472 --> 01:02:19,997 -Five minutes. -Okay, five minutes. 1010 01:02:21,433 --> 01:02:22,434 Let's go. 1011 01:02:36,361 --> 01:02:37,884 -Five minutes. -Okay? 1012 01:02:47,415 --> 01:02:50,244 She texted you. How did she even get your phone number? 1013 01:02:54,466 --> 01:02:56,903 -You're shopping? -Excuse me? 1014 01:02:56,947 --> 01:02:59,601 Are you buying? You looking for a fix? 1015 01:02:59,645 --> 01:03:01,473 Do I look like I'm shopping? 1016 01:03:02,866 --> 01:03:06,217 Oh, shit. Mrs. Wheeler. 1017 01:03:07,827 --> 01:03:11,526 It's me, Eric. Molly's old boyfriend. 1018 01:03:15,313 --> 01:03:18,316 -Jesus, Eric. -What are you doing here? 1019 01:03:18,359 --> 01:03:19,447 Molly's in there. 1020 01:03:20,361 --> 01:03:22,363 She's just looking for a friend. 1021 01:03:22,407 --> 01:03:25,236 She's clean, so stay away from her. 1022 01:03:26,150 --> 01:03:27,804 Oh... 1023 01:03:27,847 --> 01:03:30,023 Oh, I don't think that she wants to see me. 1024 01:03:31,503 --> 01:03:33,635 I haven't seen her since she was pregnant. 1025 01:03:35,072 --> 01:03:36,856 She warned me at the clinic. 1026 01:03:40,120 --> 01:03:42,166 Oh, shit. 1027 01:03:42,209 --> 01:03:43,645 She didn't tell you. 1028 01:03:44,733 --> 01:03:47,562 Of course she did. 1029 01:03:47,606 --> 01:03:51,175 You wouldn't happen to have a couple of dollars that I could borrow. 1030 01:03:51,218 --> 01:03:53,307 Mrs. Wheeler, I'm hungry. 1031 01:04:00,532 --> 01:04:01,925 Molly, come on! 1032 01:04:10,324 --> 01:04:12,326 -Hey. -Get in the car. 1033 01:04:12,370 --> 01:04:13,632 They said that she's staying down the street. 1034 01:04:13,675 --> 01:04:14,938 I'm just gonna go and check real quick. 1035 01:04:14,981 --> 01:04:16,722 No way. Are you crazy? 1036 01:04:16,765 --> 01:04:18,245 Does Sammy even exist? 1037 01:04:19,725 --> 01:04:20,900 Fuck you! 1038 01:04:20,944 --> 01:04:23,163 Get in the goddamn car! 1039 01:04:33,739 --> 01:04:35,045 Just get in the car! 1040 01:04:42,313 --> 01:04:43,531 [HORN TOOTING] 1041 01:04:43,575 --> 01:04:45,794 Molly! Please! 1042 01:04:48,710 --> 01:04:50,060 I'll leave you! 1043 01:04:50,103 --> 01:04:52,236 You think I fucking give a shit? 1044 01:04:52,279 --> 01:04:53,280 Watch me! 1045 01:04:55,935 --> 01:04:59,199 You fucking ungrateful bitch! 1046 01:04:59,243 --> 01:05:00,244 [DOOR SLAMS] 1047 01:05:11,864 --> 01:05:13,126 [BEEPS] 1048 01:05:14,780 --> 01:05:16,521 [DOG BARKS DISTANTLY] 1049 01:06:02,393 --> 01:06:04,090 Moly, what the fuck are you-- 1050 01:06:06,963 --> 01:06:09,226 [WOMAN CRYING] 1051 01:06:13,143 --> 01:06:16,624 Molly, I am so done with your fucking-- 1052 01:06:16,668 --> 01:06:18,235 -What are you doing here? -This is Sammy. 1053 01:06:18,278 --> 01:06:19,976 I'm just trying to get her temperature down. 1054 01:06:20,019 --> 01:06:22,108 -What you got in your hand? -She's dope sick with drugs. 1055 01:06:22,152 --> 01:06:24,284 -Come with me right now. -Calm the fuck down. 1056 01:06:24,328 --> 01:06:25,807 -Stop it! -What the fuck! 1057 01:06:25,851 --> 01:06:27,026 -What are you doing here? -Who are you? 1058 01:06:27,070 --> 01:06:28,810 Do you think I'm scared of you? 1059 01:06:28,854 --> 01:06:31,030 MOLLY: No! No, no! 1060 01:06:31,074 --> 01:06:33,424 GREG: You fucked up! You got me fucked up now. 1061 01:06:33,467 --> 01:06:36,296 -Greg, that's my mom. Stop! -What? What? 1062 01:06:36,340 --> 01:06:39,517 You people are monsters, you hear me? 1063 01:06:39,560 --> 01:06:42,433 -You deserve to die. I'll kill you myself! -What is wrong with you? 1064 01:06:42,476 --> 01:06:44,174 You almost got both of us killed. 1065 01:06:44,217 --> 01:06:48,047 Jesus! You are unhinged! You are scaring me! 1066 01:06:48,091 --> 01:06:49,309 DEB: Now know what it's like. 1067 01:06:50,702 --> 01:06:52,573 MOLLY: I was just trying to help Sammy. 1068 01:07:04,368 --> 01:07:05,456 [INDISTINCT CHATTER ON TV] 1069 01:07:26,085 --> 01:07:27,043 [CHUCKLES] 1070 01:07:36,530 --> 01:07:38,532 I saw Eric today. 1071 01:07:40,012 --> 01:07:41,057 Who? 1072 01:07:42,145 --> 01:07:44,321 Guitar Eric, your boyfriend. 1073 01:07:46,932 --> 01:07:50,805 -Where? -Outside that flop house. 1074 01:07:50,849 --> 01:07:55,158 He came over to the car trying to sell me some drugs. 1075 01:07:55,201 --> 01:07:57,508 Mom, I swear to God, I did not know that he was there. 1076 01:07:59,249 --> 01:08:02,426 If you think that I was trying to scheme you, I wasn't. 1077 01:08:02,469 --> 01:08:03,557 He... 1078 01:08:04,950 --> 01:08:09,346 He said something about you being pregnant. 1079 01:08:12,479 --> 01:08:13,524 I'm not judging you. 1080 01:08:15,308 --> 01:08:19,312 Eric said you... you didn't want him to be with you. 1081 01:08:19,356 --> 01:08:22,620 I'm just sorry that you had to go through that alone. 1082 01:08:22,663 --> 01:08:24,839 An abortion is hard enough as it is. 1083 01:08:30,280 --> 01:08:34,284 I didn't have an abortion, I carried it to term. 1084 01:08:37,722 --> 01:08:40,986 Spent seven months puking every morning 1085 01:08:41,029 --> 01:08:44,120 from morning sickness and withdrawals 1086 01:08:45,469 --> 01:08:46,905 and staying on couches. 1087 01:08:49,560 --> 01:08:51,214 That was hardest thing I've ever done. 1088 01:08:58,221 --> 01:08:59,309 Beautiful baby though. 1089 01:09:00,919 --> 01:09:02,007 A boy. 1090 01:09:04,314 --> 01:09:06,446 Where is he? 1091 01:09:06,490 --> 01:09:09,884 In New Jersey, with a family in their forties. 1092 01:09:11,321 --> 01:09:13,192 No kids, rich enough to have a boat. 1093 01:09:13,236 --> 01:09:14,715 That's what the agency told me. 1094 01:09:16,630 --> 01:09:18,110 When-- When did this happen? 1095 01:09:19,285 --> 01:09:21,548 Why didn't you call me? 1096 01:09:21,592 --> 01:09:25,639 Because I didn't want another thing to feel shitty about. 1097 01:09:27,032 --> 01:09:28,207 What's his name? 1098 01:09:28,251 --> 01:09:29,252 I don't know. 1099 01:09:30,383 --> 01:09:32,429 Can I meet him? Do you get visits? 1100 01:09:32,472 --> 01:09:35,693 No. It's a closed adoption just like I wanted. 1101 01:09:35,736 --> 01:09:36,868 Well, can I write them a letter? 1102 01:09:36,911 --> 01:09:38,304 No! 1103 01:09:38,348 --> 01:09:39,697 Molly, that's my grandson. 1104 01:10:06,027 --> 01:10:07,159 MOLLY: Yeah, hello. 1105 01:10:08,160 --> 01:10:09,292 Yeah, this is Molly. 1106 01:10:11,555 --> 01:10:15,776 We already scheduled the shot with Dr. Ortiz for 9:00 a.m. tomorrow. 1107 01:10:17,952 --> 01:10:20,694 No, no, no, I can't wait. 1108 01:10:21,478 --> 01:10:22,870 No! 1109 01:10:22,914 --> 01:10:24,655 Can you, can you please just talk to Dr. Ortiz? 1110 01:10:24,698 --> 01:10:26,309 Because he knows that this is urgent. 1111 01:10:26,874 --> 01:10:28,963 Please. 1112 01:10:29,007 --> 01:10:30,791 Oh, my God! Are you serious? 1113 01:10:32,880 --> 01:10:33,968 Stop! 1114 01:10:34,795 --> 01:10:36,536 Okay. 1115 01:10:36,580 --> 01:10:38,059 Yeah, we'll see you on Monday. 1116 01:10:38,973 --> 01:10:40,018 Okay. So what was that? 1117 01:10:41,411 --> 01:10:42,542 Three more days. 1118 01:10:42,586 --> 01:10:44,109 Three more days that they're waiting 1119 01:10:44,152 --> 01:10:45,850 -for my insurance papers to go through. -That's bullshit. 1120 01:10:45,893 --> 01:10:47,286 I don't think I can make it. 1121 01:10:47,330 --> 01:10:49,854 Do you have any fucking idea how hard it is for us 1122 01:10:49,897 --> 01:10:51,899 to get through one goddamn day? 1123 01:10:51,943 --> 01:10:54,032 Three days is a death sentence. 1124 01:10:54,075 --> 01:10:56,034 -It's an eternity. -Jesus, you're not helping. 1125 01:10:59,080 --> 01:11:00,604 [MOLLY GROWLING] 1126 01:11:00,647 --> 01:11:02,736 [BEEPING] 1127 01:11:09,961 --> 01:11:12,050 MOLLY: Insurance companies. They run the fucking world. 1128 01:11:12,093 --> 01:11:13,617 DEB: Why didn't I hear your phone ring? 1129 01:11:16,010 --> 01:11:17,360 -What? -Your phone? 1130 01:11:17,403 --> 01:11:18,839 Why didn't I hear it ring? 1131 01:11:18,883 --> 01:11:20,537 Because it was on vibrate. 1132 01:11:20,580 --> 01:11:22,713 Why is the office still open? 1133 01:11:22,756 --> 01:11:24,584 It's after six o'clock. 1134 01:11:24,628 --> 01:11:26,717 -I don't know. -I want to see your phone. 1135 01:11:26,760 --> 01:11:28,327 -Give me your phone. -Are you fucking crazy? 1136 01:11:28,371 --> 01:11:30,111 -Am I crazy? -Yes. 1137 01:11:30,155 --> 01:11:32,549 How many fake phone calls have you made since you hurt your knee? 1138 01:11:32,592 --> 01:11:34,290 Or did you ever even hurt your knee? 1139 01:11:34,333 --> 01:11:35,987 -Must've been lies from the very beginning. -You serious? 1140 01:11:36,030 --> 01:11:37,249 Are you doing this to me right now? 1141 01:11:37,293 --> 01:11:39,077 -Oh, my God. -Just never ends. 1142 01:11:39,120 --> 01:11:40,905 No! You're such a trigger! 1143 01:11:40,948 --> 01:11:42,080 But it just goes on and on. 1144 01:11:42,123 --> 01:11:44,430 I am so sorry 1145 01:11:44,474 --> 01:11:46,476 that my drug addiction 1146 01:11:46,519 --> 01:11:49,261 is so incredibly difficult on you. 1147 01:11:52,046 --> 01:11:55,528 Look, I, I am not going to make it to Monday if I stay here. 1148 01:12:00,228 --> 01:12:03,362 I'm gonna go to Sean's, I'm gonna go stay with Sean. 1149 01:12:03,406 --> 01:12:05,190 He--he said that he can pick me up. 1150 01:12:05,233 --> 01:12:07,105 It will be good. I can see the kids. 1151 01:12:07,148 --> 01:12:09,368 I could be with the kids-- -What Sean? 1152 01:12:09,412 --> 01:12:12,110 The same Sean who wanted you to score for him? 1153 01:12:12,153 --> 01:12:13,981 Do you hear yourself? 1154 01:12:14,025 --> 01:12:16,462 I mean, do you fucking hear yourself? 1155 01:12:17,202 --> 01:12:18,769 Do you? 1156 01:12:18,812 --> 01:12:23,295 If I say it's sunny outside, are you gonna go and check? 1157 01:12:23,339 --> 01:12:24,557 I might have to. 1158 01:12:26,037 --> 01:12:27,865 Well, then, maybe when I'm dead, 1159 01:12:27,908 --> 01:12:31,869 you can tell yourself, "Hmm, she's just pretending." 1160 01:12:35,351 --> 01:12:36,395 All right. 1161 01:12:39,050 --> 01:12:40,834 Do what you're gonna do. 1162 01:12:49,234 --> 01:12:50,235 -[DOOR OPENS] -[BEEPING] 1163 01:12:54,195 --> 01:12:55,196 [DEB CRYING] 1164 01:13:00,593 --> 01:13:01,594 [HORN HONKING] 1165 01:13:15,565 --> 01:13:16,653 So, uh... 1166 01:13:19,177 --> 01:13:20,178 I'll see you Monday at 8:00. 1167 01:13:23,573 --> 01:13:24,574 Yes. 1168 01:13:33,147 --> 01:13:34,235 I love you. 1169 01:13:48,554 --> 01:13:49,599 SEAN: You all right? 1170 01:13:49,642 --> 01:13:50,774 MOLLY: Yeah. 1171 01:13:59,086 --> 01:14:00,610 [CAR STARTING] 1172 01:14:11,621 --> 01:14:12,752 You okay? 1173 01:14:12,796 --> 01:14:13,797 Yeah. 1174 01:14:15,233 --> 01:14:18,584 You can't go down the hole with her every time, Deb. 1175 01:14:18,628 --> 01:14:20,020 You got to put yourself first. 1176 01:14:21,631 --> 01:14:23,720 You know, sometimes it just... 1177 01:14:23,763 --> 01:14:25,243 [SIGHS] 1178 01:14:25,286 --> 01:14:27,506 Sometimes, I feel that you're patronizing me. 1179 01:14:27,550 --> 01:14:29,203 -Really? -Yeah. 1180 01:14:29,247 --> 01:14:32,119 Just feeding me pat little phrases. 1181 01:14:32,163 --> 01:14:34,905 -Does that make you happy? -Okay. 1182 01:14:34,948 --> 01:14:36,559 Oh, don't fucking walk away. 1183 01:14:42,956 --> 01:14:43,957 Well, say something. 1184 01:14:46,220 --> 01:14:47,483 You're such a wimp. 1185 01:14:51,008 --> 01:14:52,096 What? 1186 01:14:52,966 --> 01:14:55,578 What, Chris? Say something. 1187 01:14:55,621 --> 01:14:57,188 Saint fucking Chris. 1188 01:14:57,231 --> 01:14:59,016 You wanna have a fight, is that it? 1189 01:14:59,059 --> 01:15:00,670 Huh? 1190 01:15:00,713 --> 01:15:02,846 You want-- You want us to have a knockdown, drag out fight 1191 01:15:02,889 --> 01:15:04,848 so you can blow off some fucking steam? 1192 01:15:04,891 --> 01:15:08,155 I'm not your fucking punching bag, Deb! 1193 01:15:08,199 --> 01:15:10,984 I'm not your fucking punching bag! 1194 01:15:13,596 --> 01:15:14,771 Oh, God! 1195 01:15:15,902 --> 01:15:17,382 -I'm sorry. -Stop. 1196 01:15:17,425 --> 01:15:20,646 -I'm sorry. -Just stop apologizing, it's annoying. 1197 01:15:22,866 --> 01:15:24,171 How did I get here? 1198 01:15:25,085 --> 01:15:26,217 What did I do? 1199 01:15:28,436 --> 01:15:29,612 Nothing. 1200 01:15:30,003 --> 01:15:31,222 You... 1201 01:15:32,484 --> 01:15:33,833 You... 1202 01:15:33,877 --> 01:15:35,400 have done nothing. 1203 01:15:36,880 --> 01:15:40,666 You know, maybe it's just the way her brain is wired. 1204 01:15:41,101 --> 01:15:42,320 You know? 1205 01:15:42,363 --> 01:15:46,324 Maybe she'd taken the pills the year before, 1206 01:15:46,367 --> 01:15:48,761 or a year after, she wouldn't have gotten hooked. 1207 01:15:50,633 --> 01:15:54,898 But she needed to be high because she was too sensitive, but not... 1208 01:15:54,941 --> 01:15:58,249 sensitive enough or if you'd stayed in your bad marriage, 1209 01:15:58,292 --> 01:16:02,470 she would have been an even bigger addict. 1210 01:16:02,514 --> 01:16:05,604 Or if you bought her those blue shoes that time 1211 01:16:05,648 --> 01:16:08,085 when she was three, instead of the red. 1212 01:16:09,608 --> 01:16:11,915 It's none of that. 1213 01:16:11,958 --> 01:16:17,747 Because maybe, the moment her father's sperm reached your egg, 1214 01:16:17,790 --> 01:16:22,186 she was already an addict, waiting to happen. 1215 01:16:22,621 --> 01:16:23,753 [CRYING] 1216 01:16:33,371 --> 01:16:34,372 Okay. 1217 01:16:59,789 --> 01:17:00,790 Thank you. 1218 01:17:01,791 --> 01:17:03,140 WOMAN: ...never ends. 1219 01:17:03,183 --> 01:17:05,925 I still get panic attacks when there's a siren. 1220 01:17:05,969 --> 01:17:07,840 Even one on TV. 1221 01:17:07,884 --> 01:17:10,843 Every time the phone rings, my heart stops. 1222 01:17:10,887 --> 01:17:14,586 My old ring tone makes me pee, literally. [LAUGHS] 1223 01:17:14,630 --> 01:17:17,458 I was at the pharmacy and the lady next to me, 1224 01:17:17,502 --> 01:17:20,548 had it on her phone, I nearly wet myself when I heard it. 1225 01:17:20,592 --> 01:17:21,898 [ALL CHUCKLE] 1226 01:17:23,682 --> 01:17:27,817 This new shrink diagnosed me with chronic anxiety. 1227 01:17:27,860 --> 01:17:31,516 [CHUCKLES] He wants to give me something to help me sleep. 1228 01:17:31,559 --> 01:17:33,561 I said I can't keep pills at the house. 1229 01:17:34,780 --> 01:17:36,129 So I keep them at work. 1230 01:17:37,304 --> 01:17:39,437 Take one pill home every evening. 1231 01:17:42,396 --> 01:17:43,702 Let go and let God... 1232 01:17:46,183 --> 01:17:47,706 This too shall pass. 1233 01:17:49,360 --> 01:17:51,014 Time takes time. 1234 01:17:55,279 --> 01:17:56,367 It helps me... 1235 01:17:57,585 --> 01:18:02,199 [SNIFFLES] to believe in these platitudes. 1236 01:18:04,505 --> 01:18:06,507 I'd be even more resentful and angry 1237 01:18:06,551 --> 01:18:09,075 if I didn't repeat this stuff to myself. 1238 01:18:10,381 --> 01:18:12,383 I'd be furious... 1239 01:18:12,426 --> 01:18:15,691 for all, all the dead dreams. 1240 01:18:22,001 --> 01:18:24,830 AUTOMATED VOICE: At the tone, please record your message. -[BEEPS] 1241 01:18:24,874 --> 01:18:27,006 Hey, I hope you're having fun with the kids. 1242 01:18:27,050 --> 01:18:30,444 I'm just checking in with with you about tomorrow. 1243 01:18:30,488 --> 01:18:34,753 Um, I'm really happy you're doing this. 1244 01:18:34,797 --> 01:18:36,755 I know it's not been an easy week, 1245 01:18:36,799 --> 01:18:39,845 and I can be a real hard-ass. 1246 01:18:40,803 --> 01:18:41,978 It's just that... 1247 01:18:43,544 --> 01:18:47,026 someday, I want things to be easier for you, you know? 1248 01:18:47,070 --> 01:18:49,463 You deserve good things. 1249 01:18:49,507 --> 01:18:52,510 All right. So, um, bye, call me back. 1250 01:18:53,424 --> 01:18:54,642 I love you. 1251 01:18:57,907 --> 01:18:59,560 [CRYING] 1252 01:19:24,455 --> 01:19:25,848 [SIGHS] 1253 01:19:51,874 --> 01:19:53,179 [PHONE RINGING] 1254 01:19:58,271 --> 01:20:00,621 Dale, pick up the fucking phone. 1255 01:20:00,665 --> 01:20:03,494 ANSWERING MACHINE: Hey, this is Dale. Leave a message... or don't. 1256 01:20:03,537 --> 01:20:05,365 -[BEEP] -Damn it! 1257 01:20:25,037 --> 01:20:26,691 -What the fuck? -[TV PLAYING] 1258 01:20:26,734 --> 01:20:28,736 -Do you know what time it is? -Is he here? 1259 01:20:34,220 --> 01:20:35,308 Dale. 1260 01:20:40,183 --> 01:20:41,227 DALE: Fuck. 1261 01:20:43,969 --> 01:20:45,275 Have you heard from Molly? 1262 01:20:46,406 --> 01:20:47,407 No. Why? 1263 01:20:48,104 --> 01:20:49,757 Why? 1264 01:20:49,801 --> 01:20:52,325 Oh, Jesus Christ. Did you even bother to call her? 1265 01:20:53,936 --> 01:20:55,894 Why the hell not? 1266 01:20:55,938 --> 01:20:57,374 This is your daughter's life. 1267 01:20:57,417 --> 01:20:58,897 Because I can't control it, Deb. 1268 01:20:58,941 --> 01:21:01,378 Oh, come on, Dale. 1269 01:21:01,421 --> 01:21:05,295 She's one day away from getting a shot that might actually save her life. 1270 01:21:05,338 --> 01:21:08,298 And God knows where she is and you don't give a shit. 1271 01:21:08,341 --> 01:21:10,691 I give a shit. 1272 01:21:10,735 --> 01:21:13,912 I give a shit. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about her. 1273 01:21:13,956 --> 01:21:15,827 But it's not up to me to change any of that. 1274 01:21:15,871 --> 01:21:18,569 And God knows I've fooled myself time and time again before. 1275 01:21:18,612 --> 01:21:20,179 And so did you. 1276 01:21:20,223 --> 01:21:23,008 -I'm done. -Oh, God. That's so convenient. 1277 01:21:23,052 --> 01:21:25,924 I thought you said that you weren't gonna let her back in until she was clean. 1278 01:21:25,968 --> 01:21:28,187 -She's been clean a week. -Oh. 1279 01:21:28,231 --> 01:21:30,798 Oh, boy. Well, when it's real, you let me know. 1280 01:21:30,842 --> 01:21:32,539 So you want us to do all the work? 1281 01:21:32,583 --> 01:21:35,412 You're not doing the fucking work, Deb. 1282 01:21:35,455 --> 01:21:37,762 She's doing it. If in fact, she's even doing it. 1283 01:21:37,805 --> 01:21:39,807 So don't fucking flatter yourself here. 1284 01:21:39,851 --> 01:21:42,288 By the way, you're not going to make me feel guilty about this either, 1285 01:21:42,332 --> 01:21:43,637 so why don't you kiss my ass? 1286 01:21:43,681 --> 01:21:45,944 You know what? We wouldn't even be standing here 1287 01:21:45,988 --> 01:21:48,164 if you paid more attention to her when she got that injury. 1288 01:21:48,207 --> 01:21:49,861 You wanna say this is my fault? 1289 01:21:49,905 --> 01:21:51,732 Is that the game you want to play? 1290 01:21:51,776 --> 01:21:56,128 Let's. You walked out on us because you wanted to find the new you. 1291 01:21:56,172 --> 01:21:58,783 She wanted her mom back, she wanted her mom's attention, 1292 01:21:58,826 --> 01:22:01,046 and that's exactly what she friggin' got, didn't she? 1293 01:22:01,090 --> 01:22:02,700 Fuck, you, Dale! 1294 01:22:02,743 --> 01:22:04,658 Save the speeches for her funeral. 1295 01:22:04,702 --> 01:22:06,530 Oh, you're planning her funeral now, huh? 1296 01:22:06,573 --> 01:22:09,315 You have a flair for drama there, don't you, Deb? 1297 01:22:09,359 --> 01:22:11,100 Whoa, whoa, whoa... 1298 01:22:46,265 --> 01:22:47,353 Any news? 1299 01:22:48,441 --> 01:22:49,486 Mm-mm. 1300 01:22:51,183 --> 01:22:53,664 [KNOCKING ON DOOR] 1301 01:22:58,060 --> 01:22:59,539 -[BEEP] -AUTOMATED VOICE: Door... 1302 01:22:59,583 --> 01:23:01,846 -Where the hell have you been? -Hey! 1303 01:23:01,889 --> 01:23:02,934 DEB: What the fuck? 1304 01:23:03,848 --> 01:23:05,241 I've been trying to call you. 1305 01:23:05,284 --> 01:23:06,633 My phone died. 1306 01:23:06,677 --> 01:23:08,026 Why aren't you ready? 1307 01:23:08,070 --> 01:23:10,072 We have to be there in, like, 45 minutes. 1308 01:23:11,421 --> 01:23:12,509 All right. 1309 01:23:13,466 --> 01:23:14,511 [CHUCKLES] 1310 01:23:14,554 --> 01:23:15,642 Come on. 1311 01:23:23,085 --> 01:23:24,477 Okay, I'm almost there. 1312 01:23:25,826 --> 01:23:26,871 How are the kids? 1313 01:23:28,133 --> 01:23:29,439 They're good. 1314 01:23:29,482 --> 01:23:30,918 Yeah, they, um... 1315 01:23:32,268 --> 01:23:33,530 They say hi. 1316 01:23:39,449 --> 01:23:40,450 What? 1317 01:23:42,017 --> 01:23:43,018 Um... 1318 01:23:47,022 --> 01:23:48,327 I need your pee. 1319 01:23:50,068 --> 01:23:51,548 What? 1320 01:23:51,591 --> 01:23:54,725 I said I need your pee, like, in a plastic container. 1321 01:23:54,768 --> 01:23:56,857 I need your pee, now. 1322 01:24:00,948 --> 01:24:02,646 Do I have to spell it out for you? 1323 01:24:04,517 --> 01:24:05,736 I'm not clean. 1324 01:24:09,305 --> 01:24:12,395 The other day when when we went looking for Sammy, I, um... 1325 01:24:14,049 --> 01:24:15,267 I met up with a dealer. 1326 01:24:17,139 --> 01:24:18,357 With what money? 1327 01:24:20,794 --> 01:24:21,839 Oh. 1328 01:24:22,535 --> 01:24:24,059 You fucking thief. 1329 01:24:27,236 --> 01:24:28,541 And the appointment? 1330 01:24:29,499 --> 01:24:30,674 I faked it. 1331 01:24:32,241 --> 01:24:33,285 I'm sorry. 1332 01:24:34,504 --> 01:24:37,507 And the weekend, visiting the kids? 1333 01:24:38,725 --> 01:24:40,205 No, I saw them. 1334 01:24:40,249 --> 01:24:43,774 I did. I even took them to the movies, but then, um... 1335 01:24:45,471 --> 01:24:48,518 Then Sean and I got a sitter and we went out, uh... 1336 01:24:52,261 --> 01:24:53,436 I got high. 1337 01:24:57,570 --> 01:24:59,529 [CRYING] I'm sorry I suck. 1338 01:25:01,966 --> 01:25:04,011 I'm a terrible person. 1339 01:25:05,187 --> 01:25:06,231 [SCOFFS] 1340 01:25:11,149 --> 01:25:13,760 I am a fucking moron. 1341 01:25:14,631 --> 01:25:17,677 No, no, because I'm here now. 1342 01:25:17,721 --> 01:25:19,940 Look, I could have stayed back at Sean's, 1343 01:25:19,984 --> 01:25:22,552 or met back up with Eric or just disappeared. 1344 01:25:22,595 --> 01:25:24,771 But... But I didn't... 1345 01:25:24,815 --> 01:25:28,123 I don't want to do this anymore, okay? 1346 01:25:28,166 --> 01:25:30,342 Please. I just want to get the shot. 1347 01:25:30,386 --> 01:25:32,039 -Well, you can't, Molly. It's over. -Yes, I can. 1348 01:25:32,083 --> 01:25:34,085 You have drugs in your system. 1349 01:25:34,129 --> 01:25:36,043 Maybe you could wait for another week. 1350 01:25:36,087 --> 01:25:38,133 I am not gonna make it another week, 1351 01:25:38,176 --> 01:25:40,047 and you and I both know that. 1352 01:25:40,091 --> 01:25:41,527 [SNIFFLES] Mom, please. 1353 01:25:43,268 --> 01:25:45,140 Please, just give me your pee. 1354 01:25:45,183 --> 01:25:47,620 If you give me your pee, I can pass the drug test. 1355 01:25:47,664 --> 01:25:49,274 I can get the shot. 1356 01:25:49,318 --> 01:25:53,496 And that means that I can't get high for an entire month. 1357 01:25:53,539 --> 01:25:56,194 No, you, you have drugs in your system. 1358 01:25:56,238 --> 01:25:58,065 -No. -Mom, please. 1359 01:25:58,109 --> 01:26:01,330 Please, I am begging you for help to get clean. 1360 01:26:02,940 --> 01:26:06,204 Look, this could be it, okay? 1361 01:26:06,248 --> 01:26:08,337 It's like what you said on the message last night 1362 01:26:08,380 --> 01:26:10,687 about this being the start of something new. 1363 01:26:11,862 --> 01:26:13,646 It is. 1364 01:26:13,690 --> 01:26:15,474 I thought your phone was dead. 1365 01:26:17,781 --> 01:26:18,869 Fuck. 1366 01:26:24,483 --> 01:26:25,484 [BREATHING HEAVILY] 1367 01:26:26,877 --> 01:26:27,965 Oh. 1368 01:26:58,561 --> 01:26:59,649 [DOOR OPENS] 1369 01:27:12,096 --> 01:27:13,140 Thank you. 1370 01:27:17,406 --> 01:27:18,624 [EXHALES] 1371 01:27:20,496 --> 01:27:21,584 Oh, my God. 1372 01:27:26,197 --> 01:27:28,068 What if they check the temperature of the pee? 1373 01:27:30,897 --> 01:27:33,291 -What? -The pee was barely lukewarm. 1374 01:27:33,335 --> 01:27:35,206 What if they check... 1375 01:27:35,250 --> 01:27:36,990 Why am I freaking out? 1376 01:27:37,034 --> 01:27:38,775 -Well, don't. -[KNOCK ON DOOR] 1377 01:27:38,818 --> 01:27:39,819 [DOOR OPENS] 1378 01:27:40,690 --> 01:27:41,734 Okay. 1379 01:27:43,258 --> 01:27:44,476 Everything here looks good. 1380 01:27:46,565 --> 01:27:47,566 Ready to go? 1381 01:27:48,088 --> 01:27:49,525 Yeah. 1382 01:27:49,568 --> 01:27:51,483 -Uh, I'll step out. -No. 1383 01:27:52,528 --> 01:27:53,572 Mm-mm. 1384 01:28:05,367 --> 01:28:06,411 All right. 1385 01:28:13,113 --> 01:28:14,114 All set. 1386 01:28:21,818 --> 01:28:22,949 [BREATHING HEAVILY] 1387 01:28:45,407 --> 01:28:46,756 What? 1388 01:28:46,799 --> 01:28:47,844 How are you feeling? 1389 01:28:48,758 --> 01:28:51,369 Fine. Yeah. 1390 01:28:51,413 --> 01:28:53,371 All right. 1391 01:28:53,415 --> 01:28:55,373 You'll get a follow up call at the end of the day to see how you're doing. 1392 01:28:55,417 --> 01:28:57,201 I'll see you in a month. Congratulations. 1393 01:28:57,244 --> 01:28:58,333 Thank you. 1394 01:29:06,689 --> 01:29:07,820 Oh, my God. 1395 01:29:10,910 --> 01:29:11,955 I'm okay. 1396 01:29:12,477 --> 01:29:13,739 I am. I, um... 1397 01:29:15,393 --> 01:29:16,394 I feel good. 1398 01:29:16,438 --> 01:29:17,743 -Yeah? -Yeah. 1399 01:29:17,787 --> 01:29:18,875 Oh, my God. 1400 01:29:20,050 --> 01:29:21,268 Yeah. 1401 01:29:21,312 --> 01:29:23,053 Oh, my God. You look good. 1402 01:29:23,096 --> 01:29:24,620 -Yeah. -I can't believe it. 1403 01:29:24,663 --> 01:29:27,797 Thirty days without having to worry about this nightmare. 1404 01:29:27,840 --> 01:29:29,146 Yeah. 1405 01:29:29,189 --> 01:29:31,061 Can't believe I went through with it. 1406 01:29:31,104 --> 01:29:32,410 Pretty damn brave. 1407 01:29:33,106 --> 01:29:34,891 Oh, my God. 1408 01:29:34,934 --> 01:29:38,547 I always knew your talent for lying would, you know, come in handy. 1409 01:29:40,287 --> 01:29:41,985 We fucking pulled it off. 1410 01:29:42,986 --> 01:29:44,988 [LAUGHS] You hungry? 1411 01:29:45,031 --> 01:29:46,293 Wanna grab some breakfast? 1412 01:29:51,081 --> 01:29:52,430 [GROANS] 1413 01:29:52,865 --> 01:29:53,866 What? 1414 01:30:01,221 --> 01:30:03,702 Oh, my God! Get in the car. Get in the car. Quick. 1415 01:30:03,746 --> 01:30:07,140 -Oh, my God! -Here. Quick, quick. Get in. Get in. 1416 01:30:07,184 --> 01:30:10,927 -[GROANS] -Can you close the door? Get in. 1417 01:30:10,970 --> 01:30:13,886 -Let me just get... -Don't fucking touch me. Fuck! 1418 01:30:14,496 --> 01:30:15,801 Oh, my God. 1419 01:30:15,845 --> 01:30:18,456 Oh, just fucking drive. 1420 01:30:18,500 --> 01:30:20,806 God. Just drive! 1421 01:30:20,850 --> 01:30:22,025 Oh! 1422 01:30:26,551 --> 01:30:28,292 [GROANING, CRYING] 1423 01:30:29,685 --> 01:30:31,948 I can't. I can't... 1424 01:30:31,991 --> 01:30:34,080 Oh, my God. I can't. I can't... 1425 01:30:34,124 --> 01:30:35,299 I know, I know, I know... 1426 01:30:35,342 --> 01:30:36,779 Why did we do this? 1427 01:30:36,822 --> 01:30:38,737 Oh, why the fuck did we do this? 1428 01:30:38,781 --> 01:30:41,348 Can we have some help out here, please? 1429 01:30:42,175 --> 01:30:43,829 Anyone? I need some help. 1430 01:30:49,748 --> 01:30:51,837 -[GROANS] -Please, somebody help us. 1431 01:30:51,881 --> 01:30:53,491 She's in acute withdrawal. 1432 01:30:53,535 --> 01:30:55,014 -Heroin? -Yes, heroin. 1433 01:30:55,058 --> 01:30:56,973 Just get us back there. I've never seen her like this. 1434 01:30:57,016 --> 01:30:58,757 We can restrain her. We can give her fluids. 1435 01:30:58,801 --> 01:31:00,106 But she's gonna have to go through it. 1436 01:31:00,150 --> 01:31:01,804 She just had the Naltrexone shot. 1437 01:31:01,847 --> 01:31:03,762 She's not supposed to get that if she has drugs in her system. 1438 01:31:03,806 --> 01:31:05,721 No shit, Sherlock. 1439 01:31:05,764 --> 01:31:07,940 Doctor, please, can you help? She's in acute withdrawal. 1440 01:31:07,984 --> 01:31:09,855 Miss, can you sign this form? 1441 01:31:09,899 --> 01:31:11,901 -[GRUNTS] -But, ma'am, she has to sign herself. 1442 01:31:11,944 --> 01:31:13,598 -She can't sign it. -Fine! 1443 01:31:14,947 --> 01:31:16,079 -[GROANS] -Okay, we'll call you. 1444 01:31:16,122 --> 01:31:17,689 Seriously? 1445 01:31:17,733 --> 01:31:19,082 [MOLLY GROANS] 1446 01:31:20,649 --> 01:31:23,521 -It's okay. Okay. It's okay. -[SHIVERS] 1447 01:31:23,565 --> 01:31:25,871 Oh. Oh, Mom, please, make it stop. 1448 01:31:27,177 --> 01:31:29,309 [SCREAMS, RETCHES] 1449 01:31:29,353 --> 01:31:31,616 Can we have some fucking help here? 1450 01:31:31,660 --> 01:31:33,052 [GROANS] 1451 01:31:33,096 --> 01:31:35,359 -Make it stop. -I know, I know. 1452 01:31:35,402 --> 01:31:36,491 -Here. -Thank you. 1453 01:31:36,534 --> 01:31:38,362 I'm begging you. [RETCHES] 1454 01:31:38,405 --> 01:31:40,799 -No. -I'm so sorry, Mom. 1455 01:31:40,843 --> 01:31:42,148 Please, I can't do this. 1456 01:31:42,192 --> 01:31:44,150 -Yes, you can. -[VOMITS] 1457 01:31:44,847 --> 01:31:46,152 Are you enjoying this? 1458 01:31:46,196 --> 01:31:47,806 I don't fucking believe you people. 1459 01:31:47,850 --> 01:31:51,636 She's been convulsing and puking for, I don't know how long. 1460 01:31:51,680 --> 01:31:53,812 What does it take to get seen? 1461 01:31:53,856 --> 01:31:55,640 It is called a waiting room for a reason. 1462 01:31:55,684 --> 01:31:57,990 -Sometimes you wait. -There's no one else here. 1463 01:31:58,034 --> 01:31:59,688 We take people based on the complaint 1464 01:31:59,731 --> 01:32:01,820 and some thing's demand more immediate attention. 1465 01:32:01,864 --> 01:32:04,127 Thank you for your compassion. 1466 01:32:06,390 --> 01:32:08,435 Do you want to know why she's an addict? 1467 01:32:08,479 --> 01:32:09,828 It's because of you people. 1468 01:32:09,872 --> 01:32:11,308 So don't you sit there 1469 01:32:11,351 --> 01:32:13,484 -and fucking tell me... -Hey, whoa! Whoa! 1470 01:32:14,920 --> 01:32:15,965 Is everything okay? 1471 01:32:19,272 --> 01:32:21,231 -Doctor, please. -Molly Wheeler. 1472 01:32:21,274 --> 01:32:23,494 Oh... Okay, sweetie. 1473 01:32:23,538 --> 01:32:25,148 -The doctor's here. -I got it. 1474 01:32:25,191 --> 01:32:26,279 -He's gonna take good care of you, all right? -Thank you. 1475 01:32:26,323 --> 01:32:28,325 We're gonna take real good care of you. 1476 01:32:28,368 --> 01:32:29,979 MOLLY: Ma. 1477 01:32:30,022 --> 01:32:31,328 -Ma. -I'm here. I'm here, sweetie. 1478 01:32:31,371 --> 01:32:32,547 Mom, don't leave. 1479 01:33:35,000 --> 01:33:36,393 [DOOR OPENS] 1480 01:33:38,003 --> 01:33:39,004 [DOOR CLOSES] 1481 01:33:41,703 --> 01:33:43,095 -MOLLY: Hey. -Hey. 1482 01:33:44,836 --> 01:33:45,924 How are the kids? 1483 01:33:46,838 --> 01:33:48,405 They're good. 1484 01:33:48,448 --> 01:33:50,450 You know, Cory's still got that cold. 1485 01:33:51,408 --> 01:33:52,931 Chloe never got it. 1486 01:33:52,975 --> 01:33:55,673 I don't get it. That kid lives off of junk food. 1487 01:33:55,717 --> 01:33:57,196 And never gets sick. 1488 01:33:57,240 --> 01:33:58,458 [CHUCKLES] 1489 01:33:58,502 --> 01:33:59,938 Kids are indestructible. 1490 01:34:02,767 --> 01:34:04,900 Hey, so, um... 1491 01:34:04,943 --> 01:34:09,121 Sean wants me to come back again on Friday and watch the kids. 1492 01:34:09,165 --> 01:34:11,950 I think it's good, you know, him trusting me more. 1493 01:34:11,994 --> 01:34:13,082 Mm-hm. 1494 01:34:15,606 --> 01:34:18,957 Say, isn't Friday when you need to get your shot? 1495 01:34:19,001 --> 01:34:20,393 Yes, but it's no big deal. 1496 01:34:20,437 --> 01:34:22,787 They said they can see me first thing next week. 1497 01:34:22,831 --> 01:34:24,484 -Are you sure? -Mm-hm. 1498 01:34:24,528 --> 01:34:26,922 -You called them? -Yes. 1499 01:34:26,965 --> 01:34:28,532 Yeah. Monday, three o'clock. 1500 01:34:31,535 --> 01:34:32,579 What? 1501 01:34:33,145 --> 01:34:34,146 Uh... 1502 01:34:35,365 --> 01:34:36,409 Nothing. 1503 01:34:37,149 --> 01:34:38,716 Not a thing. 1504 01:34:38,760 --> 01:34:40,022 You look wonderful. 1505 01:34:51,598 --> 01:34:52,861 [GARAGE DOOR OPENS]