1 00:00:07,101 --> 00:00:09,841 {\an8}This is what I'm eating from this moose hide. 2 00:00:09,941 --> 00:00:13,081 {\an8}I like this experience, but I wouldn't like it 3 00:00:13,181 --> 00:00:15,561 {\an8}to go forever and ever. 4 00:00:21,301 --> 00:00:22,641 {\an8}What the [bleep]? 5 00:00:22,741 --> 00:00:25,121 {\an8}Flinging arrows at [bleep] squirrels. 6 00:00:25,221 --> 00:00:27,361 {\an8}What the [bleep] is happening to me here? 7 00:00:27,461 --> 00:00:30,041 {\an8}My mind is breaking down. 8 00:00:30,141 --> 00:00:31,841 {\an8}Hands are tattered. 9 00:00:31,941 --> 00:00:34,161 {\an8}Body's broken. 10 00:00:34,261 --> 00:00:36,281 {\an8}Might be fighting a losing battle no matter what. 11 00:00:36,381 --> 00:00:38,121 {\an8}No, no, no. Come on. 12 00:00:38,221 --> 00:00:40,641 {\an8}Yeah! 13 00:00:40,741 --> 00:00:42,881 {\an8}This is the perfect example 14 00:00:42,981 --> 00:00:45,601 {\an8}of how much of a mental game this thing is. 15 00:00:45,701 --> 00:00:47,441 {\an8}Yes! 16 00:00:47,541 --> 00:00:51,241 {\an8}I'm realising that I'm winding myself down mentally, 17 00:00:51,341 --> 00:00:53,441 {\an8}and that's affecting me physically. 18 00:00:53,541 --> 00:00:56,001 {\an8}It's not over until it's actually over, dude. 19 00:00:56,101 --> 00:00:57,281 {\an8}Yes! 20 00:01:34,981 --> 00:01:37,641 {\an8}It's day 80! 21 00:01:37,741 --> 00:01:39,081 {\an8}Whoop, whoop, whoop, whoop! 22 00:01:41,261 --> 00:01:43,241 Let's take it back to the '80s. 23 00:01:43,341 --> 00:01:45,121 We got the sprinkler. 24 00:01:49,341 --> 00:01:50,761 Lawn mower. 25 00:01:57,421 --> 00:01:58,801 The bus driver. 26 00:01:59,981 --> 00:02:03,001 Hey-yo, hey-yo. 27 00:02:03,101 --> 00:02:04,281 And the cowboy. 28 00:02:13,461 --> 00:02:16,441 Day 80! 29 00:02:16,541 --> 00:02:17,841 Yeah. 30 00:02:18,741 --> 00:02:20,481 And... 31 00:02:20,581 --> 00:02:23,281 ♪ Oonse-oonse-oonse-oonse 32 00:02:23,381 --> 00:02:26,321 Rocking my Kie hat. 33 00:02:26,421 --> 00:02:28,961 Kie's wolf hat. 34 00:02:29,061 --> 00:02:32,601 {\an8}Yeah, I know she'll be thinking about today. 35 00:02:32,701 --> 00:02:34,561 {\an8}Good vibes going around. 36 00:02:34,661 --> 00:02:36,401 {\an8}Ah. 37 00:02:36,501 --> 00:02:39,361 {\an8}Let's see if I can land some fish out of the gillnet. 38 00:02:40,581 --> 00:02:41,841 {\an8}Whoop, whoop! 39 00:02:43,941 --> 00:02:47,481 Kie as support has just been incredible, 40 00:02:47,581 --> 00:02:51,201 one of my best friends, basically family to me. 41 00:02:51,301 --> 00:02:53,641 And to join her at 80 days 42 00:02:53,741 --> 00:02:55,641 and to kind of get some sort of glimpse 43 00:02:55,741 --> 00:02:58,241 into what her experience actually means, 44 00:02:58,341 --> 00:02:59,761 I feel really, really honoured. 45 00:03:02,141 --> 00:03:05,041 It's always optimistic when I come out and have a look, 46 00:03:05,141 --> 00:03:07,521 and you can see with the gillnet, 47 00:03:07,621 --> 00:03:10,121 and you can see there's, like, that dark patch there 48 00:03:10,221 --> 00:03:12,321 where there's no ice that's formed. 49 00:03:12,421 --> 00:03:14,641 Kind of tells me that there might be 50 00:03:14,741 --> 00:03:17,321 some movement... about. 51 00:03:20,181 --> 00:03:23,641 Going through this journey, it's really cemented in myself 52 00:03:23,741 --> 00:03:26,001 like, this is what I want to do... 53 00:03:26,101 --> 00:03:28,201 All right. 54 00:03:28,301 --> 00:03:31,801 Got to break away... the ice. 55 00:03:31,901 --> 00:03:34,521 Finding ways to be able to help facilitate people 56 00:03:34,621 --> 00:03:37,041 with the land and being an outdoor advocate 57 00:03:37,141 --> 00:03:39,001 and finding that balance between the natural world 58 00:03:39,101 --> 00:03:40,361 and the modern world. 59 00:03:40,461 --> 00:03:42,281 Come on. 60 00:03:42,381 --> 00:03:43,561 Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop. 61 00:03:43,661 --> 00:03:44,561 Chill. 62 00:03:44,661 --> 00:03:46,281 Jeez, jeez. 63 00:03:46,381 --> 00:03:47,841 Hold up, hold up, hold up. 64 00:03:47,941 --> 00:03:49,881 Come on. 65 00:03:49,981 --> 00:03:51,641 Come on, come on, come on, come on. 66 00:03:51,741 --> 00:03:53,641 Yeah. 67 00:03:53,741 --> 00:03:56,481 Inconnu. 68 00:03:56,581 --> 00:03:57,801 Phew. 69 00:03:59,181 --> 00:04:01,561 Yes. 70 00:04:01,661 --> 00:04:03,641 And it's not about people coming out 71 00:04:03,741 --> 00:04:06,521 and doing 80 days solo in the wilderness. 72 00:04:06,621 --> 00:04:08,841 It's just about people having that same relationship 73 00:04:08,941 --> 00:04:10,761 that I do with the land. 74 00:04:10,861 --> 00:04:12,441 Dispatch it. 75 00:04:17,981 --> 00:04:20,841 Day 80, inconnu. 76 00:04:20,941 --> 00:04:22,521 Whoo-hoo! 77 00:04:22,621 --> 00:04:24,441 Mwah! 78 00:04:24,541 --> 00:04:26,681 Thank you. 79 00:04:26,781 --> 00:04:28,801 Thank you! 80 00:04:28,901 --> 00:04:31,881 Hoo, hoo, yeah! 81 00:04:41,141 --> 00:04:43,641 {\an8}Inconnu for dinner. 82 00:04:43,741 --> 00:04:46,401 So it's, like, sort of coming down a little bit, 83 00:04:46,501 --> 00:04:49,281 you know, coming down off the high 84 00:04:49,381 --> 00:04:51,681 of the 80. 85 00:04:51,781 --> 00:04:53,881 And... 86 00:04:53,981 --> 00:04:55,641 you know, it's those, like... 87 00:04:55,741 --> 00:04:57,641 it's those times where you kind of come down 88 00:04:57,741 --> 00:05:00,481 where you need to sort of be able to regroup 89 00:05:00,581 --> 00:05:03,521 and refocus and think about, 90 00:05:03,621 --> 00:05:05,401 all right, what's next to move forward? 91 00:05:08,541 --> 00:05:11,241 Like, celebrate, absolutely, but just also just know, like, 92 00:05:11,341 --> 00:05:12,961 I'm eating one fish a day. 93 00:05:13,061 --> 00:05:17,841 {\an8}So it's not going to sustain me much longer. 94 00:05:17,941 --> 00:05:21,121 {\an8}And so just not getting wrapped up in that too much 95 00:05:21,221 --> 00:05:23,401 {\an8}and just focusing on... 96 00:05:23,501 --> 00:05:25,801 you know, the next thing. 97 00:05:27,981 --> 00:05:30,801 You know, not quit because I'm tired. 98 00:05:34,261 --> 00:05:35,281 Like, none of it's... 99 00:05:37,821 --> 00:05:41,281 Individually, none of it's really difficult, but... 100 00:05:43,341 --> 00:05:45,001 The cumulative, it's... 101 00:05:46,501 --> 00:05:48,601 It builds up. It's tough. 102 00:06:13,341 --> 00:06:16,321 {\an8}I want to show you something. 103 00:06:16,421 --> 00:06:18,561 {\an8}I don't know if you can see 104 00:06:18,661 --> 00:06:20,981 {\an8}this mist cloud. 105 00:06:23,181 --> 00:06:25,181 There are mountains. 106 00:06:27,301 --> 00:06:29,661 And they have some sun. 107 00:06:33,381 --> 00:06:36,661 And that's pretty much it. 108 00:06:39,021 --> 00:06:41,881 I won't see sun again... 109 00:06:41,981 --> 00:06:43,981 {\an8}as long as I'm here. 110 00:06:46,141 --> 00:06:47,841 {\an8}Quite soon, there will be 111 00:06:47,941 --> 00:06:49,981 {\an8}complete darkness all the time. 112 00:06:52,741 --> 00:06:54,741 {\an8}Quite sad moment again. 113 00:06:59,701 --> 00:07:02,681 Okay, I'm going to check snares. 114 00:07:09,021 --> 00:07:11,641 I know that days 115 00:07:11,741 --> 00:07:14,321 where I will be still able to see sun 116 00:07:14,421 --> 00:07:17,401 are very, very few now. 117 00:07:23,621 --> 00:07:27,081 It's getting worse and worse here down. 118 00:07:27,181 --> 00:07:31,121 In couple of days, sun won't rise anymore. 119 00:07:31,221 --> 00:07:34,601 So I'm very close to the polar night. 120 00:07:34,701 --> 00:07:36,881 I see a lot of new footprints. 121 00:07:38,701 --> 00:07:40,921 I was preparing before, but to be honest, 122 00:07:41,021 --> 00:07:43,521 I don't know how it will feel to be without sun 123 00:07:43,621 --> 00:07:46,161 for I don't know how long. 124 00:07:52,101 --> 00:07:56,241 I imagine that to be in complete darkness, 125 00:07:56,341 --> 00:07:58,201 that might be very depressing. 126 00:07:58,301 --> 00:08:00,321 Damn. 127 00:08:00,421 --> 00:08:03,721 It was the fox walking here. 128 00:08:03,821 --> 00:08:06,321 Crazy. 129 00:08:06,421 --> 00:08:09,121 So I really hope 130 00:08:09,221 --> 00:08:12,001 I will have enough of activities 131 00:08:12,101 --> 00:08:14,361 in my shelter to keep my mind busy 132 00:08:14,461 --> 00:08:18,081 and not to go in this depressive mode. 133 00:08:18,181 --> 00:08:19,281 Wait. 134 00:08:20,701 --> 00:08:22,701 Where is the snare? 135 00:08:26,101 --> 00:08:28,341 Where is this [bleep]? 136 00:08:31,901 --> 00:08:34,621 This animal managed to get away with a snare. 137 00:08:37,141 --> 00:08:39,141 How is this possible? 138 00:08:50,581 --> 00:08:52,921 [bleep] damn it. 139 00:08:53,021 --> 00:08:55,281 I could have the predator, 140 00:08:55,381 --> 00:08:57,961 probably the fox. 141 00:08:58,061 --> 00:09:00,121 But... 142 00:09:00,221 --> 00:09:02,561 obviously it got snared 143 00:09:02,661 --> 00:09:04,601 and managed to get away. 144 00:09:08,181 --> 00:09:11,321 There's a sign of the wire. The wire was with it. 145 00:09:16,541 --> 00:09:18,841 Damn it. 146 00:09:18,941 --> 00:09:22,201 I could have a fox now... 147 00:09:22,301 --> 00:09:24,881 if I would tie it more strong. 148 00:09:29,781 --> 00:09:32,561 But now I don't see the signs of wire anymore. 149 00:09:39,181 --> 00:09:41,081 Go back... 150 00:09:41,181 --> 00:09:45,601 because my toes--they feel cold. 151 00:09:48,741 --> 00:09:50,401 This is probably the coldest day 152 00:09:50,501 --> 00:09:52,321 I have ever had, 153 00:09:52,421 --> 00:09:56,081 and my toe feels numb, 154 00:09:56,181 --> 00:09:58,441 which is a bad sign. 155 00:09:58,541 --> 00:10:00,361 [bleep]. 156 00:10:00,461 --> 00:10:04,041 My toes are numb. 157 00:10:04,141 --> 00:10:06,361 I keep on moving them, 158 00:10:06,461 --> 00:10:10,961 but I can still feel a bit of numbness. 159 00:10:11,061 --> 00:10:14,881 I'm starting to get a bit afraid to get frostnip. 160 00:10:14,981 --> 00:10:17,041 Frostnip is actually the first stage 161 00:10:17,141 --> 00:10:19,281 towards frostbite. 162 00:10:19,381 --> 00:10:22,241 If it goes in very severe condition, 163 00:10:22,341 --> 00:10:25,081 {\an8}you can actually lose toes. 164 00:10:25,181 --> 00:10:27,401 {\an8}This will lead to tap-out in the end. 165 00:10:30,021 --> 00:10:32,321 Really, I think 166 00:10:32,421 --> 00:10:35,921 that in survival aspect now, 167 00:10:36,021 --> 00:10:40,201 it's the best to stay warm, mostly in the shelter, 168 00:10:40,301 --> 00:10:44,481 and mentally, I mean, staying sane... 169 00:10:44,581 --> 00:10:46,241 which is sad. 170 00:10:48,381 --> 00:10:50,761 It's, for me, a bit difficult to comprehend 171 00:10:50,861 --> 00:10:53,321 that this is really happening. 172 00:10:53,421 --> 00:10:56,481 I don't know how this will impact me mentally. 173 00:10:56,581 --> 00:10:59,441 I don't like this strategy. 174 00:10:59,541 --> 00:11:01,721 I would like to be outside 175 00:11:01,821 --> 00:11:04,201 and do, like, tons of different things. 176 00:11:07,141 --> 00:11:10,921 But maybe today's day was a nice warning 177 00:11:11,021 --> 00:11:13,881 that especially with this toe now... 178 00:11:13,981 --> 00:11:17,561 that, Ziga, mm, if you want to stay long... 179 00:11:19,901 --> 00:11:23,621 You have to take care of yourself. 180 00:11:46,061 --> 00:11:47,161 {\an8}What's up, guys? 181 00:11:47,261 --> 00:11:48,481 {\an8}Just got back from the trapline. 182 00:11:48,581 --> 00:11:50,581 {\an8}It is damn cold. 183 00:11:52,781 --> 00:11:54,161 Oh, my hands are going to freeze off. 184 00:11:54,261 --> 00:11:57,561 We got one bunny, but, like, the bunnies I've been getting, 185 00:11:57,661 --> 00:12:00,321 I've had to just take the snare off the tree, 186 00:12:00,421 --> 00:12:03,041 because my hands are too cold to get it off its neck. 187 00:12:03,141 --> 00:12:05,441 Sometimes you have to fight with it a bit. 188 00:12:05,541 --> 00:12:09,081 And, yeah, so it was a struggle this morning. 189 00:12:09,181 --> 00:12:10,500 We're burning through the firewood like crazy, 190 00:12:10,501 --> 00:12:13,961 so I have to, like... 191 00:12:14,061 --> 00:12:17,161 I have to get two trees done today no matter what. 192 00:12:17,261 --> 00:12:19,981 And that's just gonna be rinse and repeat, rinse and repeat. 193 00:12:33,661 --> 00:12:36,081 The cold temperatures are here to stay now, 194 00:12:36,181 --> 00:12:38,721 and this is unbearable almost. 195 00:12:41,861 --> 00:12:44,921 I have to warm up my toes after this. 196 00:12:45,021 --> 00:12:47,441 I can get the fire going quite easy, 197 00:12:47,541 --> 00:12:49,881 but the mud's starting to crack. 198 00:12:49,981 --> 00:12:52,081 I'm starting to see pinholes everywhere. 199 00:12:52,181 --> 00:12:54,441 I feel a breeze coming through. 200 00:12:57,781 --> 00:13:01,961 Took me a couple hours to do two trees. 201 00:13:02,061 --> 00:13:04,241 I have an issue with my fireplace. 202 00:13:06,181 --> 00:13:08,201 Put a big hole right here. 203 00:13:08,301 --> 00:13:10,301 I'm going to stack... 204 00:13:12,901 --> 00:13:16,261 These big timbers like so. 205 00:13:19,981 --> 00:13:22,841 I'm just going to pack snow and ice in there. 206 00:13:22,941 --> 00:13:25,201 So my plan is, I'll boil water, 207 00:13:25,301 --> 00:13:28,401 put snow in my pot to make a slush pit, 208 00:13:28,501 --> 00:13:31,161 and then I'm going to patch all my holes with ice. 209 00:13:31,261 --> 00:13:34,161 So this will be the glue. 210 00:13:34,261 --> 00:13:36,081 It'll close all the holes, 211 00:13:36,181 --> 00:13:39,361 and I'm just going to make this thing an icebox. 212 00:13:39,461 --> 00:13:42,081 So the bricks and mortar--it's... 213 00:13:42,181 --> 00:13:44,801 snow and timbers. 214 00:13:47,141 --> 00:13:50,121 It is any day now that somebody can win. 215 00:13:50,221 --> 00:13:51,681 It could be tomorrow, the next day, 216 00:13:51,781 --> 00:13:53,681 or it could be a month from now. 217 00:13:53,781 --> 00:13:56,081 Like, there might be five people left, 218 00:13:56,181 --> 00:13:59,121 so I got to prepare. 219 00:13:59,221 --> 00:14:01,241 No rest for the wicked. 220 00:14:06,221 --> 00:14:08,401 Once that freezes... 221 00:14:11,341 --> 00:14:13,601 She ain't going nowheres. 222 00:14:13,701 --> 00:14:15,401 No more hole. 223 00:14:17,741 --> 00:14:19,761 I put a lot into this. 224 00:14:19,861 --> 00:14:21,921 My body's pretty beat up. 225 00:14:22,021 --> 00:14:24,201 The feeling's not the same anymore 226 00:14:24,301 --> 00:14:27,321 in my feet or hands. 227 00:14:27,421 --> 00:14:30,521 Don't want to risk frostbite or anything, so I came inside. 228 00:14:32,981 --> 00:14:34,801 Try to get these feet warm. 229 00:14:36,661 --> 00:14:38,161 It's going to get colder. 230 00:14:38,261 --> 00:14:40,041 I'm going to bitch and complain. 231 00:14:41,861 --> 00:14:43,801 Ripping the heat in here now. 232 00:14:43,901 --> 00:14:45,281 It's working. 233 00:14:45,381 --> 00:14:47,321 But I don't want to get it too warm 234 00:14:47,421 --> 00:14:50,161 and melt all the ice chunks. 235 00:14:50,261 --> 00:14:52,041 But guess what. 236 00:14:52,141 --> 00:14:54,141 We're not quitting yet. 237 00:15:00,421 --> 00:15:03,841 It's, like, I hate the wind. Now I hate the cold. 238 00:15:03,941 --> 00:15:06,721 Like, what does this guy even want? 239 00:15:08,101 --> 00:15:09,761 I want to go home. That's what I want. 240 00:15:11,661 --> 00:15:14,001 This has been an adventure, a hard one, mentally, 241 00:15:14,101 --> 00:15:15,801 physically, and emotionally, 242 00:15:15,901 --> 00:15:18,881 and I'm about ready for it to be done. 243 00:15:21,061 --> 00:15:25,401 But only if it's for a W. 244 00:16:01,781 --> 00:16:03,781 {\an8}Okay. 245 00:16:05,261 --> 00:16:07,681 So down there... 246 00:16:07,781 --> 00:16:09,561 bed. 247 00:16:09,661 --> 00:16:12,201 And then I rotate up, a little bit on top, 248 00:16:12,301 --> 00:16:14,121 and it's just ice. 249 00:16:14,221 --> 00:16:18,321 Ice, ice, ice. 250 00:16:18,421 --> 00:16:20,241 There's a little of what my shelter looks like. 251 00:16:20,341 --> 00:16:22,121 And from the inside... 252 00:16:22,221 --> 00:16:25,461 just completely iced up. 253 00:16:28,181 --> 00:16:32,841 Need more heat fire. 254 00:16:35,461 --> 00:16:37,681 It's like, no, you need to think 255 00:16:37,781 --> 00:16:40,121 of the weather window now. 256 00:16:40,221 --> 00:16:42,681 So I'm going to the gillnet now 257 00:16:42,781 --> 00:16:44,521 whilst there's still light outside 258 00:16:44,621 --> 00:16:46,621 and do all that sort of stuff, so... 259 00:16:49,021 --> 00:16:51,761 My home that I love is changing a little bit now 260 00:16:51,861 --> 00:16:53,921 with the relationship, and it's doing its job. 261 00:16:54,021 --> 00:16:55,961 As soon as you're up out of the bag, you know, 262 00:16:56,061 --> 00:16:58,881 there's, like, a race to go back into the sleeping bag. 263 00:16:58,981 --> 00:17:01,201 I can't help but think, like, at this stage, 264 00:17:01,301 --> 00:17:03,161 we're getting to the end. 265 00:17:03,261 --> 00:17:06,001 And as each day goes by, 266 00:17:06,101 --> 00:17:08,521 like, the possibility of actually winning this, 267 00:17:08,621 --> 00:17:11,161 yeah, starts to become more and more real. 268 00:17:13,661 --> 00:17:15,761 And it's hard, because looking historically 269 00:17:15,861 --> 00:17:17,241 at the other seasons, 270 00:17:17,341 --> 00:17:19,001 I could have actually won by now. 271 00:17:19,101 --> 00:17:21,281 {\an8}And, yeah, you start to fantasise about that 272 00:17:21,381 --> 00:17:23,361 {\an8}and think about, like, what does that mean? 273 00:17:23,461 --> 00:17:26,361 {\an8}And the idea of having an Australian to come 274 00:17:26,461 --> 00:17:30,361 to the Arctic and to win the world championship 275 00:17:30,461 --> 00:17:33,121 is just-- like, what a statement. 276 00:17:36,221 --> 00:17:37,681 That gets me really excited and gives me 277 00:17:37,781 --> 00:17:39,361 a lot of motivation to continue. 278 00:17:39,461 --> 00:17:42,161 And every day that ticks by... 279 00:17:44,501 --> 00:17:46,681 That possibility becomes more and more real. 280 00:17:46,781 --> 00:17:50,161 But, also, I try not to get too carried away with it, 281 00:17:50,261 --> 00:17:52,721 because there's still a lot of work to be done 282 00:17:52,821 --> 00:17:55,281 and it really can still be a really long season. 283 00:17:55,381 --> 00:17:57,161 So it's exciting, 284 00:17:57,261 --> 00:17:59,881 but not getting too carried away with it. 285 00:18:01,461 --> 00:18:03,321 Oh, we got a fish. 286 00:18:03,421 --> 00:18:05,421 Let's see if we can get her out. 287 00:18:07,701 --> 00:18:11,441 Whoa! 288 00:18:11,541 --> 00:18:13,441 That is huge. 289 00:18:13,541 --> 00:18:16,321 Holy crap. 290 00:18:19,421 --> 00:18:23,201 {\an8}Look at the size of this guy. 291 00:18:23,301 --> 00:18:25,481 {\an8}That is the biggest fish I've ever caught. 292 00:18:27,141 --> 00:18:29,961 Huge pike. 293 00:18:30,061 --> 00:18:32,061 Big, full belly. 294 00:18:34,101 --> 00:18:36,041 It's already frozen. 295 00:18:36,141 --> 00:18:38,281 How am I going to do this? 296 00:18:40,221 --> 00:18:42,321 I'm going to break a hole again. 297 00:18:42,421 --> 00:18:46,121 I definitely have food up to 91. 298 00:18:46,221 --> 00:18:49,401 Jeez, that is so cold. 299 00:18:50,821 --> 00:18:52,881 But it's so much different 300 00:18:52,981 --> 00:18:55,721 when you don't have, like, a sanctuary, 301 00:18:55,821 --> 00:18:58,681 a place to retreat to when it's really cold 302 00:18:58,781 --> 00:19:01,401 and you're just out in the elements. 303 00:19:05,341 --> 00:19:08,161 Trying to scale a fish when the fish is freezing 304 00:19:08,261 --> 00:19:10,441 and trying to manage your hands... 305 00:19:12,061 --> 00:19:15,841 Just makes things really difficult. 306 00:19:15,941 --> 00:19:18,721 Yes, we got roe. 307 00:19:18,821 --> 00:19:22,121 {\an8}Oh, hard on the hands. 308 00:19:22,221 --> 00:19:23,681 {\an8}Hard on the hands. 309 00:19:26,741 --> 00:19:28,761 {\an8}She's done. 310 00:19:28,861 --> 00:19:30,721 {\an8}I just got to get back and warm up. 311 00:19:36,061 --> 00:19:39,241 {\an8}You know, I was thinking about this before. 312 00:19:39,341 --> 00:19:41,321 {\an8}Out of a 24-hour period, 313 00:19:41,421 --> 00:19:44,801 I spend about 16 hours of that 314 00:19:44,901 --> 00:19:48,601 lying down in my sleeping bag, pretty much warm. 315 00:19:48,701 --> 00:19:53,361 So that leaves 8 hours I'm vertical. 316 00:19:53,461 --> 00:19:57,201 My moving around is getting water, 317 00:19:57,301 --> 00:20:01,201 getting firewood at the point, putting food in my pot. 318 00:20:01,301 --> 00:20:05,321 I'm eating three full pots a day, 319 00:20:05,421 --> 00:20:07,321 along with the liquid, 320 00:20:07,421 --> 00:20:09,361 so I'm hydrated as well. 321 00:20:11,941 --> 00:20:14,481 Yet at the end of the day... 322 00:20:15,861 --> 00:20:17,721 I'm exhausted. 323 00:20:19,421 --> 00:20:21,161 Now, I'm not a doctor... 324 00:20:23,301 --> 00:20:26,161 But that doesn't add up. 325 00:20:26,261 --> 00:20:30,041 Pay attention to that, because that can become... 326 00:20:31,461 --> 00:20:33,321 A big red flag. 327 00:20:34,741 --> 00:20:36,321 And, like, if you collapse out here, 328 00:20:36,421 --> 00:20:38,161 particularly when it's cold-- 329 00:20:38,261 --> 00:20:40,081 even when it's not super cold-- if you collapse out here... 330 00:20:44,301 --> 00:20:45,841 It can be fatal. 331 00:21:09,261 --> 00:21:10,641 {\an8}Hello, everybody. 332 00:21:10,741 --> 00:21:14,241 {\an8}We will have an interview with Mr. Moose. 333 00:21:14,341 --> 00:21:17,161 So let's see how this guy is doing here. 334 00:21:17,261 --> 00:21:19,001 Hello, Mr. Moose. 335 00:21:20,541 --> 00:21:24,201 How are you dealing with all this cold up here? 336 00:21:24,301 --> 00:21:27,041 Oh, come on, it's just the beginning of December. 337 00:21:27,141 --> 00:21:29,801 Wait for January. 338 00:21:29,901 --> 00:21:31,121 "January"? 339 00:21:31,221 --> 00:21:33,661 Oh, yeah, then it's cold. 340 00:21:41,021 --> 00:21:42,681 For me, it's totally fine. 341 00:21:42,781 --> 00:21:45,361 This is why I have the fur, you know, to protect me 342 00:21:45,461 --> 00:21:47,881 from all this cold weather. 343 00:21:47,981 --> 00:21:49,961 Okay. 344 00:21:50,061 --> 00:21:51,721 Thank you, Mr. Moose. 345 00:21:54,021 --> 00:21:56,021 Stupid moose. 346 00:21:59,821 --> 00:22:01,961 With this long night, 347 00:22:02,061 --> 00:22:05,921 I think I entered the third phase of survival. 348 00:22:07,141 --> 00:22:08,721 Look at this guy. 349 00:22:09,941 --> 00:22:12,721 This bird is just, like, a few centimetres 350 00:22:12,821 --> 00:22:14,881 from my finger... 351 00:22:14,981 --> 00:22:17,561 feeding on my fat. 352 00:22:17,661 --> 00:22:20,021 I think you had enough, buddy. 353 00:22:28,141 --> 00:22:30,961 Okay, guys, I will just do everything 354 00:22:31,061 --> 00:22:35,001 that is needed outside and go back to the shelter. 355 00:22:35,101 --> 00:22:37,081 Just survive... 356 00:22:37,181 --> 00:22:39,601 a couple of more days 357 00:22:39,701 --> 00:22:41,281 or weeks, hopefully. 358 00:22:41,381 --> 00:22:44,281 Damn. 359 00:22:44,381 --> 00:22:48,881 After day 40 and snow and ice, things calmed down a bit, 360 00:22:48,981 --> 00:22:52,081 but still there was a lot of things to do. 361 00:22:52,181 --> 00:22:55,041 But now the third phase of survival 362 00:22:55,141 --> 00:22:58,561 is pretty much staying alive... 363 00:22:58,661 --> 00:23:01,601 especially with this frostnip. 364 00:23:01,701 --> 00:23:04,841 And, also, I have a lot of time to think, 365 00:23:04,941 --> 00:23:08,241 and I'm thinking a lot about my life, 366 00:23:08,341 --> 00:23:11,801 about who I am, and what is important for me. 367 00:23:11,901 --> 00:23:14,801 And I think that this phase 368 00:23:14,901 --> 00:23:16,601 is actually the most important one 369 00:23:16,701 --> 00:23:19,361 for my personal growth. 370 00:23:31,141 --> 00:23:33,521 So this is a dog. 371 00:23:33,621 --> 00:23:35,641 I mean, it won't look like this one. 372 00:23:35,741 --> 00:23:37,281 This is the first one 373 00:23:37,381 --> 00:23:40,281 that I tried to make. 374 00:23:40,381 --> 00:23:42,381 Um... 375 00:23:43,621 --> 00:23:47,761 It's more like prototype. 376 00:23:47,861 --> 00:23:49,881 And now I know how to make it, 377 00:23:49,981 --> 00:23:52,601 and, of course, I'll just make another one. 378 00:23:52,701 --> 00:23:55,361 So... 379 00:23:55,461 --> 00:23:57,481 it's going to be for my son. 380 00:24:02,141 --> 00:24:06,481 I'm glad I entered this third phase relatively late, 381 00:24:06,581 --> 00:24:09,481 because otherwise I would get insane. 382 00:24:09,581 --> 00:24:12,041 I was thinking, oh, I don't want to be a guy like that, 383 00:24:12,141 --> 00:24:14,761 you know, staying in the shelter, but... 384 00:24:14,861 --> 00:24:18,561 pretty much almost everybody did it in the end. 385 00:24:18,661 --> 00:24:21,281 {\an8}I know that this guy in Patagonia, 386 00:24:21,381 --> 00:24:25,641 {\an8}he was carving a lot in the shelter. 387 00:24:25,741 --> 00:24:29,121 {\an8}Sam and Juan Pablo--they were pretty much in the shelter 388 00:24:29,221 --> 00:24:31,681 {\an8}as much as possible. 389 00:24:31,781 --> 00:24:35,281 {\an8}That's a bit more easy to start now. 390 00:24:37,021 --> 00:24:41,081 It's really hard keeping my mind occupied. 391 00:24:41,181 --> 00:24:44,521 If I stop now, I can go back, have my job, 392 00:24:44,621 --> 00:24:47,321 and be back with my family. 393 00:24:47,421 --> 00:24:50,001 If I decide not to stop no matter what, 394 00:24:50,101 --> 00:24:51,641 this can easily go 395 00:24:51,741 --> 00:24:55,881 over day 120 and more. 396 00:24:55,981 --> 00:24:59,761 Normally, these things last around 80 days, 397 00:24:59,861 --> 00:25:03,041 but maybe there is another guy who says, 398 00:25:03,141 --> 00:25:05,001 no matter what, I'm not giving up. 399 00:25:08,101 --> 00:25:11,801 If I tap out now, I would be still proud of myself. 400 00:25:11,901 --> 00:25:15,001 If I continue, I would be missing Bor 401 00:25:15,101 --> 00:25:19,281 {\an8}for a very long time and missing important milestones. 402 00:25:19,381 --> 00:25:21,961 {\an8}So, yeah, I'm risking a lot. 403 00:25:23,821 --> 00:25:24,921 Okay. 404 00:25:26,981 --> 00:25:29,921 A bit better version. 405 00:25:30,021 --> 00:25:32,641 Won't be perfect, but... 406 00:25:32,741 --> 00:25:35,761 it might look a bit more like a dog 407 00:25:35,861 --> 00:25:37,861 than the previous one... 408 00:25:42,741 --> 00:25:44,741 Hopefully. 409 00:25:46,581 --> 00:25:50,881 Okay, I'm ready to go to sleep now. 410 00:26:03,541 --> 00:26:05,721 I've had quite bad dreams 411 00:26:05,821 --> 00:26:07,921 getting out of this competition 412 00:26:08,021 --> 00:26:11,481 because of this toe numbness. 413 00:26:11,581 --> 00:26:14,441 Can be frostbite or frostnip. 414 00:26:16,101 --> 00:26:18,241 But still, because of the numbness, 415 00:26:18,341 --> 00:26:20,161 I believe it's frostnip. 416 00:26:21,821 --> 00:26:24,321 Damn it. 417 00:26:24,421 --> 00:26:27,921 {\an8}The problem is that these things usually just get worse. 418 00:26:30,781 --> 00:26:34,881 {\an8}So I have to be extremely careful what I'm doing. 419 00:26:36,341 --> 00:26:38,881 Otherwise, I am [bleep]. 420 00:26:52,581 --> 00:26:54,581 {\an8}What's up, guys? 421 00:26:56,101 --> 00:26:57,841 {\an8}It's amazing how soft we get 422 00:26:57,941 --> 00:27:00,121 {\an8}because of, like, our accessibility 423 00:27:00,221 --> 00:27:03,801 {\an8}to food and stuff. 424 00:27:03,901 --> 00:27:05,681 When you don't have it, man, you want it, 425 00:27:05,781 --> 00:27:07,441 and you'll eat every-- 426 00:27:07,541 --> 00:27:12,201 I'm eating ribs, back, bone... 427 00:27:12,301 --> 00:27:14,961 eating the whole bunny now. 428 00:27:15,061 --> 00:27:18,061 I need the nutrients, man. I need to win this. 429 00:27:20,821 --> 00:27:23,201 If you would gave me this 90 days ago and said drink up, 430 00:27:23,301 --> 00:27:25,421 I'd have told you to go eff yourself. 431 00:27:29,821 --> 00:27:31,881 Damn, man. 432 00:27:31,981 --> 00:27:34,001 My hands-- 433 00:27:34,101 --> 00:27:38,361 there's a cut or burn on each and every finger. 434 00:27:38,461 --> 00:27:40,121 I've put my body on the line. 435 00:27:40,221 --> 00:27:43,161 I've ran this meat wagon damn near to the ground. 436 00:27:43,261 --> 00:27:46,221 I've only eaten bunnies for about 50 days. 437 00:27:48,461 --> 00:27:53,361 And we're ready to pack it in, but... 438 00:27:53,461 --> 00:27:55,781 only for the win, man. 439 00:27:57,621 --> 00:27:59,881 Throw the jacket on, 440 00:27:59,981 --> 00:28:03,201 get in my sleeping bag, warm up. 441 00:28:06,221 --> 00:28:08,601 I think I'm hard on myself when I don't win. 442 00:28:08,701 --> 00:28:13,441 And in a game like this with such high stakes, 443 00:28:13,541 --> 00:28:15,961 the pressure I put on myself might have affected me 444 00:28:16,061 --> 00:28:18,361 in the early days big-time. 445 00:28:20,301 --> 00:28:22,521 Oh, [bleep]. 446 00:28:22,621 --> 00:28:26,001 This morning my zipper broke on my sleeping bag, 447 00:28:26,101 --> 00:28:30,601 and my boot fell off the... 448 00:28:30,701 --> 00:28:32,281 off the woodpile 449 00:28:32,381 --> 00:28:35,001 into my water dish-- my boot liner. 450 00:28:35,101 --> 00:28:37,521 So it is... 451 00:28:37,621 --> 00:28:40,321 a block of ice. 452 00:28:40,421 --> 00:28:42,841 Out here in the darkness, 453 00:28:42,941 --> 00:28:45,761 I can't escape from my mind. 454 00:28:45,861 --> 00:28:47,361 The rushing with the shelter-- 455 00:28:47,461 --> 00:28:50,321 I didn't step back and look at the design. 456 00:28:50,421 --> 00:28:53,641 With the moose, I might have rushed the shot. 457 00:28:53,741 --> 00:28:55,401 There's so many things I could have done 458 00:28:55,501 --> 00:28:57,881 to give myself a better chance. 459 00:28:57,981 --> 00:29:01,721 Oh, man, my feet are numb. 460 00:29:04,901 --> 00:29:06,801 But we're going to battle. 461 00:29:09,941 --> 00:29:12,561 I believe David Booth is left, 462 00:29:12,661 --> 00:29:14,981 and he said he only wants to make it till 84. 463 00:29:17,941 --> 00:29:21,161 So if he makes it to 84 and I make it to 85, 464 00:29:21,261 --> 00:29:23,261 I'm the winner. 465 00:29:25,261 --> 00:29:27,261 {\an8}Oh, I hope he quits. 466 00:29:29,021 --> 00:29:31,961 I'm in trouble. 467 00:29:32,061 --> 00:29:33,721 My zipper broke on my sleeping bag. 468 00:29:33,821 --> 00:29:36,961 Like, I'm screwed. 469 00:29:37,061 --> 00:29:38,441 I might not-- 470 00:29:38,541 --> 00:29:40,961 I need that boot to... 471 00:29:41,061 --> 00:29:44,801 dry out so I can even cut firewood. 472 00:29:44,901 --> 00:29:46,801 Everything's breaking. 473 00:29:46,901 --> 00:29:49,681 We're trying not to break, though, but... 474 00:29:49,781 --> 00:29:51,401 she's getting hard. 475 00:29:53,901 --> 00:29:56,361 Can't complain about it. 476 00:29:56,461 --> 00:29:58,161 Nobody's here to complain to. 477 00:29:59,821 --> 00:30:01,721 {\an8}And it's like, I'm not out, 478 00:30:01,821 --> 00:30:05,361 {\an8}so it's not like I'm, like, crying because I'm done. 479 00:30:05,461 --> 00:30:09,321 {\an8}But it's like, come on, why are you fighting me? 480 00:30:09,421 --> 00:30:10,961 {\an8}You're so close. 481 00:30:11,061 --> 00:30:13,441 {\an8}Like, I can see the finish line, man. 482 00:30:16,461 --> 00:30:18,961 {\an8}And then everything starts collapsing. 483 00:30:20,901 --> 00:30:22,641 {\an8}It's like, I got food. 484 00:30:22,741 --> 00:30:25,641 {\an8}I got water. I got a shelter. 485 00:30:25,741 --> 00:30:28,601 {\an8}I just need my equipment to hold up. 486 00:30:28,701 --> 00:30:30,441 {\an8}I'll do the work. 487 00:30:31,861 --> 00:30:34,361 {\an8}What I did to deserve this? 488 00:30:34,461 --> 00:30:37,681 {\an8}Why are you testing me so hard? 489 00:30:37,781 --> 00:30:39,481 {\an8}Oh, damn. 490 00:30:41,461 --> 00:30:44,121 {\an8}I'm going to [bleep] show you, though. 491 00:30:44,221 --> 00:30:46,881 I didn't do all this for so long 492 00:30:46,981 --> 00:30:50,121 to go home without a win. 493 00:30:50,221 --> 00:30:52,521 Like, people will say, oh, it's not that big of a deal. 494 00:30:52,621 --> 00:30:54,161 It's just a TV show. 495 00:30:54,261 --> 00:30:56,681 You know, it's just 500 grand. 496 00:30:56,781 --> 00:30:58,841 It's not like-- Who cares? Life goes on. 497 00:30:58,941 --> 00:31:01,881 It's like, yeah, for you. 498 00:31:04,301 --> 00:31:06,921 This is--I want this. 499 00:31:07,021 --> 00:31:08,441 This is a goal of mine. 500 00:31:08,541 --> 00:31:10,541 This is something I want to achieve. 501 00:31:15,101 --> 00:31:17,641 It's what I do. 502 00:31:17,741 --> 00:31:20,241 I create the problem, 503 00:31:20,341 --> 00:31:22,721 and then I somehow usually try to fix it. 504 00:31:43,461 --> 00:31:45,641 To 12 weeks. 505 00:31:45,741 --> 00:31:48,121 {\an8}Cheers, everyone. 506 00:31:48,221 --> 00:31:51,121 {\an8}And cheers, whoever's still out here. 507 00:31:51,221 --> 00:31:53,221 {\an8}Solid effort. 508 00:31:55,421 --> 00:31:57,041 {\an8}Ahh. 509 00:31:57,141 --> 00:31:59,141 {\an8}Good work. 510 00:32:01,381 --> 00:32:03,921 Hope you guys are having fun... 511 00:32:04,021 --> 00:32:05,801 and enjoying it... 512 00:32:05,901 --> 00:32:08,001 soaking it in. 513 00:32:08,101 --> 00:32:10,201 Not long now. 514 00:32:10,301 --> 00:32:12,301 Definitely closing stages. 515 00:32:14,021 --> 00:32:16,001 Could be, yeah... 516 00:32:16,101 --> 00:32:18,101 final episode. 517 00:32:20,101 --> 00:32:22,961 Hope you've enjoyed this season 518 00:32:23,061 --> 00:32:25,601 of "Alone" U.S., 519 00:32:25,701 --> 00:32:30,181 season 13, Arctic World Championships. 520 00:32:32,181 --> 00:32:34,341 It's been quite a show. 521 00:32:36,181 --> 00:32:38,161 I'm thinking it might be nice 522 00:32:38,261 --> 00:32:43,121 to actually go for a walk on Lake Learning. 523 00:32:43,221 --> 00:32:46,161 Might be a good way to celebrate 12 weeks, I think. 524 00:32:53,541 --> 00:32:57,161 It's been a really long time out here, 525 00:32:57,261 --> 00:33:01,001 and I was hopeful that the person I was at the start 526 00:33:01,101 --> 00:33:05,201 compared to who I would grow into at the end of this 527 00:33:05,301 --> 00:33:07,281 would be something that would continue 528 00:33:07,381 --> 00:33:09,121 through the rest of my life. 529 00:33:09,221 --> 00:33:12,281 This lake is so special. 530 00:33:12,381 --> 00:33:16,201 I want to go out and greet her and walk on her surface 531 00:33:16,301 --> 00:33:18,681 and just... 532 00:33:18,781 --> 00:33:20,121 take it all in. 533 00:33:21,861 --> 00:33:23,721 Now that I've been out here, 534 00:33:23,821 --> 00:33:26,161 I'll be forever changed for the better 535 00:33:26,261 --> 00:33:28,921 because of this experience. 536 00:33:29,021 --> 00:33:32,201 I've received exactly what I want and more. 537 00:33:32,301 --> 00:33:34,041 Magical. 538 00:33:53,341 --> 00:33:55,321 Through my whole entire journey, 539 00:33:55,421 --> 00:33:58,361 it's never crossed my mind to tap out. 540 00:33:58,461 --> 00:34:02,241 But just the everyday effort of getting up, 541 00:34:02,341 --> 00:34:06,241 walking around, eating, getting water-- 542 00:34:06,341 --> 00:34:08,561 I'm doing very minimal physical work, 543 00:34:08,661 --> 00:34:13,121 and I'm eating quite a lot, yet I'm absolutely exhausted. 544 00:34:13,221 --> 00:34:16,241 I don't need more fish. 545 00:34:16,341 --> 00:34:18,441 I don't need more snowshoe hare. 546 00:34:18,541 --> 00:34:20,921 I need other things that I can't get out here, 547 00:34:21,021 --> 00:34:24,361 and my body is starting to give me the signs that, 548 00:34:24,461 --> 00:34:27,401 hey, Nero, you're still in a safe area, 549 00:34:27,501 --> 00:34:29,841 but you're coming to the end. 550 00:34:50,221 --> 00:34:53,721 {\an8}Oof, another cold start... 551 00:34:53,821 --> 00:34:55,521 {\an8}to the day. 552 00:34:55,621 --> 00:34:58,241 {\an8}Yeah, I can still be safe within this area, this zone, 553 00:34:58,341 --> 00:35:02,521 {\an8}but that zone's slowly been shrinking over time. 554 00:35:04,141 --> 00:35:06,681 Now that I'm really close to the end, 555 00:35:06,781 --> 00:35:09,241 I know that there's a possibility 556 00:35:09,341 --> 00:35:11,801 that I could win this. 557 00:35:11,901 --> 00:35:14,281 Also there's a possibility that I could just be 558 00:35:14,381 --> 00:35:15,761 up against someone who's just-- 559 00:35:15,861 --> 00:35:17,761 they got, like, 120 days set in mind, 560 00:35:17,861 --> 00:35:20,081 and they're not going anywhere. 561 00:35:20,181 --> 00:35:23,361 I don't want to redline physically. 562 00:35:23,461 --> 00:35:25,921 I don't want to push past the limit where... 563 00:35:27,501 --> 00:35:29,761 Something breaks... 564 00:35:29,861 --> 00:35:33,681 whether that's physically, mentally, or emotionally. 565 00:35:33,781 --> 00:35:36,321 I'm not going to go that far. 566 00:35:36,421 --> 00:35:38,361 It's really important 567 00:35:38,461 --> 00:35:41,081 that I leave on my own terms. 568 00:35:42,821 --> 00:35:44,361 Hmm. 569 00:35:47,381 --> 00:35:49,881 What's kept me here for a long time now 570 00:35:49,981 --> 00:35:52,281 has been to be able to share 571 00:35:52,381 --> 00:35:54,361 my learnings from this experience 572 00:35:54,461 --> 00:35:56,041 to my son. 573 00:35:56,141 --> 00:35:58,441 And I've done that. 574 00:35:58,541 --> 00:36:00,241 I've shared it all... 575 00:36:00,341 --> 00:36:02,161 All right. 576 00:36:02,261 --> 00:36:05,401 In a beautiful, wholesome, complete way. 577 00:36:07,261 --> 00:36:09,001 And, yeah, absolutely. 578 00:36:09,101 --> 00:36:12,161 I'd love for my wife to come to the Arctic. 579 00:36:12,261 --> 00:36:16,001 But I also know, like, she just wants me to be okay, 580 00:36:16,101 --> 00:36:17,641 to follow my intuition... 581 00:36:17,741 --> 00:36:21,161 Gillnet era done. 582 00:36:21,261 --> 00:36:24,001 And me being here 583 00:36:24,101 --> 00:36:27,361 doesn't serve anyone anymore 584 00:36:27,461 --> 00:36:30,841 other than a title and winning. 585 00:36:33,461 --> 00:36:36,681 I just--I'm ready to see my family. 586 00:36:36,781 --> 00:36:39,401 Life is a communal thing, and... 587 00:36:41,261 --> 00:36:43,401 Yeah, it's meant to be spent... 588 00:36:45,501 --> 00:36:47,081 With each other. 589 00:36:49,301 --> 00:36:51,881 So happy with the whole entire journey. 590 00:36:53,501 --> 00:36:55,361 Honestly, I wouldn't change any of it. 591 00:36:56,981 --> 00:36:58,641 When you know, you know. 592 00:37:05,421 --> 00:37:07,361 Hey, this is Nero. 593 00:37:07,461 --> 00:37:09,681 I'm officially tapping out. 594 00:37:15,581 --> 00:37:18,481 It is day 85, 595 00:37:18,581 --> 00:37:22,241 and it's the first day 596 00:37:22,341 --> 00:37:25,241 of the next chapter of my life. 597 00:37:25,341 --> 00:37:27,481 I'm ready. 598 00:37:44,941 --> 00:37:47,481 Hey, hey. 599 00:37:47,581 --> 00:37:50,721 Big thing for me being out here has been... 600 00:37:50,821 --> 00:37:54,241 being guided by fulfilment rather than achievement. 601 00:37:54,341 --> 00:37:56,041 And... 602 00:37:56,141 --> 00:37:58,321 I've received so much from this land, 603 00:37:58,421 --> 00:38:02,081 so much love, guidance, and healing. 604 00:38:02,181 --> 00:38:05,801 The only thing left is a title and money, 605 00:38:05,901 --> 00:38:07,601 and I'm not motivated by either of them. 606 00:38:07,701 --> 00:38:09,601 I've still got some more food there, 607 00:38:09,701 --> 00:38:12,121 but I could just tell with my body, 608 00:38:12,221 --> 00:38:13,681 my mind, my emotions, 609 00:38:13,781 --> 00:38:16,041 like, I was starting to get towards the limit. 610 00:38:16,141 --> 00:38:17,761 I didn't want to hit that limit. 611 00:38:17,861 --> 00:38:19,801 I wanted to be able to end things positively, 612 00:38:19,901 --> 00:38:21,961 not leaving this place... 613 00:38:22,061 --> 00:38:24,761 broken or weak. 614 00:38:24,861 --> 00:38:27,201 I wanted to end it on my own terms and end it right. 615 00:38:27,301 --> 00:38:29,881 I've been as raw... 616 00:38:29,981 --> 00:38:31,641 and as open as I can, 617 00:38:31,741 --> 00:38:33,521 and I've given everything, 618 00:38:33,621 --> 00:38:36,561 and it's time to take all of the amazing lessons 619 00:38:36,661 --> 00:38:39,081 and experience that I've had from this place 620 00:38:39,181 --> 00:38:41,881 and combine it with the beautiful life 621 00:38:41,981 --> 00:38:43,841 that I have waiting for me back home. 622 00:38:43,941 --> 00:38:45,881 And... 623 00:38:45,981 --> 00:38:49,521 it's time to go, my friend, time to go. 624 00:38:52,181 --> 00:38:54,921 I feel like this is the right way 625 00:38:55,021 --> 00:38:56,521 to conclude my journey. 626 00:38:56,621 --> 00:38:59,321 It's been the perfect experience. 627 00:39:01,061 --> 00:39:03,161 And, man, I can't wait to see my family, 628 00:39:03,261 --> 00:39:05,041 make sure they're okay, 629 00:39:05,141 --> 00:39:08,241 and share with them all the incredible things 630 00:39:08,341 --> 00:39:09,561 that have happened out here 631 00:39:09,661 --> 00:39:13,601 and then just create more amazing memories 632 00:39:13,701 --> 00:39:15,961 and moments together. 633 00:39:16,061 --> 00:39:18,441 I wanted to come out here and work internally 634 00:39:18,541 --> 00:39:21,241 to become a better father for my son. 635 00:39:21,341 --> 00:39:22,961 And for me to do that, 636 00:39:23,061 --> 00:39:25,961 I really needed to reconcile my relationship with my dad, 637 00:39:26,061 --> 00:39:28,361 because that's what's connecting 638 00:39:28,461 --> 00:39:31,321 the lack of self-love, the lack of self-worth. 639 00:39:31,421 --> 00:39:33,241 Now I've come to a place 640 00:39:33,341 --> 00:39:36,001 where I have that internal self-worth 641 00:39:36,101 --> 00:39:38,041 and value and love. 642 00:39:38,141 --> 00:39:39,961 It's something that I could only have discovered 643 00:39:40,061 --> 00:39:42,161 by being out here. 644 00:39:44,141 --> 00:39:47,641 For Lucky, for my boy, it's not about him seeing 645 00:39:47,741 --> 00:39:51,121 these hard survival bushcraft skills 646 00:39:51,221 --> 00:39:54,201 and thinking him to maybe get inspired by that. 647 00:39:54,301 --> 00:39:57,601 It's about him seeing his dad walk the path 648 00:39:57,701 --> 00:39:59,681 of loving and being themselves 649 00:39:59,781 --> 00:40:02,561 that is really important to me. 650 00:40:02,661 --> 00:40:07,201 I'm really proud to represent my country up here. 651 00:40:07,301 --> 00:40:09,761 After so many years of my whole entire life 652 00:40:09,861 --> 00:40:13,241 of just trying to find who I am as a person, 653 00:40:13,341 --> 00:40:16,641 to now have that just lock into place, 654 00:40:16,741 --> 00:40:17,801 I have my identity. 655 00:40:17,901 --> 00:40:19,561 {\an8}I know who I am. 656 00:40:19,661 --> 00:40:22,401 {\an8}I am and always will be, moving forward, 657 00:40:22,501 --> 00:40:23,921 {\an8}an outdoor advocate. 658 00:40:24,021 --> 00:40:27,561 And everything I do, say, and feel 659 00:40:27,661 --> 00:40:30,881 will be with that as my guiding light. 660 00:40:53,861 --> 00:40:57,321 {\an8}I have very cold feet. 661 00:40:57,421 --> 00:41:01,201 {\an8}I want to do something about my boots. 662 00:41:01,301 --> 00:41:05,961 {\an8}My front part-- I mean, toes are still exposed. 663 00:41:06,061 --> 00:41:08,161 {\an8}So I'm not sure 664 00:41:08,261 --> 00:41:11,601 {\an8}there's any good way... 665 00:41:11,701 --> 00:41:13,401 {\an8}I mean, with what I could protect them, 666 00:41:13,501 --> 00:41:14,961 {\an8}but I was thinking about this. 667 00:41:20,581 --> 00:41:22,881 Yeah, really going to become like a caveman. 668 00:41:22,981 --> 00:41:26,721 But if it's going to help... 669 00:41:26,821 --> 00:41:30,881 I would be glad to have it on my boots. 670 00:41:35,221 --> 00:41:39,321 I'm not sure if this frostnip goes away 671 00:41:39,421 --> 00:41:42,121 that easily and that quick. 672 00:41:42,221 --> 00:41:45,401 I'm afraid not. 673 00:41:45,501 --> 00:41:48,921 I mean, it's really not much of it, 674 00:41:49,021 --> 00:41:50,881 but it's my big toe. 675 00:41:50,981 --> 00:41:53,721 Of course, I would like to keep it as it is. 676 00:41:53,821 --> 00:41:55,921 The fitting-- it's, like, perfect. 677 00:41:56,021 --> 00:41:57,761 Look at this. 678 00:41:57,861 --> 00:42:00,521 So I have to be careful 679 00:42:00,621 --> 00:42:02,801 and keep it warm. 680 00:42:02,901 --> 00:42:04,601 But... 681 00:42:04,701 --> 00:42:06,081 that's not always easy. 682 00:42:11,501 --> 00:42:15,361 Okay, insulation is done, 683 00:42:15,461 --> 00:42:18,721 and I think this will help a lot. 684 00:42:18,821 --> 00:42:21,881 Okay, I have to get water. 685 00:42:27,061 --> 00:42:29,761 This is actually one of the toughest competitions 686 00:42:29,861 --> 00:42:31,361 in the world, 687 00:42:31,461 --> 00:42:34,361 considering how many days it takes, 688 00:42:34,461 --> 00:42:38,601 how much of your knowledge it requires... 689 00:42:41,461 --> 00:42:46,321 How many mental battles you have to face. 690 00:42:46,421 --> 00:42:49,881 I'm glad I'm here, but on the other hand, 691 00:42:49,981 --> 00:42:53,321 I just can't wait for it to be finished. 692 00:42:54,661 --> 00:42:56,921 It is a hardcore thing. 693 00:43:05,821 --> 00:43:08,141 You're [bleep] kidding me. 694 00:43:24,541 --> 00:43:26,641 Broken shovel. 695 00:43:31,821 --> 00:43:34,441 It's quite a big thing in this environment. 696 00:43:35,821 --> 00:43:38,281 This hinders my game a lot. 697 00:43:38,381 --> 00:43:41,841 I cannot do any ice fishing anymore. 698 00:43:41,941 --> 00:43:44,321 I cannot get water for drinking, 699 00:43:44,421 --> 00:43:46,841 so I will have to melt snow. 700 00:43:46,941 --> 00:43:49,601 This is a very bad situation. 701 00:43:52,061 --> 00:43:54,161 That's all. 702 00:43:54,261 --> 00:43:56,261 I have to keep on going. 703 00:44:12,261 --> 00:44:15,801 Holy [bleep], I think we got a zipper, guys. 704 00:44:18,181 --> 00:44:21,201 Man, when that zipper broke, I was in tears. 705 00:44:21,301 --> 00:44:22,841 It's like, why? 706 00:44:22,941 --> 00:44:26,881 I'm so close. Why are you doing this to me? 707 00:44:26,981 --> 00:44:28,481 Let me see if I can try to show you. 708 00:44:28,581 --> 00:44:30,121 Yes. 709 00:44:30,221 --> 00:44:33,161 So this is a two-zipper system. 710 00:44:33,261 --> 00:44:37,721 This zipper was down here and just held those together, 711 00:44:37,821 --> 00:44:41,041 and then the other one that broke would zip up. 712 00:44:41,141 --> 00:44:44,961 Well, I've cut the top, took the bottom zipper off, 713 00:44:45,061 --> 00:44:49,921 flipped it now so that it just zips. 714 00:44:50,021 --> 00:44:51,841 But I have to tie this together, 715 00:44:51,941 --> 00:44:53,841 because this will just separate now. 716 00:44:53,941 --> 00:44:56,561 Now, how do we tie that together? 717 00:44:56,661 --> 00:44:58,121 Hmm. 718 00:44:59,861 --> 00:45:03,001 I'd like to use the inside of paracord 719 00:45:03,101 --> 00:45:04,721 so I can tie knots. 720 00:45:04,821 --> 00:45:08,441 Fishhook for my needle 721 00:45:08,541 --> 00:45:11,201 or if I can use snare wire would be-- 722 00:45:12,461 --> 00:45:14,721 Snare wire is thinner, right? 723 00:45:17,101 --> 00:45:20,921 Here's a little piece here. 724 00:45:21,021 --> 00:45:23,641 I expected some ups and downs, 725 00:45:23,741 --> 00:45:27,921 but I didn't expect it to go this long, 726 00:45:28,021 --> 00:45:31,121 and I didn't expect us to be this deep 727 00:45:31,221 --> 00:45:32,881 into the weather 728 00:45:32,981 --> 00:45:35,641 and get this cold and dark this quick. 729 00:45:37,701 --> 00:45:40,161 Here's my thread and needle. 730 00:45:40,261 --> 00:45:43,881 You will not defeat us, and I will not defeat me. 731 00:45:48,261 --> 00:45:51,841 I'm a seamstress now. 732 00:45:51,941 --> 00:45:53,681 I'm so close to the end. 733 00:45:53,781 --> 00:45:56,281 I need to just keep pushing my body, 734 00:45:56,381 --> 00:45:58,481 and it's going to end any day. 735 00:45:58,581 --> 00:46:00,841 If I quit, I would be failing 736 00:46:00,941 --> 00:46:03,201 the promises I made to my family-- 737 00:46:03,301 --> 00:46:06,441 my dad, my brothers, my friend Travis, 738 00:46:06,541 --> 00:46:08,721 but, most importantly, myself. 739 00:46:08,821 --> 00:46:11,201 Oh, if this works, I'll be the man. 740 00:46:11,301 --> 00:46:13,161 I've tapped in mixed martial arts fights before. 741 00:46:13,261 --> 00:46:14,561 Like, that's quitting. 742 00:46:14,661 --> 00:46:16,401 That's going to be hard. 743 00:46:18,701 --> 00:46:21,241 I wonder if I should pull it down, 744 00:46:21,341 --> 00:46:25,281 do a bunch, pull it through, then tighten it. 745 00:46:25,381 --> 00:46:27,321 I believe quitting is a habit. 746 00:46:27,421 --> 00:46:28,841 There's lots of things I've quit 747 00:46:28,941 --> 00:46:30,081 and failed in my life, 748 00:46:30,181 --> 00:46:32,321 and I had some regrets. 749 00:46:32,421 --> 00:46:35,441 If you continue to do it, you'll do it more easily. 750 00:46:35,541 --> 00:46:37,801 So I'm going to keep pushing my body 751 00:46:37,901 --> 00:46:40,321 until they either pull me or I win. 752 00:46:41,741 --> 00:46:43,401 So... 753 00:46:43,501 --> 00:46:47,481 right down here it's, like, a really hard plastic. 754 00:46:47,581 --> 00:46:51,241 So I used a fishhook, punched the holes through. 755 00:46:51,341 --> 00:46:54,201 Before I had the needle just in there and then pinched, 756 00:46:54,301 --> 00:46:56,401 and it was getting caught on threads, 757 00:46:56,501 --> 00:46:58,501 so this actually works better. 758 00:47:02,901 --> 00:47:06,401 Ah, you [bleep], I knew that was going to happen. 759 00:47:06,501 --> 00:47:09,361 Oh, it's good enough for now. I'm gonna warm up. 760 00:47:24,021 --> 00:47:26,521 {\an8}Good days here are over. 761 00:47:26,621 --> 00:47:29,801 {\an8}I'm so far away... 762 00:47:29,901 --> 00:47:32,321 {\an8}from the place I belong to... 763 00:47:34,581 --> 00:47:38,041 And from the people I belong to. 764 00:47:38,141 --> 00:47:41,361 It is really getting hard, really hard. 765 00:47:44,221 --> 00:47:46,841 I should keep on pushing. 766 00:47:52,781 --> 00:47:54,881 So let's keep on pushing. 767 00:48:00,501 --> 00:48:03,721 Somebody's obviously got a big-game animal. 768 00:48:03,821 --> 00:48:06,721 Somebody's done better than me, 769 00:48:06,821 --> 00:48:09,921 because nobody possibly pushed as hard as I can 770 00:48:10,021 --> 00:48:11,201 without the food. 771 00:48:20,541 --> 00:48:24,721 Can you imagine staying so long, risking so much, 772 00:48:24,821 --> 00:48:28,041 and go home empty-handed? 773 00:48:28,141 --> 00:48:31,121 Who knows what the reality will be? 774 00:48:31,221 --> 00:48:35,841 {\an8}I guess none of us is going home for Christmas. 775 00:48:35,941 --> 00:48:38,681 {\an8}I'm trying to fight the urge to quit, 776 00:48:38,781 --> 00:48:41,161 but I've pushed my body, my mind, 777 00:48:41,261 --> 00:48:43,441 my emotions to the absolute limit. 778 00:48:43,541 --> 00:48:45,401 I want to win this. I'm trying to win this. 779 00:48:45,501 --> 00:48:47,561 I'm doing what I can. 780 00:48:47,661 --> 00:48:49,601 Losing... 781 00:48:49,701 --> 00:48:53,041 that would be like, oh, [bleep]. 782 00:48:53,141 --> 00:48:54,921 What did I do with my life? 783 00:48:55,021 --> 00:48:58,001 I feel like at any day, it can end, 784 00:48:58,101 --> 00:48:59,921 but any day can end me, too. 785 00:49:00,021 --> 00:49:03,961 So I need whoever's out here to quit. 786 00:49:09,261 --> 00:49:12,161 In life, people often say, never give up. 787 00:49:12,261 --> 00:49:15,001 But that's not necessarily true. 788 00:49:15,101 --> 00:49:17,201 Sometimes you have to give up. 789 00:49:17,301 --> 00:49:20,201 If I called it in, man, I would hate myself. 790 00:50:25,461 --> 00:50:27,041 Sorry, guys. 791 00:50:36,781 --> 00:50:38,921 My body's just broken. 792 00:50:43,581 --> 00:50:47,161 My mind's shot, my mental, everything. 793 00:50:50,221 --> 00:50:52,521 I'm frozen to the core. 794 00:50:52,621 --> 00:50:54,201 My back's buggered up. 795 00:50:54,301 --> 00:50:57,281 My feet hurt. My hands hurt. 796 00:50:57,381 --> 00:50:59,161 My balance is shot. 797 00:50:59,261 --> 00:51:01,081 I have a hard time walking. 798 00:51:01,181 --> 00:51:02,881 I'm, like, falling over. 799 00:51:05,261 --> 00:51:06,521 And I can't-- 800 00:51:06,621 --> 00:51:09,201 I can't get food if I can't walk. 801 00:51:11,101 --> 00:51:14,441 Then last night I was so cold, I couldn't warm up. 802 00:51:14,541 --> 00:51:16,921 And my mind and everything is just breaking. 803 00:51:17,021 --> 00:51:20,281 Like, I've broke. 804 00:51:20,381 --> 00:51:21,561 I've tried. 805 00:51:21,661 --> 00:51:23,801 Like, I'm just like, next med check, 806 00:51:23,901 --> 00:51:27,041 I just got to make it through this med check... 807 00:51:27,141 --> 00:51:28,641 and it's just--it's bad. 808 00:51:28,741 --> 00:51:30,881 Like, I can't even take the camera with me, 809 00:51:30,981 --> 00:51:33,801 but it's just like, keep going. 810 00:51:33,901 --> 00:51:35,801 Any day, any day. 811 00:51:35,901 --> 00:51:38,221 And it's just like, finally I broke. 812 00:51:40,341 --> 00:51:42,361 Oh, it's tough, man. It's a tough decision. 813 00:51:42,461 --> 00:51:44,201 I'm going to regret it forever. 814 00:51:44,301 --> 00:51:46,081 That's what drives me nuts. 815 00:51:46,181 --> 00:51:48,681 It's different if you get pulled, like, medically pulled. 816 00:51:48,781 --> 00:51:50,881 It's like, okay, I didn't quit. 817 00:51:50,981 --> 00:51:52,681 I quit. 818 00:51:52,781 --> 00:51:54,781 I bitched out. 819 00:51:59,261 --> 00:52:02,441 And I literally just gave up on my dreams. 820 00:52:12,541 --> 00:52:16,961 I pushed to the absolute limit, 821 00:52:17,061 --> 00:52:20,241 and my body finally said, this is enough. 822 00:52:20,341 --> 00:52:22,361 We're done. 823 00:52:22,461 --> 00:52:24,161 And I didn't have a choice. 824 00:52:24,261 --> 00:52:26,281 My mind wouldn't let me continue. 825 00:52:28,261 --> 00:52:30,961 But I came out here and grew so much 826 00:52:31,061 --> 00:52:33,121 as a person, 827 00:52:33,221 --> 00:52:35,721 as an outdoorsman, as a trapper. 828 00:52:35,821 --> 00:52:37,641 Might have went a little backwards in the hunting, 829 00:52:37,741 --> 00:52:41,081 but I feel like I grew 830 00:52:41,181 --> 00:52:42,601 a substantial amount out here. 831 00:52:44,461 --> 00:52:48,361 87 days has given me a lot of time to reflect. 832 00:52:48,461 --> 00:52:53,161 I feel I need to take my time with things, 833 00:52:53,261 --> 00:52:56,681 especially decisions that hold a lot of weight, 834 00:52:56,781 --> 00:52:59,321 like friendship with Travis, 835 00:52:59,421 --> 00:53:02,401 the separation with Melissa. 836 00:53:02,501 --> 00:53:05,761 I feel we need to slow down, 837 00:53:05,861 --> 00:53:08,601 step back, take a look. 838 00:53:08,701 --> 00:53:11,401 Everything else is a distraction. 839 00:53:11,501 --> 00:53:13,401 Not going to go back to work right away. 840 00:53:13,501 --> 00:53:15,161 I'm going to sit down with Melissa. 841 00:53:15,261 --> 00:53:16,761 We'll figure out our stuff. 842 00:53:16,861 --> 00:53:19,001 That's what we're going to focus on 843 00:53:19,101 --> 00:53:22,521 with the same but better mental strength. 844 00:53:22,621 --> 00:53:26,321 {\an8}87 days has given me a fresh start. 845 00:53:28,181 --> 00:53:30,761 {\an8}I don't like losing, 846 00:53:30,861 --> 00:53:34,281 but it might be the best thing that's ever happened to me. 847 00:53:34,381 --> 00:53:35,921 This isn't my destiny. 848 00:53:36,021 --> 00:53:37,761 There's something else waiting for me. 849 00:53:39,621 --> 00:53:41,881 I'm ready to find out what that is. 850 00:54:25,781 --> 00:54:29,521 {\an8}I am alone, cold to the bone. 851 00:54:29,621 --> 00:54:34,481 {\an8}I'm eating moose meat and missing home. 852 00:54:34,581 --> 00:54:37,041 My friends are small bird 853 00:54:37,141 --> 00:54:40,001 and the fat coney. 854 00:54:40,101 --> 00:54:43,561 You can talk to the camera if you feel lonely. 855 00:54:43,661 --> 00:54:47,081 I'll stay in the shelter and do some pottery, 856 00:54:47,181 --> 00:54:50,801 because catching a fish now, it's like winning the lottery. 857 00:54:54,221 --> 00:54:57,081 For pain and to suffer... 858 00:54:57,181 --> 00:55:00,121 hiding stupidity... 859 00:55:00,221 --> 00:55:02,401 by saying I'm tougher. 860 00:55:04,101 --> 00:55:08,481 Risking job, family, Christmas in solitude. 861 00:55:10,341 --> 00:55:13,961 If you'll be second, you won't feel any gratitude. 862 00:55:18,341 --> 00:55:20,921 Sad, huh? 863 00:55:21,021 --> 00:55:23,021 But true. 864 00:55:28,181 --> 00:55:29,841 It's getting hard here. 865 00:55:32,061 --> 00:55:36,361 If I would know, like, it's 100, that's it. 866 00:55:36,461 --> 00:55:38,601 That would be easy peasy. 867 00:55:38,701 --> 00:55:41,881 But it can be tomorrow. It can be in February. 868 00:55:44,261 --> 00:55:46,681 And, yeah, I know that today in the evening, 869 00:55:46,781 --> 00:55:48,681 I will be very sad, 870 00:55:48,781 --> 00:55:51,041 because I know that Miha won't be here, 871 00:55:51,141 --> 00:55:53,041 and then I'll be like, [bleep]. 872 00:55:54,421 --> 00:55:56,041 {\an8}How much longer? 873 00:55:57,781 --> 00:56:00,761 One of the reasons I keep on pushing is, 874 00:56:00,861 --> 00:56:03,161 I want to see Miha coming to this place 875 00:56:03,261 --> 00:56:05,361 and see my location. 876 00:56:05,461 --> 00:56:08,441 Until I die. 877 00:56:11,781 --> 00:56:15,761 Hiding stupidity by saying, I'm tougher. 878 00:56:17,501 --> 00:56:19,041 Yeah. 879 00:56:19,141 --> 00:56:21,641 It's not that nice as it was before. 880 00:56:21,741 --> 00:56:23,841 I have to be much more in the shelter, 881 00:56:23,941 --> 00:56:26,881 but I'm still kind of living. 882 00:56:26,981 --> 00:56:29,881 I'm not there where I have to struggle, 883 00:56:29,981 --> 00:56:31,561 and I want to reach this point. 884 00:56:39,061 --> 00:56:42,401 {\an8}I have a media swap. 885 00:56:42,501 --> 00:56:45,081 {\an8}Let's put on everything I have. 886 00:57:17,061 --> 00:57:18,521 Hey, guys. 887 00:57:24,821 --> 00:57:26,721 GoPros? - Yes, GoPros. 888 00:57:26,821 --> 00:57:28,881 Yes. 889 00:57:28,981 --> 00:57:30,241 Okay. 890 00:57:37,541 --> 00:57:40,481 I mean, I'm staying outside less because of this frostnip. 891 00:57:40,581 --> 00:57:42,841 I didn't expect that the cold 892 00:57:42,941 --> 00:57:45,161 will start to become a limiting factor for me, 893 00:57:45,261 --> 00:57:47,801 but it's happening. 894 00:57:47,901 --> 00:57:51,481 Mentally, it's getting more difficult, I must admit. 895 00:57:51,581 --> 00:57:54,441 Pretty much staying alive. 896 00:57:54,541 --> 00:57:56,881 And you do the most necessary stuff 897 00:57:56,981 --> 00:57:58,981 and go back in the shelter. 898 00:58:01,461 --> 00:58:03,601 Oh, man, that's for sure. 899 00:58:03,701 --> 00:58:04,921 I really miss home. 900 00:58:06,941 --> 00:58:09,441 I mean, I love this place, 901 00:58:09,541 --> 00:58:11,541 but it would be nice to be back. 902 00:58:16,741 --> 00:58:18,641 I don't know. He would say, like, go, Ziga. 903 00:58:18,741 --> 00:58:19,961 I know you have it. 904 00:58:20,061 --> 00:58:22,521 You have been preparing for this all your life, 905 00:58:22,621 --> 00:58:27,521 because we spent all these years in forest learning-- 906 00:58:39,221 --> 00:58:40,881 He would say, like, go, Ziga. 907 00:58:40,981 --> 00:58:43,121 I know you have it, because we spent 908 00:58:43,221 --> 00:58:47,161 all these years in forest learning-- 909 00:58:48,981 --> 00:58:51,161 No [bleep] way! 910 00:58:51,261 --> 00:58:54,121 No [bleep] way! 911 00:58:54,221 --> 00:58:55,561 I cannot do it anymore! 912 00:59:05,941 --> 00:59:07,001 You did it! 913 00:59:07,101 --> 00:59:08,841 You won "Alone," season-- 914 00:59:08,941 --> 00:59:10,801 Oh, man, I heard this sound. 915 00:59:10,901 --> 00:59:12,841 I said, no, that's only Miha. 916 00:59:17,501 --> 00:59:20,641 I'm so ready to go home. 917 00:59:20,741 --> 00:59:22,641 But I would also love to show you 918 00:59:22,741 --> 00:59:25,161 how I lived here for so long. 919 00:59:25,261 --> 00:59:28,681 You know, three days in the wild is like a week at home, 920 00:59:28,781 --> 00:59:31,001 so you have stories for a year now. 921 00:59:31,101 --> 00:59:32,961 Oh, man. 922 00:59:33,061 --> 00:59:35,441 - You did it! - Oh, I just can't believe it. 923 00:59:37,101 --> 00:59:39,521 Seeing Miha, it feels a bit like a dream. 924 00:59:39,621 --> 00:59:41,041 It's impossible. 925 00:59:41,141 --> 00:59:43,521 It's the end of the game. It feels amazing. 926 00:59:43,621 --> 00:59:45,761 You said you're going to build a small shelter. 927 00:59:45,861 --> 00:59:48,121 What is this, a house? 928 00:59:48,221 --> 00:59:50,761 Let's start with the shelter, and then I can show you 929 00:59:50,861 --> 00:59:52,161 place where I shot the moo-- 930 00:59:52,261 --> 00:59:53,681 Wow. - What? 931 00:59:55,941 --> 00:59:57,761 - Now look at this there. - Where, where, where? 932 00:59:57,861 --> 01:00:00,601 - Do you see that? - No way! 933 01:00:00,701 --> 01:00:02,881 You did it! 934 01:00:02,981 --> 01:00:04,961 Wow. - Let's have a look. 935 01:00:05,061 --> 01:00:06,401 Dude. 936 01:00:06,501 --> 01:00:07,921 This is the arrow? 937 01:00:08,021 --> 01:00:10,001 Yeah, that was the arrow. 938 01:00:10,101 --> 01:00:13,241 Tried it on day 17, but it took me 2 days to get it there-- 939 01:00:13,341 --> 01:00:15,241 2 days of drama. 940 01:00:15,341 --> 01:00:16,961 Dude, you're amazing. 941 01:00:22,381 --> 01:00:23,801 Well, go in. 942 01:00:23,901 --> 01:00:25,321 Whoa. It gets bigger. 943 01:00:25,421 --> 01:00:27,121 Yeah, it's dug in. 944 01:00:27,221 --> 01:00:28,601 No way. 945 01:00:28,701 --> 01:00:30,081 It's so warm. 946 01:00:30,181 --> 01:00:31,601 Yeah, of course it's warm, 947 01:00:31,701 --> 01:00:33,321 because look at this chimney. 948 01:00:33,421 --> 01:00:35,881 You found good clay? Yeah. 949 01:00:35,981 --> 01:00:37,361 I cannot believe it. 950 01:00:39,021 --> 01:00:42,121 I'm very glad that I can show Miha 951 01:00:42,221 --> 01:00:45,281 how I lived for 90 days. 952 01:00:45,381 --> 01:00:48,241 It's like, you know, candies in a way. 953 01:00:48,341 --> 01:00:50,841 It felt a bit like being a kid again, 954 01:00:50,941 --> 01:00:53,721 doing crazy stuff and exploring. 955 01:00:53,821 --> 01:00:55,281 And nice mountain view. 956 01:00:55,381 --> 01:00:58,281 That's also important-- you know, to feel well. 957 01:00:58,381 --> 01:01:00,921 You're not just surviving. You're living here, man. 958 01:01:01,021 --> 01:01:02,881 You're living it. 959 01:01:04,661 --> 01:01:06,081 Miha, without you, 960 01:01:06,181 --> 01:01:08,401 I definitely wouldn't develop this passion 961 01:01:08,501 --> 01:01:11,001 for survival and push that far. 962 01:01:11,101 --> 01:01:13,361 This victory is also your victory. 963 01:01:13,461 --> 01:01:15,001 Yes. 964 01:01:15,101 --> 01:01:18,241 I'm so glad for you... for everything. 965 01:01:18,341 --> 01:01:20,441 You feel taller. You're a bigger man now. 966 01:01:23,501 --> 01:01:25,801 Oh, guys, you have to do a bow drill. 967 01:01:25,901 --> 01:01:27,081 Yeah? Oh, yeah. 968 01:01:27,181 --> 01:01:28,281 Amazing. 969 01:01:30,941 --> 01:01:33,921 We were doing this together for so many years, 970 01:01:34,021 --> 01:01:37,881 and he can really feel how I feel 971 01:01:37,981 --> 01:01:42,081 and understand how it is to be out there. 972 01:01:42,181 --> 01:01:45,641 I'm very happy to share this with my brother. 973 01:01:48,061 --> 01:01:52,681 I'm very proud of what I did out here... 974 01:01:52,781 --> 01:01:55,361 that I'm capable to go that far. 975 01:01:55,461 --> 01:01:57,681 I have something in me 976 01:01:57,781 --> 01:01:59,961 that people maybe did not expect. 977 01:02:02,341 --> 01:02:06,161 Out there, being alone has definitely changed me. 978 01:02:06,261 --> 01:02:09,601 I really missed my family. 979 01:02:09,701 --> 01:02:13,961 At home, I was really aiming too much for my career. 980 01:02:14,061 --> 01:02:16,841 Joy should be shared. 981 01:02:16,941 --> 01:02:19,721 I definitely want to spend more time with them 982 01:02:19,821 --> 01:02:22,281 and watch them and listen to them 983 01:02:22,381 --> 01:02:24,321 and be happy with them. 984 01:02:25,981 --> 01:02:27,921 It feels amazing 985 01:02:28,021 --> 01:02:30,801 that I'm representing one very small country-- 986 01:02:30,901 --> 01:02:33,361 Slovenia. 987 01:02:33,461 --> 01:02:35,001 No matter where you're coming from, 988 01:02:35,101 --> 01:02:37,081 if you really live for something, 989 01:02:37,181 --> 01:02:39,081 go for your passion, 990 01:02:39,181 --> 01:02:42,521 and not be scared of doing things different 991 01:02:42,621 --> 01:02:45,841 and keep on living it no matter what. 992 01:02:45,941 --> 01:02:50,641 $500,000 gives my family freedom, 993 01:02:50,741 --> 01:02:54,481 money independence, less stressful life. 994 01:02:54,581 --> 01:02:57,961 Would definitely put part of it to our survival school 995 01:02:58,061 --> 01:03:00,121 to increase the things we can share 996 01:03:00,221 --> 01:03:01,441 with other people. 997 01:03:04,101 --> 01:03:06,881 It feels very good to be the first scientist 998 01:03:06,981 --> 01:03:08,761 to win "Alone." 999 01:03:08,861 --> 01:03:12,041 I was able to test my skills, my knowledge 1000 01:03:12,141 --> 01:03:16,001 but, at the same time, also learn a lot. 1001 01:03:16,101 --> 01:03:20,601 Leaving this place, it's a bit bittersweet. 1002 01:03:20,701 --> 01:03:22,081 In these 90 days, 1003 01:03:22,181 --> 01:03:25,961 I found some kind of harmony with nature. 1004 01:03:26,061 --> 01:03:30,121 {\an8}I really felt not so much like surviving 1005 01:03:30,221 --> 01:03:32,481 {\an8}but rather like living out in nature. 1006 01:03:34,221 --> 01:03:37,401 {\an8}Nature--there are infinitive possibilities 1007 01:03:37,501 --> 01:03:40,761 {\an8}and new ways and techniques to discover, 1008 01:03:40,861 --> 01:03:44,361 {\an8}and we should try to understand it, 1009 01:03:44,461 --> 01:03:47,841 {\an8}try to respect it, and try to live with it.