1 00:00:17,560 --> 00:00:21,000 We are heading into one of the harshest winters on the planet. 2 00:00:21,000 --> 00:00:22,640 There's no finish line. 3 00:00:22,640 --> 00:00:27,560 But there is $250,000 waiting for the last person. 4 00:00:30,440 --> 00:00:31,560 It's so cold. 5 00:00:31,560 --> 00:00:33,560 Cold like this can kill you. 6 00:00:33,560 --> 00:00:36,040 I can't feel my face. 7 00:00:36,040 --> 00:00:37,280 I can't feel my hands. 8 00:00:37,280 --> 00:00:39,200 This weather's going to sort a few people out. 9 00:00:42,040 --> 00:00:45,120 The wolves howling across the lake send shivers up your spine. 10 00:00:45,120 --> 00:00:48,720 You've got wolverines, wolves, bears. 11 00:00:48,720 --> 00:00:50,440 It's a whole new frontier. 12 00:00:52,120 --> 00:00:54,920 Alone season four, the Arctic. 13 00:00:54,920 --> 00:00:57,000 It's on like Donkey Kong. 14 00:00:59,880 --> 00:01:01,800 The mind's unravelling. 15 00:01:01,800 --> 00:01:03,720 It's gone completely tits up. 16 00:01:03,720 --> 00:01:05,280 I didn't think it would be easy, 17 00:01:05,280 --> 00:01:06,960 but I didn't think it would be this hard. 18 00:01:08,280 --> 00:01:10,360 The landscape doesn't care if you live or die. 19 00:01:12,160 --> 00:01:13,320 Shoulder's on fire. 20 00:01:15,280 --> 00:01:16,280 Look, look, look. 21 00:01:16,280 --> 00:01:18,320 that is so beautiful. 22 00:01:18,320 --> 00:01:22,960 The northern lights are out. They're telling me to stay. 23 00:01:26,120 --> 00:01:28,680 Permanent now. And here forever. 24 00:01:28,680 --> 00:01:29,920 God! 25 00:01:29,920 --> 00:01:33,000 I need to be here till the end. I'm not tapping. 26 00:01:33,000 --> 00:01:35,640 - - 27 00:01:35,640 --> 00:01:37,720 - Dinner! - 28 00:01:40,720 --> 00:01:42,480 Hello? 29 00:01:43,840 --> 00:01:45,960 Hello? He's not here. 30 00:01:45,960 --> 00:01:48,120 Hello, mate? 31 00:01:48,120 --> 00:01:51,680 He's gone. He's actually gone. He's missing. Call it in. 32 00:01:51,840 --> 00:01:55,280 We need immediate backup for search and rescue. 33 00:02:06,200 --> 00:02:07,520 It's like rushing into a first date. 34 00:02:07,520 --> 00:02:10,960 Could be the love of your life, or a divorce waiting to happen. 35 00:02:10,960 --> 00:02:13,040 That wind is bleak. 36 00:02:13,040 --> 00:02:16,480 This shit just got serious. 37 00:02:16,480 --> 00:02:20,240 It's a big animal that's been tracking through here. 38 00:02:20,240 --> 00:02:22,000 It is so dark out here. 39 00:02:22,000 --> 00:02:24,280 There could be anything out there, and I wouldn't know. 40 00:02:26,800 --> 00:02:29,280 Just heard a stick crack. 41 00:02:29,280 --> 00:02:32,200 Definitely didn't deal with the landing so well. 42 00:02:32,200 --> 00:02:33,640 I started getting in my head. 43 00:02:34,720 --> 00:02:36,000 So hard. 44 00:02:37,120 --> 00:02:39,960 Couple of days in with no food, I'm starting to feel it already. 45 00:02:39,960 --> 00:02:41,760 look at the worms in it. 46 00:02:41,760 --> 00:02:42,760 See that? 47 00:02:42,760 --> 00:02:44,040 my God. 48 00:02:48,600 --> 00:02:49,920 Have a look at this. 49 00:02:49,920 --> 00:02:51,240 I reckon there's about 30 here. 50 00:02:52,520 --> 00:02:53,880 This could get me some fish. 51 00:02:53,880 --> 00:02:54,880 a bite. 52 00:02:54,880 --> 00:02:55,880 got him. 53 00:02:57,240 --> 00:02:59,080 Have a look at that, baby! 54 00:03:01,360 --> 00:03:02,720 Old Trent from Tassie. 55 00:03:02,720 --> 00:03:04,000 There's the liver. 56 00:03:09,240 --> 00:03:10,560 Ah, delicious. 57 00:04:07,440 --> 00:04:09,120 I'm so thirsty! 58 00:04:14,600 --> 00:04:15,600 Stuff it. 59 00:04:15,600 --> 00:04:16,600 I'm going to drink it. 60 00:04:25,040 --> 00:04:26,040 Tastes good to me. 61 00:04:28,560 --> 00:04:31,040 Don't try to copy me. 62 00:04:31,040 --> 00:04:34,240 The Asian stomach can handle this, OK? 63 00:04:34,240 --> 00:04:35,480 Ahh! 64 00:04:42,000 --> 00:04:46,840 The first thing this morning, I'm going to make a stove, actually. 65 00:04:46,840 --> 00:04:50,080 A little fire pit in my shelter. 66 00:04:50,080 --> 00:04:51,960 I want it to be warm in there. 67 00:04:56,800 --> 00:05:00,560 The weather out here is so harsh, and we haven't even hit winter yet. 68 00:05:01,960 --> 00:05:06,760 So I'm going to go down and get some rocks to carry back to my campsite. 69 00:05:08,320 --> 00:05:09,960 Rocks, rocks, rocks. 70 00:05:11,720 --> 00:05:14,760 This is where I'm going to get my rocks from. 71 00:05:14,760 --> 00:05:16,720 And I want big, big ones. 72 00:05:17,920 --> 00:05:24,360 Otherwise, the foundation of my fire pit is not going to be stable enough. 73 00:05:30,160 --> 00:05:33,400 I'm out here competing against the elements. 74 00:05:36,920 --> 00:05:41,520 It's going to take serious work to stay warm and safe here. 75 00:05:45,640 --> 00:05:48,720 Big one. Big one. 76 00:05:48,720 --> 00:05:52,400 I can last a bit longer without food. 77 00:05:52,400 --> 00:05:55,600 Fishing is not on my radar at the moment. 78 00:05:55,600 --> 00:05:59,000 It is shelter, water and fire. 79 00:05:59,000 --> 00:06:00,200 my God. 80 00:06:06,200 --> 00:06:07,480 my God. 81 00:06:09,480 --> 00:06:11,360 I have to catch my breath. 82 00:06:14,920 --> 00:06:17,360 I can do this. I can do this. 83 00:06:20,600 --> 00:06:23,360 I grew up on a farm in Thailand. 84 00:06:25,120 --> 00:06:26,720 Growing up in poverty, 85 00:06:26,720 --> 00:06:31,200 so we constantly had to create and find things that we can live on. 86 00:06:40,720 --> 00:06:45,360 Because of my upbringing, I have learned to be adaptable. 87 00:06:45,360 --> 00:06:49,480 I know hardship, and I know how to push myself. 88 00:06:49,480 --> 00:06:51,920 89 00:06:55,040 --> 00:06:56,560 OK. 90 00:06:56,560 --> 00:06:58,840 I nearly fell backwards. 91 00:07:04,280 --> 00:07:05,800 OK. 92 00:07:05,800 --> 00:07:07,280 I can do this. 93 00:07:07,280 --> 00:07:11,520 I am small, but I am really gritty, robust. 94 00:07:11,520 --> 00:07:17,000 And I definitely have a very strong competitiveness within me. 95 00:07:25,880 --> 00:07:27,320 Yes! 96 00:07:27,320 --> 00:07:29,000 I'm doing it! 97 00:07:31,160 --> 00:07:32,560 my God. 98 00:07:32,560 --> 00:07:37,720 I see myself as a little bit of a secret weapon, because, you know, 99 00:07:37,720 --> 00:07:41,360 people do judge me by the way I look. 100 00:07:42,960 --> 00:07:47,480 So I want to show them that don't judge the book by its cover. 101 00:07:50,280 --> 00:07:52,120 In all my ultra-marathons, 102 00:07:52,120 --> 00:07:56,360 I put my body, my mind through hell and back so many times. 103 00:07:56,360 --> 00:08:01,240 Blisters, no toenails, blue toenails, black toenails. 104 00:08:01,240 --> 00:08:03,000 You're bleeding. 105 00:08:03,000 --> 00:08:09,240 I always get broken, but you get to rebuild a new version of you. 106 00:08:09,240 --> 00:08:12,160 You build a stronger version of you. 107 00:08:12,160 --> 00:08:14,720 And I want to see where this stronger me will break. 108 00:08:16,400 --> 00:08:20,760 I've done probably 50-plus ultra-marathon races, 109 00:08:20,760 --> 00:08:25,000 but the toughest have probably been through the Arctic Circle. 110 00:08:26,640 --> 00:08:30,360 Midwinter in the Arctic, it was super scary, 111 00:08:30,360 --> 00:08:35,760 because it doesn't just go cold, you feel the pain in your fingers. 112 00:08:35,760 --> 00:08:38,240 The Arctic environment is nothing new for me. 113 00:08:38,240 --> 00:08:42,160 The isolation, the darkness, I thrive in that environment. 114 00:08:42,160 --> 00:08:45,120 Bye, Mum. We're going to miss you. 115 00:08:45,120 --> 00:08:46,920 I'm a single mum, 116 00:08:46,920 --> 00:08:51,200 so I'm doing this because I want to make my girls proud. 117 00:08:51,200 --> 00:08:52,720 You be safe, Mama. 118 00:08:52,720 --> 00:08:55,600 Also, it's because I want to find my limits. 119 00:08:55,600 --> 00:08:59,360 I'm willing to push myself as far as my body allows me, 120 00:08:59,360 --> 00:09:01,640 and I know my body can take a lot. 121 00:09:08,560 --> 00:09:10,680 It's like a jigsaw. 122 00:09:10,680 --> 00:09:13,480 You want this to be right, you don't want this to collapse on you. 123 00:09:16,600 --> 00:09:20,680 The winter can drop down to below minus 50 degrees. 124 00:09:21,680 --> 00:09:25,520 Warmth is the most crucial thing in this environment. 125 00:09:27,040 --> 00:09:29,280 Please don't. 126 00:09:29,280 --> 00:09:30,720 Please stay. 127 00:09:32,520 --> 00:09:36,120 I wanted my shelter to be warm. 128 00:09:36,120 --> 00:09:40,600 And I also wanted to have a decent place to cook. 129 00:09:43,200 --> 00:09:45,360 I'll boil my water. 130 00:09:48,600 --> 00:09:49,920 Don't collapse on me. 131 00:10:01,040 --> 00:10:03,280 132 00:10:03,280 --> 00:10:05,240 I got a fire pit! 133 00:10:06,280 --> 00:10:07,960 I'm so happy! 134 00:10:07,960 --> 00:10:10,080 Can you see me? 135 00:10:10,080 --> 00:10:11,640 Hello! 136 00:10:13,920 --> 00:10:17,360 The irony of me preparing this fire pit 137 00:10:17,360 --> 00:10:19,880 is that I don't have anything to cook. 138 00:10:42,840 --> 00:10:44,360 Morning. 139 00:10:44,360 --> 00:10:46,320 Well, yesterday was a good day. 140 00:10:46,320 --> 00:10:47,320 It's going to be hard to top. 141 00:10:48,960 --> 00:10:51,480 Finding all that bait just set me up for a really good day. 142 00:10:51,480 --> 00:10:54,480 I've got, what, three fish? 143 00:10:54,480 --> 00:10:56,600 Hopefully we'll get some more fish today. 144 00:10:57,960 --> 00:11:00,080 Alright, let's check these fishing lines. 145 00:11:05,440 --> 00:11:08,560 I've got food, and I'm very grateful that I do, 146 00:11:08,560 --> 00:11:10,440 but it's not going to last that long. 147 00:11:10,440 --> 00:11:14,560 So I need to catch more fish to go a long way here. 148 00:11:14,560 --> 00:11:16,680 This line's quite tight. 149 00:11:16,680 --> 00:11:17,680 Let's have a look. 150 00:11:19,320 --> 00:11:21,040 There's a fish on there. 151 00:11:21,040 --> 00:11:22,240 yes. 152 00:11:22,240 --> 00:11:23,240 Look here. 153 00:11:25,480 --> 00:11:26,480 yes. 154 00:11:27,840 --> 00:11:29,480 nice trout. 155 00:11:32,080 --> 00:11:33,760 he's a nice trout. 156 00:11:46,480 --> 00:11:47,840 Have a look at that. 157 00:11:49,080 --> 00:11:51,120 Whoo-hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo! 158 00:11:52,960 --> 00:11:53,960 Yeah. 159 00:11:55,240 --> 00:11:56,240 Another fish. 160 00:11:57,080 --> 00:11:58,520 Another one to Trent. 161 00:12:00,040 --> 00:12:01,160 Yeah. 162 00:12:03,680 --> 00:12:05,320 I'm happy with that. 163 00:12:05,320 --> 00:12:07,800 I reckon he's bigger than the one I got yesterday. 164 00:12:07,800 --> 00:12:10,480 Yeah. Hoo-hoo! 165 00:12:10,480 --> 00:12:12,360 Let's go and check the other one. 166 00:12:13,560 --> 00:12:15,480 This had a tiny little hook on it, 167 00:12:15,480 --> 00:12:18,440 but I thought I'd put a bait on it anyway. 168 00:12:20,280 --> 00:12:22,080 shit. 169 00:12:22,080 --> 00:12:23,560 that's a fish. 170 00:12:29,280 --> 00:12:30,800 that's a good fish. 171 00:12:40,800 --> 00:12:41,800 yes. 172 00:12:44,600 --> 00:12:45,600 yes! 173 00:12:49,440 --> 00:12:50,840 Yeah. 174 00:12:55,280 --> 00:12:58,000 Yee 175 00:12:59,560 --> 00:13:01,320 Have a look at that. 176 00:13:03,680 --> 00:13:06,560 Yee-hoo-hoo-hoo! 177 00:13:06,560 --> 00:13:08,440 Another one. 178 00:13:08,440 --> 00:13:10,000 You beauty. 179 00:13:13,200 --> 00:13:14,880 Two fish in five minutes. 180 00:13:16,000 --> 00:13:17,040 Wowee. 181 00:13:18,760 --> 00:13:20,480 That is a relief for me. 182 00:13:21,600 --> 00:13:23,000 I'm catching fish here. 183 00:13:30,600 --> 00:13:33,440 Got more food than expected so far. 184 00:13:33,440 --> 00:13:34,960 There's the liver. 185 00:13:40,520 --> 00:13:42,920 Those dead baits I found, man, they were killer. 186 00:13:42,920 --> 00:13:45,520 Can't believe it. 187 00:13:46,960 --> 00:13:49,160 Trent from Tassie. He's here to stay. 188 00:13:51,240 --> 00:13:52,480 101 days. 189 00:13:53,640 --> 00:13:54,640 Here we come. 190 00:14:27,600 --> 00:14:28,720 Day four. 191 00:14:32,560 --> 00:14:34,240 I'm here. 192 00:14:34,240 --> 00:14:35,600 I live here now. 193 00:14:37,480 --> 00:14:39,400 In this tent. 194 00:14:39,400 --> 00:14:41,040 In this forest. 195 00:14:46,960 --> 00:14:49,440 We're at the edge of the Arctic Circle. 196 00:14:50,600 --> 00:14:51,960 Look at that. 197 00:14:53,040 --> 00:14:54,840 This place is so cool. 198 00:14:56,520 --> 00:15:00,280 To think I'm going to be here when it's all white as well. 199 00:15:00,280 --> 00:15:01,760 It's going to be incredible to watch. 200 00:15:04,880 --> 00:15:06,360 it's nice here. 201 00:15:09,360 --> 00:15:10,360 Awesome. 202 00:15:12,360 --> 00:15:14,320 I've never seen ice. 203 00:15:14,320 --> 00:15:16,040 I've never seen snow. 204 00:15:16,040 --> 00:15:17,800 It's wild what I'm doing here 205 00:15:17,800 --> 00:15:20,480 and I'm really excited for the experience. 206 00:15:27,400 --> 00:15:28,960 Look, look, look, look. 207 00:15:36,360 --> 00:15:38,200 Reindeer. 208 00:15:38,200 --> 00:15:40,240 How cool. 209 00:15:45,960 --> 00:15:47,520 And I see babies too. 210 00:15:55,240 --> 00:15:57,200 Look at that little one. 211 00:15:57,200 --> 00:15:58,200 So white. 212 00:16:00,560 --> 00:16:01,560 Amazing. 213 00:16:07,360 --> 00:16:09,000 Holy moly. 214 00:16:14,160 --> 00:16:15,160 In the wild. 215 00:16:17,160 --> 00:16:19,600 Hoo-woo! 216 00:16:24,000 --> 00:16:27,000 Try and do it as calmly as I can. 217 00:16:27,000 --> 00:16:28,880 I'm a man of the land. 218 00:16:28,880 --> 00:16:30,680 here comes a kitten. 219 00:16:30,680 --> 00:16:32,960 I grow my own food. 220 00:16:32,960 --> 00:16:34,480 I forage. 221 00:16:34,480 --> 00:16:36,600 I build my own structures. 222 00:16:36,600 --> 00:16:39,800 This is my house bus, the old Bedford. 223 00:16:39,800 --> 00:16:41,440 Built the roof on it. 224 00:16:41,440 --> 00:16:43,760 Replaced the original chairs with some speedboat chairs. 225 00:16:45,080 --> 00:16:50,400 I live on a small permaculture farm with mostly just family but also 226 00:16:50,400 --> 00:16:53,320 some friends live here as well so it's a bit of a community. 227 00:16:53,320 --> 00:16:57,720 Alright, lamb is from Mark's flock and I butchered that one. 228 00:16:59,280 --> 00:17:03,880 All the skills that I've been developing since a young teenager 229 00:17:03,880 --> 00:17:08,160 are just building to this experience and preparing me for it. 230 00:17:08,160 --> 00:17:13,000 I've got the creativity and problem solving skills built in from just 231 00:17:13,000 --> 00:17:14,000 living on the land. 232 00:17:14,000 --> 00:17:17,360 And then the physical skills that I've got over time from my fishing 233 00:17:17,360 --> 00:17:21,640 and my boat hunting and my building that I do. 234 00:17:21,640 --> 00:17:23,520 - See you, Mum. - Bye, darling. 235 00:17:25,360 --> 00:17:30,920 This is maybe a bit of a ceremony for me or a passage into being a man. 236 00:17:30,920 --> 00:17:35,200 I came here to test my skills and to come home a different person 237 00:17:35,200 --> 00:17:37,600 improved by the experience. 238 00:17:37,600 --> 00:17:40,240 - See ya! - Bye! 239 00:17:40,240 --> 00:17:41,560 Love you all. 240 00:17:41,560 --> 00:17:44,440 And hopefully with $250,000. 241 00:17:50,080 --> 00:17:52,480 My shelter is going to be exactly nipple height. 242 00:17:53,760 --> 00:17:57,520 Today is permanent shelter construction. 243 00:17:57,520 --> 00:18:01,080 I've got a bit of building to do, a bit of shifting. 244 00:18:01,080 --> 00:18:02,160 Top time. 245 00:18:03,200 --> 00:18:06,760 Making the permanent shelter the one that's going to be tight and solid 246 00:18:06,760 --> 00:18:09,280 and keep me warm when the snow comes. 247 00:18:10,640 --> 00:18:12,840 It's frigging awesome. 248 00:18:18,920 --> 00:18:20,640 this shelter is cool, so cool. 249 00:18:20,640 --> 00:18:22,760 I'm thinking of calling it Manden. 250 00:18:22,760 --> 00:18:24,280 Like a man den. 251 00:18:24,280 --> 00:18:25,640 What a cool home. 252 00:18:25,640 --> 00:18:27,120 One more stake. 253 00:18:31,440 --> 00:18:33,280 No way. 254 00:18:33,280 --> 00:18:34,520 Slug. 255 00:18:37,480 --> 00:18:39,360 Just what I want. 256 00:18:40,360 --> 00:18:41,360 Bait for me. 257 00:18:42,480 --> 00:18:44,640 Thank you, buddy, just come with me. 258 00:18:45,880 --> 00:18:48,920 That is some bait if I've ever seen it. 259 00:18:48,920 --> 00:18:50,480 yes. 260 00:18:50,480 --> 00:18:53,800 That's awesome, that's this afternoon fishing. 261 00:18:53,800 --> 00:18:54,840 Yes! 262 00:18:57,240 --> 00:18:58,680 There's my slug bait. 263 00:18:59,920 --> 00:19:02,120 I'm going to give it a whirl. 264 00:19:02,120 --> 00:19:04,400 Very gently cast it. 265 00:19:05,360 --> 00:19:07,520 Because the slug's fragile. 266 00:19:12,880 --> 00:19:15,840 The fish, they're going to really slow down, 267 00:19:15,840 --> 00:19:18,440 almost hibernate when that ice comes. 268 00:19:18,440 --> 00:19:21,080 So I really need to be fishing them while they're in that active, 269 00:19:21,080 --> 00:19:22,080 aggressive phase, 270 00:19:22,080 --> 00:19:26,080 where they're just trying to feed up and store fat for the winter. 271 00:19:28,280 --> 00:19:30,280 oh, I've got action. 272 00:19:30,280 --> 00:19:33,360 Got a tug straightaway. 273 00:19:33,360 --> 00:19:34,680 Did he frigging just take my slug? 274 00:19:34,680 --> 00:19:35,680 No, the slug's still there. 275 00:19:37,120 --> 00:19:39,360 You stay on there, slug, you stay on. 276 00:19:39,360 --> 00:19:41,320 We're a team now. 277 00:19:41,320 --> 00:19:44,440 we've got splashes near it. 278 00:19:44,440 --> 00:19:46,080 Get ready. 279 00:19:46,080 --> 00:19:48,960 Get a tug, I'll give it a little tug back. 280 00:19:48,960 --> 00:19:50,040 Come on. 281 00:19:50,040 --> 00:19:52,320 Have a bite, have a bite. 282 00:19:54,120 --> 00:19:56,480 holy moly. 283 00:20:08,160 --> 00:20:10,520 Come on, come on, come on. 284 00:20:13,760 --> 00:20:15,600 I saw a splash. 285 00:20:15,600 --> 00:20:17,280 Get ready. 286 00:20:17,280 --> 00:20:19,320 Get a tug, I'll give it a little tug back. 287 00:20:19,320 --> 00:20:21,680 Come on. 288 00:20:21,680 --> 00:20:24,080 I've got a fish. I've got a fish. 289 00:20:24,080 --> 00:20:25,640 I've got a frigging fish. 290 00:20:25,640 --> 00:20:28,400 Holy moly. Holy moly. 291 00:20:29,880 --> 00:20:31,520 my God. 292 00:20:34,000 --> 00:20:35,600 It's a grayling. 293 00:20:35,600 --> 00:20:37,360 Look at the frigging... Yes! 294 00:20:37,360 --> 00:20:38,680 It's grayling. 295 00:20:39,920 --> 00:20:43,120 Got a fish, got a fish, got a fish. 296 00:20:46,120 --> 00:20:47,520 Grayling. 297 00:20:48,720 --> 00:20:49,720 Fish. 298 00:20:51,120 --> 00:20:52,360 A fish. 299 00:20:55,320 --> 00:20:57,800 That is so cool. 300 00:20:57,800 --> 00:21:00,280 That is so frigging cool. 301 00:21:00,280 --> 00:21:03,280 I caught a fish. 302 00:21:03,280 --> 00:21:05,280 I can use those eyeballs as bait. 303 00:21:05,280 --> 00:21:07,120 I've got so much bait now, I've got guts. 304 00:21:09,520 --> 00:21:13,960 Like one fish is great, but if I can turn that one fish 305 00:21:13,960 --> 00:21:15,640 into a bunch of other fish, 306 00:21:15,640 --> 00:21:16,880 that's primo. 307 00:21:16,880 --> 00:21:18,560 That's really good. 308 00:21:28,880 --> 00:21:31,200 Fish and lingonberries. 309 00:21:39,960 --> 00:21:41,520 So frigging cool. 310 00:21:43,680 --> 00:21:47,760 It's really encouraging to like see fish, 311 00:21:47,760 --> 00:21:50,120 have figured out how to catch them. 312 00:21:50,120 --> 00:21:51,520 It's been a cool day. 313 00:21:51,520 --> 00:21:52,640 Been a really cool day. 314 00:21:54,040 --> 00:21:55,720 Fish has got a bit of hair in it. 315 00:22:05,440 --> 00:22:06,960 That is really good. 316 00:22:06,960 --> 00:22:09,160 So great to have this food. 317 00:22:10,480 --> 00:22:13,040 I'm getting set up here. 318 00:22:13,040 --> 00:22:14,400 I'm getting set up. 319 00:22:30,000 --> 00:22:31,480 Better get back inside. 320 00:22:32,680 --> 00:22:36,560 There's a few really dangerous animals here. 321 00:22:39,400 --> 00:22:41,680 Wolverines, wolves, bears. 322 00:22:43,640 --> 00:22:46,880 It's definitely nothing like Australia. 323 00:22:48,240 --> 00:22:52,600 It's about as far away from home as I could possibly get. 324 00:23:22,520 --> 00:23:25,120 Damn, I look sexy. 325 00:23:25,120 --> 00:23:26,120 Hey, baby. 326 00:23:29,320 --> 00:23:31,600 Day five, baby. 327 00:23:31,600 --> 00:23:33,600 All right, let's go. 328 00:23:37,560 --> 00:23:43,280 I've had like such an emotional time out here. 329 00:23:43,280 --> 00:23:47,360 It's not what I was expecting. 330 00:23:47,360 --> 00:23:52,520 Like, I knew it was going to be tough, you know. 331 00:23:52,520 --> 00:23:55,200 I just didn't expect it to be so emotional. 332 00:23:56,960 --> 00:24:00,720 I hope that turns around and we find joy in stuff. 333 00:24:03,640 --> 00:24:06,880 My biggest priority from here on out 334 00:24:06,880 --> 00:24:10,400 will just be getting this permanent shelter done. 335 00:24:12,080 --> 00:24:18,320 My plan for today is just make the A-frame and then I can like just 336 00:24:18,320 --> 00:24:20,800 build the walls up and see how we go. 337 00:24:20,800 --> 00:24:24,880 I can handle staying at my location a couple more nights. 338 00:24:24,880 --> 00:24:27,520 Hopefully the weather stays good for me. 339 00:24:27,520 --> 00:24:32,280 But I think this is where the official location is going to be. 340 00:24:34,120 --> 00:24:40,960 This experience, it's been such an emotional rollercoaster for me. 341 00:24:40,960 --> 00:24:43,440 Getting this up is going to be difficult. 342 00:24:44,960 --> 00:24:48,200 But I know I work with validation. 343 00:24:48,200 --> 00:24:51,920 And one of those validating processes 344 00:24:51,920 --> 00:24:56,640 are actually witnessing your project come to life. 345 00:24:56,640 --> 00:24:59,240 So I think once I move into that other shelter, 346 00:24:59,240 --> 00:25:01,320 it'll just be a morale booster, you know. 347 00:25:02,920 --> 00:25:06,240 A little bit high, but that's all right. 348 00:25:08,400 --> 00:25:11,240 All those doubts kind of go away a bit. 349 00:25:12,760 --> 00:25:14,720 All right. 350 00:25:16,160 --> 00:25:19,120 It's like one of the first homes I've ever made, you know. 351 00:25:20,440 --> 00:25:23,120 I haven't had too many of them in my life. 352 00:25:25,640 --> 00:25:30,360 I left home at 15 because home was too intense for me. 353 00:25:33,320 --> 00:25:36,000 For me, winning would be an opportunity 354 00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:38,840 to start a new chapter of my life. 355 00:25:41,160 --> 00:25:43,000 It feels nice to have a bit of direction. 356 00:25:43,000 --> 00:25:44,160 I feel back. 357 00:25:44,160 --> 00:25:46,040 I feel better, you know. 358 00:25:48,240 --> 00:25:51,040 guys, I feel like I'm having fun again. 359 00:25:52,520 --> 00:25:54,480 I don't know how that happened. 360 00:25:56,440 --> 00:25:58,440 Fucking doing this. 361 00:25:58,440 --> 00:25:59,960 Just saying. 362 00:26:08,200 --> 00:26:09,200 Cool. 363 00:26:12,560 --> 00:26:13,600 Gosh. 364 00:26:15,240 --> 00:26:18,760 I was really worried there for a moment that I wasn't going to get to 365 00:26:18,760 --> 00:26:21,360 enjoy my time out here, you know. 366 00:26:21,360 --> 00:26:22,480 Really worried. 367 00:26:22,480 --> 00:26:24,200 Check it out. 368 00:26:25,960 --> 00:26:29,120 Fuck yeah, she's back, baby. 369 00:26:29,120 --> 00:26:30,440 For now. 370 00:26:30,440 --> 00:26:32,000 Don't get cocky. 371 00:26:50,480 --> 00:26:51,880 Hey, fish! 372 00:26:53,800 --> 00:26:55,840 Hello, fish. 373 00:26:55,840 --> 00:26:57,040 You there? 374 00:27:00,400 --> 00:27:01,600 Come on, please. 375 00:27:01,600 --> 00:27:02,600 Don't be shy. 376 00:27:02,600 --> 00:27:03,760 I need a few of you. 377 00:27:03,760 --> 00:27:04,760 I'm here. 378 00:27:04,760 --> 00:27:05,760 Come on. 379 00:27:13,920 --> 00:27:15,160 Day five. 380 00:27:16,960 --> 00:27:19,680 See these beautiful birds? 381 00:27:24,320 --> 00:27:28,200 I have to keep reminding myself that this is a marathon. 382 00:27:28,200 --> 00:27:30,520 So I have to take it easy, bit by bit. 383 00:27:30,520 --> 00:27:35,280 I need to do the most important things, the heavy things, 384 00:27:35,280 --> 00:27:37,200 which is shelter. 385 00:27:37,200 --> 00:27:40,920 I have to make that in one or two days, max. 386 00:27:40,920 --> 00:27:44,920 And today's a beautiful day, so we'll take advantage of this. 387 00:27:44,920 --> 00:27:48,280 I'm thinking about the long run. 388 00:27:48,280 --> 00:27:50,960 And in order to survive that long, 389 00:27:50,960 --> 00:27:54,880 a safe, secure shelter with a fireplace inside. 390 00:27:56,000 --> 00:27:58,040 That's my number one priority. 391 00:27:58,040 --> 00:28:00,480 And then focus on the food. 392 00:28:00,480 --> 00:28:06,560 So what I do, I'm actually using these two trees. 393 00:28:06,560 --> 00:28:10,840 And I'm just going to make a wall on this side. 394 00:28:12,040 --> 00:28:18,120 But once I finish, that will protect me from rain, wind, wild animals, 395 00:28:18,120 --> 00:28:19,640 and also the cold winter and snow. 396 00:28:19,640 --> 00:28:24,160 Because they're coming. I have to prepare for the worst. 397 00:28:26,600 --> 00:28:28,320 Keep working. 398 00:28:35,960 --> 00:28:37,800 So this side is done. 399 00:28:37,800 --> 00:28:42,480 Without using paracord or anything else. 400 00:28:42,480 --> 00:28:46,360 Because I need to use this paracord for gillnet. 401 00:28:46,360 --> 00:28:49,040 So I don't want to use it to tie up this log. 402 00:28:51,680 --> 00:28:54,080 I'm not a trained survivalist, 403 00:28:54,080 --> 00:28:58,000 but I grew up in Afghanistan on the war zone. 404 00:28:58,000 --> 00:29:01,840 And I crossed seven countries to make it to Australia. 405 00:29:01,840 --> 00:29:04,720 And I suffered a lot during this journey. 406 00:29:06,280 --> 00:29:11,400 Once I got my permanent Humanitarian Protection Visa, 407 00:29:11,400 --> 00:29:14,360 completed Year 10, 11, 12. 408 00:29:14,360 --> 00:29:15,720 Got my HSC. 409 00:29:15,720 --> 00:29:18,160 Got my Taekwondo black belt. 410 00:29:18,160 --> 00:29:22,680 And became a 10-time state champion, a couple of national champions. 411 00:29:22,680 --> 00:29:24,880 And I was representing Australia as well. 412 00:29:26,360 --> 00:29:28,720 I'm not an expert in survival. 413 00:29:28,720 --> 00:29:32,960 I think most of my skills come from my childhood. 414 00:29:32,960 --> 00:29:36,840 I've learned most of my hunting technique from my grandfather. 415 00:29:36,840 --> 00:29:41,240 In Afghanistan, they're not doing it for trophies, for sport things. 416 00:29:41,240 --> 00:29:43,920 And anything they hunt, they eat. 417 00:29:43,920 --> 00:29:46,600 So I ended up all the way... 418 00:29:46,600 --> 00:29:50,720 I've done this survival thing in real life. 419 00:29:51,800 --> 00:29:55,840 For our people, giving up is not in our DNA. 420 00:29:55,840 --> 00:30:01,960 So we'd rather die in a honourable way than living in a shameful life. 421 00:30:01,960 --> 00:30:10,400 Tapping out from where I came from and who I am is not an option. 422 00:30:11,800 --> 00:30:14,040 We've got a visitor. 423 00:30:14,040 --> 00:30:15,800 Look, it's beautiful. 424 00:30:17,560 --> 00:30:20,680 Hello. Hi. 425 00:30:20,680 --> 00:30:23,160 Just right behind me there. 426 00:30:23,160 --> 00:30:25,600 Hey, mate, do you speak English? 427 00:30:25,600 --> 00:30:29,600 Hey, can you just drop something for me as well, please? 428 00:30:29,600 --> 00:30:31,200 I'm hungry. 429 00:30:34,240 --> 00:30:35,560 Let him enjoy. 430 00:30:35,560 --> 00:30:37,200 And we've got to go back to work. 431 00:31:01,040 --> 00:31:03,880 Please stay. 432 00:31:03,880 --> 00:31:06,560 Please stay with me. 433 00:31:09,000 --> 00:31:14,440 Might not be the most good-looking shelter, but I'm proud I built it. 434 00:31:14,440 --> 00:31:17,280 Keeps me dry and keeps me warm. 435 00:31:19,360 --> 00:31:20,800 I'm happy with that. 436 00:31:22,720 --> 00:31:24,800 Getting pretty hungry, need to get some food. 437 00:31:26,040 --> 00:31:30,960 So today I am keen to go explore. 438 00:31:30,960 --> 00:31:34,760 Hopefully I can find some mushrooms. 439 00:31:34,760 --> 00:31:37,000 Changing my socks. 440 00:31:37,000 --> 00:31:39,000 So... 441 00:31:40,960 --> 00:31:47,560 ..this morning I put on a pair of socks that I used yesterday on. 442 00:31:47,560 --> 00:31:50,000 And I could feel that they were a little bit damp. 443 00:31:51,240 --> 00:31:53,680 And I put them on anyway. 444 00:31:53,680 --> 00:31:57,160 And it took me ages to get my feet warm up. 445 00:31:58,840 --> 00:32:00,560 And that was just laziness of me. 446 00:32:00,560 --> 00:32:02,720 I knew I shouldn't have done that. 447 00:32:02,720 --> 00:32:07,400 Because I have a pre-existing frostbite already. 448 00:32:08,880 --> 00:32:12,240 I got it when I raced in the Arctic. 449 00:32:12,240 --> 00:32:16,720 So my frostbite is up here. 450 00:32:16,720 --> 00:32:17,840 My precious toe. 451 00:32:17,840 --> 00:32:22,560 I need to look after her or she'll take me down. 452 00:32:22,560 --> 00:32:28,040 In the Arctic Circle, the smallest mistake can be fatal. 453 00:32:30,720 --> 00:32:33,760 Calories intake is my main focus today. 454 00:32:33,760 --> 00:32:38,640 So today's hike, hopefully it brings some good news. 455 00:32:45,080 --> 00:32:47,080 Have to be careful. 456 00:32:49,720 --> 00:32:55,840 I can use a lot of calories doing this, but I got no choice. 457 00:32:55,840 --> 00:33:00,000 Hopefully I can find some mushrooms. 458 00:33:13,680 --> 00:33:19,680 I'll climb up to the highest point on this land. 459 00:33:21,120 --> 00:33:23,120 I just want to see what's around me. 460 00:33:23,120 --> 00:33:26,440 Plenty of birds around this area. 461 00:33:27,560 --> 00:33:30,440 Could be mushroom that I recognize. 462 00:33:32,600 --> 00:33:35,360 my God! 463 00:33:46,560 --> 00:33:49,920 I'm going to eat a mushroom for dinner tonight. 464 00:33:51,360 --> 00:33:52,760 Do you see that? 465 00:33:58,920 --> 00:34:00,960 There's another one here. 466 00:34:03,880 --> 00:34:05,800 Two mushrooms. 467 00:34:05,800 --> 00:34:09,120 I'm going to have dinner. 468 00:34:10,280 --> 00:34:13,680 That was a big climb for two mushrooms. 469 00:34:16,160 --> 00:34:19,560 Now I have to find my way back to my shelter. 470 00:34:19,560 --> 00:34:20,760 OK. 471 00:34:26,680 --> 00:34:30,720 When the sun's up, I know it's going to go down really quickly. 472 00:34:42,440 --> 00:34:48,320 I think I've discovered another lake on this land. 473 00:34:48,320 --> 00:34:50,080 There's a big lake. 474 00:34:50,080 --> 00:34:52,600 There's a tiny little lake over there. 475 00:34:52,600 --> 00:34:54,720 And then there's another lake here. 476 00:35:01,360 --> 00:35:03,600 I really have to find my way back. 477 00:35:03,600 --> 00:35:04,800 To my shelter. 478 00:35:06,360 --> 00:35:09,520 To be honest, I'm not too sure where I am. 479 00:35:16,160 --> 00:35:17,800 I need to find my way back. 480 00:35:24,240 --> 00:35:26,080 I've been out all day. 481 00:35:29,200 --> 00:35:31,240 Here's another lake. 482 00:35:31,240 --> 00:35:32,880 It's one lake after another. 483 00:35:38,960 --> 00:35:41,320 I just lost my way, to be honest. 484 00:35:42,560 --> 00:35:44,880 It's getting really dark. 485 00:35:44,880 --> 00:35:46,640 Now I'm freaking out, 486 00:35:46,640 --> 00:35:49,200 because I haven't taken my head torch. 487 00:35:50,200 --> 00:35:51,640 my God. 488 00:35:59,560 --> 00:36:01,720 God. It's not good. 489 00:36:06,840 --> 00:36:08,680 I don't know where I am. 490 00:36:53,440 --> 00:36:56,680 We're heading down to the drink to have a swim. 491 00:36:56,680 --> 00:37:00,000 Wash, scrub, whatever you like to call it. 492 00:37:00,000 --> 00:37:03,200 I was going to leave the camera behind, but... 493 00:37:03,200 --> 00:37:05,920 I know you're a pack of twisted buggers. 494 00:37:05,920 --> 00:37:08,360 You'd probably want to see me naked. 495 00:37:09,480 --> 00:37:10,720 I've got news for you. 496 00:37:12,480 --> 00:37:14,280 It's not going to happen today. 497 00:37:14,280 --> 00:37:15,760 This is a family show. 498 00:37:16,920 --> 00:37:19,280 Who knows what will happen in the weeks to come, mind you. 499 00:37:23,080 --> 00:37:25,080 What are we? Day five? 500 00:37:26,600 --> 00:37:28,920 Rapidly closing in on our first week. 501 00:37:28,920 --> 00:37:30,880 I've got nothing to show for it. 502 00:37:33,680 --> 00:37:35,280 What the hell have I actually done? 503 00:37:36,560 --> 00:37:38,920 Everything takes so much time out here. 504 00:37:46,120 --> 00:37:48,360 So many times on Alone, 505 00:37:48,360 --> 00:37:51,560 we've seen people rush around like a blue-ass blowfly 506 00:37:51,560 --> 00:37:55,800 trying to build frigging mansions for shelters and everything else. 507 00:37:55,800 --> 00:37:57,520 And what's happened? 508 00:37:57,520 --> 00:38:00,440 They've crashed and burned just about every time. 509 00:38:08,360 --> 00:38:15,240 So my strategy all along is just slow down. 510 00:38:17,440 --> 00:38:21,320 Try not to burn too much energy. 511 00:38:23,240 --> 00:38:26,320 It's quite relaxing, that sound, just the eyes shut. 512 00:38:26,320 --> 00:38:29,400 Warmth of the sun, just the waves lapping on the beach 513 00:38:29,400 --> 00:38:30,880 and a bit of wind in the trees. 514 00:38:42,320 --> 00:38:45,440 I've just turned 57 years old. 515 00:38:45,440 --> 00:38:50,560 But I've probably got even a better mental toughness now 516 00:38:50,560 --> 00:38:53,120 than I had 30 years ago. 517 00:38:53,120 --> 00:38:57,440 The tough life at the farm has made me a pretty resilient character. 518 00:38:57,440 --> 00:39:00,080 It certainly teaches you survival skills. 519 00:39:02,880 --> 00:39:06,920 I do a lot of hunting around the farm, hunt wild deer. 520 00:39:06,920 --> 00:39:09,080 That's how we get most of our meat. 521 00:39:09,080 --> 00:39:13,120 And I've done a lot of incredible outdoor experiences. 522 00:39:13,120 --> 00:39:16,040 Kayaked 10,000 kays around Alaska, 523 00:39:16,040 --> 00:39:19,040 mountain biked across Australia and through Nepal and across India. 524 00:39:19,040 --> 00:39:23,280 Countless hunting trips throughout New Zealand and now I've got a good 525 00:39:23,280 --> 00:39:27,160 grounding in just about every outdoor skill I can think of. 526 00:39:27,160 --> 00:39:29,720 Shelter building, fishing. 527 00:39:29,720 --> 00:39:31,040 There he is. 528 00:39:31,040 --> 00:39:32,040 Holy shit! 529 00:39:32,040 --> 00:39:34,200 Look at that. 530 00:39:34,200 --> 00:39:35,600 Bloody hook... 531 00:39:35,600 --> 00:39:36,960 It's gone right into my thumb. 532 00:39:36,960 --> 00:39:39,320 I'm always looking for another challenge 533 00:39:39,320 --> 00:39:42,200 or something that's going to push me along a bit. 534 00:39:42,200 --> 00:39:44,680 It's almost like a mountain to climb to me. 535 00:39:44,680 --> 00:39:49,440 It's like there's a summit up there, you know, how can I get there? 536 00:39:49,440 --> 00:39:52,320 And on the top of that summit is obviously a pile of cash. 537 00:39:52,320 --> 00:39:55,960 I have no doubt I can win this because I've got the right attitude, 538 00:39:55,960 --> 00:39:57,200 the right mental attitude. 539 00:39:57,200 --> 00:39:58,800 There's only one way to do these things - 540 00:39:58,800 --> 00:40:00,280 you just harden up and get on with it. 541 00:40:00,280 --> 00:40:01,520 Take a cement pill. 542 00:40:01,520 --> 00:40:03,480 That is tough skin. 543 00:40:05,320 --> 00:40:08,040 Wind's not blowing, the lake's reasonably calm, 544 00:40:08,040 --> 00:40:09,080 we better have a fish. 545 00:40:11,160 --> 00:40:15,000 We might just chuck the rod in and have a few clicks of the fly. 546 00:40:15,000 --> 00:40:18,480 Just see if there's anything lurking. 547 00:40:24,760 --> 00:40:27,400 Priority today, really, is to attempt to catch a fish 548 00:40:27,400 --> 00:40:29,240 and get a bit of food in the old belly. 549 00:40:29,240 --> 00:40:31,000 It's starting to grumble and groan. 550 00:40:32,120 --> 00:40:35,520 Here, fishy, fishy, fishy. 551 00:40:35,520 --> 00:40:37,680 Got a big body. 552 00:40:39,200 --> 00:40:40,400 Six foot two. 553 00:40:40,400 --> 00:40:44,880 Takes a hell of a lot of calories and a lot of food to keep her going. 554 00:40:49,120 --> 00:40:52,000 Come on, fishy, fishy, fishy. 555 00:40:55,960 --> 00:40:57,200 What's that there? 556 00:40:57,200 --> 00:40:59,120 Is it a fish? 557 00:41:02,960 --> 00:41:04,560 bloody rock. 558 00:41:07,720 --> 00:41:09,040 Damn. 559 00:41:09,040 --> 00:41:11,960 Thought we might have been fairly deep out there. 560 00:41:11,960 --> 00:41:14,160 Got to be kidding me. 561 00:41:14,160 --> 00:41:17,480 I'm going to try and get the hook back if I can. 562 00:41:19,000 --> 00:41:21,120 OK, get some gear off. 563 00:41:28,480 --> 00:41:29,800 OK. 564 00:41:30,880 --> 00:41:32,480 No need to look now. 565 00:41:34,360 --> 00:41:36,680 A man's got to do what a man's got to do. 566 00:41:41,600 --> 00:41:45,640 under my feet too. 567 00:41:54,040 --> 00:41:55,440 Yep, got him. I got him. 568 00:41:57,920 --> 00:42:00,000 Jesus Christ, that's cold. 569 00:42:01,480 --> 00:42:04,960 My external organs have just about become internal organs. 570 00:42:08,720 --> 00:42:14,440 Well, it didn't go quite to plan, but at least we didn't lose any gear. 571 00:42:14,440 --> 00:42:19,320 I still think it's got potential here, but it's just not deep. 572 00:42:19,320 --> 00:42:23,160 Can't beat having a nice drop-off to fish into, eh? 573 00:42:24,760 --> 00:42:27,680 So we're going to have to just keep looking, keep exploring. 574 00:42:29,160 --> 00:42:30,160 We'll get there. 575 00:42:31,880 --> 00:42:36,000 Don't discount that old grey-haired farmer just yet. 576 00:42:54,400 --> 00:42:57,640 Just lost my way, to be honest. 577 00:42:57,640 --> 00:42:59,880 I don't know where I am. 578 00:42:59,880 --> 00:43:02,440 This is freaking me out. 579 00:43:07,000 --> 00:43:08,120 I'm sweating. 580 00:43:09,440 --> 00:43:10,960 Thirsty. 581 00:43:10,960 --> 00:43:15,240 I can see water all the way there, so I'm just going to head toward it 582 00:43:15,240 --> 00:43:18,600 and then try to find my way out or back to the shelter. 583 00:43:27,480 --> 00:43:28,920 I found my way back. 584 00:43:30,200 --> 00:43:32,160 my God. 585 00:43:32,160 --> 00:43:35,520 I've never been so happy to see shoreline before. 586 00:43:35,520 --> 00:43:38,120 thank God. 587 00:43:41,640 --> 00:43:43,640 Thank God. 588 00:43:45,480 --> 00:43:46,840 I'm back. 589 00:43:57,880 --> 00:44:00,000 So upset with myself. 590 00:44:01,760 --> 00:44:06,000 I did all the things you're not meant to do. 591 00:44:06,000 --> 00:44:07,080 So silly. 592 00:44:09,560 --> 00:44:15,960 When I saw that sun was coming down and I was in the middle of nowhere, 593 00:44:15,960 --> 00:44:20,360 that's when I realised that I was in a competition and that my time 594 00:44:20,360 --> 00:44:22,160 might be over. 595 00:44:25,000 --> 00:44:26,640 And I'm not ready to leave. 596 00:44:28,120 --> 00:44:29,960 I'm here... 597 00:44:29,960 --> 00:44:31,440 for another day. 598 00:44:59,080 --> 00:45:01,160 Look how beautiful she is. 599 00:45:01,160 --> 00:45:04,200 such a different vibe with the sun out. 600 00:45:06,800 --> 00:45:09,920 There's a rock over there that I've named Pride Rock. 601 00:45:09,920 --> 00:45:13,240 And I'm going to sit on that every morning and meditate for 10 minutes. 602 00:45:20,080 --> 00:45:24,400 The way my mind works is a balance of intuition and intellect. 603 00:45:26,480 --> 00:45:31,000 Meditation has been my path to fine-tuning my intuition. 604 00:45:33,760 --> 00:45:36,960 I think you do need a degree of intellect 605 00:45:36,960 --> 00:45:39,440 to be able to be successful out here. 606 00:45:39,440 --> 00:45:42,840 But you also just need to follow your gut to do things that feel right. 607 00:45:45,600 --> 00:45:47,920 satisfying. 608 00:45:47,920 --> 00:45:48,960 Look at that. 609 00:45:48,960 --> 00:45:51,640 Beautiful bush medicine. 610 00:45:51,640 --> 00:45:55,840 I studied science at university, so I am a trained scientist. 611 00:45:55,840 --> 00:45:57,920 And there's that part of my brain 612 00:45:57,920 --> 00:46:01,840 that loves to know how things work at the most minute detail. 613 00:46:01,840 --> 00:46:03,520 So it hasn't completely charred, 614 00:46:03,520 --> 00:46:05,960 it's just sort of dried it out a bit and hardened it. 615 00:46:05,960 --> 00:46:09,800 People don't often consider nerds and hardcore survivalists 616 00:46:09,800 --> 00:46:11,920 to belong in the same basket. 617 00:46:14,040 --> 00:46:15,440 I'm definitely both. 618 00:46:19,080 --> 00:46:21,800 I didn't discover my love of nature until my mid-20s 619 00:46:21,800 --> 00:46:23,960 when I started hiking in the Himalayas. 620 00:46:23,960 --> 00:46:27,960 I spent a month training at the Himalayan Mountaineering Institute 621 00:46:27,960 --> 00:46:29,160 in Darjeeling. 622 00:46:29,160 --> 00:46:33,320 That opened up a whole avenue for me of adventure. 623 00:46:34,840 --> 00:46:39,000 I think learning survival skills just organically evolved 624 00:46:39,000 --> 00:46:41,320 from spending so much time in the outdoors. 625 00:46:41,320 --> 00:46:45,040 A lot of my bushcraft skills are self-taught. 626 00:46:45,040 --> 00:46:49,240 So making notches using axes, de-looming trees. 627 00:46:49,240 --> 00:46:54,120 Anything that is going to really help me build a robust, 628 00:46:54,120 --> 00:46:56,080 bomb-proof shelter. 629 00:46:56,080 --> 00:46:58,320 And also I would say that I've got a pretty good technique 630 00:46:58,320 --> 00:47:02,160 when it comes to fly-fishing and hard-body lure fishing. 631 00:47:02,160 --> 00:47:05,920 I think I'm a serious contender for Alone. 632 00:47:05,920 --> 00:47:08,520 Having a combination of science and spirituality 633 00:47:08,520 --> 00:47:10,920 is going to serve me well out there on the land. 634 00:47:10,920 --> 00:47:13,280 And I can't wait to see what's in store. 635 00:47:17,600 --> 00:47:21,440 After days of agonising, I've 100% locked in 636 00:47:21,440 --> 00:47:24,120 the site for my permanent shelter. 637 00:47:24,120 --> 00:47:25,760 I've put the scaffolding together. 638 00:47:25,760 --> 00:47:29,520 There she is and that's what the bones of her are going to look like. 639 00:47:29,520 --> 00:47:31,200 I think she looks really good. 640 00:47:31,200 --> 00:47:33,360 So my plan is to move in tomorrow. 641 00:47:33,360 --> 00:47:34,800 No ifs or buts. 642 00:47:34,800 --> 00:47:37,920 I'm moving in on day 7. 643 00:47:37,920 --> 00:47:40,920 It's going to have the structural frame, the tarp's going over it. 644 00:47:40,920 --> 00:47:43,960 I'm going to put some rocks around the bases of the poles as well 645 00:47:43,960 --> 00:47:45,920 just to give them that extra stability. 646 00:47:47,640 --> 00:47:50,560 I want to get as many rocks up here as possible. 647 00:47:50,560 --> 00:47:55,760 So I'm going to go down the river and just get rocks. 648 00:47:55,760 --> 00:47:59,160 And fill my pack up with them and lug them back up the hill. 649 00:47:59,160 --> 00:48:01,240 And then before you know it, I'll have walls. 650 00:48:02,280 --> 00:48:08,840 I reckon I'm going to be carrying about 40 kilos of rocks each trip. 651 00:48:08,840 --> 00:48:11,200 Which is like, not small. 652 00:48:11,200 --> 00:48:15,160 It's like carrying a small child or a small person on my back. 653 00:48:19,360 --> 00:48:20,680 Here we are. 654 00:48:20,680 --> 00:48:23,680 There's just rocks everywhere. 655 00:48:23,680 --> 00:48:25,240 I'm in Wonderland. 656 00:48:25,240 --> 00:48:26,800 Alyce in Wonderland. 657 00:48:31,120 --> 00:48:33,640 my God, that is heavy. 658 00:48:35,120 --> 00:48:38,120 Building a good shelter that's warm enough 659 00:48:38,120 --> 00:48:40,160 is going to be important in my strategy. 660 00:48:42,160 --> 00:48:44,920 You know what, that'll do. 661 00:48:44,920 --> 00:48:47,280 Alright, let's see if we can carry this. 662 00:48:50,960 --> 00:48:52,360 my God. 663 00:48:54,040 --> 00:48:56,480 okay, that really hurt. 664 00:48:59,320 --> 00:49:01,000 Fuck. 665 00:49:01,000 --> 00:49:05,080 I think I just pulled a muscle in my hip trying to get up then. 666 00:49:05,080 --> 00:49:07,600 Goodness. 667 00:49:07,600 --> 00:49:09,480 That really, really hurt. 668 00:49:11,640 --> 00:49:14,760 I've got to get back up the hill. 669 00:49:17,520 --> 00:49:19,720 Like, right here. 670 00:49:19,720 --> 00:49:21,200 my God. 671 00:49:22,400 --> 00:49:24,840 Yeah, that's not good. 672 00:50:01,920 --> 00:50:03,960 Humble abode. 673 00:50:03,960 --> 00:50:05,720 I'm pretty happy with that team. 674 00:50:09,280 --> 00:50:11,440 You see this behind me? 675 00:50:11,440 --> 00:50:13,400 I made this. 676 00:50:13,400 --> 00:50:14,760 I did. 677 00:50:14,760 --> 00:50:16,400 The one and only. 678 00:50:16,400 --> 00:50:18,320 The Mist. 679 00:50:18,320 --> 00:50:20,240 So... 680 00:50:20,240 --> 00:50:23,320 I'm going to move everything into it now. 681 00:50:23,320 --> 00:50:25,160 Mission. 682 00:50:25,160 --> 00:50:27,840 I just got a pep in my step today. 683 00:50:29,240 --> 00:50:30,240 Mad happy. 684 00:50:31,560 --> 00:50:33,320 Alright. 685 00:50:33,320 --> 00:50:35,560 My biggest concern right now 686 00:50:35,560 --> 00:50:39,200 is just making sure I get the bed frame up there. 687 00:51:09,640 --> 00:51:12,160 Feeling a little tired. 688 00:51:20,320 --> 00:51:22,240 Alright. 689 00:51:22,240 --> 00:51:25,240 I officially moved into this campsite. 690 00:51:30,600 --> 00:51:33,520 I should be feeling good about it. 691 00:51:33,520 --> 00:51:36,120 Or maybe I'm just low blood sugar or something. 692 00:51:37,280 --> 00:51:38,960 Burned a lot of energy doing that. 693 00:51:38,960 --> 00:51:40,800 Those logs were hectic. 694 00:51:59,920 --> 00:52:03,880 It seems after every time I do some hard yakka, 695 00:52:03,880 --> 00:52:07,040 and I think burn a lot of energy... 696 00:52:07,040 --> 00:52:10,600 I just get into a very emotional state. 697 00:52:10,600 --> 00:52:14,240 I really wonder how everyone else is doing. 698 00:52:15,280 --> 00:52:20,120 I just keep having these big bouts of emotions. 699 00:52:20,120 --> 00:52:23,000 I'm struggling with trying to find the balance, you know. 700 00:52:25,600 --> 00:52:27,440 Yeah, like I'm just not... 701 00:52:29,280 --> 00:52:32,680 I'm just not enjoying myself as much as I thought I'd be. 702 00:52:32,680 --> 00:52:36,400 And maybe it's because it's the alone factor of it. 703 00:52:38,680 --> 00:52:42,960 There's a big chunk of my life where I did a lot of stuff alone. 704 00:52:44,520 --> 00:52:47,560 Like, I had a drug overdose. 705 00:52:47,560 --> 00:52:49,400 When I was in hospital, 706 00:52:49,400 --> 00:52:53,200 no one was with me in the hospital. 707 00:52:59,120 --> 00:53:00,120 And... 708 00:53:01,920 --> 00:53:04,040 It's a pretty shit feeling, you know. 709 00:53:05,480 --> 00:53:06,880 Pretty shit feeling. 710 00:53:11,920 --> 00:53:13,120 No one... 711 00:53:15,400 --> 00:53:17,600 No one came. 712 00:53:19,080 --> 00:53:25,080 And my body's like, "What? I thought you'd left that tough life behind." 713 00:53:27,320 --> 00:53:30,120 Me too, my friend, me too. 714 00:53:30,120 --> 00:53:33,160 But it's a quarter of a million dollars on the line. 715 00:53:36,880 --> 00:53:40,080 And the only thing my mind is telling me is like, 716 00:53:40,080 --> 00:53:41,960 "Why are you doing this to yourself?" 717 00:53:41,960 --> 00:53:43,560 You know? Like... 718 00:53:43,560 --> 00:53:45,480 "What are you trying to prove?" 719 00:53:53,400 --> 00:53:56,200 I just didn't think it would be like this. 720 00:54:06,800 --> 00:54:09,840 I just feel like I'm in like this... 721 00:54:09,840 --> 00:54:12,200 constant fight or flight mode 722 00:54:12,200 --> 00:54:13,840 this whole experience. 723 00:54:20,800 --> 00:54:23,880 Yeah, that's all I'm realising, you know. 724 00:54:25,640 --> 00:54:28,000 And I'm just emotional. 725 00:54:33,640 --> 00:54:35,320 Fuck, I needed that cry. 726 00:54:35,320 --> 00:54:37,960 I just needed... I just needed a big cry. 727 00:55:03,360 --> 00:55:05,680 God. 728 00:55:05,680 --> 00:55:08,800 This hip has gotten worse. 729 00:55:08,800 --> 00:55:13,160 Really beating myself up for picking up those rocks in the bag like that. 730 00:55:13,160 --> 00:55:15,600 You know, it wasn't really necessary. 731 00:55:15,600 --> 00:55:18,760 I was going to move into my permanent shelter today. 732 00:55:18,760 --> 00:55:23,280 And I need to move all my stuff about 50 metres up the hill, 733 00:55:23,280 --> 00:55:24,720 onto flat ground. 734 00:55:24,720 --> 00:55:28,400 I cannot stay on this sloped block any longer. 735 00:55:28,400 --> 00:55:31,520 It's okay, I'm going to find a solution. 736 00:55:34,040 --> 00:55:38,080 So this... this position like on my knees... 737 00:55:38,080 --> 00:55:41,000 Well, on my shins and leaning a bit to the right, 738 00:55:41,000 --> 00:55:42,880 it seems to be better. 739 00:55:42,880 --> 00:55:44,160 Like, workable. 740 00:55:44,160 --> 00:55:46,960 Yeah, that's better. 741 00:55:46,960 --> 00:55:49,120 Right leg, right leg. 742 00:55:49,120 --> 00:55:53,480 I'm just going to take it in small trips and just move everything up. 743 00:55:55,080 --> 00:56:00,200 I'm going to start with my little day pack and just see how that goes. 744 00:56:00,200 --> 00:56:03,840 Just little steps, I'm not going to push it. 745 00:56:03,840 --> 00:56:04,840 my God. 746 00:56:06,200 --> 00:56:08,680 You just really can't appreciate how steep it is. 747 00:56:12,040 --> 00:56:13,560 it hurts. 748 00:56:16,960 --> 00:56:18,960 Nah. 749 00:56:18,960 --> 00:56:21,080 This is not a good idea. 750 00:56:21,080 --> 00:56:23,560 I physically cannot with this hip. 751 00:56:23,560 --> 00:56:25,200 It's going to destroy me. 752 00:56:26,400 --> 00:56:28,320 I don't know what to do. 753 00:56:33,280 --> 00:56:35,560 I had so many plans. 754 00:56:36,800 --> 00:56:39,840 Because my body feels so low. 755 00:56:39,840 --> 00:56:41,040 I think I have something. 756 00:56:42,040 --> 00:56:44,120 no! 757 00:56:44,120 --> 00:56:45,960 How much failure can I take? 758 00:56:45,960 --> 00:56:49,560 I'm building a damn boat in the Arctic. 759 00:56:49,560 --> 00:56:51,480 Hey, mate, come check out my boat. 760 00:56:51,480 --> 00:56:55,040 I can't keep going like this without a feed. 761 00:56:55,040 --> 00:56:56,440 no. 762 00:56:56,440 --> 00:56:59,800 I've got one hope and that is to find fish. 763 00:56:59,800 --> 00:57:03,200 There's so much riding on this kayak, it's unbelievable. 764 00:57:03,200 --> 00:57:05,360 my hip. 765 00:57:05,360 --> 00:57:06,960 I feel like giving up. 766 00:57:11,200 --> 00:57:13,560 I just don't want to be doing this alone, you know. 767 00:57:22,484 --> 00:57:24,484 .