1 00:00:02,494 --> 00:00:04,964 - Get your hands off the radio! - What? 2 00:00:05,098 --> 00:00:07,100 - I want to play something. Stop! No! - Oh, God, no. 3 00:00:07,232 --> 00:00:09,501 - I want to turn it up. Please! - It's my radio! 4 00:00:09,636 --> 00:00:11,370 God, you're such a shit! 5 00:00:11,503 --> 00:00:13,806 Ellen, watch the... watch the road! Watch the road! 6 00:00:13,940 --> 00:00:15,607 Stop! Wait! 7 00:00:15,742 --> 00:00:17,810 No! 8 00:00:23,016 --> 00:00:24,651 Veronica... 9 00:00:24,784 --> 00:00:25,718 Veronica? 10 00:00:39,164 --> 00:00:40,767 Veronica! 11 00:00:55,014 --> 00:00:55,948 Morning, V. 12 00:00:57,282 --> 00:00:59,217 Today... 13 00:01:00,153 --> 00:01:01,154 I'm a three. 14 00:01:01,520 --> 00:01:04,991 Which is good, yesterday was like a six. 15 00:01:05,124 --> 00:01:06,491 16 00:01:06,626 --> 00:01:08,094 17 00:01:08,226 --> 00:01:09,561 18 00:01:09,696 --> 00:01:11,097 19 00:01:11,229 --> 00:01:12,531 20 00:01:12,665 --> 00:01:14,167 21 00:01:14,299 --> 00:01:15,668 22 00:01:15,802 --> 00:01:17,036 23 00:01:17,170 --> 00:01:19,072 24 00:01:19,204 --> 00:01:20,572 25 00:01:20,707 --> 00:01:21,974 26 00:01:22,108 --> 00:01:23,475 27 00:01:23,608 --> 00:01:25,078 28 00:01:25,210 --> 00:01:26,611 29 00:01:26,746 --> 00:01:29,347 in a dark town 30 00:01:29,782 --> 00:01:32,617 31 00:01:32,752 --> 00:01:35,554 32 00:01:35,688 --> 00:01:38,423 33 00:01:38,858 --> 00:01:41,226 funeral pyre 34 00:01:41,359 --> 00:01:48,101 that your heart desires 35 00:01:48,233 --> 00:01:51,503 36 00:01:51,637 --> 00:01:54,272 37 00:02:03,015 --> 00:02:04,583 - Hey. - Hey, Care Bear. 38 00:02:04,717 --> 00:02:07,787 Can we do a quick packing check, please? 39 00:02:07,920 --> 00:02:09,989 Okay, fine. 40 00:02:10,455 --> 00:02:11,590 - Clothes? - Check. 41 00:02:11,724 --> 00:02:13,358 Toothbrush? Bathroom stuff? 42 00:02:13,492 --> 00:02:15,560 That is very vague, but check. 43 00:02:16,428 --> 00:02:18,965 - Meds? - Check. 44 00:02:19,564 --> 00:02:21,500 Everything you need for Portland? 45 00:02:22,601 --> 00:02:25,071 - Check. - Sounds like you've got everything. 46 00:02:25,604 --> 00:02:27,206 That's the worst packing check ever. 47 00:02:27,774 --> 00:02:29,842 Do you have all of your diabetic accoutrements? 48 00:02:29,976 --> 00:02:32,845 - Of course. - What about your paperwork for South Dakota? 49 00:02:33,445 --> 00:02:36,249 Uh, yeah. Junior, it's fine. Don't worry. 50 00:02:36,649 --> 00:02:39,185 - I'm just preparing. - I know, Polar Bear. 51 00:02:39,484 --> 00:02:44,023 Just... get in the shower and I'll be there in a bit, okay? 52 00:02:44,456 --> 00:02:45,423 Okay, bye. 53 00:02:45,925 --> 00:02:49,929 54 00:02:50,362 --> 00:02:53,298 55 00:02:53,431 --> 00:02:56,601 56 00:03:08,714 --> 00:03:11,651 57 00:03:11,784 --> 00:03:14,720 58 00:03:14,854 --> 00:03:17,857 59 00:03:17,990 --> 00:03:20,860 60 00:03:21,294 --> 00:03:23,428 61 00:03:23,562 --> 00:03:27,033 - - Thanks, Sam. 62 00:03:27,733 --> 00:03:33,505 63 00:03:33,639 --> 00:03:36,642 64 00:03:36,776 --> 00:03:39,377 65 00:03:39,812 --> 00:03:42,614 66 00:03:42,748 --> 00:03:45,483 67 00:03:45,918 --> 00:03:48,788 68 00:03:48,921 --> 00:03:51,724 69 00:03:51,858 --> 00:03:53,659 - Uh, hey, she. - Mm-hmm. 70 00:03:53,793 --> 00:03:55,527 I thought we talked about downsizing? 71 00:03:55,661 --> 00:03:57,864 I did... 72 00:03:59,932 --> 00:04:01,566 You seriously just going to watch me? 73 00:04:01,701 --> 00:04:03,501 I don't want to waste my arms on this. 74 00:04:03,636 --> 00:04:05,104 If you want me to drive too, I can't. 75 00:04:05,238 --> 00:04:07,472 Alright, what else do you need in the back seat? 76 00:04:08,007 --> 00:04:11,110 - Hmm, the record player? - You got your keys? 77 00:04:12,211 --> 00:04:13,346 Okay. 78 00:04:22,255 --> 00:04:25,191 Okay, okay. We have been on the road now for two hours... 79 00:04:25,324 --> 00:04:28,728 ...and I haven't heard any of Veronica's songs! 80 00:04:28,861 --> 00:04:31,063 Okay, only because it's Veronica's stuff. 81 00:04:35,701 --> 00:04:37,169 See? 82 00:04:37,569 --> 00:04:40,072 I mean, I like that smile on your face. 83 00:04:40,472 --> 00:04:41,439 That's pretty dope. 84 00:04:42,008 --> 00:04:44,010 It's good, it's... 85 00:04:44,509 --> 00:04:47,545 people go to see 86 00:04:47,680 --> 00:04:50,349 not for us, we don't care 87 00:04:50,482 --> 00:04:53,319 stay and play, advertise 88 00:04:53,451 --> 00:04:54,687 89 00:04:55,121 --> 00:04:57,589 you keep the church 90 00:04:57,723 --> 00:04:59,892 and leave them 91 00:05:00,026 --> 00:05:01,861 it right, itemize 92 00:05:01,994 --> 00:05:03,829 stay up late all the night 93 00:05:03,963 --> 00:05:05,765 94 00:05:06,265 --> 00:05:07,700 - What is that? - I don't know! 95 00:05:07,833 --> 00:05:09,235 It's a little poppy for me. 96 00:05:09,368 --> 00:05:13,205 Don't give me diabetes again with your music. 97 00:05:13,639 --> 00:05:15,308 So, I'm sorry, how does diabetes work? 98 00:05:15,675 --> 00:05:17,310 Sh... should I just turn the car around? 99 00:05:17,475 --> 00:05:19,345 I was going to fall asleep when you started... 100 00:05:19,477 --> 00:05:22,014 ...but, no, I'm really interested. 101 00:05:24,283 --> 00:05:26,252 Why don't you just get it renewed online? 102 00:05:26,385 --> 00:05:28,453 I don't know! Just the way I've always done it. 103 00:05:29,521 --> 00:05:32,258 Well, why don't you have a California driver's license? 104 00:05:32,658 --> 00:05:34,427 Because it seems like a lot of paperwork? 105 00:05:34,727 --> 00:05:37,562 I think I'd be embarrassed to have a South Dakota driver's license. 106 00:05:37,697 --> 00:05:39,464 - Just saying! - Aw, that's really sweet. 107 00:05:39,597 --> 00:05:42,467 Hey, what are you doing? You're driving. Go! 108 00:05:42,600 --> 00:05:44,303 - Ugh! - Go! 109 00:05:44,437 --> 00:05:47,239 Wait, hold on. Just give me a second, okay? 110 00:05:48,540 --> 00:05:49,909 - Hey, what's up? - Hey. 111 00:05:50,209 --> 00:05:52,211 - Did you talk to her? - No, but... 112 00:05:52,345 --> 00:05:54,213 - No, dude, don't... don't call me... - I just want... 113 00:05:54,347 --> 00:05:57,016 - ...unless you actually talk to her, okay? - Alright, fine. 114 00:05:57,149 --> 00:05:59,051 - Alright, talk to you later. - Alright. 115 00:05:59,885 --> 00:06:01,586 - Alright, you ready? - Yeah. 116 00:06:01,721 --> 00:06:02,922 Alright, let's go! 117 00:06:03,923 --> 00:06:07,259 - Who you talking to? - Uh... I was just talking to my brother. 118 00:06:08,526 --> 00:06:11,430 So, I... I found the ice, 119 00:06:11,563 --> 00:06:14,066 and I could barely touch the bottom, 120 00:06:14,200 --> 00:06:17,535 and... I hit my head on something, 121 00:06:17,670 --> 00:06:19,972 so I don't really remember what happened, 122 00:06:20,106 --> 00:06:23,442 but... somehow my friend pulled me out. 123 00:06:23,776 --> 00:06:27,013 So, I guess I died... for a few seconds. 124 00:06:27,913 --> 00:06:31,784 But I guess it just never really occurred to me to tell my parents about it. 125 00:06:32,651 --> 00:06:36,655 Isn't it weird how things just aren't a big deal, if you don't acknowledge it? 126 00:06:37,823 --> 00:06:42,328 Like when a kid hits its head and you laugh so it doesn't cry and freak out. 127 00:06:42,695 --> 00:06:44,663 Yes, exactly. Exactly. 128 00:06:45,698 --> 00:06:48,234 You know, I think I was kind of that way after my surgery, 129 00:06:49,668 --> 00:06:53,372 I was, like, in so much physical pain, 130 00:06:54,373 --> 00:06:58,077 but I was just completely casual about how I was suffering. 131 00:06:59,078 --> 00:07:01,480 It was like the mental anguish was enough, 132 00:07:01,613 --> 00:07:02,982 that I didn't know how to... 133 00:07:04,817 --> 00:07:06,252 like, deal with my physical pain, 134 00:07:06,385 --> 00:07:08,988 so I just, like, didn't acknowledge it. 135 00:07:09,422 --> 00:07:11,524 I just put it in a box, put it to the side, 136 00:07:11,957 --> 00:07:14,627 didn't think about it, said, "I'll talk to you later." 137 00:07:15,494 --> 00:07:17,730 - You can deal with pain for, like, 30 seconds. - Yeah. 138 00:07:17,863 --> 00:07:19,665 Like anyone, any kind of pain. 139 00:07:20,199 --> 00:07:23,903 But then 30 seconds becomes 30 minutes, 140 00:07:24,036 --> 00:07:27,206 and then... 30 minutes becomes a month, 141 00:07:27,339 --> 00:07:31,977 and then a month becomes... years later. 142 00:07:34,447 --> 00:07:36,581 I have no idea why we started talking about my pain. 143 00:07:36,715 --> 00:07:39,151 - I'm sorry. - Dude, don't apologize. 144 00:07:39,385 --> 00:07:41,220 I mean, look at you. You're driving. 145 00:07:41,353 --> 00:07:42,922 Your pain can suck it. 146 00:07:43,055 --> 00:07:46,292 Yeah, suck it. 147 00:07:52,298 --> 00:07:55,101 I never told my parents I knew they weren't in love with each other. 148 00:07:56,769 --> 00:07:58,070 Shit, woman. 149 00:07:59,138 --> 00:08:02,575 If that's not the first line of your memoir. 150 00:08:09,315 --> 00:08:12,184 - Alright, let me go over, assholes. You have to get over. - I'm trying! 151 00:08:12,318 --> 00:08:14,120 - Get over! - God, stop yelling at me... 152 00:08:14,253 --> 00:08:16,088 - I'm not... - ...you're like the worst fucking nav system ever. 153 00:08:16,222 --> 00:08:18,124 - Let me over, dick cheese. - Stop it, can you... 154 00:08:18,257 --> 00:08:19,892 - No, hold on! - No, you hold on. 155 00:08:20,025 --> 00:08:21,560 - Jesus Christ! - Fuck! 156 00:08:21,694 --> 00:08:23,929 Shut up, shut up, shut up. 157 00:08:24,063 --> 00:08:26,132 You're from LA, I thought you were a better driver. 158 00:08:26,265 --> 00:08:28,100 I am, I'm just highly aggressive. 159 00:08:28,234 --> 00:08:30,202 That's the LA driving way. 160 00:08:30,703 --> 00:08:34,206 Did you ever see that movie Leaving Las Vegas, with Nicolas Cage? 161 00:08:34,340 --> 00:08:37,076 The one where he gets, like, blackout drunk the whole time? 162 00:08:37,209 --> 00:08:40,579 It's a little... more nuanced than that, but yeah. 163 00:08:41,113 --> 00:08:45,284 I just think we shouldn't do a Nicolas Cage in Vegas. 164 00:08:45,718 --> 00:08:48,854 Oh, yeah, there's nothing worse than, like, hungover driving. 165 00:08:48,988 --> 00:08:51,924 We have to find a perfect balance, okay? 166 00:08:52,057 --> 00:08:55,094 Of, uh, dulling all of these senses 167 00:08:55,394 --> 00:08:57,730 and still being able to get in this vehicle tomorrow, 168 00:08:57,863 --> 00:09:02,168 - drive and not throw up everywhere. - Yeah! 169 00:09:02,301 --> 00:09:04,537 - I can do that. - Well, guess what? You are in luck, 170 00:09:04,670 --> 00:09:07,139 because I am the expert at that. 171 00:09:08,207 --> 00:09:11,110 - How? - I took a class. 172 00:09:12,611 --> 00:09:15,014 Out of this entire road trip we planned, 173 00:09:15,581 --> 00:09:18,450 Vegas scares me the most. Isn't that depressing? 174 00:09:18,584 --> 00:09:19,885 Even more than Portland? 175 00:09:20,386 --> 00:09:22,955 I think Portland is going to be, like, mental pain, I guess, 176 00:09:23,088 --> 00:09:26,225 but physical pain. 177 00:09:27,326 --> 00:09:30,129 You know, it's... it's electric, it's alive. 178 00:09:30,262 --> 00:09:32,097 The lights, the money, the people. 179 00:09:32,231 --> 00:09:35,234 All my nerves, they start going like that. 180 00:09:35,635 --> 00:09:39,305 You know, there's other hotels. We don't have to stay here. 181 00:09:39,438 --> 00:09:41,807 Oh, I didn't say I wanted to skip it. 182 00:09:42,208 --> 00:09:45,110 - It was just letting you know. - Alright, well, 183 00:09:45,244 --> 00:09:47,112 let's get to dulling those senses then! 184 00:09:47,513 --> 00:09:50,449 - Oh! - 185 00:09:52,017 --> 00:09:55,120 Truth, dare. Truth, dare. Truth, dare. 186 00:09:55,254 --> 00:09:57,323 Truth, dare. Dare to... dare, truth! 187 00:09:57,456 --> 00:10:01,760 Okay, if all of this can't handle all of that, 188 00:10:02,194 --> 00:10:05,497 then we just come back and we enjoy the pretty lights, deal? 189 00:10:07,166 --> 00:10:09,335 - Deal. - Seal it with a drink. 190 00:10:09,468 --> 00:10:11,303 - Oh! Oh! - Oh! 191 00:10:11,870 --> 00:10:14,607 Don't chug it, jeez! 192 00:10:18,777 --> 00:10:21,146 - I'm from LA! - What? 193 00:10:21,780 --> 00:10:23,717 I have a chronic pain disorder. 194 00:10:24,116 --> 00:10:25,384 Totally. 195 00:10:36,262 --> 00:10:39,865 You can't see my pain. It makes me really lonely. 196 00:10:40,966 --> 00:10:42,534 Sagittarius. 197 00:10:50,075 --> 00:10:52,712 I have diabetes! 198 00:10:52,845 --> 00:10:55,314 A-bada-deesh-ada-bam! 199 00:10:55,447 --> 00:10:58,450 Humm ashabe! 200 00:10:58,584 --> 00:11:01,587 Bye, Sagittarius! 201 00:11:04,290 --> 00:11:06,660 Oh, my God! 202 00:11:06,792 --> 00:11:09,061 Okay, okay, okay, okay. Alright. 203 00:11:09,194 --> 00:11:12,598 Uh, truth or dare? 204 00:11:12,732 --> 00:11:15,067 - Dare. - You always pick dare! 205 00:11:15,200 --> 00:11:18,103 - Duh... - Okay, fine! 206 00:11:18,638 --> 00:11:20,372 How about... 207 00:11:21,974 --> 00:11:24,910 I dare you to piss in the sink. 208 00:11:30,249 --> 00:11:32,351 - Okay! - No, dude! 209 00:11:32,484 --> 00:11:34,420 - So gross! - I mean, I got to pee, so... 210 00:11:34,553 --> 00:11:38,223 I already said I could do it, you're not supposed to do it! 211 00:11:38,490 --> 00:11:42,561 Oh, my God! 212 00:11:44,263 --> 00:11:46,131 Yep. Watch this. Oh! 213 00:11:46,265 --> 00:11:48,267 - Oh! - Oh, Jun, are you okay? 214 00:11:48,400 --> 00:11:51,470 - I have a romper on! - Well, that's part of why I dared you! 215 00:11:51,603 --> 00:11:55,407 - Is because I could say, "Hers was a dare!" - You say... 216 00:11:57,376 --> 00:12:00,879 I can't feel pain! 217 00:12:03,717 --> 00:12:05,184 I can't feel pain. 218 00:12:05,951 --> 00:12:07,453 Is this... is this what... 219 00:12:07,586 --> 00:12:09,988 is this what other people feel like? 220 00:12:10,757 --> 00:12:14,059 And their lives, like, all the time, pain-free? 221 00:12:15,461 --> 00:12:16,663 Okay... yeah... 222 00:12:17,162 --> 00:12:18,864 Your turn, truth or dare? 223 00:12:19,833 --> 00:12:24,036 Truth, because I don't want to move. 224 00:12:24,870 --> 00:12:26,538 Tell me a secret. 225 00:12:28,073 --> 00:12:29,875 Okay, what are we, five? 226 00:12:30,943 --> 00:12:33,612 Yes. 227 00:12:35,114 --> 00:12:37,049 Ugh, okay. 228 00:12:39,318 --> 00:12:40,285 A secret. 229 00:12:41,620 --> 00:12:43,255 Okay, I... 230 00:12:45,424 --> 00:12:49,027 I don't think that my mom left because I got sick. 231 00:12:49,829 --> 00:12:53,232 I think she left because I was never going to be 232 00:12:53,365 --> 00:12:59,571 Miss Teen Supreme, pageant... whatever. 233 00:13:00,172 --> 00:13:02,908 I think that I got sick, and that was, like, 234 00:13:03,041 --> 00:13:07,379 the final straw that broke the camel's back or something. 235 00:13:07,513 --> 00:13:10,416 - I don't know. - You really think that? 236 00:13:11,651 --> 00:13:13,653 - Does it really matter? Stop! - I'm sorry. 237 00:13:13,787 --> 00:13:17,523 - What... stop! No, don't pet me! Stop! - I'm sorry! I'm sorry! 238 00:13:17,657 --> 00:13:19,925 - Stop! - You're so fucking sad. 239 00:13:20,058 --> 00:13:23,028 Yeah, okay. Truth or dare? 240 00:13:24,163 --> 00:13:28,567 - I'm sorry your mom was dumb. - Yeah, yeah, yeah. Truth or dare? 241 00:13:29,368 --> 00:13:32,237 - Truth. - Alright, okay. 242 00:13:32,371 --> 00:13:34,674 The big spoon. Make it a really good one. 243 00:13:34,808 --> 00:13:36,810 - Mm. - Okay! 244 00:13:37,644 --> 00:13:39,378 It's going to be a really intense truth. 245 00:13:39,511 --> 00:13:40,946 - Are you ready? - Yeah. 246 00:13:41,079 --> 00:13:43,716 - It's so super deep. - Mm-hmm. 247 00:13:44,516 --> 00:13:49,621 Did you ever truly believe in unicorns? 248 00:13:56,128 --> 00:13:57,262 Fuck. 249 00:13:59,899 --> 00:14:01,467 Oh, my God. 250 00:14:02,869 --> 00:14:04,136 Oh, f... shit. 251 00:14:04,269 --> 00:14:05,971 We did not just fall asleep... 252 00:14:06,639 --> 00:14:07,874 Fucking tub. 253 00:14:08,207 --> 00:14:10,275 Oh, God. 254 00:14:10,643 --> 00:14:12,611 Oh... 255 00:14:13,145 --> 00:14:15,815 - Oh, Junior... - Oh, balls. 256 00:14:16,048 --> 00:14:17,316 Oh, my God. 257 00:14:18,450 --> 00:14:20,252 Oh, you have to call a crane. 258 00:14:20,385 --> 00:14:23,690 I don't think they have that service here. 259 00:14:38,470 --> 00:14:41,139 260 00:14:41,273 --> 00:14:43,542 261 00:14:45,444 --> 00:14:50,783 always sleep alone 262 00:14:52,017 --> 00:14:54,586 like a lightning 263 00:14:54,721 --> 00:14:58,056 out the city below 264 00:14:59,926 --> 00:15:05,464 up the telephone 265 00:15:23,716 --> 00:15:24,784 Oh... oh, God. 266 00:15:25,450 --> 00:15:28,120 - Help... help me. - I don't want to. 267 00:15:28,253 --> 00:15:30,790 - You'll help me. - No, I don't want to. 268 00:15:40,532 --> 00:15:44,169 I'm still drunk! 269 00:15:45,203 --> 00:15:46,773 To the Salt Flats. 270 00:15:46,906 --> 00:15:48,607 What the hell are Salt Flats? 271 00:15:48,741 --> 00:15:51,109 Really? It's a Veronica stop. 272 00:15:53,913 --> 00:15:55,180 Are we growing? 273 00:15:56,315 --> 00:15:57,817 We're always growing. 274 00:15:59,919 --> 00:16:01,688 I used to think that. 275 00:16:02,855 --> 00:16:03,923 I feel stagnant. 276 00:16:04,623 --> 00:16:06,458 Alright, well, maybe you're not growing right this minute, 277 00:16:06,592 --> 00:16:09,528 but that's because you're hungover with your face in salt. 278 00:16:10,897 --> 00:16:13,265 Ah... Fuck. 279 00:16:13,833 --> 00:16:15,100 Oh, God. 280 00:16:23,643 --> 00:16:25,678 Why do we keep hurting ourselves? 281 00:16:27,145 --> 00:16:29,548 Because it feels really good at the time. 282 00:16:33,619 --> 00:16:35,822 What else is there but feeling good at the time? 283 00:16:37,422 --> 00:16:40,359 Well, I don't know about you, but... 284 00:16:41,393 --> 00:16:43,261 I feel pretty good right now. 285 00:16:44,229 --> 00:16:45,832 Apart from being super dehydrated. 286 00:17:09,254 --> 00:17:10,489 Cheers, V. 287 00:17:14,093 --> 00:17:15,360 - Ready? - Mm-hmm. 288 00:17:21,734 --> 00:17:23,468 289 00:17:23,903 --> 00:17:26,005 290 00:17:26,139 --> 00:17:31,243 the skies turn gray 291 00:17:31,376 --> 00:17:33,746 292 00:17:34,513 --> 00:17:37,516 293 00:17:37,650 --> 00:17:40,720 and empty seats 294 00:17:40,853 --> 00:17:46,224 half spent into midnight 295 00:17:47,126 --> 00:17:50,495 and count my rings 296 00:17:50,630 --> 00:17:53,532 wait for spring 297 00:17:53,666 --> 00:17:56,836 298 00:17:56,969 --> 00:17:59,072 299 00:18:00,039 --> 00:18:03,076 you've watched me burn 300 00:18:03,208 --> 00:18:06,378 your phrases turn 301 00:18:06,511 --> 00:18:09,115 half fixed... 302 00:18:09,247 --> 00:18:10,650 Okay. 303 00:18:13,653 --> 00:18:14,586 Okay. 304 00:18:18,191 --> 00:18:19,391 Okay. 305 00:18:27,499 --> 00:18:30,502 - Oh, there we go. Okay. - Oh, I need that bed. 306 00:18:30,636 --> 00:18:33,371 But... I like to be near the bathroom. 307 00:18:33,505 --> 00:18:34,907 I can't be by the air. 308 00:18:35,574 --> 00:18:37,242 Oh, that's right. Okay. 309 00:18:37,744 --> 00:18:39,946 - Thanks. - No, it's no problem. 310 00:18:40,079 --> 00:18:43,850 I like all the large homeless men to be able to see me. I need to get some. 311 00:18:44,349 --> 00:18:45,885 I think maybe you should close the blinds. 312 00:18:46,018 --> 00:18:49,021 - Oh, no. It takes all the fun out of it. - Okay. 313 00:18:49,689 --> 00:18:52,125 - Oh, holy shit. - Oh, my God. What? 314 00:18:52,591 --> 00:18:54,927 You know it's a classy-ass establishment, 315 00:18:55,061 --> 00:18:58,231 when the name is on the towel. 316 00:18:58,363 --> 00:19:01,768 - You take me to all the best places. - Oh, you know it, sugar. 317 00:19:01,901 --> 00:19:03,602 I'm so lucky. 318 00:19:05,437 --> 00:19:08,507 Alright, I am ordering pizza. 319 00:19:10,342 --> 00:19:12,879 - Really? - Oh, it's fine. 320 00:19:13,012 --> 00:19:15,514 I'll just tell my robot pancreas to suck it. 321 00:19:16,949 --> 00:19:17,850 Okay. 322 00:19:23,288 --> 00:19:25,725 Hi! Yeah, can I get, um, 323 00:19:25,858 --> 00:19:28,995 a medium pepperoni pizza, with extra cheese? 324 00:19:31,063 --> 00:19:33,933 Yeah, we are at the, uh, Lazy Lodge. 325 00:19:34,066 --> 00:19:36,334 Alright, thanks. Bye. 326 00:19:37,103 --> 00:19:39,939 - Thirty minutes. - Cool. 327 00:19:41,007 --> 00:19:44,010 So, when was the last time you were actually home? 328 00:19:44,509 --> 00:19:46,979 Uh... four years? 329 00:19:47,680 --> 00:19:50,116 Four years, so you mean... 330 00:19:50,783 --> 00:19:53,085 the last time you needed a driver's license renewed? 331 00:19:53,219 --> 00:19:56,189 Oh, look at you. You're quick. 332 00:19:56,321 --> 00:19:59,926 Mama didn't raise no dummy here. 333 00:20:01,359 --> 00:20:02,795 Being all healthy now? 334 00:20:03,595 --> 00:20:06,398 - Balance, young Padawan. - Oh, okay. 335 00:20:44,070 --> 00:20:45,104 Mads? 336 00:20:53,713 --> 00:20:55,580 - Hey, Care Bear. - Hey, hey. 337 00:20:56,082 --> 00:20:59,051 - You okay? - Yeah, that pizza was just too much, 338 00:20:59,185 --> 00:21:02,520 so I got to get the insulin in the cells faster. 339 00:21:05,858 --> 00:21:07,592 - Regulate. - Yeah. 340 00:21:08,526 --> 00:21:10,363 Text me if you need me, okay? 341 00:21:10,495 --> 00:21:12,397 Thanks. I'll be in in a bit. 342 00:21:13,531 --> 00:21:15,268 Yeah, I'm going to be in the bed. 343 00:21:15,400 --> 00:21:17,770 Yeah, I'm jealous. 344 00:21:28,948 --> 00:21:32,184 High? Higher? Highest? 345 00:21:32,550 --> 00:21:34,053 High-ish. 346 00:21:34,186 --> 00:21:36,956 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. 347 00:21:37,790 --> 00:21:38,925 Does that hurt? 348 00:21:39,792 --> 00:21:43,696 It feels like a really thick exfoliant on a sunburn. 349 00:21:43,829 --> 00:21:45,831 - Oh, God! - Yeah. 350 00:21:46,598 --> 00:21:50,736 - Hey, so listen. I printed out some maps... - Ooh. You printed out maps? 351 00:21:50,870 --> 00:21:54,106 Of course I did. We may not always have phones, and... 352 00:21:54,240 --> 00:21:56,441 Uh... 353 00:21:57,043 --> 00:21:59,979 We'll be fine, okay? 354 00:22:01,347 --> 00:22:04,750 - I mean, I'm sure we will be, but it could happen, you know? - Okay! 355 00:22:04,884 --> 00:22:06,986 And so anyway, I marked points of interest, 356 00:22:07,119 --> 00:22:09,655 because I really want to go to the library in Salt Lake City. 357 00:22:09,789 --> 00:22:13,491 - They have these huge windows and all... - No, hold on, look. Okay. 358 00:22:15,227 --> 00:22:16,796 Is this a Veronica stop? 359 00:22:17,562 --> 00:22:19,231 I mean, not specifically. 360 00:22:19,699 --> 00:22:21,334 Well, then no, dude! 361 00:22:21,834 --> 00:22:23,336 Your arms can handle more than that. 362 00:22:23,468 --> 00:22:24,837 They just handled Vegas! 363 00:22:25,204 --> 00:22:27,106 You can handle more than libraries. 364 00:22:28,240 --> 00:22:30,608 More Than Libraries, that's the name of my next album. 365 00:22:30,743 --> 00:22:33,379 Ooh! Besides, if we're going through Salt Lake, 366 00:22:33,545 --> 00:22:35,147 we have to see the victim of the beast. 367 00:22:35,281 --> 00:22:37,416 - That sounds very dangerous. - It is. 368 00:22:37,917 --> 00:22:41,687 - Did you take it? - Have to act more dead. 369 00:22:45,391 --> 00:22:48,593 Got it. 370 00:22:51,731 --> 00:22:53,498 Veronica would have liked this stop. 371 00:23:05,811 --> 00:23:08,381 Wah! 372 00:23:08,513 --> 00:23:11,017 Good. 373 00:23:11,150 --> 00:23:12,852 I'm going to get you, Emily Rose. 374 00:23:12,985 --> 00:23:14,820 Oh, I'd like to see you try, Linda Blair. 375 00:23:14,954 --> 00:23:17,555 Oh, God. 376 00:23:21,627 --> 00:23:24,163 So, what's with the shot glasses? 377 00:23:25,431 --> 00:23:28,533 When Veronica was on tour, she thought it was this cool idea, 378 00:23:28,667 --> 00:23:32,638 - to leave just this little piece of her everywhere she went. - Hmm. 379 00:23:32,772 --> 00:23:37,977 - So, I thought I could carry that tradition on for her. - Cool, I like that. 380 00:23:38,744 --> 00:23:39,845 What song... 381 00:23:40,679 --> 00:23:42,681 would you play at your funeral? 382 00:23:44,316 --> 00:23:46,352 "Life Is a Cabaret." 383 00:23:46,584 --> 00:23:49,554 - That actually doesn't shock me at all about you. - Yeah? 384 00:23:49,989 --> 00:23:51,991 You're like a drag queen on the inside. 385 00:23:52,124 --> 00:23:54,693 That's the best compliment I've ever got. 386 00:23:54,827 --> 00:23:57,396 - I do feel like there's a drag queen inside me. - It's a good compliment! 387 00:23:57,530 --> 00:23:59,498 It is a good compliment. You're like an inner showgirl. 388 00:23:59,632 --> 00:24:02,234 I can see you, like, in your casket with, like, a boa around you... 389 00:24:02,368 --> 00:24:04,937 - Pshaw! - ...with, like, glitter. I love it. 390 00:24:05,071 --> 00:24:07,106 Can I ask that same question to you? 391 00:24:07,239 --> 00:24:09,574 Uh, "Feelin' Alright" by Joe Cocker. 392 00:24:09,708 --> 00:24:12,011 - I mean, but... - Irony. I'm dead. 393 00:24:12,144 --> 00:24:14,947 - But you're not feel... I mean, I would think... - I'm not feeling anything. 394 00:24:15,081 --> 00:24:17,049 Which is feeling alright to me. 395 00:24:18,384 --> 00:24:21,153 - Alright, a way to take it down there, Junior. - Oh. 396 00:24:21,287 --> 00:24:23,722 - I think we're going to have the best funerals ever. - Right? 397 00:24:23,856 --> 00:24:26,358 - Well, let's not get dead today, okay? - Yeah, no, no, no, not today. 398 00:24:26,492 --> 00:24:28,260 I'll drive safe, I'll drive safe. 399 00:24:36,368 --> 00:24:39,505 Okay. Now, remember, we need sustenance, and we're on a budget. 400 00:24:39,972 --> 00:24:44,276 - Yes, Mom, but I'm going to go pee first. - Have fun! 401 00:24:54,420 --> 00:24:55,620 Now, do here. 402 00:24:56,188 --> 00:24:58,657 You pay? 403 00:25:01,827 --> 00:25:03,095 - There. - Thank you. 404 00:25:18,277 --> 00:25:20,179 Fuck. 405 00:25:33,659 --> 00:25:35,629 - Thank you. - You need anything else? 406 00:25:35,761 --> 00:25:37,830 - No, I'm good. - Okay! 407 00:25:47,540 --> 00:25:50,543 Who put the fucking toilet so far away 408 00:25:50,676 --> 00:25:53,045 from the goddamn trash can? 409 00:26:03,689 --> 00:26:06,091 Oh... 410 00:26:15,501 --> 00:26:17,102 Fuck, fucking hands. 411 00:26:18,737 --> 00:26:22,041 Okay. 412 00:26:37,022 --> 00:26:39,425 Did it. 413 00:26:46,365 --> 00:26:47,466 Hey! 414 00:26:48,635 --> 00:26:49,768 What did you find out? 415 00:26:50,769 --> 00:26:51,837 Yeah. 416 00:26:52,471 --> 00:26:55,474 Okay. Well, I mean, do it, I guess. 417 00:26:55,608 --> 00:26:57,243 I mean, what choice do we have? 418 00:26:58,177 --> 00:27:01,146 Yeah... Hey, I got to go. 419 00:27:01,280 --> 00:27:03,549 I'm sorry. I... I just... I got to go. 420 00:27:03,683 --> 00:27:04,917 Alright. Bye. 421 00:27:05,618 --> 00:27:06,518 Hey! 422 00:27:07,219 --> 00:27:09,355 - What you doing? - Just work stuff. 423 00:27:09,488 --> 00:27:11,890 - Thanks for tampon. - No problem. 424 00:27:12,358 --> 00:27:14,426 It's just so stupid! 425 00:27:14,560 --> 00:27:17,062 I know it's stup... it's the perfect time! 426 00:27:19,431 --> 00:27:21,967 No, dude. You take my good mood, and this is what you do with it? 427 00:27:22,101 --> 00:27:24,236 - One more time! - Ugh, fine. 428 00:27:24,370 --> 00:27:26,472 I think we can get it. I think I can get it this time. 429 00:27:26,605 --> 00:27:28,974 - Alright. Sh... show me. - If I get it, will you get... 430 00:27:29,108 --> 00:27:31,043 If I get it right, can I have an ice cream cone? 431 00:27:31,277 --> 00:27:34,346 - Okay, Pam. - Thanks, Brenda. 432 00:27:34,480 --> 00:27:37,283 people go to see 433 00:27:37,416 --> 00:27:40,185 not for us, we don't care 434 00:27:40,319 --> 00:27:42,588 stay and play, advertise 435 00:27:42,722 --> 00:27:44,758 - - That was pretty good. 436 00:27:44,890 --> 00:27:47,192 you keep the church 437 00:27:47,326 --> 00:27:49,495 and leave them 438 00:27:49,629 --> 00:27:51,397 it right, itemize 439 00:27:51,530 --> 00:27:53,432 play at night think it right 440 00:27:53,565 --> 00:27:55,567 441 00:27:56,268 --> 00:27:58,837 Wait, no... Okay, no! This is cheating! 442 00:27:58,971 --> 00:28:01,641 Second of all, you didn't even get the lyrics right with this, 443 00:28:01,775 --> 00:28:03,175 So, no! 444 00:28:04,310 --> 00:28:06,646 I'm sorry. A little hand dance was good. 445 00:28:06,780 --> 00:28:09,014 I... I can totally see it. 446 00:28:10,482 --> 00:28:14,820 your petty shit 447 00:28:16,121 --> 00:28:17,423 448 00:28:21,493 --> 00:28:22,528 Perfect. 449 00:28:27,433 --> 00:28:30,169 and drive me home 450 00:28:30,302 --> 00:28:32,471 451 00:28:32,604 --> 00:28:35,374 friends lemon pies, holiday 452 00:28:35,507 --> 00:28:38,110 it right, you us hey 453 00:28:38,243 --> 00:28:40,747 you see the stars 454 00:28:40,913 --> 00:28:44,818 ...Then he brought those dudes everywhere! 455 00:28:44,950 --> 00:28:46,385 Oh, God. 456 00:28:47,119 --> 00:28:48,620 457 00:28:48,755 --> 00:28:52,458 458 00:28:53,926 --> 00:28:57,764 I got to wander 459 00:28:58,263 --> 00:29:02,401 I must admit 460 00:29:04,236 --> 00:29:08,273 your petty shit 461 00:29:09,743 --> 00:29:10,909 462 00:29:11,043 --> 00:29:12,846 - See, you've got that part down! - Yes! 463 00:29:12,978 --> 00:29:14,880 464 00:29:15,013 --> 00:29:16,816 465 00:29:16,949 --> 00:29:20,552 you-you you-you, you-you 466 00:29:20,687 --> 00:29:23,723 give, give, give 467 00:29:23,857 --> 00:29:25,457 468 00:29:25,591 --> 00:29:27,993 yes yes-yes, yes, yes-yes, yes 469 00:29:28,127 --> 00:29:31,263 da work it right, you us hey 470 00:29:31,397 --> 00:29:35,134 471 00:29:36,568 --> 00:29:40,506 I got to wander 472 00:29:42,742 --> 00:29:43,676 You want a drink? 473 00:29:46,011 --> 00:29:47,881 Cousins or, like, uncles? 474 00:29:48,046 --> 00:29:49,816 - No no. - What? 475 00:29:50,215 --> 00:29:51,950 You're not going to get that on this trip, 476 00:29:52,084 --> 00:29:53,619 okay? This isn't the kind of thing, 477 00:29:53,753 --> 00:29:55,755 where you're going to meet, like, 12 cousins and uncles 478 00:29:55,889 --> 00:30:01,059 and see, like, baby bath pictures when I was five. It's just my grandma. 479 00:30:01,728 --> 00:30:04,731 God, I don't know what it's like to be unchained from family. 480 00:30:05,597 --> 00:30:08,768 Not that I need chains to be with my family, they're great, 481 00:30:09,501 --> 00:30:14,406 but it must feel bizarre to feel not responsible to anyone. 482 00:30:14,540 --> 00:30:18,778 But you're not responsible. You don't have any kids. 483 00:30:18,912 --> 00:30:21,580 I have parents, old parents. 484 00:30:22,614 --> 00:30:24,717 Yeah, but you're not responsible for them. 485 00:30:25,083 --> 00:30:27,152 But I am. They took care of me. 486 00:30:27,854 --> 00:30:30,890 I mean, after the accident, I had to move back in with my parents, 487 00:30:31,023 --> 00:30:32,524 and I was almost 30 years old. 488 00:30:32,826 --> 00:30:34,928 They were mourning the loss of their daughter, 489 00:30:35,060 --> 00:30:36,896 and their other daughter. 490 00:30:40,934 --> 00:30:43,168 I was a grown-ass woman, they didn't have to take care of me. 491 00:30:43,302 --> 00:30:44,570 But they did. 492 00:30:45,504 --> 00:30:47,807 They were really great. And when the doctors 493 00:30:47,941 --> 00:30:49,241 didn't believe my pain, they did. 494 00:30:50,075 --> 00:30:52,344 They said, "Junior, don't worry. We'll find you another doctor." 495 00:30:52,478 --> 00:30:53,713 And they never gave up. 496 00:30:55,547 --> 00:30:58,083 And yet I still have the weirdest fear 497 00:30:58,217 --> 00:31:00,118 of not being believed. 498 00:31:01,788 --> 00:31:07,526 Because existing in that space of not knowing fucking sucks. 499 00:31:07,660 --> 00:31:08,560 Yeah. 500 00:31:09,629 --> 00:31:13,499 Well, your parents are very different from my parents. 501 00:31:14,868 --> 00:31:17,637 - I want to be a little honest about something. - Shoot. 502 00:31:18,470 --> 00:31:21,306 I'm kind of jealous of you... 503 00:31:21,440 --> 00:31:25,712 ...because you have this recognizable disease. 504 00:31:25,845 --> 00:31:27,981 - I know it's really gross to say. - No, no, no. 505 00:31:28,146 --> 00:31:29,615 - It's the alcohol. - I get it. I get it. 506 00:31:29,849 --> 00:31:33,585 - Human nature, grass is always greener, all that. - Yeah. 507 00:31:34,052 --> 00:31:37,724 But, hey, at least you didn't do that to yourself. 508 00:31:37,857 --> 00:31:40,225 - I mean... - Now, this... 509 00:31:41,126 --> 00:31:43,428 - That I think I did to myself. - Mm-mm. 510 00:31:44,229 --> 00:31:47,099 Pretty sure this isn't helping me. 511 00:31:47,599 --> 00:31:48,467 Hell, no. 512 00:31:49,134 --> 00:31:50,637 Fuck positivity! 513 00:31:51,905 --> 00:31:53,505 - Cheers to that. - Cheers. 514 00:31:55,374 --> 00:31:57,911 - Another round, Doran. - You bet, coming up. 515 00:32:00,847 --> 00:32:03,315 But, yeah, I mean, you can see, like, on my finger, 516 00:32:03,448 --> 00:32:05,718 like, little tiny pinpricks. It's like a little... 517 00:32:06,118 --> 00:32:08,120 little, uh, pin cushion. 518 00:32:08,253 --> 00:32:09,722 My stomach's a big pin cushion, 519 00:32:09,856 --> 00:32:12,224 and my fingers are like little pin cushions, but... 520 00:32:12,357 --> 00:32:14,192 That's a heck of a routine. 521 00:32:14,326 --> 00:32:16,228 Yeah, it's a lot of fun. 522 00:32:16,963 --> 00:32:19,799 - What's your routine? - I have to take my pills. 523 00:32:19,933 --> 00:32:23,036 - And it's... there's a lot of them. - Yeah. 524 00:32:25,404 --> 00:32:29,274 - Shit, girl. - That's... that's my daily pills. 525 00:32:29,541 --> 00:32:31,744 - They're huge. - Thank you. 526 00:32:31,878 --> 00:32:35,682 - And I'm going to have to take some pain pills too. - Ah, jeez. 527 00:32:36,214 --> 00:32:37,549 I'm going to need some breakfast, 528 00:32:37,684 --> 00:32:39,986 or I'm going to throw all of these pills up. 529 00:32:40,552 --> 00:32:43,322 - It's a good idea. I'll go get you an omelet. - Yeah. 530 00:32:56,168 --> 00:32:57,837 Would you like yours cooked in butter? 531 00:32:57,971 --> 00:33:00,439 So, okay, this drive, imagine walking this 532 00:33:00,572 --> 00:33:02,140 every day to get to the school bus. 533 00:33:02,274 --> 00:33:04,543 - That's what I had to do. - Oh, my God. 534 00:33:04,677 --> 00:33:07,046 - You want to know the weird part? - What? 535 00:33:07,613 --> 00:33:10,016 After my mom left and my dad died, 536 00:33:10,148 --> 00:33:12,852 I used to live with my grandma, and I kind of missed it. 537 00:33:13,619 --> 00:33:18,357 - Weird thought, maybe you just missed your family? - Maybe. 538 00:33:23,295 --> 00:33:26,298 Hate to break it to you, hon, but I think we're walking from here. 539 00:33:27,232 --> 00:33:28,367 Come on. 540 00:33:31,269 --> 00:33:33,238 - Yay! - Yeah. 541 00:33:33,372 --> 00:33:35,240 - I love walking. - "Yay" is right. 542 00:33:35,374 --> 00:33:37,777 - I need to get my stuff. Hold on. - Alright. 543 00:33:50,355 --> 00:33:53,893 You can tell this place used to be pretty. 544 00:33:54,027 --> 00:33:56,629 Please don't make this another metaphor for your body. 545 00:33:58,798 --> 00:34:01,734 It's a close fit. 546 00:34:04,603 --> 00:34:06,505 Over there, that's where my brother used to take me 547 00:34:06,639 --> 00:34:08,641 in his revved up Camaro and we did doughnuts. 548 00:34:08,775 --> 00:34:10,175 Oh, I loved it! 549 00:34:12,177 --> 00:34:13,211 I look forward to meeting him. 550 00:34:13,345 --> 00:34:15,114 You will. 551 00:34:15,948 --> 00:34:18,583 It's so crazy being back here. 552 00:34:24,891 --> 00:34:26,826 This is where you almost died? 553 00:34:27,492 --> 00:34:29,696 Yeah, it's... 554 00:34:30,295 --> 00:34:31,964 so much bigger than I remember. 555 00:34:32,665 --> 00:34:34,566 I mean, it used to be a creek, and... and when it was frozen, 556 00:34:34,701 --> 00:34:36,268 you could barely see underneath it. 557 00:34:37,536 --> 00:34:41,808 Man, if I were you, I would have so made out with that boy that saved me. 558 00:34:43,810 --> 00:34:45,444 Scary. 559 00:34:48,114 --> 00:34:49,716 It's definitely pleasant. 560 00:34:50,315 --> 00:34:54,252 - I think it's the definition of the word "pleasant." - That it is. 561 00:34:54,821 --> 00:34:56,956 I don't think I could do it all the time, though. 562 00:34:57,090 --> 00:34:58,858 I definitely couldn't live here. 563 00:34:59,491 --> 00:35:01,160 The way people don't want to live in California 564 00:35:01,293 --> 00:35:02,695 because of the constant sun. 565 00:35:03,129 --> 00:35:05,597 - Too much of a good thing... - ...is a better thing. 566 00:35:05,732 --> 00:35:06,833 Uh-huh. 567 00:35:13,673 --> 00:35:16,843 I'm the same age now as my mom was when she left. 568 00:35:21,313 --> 00:35:22,247 Shit. 569 00:35:23,182 --> 00:35:25,752 Time is dumb. I mean, according to social norms, 570 00:35:25,885 --> 00:35:28,420 I should have a kid in high school by now. 571 00:35:28,821 --> 00:35:31,824 Instead, I can barely hold a toothbrush. 572 00:35:38,430 --> 00:35:39,766 My body hurts. 573 00:35:40,767 --> 00:35:42,300 I need a fucking joint. 574 00:35:43,268 --> 00:35:44,771 I don't really want to get high. 575 00:35:45,738 --> 00:35:47,606 I just want the pain to go away. 576 00:35:49,075 --> 00:35:52,577 Well, hey, enjoy it. I have to pee. 577 00:35:53,345 --> 00:35:55,915 - Alright. - Enjoy nature and shit. 578 00:36:16,736 --> 00:36:18,905 Bet you never thought you'd see South Dakota. 579 00:36:24,043 --> 00:36:24,944 Miss you. 580 00:37:49,195 --> 00:37:50,595 What you doing? 581 00:37:52,832 --> 00:37:55,001 I buried this when I was a teenager. 582 00:37:55,533 --> 00:37:56,969 Can't believe it's still here. 583 00:37:57,103 --> 00:37:59,639 I can't believe you remembered where you buried it. 584 00:38:06,045 --> 00:38:07,579 A watch? 585 00:38:10,415 --> 00:38:11,851 A watch my mom gave me. 586 00:38:16,454 --> 00:38:19,158 Oh... I... 587 00:38:25,463 --> 00:38:26,699 Alright, let's motor. 588 00:38:30,403 --> 00:38:32,470 Oh, I got to get in the back seat. 589 00:38:32,604 --> 00:38:34,774 - I got to stretch out. - Dude, just wait till we stop. 590 00:38:34,907 --> 00:38:37,910 - No, it hurts now. It hurts now. - That's not safe. 591 00:38:38,044 --> 00:38:41,847 Is that a cow? Is that a cow? It's brown! 592 00:38:43,615 --> 00:38:45,151 I thought cows were black and white. 593 00:38:45,685 --> 00:38:46,919 Well, that's racist. 594 00:38:47,420 --> 00:38:51,691 I've only seen them on my plate, and they're delicious. 595 00:38:51,824 --> 00:38:53,591 Hey, did I ever tell you the cow story? 596 00:38:53,726 --> 00:38:57,263 - What cow story? - Oh, one minute it was, like, getting dark, 597 00:38:57,396 --> 00:38:59,464 and my mom was driving, and there was just a cow 598 00:38:59,597 --> 00:39:01,133 standing in the middle of the road. 599 00:39:01,267 --> 00:39:03,235 I was really young and there was, like, six of us in the car. 600 00:39:03,369 --> 00:39:05,304 I think we were coming back from, like, a movie or something. 601 00:39:05,438 --> 00:39:08,674 And she hit it, right? And it goes right up on the windshield. 602 00:39:08,808 --> 00:39:11,143 And I go under the dash and break my arm, 603 00:39:11,277 --> 00:39:14,880 and she goes under the windshield and she's pulling out, like, 604 00:39:15,014 --> 00:39:17,615 shards of glass for the next two years, it was crazy. 605 00:39:18,351 --> 00:39:20,618 That's the most Midwestern story I've ever heard in my life. 606 00:39:20,753 --> 00:39:22,221 Yeah, tell me about it. 607 00:39:31,163 --> 00:39:32,932 Okay, here we are. 608 00:39:33,399 --> 00:39:35,735 I love that they have keys. 609 00:39:36,702 --> 00:39:39,571 I have to lay down. 610 00:39:40,538 --> 00:39:42,808 - Okay. - All that farm walking. 611 00:39:43,676 --> 00:39:45,177 - My knee hurts. - Alright, lay down. 612 00:39:45,311 --> 00:39:47,113 I'll go get the rest of the stuff. 613 00:39:57,622 --> 00:39:59,158 - Hey, Miles. - Hey, kid. 614 00:39:59,291 --> 00:40:01,559 - What happened? - I called the number back. 615 00:40:01,694 --> 00:40:04,230 - Yeah? - It was a Vermont number. 616 00:40:04,363 --> 00:40:05,331 Vermont? 617 00:40:05,831 --> 00:40:07,166 That doesn't make any sense. 618 00:40:07,933 --> 00:40:10,236 - I know. - Okay? 619 00:40:11,137 --> 00:40:12,171 I found Mom. 620 00:40:13,672 --> 00:40:14,774 Shit. 621 00:40:15,875 --> 00:40:17,877 I booked us flights from Portland, 622 00:40:18,010 --> 00:40:20,079 so hurry up and get here, okay? 623 00:40:22,214 --> 00:40:23,115 Okay. 624 00:40:30,156 --> 00:40:35,494 feels when you are low 625 00:40:35,628 --> 00:40:39,065 when you are hurt 626 00:40:39,198 --> 00:40:43,269 627 00:40:45,538 --> 00:40:51,210 hold inside of me 628 00:40:51,343 --> 00:40:55,081 in spite of me 629 00:40:55,214 --> 00:40:58,317 630 00:40:58,717 --> 00:41:04,622 sounds like ooh, ooh 631 00:41:04,757 --> 00:41:08,094 632 00:41:08,227 --> 00:41:10,796 from the crowd 633 00:41:11,730 --> 00:41:15,301 are coming down 634 00:41:16,102 --> 00:41:18,704 635 00:41:20,206 --> 00:41:23,209 is running out 636 00:41:23,776 --> 00:41:25,778 know what you did long ago 637 00:41:25,911 --> 00:41:29,315 you're right back at my door 638 00:41:31,784 --> 00:41:33,719 for worse or for better 639 00:41:33,853 --> 00:41:35,654 be coming back for more 640 00:41:35,788 --> 00:41:37,056 Oh, fuck it. Fuck it. 641 00:41:39,325 --> 00:41:45,431 feels when you are low 642 00:41:45,564 --> 00:41:49,502 when you are hurt 643 00:41:49,635 --> 00:41:52,738 644 00:41:53,205 --> 00:41:59,812 645 00:42:15,094 --> 00:42:16,095 Oh, fuck. 646 00:42:16,896 --> 00:42:18,397 Oh, fuck. Okay. 647 00:42:19,131 --> 00:42:22,067 We have to get up. We have to get up, come on. 648 00:42:22,768 --> 00:42:24,837 Up, up, up. Let's go. 649 00:42:25,971 --> 00:42:27,773 I can't. 650 00:42:28,240 --> 00:42:30,543 Okay, I know your period makes things worse, 651 00:42:30,676 --> 00:42:32,378 but what's your number? 652 00:42:35,214 --> 00:42:38,450 Number seven. I cannot make it to Grandma's. 653 00:42:38,884 --> 00:42:41,655 How late did you stay up after I went to sleep last night? 654 00:42:44,790 --> 00:42:46,892 So, you just decided to keep drinking? 655 00:42:47,159 --> 00:42:48,060 No. 656 00:42:50,596 --> 00:42:51,864 I don't need your judgment. 657 00:42:52,398 --> 00:42:54,166 I just needed the pain to stop, okay? 658 00:42:54,300 --> 00:42:57,336 No, I'm not judging. It just... 659 00:42:57,469 --> 00:42:59,572 It just seems counterproductive, is all. 660 00:43:00,773 --> 00:43:04,109 - Well, you're one to talk, pizza bitch. - Hey! 661 00:43:04,777 --> 00:43:08,147 There's no need to name-call. I'm just trying to get us going. 662 00:43:08,847 --> 00:43:09,915 God. 663 00:43:26,700 --> 00:43:30,836 I get up at five o'clock to walk 13 blocks to church, 664 00:43:30,970 --> 00:43:34,340 and then I walk home 17 blocks to my apartment. 665 00:43:34,473 --> 00:43:37,042 And then the rest of the day, we go to a movie 666 00:43:37,176 --> 00:43:41,681 or just do some shopping, or we go out to eat. 667 00:43:42,281 --> 00:43:44,750 - I'm glad you're staying active. - I have to be busy. 668 00:43:44,883 --> 00:43:47,486 Yeah. So, uh... 669 00:43:48,053 --> 00:43:50,055 I went to the old farm yesterday. 670 00:43:50,823 --> 00:43:53,192 - Been so many years. - I... it has been. 671 00:43:54,694 --> 00:43:56,962 You know, when Mom left, she, uh... 672 00:43:58,732 --> 00:44:00,866 She left me something of yours. 673 00:44:02,669 --> 00:44:03,902 And I hid it. 674 00:44:04,603 --> 00:44:05,804 I don't know why I just... 675 00:44:07,072 --> 00:44:09,208 I just did and, um... 676 00:44:12,011 --> 00:44:14,413 I, uh... back when I was at the farm, I... 677 00:44:15,047 --> 00:44:16,148 I dug it up. 678 00:44:18,017 --> 00:44:20,819 I'm just... I think you should have it back. 679 00:44:23,989 --> 00:44:25,824 This is from my mother... 680 00:44:26,825 --> 00:44:28,460 for my birthday, one year. 681 00:44:31,063 --> 00:44:32,298 Sorry, grandma. 682 00:44:34,668 --> 00:44:36,235 So good to have it back. 683 00:44:37,603 --> 00:44:40,806 I've been thinking about this watch for so long, and... 684 00:44:42,908 --> 00:44:45,010 I don't need it anymore because... 685 00:44:46,078 --> 00:44:47,546 Miles found Mom. 686 00:44:49,882 --> 00:44:51,984 And I think I want to go see her. 687 00:44:52,918 --> 00:44:53,952 I miss my daughter. 688 00:44:54,754 --> 00:44:58,257 I hope she's nice to you, and I hope she realizes 689 00:44:58,390 --> 00:45:00,326 what a precious gift she has, 690 00:45:01,493 --> 00:45:04,229 because you are just a precious gift. 691 00:45:04,698 --> 00:45:06,031 And look, you were... 692 00:45:07,132 --> 00:45:10,670 more than a mom to me, in the few years that you took care of me. 693 00:45:11,537 --> 00:45:14,039 I just need to know why. I need to know what happened, 694 00:45:14,173 --> 00:45:15,841 what she was thinking. 695 00:45:15,974 --> 00:45:18,143 I just... I just need to understand. 696 00:45:24,850 --> 00:45:26,318 I love you, grandma. 697 00:45:26,919 --> 00:45:28,020 Thank you. 698 00:45:30,122 --> 00:45:31,791 Thank you for everything. 699 00:45:32,458 --> 00:45:34,226 I love you so much. 700 00:45:38,530 --> 00:45:40,199 - Hey. - Hey. 701 00:45:41,300 --> 00:45:44,603 - How was grandma's? - Uh, it... it was fine. 702 00:45:44,903 --> 00:45:46,138 - It was fine. Uh... - Good. 703 00:45:46,271 --> 00:45:48,474 - Alright, you ready? - Yes. 704 00:45:49,007 --> 00:45:51,510 - Let's get it over with. - Yeah, DMV. 705 00:45:51,644 --> 00:45:54,012 - Okay... - Then Portland. 706 00:45:54,146 --> 00:45:56,482 - Portland! Yeah. - Yeah. 707 00:45:56,915 --> 00:45:58,384 Okay. 708 00:46:01,821 --> 00:46:03,288 I got it, bitch! 709 00:46:03,922 --> 00:46:05,991 - Good! - Let's go to Portland! 710 00:46:06,125 --> 00:46:08,026 - Portland! - Yes! 711 00:46:08,160 --> 00:46:10,129 - No... - Sorry I was a dick this morning. 712 00:46:14,533 --> 00:46:16,803 South Dakota just does something to me, man. 713 00:46:17,536 --> 00:46:19,938 - I get it. I love you. - Thank you. 714 00:46:20,072 --> 00:46:22,642 - I love you, too. - Let's go to Portland! 715 00:46:22,776 --> 00:46:26,612 Let's go to Portland! Let's go to Portland! 716 00:46:26,746 --> 00:46:28,313 Let's go to Portland! 717 00:46:28,447 --> 00:46:29,982 - Let's... - Let's get out of South Dakota! 718 00:46:30,115 --> 00:46:31,885 Let's go to Portland! 719 00:46:49,636 --> 00:46:55,140 makes you cry 720 00:46:56,442 --> 00:46:59,712 721 00:47:00,914 --> 00:47:03,982 722 00:47:06,886 --> 00:47:13,325 what makes you smile 723 00:47:14,092 --> 00:47:16,663 724 00:47:18,197 --> 00:47:20,966 725 00:47:22,635 --> 00:47:26,639 from the stars 726 00:47:26,873 --> 00:47:31,210 through the dark 727 00:47:31,443 --> 00:47:35,147 for a new dimension 728 00:47:35,280 --> 00:47:38,651 729 00:47:42,488 --> 00:47:45,557 Alright, let's... let's see what this song is about. 730 00:47:46,258 --> 00:47:48,260 I'm playing this damn thing. 731 00:47:51,396 --> 00:47:54,433 people go to see 732 00:47:54,566 --> 00:47:59,338 - - God damn it! 733 00:47:59,806 --> 00:48:03,509 I must admit 734 00:48:04,944 --> 00:48:09,548 your petty shit 735 00:48:10,783 --> 00:48:11,818 736 00:48:12,919 --> 00:48:16,321 Alright, Veronica. It's pretty good, actually. 737 00:48:21,828 --> 00:48:25,832 from the stars 738 00:48:25,965 --> 00:48:30,502 through the dark 739 00:48:30,637 --> 00:48:34,439 for a new dimension 740 00:48:34,573 --> 00:48:38,176 741 00:48:39,344 --> 00:48:43,783 for a sound 742 00:48:43,917 --> 00:48:47,887 what we found 743 00:48:48,021 --> 00:48:51,991 for a new dimension 744 00:48:52,124 --> 00:48:55,527 745 00:49:24,023 --> 00:49:26,025 Shit! 746 00:49:26,592 --> 00:49:28,527 Why? 747 00:49:28,661 --> 00:49:32,197 God! God, have you been holding onto that since Salt Lake? 748 00:49:33,933 --> 00:49:35,267 Camera share! 749 00:49:38,170 --> 00:49:41,908 always looking... 750 00:49:42,041 --> 00:49:44,142 One, two, three... 751 00:49:46,178 --> 00:49:47,179 - Did it work? - Get... 752 00:49:47,613 --> 00:49:49,314 You have to jump higher than that. 753 00:49:50,282 --> 00:49:51,851 - One more time. - Okay, alright. 754 00:49:51,985 --> 00:49:53,953 - Hold the girls. Hold Thelma and Louise. - Ready? 755 00:49:54,087 --> 00:49:55,420 Ready? Alright. 756 00:49:55,788 --> 00:49:57,422 One, two, three... 757 00:50:00,492 --> 00:50:01,828 Alright, thank you so much. 758 00:50:02,494 --> 00:50:04,496 Alright, let's see how they turned out. 759 00:50:06,099 --> 00:50:09,267 Oh, my God! 760 00:50:09,401 --> 00:50:11,971 We're a mess. 761 00:50:13,640 --> 00:50:15,808 - Which one does he live in? Miles! - I think it's 670. 762 00:50:15,942 --> 00:50:18,745 Stop screaming down the halls like a banshee. 763 00:50:18,878 --> 00:50:20,046 People live here. 764 00:50:20,913 --> 00:50:23,850 - Miles! Oh, my God! - Hey! 765 00:50:23,983 --> 00:50:27,086 - There she is! - How have you been? What is this situation? 766 00:50:27,219 --> 00:50:29,856 - Um, well, I shaved it off, um... - Oh, God! 767 00:50:29,989 --> 00:50:31,824 - Look at you. - Ugh... 768 00:50:31,958 --> 00:50:33,092 - This is Junior. - Hi. 769 00:50:33,225 --> 00:50:34,359 Junior, nice to finally meet you. 770 00:50:34,493 --> 00:50:36,461 Oh, I can't really shake, but a hug? 771 00:50:37,063 --> 00:50:39,799 That's right. Yeah, I forgot about the... the arms. 772 00:50:39,932 --> 00:50:43,568 - I heard all about them. - Yeah, I have arms. 773 00:50:44,037 --> 00:50:46,673 No, I mean, she told me all about the... 774 00:50:46,806 --> 00:50:47,874 - Issues? - Yeah. 775 00:50:48,007 --> 00:50:49,274 Yeah. 776 00:50:49,408 --> 00:50:52,244 Yeah, that's not uncomfortable. 777 00:50:52,377 --> 00:50:54,947 I have complex regional pain syndrome, type two. 778 00:50:56,181 --> 00:50:57,349 Yeah. 779 00:50:59,418 --> 00:51:01,586 Congratulations? 780 00:51:01,721 --> 00:51:03,255 - Thank you. - Yeah. 781 00:51:03,890 --> 00:51:05,024 Mads has diabetes. 782 00:51:05,158 --> 00:51:06,558 I do? 783 00:51:07,126 --> 00:51:10,730 - Yeah. - This is huge! 784 00:51:10,863 --> 00:51:13,766 Alright. Make yourself at home. Whatever you guys want, um... 785 00:51:14,232 --> 00:51:15,735 Throw your stuff anywhere. 786 00:51:15,868 --> 00:51:16,936 Drinks? 787 00:51:20,238 --> 00:51:23,508 Fuck, man. I can't believe you live in this place. 788 00:51:23,643 --> 00:51:26,846 I mean, you are adulting so good. Like, too good. 789 00:51:27,780 --> 00:51:30,083 What is it you do for a living? 790 00:51:30,482 --> 00:51:31,718 Software engineer. 791 00:51:33,351 --> 00:51:34,252 Oh. 792 00:51:35,021 --> 00:51:37,222 What about you? What do you do, Junior? 793 00:51:39,291 --> 00:51:41,426 I survive. 794 00:51:41,560 --> 00:51:43,196 Okay, she's being dramatic. 795 00:51:43,328 --> 00:51:44,529 She writes greeting cards. 796 00:51:44,664 --> 00:51:46,465 - Oh, neat. - Mm. 797 00:51:47,100 --> 00:51:49,736 I'm a struggling writer with the funk hands. 798 00:51:50,937 --> 00:51:54,406 - How poetic. - Indeed... 799 00:51:54,539 --> 00:51:56,943 I mean, what is life without some struggle? 800 00:51:57,076 --> 00:52:00,479 - No... - Oh, so they're nihilistic greeting cards. 801 00:52:00,612 --> 00:52:02,048 It's a big market for that. 802 00:52:02,447 --> 00:52:04,650 It's huge. It's huge, I'm really rich. 803 00:52:07,486 --> 00:52:09,521 Hey, thanks for letting us stay here. 804 00:52:09,655 --> 00:52:11,423 This is a really bitching place. 805 00:52:11,824 --> 00:52:13,458 You guys are always welcome. 806 00:52:13,893 --> 00:52:16,195 Plus, I would do anything in the world for this little water egg. 807 00:52:16,328 --> 00:52:18,030 No... 808 00:52:18,463 --> 00:52:20,599 I'm not so little anymore. 809 00:52:21,934 --> 00:52:24,003 It's good to see you again. 810 00:52:25,838 --> 00:52:29,108 to hold you down 811 00:52:29,242 --> 00:52:32,712 to keep you bound 812 00:52:32,845 --> 00:52:38,517 a magnolia parade 813 00:52:39,719 --> 00:52:42,487 814 00:52:46,324 --> 00:52:49,762 815 00:52:54,299 --> 00:53:00,173 couldn't answer 816 00:53:01,107 --> 00:53:06,946 you were a canvas 817 00:53:15,755 --> 00:53:17,990 I think she cried herself to sleep last night. 818 00:53:19,826 --> 00:53:24,096 I don't know how I can look her in the eye and tell her, she's going to be heartbroken. 819 00:53:24,563 --> 00:53:26,632 You two are honest with each other, right? 820 00:53:28,234 --> 00:53:29,401 Mostly. 821 00:53:30,502 --> 00:53:31,737 What have you told her? 822 00:53:35,041 --> 00:53:37,009 - Nothing. - Mads... 823 00:53:38,610 --> 00:53:41,280 - I know, I know. - You know what? You're avoiding. 824 00:53:41,413 --> 00:53:43,716 I'm avoiding, I get it. Thank you. 825 00:53:46,219 --> 00:53:47,485 I mean, I'm just... 826 00:53:48,221 --> 00:53:51,224 I mean, she's only heard me bitch about Mom, you know? 827 00:53:51,356 --> 00:53:54,492 Like that, "My mom left me, so she's worse than your mom." 828 00:53:54,626 --> 00:53:55,728 All that stuff. 829 00:53:56,195 --> 00:53:58,831 I don't think she's going to get why I need to see her. 830 00:54:03,435 --> 00:54:06,772 Okay, what's the story with the arms? 831 00:54:09,374 --> 00:54:10,309 Alright. 832 00:54:11,344 --> 00:54:14,747 She and her sister were taking, like, a road trip from LA to Portland. 833 00:54:14,881 --> 00:54:18,084 Like a sister vacation thing. 834 00:54:18,784 --> 00:54:23,421 And... they got into a car accident, and her sister died. 835 00:54:24,156 --> 00:54:27,093 And Junior, she broke a bunch of bones 836 00:54:27,226 --> 00:54:30,263 and had to have surgery on her arms, 837 00:54:30,395 --> 00:54:32,798 and... 838 00:54:32,932 --> 00:54:35,268 ...that resulted in this chronic pain disorder and... 839 00:54:36,269 --> 00:54:40,339 chronic pain, something, something syndrome. 840 00:54:40,472 --> 00:54:43,142 She... she calls it CRPS. 841 00:54:45,211 --> 00:54:47,146 - Fuck. - Yeah. 842 00:54:50,316 --> 00:54:52,550 I was also driving that car. 843 00:54:53,185 --> 00:54:58,090 Uh, morning! I just... I was telling Miles about your arms. 844 00:54:58,224 --> 00:55:00,993 - You know, that's weird brunch conversation. - Yeah, yeah. 845 00:55:01,127 --> 00:55:03,495 Do you want some death with your eggs? 846 00:55:04,096 --> 00:55:06,666 - Maybe some chronic pain? - Just coffee. 847 00:55:06,799 --> 00:55:09,135 Oof, I like coffee. 848 00:55:10,770 --> 00:55:12,604 - You got it. - Thanks. 849 00:55:14,140 --> 00:55:16,409 So, how did you sleep? 850 00:55:16,742 --> 00:55:19,879 - Surprisingly well. - On the floor? 851 00:55:20,012 --> 00:55:22,882 I know, weird. Body hurts a little bit, 852 00:55:23,015 --> 00:55:25,017 but I don't know. 853 00:55:26,419 --> 00:55:30,089 - You have good floors. - I'm sure you say that to all the boys. 854 00:55:30,222 --> 00:55:33,826 Ah, it's like he knows me already. 855 00:55:35,261 --> 00:55:37,797 So anyway... I know there's a lot of things 856 00:55:37,930 --> 00:55:39,765 you want to do in Portland, uh, but I have to grab a shower. 857 00:55:39,899 --> 00:55:42,735 Wash this messy hair, so... 858 00:55:42,868 --> 00:55:44,837 - Thank God. - Yeah. 859 00:55:48,207 --> 00:55:50,542 So, Portland. How long have you lived here? 860 00:55:51,143 --> 00:55:54,113 Seven years. The city's been good to me. 861 00:55:54,479 --> 00:55:56,415 What about you? Your first visit? 862 00:55:56,548 --> 00:56:00,786 Technically, yes. That... that whole car wreck thing she was telling you about. 863 00:56:00,920 --> 00:56:03,422 My sister and I were on our way to Portland. 864 00:56:03,956 --> 00:56:06,425 She was really obsessed with this city and wanted to see it. 865 00:56:06,859 --> 00:56:08,294 We didn't quite make it. 866 00:56:08,861 --> 00:56:10,429 I'm kind of here for her. 867 00:56:10,963 --> 00:56:13,165 Wait, that wasn't your question, um... 868 00:56:13,699 --> 00:56:17,036 To answer your question, yes. This is my first time here. 869 00:56:18,204 --> 00:56:19,271 Yeah. 870 00:56:21,640 --> 00:56:23,575 I'm sorry about your sister. 871 00:56:25,711 --> 00:56:27,446 I can't imagine losing Mads. 872 00:56:28,848 --> 00:56:33,019 Yeah, Mads is special. She's been a really good friend to me. 873 00:56:33,152 --> 00:56:35,488 - You raised her right. - Oh, we raised each other. 874 00:56:35,620 --> 00:56:37,823 - I'm only five years older. - Only? 875 00:56:37,957 --> 00:56:40,393 Veronica and I were five years apart. I was older. 876 00:56:40,926 --> 00:56:43,662 We had great parents and I still feel like I raised her. 877 00:56:44,030 --> 00:56:46,465 You know, I think it's just this older sibling thing. 878 00:56:46,598 --> 00:56:48,000 - You know what I mean? - Yeah. Yeah. 879 00:56:48,267 --> 00:56:50,870 Responsibility's kind of driven into us, huh? 880 00:56:51,003 --> 00:56:52,004 Exactly. 881 00:56:55,241 --> 00:56:57,276 Hey, um, Junior? 882 00:56:58,177 --> 00:57:00,279 You aren't even in the shower yet! 883 00:57:00,413 --> 00:57:04,216 Yeah, I know. Um, can I talk to you in the bedroom? 884 00:57:05,217 --> 00:57:08,120 - Tampon situation? - No! That's all you, babe. 885 00:57:08,487 --> 00:57:09,989 Excuse me. 886 00:57:17,229 --> 00:57:19,632 Oh, my goodness. What's up, Care Bear? 887 00:57:19,765 --> 00:57:21,333 Well... 888 00:57:22,802 --> 00:57:24,336 Okay, um... 889 00:57:29,775 --> 00:57:31,877 Miles found my mom. 890 00:57:32,577 --> 00:57:33,946 Oh... 891 00:57:34,547 --> 00:57:38,150 - I didn't know you were looking for her. - Miles did the looking. 892 00:57:38,951 --> 00:57:41,787 - Where is she? - Vermont. 893 00:57:42,388 --> 00:57:45,091 - Vermont? Why is she in Vermont? - I don't know. 894 00:57:45,224 --> 00:57:47,592 - Do you have family in Vermont? - I don't know. 895 00:57:48,127 --> 00:57:50,996 Miles thinks that I need to face her. 896 00:57:51,130 --> 00:57:55,634 And so, he... he booked a plane ticket, and... 897 00:57:56,635 --> 00:57:57,970 I'm going to go see her. 898 00:57:58,904 --> 00:58:02,141 Wow. M... Mads, that's huge. 899 00:58:02,274 --> 00:58:03,608 When are you going? 900 00:58:06,412 --> 00:58:08,214 Tomorrow, at noon. 901 00:58:10,015 --> 00:58:13,486 What? Are you fucking kidding me? 902 00:58:13,618 --> 00:58:17,056 - Junior, I'm sorry. - We're 1,000 miles from LA, Mads! 903 00:58:17,189 --> 00:58:19,391 Junior, I know that. I know that. I'm so sorry. 904 00:58:19,525 --> 00:58:22,461 - I just... - Why can't you wait till we get back to LA, 905 00:58:22,595 --> 00:58:25,764 - then go to Vermont? - I get it. But look, I know you think my jobs are stupid. 906 00:58:25,898 --> 00:58:29,668 Okay? But... but I need them to pay my bills, 907 00:58:29,802 --> 00:58:31,670 and I can't get any more time off. 908 00:58:32,138 --> 00:58:36,175 Alright, even I know that's bullshit, but... 909 00:58:39,612 --> 00:58:42,414 It's now or never. Okay? Because... 910 00:58:43,015 --> 00:58:46,318 if I don't do it now, I never will. 911 00:58:46,752 --> 00:58:48,754 And I need to know why, okay? It... 912 00:58:48,888 --> 00:58:51,991 It's the same as this trip for you and Veronica. You know, you have to heal... 913 00:58:52,124 --> 00:58:55,127 - It is not the same! - Yes, it is! Okay? It doesn't matter 914 00:58:55,261 --> 00:58:57,730 the catalyst for hurting, the healing is the same. 915 00:58:57,863 --> 00:59:01,400 Ugh, I don't want your fortune cookie shit, save it for your mommy. 916 00:59:01,534 --> 00:59:04,737 Oh, Junior, come on! Stop! I know this sucks, 917 00:59:04,870 --> 00:59:06,438 but why are you so mad at me about this? 918 00:59:06,572 --> 00:59:10,009 Because you're abandoning me, when I need you the most! 919 00:59:10,142 --> 00:59:12,077 This whole trip has been about you! 920 00:59:12,211 --> 00:59:14,947 I didn't even go to the library, because of you! 921 00:59:15,080 --> 00:59:18,317 - What library? - In Salt Lake City. 922 00:59:19,985 --> 00:59:24,557 Oh... I... I didn't get that that meant so much to you, 923 00:59:24,690 --> 00:59:27,226 - I'm sorry. - Whatever. You're just like everybody else. 924 00:59:27,359 --> 00:59:31,230 Everybody who? Who else? And you can't say your parents. 925 00:59:31,363 --> 00:59:34,567 Oh, you're one to talk, little girl. 926 00:59:34,934 --> 00:59:40,306 Look, Junior. I think that you use me as a crutch. You don't need me. 927 00:59:40,906 --> 00:59:42,942 I didn't know Veronica, and maybe... 928 00:59:43,075 --> 00:59:45,277 and maybe it makes more sense that you do this alone. 929 00:59:45,411 --> 00:59:49,615 I can't believe you're turning this around like, "Oh, it's a great idea to do it alone." 930 00:59:49,748 --> 00:59:52,985 - It has nothing to do with your selfish agenda! - My selfish agenda? 931 00:59:53,118 --> 00:59:56,222 This has to do with my mom, who's alive, by the way. 932 00:59:56,722 --> 00:59:58,857 - Bring it back in, Mads. - No, don't. 933 00:59:58,991 --> 01:00:01,227 - She's acting like a child. - So are you. 934 01:00:03,529 --> 01:00:05,030 Whose side are you on? 935 01:00:05,632 --> 01:00:07,933 Don't do that, alright? You sound like Mom right now. 936 01:00:08,067 --> 01:00:11,470 Are you just going to swing from left to right on the pendulum, just like that? 937 01:00:14,306 --> 01:00:16,375 Look, I think you should apologize, okay? 938 01:00:17,610 --> 01:00:19,679 Don't you? 939 01:00:20,613 --> 01:00:24,283 - No, Junior, just stop. Stop, okay? Wait. - Nope. 940 01:00:25,851 --> 01:00:27,753 What, you're just going to let her leave? 941 01:00:27,886 --> 01:00:29,521 Obviously she needs to cool off. 942 01:00:29,656 --> 01:00:30,823 If I go after her, 943 01:00:30,956 --> 01:00:32,591 we're just going to yell at each other. 944 01:00:33,025 --> 01:00:36,061 She just... needs her alone time. 945 01:00:37,664 --> 01:00:38,998 Yeah, don't we all. 946 01:01:01,253 --> 01:01:05,424 when you're lonely 947 01:01:05,725 --> 01:01:09,228 and you smell like 948 01:01:09,361 --> 01:01:13,832 they're blooming 949 01:01:13,966 --> 01:01:19,639 be your queen of the west 950 01:01:19,773 --> 01:01:22,041 heart in a chest 951 01:01:22,174 --> 01:01:24,243 952 01:01:24,610 --> 01:01:28,380 Well, V... we made it. 953 01:01:30,115 --> 01:01:31,350 The tiniest park. 954 01:01:36,522 --> 01:01:38,157 In the middle of a road. 955 01:01:40,426 --> 01:01:42,461 I don't know why you found this so charming. 956 01:01:54,006 --> 01:01:55,341 I brought you something. 957 01:01:58,077 --> 01:01:59,611 I brought you Dorothy. 958 01:02:04,249 --> 01:02:06,485 I know she was your first. 959 01:02:08,153 --> 01:02:09,922 And now she's going to be your last. 960 01:02:14,426 --> 01:02:16,696 in space there's no cars 961 01:02:17,329 --> 01:02:21,835 makes my toes warm 962 01:02:22,301 --> 01:02:24,336 963 01:02:24,470 --> 01:02:28,574 acrobatic bubble 964 01:02:29,843 --> 01:02:31,377 I miss you. 965 01:02:31,977 --> 01:02:34,947 Can you hear me... 966 01:02:35,080 --> 01:02:36,949 This place is a little bit charming. 967 01:02:38,117 --> 01:02:39,218 I get it. 968 01:02:40,854 --> 01:02:42,955 969 01:02:43,088 --> 01:02:45,157 970 01:02:45,290 --> 01:02:47,226 971 01:02:47,359 --> 01:02:54,333 972 01:02:56,368 --> 01:03:03,175 973 01:03:06,679 --> 01:03:10,382 oh we're, we're, oh 974 01:03:10,516 --> 01:03:13,552 975 01:03:19,291 --> 01:03:22,094 At least you got that, I never even got a phone call. 976 01:03:22,662 --> 01:03:24,731 Why aren't you more angry about that? 977 01:03:25,097 --> 01:03:26,231 Because I don't care. 978 01:03:26,800 --> 01:03:29,301 Alright? She left me when I was a grown-ass man. 979 01:03:29,435 --> 01:03:31,403 I wasn't a teenager like you. 980 01:03:32,371 --> 01:03:35,073 I knew from the moment that she put us in that car 981 01:03:35,207 --> 01:03:37,677 that one night, to go chase after, uh... 982 01:03:37,811 --> 01:03:40,512 - What was his n... the guy with the... Tony. - The guy... Tony. 983 01:03:40,979 --> 01:03:43,515 - With that ugly red hat he wears around. - Yes! 984 01:03:43,650 --> 01:03:46,251 Oh, my God. What did it say? It had something about, like... 985 01:03:46,385 --> 01:03:49,087 - Konkey Donk on it or something. - I... it was some bar, or some... 986 01:03:49,221 --> 01:03:52,558 - I don't know. - Oh, God. Oh, I hated that hat. 987 01:03:53,492 --> 01:03:56,763 Yeah, I knew way back then that she would never put us first. 988 01:03:57,196 --> 01:03:58,631 It was always going to be her. 989 01:04:00,165 --> 01:04:02,100 I'm glad you decided to do this. 990 01:04:03,837 --> 01:04:07,473 Just... be prepared to be disappointed. 991 01:04:13,245 --> 01:04:15,748 I hope Junior is okay. 992 01:04:16,248 --> 01:04:17,750 She's not texting me back. 993 01:04:19,418 --> 01:04:21,654 I assume this is your biggest fight ever, huh? 994 01:04:21,955 --> 01:04:23,222 Yeah. 995 01:04:24,858 --> 01:04:26,124 It'll be okay. 996 01:04:29,428 --> 01:04:32,231 I hope so. 997 01:04:32,632 --> 01:04:35,668 - Junior, I... I am so sorry. - Uh-uh. 998 01:04:40,172 --> 01:04:41,573 I have a question. 999 01:04:42,709 --> 01:04:43,743 O... okay. 1000 01:04:49,114 --> 01:04:50,382 Shoot. 1001 01:04:54,419 --> 01:04:56,288 Did you know in South Dakota? 1002 01:05:01,360 --> 01:05:03,428 How could you know in South Dakota? 1003 01:05:03,562 --> 01:05:05,865 How could you travel 1,200 miles with me, 1004 01:05:05,999 --> 01:05:09,434 just sitting next to me, knowing you were about to dump me? 1005 01:05:09,568 --> 01:05:11,905 It's not like that, okay? It's not... like I said, 1006 01:05:12,037 --> 01:05:14,339 I didn't know that that Miles was going to go look for her. 1007 01:05:14,473 --> 01:05:17,309 - I didn't know that he was going to find her and... - I just thought our friendship, 1008 01:05:17,442 --> 01:05:20,145 and our relationship as friends was past you lying. 1009 01:05:21,146 --> 01:05:24,383 - I don't know who you are. - Okay, at the beginning of the trip, 1010 01:05:24,516 --> 01:05:26,653 I didn't know any of this was going to happen, okay? 1011 01:05:26,786 --> 01:05:29,588 But now that it has, I have to try. 1012 01:05:30,924 --> 01:05:33,793 I need... I need to look her in the eyes, okay? 1013 01:05:33,927 --> 01:05:36,328 I need to ask her why, and I need to just... 1014 01:05:36,896 --> 01:05:40,465 I need to yell at her. I need to get out of this... 1015 01:05:40,599 --> 01:05:43,268 this in-between place between being a teenager, an adult 1016 01:05:43,402 --> 01:05:45,404 and wherever I am, okay? 1017 01:05:45,972 --> 01:05:48,641 You know that... that space that you were in, 1018 01:05:48,775 --> 01:05:50,743 where... when you were being diagnosed, 1019 01:05:50,877 --> 01:05:54,681 those two years where you had all those unanswered questions. 1020 01:05:55,682 --> 01:05:57,817 I haven't seen this woman for ten years, 1021 01:05:57,951 --> 01:06:00,419 and I've had ten years of unanswered questions. 1022 01:06:00,552 --> 01:06:03,823 I can't believe you're going to minimize my own pain and suffering, 1023 01:06:03,957 --> 01:06:06,826 - just to justify your own. That's gross! - No... 1024 01:06:06,960 --> 01:06:10,029 No, that's... I don't... that's not what I'm saying, okay? 1025 01:06:10,162 --> 01:06:13,532 That's not... I'm get... this is coming out all wrong. 1026 01:06:13,666 --> 01:06:16,535 I don't mean to minimize what you're going through, okay? 1027 01:06:16,669 --> 01:06:19,471 I just... 1028 01:06:23,776 --> 01:06:26,713 I wouldn't have been able to do this three years ago, okay? 1029 01:06:26,846 --> 01:06:30,449 I wouldn't have been able to even talk to that woman, much less see her. 1030 01:06:30,984 --> 01:06:33,285 Okay? I can't imagine what you go through, 1031 01:06:33,418 --> 01:06:35,454 and you have to be so strong to do what you do 1032 01:06:35,587 --> 01:06:37,757 on a day-to-day basis, and... 1033 01:06:40,093 --> 01:06:44,196 It sounds stupid, but I wouldn't have been able to do this without you. 1034 01:06:46,733 --> 01:06:47,734 Mads... 1035 01:06:49,802 --> 01:06:51,904 I don't want to stand in your way. 1036 01:06:54,073 --> 01:06:56,676 I just don't know why you have to abandon me. 1037 01:06:59,078 --> 01:07:01,246 I'm not abandoning you. 1038 01:07:03,348 --> 01:07:04,817 You don't need me. 1039 01:07:05,718 --> 01:07:08,186 I know that you think you do, but you don't. 1040 01:07:11,924 --> 01:07:12,959 You're right. 1041 01:07:13,693 --> 01:07:15,762 I don't need you. 1042 01:07:17,030 --> 01:07:18,397 You're just a kid. 1043 01:07:19,966 --> 01:07:20,867 Wow. 1044 01:07:22,735 --> 01:07:23,770 Okay. 1045 01:07:50,595 --> 01:07:52,865 I don't want to get in the middle of this thing, but... 1046 01:07:53,432 --> 01:07:55,768 I just know that Mads is trying. 1047 01:07:57,536 --> 01:08:00,707 Alright? This isn't an easy decision for her and... 1048 01:08:03,241 --> 01:08:05,243 And to be honest, I pushed her to make it. 1049 01:08:06,244 --> 01:08:09,347 So if you're going to be mad at someone, don't just be mad at her. 1050 01:08:14,754 --> 01:08:16,354 Why does it have to happen now? 1051 01:08:17,090 --> 01:08:19,859 I went to South Dakota, South Dakota! 1052 01:08:20,525 --> 01:08:22,762 She promised me that drive home. 1053 01:08:24,229 --> 01:08:28,233 You realize now I have to drive that road where my sister died. 1054 01:08:28,366 --> 01:08:30,203 I have to do that alone. 1055 01:08:31,003 --> 01:08:32,905 - And you're scared? - Of course I am. 1056 01:08:33,039 --> 01:08:34,306 So is she. 1057 01:08:36,042 --> 01:08:37,309 Can you not see that? 1058 01:08:41,981 --> 01:08:45,617 Has Mads ever talked to you about her fear of not being seen? 1059 01:08:48,020 --> 01:08:51,224 It started after she got sick. She said to me, "I'm invisible. 1060 01:08:51,356 --> 01:08:54,694 This disease makes people not see me." 1061 01:08:59,297 --> 01:09:01,701 Yeah, I know that feeling. 1062 01:09:03,069 --> 01:09:04,203 And then her mom left. 1063 01:09:05,403 --> 01:09:09,175 And ever since, Mads has been spending her life trying to be seen, 1064 01:09:09,307 --> 01:09:10,509 but stay invisible at the same time. 1065 01:09:10,643 --> 01:09:12,477 She can't stay there anymore. 1066 01:09:15,715 --> 01:09:17,049 Does that makes sense? 1067 01:09:21,553 --> 01:09:22,789 Of course, it does. 1068 01:09:27,927 --> 01:09:30,495 Guess it's time for us both to grow up. 1069 01:09:33,933 --> 01:09:35,968 I don't... I don't want to be rude, um... 1070 01:09:36,936 --> 01:09:39,005 - I really have to lay down. - Yeah. 1071 01:09:39,639 --> 01:09:41,908 Uh, all the arguing, the walking, 1072 01:09:42,041 --> 01:09:45,144 it really makes my pain levels go up. 1073 01:09:45,278 --> 01:09:47,379 - If you wouldn't mind to. - Yeah. 1074 01:09:49,048 --> 01:09:50,082 Thanks. 1075 01:10:00,960 --> 01:10:02,627 Do you want some pot or something? 1076 01:10:03,628 --> 01:10:05,932 Yeah. Yeah. 1077 01:10:06,632 --> 01:10:09,467 Yes. Yes. 1078 01:10:10,102 --> 01:10:12,404 Yes! 1079 01:10:20,512 --> 01:10:22,849 1080 01:10:24,616 --> 01:10:27,019 1081 01:10:27,153 --> 01:10:29,822 1082 01:10:29,956 --> 01:10:37,395 1083 01:10:38,898 --> 01:10:46,105 1084 01:10:47,707 --> 01:10:50,276 Yeah. I understand why you did what you had to do. 1085 01:10:50,643 --> 01:10:51,944 I don't fault you for that. 1086 01:10:52,778 --> 01:10:54,512 I just wish you hadn't lied to me. 1087 01:10:55,181 --> 01:10:56,282 No, I know. I... 1088 01:10:57,016 --> 01:10:58,985 I don't know why I did, I guess... 1089 01:11:00,786 --> 01:11:02,121 I was just scared. 1090 01:11:04,690 --> 01:11:06,259 I don't know, maybe you're right. 1091 01:11:06,792 --> 01:11:08,027 Maybe I don't need you. 1092 01:11:08,560 --> 01:11:09,896 Maybe I'm too dependent on you. 1093 01:11:10,395 --> 01:11:12,832 I think I used you as an excuse to do this trip, 1094 01:11:13,199 --> 01:11:15,500 instead of Veronica being the whole reason. 1095 01:11:16,468 --> 01:11:18,371 Okay, so are we good? Or... 1096 01:11:19,105 --> 01:11:21,941 I don't know, Mads. I think I need some time. 1097 01:11:22,875 --> 01:11:25,510 - What does that mean? - It means I need time. 1098 01:11:27,445 --> 01:11:29,982 I got to go. Got a long way to drive. 1099 01:11:31,150 --> 01:11:32,685 I'll see you later, Mads. 1100 01:11:33,286 --> 01:11:34,519 Bye, Junior. 1101 01:11:50,736 --> 01:11:55,174 1102 01:11:56,208 --> 01:12:02,782 rustling on the ground 1103 01:12:03,783 --> 01:12:07,987 1104 01:12:08,120 --> 01:12:11,991 1105 01:12:12,124 --> 01:12:17,797 without a sound 1106 01:12:20,532 --> 01:12:24,103 I know I lost my way 1107 01:12:24,236 --> 01:12:27,974 took so long to feel this way 1108 01:12:28,107 --> 01:12:31,143 just where I could be 1109 01:12:31,277 --> 01:12:34,981 were right in front of me 1110 01:12:35,114 --> 01:12:40,152 to close your eyes 1111 01:12:40,286 --> 01:12:43,055 1112 01:12:43,189 --> 01:12:47,460 to close the blinds 1113 01:12:47,927 --> 01:12:50,763 1114 01:12:50,896 --> 01:12:54,700 alone on the road 1115 01:12:54,834 --> 01:12:58,004 just move along 1116 01:12:58,137 --> 01:13:02,808 is on your mind 1117 01:13:02,942 --> 01:13:05,945 close your eyes 1118 01:13:09,782 --> 01:13:13,753 are never gone 1119 01:13:15,054 --> 01:13:18,724 night loses light 1120 01:13:18,858 --> 01:13:21,794 1121 01:13:22,795 --> 01:13:24,663 shapes of the moon 1122 01:13:24,797 --> 01:13:26,665 they can move 1123 01:13:26,799 --> 01:13:31,237 in the dead of the night 1124 01:13:31,370 --> 01:13:32,838 1125 01:13:34,874 --> 01:13:36,608 1126 01:13:39,111 --> 01:13:42,882 I know I lost my way 1127 01:13:43,015 --> 01:13:46,819 took so long to feel this way 1128 01:13:46,952 --> 01:13:50,289 just where I could be 1129 01:13:50,423 --> 01:13:54,160 were right in front of me 1130 01:14:05,570 --> 01:14:06,672 Hi, Polar Bear. 1131 01:14:08,674 --> 01:14:10,109 Hey, Care Bear. 1132 01:14:10,543 --> 01:14:12,044 I'm here. 1133 01:14:13,712 --> 01:14:16,482 just move along 1134 01:14:16,614 --> 01:14:21,120 to close your eyes 1135 01:14:21,253 --> 01:14:23,923 1136 01:14:24,056 --> 01:14:28,994 to close the blinds 1137 01:14:29,128 --> 01:14:31,997 1138 01:14:32,131 --> 01:14:35,701 alone on the road 1139 01:14:35,835 --> 01:14:39,438 just move along 1140 01:14:39,572 --> 01:14:43,943 is on your mind 1141 01:14:44,076 --> 01:14:47,680 close your eyes 1142 01:14:57,923 --> 01:15:01,994 and make me reach 1143 01:15:05,531 --> 01:15:11,170 then Slade was made 1144 01:15:14,540 --> 01:15:17,910 1145 01:15:18,043 --> 01:15:21,080 1146 01:15:22,882 --> 01:15:28,287 cool on the rain 1147 01:15:30,723 --> 01:15:37,863 "Goodbye" to you 1148 01:15:38,764 --> 01:15:45,704 to the moon 1149 01:15:46,772 --> 01:15:49,175 1150 01:15:50,676 --> 01:15:53,879 your shoulders meet 1151 01:15:54,847 --> 01:15:57,449 1152 01:15:58,652 --> 01:16:02,922 your shoulders, oh 1153 01:16:04,890 --> 01:16:08,093 1154 01:16:09,728 --> 01:16:16,969 1155 01:16:19,171 --> 01:16:26,378 "Goodbye" to you 1156 01:16:27,379 --> 01:16:34,286 to the moon 1157 01:16:35,020 --> 01:16:38,257 1158 01:16:39,124 --> 01:16:42,394 your shoulders meet 1159 01:16:43,262 --> 01:16:45,798 1160 01:16:47,066 --> 01:16:50,803 your shoulders, oh 1161 01:16:50,936 --> 01:16:56,108 1162 01:16:58,210 --> 01:17:05,084