1 00:02:42,440 --> 00:02:45,080 I'm glad we came up here. 2 00:03:41,960 --> 00:03:44,040 All flesh is grass. 3 00:03:45,720 --> 00:03:47,680 We are what we abhor. 4 00:03:48,840 --> 00:03:52,240 Devourers not only of men but of ourselves. 5 00:03:52,400 --> 00:03:55,640 In brief, we have devoured ourselves. 6 00:04:04,680 --> 00:04:06,920 - Yeah? OK. - I think it looked great. 7 00:04:11,440 --> 00:04:13,600 Thank you so much. 8 00:04:13,760 --> 00:04:18,000 Such a good day. 9 00:05:07,600 --> 00:05:09,200 Hey. 10 00:05:09,360 --> 00:05:11,040 - Sorry, you were... - Hey. 11 00:05:11,200 --> 00:05:14,640 - ...in the zone, hey? - Yeah, kinda. 12 00:05:14,800 --> 00:05:16,920 Working on the portrait thing? 13 00:05:17,080 --> 00:05:19,680 Mmm. Yeah, I... 14 00:05:19,840 --> 00:05:22,920 I filmed this old lady that I work for. 15 00:05:23,080 --> 00:05:27,480 Cool. Hey, have you seen that film, Catch Me If You Can? 16 00:05:28,680 --> 00:05:30,280 Yeah. Yeah, why? 17 00:05:30,440 --> 00:05:31,760 Um... 18 00:05:31,920 --> 00:05:35,080 Well, I was watching it last night and I liked it, 19 00:05:35,240 --> 00:05:37,080 but I didn't think it was a GOOD film. 20 00:05:37,240 --> 00:05:39,640 So I was just curious as to what you thought. 21 00:05:39,800 --> 00:05:41,080 Um... 22 00:05:42,320 --> 00:05:45,080 I wasn't a big fan of the film. 23 00:05:46,480 --> 00:05:49,200 But it's so weird, 'cause Leonardo di Caprio was in my dream last night. 24 00:05:49,360 --> 00:05:54,880 True? Well, it's your lucky night, because... it's Titanic Trivia. 25 00:05:55,040 --> 00:05:57,320 And we're all going to go down and grab a drink, 26 00:05:57,480 --> 00:05:59,000 if you want to join? 27 00:06:00,720 --> 00:06:04,400 - I want to work on the thing. - So fair. 28 00:06:05,480 --> 00:06:08,200 - OK, well, good luck. - OK. 29 00:06:09,440 --> 00:06:11,240 You too. 30 00:06:13,680 --> 00:06:15,200 I never said that! 31 00:06:15,360 --> 00:06:17,320 But I felt it. 32 00:06:17,480 --> 00:06:19,080 - You didn't like it. - You imagined that. 33 00:06:21,320 --> 00:06:24,080 I didn't quite understand this project. 34 00:06:24,240 --> 00:06:27,400 I'm not a film professional. 35 00:06:27,720 --> 00:06:31,800 Eva, how can you get so upset? 36 00:06:35,320 --> 00:06:38,320 Shouldn't they be guiding you somehow? 37 00:06:38,480 --> 00:06:40,120 Yes, but... 38 00:06:40,280 --> 00:06:43,400 You can't really teach making films. 39 00:06:43,560 --> 00:06:45,160 It's life. 40 00:06:45,320 --> 00:06:47,240 It's... It's life. You... 41 00:06:47,400 --> 00:06:50,000 You just have to live, to feel things, 42 00:06:50,160 --> 00:06:53,720 to understand things in order to express anything. 43 00:06:55,320 --> 00:06:57,120 What if I'm just a mediocrity with nothing to say? 44 00:06:57,480 --> 00:07:00,160 Please, don't dramatise. 45 00:07:00,320 --> 00:07:02,920 You're learning... 46 00:07:03,080 --> 00:07:06,720 The main thing is to keep working, trying... 47 00:07:06,880 --> 00:07:08,320 Yes, yes. 48 00:07:08,480 --> 00:07:11,720 Simply being able to do what you love... 49 00:07:12,000 --> 00:07:14,320 It's wonderful. It's so cool. 50 00:07:14,480 --> 00:07:16,240 Enjoy the process. 51 00:07:16,400 --> 00:07:19,600 Otherwise, why do it at all? 52 00:07:19,760 --> 00:07:23,680 Maybe you should socialise a little bit more with your classmates. 53 00:07:25,320 --> 00:07:28,600 I like this house. Would you like to live there? 54 00:07:28,760 --> 00:07:29,920 Hmm... 55 00:07:30,080 --> 00:07:32,240 Do you know that in France 56 00:07:32,400 --> 00:07:35,880 you can buy a castle for peanuts? 57 00:07:36,040 --> 00:07:39,120 Probably because no one wants to live in a castle. 58 00:07:53,320 --> 00:07:55,240 "All flesh is grass. 59 00:07:58,280 --> 00:08:00,080 "We are what we abhor. 60 00:08:03,120 --> 00:08:06,440 "Devourers not only of men but of ourselves. 61 00:08:08,400 --> 00:08:11,000 "In brief, we have devoured ourselves. 62 00:08:13,040 --> 00:08:15,360 "Those apparitions and ghosts of departed persons 63 00:08:15,520 --> 00:08:17,360 "are not the wandering souls of men, 64 00:08:17,520 --> 00:08:19,880 "but the unquiet walks of devils. 65 00:08:20,040 --> 00:08:22,800 "The blessed spirits are not at rest in their graves, 66 00:08:22,960 --> 00:08:26,200 "but wander, solicitous of the affairs of the world." 67 00:08:27,360 --> 00:08:28,560 Solicitous? 68 00:08:33,640 --> 00:08:36,640 Solicitous. 69 00:08:40,440 --> 00:08:42,160 Solicitous. 70 00:09:16,520 --> 00:09:19,840 Huh? I'm going around in circles. 71 00:09:21,480 --> 00:09:23,560 Left at the bad sculpture? 72 00:09:33,680 --> 00:09:35,440 Oh, I can see Mia. 73 00:09:35,600 --> 00:09:36,680 Hey, babe. 74 00:09:36,840 --> 00:09:39,360 Hi. 75 00:09:39,520 --> 00:09:41,800 - How are you? - Good. How are you? 76 00:09:52,160 --> 00:09:54,840 - You remember Mary? - Yeah, Mary. 77 00:09:55,000 --> 00:09:58,160 - She had that cat... - Yeah. 78 00:10:08,040 --> 00:10:10,440 So I've been trying, like, baths, right? 79 00:10:10,600 --> 00:10:12,960 You get, like, two litres of milk and orange blossom water 80 00:10:13,120 --> 00:10:15,240 and you just, like, soak in it. 81 00:10:15,400 --> 00:10:19,640 And you just kind of like come out soft as a baby and it's... 82 00:10:19,800 --> 00:10:20,880 Oh, God, hey. 83 00:10:21,040 --> 00:10:23,600 It's, like, really good for anxiety. 84 00:10:28,680 --> 00:10:30,360 Hey, I'm so sorry. 85 00:10:30,520 --> 00:10:34,080 I hope you don't mind. You dropped this in the street. 86 00:10:34,240 --> 00:10:36,040 Oh, my God. 87 00:10:37,160 --> 00:10:39,640 That's lucky. Thank you. 88 00:10:40,840 --> 00:10:43,840 Have we met before? You look kind of familiar. 89 00:10:44,000 --> 00:10:46,000 No, don't think so. 90 00:10:46,160 --> 00:10:47,560 Do you want a drink? 91 00:10:51,600 --> 00:10:54,200 $500 to simply piss on someone? 92 00:10:54,360 --> 00:10:55,920 It's not THAT bad, but it's also, like, not... 93 00:10:56,080 --> 00:10:58,080 - You have to draw the line, right? - Well, this is what I'm saying. 94 00:10:58,240 --> 00:11:00,800 The stock market is so much more profitable. 95 00:11:00,960 --> 00:11:02,640 - I'm Mia. - Mia? 96 00:11:02,800 --> 00:11:04,800 - Yeah. - I'm Eva. 97 00:11:04,960 --> 00:11:06,360 Eva. 98 00:11:08,240 --> 00:11:10,880 I like your shirt. It's really beautiful. 99 00:11:11,040 --> 00:11:13,920 Thank you. I'm glad you say that. 100 00:11:14,080 --> 00:11:15,920 You don't think I look like a turkey? 101 00:11:16,080 --> 00:11:18,360 A turkey? No. 102 00:11:18,520 --> 00:11:20,440 Maybe it's a little bit Oscar Wilde. 103 00:11:21,680 --> 00:11:23,160 Oh, yeah. I like that. 104 00:11:27,200 --> 00:11:29,560 I was having a shitty day, so I dressed up. 105 00:11:29,720 --> 00:11:32,240 - Oh, I'm sorry. - No. 106 00:11:32,400 --> 00:11:34,480 I mean, it is a full moon. 107 00:11:34,640 --> 00:11:36,040 It's probably just my life. 108 00:11:36,200 --> 00:11:37,880 I always blame a bad day on the weather. 109 00:11:38,040 --> 00:11:39,760 Yeah, blame it on the weather. 110 00:11:41,600 --> 00:11:43,640 Do you want one? 111 00:11:43,800 --> 00:11:45,120 I just have to get the last train home. 112 00:11:45,280 --> 00:11:47,320 Mm-hm. Yeah. 113 00:11:47,480 --> 00:11:48,800 Where do you live? 114 00:11:48,960 --> 00:11:51,120 Just on the other side of town, with my parents. 115 00:11:51,280 --> 00:11:53,760 - I can get you a cab, if you want. - Oh, no, no, no, no. 116 00:11:53,920 --> 00:11:56,200 Thanks. That's OK. 117 00:11:57,800 --> 00:11:59,840 Eva was the name of my sister. 118 00:12:00,000 --> 00:12:03,240 - Oh. - Mmm. Yeah, she died. 119 00:12:03,400 --> 00:12:05,840 - I'm so sorry. - Oh, don't worry about it. 120 00:12:07,720 --> 00:12:09,200 I was, like, 10. 121 00:12:09,360 --> 00:12:11,880 She was eight years older than me. I didn't even really know her. 122 00:12:12,920 --> 00:12:15,080 Yeah, she was travelling overseas and... 123 00:12:15,240 --> 00:12:17,440 she got into a car accident. 124 00:12:36,960 --> 00:12:38,360 Sorry about the mess. 125 00:12:38,520 --> 00:12:40,640 No, it's perfect. 126 00:12:43,960 --> 00:12:45,760 This place is super cool. 127 00:12:49,200 --> 00:12:50,520 Do you live here alone? 128 00:12:50,680 --> 00:12:52,240 Yeah, for now. 129 00:12:52,400 --> 00:12:54,560 This rich guy is letting me stay here. 130 00:12:56,560 --> 00:12:59,840 - Did you make these? - Ah, yeah, mostly. 131 00:13:00,000 --> 00:13:02,480 I'm trying more, like, performance now. 132 00:13:02,640 --> 00:13:05,440 Oh, these are so beautiful! 133 00:13:08,120 --> 00:13:10,520 Never been in an artist's home before. 134 00:13:12,040 --> 00:13:16,440 Seems kind of vulgar to say that about oneself, don't you think? 135 00:13:16,600 --> 00:13:19,280 I guess it's not, like, a profession, or something. 136 00:13:21,720 --> 00:13:24,600 I just want to live - really live. 137 00:13:25,800 --> 00:13:28,680 I think people forget how important it is to just, like, 138 00:13:28,840 --> 00:13:30,640 stare at a wall sometimes. 139 00:13:32,080 --> 00:13:34,520 What do you mean "really live"? 140 00:13:34,680 --> 00:13:38,800 Yeah. Yeah, how stupid. 141 00:13:38,960 --> 00:13:40,720 I mean, what does that even mean? 142 00:13:42,840 --> 00:13:44,640 Hey, look at the moon. 143 00:13:47,760 --> 00:13:51,520 When I was little, I prayed to go to the moon. 144 00:13:51,680 --> 00:13:53,480 I, um... 145 00:13:53,640 --> 00:13:55,560 I was more of a sun person, myself. 146 00:13:55,720 --> 00:13:57,920 I was scared of the dark. 147 00:13:59,360 --> 00:14:01,400 I was a scaredy-cat. 148 00:14:07,200 --> 00:14:09,400 Hey, you can really hear the ocean. 149 00:14:29,120 --> 00:14:31,480 What is it? 150 00:14:36,360 --> 00:14:38,120 It doesn't matter. 151 00:14:50,240 --> 00:14:54,160 There's a spare bed in here. I'll get you a pillow. 152 00:15:16,800 --> 00:15:19,120 Hey, um, I'm going to go. 153 00:15:19,280 --> 00:15:21,360 I think the trains'll be running again soon. 154 00:15:30,840 --> 00:15:33,320 Bella Mikhalovna, shouldn't you rest? 155 00:15:33,480 --> 00:15:37,520 - You're running around again. - No big deal, it's good for me. 156 00:15:37,680 --> 00:15:41,160 I want you to eat a pirozhok, eat something. 157 00:15:41,320 --> 00:15:45,600 - Because you can't work and not eat. - But I'm meant to cook. 158 00:15:45,760 --> 00:15:50,880 They're saying that you're eligible for cover. 159 00:15:51,040 --> 00:15:53,400 So you'll get compensation. 160 00:15:53,560 --> 00:15:57,320 You just need a certificate from the doctor. 161 00:15:58,880 --> 00:16:01,440 We can fill out this form next week. 162 00:16:01,600 --> 00:16:06,080 Okay, we better look at your cup. 163 00:16:06,240 --> 00:16:08,240 Okay, so... 164 00:16:08,400 --> 00:16:10,120 I think that... 165 00:16:10,280 --> 00:16:14,240 Someone from the other side is thinking of you. 166 00:16:16,200 --> 00:16:18,600 Yes, something like that. 167 00:16:19,440 --> 00:16:22,240 And maybe it knows something about you. 168 00:16:51,280 --> 00:16:53,440 - Hey, are you listening? - Yes. 169 00:16:53,600 --> 00:16:55,640 The point is... 170 00:16:55,800 --> 00:17:00,400 Information becomes material. 171 00:17:00,560 --> 00:17:02,280 What information? 172 00:17:02,440 --> 00:17:05,560 Our thoughts, memories... 173 00:17:05,720 --> 00:17:09,160 The organisation of nature. Everything is information. 174 00:17:09,320 --> 00:17:13,880 Take for instance Quantum Entanglement. 175 00:17:15,240 --> 00:17:16,640 What? 176 00:17:16,800 --> 00:17:18,600 You remember a person, 177 00:17:18,760 --> 00:17:20,960 and they call you that same day... 178 00:17:21,120 --> 00:17:23,320 A "spooky action at a distance". 179 00:17:23,480 --> 00:17:24,960 As Einstein said. 180 00:17:25,120 --> 00:17:27,480 You know that the other day I had a dream about Leonardo DiCaprio. 181 00:17:27,640 --> 00:17:29,720 - Yeah? - I've never dreamt about him before. 182 00:17:29,880 --> 00:17:31,600 And that same night, a guy in my class 183 00:17:31,760 --> 00:17:33,920 watched that dumb film, Catch Me If You Can. 184 00:17:34,280 --> 00:17:35,760 Yes! 185 00:17:36,960 --> 00:17:38,360 Hooray! 186 00:17:38,520 --> 00:17:40,160 It's still here. 187 00:17:40,320 --> 00:17:41,880 Look... 188 00:17:43,800 --> 00:17:47,480 50% off, already 50%. 189 00:17:47,640 --> 00:17:50,280 - Mmm? - Mum. 190 00:17:50,960 --> 00:17:53,160 Mum, I won't wear it. 191 00:17:53,320 --> 00:17:56,760 Listen, it's only $40 and it's 100% silk. 192 00:17:56,920 --> 00:17:58,960 I just won't wear it. 193 00:18:00,920 --> 00:18:02,960 What about this one? 194 00:18:23,240 --> 00:18:26,160 Look, I found this. 195 00:18:31,760 --> 00:18:33,520 Is there a sale? 196 00:18:37,040 --> 00:18:38,840 These dogs. 197 00:19:20,960 --> 00:19:22,360 Yeah, my... 198 00:19:22,520 --> 00:19:24,360 My intention was to... 199 00:19:24,520 --> 00:19:27,560 capture this woman's inner world. 200 00:19:28,680 --> 00:19:29,800 Um... 201 00:19:31,600 --> 00:19:37,400 Both the... frailty of her body at this point in time, 202 00:19:37,560 --> 00:19:39,480 but also, like, the... 203 00:19:40,920 --> 00:19:43,560 ...the freedom of her imagination. 204 00:19:43,720 --> 00:19:47,240 So I tried to use sounds of the ocean for that, but... 205 00:19:47,400 --> 00:19:49,560 - ...I don't know if it worked. - No, it's good. 206 00:19:49,720 --> 00:19:51,680 Um, I think you've got a really, you know, 207 00:19:51,840 --> 00:19:53,680 a really good eye for detail. 208 00:19:53,840 --> 00:19:58,240 I would wonder, though, is this more of... a portrait of yourself, 209 00:19:58,400 --> 00:20:00,480 or of the subject? 210 00:20:01,720 --> 00:20:03,360 Uh... 211 00:20:03,520 --> 00:20:06,000 It's impressions, so it's... 212 00:20:06,160 --> 00:20:09,160 It's about finding somewhere between... 213 00:20:09,320 --> 00:20:10,840 ...between reality and interpretation. 214 00:20:11,000 --> 00:20:13,480 Yeah. I mean, we've been talking a fair bit in this class 215 00:20:13,640 --> 00:20:18,160 about the ethics of subjective portrayals 216 00:20:18,320 --> 00:20:20,520 and I think that's a really interesting thing 217 00:20:20,680 --> 00:20:22,200 with documentary work. 218 00:20:22,360 --> 00:20:24,600 Look, even though this is a documentary module, 219 00:20:24,760 --> 00:20:26,840 everything that you learn here is going to be really helpful 220 00:20:27,000 --> 00:20:28,320 for your final year projects. 221 00:20:32,560 --> 00:20:34,560 Is that guy your boyfriend? 222 00:20:34,720 --> 00:20:36,040 No. 223 00:20:36,200 --> 00:20:38,160 What about you? Have you got anyone? 224 00:20:38,320 --> 00:20:40,560 - No. - Are you in love? 225 00:20:40,720 --> 00:20:42,080 No. 226 00:20:42,240 --> 00:20:44,920 I've never been with someone that I was in love with. 227 00:20:45,080 --> 00:20:46,560 Actually, 228 00:20:46,720 --> 00:20:49,880 I fall in love all the time, but... 229 00:20:50,040 --> 00:20:52,960 ...it's never with, like, a real person. 230 00:20:55,360 --> 00:20:57,120 Guess it's kind of childish. 231 00:20:58,520 --> 00:21:00,320 I don't think so. 232 00:21:00,480 --> 00:21:01,880 Not necessarily. 233 00:21:03,160 --> 00:21:06,600 You're a romantic. Like all the not-boring people. 234 00:21:06,760 --> 00:21:07,920 Maybe. 235 00:21:09,640 --> 00:21:10,720 Are you? 236 00:21:14,600 --> 00:21:16,360 Yeah, I think so. 237 00:21:18,520 --> 00:21:22,680 I think it's the only thing that truly changes someone, 238 00:21:22,840 --> 00:21:25,200 falling in love with some freak. 239 00:21:49,400 --> 00:21:51,680 We should make something together. 240 00:21:51,840 --> 00:21:53,760 You could act in it. 241 00:21:54,760 --> 00:21:56,120 Yeah, why not? 242 00:21:58,920 --> 00:22:02,680 Hey, you could stay in that spare room, if you wanted. 243 00:22:02,840 --> 00:22:05,200 At least for a little while. 244 00:22:06,200 --> 00:22:07,720 Really? 245 00:22:07,880 --> 00:22:11,640 Yeah. There's all that space. 246 00:22:11,800 --> 00:22:14,480 If it can help you. And I could use the company. 247 00:22:14,640 --> 00:22:17,200 - I can pay for it. - No, don't worry about it. 248 00:22:17,360 --> 00:22:19,200 OK. 249 00:22:44,160 --> 00:22:47,800 Eva! Everything is going to get cold. 250 00:22:48,040 --> 00:22:49,240 Sorry, coming! 251 00:22:50,720 --> 00:22:52,480 Listen, listen. 252 00:22:54,320 --> 00:22:58,120 "What snack shall we have next, Afanasii Ivanovich? 253 00:22:58,280 --> 00:23:00,680 "'Perhaps crusts with lard? 254 00:23:00,840 --> 00:23:02,640 "'Or poppyseed buns, 255 00:23:02,800 --> 00:23:05,440 "'or at least some pickled mushrooms? 256 00:23:06,480 --> 00:23:11,320 "'I could have buns or mushrooms,' replied Afanasii Ivanovich. 257 00:23:11,480 --> 00:23:14,280 "And the table was suddenly set 258 00:23:14,440 --> 00:23:16,880 "with buns and mushrooms. 259 00:23:17,040 --> 00:23:21,280 "An hour before lunch he snacked some more, 260 00:23:21,440 --> 00:23:24,640 "drank a silver cup of vodka, 261 00:23:24,800 --> 00:23:28,240 "followed by various dried fishies 262 00:23:28,400 --> 00:23:29,960 "and the rest." 263 00:23:30,720 --> 00:23:33,160 People lived well then! And now? 264 00:23:33,320 --> 00:23:35,880 Seriously? What more do you need? 265 00:23:36,040 --> 00:23:37,800 I'm joking. 266 00:23:38,320 --> 00:23:40,400 - Eva. - Coming, coming, coming. 267 00:23:40,560 --> 00:23:42,840 I'm almost packed. 268 00:23:43,000 --> 00:23:44,800 What's this? 269 00:23:44,960 --> 00:23:46,960 Have a look. 270 00:23:50,960 --> 00:23:52,640 Even your dad approved. 271 00:23:54,560 --> 00:23:57,840 It's a magical coat. 272 00:23:58,000 --> 00:23:59,960 I can't believe it. 273 00:24:00,120 --> 00:24:03,200 Can you imagine, 50% off! 274 00:24:03,360 --> 00:24:07,200 As they say, "it was meant to be." 275 00:24:10,240 --> 00:24:12,440 Oh! 276 00:24:12,840 --> 00:24:16,280 What a beauty... 277 00:24:19,680 --> 00:24:21,440 Thanks. 278 00:24:36,320 --> 00:24:38,480 - Hi. - Morning. 279 00:24:38,640 --> 00:24:41,440 Totally slept in. I'm going to be late for class. 280 00:24:43,200 --> 00:24:45,320 Hey... 281 00:24:45,480 --> 00:24:47,080 I was thinking tonight that I could, um, 282 00:24:47,240 --> 00:24:49,680 I could take you out for, like, a martini or something. 283 00:24:59,600 --> 00:25:01,640 I've got class. 284 00:25:01,800 --> 00:25:04,880 You are living in the iron grip of an institution. 285 00:25:05,040 --> 00:25:06,600 You can resist. 286 00:25:07,680 --> 00:25:11,600 Unshackle yourself from the shackles of the patriarchy. 287 00:25:11,760 --> 00:25:12,880 Whatever. 288 00:25:17,400 --> 00:25:19,040 Well... 289 00:25:19,200 --> 00:25:21,000 Work is slavery. 290 00:25:21,160 --> 00:25:25,160 Progress is death and destruction, so, um, what's left? 291 00:25:25,320 --> 00:25:27,760 Doing nothing. 292 00:25:34,880 --> 00:25:37,640 You look great. You're very beautiful. 293 00:25:45,480 --> 00:25:47,200 The thing with beauty is... 294 00:25:48,480 --> 00:25:50,440 ...being at ease with yourself, right? 295 00:25:51,680 --> 00:25:53,680 When you're nervous, all the muscles on your face tense up 296 00:25:53,840 --> 00:25:55,800 and you look all wrong. 297 00:25:58,880 --> 00:26:01,360 There's something relaxing about being filmed, too. 298 00:26:04,160 --> 00:26:07,040 I think it's not being in control. 299 00:26:08,640 --> 00:26:10,240 I like being in control, but... 300 00:26:11,320 --> 00:26:13,560 ...maybe it's good to lose control, too. 301 00:26:15,040 --> 00:26:17,120 Gets you out of your thoughts. 302 00:26:21,600 --> 00:26:23,200 What do you mean? 303 00:26:29,360 --> 00:26:30,840 When I... 304 00:26:32,280 --> 00:26:35,920 ...remember things from the past, 305 00:26:36,080 --> 00:26:38,320 I remember 306 00:26:38,480 --> 00:26:39,960 what I thought. 307 00:26:42,440 --> 00:26:45,000 But I wish I could remember... 308 00:26:46,440 --> 00:26:48,160 ...the weather... 309 00:26:50,160 --> 00:26:52,800 ...details of people's faces, 310 00:26:52,960 --> 00:26:55,800 the way that the air tasted. 311 00:26:57,840 --> 00:27:00,160 Just... 312 00:27:00,320 --> 00:27:02,320 ...more of the world, 313 00:27:02,480 --> 00:27:04,560 less of myself. 314 00:27:04,720 --> 00:27:07,400 Then I think you'd see more of yourself. 315 00:27:10,880 --> 00:27:15,800 It's weird to think that you don't know yourself. 316 00:27:19,480 --> 00:27:21,320 What am I saying? 317 00:27:32,480 --> 00:27:37,160 It's weird to think that you don't know yourself. 318 00:27:40,640 --> 00:27:42,280 What am I saying? 319 00:27:57,000 --> 00:27:59,840 The blessed spirits are not at rest in their graves, 320 00:28:00,000 --> 00:28:03,200 but wander, solicitous of the affairs of the world. 321 00:28:21,920 --> 00:28:23,440 Oh... 322 00:28:23,600 --> 00:28:25,600 That is so embarrassing. 323 00:28:27,560 --> 00:28:29,320 I'm sure it's fine. 324 00:28:39,080 --> 00:28:40,600 What do you think of this one? 325 00:28:41,960 --> 00:28:44,440 - Um... 326 00:28:44,600 --> 00:28:46,000 I like it. 327 00:28:47,400 --> 00:28:49,200 Why? Is it yours? 328 00:28:49,360 --> 00:28:51,880 No. I'm a psychiatrist. 329 00:28:52,040 --> 00:28:55,560 And... well, an appreciator, I guess. 330 00:28:57,240 --> 00:28:58,600 You? 331 00:28:59,760 --> 00:29:01,640 An appreciator. 332 00:29:01,800 --> 00:29:03,440 Psychiatry must be interesting. 333 00:29:03,600 --> 00:29:06,240 Not as interesting as it may seem. 334 00:29:06,400 --> 00:29:09,760 You'd probably learn more about the human mind from... 335 00:29:09,920 --> 00:29:11,760 ...reading Russian novels. 336 00:29:11,920 --> 00:29:14,080 Did you just guess that I was Russian? 337 00:29:14,240 --> 00:29:16,000 No, I didn't. 338 00:29:16,160 --> 00:29:18,360 - Were you born there? - No. 339 00:29:18,520 --> 00:29:20,520 So I don't speak it as well as I'd like to. 340 00:29:20,680 --> 00:29:21,800 I've been a few times. 341 00:29:21,960 --> 00:29:23,360 - Really? - Mm-hm. 342 00:29:23,520 --> 00:29:26,320 I even managed to sneak in there in the '80s, in my student years. 343 00:29:26,480 --> 00:29:28,640 Whoa! 344 00:29:28,800 --> 00:29:30,400 What made you want to go there? 345 00:29:30,560 --> 00:29:34,920 Um... Bit of a cliche, but Dostoyevsky. 346 00:29:35,080 --> 00:29:37,240 I loved him, as a young man. 347 00:29:37,400 --> 00:29:41,840 Now, I probably gravitate more towards Tolstoy. 348 00:29:42,960 --> 00:29:44,440 Which man do you prefer? 349 00:29:44,600 --> 00:29:45,600 Um... 350 00:29:46,680 --> 00:29:48,920 Oh, excuse me. 351 00:31:17,440 --> 00:31:18,600 Mia. 352 00:31:19,680 --> 00:31:20,840 Hey. 353 00:31:21,000 --> 00:31:24,360 I... I loved that. 354 00:31:26,800 --> 00:31:27,920 Are you OK? 355 00:31:28,080 --> 00:31:29,080 Mmm. 356 00:31:30,120 --> 00:31:32,080 - Yeah? - Yeah. 357 00:31:32,240 --> 00:31:33,800 You should be so happy. 358 00:31:33,960 --> 00:31:35,880 Yeah, I overheard these two women 359 00:31:36,040 --> 00:31:39,480 say that, um, it was self-indulgent or narcissistic or something. 360 00:31:39,640 --> 00:31:41,200 Oh, they don't know what they're talking about. 361 00:31:41,360 --> 00:31:43,040 It was so good. 362 00:31:43,200 --> 00:31:44,800 Hey. 363 00:31:44,960 --> 00:31:46,800 - Hey, Bell. - Sorry, I got held up. 364 00:31:46,960 --> 00:31:49,000 I didn't expect to see my fucking dad here. 365 00:31:49,160 --> 00:31:50,440 Oh, weird. He's here? 366 00:31:50,600 --> 00:31:53,280 Yeah, creeping about somewhere. 367 00:32:04,600 --> 00:32:06,360 Hey, I'm Eva. 368 00:32:06,520 --> 00:32:08,360 Hi. I'm Bell. 369 00:32:08,520 --> 00:32:09,360 Nice to meet you. 370 00:32:09,520 --> 00:32:12,320 - Would you like a drink? - Um... 371 00:32:12,480 --> 00:32:13,920 - Yes? - I'm all good, actually. 372 00:32:14,080 --> 00:32:17,120 - Oh, OK. - I'll be back in a sec. Sorry. 373 00:33:24,480 --> 00:33:26,040 Mia. 374 00:33:28,520 --> 00:33:29,840 Have I done something? 375 00:33:39,320 --> 00:33:41,320 I don't want to see you anymore. 376 00:33:47,680 --> 00:33:48,920 Why? 377 00:33:59,040 --> 00:34:00,360 You're full of shit. 378 00:34:25,920 --> 00:34:27,160 Look at the moon. 379 00:34:27,320 --> 00:34:29,640 When I was little, I prayed to go to the moon. 380 00:35:03,480 --> 00:35:05,400 Mia? 381 00:35:56,520 --> 00:35:58,920 I would really like that. I haven't done it in ages. 382 00:35:59,080 --> 00:36:01,360 No-one ever rings me. 383 00:36:01,520 --> 00:36:04,120 Yeah, besides you. 384 00:36:13,320 --> 00:36:14,360 Oh, yeah. 385 00:36:14,520 --> 00:36:16,560 So, like, so this, like, bitter energy 386 00:36:16,720 --> 00:36:19,280 was, like, boiling in the house, over time. 387 00:36:19,440 --> 00:36:21,120 And it's just like this sharing thing, 388 00:36:21,280 --> 00:36:22,680 it just becomes way too much. 389 00:36:22,840 --> 00:36:25,640 Like, everyone's just up in each other's grille. 390 00:36:25,800 --> 00:36:27,880 The confusing thing is, like, I love community, 391 00:36:28,040 --> 00:36:30,880 but it's actually just really hard, when it comes down to it. 392 00:36:31,040 --> 00:36:32,840 I think there could be a way to distribute the work... 393 00:36:33,000 --> 00:36:37,640 Sharing can also be kind of vain, don't you think? 394 00:36:37,800 --> 00:36:40,360 Like, cooking dinner for someone, or giving them a gift. 395 00:36:40,520 --> 00:36:42,080 - Yeah. - It can be a vain act. 396 00:36:42,240 --> 00:36:46,680 I think people get pleasure from being seen as a generous person. 397 00:36:46,840 --> 00:36:49,280 But that's over-complicating it a bit. I think people just act... 398 00:36:49,440 --> 00:36:52,240 I think that people don't really know themselves. 399 00:36:52,400 --> 00:36:55,960 Yeah, I think it's true. I think we can be so unpenetrable. 400 00:36:56,120 --> 00:36:57,880 Impenetrable? 401 00:36:58,040 --> 00:37:02,640 Well, I've decided to refashion myself as a corporate fuckwit. 402 00:37:02,800 --> 00:37:06,320 I'm going to start buying shares and fucking do this shit. 403 00:37:06,480 --> 00:37:08,440 - OK. - Is that what you're going to do? 404 00:37:08,600 --> 00:37:10,800 I don't know. We're all sucking corporate dick anyway. 405 00:37:10,960 --> 00:37:12,040 Might as well do it in style. 406 00:37:16,840 --> 00:37:18,360 Thank you so much. 407 00:37:38,080 --> 00:37:39,680 Impenetrable. 408 00:37:40,920 --> 00:37:42,480 Impenetrable. 409 00:38:37,520 --> 00:38:39,400 Are you, like, angry at me? 410 00:38:47,520 --> 00:38:49,920 Sorry. I'm just, like... 411 00:38:50,080 --> 00:38:51,560 ...lonely. 412 00:40:03,200 --> 00:40:05,400 She's... She's, like, full of life. 413 00:40:05,560 --> 00:40:07,280 And it's perfect. 414 00:40:07,440 --> 00:40:10,800 It r... It really shows on screen. 415 00:40:12,760 --> 00:40:15,560 And so the film will be more like a... 416 00:40:17,680 --> 00:40:21,760 ...kind of like a series of moments, like a series of tableaus 417 00:40:21,920 --> 00:40:23,720 um... 418 00:40:23,880 --> 00:40:27,360 ...that create, like, a... 419 00:40:27,520 --> 00:40:29,440 ...a mood. 420 00:40:29,600 --> 00:40:31,720 Like, create different emotions. 421 00:40:31,880 --> 00:40:33,920 Like an experimental portrait? 422 00:40:34,080 --> 00:40:36,240 - Yeah. - Great. 423 00:40:36,400 --> 00:40:38,720 And what's it going to be about? 424 00:40:41,000 --> 00:40:42,240 Um... 425 00:40:44,920 --> 00:40:49,000 I would, you know, just, ah, remind you that, 426 00:40:49,160 --> 00:40:51,760 you know, this is going to be your final-year project. 427 00:40:51,920 --> 00:40:55,560 And I think sometimes the best projects at the end of the year 428 00:40:55,720 --> 00:40:58,080 are ones that, you know, are really clear about 429 00:40:58,240 --> 00:40:59,520 what they're trying to say. 430 00:40:59,680 --> 00:41:03,000 It is a cliche, but to break away from conventions, 431 00:41:03,160 --> 00:41:05,400 you do have to have a really good grasp of them. 432 00:41:29,400 --> 00:41:31,680 It really helped Sasha's daughter 433 00:41:31,840 --> 00:41:34,800 with stress and sleep. 434 00:41:34,960 --> 00:41:36,800 I don't know, Mum. 435 00:41:36,960 --> 00:41:38,760 I think I'm fine, really. 436 00:41:40,360 --> 00:41:42,640 I couldn't sleep last night either. 437 00:41:42,800 --> 00:41:45,640 I dreamed that I was being chased by Putin. 438 00:41:45,800 --> 00:41:49,760 I kept running and hiding and he was following, 439 00:41:49,920 --> 00:41:52,520 he wanted to seduce me. 440 00:41:52,680 --> 00:41:56,680 He took off his pants but they were stuffed with newspapers. 441 00:41:59,000 --> 00:42:00,400 And how's Mia? 442 00:42:00,560 --> 00:42:02,800 Um, yeah, I haven't seen her in a few days. 443 00:42:02,960 --> 00:42:04,520 Mmm. 444 00:42:05,280 --> 00:42:07,760 - Mum, I better go now. - Okay, bye. 445 00:42:07,920 --> 00:42:09,480 Bye bye. 446 00:43:47,280 --> 00:43:49,560 "E sleeps all the time. 447 00:43:49,720 --> 00:43:51,280 "She is like a plant. 448 00:43:51,440 --> 00:43:53,480 "She is strong because she is simple. 449 00:43:54,680 --> 00:43:58,200 "I am a blood-sucker and feed on her admiration. 450 00:43:58,360 --> 00:44:00,440 "Friendship is vanity. 451 00:44:00,600 --> 00:44:02,200 "To move into the realm of the natural law, 452 00:44:02,360 --> 00:44:05,240 "where I know something other than myself. 453 00:44:05,400 --> 00:44:07,400 "A plant moves towards the sun." 454 00:44:26,640 --> 00:44:29,560 - Hey. - Hey, what's up? 455 00:44:29,720 --> 00:44:32,320 - What are you doing here? - What are you doing here? 456 00:44:32,480 --> 00:44:35,200 - Is Mia home? - Um, no. 457 00:44:36,240 --> 00:44:37,960 I was just borrowing a book. 458 00:44:40,000 --> 00:44:41,280 - Right. - Mmm. 459 00:44:41,440 --> 00:44:43,440 - You live here now? - Yeah. 460 00:44:44,680 --> 00:44:46,280 Just for a little while, at least. 461 00:44:46,440 --> 00:44:48,200 Cool. 462 00:44:48,360 --> 00:44:49,920 Do you want a drink? 463 00:44:50,920 --> 00:44:53,200 Ah, sure. 464 00:44:54,440 --> 00:44:56,800 I haven't seen Mia in a few days. 465 00:44:56,960 --> 00:44:58,200 Do you know where she could be? 466 00:44:58,360 --> 00:44:59,960 No idea. 467 00:45:00,120 --> 00:45:01,480 Maybe working at her studio. 468 00:45:01,640 --> 00:45:04,120 Oh. I didn't know she had a studio. 469 00:45:04,280 --> 00:45:05,840 Yeah, it's one of those studio spaces 470 00:45:06,000 --> 00:45:07,800 above the flower shop on Nicholson Street. 471 00:45:07,960 --> 00:45:09,880 Do you know who owns this house? 472 00:45:10,040 --> 00:45:11,840 No. 473 00:45:12,000 --> 00:45:14,000 - So are you studying? - Yeah. 474 00:45:14,160 --> 00:45:16,040 You know, I want to make a film, actually. 475 00:45:16,200 --> 00:45:17,560 - You study film, right? - Mmm. 476 00:45:17,720 --> 00:45:19,120 I had this idea for a film. 477 00:45:19,280 --> 00:45:20,520 It would be taking a look at 478 00:45:20,680 --> 00:45:23,560 our twisted relationship with property in this country. 479 00:45:23,720 --> 00:45:26,120 Like, 'cause a house is supposed to be a shelter, 480 00:45:26,280 --> 00:45:28,080 but in reality, it's this commodity. 481 00:45:28,240 --> 00:45:31,800 Like, conspicuous consumption, et cetera, et cetera. 482 00:45:33,160 --> 00:45:35,160 I don't know, maybe I'm too lazy. 483 00:45:35,320 --> 00:45:37,000 I read this George Orwell essay that said that 484 00:45:37,160 --> 00:45:39,360 the real motivation for writing... whatever 485 00:45:39,520 --> 00:45:42,480 is to get back at your childhood bullies. 486 00:45:42,640 --> 00:45:46,400 Well, I was a bully, so maybe I don't have any ambition. 487 00:45:46,560 --> 00:45:47,400 Sorry? 488 00:45:47,560 --> 00:45:49,280 You know, I'm a white guy. Who gives a fuck? 489 00:45:49,440 --> 00:45:51,120 Oh, I think it's more complicated than that. 490 00:45:51,280 --> 00:45:52,160 - You reckon? - Yep. 491 00:45:52,320 --> 00:45:54,640 Why should the oppressor be generating more shit? 492 00:45:54,800 --> 00:45:56,600 I don't think you're THE oppressor. 493 00:45:56,760 --> 00:45:58,200 You sure about that? 494 00:46:00,280 --> 00:46:02,280 You like Marvin Gaye? 495 00:46:02,440 --> 00:46:05,360 You know he was killed by his father, Marvin Gaye Senior? 496 00:46:05,520 --> 00:46:07,400 - Really? - Yeah. 497 00:46:07,560 --> 00:46:09,720 - That's crazy. - Yeah, it's cooked. 498 00:46:11,080 --> 00:46:13,120 - What is it? - Bit of fluff. 499 00:46:15,480 --> 00:46:16,920 Hey, it was nice talking to you. 500 00:46:17,080 --> 00:46:18,160 Oh, yeah, you too. 501 00:46:18,320 --> 00:46:21,240 Um, do you want to get a coffee sometime? 502 00:46:21,400 --> 00:46:23,560 Yeah. OK, yeah, cool. 503 00:46:23,720 --> 00:46:26,440 - Cool. I'll see you later. - OK. 504 00:48:13,280 --> 00:48:15,720 I had a dream about Eva. 505 00:48:15,880 --> 00:48:18,920 She was... sitting in her room. 506 00:48:21,240 --> 00:48:23,000 I was under the bed. 507 00:48:24,080 --> 00:48:26,080 So I... 508 00:48:26,240 --> 00:48:29,440 ...started to sing, to get her attention. 509 00:48:33,360 --> 00:48:35,440 But she didn't turn around. 510 00:48:43,080 --> 00:48:46,080 She used to call me a little bug. 511 00:48:49,880 --> 00:48:51,960 She was the... 512 00:48:52,120 --> 00:48:53,840 ...beautiful one. 513 00:48:55,240 --> 00:48:57,520 I know my mum thought that. 514 00:49:05,800 --> 00:49:07,760 She never second-guessed herself. 515 00:49:09,480 --> 00:49:11,280 Focus on my fingers. 516 00:49:12,880 --> 00:49:14,680 Follow my fingers. 517 00:49:18,560 --> 00:49:20,240 I want to grow... 518 00:49:26,840 --> 00:49:30,840 ...to be... inside of things... 519 00:49:34,280 --> 00:49:37,280 ...and everywhere 520 00:49:37,440 --> 00:49:39,160 at the same time. 521 00:49:39,320 --> 00:49:42,160 Deeper and deeper. 522 00:49:42,320 --> 00:49:44,080 Let your feet grow deep, 523 00:49:44,240 --> 00:49:47,040 like the roots of an old tree. 524 00:49:49,880 --> 00:49:51,520 Your limbs become 525 00:49:51,680 --> 00:49:54,360 the slithering vines of a thick canopy. 526 00:49:56,000 --> 00:49:57,880 Your voice becomes versatile, 527 00:49:58,040 --> 00:50:00,800 like that of the lyrebird, 528 00:50:00,960 --> 00:50:04,360 the voice of another echoing in empty space. 529 00:50:22,160 --> 00:50:24,000 Hey, wait for me. 530 00:50:25,720 --> 00:50:27,000 Wait up. 531 00:50:58,880 --> 00:51:00,360 Mia! Hey. 532 00:51:01,800 --> 00:51:04,880 When did you get in? I dozed off, didn't hear you. 533 00:51:08,600 --> 00:51:09,920 What are you doing? 534 00:51:11,600 --> 00:51:13,000 Photosynthesis. 535 00:51:14,240 --> 00:51:15,480 Really? 536 00:51:18,040 --> 00:51:19,600 I'm sorry I've been absent. 537 00:51:20,640 --> 00:51:22,280 What have you been up to? 538 00:51:23,800 --> 00:51:25,680 Just... 539 00:51:25,840 --> 00:51:28,280 - ...working on something. - What is it? 540 00:51:39,280 --> 00:51:40,840 Isn't it amazing? 541 00:51:41,880 --> 00:51:43,520 The Green Rose. 542 00:51:44,760 --> 00:51:47,280 It was discovered in China in the 1800s. 543 00:51:47,440 --> 00:51:49,160 Developed from a kind of mutation 544 00:51:49,320 --> 00:51:51,480 where leaves grow instead of petals. 545 00:51:51,640 --> 00:51:54,440 Yeah, it's... it's quite weird. 546 00:51:54,600 --> 00:51:57,880 - I can't really talk about it yet. - What are you doing now? 547 00:51:58,040 --> 00:52:00,440 Um, I've just got some things to do. 548 00:52:00,600 --> 00:52:03,200 Oh, hey, I had some ideas for the film that I wanted to talk to you about. 549 00:52:03,360 --> 00:52:04,920 Yeah, maybe later, OK? 550 00:53:10,240 --> 00:53:12,160 I was just going to the bathroom. 551 00:53:14,800 --> 00:53:18,640 So do you know what you'll do for the, uh, final year thing, or...? 552 00:53:19,720 --> 00:53:21,000 Um... 553 00:53:22,680 --> 00:53:24,360 I'm still sort of figuring it out. 554 00:53:26,000 --> 00:53:28,400 - Yeah. - Do you know what you're going to do? 555 00:53:28,560 --> 00:53:31,600 Yeah, yep. I'm going to do, um, a slasher. 556 00:53:31,760 --> 00:53:35,800 A lone abattoir cleaner seeks revenge. 557 00:53:35,960 --> 00:53:38,400 - Yeah. - Revenge for what? 558 00:53:39,640 --> 00:53:42,840 You'll have to see the film to find out. Um... 559 00:53:43,000 --> 00:53:44,360 Sounds good. 560 00:53:45,560 --> 00:53:47,240 Who's shooting yours? 561 00:53:47,400 --> 00:53:49,280 I think I'm going to shoot it myself. 562 00:53:49,440 --> 00:53:53,040 Like a low-key kinda thing? Yeah. 563 00:53:53,200 --> 00:53:54,640 I'm into that. 564 00:53:54,800 --> 00:53:58,040 Going to just chuck this little LED on. What do you guys reckon? 565 00:53:58,200 --> 00:54:00,680 A lot of people are going kinda crazy with budgets. 566 00:54:00,840 --> 00:54:02,920 It's, like, a student film. 567 00:54:03,080 --> 00:54:05,680 Taking all the fun out of it and, like, I don't know - 568 00:54:05,840 --> 00:54:08,200 Not really... 569 00:54:08,360 --> 00:54:09,720 ...not really having a laugh. 570 00:54:09,880 --> 00:54:12,440 And if you're not really having a laugh and... 571 00:54:12,600 --> 00:54:13,840 Are you OK? 572 00:54:16,520 --> 00:54:17,800 Yeah. 573 00:54:18,880 --> 00:54:22,640 - Yeah, just a bit dizzy. - True. Here. 574 00:54:22,800 --> 00:54:24,080 Thanks. 575 00:54:32,840 --> 00:54:34,240 Hey... 576 00:54:34,400 --> 00:54:36,440 Do you think that ghosts are a thing? 577 00:54:40,360 --> 00:54:43,200 Yeah, I believe it. 578 00:54:43,360 --> 00:54:45,360 Did you, like, see one? 579 00:54:49,160 --> 00:54:51,240 It's meant to get really hot this arvo. 580 00:54:51,400 --> 00:54:53,600 Yeah, these heatwaves freak me out. 581 00:54:53,760 --> 00:54:54,880 Yeah. 582 00:54:56,280 --> 00:54:58,640 Alright, we'll just start with half. 583 00:55:01,200 --> 00:55:03,000 It's not going to be hectic, I promise. 584 00:55:03,160 --> 00:55:04,240 You know, it'll... 585 00:55:04,400 --> 00:55:07,320 It'll take you out of yourself a little bit, which is good. 586 00:55:07,480 --> 00:55:10,760 You need this kind of stuff for, like, material. 587 00:55:13,840 --> 00:55:15,640 Have you known Mia for very long? 588 00:55:15,800 --> 00:55:17,320 Not really. 589 00:55:17,480 --> 00:55:19,440 She's kind of hard to get to know. 590 00:55:19,600 --> 00:55:21,240 Yeah, she's a fucking lunatic. 591 00:55:21,400 --> 00:55:23,640 No, she's not. 592 00:55:23,800 --> 00:55:25,720 I don't really want to talk about her. 593 00:55:25,880 --> 00:55:28,320 - Sorry. - It's fine. 594 00:57:12,840 --> 00:57:16,840 When we returned everything changed. 595 00:57:17,000 --> 00:57:20,360 They had built God knows what, these supermarkets, 596 00:57:20,520 --> 00:57:22,440 these strange houses. 597 00:57:22,600 --> 00:57:26,760 I couldn't recognise anything and I became sad. 598 00:57:26,920 --> 00:57:30,040 Then I never wanted to return to St Petersburg. 599 00:57:30,560 --> 00:57:32,440 I don't really care about nostalgia. 600 00:57:32,640 --> 00:57:34,200 Are you in love? 601 00:57:34,360 --> 00:57:37,280 - What? - Nothing. 602 00:57:37,440 --> 00:57:39,760 I'll post the documents today. 603 00:57:39,920 --> 00:57:41,840 Good, thanks. 604 00:57:44,720 --> 00:57:46,120 Mmm... 605 00:57:47,800 --> 00:57:49,720 Water... 606 00:57:51,640 --> 00:57:53,360 A woman... 607 00:57:54,440 --> 00:57:56,720 She's leaning down... 608 00:57:57,320 --> 00:57:59,920 - What does it mean? - Rusalka. 609 00:58:00,080 --> 00:58:04,320 She can pull you under water, lure you in... 610 00:58:05,240 --> 00:58:08,480 And tickle you to death. 611 00:58:08,640 --> 00:58:09,480 Are you joking? 612 00:58:09,640 --> 00:58:11,040 No. 613 00:58:11,200 --> 00:58:13,200 See it for yourself. 614 00:58:22,600 --> 00:58:25,000 My feet sink into the ground. 615 00:58:27,560 --> 00:58:30,040 And my voice echoes in the void. 616 00:58:31,440 --> 00:58:34,120 Not limbs, but petals and leaves. 617 00:58:36,000 --> 00:58:38,760 Here, at the edge of life, 618 00:58:38,920 --> 00:58:41,200 death doesn't touch me. 619 00:58:45,880 --> 00:58:49,400 Here at the edge of life, death doesn't touch me. 620 00:58:52,360 --> 00:58:53,680 Mia? 621 00:59:14,600 --> 00:59:15,920 Mia. 622 00:59:22,920 --> 00:59:25,640 Can I get you something? Can I get you a glass of water? 623 00:59:44,880 --> 00:59:46,560 Thanks for doing this. 624 00:59:49,160 --> 00:59:51,240 No, I'm curious. 625 01:00:04,400 --> 01:00:08,400 Horses have the ability to present mirrors to our inner selves. 626 01:00:11,640 --> 01:00:13,480 They are attuned to human behaviour, 627 01:00:13,640 --> 01:00:15,440 having grown to understand us 628 01:00:15,600 --> 01:00:19,400 through so many centuries of being in our service. 629 01:00:21,640 --> 01:00:23,920 What we are hoping to achieve by the end of the session 630 01:00:24,080 --> 01:00:27,120 is a step or two towards acceptance. 631 01:00:28,360 --> 01:00:31,200 Hey, I'm going to film, if that's OK. 632 01:00:31,360 --> 01:00:32,600 That's fine, darling. 633 01:00:33,600 --> 01:00:36,720 Take three deep breaths for me. 634 01:00:42,880 --> 01:00:47,280 Sometimes we arrive here in conflict, fighting with ourselves. 635 01:00:47,440 --> 01:00:50,640 Her actions reflect what is going on inside you. 636 01:00:50,800 --> 01:00:54,320 She's walking away now, but don't feel rejected. 637 01:00:54,480 --> 01:00:58,440 She wants to tell you something about you, as you are right now. 638 01:00:58,600 --> 01:01:01,600 Now try to establish a connection again for me. 639 01:01:02,880 --> 01:01:04,800 Hi. Hello. 640 01:01:10,600 --> 01:01:12,640 OK, Stefanie, OK. 641 01:01:12,800 --> 01:01:14,000 OK, my darling. 642 01:01:14,160 --> 01:01:15,720 Hey, OK. 643 01:01:15,880 --> 01:01:20,120 There is a deep current of energy here. 644 01:01:20,280 --> 01:01:23,480 Perhaps something from the past. 645 01:01:23,640 --> 01:01:25,720 Perhaps grief - 646 01:01:25,880 --> 01:01:28,680 a spirit that won't lie to rest. 647 01:01:29,880 --> 01:01:31,400 Can we take a break? 648 01:01:43,760 --> 01:01:46,000 Mia, that woman seemed to know something. 649 01:01:47,360 --> 01:01:49,080 Something's not right. 650 01:01:52,800 --> 01:01:55,920 Not just now. Like, all the time. 651 01:01:57,920 --> 01:02:00,240 You stay up, 652 01:02:00,400 --> 01:02:01,840 and you wait. 653 01:02:03,240 --> 01:02:04,720 Do you wait for her? 654 01:02:06,480 --> 01:02:08,160 You're a spy. 655 01:02:08,320 --> 01:02:09,920 I was worried. I... 656 01:02:11,160 --> 01:02:13,840 - I was worried about you. - Leave me alone. 657 01:03:02,160 --> 01:03:05,120 I've got borsch. Let me heat you up a bowl. 658 01:03:18,400 --> 01:03:20,520 Your dad and I had a chat. 659 01:03:20,680 --> 01:03:23,280 We'll send you a little bit of money. 660 01:03:23,440 --> 01:03:25,840 To help with your film. 661 01:03:27,240 --> 01:03:29,440 I don't know what to do. 662 01:03:29,600 --> 01:03:31,640 What are you talking about? 663 01:03:31,800 --> 01:03:34,320 Mia doesn't want to do it anymore. 664 01:03:35,160 --> 01:03:37,440 So what? Find someone else. 665 01:03:37,600 --> 01:03:39,360 I can't. 666 01:03:41,760 --> 01:03:43,920 I don't know what to do. 667 01:03:44,080 --> 01:03:45,840 You have to do something. 668 01:03:48,360 --> 01:03:52,280 Okay girls. Put your fingers on the saucer. 669 01:03:52,440 --> 01:03:55,360 And think of your questions. 670 01:03:55,520 --> 01:03:57,040 Okay. 671 01:03:57,200 --> 01:03:59,640 A question about a man, 672 01:03:59,800 --> 01:04:01,280 what else? 673 01:04:02,600 --> 01:04:05,040 Where is a man for me? 674 01:04:05,200 --> 01:04:07,600 I'd love to hold someone, 675 01:04:08,240 --> 01:04:09,920 to think of someone. 676 01:04:10,080 --> 01:04:13,960 I don't know why I'm thinking of this now. I've been single awhile. 677 01:04:14,520 --> 01:04:16,080 Oh. 678 01:04:21,840 --> 01:04:23,400 M... 679 01:04:23,560 --> 01:04:25,680 M-o-l... 680 01:04:35,360 --> 01:04:36,760 Molchi. 681 01:04:36,920 --> 01:04:38,480 Be quiet? 682 01:04:38,640 --> 01:04:41,920 - You be quiet! - Is that to me? 683 01:04:42,640 --> 01:04:44,160 He's grumpy. 684 01:04:44,320 --> 01:04:45,840 Come on, Eva. 685 01:04:49,320 --> 01:04:50,720 Okay. 686 01:04:52,760 --> 01:04:54,000 I... 687 01:04:58,600 --> 01:05:00,520 M... 688 01:05:06,040 --> 01:05:07,680 Imya. 689 01:05:07,840 --> 01:05:10,440 Name... 690 01:06:39,000 --> 01:06:42,000 - Hello. Hi. - Hello. 691 01:06:42,160 --> 01:06:43,360 Um... 692 01:06:43,520 --> 01:06:45,200 My friend Mia comes here, 693 01:06:45,360 --> 01:06:47,320 and I'm trying to find her, 694 01:06:47,480 --> 01:06:49,720 and I haven't been able to find her. 695 01:06:49,880 --> 01:06:53,040 At first I thought she just didn't want to talk to me. 696 01:06:53,200 --> 01:06:56,160 But it's been like... 697 01:06:56,320 --> 01:06:58,480 ...like, several weeks, and... 698 01:07:00,640 --> 01:07:02,600 ...everyone is just acting like it's totally fine 699 01:07:02,760 --> 01:07:05,720 and I just... I think that's quite strange. 700 01:07:05,880 --> 01:07:07,280 Do you know where she is? 701 01:07:07,440 --> 01:07:09,520 No, I don't know where she's gone. 702 01:07:09,680 --> 01:07:11,280 She hasn't said anything? 703 01:07:11,440 --> 01:07:15,440 Sorry, I can't talk about Mia. That's client confidentiality. 704 01:07:15,600 --> 01:07:17,360 Why did she come here? 705 01:07:17,520 --> 01:07:19,720 Often, people come here looking for something. 706 01:07:19,880 --> 01:07:22,360 Something other than themselves. 707 01:07:23,480 --> 01:07:25,960 That's been my lifelong area of research. 708 01:07:27,840 --> 01:07:30,920 Listen, Mia's just a bit impulsive like that sometimes. 709 01:07:31,080 --> 01:07:33,640 It's not on you. Don't worry about it. 710 01:07:36,880 --> 01:07:40,520 Come on, don't you want to schmooze with some rich cunts? 711 01:07:40,680 --> 01:07:42,240 What are you implying? 712 01:07:47,160 --> 01:07:48,920 I'm just joking. 713 01:07:49,080 --> 01:07:50,760 It'll be an anthropological experience. 714 01:07:50,920 --> 01:07:52,760 You know, good for material. 715 01:07:54,680 --> 01:07:57,080 I'm really trying with my dad at the moment, 716 01:07:57,240 --> 01:07:58,760 and he's trying as well and... 717 01:08:00,040 --> 01:08:03,800 Did I tell you that Eva's family is from St Petersburg? 718 01:08:03,960 --> 01:08:07,280 Oh, no. Beautiful. Oh, we loved it there. 719 01:08:08,760 --> 01:08:11,040 And what do you do, Eva? 720 01:08:11,200 --> 01:08:12,280 I study film. 721 01:08:12,440 --> 01:08:13,600 - You study film? - Yes, film. 722 01:08:13,760 --> 01:08:15,480 Oh, gosh, how interesting. 723 01:08:15,640 --> 01:08:16,760 What do you do? 724 01:08:16,920 --> 01:08:18,240 Uh, I used to teach, 725 01:08:18,400 --> 01:08:20,800 but I'm mainly doing volunteering work these days. 726 01:08:20,960 --> 01:08:23,720 - Lillian also paints. - Oh, cool. 727 01:08:23,880 --> 01:08:25,560 Just as a hobby. 728 01:08:27,160 --> 01:08:30,160 Yeah, I also actually wanted to go into the arts. 729 01:08:30,320 --> 01:08:32,880 I wanted to write, but, ah... 730 01:08:33,040 --> 01:08:34,440 Dad passed away when I was young 731 01:08:34,600 --> 01:08:37,560 and I saw it as my duty to make a living. 732 01:08:38,760 --> 01:08:40,520 Your work is creative. 733 01:08:41,520 --> 01:08:43,360 To a certain extent, yeah. 734 01:08:44,720 --> 01:08:46,800 Still, I envy young people. 735 01:08:46,960 --> 01:08:48,880 Yes, I think young people these days 736 01:08:49,040 --> 01:08:50,920 do have more opportunities, in that sense. 737 01:08:51,080 --> 01:08:52,720 You know, more information. 738 01:08:52,880 --> 01:08:55,160 I grew up in the country and, you know, when I was young, 739 01:08:55,320 --> 01:08:57,360 I didn't really know what was out there. 740 01:08:57,520 --> 01:08:58,600 Mmm. 741 01:08:58,760 --> 01:09:00,360 Yeah. 742 01:09:00,520 --> 01:09:02,240 I don't know about that, Lillian. 743 01:09:03,280 --> 01:09:05,360 - What do you mean? - Well... 744 01:09:05,520 --> 01:09:07,480 As if you even choose that much, in the end. 745 01:09:07,640 --> 01:09:12,000 You know, it's like that... that classic capitalist thing that 746 01:09:12,160 --> 01:09:14,680 people say to make you feel like you can do anything, 747 01:09:14,840 --> 01:09:17,240 when, really, you just can't. 748 01:09:18,800 --> 01:09:20,800 Maybe you just didn't have any talent. 749 01:09:22,600 --> 01:09:24,040 That's quite possible. 750 01:09:24,200 --> 01:09:26,720 - I might use the bathroom. - Sure. 751 01:09:26,880 --> 01:09:28,480 It's just down the hall, on the left. 752 01:09:42,920 --> 01:09:44,720 Oh, sorry. I was looking for the bathroom. 753 01:09:44,880 --> 01:09:46,760 - No, no, no, it's fine. - I got distracted. 754 01:09:46,920 --> 01:09:48,800 That's fine. I didn't mean to surprise you. 755 01:09:48,960 --> 01:09:51,360 Feel free to take a look around. 756 01:09:51,520 --> 01:09:53,280 Robert and I collect a bit. 757 01:09:53,440 --> 01:09:55,160 You know, over the years. 758 01:09:56,680 --> 01:10:00,720 I have to confess that I enjoy it on a mostly instinctual level. 759 01:10:00,880 --> 01:10:01,800 Right. 760 01:10:01,960 --> 01:10:04,160 I just love the textures and shapes. 761 01:10:04,320 --> 01:10:07,200 - Mmm. - Oh, this one. 762 01:10:07,360 --> 01:10:08,840 This one's really fun. 763 01:10:09,880 --> 01:10:13,040 It's, uh... It's meant to be about memory. 764 01:10:15,960 --> 01:10:20,000 Makes me think of the tunnels of the mind or something. 765 01:10:20,160 --> 01:10:22,520 I just find it relaxing to be here, really. 766 01:10:22,680 --> 01:10:26,000 Even just to think how all these people made these things. 767 01:10:26,160 --> 01:10:27,640 Very moving, really. 768 01:10:32,520 --> 01:10:35,320 Oh, darling, are you alright? 769 01:10:42,600 --> 01:10:44,760 Shall we step outside and get some air? 770 01:10:54,000 --> 01:10:56,120 This rich guy's letting me stay here. 771 01:10:57,160 --> 01:10:58,400 Mia. 772 01:11:00,520 --> 01:11:01,880 Listen. 773 01:11:03,840 --> 01:11:05,840 I've been thinking about you. 774 01:11:09,920 --> 01:11:11,440 What's wrong? 775 01:11:11,600 --> 01:11:13,120 What did I do? 776 01:11:22,240 --> 01:11:23,800 I know something about you. 777 01:11:25,520 --> 01:11:26,840 You're afraid. 778 01:11:28,840 --> 01:11:30,880 You're afraid, and you've put yourself in a cage, 779 01:11:31,040 --> 01:11:32,640 and you've hidden from everyone. 780 01:11:35,560 --> 01:11:37,560 You don't really live. 781 01:11:37,720 --> 01:11:39,000 Not really. 782 01:11:40,920 --> 01:11:42,120 It's all an act. 783 01:11:42,280 --> 01:11:44,440 It's all a big, phony act with you. 784 01:11:48,320 --> 01:11:49,640 What? 785 01:11:51,040 --> 01:11:52,080 What'd I say? 786 01:11:53,320 --> 01:11:54,800 Can you hear yourself? 787 01:11:57,240 --> 01:11:58,960 You're a lunatic. 788 01:12:01,720 --> 01:12:04,360 You've gotten yourself confused, darling. 789 01:12:06,920 --> 01:12:08,760 Let me tell you about you. 790 01:12:10,360 --> 01:12:12,480 All you care about is being liked. 791 01:12:15,720 --> 01:12:17,120 You think you believe in equality, 792 01:12:17,280 --> 01:12:18,840 but you weigh people up on a scale 793 01:12:19,000 --> 01:12:21,440 of being either better or worse than you. 794 01:12:23,960 --> 01:12:26,000 How could you be free like that? 795 01:12:27,640 --> 01:12:29,560 Trying to please everyone? 796 01:12:31,520 --> 01:12:33,000 You're the one in a cage. 797 01:12:34,040 --> 01:12:35,720 You're a coward. 798 01:12:38,560 --> 01:12:40,000 Mia? 799 01:12:42,840 --> 01:12:44,280 Mia, I didn't mean that. 800 01:12:44,440 --> 01:12:46,160 I... 801 01:12:46,320 --> 01:12:47,920 I actually... I didn't mean any of that. 802 01:12:48,080 --> 01:12:49,400 I don't know why I said that. 803 01:12:49,560 --> 01:12:51,360 Mia. 804 01:12:51,520 --> 01:12:53,240 Mia, please. 805 01:12:53,400 --> 01:12:56,520 Please? Please. 806 01:12:56,680 --> 01:12:58,480 Please, I'm so sorry. 807 01:12:58,640 --> 01:12:59,720 I'm sorry. 808 01:12:59,880 --> 01:13:01,680 I'm so sorry. Please forgive me, Mia. 809 01:13:01,840 --> 01:13:04,000 Please don't... Please don't leave me. 810 01:13:11,640 --> 01:13:13,160 Don't touch me. 811 01:14:02,080 --> 01:14:03,800 Do you know where Mia is? 812 01:14:10,120 --> 01:14:12,280 She's a strange girl, isn't she? 813 01:14:17,080 --> 01:14:18,640 Do you know where she is? 814 01:14:19,800 --> 01:14:22,040 Why did you want to talk to me? 815 01:14:22,200 --> 01:14:23,920 It's hard. It's, ah... 816 01:14:24,080 --> 01:14:27,680 It's very hard to say anything clearly. 817 01:14:32,240 --> 01:14:33,640 I helped her. 818 01:14:35,880 --> 01:14:38,280 It's hard to explain. Um... 819 01:14:38,440 --> 01:14:40,200 I was dazzled. 820 01:14:42,320 --> 01:14:45,640 She has this energy - this, ah... 821 01:14:45,800 --> 01:14:47,640 ...desire, I think, 822 01:14:47,800 --> 01:14:51,960 at least it seemed to me like a mirage. 823 01:14:55,880 --> 01:14:58,920 - Wait. - I don't really understand. 824 01:15:04,920 --> 01:15:07,080 I have... 825 01:15:07,240 --> 01:15:11,560 ...noticed this contradictory phenomenon in idealistic people. 826 01:15:11,720 --> 01:15:14,480 An inverted desire for life 827 01:15:14,640 --> 01:15:17,680 is a desire for death itself. 828 01:15:17,840 --> 01:15:19,400 Do you understand? 829 01:15:37,200 --> 01:15:38,760 Mia? 830 01:15:38,920 --> 01:15:40,240 Sorry. 831 01:15:45,640 --> 01:15:47,440 - Hey. - Oh, hey. 832 01:15:47,600 --> 01:15:49,520 - Eva. Mia's friend. - Hey. 833 01:15:49,680 --> 01:15:51,320 - Yeah. - Have you seen her? 834 01:15:51,480 --> 01:15:54,000 Um, yeah, actually, I think I saw her just before. 835 01:16:34,040 --> 01:16:35,760 836 01:16:35,920 --> 01:16:39,560 ♪ I climbed upon a cliff 837 01:16:40,680 --> 01:16:44,880 ♪ My sister's hand in mine 838 01:16:46,720 --> 01:16:51,320 ♪ A girl came down a mountainside 839 01:16:52,440 --> 01:16:56,400 ♪ With bluebells in her hand. ♪ 840 01:17:34,560 --> 01:17:37,000 "My gentle coconut." 841 01:18:23,280 --> 01:18:24,680 Thank you. 842 01:18:40,160 --> 01:18:42,600 Thank you for staying with us. Have a nice day. 843 01:18:45,200 --> 01:18:47,400 Hi, can I help you? 844 01:18:47,560 --> 01:18:50,040 Hi. Um... Yes. 845 01:18:50,200 --> 01:18:54,160 Uh, I have a friend who's staying here, I think, 846 01:18:54,320 --> 01:18:58,320 and I was wondering if you could tell me if she was. 847 01:18:58,480 --> 01:18:59,640 Mmm, what is her name? 848 01:18:59,800 --> 01:19:01,920 - Her name's Mia. - Mia. 849 01:19:02,080 --> 01:19:04,640 I have a photo of her. 850 01:19:04,800 --> 01:19:06,520 Not sure if you recognise her. 851 01:19:06,680 --> 01:19:09,360 She might have been staying here the last few weeks. 852 01:19:09,520 --> 01:19:10,880 That's her there. 853 01:19:25,160 --> 01:19:28,840 I've been staying here while I work and do my research. 854 01:19:29,040 --> 01:19:30,440 Your research? 855 01:19:30,600 --> 01:19:33,360 I've been able to look, like, really look at things. 856 01:19:33,520 --> 01:19:36,080 Ferns. Flowers. 857 01:19:36,240 --> 01:19:38,160 I come here every day. 858 01:19:41,680 --> 01:19:43,480 They know when you're close. 859 01:19:43,640 --> 01:19:45,520 And they know when you leave. 860 01:19:48,880 --> 01:19:50,560 This is the green rose. 861 01:19:51,680 --> 01:19:54,440 Looking at her, you learn that 862 01:19:54,600 --> 01:19:57,600 what's important is movement... 863 01:19:58,800 --> 01:20:00,400 ...to stay in motion. 864 01:20:02,720 --> 01:20:05,200 People are obsessed with death. 865 01:20:11,080 --> 01:20:14,120 But a flower opens up her heart to the sun. 866 01:20:15,400 --> 01:20:17,520 That's how we can be. 867 01:20:17,680 --> 01:20:20,160 That's how... That's how I want to be. 868 01:21:07,480 --> 01:21:08,760 Eva. 869 01:21:12,240 --> 01:21:14,320 Eva. 870 01:21:51,880 --> 01:21:53,040 Eva. 871 01:22:28,520 --> 01:22:29,640 Eva. 872 01:22:32,880 --> 01:22:34,560 I lost you for a second. 873 01:22:39,640 --> 01:22:41,560 You look like you've seen a ghost. 874 01:22:44,240 --> 01:22:45,600 I think I have. 875 01:22:47,440 --> 01:22:48,920 And what did it want? 876 01:22:52,360 --> 01:22:53,720 Nothing. 877 01:22:56,520 --> 01:22:57,880 Nothing at all. 878 01:23:24,760 --> 01:23:26,840 - To you. - To you. 879 01:23:37,960 --> 01:23:39,640 Here. 880 01:23:42,920 --> 01:23:44,400 Have this. 881 01:23:46,160 --> 01:23:48,320 - Really? - Yeah. 882 01:23:48,480 --> 01:23:50,120 Yeah, have it. 883 01:23:59,040 --> 01:24:00,840 Thank you. 884 01:24:02,120 --> 01:24:05,040 You know, I feel happy. 885 01:24:05,200 --> 01:24:06,760 I actually feel happy. 886 01:24:06,920 --> 01:24:08,680 - You feel happy? - Yeah. 887 01:24:13,880 --> 01:24:15,120 Do you? 888 01:24:16,120 --> 01:24:17,240 Maybe. 889 01:24:18,280 --> 01:24:19,840 Maybe I feel happy. 890 01:24:23,360 --> 01:24:25,920 - Let's drink to that. - OK. 891 01:24:52,240 --> 01:24:57,440 ♪ I dreamed I climbed upon a cliff 892 01:24:57,600 --> 01:25:01,760 ♪ My sister's hand in mine 893 01:25:03,280 --> 01:25:08,840 ♪ A girl ran down the mountainside 894 01:25:09,000 --> 01:25:13,640 ♪ With bluebells in her hand 895 01:25:14,960 --> 01:25:16,920 ♪ I asked the valley 896 01:25:18,080 --> 01:25:20,080 ♪ For her name 897 01:25:20,240 --> 01:25:24,280 ♪ But wakened not yet knowing 898 01:25:25,880 --> 01:25:30,960 ♪ If the name she bore were my sister's name 899 01:25:32,240 --> 01:25:35,880 ♪ Or if it were my own. ♪ 900 01:31:14,200 --> 01:31:21,520 Subtitles © SBS Australia 2023