1 00:00:01,668 --> 00:00:03,465 [ 2 00:00:03,503 --> 00:00:06,438 [Meredith] My mother used to say this about residency: 3 00:00:07,273 --> 00:00:10,470 It takes a year to learn how to cut. 4 00:00:11,211 --> 00:00:14,612 It takes a lifetime to learn not to. 5 00:00:14,647 --> 00:00:17,343 I'm up. I'm here. What's going on? 6 00:00:17,384 --> 00:00:21,343 Jackson's BP, it's a little down from yesterday. No big deal. 7 00:00:21,388 --> 00:00:23,788 But if we make a few calls, get pushy, 8 00:00:23,823 --> 00:00:27,224 we could get him bumped a few spots up on the transplant list. 9 00:00:27,260 --> 00:00:31,959 Dr. Bailey, you paged me 911. At 2:30 in the morning. To chat? 10 00:00:34,267 --> 00:00:38,033 - You like to chat. You're chatty. - Not at 2:30 in the morning! 11 00:00:38,071 --> 00:00:41,404 Look, he's young, he's near the top of the list. 12 00:00:41,441 --> 00:00:44,842 UNOS will find him organs when they find him organs, and God knows, 13 00:00:44,878 --> 00:00:48,041 staying up all night chatting about it is not gonna help. 14 00:00:48,081 --> 00:00:51,983 Now, I'm going to get some sleep. I suggest you do the same. 15 00:00:52,018 --> 00:00:53,485 He's running out of time. 16 00:00:54,888 --> 00:00:58,688 They always are. Welcome to Peds. 17 00:00:58,725 --> 00:01:02,388 Of all of the tools on a surgical tray, 18 00:01:02,429 --> 00:01:06,490 sound judgment is the trickiest one to master. 19 00:01:06,533 --> 00:01:08,057 And without it, 20 00:01:08,101 --> 00:01:11,264 we're all just toddlers running around with ten blades. 21 00:01:14,908 --> 00:01:19,538 Ohhh. I asked them not to wake you. "Whatever it is can wait till morning. 22 00:01:19,579 --> 00:01:23,948 - Dr. Shepherd needs his sleep." - Your latest head CT shows 23 00:01:23,983 --> 00:01:28,943 the brain contusions expanding. We need to get you into OR right away. 24 00:01:29,722 --> 00:01:33,624 This... this brain thing, it could kill me? 25 00:01:33,660 --> 00:01:36,823 - If we don't treat it, yes. - [chuckling] 26 00:01:36,863 --> 00:01:40,299 - You find that funny. - I'm sorry, it's just they're gonna 27 00:01:40,333 --> 00:01:43,166 execute me in five days. 28 00:01:43,203 --> 00:01:45,467 Five days. 29 00:01:45,505 --> 00:01:48,997 Might as well take my chances with this brain thing, right? 30 00:01:49,042 --> 00:01:51,010 - Mr. Dunn... - You've got to admit, 31 00:01:51,044 --> 00:01:52,272 it's a nice way to go, 32 00:01:52,312 --> 00:01:56,214 plenty of attractive females. 33 00:01:57,050 --> 00:02:00,417 All the Jell-o I could want. Have you tried the strawberry? 34 00:02:00,453 --> 00:02:04,480 - It'll change your life. - You're refusing surgery? 35 00:02:04,524 --> 00:02:08,927 Either way, I'm going to die, Dr. Shepherd. 36 00:02:08,962 --> 00:02:11,021 Might as well do it on your watch. 37 00:02:18,838 --> 00:02:21,272 [Mark] Why do you have to live in Meredith's attic? 38 00:02:21,307 --> 00:02:24,674 How am I supposed to sneak out with that frat party going? 39 00:02:24,711 --> 00:02:27,874 - Don't you kids ever sleep? - They're cleaning the house 40 00:02:27,914 --> 00:02:29,643 for Dr. Shepherd's mother. 41 00:02:33,386 --> 00:02:34,819 Mrs. Shepherd's coming? 42 00:02:36,055 --> 00:02:38,523 - To Seattle? - So? 43 00:02:38,558 --> 00:02:41,857 That woman practically raised me, taught me right from wrong. 44 00:02:41,895 --> 00:02:44,455 If she found out that I was... 45 00:02:44,497 --> 00:02:46,522 ...with you, that we were... 46 00:02:46,566 --> 00:02:49,535 You're Meredith Grey's little sister, forbidden fruit. 47 00:02:49,569 --> 00:02:53,335 You are 25. You're a fetus. 48 00:02:53,373 --> 00:02:55,898 Twenty-four. I skipped third grade. 49 00:02:56,709 --> 00:02:57,869 I feel dirty. 50 00:02:58,845 --> 00:03:01,507 Ten bucks says she tanks in the first five minutes. 51 00:03:01,548 --> 00:03:03,914 I have faith in Death. 52 00:03:03,950 --> 00:03:07,181 She's holding that bottle of tequila like it's a life vest. 53 00:03:07,220 --> 00:03:11,884 - Don't listen to them. She'll love you. - No. Mothers don't love me. 54 00:03:11,925 --> 00:03:14,985 Mothers like bright and bubbly and happy and... 55 00:03:15,028 --> 00:03:18,361 - Izzie. Mothers love Izzie. - They do. 56 00:03:18,398 --> 00:03:21,390 - Mothers do love Izzie. - My mother would've loved you. 57 00:03:21,434 --> 00:03:24,926 Uh, I stashed all the tequila, took the condoms out of the cookie jar. 58 00:03:24,971 --> 00:03:29,999 I replaced all your trashy magazines with issues of Annals of Surgery. 59 00:03:30,043 --> 00:03:31,408 - OK? - OK. 60 00:03:31,444 --> 00:03:34,504 [sniffs] Does it smell musty in here? 61 00:03:34,547 --> 00:03:37,380 My mom's house smells like peppermint. It's homey. 62 00:03:37,417 --> 00:03:39,510 - My house isn't homey? - I feel at home. 63 00:03:39,552 --> 00:03:42,385 - This place is a palace. - Why isn't my house homey? 64 00:03:42,422 --> 00:03:45,585 - It's just a feeling! - Izzie can't fix a feeling! 65 00:03:45,625 --> 00:03:48,219 She's freaking out. Tell her something I can fix. 66 00:03:48,261 --> 00:03:51,196 Rebecca peed on that couch cushion. 67 00:03:51,231 --> 00:03:55,292 - I've been sleeping there for weeks. - Thanks, Alex. You're a good friend. 68 00:03:55,335 --> 00:03:57,826 You're welcome. Keep drinking. 69 00:04:05,812 --> 00:04:07,473 - Mark? - Hey, there you are. 70 00:04:07,513 --> 00:04:09,242 - Wanna drink? - It's 4:00 am. 71 00:04:09,282 --> 00:04:11,512 You're right. I should've called first. 72 00:04:11,551 --> 00:04:15,043 Hey, I hear your mom's coming into town. Good times. 73 00:04:16,422 --> 00:04:18,481 You'll be fine. 74 00:04:18,524 --> 00:04:22,051 Just keep the talking to a minimum. Short nuggets of Meredith. 75 00:04:22,095 --> 00:04:25,553 That's all anyone really needs. If you get stuck, just smile. 76 00:04:25,598 --> 00:04:28,032 You have a really great smile. 77 00:04:29,636 --> 00:04:32,104 That's just scary. 78 00:04:32,138 --> 00:04:35,471 Mer? Are you sure you want to wear your hair like that? 79 00:04:54,427 --> 00:04:56,793 You're wearing an alarmingly high ponytail. 80 00:04:56,829 --> 00:04:58,922 Your mother is coming. 81 00:05:02,635 --> 00:05:06,503 Mr. Dunn, the swelling in your brain is increasing rapidly. 82 00:05:06,539 --> 00:05:10,031 - The longer we wait, the worse it gets. - Excellent. 83 00:05:10,076 --> 00:05:13,136 - Go, team. - I suggest you reconsider surgery. 84 00:05:13,179 --> 00:05:15,977 Have you seen the inside of a maximum-security prison? 85 00:05:16,015 --> 00:05:21,180 Believe me, if you have to die, this is the place to do it. 86 00:05:21,220 --> 00:05:22,847 In good company. 87 00:05:23,923 --> 00:05:27,484 You two vigilantly monitor Mr. Dunn's elevating ICP's, 88 00:05:27,527 --> 00:05:31,486 you will do hourly exams. When he goes unconscious, which he will, 89 00:05:31,531 --> 00:05:35,729 - we'll rush him to surgery. - You can't do that. Can he do that? 90 00:05:35,768 --> 00:05:39,067 When you're unconscious and can no longer make decisions, 91 00:05:39,105 --> 00:05:41,835 a two-doctor consent is needed to treat you. 92 00:05:41,874 --> 00:05:45,105 I'm gonna be dead as a doornail in five days! Dr. Grey... 93 00:05:45,144 --> 00:05:47,840 - We're done. - Would you fix a broken television 94 00:05:47,880 --> 00:05:50,314 - before you throw it out? - He's got a point. 95 00:05:50,350 --> 00:05:53,285 Trying to cheat the system. We're not gonna let him do it. 96 00:05:55,722 --> 00:05:58,247 - What's the problem? - I have an infection 97 00:05:58,291 --> 00:06:01,226 - from a little surgery I had done. - In Hong Kong. 98 00:06:01,260 --> 00:06:06,459 My crazy-ass brother got crazy-ass elective surgery in Hong Kong. 99 00:06:06,499 --> 00:06:08,933 - Who does that? - Short people. 100 00:06:08,968 --> 00:06:11,334 Desperate short people! 101 00:06:11,371 --> 00:06:15,239 I had my legs lengthened. I couldn't find a surgeon who would do it here. 102 00:06:15,274 --> 00:06:18,801 Look, it's barbaric. They broke his legs, 103 00:06:18,845 --> 00:06:21,973 and they hooked him up to some medieval torture device. 104 00:06:22,014 --> 00:06:25,973 Yeah, that's to pull the bones apart. That's the lengthening process. 105 00:06:26,018 --> 00:06:28,782 It's controversial. I don't perform it myself. 106 00:06:28,821 --> 00:06:30,686 Can I take a look? 107 00:06:32,992 --> 00:06:34,926 [groans] 108 00:06:37,797 --> 00:06:40,027 They said it'd give me two whole inches. 109 00:06:42,568 --> 00:06:44,968 - Any word from UNOS? - Not yet. 110 00:06:45,037 --> 00:06:47,471 Dr. Karev is in constant contact with them. 111 00:06:47,507 --> 00:06:52,240 How much longer will we wait? Are livers and intestines hard to find? 112 00:06:52,278 --> 00:06:55,975 Jackson's blood is O positive, shouldn't be difficult to match. 113 00:06:57,550 --> 00:07:00,747 He's had blood transfusions, which means there could be 114 00:07:00,787 --> 00:07:05,781 extra antibodies that are hard to match, so we need patience, Melinda. 115 00:07:05,825 --> 00:07:11,559 In the meantime, I need to run some tests on Jackson to check electrolytes. 116 00:07:11,597 --> 00:07:15,089 We're gonna do everything we can to help your son, Mrs. Prescott. 117 00:07:15,134 --> 00:07:16,658 All of us. 118 00:07:18,538 --> 00:07:22,201 - You. You're squirrelly. - I'm sorry? 119 00:07:22,241 --> 00:07:25,210 I don't trust you. I don't trust you in this hospital, 120 00:07:25,244 --> 00:07:28,008 and I don't trust you with my patient of three years 121 00:07:28,047 --> 00:07:29,810 who is extremely important. 122 00:07:29,849 --> 00:07:32,841 - I... - If you want to stay on this case, 123 00:07:32,885 --> 00:07:36,184 you will stay out of my way, you will do what I tell you, 124 00:07:36,222 --> 00:07:39,453 and if you have something to say to or about my patient, 125 00:07:39,492 --> 00:07:43,292 you will raise your hand and wait to be called on. 126 00:07:43,329 --> 00:07:45,160 You've got to be kidding me. 127 00:07:52,672 --> 00:07:56,108 - Yes? - This is a joke, right? 128 00:07:56,142 --> 00:07:58,770 Do I look like I'm laughing? 129 00:08:02,482 --> 00:08:05,883 - You're upset. - I don't get upset with patients. 130 00:08:05,918 --> 00:08:09,513 You're mad at me for killing those women. I get that. 131 00:08:11,023 --> 00:08:15,289 Would you feel differently if you knew I was beaten as a child? 132 00:08:15,328 --> 00:08:18,627 Every day. It's how I learned to read. 133 00:08:18,664 --> 00:08:21,098 I used to hide under the sink 134 00:08:21,133 --> 00:08:24,466 and sound out the letters on the detergent box. 135 00:08:27,840 --> 00:08:32,174 - Is that true? - Did it make you feel better? 136 00:08:33,913 --> 00:08:36,677 Whatever helps you sleep at night, Dr. Grey. 137 00:08:38,751 --> 00:08:40,013 Cool. 138 00:08:40,052 --> 00:08:42,145 Did you do something bad? 139 00:08:45,057 --> 00:08:47,855 - Traffic violation. - [elevator door rings] 140 00:08:54,100 --> 00:08:56,398 What's wrong with you, kid? 141 00:08:56,435 --> 00:08:58,562 I need a new liver and a new intestine. 142 00:09:00,506 --> 00:09:02,997 Yeah? You want mine? 143 00:09:11,384 --> 00:09:15,718 Are you in the north terminal? That's where she's supposed to be. 144 00:09:15,755 --> 00:09:18,553 No. Don't go anywhere, just wait. 145 00:09:19,492 --> 00:09:22,723 I found her. There's a town car waiting at the airport. 146 00:09:22,762 --> 00:09:26,095 I don't need a fancy car, I hopped on the bus. Saved you money. 147 00:09:26,132 --> 00:09:29,465 So this cruise... you happened to have a layover in Seattle? 148 00:09:29,502 --> 00:09:32,164 I've always wanted to check out the Space Needle. 149 00:09:32,204 --> 00:09:34,934 I understand you can see Mt. Rainier from the top. 150 00:09:34,974 --> 00:09:37,636 - Anything else? - Are you gonna take me or not? 151 00:09:37,677 --> 00:09:40,407 I got back-to-back surgeries. Got to give me notice. 152 00:09:40,446 --> 00:09:43,973 Yeah, I gave birth to five doctors. I know the drill. 153 00:09:44,016 --> 00:09:49,113 I can wait, maybe meet your colleagues. Is that Mark Sloan? 154 00:09:49,155 --> 00:09:52,318 - Mark Sloan! - Mrs. Shepherd. You look great. 155 00:09:52,358 --> 00:09:55,589 Oh, damn. We'll catch up later? 156 00:09:55,628 --> 00:09:57,994 Perfect timing. 157 00:09:58,030 --> 00:10:01,397 - Mom, this is Meredith. - Meredith! Finally. 158 00:10:03,402 --> 00:10:05,927 - Hi. - My son's been acting like a dog 159 00:10:05,972 --> 00:10:09,373 with his favorite bone, hiding you. I hope you're free for lunch. 160 00:10:09,408 --> 00:10:13,071 I can't wait to dive right in and find out all about you. 161 00:10:13,112 --> 00:10:15,774 Mer looks weird. Does she look weird to you? 162 00:10:15,815 --> 00:10:19,808 - Like she's gonna pee her pants. - Crap. I made her hydrate. 163 00:10:19,852 --> 00:10:23,185 Meeting the family always blows. I'd never make you do that. 164 00:10:23,222 --> 00:10:26,385 Me, either. One of the many perks of dating a dead guy. 165 00:10:30,796 --> 00:10:34,596 - Who's that lady touching Meredith? - Derek's mom. 166 00:10:34,634 --> 00:10:38,934 - Huh. That's why she looks so weird. - She does not look weird. 167 00:10:38,971 --> 00:10:42,270 I've got it under control. Mer is doing... great. 168 00:10:43,776 --> 00:10:45,971 Looks like she's gonna pee. 169 00:10:46,012 --> 00:10:49,175 Dr. Yang, you mind checking in on some of my post-ops? 170 00:10:49,215 --> 00:10:52,707 ER's swamped with traumas. Also, would you like to go on a date? 171 00:10:53,352 --> 00:10:57,152 - I'm sorry? - A date. 172 00:10:57,189 --> 00:11:00,818 You said not to play hot and cold with you, so... 173 00:11:00,860 --> 00:11:03,021 ...I'll pick you up around eight. 174 00:11:04,363 --> 00:11:07,355 And make sure Mr. Kenner in room 2212 gets that enema. 175 00:11:07,400 --> 00:11:10,130 He's been holding on to it for days. 176 00:11:10,970 --> 00:11:13,165 OK. 177 00:11:13,205 --> 00:11:15,298 'Cause that wasn't weird. 178 00:11:18,110 --> 00:11:19,839 [giggling] 179 00:11:19,879 --> 00:11:23,474 Another perk to dating a dead guy: no awkward dates. 180 00:11:23,516 --> 00:11:25,916 Two to one. But who's counting. 181 00:11:27,219 --> 00:11:31,713 Why can't I have that nice man's organs? He offered. 182 00:11:31,757 --> 00:11:35,284 You know how in school there are rules you have to follow? 183 00:11:35,327 --> 00:11:38,854 Same goes for here. We have to follow the rules, 184 00:11:38,898 --> 00:11:41,264 or else we get in big trouble. 185 00:11:41,300 --> 00:11:45,236 And what that man offered you is definitely against the rules. 186 00:11:46,872 --> 00:11:49,432 She's fighting with the insurance people again. 187 00:11:49,475 --> 00:11:52,069 You're not supposed to worry about stuff like that. 188 00:11:53,779 --> 00:11:56,145 Tell her something good today. 189 00:11:56,182 --> 00:12:01,415 Even if nothing good happens. She needs good news. 190 00:12:02,154 --> 00:12:07,592 I've got a body full of high-quality parts here. 191 00:12:07,626 --> 00:12:09,526 Three-day liquidation sale. 192 00:12:09,562 --> 00:12:12,030 Everything must go. 193 00:12:12,064 --> 00:12:14,931 Even if we could do it, you have to be a match for him. 194 00:12:14,967 --> 00:12:17,765 Which means we have to cross match your blood with his. 195 00:12:17,803 --> 00:12:20,101 Good thing we're both in a hospital then. 196 00:12:23,576 --> 00:12:26,977 Let... let me save a life before I go. 197 00:12:28,414 --> 00:12:31,144 It's the least I can do. 198 00:12:33,119 --> 00:12:37,419 So you really expect me to believe you want to do this for a kid? 199 00:12:40,192 --> 00:12:43,423 Whatever helps you sleep at night, Dr. Grey. 200 00:12:46,465 --> 00:12:49,366 The infection's made its way deep into the bone. 201 00:12:49,401 --> 00:12:51,232 We're gonna take the rods out. 202 00:12:51,270 --> 00:12:53,534 Clean out the infected skin and bone. 203 00:12:53,572 --> 00:12:56,439 I won't get my two inches? All that pain, for nothing? 204 00:12:56,475 --> 00:13:00,070 Mr. Ruben, at this point, you're lucky to keep your legs at all. 205 00:13:00,112 --> 00:13:03,843 That's easy for you to say. What are you, 5'10, 5'11? 206 00:13:03,883 --> 00:13:06,317 - Leave the doctors alone. - Shut up, Gary. 207 00:13:06,352 --> 00:13:09,253 You are over six feet tall! 208 00:13:09,288 --> 00:13:12,416 Do you have any idea what it's like 209 00:13:12,458 --> 00:13:15,655 to have everybody you know literally look down on you? 210 00:13:15,694 --> 00:13:19,289 Or how humiliating it is to have to ask for help from a teenager 211 00:13:19,331 --> 00:13:22,596 at the grocery store because you can't reach the top shelf? 212 00:13:22,635 --> 00:13:25,604 I've gone on two dates in the last six months 213 00:13:25,638 --> 00:13:29,301 with women I met over the Internet. No one wants to see me again. 214 00:13:29,341 --> 00:13:32,310 - No one wants to date the short guy. - Chuck... 215 00:13:33,479 --> 00:13:37,677 I wanted those two inches, Gary. I wanted them so bad. 216 00:13:37,716 --> 00:13:42,050 It's two inches. What's the difference between 5'3 "and 5'5"? 217 00:13:45,724 --> 00:13:47,749 5'5" you can say out loud. 218 00:13:53,532 --> 00:13:57,992 OK. I made a list of the best pediatric Gl's in the country. 219 00:13:58,037 --> 00:14:02,030 We can get one of these guys to come do a TIPS procedure on him. 220 00:14:02,074 --> 00:14:03,871 On a kid who needs a new liver? 221 00:14:03,909 --> 00:14:06,241 Like putting a Band-Aid on a bullet wound. 222 00:14:06,278 --> 00:14:09,008 - You have a better idea? - I do. 223 00:14:09,048 --> 00:14:12,313 Wait for UNOS. Trusting the process. Why can't you do that? 224 00:14:12,351 --> 00:14:15,377 Because I'm tired of waiting while this kid gets worse. 225 00:14:15,421 --> 00:14:18,948 Jackson's tired, his mother is. The only one who's happy to sit 226 00:14:18,991 --> 00:14:20,925 and twiddle her thumbs is you! 227 00:14:20,960 --> 00:14:23,326 I've been patient with you, I've been nice, 228 00:14:23,362 --> 00:14:27,093 but I am really over you constantly telling me how to do my job. 229 00:14:27,132 --> 00:14:29,726 - Somebody's got to... - I have 20 other kids... 230 00:14:30,269 --> 00:14:32,328 Shut up! 231 00:14:32,371 --> 00:14:35,568 Respectfully. Respectfully, shut up. 232 00:14:35,608 --> 00:14:37,235 Because we got organs. 233 00:14:43,349 --> 00:14:47,877 I wish you could get organs delivered instead of having to go pick them up. 234 00:14:47,920 --> 00:14:52,220 I hate flying. I always feel much closer to death on a plane than in the OR. 235 00:14:52,258 --> 00:14:55,489 - Don't you? - I do now. 236 00:14:56,729 --> 00:14:58,788 I met Izzie the other day. 237 00:14:58,831 --> 00:15:00,958 She's very pretty. 238 00:15:01,000 --> 00:15:03,366 So do you think she's the one? 239 00:15:03,402 --> 00:15:04,835 I... I don't know. 240 00:15:04,870 --> 00:15:07,361 Well, we're at that age, right? 241 00:15:07,406 --> 00:15:10,102 Marriage, babies. 242 00:15:10,142 --> 00:15:12,110 - That the plan? - I don't know! 243 00:15:13,245 --> 00:15:16,271 I'm sorry, I don't make plans, OK? 244 00:15:16,315 --> 00:15:19,443 If there's a future, great. If not, I'll get over it. I always do. 245 00:15:19,485 --> 00:15:20,543 OK? 246 00:15:20,586 --> 00:15:24,078 [ 247 00:15:24,123 --> 00:15:26,091 OK. 248 00:15:26,125 --> 00:15:29,356 I think it's nice. Your date. 249 00:15:29,395 --> 00:15:31,920 You and the pig murderer make a good couple. 250 00:15:31,964 --> 00:15:33,864 - OK. - What are you gonna do? 251 00:15:33,899 --> 00:15:36,265 - What are you gonna talk about? - You care? 252 00:15:36,302 --> 00:15:39,100 Yeah, why do you care? 253 00:15:39,138 --> 00:15:43,040 You only get to do a first date once. It should be fun 254 00:15:43,075 --> 00:15:45,407 and sexy and... 255 00:15:45,444 --> 00:15:47,105 Ask really good questions. 256 00:15:47,146 --> 00:15:49,876 Ask him why he first decided he wanted to save lives. 257 00:15:49,915 --> 00:15:53,009 - Ask him what his best surgery was. - I know how to go on a date. 258 00:15:53,052 --> 00:15:56,488 Why is Meredith eating pot roast? 259 00:15:56,522 --> 00:15:58,854 It's a show lunch for the mommy. 260 00:15:58,891 --> 00:16:01,951 She's freaking out. That ponytail is gonna blow. 261 00:16:04,196 --> 00:16:06,858 [mother] Derek tells me you grew up here in Seattle. 262 00:16:06,899 --> 00:16:09,993 - Are your parents...? - Dead. 263 00:16:10,069 --> 00:16:12,367 Meredith's mother died last year. 264 00:16:12,404 --> 00:16:13,894 Oh. 265 00:16:13,939 --> 00:16:17,534 I'm so sorry. And your father? 266 00:16:17,576 --> 00:16:20,010 Oh. You know, 267 00:16:20,045 --> 00:16:22,275 I should go check on the patient. 268 00:16:22,314 --> 00:16:25,010 Who's the serial killer... 269 00:16:25,050 --> 00:16:26,449 ...who's here. 270 00:16:26,485 --> 00:16:28,544 Not killing people. 271 00:16:28,587 --> 00:16:30,214 So that's good. 272 00:16:30,255 --> 00:16:32,723 - I should go. - Yeah. 273 00:16:32,758 --> 00:16:33,952 OK. 274 00:16:37,329 --> 00:16:40,594 Family isn't her favorite topic, OK? 275 00:16:40,632 --> 00:16:43,726 - She's had a rough time of it. - I didn't say a word. 276 00:16:43,769 --> 00:16:45,964 I know what you're thinking. 277 00:16:48,107 --> 00:16:52,567 I was thinking... it must be awful for you. 278 00:16:53,712 --> 00:16:54,906 Treating a murderer. 279 00:16:59,785 --> 00:17:01,912 Dad died a long time ago. I'm fine. 280 00:17:04,623 --> 00:17:08,582 - What are you doing? - Sleep with me, you lunch with me. 281 00:17:08,627 --> 00:17:11,755 - New rule. - You let interns sit with you? 282 00:17:11,797 --> 00:17:15,756 - That's so cool. - Wanna go halfsies on that cookie? 283 00:17:15,801 --> 00:17:17,962 What are you gonna trade me for it? 284 00:17:18,003 --> 00:17:19,664 You guys, they have Tater Tots! 285 00:17:19,705 --> 00:17:22,037 [laughing] 286 00:17:22,074 --> 00:17:24,133 I have to go. 287 00:17:27,613 --> 00:17:30,480 - Mark? - Mrs. Shepherd. 288 00:17:30,516 --> 00:17:32,780 - You've been avoiding me. - What? No. 289 00:17:32,818 --> 00:17:36,345 You have the same look on your face as you did when you were ten 290 00:17:36,388 --> 00:17:39,084 and put Derek's favorite frog in the microwave. 291 00:17:39,124 --> 00:17:43,493 - I never pressed start. - What's going on? 292 00:17:45,964 --> 00:17:47,761 I'm sleeping with her. 293 00:17:49,501 --> 00:17:53,631 - Oh, Mark, not again! How could you? - No... No. 294 00:17:53,672 --> 00:17:55,663 Not Meredith. God, no. 295 00:17:56,909 --> 00:17:59,400 Meredith's little sister. 296 00:18:00,679 --> 00:18:02,613 Which one is she? 297 00:18:02,648 --> 00:18:05,173 The... one with the juice box. 298 00:18:10,389 --> 00:18:12,983 - Are my new organs here yet? - Not yet. 299 00:18:13,025 --> 00:18:15,516 But we're gonna get you all prepped now 300 00:18:15,561 --> 00:18:18,052 so we can put them in as soon as they get here. 301 00:18:18,097 --> 00:18:21,760 When you wake up, you'll be a brand-new boy with brand-new parts. 302 00:18:21,800 --> 00:18:23,927 I can't believe this is it. 303 00:18:23,969 --> 00:18:28,429 The thought of us getting to live our lives outside this hospital... 304 00:18:28,474 --> 00:18:32,706 - Don't get me wrong, I love our chats. - But it'll be nice not to see my face. 305 00:18:32,744 --> 00:18:34,575 So freaking nice! 306 00:18:46,758 --> 00:18:50,353 - It's just a kid. - Yep. Let's go get his organs. 307 00:18:56,001 --> 00:19:00,267 Am I hallucinating or is that a really high ponytail? 308 00:19:01,140 --> 00:19:03,199 You're not hallucinating. 309 00:19:03,242 --> 00:19:06,905 But once your brain starts to herniate, I can't promise anything. 310 00:19:06,945 --> 00:19:10,676 So I'm really circling the drain here? 311 00:19:10,716 --> 00:19:14,049 You should just take my organs right now. Help that poor kid. 312 00:19:14,086 --> 00:19:17,180 They found him organs. They're flying them over right now. 313 00:19:17,222 --> 00:19:18,780 He's going to be fine. 314 00:19:28,000 --> 00:19:31,163 Did you know that they let you choose? 315 00:19:32,905 --> 00:19:37,672 Hanging or lethal. You get to pick your poison. 316 00:19:37,709 --> 00:19:38,869 Literally. 317 00:19:41,480 --> 00:19:43,710 Which one would you choose? 318 00:19:45,918 --> 00:19:47,943 Medically speaking, which one's... 319 00:19:49,254 --> 00:19:50,619 ...better? 320 00:19:54,860 --> 00:19:57,055 Well, with hanging, 321 00:19:57,095 --> 00:19:59,825 your neck breaks, which severs your spinal cord, 322 00:19:59,865 --> 00:20:04,427 which causes blood pressure to drop, and you lose consciousness. 323 00:20:04,469 --> 00:20:07,302 You don't actually die for several minutes. 324 00:20:07,339 --> 00:20:09,500 And with lethal injection, 325 00:20:09,541 --> 00:20:13,875 they inject an anesthetic first which puts you to sleep, 326 00:20:13,912 --> 00:20:17,746 and then a paralytic which stops your diaphragm and lungs. 327 00:20:17,783 --> 00:20:20,843 And then potassium, which stops your heart. 328 00:20:29,595 --> 00:20:34,259 Was... was I a match? 329 00:20:37,169 --> 00:20:38,761 Yes, you were. 330 00:21:03,228 --> 00:21:07,130 Can I help you with something? Were you looking for Dr. Shep...? 331 00:21:07,165 --> 00:21:10,965 - Are you a good girl? - I... What? 332 00:21:11,003 --> 00:21:15,235 A good girl. I don't mean perfect, I mean... relatively speaking. 333 00:21:16,942 --> 00:21:18,500 - Are you? - Yes. 334 00:21:20,112 --> 00:21:23,104 How many sexual partners have you had? I won't judge. 335 00:21:23,148 --> 00:21:25,946 Um, six. No, s-seven. 336 00:21:25,984 --> 00:21:28,544 Kinda six, kinda seven. 337 00:21:28,587 --> 00:21:30,612 - Criminal record? - Speeding ticket. 338 00:21:30,656 --> 00:21:32,283 - How fast? - Twelve miles over. 339 00:21:32,324 --> 00:21:36,761 - That's fast. - It isn't too... Way too fast. 340 00:21:36,795 --> 00:21:40,196 But it was downhill. I was coasting, ma'am. 341 00:21:41,967 --> 00:21:43,764 I don't suppose you can tell me... 342 00:21:46,571 --> 00:21:48,539 ...where the gift shop is? 343 00:21:49,875 --> 00:21:51,604 First floor, east wing. 344 00:21:59,985 --> 00:22:04,046 - It's like pudding in here. - It's why I don't do this procedure. 345 00:22:04,089 --> 00:22:09,117 You're living with broken legs for months, you're in excruciating pain. 346 00:22:09,161 --> 00:22:11,459 All for a few inches. 347 00:22:11,496 --> 00:22:15,364 Pain and agony for a little bit of pleasure. I get it. 348 00:22:15,400 --> 00:22:18,369 If it's that bad, why don't you just stop sleep... 349 00:22:20,505 --> 00:22:24,441 - ...doing what you're doing? - It doesn't feel bad when I'm... 350 00:22:24,476 --> 00:22:27,968 ...doing it. It's good. It's great. 351 00:22:28,013 --> 00:22:33,076 And maybe if you weren't so scared of getting burned you'd feel the same. 352 00:22:35,387 --> 00:22:38,288 I used to walk tall around here. 353 00:22:38,323 --> 00:22:40,951 I used to walk tall. 354 00:22:40,992 --> 00:22:43,859 Then came George. 355 00:22:43,895 --> 00:22:46,887 He took off at least an inch. 356 00:22:46,932 --> 00:22:50,766 And Erica went and left me. That shaved off a few more. 357 00:22:50,802 --> 00:22:52,497 I got shorter. 358 00:22:52,537 --> 00:22:56,906 All that humiliation makes you shorter. So, yeah, I am scared of getting hurt. 359 00:22:56,942 --> 00:23:00,378 One more personal disaster right now would cut me off at the knees. 360 00:23:08,086 --> 00:23:10,418 So Valentine's Day. 361 00:23:10,455 --> 00:23:13,390 Personally, I think you can't go wrong with jewelry. 362 00:23:13,425 --> 00:23:17,122 - I could recommend some places. - What is wrong with you? 363 00:23:17,162 --> 00:23:20,359 - What? - We just took a liver and intestine 364 00:23:20,399 --> 00:23:22,731 from a little kid. A dead little kid. 365 00:23:22,768 --> 00:23:24,429 And you don't even care. 366 00:23:24,469 --> 00:23:28,735 You're talking about rainbows and relationships and crap. 367 00:23:28,774 --> 00:23:30,571 What the hell is wrong with you? 368 00:23:34,646 --> 00:23:39,049 You don't think I know they just pulled the plug on a kid? 369 00:23:39,084 --> 00:23:41,712 You don't think I get that? 370 00:23:42,687 --> 00:23:47,522 You don't think I know about the tiny, tiny coffin they're gonna stick him in? 371 00:23:47,559 --> 00:23:49,618 I know about the tiny coffins. 372 00:23:49,661 --> 00:23:53,654 I see them all the time. In my sleep. 373 00:23:53,698 --> 00:23:56,792 So if you don't mind, I'm gonna keep talking 374 00:23:56,835 --> 00:24:00,066 relationships and rainbows and crap, 375 00:24:00,105 --> 00:24:03,632 and I'm gonna make plans for tomorrow. 376 00:24:03,675 --> 00:24:08,044 Because that's what you do, Karev. You make plans. 377 00:24:09,114 --> 00:24:14,746 You have to. You turn your back on the tiny coffins and face forward. 378 00:24:16,288 --> 00:24:17,687 To the next kid. 379 00:24:24,362 --> 00:24:26,922 - How's our death-row guy? - Pissing me off. 380 00:24:26,965 --> 00:24:29,763 Blossoming brain contusions, refusing surgery. 381 00:24:29,801 --> 00:24:33,635 - Thinks he'll get a stay of execution? - No, he'd like to die here. 382 00:24:33,672 --> 00:24:36,004 He wants to control it. He wants to choose. 383 00:24:36,041 --> 00:24:38,669 I went overboard buying bears for your nieces. 384 00:24:38,710 --> 00:24:40,871 - Mom, this is Major Owen Hunt. - Major? 385 00:24:40,912 --> 00:24:44,143 I was a Navy nurse for 25 years. Where were you stationed? 386 00:24:44,182 --> 00:24:46,707 - In the thick of it. In Iraq. - Welcome home. 387 00:24:46,751 --> 00:24:51,347 - You must have stories. - Not any worth telling, ma'am. 388 00:24:55,560 --> 00:24:59,121 - I finished your post-ops. - Thank you, Dr. Yang. 389 00:25:05,537 --> 00:25:08,836 - What was your best surgery ever? - What? 390 00:25:08,874 --> 00:25:11,308 Nothing. Uh, stupid. 391 00:25:13,545 --> 00:25:16,412 - Finishing the vena cava. - Anastomosis looks good. 392 00:25:16,448 --> 00:25:19,076 All that's left is to release the clamps. 393 00:25:19,117 --> 00:25:23,383 You should do the honors, Miranda. He's your patient. 394 00:25:26,458 --> 00:25:28,790 Thank you, Dr. Robbins. 395 00:25:41,873 --> 00:25:43,841 Call on me. 396 00:25:46,244 --> 00:25:47,438 Call on me. 397 00:25:48,547 --> 00:25:49,741 Call on me! 398 00:25:52,284 --> 00:25:54,752 There's a spot on the duodenum. 399 00:25:55,987 --> 00:25:58,421 - What the hell is that? - [monitor beeps rapidly] 400 00:25:58,456 --> 00:26:01,357 - I don't feel good. - ICP is critical. We can't wait. 401 00:26:01,393 --> 00:26:04,362 - We have to get him down to the OR. - No. No. 402 00:26:04,396 --> 00:26:08,298 - We have to get you to surgery. - I'm not scared of dying. 403 00:26:08,333 --> 00:26:13,635 I just don't want to do it strapped down on a table like some animal. 404 00:26:14,906 --> 00:26:17,306 Please... Please, Dr. Grey. 405 00:26:18,977 --> 00:26:20,308 Let me go. 406 00:26:28,353 --> 00:26:29,684 OK, start bagging him. 407 00:26:29,721 --> 00:26:32,349 - Intubate, get him into the OR. - Yeah, right here. 408 00:26:32,390 --> 00:26:35,518 I need another doctor's signature, consent to operate. 409 00:26:36,428 --> 00:26:37,554 Meredith, sign. 410 00:26:38,830 --> 00:26:39,888 Sign the form. 411 00:26:41,466 --> 00:26:42,933 Meredith, sign the form! 412 00:26:45,070 --> 00:26:46,662 Meredith, sign the form! 413 00:26:50,542 --> 00:26:52,908 Yang, you're scrubbing in. 414 00:27:01,052 --> 00:27:04,488 He's clotting and clotting and clotting. Is there a source? 415 00:27:04,522 --> 00:27:08,117 This can't be happening. Not to this little boy. 416 00:27:08,159 --> 00:27:11,026 - This is not happening... - These organs are dead. 417 00:27:11,062 --> 00:27:14,122 They're making him sicker. Keeping them in is doing harm. 418 00:27:14,165 --> 00:27:17,498 - He will die if you leave them in. - He'll die if we take them out! 419 00:27:17,535 --> 00:27:19,025 Pressure's dropping. 420 00:27:20,705 --> 00:27:24,072 Try a portacaval shunt. It'll bypass the liver. 421 00:27:24,109 --> 00:27:26,976 - That's a temporary fix. - Got any better ideas? 422 00:27:28,546 --> 00:27:32,642 - I don't see what choice we have. - How much time to find new organs? 423 00:27:32,684 --> 00:27:35,244 Twenty-four hours. 424 00:27:35,286 --> 00:27:37,880 Get some more laps in here too. 425 00:27:39,524 --> 00:27:43,585 We're going to put this piece of skull in Mr. Dunn's abdomen. Why? 426 00:27:43,628 --> 00:27:46,222 To allow the swelling in the brain to resolve. 427 00:27:46,264 --> 00:27:50,132 Circulation of abdomen preserves the bone marrow in the skull piece. 428 00:27:50,168 --> 00:27:53,331 - Very good. - Thanks for letting me scrub in. 429 00:27:53,371 --> 00:27:57,034 I guess we finally see eye to eye on something. 430 00:28:01,413 --> 00:28:03,745 Are we ever gonna find out why it clotted off? 431 00:28:03,782 --> 00:28:06,979 Sometimes the body, the pieces just break. 432 00:28:08,053 --> 00:28:12,717 - I'm like that. - Yeah? You dying for no reason? 433 00:28:14,559 --> 00:28:19,587 My life is in pieces, all of the time. 434 00:28:19,631 --> 00:28:23,931 And they keep breaking, and as soon as I fix one, another one goes down. 435 00:28:24,602 --> 00:28:29,062 I'm not trying to piss you off. I'm just trying to keep it together. 436 00:28:29,107 --> 00:28:30,768 Piece by piece. 437 00:28:33,978 --> 00:28:37,038 [ 438 00:28:57,702 --> 00:29:01,536 That ponytail... looks ridiculous. 439 00:29:16,855 --> 00:29:20,586 - She's a lovely girl. - A lovely girl who's off-limits. 440 00:29:20,625 --> 00:29:23,822 Baloney. She isn't the problem, you are. 441 00:29:23,862 --> 00:29:27,161 You have very low expectations for yourself, Mark Sloan. 442 00:29:27,198 --> 00:29:30,793 Since you were a little boy. And it's time to raise them. 443 00:29:30,835 --> 00:29:32,496 She's 24. 444 00:29:32,537 --> 00:29:37,406 You have the emotional maturity of a horny 15 year old. You need young. 445 00:29:37,442 --> 00:29:39,467 - Mm. - [chuckles] 446 00:29:40,245 --> 00:29:44,841 We had to shave off a quarter inch of leg bone in order to save the legs. 447 00:29:46,818 --> 00:29:48,217 You mean I'm shorter? 448 00:29:48,253 --> 00:29:50,153 I'm a quarter of an inch shorter? 449 00:29:50,188 --> 00:29:52,088 Quarter inch. It's not a big deal. 450 00:29:53,958 --> 00:29:58,019 Yeah. I'm under 5'3". 451 00:29:58,062 --> 00:30:00,963 I am 5'2" and three quarters. 452 00:30:00,999 --> 00:30:04,594 But maybe I can still just squeeze over the height requirement 453 00:30:04,636 --> 00:30:07,298 - at the amusement park. - [exclaims] Do you know 454 00:30:07,338 --> 00:30:09,431 why I never played varsity basketball? 455 00:30:11,442 --> 00:30:14,969 - You didn't make the team? - No. I didn't try out for the team. 456 00:30:15,013 --> 00:30:19,040 I didn't want to make you feel bad for being too short to play. 457 00:30:19,083 --> 00:30:22,246 Even now, if I have a bad day, I can't talk to my brother 458 00:30:22,287 --> 00:30:25,188 because maybe you had a bad day and you're short! 459 00:30:25,223 --> 00:30:28,989 I couldn't even be depressed about Lori leaving me 460 00:30:29,027 --> 00:30:31,996 because you don't have a girlfriend and you're short! 461 00:30:32,030 --> 00:30:34,760 By the way, the reason you don't have a girlfriend 462 00:30:34,799 --> 00:30:37,700 isn't because you're short. It's because all you do 463 00:30:37,735 --> 00:30:40,033 is talk about being short! 464 00:30:42,407 --> 00:30:45,535 No one knows how short you are except for you, dude. 465 00:30:45,577 --> 00:30:47,374 No one cares. 466 00:30:54,452 --> 00:30:57,717 - I'm an ass, aren't I? - Yeah. 467 00:30:59,324 --> 00:31:01,485 And you're short. 468 00:31:05,263 --> 00:31:07,527 Good night. Nice to meet you. 469 00:31:07,565 --> 00:31:10,500 Major Hunt? How have you been sleeping? 470 00:31:10,535 --> 00:31:13,026 - I'm sorry? - When I can't sleep, 471 00:31:13,071 --> 00:31:14,470 I use Valerian root. 472 00:31:14,505 --> 00:31:18,032 I know you doctors don't think much of herbs, but I find it helps. 473 00:31:18,076 --> 00:31:21,705 Have you been sleeping? Since you came back? 474 00:31:23,715 --> 00:31:27,776 I'm fine, ma'am. I... sleep just fine. 475 00:31:28,987 --> 00:31:31,012 Good night. 476 00:31:33,925 --> 00:31:38,419 - How's your head feel, Mr. Dunn? - Why didn't you just let me go? 477 00:31:38,463 --> 00:31:42,160 - You're not dying here. - What are you so scared of? 478 00:31:42,200 --> 00:31:45,966 - Losing control? - ICP's stable. Continue neuro exams. 479 00:31:46,004 --> 00:31:49,701 Keep an eye on his blood pressure. I don't want it dropping. 480 00:31:49,741 --> 00:31:53,802 Or maybe you know deep down, you're no better than I am. 481 00:31:53,845 --> 00:31:56,541 You decide who lives and dies all the time. 482 00:31:56,581 --> 00:32:00,483 For you, they call it medicine, not a capital offense. 483 00:32:00,518 --> 00:32:05,751 Nobody gets to choose. Not me, not a patient in this hospital 484 00:32:05,790 --> 00:32:08,384 and certainly not the women you slaughtered. 485 00:32:08,426 --> 00:32:11,293 So when I say you're not gonna die in this hospital, 486 00:32:11,329 --> 00:32:17,199 I mean there is no way in hell I will let you die in this hospital. 487 00:32:19,504 --> 00:32:21,438 You don't get off that easy. 488 00:32:23,641 --> 00:32:25,438 I'm nothing like you. 489 00:32:34,052 --> 00:32:35,280 Meredith. 490 00:32:35,320 --> 00:32:38,949 I was just looking for Derek. I thought you'd be with him. 491 00:32:42,493 --> 00:32:45,155 You seem like a very nice person. 492 00:32:45,196 --> 00:32:48,688 You've been kind and you've given me a chance. 493 00:32:48,733 --> 00:32:51,668 It seems like you want to like me. 494 00:32:53,104 --> 00:32:56,767 So it's only fair you should know... 495 00:32:56,808 --> 00:33:00,505 ...the pink and the ponytail and the smiling with the teeth? 496 00:33:01,512 --> 00:33:03,707 I'm a fraud. It's fake. 497 00:33:03,748 --> 00:33:07,479 I'm not the kind of girl mothers like. I'm not happy and bubbly. 498 00:33:07,518 --> 00:33:09,884 I'm dark and cloudy, 499 00:33:09,921 --> 00:33:13,448 because I'm the type of crazy person who... 500 00:33:13,491 --> 00:33:16,460 ...feels bad for serial killers. 501 00:33:20,932 --> 00:33:23,594 It was very nice to meet you, Meredith. 502 00:33:23,634 --> 00:33:26,262 [ 503 00:33:47,492 --> 00:33:48,754 What's wrong? 504 00:33:50,061 --> 00:33:53,087 - I want to meet your mother. - From. 505 00:33:53,131 --> 00:33:57,363 I want to go on a date with you. I want to eat dinner in a restaurant 506 00:33:57,402 --> 00:34:00,769 and not look like a crazy person talking to myself. 507 00:34:00,805 --> 00:34:04,832 I want to walk down the street with you and hold your hand. 508 00:34:04,876 --> 00:34:08,039 I want to tell my friends about you and I want... 509 00:34:09,414 --> 00:34:11,211 I want... 510 00:34:12,350 --> 00:34:16,514 - What? - I want you alive. 511 00:34:26,164 --> 00:34:29,327 Are you breaking up with me, Izzie Stevens? 512 00:34:31,235 --> 00:34:32,793 I think I am. 513 00:34:38,976 --> 00:34:40,238 [bell dings] 514 00:34:40,278 --> 00:34:43,111 - So you wanna get a drink? - I would, but I have plans. 515 00:34:44,082 --> 00:34:45,515 Right. 516 00:34:48,653 --> 00:34:51,952 - Walk tall. - What? 517 00:34:54,358 --> 00:34:57,293 All you can do is be brave enough to get out there. 518 00:34:57,328 --> 00:35:00,422 You fought. You loved. 519 00:35:00,465 --> 00:35:01,830 You lost. 520 00:35:03,334 --> 00:35:05,325 Walk tall, Torres. 521 00:35:13,344 --> 00:35:16,245 You're late. Really late. They closed the kitchen. 522 00:35:16,280 --> 00:35:18,976 I didn't want you to think I stood you up. 523 00:35:21,285 --> 00:35:23,446 Are you drunk? 524 00:35:26,791 --> 00:35:31,285 I haven't been on a date in five years, since before I entered the military. 525 00:35:31,329 --> 00:35:34,230 - I wanted to take the edge off. - You're late and drunk? 526 00:35:34,265 --> 00:35:37,860 I will make this up to you. I promise. This is not what you deserve. 527 00:35:37,902 --> 00:35:41,702 This is not what you deserve. I will make this up to you. I promise. 528 00:35:41,739 --> 00:35:44,833 Before you say anything else, Dr. Goodtimes, shower. 529 00:35:44,876 --> 00:35:46,400 You smell like a distillery. 530 00:35:50,882 --> 00:35:52,816 No. Not here! I... 531 00:35:54,619 --> 00:35:59,647 Your father always wanted you to have this for the right girl. 532 00:36:01,392 --> 00:36:03,587 Addy wasn't right, clearly. 533 00:36:08,432 --> 00:36:10,662 You spent less than an hour with Meredith. 534 00:36:12,904 --> 00:36:17,034 - You barely even know her. - I know enough. 535 00:36:17,074 --> 00:36:22,444 I know it's easier to have compassion for a good person than a murderer. 536 00:36:23,447 --> 00:36:25,938 I know how angry you still are about Dad. 537 00:36:25,983 --> 00:36:28,679 Of course I'm angry. 538 00:36:29,820 --> 00:36:31,685 Aren't you? 539 00:36:35,293 --> 00:36:38,490 I still can't sleep on his side of the bed, 540 00:36:38,529 --> 00:36:42,693 the mattress is wearing unevenly, 541 00:36:42,733 --> 00:36:44,792 but no. 542 00:36:45,670 --> 00:36:48,002 No, not angry. Not anymore. 543 00:36:51,242 --> 00:36:53,210 Sweetheart... 544 00:36:55,313 --> 00:36:58,407 - You see things in black and white. - Mm. 545 00:36:58,449 --> 00:37:00,747 Meredith doesn't. 546 00:37:00,785 --> 00:37:04,016 You need a spoonful of that. 547 00:37:04,055 --> 00:37:05,647 You need her. 548 00:37:09,327 --> 00:37:11,192 - She's the one. - Yeah. 549 00:37:19,270 --> 00:37:21,898 Yang! Yang! 550 00:37:24,976 --> 00:37:29,242 - I thought of my best surgery. - You're wearing shoes in my shower. 551 00:37:29,280 --> 00:37:32,443 First blast injury in the field. Body was mangled. 552 00:37:32,483 --> 00:37:37,352 Homemade explosive device, wires embedded five inches in the abdomen. 553 00:37:37,388 --> 00:37:41,347 Arms and legs hanging on by threads of skin. Never seen anything like it. 554 00:37:41,392 --> 00:37:46,125 Not in a textbook, not in residency. Incredible. Body full of holes. 555 00:37:46,163 --> 00:37:49,997 Trauma surgeon's dream. I put tourniquets on where I could, 556 00:37:50,034 --> 00:37:53,993 started tying off arteries with my bare hands, but bleeding was everywhere: 557 00:37:54,038 --> 00:37:56,268 stomach, chest... 558 00:37:56,307 --> 00:37:59,538 Best pressure I could think of was my own body. 559 00:37:59,577 --> 00:38:03,172 I laid there for two hours on top of him, not moving, 560 00:38:03,214 --> 00:38:08,777 trying to keep that dam from bursting with my hands, knees, elbows. 561 00:38:10,221 --> 00:38:13,122 Body... full of holes, 562 00:38:13,157 --> 00:38:15,591 and... he never bled out. 563 00:38:15,626 --> 00:38:17,992 I wouldn't let him. 564 00:38:18,996 --> 00:38:23,160 He made it to the hospital, home. A month later, he sent me a letter 565 00:38:23,200 --> 00:38:26,067 thanking me for saving his life. Then he shot himself. 566 00:38:26,103 --> 00:38:28,435 [ 567 00:38:34,945 --> 00:38:37,243 That was my best surgery. 568 00:38:41,252 --> 00:38:43,743 And my worst. 569 00:38:46,424 --> 00:38:48,722 [Meredith] We're human. 570 00:38:48,759 --> 00:38:51,091 We make mistakes. 571 00:38:53,998 --> 00:38:56,262 We misestimate. 572 00:38:59,837 --> 00:39:01,828 We call it wrong. 573 00:39:16,587 --> 00:39:19,784 But when a surgeon makes a bad judgment call, 574 00:39:19,824 --> 00:39:22,054 it's not as simple. 575 00:39:22,093 --> 00:39:25,995 So I checked and we have a few vacation days coming up. 576 00:39:26,030 --> 00:39:30,797 Maybe we could take a road trip, stop in Iowa, see some corn. 577 00:39:30,835 --> 00:39:33,201 - Doesn't your mom live in Iowa? - Yeah. 578 00:39:33,237 --> 00:39:35,034 I think she'd like to meet you. 579 00:39:40,177 --> 00:39:44,477 Or not. Bad idea. Forget it. 580 00:39:51,355 --> 00:39:55,416 There's a bottle of tequila in the laundry room that has our name on it. 581 00:39:55,459 --> 00:39:57,393 Don't move. 582 00:40:11,041 --> 00:40:12,406 Alex... 583 00:40:14,678 --> 00:40:16,373 We gotta talk. 584 00:40:21,585 --> 00:40:23,712 [Meredith] People get hurt. 585 00:40:23,754 --> 00:40:25,449 They bleed. 586 00:40:25,489 --> 00:40:28,549 I'm so sorry, I just heard. What happens now? 587 00:40:28,592 --> 00:40:31,288 Now, we wait for a miracle. 588 00:40:35,833 --> 00:40:39,826 So we struggle over every stitch, 589 00:40:39,870 --> 00:40:42,134 we agonize... 590 00:40:45,009 --> 00:40:47,910 ...over every suture. 591 00:40:52,950 --> 00:40:57,114 During surgery, Dr. Shepherd removed a piece of your skull. 592 00:40:57,154 --> 00:41:00,123 Which means your brain is only covered by dura mater. 593 00:41:00,157 --> 00:41:05,254 It's virtually exposed. If somehow that area were to be damaged, 594 00:41:05,296 --> 00:41:09,596 it would cause intracranial bleeding, which could cause your brain to swell 595 00:41:09,633 --> 00:41:13,660 worse than it did today, which would result in brain death. 596 00:41:15,306 --> 00:41:20,107 So, as your doctor, I need you to be very careful not to damage it. 597 00:41:21,345 --> 00:41:23,540 Do you understand what I'm saying? 598 00:41:33,357 --> 00:41:35,052 Dr. Grey? 599 00:41:37,261 --> 00:41:40,822 Are you doing this for the kid... 600 00:41:40,865 --> 00:41:42,332 ...or for me? 601 00:41:42,366 --> 00:41:44,596 Because the snap judgments, 602 00:41:44,635 --> 00:41:48,867 the ones that come to us quickly and easily, without hesitation... 603 00:41:48,906 --> 00:41:51,136 Whatever helps you sleep at night. 604 00:41:51,175 --> 00:41:54,269 ...they're the ones that haunt us forever. 605 00:41:57,081 --> 00:41:59,106 [door closes] 606 00:42:11,161 --> 00:42:13,254 [crying out]