1 00:00:01,591 --> 00:00:03,468 [Miranda] Previously on "Grey's anatomy" 2 00:00:03,676 --> 00:00:06,429 Meredith wasn't a fling. I fell in love with her. 3 00:00:06,596 --> 00:00:09,015 Yeah, it's my mother. She has Alzheimer's. 4 00:00:09,224 --> 00:00:11,559 Have you even bothered to tell Burke about the baby? 5 00:00:11,684 --> 00:00:14,479 - I had a right to know. - I failed the medical boards. 6 00:00:14,562 --> 00:00:18,399 - That's pretty embarrassing. - I'm pregnant, you blind moron. 7 00:00:18,608 --> 00:00:19,859 Can we please just talk? 8 00:00:20,318 --> 00:00:22,237 You're too busy screwing nurses to talk. 9 00:00:22,654 --> 00:00:24,322 I never wanted to hurt you. 10 00:00:24,447 --> 00:00:26,282 Sometimes I think we'd be better off with dogs. 11 00:00:27,784 --> 00:00:29,619 [Doc barks] 12 00:00:39,045 --> 00:00:42,507 [Doc barking] 13 00:00:43,341 --> 00:00:44,634 [indistinct shouting] 14 00:00:44,717 --> 00:00:46,594 - [glass shatters] - [George] I said down! Back! 15 00:00:46,678 --> 00:00:48,680 Izzie! Izzie! 16 00:00:49,556 --> 00:00:51,891 - [barking continues] - [George] Incoming! 17 00:00:53,560 --> 00:00:56,521 [Meredith] Fresh starts... thanks to the calendar, 18 00:00:56,604 --> 00:01:00,275 they happen every year. Just set your watch to January. 19 00:01:00,567 --> 00:01:02,485 You know, I'm thinking about coloring my hair. 20 00:01:02,902 --> 00:01:03,861 Maybe red. 21 00:01:04,696 --> 00:01:07,365 Red's good. I'm thinking about cutting mine. 22 00:01:07,532 --> 00:01:09,450 Yeah? You'd look good shorter. 23 00:01:10,827 --> 00:01:12,453 - You think? - Yeah. 24 00:01:13,037 --> 00:01:14,122 - [barking stops] - [Meredith] Oh, he's such a good dog. 25 00:01:14,205 --> 00:01:15,248 Who's a good boy? 26 00:01:15,665 --> 00:01:20,086 He's a good boy. What a good dog. Who's mommy's good boy? 27 00:01:21,587 --> 00:01:25,300 Oh, what a good boy. You're such a good boy. 28 00:01:25,967 --> 00:01:27,844 What are you guys doing in there? We're gonna be late. 29 00:01:27,927 --> 00:01:30,263 - We need to talk about the dog. - That's not a dog. 30 00:01:30,346 --> 00:01:32,473 It's a hyena escaped from the zoo dressed in dog clothing. 31 00:01:32,557 --> 00:01:35,393 Whatever. I don't chew up his clothes. I don't urinate on his bed. 32 00:01:35,560 --> 00:01:39,772 - I don't try to mount him from behind. - People, he's our dog. We love our dog. 33 00:01:40,064 --> 00:01:41,024 He loves us. 34 00:01:47,989 --> 00:01:49,032 [growls] 35 00:01:49,532 --> 00:01:50,658 [barks] 36 00:01:51,034 --> 00:01:53,328 - He tries to mount you from behind? - Tries to. 37 00:01:53,411 --> 00:01:54,704 [barking continues] 38 00:01:54,787 --> 00:01:55,913 He tries to. 39 00:01:56,372 --> 00:01:57,540 [barks] 40 00:02:02,837 --> 00:02:05,632 [Meredith] Our reward for surviving the holiday season 41 00:02:05,715 --> 00:02:06,674 is a new year, 42 00:02:07,050 --> 00:02:10,178 bringing on the great tradition of new year's resolutions. 43 00:02:10,470 --> 00:02:11,596 I got a trout. 44 00:02:12,889 --> 00:02:14,599 - Oh! - Rainbow trout. 45 00:02:14,807 --> 00:02:16,559 Why... why did you bring a trout into the house? 46 00:02:16,768 --> 00:02:17,602 The trailer. 47 00:02:17,894 --> 00:02:20,396 Why did you bring a rainbow trout into the trailer? 48 00:02:20,480 --> 00:02:21,314 Breakfast. 49 00:02:21,606 --> 00:02:22,982 - [Addison] Breakfast? - Yeah, you hungry? 50 00:02:23,066 --> 00:02:24,359 - For trout? - Yeah. 51 00:02:26,277 --> 00:02:28,404 I hate this, Derek. I... 52 00:02:28,488 --> 00:02:29,656 Oh! 53 00:02:29,947 --> 00:02:32,992 I hate this! Hate, hate. I hate this trailer! 54 00:02:34,160 --> 00:02:35,328 So no trout for you then. 55 00:02:35,745 --> 00:02:38,539 [Meredith] Put your past behind you and start over. 56 00:02:39,374 --> 00:02:41,709 I'm standing there with Pritchard and Lewis, 57 00:02:42,752 --> 00:02:47,090 and they keep on asking me who I was with in the on call room last night. 58 00:02:47,924 --> 00:02:48,925 They heard us. 59 00:02:49,509 --> 00:02:50,760 Were we that loud? 60 00:02:51,469 --> 00:02:53,638 - Y-you're loud. - Stop. 61 00:02:55,306 --> 00:02:56,557 I am loud, aren't I? 62 00:02:57,183 --> 00:03:01,229 Pritch. He was always sticking his nose in someone else's business. 63 00:03:01,437 --> 00:03:03,314 You know, I actually saw him again, 64 00:03:03,940 --> 00:03:05,108 at his wife's funeral? 65 00:03:05,608 --> 00:03:08,194 What? Pritchard isn't married. 66 00:03:09,445 --> 00:03:12,448 Uh, oh, right, right. I'm thinking of someone else. 67 00:03:12,990 --> 00:03:14,242 I'm just confused. 68 00:03:15,034 --> 00:03:15,952 You need sleep. 69 00:03:16,661 --> 00:03:18,538 Residency has worn you down. 70 00:03:22,500 --> 00:03:23,334 Ellis, um... 71 00:03:24,168 --> 00:03:25,002 Yes. 72 00:03:31,592 --> 00:03:32,427 Nothing. 73 00:03:32,802 --> 00:03:33,678 I just... 74 00:03:34,679 --> 00:03:35,847 Hate being an intern. 75 00:03:36,013 --> 00:03:37,682 Hmm. Me, too. 76 00:03:39,726 --> 00:03:42,186 It's hard to resist the chance at a new beginning. 77 00:03:42,854 --> 00:03:46,065 A chance to put the problems of last year to bed. 78 00:03:51,779 --> 00:03:56,200 - So... In the name of the new year... - Oh, huh, I don't do resolutions. 79 00:03:57,034 --> 00:03:58,745 In the name of the new year, 80 00:03:58,911 --> 00:04:02,331 I thought you could give me an answer to my question. 81 00:04:03,166 --> 00:04:04,250 Your question? 82 00:04:04,459 --> 00:04:06,627 About you... Moving in. 83 00:04:08,504 --> 00:04:09,338 [sighs] 84 00:04:09,422 --> 00:04:10,631 I don't have an answer. 85 00:04:10,965 --> 00:04:13,301 - [Preston] Cristina... - I'm not being Cristina, I just... 86 00:04:14,218 --> 00:04:15,428 I don't have an answer. 87 00:04:17,013 --> 00:04:18,097 Then answer me this. 88 00:04:19,390 --> 00:04:20,391 What were you planning to do? 89 00:04:21,017 --> 00:04:21,934 About what? 90 00:04:22,560 --> 00:04:23,394 The baby. 91 00:04:27,190 --> 00:04:29,066 Dr. Burke, we're ready for you. 92 00:04:38,242 --> 00:04:41,162 [Richard] listen up, people, new year, new rules. 93 00:04:41,454 --> 00:04:45,208 Or should I say, new year, and we will be enforcing the rules 94 00:04:45,291 --> 00:04:47,710 mandated by the residency review committee. 95 00:04:48,127 --> 00:04:50,213 There were too many mistakes made last year. 96 00:04:50,421 --> 00:04:52,381 Fatigue played too big a role. 97 00:04:52,590 --> 00:04:55,968 Exceeding 80 hours of work per week will not be tolerated... 98 00:04:56,052 --> 00:04:57,970 Does that mean we actually get to have a life? 99 00:04:58,262 --> 00:04:59,222 I think so. 100 00:04:59,472 --> 00:05:01,891 Sullivan, you were on call for 28 hours. 101 00:05:01,974 --> 00:05:03,309 Leave when you hit 30. 102 00:05:03,392 --> 00:05:05,269 Grey, you were here until 2 am. Last night, 103 00:05:05,353 --> 00:05:06,187 see you at noon. 104 00:05:06,729 --> 00:05:08,606 I get to go? Free time? 105 00:05:08,773 --> 00:05:10,525 Run before he changes his mind. 106 00:05:10,608 --> 00:05:12,777 Oh, and, people, our nurses are gonna have to work 107 00:05:12,860 --> 00:05:15,238 extra hours to compensate, so treat them well. 108 00:05:15,321 --> 00:05:16,989 Cranky nurses don't do us any good. 109 00:05:17,073 --> 00:05:19,909 - Oh, well, maybe you can cheer them up. - [chuckles] 110 00:05:20,451 --> 00:05:21,285 You know what? 111 00:05:21,577 --> 00:05:24,497 My new year's resolution was to let it go, and I am. 112 00:05:24,580 --> 00:05:26,165 I have. I've let it go. 113 00:05:26,415 --> 00:05:28,084 - I apologize. - You do? 114 00:05:28,167 --> 00:05:30,711 I do. How'd your test go? 115 00:05:31,045 --> 00:05:33,130 I feel pretty good about it, but I won't know for a few days. 116 00:05:33,214 --> 00:05:35,132 - We're all pulling for you. - We are? 117 00:05:35,424 --> 00:05:36,259 We are. 118 00:05:37,343 --> 00:05:42,098 You can see the mesothelioma better now that I've partially dissected it. 119 00:05:44,392 --> 00:05:47,937 Uh, I can't, uh... I can't really see it from here. 120 00:05:48,020 --> 00:05:49,939 - Can I... can I go in closer? - You're fine there. 121 00:05:51,524 --> 00:05:54,819 Preston, good news. We have a heart for Denny Duquette. 122 00:05:55,111 --> 00:05:56,821 That's great news. Has he been called? 123 00:05:56,904 --> 00:05:58,823 - Got here ten minutes ago. - Well, good. 124 00:05:59,073 --> 00:06:00,700 I was worried we couldn't find a match in time. 125 00:06:00,783 --> 00:06:02,910 We have a plane ready to take you to twin falls, Idaho, 126 00:06:02,994 --> 00:06:05,162 for the organ recovery... 90 minutes each way. 127 00:06:05,246 --> 00:06:06,414 How much more do you have here? 128 00:06:07,915 --> 00:06:09,208 Well, the heart comes out first. 129 00:06:09,375 --> 00:06:13,004 - No, I'd be cutting it too close. - They have a local-heart team there, so... 130 00:06:13,170 --> 00:06:16,132 No, Bailey. Send Bailey. She'll be our eyes. 131 00:06:17,717 --> 00:06:20,595 Dr. Yang, you need to leave this O.R. 132 00:06:21,429 --> 00:06:22,263 Excuse me? 133 00:06:22,346 --> 00:06:24,098 You've exceeded your 80-hour limit for the week. 134 00:06:24,181 --> 00:06:25,016 You have to leave the hospital. 135 00:06:25,099 --> 00:06:29,937 OK, um, um, as soon as the mesothelioma's dissected out. 136 00:06:30,021 --> 00:06:31,564 Dr. Yang, now. 137 00:06:35,276 --> 00:06:36,319 You heard him. 138 00:06:37,194 --> 00:06:38,112 [clears throat] 139 00:06:42,408 --> 00:06:43,701 Denny Duquette. 140 00:06:44,201 --> 00:06:45,244 Hey, Dr. Bailey. 141 00:06:45,328 --> 00:06:47,913 I hope seeing you here means they finally found you a heart. 142 00:06:48,039 --> 00:06:50,666 No offense, Doctor, but I'm not a big fan of hospitals. 143 00:06:50,750 --> 00:06:53,210 It'd take something pretty special to get me in here. 144 00:06:53,461 --> 00:06:55,087 And what do we know about Mr. Duquette? 145 00:06:56,589 --> 00:06:59,592 Capricorn, single, loves to travel and cook. 146 00:06:59,800 --> 00:07:02,094 Denny, be quiet. Let her show off. 147 00:07:02,303 --> 00:07:05,598 Denny Duquette, 36, admitted today for a heart transplant 148 00:07:05,681 --> 00:07:08,100 necessitated by a viral cardiomyopathy. 149 00:07:08,184 --> 00:07:09,518 [Miranda] And what does that mean? 150 00:07:09,602 --> 00:07:11,896 That his heart is unable to fill and pump blood normally. 151 00:07:12,063 --> 00:07:15,900 Good. Denny, this is Dr. Stevens. She'll be tending to you prior to surgery. 152 00:07:16,359 --> 00:07:18,861 So I guess I'll be seeing you around, Dr. Stevens. 153 00:07:23,240 --> 00:07:24,241 Well, I gotta hand it to the guy, 154 00:07:24,408 --> 00:07:26,452 trying to get some action when he's practically a corpse. 155 00:07:26,535 --> 00:07:27,620 Alex, he was just trying to be nice. 156 00:07:27,703 --> 00:07:30,581 No one enforced an 80-hour work week when I was an intern. 157 00:07:30,790 --> 00:07:35,294 110, 120 hours suited me just fine. I learned more 'cause I worked more. 158 00:07:35,378 --> 00:07:37,546 Well, at least this way, you get to rest before you have the baby. 159 00:07:37,630 --> 00:07:39,507 I mean, being that pregnant, keeping up this pace... 160 00:07:39,632 --> 00:07:41,384 What are you saying, I look tired, O'Malley? 161 00:07:41,467 --> 00:07:43,344 No, not... not tired, no. 162 00:07:43,928 --> 00:07:47,515 You look fresh, spry. You glow. 163 00:07:47,640 --> 00:07:49,684 What... Stop now. 164 00:07:49,850 --> 00:07:52,478 O'Malley, go do an intake on Addison Shepherd's patient. 165 00:07:52,561 --> 00:07:54,397 - [pager beeps] - Addison. 166 00:07:56,732 --> 00:07:58,567 - You do glow. - Like the moon. 167 00:07:59,527 --> 00:08:01,946 And you can spend the day in the pit, Karev. 168 00:08:08,244 --> 00:08:10,705 [indistinct conversations] 169 00:08:12,873 --> 00:08:13,916 Dr. O'Malley. 170 00:08:14,333 --> 00:08:16,210 Hi. Um, Mr. And Mrs. Singleton, 171 00:08:16,293 --> 00:08:18,546 Rebecca, this is Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd. 172 00:08:18,629 --> 00:08:20,047 You don't think it's cancer, do you? 173 00:08:20,297 --> 00:08:22,133 Bex is too young for cancer, right? 174 00:08:22,216 --> 00:08:23,676 Mrs. Singleton, I'm just getting up to speed. 175 00:08:23,801 --> 00:08:26,262 - I'm sorry. Dr. O'Malley? - Rebecca's been admitted for... 176 00:08:26,345 --> 00:08:27,722 Could you stop calling me that? 177 00:08:28,014 --> 00:08:30,391 She prefers Bex, not Rebecca. 178 00:08:31,976 --> 00:08:34,854 Bex has been admitted for an ultrasound guided biopsy 179 00:08:34,979 --> 00:08:37,148 on an enlargement of a pelvic lymph node. 180 00:08:37,440 --> 00:08:39,358 OK. Bex, you mind if I check it out? 181 00:08:39,567 --> 00:08:40,651 OK, I'll just, um... 182 00:08:43,404 --> 00:08:45,156 It's a minor procedure, Bex. 183 00:08:45,239 --> 00:08:47,491 But we'll give you a local anesthetic 184 00:08:47,575 --> 00:08:48,743 to manage the pain. 185 00:08:52,997 --> 00:08:53,873 What are you drawing? 186 00:08:54,540 --> 00:08:55,583 Just a dumb comic. 187 00:08:56,333 --> 00:08:57,376 You're really talented. 188 00:08:59,962 --> 00:09:01,589 It's big, I know. 189 00:09:01,922 --> 00:09:03,215 It just appeared one day. 190 00:09:03,632 --> 00:09:04,884 I'll perform a biopsy this morning, 191 00:09:04,967 --> 00:09:07,344 and Dr. O'Malley will have to take some blood 192 00:09:07,428 --> 00:09:08,429 so he can run some tests. 193 00:09:08,512 --> 00:09:11,307 And then we can start to get you some answers, OK? 194 00:09:12,058 --> 00:09:13,851 Mrs. Singleton, there's no need to panic. 195 00:09:13,934 --> 00:09:15,352 I'll keep you posted every step of the way. 196 00:09:15,561 --> 00:09:16,395 Thank you. 197 00:09:16,479 --> 00:09:17,313 OK. 198 00:09:19,106 --> 00:09:19,940 Sorry about this, 199 00:09:20,024 --> 00:09:21,942 but I'm gonna need that arm to get some blood. 200 00:09:23,486 --> 00:09:24,361 I'll be quick. 201 00:09:37,583 --> 00:09:38,709 Mr. Paskowitz, 202 00:09:38,959 --> 00:09:41,295 we've located the source of your abdominal pain. 203 00:09:42,880 --> 00:09:44,924 There. It's called a Bezoar. 204 00:09:45,800 --> 00:09:46,967 Bezoar, huh? 205 00:09:47,051 --> 00:09:48,177 It's a clump of foreign matter 206 00:09:48,260 --> 00:09:50,137 that couldn't be expelled with a prokinetic agent. 207 00:09:50,262 --> 00:09:54,475 I love it. In a hospital, a laxative is a prokinetic agent. 208 00:09:54,767 --> 00:09:56,560 So what, you just go up his butt and grab it? 209 00:09:56,936 --> 00:09:58,312 Baby, please. 210 00:09:58,395 --> 00:10:00,022 Actually, we won't be able to reach it that way. 211 00:10:00,106 --> 00:10:01,732 We'll have to get it from here. 212 00:10:03,359 --> 00:10:05,861 So, Mauer, tell me what you've been eating. 213 00:10:07,196 --> 00:10:09,740 Garbage. Absolute garbage. 214 00:10:11,033 --> 00:10:12,451 Could you be more specific? 215 00:10:16,831 --> 00:10:18,165 Tell him what you ate, Mauer. 216 00:10:20,501 --> 00:10:21,335 He's a writer, 217 00:10:22,503 --> 00:10:23,796 suffering for his art. 218 00:10:24,255 --> 00:10:25,089 OK. 219 00:10:27,133 --> 00:10:28,425 He ate his novel. 220 00:10:29,135 --> 00:10:30,219 Uh, I'm sorry. What? 221 00:10:30,302 --> 00:10:33,264 I ate my novel, OK? The whole damn thing. 222 00:10:34,473 --> 00:10:37,059 Every last piece of that unmitigated crap. 223 00:11:21,158 --> 00:11:23,202 - The labs for Bex Singleton. - Anything? 224 00:11:23,368 --> 00:11:25,871 Yeah, her hormone levels... estrogen, progesterone... 225 00:11:25,954 --> 00:11:26,955 are sky high. 226 00:11:27,039 --> 00:11:30,167 Huh, that's... you did a history, right? Any mention of birth control pills? 227 00:11:30,334 --> 00:11:32,085 No, but her parents were right there. 228 00:11:32,544 --> 00:11:33,629 Talk to her again. 229 00:11:33,962 --> 00:11:36,423 She hasn't hit puberty yet. Isn't it weird she'd be having sex? 230 00:11:36,507 --> 00:11:38,759 These days, Dr. O'Malley, it's not that unusual. 231 00:11:38,842 --> 00:11:39,927 Talk to the patient. 232 00:11:41,762 --> 00:11:43,305 - Derek. - Hi, morning, Richard. 233 00:11:44,515 --> 00:11:47,351 - You busy? - No. My surgery just got canceled. Why? 234 00:11:47,643 --> 00:11:48,519 I need a favor. 235 00:11:49,311 --> 00:11:50,145 Sure. 236 00:11:53,857 --> 00:11:54,942 Hey, Bex. 237 00:11:56,360 --> 00:11:57,528 Your mom and dad... 238 00:11:58,111 --> 00:11:59,905 - Food. - [George] Great. 239 00:12:02,783 --> 00:12:07,329 'Cause I wanted to talk to you. Your lab, uh, work show... 240 00:12:09,915 --> 00:12:11,750 Have you been taking birth control pills? 241 00:12:14,169 --> 00:12:16,380 - If you tell my mom and dad, they... - No, I won't. 242 00:12:16,463 --> 00:12:18,549 I just, uh, need to know why. 243 00:12:19,925 --> 00:12:21,677 Do you have a boyfriend or... 244 00:12:21,760 --> 00:12:24,012 Like anybody would want to have sex with me. 245 00:12:25,013 --> 00:12:26,306 Well, then why? 246 00:12:28,850 --> 00:12:30,143 I'm as flat as a board. 247 00:12:30,227 --> 00:12:32,312 I took, like, five of those pills a day, 248 00:12:32,396 --> 00:12:33,981 and nothing's different. 249 00:12:36,817 --> 00:12:37,734 Boobs, dude. 250 00:12:38,485 --> 00:12:39,319 You... 251 00:12:39,570 --> 00:12:41,280 Were trying to make your breasts grow? 252 00:12:41,905 --> 00:12:44,283 I wanted to be normal for once in my life. 253 00:12:45,450 --> 00:12:47,661 - Is this what caused the tumor? - No, no. 254 00:12:47,744 --> 00:12:49,913 The pill wouldn't have any effect on your lymph nodes, 255 00:12:49,997 --> 00:12:53,333 but the amount that you were taking is really dangerous, 256 00:12:53,500 --> 00:12:56,169 and it caused a pretty major hormonal imbalance. 257 00:12:57,713 --> 00:12:59,214 Have you been feeling different than usual? 258 00:12:59,548 --> 00:13:01,425 I feel like I always feel. 259 00:13:04,720 --> 00:13:06,138 [bell dings] 260 00:13:08,432 --> 00:13:09,266 Hi. 261 00:13:09,641 --> 00:13:10,475 Hi. 262 00:13:11,935 --> 00:13:12,769 You're leaving? 263 00:13:13,145 --> 00:13:15,689 80-hour limit. You? 264 00:13:16,231 --> 00:13:17,733 Surgery was postponed. 265 00:13:22,738 --> 00:13:24,573 - I have a dog. - You have a dog. 266 00:13:24,948 --> 00:13:27,743 - My point is, I have a dog. - You have a dog. 267 00:13:27,868 --> 00:13:29,703 Oh, you know what? I love dogs. 268 00:13:29,828 --> 00:13:31,872 I've moved on, so don't give me that look. 269 00:13:33,874 --> 00:13:34,708 What look? 270 00:13:35,250 --> 00:13:39,463 - That look. Our look. I'm over you. - I'm over you, too. 271 00:13:39,838 --> 00:13:40,672 You are? 272 00:13:40,839 --> 00:13:42,174 - No. - Oh. 273 00:13:42,716 --> 00:13:44,134 Well, I am. 274 00:13:45,552 --> 00:13:46,553 Over you. 275 00:13:47,346 --> 00:13:48,388 I'm over you, too. 276 00:13:48,639 --> 00:13:49,723 You just said... 277 00:13:50,557 --> 00:13:51,516 Oh, shut up. 278 00:13:51,767 --> 00:13:52,643 [bell dings] 279 00:13:57,356 --> 00:13:59,232 - Hi. - Bye. 280 00:14:12,663 --> 00:14:16,750 There is a land called passive aggressiva, and you are their queen. 281 00:14:17,042 --> 00:14:18,085 I am fine. 282 00:14:18,251 --> 00:14:21,129 - Except when you're shrieking about trout. - I was not shrieking about trout. 283 00:14:21,254 --> 00:14:22,881 Right, you weren't. You were shrieking about Meredith. 284 00:14:22,965 --> 00:14:25,092 No, I was shrieking about the trailer. I hate the trailer. 285 00:14:25,258 --> 00:14:27,052 OK, so the past three weeks have been about the trailer. 286 00:14:27,135 --> 00:14:27,970 Yes. 287 00:14:28,053 --> 00:14:29,054 Not about the fact that I said I love Meredith. 288 00:14:29,137 --> 00:14:29,972 Loved. 289 00:14:30,263 --> 00:14:31,723 - What? - You said you loved her, past tense. 290 00:14:32,057 --> 00:14:33,517 Right, yes. Past tense. 291 00:14:33,600 --> 00:14:35,602 Well, then I have been shrieking about the trailer. 292 00:14:36,353 --> 00:14:37,229 [bell dings] 293 00:14:38,480 --> 00:14:39,439 [sighs] 294 00:14:43,819 --> 00:14:46,071 OK, Mauer, it's time to return your book to the library. 295 00:14:46,279 --> 00:14:47,406 Surgery's in an hour. 296 00:14:47,489 --> 00:14:48,865 What's up with this flop sweat? 297 00:14:48,949 --> 00:14:51,868 - Probably just nerves. - But I'm sweating like... like Nixon, 298 00:14:51,952 --> 00:14:53,328 President Richard Milhous Nixon. 299 00:14:53,578 --> 00:14:56,415 That guy could sweat. And I, Mauer Paskowitz, 300 00:14:56,540 --> 00:14:57,874 I wrote an epically crap novel, 301 00:14:57,958 --> 00:14:59,668 but I sure as shinola can sweat like Nixon. 302 00:14:59,751 --> 00:15:02,921 Come on. It's not even that bad of a book. I read practically every draft. 303 00:15:03,005 --> 00:15:05,215 Forgive me, honey, but you are not exactly Lionel Trilling. 304 00:15:05,424 --> 00:15:07,092 - It blows. - Lionel Trilling? 305 00:15:07,175 --> 00:15:09,219 He seeks the approval of dead literary critics. 306 00:15:09,553 --> 00:15:10,804 The dead don't read, Mauer. 307 00:15:10,887 --> 00:15:12,514 You ever think about being something other than a writer? 308 00:15:12,597 --> 00:15:17,436 No. I am a writer. Mauer Paskowitz. I have no Plan B. 309 00:15:17,519 --> 00:15:20,272 We can't get married for three years, till the damn book is done. 310 00:15:20,564 --> 00:15:22,691 Three years, I listen to him piss and moan. 311 00:15:22,816 --> 00:15:25,277 - For what, so he can eat the thing? - Ha. 312 00:15:25,736 --> 00:15:27,654 Your computer have a "delete" button? 313 00:15:27,821 --> 00:15:31,241 I wanted to literally put it behind me and start a new book. 314 00:15:31,324 --> 00:15:33,994 OK. We all get the symbolism. It's painfully obvious. 315 00:15:34,077 --> 00:15:36,455 - And obviously painful. - [chuckles] 316 00:15:39,666 --> 00:15:41,001 [clerk] all set, doc. 317 00:15:44,463 --> 00:15:45,881 [whispers] Hey. Uh, hi. 318 00:15:45,964 --> 00:15:48,216 [normal voice] Um, I heard you're going to twin falls, Idaho. 319 00:15:48,300 --> 00:15:49,468 I've never been. 320 00:15:49,968 --> 00:15:51,261 You reached 80 hours? 321 00:15:51,470 --> 00:15:52,471 Technically. 322 00:15:53,513 --> 00:15:56,475 You're off work, Cristina. Go enjoy your day. 323 00:15:56,641 --> 00:15:59,061 I'll enjoy my day if I can help retrieve a heart. 324 00:15:59,144 --> 00:15:59,978 I promise. 325 00:16:02,314 --> 00:16:03,523 It's a nice coat. 326 00:16:04,566 --> 00:16:05,859 See that, Dr. O'Malley? 327 00:16:05,942 --> 00:16:07,861 It looks like the tumor is compressing an ovary. 328 00:16:08,028 --> 00:16:11,323 Yeah, that's why I biopsied both ovaries. 329 00:16:12,449 --> 00:16:13,283 Is that bad? 330 00:16:13,366 --> 00:16:14,993 It's really just a precaution, Bex. 331 00:16:15,077 --> 00:16:17,079 - Want to apply pressure, Dr. O'Malley? - Mm-hmm. 332 00:16:19,581 --> 00:16:20,916 I'm gonna get this up to path. 333 00:16:20,999 --> 00:16:22,918 - You mind doing the dressings? - [George] Sure. 334 00:16:23,335 --> 00:16:27,464 All right, Bex, we'll get you the results just as soon as possible. 335 00:16:37,599 --> 00:16:38,642 You're a doctor. 336 00:16:39,101 --> 00:16:40,936 Haven't you seen scars before? 337 00:16:41,686 --> 00:16:44,648 I was just trying to figure out why someone with so much talent 338 00:16:44,731 --> 00:16:45,649 would want to do that. 339 00:16:47,609 --> 00:16:48,777 It's just a comic book. 340 00:16:51,488 --> 00:16:54,116 It's about me and my best friend Jenn when we were kids. 341 00:16:54,658 --> 00:16:55,492 Satisfied? 342 00:16:55,659 --> 00:16:58,829 - Does she write it with you? - Jenn has a boyfriend, like everyone else. 343 00:16:59,121 --> 00:17:01,957 - I get to be a freak all by myself. - Oh, a freak? 344 00:17:03,500 --> 00:17:05,544 That's not the easiest thing to be in high school, is it? 345 00:17:06,044 --> 00:17:07,212 You sound like my shrink. 346 00:17:08,505 --> 00:17:10,090 Hey, I wasn't always a doctor. 347 00:17:10,549 --> 00:17:11,508 In high school... 348 00:17:13,051 --> 00:17:19,641 I was secretary and treasurer of... the dungeons and dragons club. 349 00:17:20,642 --> 00:17:21,476 Oh, man. 350 00:17:21,560 --> 00:17:25,897 Yeah. I was also a Mathlete. And I won the blue ribbon in biology club. 351 00:17:27,107 --> 00:17:28,733 Best fetal pig dissection. 352 00:17:28,942 --> 00:17:31,862 Ah, let me tell you, that had the girls knocking down my door. 353 00:17:35,365 --> 00:17:37,284 You just have to get through high school. 354 00:17:38,118 --> 00:17:40,912 'Cause high school sucks for anyone who's the least bit different. 355 00:17:41,830 --> 00:17:44,791 But then there's college, and then out in the real world, 356 00:17:45,333 --> 00:17:46,626 you'll find where you fit in. 357 00:17:49,379 --> 00:17:50,755 - You think so? - [George] Yeah, I know so. 358 00:18:02,934 --> 00:18:03,810 Hi. 359 00:18:04,102 --> 00:18:06,021 Denny. [chuckles] I thought you were asleep. 360 00:18:06,104 --> 00:18:09,566 Na. I don't sleep in hospitals. Scared I'll never wake up. 361 00:18:14,988 --> 00:18:16,448 Can I ask you something personal? 362 00:18:16,948 --> 00:18:17,782 If I say no? 363 00:18:18,742 --> 00:18:20,118 I'll hold my breath, 364 00:18:20,327 --> 00:18:22,245 which will stop my heart, killing me. 365 00:18:22,871 --> 00:18:24,956 And you're right here, you'll be charged with murder. 366 00:18:25,207 --> 00:18:28,418 A lifetime in prison being loved by a big old girl named Hilde. 367 00:18:28,668 --> 00:18:30,795 So my choices are homicide charges 368 00:18:30,879 --> 00:18:33,340 or inappropriate personal questions from a patient? 369 00:18:33,465 --> 00:18:34,799 I know, it kinda sucks. 370 00:18:35,050 --> 00:18:36,259 You know what? Hold your breath. 371 00:18:36,343 --> 00:18:38,637 I'll take my chances with Hilde. I can do girl on girl. 372 00:18:38,762 --> 00:18:40,805 Oh, see, you're bringing up girl on girl. 373 00:18:40,889 --> 00:18:43,391 How can I blackmail you if you bring up girl on girl? 374 00:18:43,475 --> 00:18:44,726 What do you want to know? 375 00:18:46,019 --> 00:18:48,396 That guy Alex, you with him? 376 00:18:49,022 --> 00:18:52,317 No, not anymore, and never, ever again. 377 00:18:52,776 --> 00:18:54,527 - Good. - Good? 378 00:18:54,611 --> 00:18:55,820 [Denny] Yeah, good. 379 00:18:55,946 --> 00:18:57,739 It means I won't have to fight him for you. 380 00:18:58,365 --> 00:19:00,742 What makes you think I want you to fight him for me? 381 00:19:00,825 --> 00:19:03,453 Hello. You are in love with me. 382 00:19:03,536 --> 00:19:05,997 - Am I? - Yeah. It's not your fault. 383 00:19:06,831 --> 00:19:08,750 I mean, I'm well-off, but I'm not into money, 384 00:19:08,875 --> 00:19:10,669 I'm smart, but I'm not a know-it-all, 385 00:19:10,794 --> 00:19:13,129 I'm funny, I'm... I'm really nice, 386 00:19:13,380 --> 00:19:14,339 I love animals, 387 00:19:15,423 --> 00:19:17,550 and I'm hot. I'm a catch, 388 00:19:17,968 --> 00:19:19,386 You know, if you can wrap your head around 389 00:19:19,469 --> 00:19:22,722 the enlarged, failing heart and the dependency to IV meds. 390 00:19:25,558 --> 00:19:29,646 [sighs] You're right. I am so in love with you. 391 00:19:29,854 --> 00:19:32,983 It's a shame, really, since I'm with Hilde and all. 392 00:19:33,066 --> 00:19:36,069 [laughs] 393 00:19:37,279 --> 00:19:38,196 There... 394 00:19:38,405 --> 00:19:40,907 Five loads of laundry. 395 00:19:41,825 --> 00:19:44,911 I have literally washed the past out of my life. 396 00:19:47,914 --> 00:19:50,500 [indistinct intercom announcement] 397 00:19:51,084 --> 00:19:52,877 - You paged me? - [Addison] Yeah. 398 00:19:53,503 --> 00:19:54,754 Have a look at this. 399 00:19:55,213 --> 00:19:56,506 It's Bex's biopsy. 400 00:19:56,965 --> 00:19:59,301 - Biopsied ovary? - Not exactly. 401 00:19:59,801 --> 00:20:01,845 Arrange a meeting with Bex' parents, George. 402 00:20:01,928 --> 00:20:03,847 Oh, and find out who the on call psychiatrist is, 403 00:20:03,930 --> 00:20:06,016 - if they're available to join us. - Does she have cancer? 404 00:20:06,266 --> 00:20:08,268 No. It's not an ovary, it's a testis. 405 00:20:09,019 --> 00:20:09,853 A testis? 406 00:20:11,187 --> 00:20:12,147 Are you sure? 407 00:20:12,856 --> 00:20:14,316 Yes, I'm sure. 408 00:20:16,901 --> 00:20:18,320 Bex is a hermaphrodite? 409 00:20:19,112 --> 00:20:19,946 Yes. 410 00:20:48,846 --> 00:20:49,680 Yang... 411 00:20:50,597 --> 00:20:53,934 Why are you staring at my fat, pregnant belly? 412 00:20:54,059 --> 00:20:55,018 Sorry. I... 413 00:20:57,354 --> 00:20:58,188 [Mr. Singleton] Let me get this straight. 414 00:20:58,272 --> 00:21:01,233 You're telling me that our daughter... my daughter... 415 00:21:01,316 --> 00:21:04,570 You're telling me my daughter might actually be a boy? 416 00:21:04,778 --> 00:21:06,822 That... how is that possible? 417 00:21:07,114 --> 00:21:09,199 I don't understand. I don't understand how that... 418 00:21:09,283 --> 00:21:11,243 Sh-shouldn't this have been detected somehow? 419 00:21:11,326 --> 00:21:13,745 Externally, Bex has female genitalia. 420 00:21:13,829 --> 00:21:15,205 She looks like a girl. 421 00:21:15,330 --> 00:21:20,294 But internally, she has both female and male sex organs. 422 00:21:20,377 --> 00:21:22,921 So what now? What are we supposed to do? 423 00:21:23,630 --> 00:21:24,673 I don't understand... 424 00:21:24,756 --> 00:21:28,427 [Addison] OK, the best news is that the lymph node tumor is benign. 425 00:21:28,552 --> 00:21:30,762 So physically, Bex is going to be just fine, 426 00:21:30,846 --> 00:21:35,684 but emotionally, psychologically, I strongly recommend therapy. 427 00:21:35,893 --> 00:21:38,395 - [Mr. Singleton] She's already in therapy. - I'm talking about therapy for all of you. 428 00:21:38,520 --> 00:21:40,814 This is not gonna be easy for Bex to hear, 429 00:21:40,898 --> 00:21:43,942 and it's not gonna be an easy adjustment for you to make. 430 00:21:44,026 --> 00:21:44,860 Oh, my God. 431 00:21:44,943 --> 00:21:46,320 A big adjustment, what kind of adjustment? 432 00:21:46,528 --> 00:21:47,654 Many inter-sexed people 433 00:21:47,738 --> 00:21:50,490 begin to identify very strongly with one sex, 434 00:21:51,199 --> 00:21:53,285 and it's not necessarily the sex they've been raised. 435 00:21:53,493 --> 00:21:55,203 She's a girl. 436 00:21:55,454 --> 00:21:57,789 She looks like a girl. She has always been a girl. 437 00:21:57,873 --> 00:22:00,959 This at least helps explain why she feels so different. 438 00:22:03,253 --> 00:22:05,881 The point is, biologically and emotionally speaking, 439 00:22:06,506 --> 00:22:07,633 she has a choice to make. 440 00:22:07,841 --> 00:22:08,842 A choice? 441 00:22:12,012 --> 00:22:14,014 My mouth feels all weird. 442 00:22:14,306 --> 00:22:16,308 Chewing paper will have that effect, lover. 443 00:22:16,433 --> 00:22:17,267 Weird how? 444 00:22:17,351 --> 00:22:21,939 Pins and needles. No, needles and pins. Needles and pins... yeah, yeah... 445 00:22:22,022 --> 00:22:25,484 Sprouting from my fingers and toes like... like... like... 446 00:22:26,234 --> 00:22:28,111 Lord, God, give me a simile. 447 00:22:28,195 --> 00:22:29,446 Is he always this way? 448 00:22:29,529 --> 00:22:31,823 The man ate a novel. He's not exactly normal. 449 00:22:31,948 --> 00:22:34,868 But he got weirder, the more he ate. He's, like, obsessed. 450 00:22:36,119 --> 00:22:37,788 Mr. Paskowitz, I'm Dr. Webber. 451 00:22:37,871 --> 00:22:39,873 I'm gonna be performing your surgery today. 452 00:22:39,956 --> 00:22:42,709 I poured my heart and soul into that freakin' book, 453 00:22:43,001 --> 00:22:44,670 and now it's stuck up my ass. 454 00:22:45,295 --> 00:22:48,882 Put that on my tombstone, Audrey. On my tombstone! 455 00:22:57,015 --> 00:23:00,394 - [Denny] Hey, Dr. Stevens. - Hey, Denny. You OK? 456 00:23:00,686 --> 00:23:02,521 I've been waiting for this a long time, you know? 457 00:23:03,355 --> 00:23:06,483 You open up my chest, take out my heart, and replace it with another one. 458 00:23:07,192 --> 00:23:10,987 Well, not me, and not another heart, a better heart. 459 00:23:12,155 --> 00:23:12,989 [sighs] 460 00:23:13,073 --> 00:23:14,616 What if something goes wrong? 461 00:23:17,452 --> 00:23:18,328 Don't be nervous. 462 00:23:18,578 --> 00:23:22,082 Dr. Burke is an incredible surgeon. And you're getting a new heart today. 463 00:23:22,165 --> 00:23:23,291 Just keep thinking about that. 464 00:23:23,709 --> 00:23:25,460 OK, OK. 465 00:23:25,794 --> 00:23:26,837 Denny. 466 00:23:26,920 --> 00:23:29,840 Preston Burke... my favorite cardiothoracic surgeon. 467 00:23:30,173 --> 00:23:32,551 You're only cardiothoracic surgeon, but thanks. 468 00:23:33,260 --> 00:23:36,596 I'll be on the phone with Dr. Bailey as the organ recovery progresses. 469 00:23:36,847 --> 00:23:39,099 We'll make sure that the heart stays viable, 470 00:23:39,474 --> 00:23:41,685 isn't damaged as the other organs are perfused. 471 00:23:42,144 --> 00:23:44,438 We'll have you in the O.R., and if it is a go, 472 00:23:45,063 --> 00:23:47,023 we start the procedure before she even gets back. 473 00:23:48,483 --> 00:23:50,068 - Hey, Izzie. - Yeah. 474 00:23:51,528 --> 00:23:52,821 I'm gettin' a new heart. 475 00:23:54,364 --> 00:23:55,574 You're getting a new heart. 476 00:24:00,620 --> 00:24:01,455 I'll see you. 477 00:24:01,538 --> 00:24:02,372 Bye. 478 00:24:06,126 --> 00:24:08,003 [Mr. Singleton] Um, excuse me. 479 00:24:08,420 --> 00:24:14,009 Um, Mary and I were talking, and, uh, we think Bex should stay... 480 00:24:14,092 --> 00:24:15,969 She can't handle something like this. 481 00:24:16,303 --> 00:24:17,304 You saw the scars. 482 00:24:17,387 --> 00:24:18,221 Wait, you're not gonna tell her? 483 00:24:19,139 --> 00:24:20,140 But this could help her. 484 00:24:20,223 --> 00:24:22,100 - You can't not tell her who she is. - Dr. O'Malley. 485 00:24:22,267 --> 00:24:23,935 Uh, we'll go ahead and proceed 486 00:24:24,019 --> 00:24:25,854 with the scheduled surgery to remove the tumor, 487 00:24:25,937 --> 00:24:28,398 and then you can talk to your daughter in your own time. 488 00:24:28,482 --> 00:24:30,484 Actually, we're thinking... 489 00:24:30,567 --> 00:24:33,612 We thought, since you're already gonna be in there, uh... 490 00:24:35,113 --> 00:24:37,115 We know "fixed" isn't the right word, but... 491 00:24:37,365 --> 00:24:39,743 We were thinking that with the hormonal confusion, 492 00:24:39,826 --> 00:24:44,456 it might be easier on her to remove whatever boy parts she has. 493 00:24:44,623 --> 00:24:45,665 Keep her more of a girl. 494 00:24:45,749 --> 00:24:47,542 Just to be clear, you're asking me to perform 495 00:24:47,626 --> 00:24:49,377 sexual reassignment surgery on your daughter? 496 00:24:49,461 --> 00:24:51,338 - [both] Yes. - Without her knowing? 497 00:24:51,755 --> 00:24:53,298 [Mr. Singleton] All she's said all her life 498 00:24:53,381 --> 00:24:55,133 is that she wants to be normal. 499 00:24:55,592 --> 00:24:56,968 She doesn't feel normal. 500 00:24:57,052 --> 00:24:58,970 Why can't we just put an end to her agony? 501 00:24:59,095 --> 00:25:01,348 Well, first of all, removing her male sexual organs 502 00:25:01,431 --> 00:25:03,683 may not do that. In fact, it could do just the opposite. 503 00:25:03,934 --> 00:25:04,976 [Mrs. Singleton] But her hormones... 504 00:25:05,060 --> 00:25:06,728 Can be controlled with an oral medication. 505 00:25:06,812 --> 00:25:08,814 We just want the best for Bex. 506 00:25:08,897 --> 00:25:11,942 To do surgery and alter her body permanently is... 507 00:25:12,192 --> 00:25:13,819 Well, I just would never do that on someone 508 00:25:13,902 --> 00:25:15,070 who's unaware of the procedure, 509 00:25:15,153 --> 00:25:17,656 and you're gonna be hard pressed to find a surgeon who will. 510 00:25:21,326 --> 00:25:23,620 Bex will learn the truth... someday. 511 00:25:24,830 --> 00:25:26,248 How do you want her to find out? 512 00:25:29,209 --> 00:25:30,043 Excuse me. 513 00:25:37,133 --> 00:25:38,677 Meredith. Hi. 514 00:25:39,469 --> 00:25:40,762 Hi. I had the morning off, 515 00:25:40,846 --> 00:25:42,430 so I thought I would come and see how my mother's doing. 516 00:25:42,556 --> 00:25:43,849 Oh, she's fine. She's in the sitting room. 517 00:25:44,099 --> 00:25:44,933 Thanks. 518 00:25:45,016 --> 00:25:47,352 She's in good spirits. Visitors really cheer her up. 519 00:25:48,228 --> 00:25:49,229 [quietly] Visitors? 520 00:26:06,209 --> 00:26:07,835 [Meredith] What are you doing here? 521 00:26:08,169 --> 00:26:10,546 There is a clinical trial to study the progression 522 00:26:10,630 --> 00:26:11,631 of early-onset Alzheimer's. 523 00:26:11,714 --> 00:26:16,010 OK, me, you can screw with. My mother? No, not acceptable. 524 00:26:16,094 --> 00:26:17,637 Look, there's been some really promising results 525 00:26:17,720 --> 00:26:19,722 from similar studies in Europe. Your mother is a prime candidate. 526 00:26:19,972 --> 00:26:23,017 My mother is very sick and has very few good days. 527 00:26:23,309 --> 00:26:24,727 And I don't want her being poked and prodded 528 00:26:24,811 --> 00:26:26,938 - for some experimental program. - I'm just trying to help. 529 00:26:27,313 --> 00:26:29,482 Well, see, this, what you're doing, being dreamy, 530 00:26:29,899 --> 00:26:33,653 it doesn't help. It hurts me. It messes with my head. 531 00:26:33,736 --> 00:26:35,530 - I know the feeling. - [Meredith] I don't doubt that. 532 00:26:35,863 --> 00:26:37,990 But you have a wife to go home to. 533 00:26:38,199 --> 00:26:40,868 And I'm guessing she has no idea where you are right now. 534 00:26:40,952 --> 00:26:43,246 Yeah. No, she doesn't. 535 00:26:43,871 --> 00:26:45,039 That's what I thought. 536 00:26:53,673 --> 00:26:54,632 [nurse] Dr. Bailey 537 00:26:54,757 --> 00:26:56,801 Thanks. Dr. Burke. 538 00:26:56,926 --> 00:26:58,553 Talk to me, Bailey. What are we looking at? 539 00:26:59,011 --> 00:27:02,348 The, uh, the donor is on 25 mics of dopamine. 540 00:27:02,432 --> 00:27:04,058 25 mics? That's too much. 541 00:27:04,142 --> 00:27:06,561 They've started him on 5 mics of dobutamine 542 00:27:06,644 --> 00:27:08,104 Thirty minutes prior to arrival. 543 00:27:08,187 --> 00:27:09,313 Are they trying to kill my heart? 544 00:27:09,397 --> 00:27:11,941 - What is his central venous pressure now? - C.V.P., Doctor? 545 00:27:12,066 --> 00:27:13,776 - Back around 10. - Around 10. 546 00:27:13,860 --> 00:27:14,694 Map close to 80. 547 00:27:14,777 --> 00:27:16,404 - And his mean arterial pressure? - Close to 80. 548 00:27:16,487 --> 00:27:19,407 I can live with a C.V.P. As low as 5, a map about 60. 549 00:27:19,699 --> 00:27:23,828 - That heart needs to be off dobutamine. - The heart needs to be off dobutamine. 550 00:27:23,911 --> 00:27:26,956 And tell them to get the dopamine back down to 10 mics 551 00:27:27,039 --> 00:27:28,833 and get them to get another 2 units of blood. 552 00:27:31,794 --> 00:27:32,795 We a go, Doc? 553 00:27:32,920 --> 00:27:34,464 Still no final word. 554 00:27:34,881 --> 00:27:37,049 I want you to have the healthiest heart I can find. 555 00:27:37,175 --> 00:27:39,761 Dr. Stevens, you'll be in there with us, right? 556 00:27:42,805 --> 00:27:44,265 Yeah, I'll be in there with you. 557 00:27:47,101 --> 00:27:49,937 [Richard] All right, people. We're going to be removing... 558 00:27:50,062 --> 00:27:51,981 Hey, aren't you supposed to be having free time? 559 00:27:52,148 --> 00:27:53,983 Oh, I did five loads of laundry, 560 00:27:54,066 --> 00:27:56,986 cut my split ends, studied, cleaned out the fridge. 561 00:27:57,153 --> 00:27:58,362 Free time sucks. 562 00:28:00,323 --> 00:28:03,201 When would have been the right time to hear about your boyfriend's wife? 563 00:28:05,286 --> 00:28:06,954 OK, are you mad at me or something? 564 00:28:07,038 --> 00:28:11,250 No. No. Sorry. It's just, I have this patient, 565 00:28:11,459 --> 00:28:14,337 and I get that there's a right and a wrong time to hear big news, 566 00:28:14,420 --> 00:28:15,797 but wouldn't you rather know sooner than later? 567 00:28:16,005 --> 00:28:18,925 I mean, so you can move forward one way or the other. 568 00:28:19,091 --> 00:28:20,343 I mean, it's a fresh start, right? 569 00:28:22,261 --> 00:28:24,096 [Richard] See the white line of toldt? 570 00:28:24,180 --> 00:28:26,933 Now we can mobilize the lateral border of the left colon. 571 00:28:27,016 --> 00:28:27,934 Clamp. 572 00:28:28,226 --> 00:28:29,811 When Leo Tolstoy here wakes up, 573 00:28:30,019 --> 00:28:32,980 you might get him to revisit the idea of a new vocation. 574 00:28:33,356 --> 00:28:34,649 [Alex] He's pretty against the idea. 575 00:28:34,732 --> 00:28:36,317 [Richard] Yeah, well, hopefully, it was just delirium. 576 00:28:37,235 --> 00:28:40,154 [Alex] If it's all right, I'd like to keep an extra eye on him post-op. 577 00:28:40,238 --> 00:28:41,531 [Alex] He's acting pretty strange. 578 00:28:41,781 --> 00:28:43,699 [Richard] He ate a novel. Clearly, he's pretty strange. 579 00:28:44,033 --> 00:28:45,201 [Alex] Yeah, you know, it's just, 580 00:28:45,409 --> 00:28:47,954 - I don't want to overlook anything. - Seriously, Karev, 581 00:28:48,037 --> 00:28:49,705 I'm short-handed all over the hospital. 582 00:28:50,456 --> 00:28:52,166 [Richard] OK, here we go. 583 00:28:56,295 --> 00:28:58,548 Anybody here tempted to read this? 584 00:29:00,341 --> 00:29:01,342 No takers? 585 00:29:02,135 --> 00:29:03,636 Could be the great American novel. 586 00:29:03,803 --> 00:29:04,637 We'll never know. 587 00:29:05,888 --> 00:29:07,181 He needs a Plan B. 588 00:29:07,974 --> 00:29:09,475 [Alex] He may not be the only one. 589 00:29:10,143 --> 00:29:11,310 [Richard] You don't think you passed? 590 00:29:11,561 --> 00:29:13,813 [Alex] I thought I passed the first time. 591 00:29:14,021 --> 00:29:15,189 [Richard] Well, let's wait and see. 592 00:29:16,232 --> 00:29:18,359 Right now, today, you're still here. 593 00:29:22,613 --> 00:29:24,532 Did you tell my parents about the pill? 594 00:29:24,699 --> 00:29:25,658 No. 595 00:29:27,118 --> 00:29:28,161 Am I gonna die? 596 00:29:28,786 --> 00:29:30,997 - Is that what no one wants to tell me? - Of course not. 597 00:29:31,080 --> 00:29:33,082 Then why are my parents acting so... 598 00:29:34,709 --> 00:29:36,419 Will you just tell me what's going on? 599 00:29:36,586 --> 00:29:38,462 What's going on is, uh, we're prepping you for surgery 600 00:29:38,546 --> 00:29:42,133 to remove the lymph node tumor that's compressing your... 601 00:29:43,217 --> 00:29:44,093 Ovary. 602 00:29:48,347 --> 00:29:50,808 Hey, Bex. How you doin'? 603 00:29:51,058 --> 00:29:52,977 Mom, dad, this is really freaking me out. 604 00:29:53,603 --> 00:29:55,730 Oh, no, everything's gonna be fine, Bex. 605 00:29:55,813 --> 00:29:56,731 It's OK, sweetie. 606 00:29:57,190 --> 00:30:00,943 I'm having surgery to remove a tumor that's compressing my ovary, 607 00:30:01,444 --> 00:30:02,570 Right, George? 608 00:30:04,739 --> 00:30:05,948 Dr. O'Malley. 609 00:30:09,076 --> 00:30:09,994 George? 610 00:30:12,914 --> 00:30:14,123 What, am I just supposed to lie to her? 611 00:30:14,749 --> 00:30:18,211 OK. That's enough. Dr. O'Malley, please leave the room. 612 00:30:18,794 --> 00:30:21,422 No, wait. Tell me what's wrong with me. 613 00:30:22,131 --> 00:30:23,549 What is wrong with me? 614 00:30:28,888 --> 00:30:32,350 Bex... We learned 615 00:30:32,475 --> 00:30:36,062 that your tumor, it's not compressing an ovary. 616 00:30:37,271 --> 00:30:38,481 Then where is it? 617 00:30:39,941 --> 00:30:42,652 It's on a testes. 618 00:30:43,819 --> 00:30:45,029 Like a testicle? 619 00:30:47,740 --> 00:30:48,991 I have testicles? 620 00:30:49,700 --> 00:30:50,660 [Addison] Yes, one. 621 00:30:50,743 --> 00:30:53,496 Bex, this is a tremendous amount of information for you... 622 00:30:53,579 --> 00:30:54,997 And I've had it my whole life. 623 00:30:58,501 --> 00:30:59,335 Oh, my God. 624 00:31:01,420 --> 00:31:02,380 Does this mean... 625 00:31:03,589 --> 00:31:05,383 does this mean I could be a boy? 626 00:31:14,684 --> 00:31:15,726 [quietly] Yes... 627 00:31:22,918 --> 00:31:24,544 You engineered that conversation. 628 00:31:24,628 --> 00:31:26,296 - You forced our hand. - Well, you were lying to her. 629 00:31:26,379 --> 00:31:28,632 - We were protecting her. - She's a 14-year-old girl. 630 00:31:28,757 --> 00:31:30,217 Maybe. Maybe not. 631 00:31:32,260 --> 00:31:35,347 This isn't your life. This isn't your child. 632 00:31:35,889 --> 00:31:39,059 14 years... 14 years, we have raised a daughter, 633 00:31:39,142 --> 00:31:41,520 and in one afternoon, you expect us to... what? 634 00:31:41,728 --> 00:31:42,979 What is Bex supposed to do? 635 00:31:43,063 --> 00:31:45,774 How is she supposed to go home and tell the other kids... what? 636 00:31:46,191 --> 00:31:48,860 - You had no right. - No, I know. I'm off the case, right? 637 00:31:54,032 --> 00:31:56,868 Mauer, Mauer lay back. 638 00:31:57,827 --> 00:31:58,787 You just had surgery. 639 00:31:58,954 --> 00:32:00,330 You're losing your shirt, man. 640 00:32:00,413 --> 00:32:02,499 Much obliged, Brock... Brock... 641 00:32:02,749 --> 00:32:03,708 Much obliged, pal. 642 00:32:04,042 --> 00:32:05,460 - How are you feeling, Mauer? - [Mauer] Much obliged. 643 00:32:05,544 --> 00:32:07,796 What's whacked for $20, Alex? 644 00:32:08,004 --> 00:32:09,381 Weeds whacked. Weeds. 645 00:32:09,673 --> 00:32:11,383 Weeds whacked for $200. 646 00:32:12,175 --> 00:32:14,970 W- way... way whacked. Wh... 647 00:32:15,303 --> 00:32:16,846 - [Derek] I saw Ellis. - [Richard] And? 648 00:32:16,930 --> 00:32:18,848 I think I can get her into the clinical trial. 649 00:32:18,932 --> 00:32:22,435 - She's a perfect candidate. - Excellent. Thank you, Derek. 650 00:32:23,061 --> 00:32:25,063 You realize this requires Meredith's power of attorney. 651 00:32:25,272 --> 00:32:26,106 Yeah. 652 00:32:26,648 --> 00:32:28,275 It might be better if it's coming from you. 653 00:32:28,358 --> 00:32:29,901 With me, there's baggage. 654 00:32:30,360 --> 00:32:32,070 You, you're just trying to help out a friend. 655 00:32:33,405 --> 00:32:35,407 Right. Right. 656 00:32:35,699 --> 00:32:36,533 All right. 657 00:32:36,616 --> 00:32:38,159 Well, let me know if Meredith wants me to make the call. 658 00:32:42,289 --> 00:32:45,041 Karev... what are you doing? 659 00:32:45,417 --> 00:32:47,002 Research on the bezoar patient. 660 00:32:47,502 --> 00:32:48,920 I told you I needed you on the floor. 661 00:32:49,045 --> 00:32:51,506 He has fever, sweats, tingling in his lips, fingers and toes, 662 00:32:51,590 --> 00:32:54,384 mood swings and lack of coordination. And did I mention the crazy talk? 663 00:32:55,468 --> 00:32:56,303 Your point? 664 00:32:56,428 --> 00:32:57,929 Well, my point is, he ate his novel. 665 00:32:58,013 --> 00:32:58,847 I know. 666 00:32:58,930 --> 00:33:01,016 Mercury's in the paper. He's got mercury poisoning. 667 00:33:06,104 --> 00:33:07,397 Cristina, call Burke. 668 00:33:07,856 --> 00:33:11,776 I'm feeling some fairly extensive damage from coronary artery disease. 669 00:33:11,860 --> 00:33:12,694 Um... 670 00:33:13,778 --> 00:33:14,613 Yang. 671 00:33:18,992 --> 00:33:20,076 [cell phone rings] 672 00:33:20,660 --> 00:33:21,578 Talk to me, Bailey. 673 00:33:21,995 --> 00:33:23,288 [Cristina] It's me. 674 00:33:23,371 --> 00:33:25,415 I can't talk. I'm waiting on a call from Bailey. 675 00:33:26,708 --> 00:33:28,043 I'm with Bailey. 676 00:33:29,169 --> 00:33:30,045 You're in Idaho? 677 00:33:31,087 --> 00:33:31,963 Yeah. 678 00:33:32,881 --> 00:33:34,090 [Preston]You're breaking the rules. 679 00:33:34,924 --> 00:33:35,759 Yes. 680 00:33:36,384 --> 00:33:39,220 Preston, what's happening with our heart? 681 00:33:40,055 --> 00:33:41,181 Hello, Dr. Webber. 682 00:33:41,514 --> 00:33:43,975 Tell me what I need to know about Denny's heart, Dr. Bailey. 683 00:33:48,063 --> 00:33:50,148 [monitor beeping] 684 00:34:05,914 --> 00:34:06,915 Thank you. 685 00:34:08,083 --> 00:34:10,877 This program Derek looked into was a favor to me. 686 00:34:11,920 --> 00:34:12,754 Nice try. 687 00:34:12,837 --> 00:34:15,507 Sometimes, Meredith, a favor is just a favor. 688 00:34:17,258 --> 00:34:18,593 This treatment won't cure your mother, 689 00:34:18,885 --> 00:34:22,389 it won't give her a new lease on life, but it may give her more good days. 690 00:34:23,848 --> 00:34:25,183 I urge you to consider it. 691 00:34:29,688 --> 00:34:33,400 Lying here trapped in this flesh prison, I have reached a grim conclusion. 692 00:34:35,193 --> 00:34:36,319 I am a failure. 693 00:34:37,696 --> 00:34:38,947 You know how that feels? 694 00:34:39,030 --> 00:34:40,573 Dude, if you only knew. 695 00:34:40,657 --> 00:34:44,619 Even my manic attempt to put my failed novel behind me failed. 696 00:34:45,537 --> 00:34:49,416 Time for a Plan B, I reckon. Time, indeed. 697 00:34:50,500 --> 00:34:52,335 Perhaps I shall play the cello. 698 00:34:53,128 --> 00:34:55,630 Well, we make a mistake here and people die. 699 00:34:55,797 --> 00:34:56,840 It happens all the time. 700 00:34:58,633 --> 00:34:59,718 All the time? 701 00:35:00,677 --> 00:35:01,720 Well, it happens a lot. 702 00:35:02,011 --> 00:35:03,888 This is part of the hallucination, right? 703 00:35:04,514 --> 00:35:06,808 My point is, we all have setbacks, Mauer. 704 00:35:07,142 --> 00:35:10,103 But I'm a doctor, and you're a writer. We don't have a Plan B. 705 00:35:12,397 --> 00:35:13,732 Call security. 706 00:35:14,065 --> 00:35:16,067 [Richard] Have you determined a course of treatment 707 00:35:16,151 --> 00:35:18,069 for the mercury poisoning, Dr. Karev? 708 00:35:18,153 --> 00:35:22,115 Yeah, the patient has been administered a chelator called British anti-leukocyte, 709 00:35:22,198 --> 00:35:24,993 which will absorb the mercury over the next several days. 710 00:35:26,327 --> 00:35:27,454 Good work, doctor. 711 00:35:45,597 --> 00:35:46,431 Yang... 712 00:35:55,315 --> 00:35:57,650 You know what's wrong with having an 80-hour limit? 713 00:35:57,984 --> 00:36:00,278 It protects the weak. It levels the playing field, 714 00:36:00,487 --> 00:36:02,781 which not only sucks, it's dangerous. 715 00:36:03,364 --> 00:36:06,534 80-hour work week, that's what's on your mind? 716 00:36:13,208 --> 00:36:14,626 I thought about it... 717 00:36:16,044 --> 00:36:17,212 Not keeping it. 718 00:36:18,463 --> 00:36:19,339 You did? 719 00:36:20,089 --> 00:36:23,676 [Miranda] My husband and I, we tried for years, 720 00:36:24,010 --> 00:36:26,888 but still, when that stick turned blue... 721 00:36:27,472 --> 00:36:29,140 Well, you can't work the way we work, 722 00:36:29,224 --> 00:36:32,185 you can't want the kind of careers that we want, 723 00:36:32,268 --> 00:36:35,021 and not take... pause. 724 00:36:35,814 --> 00:36:36,940 I took pause. 725 00:36:37,065 --> 00:36:37,899 You paused? 726 00:36:37,982 --> 00:36:41,152 I paused. I paused a very long time. 727 00:36:46,950 --> 00:36:48,243 So why did... 728 00:36:51,079 --> 00:36:54,541 I sat up one night, middle of the night... 729 00:36:57,210 --> 00:37:00,755 And I knew I could do this. 730 00:37:02,757 --> 00:37:05,009 Now I still don't know how I'm gonna do this, but... 731 00:37:07,095 --> 00:37:08,388 I knew I could do it. 732 00:37:11,432 --> 00:37:12,976 You just have to know, 733 00:37:14,811 --> 00:37:18,106 and when you don't know, then no one can fault you for it. 734 00:37:19,065 --> 00:37:24,696 You do what you can, when you can, why you can. 735 00:37:26,114 --> 00:37:28,616 And when you can't, you can't. 736 00:37:35,790 --> 00:37:38,835 You're stalking me. You're a stalker. 737 00:37:39,127 --> 00:37:41,045 Well, can you blame me? 738 00:37:43,590 --> 00:37:44,966 So it's bad, huh? 739 00:37:48,177 --> 00:37:49,304 You have time. 740 00:37:50,138 --> 00:37:50,972 Liar. 741 00:37:51,639 --> 00:37:55,351 - Fine, there's no time. - [Denny] Oh, now that's just spiteful. 742 00:37:58,813 --> 00:38:00,315 I didn't get the heart. 743 00:38:02,358 --> 00:38:03,610 You didn't get the heart. 744 00:38:21,415 --> 00:38:23,208 - Hey... - Hey, George. 745 00:38:25,419 --> 00:38:28,630 Hey, I just, uh... I just wanted to check in on you. 746 00:38:30,090 --> 00:38:32,467 I heard my parents weren't too happy with you. 747 00:38:32,551 --> 00:38:33,385 Nope. 748 00:38:36,555 --> 00:38:39,516 Thanks for telling me, for making them tell me. 749 00:38:42,394 --> 00:38:45,689 You know, um, there are people that you can talk to. 750 00:38:47,232 --> 00:38:48,775 - I can... if you'd like... - I know. 751 00:38:53,197 --> 00:38:55,490 George, do I have to be a boy now? 752 00:38:55,574 --> 00:38:56,408 No. 753 00:38:57,910 --> 00:38:58,744 No. 754 00:38:59,578 --> 00:39:01,038 But I can if I want to. 755 00:39:01,872 --> 00:39:03,999 Yeah, you can, if you want. 756 00:39:06,793 --> 00:39:07,628 I... 757 00:39:07,920 --> 00:39:10,881 could you... would you bring me some scissors? 758 00:39:12,925 --> 00:39:16,428 [Meredith] Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? 759 00:39:20,349 --> 00:39:21,183 Derek. 760 00:39:22,100 --> 00:39:22,935 Hi. 761 00:39:23,310 --> 00:39:24,603 Tell me about the program. 762 00:39:24,686 --> 00:39:28,941 [Meredith] It's not a day on a calendar, not a birthday, not a new year. 763 00:39:29,524 --> 00:39:31,526 Denny. I'll see ya. 764 00:39:31,944 --> 00:39:33,111 [Denny] Good bye Dr. Stevens. 765 00:39:37,282 --> 00:39:39,284 Hey, he's leaving? 766 00:39:39,618 --> 00:39:40,702 Didn't get the heart. 767 00:39:40,869 --> 00:39:42,246 - I'm sorry. - Yeah. 768 00:39:42,329 --> 00:39:43,372 He's a good guy. 769 00:39:43,789 --> 00:39:45,415 Yeah, he is. 770 00:39:52,965 --> 00:39:56,677 [Meredith] It's an event, big or small, 771 00:39:57,427 --> 00:39:59,054 something that changes us. 772 00:40:00,347 --> 00:40:02,891 Ideally, it gives us hope... 773 00:40:29,584 --> 00:40:32,212 a new way of living and looking at the world. 774 00:40:38,677 --> 00:40:40,178 I'm cookin' the trout outside. 775 00:40:41,513 --> 00:40:42,431 Thank you. 776 00:40:46,393 --> 00:40:47,602 Oh. 777 00:40:51,940 --> 00:40:56,194 There is a land called passive aggressiva... 778 00:40:57,821 --> 00:40:59,114 and I am their queen. 779 00:40:59,489 --> 00:41:00,782 That's all I'm saying. 780 00:41:03,785 --> 00:41:04,661 So what... 781 00:41:05,829 --> 00:41:07,122 with Meredith... 782 00:41:09,249 --> 00:41:11,877 Am I supposed to just wait it out, wait until it passes? 783 00:41:15,756 --> 00:41:16,673 That'd be good. 784 00:41:18,759 --> 00:41:20,135 I still hate the trailer. 785 00:41:21,386 --> 00:41:22,804 As is your right. 786 00:41:28,352 --> 00:41:31,813 [Meredith] Letting go of old habits, old memories... 787 00:41:35,609 --> 00:41:40,447 I wasn't gonna have it, the baby. And you don't get to be mad about that. 788 00:41:40,530 --> 00:41:42,532 We barely knew each other, I was an intern, 789 00:41:42,616 --> 00:41:43,867 and there was no way that I could have even... 790 00:41:43,950 --> 00:41:44,993 I'm not mad. 791 00:41:49,373 --> 00:41:50,207 You're not? 792 00:41:50,707 --> 00:41:54,127 No. I just wanted to know. 793 00:41:57,172 --> 00:41:58,840 I want to know things. 794 00:41:59,424 --> 00:42:02,761 [Meredith] What's important is that we never stop believing 795 00:42:02,844 --> 00:42:04,388 we can have a new beginning. 796 00:42:04,763 --> 00:42:06,848 [Doc barking] 797 00:42:07,516 --> 00:42:13,563 [Meredith] Doc, that was my laundry. You don't eat laundry. Bad dog. Bad dog. 798 00:42:13,980 --> 00:42:16,817 [barking continues] 799 00:42:19,653 --> 00:42:21,905 But it's also important to remember 800 00:42:21,988 --> 00:42:23,782 that amid all the crap... 801 00:42:24,741 --> 00:42:28,703 are a few things really worth holding on to. 802 00:42:30,080 --> 00:42:31,373 [barking continues]