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I've actually done my best
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to really not think about
this for 30 years...
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...let alone talk
out loud about it.
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Society has a weird
view towards women
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in these relationships.
There's so much misogyny.
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You're sort of pigeonholed
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into this girlfriend,
or ex-girlfriend,
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or you're... these roles,
and you're supposed to...
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um, sort of be cut
as a pathetic figure.
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I've gone as far
from being an artist
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in New York City,
as one can imagine,
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and I think that is a
lot because of his death.
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♪ No ♪
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He heard the whole of
his person in the music.
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Writing his second
record was so daunting.
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♪ Tonight, as I stand ♪
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It was a huge step
forward for him.
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But I haven't been
able to listen.
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That might sound crazy,
but... ...I can't.
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♪ Just like a woman, yes... ♪
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I certainly was
a flawed parent.
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♪ Just like a woman ♪
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But he sure got me, you know?
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And he got exactly
where I came from,
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and understood...
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why I made the choices
I made in my life.
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No one has ever loved
me more or better...
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than he.
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Every human being has music
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that only they can make.
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And it's my deepest form of
communication with people.
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It'll always keep on changing,
it'll always defy anything
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that tries to put
people in a box.
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♪ This is our last goodbye ♪
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♪ I hate to feel the
love Between us die ♪
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♪ But it's over ♪
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♪ Just hear this
And then I'll go ♪
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♪ You gave me more to live for
More than you'll ever know ♪
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There's things I wanna do
that I've never heard of.
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It's my life.
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♪ Yeah, this is
Our last embrace ♪
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♪ Must I dream And
always see your face? ♪
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I just love when men use their
voice so unselfconsciously.
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I mean, he was literally the
best singer I've ever heard.
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And he was so amazed by what
female singers could do.
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Feminine, masculine, he
was and is my favorite.
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♪ Kiss me, please kiss me ♪
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♪ But kiss me Out
of desire, babe ♪
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When you really dig
into the lyrics,
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it's so sacred, him
recognizing his own...
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I guess, you could
call it "mortality."
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♪ I'll only make you cry
This is our last goodbye ♪
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I wanna be songwriter Jeff.
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Jeff Buckley, songwriter.
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♪ Oh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪
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He had a way of playing
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the most beautiful
songs you've ever heard.
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He could have literally been
doing anything musically
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that he wanted to do.
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♪ Signs that it's over ♪
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♪ Oh-oh, ooh ♪
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♪ It's o... o... over ♪
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First time I
heard Jeff sing...
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he was in the bassinet.
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One time I came in,
and I could hear him.
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He was vocalizing to the radio.
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♪ Ah, ah, ah ♪
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♪ Ah, ah, ah ♪
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The day I heard "Ain't
No Mountain High Enough,"
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boom, boom, boom, boom, boom.
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I thought, "Ooh, damn."
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"He's a singer."
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Music charged my life.
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A good childhood?
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Uh...
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It was a childhood.
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My mom's first-generation
Panamanian immigrant.
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Very good girl, brought up
with Voodoo-Catholic values.
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You know, brought
over to Anaheim,
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you know, that hellhole in Southern
California, where Disneyland is.
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My parents had
high hopes for me.
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You know, immigrant
parents, their eldest child.
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I wanted to be an actress,
and sing and dance,
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and play the piano,
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but I had soiled
the family name,
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and dishonored them
having premarital sex.
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I met Timothy in French class.
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He would do things like
pull one hair on my...
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Right? And I
would turn around,
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and he would be looking up.
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We were two kids from
abusive, crazy homes,
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and we just knew the world
better than anybody else.
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♪ Now, you wanna
know The reason ♪
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Seventeen at the time,
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I was already a
teenage pregnant mom.
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♪ Why I cheated on you ♪
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My parents thought
maybe I should give
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the baby up for adoption.
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But there was no choice for me
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but to go through
with the pregnancy.
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And I knew from the fifth month
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that I was never going
to see Tim again.
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♪ This little man had to try ♪
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First of all, he was
with somebody else.
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♪ To make love feel new again ♪
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Plus, he was determined
to be a singer-songwriter.
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This child was on me.
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♪ 'Cause there's just
A few things, honey ♪
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He split before I was born.
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You know, he decided not
to be a father to me.
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You don't serve
your country, man.
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You serve life,
you serve people.
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TV, from the very beginning,
and also public schools,
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have been the great lobotomizer.
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Everything in the outer
world is not the world,
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the cars, how much
perfume you wear.
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The world is what's inside
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and what cats pull
out of themselves
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-all through time.
-I said to him,
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"You gotta go
pursue your dreams,
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you go."
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But... my dreams of
being an actress,
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or being a concert pianist...
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that was all gone.
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Jeff and I sort of
raised each other.
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Well, his father wasn't there,
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but this woman loved
him with all her heart
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and didn't hesitate
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to make him feel loved
at every chance she had.
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He would come and put his
little hands on my face,
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and say, "We're gonna
be okay, mommy, right?"
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And I'd go, "Yes, we are,
honey. We're just fine."
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He... had to take care of her.
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And he was feeling like
she had been hurt...
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and feeling horrible about that.
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♪ Perhaps it is the color
Of the sun cut flat ♪
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♪ And covering the
crossroads I'm standing at ♪
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Jeff was like having a
grandfather watching over me
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and telling me who
was okay to date,
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and who wasn't.
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♪ But Mama You've
been on my mind ♪
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When I was a kid, I
always felt really proud
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if I could roll a joint for
all the grownups at the party.
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I never did it, but,
like, I always...
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"I wanna do it, let me do it."
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I now remember the day
that my mom called me over
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to the reclining chair,
and tried to explain to me
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that if I told anybody
that they did this stuff,
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they would go to jail.
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♪ And all because of the man ♪
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♪ That got away ♪
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When Jeff was little,
before I even made coffee,
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music would go on, constant.
Constant, constant, constant.
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Judy Garland. Huh! "The
Man That Got Away."
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I love that song.
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And it was very important to us.
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♪ Oh, I want A
whole lotta love ♪
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My stepfather, Ronald,
he was a car mechanic.
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He was the one that
introduced me to Led Zepplin.
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That changed my whole life.
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Ron would turn the
stereo on loud enough,
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the whole block could hear,
and there would be Little Jeff
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laying on top of the speakers
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with his little body
vibrating to the music.
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Music, it was my mother,
it was my father.
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It was the best
thing in my life.
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I see in the newspaper
this quarter-page ad.
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Tim Buckley made
a name for himself
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as one of pop music's
genuine innovators.
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Over the course of nine albums,
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he incorporated the
prettiest of folk music,
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the most extreme
of free-form jazz
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and the raunchiest
of rock and blues.
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And I thought, "Wow, maybe
this is an opportunity"
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for my son to get
to know his father."
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I looked at Jeff and said,
"Hey, would you like to go
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see your dad perform?"
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♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪
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♪ I'm singin' Sally go round ♪
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Jeff was rocking
to the music...
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♪ Saddest thing In
this whole wide world ♪
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...and looking up at his dad.
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Tim had his eyes closed, but
he had to know he was there,
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had to be aware of his presence.
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♪ Sally, don't you go down ♪
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When he went back
to the green room,
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I looked down and said, "Do
you wanna go see him now?"
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And I could feel Jeff
clutching my skirt...
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...you know, kind
of hanging on,
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pressing close,
and looking around.
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I couldn't see Tim at first,
and then I heard, "Jeff!"
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"Hi, bud. How are you doing?"
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Jeff sat on his lap,
and he started talking,
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what his favorite color was,
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"My dog's name is King,"
what grade he was in.
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About ten minutes
later, Tim said,
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"We'd like to take him
home with us tonight."
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I'm going...
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"Yeah, you can take
him home right now,
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but you better not fuck up."
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I stayed with him a
week. Easter vacation.
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He had an adopted son,
he had a new wife,
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he had a whole other family.
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Four days later, I
got a telephone call.
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Tim had to get back
into the studio,
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and put Jeff on a
bus in Santa Monica.
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"It was so much fun. My
dad has a lot of friends."
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"And he gave me this."
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I said, "You save that, buddy."
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No calls were returned.
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It was two months before.
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I have a great deal
of pain and anger,
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but I have a great deal
of love and compassion...
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for Tim.
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Some things that he did
completely embarrass me to hell.
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But the things that were great
hold up against anything.
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Jeff wasn't even mentioned
in any of the obituaries.
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By the time I was
in high school,
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got my first electric guitar.
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It was a black
Memphis Les Paul copy.
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Yeah, just fell in
with the wrong crowd
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and got a band
together, of course.
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♪ Eternal life Is
now on my trail ♪
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♪ Got my red glitter
coffin, Man ♪
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♪ Just need one last nail ♪
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♪ While all these
Ugly gentlemen ♪
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♪ Play out their foolish games ♪
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♪ There's a flaming red horizon
That screams our names ♪
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At 15, Jeff was practicing
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Al Di Meola every night.
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That was a fixation I
had up until the time
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I was, maybe, 16. And I
can play anything I hear.
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My high-school bullies
called me "faggot."
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And their fucking new-wave
girlfriends stenciled, "Geek,"
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on my fucking Ovation
Viper electric guitar case.
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♪ Roxanne ♪
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♪ You don't have to
put on The red light ♪
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Jeff had an ability to
mimic the vocal cadences,
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and the inflections of
people he was listening to.
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♪ Roxanne ♪
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♪ You don't have to wear
That dress tonight ♪
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♪ Walk the streets for... ♪
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It's in exact album... It's...
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'Cause, you know,
a lot of people
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would tune it down a step,
so they could hit the note.
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This is the exact...
It's... It's album pitch.
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♪ Put on the red light ♪
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It's the same key.
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I used to wanna be
a guitar aficionado.
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But the thing I was gonna learn
to do best was songwriting.
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Music and words.
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I decided to make
a woman of music,
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and give myself to her.
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And at another point,
I decided to make
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a man of music and
give myself to him.
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When you're a kid, people assume
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that you have no
mind of your own,
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which, at a very
early age, I did.
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I put so many things
onto music for me...
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so that I wouldn't
shrink into a black...
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universe.
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St. Ann's in Brooklyn
wanted Jeff to sing
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at a tribute to Tim.
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♪ Oh, I never asked To be your
mountain I never asked to fly ♪
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I said, "No."
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♪ Remember when you came to me ♪
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"I will never, ever
perform that music."
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-♪ Told me of his lies ♪
-"I've got my own music."
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I said, "You know what, son?"
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"Give it some thought."
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"There's gonna be some
really amazing artists
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in the lineup."
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So, I said, "Okay, but
I just wanna come on"
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and sing, and come off."
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"This is not a springboard."
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"This is something
really personal."
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And they told me, "Well, we
don't know how good he is,
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so we'll put him
with other artists
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to fill in any gaps
in his talents."
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Dangerous situations
appeal to me.
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There had been a bit of buzz
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that Tim Buckley's
son would be there.
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I figured, "Hey,
what's the worst
285
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that can happen?"
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Um...
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The luminaries of
downtown were there.
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This could be exactly
what I dreamed for him.
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Uh...
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I didn't know who he
was, and I'm working
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doing sound and lighting,
292
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but he was so
nervous. He was so...
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Like, his hair was just
in front of his face,
294
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and he seemed so awkward.
295
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Long time ago, when
I was a little kid,
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my mom sat on a bed, and
she put this record on,
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and I heard my father's voice.
298
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He had on his father's coat,
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and he started to play...
300
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It was his dad's song about
leaving him as a child.
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♪ I never asked To
be your mountain ♪
302
00:19:17,810 --> 00:19:20,713
-♪ I never asked to fly ♪
-And he was weeping.
303
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♪ Remember when you came to me ♪
304
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♪ And told me of his lies ♪
305
00:19:27,820 --> 00:19:30,623
♪ You didn't
understand My love ♪
306
00:19:31,223 --> 00:19:33,660
♪ You don't know why I try ♪
307
00:19:34,661 --> 00:19:37,830
♪ And the rain Was
falling on that day ♪
308
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♪ And that's the reason why ♪
309
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♪ Oh ♪
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♪ Sweet ♪
311
00:19:45,571 --> 00:19:47,707
♪ Sweet ♪
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♪ Sweet lover ♪
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It did become Jeff's concert.
314
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I was like, "This
can't be real."
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He told me he walked away
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with no less than
60 business cards
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in his pockets.
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My friend, he said he heard
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Tim Buckley's haunted voice.
320
00:20:20,472 --> 00:20:22,675
It's not his voice,
and it's not my voice.
321
00:20:22,809 --> 00:20:24,409
It's the voice that's
been passed down
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00:20:24,544 --> 00:20:26,679
through every man in the family.
323
00:20:29,849 --> 00:20:31,951
He came out, and sat
next to me, and said,
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00:20:32,085 --> 00:20:33,119
"What did you think?"
325
00:20:34,120 --> 00:20:37,156
I was thinking, "My opinion
here does not matter,"
326
00:20:37,289 --> 00:20:40,126
but that was really stunning,
like, just so beautiful.
327
00:20:46,032 --> 00:20:47,672
He was asking if
he could walk me
328
00:20:47,800 --> 00:20:50,536
to the subway, and gets
on the train with me,
329
00:20:50,670 --> 00:20:52,572
and took it all the
way into Manhattan,
330
00:20:52,705 --> 00:20:53,906
and we're talking and talking.
331
00:20:54,040 --> 00:20:55,541
And we stayed on that train,
332
00:20:55,675 --> 00:20:59,011
and we went all the way
up to the last stop.
333
00:20:59,145 --> 00:21:00,680
Besides reading and movies,
334
00:21:00,813 --> 00:21:02,481
what I really like
is night prowling,
335
00:21:02,615 --> 00:21:04,534
finding out-of-the-way
places where the misfits go.
336
00:21:06,786 --> 00:21:08,654
You're making me laugh so much.
337
00:21:08,788 --> 00:21:10,890
♪ Yeah, mean ♪
338
00:21:11,023 --> 00:21:12,725
Then we got in the downtown,
339
00:21:12,859 --> 00:21:15,528
and we went all the way
to Coney Island and back.
340
00:21:16,696 --> 00:21:18,631
♪ I will take to any task ♪
341
00:21:18,765 --> 00:21:22,668
♪ I'll do anything you ask ♪
342
00:21:22,802 --> 00:21:29,909
♪ If you really love me still ♪
343
00:21:33,913 --> 00:21:36,448
He was so interested
in what I did,
344
00:21:36,582 --> 00:21:37,984
which really surprised me
345
00:21:38,117 --> 00:21:40,686
'cause I was doing
experimental theater.
346
00:21:41,921 --> 00:21:44,624
It was really less
about money and fame,
347
00:21:44,757 --> 00:21:47,492
and more about pushing
the boundaries.
348
00:21:48,561 --> 00:21:50,029
Nobody I knew my own age
349
00:21:50,163 --> 00:21:52,131
was really interested
in any of that,
350
00:21:52,265 --> 00:21:55,433
but he was someone who drank
up the world like a sponge.
351
00:22:03,709 --> 00:22:05,511
♪ You make me feel so young ♪
352
00:22:05,645 --> 00:22:06,645
Thank you.
353
00:22:07,246 --> 00:22:10,482
♪ You make me feel like
Spring has sprung ♪
354
00:22:10,917 --> 00:22:13,119
I was in a play with Rebecca.
355
00:22:13,252 --> 00:22:14,520
I was in high school.
356
00:22:14,654 --> 00:22:17,422
And Jeff just felt
very electric to me.
357
00:22:18,558 --> 00:22:20,293
♪ The moment that you speak ♪
358
00:22:20,626 --> 00:22:22,460
Jeff had a real lust for life.
359
00:22:22,595 --> 00:22:24,564
♪ Go play hide and seek ♪
360
00:22:24,697 --> 00:22:26,149
The East Village at that time
361
00:22:26,232 --> 00:22:28,301
was such a collection
of every eccentric
362
00:22:28,433 --> 00:22:30,236
that did not fit
in anywhere else.
363
00:22:32,572 --> 00:22:34,640
♪ You and I ♪
364
00:22:35,074 --> 00:22:36,226
And he saw so many people
365
00:22:36,309 --> 00:22:38,010
breaking down the status quo.
366
00:22:38,845 --> 00:22:42,982
Artists were being banned.
The NEA was being censored.
367
00:22:43,415 --> 00:22:45,785
New York was the place
for this amazing stuff,
368
00:22:45,918 --> 00:22:48,321
stuff I can't even
describe to you.
369
00:22:50,355 --> 00:22:51,691
Sometimes he would
just disappear,
370
00:22:51,824 --> 00:22:53,543
and I'd get a call from
a friend later going,
371
00:22:53,626 --> 00:22:55,661
"Jeff showed up at
my house today."
372
00:22:55,795 --> 00:22:58,064
Every moment was so spontaneous.
373
00:22:59,932 --> 00:23:03,002
He would make very
elaborate outgoing messages
374
00:23:03,135 --> 00:23:05,171
like old-time radio shows.
375
00:23:07,039 --> 00:23:09,275
And now, the
continuing adventures
376
00:23:09,407 --> 00:23:11,677
of Spinach the Cat.
377
00:23:11,811 --> 00:23:14,614
His most famous being
Spinach the Cat.
378
00:23:14,747 --> 00:23:16,566
...house cat
falls on the edge.
379
00:23:16,649 --> 00:23:19,552
And now, your host,
Quentin Snobbery!
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Jeff didn't have a job,
381
00:23:21,120 --> 00:23:22,855
so he had a lot of
time on his hands.
382
00:23:22,989 --> 00:23:26,025
Jeff used to look specifically
for Michael Bolton tapes,
383
00:23:26,158 --> 00:23:27,660
so he could put
the piece of tape
384
00:23:27,793 --> 00:23:30,830
over the top, and
record over it.
385
00:23:30,963 --> 00:23:33,799
He would line up tape recorders
'cause there was no samplers,
386
00:23:33,933 --> 00:23:35,768
there was no digital
computer, nothing.
387
00:23:35,902 --> 00:23:38,905
He basically created
this little studio
388
00:23:39,038 --> 00:23:41,274
all for this...
...outgoing message.
389
00:23:41,406 --> 00:23:42,775
Pressing this sound effect
390
00:23:42,909 --> 00:23:44,393
for when the crowd cheers.
391
00:23:44,476 --> 00:23:46,646
And this sound effect
when the cat meows.
392
00:23:46,779 --> 00:23:49,081
It was an hour long.
393
00:23:49,215 --> 00:23:51,817
And so people...
394
00:23:51,951 --> 00:23:55,554
...they had to listen to
this hour-long soap opera.
395
00:23:57,556 --> 00:23:58,758
He asked me,
396
00:23:58,991 --> 00:24:00,431
"Do you think this
part is too much?"
397
00:24:00,927 --> 00:24:04,630
I thought, "The whole
thing is too much."
398
00:24:04,764 --> 00:24:07,366
Join us next time for
the continuing adventures
399
00:24:07,499 --> 00:24:10,102
of Spinach the Cat.
400
00:24:12,271 --> 00:24:15,141
I love you. I love...
401
00:24:15,274 --> 00:24:17,910
I think Jeff had this desire
402
00:24:18,044 --> 00:24:22,214
to be liked and loved, and
to connect with people.
403
00:24:29,989 --> 00:24:32,692
Jeff started calling
me Butterfly.
404
00:24:34,560 --> 00:24:39,765
I think he saw me at that point
of coming out of a cocoon.
405
00:24:45,470 --> 00:24:48,341
We were these two
sensitive young souls
406
00:24:48,473 --> 00:24:51,844
searching for where you fit in,
and feel empowered and loved,
407
00:24:51,978 --> 00:24:53,846
and found each other.
408
00:24:53,980 --> 00:24:56,382
♪ I once was open ♪
409
00:24:56,515 --> 00:25:00,086
♪ And one With a
traveling heart ♪
410
00:25:00,219 --> 00:25:03,889
But I called him...
...the Scratchy Fish,
411
00:25:04,023 --> 00:25:08,627
'cause he was always not
shaving, very bristly.
412
00:25:08,761 --> 00:25:11,764
And he started
making these stories,
413
00:25:11,897 --> 00:25:13,566
almost like children's stories.
414
00:25:13,699 --> 00:25:16,869
This is Scratchy Fishy,
this is their home,
415
00:25:17,003 --> 00:25:20,539
and this is Butterfly, and
they're getting married.
416
00:25:21,073 --> 00:25:24,543
The story he wove about
a butterfly and a fish
417
00:25:24,677 --> 00:25:27,813
was that they could
never be together.
418
00:25:28,581 --> 00:25:31,117
♪ Just like the ocean ♪
419
00:25:31,250 --> 00:25:37,223
♪ Always in love With the moon ♪
420
00:25:38,124 --> 00:25:42,795
♪ It's overflowing now ♪
421
00:25:42,928 --> 00:25:45,898
♪ Inside you ♪
422
00:25:46,032 --> 00:25:48,284
You could see in his eyes
that he would sometimes go
423
00:25:48,367 --> 00:25:52,038
to this place that I think
was very inaccessible
424
00:25:52,171 --> 00:25:56,208
to anyone but himself.
He just would check out.
425
00:25:57,877 --> 00:26:02,516
♪ In the half-light ♪
426
00:26:02,648 --> 00:26:09,755
♪ You saw me as I am ♪
427
00:26:15,728 --> 00:26:19,298
♪ The stars have
lost Their glitter ♪
428
00:26:19,932 --> 00:26:22,601
♪ The winds have grown colder ♪
429
00:26:22,735 --> 00:26:26,705
I wanted to be a...
you know, a chanteuse.
430
00:26:27,206 --> 00:26:30,443
♪ Don't know what happened ♪
431
00:26:30,576 --> 00:26:36,916
♪ It's all a crazy game ♪
432
00:26:37,049 --> 00:26:39,652
Secretly, I think I
wanted to be Nina Simone.
433
00:26:39,785 --> 00:26:44,190
♪ I love all things about you ♪
434
00:26:44,623 --> 00:26:47,426
Although she would advise
against this strongly, I'm sure.
435
00:26:47,561 --> 00:26:49,428
-♪ Your heart ♪
-♪ Your heart ♪
436
00:26:49,563 --> 00:26:53,966
Sometimes, I think I wanted
to be Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan.
437
00:26:58,771 --> 00:27:00,072
He was my Elvis.
438
00:27:00,206 --> 00:27:01,040
♪ Oh ♪
439
00:27:25,498 --> 00:27:29,668
To be a scrappy, young White
kid from Orange County,
440
00:27:29,802 --> 00:27:33,672
covering Nusrat Fateh
Ali Khan or Nina Simone,
441
00:27:33,806 --> 00:27:35,141
you just have to give it up.
442
00:27:35,274 --> 00:27:37,109
He must've been
working his ass off.
443
00:27:40,045 --> 00:27:41,714
There was a tiny little club
444
00:27:41,847 --> 00:27:44,850
in the East Village
called Sin-e.
445
00:27:45,718 --> 00:27:47,286
You could probably fit in
446
00:27:47,419 --> 00:27:50,356
maybe 30 or 40
people at the most,
447
00:27:50,489 --> 00:27:52,391
and it would be
super, super crowded.
448
00:27:52,526 --> 00:27:58,464
And Jeff was washing dishes,
he was serving people coffee,
449
00:27:58,598 --> 00:28:03,002
and then every now and then
he would just get up and play.
450
00:28:03,135 --> 00:28:04,937
Check. That's cool.
451
00:28:05,070 --> 00:28:07,574
I'm a ridiculous person.
452
00:28:07,706 --> 00:28:09,909
And you're lucky you've
paid no money to see me.
453
00:28:12,144 --> 00:28:15,114
It was an Irish-run
coffee shop.
454
00:28:15,247 --> 00:28:18,652
A great little place to
see somebody in the raw.
455
00:28:20,654 --> 00:28:23,055
This is a perfect
place for music lovers.
456
00:28:23,189 --> 00:28:24,823
It's not like playing
at a rock club.
457
00:28:24,957 --> 00:28:28,327
It's not like playing at a ball.
This is good place to get real.
458
00:28:28,460 --> 00:28:29,663
Turn it up.
459
00:28:29,795 --> 00:28:31,864
It was so homey in here.
460
00:28:31,997 --> 00:28:34,967
It just smelled
of, like, espresso.
461
00:28:35,100 --> 00:28:37,403
He'd be in the middle
of some, like, ballad
462
00:28:37,537 --> 00:28:40,005
and you just hear that...
463
00:28:40,139 --> 00:28:44,176
♪ And we sat on our own star ♪
464
00:28:44,310 --> 00:28:46,245
♪ And dreamed of the
way that I was... ♪
465
00:28:46,378 --> 00:28:48,714
The Sin-e community
became a place
466
00:28:48,847 --> 00:28:50,550
of such encouragement for him.
467
00:28:50,684 --> 00:28:51,884
♪ Oh, baby, baby ♪
468
00:28:52,017 --> 00:28:53,653
It really became a home
469
00:28:53,786 --> 00:28:55,938
where he could experiment.
470
00:28:56,021 --> 00:28:58,525
♪ It's a fabulous
time For a Guinness ♪
471
00:28:58,658 --> 00:29:02,194
♪ You know the brown liquor ♪
472
00:29:12,838 --> 00:29:15,542
The Buttocks of Steel
tour, Jeff Buckley.
473
00:29:15,675 --> 00:29:18,344
In the beginning, there
were just a few people.
474
00:29:18,477 --> 00:29:21,280
Then all of a sudden,
it was, like, packed.
475
00:29:21,413 --> 00:29:23,332
I'll play the
seat-finding song.
476
00:29:23,415 --> 00:29:25,602
Crowds, you know, spilling
out into the street.
477
00:29:27,554 --> 00:29:28,905
Everybody, stop.
478
00:29:30,256 --> 00:29:31,691
He was really an
entertainer there
479
00:29:31,824 --> 00:29:33,359
as much as a musician.
480
00:29:33,492 --> 00:29:34,994
By the way, all
these songs are
481
00:29:35,127 --> 00:29:36,829
for the lovers in the audience.
482
00:29:36,962 --> 00:29:40,065
♪ - He mostly did covers.
483
00:29:40,499 --> 00:29:42,669
And then he
started introducing
484
00:29:42,801 --> 00:29:44,169
some of the original material.
485
00:29:45,304 --> 00:29:48,207
It went from laughing to
jaw-dropping, you know?
486
00:29:49,108 --> 00:29:50,943
This is a song about a dream.
487
00:30:04,189 --> 00:30:09,596
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh ♪
488
00:30:09,729 --> 00:30:14,833
♪ Whoo ♪
489
00:30:16,736 --> 00:30:21,140
♪ Oh, Oh ♪
490
00:30:21,273 --> 00:30:25,177
♪ Whoo-ooh ♪
491
00:30:34,587 --> 00:30:38,223
♪ Oh, oh ♪
492
00:30:41,561 --> 00:30:43,663
♪ Ooh... ♪
493
00:30:46,999 --> 00:30:52,271
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
494
00:30:53,606 --> 00:30:56,408
That was the first time I ever
saw Jeff Buckley at Sin-e.
495
00:30:56,842 --> 00:31:00,613
♪ When I'm lying in my
bed The blanket is warm ♪
496
00:31:00,814 --> 00:31:04,718
♪ This body will never
be safe From harm ♪
497
00:31:04,850 --> 00:31:08,822
♪ I still feel your hair
Black ribbons of coal ♪
498
00:31:09,254 --> 00:31:16,128
♪ Touch my skin
To keep me whole ♪
499
00:31:19,331 --> 00:31:22,000
I mean, you know,
a pin could drop.
500
00:31:22,968 --> 00:31:25,505
I wasn't thinking about
being a music executive.
501
00:31:25,638 --> 00:31:26,939
I was just a fan.
502
00:31:27,640 --> 00:31:31,043
♪ Oh, if only You'd
come back to me ♪
503
00:31:32,144 --> 00:31:35,548
♪ If you laid at my side ♪
504
00:31:36,014 --> 00:31:39,385
♪ Wouldn't need no mojo pin ♪
505
00:31:39,819 --> 00:31:44,557
♪ To keep me satisfied ♪
506
00:31:44,691 --> 00:31:46,959
I was there with Columbia.
507
00:31:48,026 --> 00:31:50,028
I think we were
all sort of stopped
508
00:31:50,162 --> 00:31:51,698
in our tracks that night.
509
00:32:03,008 --> 00:32:05,545
♪ Oh, precious, precious
Silver and gold ♪
510
00:32:05,678 --> 00:32:07,664
The whole record
company gauntlet
511
00:32:07,747 --> 00:32:09,649
started infesting my gigs.
512
00:32:09,783 --> 00:32:12,017
They were all there,
the people from Elektra,
513
00:32:12,151 --> 00:32:13,820
Arista, Sony.
514
00:32:13,952 --> 00:32:16,955
♪ And pray to love ♪
515
00:32:17,791 --> 00:32:19,158
Hmm!
516
00:32:19,291 --> 00:32:20,959
It was a bit of a cotillion.
517
00:32:21,861 --> 00:32:23,128
But that's the way it goes.
518
00:32:23,262 --> 00:32:26,231
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
519
00:32:26,365 --> 00:32:28,467
We'd all heard so
many nightmares
520
00:32:28,601 --> 00:32:32,672
about large labels, and
lack of creative expression,
521
00:32:32,806 --> 00:32:34,206
but I think he went into it
522
00:32:34,339 --> 00:32:35,391
feeling like he'd been reassured
523
00:32:35,474 --> 00:32:37,276
that he was gonna get that.
524
00:32:37,409 --> 00:32:40,680
♪ Well, it's you I've
waited my life to see ♪
525
00:32:40,814 --> 00:32:43,750
♪ It's you I've
searched So hard... ♪
526
00:32:43,883 --> 00:32:45,635
I knew that they were
just sitting there
527
00:32:45,718 --> 00:32:47,637
with bated breath, waiting
for the new Tim Buckley
528
00:32:47,720 --> 00:32:50,222
to come up and pick up
where his father left off.
529
00:32:50,355 --> 00:32:53,827
I hated it. I couldn't
stand it. Fucking bullshit.
530
00:32:54,627 --> 00:32:57,046
What do you think you
inherited from your father?
531
00:32:57,129 --> 00:32:58,631
People who remember my father.
532
00:33:01,668 --> 00:33:02,668
Next question.
533
00:33:04,704 --> 00:33:06,873
I went around and sampled
record company people
534
00:33:07,005 --> 00:33:08,641
to find where I fit in.
535
00:33:08,775 --> 00:33:11,009
Jeff had a little bit of fear
536
00:33:11,143 --> 00:33:12,328
about the fact
that he didn't have
537
00:33:12,411 --> 00:33:13,613
more original material.
538
00:33:13,746 --> 00:33:15,347
I would never tell
him what to do,
539
00:33:15,481 --> 00:33:17,216
but I was like, "Go small."
540
00:33:17,983 --> 00:33:20,587
I went to Sony.
Well, Columbia.
541
00:33:21,353 --> 00:33:22,655
When you walk in,
542
00:33:22,789 --> 00:33:24,356
the first thing you
see is Bob Dylan,
543
00:33:24,691 --> 00:33:28,026
on the wall, looking beautiful.
A foot away is Miles.
544
00:33:28,695 --> 00:33:31,731
Foot away is Monk,
Duke Ellington,
545
00:33:31,865 --> 00:33:33,933
Chambers Brothers, Mahalia.
546
00:33:34,066 --> 00:33:35,467
♪ Sometimes I feel ♪
547
00:33:35,602 --> 00:33:38,003
It was purely emotional, I
was like "Yeah, this is...
548
00:33:38,136 --> 00:33:40,172
I wanna be... here."
549
00:33:42,942 --> 00:33:45,645
Columbia has such
a storied legacy
550
00:33:45,778 --> 00:33:49,649
of Leonard Cohen and Bob
Dylan and Bruce Springsteen.
551
00:33:49,782 --> 00:33:53,285
What we all felt sitting
in that room was that
552
00:33:53,418 --> 00:33:56,054
he would one day be
in that pantheon.
553
00:33:59,224 --> 00:34:01,628
I said, "Gentlemen, you
won't be able to dictate"
554
00:34:01,761 --> 00:34:03,061
anything to me,
555
00:34:03,495 --> 00:34:04,815
"I'm just gonna make something
I've never heard before."
556
00:34:04,898 --> 00:34:06,231
And the people
that I settled with
557
00:34:06,365 --> 00:34:07,967
were pretty fine with that idea.
558
00:34:08,701 --> 00:34:10,219
He was told that it was, like,
559
00:34:10,302 --> 00:34:11,604
one of the biggest deals
560
00:34:11,738 --> 00:34:14,473
an unknown person
had ever gotten.
561
00:34:15,440 --> 00:34:18,243
He brought home the contract.
It was, like, 40 pages long.
562
00:34:18,377 --> 00:34:19,995
I'd never seen
anything like it.
563
00:34:22,849 --> 00:34:24,784
It should have been just joy,
564
00:34:25,217 --> 00:34:27,386
but I think suddenly
things changed.
565
00:34:32,559 --> 00:34:33,993
I would come home from work,
566
00:34:34,126 --> 00:34:35,995
and I'd come up the
six flights of stairs,
567
00:34:36,128 --> 00:34:38,180
and I would get to the door,
and put my key in the door,
568
00:34:38,263 --> 00:34:40,132
and I'd hear him stop.
569
00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:42,669
Before the record contract,
570
00:34:42,802 --> 00:34:45,538
he would sing and play
for me all the time.
571
00:34:46,338 --> 00:34:49,709
I said to him, "Do you
need a place to work?"
572
00:34:49,842 --> 00:34:52,679
The pressure to write songs
and not be interrupted
573
00:34:52,812 --> 00:34:54,379
was so intense.
574
00:34:56,148 --> 00:34:57,684
I'm going to write...
575
00:34:59,151 --> 00:35:02,689
a hundred songs in five weeks.
576
00:35:04,591 --> 00:35:06,859
Means 20 songs a week.
577
00:35:08,595 --> 00:35:09,862
Ugh...
578
00:35:09,996 --> 00:35:12,065
He struggled with the lyrics.
579
00:35:12,197 --> 00:35:15,568
I'm a horrible critic.
I'm my own worst critic.
580
00:35:16,002 --> 00:35:19,005
He was obsessed with
Morrissey and Dylan.
581
00:35:19,438 --> 00:35:21,874
So, he had a very high standard.
582
00:35:22,274 --> 00:35:26,144
He didn't wanna be known as
the guy who only does covers.
583
00:35:27,446 --> 00:35:28,748
My hope had been that
584
00:35:28,881 --> 00:35:30,349
we would work on
the relationship
585
00:35:30,482 --> 00:35:31,985
and live together,
586
00:35:32,117 --> 00:35:34,954
but he would find another
space where he could get
587
00:35:35,088 --> 00:35:37,757
this record contract fulfilled.
588
00:35:38,323 --> 00:35:40,560
That was naive to hope...
589
00:35:40,693 --> 00:35:43,529
...'cause he moved
out completely.
590
00:35:52,204 --> 00:35:54,558
People are, like, saying, "Look,
I'll give you all this money,
591
00:35:54,641 --> 00:35:56,593
look, I'll be your manager,
look, I'll be your agent."
592
00:35:56,676 --> 00:35:59,116
"Look, I got this place I want
you to play. Blah, blah, blah."
593
00:35:59,478 --> 00:36:00,864
And I just wanna make
something special,
594
00:36:00,947 --> 00:36:02,582
not even care about
anything else,
595
00:36:02,715 --> 00:36:05,885
money, or prestige,
or a tour, or nothing.
596
00:36:06,552 --> 00:36:10,056
♪ There's the moon
Asking to stay ♪
597
00:36:16,294 --> 00:36:17,964
Try it again.
598
00:36:20,133 --> 00:36:24,236
♪ There's the moon
Asking to stay ♪
599
00:36:24,671 --> 00:36:27,607
♪ Long enough For the
clouds to fly... ♪
600
00:36:27,740 --> 00:36:29,942
Coming up with a record's
worth of material
601
00:36:30,076 --> 00:36:33,146
with musicians and a producer
and engineers waiting,
602
00:36:33,278 --> 00:36:34,781
and everybody is
dependent on you,
603
00:36:35,313 --> 00:36:37,784
you know, it's like,
tick-tock, start making magic.
604
00:36:37,917 --> 00:36:41,353
Let's try it again.
Come into my world.
605
00:36:41,486 --> 00:36:44,423
My journals are the
lyrics for the albums.
606
00:36:45,591 --> 00:36:47,459
The songs just
come out of poems,
607
00:36:47,593 --> 00:36:49,461
and sometimes poems
come out of dreams.
608
00:36:49,595 --> 00:36:53,866
♪ And she weeps on my arm ♪
609
00:36:54,000 --> 00:37:00,472
♪ Walking to the bright
lights In sorrow ♪
610
00:37:00,973 --> 00:37:06,779
♪ Oh, drink a bit of wine
We both might go tomorrow ♪
611
00:37:06,913 --> 00:37:09,082
This is a song called "Grace."
612
00:37:09,214 --> 00:37:10,783
It's basically a death prayer.
613
00:37:12,985 --> 00:37:14,520
♪ Ooh ♪
614
00:37:14,654 --> 00:37:16,089
I always describe
it as, you know,
615
00:37:16,254 --> 00:37:19,391
not fearing anything,
anyone, any man, any woman,
616
00:37:19,525 --> 00:37:21,127
any war, any gun,
617
00:37:21,661 --> 00:37:25,732
any sling or arrow aimed at
your heart by other people.
618
00:37:25,865 --> 00:37:26,966
♪ Ooh ♪
619
00:37:27,100 --> 00:37:30,469
♪ It reminds me of the pain ♪
620
00:37:38,878 --> 00:37:40,913
Because there is
somebody finally
621
00:37:41,047 --> 00:37:42,515
who loves you for real.
622
00:37:45,317 --> 00:37:48,554
You can achieve a
real state of grace
623
00:37:48,688 --> 00:37:50,590
through somebody
else's love in you.
624
00:38:01,333 --> 00:38:04,336
Jeff would say, "Oh, we should
bring strings in on this song."
625
00:38:05,805 --> 00:38:09,242
We had this idea to write
interesting backgrounds
626
00:38:09,374 --> 00:38:12,879
that fit the voice,
actual lines,
627
00:38:13,012 --> 00:38:14,312
you know, counter lines.
628
00:38:14,914 --> 00:38:17,282
Karl came from the jazz world.
629
00:38:17,415 --> 00:38:18,851
He was more appealing to Jeff
630
00:38:18,985 --> 00:38:21,419
than somebody who does
pop string arrangements.
631
00:38:21,554 --> 00:38:23,589
Britney Spears would
call, and I said,
632
00:38:23,723 --> 00:38:25,858
"No, that's... you're
calling the wrong person."
633
00:38:27,392 --> 00:38:32,064
Jeff listened to Bill Evans.
He listened to Shostakovich.
634
00:38:33,431 --> 00:38:35,735
♪ ♪ -Have you heard
of any pop singers
635
00:38:35,868 --> 00:38:39,005
even knowing who
Shostakovich is?
636
00:38:39,138 --> 00:38:42,542
♪ -♪ And the rain is falling ♪
637
00:38:42,675 --> 00:38:45,310
♪ And I believe ♪
638
00:38:45,443 --> 00:38:46,779
It was the same way
639
00:38:46,946 --> 00:38:48,480
that Led Zeppelin
used orchestrations.
640
00:38:48,614 --> 00:38:50,283
Any orchestra leader
would have loved
641
00:38:50,415 --> 00:38:51,918
to have had their day with Jeff,
642
00:38:52,051 --> 00:38:54,754
to be able to just
go to the moon.
643
00:38:56,354 --> 00:39:00,626
People who sing high lose power.
Jeff actually gains power.
644
00:39:01,060 --> 00:39:03,529
His range was
like four octaves.
645
00:39:04,030 --> 00:39:05,832
You think you're
coming to a peak,
646
00:39:05,965 --> 00:39:07,600
and then he goes
one step further
647
00:39:07,733 --> 00:39:09,302
and then he goes
another step further.
648
00:39:09,434 --> 00:39:13,005
♪ Oh! ♪
649
00:39:13,139 --> 00:39:16,576
♪ Oh! ♪
650
00:39:16,709 --> 00:39:22,148
♪ Oh! ♪
651
00:39:22,347 --> 00:39:24,584
♪ Yeah, whoo ♪
652
00:39:24,717 --> 00:39:28,221
"Grace" is one of those songs that would
inspire me to pick up the guitar and play,
653
00:39:28,353 --> 00:39:29,856
and then I'd start to
654
00:39:29,989 --> 00:39:32,658
kind of... find something
that made me feel like that,
655
00:39:32,792 --> 00:39:35,094
and fail miserably at
it, put the guitar back.
656
00:39:35,228 --> 00:39:38,396
♪ Oh, oh! ♪
657
00:39:45,972 --> 00:39:49,308
Jeff said, "I want you
to shoot my album cover."
658
00:39:50,042 --> 00:39:54,714
I had all the contact sheets,
and Jeff just went... boing,
659
00:39:54,847 --> 00:39:56,782
"That's it. That's the cover."
660
00:39:57,250 --> 00:39:58,501
It's completely iconic.
661
00:39:58,584 --> 00:40:00,620
He already looks
like he's Sinatra.
662
00:40:01,320 --> 00:40:03,756
The folks at the
company didn't like
663
00:40:03,890 --> 00:40:05,157
the glittery gold jacket.
664
00:40:05,291 --> 00:40:07,927
"Yeah, that's a little
too effeminate."
665
00:40:08,060 --> 00:40:09,195
And Jeff's like,
666
00:40:09,427 --> 00:40:11,396
"You gave me creative
control. I choose that."
667
00:40:11,831 --> 00:40:15,167
♪ And I feel them
Drown my name ♪
668
00:40:15,301 --> 00:40:18,638
♪ Was so easy to know ♪
669
00:40:18,771 --> 00:40:22,508
♪ And forget with this kiss ♪
670
00:40:22,642 --> 00:40:26,178
♪ Well, I'm not afraid to go ♪
671
00:40:26,312 --> 00:40:33,418
♪ But it goes so slow ♪
672
00:40:40,293 --> 00:40:42,929
Seven originals, three covers.
673
00:40:43,062 --> 00:40:46,431
♪ Wait in the fire ♪
674
00:40:46,565 --> 00:40:49,068
♪ Wait in the fire ♪
675
00:40:49,201 --> 00:40:52,004
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
676
00:40:52,138 --> 00:40:54,607
He made a record that no
one else could ever have
677
00:40:54,740 --> 00:40:58,544
come close to making as a
first record, it's uncanny.
678
00:40:58,678 --> 00:41:01,681
Now, it's like a
legendary album.
679
00:41:01,814 --> 00:41:04,449
People know me better for
that than for my own music.
680
00:41:06,018 --> 00:41:10,423
♪ Oh, yeah, wait in the fire ♪
681
00:41:16,929 --> 00:41:19,799
-That was all right.
-It was great.
682
00:41:22,735 --> 00:41:24,103
I remember...
683
00:41:24,870 --> 00:41:27,707
putting it in the CD
player in my car...
684
00:41:32,411 --> 00:41:34,046
and I was...
685
00:41:35,114 --> 00:41:40,186
overwhelmed with the mastery,
and the musicianship...
686
00:41:41,087 --> 00:41:42,588
and the poetry.
687
00:41:44,357 --> 00:41:45,357
And...
688
00:41:46,659 --> 00:41:48,828
and the vocal performances...
689
00:41:50,196 --> 00:41:51,764
were beyond anything
690
00:41:51,897 --> 00:41:55,534
I had imagined he
was capable of.
691
00:41:57,303 --> 00:42:00,239
♪ Ooh ♪
692
00:42:10,816 --> 00:42:14,053
Boy! France,
Australia, UK, huge.
693
00:42:14,186 --> 00:42:17,556
"Grace" was huge! It
was a monster hit.
694
00:42:18,190 --> 00:42:20,159
US, moderate.
695
00:42:24,430 --> 00:42:26,032
♪ Oh ♪
696
00:42:26,165 --> 00:42:28,325
As a child, I lived
in Los Angeles.
697
00:42:28,701 --> 00:42:30,870
I mean, you see
people getting signed,
698
00:42:31,003 --> 00:42:33,507
dreams totally inflated falsely.
699
00:42:34,206 --> 00:42:36,742
But I really admire
artists allowed to fail,
700
00:42:36,876 --> 00:42:38,010
are allowed to be human,
701
00:42:38,144 --> 00:42:40,012
allowed to make the
most glorious dances
702
00:42:40,146 --> 00:42:42,815
they could ever imagine,
and totally fall,
703
00:42:42,948 --> 00:42:44,884
and get back up
'cause it's all human.
704
00:42:45,017 --> 00:42:47,820
But if you're like this side
of, you know, Danny Partridge,
705
00:42:47,953 --> 00:42:49,822
it's just, like,
totally impossible.
706
00:42:51,824 --> 00:42:53,793
It's the era of grunge.
707
00:42:53,926 --> 00:42:55,411
And Jeff was a real
counterweight to that.
708
00:42:55,494 --> 00:42:58,532
He was part of this
downtown New York scene.
709
00:43:02,201 --> 00:43:04,837
Back then Jeff defied genres.
710
00:43:04,970 --> 00:43:07,273
Jeff tested boundaries.
711
00:43:08,274 --> 00:43:11,343
Jeff challenged traditional
male, female roles.
712
00:43:12,111 --> 00:43:14,480
So, his music was
not easy to fit
713
00:43:14,613 --> 00:43:18,217
into the dozen radio categories.
714
00:43:23,322 --> 00:43:26,158
And yet Jeff was
also influenced
715
00:43:26,292 --> 00:43:28,928
by some of the
artists that came out
716
00:43:29,061 --> 00:43:31,931
in the late '80s and
early '90s from Seattle.
717
00:43:33,365 --> 00:43:35,801
Soundgarden was
playing in London,
718
00:43:36,268 --> 00:43:39,371
and I don't think
I quite realized
719
00:43:39,506 --> 00:43:43,042
what a huge Soundgarden
fan Jeff was.
720
00:43:43,577 --> 00:43:46,513
♪ You've been taken ♪
721
00:43:47,379 --> 00:43:49,615
Oh, my goodness, this
is where he could be
722
00:43:49,748 --> 00:43:52,818
like a little, you know,
annoying brother, like,
723
00:43:52,952 --> 00:43:56,422
"You have to take me.
I'm coming with you."
724
00:43:58,390 --> 00:44:01,327
He just magically
showed up one day,
725
00:44:01,460 --> 00:44:02,862
and it was on.
726
00:44:03,462 --> 00:44:06,332
It was a beautiful,
beautiful friendship
727
00:44:06,465 --> 00:44:08,000
between he and Chris.
728
00:44:08,334 --> 00:44:11,237
There was a sense of
mischief with this...
729
00:44:12,171 --> 00:44:15,474
almost soulmate understanding.
730
00:44:16,275 --> 00:44:18,177
Chris Cornell does
it really well.
731
00:44:18,310 --> 00:44:20,580
He's, like, the one of
the few people I've met
732
00:44:20,713 --> 00:44:24,283
that makes his life
work, his ordinary life,
733
00:44:24,416 --> 00:44:26,752
'cause without ordinary
life, there's no art.
734
00:44:29,523 --> 00:44:32,258
How would you like your
fans to think of you?
735
00:44:33,092 --> 00:44:35,327
Just as a... Really as a guy
736
00:44:35,461 --> 00:44:38,430
that's just, like, a
really good storyteller.
737
00:44:38,565 --> 00:44:41,433
Just somebody who does
a job that they enjoy.
738
00:44:42,001 --> 00:44:43,603
Of course, it was incredible
739
00:44:43,736 --> 00:44:47,873
that so many people
reacted to his music,
740
00:44:48,575 --> 00:44:51,343
but the fame that
went along with that
741
00:44:51,477 --> 00:44:53,846
was not the fun part.
742
00:44:55,381 --> 00:44:58,250
Even when he acted confident,
it was kind of an act.
743
00:44:58,384 --> 00:45:01,521
It was him channeling that
bravely as a character,
744
00:45:01,655 --> 00:45:03,822
but I still think that
really insecure person
745
00:45:03,956 --> 00:45:05,724
was always there.
746
00:45:06,058 --> 00:45:08,077
Well, everybody is
sensitive, but sometimes,
747
00:45:08,160 --> 00:45:10,229
men don't wanna recognize it.
748
00:45:11,163 --> 00:45:13,149
I don't even want people to
really think of me as a face,
749
00:45:13,232 --> 00:45:16,202
or a name, or a body, or
anything, just the music,
750
00:45:16,603 --> 00:45:17,637
'cause when I'm dead...
751
00:45:18,572 --> 00:45:20,839
that's the only thing
that'll be around.
752
00:45:28,447 --> 00:45:30,849
How he was being examined
under a microscope
753
00:45:30,983 --> 00:45:32,318
was so intense,
754
00:45:32,718 --> 00:45:37,356
'cause that quality he had
to disappear in the moment...
755
00:45:38,224 --> 00:45:41,794
ultimately amounted
to not showing up
756
00:45:41,927 --> 00:45:43,362
where I was.
757
00:45:45,331 --> 00:45:50,035
One night, he didn't come home,
and this was Valentine's Day.
758
00:45:50,169 --> 00:45:51,904
By 03:00 or 04:00
in the morning,
759
00:45:52,037 --> 00:45:54,773
I was calling hospitals
around New York City.
760
00:45:55,274 --> 00:45:59,812
And then he just sauntered in.
He had been out with friends.
761
00:46:00,846 --> 00:46:04,083
♪ Maybe I'm too young ♪
762
00:46:10,690 --> 00:46:12,024
♪ But tonight... ♪
763
00:46:12,224 --> 00:46:13,976
Hi, Rebecca, it's nine o'clock
764
00:46:14,059 --> 00:46:16,028
and I fucking couldn't
get into your show,
765
00:46:16,161 --> 00:46:18,130
'cause I got there too
close to eight o'clock.
766
00:46:18,264 --> 00:46:21,534
I'm so disappointed. I
really wanna see you.
767
00:46:24,403 --> 00:46:27,873
♪ Too young to hold on ♪
768
00:46:28,675 --> 00:46:33,546
♪ And too old To just
break free and run ♪
769
00:46:35,414 --> 00:46:37,249
During his
record-release party,
770
00:46:37,383 --> 00:46:41,688
I had a backstage pass. He'd
handwritten my name on it.
771
00:46:42,321 --> 00:46:45,558
His manager was at
the door, and he went,
772
00:46:45,692 --> 00:46:48,193
"You can't go in
now. Sit over there."
773
00:46:48,961 --> 00:46:50,396
Two hours went by,
774
00:46:51,030 --> 00:46:52,649
I went to the door, and
I turned the handle,
775
00:46:52,732 --> 00:46:53,999
and I walked in...
776
00:46:54,133 --> 00:46:55,901
...and it was a
mostly empty room.
777
00:46:56,035 --> 00:46:58,370
♪ Gets carried away ♪
778
00:46:58,605 --> 00:47:01,340
They said Jeff left,
like, over an hour ago.
779
00:47:01,473 --> 00:47:03,777
He must have gone
out a back door.
780
00:47:04,577 --> 00:47:06,713
The next morning, he
was so apologetic,
781
00:47:06,845 --> 00:47:08,914
and really upset...
782
00:47:10,249 --> 00:47:12,484
but I felt resigned.
783
00:47:13,419 --> 00:47:16,388
I didn't wanna be an appendage,
I didn't wanna be in his world
784
00:47:16,523 --> 00:47:18,824
if he didn't really
want me there.
785
00:47:24,597 --> 00:47:29,468
♪ So, I'll wait for
you And I'll burn ♪
786
00:47:30,670 --> 00:47:34,340
♪ Will I ever see
Your sweet return? ♪
787
00:47:34,473 --> 00:47:36,643
The hard part about
letting go was like,
788
00:47:36,776 --> 00:47:40,112
"I hope he will
have good people,"
789
00:47:40,245 --> 00:47:42,881
because he didn't have
any self-protection.
790
00:47:43,015 --> 00:47:46,485
♪ It's never over ♪
791
00:47:46,686 --> 00:47:52,925
♪ She's the tear that hangs
Inside my soul forever ♪
792
00:47:56,195 --> 00:48:00,232
♪ Love, lover ♪
793
00:48:00,834 --> 00:48:02,201
♪ Lover ♪
794
00:48:02,334 --> 00:48:07,039
♪ Lover, lover, lover ♪
795
00:48:07,172 --> 00:48:10,909
♪ Love, love, love ♪
796
00:48:11,110 --> 00:48:15,881
♪ Lover ♪
797
00:48:16,014 --> 00:48:21,387
♪ You should've come over ♪
798
00:48:22,888 --> 00:48:29,995
♪ 'Cause it's not too late ♪
799
00:48:40,072 --> 00:48:42,040
When Rebecca and him split,
800
00:48:42,174 --> 00:48:46,011
he just kind of looked like a
different person for a while.
801
00:48:53,452 --> 00:48:55,822
There was a time when
I was in New York
802
00:48:55,954 --> 00:49:00,392
and we spent some time together,
and... we met at a bar.
803
00:49:00,527 --> 00:49:03,195
And this jazz band
is really loud,
804
00:49:03,328 --> 00:49:05,497
so it was impossible
for us to talk.
805
00:49:06,398 --> 00:49:10,804
We started writing
each other messages.
806
00:49:11,538 --> 00:49:14,940
For a lot of it, I think he
was trying to be seductive...
807
00:49:16,108 --> 00:49:17,677
but...
808
00:49:17,811 --> 00:49:19,429
...it was, like, really
not where I wanted to go.
809
00:49:23,783 --> 00:49:28,688
There was a very boundary-less
kind of liquid feeling to him.
810
00:49:29,321 --> 00:49:31,858
He felt very desperate
to self-medicate
811
00:49:31,990 --> 00:49:35,327
with, you know, making us
into a sexual relationship.
812
00:49:37,831 --> 00:49:39,998
I remember getting
kind of frustrated,
813
00:49:40,633 --> 00:49:44,236
and writing, "You
need love, not sex."
814
00:49:46,438 --> 00:49:48,307
Generally, I love
to rush in there,
815
00:49:48,440 --> 00:49:50,743
and try to fix a broken guy,
816
00:49:50,877 --> 00:49:57,115
but that liquid, watery quality
just felt very tidal-wavy.
817
00:49:59,953 --> 00:50:02,087
He was very hard on himself.
818
00:50:02,221 --> 00:50:04,524
Like, sometimes I
got the sense that...
819
00:50:05,658 --> 00:50:09,361
he felt that there were
good and evil forces,
820
00:50:09,495 --> 00:50:11,531
you know, at play within him.
821
00:50:19,338 --> 00:50:22,140
Music, I don't know,
it'll save you.
822
00:50:22,274 --> 00:50:23,776
One, two, three!
823
00:50:24,142 --> 00:50:26,513
♪ ♪ -
824
00:50:26,646 --> 00:50:29,114
♪ Lover, you
should've Come over ♪
825
00:50:29,682 --> 00:50:32,351
♪ Lover, you should've
Come over, whoo-hoo! ♪
826
00:50:32,652 --> 00:50:35,955
♪ Lover, don't forget To
bring the Coors, whoo! ♪
827
00:50:36,321 --> 00:50:37,857
Matt Johnson on drums.
828
00:50:38,457 --> 00:50:40,425
The bass player, Mick Grøndahl.
829
00:50:40,560 --> 00:50:42,294
-I'm Mick Grøndahl.
-And I'm Jeff Buckley.
830
00:50:42,427 --> 00:50:44,764
And you're watching
120 Minutes on MTV.
831
00:50:45,732 --> 00:50:47,700
He asked me to
join the band too.
832
00:50:47,834 --> 00:50:50,202
Sometimes I think
Jeff wanted me,
833
00:50:50,335 --> 00:50:53,105
because I was a
connection to Rebecca,
834
00:50:53,238 --> 00:50:54,239
and those memories.
835
00:50:55,040 --> 00:50:57,409
I think that it was clear
that Michael didn't know
836
00:50:57,544 --> 00:50:59,344
how to play the guitar.
837
00:50:59,478 --> 00:51:02,047
Yeah, all right,
there were tube socks.
838
00:51:02,180 --> 00:51:03,482
They were tube socks.
839
00:51:03,616 --> 00:51:05,050
But it was about personality.
840
00:51:05,183 --> 00:51:06,619
It was about people.
841
00:51:06,753 --> 00:51:08,304
I would have my
amp really quiet.
842
00:51:08,387 --> 00:51:09,923
Jeff would slowly
turn it back up,
843
00:51:10,055 --> 00:51:11,925
you know, and I'd get all tight.
844
00:51:12,090 --> 00:51:14,459
He always told me not to
be afraid of the mistakes.
845
00:51:14,594 --> 00:51:16,395
Don't use your brain the
way you were using it
846
00:51:16,529 --> 00:51:20,633
30 seconds ago. You know? In
fact, don't use it at all.
847
00:51:20,767 --> 00:51:22,207
Matt, in particular,
was just so good
848
00:51:22,334 --> 00:51:24,771
at following Jeff
wherever Jeff was going.
849
00:51:28,073 --> 00:51:31,109
That musical chemistry they
had is very hard to come by.
850
00:51:31,243 --> 00:51:32,512
My name is Jeff Buckley,
851
00:51:32,645 --> 00:51:34,446
this is my band, and
this is our tacky abode.
852
00:51:34,747 --> 00:51:36,967
On the outside, it looks like
a huge black phallus of death.
853
00:51:37,050 --> 00:51:39,484
It's a Velcro clock.
854
00:51:39,619 --> 00:51:41,486
He's like, "Okay, I want you."
855
00:51:41,988 --> 00:51:43,488
Until I got sober,
856
00:51:43,957 --> 00:51:46,960
drugs and alcohol had been
a big part of my life,
857
00:51:47,092 --> 00:51:48,393
which we connected on,
858
00:51:48,528 --> 00:51:50,797
because of, you know,
his father's situation.
859
00:51:50,930 --> 00:51:52,699
So, it just fell
out of your pocket?
860
00:51:56,636 --> 00:51:58,538
It's a huge cliché
that, you know,
861
00:51:58,671 --> 00:52:00,773
bands are like
families. But they are.
862
00:52:00,907 --> 00:52:01,907
Whoo!
863
00:52:05,210 --> 00:52:08,180
♪ Thank you! ♪
864
00:52:11,249 --> 00:52:16,188
The infamous American
Legion Hall concert...
865
00:52:16,923 --> 00:52:20,893
was the first one
that Jeff was in town
866
00:52:21,027 --> 00:52:24,030
since he started the tour.
867
00:52:24,162 --> 00:52:26,431
All of the relatives, the
friends of the relatives,
868
00:52:26,599 --> 00:52:29,002
the relatives of the
friends of the relatives,
869
00:52:29,134 --> 00:52:30,703
all wanted to go to the concert.
870
00:52:32,237 --> 00:52:35,875
We filled the last two rows.
871
00:52:36,009 --> 00:52:37,510
The Tasmanian devil was...
872
00:52:37,644 --> 00:52:40,445
The... the pack showed up.
873
00:52:40,580 --> 00:52:43,950
And there was no beer left,
there was nothing left.
874
00:52:44,083 --> 00:52:47,152
Everything was, like,
wiped out before the show.
875
00:52:47,687 --> 00:52:49,022
Let's just say that
876
00:52:49,154 --> 00:52:51,057
as soon as there
was an opportunity
877
00:52:51,189 --> 00:52:53,492
to become part of
the inner circle
878
00:52:53,626 --> 00:52:57,229
of a rock star, it
was very attractive.
879
00:52:57,797 --> 00:53:02,300
The promoters came to me, and
said, "We have a situation."
880
00:53:02,434 --> 00:53:03,936
I go outside and I...
881
00:53:05,571 --> 00:53:07,122
...realize it's
Jeff's mother...
882
00:53:07,205 --> 00:53:10,409
...sitting in a car with
her... one of her girlfriends,
883
00:53:10,943 --> 00:53:12,512
just... smoking pot.
884
00:53:12,645 --> 00:53:14,279
You know, "Hi, Gene.
What's up, hey?"
885
00:53:14,413 --> 00:53:16,949
"Well, Mary, listen,
you gotta, you know...
886
00:53:17,083 --> 00:53:19,552
you gotta curtail this.
You're gonna get arrested."
887
00:53:20,086 --> 00:53:22,421
And I go back
inside to tell Jeff
888
00:53:22,555 --> 00:53:24,023
that the show's
gonna be canceled
889
00:53:24,189 --> 00:53:25,809
'cause his mother was
outside in the parking lot,
890
00:53:25,892 --> 00:53:28,193
smoking pot.
891
00:53:28,326 --> 00:53:32,832
Hey! Are you there? This
is your big, sexy son.
892
00:53:32,965 --> 00:53:36,035
I think you should really not,
like, set yourself up like that
893
00:53:36,169 --> 00:53:39,872
when you're, like,
"Fucking light up a doob,
894
00:53:40,272 --> 00:53:41,708
light up a fucking joint."
895
00:53:41,841 --> 00:53:44,811
"What? We're in the parking
lot. It's like over there..."
896
00:53:44,944 --> 00:53:48,447
"It's California. What?"
"No, no, no, no, no."
897
00:53:55,588 --> 00:53:58,558
We ended up in Iowa City,
and opening up for us
898
00:53:58,691 --> 00:54:01,160
were The Dambuilders
and then the Grifters.
899
00:54:01,293 --> 00:54:04,496
My booking agent said,
"Tim Buckley's son, Jeff,
900
00:54:04,630 --> 00:54:07,633
who had taken New York by storm
901
00:54:07,767 --> 00:54:10,469
was going to be on this
tour as the headliner."
902
00:54:11,938 --> 00:54:14,741
Joan Wasser was one
of the heavyweights
903
00:54:14,874 --> 00:54:18,978
in the music world, being
a tough-ass cool female
904
00:54:19,112 --> 00:54:22,982
coming up in the '90s
through the music scene.
905
00:54:23,116 --> 00:54:24,717
♪ Control! ♪
906
00:54:28,286 --> 00:54:29,488
♪ Wake up... ♪
907
00:54:29,689 --> 00:54:31,007
Lots of power, lots of shiny.
908
00:54:31,090 --> 00:54:32,558
You know, lots of shiny.
909
00:54:32,959 --> 00:54:37,897
When I saw him, it
was definitely a vibe.
910
00:54:38,030 --> 00:54:41,333
We were just sort of
checking each other out.
911
00:54:45,104 --> 00:54:50,408
♪ And I'll rise like an
ember In your name no... ♪
912
00:54:50,543 --> 00:54:54,046
Well, Jeff stood right in
front of me the entire show
913
00:54:54,180 --> 00:54:56,883
and watched me.
914
00:54:57,183 --> 00:55:01,654
♪ I know everybody
here Wants you ♪
915
00:55:02,287 --> 00:55:06,092
He was rocking a, like,
I'm-worshipping-a-goddess vibe.
916
00:55:06,225 --> 00:55:10,663
♪ Everybody here
thinks They need you ♪
917
00:55:10,797 --> 00:55:14,734
Not subtle. Not subtle.
918
00:55:14,867 --> 00:55:17,236
And then hearing him,
919
00:55:17,369 --> 00:55:21,607
the thing that I thought of
was, "That's Nina Simone."
920
00:55:21,741 --> 00:55:26,612
♪ I lost myself ♪
921
00:55:26,813 --> 00:55:29,481
♪ On a cool damp night ♪
922
00:55:31,117 --> 00:55:33,920
♪ I gave myself In
that misty light ♪
923
00:55:34,386 --> 00:55:39,424
♪ I was hypnotized By
a strange delight ♪
924
00:55:39,792 --> 00:55:45,731
♪ Under a lilac tree ♪
925
00:55:45,865 --> 00:55:48,734
He sang the whole show to me.
926
00:55:49,602 --> 00:55:50,636
It was like,
927
00:55:51,336 --> 00:55:54,339
"Man, this... this guy
really knows how to work."
928
00:55:54,472 --> 00:55:56,075
Work me right now.
929
00:55:58,177 --> 00:56:00,913
I was feeling like,
"Oh, I got this,"
930
00:56:01,047 --> 00:56:03,583
and then being like,
"Oh, I don't got this."
931
00:56:03,716 --> 00:56:06,052
This person is too powerful.
932
00:56:06,185 --> 00:56:10,022
♪ Lilac wine ♪
933
00:56:10,690 --> 00:56:15,962
♪ Is sweet and heady ♪
934
00:56:16,729 --> 00:56:22,835
♪ Where's my love? ♪
935
00:56:25,771 --> 00:56:30,276
♪ Lilac wine ♪
936
00:56:30,408 --> 00:56:36,148
♪ I feel unsteady ♪
937
00:56:36,616 --> 00:56:43,789
♪ Where's my love? ♪
938
00:56:44,223 --> 00:56:46,259
♪ Listen to me ♪
939
00:56:46,458 --> 00:56:51,163
♪ Why is everything so hazy? ♪
940
00:56:51,496 --> 00:56:57,370
♪ Isn't that she Or
am I just going ♪
941
00:56:57,502 --> 00:57:04,510
♪ Crazy, dear? ♪
942
00:57:07,113 --> 00:57:11,284
That night these jocky guys
943
00:57:11,416 --> 00:57:12,885
were, like, making fun of me.
944
00:57:13,019 --> 00:57:16,055
I had this very
cartoony type of hair,
945
00:57:16,188 --> 00:57:17,823
so I was pretty used to that.
946
00:57:17,957 --> 00:57:20,559
But Jeff leapt up and said,
947
00:57:20,693 --> 00:57:24,096
"You wouldn't know a woman if
she slapped you in the face!"
948
00:57:24,230 --> 00:57:27,733
I was like, "Oh, God, that's
so romantic. I love it."
949
00:57:27,867 --> 00:57:30,970
And like, "Fuck that. I
don't need defending."
950
00:57:31,938 --> 00:57:35,875
But I came to learn that
he was someone who was...
951
00:57:36,542 --> 00:57:39,578
a really staunch
defender of women.
952
00:57:39,712 --> 00:57:42,581
♪ I feel unsteady... ♪
953
00:57:42,715 --> 00:57:44,617
All people are sensitive,
954
00:57:44,750 --> 00:57:48,453
but his sensitivity
wasn't crushed...
955
00:57:49,155 --> 00:57:53,559
like some men's
sensitivity has been.
956
00:57:54,393 --> 00:57:56,329
♪ Listen to me ♪
957
00:57:56,494 --> 00:57:57,964
It stayed intact.
958
00:57:58,097 --> 00:58:01,801
♪ I cannot see clearly
Isn't that she... ♪
959
00:58:01,934 --> 00:58:04,270
You're talking about two
amazingly talented people
960
00:58:04,403 --> 00:58:05,443
who immediately connected.
961
00:58:05,972 --> 00:58:07,540
First thing I thought
of, "Oh, my God,
962
00:58:07,673 --> 00:58:11,811
they're gonna become a band,
and it's just gonna... rule."
963
00:58:12,778 --> 00:58:14,613
♪ Yeah! Yeah! ♪
964
00:58:17,350 --> 00:58:20,319
♪ I know how you like it child
Of mine, quick and tight ♪
965
00:58:20,519 --> 00:58:23,823
♪ When girls can't stand it
When you're doin' it right... ♪
966
00:58:23,956 --> 00:58:25,691
Jeff toured a lot.
967
00:58:25,825 --> 00:58:29,061
It was a slow growth
of that following.
968
00:58:30,429 --> 00:58:31,731
♪ Doin' it right ♪
969
00:58:32,164 --> 00:58:34,834
We toured almost
consistently for two years.
970
00:58:35,668 --> 00:58:37,970
What's life been like
since "Grace" came out?
971
00:58:38,104 --> 00:58:39,422
Work, work, work, work, work.
972
00:58:39,505 --> 00:58:41,507
♪ I gotta kick 'em out! ♪
973
00:58:42,742 --> 00:58:47,780
His label, they wanted
him to be their...
974
00:58:49,815 --> 00:58:51,784
And he was like, "Well,
I have another idea
975
00:58:51,917 --> 00:58:53,352
of what that means."
976
00:58:53,486 --> 00:58:57,289
Being famous without
content, that really irks me.
977
00:58:57,423 --> 00:59:01,360
He did get discredited by
certain, like, "cool" musicians
978
00:59:01,494 --> 00:59:02,862
because of the branding.
979
00:59:03,429 --> 00:59:06,832
He was chosen to be
in People magazine's
980
00:59:06,966 --> 00:59:09,001
"The 50 Most Beautiful People"
981
00:59:09,135 --> 00:59:10,903
or whatever the hell
that was called.
982
00:59:11,037 --> 00:59:13,873
The poor relatives, I think
one of them walked up to him,
983
00:59:14,006 --> 00:59:15,808
"Look, Jeff! Look
what I've got!"
984
00:59:15,941 --> 00:59:19,011
And he took her Sharpie
and just went...
985
00:59:19,945 --> 00:59:21,614
We went to every news stand
986
00:59:21,747 --> 00:59:24,583
and bought every single one.
He spent hundreds of dollars
987
00:59:24,717 --> 00:59:26,886
so that no one would see
it in his neighborhood.
988
00:59:27,019 --> 00:59:29,755
The entire show is dedicated
to People magazine.
989
00:59:29,889 --> 00:59:32,725
♪ Let me kick out
The jams, yeah ♪
990
00:59:32,858 --> 00:59:35,928
It was becoming an increasingly
stressful environment.
991
00:59:36,062 --> 00:59:37,463
♪ Done kick'em out! ♪
992
00:59:38,597 --> 00:59:41,358
You're very much a public
person now. How does that feel?
993
00:59:41,667 --> 00:59:45,337
Well... I'm public
with the camera,
994
00:59:45,471 --> 00:59:47,973
but, uh, don't like TV.
995
00:59:49,375 --> 00:59:51,444
What does your TV station
wanna know about me?
996
01:00:02,054 --> 01:00:03,656
Once we got to Europe,
997
01:00:03,789 --> 01:00:07,626
I remember we felt a
little... ...sense of relief.
998
01:00:14,934 --> 01:00:16,702
Jeff Buckley is being hailed
999
01:00:16,836 --> 01:00:18,204
as the next Bob Dylan.
1000
01:00:21,907 --> 01:00:23,776
He has talent to
burn, and we recommend
1001
01:00:23,909 --> 01:00:25,512
that you give this
album a listen.
1002
01:00:27,880 --> 01:00:30,049
♪ People came there from... ♪
1003
01:00:30,182 --> 01:00:32,818
The album was doing
better over there.
1004
01:00:36,088 --> 01:00:38,791
Radiohead came to
a show in London
1005
01:00:38,924 --> 01:00:40,659
and was so inspired by Jeff
1006
01:00:40,793 --> 01:00:43,295
that they left the concert
and went right to the studio
1007
01:00:43,429 --> 01:00:45,698
and recorded "Fake
Plastic Trees."
1008
01:00:45,831 --> 01:00:47,266
♪ Fake plas... ♪
1009
01:00:47,399 --> 01:00:49,435
In Paris, we went to the opera
1010
01:00:49,569 --> 01:00:50,769
and walked along the Seine
1011
01:00:50,903 --> 01:00:53,038
and went to every
café that we could.
1012
01:00:55,441 --> 01:00:59,011
They fell in love with him.
And who wouldn't fall in love
1013
01:00:59,145 --> 01:01:01,380
when you do justice
to an Edith Piaf song?
1014
01:01:01,515 --> 01:01:04,683
♪ Oh, mon amour ♪
1015
01:01:04,817 --> 01:01:06,452
What about Edith Piaf?
1016
01:01:06,620 --> 01:01:11,090
-What's your attraction to her?
-To her sound, her voice.
1017
01:01:11,223 --> 01:01:14,493
♪ A toi toujours ♪
1018
01:01:14,628 --> 01:01:17,229
Her sexiness, the romance.
1019
01:01:18,297 --> 01:01:19,633
Her tragedy.
1020
01:01:19,765 --> 01:01:24,069
♪ Dans tes grands yeux ♪
1021
01:01:24,970 --> 01:01:26,705
No one could rock like Jeff.
1022
01:01:27,106 --> 01:01:28,642
But once you do "Hallelujah"...
1023
01:01:28,774 --> 01:01:32,378
...God help you.
1024
01:01:46,926 --> 01:01:48,994
This is for Leonard,
wherever you are.
1025
01:01:49,128 --> 01:01:51,063
And this is for Nina Simone.
1026
01:01:54,033 --> 01:01:57,803
♪ And I ♪
1027
01:01:58,204 --> 01:02:02,841
♪ Heard there was
A secret chord ♪
1028
01:02:03,142 --> 01:02:07,079
♪ That David played And
it pleased the Lord ♪
1029
01:02:07,213 --> 01:02:13,185
♪ But you don't really
care For music, do ya? ♪
1030
01:02:15,087 --> 01:02:19,158
♪ But it goes like this
The fourth the fifth ♪
1031
01:02:19,291 --> 01:02:23,062
♪ The minor fall
And the major lift ♪
1032
01:02:23,262 --> 01:02:29,636
♪ The baffled king
Composing Hallelujah ♪
1033
01:02:30,102 --> 01:02:33,607
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1034
01:02:33,872 --> 01:02:37,176
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1035
01:02:37,711 --> 01:02:41,080
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1036
01:02:41,447 --> 01:02:48,420
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1037
01:02:56,696 --> 01:02:58,264
We were both on the road.
1038
01:02:58,397 --> 01:03:00,466
You know, it was,
like, so romantic.
1039
01:03:00,600 --> 01:03:03,269
Like, impossibly romantic.
1040
01:03:04,738 --> 01:03:10,577
But when we were together,
we created a space
1041
01:03:10,710 --> 01:03:15,481
where nothing was too
scary to talk about.
1042
01:03:16,882 --> 01:03:19,285
We both needed that so badly.
1043
01:03:20,553 --> 01:03:24,423
♪ And she tied you To
her kitchen chair ♪
1044
01:03:24,557 --> 01:03:28,360
♪ She broke your throne
And she cut your hair ♪
1045
01:03:28,494 --> 01:03:34,833
♪ And from your lips She
drew the Hallelujah ♪
1046
01:03:36,802 --> 01:03:39,305
Interviewer:
1047
01:03:54,219 --> 01:03:56,355
My high school bullies
are undoubtedly living
1048
01:03:56,488 --> 01:03:58,991
a completely pathetic life.
1049
01:03:59,124 --> 01:04:02,227
♪ Maybe there's a God above ♪
1050
01:04:02,729 --> 01:04:05,632
♪ But all I've ever
learned From love ♪
1051
01:04:05,765 --> 01:04:11,303
♪ Was how to shoot
somebody Who outdrew ya ♪
1052
01:04:12,806 --> 01:04:16,909
We felt like we
found the person
1053
01:04:17,042 --> 01:04:19,912
that we felt the most safe with.
1054
01:04:20,714 --> 01:04:22,981
Nothing was off-limits.
1055
01:04:23,115 --> 01:04:24,551
♪ And it's a broken... ♪
1056
01:04:24,684 --> 01:04:28,120
We could just be free,
really, for the first time.
1057
01:04:28,253 --> 01:04:30,889
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1058
01:04:31,791 --> 01:04:34,860
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1059
01:04:35,628 --> 01:04:38,897
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1060
01:04:39,799 --> 01:04:46,438
♪ Hallelu... ♪
1061
01:04:50,876 --> 01:04:53,445
♪ Jah ♪
1062
01:05:00,085 --> 01:05:01,186
Thanks a lot.
1063
01:05:06,659 --> 01:05:09,378
What is the connecting thread?
Because you'll do a cover
1064
01:05:09,461 --> 01:05:13,966
of Bad Brains or of The
Smiths or of Edith Piaf or...
1065
01:05:14,099 --> 01:05:17,369
Um... Probably, my
mindless hero worship.
1066
01:05:19,304 --> 01:05:21,223
♪ Hey, hey, mama said
The way you move ♪
1067
01:05:21,306 --> 01:05:23,409
♪ Gonna make you sweat
Gonna make you groove ♪
1068
01:05:23,543 --> 01:05:25,244
This is Jimmy Page
and this is...
1069
01:05:25,411 --> 01:05:28,414
Uh, I'm Robert Plant and, uh,
we're at the 99th festival
1070
01:05:28,548 --> 01:05:31,216
of this tour Europennes.
And it's, uh...
1071
01:05:31,350 --> 01:05:33,853
-Sorry, "Eurockéennes."
-I don't care.
1072
01:05:34,386 --> 01:05:36,656
We're at the Eurockéennes
festival, eh?
1073
01:05:37,156 --> 01:05:38,558
Vive le rock!
1074
01:05:44,496 --> 01:05:46,015
I don't think
Jeff had ever seen
1075
01:05:46,098 --> 01:05:47,966
Page and Plant live.
1076
01:05:48,100 --> 01:05:50,135
My main musical influences,
1077
01:05:50,269 --> 01:05:55,307
love, anger, depression,
joy and Zeppelin.
1078
01:05:55,441 --> 01:05:57,193
It was like he was going
to Mecca or something.
1079
01:05:57,276 --> 01:06:01,079
♪ My life happily without ya ♪
1080
01:06:01,848 --> 01:06:03,683
Backstage at the festival,
1081
01:06:03,817 --> 01:06:06,351
I felt something
over my shoulder.
1082
01:06:06,920 --> 01:06:08,086
It was like heat.
1083
01:06:09,288 --> 01:06:12,826
And I turned around, Jeff
was walking towards me.
1084
01:06:13,325 --> 01:06:15,895
He put his hand on my
shoulder, said, "Hey",
1085
01:06:16,028 --> 01:06:17,697
I love your
slide-guitar playing.
1086
01:06:17,831 --> 01:06:20,432
"Could you show me some
slide-guitar stuff?" And I said,
1087
01:06:20,966 --> 01:06:22,836
"Well, Jeff, you
can probably show me
1088
01:06:22,968 --> 01:06:24,671
some... some
slide-guitar stuff."
1089
01:06:24,804 --> 01:06:26,506
He said, "No, please,
show me," you know?
1090
01:06:26,906 --> 01:06:28,875
And he said, "Hey, Page
and Plant are playing."
1091
01:06:29,007 --> 01:06:30,993
"When I... When I get off,
if we go straight there,
1092
01:06:31,076 --> 01:06:33,880
we'll make it. We'll meet
at the side of the stage."
1093
01:06:34,012 --> 01:06:37,249
And we were both really
excited, obviously, to see them.
1094
01:06:42,087 --> 01:06:43,690
After Jeff's show,
1095
01:06:43,823 --> 01:06:46,124
I go around, where
I'm in the pit.
1096
01:06:49,696 --> 01:06:51,997
We're looking for
Jeff constantly.
1097
01:06:53,933 --> 01:06:56,435
Trying to watch the show.
We're trying to look for Jeff.
1098
01:06:58,070 --> 01:06:59,171
We looked up.
1099
01:07:00,305 --> 01:07:02,407
He's just out of my periphery.
1100
01:07:03,877 --> 01:07:05,444
Oh, shit!
1101
01:07:05,912 --> 01:07:08,615
There's Jeff, hanging,
all the way up,
1102
01:07:08,748 --> 01:07:09,649
off the scaffolding.
1103
01:07:09,782 --> 01:07:10,782
♪ Oh ♪
1104
01:07:12,084 --> 01:07:19,526
Zeppelin is at full throttle,
and Jeff is with every decibel
1105
01:07:19,659 --> 01:07:21,694
coursing through his veins.
1106
01:07:21,828 --> 01:07:24,564
You can call it death-defying.
1107
01:07:28,300 --> 01:07:31,103
♪ Oh-oh! ♪
1108
01:07:31,270 --> 01:07:34,674
The volume of music as
it passes into your body
1109
01:07:34,807 --> 01:07:37,844
turns you into an instrument
that your own ears hear.
1110
01:07:38,477 --> 01:07:41,246
There's a great deal of
comfort, in the same way
1111
01:07:41,380 --> 01:07:44,416
that a baby's greatly
comforted by their mother.
1112
01:07:47,252 --> 01:07:49,656
He looked at us and
gave us a wave, like,
1113
01:07:49,789 --> 01:07:53,793
like... said,
like, "Come on up."
1114
01:07:54,459 --> 01:07:56,663
Like, the water's warm.
1115
01:08:00,065 --> 01:08:04,169
Music, it was my mother.
It was my father.
1116
01:08:12,645 --> 01:08:14,379
When he was back in New York,
1117
01:08:14,514 --> 01:08:17,550
we went and saw Nusrat
play at Town Hall.
1118
01:08:21,353 --> 01:08:24,089
After the show,
we went backstage.
1119
01:08:24,222 --> 01:08:27,292
Nusrat, very, like, placid.
1120
01:08:27,426 --> 01:08:31,030
And here was this, like,
bouncing-around Jeff.
1121
01:08:31,564 --> 01:08:33,298
Nusrat did not
speak any English,
1122
01:08:33,432 --> 01:08:35,001
and Jeff was trying
to connect with him,
1123
01:08:35,133 --> 01:08:38,103
and then he just
started s... Oh.
1124
01:08:51,517 --> 01:08:53,786
Nusrat, like, looked
at him, like...
1125
01:08:55,253 --> 01:08:56,856
"What the fuck is going on?"
1126
01:09:02,562 --> 01:09:04,496
The smile came on his face,
1127
01:09:04,631 --> 01:09:08,034
and it was just instant
respect and love.
1128
01:09:11,370 --> 01:09:13,573
That is a universal language.
1129
01:09:16,542 --> 01:09:18,443
I didn't only just
listen to things.
1130
01:09:18,578 --> 01:09:22,582
I totally, absolutely
lionized everybody
1131
01:09:23,016 --> 01:09:24,199
having anything to do with it.
1132
01:09:26,519 --> 01:09:30,890
Some of Jeff's heroes
eventually became fans of him.
1133
01:09:31,557 --> 01:09:33,960
I was at a show at Roseland
where Paul McCartney
1134
01:09:34,093 --> 01:09:37,664
and Linda McCartney came.
And it was just amazing.
1135
01:09:37,797 --> 01:09:40,700
There is this one shot where
he's looking at me going like...
1136
01:09:40,833 --> 01:09:42,434
"Can you believe it?"
1137
01:09:43,736 --> 01:09:45,571
But some of those heroes
1138
01:09:45,705 --> 01:09:48,775
also recognized his
father's work as well.
1139
01:09:48,908 --> 01:09:51,811
That was difficult for him
'cause, like, Linda McCartney
1140
01:09:51,944 --> 01:09:54,747
knew his father
better than he did.
1141
01:09:57,984 --> 01:10:01,219
In these situations, I'm
hoping that I'm understood.
1142
01:10:02,454 --> 01:10:04,891
But with comparisons,
I'm not understood.
1143
01:10:05,024 --> 01:10:06,291
I have my own way.
1144
01:10:07,160 --> 01:10:11,363
Jeff would buy all of
Tim's CDs at Tower Records,
1145
01:10:11,898 --> 01:10:14,567
listen to them and
then throw them out.
1146
01:10:15,168 --> 01:10:19,505
♪ If it keeps on rainin'
Levee's gonna break ♪
1147
01:10:19,639 --> 01:10:21,541
Led Zeppelin was
being inducted in '95
1148
01:10:21,674 --> 01:10:23,009
into the Rock and
Roll Hall of Fame.
1149
01:10:23,142 --> 01:10:24,610
♪ If it keeps on rainin'... ♪
1150
01:10:24,844 --> 01:10:27,680
I'd never seen
Jeff so starstruck.
1151
01:10:28,447 --> 01:10:29,982
And he just started pointing,
1152
01:10:30,116 --> 01:10:34,120
"You're the one that's been
in my head all these years."
1153
01:10:34,252 --> 01:10:35,588
"It's you."
1154
01:10:36,956 --> 01:10:38,891
At one point
during the evening,
1155
01:10:39,025 --> 01:10:41,894
Robert Plant said
something to Jeff, like,
1156
01:10:42,028 --> 01:10:44,429
"You're the greatest new
singer in the world."
1157
01:10:45,565 --> 01:10:49,234
It freaked Jeff out.
He turned white.
1158
01:10:49,836 --> 01:10:53,106
Got up, I don't know what
he did, where he went,
1159
01:10:53,238 --> 01:10:55,108
but he was missing
for, like, two days.
1160
01:10:55,608 --> 01:10:57,510
Hi, it's me. Uh...
1161
01:10:57,643 --> 01:10:59,912
Where you've been?
Where are you?
1162
01:11:00,046 --> 01:11:02,264
Hi, Jeff. I haven't
heard from you. Um,
1163
01:11:02,347 --> 01:11:03,616
I assume you're blowing me off.
1164
01:11:03,750 --> 01:11:05,417
It's like you've disappeared.
1165
01:11:05,551 --> 01:11:07,987
Where could you be?
Where... where could you be?
1166
01:11:08,121 --> 01:11:11,323
This is your mom.
You can call me.
1167
01:11:14,927 --> 01:11:16,846
I need to hear from you now.
1168
01:11:16,929 --> 01:11:19,632
I noticed Jeff's
depression started
1169
01:11:19,766 --> 01:11:21,100
started to kick in.
1170
01:11:21,734 --> 01:11:23,214
Your mailbox is full.
1171
01:11:24,103 --> 01:11:26,038
There was so much on his mind,
1172
01:11:26,172 --> 01:11:28,074
but he wasn't talking about it.
1173
01:11:28,207 --> 01:11:29,976
And he just felt heavy.
1174
01:11:43,288 --> 01:11:44,690
We all, like,
1175
01:11:44,824 --> 01:11:47,160
experimented with
taking drugs and stuff.
1176
01:11:47,727 --> 01:11:49,629
It was sometimes a
bit crazy, but, like,
1177
01:11:50,129 --> 01:11:53,398
he... I never got, like, an
addict vibe from him at all.
1178
01:11:53,900 --> 01:11:56,669
Yeah, there was dipping
and dabbling and stuff.
1179
01:11:57,369 --> 01:11:58,938
Some more than others.
1180
01:11:59,972 --> 01:12:01,858
I teach you no
more karate! You...
1181
01:12:01,941 --> 01:12:03,475
But I couldn't be around it.
1182
01:12:05,244 --> 01:12:07,713
Next year, then, will that
mean a new Jeff Buckley album?
1183
01:12:08,147 --> 01:12:09,387
I have to work on it this year.
1184
01:12:09,481 --> 01:12:11,818
-Mm.
-So, something will be out...
1185
01:12:12,685 --> 01:12:15,320
No. You know what? I can't
make any promises now.
1186
01:12:15,453 --> 01:12:17,389
I'll be a corpse by then.
1187
01:12:19,125 --> 01:12:21,227
Ladies and gentlemen,
Jeff Buckley.
1188
01:12:21,359 --> 01:12:22,695
It's a great... Thank you, sir.
1189
01:12:25,330 --> 01:12:27,900
I feel like, as his fame grew,
1190
01:12:28,034 --> 01:12:32,104
the demands of success
started to irritate him.
1191
01:12:33,206 --> 01:12:35,274
The label was kind of
breathing down his back
1192
01:12:35,407 --> 01:12:36,843
for the second album.
1193
01:12:37,342 --> 01:12:41,747
I think he was weighed down
by the debt that he owed them.
1194
01:12:42,414 --> 01:12:46,418
Millions of dollars
in debt with no hits
1195
01:12:46,552 --> 01:12:48,054
on your next record, yeah.
1196
01:12:48,486 --> 01:12:50,526
Well, you're never gonna
get out of the hole.
1197
01:12:51,090 --> 01:12:54,894
No one ever gets out of
owing a record label money
1198
01:12:55,027 --> 01:12:56,662
because that's how
it's structured.
1199
01:12:57,930 --> 01:13:02,535
That probably would've
been very scary
1200
01:13:02,668 --> 01:13:04,737
to Jeff, and maybe he thought
1201
01:13:04,871 --> 01:13:09,275
that the type of deal that
he had may have been...
1202
01:13:09,407 --> 01:13:12,011
...a little bit of a deal
with the devil, sometimes.
1203
01:13:12,144 --> 01:13:13,679
That's your bed.
1204
01:13:13,813 --> 01:13:15,815
And you made it and
you have to lie in it.
1205
01:13:15,948 --> 01:13:20,152
Jeff started to spiral
around this fear that he has
1206
01:13:20,319 --> 01:13:22,555
of the loss of his
artistic freedom.
1207
01:13:23,356 --> 01:13:26,559
Columbia Records'
meetings would be very...
1208
01:13:28,160 --> 01:13:29,695
full... full of
pressure, you know,
1209
01:13:29,829 --> 01:13:31,764
when Jeff didn't
wanna do something.
1210
01:13:31,898 --> 01:13:34,100
Every parasite needs its
host, and we are them.
1211
01:13:34,233 --> 01:13:36,434
-I'm Jeff Buckley.
-And I'm Michael Tighe.
1212
01:13:36,569 --> 01:13:38,403
We've been guest-parasite
hosting tonight.
1213
01:13:41,439 --> 01:13:44,577
The label wanted the
next record to come out,
1214
01:13:44,710 --> 01:13:46,145
but they were still touring.
1215
01:13:46,279 --> 01:13:49,715
"Make another... album."
1216
01:13:49,849 --> 01:13:53,451
"Please." Oh, my God.
1217
01:13:56,088 --> 01:13:58,257
You've taken your
time, haven't you?
1218
01:13:58,391 --> 01:13:59,592
I mean... You haven't rushed
1219
01:13:59,759 --> 01:14:01,294
into recording the
follow-up album.
1220
01:14:01,459 --> 01:14:03,246
Only because of being
on the road so long.
1221
01:14:03,329 --> 01:14:05,114
Do you anticipate that
it's gonna take...
1222
01:14:05,197 --> 01:14:06,816
-months and months?
-If it takes any longer,
1223
01:14:06,899 --> 01:14:08,567
you'll find me
swinging from a noose.
1224
01:14:09,268 --> 01:14:12,138
Get in the van, eight
hours a day, every day,
1225
01:14:12,271 --> 01:14:13,940
for, like, two-and-a-half
years, bro.
1226
01:14:14,073 --> 01:14:16,742
Like, can I just have
some fucking space?
1227
01:14:16,876 --> 01:14:20,079
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
1228
01:14:20,379 --> 01:14:21,647
♪ Yeah ♪
1229
01:14:23,816 --> 01:14:27,687
Then? I was nuts.
I was fucking nuts.
1230
01:14:27,820 --> 01:14:29,454
And the last thing I need
1231
01:14:29,588 --> 01:14:32,959
is another nuts
motherfucker next to me.
1232
01:14:34,226 --> 01:14:35,962
All right!
1233
01:14:36,095 --> 01:14:38,597
And obviously
Jesus on the drums.
1234
01:14:39,265 --> 01:14:40,265
Thank you!
1235
01:14:41,834 --> 01:14:43,803
You could really
feel the disconnect
1236
01:14:43,936 --> 01:14:45,972
between Jeff and Matt.
1237
01:14:47,306 --> 01:14:48,541
And I think Jeff felt...
1238
01:14:49,141 --> 01:14:51,844
like he was being
abandoned by a brother.
1239
01:14:53,079 --> 01:14:56,615
♪ Sometimes I feel Like
I don't have a partner ♪
1240
01:15:01,187 --> 01:15:03,622
So, Matty quit the
band, said he was done.
1241
01:15:05,825 --> 01:15:09,228
I myself am erratic.
Music is erratic.
1242
01:15:09,362 --> 01:15:11,130
If people look upon music
1243
01:15:11,263 --> 01:15:13,199
as something to
have control over
1244
01:15:13,332 --> 01:15:16,902
or something to be... uniform
and... and predictable,
1245
01:15:17,036 --> 01:15:18,971
then it's their funeral.
1246
01:15:21,374 --> 01:15:23,075
I'm gonna come home.
1247
01:15:23,876 --> 01:15:25,077
I'll record, definitely,
1248
01:15:25,211 --> 01:15:26,462
I just wanna come
home and experiment
1249
01:15:26,545 --> 01:15:28,914
and get all these ideas out.
1250
01:15:30,683 --> 01:15:32,902
Where would you like to
see yourself in ten years?
1251
01:15:32,985 --> 01:15:34,620
Ten years from now.
1252
01:15:34,754 --> 01:15:37,056
I don't see myself ten
years from now. At all.
1253
01:15:40,893 --> 01:15:42,795
"I just don't."
1254
01:15:43,829 --> 01:15:47,666
Just a blank movie
screen. Just a void.
1255
01:15:48,534 --> 01:15:49,735
What can I tell you?
1256
01:15:53,572 --> 01:15:57,877
I heard "Grace" in
the summer of '96
1257
01:15:58,010 --> 01:16:01,447
and within two weeks,
I would meet Jeff.
1258
01:16:01,580 --> 01:16:04,683
"We need a drummer. We'd
love... You come, try out."
1259
01:16:04,817 --> 01:16:06,419
♪ You and I ♪
1260
01:16:06,552 --> 01:16:10,489
Jeff had so much...
fear around this record.
1261
01:16:10,956 --> 01:16:12,224
He wasn't ready.
1262
01:16:13,225 --> 01:16:15,394
He is questioning everything.
1263
01:16:15,529 --> 01:16:19,331
"Was the first album a
fluke? Am I an imposter?"
1264
01:16:22,501 --> 01:16:27,541
"Grace" was a compilation of
everything that he had done
1265
01:16:27,673 --> 01:16:29,308
until he was 27.
1266
01:16:29,442 --> 01:16:32,745
He wondered, "Do I have
another record in me?"
1267
01:16:32,878 --> 01:16:34,947
"Do I need another 27 years?"
1268
01:16:35,081 --> 01:16:37,116
Then you have the
record company guys
1269
01:16:37,249 --> 01:16:40,252
coming down to check in on
us and see our progress.
1270
01:16:40,386 --> 01:16:42,221
I was like, "Are
you kidding me?"
1271
01:16:43,322 --> 01:16:46,258
We wanted to be able to
supply the inspiration
1272
01:16:46,392 --> 01:16:48,094
that would get him
to the next level,
1273
01:16:48,227 --> 01:16:50,696
but I think he felt he
had to do that on his own.
1274
01:16:50,830 --> 01:16:56,702
♪ Sleeping with his arms
Around the hips of fate ♪
1275
01:16:57,136 --> 01:17:01,440
♪ And his tears Scattered
round the world ♪
1276
01:17:01,575 --> 01:17:06,912
♪ Angel, go give
him His dreams ♪
1277
01:17:07,046 --> 01:17:13,986
♪ And my cold, black visions ♪
1278
01:17:16,088 --> 01:17:18,924
So many of the people
he admired had...
1279
01:17:19,725 --> 01:17:21,994
somehow self-destructed.
1280
01:17:22,128 --> 01:17:27,066
People think that, mm...
my father and the EP
1281
01:17:27,199 --> 01:17:28,734
is all there is to talk about.
1282
01:17:29,603 --> 01:17:32,506
And then to have Jeff
come from a father
1283
01:17:32,638 --> 01:17:34,306
who had died young,
1284
01:17:34,440 --> 01:17:37,243
he was really trying
to be healthier.
1285
01:17:38,344 --> 01:17:40,980
On his 29th birthday, Jeff
turned to me and said,
1286
01:17:41,113 --> 01:17:43,883
"I've now outlived my father."
1287
01:17:44,016 --> 01:17:48,020
It was a really strange
reality for him to face.
1288
01:17:48,154 --> 01:17:51,525
♪ Eyes to the burning... ♪
1289
01:17:52,559 --> 01:17:57,129
He said... "I have to tell
you something about me."
1290
01:17:57,763 --> 01:17:59,732
I'm not gonna last that long.
1291
01:18:02,001 --> 01:18:05,037
I just have to tell
you what it feels like,
1292
01:18:05,171 --> 01:18:07,006
"because I wanna warn you."
1293
01:18:07,940 --> 01:18:10,142
And I said, "I'm
not going anywhere."
1294
01:18:12,978 --> 01:18:15,414
And because of his
father dying...
1295
01:18:17,082 --> 01:18:19,752
I thought, "Of course,
you think that."
1296
01:18:19,885 --> 01:18:22,087
"That makes all the
sense in the world."
1297
01:18:31,531 --> 01:18:35,167
♪ Don't be like the one
Who made me so old ♪
1298
01:18:35,301 --> 01:18:39,772
♪ Don't be like the one
Who left behind his name ♪
1299
01:18:40,439 --> 01:18:44,977
♪ 'Cause they're waiting for
you Like I waited for mine ♪
1300
01:18:45,110 --> 01:18:48,814
♪ And nobody ever came ♪
1301
01:18:48,948 --> 01:18:52,051
♪ Nobody ever... ♪
1302
01:19:01,493 --> 01:19:03,963
At the end of three years
of touring, who do you know?
1303
01:19:04,997 --> 01:19:06,832
What sort of life do you have?
1304
01:19:07,366 --> 01:19:09,501
It's a little corrosive
and a little frustrating.
1305
01:19:09,636 --> 01:19:11,904
And, uh, that's why
I have to go away.
1306
01:19:12,905 --> 01:19:15,508
I have to find someplace
and really sink into it.
1307
01:19:36,362 --> 01:19:39,265
Jeff found this house
on Rembert Street.
1308
01:19:41,701 --> 01:19:48,274
He didn't have a lawnmower,
so it became overgrown.
1309
01:19:50,042 --> 01:19:53,513
I would visit him
for a week a month.
1310
01:19:56,115 --> 01:20:00,953
I remember lying with
him in the grass.
1311
01:20:04,189 --> 01:20:05,991
No one could see us.
1312
01:20:07,226 --> 01:20:09,629
Joan had said to me,
"Take care of Jeff."
1313
01:20:09,763 --> 01:20:13,799
"Keep his feet on the ground."
And I took that seriously.
1314
01:20:16,268 --> 01:20:21,006
There seemed to be... some
normalcy, some grounding.
1315
01:20:21,140 --> 01:20:23,409
-Some cooking.
-Uh, some cooking, food.
1316
01:20:24,143 --> 01:20:26,513
And I feel that Jeff came here
1317
01:20:26,912 --> 01:20:30,482
where there's not as much
external stimulation...
1318
01:20:31,817 --> 01:20:34,186
in order to process...
1319
01:20:36,221 --> 01:20:38,290
and not just to create.
1320
01:20:38,792 --> 01:20:44,930
♪ Take the pain Until
it all rings hollow ♪
1321
01:20:46,700 --> 01:20:48,668
Without ordinary
life, there's no art.
1322
01:20:51,970 --> 01:20:56,942
Balanced meals. Reading,
sleeping, relationships.
1323
01:20:58,844 --> 01:21:02,782
♪ Lilac wine ♪
1324
01:21:02,915 --> 01:21:04,183
Love.
1325
01:21:06,085 --> 01:21:12,024
♪ I feel I'm ready ♪
1326
01:21:12,157 --> 01:21:15,027
It felt like he
felt safe there.
1327
01:21:16,862 --> 01:21:20,299
He would wear my dresses
in the house sometimes,
1328
01:21:20,899 --> 01:21:22,501
and loved wearing them.
1329
01:21:24,069 --> 01:21:26,539
He just wanted to be anonymous
1330
01:21:26,673 --> 01:21:30,309
and be able to talk to
anybody in the bookstore,
1331
01:21:30,744 --> 01:21:33,979
not worrying if they
were talking to him
1332
01:21:34,113 --> 01:21:36,115
because they knew who he was.
1333
01:21:43,922 --> 01:21:47,126
Early one morning, I
went to pick him up,
1334
01:21:47,694 --> 01:21:49,395
and he was crying.
1335
01:21:49,529 --> 01:21:51,598
I said, "We wanna talk
about what's going on."
1336
01:21:51,731 --> 01:21:54,500
And he said it had
to do with his mom.
1337
01:21:55,134 --> 01:21:57,302
Yeah, well...
1338
01:21:59,706 --> 01:22:01,974
One day, I went to visit
a friend in Los Angeles.
1339
01:22:02,107 --> 01:22:04,076
I didn't have
Internet at the time.
1340
01:22:04,476 --> 01:22:06,646
And she had a computer
all set up, and she said,
1341
01:22:06,780 --> 01:22:09,716
"Oh, you know, here's a
chat room all about Jeff."
1342
01:22:09,849 --> 01:22:12,251
So, I sat there and read
some of the comments,
1343
01:22:12,384 --> 01:22:13,952
and they were just
a bunch of bullshit.
1344
01:22:15,588 --> 01:22:18,023
So, I said, "Hi, I'm his mom."
1345
01:22:18,157 --> 01:22:20,959
"I want you to know
none of that is true."
1346
01:22:21,795 --> 01:22:23,095
Well...
1347
01:22:24,329 --> 01:22:26,131
...that did not go over well.
1348
01:22:26,265 --> 01:22:29,067
It got back to his
manager that I was,
1349
01:22:29,201 --> 01:22:31,638
you know, "dealing
with the fan club"
1350
01:22:31,771 --> 01:22:34,373
and saying things that
he didn't want me to say,
1351
01:22:34,507 --> 01:22:37,443
et cetera, et cetera. And
he got really pissed at me.
1352
01:22:37,577 --> 01:22:40,212
Oh, hey, mama.
1353
01:22:40,345 --> 01:22:43,081
You've gotta fucking
grow up, all right?
1354
01:22:43,482 --> 01:22:46,653
You can't be a girl anymore,
ma, you gotta be a woman.
1355
01:22:47,186 --> 01:22:48,420
I had to be the man.
1356
01:22:48,555 --> 01:22:50,489
I had to be the
man in your house.
1357
01:22:51,925 --> 01:22:55,427
Just get the anger and the
pain that was rested upon you.
1358
01:22:55,562 --> 01:22:58,063
You get rid of that shit.
1359
01:22:58,197 --> 01:22:59,298
'Cause that's in me.
1360
01:22:59,965 --> 01:23:03,135
Everything you experienced
at home, it's in me.
1361
01:23:09,843 --> 01:23:12,177
We never had a "falling out."
1362
01:23:12,946 --> 01:23:14,379
And it was serious.
1363
01:23:14,514 --> 01:23:16,448
And we didn't spend
Christmas together that year.
1364
01:23:16,583 --> 01:23:20,587
He went to Northern California
and spent it with his stepdad.
1365
01:23:28,895 --> 01:23:33,298
Jeff got real serious and
turned, took my hands,
1366
01:23:33,432 --> 01:23:36,268
looked down, very dejected,
1367
01:23:36,870 --> 01:23:40,472
and said very quietly, "I
don't know how to be a man."
1368
01:23:53,720 --> 01:23:56,355
He was looking
at who raised him
1369
01:23:56,488 --> 01:23:59,258
and formed his ability
1370
01:23:59,391 --> 01:24:02,127
to deal with life on
a day-to-day basis.
1371
01:24:02,896 --> 01:24:06,465
He was looking for
answers, really,
1372
01:24:06,866 --> 01:24:08,467
from a ghost, from his father.
1373
01:24:16,208 --> 01:24:20,178
♪ Once I was a soldier ♪
1374
01:24:21,948 --> 01:24:25,785
♪ And I fought On
foreign sands for you ♪
1375
01:24:25,952 --> 01:24:29,689
Jeff could shift gears,
though, very quickly.
1376
01:24:34,493 --> 01:24:37,229
His mind worked like a... radio
1377
01:24:37,362 --> 01:24:40,465
that was tuned to all
frequencies at once.
1378
01:24:45,437 --> 01:24:47,607
♪ Manic depression... ♪
1379
01:24:49,474 --> 01:24:53,312
How you doin'? Hi. Hi. Hello.
1380
01:24:54,146 --> 01:24:55,146
I wanted to, uh,
1381
01:24:55,848 --> 01:24:58,885
share a little bit of
what's happening with me.
1382
01:25:00,019 --> 01:25:01,738
We're in big
trouble over here.
1383
01:25:01,821 --> 01:25:03,723
♪ - He said,
1384
01:25:03,856 --> 01:25:05,290
"I realized something."
1385
01:25:05,424 --> 01:25:07,694
"I think I'm manic depressive."
1386
01:25:08,695 --> 01:25:10,262
I didn't know what that meant.
1387
01:25:10,429 --> 01:25:12,147
I thought immediately of
the Jimi Hendrix song.
1388
01:25:12,230 --> 01:25:14,099
♪ Yeah ♪
1389
01:25:14,801 --> 01:25:19,438
We know so much now about
chemical imbalances and stuff.
1390
01:25:19,572 --> 01:25:23,943
And we just... I didn't.
And nobody did then.
1391
01:25:29,114 --> 01:25:31,216
He was in a really
heightened state
1392
01:25:31,350 --> 01:25:35,253
and was having really
disturbing visions,
1393
01:25:35,788 --> 01:25:37,857
like visiting the devil.
1394
01:25:38,323 --> 01:25:40,059
He took me into the attic.
1395
01:25:40,192 --> 01:25:43,596
There was a dead bird
laying on the floor
1396
01:25:43,730 --> 01:25:45,898
and his black skull candle.
1397
01:25:47,533 --> 01:25:50,235
He sent a fax to the
office and he's like,
1398
01:25:50,369 --> 01:25:52,639
"I got the cover
for the next album."
1399
01:25:55,407 --> 01:25:58,176
We comment, "And
this is too X-rated."
1400
01:25:58,310 --> 01:26:00,278
"We can't send this to Sony."
1401
01:26:00,713 --> 01:26:02,949
He said that he dreamed
he had a brain tumor
1402
01:26:03,082 --> 01:26:06,184
and he thought that
he was going to die.
1403
01:26:06,753 --> 01:26:10,023
It was what I understand now
1404
01:26:10,155 --> 01:26:11,691
to be a psychotic break.
1405
01:26:12,324 --> 01:26:14,761
The same thing was
going on with Hendrix
1406
01:26:14,961 --> 01:26:16,529
and Joplin and Morrison.
1407
01:26:16,663 --> 01:26:18,665
Chemical imbalance mixed
with some sort of trauma
1408
01:26:18,798 --> 01:26:21,668
that's only sustainable
for so much time
1409
01:26:21,801 --> 01:26:24,937
until either it gets
fixed or it fixes you.
1410
01:26:25,972 --> 01:26:27,507
I'll never forget,
he always said,
1411
01:26:27,640 --> 01:26:30,442
"I'm not gonna end
up like my father,
1412
01:26:30,877 --> 01:26:32,277
with a tag on my toe."
1413
01:26:39,251 --> 01:26:41,420
Jeff had gone to the
zoo numerous times
1414
01:26:41,554 --> 01:26:44,289
and loved the butterfly house.
1415
01:26:49,696 --> 01:26:51,463
But he felt like
the guy working
1416
01:26:51,597 --> 01:26:55,968
in the butterfly house was
mistreating the chrysalis.
1417
01:26:57,436 --> 01:27:00,907
He felt he could be more gentle.
1418
01:27:04,644 --> 01:27:06,679
Hi, Rebecca. It's Jeff.
1419
01:27:07,279 --> 01:27:11,483
Sweet dreams and, uh,
play lots of music.
1420
01:27:12,118 --> 01:27:13,886
Sing beautiful songs.
1421
01:27:14,987 --> 01:27:17,590
The last conversation we had,
1422
01:27:17,724 --> 01:27:20,560
he woke me up with a phone call.
1423
01:27:27,200 --> 01:27:29,501
He was wanting to
clarify the past.
1424
01:27:30,069 --> 01:27:36,576
♪ And in that orchard
There was a hold ♪
1425
01:27:36,709 --> 01:27:38,343
He was apologizing.
1426
01:27:39,545 --> 01:27:43,116
I remember saying, "It
takes two, you know,
1427
01:27:43,248 --> 01:27:46,719
to... to mess things up the
way we did, and this is...
1428
01:27:46,853 --> 01:27:48,054
It's all good."
1429
01:27:48,755 --> 01:27:50,757
He said he was doing
work on his childhood
1430
01:27:50,890 --> 01:27:54,193
and, uh, that they were looking
for someone to help him,
1431
01:27:54,326 --> 01:27:55,862
presumably a counselor.
1432
01:27:55,995 --> 01:27:58,396
I'm gonna work
my ass off, baby.
1433
01:27:58,798 --> 01:28:01,000
And, uh, I'll see you
on the other side.
1434
01:28:02,367 --> 01:28:04,971
For, like, two weeks, he,
like, just called everybody
1435
01:28:05,104 --> 01:28:09,675
he knew, just to,
like, have... contact.
1436
01:28:13,813 --> 01:28:16,115
I remembered him
calling me and saying,
1437
01:28:16,249 --> 01:28:19,218
"I realized that you were
right about stuff and..."
1438
01:28:19,351 --> 01:28:22,522
I, you know, I wasn't even
sure what he meant by that
1439
01:28:22,655 --> 01:28:25,490
and I didn't know how
to follow it up and...
1440
01:28:26,526 --> 01:28:27,693
It's sad.
1441
01:28:28,995 --> 01:28:33,666
Jeff was very quiet and
didn't say anything.
1442
01:28:34,534 --> 01:28:36,002
I told him I loved him.
1443
01:28:36,769 --> 01:28:41,707
♪ And in that orchard
There was a hold ♪
1444
01:28:41,841 --> 01:28:46,646
I said to him, "I have photos
of you from your childhood."
1445
01:28:46,779 --> 01:28:49,916
"Would you like me
to send them to you?"
1446
01:28:50,049 --> 01:28:52,317
And, like, in a really
soft voice, he said,
1447
01:28:52,450 --> 01:28:53,986
"I'd like that."
1448
01:28:55,555 --> 01:29:00,325
I said, "You just got to
let go and not care..."
1449
01:29:01,561 --> 01:29:03,629
If mistakes are made."
1450
01:29:19,344 --> 01:29:25,350
Barristers became his
second Sin-e of a kind
1451
01:29:26,052 --> 01:29:29,622
where he could go
and work out music...
1452
01:29:29,755 --> 01:29:31,123
♪ Fall in light ♪
1453
01:29:31,290 --> 01:29:35,427
...without having
the entirety of, say,
1454
01:29:35,561 --> 01:29:37,697
New York City find out about it.
1455
01:29:38,264 --> 01:29:41,366
♪ Feel no shame
For what you are ♪
1456
01:29:41,499 --> 01:29:44,704
I have been everything on
stage. I've been wrong.
1457
01:29:44,837 --> 01:29:46,557
I've been completely
ugly. I've been stupid.
1458
01:29:46,973 --> 01:29:49,775
I've been angry. I've
been totally in love.
1459
01:29:49,909 --> 01:29:52,511
I've been beautiful.
I've been hideous.
1460
01:29:52,645 --> 01:29:54,347
I've... I've lost my pants.
1461
01:29:55,181 --> 01:29:58,150
Uh, but I've... I've
never been bored.
1462
01:29:58,284 --> 01:30:01,921
I've never been dead on
stage. I've never been dead.
1463
01:30:03,055 --> 01:30:05,825
♪ Feel no shame
For what you are ♪
1464
01:30:05,958 --> 01:30:08,060
He left that on my
answering machine.
1465
01:30:08,194 --> 01:30:10,062
"Michael, it's
starting to click,
1466
01:30:10,196 --> 01:30:13,266
it's starting to feel like the
way the 'Grace' songs felt."
1467
01:30:13,398 --> 01:30:16,602
♪ Fall in love ♪
1468
01:30:16,736 --> 01:30:18,738
He hadn't played
anyone any of it.
1469
01:30:19,205 --> 01:30:23,408
His band was joining
him really soon
1470
01:30:23,542 --> 01:30:26,245
to start recording the record.
1471
01:30:26,712 --> 01:30:29,115
Just sometimes a... a
song gets into you and...
1472
01:30:29,248 --> 01:30:30,816
and just gets into you.
1473
01:30:30,950 --> 01:30:32,852
You know, it just happens
to you in a moment.
1474
01:30:35,588 --> 01:30:38,691
Me, Michael, and Mick each
got a four-track tape.
1475
01:30:39,759 --> 01:30:42,929
♪ Twenty-nine pearls
In your kiss ♪
1476
01:30:43,062 --> 01:30:44,997
♪ A singing smile ♪
1477
01:30:45,131 --> 01:30:50,403
♪ Coffee smell and lilac
skin Your flame in me ♪
1478
01:30:50,536 --> 01:30:54,807
I could feel that those songs
had come from a very pure place.
1479
01:30:54,941 --> 01:30:57,376
♪ A little bit
young And hassled ♪
1480
01:30:57,510 --> 01:31:01,080
He was doing it all
on headphones. I said,
1481
01:31:01,213 --> 01:31:03,649
"Jeff, you could get speakers,
and it would fill the room."
1482
01:31:03,783 --> 01:31:07,485
♪ ♪ - ♪
Lady, all the troubles are my fright ♪
1483
01:31:07,620 --> 01:31:10,623
♪ I disgust you ♪
1484
01:31:11,290 --> 01:31:16,162
♪ Feel the power You cut
the truth into you... ♪
1485
01:31:16,295 --> 01:31:18,463
He got where he needed to go.
1486
01:31:18,597 --> 01:31:20,766
♪ I could kiss you ♪
1487
01:31:20,900 --> 01:31:24,637
♪ With lines of
escape In my mouth ♪
1488
01:31:24,770 --> 01:31:27,472
He's like, "I wanna
open up a bank account,"
1489
01:31:27,606 --> 01:31:30,443
buy this house, and
I wanna buy a car."
1490
01:31:31,110 --> 01:31:35,614
He was really happy
and having so...
1491
01:31:37,216 --> 01:31:38,351
much fun.
1492
01:31:40,619 --> 01:31:45,591
♪ They say Everything
can be replaced ♪
1493
01:31:47,960 --> 01:31:53,032
♪ But every distance
Is not near ♪
1494
01:31:53,165 --> 01:31:56,702
Jeff was supposedly on the
way to the rehearsal space.
1495
01:31:57,203 --> 01:32:00,172
He was with the
guitar tech, Foti.
1496
01:32:02,842 --> 01:32:06,045
They ended up going
down to Wolf River.
1497
01:32:07,646 --> 01:32:08,981
It was typical Jeff.
1498
01:32:09,115 --> 01:32:10,516
He thought, "Oh,
it's so beautiful."
1499
01:32:10,649 --> 01:32:12,651
"I'm gonna go in fully clothed."
1500
01:32:13,919 --> 01:32:16,322
No one swims down
there. It was muddy.
1501
01:32:16,455 --> 01:32:18,924
I don't know about
currents. There were boats.
1502
01:32:19,058 --> 01:32:22,428
♪ From the west
Down to the east ♪
1503
01:32:22,561 --> 01:32:24,401
He was listening to
"Whole Lotta Love"
1504
01:32:24,530 --> 01:32:26,265
by Led Zeppelin.
1505
01:32:26,766 --> 01:32:29,135
♪ Any day now ♪
1506
01:32:29,268 --> 01:32:31,470
Love, anger,
depression, joy...
1507
01:32:31,604 --> 01:32:33,539
♪ Any day now ♪
1508
01:32:33,672 --> 01:32:35,074
...and Zeppelin.
1509
01:32:35,341 --> 01:32:39,011
♪ I shall be released ♪
1510
01:32:41,914 --> 01:32:44,984
♪ Any day now ♪
1511
01:32:45,785 --> 01:32:48,921
♪ Any day now ♪
1512
01:32:49,755 --> 01:32:54,160
♪ I shall be released ♪
1513
01:32:54,293 --> 01:32:57,363
He probably went in the water
1514
01:32:57,496 --> 01:33:00,032
as soon as we hit the tarmac.
1515
01:33:02,968 --> 01:33:05,838
We got to the house, and
it was kind of in disarray.
1516
01:33:05,971 --> 01:33:08,240
I kept thinking
1517
01:33:08,374 --> 01:33:11,477
I was gonna hear the screen
door squeak open in the back
1518
01:33:11,610 --> 01:33:12,978
and slam, you know,
1519
01:33:13,112 --> 01:33:15,581
and then he'd come to the
kitchen and we'd be like,
1520
01:33:15,714 --> 01:33:18,084
"Yo!" And he'd be
like, "What's up?"
1521
01:33:20,453 --> 01:33:22,688
Gene picks up the phone and...
1522
01:33:23,956 --> 01:33:25,991
just said, "Let's go."
1523
01:33:29,428 --> 01:33:31,831
I thought he just swam across.
1524
01:33:33,432 --> 01:33:35,935
It was very quiet and
peaceful down there.
1525
01:33:36,702 --> 01:33:40,172
And the sun's setting. You
know, it's gonna be dusk.
1526
01:33:43,242 --> 01:33:45,478
Now, there's,
like, helicopters.
1527
01:33:55,087 --> 01:33:56,672
I picked up the phone
and said "Hello?"
1528
01:33:56,755 --> 01:33:58,057
And someone said,
1529
01:33:58,224 --> 01:34:00,159
"This is Memphis
Police Department."
1530
01:34:02,995 --> 01:34:04,330
And I said, "I'm coming."
1531
01:34:10,570 --> 01:34:12,371
The car pulled up in front...
1532
01:34:13,939 --> 01:34:17,076
and it was Sergeant
Mary Grace Johnson
1533
01:34:17,209 --> 01:34:19,278
of the Homicide Department.
1534
01:34:20,146 --> 01:34:24,783
"And she said," You know... we
have to have the sunshine...
1535
01:34:26,152 --> 01:34:28,154
'cause that'll
bring the body up.
1536
01:34:31,023 --> 01:34:34,727
"If we wanna find him, you
have to stop the rain."
1537
01:35:06,425 --> 01:35:08,928
I was sitting in his
attic two or three days
1538
01:35:09,061 --> 01:35:10,362
after he went into the river.
1539
01:35:10,496 --> 01:35:12,532
And I just remember
breathing in,
1540
01:35:12,666 --> 01:35:17,571
and my breath, like,
just kept going in.
1541
01:35:17,703 --> 01:35:19,004
Like, I just, I had the, like,
1542
01:35:19,138 --> 01:35:21,407
the biggest inhalation
that I've ever had.
1543
01:35:21,541 --> 01:35:24,443
And I just felt like
my lungs puffing up
1544
01:35:24,578 --> 01:35:25,711
with air and, like,
1545
01:35:25,844 --> 01:35:28,280
my spine straightening,
you know?
1546
01:35:29,081 --> 01:35:32,985
And, um... something
switched in me,
1547
01:35:33,118 --> 01:35:38,724
and I kind of felt
like he was... gone.
1548
01:35:50,336 --> 01:35:52,171
Singer-songwriter
Jeff Buckley's body
1549
01:35:52,304 --> 01:35:54,139
finally surfaced late
Wednesday afternoon
1550
01:35:54,273 --> 01:35:57,309
at the foot of Memphis's famed
musical corridor, Beale Street.
1551
01:35:57,443 --> 01:35:59,278
As a friend watched
helplessly from shore,
1552
01:35:59,411 --> 01:36:02,114
Buckley disappeared under
the wake of a passing boat.
1553
01:36:02,248 --> 01:36:04,250
The irony wasn't
lost on anyone
1554
01:36:04,383 --> 01:36:06,352
that a man who
lived for his music
1555
01:36:06,485 --> 01:36:08,821
would be found dead at
the foot of Beale Street,
1556
01:36:08,954 --> 01:36:11,056
where he'd performed before.
1557
01:36:15,595 --> 01:36:18,097
I was in Texas
visiting family.
1558
01:36:18,632 --> 01:36:23,235
I was staring at Brays
Bayou, watching the water.
1559
01:36:24,270 --> 01:36:26,539
That was the same
time when Jeff died.
1560
01:36:33,647 --> 01:36:35,347
It was more than I could bear.
1561
01:36:41,688 --> 01:36:45,124
♪ Well, I heard There
was a secret chord ♪
1562
01:36:45,324 --> 01:36:48,494
♪ That David played And
it pleased the Lord... ♪
1563
01:36:48,628 --> 01:36:49,895
It was an undertow.
1564
01:36:50,029 --> 01:36:53,198
The Army Corps of
Engineers had actually
1565
01:36:53,332 --> 01:36:56,502
specifically dug
that viaduct area out
1566
01:36:56,636 --> 01:36:59,405
to keep it clear of
debris, so it dropped off.
1567
01:36:59,539 --> 01:37:03,142
And, obviously, being
fully clothed and weighted
1568
01:37:03,275 --> 01:37:05,077
and out there for
about 20 minutes,
1569
01:37:05,210 --> 01:37:09,114
plus an undertow, his
drowning made sense.
1570
01:37:09,248 --> 01:37:15,921
♪ Hallelujah, Hallelujah ♪
1571
01:37:16,589 --> 01:37:19,391
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1572
01:37:20,225 --> 01:37:24,897
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1573
01:37:25,030 --> 01:37:27,900
The autopsy report said he
had a beer in his system.
1574
01:37:28,033 --> 01:37:29,068
That's it.
1575
01:37:29,569 --> 01:37:31,870
I asked Rolling Stone
to please publish
1576
01:37:32,004 --> 01:37:35,307
the report to show that drugs
had nothing to do with it.
1577
01:37:35,441 --> 01:37:37,109
What's a shame is that the story
1578
01:37:37,242 --> 01:37:38,578
was very sensationalistic.
1579
01:37:38,712 --> 01:37:40,714
It was very much like,
"Well, we don't know."
1580
01:37:40,846 --> 01:37:44,283
And, unfortunately, I can't
tell you how many people
1581
01:37:44,416 --> 01:37:47,419
I've ran into in the
last 20-something years
1582
01:37:47,554 --> 01:37:49,205
who are like, "Oh,
yeah, he died of drugs,"
1583
01:37:49,288 --> 01:37:51,591
or, "Oh, he followed in
his father's footsteps."
1584
01:37:52,024 --> 01:37:57,731
♪ And from your lips She
drew the Hallelujah ♪
1585
01:37:58,230 --> 01:38:05,237
♪ Hallelujah, Hallelujah ♪
1586
01:38:05,971 --> 01:38:09,241
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1587
01:38:09,709 --> 01:38:15,615
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1588
01:38:17,784 --> 01:38:19,753
Jeff was one of the
greatest singers
1589
01:38:19,885 --> 01:38:21,253
of all time.
1590
01:38:21,387 --> 01:38:24,456
♪ Well, baby I've
been here before ♪
1591
01:38:24,691 --> 01:38:27,426
♪ I've seen this room And
I've walked this floor ♪
1592
01:38:27,560 --> 01:38:29,461
I didn't fully comprehend
1593
01:38:29,596 --> 01:38:32,431
how dope he was
when he was alive.
1594
01:38:33,499 --> 01:38:37,403
It was my first band,
and he was my boy,
1595
01:38:37,537 --> 01:38:39,539
and everything
just felt natural.
1596
01:38:40,272 --> 01:38:44,677
It was... a perfect
example of, you know,
1597
01:38:44,811 --> 01:38:47,112
youth is wasted on the young.
1598
01:38:48,715 --> 01:38:51,751
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1599
01:38:52,217 --> 01:38:55,320
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1600
01:38:55,988 --> 01:39:01,628
♪ Hallelujah, Hallelu... ♪
1601
01:39:01,761 --> 01:39:04,898
He had said, "You should
come out to Memphis."
1602
01:39:05,030 --> 01:39:06,165
"It's beautiful here."
1603
01:39:06,633 --> 01:39:08,735
And I said, "When
your record's done,
1604
01:39:08,868 --> 01:39:10,670
I'd really love that."
1605
01:39:10,804 --> 01:39:14,139
♪ Well there was a time
When you let me know ♪
1606
01:39:14,273 --> 01:39:17,544
♪ What's really going on below ♪
1607
01:39:17,677 --> 01:39:23,315
♪ But now you never show
that To me, do ya? ♪
1608
01:39:23,817 --> 01:39:25,217
We were so young.
1609
01:39:26,151 --> 01:39:28,020
Like...
1610
01:39:29,054 --> 01:39:30,723
we'd... you know,
all of those things
1611
01:39:30,857 --> 01:39:35,327
that felt so urgent and
scary, those fall away.
1612
01:39:37,664 --> 01:39:39,465
And...
1613
01:39:40,499 --> 01:39:44,069
you know, I would have
loved to see him...
1614
01:39:44,804 --> 01:39:46,606
have those things fall away.
1615
01:39:46,739 --> 01:39:48,440
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1616
01:39:49,107 --> 01:39:54,379
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1617
01:40:05,892 --> 01:40:09,929
Hey, Maruka. Hey, mama.
1618
01:40:10,329 --> 01:40:11,598
This is your son.
1619
01:40:12,297 --> 01:40:14,601
There are somethings
I have to tell you.
1620
01:40:16,936 --> 01:40:18,437
It's very special to me...
1621
01:40:19,304 --> 01:40:22,742
that you are a person
that a child came from.
1622
01:40:24,777 --> 01:40:28,748
And you are a person that
fought for their child.
1623
01:40:29,214 --> 01:40:31,518
You know, you fought
for the child.
1624
01:40:33,151 --> 01:40:35,020
You got some fuckin' cojones...
1625
01:40:35,153 --> 01:40:37,624
...baby.
1626
01:40:38,390 --> 01:40:40,660
Ma... you know...
1627
01:40:41,661 --> 01:40:44,229
anybody can be famous, Mary.
1628
01:40:44,664 --> 01:40:46,666
Anybody can be
fucking famous, baby.
1629
01:40:46,799 --> 01:40:51,004
But it takes a real
spirit, you hear me?
1630
01:40:51,403 --> 01:40:55,608
It takes a real
spirit... to raise a kid.
1631
01:40:57,442 --> 01:40:59,378
You know, you brought
me into the world.
1632
01:41:00,914 --> 01:41:03,415
A lot of my phrasing
is from you, you know?
1633
01:41:03,550 --> 01:41:06,619
A lot of my phrasing
when I sing is from you.
1634
01:41:08,453 --> 01:41:10,557
I'm glad you're my mother.
1635
01:41:11,323 --> 01:41:13,425
I'm glad you gave me
the things you gave me.
1636
01:41:16,395 --> 01:41:17,730
-Yeah.
-Yeah!
1637
01:41:17,864 --> 01:41:19,464
You know how much
I love you, ma.
1638
01:41:19,599 --> 01:41:20,767
I love you too.
1639
01:41:20,900 --> 01:41:23,636
I love you. I
love you so much.
1640
01:41:24,503 --> 01:41:26,238
I love you.
1641
01:41:30,108 --> 01:41:31,243
Thank you.
1642
01:41:33,646 --> 01:41:38,518
♪ Well, maybe I'm
just too young, oh ♪
1643
01:41:38,718 --> 01:41:45,692
♪ To keep good love
From going wrong ♪
1644
01:41:50,162 --> 01:41:52,164
♪ Oh ♪
1645
01:41:53,032 --> 01:41:59,204
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
1646
01:41:59,338 --> 01:42:05,044
♪ Yeah, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
1647
01:42:05,177 --> 01:42:11,116
♪ Oh, lover You
should've come over ♪
1648
01:42:14,053 --> 01:42:19,358
♪ Well, I feel too
young To hold on ♪
1649
01:42:20,492 --> 01:42:24,664
♪ And I'm much too old
To break free and run ♪
1650
01:42:25,397 --> 01:42:31,037
♪ Too deaf, dumb, and blind
To see the damage I've done ♪
1651
01:42:31,436 --> 01:42:37,543
♪ Sweet lover You, you
should've come over ♪
1652
01:42:38,778 --> 01:42:41,981
♪ How long Will I wait for you ♪
1653
01:42:42,214 --> 01:42:45,685
♪ Lover, lover, lover ♪
1654
01:42:45,818 --> 01:42:49,055
♪ Lover, love, love, love ♪
1655
01:42:49,187 --> 01:42:52,692
♪ Lover, lover ♪
1656
01:42:52,825 --> 01:42:59,431
♪ Lover ♪
1657
01:43:00,499 --> 01:43:05,404
♪ You should've come over ♪
1658
01:43:06,606 --> 01:43:13,746
♪ 'Cause it's not too late ♪
1659
01:43:24,090 --> 01:43:27,292
Thanks a lot,
everybody. Goodnight.
1660
01:43:33,498 --> 01:43:34,867
You were beautiful.
1661
01:43:35,635 --> 01:43:37,170
Thanks a lot. And I love you.
1662
01:43:45,645 --> 01:43:48,246
♪ Lady, all the troubles ♪
1663
01:43:48,380 --> 01:43:52,317
♪ Are my fright, I disgust you ♪
1664
01:43:53,119 --> 01:44:00,159
♪ Feel the power You
cut the truth into you ♪
1665
01:44:00,960 --> 01:44:07,934
♪ Why do you think I
did not On this rely ♪
1666
01:44:08,067 --> 01:44:10,036
♪ I could kiss you ♪
1667
01:44:10,169 --> 01:44:14,107
♪ With lines of
escape In my mouth ♪
1668
01:44:14,239 --> 01:44:18,310
♪ Ah-ha-ha ♪
1669
01:44:25,585 --> 01:44:27,787
♪ Please, let me bring back ♪
1670
01:44:27,920 --> 01:44:32,125
♪ These gifts of
mine To the woman ♪
1671
01:44:32,825 --> 01:44:35,228
♪ Stars shined on my back ♪
1672
01:44:35,360 --> 01:44:40,265
♪ As I slept and knew you ♪
1673
01:44:40,398 --> 01:44:43,936
♪ You didn't leave it all ♪
1674
01:44:44,302 --> 01:44:47,507
♪ You made an even call ♪
1675
01:44:47,840 --> 01:44:51,409
♪ My belly released the stars ♪
1676
01:44:51,544 --> 01:44:58,017
♪ And tears between the scars ♪
1677
01:45:02,454 --> 01:45:03,723
♪ Ooh ♪
1678
01:45:17,270 --> 01:45:21,541
♪ Below this we'll end here
Until the end of time ♪
1679
01:45:21,674 --> 01:45:25,678
♪ Beyond the moment
That ends our bondage ♪
1680
01:45:25,878 --> 01:45:28,881
♪ I am your failed
Husband contender ♪
1681
01:45:29,015 --> 01:45:32,384
♪ I'm your loan shark of bliss ♪
1682
01:45:32,518 --> 01:45:35,855
♪ This dream you've ridden on ♪
1683
01:45:35,988 --> 01:45:40,159
♪ Turns your world
To explosions ♪
1684
01:45:40,492 --> 01:45:43,863
♪ I need to be alone ♪
1685
01:45:43,996 --> 01:45:49,635
♪ To heal this bleeding stone ♪
1686
01:45:49,836 --> 01:45:55,041
♪ Now, smell The
rain of London ♪
1687
01:45:55,174 --> 01:45:58,611
♪ It still insists ♪
1688
01:45:58,945 --> 01:46:03,950
♪ That we beg for our ♪
1689
01:46:04,349 --> 01:46:08,054
♪ Purity ♪
1690
01:46:08,588 --> 01:46:15,027
♪ As if we are pure ♪
1691
01:46:15,161 --> 01:46:20,666
♪ In the reign Of
our contentment ♪
1692
01:46:20,867 --> 01:46:27,073
♪ As if I can think of ♪
1693
01:46:27,206 --> 01:46:30,343
♪ This ♪
1694
01:46:30,643 --> 01:46:35,281
♪ No more ♪