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PROZAC GENERATION

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A REAL STORY

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Back, back, back...

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how far can you go back?

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My parents got divorced
before I turned two.

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And since then, my father almost
He didn't participate in my life.

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And my mother,
participated too much.

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She wanted to fix
all her mistakes through me.

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One night there was something
on my pants, it was blood.

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My mother said:
"Damn! Your period.

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That's where they start
all the problems."

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She was right.

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Now my parents really
They had a reason to fight, I.

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Then one day,
my father disappeared.

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No phone, no letter,
He just left.

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I wrote for Seventeen magazine
a long letter about us.

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They wanted to publish it as an article,
but they kept asking...

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"Is your father leaving?
Will he return?

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Does it have a happy ending?"

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In reality, there was no
But I thought...

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"Whatever,
I'll give them what they want."

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Ready. It's time to go.

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Mom, please.

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Let's not be late.

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We have hours.

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Hurry, baby.
You must register at 4pm.

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Come on now.

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Lizzie...

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It's good to take your mat.

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Mother!

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Let's go.

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This is the day
most important thing in your life.

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I thought it was the wedding.

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No dear.
This is the worst day of your life.

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Yes, she is so excited.

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Mom, she looks beautiful.

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What a shame,
I wanted to look psychotic.

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Grandma is so excited
who is crying.

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It's a scholarship in Journalism,
mother.

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That's it, Journalism.

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She wants to be a writer.

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In the early days,
That's when everyone makes friends.

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I know.

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Afterwards, it's more difficult.

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Mom, I think I already have it
old enough.

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Don't be upset.

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I'm not upset.

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Why are you saying
that I'm upset?

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I'm just trying to help,
you know.

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Do you know
How proud I am of you.

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You have so much...,

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Lizzie.

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Lizzy, what are you doing?

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Let's take these things
to the car.

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I don't need to go to Harvard
to become a writer.

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Lizzie,
What are you talking about?

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At Harvard,
you will meet people...

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you will make contacts,
There will be people to help you...

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I know what I'm talking about,
Lizzie.

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I had all my life
ahead.

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You don't want to go
to Harvard?

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So wait until you don't
any more choice...

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when there is nothing, no one.
No one cares about you...

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-then you'll see how you feel.
-Mom, I didn't say I wasn't going.

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Dr. Isaacs warned me.

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Mom, I said I will.

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He said you would isolate yourself,
I would stay in your room all day.

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I'm not isolating myself, okay?

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I won't do that.

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I want things to change.

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He is well.

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So, that's what you need.

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That's it
that I was talking about.

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You'll see, Lizzie.

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It will be a world
totally different there.

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Young! I was so young!

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Take care.

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When I think, just one year
older than you...

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and I was already a housewife.

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And I was so bored
I bought a monkey.

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Just to have
someone to talk to.

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But then you arrived.

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My God!

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Lizzie, Lizzie, it's so...

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Harvard.

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-But you will stay on the fifth floor.
-I know.

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How are we going to get everything up?

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I'll find a way, mom,
don't worry.

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No, no, no...

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Hello.

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Can I help?

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You could?
But how kind.

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The pleasure is mine.

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Since second grade
She was always writing...

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The man has a "good catch"
written on the forehead,

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Any minute now she will
ask me to confirm this,

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I always helped my mother
choosing boyfriends,

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The only one I didn't comment on
that was what mattered, my father,

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That one has quality.
That's a father.

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Can you imagine with your father?
We would still be in Manhattan.

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I told him
who have already published their stuff.

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Mom, don't you think you should
take the car back?

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It's getting kind of late.

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Don't forget to eat.

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-Bye, darling.
-Bye, mom.

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Since I was little, my mother and I
we always spent time together,

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I didn't fit in
with most children at school,

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They thought I was strange,
So they made me feel like a stranger,

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And my mother took advantage
of this from an early age,

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Taking me to pieces,
spelling competitions...

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making me study, write...

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go to museums, shows,
and making me write even more,

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She convinced me that this
would take me to the "Holy Grail" Harvard,

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A place where I would be surrounded by
people who had something in common with me,

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I won't be too demanding,

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They don't need
be Springsteen fans,

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Nice to meet you.

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-Hello.
-Hello.

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You're Elizabeth, aren't you?

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Yeah, I thought I'd recognize her
from the photo book.

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I read the article you wrote
about his parents' divorce.

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It was brilliant.

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Thanks.

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I'm Ruby.

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Let's be roommates.

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Legal.

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You have no idea what
that article meant to me.

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You telling the whole truth
about your parents...

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and exposing all
their lies.

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And then meet your father
and reconcile with him.

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It was so inspiring.

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Do you smoke?

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You know, I never smoked during the day.

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Well, we're at Harvard now.

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We can do whatever we want.

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Legal.

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We will be those beautiful
passionate about literature.

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Bright, dark and sexy.

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The problem is that I'm
very seriously,

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Boys didn't use to
notice me before,

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I wasn't even on the lists
of their alternatives,

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Ruby understands,
She understands me,

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If she were a guy,
it would be perfect,

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When Lou Reed was 17 years old,
was diagnosed...

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that he suffered
of mood changes,

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He underwent treatment
shock three times a week,

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Each treatment affected him
like a blinding white light,

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And therein lies his genius...

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to embrace your own
psychic carcass...

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and create the best rock and roll
that the world has ever heard,

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I feel your cold embrace,
your malicious affection...

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lying in my room
for days on end,

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Everything is cold,
dark, silver...

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I'm scared he'll take me back
to the darkness of my sick desire,

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To a place where I'm afraid
to go because maybe I will never escape,

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I bet you
There are thousands at home.

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Cigarette packs...

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with little things written.

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Your life story?

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A diary? No?

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Please, this is killing me.

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It's a job.

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You are the most conscientious student
from Harvard.

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It's a music review.

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I'm trying to create a column
of music for the Crimson newspaper.

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Legal.

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Do you want ecstasy?

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Have you never taken it?

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The acid goes straight to your head,
right?

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Ecstasy goes to your heart.

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Are you well?

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What are you doing here?

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Oh no.

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Do you want to go back inside?

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There's a guy outside...

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I think he's looking for you.

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His voice reaches me from below
from the deck, "Come on, baby,"

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He's inside me,
where no one has ever been before,

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My dark and secret place,

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I let him take me there...

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But then, my fear returns,

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I want him to stop,

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How do you think it feels?
And when do you think it will stop?

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I don't want him in control,

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I want you away,
I don't want it to exist,

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Let's face it,

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Lou Reed should be dead.

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It's great.

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Go sleep with me
tonight?

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Don't say I didn't warn you.

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What does this mean?

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It means...
Don't say I didn't warn you.

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Excellent.

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I always wanted sex
happened the right way...

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with the right person,
at the right time and in the right place,

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-It wasn't a big deal.
-And when is it?

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-It should have been.
-At least he's handsome.

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It was my first time.

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It seems like it.

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No, it's serious.

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Are you kidding me?

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And truth.

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It can't be, I don't believe it.

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I thought I should
start having sex...

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like a normal girl
19 years old.

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I think it deserves it
a celebration.

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-We could have a party!
-A party?

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It was supposed to be discreet...

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but of course...

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Elizabeth, how great!

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Such a crazy idea!

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SEMINAL INITIATION PARTY. LIZZIE.
Everyone understood,

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But not everyone stayed
so happy,

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I wish I had thought
in something similar.

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Thanks.

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I loved your dress!

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And there?

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How can you
make something private public?

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For starters, it wasn't private.

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It was good, interesting.

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Interesting?

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It wasn't something about me...

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nothing special, it was just sex.

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All good. Legal.

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You don't look cool.

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I was guarding my virginity
for someone who truly loved me,

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That you knew me inside,

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Noah wasn't the guy,

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He told me later that,
in terms of absolute value...

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sex and drugs didn't mean
nothing for him,

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There are just two different ways
to have fun,

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Which is good...

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until a girl
test the same approach,

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Have you seen Lizzie?

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Lizzie, call you.

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-Who is it?
-Rolling Stone.

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Rolling Stone?

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The Faculty Award
of Journalism...

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from 1985...

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goes to Elizabeth Wurtzel...

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by article in Harvard Crimson
about Lou Reed.

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I want to forget everything
what happened to me before,

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I want to freeze this moment...

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forever,

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Thank you!

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-It was too much.
-No, you're too much.

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-Thanks.
-You're welcome.

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I'm thinking about the bands that come
to Cambridge and that you could cover.

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It is very rare that we can
someone who takes everything...

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and writes so clearly.

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I thought he was
trying to seduce me...

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but he is an editor
from Rolling Stone!

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How old is he?

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My God!

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What it was?

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It's my father.

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Cool!

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Just look at that!

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What?

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I don't believe he got us
left by that.

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What? What's the problem?

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I haven't seen him in four years.

263
00:22:13,080 --> 00:22:14,520
Wait a minute,
I thought you said...

264
00:22:14,760 --> 00:22:16,640
I know what I said!

265
00:22:25,400 --> 00:22:28,480
Daddy, when will you be back?
to live with us?

266
00:22:31,320 --> 00:22:33,280
I won't come back, darling,
you know.

267
00:22:33,920 --> 00:22:37,400
But mom said
that if you want it, she wants it.

268
00:22:39,600 --> 00:22:41,760
I'm sure she
I didn't say that, did I?

269
00:22:42,000 --> 00:22:43,480
She said.

270
00:22:45,000 --> 00:22:48,200
Honey,
You know that's not going to happen.

271
00:22:52,720 --> 00:22:55,840
What it doesn't mean
that I love her less.

272
00:23:03,960 --> 00:23:05,400
CALL ME.

273
00:23:08,760 --> 00:23:10,360
Who does he think he is?

274
00:23:10,840 --> 00:23:13,520
It disappears
for four years...

275
00:23:13,800 --> 00:23:18,360
and you think you can come here and take pictures
of your perfect Ivy League daughter?

276
00:23:18,680 --> 00:23:20,880
This place has nothing to do
with him.

277
00:23:21,120 --> 00:23:23,520
The least you can do is have
the decency of understanding this.

278
00:23:23,800 --> 00:23:25,720
Maybe you'd better
say something to him.

279
00:23:25,960 --> 00:23:27,320
Like what?

280
00:23:27,800 --> 00:23:29,360
I don't know.

281
00:23:29,960 --> 00:23:32,080
How is your new life?
How is your new girlfriend?

282
00:23:32,360 --> 00:23:36,680
-Lizzie, he's your father. He loves her.
-No, you don't know what it was like.

283
00:23:36,920 --> 00:23:39,000
When I was eight years old,
We went to see "The Last Waltz".

284
00:23:39,200 --> 00:23:41,240
He took tranquilizers
and fainted.

285
00:23:41,480 --> 00:23:44,880
I watched the film three times
until he wakes up.

286
00:23:45,080 --> 00:23:47,120
What kind of person does this?

287
00:23:49,240 --> 00:23:50,680
I didn't imagine.

288
00:23:52,160 --> 00:23:55,280
That article,
It was just what I wanted.

289
00:23:56,160 --> 00:23:58,680
I wrote about how I wanted
that things were.

290
00:23:58,960 --> 00:24:02,840
And the way people spoke
from the article, it gave a real impression.

291
00:24:04,640 --> 00:24:06,640
Maybe it could be.

292
00:24:08,800 --> 00:24:12,400
No, it was just a dream
that I fed for too long.

293
00:24:14,480 --> 00:24:17,400
I'm happy here,
I don't need it anymore.

294
00:24:17,800 --> 00:24:20,080
We have to go, will you go?

295
00:24:21,480 --> 00:24:25,240
No, I promised that article
to my editor by next week.

296
00:24:55,640 --> 00:24:58,480
Wow, Lizzie, it's four in the morning!
Do you mind?

297
00:24:58,720 --> 00:25:02,120
Pardon me.
Music helps with my concentration.

298
00:25:08,280 --> 00:25:11,320
Springsteen is like
a poet mechanic,

299
00:25:11,600 --> 00:25:15,280
You can feel the sweat
in your voice, the dirt on your guitar,

300
00:25:15,840 --> 00:25:18,800
When he sings,
I see voluptuous streets...

301
00:25:19,400 --> 00:25:22,840
lovers of groping hands,
crashed fenders,

302
00:25:23,240 --> 00:25:27,480
Dirt is under your nails,
and the clairvoyance in your eyes,

303
00:25:36,280 --> 00:25:38,800
Wow, Lizzie,
You haven't slept in days.

304
00:25:40,760 --> 00:25:42,840
It was perfect before,

305
00:25:43,680 --> 00:25:45,680
I know I can get it back,

306
00:25:48,120 --> 00:25:51,520
Your words twist and squeeze
and forge a story for the brain,

307
00:25:51,800 --> 00:25:54,040
But your guitar and your voice
touch straight to your heart,

308
00:25:54,280 --> 00:25:55,960
The music screams from your insides
and what comes out...

309
00:25:56,200 --> 00:25:58,520
are world conflicts,

310
00:26:47,320 --> 00:26:49,880
Damn! She hasn't slept yet.

311
00:26:53,880 --> 00:26:55,200
Lizzie?

312
00:26:56,000 --> 00:26:57,280
Lizzie!

313
00:26:58,520 --> 00:27:00,800
I don't know how to tell you this, okay?

314
00:27:01,080 --> 00:27:03,560
But you're starting to smell bad.

315
00:27:04,080 --> 00:27:06,080
This is important.

316
00:27:06,360 --> 00:27:10,000
It's not as important as your health.
You need to sleep.

317
00:27:10,200 --> 00:27:12,440
Get lost!

318
00:27:13,040 --> 00:27:15,320
I have to finish this!

319
00:27:16,200 --> 00:27:18,840
I'll get some sedatives,
are you ok?

320
00:27:24,760 --> 00:27:26,960
Noah! Come on, give it to me!

321
00:27:27,200 --> 00:27:29,400
-Noah!
-Lizzie, they're just scribbles.

322
00:27:29,720 --> 00:27:31,160
What?

323
00:27:32,160 --> 00:27:33,440
Stop!

324
00:27:35,000 --> 00:27:36,760
She became the Harvard beggar.

325
00:27:37,080 --> 00:27:39,400
-What do you think you're doing?
-She needs something.

326
00:27:39,640 --> 00:27:42,600
-Than?
-I don't know, medical help.

327
00:28:00,440 --> 00:28:01,560
Lizzie...

328
00:28:01,800 --> 00:28:03,800
You have to calm down, okay?

329
00:28:04,040 --> 00:28:06,360
I didn't say that when I was
with your penis in my mouth.

330
00:28:15,640 --> 00:28:17,960
Did you take any drugs
in the last 24 hours?

331
00:28:18,200 --> 00:28:19,320
No.

332
00:28:21,240 --> 00:28:23,320
I think I snorted cocaine
and smoked some weed...

333
00:28:23,600 --> 00:28:27,040
but it was just to do
the effect of ecstasy lasts longer.

334
00:28:27,640 --> 00:28:30,160
Aren't you forgetting anything?

335
00:28:30,400 --> 00:28:32,160
Maybe some beers.

336
00:28:32,440 --> 00:28:36,160
Have you ever thought that you might have
a problem with substance abuse?

337
00:28:36,440 --> 00:28:38,920
The only thing that comes to my mind
Now I need you...

338
00:28:39,160 --> 00:28:42,200
to give me some tranquilizers...
so I can reduce the effect of cocaine.

339
00:28:43,800 --> 00:28:45,800
And then, what will happen?

340
00:28:47,080 --> 00:28:51,240
So you don't like coming here
and don't want to talk?

341
00:28:51,480 --> 00:28:55,200
There's no need to talk, there's no
to say anything you don't want to say.

342
00:28:55,480 --> 00:28:57,000
But if you don't say anything,

343
00:28:57,240 --> 00:29:00,400
If you don't talk to me,
I won't be able to help you.

344
00:29:02,120 --> 00:29:04,920
If therapy is indicated,
don't do it.

345
00:29:05,320 --> 00:29:07,480
I'm living proof that it doesn't work.

346
00:29:07,800 --> 00:29:10,840
-So, what are you doing here?
-My friends brought me.

347
00:29:12,600 --> 00:29:14,840
Didn't you take part in this?

348
00:29:15,720 --> 00:29:18,520
Will you give me something,
doctor?

349
00:29:18,800 --> 00:29:20,880
No. Not today.

350
00:29:32,840 --> 00:29:34,120
I'm falling apart...

351
00:29:35,160 --> 00:29:37,480
I can't even finish
my article,

352
00:29:37,720 --> 00:29:40,240
Maybe Noah is right,
It's all gibberish,

353
00:29:40,520 --> 00:29:42,760
I don't have anything original
to say,

354
00:29:44,360 --> 00:29:46,080
Writing can't save me,

355
00:29:46,360 --> 00:29:48,680
Not even Harvard can save me,

356
00:29:49,560 --> 00:29:52,760
How can I escape
of the demons in my head?

357
00:29:53,720 --> 00:29:56,280
What was it then?
Did she have oral sex?

358
00:29:56,520 --> 00:29:58,600
Yes, she had oral sex.

359
00:29:58,840 --> 00:30:03,080
Miserable idiot!
How could you? How...

360
00:30:06,720 --> 00:30:08,240
Lizzie, stop!

361
00:30:11,360 --> 00:30:13,600
Lizzie, I'm going to kill her!

362
00:30:13,880 --> 00:30:15,880
I'm going to kill you, slut!

363
00:30:16,120 --> 00:30:17,400
Sam told me.

364
00:30:17,600 --> 00:30:18,440
He told me everything.

365
00:30:18,720 --> 00:30:21,240
Losing your virginity
Was it just another lie?

366
00:30:21,520 --> 00:30:23,360
You don't understand.

367
00:30:23,600 --> 00:30:25,600
You don't understand,
it was an accident.

368
00:30:25,880 --> 00:30:28,720
An accident?
Do you call this an accident?

369
00:30:30,560 --> 00:30:32,120
It was a type...

370
00:30:32,400 --> 00:30:33,280
What?

371
00:30:33,560 --> 00:30:35,320
An accidental oral sex?

372
00:30:36,760 --> 00:30:38,200
Kiss my ass!

373
00:30:38,880 --> 00:30:41,360
I could kill you, Lizzie!

374
00:30:52,920 --> 00:30:56,480
Hemingway has a classic moment
in "The Sun Also Rises"...

375
00:30:56,760 --> 00:31:00,080
when they ask Mike Campbell
how he went bankrupt,

376
00:31:00,280 --> 00:31:04,160
All he can say is,
"Gradually, then quickly,"

377
00:31:04,640 --> 00:31:06,640
This is how depression hits,

378
00:31:06,880 --> 00:31:10,080
You wake up one morning
afraid to live,

379
00:31:13,240 --> 00:31:15,560
I can't believe you're back
to stay like this.

380
00:31:15,800 --> 00:31:17,760
Do you think I want to look like this?

381
00:31:18,040 --> 00:31:19,640
I don't know. I don't know, Lizzie.

382
00:31:21,720 --> 00:31:24,560
I thought everything was going to be fine.

383
00:31:25,480 --> 00:31:28,240
I was so proud of you
at Harvard.

384
00:31:30,600 --> 00:31:32,320
That's because
haven't I visited you?

385
00:31:32,600 --> 00:31:33,720
No, mother.

386
00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:37,680
I thought everything was over,
Then I get a phone call...

387
00:31:37,920 --> 00:31:40,080
Mom, it has nothing to do with you.

388
00:31:46,680 --> 00:31:48,880
I mean,
It's nothing you did.

389
00:31:55,480 --> 00:31:57,360
Why did they put you here?

390
00:31:57,600 --> 00:31:59,320
I asked for a single room.

391
00:32:00,320 --> 00:32:01,520
Why?

392
00:32:01,880 --> 00:32:04,000
Issue of mental instability.

393
00:32:04,920 --> 00:32:07,640
Said he couldn't
live with other people.

394
00:32:07,920 --> 00:32:09,240
You said...

395
00:32:11,160 --> 00:32:12,760
did you say that?

396
00:32:15,080 --> 00:32:16,760
Your education...

397
00:32:17,000 --> 00:32:18,760
this opportunity...

398
00:32:20,320 --> 00:32:21,880
I'm sorry, mom.

399
00:32:26,040 --> 00:32:28,320
I can't face it.

400
00:32:28,560 --> 00:32:31,360
It's too much.

401
00:32:31,800 --> 00:32:34,040
It's very crazy.

402
00:32:36,320 --> 00:32:39,160
I won't do this anymore!

403
00:32:48,280 --> 00:32:53,400
I created it! I raised her alone
without your help!

404
00:32:53,600 --> 00:32:57,560
Without my help? It's me
who does everything, and I am never recognized.

405
00:32:57,840 --> 00:33:01,960
You assume the position of the one who takes the
decisions and fall apart in your face.

406
00:33:02,200 --> 00:33:05,560
What are you talking about?
You don't do anything for her!

407
00:33:05,880 --> 00:33:08,960
It doesn't do anything!
Don't even come visit her!

408
00:33:09,240 --> 00:33:13,240
Don't take her to travel,
Don't pick her up on the weekends...

409
00:33:13,520 --> 00:33:15,640
What do you do for her,
Donald?

410
00:33:15,880 --> 00:33:19,720
I'm her father, I put her in the clinic
and what do you do? Lives in Manhattan!

411
00:33:19,960 --> 00:33:22,360
Son of a bitch! Damn!

412
00:33:22,600 --> 00:33:26,080
I hate him! I hate him!
Son of a bitch!

413
00:33:31,400 --> 00:33:33,560
What's wrong with you?

414
00:33:33,800 --> 00:33:34,920
Nothing.

415
00:33:37,080 --> 00:33:38,240
God.

416
00:33:38,560 --> 00:33:40,440
-You're not...
-Pregnant?

417
00:33:40,720 --> 00:33:42,880
No, Mom, I'm not pregnant.

418
00:33:43,120 --> 00:33:45,280
Even so, it's the 80s,
that wouldn't be a problem.

419
00:33:45,560 --> 00:33:47,800
Please don't talk like that.

420
00:33:48,520 --> 00:33:50,280
What is it then?

421
00:33:59,120 --> 00:34:01,280
I don't understand you, Lizzie.

422
00:34:08,440 --> 00:34:11,800
This place is filthy.
I'll help you clean up.

423
00:34:12,600 --> 00:34:14,040
Mom, no.

424
00:34:15,800 --> 00:34:19,000
I don't have
A simple solution, okay?

425
00:34:22,880 --> 00:34:25,160
I don't know what to do, Lizzie.

426
00:34:26,320 --> 00:34:29,400
-I took a few days off from work.
-No, you can't.

427
00:34:29,640 --> 00:34:31,480
I want to help!

428
00:34:32,920 --> 00:34:35,040
God knows I have no money,
but...

429
00:34:35,320 --> 00:34:38,320
I feel much better alone,
are you ok?

430
00:34:38,680 --> 00:34:41,080
If I knew
who would react like this...

431
00:34:43,480 --> 00:34:44,600
Listen...

432
00:34:44,800 --> 00:34:46,680
I have to study.

433
00:34:46,960 --> 00:34:51,920
I've been working hard, and...
I'm in a difficult phase,

434
00:34:52,160 --> 00:34:54,520
I just need a few days.

435
00:34:56,320 --> 00:34:58,360
I'm so worried about you,
Lizzie.

436
00:34:58,640 --> 00:35:01,200
I promise I will take care of myself.

437
00:35:01,840 --> 00:35:03,200
He is well?

438
00:35:03,680 --> 00:35:05,480
And I'm going to visit her.

439
00:35:06,280 --> 00:35:07,920
I've seen enough.

440
00:35:08,160 --> 00:35:10,760
We will spend time together
in New York.

441
00:35:11,160 --> 00:35:12,960
Please, I promise.

442
00:35:13,440 --> 00:35:16,720
It's just that I have all this work
to finish.

443
00:35:18,120 --> 00:35:20,240
Maybe on your birthday.

444
00:35:23,800 --> 00:35:26,680
I promise I'll be home
on my birthday.

445
00:35:26,920 --> 00:35:28,440
We can celebrate.

446
00:35:29,040 --> 00:35:30,800
We'll have a party.

447
00:35:31,640 --> 00:35:34,760
I'll make those pear pies
that you like.

448
00:35:35,520 --> 00:35:37,080
It would be amazing.

449
00:35:43,000 --> 00:35:44,120
Hi.

450
00:35:51,000 --> 00:35:52,720
Lizzie, I love you so much.
Really...

451
00:35:52,960 --> 00:35:56,600
but you can only stay in my room
if you don't drink or take drugs.

452
00:35:57,160 --> 00:35:59,560
Please, you can't be
seriously.

453
00:35:59,800 --> 00:36:01,040
It is serious.

454
00:36:01,240 --> 00:36:02,800
Just say no.

455
00:36:04,240 --> 00:36:07,640
But, Noah, I have no reason
to stay in your room sober.

456
00:36:13,200 --> 00:36:16,480
I want to explain to Noah
how exhausted I am,

457
00:36:16,840 --> 00:36:20,440
Even in my dreams,
As I wake up tired,

458
00:36:21,240 --> 00:36:24,600
And how I'm being drowned
by some dark wave...

459
00:36:25,240 --> 00:36:26,680
but I can't write,

460
00:36:27,160 --> 00:36:29,560
And he doesn't even want to know,

461
00:36:43,160 --> 00:36:44,840
-Here it is.
-Thanks.

462
00:36:45,480 --> 00:36:46,680
Hi.

463
00:36:48,280 --> 00:36:49,640
Hi.

464
00:36:57,480 --> 00:36:59,280
Ruby, this is crazy.

465
00:36:59,560 --> 00:37:00,800
We need to talk.

466
00:37:01,080 --> 00:37:03,120
You know, it's better not to.

467
00:37:04,600 --> 00:37:07,000
I'm sorry, you know that.

468
00:37:07,760 --> 00:37:10,160
I have no excuse...

469
00:37:10,600 --> 00:37:12,480
So why did you do that?

470
00:37:14,640 --> 00:37:16,800
I'm all screwed up.

471
00:37:18,120 --> 00:37:19,760
I'm like a model
defective...

472
00:37:19,960 --> 00:37:24,040
and you don't know it,
even spend time with me.

473
00:37:26,280 --> 00:37:29,960
Some days I wake up
and I feel so empty...

474
00:37:30,200 --> 00:37:33,520
so screwed up, that I would do anything
something to make me feel different.

475
00:37:33,800 --> 00:37:35,640
Lizzie, when we were together
you were fine...

476
00:37:35,920 --> 00:37:38,200
-You were fun...
-I was pretending.

477
00:37:38,440 --> 00:37:41,080
-Everyone pretends.
-Not like me.

478
00:37:44,120 --> 00:37:46,640
Listen, we all have bad days.

479
00:37:47,160 --> 00:37:51,080
This what people say
when they don't know what to say,

480
00:37:51,800 --> 00:37:53,040
Damn!

481
00:37:53,680 --> 00:37:56,120
I don't know what to suggest either,

482
00:37:59,160 --> 00:38:01,560
People care about you,
Lizzie.

483
00:38:01,840 --> 00:38:04,120
What I want is for someone to understand,

484
00:38:04,360 --> 00:38:05,440
But no one understands,

485
00:38:05,680 --> 00:38:07,840
And that makes it harder
the tolerance of the trivial,

486
00:38:08,120 --> 00:38:09,720
It's true,
people want to help.

487
00:38:10,000 --> 00:38:12,240
I want to help her,
but I don't know what to do.

488
00:38:12,480 --> 00:38:16,360
I don't need this conversation
partner now, okay?

489
00:38:17,720 --> 00:38:18,920
All good.

490
00:38:19,960 --> 00:38:22,200
Geez, just listen to me,

491
00:38:23,160 --> 00:38:26,280
All I see is
the dark side of everything,

492
00:38:27,760 --> 00:38:29,040
Poor Ruby,

493
00:38:29,320 --> 00:38:31,400
I ruined her joy,

494
00:38:31,680 --> 00:38:34,440
Look at the sad face
and discouraged from her,

495
00:38:34,680 --> 00:38:36,880
Lizzie, I don't know what to say.

496
00:38:38,360 --> 00:38:41,560
How about...
"Damn, call the professionals",

497
00:38:53,160 --> 00:38:55,160
This must be
that part of Freud...

498
00:38:55,400 --> 00:38:58,440
where I don't say anything,
and you don't say anything.

499
00:38:58,680 --> 00:39:02,520
And suddenly...
"It's obvious that you want to sleep with your father."

500
00:39:04,240 --> 00:39:07,320
So, I must assume that you
Don't you want to sleep with your father?

501
00:39:07,600 --> 00:39:08,640
No.

502
00:39:10,960 --> 00:39:14,360
And I don't want to talk either
about my childhood.

503
00:39:16,440 --> 00:39:18,720
I don't know why I'm here.

504
00:39:20,000 --> 00:39:21,960
Why might you be here?

505
00:39:25,080 --> 00:39:27,000
I can't write.

506
00:39:28,520 --> 00:39:30,760
What do you write about?

507
00:39:31,480 --> 00:39:34,600
I write stories,
poems, articles...

508
00:39:35,280 --> 00:39:38,320
I study here because
of a Journalism scholarship.

509
00:39:41,080 --> 00:39:43,680
I've been writing forever,
I need it.

510
00:39:45,080 --> 00:39:47,480
And since when did you stop writing?

511
00:39:49,320 --> 00:39:51,120
About a month ago.

512
00:39:52,160 --> 00:39:54,880
Do you remember
the first thing you wrote?

513
00:39:55,120 --> 00:39:56,520
A poem!

514
00:39:57,960 --> 00:40:00,120
-About what?
-My father.

515
00:40:01,200 --> 00:40:03,000
Remember something
about the poem?

516
00:40:03,280 --> 00:40:06,520
I told you, I don't want to talk
about my childhood.

517
00:40:09,280 --> 00:40:12,440
It's just that I feel so stupid
doing therapy.

518
00:40:12,720 --> 00:40:14,920
Many people had
childhoods worse than mine.

519
00:40:15,160 --> 00:40:18,040
We are not talking about other people,
we are talking about you.

520
00:40:18,400 --> 00:40:20,040
I'll give you a tip...

521
00:40:20,640 --> 00:40:22,480
I'm the problem,

522
00:40:25,000 --> 00:40:27,600
I worry
for being in therapy,

523
00:40:27,800 --> 00:40:30,520
I worry
if you are not in therapy,

524
00:40:30,800 --> 00:40:33,920
I even worry if I'm not
pleasing Dr. Sterling,

525
00:40:34,160 --> 00:40:37,400
I keep thinking...
If I could be normal.

526
00:40:37,840 --> 00:40:39,640
If I could
get out of bed in the morning...

527
00:40:39,960 --> 00:40:41,680
and everything was fine.

528
00:40:41,920 --> 00:40:44,760
Right. Well, what do you think?
what is normal?

529
00:40:46,480 --> 00:40:48,920
Most people.
They cut themselves, they put Band-Aids on...

530
00:40:49,200 --> 00:40:52,040
-and continue forward.
-And what do you do?

531
00:40:52,760 --> 00:40:54,440
I keep bleeding.

532
00:40:54,680 --> 00:40:57,560
So, do you think being
It's normal to have a wound...

533
00:40:57,840 --> 00:41:00,080
make a bandage,
and continue life?

534
00:41:01,040 --> 00:41:03,040
Isn't that how it works?

535
00:41:03,320 --> 00:41:05,240
Isn't that how you live?

536
00:41:05,480 --> 00:41:08,280
You keep moving forward,
no matter what happens to you.

537
00:41:08,520 --> 00:41:10,600
Is this how you want to live?

538
00:41:37,720 --> 00:41:38,920
Mother!

539
00:41:41,480 --> 00:41:43,400
Oh, come on, baby.

540
00:41:44,080 --> 00:41:47,960
Why don't you tie your hair up anymore?
Your face is so beautiful.

541
00:41:48,840 --> 00:41:50,120
Listen...

542
00:41:51,680 --> 00:41:53,080
they have arrived!

543
00:42:00,120 --> 00:42:01,440
Come on, Lizzie.

544
00:42:13,560 --> 00:42:14,720
-Hey my dear.
-Hi, daddy.

545
00:42:14,960 --> 00:42:16,680
Is she at home?

546
00:42:25,760 --> 00:42:27,920
I need someone
to turn off my brain...

547
00:42:28,160 --> 00:42:29,840
and bind my heart,

548
00:42:30,600 --> 00:42:33,560
Well, I have brown hair
and long...

549
00:42:33,800 --> 00:42:35,520
dark eyes...

550
00:42:35,960 --> 00:42:38,360
but you must know thousands
of girls in the men's bathroom.

551
00:42:38,640 --> 00:42:41,480
Ah yes, The goddess of ecstasy,

552
00:42:42,800 --> 00:42:45,720
That's it! I don't believe
who remembers this.

553
00:42:45,920 --> 00:42:47,200
Lizzie.

554
00:42:50,640 --> 00:42:52,720
Can you wait a second?

555
00:42:53,480 --> 00:42:55,600
Grandma and Grandpa are here.

556
00:42:55,880 --> 00:42:57,160
Yes, I heard.

557
00:42:58,480 --> 00:43:01,640
You know, I just had a party
birthday...

558
00:43:01,880 --> 00:43:03,800
to make her happy.

559
00:43:05,800 --> 00:43:08,480
I don't understand
How can you treat me like this?

560
00:43:08,760 --> 00:43:11,880
Can you give me some
privacy policy, please?

561
00:43:20,800 --> 00:43:22,560
It was my mother.

562
00:43:23,080 --> 00:43:26,400
It's my birthday,
and she threw a party for me.

563
00:43:26,640 --> 00:43:27,960
Legal!

564
00:43:28,160 --> 00:43:30,120
In truth no.

565
00:43:31,160 --> 00:43:33,960
It will be just for me,
my mother and my grandparents.

566
00:43:34,200 --> 00:43:35,800
And I haven't even been there yet.

567
00:43:36,000 --> 00:43:38,080
Aren't they missing you?

568
00:43:38,320 --> 00:43:40,520
Now you're talking
like a good Jewish boy.

569
00:43:40,760 --> 00:43:43,160
Maybe, if I were Jewish.

570
00:43:44,680 --> 00:43:46,880
I just wanted to call to say "hi."

571
00:43:48,360 --> 00:43:50,840
Let's meet when
you go back to college.

572
00:43:51,120 --> 00:43:52,800
Okay, it's going to be great.

573
00:43:53,040 --> 00:43:54,120
Hey...

574
00:43:54,680 --> 00:43:56,280
happy birthday,

575
00:43:58,520 --> 00:43:59,800
Thank you.

576
00:44:02,680 --> 00:44:04,280
It seems Rafe didn't notice...

577
00:44:04,560 --> 00:44:07,920
but he just was
chosen to save my life,

578
00:44:10,280 --> 00:44:12,480
Rolling Stone magazine.

579
00:44:12,840 --> 00:44:15,240
It's the music magazine.

580
00:44:15,960 --> 00:44:18,400
That's wonderful, darling!

581
00:44:19,320 --> 00:44:21,880
They want her
work for them.

582
00:44:22,120 --> 00:44:24,520
Paid work
in Rolling Stone.

583
00:44:25,080 --> 00:44:26,440
Paid?

584
00:44:33,160 --> 00:44:36,200
I think you wrote until late
last night.

585
00:44:37,560 --> 00:44:40,280
Stayed up late
writing yesterday, dear?

586
00:44:40,560 --> 00:44:42,360
I haven't written anything in months.

587
00:44:43,600 --> 00:44:45,880
Is always involved
in some work.

588
00:44:46,080 --> 00:44:47,840
And he doesn't like to talk about them.

589
00:44:48,080 --> 00:44:50,760
As if you
had already read one.

590
00:44:56,120 --> 00:44:58,040
Lizzie, that's not
very cool.

591
00:44:58,240 --> 00:45:00,040
Do you want one?

592
00:45:09,680 --> 00:45:11,960
What's wrong with her?

593
00:45:13,280 --> 00:45:14,200
Nothing.

594
00:45:14,400 --> 00:45:17,200
-There's nothing wrong.
-She's drunk!

595
00:45:17,400 --> 00:45:20,000
-Of course I'm drunk.
-She's just tired.

596
00:45:20,280 --> 00:45:22,120
She is disappearing
so thin!

597
00:45:22,360 --> 00:45:24,760
She is exhausted,
they work a lot there.

598
00:45:26,280 --> 00:45:28,080
-Lizzie.
-Is she taking drugs?

599
00:45:28,280 --> 00:45:30,880
Well I wanted
be drugging me!

600
00:45:31,480 --> 00:45:34,520
-She said that...
-No, mom, it's okay.

601
00:45:34,760 --> 00:45:37,400
-Everything is fine.
-Mom, believe me.

602
00:45:37,640 --> 00:45:39,120
If I was taking drugs
I would tell you.

603
00:45:39,360 --> 00:45:42,600
People don't behave like that
when they are not drugged.

604
00:45:42,880 --> 00:45:44,520
I take drugs!

605
00:45:56,400 --> 00:45:58,240
I'm sorry, mom.

606
00:46:08,480 --> 00:46:11,640
I dreamed of all things
what I wanted to say,

607
00:46:11,920 --> 00:46:14,840
The opposite
of what came out of my mouth,

608
00:46:15,160 --> 00:46:16,840
I wish I had said, "Mom...

609
00:46:17,080 --> 00:46:18,560
please forgive me,

610
00:46:18,840 --> 00:46:20,440
Please help me,

611
00:46:20,760 --> 00:46:24,320
I know I don't have the right
to behave like this",

612
00:46:37,000 --> 00:46:38,360
-Hello.
-Hi,

613
00:46:39,000 --> 00:46:39,760
Hi!

614
00:46:40,000 --> 00:46:41,920
How are you?
my birthday girl?

615
00:46:42,160 --> 00:46:44,440
You are late.
One day late.

616
00:46:44,680 --> 00:46:46,840
What can I say?
You know how it is.

617
00:46:47,120 --> 00:46:48,760
Anyway,
I thought you would be talking...

618
00:46:49,000 --> 00:46:51,040
with your secretary now.

619
00:46:51,320 --> 00:46:54,360
You are a great journalist,
working for Rolling Stone.

620
00:46:54,640 --> 00:46:55,800
Did you read it?

621
00:46:56,000 --> 00:46:57,960
You know, I want you
remember that, darling.

622
00:46:58,200 --> 00:46:59,680
They are lucky to have her.

623
00:46:59,960 --> 00:47:03,000
These guys are smart,
Very intelligent,

624
00:47:03,280 --> 00:47:05,320
They know what they do,
and see the talent,

625
00:47:05,560 --> 00:47:07,520
I think I'm going to win trips
across the country...

626
00:47:07,800 --> 00:47:10,200
then I could visit him.

627
00:47:10,680 --> 00:47:12,760
Who are you talking to, Lizzie?

628
00:47:14,360 --> 00:47:15,640
Nobody.

629
00:47:15,920 --> 00:47:17,280
-Who is it?
-Mom, it's nobody.

630
00:47:17,560 --> 00:47:19,960
-Don't listen to her!
-Please, mom.

631
00:47:22,560 --> 00:47:24,480
Look at you.
For both of you.

632
00:47:24,720 --> 00:47:27,040
-Continue, you are so in love with him.
-Mom...

633
00:47:27,320 --> 00:47:28,480
-See?
-Father.

634
00:47:28,720 --> 00:47:31,080
-Do you see why I don't care?
-Where was he during his childhood?

635
00:47:31,360 --> 00:47:33,440
-Where?
-Stop! Stop!

636
00:47:36,160 --> 00:47:38,400
I just wanted to talk to him.

637
00:47:38,880 --> 00:47:40,200
You know, Lizzie...

638
00:47:40,480 --> 00:47:42,640
I'm reaching my limit.

639
00:47:44,360 --> 00:47:46,440
I've been working overtime...

640
00:47:47,000 --> 00:47:48,320
I never go out...

641
00:47:48,560 --> 00:47:51,000
I never buy clothes,
I spent all our money...

642
00:47:51,240 --> 00:47:52,760
in your therapy.

643
00:47:53,840 --> 00:47:56,280
All our money?
Dad pays, Mom.

644
00:47:56,520 --> 00:47:58,640
Do you think he pays?

645
00:47:59,680 --> 00:48:01,760
Do you think he's paying?

646
00:48:02,400 --> 00:48:04,800
He doesn't pay a cent.

647
00:48:05,720 --> 00:48:08,800
Not a single cent!

648
00:48:10,560 --> 00:48:12,320
It's not true.

649
00:48:12,760 --> 00:48:14,560
Do you want me to show you?

650
00:48:14,840 --> 00:48:16,160
Want to see?

651
00:48:16,440 --> 00:48:18,880
Do you want to see how much...

652
00:48:19,080 --> 00:48:23,080
I'm paying,
How much was the last bill?

653
00:48:23,920 --> 00:48:26,440
Here, look at this.

654
00:48:26,720 --> 00:48:29,360
-Here, look, Lizzie!
-I'm sorry, mom.

655
00:48:29,600 --> 00:48:33,480
Want to see how much I'm paying
for this Dr. Sterling?

656
00:48:34,920 --> 00:48:35,960
I am really sorry!

657
00:48:36,200 --> 00:48:38,240
No, you won't get away with this,
Lizzie.

658
00:48:38,480 --> 00:48:40,840
Ask her who pays!

659
00:48:44,320 --> 00:48:45,760
It's my fault...

660
00:48:46,080 --> 00:48:48,320
for spoiling her
like this.

661
00:48:48,560 --> 00:48:50,240
I kill myself to put it on
at Harvard...

662
00:48:50,480 --> 00:48:52,640
and you come back looking like a zombie!

663
00:48:52,880 --> 00:48:55,080
No, I'm sorry!

664
00:48:59,080 --> 00:49:00,680
I am really sorry.

665
00:49:03,720 --> 00:49:05,920
I know, I know, baby.

666
00:49:06,520 --> 00:49:08,600
I hate myself!

667
00:49:08,800 --> 00:49:09,440
No.

668
00:49:09,720 --> 00:49:12,600
-I hate the things I do.
-Lizzie, it's okay.

669
00:49:12,800 --> 00:49:14,160
All good.

670
00:49:16,040 --> 00:49:17,360
No...

671
00:49:18,160 --> 00:49:19,320
it's horrible.

672
00:49:19,600 --> 00:49:21,320
It's so horrible.

673
00:49:22,880 --> 00:49:25,560
I hurt people
who love me...

674
00:49:26,040 --> 00:49:28,400
But then, when he calls...

675
00:49:35,680 --> 00:49:37,640
My God, a party?

676
00:49:37,960 --> 00:49:40,360
And your idiot parents!

677
00:49:48,640 --> 00:49:49,840
Why do you do this, Lizzie?

678
00:49:50,120 --> 00:49:53,160
Because I'm not
you damn monkey!

679
00:49:58,680 --> 00:50:00,960
I'm sorry, mom.
I wasn't serious.

680
00:50:01,200 --> 00:50:03,040
Sorry, mom.

681
00:50:03,360 --> 00:50:05,440
I didn't speak from the heart.

682
00:50:17,320 --> 00:50:19,880
Did she throw the party for herself?

683
00:50:21,120 --> 00:50:24,760
-No, I think for grandma.
-Why would she do that?

684
00:50:28,160 --> 00:50:30,720
To show what a good girl
she was.

685
00:50:31,720 --> 00:50:33,680
This must hurt her.

686
00:50:34,720 --> 00:50:36,160
Look at her,

687
00:50:36,400 --> 00:50:38,960
That's not a breakthrough, baby,

688
00:50:39,720 --> 00:50:42,720
My mom pays $100
per hour so,

689
00:50:44,400 --> 00:50:47,520
It's the same old crap.
Time for discernment.

690
00:50:47,720 --> 00:50:49,600
Like that thing
with that Rafe.

691
00:50:49,840 --> 00:50:53,040
I don't need to be Freud to know
that I'm afraid of rejection.

692
00:50:53,320 --> 00:50:56,120
And I know where it comes from,
I know it's because of my father.

693
00:50:56,440 --> 00:51:00,640
But it doesn't change anything.
I still can't go out with him.

694
00:51:01,400 --> 00:51:04,080
-Why not?
-I just told you.

695
00:51:06,760 --> 00:51:09,400
You didn't tell me anything
about Rafe.

696
00:51:09,880 --> 00:51:12,640
He has already given some sign
why would you reject it?

697
00:51:22,360 --> 00:51:25,000
Don't show him
how crazy you are,

698
00:51:26,080 --> 00:51:28,200
-A monkey?
-Called Prissy.

699
00:51:28,480 --> 00:51:29,920
I know, it's absurd.

700
00:51:30,200 --> 00:51:31,440
She said she needed
someone to talk to.

701
00:51:31,720 --> 00:51:34,560
-But she had you.
-No, but that was before.

702
00:51:34,800 --> 00:51:37,160
-Are you listening?
-God, I am.

703
00:51:37,600 --> 00:51:39,200
Am I not annoying you?

704
00:51:39,480 --> 00:51:40,440
Please, Lizzie.

705
00:51:40,680 --> 00:51:43,520
-I met her in a men's bathroom.
You're anything but boring.

706
00:51:43,760 --> 00:51:45,240
What am I?

707
00:51:47,320 --> 00:51:48,440
Scary.

708
00:51:50,720 --> 00:51:53,200
So let's not
see that show?

709
00:51:54,920 --> 00:51:56,640
I am not sure.

710
00:51:57,480 --> 00:51:59,080
I don't really know where it is.

711
00:51:59,320 --> 00:52:02,360
Came to see a show
who doesn't know where it is?

712
00:52:03,160 --> 00:52:05,520
I said I came to see the show.

713
00:52:09,480 --> 00:52:10,760
You know...

714
00:52:12,000 --> 00:52:13,080
What?

715
00:52:14,240 --> 00:52:17,440
-Now you are being cruel.
-No, you said...

716
00:52:17,760 --> 00:52:20,360
I said I came
to see the show...

717
00:52:22,840 --> 00:52:25,040
but I came to see you.

718
00:52:45,920 --> 00:52:48,480
Wait, wait, wait...

719
00:52:50,840 --> 00:52:53,080
Wait for him to take action,

720
00:52:56,880 --> 00:52:58,560
Doesn't he know?

721
00:52:58,920 --> 00:53:01,520
He has to be my salvation,

722
00:53:10,520 --> 00:53:12,560
It's beautiful that he's attentive...

723
00:53:12,800 --> 00:53:15,360
compassionate
and politically correct,

724
00:53:16,520 --> 00:53:19,680
But I need
let him kiss me now,

725
00:54:07,200 --> 00:54:08,400
Ruby!

726
00:54:09,760 --> 00:54:10,920
Ruby!

727
00:54:17,120 --> 00:54:18,080
Hi.

728
00:54:18,680 --> 00:54:19,840
Hi.

729
00:54:20,720 --> 00:54:24,800
I didn't know you had changed rooms.
I thought you were still here.

730
00:54:26,720 --> 00:54:28,600
Ruby was telling me
about all those articles...

731
00:54:28,840 --> 00:54:30,880
that you plan to write.

732
00:54:31,840 --> 00:54:34,440
These things have always been
easy for me.

733
00:54:38,800 --> 00:54:41,280
Dr. Sterling
must have called him,

734
00:54:41,600 --> 00:54:44,080
For what other reason
Would he be here?

735
00:54:44,480 --> 00:54:47,720
Probably to see
how bad the situation is,

736
00:54:47,960 --> 00:54:51,160
To see if your little girl
will survive another day well,

737
00:54:51,400 --> 00:54:55,520
Or maybe he finally
missed me,

738
00:54:57,640 --> 00:54:58,760
My girl.

739
00:55:01,920 --> 00:55:03,760
Father,
You know those medical bills...

740
00:55:04,000 --> 00:55:06,360
of psychiatric treatment?

741
00:55:08,440 --> 00:55:10,600
They always send them
for mom.

742
00:55:10,840 --> 00:55:13,760
So, I imagine you
not paying.

743
00:55:13,960 --> 00:55:16,280
I don't believe it is
asking me this.

744
00:55:16,480 --> 00:55:19,240
-Are you paying?
-You are cold and distant.

745
00:55:19,480 --> 00:55:20,520
And...

746
00:55:21,480 --> 00:55:23,840
Now you're asking me...
What?

747
00:55:24,080 --> 00:55:26,600
-What are you talking about?
-If you don't know...

748
00:55:26,880 --> 00:55:28,800
No, I don't know.

749
00:55:29,440 --> 00:55:30,960
You promised.

750
00:55:31,200 --> 00:55:33,120
You don't write to me.

751
00:55:33,360 --> 00:55:34,960
Never call me.

752
00:55:35,480 --> 00:55:37,600
It feels like I don't even exist.

753
00:55:37,840 --> 00:55:39,280
Who do you think you're talking to?

754
00:55:39,520 --> 00:55:41,760
I even come to visit her.

755
00:55:42,200 --> 00:55:43,760
-Kiss my ass!
-Be careful what you say!

756
00:55:44,000 --> 00:55:45,800
-No.
-Is that how you talk to your father?

757
00:55:46,040 --> 00:55:47,840
Listen to me.
It was you who left.

758
00:55:48,120 --> 00:55:50,640
You who walked away
for four years.

759
00:55:50,880 --> 00:55:52,840
You think I don't know that?

760
00:55:53,120 --> 00:55:55,360
Is that what you think?
You think I don't feel that?

761
00:55:55,640 --> 00:55:57,920
You think it's easy for me...

762
00:55:58,400 --> 00:56:00,160
stay away from you?

763
00:56:00,400 --> 00:56:03,520
I hate what this
caused it to you.

764
00:56:03,720 --> 00:56:05,640
Your mother and I...

765
00:56:05,920 --> 00:56:09,840
I hated seeing her involved,
in the middle of everything, between the two of us.

766
00:56:10,080 --> 00:56:11,000
Dad, please.

767
00:56:11,240 --> 00:56:12,760
Please!

768
00:56:13,040 --> 00:56:14,560
-You are my father.
-And that's right.

769
00:56:14,800 --> 00:56:17,560
And you don't even pay
my medical bills!

770
00:56:17,800 --> 00:56:20,560
Even if I don't cost you anything.

771
00:56:21,440 --> 00:56:24,200
All you have to do
is to sign the papers.

772
00:56:27,080 --> 00:56:28,600
It's 10%.

773
00:56:29,160 --> 00:56:30,720
It's almost nothing.

774
00:56:31,200 --> 00:56:32,160
No...

775
00:56:32,440 --> 00:56:35,360
I lost my apartment and everything else
when we got divorced.

776
00:56:35,680 --> 00:56:37,920
It won't cost you anything.

777
00:56:38,160 --> 00:56:39,840
I'm sorry, Lizzie.

778
00:56:40,040 --> 00:56:42,440
It's your mother's responsibility.

779
00:56:45,120 --> 00:56:48,480
What do you want me to do?
That slit my wrists?

780
00:56:48,760 --> 00:56:50,880
To be qualified
as a matter of life or death?

781
00:56:51,120 --> 00:56:53,600
This is killing me too.

782
00:56:54,160 --> 00:56:56,040
It's killing me!

783
00:56:56,280 --> 00:56:59,520
I feel so helpless.
I think about all the mistakes...

784
00:56:59,760 --> 00:57:03,360
I made a lot of mistakes
and I can't do anything.

785
00:57:04,160 --> 00:57:06,000
What will I do?

786
00:57:12,720 --> 00:57:14,000
Hey you.

787
00:57:16,040 --> 00:57:17,160
Hi.

788
00:57:28,160 --> 00:57:29,800
Guess who it is?

789
00:57:30,440 --> 00:57:32,240
What are you doing?

790
00:57:32,720 --> 00:57:33,800
Nothing.

791
00:57:34,080 --> 00:57:35,600
Just walking.

792
00:57:36,480 --> 00:57:38,440
Walking with someone.

793
00:57:38,720 --> 00:57:42,040
And don't be ridiculous,
I might be walking with a girl.

794
00:57:42,840 --> 00:57:45,800
Okay, you're right.
It's a boy.

795
00:57:47,080 --> 00:57:48,600
He's tall...

796
00:57:49,280 --> 00:57:50,680
very loud.

797
00:57:51,640 --> 00:57:53,880
Of course it's louder
than me!

798
00:57:54,080 --> 00:57:56,000
How tall are you?

799
00:57:56,920 --> 00:57:58,440
I'm tall enough.

800
00:57:58,680 --> 00:58:00,440
I would say 1.83m.

801
00:58:02,040 --> 00:58:03,440
Long eyelashes...

802
00:58:03,680 --> 00:58:05,480
brown eyes...

803
00:58:05,840 --> 00:58:09,560
He has that style
of sexy intellectual.

804
00:58:13,520 --> 00:58:14,800
What?

805
00:58:15,080 --> 00:58:16,760
Okay, you can leave it.

806
00:58:16,960 --> 00:58:18,840
I will ask him
as soon as it turns off.

807
00:58:19,080 --> 00:58:20,320
Right.

808
00:58:20,520 --> 00:58:21,680
Goodbye.

809
00:58:23,280 --> 00:58:24,360
Well...

810
00:58:24,640 --> 00:58:27,680
who now thinks I am
a sexy intellectual?

811
00:58:27,920 --> 00:58:29,320
My mom.

812
00:58:30,840 --> 00:58:33,000
She wants us to visit her
at parties.

813
00:58:33,280 --> 00:58:35,560
She just moved.
I'll go anyway.

814
00:59:54,080 --> 00:59:57,760
Whenever I'm with him,
I see myself doing horrible things.

815
00:59:58,040 --> 01:00:00,560
And I hate myself for it,
but I can't stop.

816
01:00:00,800 --> 01:00:02,680
Let's assume you could.

817
01:00:02,880 --> 01:00:04,840
What would you do differently?

818
01:00:07,840 --> 01:00:10,800
So when I saw him with her,
I...

819
01:00:11,880 --> 01:00:12,480
I don't know...

820
01:00:12,760 --> 01:00:14,480
I know it's crazy...

821
01:00:14,720 --> 01:00:16,000
but...

822
01:00:17,040 --> 01:00:19,680
I can't help it,
I feel these things.

823
01:00:23,200 --> 01:00:24,800
I'm sorry, I didn't...

824
01:00:25,440 --> 01:00:27,080
I didn't imagine.

825
01:00:29,560 --> 01:00:31,360
But it will happen...

826
01:00:31,600 --> 01:00:34,320
beautiful women
they throw themselves at me.

827
01:00:44,440 --> 01:00:46,920
-It's Earl Grey!
-Drug. Sorry.

828
01:00:47,400 --> 01:00:48,680
-I'll order another one.
-Forget.

829
01:00:48,960 --> 01:00:50,720
-No problem.
-I said I don't want to.

830
01:00:50,960 --> 01:00:53,040
Can you bring me another Earl Grey,
please?

831
01:00:53,280 --> 01:00:55,960
-I said I don't want to.
-Can you relax, Lizzie?

832
01:00:56,200 --> 01:00:57,600
It's just a damn
cup of tea.

833
01:00:57,840 --> 01:01:01,160
-Don't yell at me.
-Don't be ridiculous, okay?

834
01:01:01,920 --> 01:01:03,960
You fucked her,
isn't it?

835
01:01:04,240 --> 01:01:05,120
What?

836
01:01:05,320 --> 01:01:07,560
-Are you crazy?
-Don't yell at me!

837
01:01:07,800 --> 01:01:10,240
I really don't know
what is the problem.

838
01:01:10,520 --> 01:01:13,840
Why don't you keep having sex
with her, if that's what you want?

839
01:01:19,120 --> 01:01:21,000
-Go away!
-Lizzie!

840
01:01:25,640 --> 01:01:27,320
Lizzie!
Please.

841
01:01:28,160 --> 01:01:29,880
Excuse me, okay?

842
01:01:30,520 --> 01:01:31,640
I am really sorry. I am really sorry.

843
01:01:31,840 --> 01:01:34,880
I didn't understand
who was so upset.

844
01:01:35,120 --> 01:01:37,360
It's not your fault, okay?

845
01:01:37,600 --> 01:01:39,120
It's my fault.

846
01:01:40,520 --> 01:01:42,560
You're going to leave me, aren't you?

847
01:01:43,680 --> 01:01:45,560
No, I couldn't...

848
01:01:49,000 --> 01:01:50,240
I love her.

849
01:01:52,200 --> 01:01:53,480
Why?

850
01:01:59,600 --> 01:02:01,600
There's nothing you feel...

851
01:02:03,120 --> 01:02:06,040
that you don't feel deeply.

852
01:02:07,280 --> 01:02:09,040
You are incredible.

853
01:02:23,480 --> 01:02:27,720
Now I understand why sometimes
people want to kill their lovers,

854
01:02:30,000 --> 01:02:31,880
Eat your lovers,

855
01:02:33,400 --> 01:02:36,240
Inhale the ashes
of your dead lovers,

856
01:02:37,720 --> 01:02:40,880
It's the only way
of possessing another person,

857
01:03:04,680 --> 01:03:06,760
My mother will love you.

858
01:03:10,920 --> 01:03:12,080
Do you want juice?

859
01:03:12,360 --> 01:03:13,600
Of course.

860
01:03:17,960 --> 01:03:19,600
Lizzie, listen.

861
01:03:21,040 --> 01:03:24,200
I won't be able to travel
with you at parties.

862
01:03:24,440 --> 01:03:27,240
Something happened
with my mother...

863
01:03:27,480 --> 01:03:29,400
and I need to go home.

864
01:03:30,440 --> 01:03:32,240
But it's Christmas and New Year...

865
01:03:32,480 --> 01:03:33,720
I need you with me.

866
01:03:33,920 --> 01:03:35,640
And I wish I could go...

867
01:03:35,920 --> 01:03:38,720
But I can't be
in two places at the same time.

868
01:03:41,040 --> 01:03:42,320
He is well.

869
01:03:42,560 --> 01:03:44,000
I'll go with you.

870
01:03:44,240 --> 01:03:45,600
I will help you with your mother.

871
01:03:45,800 --> 01:03:48,120
It's the right thing to do.
My mother will understand.

872
01:03:48,400 --> 01:03:50,960
Your mother just moved away,
Lizzie.

873
01:03:51,320 --> 01:03:53,440
But I want to be with you.

874
01:03:53,720 --> 01:03:56,480
But now
your mother needs you.

875
01:04:01,440 --> 01:04:02,440
It's just...

876
01:04:02,680 --> 01:04:05,480
It's a very complicated situation,
Lizzie.

877
01:04:05,760 --> 01:04:07,320
My mother...

878
01:04:07,920 --> 01:04:10,760
she is not very easy
with strangers.

879
01:04:12,640 --> 01:04:14,480
I'm in the middle of a problem
which is not...

880
01:04:14,720 --> 01:04:16,760
making me happy, Lizzie.

881
01:04:16,960 --> 01:04:18,280
I know.

882
01:04:19,120 --> 01:04:21,000
I'm sorry, I...

883
01:04:23,200 --> 01:04:25,880
It's just that I love him,
and I want to help.

884
01:04:26,120 --> 01:04:29,080
And it is.
You are helping me.

885
01:04:29,760 --> 01:04:33,440
Just knowing that I will see her...

886
01:04:35,280 --> 01:04:38,560
We will have the next semester
together, okay?

887
01:04:40,280 --> 01:04:41,480
He is well.

888
01:04:43,280 --> 01:04:46,520
So he asked me to help him,
To be strong for him,

889
01:04:46,760 --> 01:04:49,320
And I said okay.

890
01:04:49,800 --> 01:04:51,040
And I did.

891
01:04:51,320 --> 01:04:53,240
I did everything,
I kissed you goodbye...

892
01:04:53,480 --> 01:04:55,520
I made it so easy for him...

893
01:04:55,800 --> 01:04:59,040
which, in fact,
It ended up making it easier for me.

894
01:04:59,280 --> 01:05:02,400
-And we are both very happy.
-Excellent.

895
01:05:43,360 --> 01:05:45,040
Did you manage to bring everything?

896
01:05:45,280 --> 01:05:47,680
Of course. It's not much.

897
01:05:49,520 --> 01:05:51,200
It's an apartment
overlooking the south...

898
01:05:51,400 --> 01:05:53,600
the light comes in all day long.

899
01:05:55,920 --> 01:05:58,560
And it's much easier to clean.

900
01:06:01,920 --> 01:06:04,440
I think you'll like it
from your room.

901
01:06:09,720 --> 01:06:11,040
Oh yes!

902
01:06:11,680 --> 01:06:14,880
So I will save
my things.

903
01:06:15,680 --> 01:06:18,600
-I didn't prepare dinner, dear.
-All good.

904
01:06:24,880 --> 01:06:26,760
I'll pay her back one day,

905
01:06:27,200 --> 01:06:28,760
I swear I will,

906
01:06:46,080 --> 01:06:49,280
-You said that your friend...
-It was a family emergency.

907
01:06:51,520 --> 01:06:52,960
But would he come?

908
01:06:53,240 --> 01:06:54,320
Yes.

909
01:06:55,080 --> 01:06:57,920
He had to go back to Texas,
because...

910
01:06:58,400 --> 01:06:59,760
I don't know...

911
01:07:00,000 --> 01:07:01,880
His name is Rafe.

912
01:07:04,720 --> 01:07:06,240
It's a beautiful name.

913
01:07:06,480 --> 01:07:08,160
You would really like him.

914
01:07:08,480 --> 01:07:10,520
He's handsome, good...

915
01:07:10,920 --> 01:07:12,480
and he is Jewish.

916
01:07:13,280 --> 01:07:14,480
And...

917
01:07:15,000 --> 01:07:17,360
he works really hard.

918
01:07:19,760 --> 01:07:21,440
Who knows next time?

919
01:07:21,760 --> 01:07:24,160
AND. He wanted to meet her.

920
01:07:24,400 --> 01:07:26,600
He has a very good relationship
with his mother.

921
01:07:26,840 --> 01:07:28,160
Great.

922
01:07:37,280 --> 01:07:39,520
I have to make a call.

923
01:07:40,000 --> 01:07:42,720
No, Lizzie.
Must be the tenth time today.

924
01:07:42,960 --> 01:07:44,160
So what?

925
01:07:44,840 --> 01:07:45,920
So what?

926
01:07:46,160 --> 01:07:48,480
You'll drive the guy crazy.

927
01:07:49,600 --> 01:07:51,320
You don't know
what you're talking about.

928
01:07:51,520 --> 01:07:53,840
And damn you for saying that!

929
01:07:54,720 --> 01:07:56,200
Hello, Mrs. Stevenson?

930
01:07:56,480 --> 01:07:57,960
Hi, this is Lizzie.

931
01:07:58,200 --> 01:08:00,680
Lizzie, a friend of Rafe.

932
01:08:00,960 --> 01:08:02,680
Is he there?

933
01:08:03,160 --> 01:08:04,320
Oh, are you busy?

934
01:08:04,640 --> 01:08:07,040
Can you tell him it's urgent?

935
01:08:08,320 --> 01:08:10,080
He is well. Goodbye.

936
01:08:12,480 --> 01:08:15,080
Why doesn't he answer
on the phone?

937
01:08:16,840 --> 01:08:19,080
I would never do that to him,

938
01:08:22,800 --> 01:08:24,520
How is he?

939
01:08:25,680 --> 01:08:27,680
I don't know, he wasn't there.

940
01:08:34,560 --> 01:08:37,440
I wanted to know if he lays down
at night missing me...

941
01:08:37,680 --> 01:08:39,400
How do I feel about him?

942
01:08:45,480 --> 01:08:47,560
Have you ever loved someone, Ruby?

943
01:08:49,200 --> 01:08:51,040
I mean, truly love someone.

944
01:08:51,880 --> 01:08:53,560
Are you kidding?
Of course.

945
01:08:55,360 --> 01:08:56,960
You think you loved...

946
01:08:57,200 --> 01:08:59,280
but you have no idea.

947
01:09:00,520 --> 01:09:02,720
I suppose you have an idea.

948
01:09:05,920 --> 01:09:09,120
True love is everything.

949
01:09:09,880 --> 01:09:11,760
It's like life or death.

950
01:09:12,240 --> 01:09:14,040
You know you're going to die
when they are apart...

951
01:09:14,280 --> 01:09:16,960
because the need
It's so pure.

952
01:09:18,080 --> 01:09:19,600
So complete.

953
01:09:22,880 --> 01:09:24,920
You only know about sex.

954
01:09:25,280 --> 01:09:26,520
Our.

955
01:09:27,760 --> 01:09:30,120
And scolded me
because of Sam?

956
01:09:30,400 --> 01:09:33,120
You never loved Sam,
How could you?

957
01:09:38,400 --> 01:09:40,080
Was I bad?

958
01:09:40,520 --> 01:09:43,640
Can't bear it?
Aren't you a modern girl?

959
01:09:47,320 --> 01:09:50,400
I'm not crying
because you are evil.

960
01:09:52,040 --> 01:09:55,400
I just can't imagine
How painful it must be to be you.

961
01:10:10,440 --> 01:10:11,520
Listen...

962
01:10:11,760 --> 01:10:13,680
I'm at the airport.

963
01:10:16,920 --> 01:10:17,680
No...

964
01:10:17,920 --> 01:10:18,560
I want to say...

965
01:10:18,560 --> 01:10:21,760
that I'm here,
at the Austin airport.

966
01:10:24,480 --> 01:10:25,680
My God!

967
01:10:25,960 --> 01:10:28,720
I became
the girlfriend of nightmares,

968
01:10:31,160 --> 01:10:33,160
Maybe you should
call your mother.

969
01:10:33,480 --> 01:10:35,680
To let you know you're okay.

970
01:10:36,600 --> 01:10:37,800
I can't.

971
01:10:41,000 --> 01:10:42,200
Lizzie...

972
01:10:44,000 --> 01:10:47,040
Do you remember what I said
you come here...

973
01:10:47,320 --> 01:10:49,320
Wasn't that a good idea?

974
01:10:50,800 --> 01:10:53,040
If you love me enough.

975
01:10:54,000 --> 01:10:55,520
Okay, listen...

976
01:10:55,800 --> 01:10:59,200
There's something I didn't tell you.

977
01:11:01,560 --> 01:11:03,360
Wow, don't look at me like that, Lizzie.

978
01:11:03,680 --> 01:11:04,800
Just say it.

979
01:11:05,000 --> 01:11:07,480
-It's not what you think!
- Cretin.

980
01:11:07,680 --> 01:11:10,320
-Nasty asshole.
-It's my sister.

981
01:11:10,560 --> 01:11:12,520
It's my sister, okay?

982
01:11:21,480 --> 01:11:23,840
So, are you from New York?

983
01:11:25,000 --> 01:11:27,360
Manhattan.
I grew up on the West Side.

984
01:11:36,880 --> 01:11:39,240
Rafe showed me copies
of your articles.

985
01:11:39,520 --> 01:11:42,080
It's a great achievement
for a first year.

986
01:11:44,200 --> 01:11:45,080
Ellen...

987
01:11:45,320 --> 01:11:46,560
Ellen...

988
01:11:47,160 --> 01:11:48,560
Please stop.

989
01:11:49,760 --> 01:11:51,640
Let's eat, okay?

990
01:11:55,440 --> 01:11:57,760
You promised me you'd go to bed,
are you ok?

991
01:11:58,040 --> 01:11:59,080
That's it, let's go.

992
01:11:59,360 --> 01:12:02,560
So, let's go.
Come on, come on.

993
01:12:04,440 --> 01:12:07,240
Go to bed,
and tomorrow we will go to the park.

994
01:12:07,520 --> 01:12:09,400
He is well?
Let's go. Please.

995
01:12:09,600 --> 01:12:12,080
Please.
Do you want to go to the park tomorrow?

996
01:12:23,440 --> 01:12:25,960
Maybe we have to take it
to the doctor.

997
01:12:26,240 --> 01:12:29,480
If this continues for too long,
I don't know what we'll do.

998
01:12:30,880 --> 01:12:32,240
What it was?

999
01:12:36,080 --> 01:12:38,240
Did you really like this?

1000
01:12:42,560 --> 01:12:43,680
What?

1001
01:12:45,160 --> 01:12:47,120
Is it like that for you?

1002
01:12:54,480 --> 01:12:57,720
-What are you talking about?
-You hid it from me.

1003
01:12:58,760 --> 01:13:02,840
Don't you think there's a reason for that?
Don't you think this is a sign?

1004
01:13:03,120 --> 01:13:04,160
Our!

1005
01:13:04,440 --> 01:13:06,560
You're some kind of crazy voyeur.

1006
01:13:06,800 --> 01:13:08,800
You enjoy other people's misfortune.

1007
01:13:09,000 --> 01:13:10,280
You are sick.

1008
01:13:10,520 --> 01:13:12,680
You really are.
You are truly sick.

1009
01:13:12,960 --> 01:13:14,960
Tell me it's not true.

1010
01:13:15,960 --> 01:13:17,480
Rafe, please.

1011
01:13:19,480 --> 01:13:20,880
I'll get the car.

1012
01:13:35,640 --> 01:13:37,680
Mother? How are you?

1013
01:13:38,440 --> 01:13:40,320
How do you think I am?

1014
01:13:40,960 --> 01:13:43,120
Wow, Lizzie! Don't you think?

1015
01:13:43,360 --> 01:13:44,840
I am really sorry.
It's just...

1016
01:13:45,120 --> 01:13:47,040
I had to go to the airport.

1017
01:13:47,280 --> 01:13:48,560
I would have told you.

1018
01:13:48,800 --> 01:13:51,840
We are having some problems,
It's been very difficult,

1019
01:13:52,120 --> 01:13:53,640
But we are resolving,

1020
01:13:53,920 --> 01:13:56,920
Yes, he loves me.
I know you love it, it's just...

1021
01:13:58,640 --> 01:14:00,560
he has some weird things
in the family.

1022
01:14:00,840 --> 01:14:03,880
And he's trying to help
the family and me...

1023
01:14:04,480 --> 01:14:06,760
he has to help himself first,

1024
01:14:07,320 --> 01:14:10,280
And when he succeeds,
everything will be fine,

1025
01:14:10,560 --> 01:14:11,480
I know.

1026
01:14:11,680 --> 01:14:13,800
I know we'll be fine.

1027
01:14:14,040 --> 01:14:15,240
I know...

1028
01:14:16,160 --> 01:14:17,560
Do you think?

1029
01:14:19,360 --> 01:14:20,960
I can't...

1030
01:14:21,600 --> 01:14:23,560
help her there, Lizzie.

1031
01:14:24,400 --> 01:14:25,880
I know, I know,

1032
01:14:27,360 --> 01:14:30,400
Mom, I'm sorry for you
have had to move.

1033
01:14:31,520 --> 01:14:33,280
I know, baby.

1034
01:14:35,440 --> 01:14:37,480
I'm going now, okay?

1035
01:14:37,760 --> 01:14:38,720
Mother!

1036
01:14:39,000 --> 01:14:40,520
Call me.

1037
01:14:46,240 --> 01:14:47,280
Mother?

1038
01:14:48,840 --> 01:14:50,280
When you...

1039
01:14:53,560 --> 01:14:55,720
talk to Dr. Sterling.

1040
01:14:56,440 --> 01:14:57,760
Mother?

1041
01:14:58,440 --> 01:15:00,120
-Bye, darling.
-Mother?

1042
01:15:13,120 --> 01:15:15,240
I should have listened to him,

1043
01:15:16,800 --> 01:15:19,520
He told me not to come here,

1044
01:15:20,760 --> 01:15:23,440
I hinder more than I help,

1045
01:15:28,320 --> 01:15:30,480
What about your readings?

1046
01:15:31,000 --> 01:15:32,320
No.

1047
01:15:33,280 --> 01:15:36,160
Dear,
you need to work a little.

1048
01:15:39,520 --> 01:15:40,680
Lizzie...

1049
01:15:40,960 --> 01:15:43,000
This isn't working.

1050
01:15:43,280 --> 01:15:44,640
I know, I know...

1051
01:15:44,960 --> 01:15:46,920
as soon as I return,
I will get your exam schedules.

1052
01:15:47,200 --> 01:15:50,120
Listen, you don't have to, okay?
It is not necessary.

1053
01:15:58,400 --> 01:15:59,960
So, I'll call you.

1054
01:16:00,160 --> 01:16:03,360
No, nothing to call.
No calling, okay?

1055
01:16:05,440 --> 01:16:07,960
This isn't working,
are you ok?

1056
01:16:08,280 --> 01:16:11,640
This is not my life,
I don't want this anymore!

1057
01:16:14,360 --> 01:16:15,520
What do you want?

1058
01:16:15,760 --> 01:16:18,080
You just woke up
and decided he wanted...

1059
01:16:18,280 --> 01:16:21,280
have sex with freshmen
and use a lot of drugs?

1060
01:16:23,320 --> 01:16:24,960
Is that what you want?

1061
01:16:27,960 --> 01:16:28,920
AND.

1062
01:16:29,760 --> 01:16:30,840
AND.

1063
01:16:31,040 --> 01:16:33,440
It's exactly what I want.

1064
01:16:34,400 --> 01:16:38,080
I want to go to parties.
I want to have fun!

1065
01:16:55,600 --> 01:16:57,800
It was you who told me
to trust someone.

1066
01:16:57,740 --> 01:16:59,700
And look what happened!

1067
01:16:59,940 --> 01:17:01,620
You trust Rafe
has nothing to do...

1068
01:17:01,900 --> 01:17:04,700
No,
I just want Rafe to come back...

1069
01:17:04,980 --> 01:17:06,260
and you keep talking about medicine?

1070
01:17:06,580 --> 01:17:09,500
Because things are
harder for you now...

1071
01:17:09,780 --> 01:17:10,900
I think it could help.

1072
01:17:11,180 --> 01:17:12,940
You said
that I was improving.

1073
01:17:13,180 --> 01:17:15,460
Sometimes things hurt more
before feeling improvement.

1074
01:17:15,700 --> 01:17:17,620
Said all this
It would be useful for something...

1075
01:17:17,900 --> 01:17:19,820
all this damn pain!

1076
01:17:20,060 --> 01:17:23,300
And I continue to say that.

1077
01:17:26,100 --> 01:17:28,940
I can't believe you prescribed it for me
drugs after all that.

1078
01:17:30,260 --> 01:17:32,980
I am recommending
try this medicine...

1079
01:17:33,260 --> 01:17:36,820
to gain some perspective
and don't lose control.

1080
01:17:40,460 --> 01:17:42,420
Lizzie, isn't that what you want?

1081
01:17:50,740 --> 01:17:54,020
Takes two to six weeks
to take effect.

1082
01:17:57,100 --> 01:17:59,300
I know you don't feel,

1083
01:17:59,820 --> 01:18:02,620
But I can tell you
who is already acting,

1084
01:18:06,420 --> 01:18:09,460
Your mother has been calling,
She wants to come see you,

1085
01:18:16,500 --> 01:18:18,580
The engines
start to decrease...

1086
01:18:18,780 --> 01:18:23,700
at 94%, normal supply
most of the space shuttle,

1087
01:18:24,300 --> 01:18:27,020
Three engines are
working normally...

1088
01:18:27,260 --> 01:18:29,620
to run out of fuel,

1089
01:18:29,820 --> 01:18:31,740
It is now at 688m
high altitude...

1090
01:18:31,980 --> 01:18:34,340
-Hey, what are you doing?
-Nothing.

1091
01:18:34,860 --> 01:18:36,420
Are you trying to steal
my bag.

1092
01:18:36,660 --> 01:18:39,540
The Challenger space shuttle
rises with full force,

1093
01:18:41,140 --> 01:18:43,620
The Challenger space shuttle
exploded in a ball of fire...

1094
01:18:43,860 --> 01:18:45,700
shortly after launch,

1095
01:18:46,020 --> 01:18:48,220
An investigation...

1096
01:18:48,500 --> 01:18:52,540
There is no evidence
which indicates there is...

1097
01:18:53,300 --> 01:18:55,700
President Reagan...

1098
01:18:56,020 --> 01:18:58,620
honor men
who lost their lives...

1099
01:19:01,460 --> 01:19:03,980
The worst accident in history
from the USA.

1100
01:19:13,380 --> 01:19:14,540
Ruby!

1101
01:19:15,140 --> 01:19:16,020
Ruby.

1102
01:19:16,300 --> 01:19:18,820
Wow,
Wait a minute, okay?

1103
01:19:19,860 --> 01:19:22,380
Ruby, please.
This is serious.

1104
01:19:23,220 --> 01:19:25,180
-What it was?
-My mother was robbed...

1105
01:19:25,460 --> 01:19:28,660
I have to go to NY,
you have to go with me!

1106
01:19:29,940 --> 01:19:31,180
No.

1107
01:19:32,220 --> 01:19:35,420
Ruby, please.
I'm asking for your help.

1108
01:19:36,980 --> 01:19:39,100
Lizzie, I'm tired of helping.

1109
01:19:39,380 --> 01:19:41,860
Are you tired?
How can...

1110
01:19:42,140 --> 01:19:43,580
I can't.

1111
01:19:44,700 --> 01:19:45,860
He arrives.

1112
01:19:46,500 --> 01:19:49,540
I can't do this anymore.
This has to end.

1113
01:19:49,820 --> 01:19:52,940
Next week,
it will be some other crisis.

1114
01:19:57,500 --> 01:19:59,060
One for the journey,

1115
01:20:15,340 --> 01:20:18,060
She refused the intravenous painkiller.

1116
01:20:18,500 --> 01:20:20,700
Does she refuse painkillers?

1117
01:20:21,740 --> 01:20:23,940
Are we related?

1118
01:20:24,940 --> 01:20:28,500
Looks like she'll stay here
a few days, but she will be fine.

1119
01:20:30,180 --> 01:20:32,220
She will need help
when you return home.

1120
01:20:32,460 --> 01:20:34,300
But everything will be fine.

1121
01:20:38,900 --> 01:20:40,340
It's scary,

1122
01:20:41,180 --> 01:20:44,180
For the first time,
I lack tears,

1123
01:20:50,420 --> 01:20:52,740
I don't know what I'm doing,

1124
01:20:55,980 --> 01:20:57,780
Let's face the facts,

1125
01:20:58,060 --> 01:21:01,460
I be here to help
seems like a cruel joke,

1126
01:21:14,420 --> 01:21:16,820
Not even height scares me anymore,

1127
01:21:20,740 --> 01:21:22,980
Your appearance is much better.

1128
01:21:23,460 --> 01:21:25,340
That's what everyone says.

1129
01:21:29,580 --> 01:21:31,100
You know, Lizzie...

1130
01:21:32,020 --> 01:21:33,540
I'm fine.

1131
01:21:33,820 --> 01:21:37,620
There is no reason
so you don't go back to college.

1132
01:21:38,140 --> 01:21:40,180
Mom, I talked to the nurses...

1133
01:21:40,420 --> 01:21:42,260
-and they say you need...
-Honey...

1134
01:21:42,500 --> 01:21:44,740
your exams are coming up.

1135
01:21:46,740 --> 01:21:49,780
You need someone with you.
Even if it's just for a few days.

1136
01:21:50,020 --> 01:21:52,980
I can take care of myself,
it was always like this.

1137
01:21:54,820 --> 01:21:56,980
You're not going home alone.

1138
01:21:58,300 --> 01:21:59,620
In the other closet.

1139
01:21:59,860 --> 01:22:01,580
I don't know.

1140
01:22:02,340 --> 01:22:03,700
Grandfather.

1141
01:22:17,820 --> 01:22:20,660
I don't know what I would do
without Lizzie here.

1142
01:22:24,180 --> 01:22:27,540
-None of this would have happened...
-Don't say that.

1143
01:22:27,820 --> 01:22:30,100
if it weren't for her.

1144
01:22:47,380 --> 01:22:48,740
They left.

1145
01:22:49,420 --> 01:22:50,580
AND.

1146
01:22:52,020 --> 01:22:54,620
I wasn't in the mood
to say goodbye.

1147
01:23:02,020 --> 01:23:05,620
After all this time,
I didn't even ask him about Rafe.

1148
01:23:13,860 --> 01:23:15,220
That's over.

1149
01:23:17,140 --> 01:23:18,420
He...

1150
01:23:18,740 --> 01:23:20,820
He doesn't want to see me anymore.

1151
01:23:26,980 --> 01:23:29,140
He knows,
when Donald left me...

1152
01:23:31,900 --> 01:23:33,780
It seemed unbelievable...

1153
01:23:35,060 --> 01:23:36,940
I didn't believe it.

1154
01:23:48,460 --> 01:23:51,380
I think I forgot about you,
Lizzie.

1155
01:23:52,180 --> 01:23:53,340
He understands?

1156
01:23:55,540 --> 01:23:57,820
You were just a child.

1157
01:23:58,100 --> 01:23:59,380
So...

1158
01:23:59,700 --> 01:24:00,980
small.

1159
01:24:05,580 --> 01:24:07,700
But you needed me.

1160
01:24:11,180 --> 01:24:14,020
And it forced me
paying attention again.

1161
01:24:14,260 --> 01:24:16,020
Do you understand?

1162
01:24:18,140 --> 01:24:20,500
I had to take care of you.

1163
01:24:23,140 --> 01:24:26,380
And somehow,
you brought me back to life.

1164
01:24:27,500 --> 01:24:30,020
And you became everything to me.

1165
01:24:32,180 --> 01:24:34,900
I was so focused on you.

1166
01:24:40,660 --> 01:24:42,540
And you had so much...

1167
01:24:42,980 --> 01:24:44,820
potential.

1168
01:24:45,660 --> 01:24:48,260
I wanted so much for you...

1169
01:24:48,660 --> 01:24:50,300
in your life.

1170
01:24:52,340 --> 01:24:54,220
And I couldn't see...

1171
01:24:54,500 --> 01:24:56,980
that wasn't good for you.

1172
01:25:01,260 --> 01:25:02,580
You...

1173
01:25:04,020 --> 01:25:05,580
I wanted...

1174
01:25:06,900 --> 01:25:10,260
I was everything and I can't be.

1175
01:25:15,220 --> 01:25:17,020
I can't be.

1176
01:25:26,260 --> 01:25:27,700
Listen, Lizzie.

1177
01:25:29,140 --> 01:25:32,020
You don't have
of being nothing to me.

1178
01:25:32,980 --> 01:25:35,820
You don't have
to be okay with me.

1179
01:25:36,060 --> 01:25:37,540
He understands?

1180
01:25:40,700 --> 01:25:42,740
You don't have to pretend.

1181
01:25:47,180 --> 01:25:49,380
I'll be fine, mom.

1182
01:25:53,380 --> 01:25:54,900
I'll be fine.

1183
01:25:56,700 --> 01:25:58,260
I promise.

1184
01:26:09,620 --> 01:26:11,300
I'll be fine,

1185
01:26:13,100 --> 01:26:14,980
And there's a reason...

1186
01:26:28,100 --> 01:26:29,940
I call it
"Crack Mouth",

1187
01:26:30,180 --> 01:26:32,180
Where do I come to get drugs,

1188
01:26:32,420 --> 01:26:34,980
Dr. Sterling
She's my dealer,

1189
01:26:36,260 --> 01:26:39,980
It seems like all the doctors
are trafficking this now,

1190
01:26:41,620 --> 01:26:45,180
Sometimes I feel like we're
Living in a Prozac generation,

1191
01:26:45,940 --> 01:26:48,540
The United States of the Depression,

1192
01:26:52,980 --> 01:26:55,300
I don't know who I am anymore.

1193
01:26:57,380 --> 01:26:59,620
I have a personality...

1194
01:27:00,500 --> 01:27:03,260
emotionally affected,
but it's me.

1195
01:27:05,060 --> 01:27:07,540
And I'm watching myself become
this person...

1196
01:27:07,780 --> 01:27:10,660
who does the right thing,
say the right thing...

1197
01:27:12,020 --> 01:27:14,580
-but that's not me.
-You feel different, don't you?

1198
01:27:14,780 --> 01:27:16,580
Of course I feel different.

1199
01:27:16,820 --> 01:27:18,740
I'm under the influence of medicine,
That was the intention, wasn't it?

1200
01:27:18,940 --> 01:27:20,860
Yes, that was the intention.

1201
01:27:21,340 --> 01:27:24,620
You just don't feel comfortable
with this new person still.

1202
01:27:24,820 --> 01:27:27,100
But I can't be that person
without taking medicine.

1203
01:27:27,340 --> 01:27:29,740
The medicine is giving you
space to breathe.

1204
01:27:29,980 --> 01:27:32,980
So it seems that everything
is being masked.

1205
01:27:33,500 --> 01:27:36,660
I recommend that you continue with the medicine,
but the choice is not mine.

1206
01:27:36,980 --> 01:27:38,460
The choice is yours.

1207
01:27:42,420 --> 01:27:44,140
Do you want to stop taking the medicine?

1208
01:28:44,740 --> 01:28:47,220
Baby, come here.
Everything is fine.

1209
01:28:48,380 --> 01:28:49,940
Everything is fine.

1210
01:29:21,380 --> 01:29:24,620
If my life could be
like in the movies,

1211
01:29:25,340 --> 01:29:27,420
I want an angel
come to me...

1212
01:29:27,700 --> 01:29:29,780
like you do with Jimmy Stewart
in "It's a Wonderful Life"...

1213
01:29:30,020 --> 01:29:32,660
and convince me
not to commit suicide,

1214
01:29:32,900 --> 01:29:36,220
I always waited for this moment
really to set me free...

1215
01:29:36,460 --> 01:29:38,740
and change my life forever,

1216
01:29:38,980 --> 01:29:40,820
But he doesn't come,

1217
01:29:41,620 --> 01:29:43,860
That's not how it happens,

1218
01:29:46,540 --> 01:29:49,100
All medicines,
all therapy...

1219
01:29:49,300 --> 01:29:50,740
fights, anger...

1220
01:29:50,980 --> 01:29:52,340
Blame it, Rafe...

1221
01:29:52,580 --> 01:29:54,260
suicidal thoughts,

1222
01:29:54,500 --> 01:29:57,660
This was all part
of a slow recovery process,

1223
01:29:57,940 --> 01:30:00,820
The same way I fell apart
I got up again.

1224
01:30:01,100 --> 01:30:02,420
Gradually...

1225
01:30:02,620 --> 01:30:04,460
and then, quickly,

1226
01:30:09,060 --> 01:30:11,940
The medicine did not lead to a cure,
God knows that.

1227
01:30:12,180 --> 01:30:13,940
But it gave me time to breathe,

1228
01:30:14,260 --> 01:30:16,260
What allowed me to start
writing again.

1229
01:30:16,500 --> 01:30:19,540
Only this time,
my life didn't depend on him,

1230
01:30:34,460 --> 01:30:36,980
SEVEN YEARS LATER, "PROZAC GENERATION",
BY ELIZABETH WURTZEL...

1231
01:30:37,260 --> 01:30:40,340
IT WAS PUBLISHED AND BECAME
AN INTERNATIONAL BESTSELLER.

1232
01:30:41,100 --> 01:30:43,860
ONLY IN THE USA, MORE THAN
300 MILLION RECIPES...

1233
01:30:44,100 --> 01:30:47,820
THEY ARE DONE PER YEAR, WITH PROZAC
AND OTHER ANTI-DEPRESSANTS.