1 00:00:01,668 --> 00:00:04,004 (grand orchestral fanfare playing) 2 00:00:32,866 --> 00:00:35,160 (overlapping chatter) 3 00:00:35,201 --> 00:00:38,329 ♪ ♪ 4 00:00:55,221 --> 00:00:58,058 (indistinct radio transmission) 5 00:01:01,227 --> 00:01:04,064 (vehicles trundling) 6 00:01:09,861 --> 00:01:13,865 (indistinct radio transmission) 7 00:01:13,907 --> 00:01:15,366 ♪ No clouds in my stones ♪ 8 00:01:15,408 --> 00:01:16,493 ♪ Let it rain ♪ 9 00:01:16,534 --> 00:01:17,869 ♪ I hydroplane in the bank ♪ 10 00:01:17,911 --> 00:01:19,454 ♪ Comin' down like the Dow Jones... ♪ 11 00:01:19,496 --> 00:01:21,372 (helicopter blades whirring) 12 00:01:21,414 --> 00:01:23,917 ♪ We fly higher than weather ♪ 13 00:01:23,958 --> 00:01:25,376 ♪ In G5s or better ♪ 14 00:01:25,418 --> 00:01:26,795 ♪ You know me ♪ 15 00:01:26,836 --> 00:01:28,546 ♪ In anticipation for precipitation ♪ 16 00:01:28,588 --> 00:01:30,340 ♪ Stack chips for the rainy day ♪ 17 00:01:30,381 --> 00:01:32,342 ♪ Jay, Rain Man is back ♪ 18 00:01:32,383 --> 00:01:33,927 ♪ With Little Ms. Sunshine ♪ 19 00:01:33,968 --> 00:01:35,303 ♪ Rihanna, where you at? ♪ 20 00:01:35,345 --> 00:01:37,263 (singing along): ♪ You have my heart ♪ 21 00:01:37,305 --> 00:01:39,891 ♪ And we'll never be worlds apart ♪ 22 00:01:39,933 --> 00:01:42,435 ♪ Maybe in magazines ♪ 23 00:01:42,477 --> 00:01:45,313 ♪ But you'll still be my star ♪ 24 00:01:45,355 --> 00:01:48,399 ♪ Baby, 'cause in the dark ♪ 25 00:01:48,441 --> 00:01:51,319 ♪ You can't see shiny cars ♪ 26 00:01:51,361 --> 00:01:53,071 ♪ And that's when you need me there ♪ 27 00:01:53,113 --> 00:01:54,197 (music stops) 28 00:01:54,239 --> 00:01:55,907 -No! -Aww. 29 00:01:55,949 --> 00:01:57,742 I thought you fixed it! 30 00:01:57,784 --> 00:01:59,869 (exclaims) 31 00:01:59,911 --> 00:02:01,246 -Zoe. -Mm? 32 00:02:01,287 --> 00:02:03,456 -Come on. -Sorry. Here. 33 00:02:06,543 --> 00:02:08,586 Oh, come on, Captain America, we're in a war zone. 34 00:02:08,628 --> 00:02:11,256 Just... live a little. It's not like 35 00:02:11,297 --> 00:02:13,091 -anyone's gonna come, anyway. -(banging) 36 00:02:13,133 --> 00:02:14,926 -Oh, shit, shit, shit! -Shh! 37 00:02:14,968 --> 00:02:16,261 (helicopter passing) 38 00:02:16,302 --> 00:02:17,887 -Shit! -Shit! (mutters) 39 00:02:17,929 --> 00:02:19,264 (window thuds) 40 00:02:19,305 --> 00:02:20,390 Aw, fuck. 41 00:02:20,431 --> 00:02:21,975 Hey, Ramirez. 42 00:02:22,016 --> 00:02:25,478 I see you are filling out that blouse quite nicely. 43 00:02:25,520 --> 00:02:28,314 Ew. God, you are such a mouth-breather. 44 00:02:28,356 --> 00:02:30,108 Hey, Charles! 45 00:02:30,150 --> 00:02:31,860 Lookin' as pretty as ever. 46 00:02:31,901 --> 00:02:33,111 Mm-mm. 47 00:02:33,153 --> 00:02:34,445 What do you want, Lewis? 48 00:02:34,487 --> 00:02:35,947 Oh, um, Sergeant Shepherd's on his way. 49 00:02:35,989 --> 00:02:37,365 -For real? -Yep. 50 00:02:37,407 --> 00:02:39,617 Cool, okay. Fuck off, Lewis. 51 00:02:39,659 --> 00:02:41,244 Geez! I was just trying to help. 52 00:02:41,286 --> 00:02:42,453 Fuck off! 53 00:02:42,495 --> 00:02:44,122 -Can I call you? Call me? -No! 54 00:02:44,164 --> 00:02:45,290 -Ugh! -All right. 55 00:02:45,331 --> 00:02:46,833 No, no, no, no, wait, wait, wait, 56 00:02:46,875 --> 00:02:48,501 let me just finish the song, I just-- I can fix it. 57 00:02:48,543 --> 00:02:50,044 -Zoe. -I can fix it, 58 00:02:50,086 --> 00:02:51,629 I can fix it, I can fix it. Just let me just do this, 59 00:02:51,671 --> 00:02:54,465 and I think, if I just hold this like this... 60 00:02:54,507 --> 00:02:56,259 I got it, I got it, I got it-- ready? 61 00:02:56,301 --> 00:02:58,136 ♪ I'll always share ♪ 62 00:02:58,178 --> 00:02:59,804 BOTH: ♪ Because... ♪ 63 00:02:59,846 --> 00:03:02,640 ♪ When the sun shines, we'll shine together. ♪ 64 00:03:03,683 --> 00:03:05,351 ZOE: You believe Ventura got medevacked out of here 65 00:03:05,393 --> 00:03:08,104 for that tiny little fuckin' scratch? 66 00:03:08,146 --> 00:03:09,480 She almost got blown up. 67 00:03:09,522 --> 00:03:11,024 I just hope that everything is okay 68 00:03:11,065 --> 00:03:12,650 with her... 69 00:03:12,692 --> 00:03:13,776 You know. 70 00:03:13,818 --> 00:03:15,904 -Her internal organs? -No, her tits. 71 00:03:15,945 --> 00:03:17,238 She's got great tits. 72 00:03:17,280 --> 00:03:18,823 So, she might have PTSD and need therapy, 73 00:03:18,865 --> 00:03:20,158 but at least her tits are all right. 74 00:03:20,200 --> 00:03:21,451 Yeah. 75 00:03:21,492 --> 00:03:23,286 They're important. 76 00:03:25,205 --> 00:03:26,414 (Merit sighs) 77 00:03:26,456 --> 00:03:28,666 Can you promise me something? 78 00:03:28,708 --> 00:03:30,126 Can you promise me we won't get, like, 79 00:03:30,168 --> 00:03:31,211 fucked up? 80 00:03:31,252 --> 00:03:33,213 That's too easy. 81 00:03:33,254 --> 00:03:34,881 Taliban can't touch this. 82 00:03:34,923 --> 00:03:35,965 Come on. 83 00:03:36,007 --> 00:03:38,384 No, I mean, like, in the head. 84 00:03:38,426 --> 00:03:39,510 You already fucked up in the head, 85 00:03:39,552 --> 00:03:41,012 so what does that mean? 86 00:03:41,054 --> 00:03:42,722 Merit, I'm serious! 87 00:03:43,556 --> 00:03:45,558 What are you saying? 88 00:03:46,392 --> 00:03:49,270 I'm saying that if you ever catch me 89 00:03:49,312 --> 00:03:52,857 in some sort of, like, dopey-ass, PTSD 90 00:03:52,899 --> 00:03:54,317 group therapy bullshit, 91 00:03:54,359 --> 00:03:55,693 or any kind of therapy, 92 00:03:55,735 --> 00:03:59,239 you have permission to fucking kill me. 93 00:03:59,280 --> 00:04:01,699 DR. COLE: So, we're all here? 94 00:04:01,741 --> 00:04:03,409 Good. 95 00:04:03,451 --> 00:04:05,703 Who wants to start? 96 00:04:11,834 --> 00:04:13,670 James. 97 00:04:14,712 --> 00:04:16,714 Uh... 98 00:04:16,756 --> 00:04:17,924 James. 99 00:04:17,966 --> 00:04:19,634 Sergeant, Marine Corps. 100 00:04:19,676 --> 00:04:23,554 2004, Al Anbar Province in Iraq. 101 00:04:23,596 --> 00:04:26,683 Um, our job was to go look for IEDs, 102 00:04:26,724 --> 00:04:28,434 find the guys putting 'em out there. 103 00:04:28,476 --> 00:04:30,353 -Cool story, bro. -Shh! 104 00:04:33,314 --> 00:04:34,774 Merit? 105 00:04:37,360 --> 00:04:39,612 -Everything okay? -Mm... 106 00:04:41,072 --> 00:04:43,283 Mm-hmm. Yes, sir. 107 00:04:44,117 --> 00:04:45,576 Go on, James. 108 00:04:45,618 --> 00:04:50,623 The, uh, negative, unhelpful feelings 109 00:04:50,665 --> 00:04:52,500 that I'm trying to process from that day 110 00:04:52,542 --> 00:04:54,919 are, um... um... 111 00:04:54,961 --> 00:04:56,254 Oh, my God. 112 00:04:56,296 --> 00:04:58,089 James, okay, okay. 113 00:04:58,131 --> 00:05:00,008 Aren't we better than this-- 114 00:05:00,049 --> 00:05:02,510 than this woe-is-me shit? 115 00:05:02,552 --> 00:05:05,513 Didn't we join the most powerful military of all time, 116 00:05:05,555 --> 00:05:09,350 did we survive the dumbest wars of all time, 117 00:05:09,392 --> 00:05:11,519 just to sit here broken and all "Kumbaya" 118 00:05:11,561 --> 00:05:13,896 and, oh, "Oh, gee, my feelings"? 119 00:05:13,938 --> 00:05:15,398 No! Fuck! 120 00:05:15,440 --> 00:05:18,067 Get it together! God! 121 00:05:18,109 --> 00:05:19,610 Ugh! 122 00:05:19,652 --> 00:05:21,362 -Let's get out of here. -Be quiet. 123 00:05:21,404 --> 00:05:23,865 -I'm listening. -Merit? 124 00:05:30,163 --> 00:05:31,956 I'm sorry. 125 00:05:31,998 --> 00:05:34,500 I'm so-- I'm so... 126 00:05:36,210 --> 00:05:38,338 I'm sorry, James. 127 00:05:43,718 --> 00:05:45,845 Uh, sorry, James. Go on. 128 00:05:45,887 --> 00:05:48,473 (birds chirping) 129 00:05:48,514 --> 00:05:50,933 (distant voices) 130 00:05:54,020 --> 00:05:56,981 (door opens, closes) 131 00:05:57,023 --> 00:05:58,983 (sighs) 132 00:05:59,025 --> 00:06:00,777 Good work. 133 00:06:05,073 --> 00:06:08,117 (indistinct chatter) 134 00:06:13,706 --> 00:06:15,541 I can't sign that. 135 00:06:15,583 --> 00:06:16,834 I was here. 136 00:06:16,876 --> 00:06:19,462 Yeah, you were here, physically. 137 00:06:19,504 --> 00:06:22,131 But you didn't share, 138 00:06:22,173 --> 00:06:25,468 you didn't give your attention to the others. 139 00:06:26,636 --> 00:06:28,888 We all have pasts. 140 00:06:30,264 --> 00:06:31,682 You think you're the only one 141 00:06:31,724 --> 00:06:33,810 who doesn't want to talk about it, Merit? 142 00:06:35,645 --> 00:06:36,729 (Merit sighs softly) 143 00:06:36,771 --> 00:06:39,148 ♪ Fuck anybody else ♪ 144 00:06:39,190 --> 00:06:40,525 ♪ They don't know ♪ 145 00:06:40,566 --> 00:06:45,113 ♪ What we been through ♪ 146 00:06:45,154 --> 00:06:48,449 ♪ Fuck anybody else ♪ 147 00:06:48,491 --> 00:06:49,659 ♪ They don't know ♪ 148 00:06:49,700 --> 00:06:52,703 ♪ What the world did to you ♪ 149 00:06:52,745 --> 00:06:55,206 ♪ Fuck what they say ♪ 150 00:06:55,248 --> 00:06:57,917 ♪ They really got nothing good to say ♪ 151 00:06:57,959 --> 00:07:00,586 ♪ Anyway, anytime, any place ♪ 152 00:07:00,628 --> 00:07:03,214 ♪ Fuck every one of them ♪ 153 00:07:03,256 --> 00:07:05,675 ♪ They ain't none of our friends ♪ 154 00:07:05,716 --> 00:07:07,635 ♪ All we need is this ♪ 155 00:07:07,677 --> 00:07:09,554 ♪ Two of us and a full clip ♪ 156 00:07:09,595 --> 00:07:11,556 ♪ No, they don't want beef ♪ 157 00:07:11,597 --> 00:07:13,474 ♪ They don't want nails, teeth ♪ 158 00:07:13,516 --> 00:07:17,437 ♪ They don't want knuckles, no ♪ 159 00:07:17,478 --> 00:07:19,397 ♪ They don't wanna bleed ♪ 160 00:07:19,439 --> 00:07:21,816 ♪ But I come for blood ♪ 161 00:07:21,858 --> 00:07:25,570 ♪ 'Cause I fuckin' love you, yeah ♪ 162 00:07:25,611 --> 00:07:27,196 ♪ Yeah, I'm crazy ♪ 163 00:07:27,238 --> 00:07:28,781 ♪ Crazy enough to say ♪ 164 00:07:28,823 --> 00:07:33,119 ♪ I'm crazy enough to swear I'll die for you, yeah ♪ 165 00:07:33,161 --> 00:07:35,163 ♪ They don't know shit ♪ 166 00:07:35,204 --> 00:07:37,498 ♪ Don't know who they're fuckin' with ♪ 167 00:07:37,540 --> 00:07:41,210 ♪ It's the power couple, ah. ♪ 168 00:07:42,962 --> 00:07:46,340 (panting) 169 00:07:46,382 --> 00:07:48,342 (tags jingle) 170 00:07:48,384 --> 00:07:50,011 Honey, you're home! 171 00:07:50,052 --> 00:07:51,429 (exclaims) 172 00:07:51,471 --> 00:07:53,181 It's 8:00 a.m. 173 00:07:53,222 --> 00:07:54,599 Do you know why people hate runners? 174 00:07:54,640 --> 00:07:56,225 Flat stomachs? Sculpted legs? 175 00:07:56,267 --> 00:07:57,727 It's selfish. It's a selfish sport. 176 00:07:57,768 --> 00:07:59,020 What the hell am I supposed to do 177 00:07:59,061 --> 00:08:00,897 while you're gone? 178 00:08:00,938 --> 00:08:03,149 You could work on our puzzle. 179 00:08:03,191 --> 00:08:07,028 Man. That VA counselor guy, what a dick. 180 00:08:09,363 --> 00:08:10,615 Mm! 181 00:08:10,656 --> 00:08:12,533 I just had a genius idea. 182 00:08:12,575 --> 00:08:14,619 We watch MáAáSáH again, 183 00:08:14,660 --> 00:08:17,079 but it's a drinking game. 184 00:08:17,121 --> 00:08:19,457 -(phone ringing) -Shit! That is not a no. 185 00:08:19,499 --> 00:08:21,667 Ugh. Why does she always FaceTime? 186 00:08:21,709 --> 00:08:23,753 It's so creepy. 187 00:08:23,794 --> 00:08:25,546 -Hi, Mom. -KRIS: Is talking 188 00:08:25,588 --> 00:08:27,048 to your mother really that dreadful? 189 00:08:27,089 --> 00:08:30,134 No, Mom, it's... 190 00:08:30,176 --> 00:08:31,552 How's China? 191 00:08:31,594 --> 00:08:32,803 I'm in Hong Kong, honey. 192 00:08:32,845 --> 00:08:34,222 -There's a difference. -Is there? 193 00:08:34,263 --> 00:08:36,891 I mean, they had some limited autonomy then. 194 00:08:36,933 --> 00:08:39,477 So, how's the warehouse job? 195 00:08:39,519 --> 00:08:41,687 How's your life, boyfriend? 196 00:08:41,729 --> 00:08:42,813 Any friends? 197 00:08:42,855 --> 00:08:45,149 Mom, please. Stop. 198 00:08:45,191 --> 00:08:46,984 I'm sure you called because you need something. 199 00:08:47,026 --> 00:08:48,778 I'm your mother, I'm allowed to ask about your life. 200 00:08:48,819 --> 00:08:51,447 Okay, so what did you call about? 201 00:08:51,489 --> 00:08:52,532 I need something. 202 00:08:52,573 --> 00:08:54,242 -I knew it. -ZOE: I knew it! 203 00:08:54,283 --> 00:08:55,743 It's your Grandpa Dale. 204 00:08:55,785 --> 00:08:56,911 They found him wandering. 205 00:08:56,953 --> 00:08:58,829 What do you mean, wandering? 206 00:08:58,871 --> 00:09:01,123 Kwan found him way out at her place. 207 00:09:01,165 --> 00:09:02,667 She took him to the hospital. 208 00:09:02,708 --> 00:09:04,961 -Okay, so he's okay, then. -No, he's not-- 209 00:09:05,002 --> 00:09:07,838 I just told you that your grandpa was in the hospital. 210 00:09:07,880 --> 00:09:10,049 What is the matter with you? 211 00:09:10,091 --> 00:09:12,385 Okay, Mom, I... 212 00:09:12,426 --> 00:09:13,719 Sorry. 213 00:09:13,761 --> 00:09:15,012 I gotta go. 214 00:09:15,054 --> 00:09:15,972 No, no, no-- no. 215 00:09:16,013 --> 00:09:17,640 I need you to go out there, 216 00:09:17,682 --> 00:09:19,934 I need you to go out to the lake and check in on your grandpa, 217 00:09:19,976 --> 00:09:21,602 -make sure he's all right. -(exclaims) 218 00:09:21,644 --> 00:09:22,728 It smells like crayon. 219 00:09:22,770 --> 00:09:23,980 (chuckles) 220 00:09:24,021 --> 00:09:26,983 -KRIS: Merit? -I can't. I, um... 221 00:09:27,024 --> 00:09:28,401 I just started a new group. 222 00:09:28,442 --> 00:09:30,236 -Oh. -At the VA. 223 00:09:30,278 --> 00:09:31,862 Like therapy, counseling? 224 00:09:31,904 --> 00:09:34,282 -Mm-hmm. -Did something happen? 225 00:09:34,323 --> 00:09:36,367 No, I... 226 00:09:36,409 --> 00:09:38,494 I chose to. 227 00:09:38,536 --> 00:09:40,830 It's good, it's, it's... 228 00:09:40,871 --> 00:09:42,164 I think it's really gonna help me, 229 00:09:42,206 --> 00:09:45,042 but I-I can't miss any sessions, or... 230 00:09:45,084 --> 00:09:46,794 That's wonderful news, it really is. 231 00:09:46,836 --> 00:09:49,005 I will figure something out for Grandpa. 232 00:09:49,046 --> 00:09:51,507 I'm really proud of you, Merit, I really am. 233 00:09:51,549 --> 00:09:53,926 I know your dad would be, too. 234 00:09:53,968 --> 00:09:55,553 Okay, Mom, I gotta go, I love you. 235 00:09:55,595 --> 00:09:57,263 KRIS: I love you. 236 00:09:57,305 --> 00:09:59,348 ♪ ♪ 237 00:10:04,020 --> 00:10:06,022 Did you hear back yet? 238 00:10:06,063 --> 00:10:07,898 No. 239 00:10:07,940 --> 00:10:09,317 I'm probably not even gonna get in. 240 00:10:09,358 --> 00:10:11,277 Come on. Merit, look. 241 00:10:11,319 --> 00:10:13,696 I think college is stupid and mostly useless, 242 00:10:13,738 --> 00:10:16,657 but you, you can do anything you want. 243 00:10:16,699 --> 00:10:18,075 So if you want it, you're gonna get it. 244 00:10:18,117 --> 00:10:20,202 You're the smartest person I know. 245 00:10:20,244 --> 00:10:21,912 Nine-sixteenths. 246 00:10:21,954 --> 00:10:24,957 Let's see, what could you major in? 247 00:10:24,999 --> 00:10:28,044 Oh... '90s hip-hop, you're good at that. 248 00:10:28,085 --> 00:10:29,503 (scoffs) 249 00:10:29,545 --> 00:10:32,340 Lumber sciences, is that a thing? 250 00:10:32,381 --> 00:10:33,507 Yeah. 251 00:10:33,549 --> 00:10:34,842 Maybe, yeah. 252 00:10:34,884 --> 00:10:36,260 You know, 'cause your family owns 253 00:10:36,302 --> 00:10:37,345 a Christmas tree farm? 254 00:10:37,386 --> 00:10:38,971 Just thinkin' of the family biz. 255 00:10:39,013 --> 00:10:40,806 You could run that shit like Santa. 256 00:10:40,848 --> 00:10:44,268 What about you, after this? 257 00:10:44,310 --> 00:10:45,978 I don't know. 258 00:10:46,979 --> 00:10:50,107 -(indistinct chatter) -(power tools whirring) 259 00:10:50,149 --> 00:10:52,735 You know, you could do something epic. 260 00:10:52,777 --> 00:10:54,612 Mm-hmm. 261 00:10:54,654 --> 00:10:56,447 Okay. Sure. 262 00:10:56,489 --> 00:10:57,907 ♪ ♪ 263 00:10:57,948 --> 00:11:01,035 DR. COLE: All right. I thought, for today, 264 00:11:01,077 --> 00:11:02,703 we would try something different. 265 00:11:02,745 --> 00:11:05,665 Follow the bouncing ball. 266 00:11:06,999 --> 00:11:10,628 This is stupid, but I'll-I'll play ball. 267 00:11:10,670 --> 00:11:12,963 Hi. My name is Assia. 268 00:11:13,005 --> 00:11:14,799 I was a captain in the Army. 269 00:11:14,840 --> 00:11:16,467 Um... 270 00:11:16,509 --> 00:11:19,845 I was the only female in every unit I served in. 271 00:11:19,887 --> 00:11:21,138 On my first deployment, 272 00:11:21,180 --> 00:11:24,016 I was not allowed to stay with my team 273 00:11:24,058 --> 00:11:26,143 where they were sleeping, and, um, 274 00:11:26,185 --> 00:11:28,145 it was only because I was a female. 275 00:11:28,187 --> 00:11:30,147 And so, every day, for our targeting mission, 276 00:11:30,189 --> 00:11:33,150 I had to drive by myself for six hours. 277 00:11:33,192 --> 00:11:36,070 One direction, six hours, back. 278 00:11:36,112 --> 00:11:38,364 Um... 279 00:11:38,406 --> 00:11:40,408 And I'm here 280 00:11:40,449 --> 00:11:44,120 because I'm trying to belong to myself again. 281 00:11:44,870 --> 00:11:47,415 (distant siren wailing) 282 00:11:47,456 --> 00:11:49,208 Try Merit. 283 00:11:51,085 --> 00:11:51,836 (scoffs) 284 00:11:51,877 --> 00:11:53,337 You ready? 285 00:11:57,883 --> 00:12:00,344 My name is Merit. 286 00:12:02,722 --> 00:12:06,100 I was... Army. 287 00:12:06,142 --> 00:12:08,394 ZOE: You're doing great. 288 00:12:12,022 --> 00:12:15,735 All right. Why don't we start with an easy one? 289 00:12:16,527 --> 00:12:18,237 Why did you join? 290 00:12:23,617 --> 00:12:26,078 I joined because of my grandpa. 291 00:12:26,120 --> 00:12:27,121 Hmm. 292 00:12:27,163 --> 00:12:29,707 He's retired from the Army 22 years, 293 00:12:29,749 --> 00:12:31,000 lieutenant colonel. 294 00:12:31,041 --> 00:12:33,586 When I was a kid, 295 00:12:33,627 --> 00:12:34,837 we would go to music in the park 296 00:12:34,879 --> 00:12:36,839 on the Fourth of July, 297 00:12:36,881 --> 00:12:39,300 and the band would play the fight song 298 00:12:39,341 --> 00:12:42,678 for each branch of the military, you know? 299 00:12:42,720 --> 00:12:45,431 And if you were a veteran, 300 00:12:45,473 --> 00:12:47,850 you would stand when they played your song. 301 00:12:47,892 --> 00:12:50,895 Can you email me the rest of this? 302 00:12:50,936 --> 00:12:53,063 When they played the Army song, 303 00:12:53,105 --> 00:12:57,651 my grandpa would stand, and... 304 00:12:57,693 --> 00:13:01,363 I swear, he seemed a hundred feet tall to me. 305 00:13:03,324 --> 00:13:06,285 And I wanted to be tall too, you know? 306 00:13:08,245 --> 00:13:09,497 So... 307 00:13:11,540 --> 00:13:14,502 Now tell us why you're here. 308 00:13:16,545 --> 00:13:17,922 (faint blip) 309 00:13:17,963 --> 00:13:20,341 ♪ ♪ 310 00:13:20,382 --> 00:13:22,176 (sighs) 311 00:13:26,305 --> 00:13:30,559 What I wanna talk about is, is... 312 00:13:30,601 --> 00:13:34,897 is not an incident, it's... 313 00:13:35,898 --> 00:13:37,691 ZOE: Leave me alone! 314 00:13:37,733 --> 00:13:40,277 It's a-- it's a person. 315 00:13:40,319 --> 00:13:42,279 (door slams) 316 00:13:43,656 --> 00:13:45,449 DR. COLE: Merit? 317 00:13:45,491 --> 00:13:47,159 Go on. 318 00:13:53,666 --> 00:13:56,877 I don't-- I don't-- I don't feel like it today. 319 00:13:59,630 --> 00:14:02,383 Alicia, Air Force, 14 years. 320 00:14:02,424 --> 00:14:03,634 Security forces. 321 00:14:03,676 --> 00:14:05,928 MP, for you other folks. 322 00:14:05,970 --> 00:14:08,097 (chuckling) 323 00:14:08,138 --> 00:14:10,307 -See you later. -Yeah. 324 00:14:12,768 --> 00:14:14,562 I'm sorry. 325 00:14:15,521 --> 00:14:16,730 Why? 326 00:14:16,772 --> 00:14:17,982 I shared. 327 00:14:18,023 --> 00:14:20,276 You shared why you joined the Army. 328 00:14:20,317 --> 00:14:23,487 You did not share why you are here, 329 00:14:23,529 --> 00:14:25,698 which is the point. 330 00:14:25,739 --> 00:14:27,575 If you don't show up and share, 331 00:14:27,616 --> 00:14:31,412 I will have no choice but to inform the court 332 00:14:31,453 --> 00:14:35,374 that you did not complete the group. 333 00:14:36,542 --> 00:14:37,918 I'm sorry. 334 00:14:37,960 --> 00:14:40,212 ♪ ♪ 335 00:14:44,633 --> 00:14:46,010 (snaps) 336 00:14:46,051 --> 00:14:47,595 ♪ ♪ 337 00:14:48,387 --> 00:14:51,724 I actually do get why you wanna reenlist. 338 00:14:51,765 --> 00:14:53,017 But you're wrong. 339 00:14:53,058 --> 00:14:54,101 Not everybody has a happy fuckin' home 340 00:14:54,143 --> 00:14:55,853 to go back to, Merit. 341 00:14:55,895 --> 00:14:57,521 ♪ ♪ 342 00:14:57,563 --> 00:14:58,939 (buzzing) 343 00:14:58,981 --> 00:15:00,566 DR. STOKES: Ma'am, did you hear me? 344 00:15:01,984 --> 00:15:03,819 Sorry, say again? 345 00:15:03,861 --> 00:15:06,071 Your grandfather was found. 346 00:15:07,823 --> 00:15:09,325 He was found wandering. 347 00:15:09,366 --> 00:15:11,368 He didn't seem to know where he was. 348 00:15:11,410 --> 00:15:14,121 We're lucky someone brought him in. 349 00:15:14,163 --> 00:15:15,539 Right, yeah, that's Kwan. 350 00:15:15,581 --> 00:15:17,041 She-she owns the lake house next to ours. 351 00:15:17,082 --> 00:15:18,334 This has happened before, so-- 352 00:15:18,375 --> 00:15:20,544 DR. STOKES: No. That was last time. 353 00:15:20,586 --> 00:15:22,588 Dale was found on the side of Highway 8. 354 00:15:22,630 --> 00:15:24,590 The police brought him in. 355 00:15:24,632 --> 00:15:27,176 Look. We ran some tests. 356 00:15:31,138 --> 00:15:34,183 I'm diagnosing him with early stage Alzheimer's. 357 00:15:36,852 --> 00:15:38,312 I'm sorry. 358 00:15:41,649 --> 00:15:43,525 (sighs) 359 00:15:45,444 --> 00:15:48,656 Never thought I'd see the day when a man can't go for a walk 360 00:15:48,697 --> 00:15:50,574 on his own property. 361 00:15:50,616 --> 00:15:53,035 You weren't on your own property, Grandpa. 362 00:15:53,077 --> 00:15:55,704 You were on Highway 8. 363 00:15:55,746 --> 00:15:57,539 And Kwan's before that. 364 00:15:57,581 --> 00:16:00,209 -Who? -Exactly. 365 00:16:00,250 --> 00:16:02,962 I know who Kwan is. You just pronounced it wrong. 366 00:16:03,003 --> 00:16:06,423 -How do you pronounce it? -Kwan. 367 00:16:06,465 --> 00:16:07,800 Kwan... 368 00:16:07,841 --> 00:16:10,511 Sounds the same to me. 369 00:16:14,974 --> 00:16:16,934 What the hell is this thing? 370 00:16:16,976 --> 00:16:18,727 It's an iPod, it plays music. 371 00:16:18,769 --> 00:16:22,064 Huh. I've seen AN/PRC-25 field radios 372 00:16:22,106 --> 00:16:24,024 in the garbage look like they play music 373 00:16:24,066 --> 00:16:26,068 better than this thing. 374 00:16:27,611 --> 00:16:29,530 Dale's got jokes. 375 00:16:30,489 --> 00:16:32,616 ♪ ♪ 376 00:16:34,493 --> 00:16:36,537 (birds chirping) 377 00:16:46,338 --> 00:16:48,841 Want me to help you in? 378 00:16:48,882 --> 00:16:50,718 Help how? 379 00:16:50,759 --> 00:16:53,012 ♪ ♪ 380 00:16:57,224 --> 00:16:58,726 You sure you're all right? 381 00:16:58,767 --> 00:17:00,728 I'm better than all right. 382 00:17:02,521 --> 00:17:05,232 You don't think you should help him in? 383 00:17:06,025 --> 00:17:07,735 Nah. 384 00:17:07,776 --> 00:17:09,403 You heard him. 385 00:17:11,113 --> 00:17:12,948 He's better than all right. 386 00:17:12,990 --> 00:17:15,701 ♪ ♪ 387 00:17:29,673 --> 00:17:31,175 (wings fluttering) 388 00:17:31,216 --> 00:17:33,594 ♪ ♪ 389 00:17:48,984 --> 00:17:51,779 (panting) 390 00:17:54,740 --> 00:17:57,201 Hi, Merit! 391 00:17:57,242 --> 00:18:00,370 Not much of a talker, are you? 392 00:18:00,412 --> 00:18:02,081 People talk enough. 393 00:18:02,122 --> 00:18:04,249 I meant, in group. 394 00:18:04,291 --> 00:18:07,127 I mean, that's kind of the point. 395 00:18:07,169 --> 00:18:09,463 Talking. Listening. 396 00:18:10,255 --> 00:18:12,424 Not being alone. 397 00:18:12,466 --> 00:18:14,384 It's not as simple as you think. 398 00:18:14,426 --> 00:18:16,470 Who said it was simple? 399 00:18:16,512 --> 00:18:19,431 You think it's easy for everybody, anybody? 400 00:18:19,473 --> 00:18:21,725 No, I... 401 00:18:21,767 --> 00:18:24,394 Honestly, I don't even know if I should be here. 402 00:18:24,436 --> 00:18:26,980 Well, it's not about you, Merit. 403 00:18:27,022 --> 00:18:29,399 There are other people in there. 404 00:18:29,441 --> 00:18:31,568 People who need your attention. 405 00:18:31,610 --> 00:18:34,071 If you can't talk openly about your life, 406 00:18:34,113 --> 00:18:35,781 how can they? 407 00:18:37,991 --> 00:18:41,203 I was medevacked out of Vietnam 408 00:18:41,245 --> 00:18:43,247 in November 1968. 409 00:18:43,288 --> 00:18:46,583 I was shot, almost lost my fuckin' arm. 410 00:18:46,625 --> 00:18:50,129 And for a decade, I was alone, 411 00:18:50,170 --> 00:18:53,048 self-medicating. 412 00:18:53,090 --> 00:18:56,385 Strong and silent, or so I thought at the time. 413 00:18:57,594 --> 00:19:00,764 It wasn't until 1978 that I finally started 414 00:19:00,806 --> 00:19:02,891 to talk about it. 415 00:19:02,933 --> 00:19:05,144 Respectfully, sir... 416 00:19:08,147 --> 00:19:11,525 I don't know if getting hurt is the same as losing somebody. 417 00:19:15,821 --> 00:19:19,116 I don't know what happened to you, Merit, 418 00:19:19,158 --> 00:19:21,410 what you lost, or who, 419 00:19:21,451 --> 00:19:23,453 but I do know that the kind of behavior 420 00:19:23,495 --> 00:19:25,080 that brought you to me 421 00:19:25,122 --> 00:19:28,625 is not the kind of behavior of a person who is healed. 422 00:19:28,667 --> 00:19:30,544 That behavior was an accident, Dr. Cole. 423 00:19:30,586 --> 00:19:33,297 You dropped a forklift load of television sets, 424 00:19:33,338 --> 00:19:34,715 almost crushed a coworker. 425 00:19:34,756 --> 00:19:36,466 Please! That guy at the warehouse 426 00:19:36,508 --> 00:19:37,926 was all up in your shit. 427 00:19:37,968 --> 00:19:39,386 What you're calling an accident, 428 00:19:39,428 --> 00:19:42,097 the court's calling criminal negligence. 429 00:19:42,139 --> 00:19:44,641 -Nobody died. -Nobody died. 430 00:19:44,683 --> 00:19:46,518 What? 431 00:19:47,811 --> 00:19:50,480 Merit, I know you think you're above this. 432 00:19:50,522 --> 00:19:54,318 But... courage is moving forward. 433 00:19:54,359 --> 00:19:57,946 I-It's not being unmoved. 434 00:19:57,988 --> 00:20:01,533 What is it that you are so afraid to talk about? 435 00:20:01,575 --> 00:20:03,160 MERIT: What is wrong with you? 436 00:20:03,202 --> 00:20:05,829 Get back inside! 437 00:20:05,871 --> 00:20:06,914 I just can't. 438 00:20:06,955 --> 00:20:08,999 If you don't show up and participate 439 00:20:09,041 --> 00:20:10,792 and I don't sign off, 440 00:20:10,834 --> 00:20:12,961 you're back on the mercy of the court. 441 00:20:13,003 --> 00:20:14,463 They'll fine you. 442 00:20:14,504 --> 00:20:17,007 Hell, they may even put you in jail. 443 00:20:17,049 --> 00:20:19,343 If I were you, 444 00:20:19,384 --> 00:20:22,304 I would think very seriously 445 00:20:22,346 --> 00:20:26,558 about what living in the past is worth. 446 00:20:28,060 --> 00:20:29,895 Just sayin'. 447 00:20:29,937 --> 00:20:32,564 ♪ ♪ 448 00:20:35,734 --> 00:20:39,238 ♪ ♪ 449 00:20:41,490 --> 00:20:44,243 God, this literal shit is literally killing me. 450 00:20:44,284 --> 00:20:45,827 (sighs) 451 00:20:45,869 --> 00:20:48,705 We are light-wheel mechanics. This is not that. Ugh. 452 00:20:48,747 --> 00:20:51,208 -Welcome to the Army. -(flies buzzing) 453 00:20:51,250 --> 00:20:53,085 Hey, did you give any more thought 454 00:20:53,126 --> 00:20:56,380 to any of those super cool majors I suggested? 455 00:20:56,421 --> 00:20:58,882 (flies buzzing) 456 00:20:58,924 --> 00:21:01,468 -What? -(helicopter blades whirring) 457 00:21:04,805 --> 00:21:06,556 (sighs) 458 00:21:08,308 --> 00:21:12,312 Actually, um... 459 00:21:12,354 --> 00:21:16,275 I got in... to Oregon. 460 00:21:18,485 --> 00:21:20,445 That's great. 461 00:21:25,033 --> 00:21:26,285 Thanks. 462 00:21:26,326 --> 00:21:29,204 Yeah, no, my, um... 463 00:21:29,246 --> 00:21:31,206 my cousin just, uh, 464 00:21:31,248 --> 00:21:33,583 told me he's gonna have a job for me when I get out, so... 465 00:21:33,625 --> 00:21:34,626 -Yeah? -That's cool. 466 00:21:34,668 --> 00:21:36,253 -Your cousin? -Mm-hmm. 467 00:21:36,295 --> 00:21:37,337 Which one? 468 00:21:37,379 --> 00:21:40,090 Why didn't you tell me? 469 00:21:40,132 --> 00:21:42,926 I don't know, Zoe, I... 470 00:21:45,053 --> 00:21:47,639 I didn't know how you would react. 471 00:21:48,432 --> 00:21:50,309 It's not like you've had anything 472 00:21:50,350 --> 00:21:51,768 super positive to say about college. 473 00:21:51,810 --> 00:21:54,980 I love college. I think college is amazing. 474 00:21:55,022 --> 00:21:57,941 Rich kids and snowflakes. 475 00:21:57,983 --> 00:22:00,235 There it is. 476 00:22:00,277 --> 00:22:02,279 And I'm neither, by the way. 477 00:22:02,321 --> 00:22:04,364 Okay. 478 00:22:04,406 --> 00:22:05,949 You know what I honestly think? 479 00:22:05,991 --> 00:22:08,118 -Here it goes. -I think you get uncomfortable 480 00:22:08,160 --> 00:22:10,162 when anybody talks about life after the military. 481 00:22:10,203 --> 00:22:12,080 -Oh, is that what you think? -Yeah, that's what I think. 482 00:22:12,122 --> 00:22:15,000 Well... sorry you misinterpreted me. 483 00:22:15,042 --> 00:22:17,085 I'm actually really proud of you. 484 00:22:17,127 --> 00:22:19,504 I'm really excited for you. Congratulations. 485 00:22:20,297 --> 00:22:22,883 ♪ ♪ 486 00:22:27,012 --> 00:22:28,972 (muttering) 487 00:22:29,014 --> 00:22:31,016 (flies buzzing) 488 00:22:33,935 --> 00:22:35,270 (panting) 489 00:22:35,312 --> 00:22:38,065 (TV playing indistinctly) 490 00:22:38,106 --> 00:22:40,567 (chuckling) 491 00:22:40,609 --> 00:22:42,652 (Zoe laughs) 492 00:22:42,694 --> 00:22:44,363 Hey. 493 00:22:45,197 --> 00:22:49,201 Your mother called... again. 494 00:22:50,202 --> 00:22:53,455 If I were you, I would not call her back. 495 00:22:54,331 --> 00:22:55,874 MERIT: Ugh. 496 00:22:58,585 --> 00:23:01,004 (phone ringing) 497 00:23:05,842 --> 00:23:07,094 (sighs) 498 00:23:10,555 --> 00:23:11,807 KRIS (over phone): You dropped him off? 499 00:23:11,848 --> 00:23:13,183 What is wrong with you? 500 00:23:13,225 --> 00:23:14,309 -Mom. -Merit, 501 00:23:14,351 --> 00:23:15,519 you're gonna go back there, 502 00:23:15,560 --> 00:23:17,521 you're gonna help me sell that cabin. 503 00:23:17,562 --> 00:23:20,065 I've already contacted a realtor. 504 00:23:20,107 --> 00:23:22,692 What? Grandpa still lives there. 505 00:23:22,734 --> 00:23:24,736 And that was fine as long as he was fine, 506 00:23:24,778 --> 00:23:27,197 -but he's not anymore. -Where is he gonna live? 507 00:23:27,239 --> 00:23:29,074 He's going to a retirement home, 508 00:23:29,116 --> 00:23:31,660 and I've already started making some calls. 509 00:23:31,701 --> 00:23:33,495 This has to be done, Merit. 510 00:23:33,537 --> 00:23:35,080 He needs help. 511 00:23:36,123 --> 00:23:37,290 Mom, I can't. 512 00:23:37,332 --> 00:23:38,875 I just don't understand, Merit. 513 00:23:38,917 --> 00:23:40,627 There's no therapy at the cabin. 514 00:23:40,669 --> 00:23:43,588 You used to spend so much time with your grandpa. 515 00:23:43,630 --> 00:23:46,591 ♪ ♪ 516 00:23:55,016 --> 00:23:56,935 (clicking) 517 00:24:00,188 --> 00:24:07,904 (singing along): ♪ Time presses on and on and on and on ♪ 518 00:24:07,946 --> 00:24:13,326 ♪ Time presses on and on ♪ 519 00:24:13,368 --> 00:24:15,871 ♪ ♪ 520 00:24:15,912 --> 00:24:22,961 ♪ Time presses on and on and on and on. ♪ 521 00:24:23,003 --> 00:24:27,299 ♪ Me and my red guitar sitting on the hardwood floor ♪ 522 00:24:27,340 --> 00:24:31,887 ♪ Singing this song about how I don't love you anymore. ♪ 523 00:24:31,928 --> 00:24:33,472 ♪ Crank the bass, turn me up ♪ 524 00:24:33,513 --> 00:24:35,599 ♪ We're tryna race, burn it up ♪ 525 00:24:35,640 --> 00:24:36,766 ♪ Whoo, uh ♪ 526 00:24:36,808 --> 00:24:38,185 ♪ Shake the place, tear it up ♪ 527 00:24:38,226 --> 00:24:39,603 ♪ Shake it, whoop ♪ 528 00:24:39,644 --> 00:24:42,230 ♪ We the craze, know you heard of us! ♪ 529 00:24:47,611 --> 00:24:48,862 ♪ Shake the place, tear it up ♪ 530 00:24:48,904 --> 00:24:50,447 ♪ Shake it, whoo ♪ 531 00:24:50,489 --> 00:24:51,656 ♪ Yeah, we the greats, know you heard of us ♪ 532 00:24:51,698 --> 00:24:53,074 ♪ Heard about us, uh ♪ 533 00:24:53,116 --> 00:24:54,659 ♪ Uh, driving like I know I want it ♪ 534 00:24:54,701 --> 00:24:56,119 ♪ Uh, yeah ♪ 535 00:24:56,161 --> 00:24:57,287 ♪ Celebrate it if you pull up on 'em ♪ 536 00:24:57,329 --> 00:24:58,455 ♪ Zone, what up ♪ 537 00:24:58,497 --> 00:24:59,456 ♪ Simon got that pretty woman ♪ 538 00:24:59,498 --> 00:25:01,124 ♪ Uh, yeah... ♪ 539 00:25:01,166 --> 00:25:03,001 ZOE: Wow. You didn't tell me your grandfather lived 540 00:25:03,043 --> 00:25:05,253 on the set of a horror film. 541 00:25:05,295 --> 00:25:06,922 (music continues faintly) 542 00:25:06,963 --> 00:25:10,217 So which one of us do you think is gonna get killed first? 543 00:25:10,258 --> 00:25:12,677 I mean, on the one hand, you're Black. 544 00:25:12,719 --> 00:25:14,471 You guys don't make it long in horror movies. 545 00:25:14,513 --> 00:25:16,431 But on the other hand, I'm already dead. 546 00:25:16,473 --> 00:25:17,974 (Merit laughs) 547 00:25:18,016 --> 00:25:19,392 You seriously need to stop. 548 00:25:19,434 --> 00:25:22,729 What? Isn't Oregon known for its serial killers? 549 00:25:22,771 --> 00:25:24,981 Randall Woodfield, the I-5 Bandit. 550 00:25:25,023 --> 00:25:29,236 Dayton Leroy Rogers, the Molalla Forest Killer. 551 00:25:29,277 --> 00:25:31,238 There's something wrong with your brain. 552 00:25:31,279 --> 00:25:32,864 Or is it yours? 553 00:25:35,700 --> 00:25:38,286 (birds chirping) 554 00:25:50,382 --> 00:25:53,051 You know, this is exactly how these movies start. 555 00:25:55,762 --> 00:25:57,138 Bunch of bees over there. 556 00:25:57,180 --> 00:25:58,557 (Merit sighs) 557 00:26:04,437 --> 00:26:06,648 -(creaking) -Wow, so secure. 558 00:26:06,690 --> 00:26:08,900 I feel very safe. 559 00:26:09,651 --> 00:26:11,111 Grandpa? 560 00:26:16,658 --> 00:26:18,243 (drops bag) 561 00:26:23,582 --> 00:26:25,584 Your grandma's so pretty. 562 00:26:27,419 --> 00:26:29,212 Yeah, she was. 563 00:26:29,254 --> 00:26:31,798 How come you never talk about your dad? 564 00:26:32,632 --> 00:26:34,092 (Merit sighs) 565 00:26:35,218 --> 00:26:36,469 He died. 566 00:26:36,511 --> 00:26:37,804 Cancer. 567 00:26:37,846 --> 00:26:39,306 I was seven. 568 00:26:39,347 --> 00:26:41,349 Well, you should learn to talk about 569 00:26:41,391 --> 00:26:43,727 your dead loved ones more often. 570 00:26:43,768 --> 00:26:46,271 ♪ ♪ 571 00:26:46,313 --> 00:26:49,649 That's an interesting place for milk. 572 00:26:55,071 --> 00:26:58,199 Hey, there's your grandpa. 573 00:26:58,241 --> 00:27:00,035 ♪ ♪ 574 00:27:08,877 --> 00:27:10,712 (water drops) 575 00:27:10,754 --> 00:27:13,089 MERIT: Hey. 576 00:27:13,131 --> 00:27:14,257 Hi. 577 00:27:14,299 --> 00:27:15,383 Uh, hi. 578 00:27:15,425 --> 00:27:16,843 Wow, you're doing great. 579 00:27:16,885 --> 00:27:18,637 If you're here for your grandmother's funeral, 580 00:27:18,678 --> 00:27:21,306 you're ten months late. 581 00:27:23,433 --> 00:27:24,559 I'm here to see you. 582 00:27:24,601 --> 00:27:26,686 No, you're here to check on me. 583 00:27:26,728 --> 00:27:28,897 Your mother put you up to it. 584 00:27:28,938 --> 00:27:29,981 (Merit sighs) 585 00:27:30,023 --> 00:27:31,399 I'm here to see you, Grandpa. 586 00:27:31,441 --> 00:27:33,109 DALE: I'll bet she guilted you so bad 587 00:27:33,151 --> 00:27:35,111 you just rushed right over here, 588 00:27:35,153 --> 00:27:36,696 didn't even remember to pack. 589 00:27:36,738 --> 00:27:39,449 We did forget the toothpaste. 590 00:27:39,491 --> 00:27:40,659 Am I wrong? 591 00:27:40,700 --> 00:27:42,327 I, um... 592 00:27:43,495 --> 00:27:44,996 I did talk to Mom, 593 00:27:45,038 --> 00:27:49,042 but I'm here because I want to be. 594 00:27:54,506 --> 00:27:56,341 I'm sorry I left the other day. 595 00:28:05,058 --> 00:28:08,728 Upstairs, second door on the right. 596 00:28:10,480 --> 00:28:12,691 In case you don't remember. 597 00:28:15,777 --> 00:28:18,154 (insects chirring) 598 00:28:18,196 --> 00:28:19,989 ZOE: This house is legit spooky. 599 00:28:20,031 --> 00:28:22,867 I saw a bat earlier, I'm not even kidding. 600 00:28:22,909 --> 00:28:24,994 -(Merit scoffs) -So your Grandpa Dale 601 00:28:25,036 --> 00:28:26,329 does not fuck around, does he? 602 00:28:26,371 --> 00:28:27,872 Yeah, nah, that's not really his thing. 603 00:28:27,914 --> 00:28:29,749 (phone ringing) 604 00:28:29,791 --> 00:28:31,459 -(Merit sighs) -No, no, no, no. 605 00:28:31,501 --> 00:28:33,044 When was the last time your phone rang 606 00:28:33,086 --> 00:28:35,672 and it was good news? Don't pick that up. 607 00:28:35,714 --> 00:28:37,173 (Merit sighs) 608 00:28:38,341 --> 00:28:40,468 (line ringing) 609 00:28:42,804 --> 00:28:44,180 Hello? 610 00:28:44,222 --> 00:28:46,766 DR. COLE: You missed tonight's session, Merit. 611 00:28:46,808 --> 00:28:48,226 Yeah. 612 00:28:49,602 --> 00:28:52,355 Yeah, I don't-- I don't-- I don't know what to tell you. 613 00:28:52,397 --> 00:28:54,190 I'm with my grandpa. 614 00:28:54,232 --> 00:28:56,192 He has early stage Alzheimer's. 615 00:28:56,234 --> 00:28:57,861 I have to stay with him, he lives alone-- 616 00:28:57,902 --> 00:29:00,238 We've only got two sessions left. 617 00:29:02,240 --> 00:29:04,909 We all have demons, Merit. 618 00:29:05,869 --> 00:29:08,872 But you don't have to face them alone. 619 00:29:08,913 --> 00:29:10,582 (line beeps) 620 00:29:10,623 --> 00:29:13,752 ♪ ♪ 621 00:29:24,512 --> 00:29:27,474 -Why is that guy so obsessed with you? -Ew. 622 00:29:27,515 --> 00:29:28,850 Guess you still got it. 623 00:29:28,892 --> 00:29:30,018 Oh, please. 624 00:29:30,059 --> 00:29:32,270 Still got it. 625 00:29:32,312 --> 00:29:33,563 (chuckles) 626 00:29:33,605 --> 00:29:35,315 (muffled footsteps) 627 00:29:35,356 --> 00:29:37,859 (clattering) 628 00:29:46,284 --> 00:29:49,120 (soft clattering continues) 629 00:29:51,873 --> 00:29:54,125 ♪ ♪ 630 00:30:11,434 --> 00:30:12,727 (birds chirping) 631 00:30:12,769 --> 00:30:15,230 (muffled clattering) 632 00:30:17,482 --> 00:30:19,943 ♪ ♪ 633 00:30:28,326 --> 00:30:31,162 ♪ ♪ 634 00:30:56,688 --> 00:30:59,065 ♪ ♪ 635 00:31:08,491 --> 00:31:10,201 ZOE: Verl. 636 00:31:10,243 --> 00:31:12,495 Damn, what a name. Hmm. 637 00:31:12,537 --> 00:31:14,956 1927 to 1944. 638 00:31:14,998 --> 00:31:17,333 -What is that? -17. 639 00:31:18,626 --> 00:31:20,128 Probably died on D-Day. 640 00:31:20,169 --> 00:31:22,046 Damn, good for you, Verl. 641 00:31:22,088 --> 00:31:23,673 Don't say that. 642 00:31:23,715 --> 00:31:25,508 What? I can joke about the dead. 643 00:31:25,550 --> 00:31:26,968 These are my people. 644 00:31:27,010 --> 00:31:32,015 (Weedwacker whirring) 645 00:31:34,058 --> 00:31:37,103 -What is that? -Whatever it is, let it go. 646 00:31:38,855 --> 00:31:40,481 I said let it go. 647 00:31:41,691 --> 00:31:44,777 -Hey! -(Weedwacker continues loudly) 648 00:31:44,819 --> 00:31:48,489 Hey! Hey! 649 00:31:48,531 --> 00:31:50,033 Holy shit. 650 00:31:50,074 --> 00:31:51,868 Sorry. 651 00:31:51,910 --> 00:31:53,995 Whew. 652 00:31:54,037 --> 00:31:56,247 -(laughs) -What the hell are you doing? 653 00:31:56,289 --> 00:31:57,707 Oh, man, you scared me. Hi. 654 00:31:57,749 --> 00:31:59,042 This is a cemetery. 655 00:31:59,083 --> 00:32:02,211 Yeah, thank you for the observation. 656 00:32:02,253 --> 00:32:03,546 You're noise polluting 657 00:32:03,588 --> 00:32:05,340 and you're disturbing the visitors. 658 00:32:05,381 --> 00:32:07,592 To be fair, there's one visitor, 659 00:32:07,634 --> 00:32:09,177 singular, and, uh, 660 00:32:09,218 --> 00:32:11,930 how do you know you're not disturbing me? 661 00:32:12,764 --> 00:32:14,807 Look, guy... 662 00:32:14,849 --> 00:32:16,100 My name's Alex. 663 00:32:16,142 --> 00:32:17,894 It's not even 8:00 a.m. 664 00:32:17,936 --> 00:32:19,479 I'm sorry, did I wake you? 665 00:32:19,520 --> 00:32:22,523 Were you-- were you sleeping behind a grave over there? 666 00:32:22,565 --> 00:32:23,316 What's going on? 667 00:32:23,358 --> 00:32:25,318 Right now in the morning, 668 00:32:25,360 --> 00:32:26,569 when it's early before work, 669 00:32:26,611 --> 00:32:28,738 that's-that's when I'm free, okay? 670 00:32:28,780 --> 00:32:30,073 You don't work here? 671 00:32:30,114 --> 00:32:31,491 You're Weedwacking and you don't work here? 672 00:32:31,532 --> 00:32:33,701 No, my grandparents are buried over there. 673 00:32:33,743 --> 00:32:34,953 I know what you're thinking. 674 00:32:34,994 --> 00:32:36,496 It's very cool that I'm descended 675 00:32:36,537 --> 00:32:39,290 from one of the first Indian families in Portland. 676 00:32:39,332 --> 00:32:40,667 Unless you don't think it's cool 677 00:32:40,708 --> 00:32:42,502 that my Thatha and my Patti are buried here, 678 00:32:42,543 --> 00:32:44,879 in which case, you're a racist. 679 00:32:44,921 --> 00:32:46,089 (chuckles) 680 00:32:46,130 --> 00:32:48,675 I'm playing, it's the dandelions. 681 00:32:48,716 --> 00:32:50,093 They grow like damn weeds. 682 00:32:50,134 --> 00:32:51,260 Well, they are a weed. 683 00:32:51,302 --> 00:32:52,345 Yeah, well, I cleaned my, uh, 684 00:32:52,387 --> 00:32:53,930 my grandparents' tombstones, 685 00:32:53,972 --> 00:32:55,390 and they look beautiful, 686 00:32:55,431 --> 00:32:57,058 but then all the other ones look like shit. 687 00:32:57,100 --> 00:33:00,269 And I-I got this thing about cleanliness, so... 688 00:33:00,311 --> 00:33:03,398 And then you stomped in and you started yelling at me. 689 00:33:04,315 --> 00:33:06,150 -It's weirdly... -Selfless? 690 00:33:06,192 --> 00:33:07,902 -Considerate. -It's very selfless. 691 00:33:07,944 --> 00:33:10,697 But it's weirdly considerate. 692 00:33:11,864 --> 00:33:13,157 (laughs) 693 00:33:13,199 --> 00:33:14,993 You should get a quieter one. 694 00:33:15,034 --> 00:33:16,452 They're better for the environment. 695 00:33:16,494 --> 00:33:19,414 You're right, thank you for the tip, stranger. 696 00:33:20,206 --> 00:33:22,166 -Merit. -Merit. 697 00:33:22,208 --> 00:33:24,335 Wrap it up, high speed. 698 00:33:29,298 --> 00:33:32,301 Okay, have a good run. 699 00:33:32,343 --> 00:33:34,971 Get a quieter one! 700 00:33:35,013 --> 00:33:38,057 TESSA (over radio): But first, let me introduce today's guest. 701 00:33:38,099 --> 00:33:39,475 Bill Stokes is the author 702 00:33:39,517 --> 00:33:41,144 of the Birder's Conservation Handbook. 703 00:33:41,185 --> 00:33:42,437 He's also an ornithologist 704 00:33:42,478 --> 00:33:44,814 at the Oregon Songbird Initiative. 705 00:33:44,856 --> 00:33:46,149 He joins us today from Portland. 706 00:33:46,190 --> 00:33:47,734 Thanks for talking with us today, Bill. 707 00:33:47,775 --> 00:33:49,068 BILL: Thanks, Tessa. 708 00:33:49,110 --> 00:33:50,194 TESSA: Let's talk about some of the birds 709 00:33:50,236 --> 00:33:51,821 you cover in your book. 710 00:33:51,863 --> 00:33:53,573 (broadcast continues) 711 00:33:54,866 --> 00:33:56,200 Want a hand? 712 00:33:57,368 --> 00:33:58,828 No. 713 00:33:58,870 --> 00:34:02,498 Reckon you'll just tell me it ought to be replaced. 714 00:34:02,540 --> 00:34:05,334 Isn't that what your generation does? 715 00:34:05,376 --> 00:34:08,129 Something needs repair, you just get a new one. 716 00:34:08,171 --> 00:34:09,255 Well, I can't speak for my generation, 717 00:34:09,297 --> 00:34:10,548 but I was a 63 Bravo, 718 00:34:10,590 --> 00:34:13,176 so I can repair just about anything. 719 00:34:14,552 --> 00:34:17,013 -There. -(Merit sighs) 720 00:34:17,055 --> 00:34:18,806 (radio broadcast continues) 721 00:34:24,645 --> 00:34:28,066 Wow, Merit, you're great at affection. 722 00:34:28,107 --> 00:34:32,028 Well, as long as you're here. 723 00:34:32,070 --> 00:34:34,822 Paper goes in six, remember? 724 00:34:34,864 --> 00:34:36,282 (radio broadcast continues) 725 00:34:36,324 --> 00:34:38,242 We don't live in the city. 726 00:34:38,284 --> 00:34:40,703 We sort our own trash out here. 727 00:34:40,745 --> 00:34:42,872 Paper... 728 00:34:42,914 --> 00:34:44,916 (paper rustling) 729 00:34:44,957 --> 00:34:47,627 ...goes in six. 730 00:34:51,130 --> 00:34:53,007 Metal in one, compost in two, 731 00:34:53,049 --> 00:34:55,218 plastic in three, burn in four, 732 00:34:55,259 --> 00:34:58,763 trash in five, paper in six. 733 00:34:59,889 --> 00:35:01,307 Hmm? 734 00:35:01,349 --> 00:35:05,561 Metal, compost, plastic, burn, trash, paper. 735 00:35:07,021 --> 00:35:08,189 Got it? 736 00:35:08,231 --> 00:35:10,358 Got it. 737 00:35:10,399 --> 00:35:12,110 Do you got it? 738 00:35:13,820 --> 00:35:15,279 I don't got it. 739 00:35:16,864 --> 00:35:18,116 What's the little one for? 740 00:35:18,157 --> 00:35:19,826 Is that just a mystery? 741 00:35:20,785 --> 00:35:22,036 (bee buzzing) 742 00:35:22,078 --> 00:35:24,247 MERIT: Okay, Mom, I'm on my way. 743 00:35:24,288 --> 00:35:25,873 (line beeps) 744 00:35:29,418 --> 00:35:31,129 (phone chimes) 745 00:35:31,170 --> 00:35:32,630 (sighs) 746 00:35:32,672 --> 00:35:34,715 (paper rustling) 747 00:35:50,398 --> 00:35:53,359 (phone chiming) 748 00:35:57,738 --> 00:36:00,449 Yes, yes. 749 00:36:16,549 --> 00:36:18,009 Hi, sorry I'm late. 750 00:36:18,050 --> 00:36:20,469 My mother called ahead about a room for Dale Tillman. 751 00:36:20,511 --> 00:36:22,013 Said you need a family signature. 752 00:36:22,054 --> 00:36:25,808 Where's the sugar-free candy? We used to... 753 00:36:25,850 --> 00:36:27,226 Oh, hey. 754 00:36:27,268 --> 00:36:28,936 Uh, it was "stranger," right? 755 00:36:28,978 --> 00:36:30,855 -Merit. -Merit, hi. 756 00:36:30,897 --> 00:36:32,315 -Alex. -Yeah. 757 00:36:32,356 --> 00:36:33,482 Wow, you remembered. 758 00:36:33,524 --> 00:36:35,610 -So you work here? -Yup. 759 00:36:35,651 --> 00:36:37,820 Actually, my family owns the place. 760 00:36:37,862 --> 00:36:40,323 You know, they decided not to go into the hotel industry 761 00:36:40,364 --> 00:36:41,824 'cause my dad was like, 762 00:36:41,866 --> 00:36:43,993 (silly voice): "Mm, assisted living. 763 00:36:44,035 --> 00:36:46,204 Recession-proof." 764 00:36:47,371 --> 00:36:48,915 (normal voice): My dad is apparently Yoda. 765 00:36:48,956 --> 00:36:50,124 I don't know why I did that. 766 00:36:50,166 --> 00:36:51,459 Um... 767 00:36:51,500 --> 00:36:55,671 Would-- uh, would you like to see the room? 768 00:36:55,713 --> 00:36:58,090 Is that how-- how it normally goes? 769 00:36:58,132 --> 00:36:59,342 People normally wanna see it? 770 00:36:59,383 --> 00:37:01,677 Uh, yeah, unless they hate their parents, 771 00:37:01,719 --> 00:37:04,013 then they usually just drop 'em on the curb outside. 772 00:37:04,055 --> 00:37:05,848 (Alex laughs) 773 00:37:05,890 --> 00:37:07,183 -Okay. -Okay. 774 00:37:07,225 --> 00:37:08,893 Thank you. 775 00:37:10,978 --> 00:37:12,188 Just this way. 776 00:37:12,230 --> 00:37:14,982 Dr. Castro, how you doin'? 777 00:37:18,069 --> 00:37:19,570 So... 778 00:37:21,489 --> 00:37:22,573 Is it, um... 779 00:37:22,615 --> 00:37:25,243 Yeah, it's right up in here. 780 00:37:25,284 --> 00:37:26,911 Here we are. 781 00:37:30,289 --> 00:37:34,418 Closet, bathroom, and bedroom's back there. 782 00:37:37,755 --> 00:37:39,590 People normally sign right away? 783 00:37:39,632 --> 00:37:42,134 Yeah, it's in high demand. 784 00:37:42,927 --> 00:37:44,929 Yeah, my mom says these rooms are harder to get into than-- 785 00:37:44,971 --> 00:37:46,305 -Yale. -Yale. 786 00:37:46,347 --> 00:37:48,599 Yeah, let me guess, did your mom go to Yale? 787 00:37:50,810 --> 00:37:52,979 (sighs) 788 00:37:53,020 --> 00:37:54,855 Can I ask you a question? 789 00:37:54,897 --> 00:37:57,233 Sure. 790 00:37:57,275 --> 00:37:59,443 Is this a good place? 791 00:37:59,485 --> 00:38:02,446 A lot of people wish they could be in here. 792 00:38:04,240 --> 00:38:06,742 My grandfather's particular. 793 00:38:06,784 --> 00:38:08,744 ♪ ♪ 794 00:38:08,786 --> 00:38:10,454 My grandmother... 795 00:38:10,496 --> 00:38:12,039 when she died, 796 00:38:12,081 --> 00:38:14,750 he became a different version of himself, you know? 797 00:38:15,543 --> 00:38:20,214 Not worse, but... not better. 798 00:38:20,256 --> 00:38:23,384 It's like when you lose someone, 799 00:38:23,426 --> 00:38:26,053 you don't know who you are without 'em. 800 00:38:26,095 --> 00:38:29,265 You want to know if he'll find a home here. 801 00:38:29,307 --> 00:38:31,600 ♪ ♪ 802 00:38:31,642 --> 00:38:34,103 -Yeah. -It's a hard decision. 803 00:38:34,145 --> 00:38:35,396 Um... 804 00:38:35,438 --> 00:38:37,440 Take a few days to think about it. 805 00:38:37,481 --> 00:38:40,318 And, uh, I'm not supposed to do this, 806 00:38:40,359 --> 00:38:43,029 but I'll-I'll hold the room for you. 807 00:38:43,070 --> 00:38:44,447 -Really? -Yeah. 808 00:38:44,488 --> 00:38:46,574 I mean, even the Yale of assisted livings 809 00:38:46,615 --> 00:38:47,908 has an A-list. 810 00:38:47,950 --> 00:38:50,536 -You're scared of my mom. -I'm terrified. 811 00:38:50,578 --> 00:38:52,580 -Thank you. -Mm-hmm. 812 00:38:52,621 --> 00:38:54,999 Hey, I know-- I know-- I know you don't like noise, 813 00:38:55,041 --> 00:38:57,168 and I'm guessing you probably don't like people either, 814 00:38:57,209 --> 00:39:00,379 but sometimes I go to this bar called the WildHorse. 815 00:39:00,421 --> 00:39:02,089 Sometimes, um, 816 00:39:02,131 --> 00:39:06,969 like tonight around 8:00-ish. 817 00:39:11,349 --> 00:39:14,602 -Okay. -Okay. 818 00:39:19,482 --> 00:39:21,942 (door opens) 819 00:39:21,984 --> 00:39:24,362 (birds chirping) 820 00:39:27,490 --> 00:39:29,492 ZOE: So, you're really thinking about 821 00:39:29,533 --> 00:39:31,994 taking him away from this place? 822 00:39:32,036 --> 00:39:34,497 (Merit sighs) 823 00:39:41,379 --> 00:39:43,381 (cans clattering) 824 00:39:46,050 --> 00:39:48,010 Oh, what the hell? 825 00:39:48,052 --> 00:39:49,553 MERIT: Grandpa? 826 00:39:49,595 --> 00:39:52,181 (cans clattering) 827 00:39:52,223 --> 00:39:53,766 You all right? 828 00:39:55,393 --> 00:39:56,852 Not especially, no. 829 00:39:56,894 --> 00:40:00,022 'Cause paper goes in goddamn six. 830 00:40:00,064 --> 00:40:04,360 Metal, compost, plastic, burn, trash, paper. 831 00:40:04,402 --> 00:40:06,487 Is that hard? 832 00:40:06,529 --> 00:40:08,197 Is that impossible? 833 00:40:08,239 --> 00:40:10,282 You know, you come here, 834 00:40:10,324 --> 00:40:13,369 you eat my food, you use my water. 835 00:40:13,411 --> 00:40:14,912 Fine, have at it. 836 00:40:14,954 --> 00:40:16,831 But it defies imagination that you and I were in 837 00:40:16,872 --> 00:40:18,666 the same branch of the service. 838 00:40:18,707 --> 00:40:19,708 If you'd learned anything in the Army, 839 00:40:19,750 --> 00:40:22,670 you'd have learned respect. 840 00:40:22,711 --> 00:40:24,797 Do you think I'm crazy? 841 00:40:24,839 --> 00:40:27,007 Your mother thinks I'm crazy. 842 00:40:27,049 --> 00:40:30,386 Fine! But as long as you're under my roof, 843 00:40:30,428 --> 00:40:33,431 paper goes in goddamn six! 844 00:40:37,143 --> 00:40:38,769 Clean it up! 845 00:40:41,439 --> 00:40:43,566 (flies buzzing) 846 00:40:44,984 --> 00:40:46,902 (sighing) 847 00:40:50,322 --> 00:40:52,867 Where does plastic go again? 848 00:40:52,908 --> 00:40:54,869 (utensils clinking) 849 00:40:56,036 --> 00:40:59,665 ZOE: You know, I've read about us vets getting PTSD, 850 00:40:59,707 --> 00:41:02,001 but good for your granddad. 851 00:41:02,042 --> 00:41:04,879 Not a lot of vets trying to give PTSD. 852 00:41:07,798 --> 00:41:09,425 You sure about this? 853 00:41:09,467 --> 00:41:10,759 He's just angry. 854 00:41:10,801 --> 00:41:12,595 But he is not gonna 855 00:41:12,636 --> 00:41:15,097 -scare me off. -(door closes) 856 00:41:15,139 --> 00:41:17,183 (muffled radio playing) 857 00:41:32,990 --> 00:41:33,782 Gran-- 858 00:41:33,824 --> 00:41:36,535 (microwave beeps, whirs) 859 00:41:40,414 --> 00:41:41,874 (can pops) 860 00:41:45,377 --> 00:41:46,795 (microwave beeping) 861 00:41:46,837 --> 00:41:48,881 (microwave door opens) 862 00:42:11,362 --> 00:42:12,780 How's it going over there? 863 00:42:12,821 --> 00:42:14,990 (muffled radio playing) 864 00:42:17,535 --> 00:42:18,911 MERIT: Hmm. 865 00:42:22,748 --> 00:42:27,753 It-it can be complicated, the trash system. 866 00:42:36,220 --> 00:42:38,514 How's that bird feeder repair going? 867 00:42:38,556 --> 00:42:41,058 Oh, it's going. 868 00:42:45,646 --> 00:42:48,065 ♪ ♪ 869 00:42:54,071 --> 00:42:56,323 You're really gonna go meet this guy, 870 00:42:56,365 --> 00:42:57,908 the weed whacker? 871 00:42:58,742 --> 00:43:02,037 I just thought it would be... 872 00:43:02,079 --> 00:43:04,206 good to... 873 00:43:04,248 --> 00:43:06,375 I don't know, get a change of scenery. 874 00:43:06,417 --> 00:43:08,586 You mean you don't want to see me. 875 00:43:08,627 --> 00:43:10,629 -It's just for tonight. -Mm. 876 00:43:10,671 --> 00:43:12,339 What if he's a murderer? 877 00:43:12,381 --> 00:43:14,592 You don't think he would've murdered me when we were alone? 878 00:43:14,633 --> 00:43:17,094 Like in the cemetery? 879 00:43:19,179 --> 00:43:22,641 It's just for tonight, I promise. 880 00:43:22,683 --> 00:43:24,852 Just for tonight. 881 00:43:27,187 --> 00:43:29,106 NEWSCASTER: The forecast that we have up at Mount Hood today, 882 00:43:29,148 --> 00:43:31,734 -we are going to stay sunny... -(footsteps) 883 00:43:31,775 --> 00:43:34,570 (pan sizzling) 884 00:43:34,612 --> 00:43:36,864 (TV chatter continues) 885 00:43:37,698 --> 00:43:39,950 ♪ ♪ 886 00:43:49,752 --> 00:43:52,129 (flagpole clanging) 887 00:43:52,171 --> 00:43:53,756 ZOE: They were supposed to be kids, but I think 888 00:43:53,797 --> 00:43:55,049 they're actually like adult women. 889 00:43:55,090 --> 00:43:56,425 -Really? -I'm not even kidding. 890 00:43:56,467 --> 00:43:57,551 The handwriting, you can tell. 891 00:43:57,593 --> 00:43:59,303 (laughs) 892 00:43:59,345 --> 00:44:01,597 The Dynamic Duo. 893 00:44:01,639 --> 00:44:03,223 Hey, Ramirez. 894 00:44:03,265 --> 00:44:04,433 Fuck off, Lewis. 895 00:44:04,475 --> 00:44:05,893 MERIT: What's up? 896 00:44:05,934 --> 00:44:07,186 Green to green. 897 00:44:07,227 --> 00:44:09,104 Threatcon got bumped up to amber. 898 00:44:09,146 --> 00:44:11,690 Some jackass from first platoon said there's a sniper out there. 899 00:44:11,732 --> 00:44:13,275 Look, we didn't see anything. 900 00:44:13,317 --> 00:44:14,610 Sounds like the bogeyman. 901 00:44:14,652 --> 00:44:16,111 Sergeant Charles, 902 00:44:16,153 --> 00:44:17,780 you girls gonna be okay out there? 903 00:44:17,821 --> 00:44:19,531 -Listen, Ser-- -Hey, you talk to her 904 00:44:19,573 --> 00:44:21,367 like that one more time, I'm gonna make you wish 905 00:44:21,408 --> 00:44:22,951 that sniper got you. 906 00:44:22,993 --> 00:44:24,286 What'd you just say to me? 907 00:44:24,328 --> 00:44:25,704 You heard me. 908 00:44:25,746 --> 00:44:28,415 See me after your shift, Specialist. 909 00:44:29,667 --> 00:44:31,752 Ooh. 910 00:44:33,379 --> 00:44:35,047 Bye, Ramirez. 911 00:44:37,174 --> 00:44:39,718 (distant helicopter blades whirring) 912 00:44:46,809 --> 00:44:48,811 You didn't have to do that. 913 00:44:48,852 --> 00:44:51,105 That guy's a fuckin' dork. 914 00:44:51,897 --> 00:44:54,191 Well, at any rate... 915 00:44:57,403 --> 00:44:58,904 So... 916 00:44:59,780 --> 00:45:01,115 Your cousin. 917 00:45:01,156 --> 00:45:03,992 Yeah, I think he's moving to Florida. 918 00:45:04,034 --> 00:45:05,994 Okay, you think you'll go? 919 00:45:06,036 --> 00:45:08,414 What, and leave all this? 920 00:45:08,455 --> 00:45:09,832 Right. 921 00:45:09,873 --> 00:45:11,834 It's not like you're gonna reenlist. 922 00:45:12,626 --> 00:45:15,045 I don't know, maybe. 923 00:45:15,838 --> 00:45:17,381 Why would you reenlist? 924 00:45:17,423 --> 00:45:19,508 I don't know, Merit, maybe because it's an option 925 00:45:19,550 --> 00:45:21,301 that's actually available to me. 926 00:45:21,343 --> 00:45:22,678 (rock clatters) 927 00:45:22,720 --> 00:45:24,888 I see you talk about your grandma and your grandpa, 928 00:45:24,930 --> 00:45:28,183 and I think to myself, "Man, she's got a home, 929 00:45:28,225 --> 00:45:29,852 "she's got a family, she's got a... 930 00:45:29,893 --> 00:45:33,355 a whole life with meaning to go back to," you know? 931 00:45:33,397 --> 00:45:35,149 I bet when you take those career tests, 932 00:45:35,190 --> 00:45:36,400 you don't even think about how expensive 933 00:45:36,442 --> 00:45:38,444 the results are, how much it would cost 934 00:45:38,485 --> 00:45:41,488 to be an artist or a psychologist. 935 00:45:41,530 --> 00:45:43,699 Do you want to be an artist or a psychologist? 936 00:45:43,741 --> 00:45:45,826 -Because you could be. -No. 937 00:45:45,868 --> 00:45:47,119 No, I can't, Merit, that's my point. 938 00:45:47,161 --> 00:45:48,412 The world is not my fucking oyster. 939 00:45:48,454 --> 00:45:49,705 You think the world is my oyster? 940 00:45:49,747 --> 00:45:50,956 I'm a Black woman in America. 941 00:45:50,998 --> 00:45:52,416 With a lake house. 942 00:45:53,250 --> 00:45:54,835 It's my grandparents' lake house. 943 00:45:54,877 --> 00:45:56,086 It is not mine. 944 00:45:58,589 --> 00:46:00,758 Still a lake house. 945 00:46:01,550 --> 00:46:03,844 Don't worry, nothing is set in stone yet. 946 00:46:03,886 --> 00:46:06,513 Your aim is definitely not set in stone. 947 00:46:06,555 --> 00:46:08,182 Oh, shut up. 948 00:46:08,223 --> 00:46:11,894 (muffled music playing) 949 00:46:11,935 --> 00:46:13,854 ♪ ♪ 950 00:46:13,896 --> 00:46:16,106 (indistinct chatter) 951 00:46:18,108 --> 00:46:21,737 ♪ Good times ♪ 952 00:46:21,779 --> 00:46:24,239 ♪ Love this scene... ♪ 953 00:46:24,281 --> 00:46:27,493 ♪ ♪ 954 00:46:27,534 --> 00:46:29,870 (arcade game chiming) 955 00:46:29,912 --> 00:46:32,539 (music continues faintly) 956 00:46:34,666 --> 00:46:36,460 Hey. 957 00:46:37,753 --> 00:46:40,047 Hi. You... 958 00:46:40,088 --> 00:46:42,716 I didn't think, um... 959 00:46:42,758 --> 00:46:44,384 You want to sit down? 960 00:46:44,426 --> 00:46:46,470 Uh, yeah. 961 00:46:47,638 --> 00:46:49,389 Sorry, I ordered already. 962 00:46:49,431 --> 00:46:50,933 Um, I didn't... 963 00:46:50,974 --> 00:46:53,435 I'm a natural pessimist. 964 00:46:53,477 --> 00:46:55,270 -Me, too. -Yeah. 965 00:46:55,312 --> 00:46:57,606 To be honest, I wasn't sure 966 00:46:57,648 --> 00:46:59,274 if you were too good to be true 967 00:46:59,316 --> 00:47:01,360 'cause in my line of work, 968 00:47:01,401 --> 00:47:03,445 the women I usually talk to are... 969 00:47:03,487 --> 00:47:05,614 You know, they remember where they were 970 00:47:05,656 --> 00:47:07,449 when we stormed Normandy. 971 00:47:07,491 --> 00:47:10,327 ♪ ♪ 972 00:47:18,335 --> 00:47:20,838 Have-have you ever played Buck Hunter? 973 00:47:20,879 --> 00:47:23,298 No. 974 00:47:23,340 --> 00:47:25,384 VIDEO GAME VOICE: That's one, that's two. 975 00:47:25,425 --> 00:47:26,552 That's all three. 976 00:47:26,593 --> 00:47:29,471 You nailed it! That's a new record! 977 00:47:29,513 --> 00:47:30,973 Well, damn. 978 00:47:31,014 --> 00:47:32,808 If I knew I was playing with a sniper, 979 00:47:32,850 --> 00:47:34,893 I'd have dressed up. 980 00:47:34,935 --> 00:47:36,728 Light-wheel mechanic, actually. 981 00:47:36,770 --> 00:47:39,398 There it is, military service. 982 00:47:39,439 --> 00:47:40,941 I'm impressed 'cause, you know, 983 00:47:40,983 --> 00:47:42,693 I actually talked to a woman today 984 00:47:42,734 --> 00:47:46,989 who drafted the Truman Doctrine. 985 00:47:47,030 --> 00:47:50,325 How could I ever compete with that? (chuckles) 986 00:47:50,367 --> 00:47:53,036 How'd you get into the military? 987 00:47:54,288 --> 00:47:56,748 My grandfather, actually. 988 00:47:56,790 --> 00:47:58,500 Oh, our prospective resident. 989 00:47:58,542 --> 00:47:59,877 That's right. 990 00:47:59,918 --> 00:48:02,212 Retired 22 years from the Army. 991 00:48:02,254 --> 00:48:04,256 Lieutenant colonel. 992 00:48:04,298 --> 00:48:06,884 Two tours in Vietnam. 993 00:48:08,844 --> 00:48:10,554 (gunshot sound effects) 994 00:48:10,596 --> 00:48:13,557 He used to let me play with his medals 995 00:48:13,599 --> 00:48:15,350 and his patches. 996 00:48:16,727 --> 00:48:18,729 He would sit me down, tell me a story 997 00:48:18,770 --> 00:48:21,690 about each one of them. 998 00:48:21,732 --> 00:48:24,735 I was just talking about this. 999 00:48:24,776 --> 00:48:27,321 But every Fourth of July, 1000 00:48:27,362 --> 00:48:29,615 my entire family would stay at my grandparents' lake house 1001 00:48:29,656 --> 00:48:32,159 and we would drive into town for music in the park. 1002 00:48:32,200 --> 00:48:33,201 -Yeah, every year, of course. -The fireworks. 1003 00:48:33,243 --> 00:48:34,578 And the local chamber orchestra, 1004 00:48:34,620 --> 00:48:35,954 you know, would play the "Battle Hymn." 1005 00:48:35,996 --> 00:48:36,997 -If you served-- yeah. -Yeah. 1006 00:48:37,039 --> 00:48:38,457 You stand up. 1007 00:48:38,498 --> 00:48:40,292 I remember every year my grandpa would get up 1008 00:48:40,334 --> 00:48:43,462 out of his... his old folding chair 1009 00:48:43,503 --> 00:48:47,090 and he would tip his hat to everybody. 1010 00:48:47,132 --> 00:48:49,927 -That's so cool. -Yeah. 1011 00:48:52,262 --> 00:48:56,350 VIDEO GAME VOICE: There's a new sheriff in town. 1012 00:48:56,391 --> 00:48:58,518 ♪ First to fight for the right ♪ 1013 00:48:58,560 --> 00:49:01,063 ♪ And to build the Nation's might ♪ 1014 00:49:01,104 --> 00:49:02,397 -What? -♪ And the Army ♪ 1015 00:49:02,439 --> 00:49:03,899 BOTH: ♪ Goes rolling along. ♪ 1016 00:49:03,941 --> 00:49:05,275 How-- Who-who taught you that? 1017 00:49:05,317 --> 00:49:06,735 Miss Truman Doctrine taught you that, huh? 1018 00:49:06,777 --> 00:49:08,570 No, she can't sing. 1019 00:49:08,612 --> 00:49:10,238 Like, seriously, you should see her 1020 00:49:10,280 --> 00:49:12,074 on karaoke night, it hurts. 1021 00:49:12,115 --> 00:49:14,242 My parents, however, 1022 00:49:14,284 --> 00:49:16,244 uh, well, we just had the immigrant experience 1023 00:49:16,286 --> 00:49:19,164 where you double down on being American, you know? 1024 00:49:19,206 --> 00:49:21,458 So we celebrate every holiday, 1025 00:49:21,500 --> 00:49:24,419 and my dad loves fireworks and hot dogs. 1026 00:49:24,461 --> 00:49:26,505 So, I mean, you put a firework in a bun 1027 00:49:26,546 --> 00:49:31,009 -and that would blow his mind. -(laughing) 1028 00:49:31,051 --> 00:49:32,469 All right, let's see what I can do. 1029 00:49:32,511 --> 00:49:34,596 -Are you ready? -I'm ready, let me see. 1030 00:49:34,638 --> 00:49:37,516 Okay, oof, oof, oof. 1031 00:49:37,557 --> 00:49:39,393 VIDEO GAME VOICE: Oh, no, he got away. 1032 00:49:39,434 --> 00:49:41,103 -ALEX: Mm-hmm. -Pick a spot. 1033 00:49:41,144 --> 00:49:42,896 You need spectacles. 1034 00:49:42,938 --> 00:49:45,941 Okay, so, so, so, you know, zero... 1035 00:49:45,983 --> 00:49:47,442 -Well... -...deer. 1036 00:49:47,484 --> 00:49:49,403 -Um... -I-I shoot around them. 1037 00:49:49,444 --> 00:49:50,904 -I'm a pacifist... -Right. 1038 00:49:50,946 --> 00:49:53,740 ...so you help them scatter so they can be free. 1039 00:49:53,782 --> 00:49:55,200 (laughing) 1040 00:49:55,242 --> 00:49:57,244 You're way better at this than I am. 1041 00:49:57,285 --> 00:49:59,204 Well, you're-you're a pacifist. 1042 00:49:59,246 --> 00:50:01,623 Indeed, I am. 1043 00:50:03,834 --> 00:50:06,837 So, um, so... 1044 00:50:06,878 --> 00:50:08,296 -Drinks? -Yes. 1045 00:50:08,338 --> 00:50:10,173 -Probably? -Yeah, I'm sure they're ready. 1046 00:50:10,215 --> 00:50:11,758 -Food, probably not. -Okay. 1047 00:50:11,800 --> 00:50:14,011 Yeah, we might have to wait till tomorrow for that. 1048 00:50:14,052 --> 00:50:15,804 (laughing) 1049 00:50:15,846 --> 00:50:17,681 (indistinct chatter) 1050 00:50:19,850 --> 00:50:21,101 Hey, you. 1051 00:50:21,143 --> 00:50:22,602 Zeke... 1052 00:50:22,644 --> 00:50:25,814 You-you seen Merit? 1053 00:50:25,856 --> 00:50:27,649 Sorry, Dr. Cole. 1054 00:50:27,691 --> 00:50:29,609 ♪ ♪ 1055 00:50:29,651 --> 00:50:31,361 Have you always lived in Molalla? 1056 00:50:31,403 --> 00:50:32,654 Molalla? 1057 00:50:32,696 --> 00:50:33,989 Yeah. 1058 00:50:34,031 --> 00:50:36,033 (laughs) I was born and raised here. 1059 00:50:36,074 --> 00:50:37,576 Um, and then my dad, of course, 1060 00:50:37,617 --> 00:50:40,037 wanted me to take over the family business 1061 00:50:40,078 --> 00:50:41,580 at Shady Acres, um, 1062 00:50:41,621 --> 00:50:43,665 but I did, I moved away for a little while 1063 00:50:43,707 --> 00:50:45,625 when I got married. 1064 00:50:45,667 --> 00:50:47,127 When you got-- what? 1065 00:50:47,169 --> 00:50:48,712 Uh, formerly married. 1066 00:50:48,754 --> 00:50:50,255 Formerly married. 1067 00:50:50,297 --> 00:50:53,008 Oh. (chuckles) 1068 00:50:53,050 --> 00:50:54,134 Six years. 1069 00:50:54,176 --> 00:50:55,469 You were married for six years, 1070 00:50:55,510 --> 00:50:57,054 or you've been divorced for six years? 1071 00:50:57,095 --> 00:50:58,388 Actually, both. 1072 00:50:58,430 --> 00:50:59,890 That's a long time. 1073 00:50:59,931 --> 00:51:01,975 (chuckles weakly) 1074 00:51:02,017 --> 00:51:04,144 Sorry, d-- 1075 00:51:04,186 --> 00:51:05,479 Does that-- does that make you nervous 1076 00:51:05,520 --> 00:51:07,355 -to talk about the past? -What? No. 1077 00:51:07,397 --> 00:51:09,149 No, I'm not nervous about the past. 1078 00:51:09,191 --> 00:51:10,776 I'm-I'm... 1079 00:51:10,817 --> 00:51:13,028 I'm, uh, well, I'm nervous about you, so... 1080 00:51:13,070 --> 00:51:15,155 (laughs softly) 1081 00:51:15,197 --> 00:51:17,449 Indian people aren't supposed to get divorced. 1082 00:51:17,491 --> 00:51:19,826 It's definitely not in the job description, 1083 00:51:19,868 --> 00:51:24,372 so, um, I was-- I was just-- I was so ashamed. 1084 00:51:24,414 --> 00:51:28,126 I'd felt like I'd failed at marriage, 1085 00:51:28,168 --> 00:51:30,712 and it, um... 1086 00:51:30,754 --> 00:51:35,967 Mm, it, uh, it had-- it had a power over me and, um... 1087 00:51:36,009 --> 00:51:37,636 But then, you know, I just-- 1088 00:51:37,677 --> 00:51:40,722 Fuck it, I started talking about it. 1089 00:51:41,723 --> 00:51:43,141 It helped. 1090 00:51:43,183 --> 00:51:45,060 Yeah, I mean, it's not perfect. 1091 00:51:45,102 --> 00:51:47,270 I still have PTSD from my marriage. 1092 00:51:47,312 --> 00:51:50,565 I mean, oh my God, I can hear her just... 1093 00:51:50,607 --> 00:51:52,400 I'm so sorry, that was so insensitive. 1094 00:51:52,442 --> 00:51:54,361 -Oh, no. It's all good. -No. 1095 00:51:54,402 --> 00:51:56,822 No, there's no reason for me to say that. 1096 00:51:56,863 --> 00:52:00,450 You can relax, the military doesn't own PTSD. 1097 00:52:01,368 --> 00:52:03,370 We do happen to be the best at it, though. 1098 00:52:03,411 --> 00:52:05,247 (laughs): Okay. 1099 00:52:05,288 --> 00:52:06,665 How about you? 1100 00:52:06,706 --> 00:52:10,794 Do you-- do you have any war stories? 1101 00:52:13,004 --> 00:52:14,464 Yeah. 1102 00:52:15,632 --> 00:52:17,634 Yeah, I do. 1103 00:52:17,676 --> 00:52:20,303 Um... 1104 00:52:21,680 --> 00:52:23,098 Kind of third-wheeling it tonight. 1105 00:52:23,140 --> 00:52:25,642 (indistinct chatter) 1106 00:52:25,684 --> 00:52:26,518 Yeah, actually. 1107 00:52:26,560 --> 00:52:29,312 Uh, when I was over there, 1108 00:52:29,354 --> 00:52:31,940 um, Afghanistan, um... 1109 00:52:31,982 --> 00:52:33,900 -(buzzing) -Actually, 1110 00:52:33,942 --> 00:52:36,695 when I-- when I came back... 1111 00:52:36,736 --> 00:52:38,155 (static crackling) 1112 00:52:38,196 --> 00:52:40,615 ♪ ♪ 1113 00:52:40,657 --> 00:52:41,867 (laughing) 1114 00:52:44,494 --> 00:52:45,912 Um, I... 1115 00:52:45,954 --> 00:52:48,331 (static crackling) 1116 00:52:48,373 --> 00:52:50,250 -(screaming) -(gasps) 1117 00:52:50,292 --> 00:52:51,501 ALEX: Merit, are you... 1118 00:52:51,543 --> 00:52:53,795 Hey, it's okay. Are you all right? 1119 00:52:53,837 --> 00:52:55,422 Are you okay? 1120 00:52:55,463 --> 00:52:56,923 -Um... -I'm-I'm sorry. 1121 00:52:56,965 --> 00:52:59,259 I'm sorry, if, uh... 1122 00:52:59,301 --> 00:53:00,677 It's okay, it's okay. 1123 00:53:00,719 --> 00:53:02,179 -I gotta go. -It's okay. 1124 00:53:02,220 --> 00:53:06,141 ♪ ♪ 1125 00:53:06,183 --> 00:53:09,936 (panting) 1126 00:53:13,356 --> 00:53:15,734 -What was that? -What was what? 1127 00:53:15,775 --> 00:53:18,153 (groans angrily) 1128 00:53:18,195 --> 00:53:20,488 Why would you ruin that? Why? 1129 00:53:20,530 --> 00:53:21,531 Zoe! 1130 00:53:21,573 --> 00:53:23,825 That was my first date since... 1131 00:53:23,867 --> 00:53:25,660 Since what? 1132 00:53:25,702 --> 00:53:28,371 Something traumatic happened to you? 1133 00:53:28,413 --> 00:53:29,873 (indistinct radio chatter) 1134 00:53:29,915 --> 00:53:32,209 Get the fuck out of my face, Zoe. 1135 00:53:32,250 --> 00:53:35,212 Get the fuck out of my face! 1136 00:53:35,879 --> 00:53:38,465 Damn, Merit, never could take a joke. 1137 00:53:44,638 --> 00:53:46,389 (vehicle door opens, closes) 1138 00:53:46,431 --> 00:53:49,142 (crickets chirring) 1139 00:53:49,184 --> 00:53:50,435 (TV playing indistinctly) 1140 00:53:50,477 --> 00:53:51,728 Oh, my God. 1141 00:53:51,770 --> 00:53:52,896 Grandpa? 1142 00:53:52,938 --> 00:53:54,439 -(moans) -Oh, my God. 1143 00:53:54,481 --> 00:53:56,191 Grandpa, hey, hey. 1144 00:53:56,233 --> 00:53:57,817 What? 1145 00:53:57,859 --> 00:53:59,569 What happened? 1146 00:53:59,611 --> 00:54:00,654 Um... 1147 00:54:00,695 --> 00:54:02,280 Oh, my God, you're bleeding. 1148 00:54:02,322 --> 00:54:03,406 I'm fine. 1149 00:54:03,448 --> 00:54:04,658 Wait, are you-- are you sure? 1150 00:54:04,699 --> 00:54:06,243 -Here, can you get up? -I can get up. 1151 00:54:06,284 --> 00:54:08,620 I just didn't feel like it. 1152 00:54:10,413 --> 00:54:12,666 -Where were ya? -I was out. 1153 00:54:12,707 --> 00:54:14,668 Well, I could've used you here. 1154 00:54:14,709 --> 00:54:17,671 -Here. -I'm-I'm fine. 1155 00:54:17,712 --> 00:54:19,172 I'm fine. 1156 00:54:19,214 --> 00:54:21,216 (TV chatter continues) 1157 00:54:21,258 --> 00:54:23,260 I'm fine. 1158 00:54:27,305 --> 00:54:28,556 (exhales sharply) 1159 00:54:28,598 --> 00:54:30,433 Thank goodness someone was there 1160 00:54:30,475 --> 00:54:32,727 to bring you back home. 1161 00:54:32,769 --> 00:54:34,688 ♪ ♪ 1162 00:54:39,317 --> 00:54:40,527 (P.A. beeps) 1163 00:54:40,568 --> 00:54:42,779 (indistinct P.A. announcement) 1164 00:54:43,613 --> 00:54:45,699 (phone ringing) 1165 00:54:49,494 --> 00:54:51,288 (indistinct chatter) 1166 00:54:52,122 --> 00:54:53,540 -Hey, Mom. -Hey, sweetheart. 1167 00:54:53,581 --> 00:54:55,458 What are you up to? 1168 00:54:55,500 --> 00:54:56,960 Nothing, nothing. 1169 00:54:57,002 --> 00:54:59,546 Just, um... 1170 00:54:59,587 --> 00:55:01,423 hanging out with Grandpa at the lake. 1171 00:55:01,464 --> 00:55:03,508 Just, um, watching the geese. 1172 00:55:03,550 --> 00:55:05,593 Well, that's great, I'm glad you have time. 1173 00:55:05,635 --> 00:55:07,846 So, I-I was thinking the realtor could 1174 00:55:07,887 --> 00:55:10,807 -come by this afternoon at 2:00. -(line beeping) 1175 00:55:13,393 --> 00:55:15,228 AUTOMATED VOICE: Please leave your message... 1176 00:55:15,270 --> 00:55:16,438 (beeps) 1177 00:55:16,479 --> 00:55:17,897 You know, when we met, I was sure 1178 00:55:17,939 --> 00:55:20,150 you were going to do the work, Merit. 1179 00:55:20,191 --> 00:55:21,776 (distant train horn blows) 1180 00:55:21,818 --> 00:55:24,612 Guess it's never too late to be surprised, hmm? 1181 00:55:24,654 --> 00:55:26,031 KRIS: Merit? 1182 00:55:26,072 --> 00:55:28,325 -Hello? Are you there? -Yeah, yeah, I'm here. 1183 00:55:28,366 --> 00:55:30,243 Okay, great, so 2:00 then, all right? 1184 00:55:30,285 --> 00:55:32,078 2:00, they'll be there. 1185 00:55:32,120 --> 00:55:33,204 Thanks so much, honey. 1186 00:55:33,246 --> 00:55:34,831 They'll see you at 2:00, bye. 1187 00:55:34,873 --> 00:55:36,499 (line beeps) 1188 00:55:47,427 --> 00:55:49,387 It's a gorgeous day. 1189 00:55:50,680 --> 00:55:51,848 We should take the pontoon boat out 1190 00:55:51,890 --> 00:55:54,684 this afternoon, get some sun. 1191 00:55:55,810 --> 00:55:58,563 The bird feeder still needs fixing. 1192 00:55:59,731 --> 00:56:01,316 Okay, well, we can go into town 1193 00:56:01,358 --> 00:56:03,151 and shop for new bird feeders. 1194 00:56:03,193 --> 00:56:04,694 I got what I need. 1195 00:56:04,736 --> 00:56:06,112 Maybe not new ones, but... 1196 00:56:06,154 --> 00:56:07,489 No, that would be crazy. 1197 00:56:07,530 --> 00:56:10,200 ...parts. 1198 00:56:10,241 --> 00:56:11,743 What is this? 1199 00:56:11,785 --> 00:56:12,660 Uh-oh. 1200 00:56:12,702 --> 00:56:15,121 It's an iPod, Grandpa, remember? 1201 00:56:15,163 --> 00:56:16,915 Plays music. 1202 00:56:16,956 --> 00:56:18,666 Let me see it. 1203 00:56:18,708 --> 00:56:21,044 I put some new music on it for you. 1204 00:56:23,380 --> 00:56:25,173 (rock music plays) 1205 00:56:25,215 --> 00:56:28,093 (chuckling) 1206 00:56:28,134 --> 00:56:29,594 Not bad. 1207 00:56:29,636 --> 00:56:33,723 Still, I've seen AN/PRC-25 field radios in the trash 1208 00:56:33,765 --> 00:56:36,101 that were capable of playing music. 1209 00:56:36,142 --> 00:56:39,521 ♪ That funny feeling I call the fever ♪ 1210 00:56:39,562 --> 00:56:42,690 ♪ Seems I've had it for 18 years ♪ 1211 00:56:45,110 --> 00:56:49,531 ♪ I thought I felt all right, but then it happened... ♪ 1212 00:56:49,572 --> 00:56:53,076 (muffled music continues) 1213 00:56:53,118 --> 00:56:55,078 -(engine turns off) -(music stops) 1214 00:56:56,663 --> 00:56:58,957 (birds chirping) 1215 00:57:03,211 --> 00:57:06,089 (phone chiming) 1216 00:57:11,594 --> 00:57:12,679 You sure about the pontoon boat? 1217 00:57:12,720 --> 00:57:15,640 Yeah, I'm sure. 1218 00:57:19,811 --> 00:57:21,729 (TV playing indistinctly) 1219 00:57:21,771 --> 00:57:24,566 Wow. Your grandpa is just putting shit everywhere, 1220 00:57:24,607 --> 00:57:26,443 isn't he? 1221 00:57:27,277 --> 00:57:28,486 Hmm. 1222 00:57:28,528 --> 00:57:30,280 Ooh. 1223 00:57:30,321 --> 00:57:32,490 These expired in 2012. 1224 00:57:32,532 --> 00:57:34,242 I would still eat them, though. 1225 00:57:34,993 --> 00:57:36,953 You know, my abuelo was stubborn as hell, too. 1226 00:57:36,995 --> 00:57:39,747 -You don't have to... -No, no, really, he was. 1227 00:57:39,789 --> 00:57:41,791 I mean, he loved us kids, 1228 00:57:41,833 --> 00:57:43,835 but anything we wanted to do was "no." 1229 00:57:43,877 --> 00:57:45,462 "Want to go to the movies?" "No." 1230 00:57:45,503 --> 00:57:47,088 "Ice cream?" "No." 1231 00:57:47,130 --> 00:57:49,549 Even shit he wanted to do he wouldn't do. 1232 00:57:49,591 --> 00:57:51,551 One time, I stole a Reader's Digest 1233 00:57:51,593 --> 00:57:53,887 from the library, and it had something on the cover like, 1234 00:57:53,928 --> 00:57:55,722 "A hundred fun things to do with your grandkids," 1235 00:57:55,763 --> 00:57:57,557 and I put it in our mailbox and just, like, pretended 1236 00:57:57,599 --> 00:57:59,559 it got delivered to the wrong address, 1237 00:57:59,601 --> 00:58:00,935 and that con worked like a charm. 1238 00:58:00,977 --> 00:58:03,480 We had ice cream that afternoon. 1239 00:58:04,522 --> 00:58:06,274 Zoe, you're a genius. 1240 00:58:06,316 --> 00:58:08,276 Thank you. 1241 00:58:08,318 --> 00:58:09,903 Wait, why? 1242 00:58:12,989 --> 00:58:14,532 Listen, my abuelo was kind of dumb, 1243 00:58:14,574 --> 00:58:15,950 and that was just ice cream. 1244 00:58:15,992 --> 00:58:17,243 I don't think this is gonna work the same way. 1245 00:58:17,285 --> 00:58:18,786 No, it's gonna work. 1246 00:58:20,371 --> 00:58:22,165 We just... 1247 00:58:22,207 --> 00:58:24,959 just gotta make the ice cream his idea. 1248 00:58:25,001 --> 00:58:27,754 Well, can we actually get ice cream afterwards? 1249 00:58:27,795 --> 00:58:29,339 'Cause now we've said it so many times, 1250 00:58:29,380 --> 00:58:30,840 I really want some. 1251 00:58:32,675 --> 00:58:33,801 (beeps) 1252 00:58:33,843 --> 00:58:35,845 (ignition sputtering) 1253 00:58:36,930 --> 00:58:39,766 -(beeps) -(ignition sputtering) 1254 00:58:40,683 --> 00:58:42,810 -(beeps) -(ignition sputtering) 1255 00:58:42,852 --> 00:58:46,022 What in God's green hell is that? 1256 00:58:48,024 --> 00:58:50,235 -(beeps) -(ignition sputtering) 1257 00:58:50,276 --> 00:58:51,611 DALE: (sighs) Jesus. 1258 00:58:51,653 --> 00:58:53,154 Goddamn it, Emmy! 1259 00:58:53,196 --> 00:58:55,156 What... 1260 00:58:55,198 --> 00:58:57,659 -Jesus Christ. -Ooh, you did it now. 1261 00:58:57,700 --> 00:58:59,994 This is the plan. 1262 00:59:01,246 --> 00:59:03,915 -You're gonna flood it. -(ignition sputtering) 1263 00:59:03,957 --> 00:59:05,208 -(engine starts) -There it goes. 1264 00:59:05,250 --> 00:59:06,626 (Dale sighs) 1265 00:59:12,966 --> 00:59:16,719 Be a shame to squander a beautiful day like this. 1266 00:59:20,473 --> 00:59:22,517 Get in your seat. 1267 00:59:22,559 --> 00:59:24,686 You're on rocks lookout. 1268 00:59:24,727 --> 00:59:27,564 Charlie Mike. 1269 00:59:27,605 --> 00:59:30,108 (sighing, grunting) 1270 00:59:33,528 --> 00:59:36,239 (engine purring) 1271 00:59:43,371 --> 00:59:45,623 (engine slows) 1272 00:59:48,626 --> 00:59:50,878 (birds chirping) 1273 00:59:53,506 --> 00:59:55,341 So... 1274 00:59:55,383 --> 00:59:57,969 What's the plan then? 1275 00:59:59,137 --> 01:00:01,556 -The plan? -Yeah, you and your mom, 1276 01:00:01,598 --> 01:00:04,851 I'm sure there's some scheme afloat. 1277 01:00:06,603 --> 01:00:08,730 She's just worried about you. 1278 01:00:08,771 --> 01:00:10,690 DALE: Yeah, what about you? 1279 01:00:12,609 --> 01:00:14,944 I just want you to be happy. 1280 01:00:18,698 --> 01:00:20,158 I've actually been meaning to talk to you 1281 01:00:20,199 --> 01:00:21,326 about the cabin. 1282 01:00:23,369 --> 01:00:25,705 You know, your grandma, 1283 01:00:25,747 --> 01:00:28,416 she loved this lake. 1284 01:00:28,458 --> 01:00:30,710 Especially in the wintertime. 1285 01:00:30,752 --> 01:00:32,920 She thought it was prettiest then. 1286 01:00:32,962 --> 01:00:34,881 Always preferred the summers myself. 1287 01:00:34,922 --> 01:00:39,093 "Too damn muggy," she'd say. 1288 01:00:39,135 --> 01:00:42,972 "Didn't you get enough humidity in Vietnam?" 1289 01:00:43,014 --> 01:00:46,142 That was her one Vietnam joke. 1290 01:00:46,184 --> 01:00:47,602 (chuckles) 1291 01:00:47,644 --> 01:00:51,773 That's what I think about now... 1292 01:00:51,814 --> 01:00:54,150 hot days like today. 1293 01:00:57,236 --> 01:00:59,280 That's why your little snot-nosed ass 1294 01:00:59,322 --> 01:01:02,325 used to spend all those summers out here with me. 1295 01:01:03,159 --> 01:01:07,080 You didn't talk much, and you... 1296 01:01:08,456 --> 01:01:11,626 ...you were a deadeye on rocks lookout. 1297 01:01:11,668 --> 01:01:14,212 Perfect fisherman's mate. 1298 01:01:14,253 --> 01:01:16,756 I loved it. 1299 01:01:16,798 --> 01:01:20,301 I love being out here. 1300 01:01:20,343 --> 01:01:23,179 Why haven't we seen you in so long? 1301 01:01:27,767 --> 01:01:29,394 I thought for sure you'd have shown up 1302 01:01:29,435 --> 01:01:32,730 during your grandma's final days. 1303 01:01:35,441 --> 01:01:37,360 At her funeral. 1304 01:01:39,028 --> 01:01:42,281 (whispers): Do not tell him. 1305 01:01:52,083 --> 01:01:55,211 I've... I've been dealing with some things... 1306 01:01:57,088 --> 01:01:59,674 ...from over there. 1307 01:01:59,716 --> 01:02:02,844 Yeah, let me guess... 1308 01:02:02,885 --> 01:02:04,929 PTSD? 1309 01:02:07,849 --> 01:02:09,517 You Iraq and Afghan vets, 1310 01:02:09,559 --> 01:02:13,271 you know, your whole entitled generation really, 1311 01:02:13,312 --> 01:02:16,691 blame everything on something or someone else. 1312 01:02:16,733 --> 01:02:18,860 You know, when we came back, we didn't have any PTSD 1313 01:02:18,901 --> 01:02:20,862 to blame everything on. 1314 01:02:20,903 --> 01:02:22,196 Call it what you want. 1315 01:02:22,238 --> 01:02:23,531 Combat stress, shell shock, whatever. 1316 01:02:23,573 --> 01:02:27,201 Goddamn it, don't "whatever" me, young lady. 1317 01:02:27,243 --> 01:02:29,954 Our wars were not the same. 1318 01:02:31,289 --> 01:02:33,541 I read in the Army Times that people line up 1319 01:02:33,583 --> 01:02:35,835 at the airports and greet each and every one of you 1320 01:02:35,877 --> 01:02:38,379 when you return home from duty. 1321 01:02:38,421 --> 01:02:40,465 Is that true? 1322 01:02:40,506 --> 01:02:42,216 Did that happen to you? 1323 01:02:43,593 --> 01:02:45,511 You know what happened to me? 1324 01:02:46,304 --> 01:02:49,015 I had to change out of my uniform at SFO 1325 01:02:49,056 --> 01:02:50,933 in a public bathroom. 1326 01:02:51,976 --> 01:02:54,479 And I still got spit on. 1327 01:02:56,773 --> 01:02:59,984 My short hair and my green duffel, 1328 01:03:00,026 --> 01:03:02,570 that's how they knew I was a "baby killer." 1329 01:03:02,612 --> 01:03:04,489 I didn't know that. 1330 01:03:04,530 --> 01:03:05,573 You never talked about it. 1331 01:03:05,615 --> 01:03:06,866 Well, why would I? 1332 01:03:06,908 --> 01:03:08,201 Why burden any of you with that? 1333 01:03:08,242 --> 01:03:10,161 That's-that's what a soldier does. 1334 01:03:10,203 --> 01:03:13,748 We go out and do things nobody else wants to do. 1335 01:03:13,790 --> 01:03:15,917 And we suck it up. 1336 01:03:15,958 --> 01:03:18,419 Well, I am sucking it up. 1337 01:03:19,921 --> 01:03:21,422 Believe me. 1338 01:03:24,801 --> 01:03:27,595 We have each other, you know. 1339 01:03:27,637 --> 01:03:29,263 Us veterans. 1340 01:03:29,305 --> 01:03:33,142 You know, maybe I didn't talk about my war with you guys, 1341 01:03:33,184 --> 01:03:36,354 but I sure as hell talked about it down at the VFW. 1342 01:03:36,395 --> 01:03:39,106 Even brought your mom a few times on bingo night 1343 01:03:39,148 --> 01:03:41,943 when she was just knee high to a grasshopper. 1344 01:03:41,984 --> 01:03:44,987 I bet she took bingo very seriously. 1345 01:03:45,029 --> 01:03:46,697 She played four boards at a time. 1346 01:03:46,739 --> 01:03:50,243 She used to yell at us for talking too much. 1347 01:03:52,620 --> 01:03:55,665 ♪ ♪ 1348 01:03:55,706 --> 01:03:57,500 I should've been here. 1349 01:04:01,170 --> 01:04:04,799 Okay, Em, why don't you come on over here 1350 01:04:04,841 --> 01:04:06,968 and steer us home? 1351 01:04:07,009 --> 01:04:08,594 Yes, sir. 1352 01:04:28,614 --> 01:04:29,991 (birds chirping) 1353 01:04:30,032 --> 01:04:32,577 (microwave beeping) 1354 01:04:37,707 --> 01:04:39,041 (grunts) 1355 01:04:41,502 --> 01:04:42,879 Thanks. 1356 01:04:44,505 --> 01:04:46,007 (sighs) 1357 01:04:49,886 --> 01:04:53,598 I thought you only ate that guten-free stuff. 1358 01:04:53,639 --> 01:04:55,266 Why, because I live in the city? 1359 01:04:55,308 --> 01:04:57,351 I'm still your granddaughter. 1360 01:04:57,393 --> 01:05:01,022 Yeah, you're gonna have to speak up, darlin'. 1361 01:05:01,063 --> 01:05:03,316 Everybody talks so quietly these days. 1362 01:05:03,357 --> 01:05:05,484 Jesus. 1363 01:05:05,526 --> 01:05:08,112 So, the Fourth of July celebration, 1364 01:05:08,154 --> 01:05:09,906 and craft show, is tomorrow. 1365 01:05:09,947 --> 01:05:11,490 You mean the crap show? 1366 01:05:11,532 --> 01:05:15,536 I know you have everything that you need here, but... 1367 01:05:15,578 --> 01:05:18,414 I thought maybe we could go to Roy Purdy's booth? 1368 01:05:18,456 --> 01:05:20,791 I'll bet he has some spare parts to fix that bird feeder 1369 01:05:20,833 --> 01:05:24,086 -of yours. -Mmm, perhaps. 1370 01:05:24,128 --> 01:05:26,172 I could drive us in. 1371 01:05:26,213 --> 01:05:28,674 First thing in the morning. 1372 01:05:30,468 --> 01:05:32,178 I'm goin' to bed. 1373 01:05:37,850 --> 01:05:39,894 (groans) 1374 01:05:39,936 --> 01:05:42,313 Not really hungry. 1375 01:05:43,105 --> 01:05:45,399 ♪ ♪ 1376 01:05:51,072 --> 01:05:52,907 Yeah, hi, I'm Richard, semper fi. 1377 01:05:52,949 --> 01:05:55,076 I was a Marine lieutenant in Vietnam. 1378 01:05:55,117 --> 01:05:56,285 Platoon commander, combat type. 1379 01:05:56,327 --> 01:05:58,245 Navy commander, trauma surgeon. 1380 01:05:58,287 --> 01:05:59,914 I work the ER over at St. John's. 1381 01:05:59,956 --> 01:06:02,249 Army, staff sergeant, OIF1. 1382 01:06:02,291 --> 01:06:05,920 I was deployed to Iraq twice and Afghanistan once 1383 01:06:05,962 --> 01:06:08,130 and now I'm a teacher. 1384 01:06:08,172 --> 01:06:11,467 Going back to school, get my MBA. 1385 01:06:11,509 --> 01:06:13,094 You know, proving that all Marines aren't dumb. 1386 01:06:13,135 --> 01:06:16,389 Now I work in finance, but I hate it. 1387 01:06:16,430 --> 01:06:19,600 So, um, I tried to find something that I do love now 1388 01:06:19,642 --> 01:06:21,811 and it turns out that's stand-up comedy, 1389 01:06:21,852 --> 01:06:23,270 so I've been giving that a try. 1390 01:06:23,312 --> 01:06:26,023 "Being in the military's a lot like being Asian. 1391 01:06:26,065 --> 01:06:27,817 "We all kinda look alike and everybody thinks 1392 01:06:27,858 --> 01:06:29,652 we're the Marines." 1393 01:06:30,820 --> 01:06:32,363 The world has this impression of who we are 1394 01:06:32,405 --> 01:06:34,740 when we say that we're veterans. 1395 01:06:34,782 --> 01:06:36,951 Trying vulnerability and talking to my friends, 1396 01:06:36,993 --> 01:06:38,744 but realizing, like... (exhales) 1397 01:06:38,786 --> 01:06:42,373 I can't tell them about the things that I've done or-- 1398 01:06:42,415 --> 01:06:44,667 Eh, all this Iraq and Afghanistan stuff 1399 01:06:44,709 --> 01:06:47,461 has brought up some old tapes for me. 1400 01:06:47,503 --> 01:06:49,547 So, I wanted to come here and share with you 1401 01:06:49,588 --> 01:06:50,673 what I could and-- 1402 01:06:50,715 --> 01:06:52,800 I've lost more guys back home, though, 1403 01:06:52,842 --> 01:06:54,343 than I did in Iraq. 1404 01:06:55,177 --> 01:06:58,014 Thanks, James. 1405 01:06:59,432 --> 01:07:00,683 (humming) 1406 01:07:01,976 --> 01:07:05,271 (phone ringing) 1407 01:07:12,486 --> 01:07:14,655 -Hey. -ALEX: Hey. 1408 01:07:14,697 --> 01:07:17,908 Sorry, I haven't gotten back to you about the room. 1409 01:07:17,950 --> 01:07:20,202 Yeah, no, it's cool. You still got two days anyways. 1410 01:07:20,244 --> 01:07:21,746 I wasn't calling about that. 1411 01:07:21,787 --> 01:07:24,832 I was just... I was just checking on you, soldier, 1412 01:07:24,874 --> 01:07:27,543 um, 'cause last night, uh... 1413 01:07:27,585 --> 01:07:29,670 Yeah, uh... 1414 01:07:32,339 --> 01:07:35,009 Yeah, I'm-I'm-I'm sorry, I don't-- 1415 01:07:35,051 --> 01:07:38,763 Look, I'm a forgiving and noble man. 1416 01:07:38,804 --> 01:07:40,431 So, you're good. 1417 01:07:40,473 --> 01:07:42,516 Yeah, and-and considerate. 1418 01:07:42,558 --> 01:07:45,436 And I'm also handsome and I do my taxes 1419 01:07:45,478 --> 01:07:47,855 on time, usually, so... 1420 01:07:47,897 --> 01:07:49,857 (chuckling) 1421 01:07:49,899 --> 01:07:54,070 Um, when can I see you again? 1422 01:07:55,071 --> 01:07:57,782 How about the Fourth of July thing? 1423 01:07:57,823 --> 01:07:58,783 You going to that? 1424 01:07:58,824 --> 01:08:00,701 Yeah, well, I hope so. 1425 01:08:00,743 --> 01:08:04,497 Yeah, okay, uh, well, um, thanks for picking up. 1426 01:08:04,538 --> 01:08:07,291 And, um, good night, Merit. 1427 01:08:07,333 --> 01:08:09,126 Good night. 1428 01:08:10,878 --> 01:08:13,923 ♪ ♪ 1429 01:08:13,964 --> 01:08:18,052 Shit... you scared me, Zoe. 1430 01:08:18,094 --> 01:08:20,179 I'm your shadow. 1431 01:08:20,221 --> 01:08:21,555 Boo! 1432 01:08:23,099 --> 01:08:24,600 Where else would I be? 1433 01:08:24,642 --> 01:08:27,603 ♪ ♪ 1434 01:08:27,645 --> 01:08:30,064 Hey, um... 1435 01:08:30,106 --> 01:08:33,567 next time you want to tell your granddad about me, 1436 01:08:33,609 --> 01:08:37,446 why don't you tell him about your big plans for him instead? 1437 01:08:37,488 --> 01:08:39,949 How you're going to take him away from his home, 1438 01:08:39,990 --> 01:08:42,368 his boat and his birds, 1439 01:08:42,409 --> 01:08:44,995 and stick him in a septuagenarian purgatory 1440 01:08:45,037 --> 01:08:47,665 where he'll die confused and alone. 1441 01:08:54,713 --> 01:08:55,881 Coward. 1442 01:08:58,968 --> 01:09:01,178 (birds chirping) 1443 01:09:04,223 --> 01:09:07,768 (thumping) 1444 01:09:36,088 --> 01:09:38,340 (sprinklers spritzing) 1445 01:09:48,225 --> 01:09:50,686 You got any other tunes on this thing? 1446 01:09:52,146 --> 01:09:54,190 Sir, yes, sir. 1447 01:09:55,274 --> 01:09:57,568 ("Dream Machine" by Daniel Edwardson playing) 1448 01:10:00,529 --> 01:10:03,157 Fine, this one is a good one. 1449 01:10:03,199 --> 01:10:05,409 ♪ ♪ 1450 01:10:07,786 --> 01:10:10,331 ♪ Once I had a dream that made me sad ♪ 1451 01:10:10,372 --> 01:10:11,832 ♪ Made me sad ♪ 1452 01:10:11,874 --> 01:10:13,751 ♪ ♪ 1453 01:10:13,792 --> 01:10:17,338 ♪ How so many people can be bad ♪ 1454 01:10:17,379 --> 01:10:19,632 ♪ ♪ 1455 01:10:19,673 --> 01:10:22,509 ♪ Everybody wants all they can grab ♪ 1456 01:10:22,551 --> 01:10:24,720 ♪ They can grab ♪ 1457 01:10:24,762 --> 01:10:29,725 ♪ No one's ever happy with their share ♪ 1458 01:10:34,772 --> 01:10:38,192 ♪ We're all here until we know not when ♪ 1459 01:10:38,234 --> 01:10:39,985 ♪ Not when ♪ 1460 01:10:40,027 --> 01:10:44,865 ♪ Love has gone and won't come back again. ♪ 1461 01:10:44,907 --> 01:10:46,158 There's Roy. 1462 01:10:46,200 --> 01:10:48,035 Well, I'll be. 1463 01:10:48,077 --> 01:10:49,286 Is that Dale? 1464 01:10:49,328 --> 01:10:51,038 -You're damn right it is. -(chuckles) 1465 01:10:51,080 --> 01:10:52,206 How the hell are ya, Roy? 1466 01:10:52,248 --> 01:10:54,333 Oh, you know, can't complain. 1467 01:10:54,375 --> 01:10:55,918 Good to see you. 1468 01:10:55,960 --> 01:10:59,004 Ah, we haven't seen you since Angela passed. 1469 01:11:00,130 --> 01:11:02,258 How you been holding up? 1470 01:11:03,092 --> 01:11:04,051 Oh, fine. 1471 01:11:04,093 --> 01:11:05,886 -Doing fine. -Uh-huh. 1472 01:11:05,928 --> 01:11:07,846 Listen, Roy, I need some material 1473 01:11:07,888 --> 01:11:09,473 for an old finch feeder I've got. 1474 01:11:09,515 --> 01:11:11,058 I've had it for years and the damn thing's 1475 01:11:11,100 --> 01:11:12,726 falling apart on me. 1476 01:11:12,768 --> 01:11:14,520 What do you think about a new one, huh? 1477 01:11:14,561 --> 01:11:15,896 Well, what do you got? 1478 01:11:15,938 --> 01:11:18,107 -I thought you didn't want-- -Oh, hush. 1479 01:11:18,148 --> 01:11:20,192 -ROY: You must be-- -Merit. 1480 01:11:20,234 --> 01:11:21,235 Merit! 1481 01:11:21,277 --> 01:11:22,528 That's my granddaughter. 1482 01:11:22,569 --> 01:11:24,113 She lives in the city. 1483 01:11:24,154 --> 01:11:25,239 I don't believe it. 1484 01:11:25,281 --> 01:11:26,699 Wow. 1485 01:11:26,740 --> 01:11:28,325 Last time I saw you, you were about this high, 1486 01:11:28,367 --> 01:11:31,036 playing with G.I. Joes. 1487 01:11:31,078 --> 01:11:32,997 What are you up to these days? 1488 01:11:33,038 --> 01:11:34,373 Not much. 1489 01:11:34,415 --> 01:11:36,625 DALE: She was in Afghanistan. 1490 01:11:36,667 --> 01:11:38,377 Lightweight vehicle mechanic. 1491 01:11:38,419 --> 01:11:40,087 And then, they stuck her on some outpost 1492 01:11:40,129 --> 01:11:42,006 near the Pakistan border 1493 01:11:42,047 --> 01:11:45,426 pulling guard duty detail for the 10th Mountain grunts. 1494 01:11:45,467 --> 01:11:47,761 Army's run by a bunch of yahoos these days. 1495 01:11:47,803 --> 01:11:50,389 Well, thank you for your service. 1496 01:11:50,431 --> 01:11:52,141 Welcome home, young lady. 1497 01:11:52,182 --> 01:11:53,434 Thank you very much. 1498 01:11:53,475 --> 01:11:54,727 How much is this one? 1499 01:11:54,768 --> 01:11:55,936 $40. 1500 01:11:55,978 --> 01:11:57,938 For you, Dale, 50. 1501 01:11:57,980 --> 01:11:59,189 (chuckling) 1502 01:11:59,231 --> 01:12:00,524 Well, fine. 1503 01:12:00,566 --> 01:12:03,110 -We'll take it. -Good. 1504 01:12:03,152 --> 01:12:04,445 Do you have money? 1505 01:12:04,486 --> 01:12:06,780 Yeah, yeah, yeah, I think so. 1506 01:12:06,822 --> 01:12:09,325 -Good to see ya, Roy. -Good to see you. 1507 01:12:10,284 --> 01:12:11,744 -40. -It's 40. 1508 01:12:11,785 --> 01:12:13,912 Sticking you with the bill, huh? 1509 01:12:15,456 --> 01:12:17,207 Doesn't he know you're broke? 1510 01:12:17,249 --> 01:12:19,668 We will continue tonight's program 1511 01:12:19,710 --> 01:12:22,338 with a salute to our nation's veterans. 1512 01:12:22,379 --> 01:12:24,965 As is our tradition, if you've served 1513 01:12:25,007 --> 01:12:27,092 or are currently serving, when you hear 1514 01:12:27,134 --> 01:12:30,179 your branch's song played, please stand 1515 01:12:30,220 --> 01:12:32,890 and be recognized. 1516 01:12:32,931 --> 01:12:36,894 (band playing) 1517 01:12:36,935 --> 01:12:39,355 ♪ ♪ 1518 01:12:40,314 --> 01:12:42,441 ♪ March along ♪ 1519 01:12:42,483 --> 01:12:44,234 ♪ Sing our song ♪ 1520 01:12:44,276 --> 01:12:47,571 ♪ With the army of the free ♪ 1521 01:12:47,613 --> 01:12:51,825 ♪ Count the brave, count the true ♪ 1522 01:12:51,867 --> 01:12:55,162 ♪ Who have fought to victory ♪ 1523 01:12:55,204 --> 01:12:59,833 ♪ We're the Army and proud of our name ♪ 1524 01:12:59,875 --> 01:13:03,379 ♪ We're the Army and proudly proclaim... ♪ 1525 01:13:06,924 --> 01:13:08,967 ♪ ♪ 1526 01:13:35,577 --> 01:13:37,830 ♪ ♪ 1527 01:13:54,763 --> 01:13:56,723 ♪ First to fight, for the right ♪ 1528 01:13:56,765 --> 01:13:58,183 ♪ And to build the Nation's might ♪ 1529 01:13:58,225 --> 01:14:02,020 ♪ And the Army goes rolling along ♪ 1530 01:14:02,062 --> 01:14:04,648 ♪ Proud of all we have done ♪ 1531 01:14:04,690 --> 01:14:07,192 ♪ Fighting till the battle's won ♪ 1532 01:14:07,234 --> 01:14:10,237 ♪ And the Army goes rolling along ♪ 1533 01:14:10,279 --> 01:14:13,323 ♪ Then it's hi, hi, hey ♪ 1534 01:14:13,365 --> 01:14:14,867 ♪ The Army's on its way ♪ 1535 01:14:14,908 --> 01:14:18,245 ♪ Count off the cadence loud and strong ♪ 1536 01:14:18,287 --> 01:14:22,040 ♪ For where'er we go, you will always know ♪ 1537 01:14:22,082 --> 01:14:26,587 ♪ That the Army goes rolling along. ♪ 1538 01:14:26,628 --> 01:14:29,882 (applause and cheering) 1539 01:14:38,849 --> 01:14:42,811 (chatter and laughter) 1540 01:14:45,230 --> 01:14:47,316 MERIT: Seems like right up here is good, yeah? 1541 01:14:47,357 --> 01:14:49,151 Yeah, fine. 1542 01:14:49,193 --> 01:14:50,527 Hey, Merit? 1543 01:14:50,569 --> 01:14:51,737 Hey! 1544 01:14:51,778 --> 01:14:53,113 What's up, stranger? 1545 01:14:53,155 --> 01:14:54,114 Hey. 1546 01:14:54,156 --> 01:14:55,532 You look, uh, um... 1547 01:14:55,574 --> 01:14:58,619 Hi, uh... 1548 01:14:58,660 --> 01:15:00,162 You must be the colonel. 1549 01:15:00,204 --> 01:15:01,246 Lieutenant colonel. 1550 01:15:01,288 --> 01:15:03,123 Retired. Who are you? 1551 01:15:03,165 --> 01:15:05,918 Uh, hi, I'm Alex, Manager First Class, 1552 01:15:05,959 --> 01:15:08,837 Shady Acres Assisted Living Facility. 1553 01:15:12,257 --> 01:15:14,426 Come again? What? 1554 01:15:14,468 --> 01:15:16,595 That's a retirement home, right? 1555 01:15:16,637 --> 01:15:17,971 I... 1556 01:15:18,013 --> 01:15:20,015 (stammering) 1557 01:15:21,558 --> 01:15:24,269 How do you two know each other? 1558 01:15:24,311 --> 01:15:30,150 Uh, uh, we-we, uh... we met at-at-at... 1559 01:15:30,192 --> 01:15:31,485 (slams chair) 1560 01:15:31,527 --> 01:15:32,986 Grandpa. 1561 01:15:33,028 --> 01:15:34,196 (spits) 1562 01:15:34,238 --> 01:15:35,405 Traitor! 1563 01:15:35,447 --> 01:15:37,991 ♪ ♪ 1564 01:15:38,033 --> 01:15:39,743 -Fuck. -I'm sorry, I didn't know. 1565 01:15:39,785 --> 01:15:41,245 Of course you didn't! 1566 01:15:41,286 --> 01:15:43,288 Hey, don't you think you should give him some space? 1567 01:15:43,330 --> 01:15:44,665 What? 1568 01:15:44,706 --> 01:15:46,375 You used to be so good at giving him space. 1569 01:15:46,416 --> 01:15:47,668 Zoe, let me go. 1570 01:15:47,709 --> 01:15:50,546 ♪ ♪ 1571 01:15:51,380 --> 01:15:53,006 Grandpa! 1572 01:15:59,346 --> 01:16:01,181 Grandpa! 1573 01:16:01,223 --> 01:16:03,225 ♪ ♪ 1574 01:16:22,578 --> 01:16:24,580 (fireworks exploding) 1575 01:16:24,621 --> 01:16:27,666 ♪ ♪ 1576 01:16:31,503 --> 01:16:33,088 MERIT: Get back inside! 1577 01:16:33,130 --> 01:16:35,340 What is wrong with you? Stop! 1578 01:16:35,382 --> 01:16:37,092 ♪ ♪ 1579 01:16:38,760 --> 01:16:41,430 -Get back inside, now! -Why? 1580 01:16:41,471 --> 01:16:42,723 No, no! 1581 01:16:50,772 --> 01:16:52,566 (panting) 1582 01:16:52,608 --> 01:16:54,484 Mom? 1583 01:16:54,526 --> 01:16:56,403 I... 1584 01:16:56,445 --> 01:16:58,113 uh... 1585 01:16:58,155 --> 01:16:59,656 Grandpa, uh... 1586 01:16:59,698 --> 01:17:00,699 Yeah, don't worry. He's here. 1587 01:17:00,741 --> 01:17:01,992 He's here? 1588 01:17:02,034 --> 01:17:04,369 He's in bed and he is resting. 1589 01:17:04,411 --> 01:17:06,246 Oh, thank God! 1590 01:17:07,706 --> 01:17:09,791 I'm sorry, okay? 1591 01:17:09,833 --> 01:17:11,918 It's-- Listen, listen to me, Mom. 1592 01:17:11,960 --> 01:17:13,670 He got-- he got upset. 1593 01:17:13,712 --> 01:17:15,255 It was so fast, he walked away-- 1594 01:17:15,297 --> 01:17:17,466 Merit, stop. 1595 01:17:17,507 --> 01:17:19,092 I can't. 1596 01:17:20,636 --> 01:17:22,721 We'll talk in the morning. 1597 01:17:27,225 --> 01:17:29,269 ♪ ♪ 1598 01:17:31,063 --> 01:17:33,857 (indistinct radio chatter) 1599 01:17:36,693 --> 01:17:38,945 ♪ ♪ 1600 01:17:41,156 --> 01:17:42,741 (snaps) 1601 01:17:49,581 --> 01:17:52,167 Hey... hey! 1602 01:17:53,001 --> 01:17:56,129 Hey, you gonna get that? 1603 01:17:56,171 --> 01:17:57,673 I'll get it. 1604 01:18:00,300 --> 01:18:01,677 S-O-G, this is ECP1. 1605 01:18:01,718 --> 01:18:03,762 Green to green, over. 1606 01:18:05,430 --> 01:18:07,849 (indistinct radio chatter) 1607 01:18:15,190 --> 01:18:17,484 I actually get why you want to reenlist. 1608 01:18:17,526 --> 01:18:18,902 Mmm? 1609 01:18:18,944 --> 01:18:20,737 But you're wrong. 1610 01:18:20,779 --> 01:18:22,406 Why? 1611 01:18:22,447 --> 01:18:23,782 Aren't you the one that calls us 1612 01:18:23,824 --> 01:18:24,991 Imperial Storm Troopers 1613 01:18:25,033 --> 01:18:27,285 tricked into modern colonialism? 1614 01:18:27,327 --> 01:18:28,829 Well, it's not not true. 1615 01:18:28,870 --> 01:18:32,958 What about you could, uh, I don't know, die? 1616 01:18:32,999 --> 01:18:35,711 Well, then I will die in a blaze of glory, I hope. 1617 01:18:35,752 --> 01:18:37,462 Oh, fuck you. 1618 01:18:37,504 --> 01:18:38,755 Oof! 1619 01:18:38,797 --> 01:18:41,216 Small words from the college girl. 1620 01:18:43,218 --> 01:18:45,929 All right, I got a question for you then. 1621 01:18:46,763 --> 01:18:48,765 Do you think we would be... 1622 01:18:48,807 --> 01:18:50,475 friends back home? 1623 01:18:50,517 --> 01:18:52,686 Where even is home for you? 1624 01:18:52,728 --> 01:18:53,687 You don't ever talk about it. 1625 01:18:53,729 --> 01:18:55,689 Just answer me. 1626 01:18:55,731 --> 01:18:57,607 Do you think we would be friends? 1627 01:18:57,649 --> 01:18:58,900 Of course we would. 1628 01:18:58,942 --> 01:19:01,027 Okay, then how would it work, like, 1629 01:19:01,069 --> 01:19:02,362 honestly, how would it work? 1630 01:19:02,404 --> 01:19:04,406 Like, would we see each other once a year 1631 01:19:04,448 --> 01:19:08,493 and then, like, random calls, and, I don't know, 1632 01:19:08,535 --> 01:19:11,371 just eventually end up just liking each other's 1633 01:19:11,413 --> 01:19:13,039 Facebook posts and shit? 1634 01:19:13,081 --> 01:19:15,208 I mean, yeah, why... why not? 1635 01:19:15,250 --> 01:19:17,085 We can-- we can do whatever we want. 1636 01:19:17,127 --> 01:19:19,171 Friendships evolve. 1637 01:19:20,714 --> 01:19:22,799 Why don't you explain where this is coming from? 1638 01:19:22,841 --> 01:19:25,260 I'm just being realistic. 1639 01:19:26,303 --> 01:19:27,929 I don't think you can explain yourself, 1640 01:19:27,971 --> 01:19:29,097 even if you wanted to. 1641 01:19:29,139 --> 01:19:31,308 I have been explaining myself. 1642 01:19:31,349 --> 01:19:33,059 I told you, it's-- 1643 01:19:33,101 --> 01:19:34,770 Not everybody has a happy fuckin' home 1644 01:19:34,811 --> 01:19:36,146 to go back to, Merit. 1645 01:19:36,188 --> 01:19:38,273 These are excuses, Zoe. 1646 01:19:39,441 --> 01:19:40,692 You need to be honest. 1647 01:19:40,734 --> 01:19:41,943 Honest about what? 1648 01:19:41,985 --> 01:19:43,320 That-that you're scared! 1649 01:19:43,361 --> 01:19:46,907 You are scared of what comes next. 1650 01:19:48,366 --> 01:19:50,202 You wanna know where your meals are coming from, 1651 01:19:50,243 --> 01:19:53,205 you wanna be told what to do every day. 1652 01:19:54,080 --> 01:19:57,417 Okay... you think I'm scared? 1653 01:19:57,459 --> 01:19:59,127 I think you're terrified. 1654 01:20:01,463 --> 01:20:02,798 (scoffs) 1655 01:20:05,675 --> 01:20:07,469 (gate buzzing) 1656 01:20:07,511 --> 01:20:09,137 What are you doing? 1657 01:20:09,179 --> 01:20:11,389 -Where are you going? -What do you care? 1658 01:20:11,431 --> 01:20:12,516 (dog barking) 1659 01:20:12,557 --> 01:20:15,435 (indistinct radio chatter) 1660 01:20:15,477 --> 01:20:17,437 ♪ ♪ 1661 01:20:17,479 --> 01:20:18,522 Zoe. 1662 01:20:19,856 --> 01:20:21,942 What? Stop it! 1663 01:20:23,193 --> 01:20:24,945 Zoe! 1664 01:20:26,279 --> 01:20:27,405 Zoe! 1665 01:20:33,036 --> 01:20:35,330 (birds chirping) 1666 01:20:53,098 --> 01:20:55,851 Mom was right, you do feed them too much. 1667 01:20:58,186 --> 01:21:00,146 You, your mother, Merit, 1668 01:21:00,188 --> 01:21:04,150 you all seem to know a lot about what's best for me. 1669 01:21:08,029 --> 01:21:09,614 They are looking kind of big. 1670 01:21:09,656 --> 01:21:11,366 (laughs): They're huge. 1671 01:21:15,495 --> 01:21:18,999 Nice, having you and your mom around, honey. 1672 01:21:19,040 --> 01:21:20,917 Dad, Mom isn't here. 1673 01:21:20,959 --> 01:21:22,669 Your mother and I, 1674 01:21:22,711 --> 01:21:24,379 for 22 years, 1675 01:21:24,421 --> 01:21:26,673 went wherever the Army sent me. 1676 01:21:26,715 --> 01:21:28,758 And then we bought this place. 1677 01:21:28,800 --> 01:21:31,303 Together. 1678 01:21:31,344 --> 01:21:34,848 Your mother wanted it to stay in the family. 1679 01:21:34,890 --> 01:21:36,391 I told you... 1680 01:21:36,433 --> 01:21:38,894 I'm not planning on letting her down. 1681 01:21:40,395 --> 01:21:43,398 Long as I'm breathing, I'm staying put. 1682 01:22:10,592 --> 01:22:12,177 -Mom... -You know, when the hospital 1683 01:22:12,218 --> 01:22:15,388 called me to approve new medication 1684 01:22:15,430 --> 01:22:17,057 for your grandpa, I thanked them. 1685 01:22:17,098 --> 01:22:18,808 I told them I was so happy 1686 01:22:18,850 --> 01:22:20,560 you were there as a proxy. 1687 01:22:20,602 --> 01:22:22,395 And then when they told me you were there 1688 01:22:22,437 --> 01:22:24,064 'cause your grandfather fell again 1689 01:22:24,105 --> 01:22:27,275 and I said, "Oh, I know, no, Merit told me." 1690 01:22:27,317 --> 01:22:28,485 Mom... 1691 01:22:28,526 --> 01:22:30,028 You lied to me. 1692 01:22:31,613 --> 01:22:33,990 Your grandfather can't live on his own. 1693 01:22:37,994 --> 01:22:40,830 I love you, Merit, 1694 01:22:40,872 --> 01:22:42,958 but you've made a mess. 1695 01:22:46,127 --> 01:22:48,338 ♪ ♪ 1696 01:22:54,552 --> 01:22:56,596 ♪ ♪ 1697 01:23:14,823 --> 01:23:16,408 (buzzing) 1698 01:23:16,449 --> 01:23:18,618 (speech garbled over radio) 1699 01:23:18,660 --> 01:23:20,412 What is wrong with you? 1700 01:23:20,453 --> 01:23:22,080 Stop! 1701 01:23:22,122 --> 01:23:23,415 Now, get back inside. 1702 01:23:24,541 --> 01:23:26,501 (panting) 1703 01:23:29,838 --> 01:23:31,673 ♪ ♪ 1704 01:23:31,715 --> 01:23:34,467 (dialogue inaudible) 1705 01:23:42,684 --> 01:23:44,978 Getting us both fucking killed out here? 1706 01:23:45,020 --> 01:23:47,313 -Get back inside now. -No! 1707 01:23:47,355 --> 01:23:48,606 Stop this, why are you acting 1708 01:23:48,648 --> 01:23:50,150 like your life doesn't mean anything? 1709 01:23:50,191 --> 01:23:51,317 It doesn't, none of this means anything. 1710 01:23:51,359 --> 01:23:53,611 -Yes it does, stop. -Why? 1711 01:23:53,653 --> 01:23:57,365 Because I love you and I care about you. 1712 01:24:00,243 --> 01:24:05,081 Zoe, you're so big 1713 01:24:05,123 --> 01:24:07,000 and your whole life is ahead of you 1714 01:24:07,042 --> 01:24:09,169 and you don't even see it. 1715 01:24:09,210 --> 01:24:11,337 What life? 1716 01:24:12,338 --> 01:24:14,382 We'll make it work. 1717 01:24:15,759 --> 01:24:18,553 We will make it work. 1718 01:24:18,595 --> 01:24:19,763 Okay? 1719 01:24:22,766 --> 01:24:24,309 After the Army. 1720 01:24:26,728 --> 01:24:28,563 We'll figure it out. 1721 01:24:30,482 --> 01:24:31,566 I swear. 1722 01:24:38,865 --> 01:24:40,241 Zoe! 1723 01:24:44,829 --> 01:24:46,581 You swore. 1724 01:24:48,333 --> 01:24:50,210 Isn't that what you said? 1725 01:24:50,251 --> 01:24:53,088 Me and you? You got me? 1726 01:24:56,007 --> 01:24:57,675 I didn't reenlist because of you. 1727 01:24:57,717 --> 01:24:59,761 ♪ ♪ 1728 01:25:27,664 --> 01:25:29,791 I believed you. 1729 01:25:33,837 --> 01:25:35,797 I know. 1730 01:25:36,798 --> 01:25:39,259 I know, I'm sorry. 1731 01:25:40,135 --> 01:25:43,429 I'm sorry I convinced you not to reenlist. 1732 01:25:45,473 --> 01:25:48,643 I'm sorry I didn't see how badly you were doing. 1733 01:25:51,187 --> 01:25:55,024 And I am so sorry, 1734 01:25:55,066 --> 01:25:57,277 I am so sorry I didn't pick up. 1735 01:25:57,318 --> 01:25:59,779 ♪ ♪ 1736 01:26:05,660 --> 01:26:08,538 ♪ ♪ 1737 01:26:31,936 --> 01:26:34,355 ♪ ♪ 1738 01:26:51,915 --> 01:26:53,958 ♪ ♪ 1739 01:27:12,101 --> 01:27:14,687 MAN: On behalf of the President of the United States, 1740 01:27:14,729 --> 01:27:16,689 the United States Army, and a grateful nation, 1741 01:27:16,731 --> 01:27:18,524 please accept this flag as a symbol 1742 01:27:18,566 --> 01:27:20,151 of our appreciation for your loved one's 1743 01:27:20,193 --> 01:27:21,736 honorable and faithful service. 1744 01:27:22,946 --> 01:27:26,366 (sobbing): I hate my-- I hate myself. 1745 01:27:26,407 --> 01:27:29,577 I hate myself for it. 1746 01:27:29,619 --> 01:27:31,246 You, uh-- 1747 01:27:34,374 --> 01:27:35,917 Say it. 1748 01:27:45,927 --> 01:27:49,264 You would still be alive if it weren't for me. 1749 01:27:57,689 --> 01:27:59,691 You can't tell anyone. 1750 01:28:03,361 --> 01:28:06,781 I know, and it's breaking me, Zoe. 1751 01:28:06,823 --> 01:28:09,701 (crying) 1752 01:28:09,742 --> 01:28:12,078 It's breaking me worse than I'm already broken, 1753 01:28:12,120 --> 01:28:13,955 I have to. 1754 01:28:15,081 --> 01:28:17,041 If you tell them, 1755 01:28:17,083 --> 01:28:19,168 you will lose me forever. 1756 01:28:19,210 --> 01:28:22,797 And I will never, ever forgive you. 1757 01:28:25,341 --> 01:28:27,593 ♪ ♪ 1758 01:28:34,809 --> 01:28:36,644 No... 1759 01:28:49,324 --> 01:28:51,784 But Zoe would have. 1760 01:28:51,826 --> 01:28:54,996 ♪ ♪ 1761 01:29:24,525 --> 01:29:27,945 (Merit gasping and sobbing) 1762 01:29:30,323 --> 01:29:32,158 (laughing) 1763 01:29:32,200 --> 01:29:34,744 ♪ ♪ 1764 01:30:02,146 --> 01:30:04,399 ♪ ♪ 1765 01:30:31,509 --> 01:30:33,761 Huh. 1766 01:30:38,933 --> 01:30:40,309 Mom! 1767 01:30:40,351 --> 01:30:42,353 Wait, you can't sign these. 1768 01:30:42,395 --> 01:30:43,855 Merit, what are you doing? 1769 01:30:43,896 --> 01:30:46,566 I'm sorry, can-- I need to stop you. 1770 01:30:47,608 --> 01:30:50,528 -Hi. -Hi. 1771 01:30:50,570 --> 01:30:53,114 Can I talk to you for a second? 1772 01:30:54,615 --> 01:30:56,367 -Um, yeah. -Just over... over here. 1773 01:30:56,409 --> 01:30:58,244 -Just... -I promise you I'll explain. 1774 01:30:58,286 --> 01:31:00,496 I will explain, just please don't sign them. 1775 01:31:03,583 --> 01:31:05,084 -Hey. So, sorry. It's... -What? 1776 01:31:05,126 --> 01:31:07,962 Look, I know, I know, I'm gonna... 1777 01:31:08,004 --> 01:31:10,173 Um... 1778 01:31:10,214 --> 01:31:12,133 -I'm sorry. -What? 1779 01:31:12,175 --> 01:31:13,593 I'm sorry for everything 1780 01:31:13,634 --> 01:31:15,428 -at the bar. -At the bar? 1781 01:31:15,470 --> 01:31:17,513 I'm sorry about the park, I-I didn't know. 1782 01:31:17,555 --> 01:31:19,849 Oh, it's okay, I... 1783 01:31:19,891 --> 01:31:22,643 I should've told him. 1784 01:31:22,685 --> 01:31:25,938 But thank you and... 1785 01:31:25,980 --> 01:31:27,773 I'm working through a lot of stuff right now. 1786 01:31:27,815 --> 01:31:30,359 And, um, I'm gonna get through it. 1787 01:31:30,401 --> 01:31:32,945 -Yeah. -So... 1788 01:31:32,987 --> 01:31:34,530 Second chance? 1789 01:31:34,572 --> 01:31:37,074 You're being a goofball. 1790 01:31:37,116 --> 01:31:38,659 Okay? 1791 01:31:40,620 --> 01:31:42,872 Y-Your mom's looking at us. 1792 01:31:42,914 --> 01:31:44,707 -MERIT: Yes, she is. -ALEX: Yeah. 1793 01:31:44,749 --> 01:31:46,584 Okay, all right, I'm gonna... 1794 01:31:46,626 --> 01:31:49,754 -Yeah. -Yeah, okay. 1795 01:31:49,795 --> 01:31:52,632 Okay, okay, Mom, listen. Um... 1796 01:31:52,673 --> 01:31:55,885 Yeah. Don't sign these. 1797 01:31:57,637 --> 01:31:59,847 (vehicle approaching) 1798 01:32:07,230 --> 01:32:10,608 Should've used the Loctite, much better glue. 1799 01:32:10,650 --> 01:32:12,151 I would, Grandpa, if you would store it 1800 01:32:12,193 --> 01:32:14,070 in a normal location. 1801 01:32:16,447 --> 01:32:18,282 Tell him the news. 1802 01:32:19,992 --> 01:32:22,286 You're not going to Shady Acres. 1803 01:32:22,328 --> 01:32:23,913 No shit. 1804 01:32:28,376 --> 01:32:30,086 I'd like to stay here. 1805 01:32:30,127 --> 01:32:31,629 Where? 1806 01:32:31,671 --> 01:32:34,632 Here. With you. 1807 01:32:34,674 --> 01:32:38,135 I can help you around the house, 1808 01:32:38,177 --> 01:32:41,847 I could fix stuff, drive you places. 1809 01:32:41,889 --> 01:32:44,642 Build you an organizer for your glues. 1810 01:32:57,405 --> 01:32:59,031 (Dale sighs) 1811 01:33:05,705 --> 01:33:07,999 You should start with the water heater. 1812 01:33:08,040 --> 01:33:10,793 You gonna be taking those long-ass showers, 1813 01:33:10,835 --> 01:33:12,712 we'll need it in tip-top. 1814 01:33:17,425 --> 01:33:20,386 (chuckles) 1815 01:33:20,428 --> 01:33:22,430 All right. 1816 01:33:22,471 --> 01:33:24,515 (Merit chuckles) 1817 01:33:24,557 --> 01:33:26,100 You sure about this? 1818 01:33:27,101 --> 01:33:28,769 I am sure. 1819 01:33:28,811 --> 01:33:30,771 -Okay, yeah. -Oh! 1820 01:33:30,813 --> 01:33:33,065 I gotta go, um, 1821 01:33:33,107 --> 01:33:34,775 I have so much to tell you both, 1822 01:33:34,817 --> 01:33:36,444 but I have to go now. 1823 01:33:36,485 --> 01:33:38,362 I'll be back as soon as I can. 1824 01:33:38,404 --> 01:33:39,780 Where the hell's she going? 1825 01:33:39,822 --> 01:33:42,283 -I don't know. -(vehicle door opens, closes) 1826 01:33:45,828 --> 01:33:48,581 ♪ And that's when you need me there ♪ 1827 01:33:48,623 --> 01:33:51,834 ♪ With you I'll always share ♪ 1828 01:33:51,876 --> 01:33:53,085 ♪ Because when the sun-- ♪ 1829 01:33:53,127 --> 01:33:55,671 -(music stops) -No! Fuck! 1830 01:33:55,713 --> 01:33:58,174 If this thing dies one more time I'm just gonna kill myself. 1831 01:33:58,215 --> 01:33:59,925 Don't do that, what would I do without you? 1832 01:33:59,967 --> 01:34:02,219 Well, you know, you'll get your own umbrella I guess. 1833 01:34:02,261 --> 01:34:04,263 (both laughing) 1834 01:34:04,305 --> 01:34:06,098 -Come on, hurry up. -I got it, I got it-- ready? 1835 01:34:06,140 --> 01:34:08,934 ♪ When the sun shines, we'll shine together ♪ 1836 01:34:08,976 --> 01:34:10,936 ♪ Told you I'll be here forever ♪ 1837 01:34:10,978 --> 01:34:12,772 -♪ Said I'll al-- ♪ -(music stops) 1838 01:34:12,813 --> 01:34:14,857 Let me see it, just give it to me. 1839 01:34:14,899 --> 01:34:16,275 (Zoe sighs) 1840 01:34:16,317 --> 01:34:17,777 Come on. 1841 01:34:19,528 --> 01:34:22,156 ♪ Said I'll always be a friend ♪ 1842 01:34:22,198 --> 01:34:24,950 ♪ Took an oath, gonna stick it out to the end ♪ 1843 01:34:24,992 --> 01:34:27,870 ♪ Now that it's raining more than ever ♪ 1844 01:34:27,912 --> 01:34:31,123 ♪ Told you we'll still have each other ♪ 1845 01:34:31,165 --> 01:34:34,043 ♪ You can stand under my umbrella ♪ 1846 01:34:34,085 --> 01:34:37,129 ♪ You can stand under my umbrella ♪ 1847 01:34:37,171 --> 01:34:41,092 ♪ Ella, ella, eh, eh, eh ♪ 1848 01:34:41,133 --> 01:34:43,094 ♪ Under my umbrella ♪ 1849 01:34:43,135 --> 01:34:46,472 ♪ Ella, ella, eh, eh, eh ♪ 1850 01:34:46,514 --> 01:34:49,433 Under my umbrella. 1851 01:34:52,186 --> 01:34:54,563 We'd been back home for about four years. 1852 01:34:54,605 --> 01:34:57,775 -He was like the coolest dude ever... -(door opens) 1853 01:34:57,817 --> 01:35:00,444 ...and the last person you'd ever think that... 1854 01:35:06,617 --> 01:35:08,494 Surprised to see you. 1855 01:35:08,536 --> 01:35:11,455 Never too late to be surprised. 1856 01:35:11,497 --> 01:35:13,416 We'll see. 1857 01:35:13,457 --> 01:35:15,000 Sorry, James. 1858 01:35:15,042 --> 01:35:18,713 It's fine. Do you want to... 1859 01:35:23,217 --> 01:35:24,969 You ready? 1860 01:35:35,312 --> 01:35:37,773 My name is Merit. 1861 01:35:38,983 --> 01:35:41,736 Served eight years in the Army. 1862 01:35:41,777 --> 01:35:44,822 63 Bravo, light-wheel mechanic. 1863 01:35:44,864 --> 01:35:47,199 Deployed to Afghanistan in 2016. 1864 01:35:51,746 --> 01:35:54,874 And why I'm here... 1865 01:35:58,043 --> 01:36:00,212 It's not an incident. 1866 01:36:00,254 --> 01:36:02,089 ♪ ♪ 1867 01:36:10,306 --> 01:36:12,892 It's a person. 1868 01:36:12,933 --> 01:36:15,811 ♪ ♪ 1869 01:36:22,026 --> 01:36:24,278 Her name was Zoe. 1870 01:36:25,780 --> 01:36:28,866 ♪ I've lived my life ♪ 1871 01:36:28,908 --> 01:36:33,162 ♪ Awaking with the dawn ♪ 1872 01:36:34,622 --> 01:36:40,628 ♪ Working on this house to make it a home ♪ 1873 01:36:40,669 --> 01:36:42,379 Some kind of wild protection, 1874 01:36:42,421 --> 01:36:44,006 although it doesn't really do jack, 1875 01:36:44,048 --> 01:36:46,592 but it makes me feel more comforting on the inside. 1876 01:36:46,634 --> 01:36:49,929 -Did you serve your country? -Roger, I'm really proud. 1877 01:36:49,970 --> 01:36:51,680 You know... 1878 01:36:51,722 --> 01:36:53,933 ♪ Looking out ♪ 1879 01:36:53,974 --> 01:36:59,104 ♪ Feet on the sunlit ground ♪ 1880 01:37:02,316 --> 01:37:07,112 ♪ Oh, I'm a beautiful ruin ♪ 1881 01:37:07,154 --> 01:37:11,867 ♪ Memories of loss in my chest ♪ 1882 01:37:11,909 --> 01:37:16,288 ♪ I thought they'd be my undoing ♪ 1883 01:37:16,330 --> 01:37:20,251 ♪ But I'm scared to death I'll forget ♪ 1884 01:37:25,631 --> 01:37:29,510 ♪ I'm scared to death I'll forget ♪ 1885 01:37:38,686 --> 01:37:44,483 ♪ I felt it in my bones, the storm had broken ♪ 1886 01:37:48,028 --> 01:37:51,073 ♪ A house with shattered windows ♪ 1887 01:37:51,115 --> 01:37:54,285 ♪ Still lets the light in ♪ 1888 01:37:57,204 --> 01:38:04,211 ♪ Lately I've been thinking of starting a garden ♪ 1889 01:38:06,046 --> 01:38:08,674 ♪ Watching it grow ♪ 1890 01:38:08,716 --> 01:38:10,259 ♪ Breathing ♪ 1891 01:38:10,301 --> 01:38:15,222 ♪ Letting you go ♪ 1892 01:38:17,016 --> 01:38:21,478 ♪ Oh, I'm a beautiful ruin ♪ 1893 01:38:21,520 --> 01:38:25,983 ♪ Memories of loss in my chest ♪ 1894 01:38:26,025 --> 01:38:30,362 ♪ I thought they'd be my undoing ♪ 1895 01:38:30,404 --> 01:38:34,491 ♪ But I'm scared to death I'll forget ♪ 1896 01:38:39,663 --> 01:38:44,043 ♪ I'm scared to death I'll forget ♪ 1897 01:38:46,879 --> 01:38:50,966 ♪ Forget. ♪ 1898 01:38:51,008 --> 01:38:53,260 ♪ ♪ 1899 01:39:21,872 --> 01:39:24,124 ♪ ♪ 1900 01:39:31,423 --> 01:39:33,634 ("On a Hill" by Phinisey playing) 1901 01:39:41,976 --> 01:39:44,019 ♪ I'm out of breath ♪ 1902 01:39:44,061 --> 01:39:46,480 ♪ Gave it all, nothing left ♪ 1903 01:39:46,522 --> 01:39:49,274 ♪ Didn't fall, I told you ♪ 1904 01:39:49,316 --> 01:39:51,193 ♪ Didn't I? ♪ 1905 01:39:51,235 --> 01:39:53,862 ♪ Just do, you'll be fine ♪ 1906 01:39:53,904 --> 01:39:55,531 ♪ I'm running ♪ 1907 01:39:55,572 --> 01:39:56,949 ♪ Hurting ♪ 1908 01:39:56,991 --> 01:39:58,242 ♪ Pushing ♪ 1909 01:39:58,283 --> 01:39:59,660 ♪ I got it, though ♪ 1910 01:39:59,702 --> 01:40:00,786 ♪ You breathing ♪ 1911 01:40:00,828 --> 01:40:02,454 ♪ You mean it ♪ 1912 01:40:02,496 --> 01:40:05,124 ♪ She is just how I know ♪ 1913 01:40:05,165 --> 01:40:07,209 ♪ I'm standing on a hill ♪ 1914 01:40:07,251 --> 01:40:10,045 ♪ Looking up, looking down ♪ 1915 01:40:10,087 --> 01:40:12,965 ♪ Wanna remember how it feels ♪ 1916 01:40:13,007 --> 01:40:15,926 ♪ Don't forget to look around ♪ 1917 01:40:15,968 --> 01:40:20,681 ♪ It's amazing ♪ 1918 01:40:20,723 --> 01:40:24,518 ♪ Oh, amazing ♪ 1919 01:40:26,270 --> 01:40:28,147 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 1920 01:40:28,188 --> 01:40:30,190 ♪ But tomorrow ♪ 1921 01:40:30,232 --> 01:40:34,111 ♪ Tomorrow's another day ♪ 1922 01:40:34,153 --> 01:40:36,321 ♪ So we get low ♪ 1923 01:40:36,363 --> 01:40:39,199 ♪ Go home, don't fade away ♪ 1924 01:40:39,241 --> 01:40:41,326 ♪ I'm not done, not empty ♪ 1925 01:40:41,368 --> 01:40:44,204 ♪ Got more blood inside of me ♪ 1926 01:40:44,246 --> 01:40:47,499 ♪ Full lungs, inhale deep ♪ 1927 01:40:47,541 --> 01:40:50,169 ♪ Exhale all the chattering ♪ 1928 01:40:50,210 --> 01:40:51,962 ♪ Fighting ♪ 1929 01:40:52,004 --> 01:40:53,172 ♪ Another one ♪ 1930 01:40:53,213 --> 01:40:54,923 ♪ Keep it up ♪ 1931 01:40:54,965 --> 01:40:56,008 ♪ Until it's done ♪ 1932 01:40:56,050 --> 01:40:57,342 ♪ Taking ground ♪ 1933 01:40:57,384 --> 01:40:58,761 ♪ From me ♪ 1934 01:40:58,802 --> 01:41:01,513 ♪ Making sounds and moving my feet ♪ 1935 01:41:01,555 --> 01:41:04,224 ♪ I'm standing on a hill ♪ 1936 01:41:04,266 --> 01:41:06,518 ♪ Looking up, looking down ♪ 1937 01:41:06,560 --> 01:41:09,480 ♪ Wanna remember how it feels ♪ 1938 01:41:09,521 --> 01:41:12,649 ♪ Don't forget to look around ♪ 1939 01:41:12,691 --> 01:41:17,071 ♪ It's amazing ♪ 1940 01:41:18,072 --> 01:41:22,242 ♪ Oh, amazing ♪ 1941 01:41:22,284 --> 01:41:24,787 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 1942 01:41:24,828 --> 01:41:27,039 ♪ But tomorrow ♪ 1943 01:41:27,081 --> 01:41:30,375 ♪ Tomorrow's another day ♪ 1944 01:41:30,417 --> 01:41:32,461 ♪ So we get low ♪ 1945 01:41:32,503 --> 01:41:35,923 ♪ Go home, don't fade away ♪ 1946 01:41:35,964 --> 01:41:38,217 ♪ But tomorrow ♪ 1947 01:41:38,258 --> 01:41:41,804 ♪ Tomorrow's another day ♪ 1948 01:41:41,845 --> 01:41:44,014 ♪ So we get low ♪ 1949 01:41:44,056 --> 01:41:47,601 ♪ Go home, don't fade away ♪ 1950 01:41:58,320 --> 01:42:00,572 ♪ ♪ 1951 01:42:10,874 --> 01:42:12,334 ♪ Tomorrow ♪ 1952 01:42:12,376 --> 01:42:15,921 ♪ Tomorrow's another day ♪ 1953 01:42:15,963 --> 01:42:17,673 ♪ So we get low ♪ 1954 01:42:17,714 --> 01:42:20,884 ♪ Go home, don't fade away ♪ 1955 01:42:20,926 --> 01:42:23,262 ♪ But tomorrow ♪ 1956 01:42:23,303 --> 01:42:30,853 ♪ Tomorrow's another day. ♪