1 00:00:03,400 --> 00:00:05,570 So, I love what Janice 2 00:00:05,570 --> 00:00:08,060 had to say about gratitude. 3 00:00:09,130 --> 00:00:11,790 That's what does it for me. 4 00:00:11,790 --> 00:00:14,060 That's what helps me endure. 5 00:00:14,060 --> 00:00:17,100 And I have so many reasons to be grateful. 6 00:00:17,100 --> 00:00:22,730 Today, I walk through life with a beautiful wife and partner, 7 00:00:22,730 --> 00:00:24,450 a family that loves me 8 00:00:24,450 --> 00:00:27,870 and a job that fills me with a sense of purpose. 9 00:00:27,870 --> 00:00:30,560 And I have all of you. 10 00:00:30,560 --> 00:00:32,810 I still feel like I don't deserve any of it, 11 00:00:32,810 --> 00:00:34,600 but I'm getting better and better 12 00:00:34,600 --> 00:00:37,230 at embracing the good things and letting go, 13 00:00:37,230 --> 00:00:39,400 of the past and that fear. 14 00:00:41,510 --> 00:00:43,580 And for that, I'm grateful. 15 00:00:43,580 --> 00:00:45,580 Thank you all for showing up and for sharing. 16 00:00:47,370 --> 00:00:49,890 I guess that about wraps it up for tonight. 17 00:00:49,890 --> 00:00:52,790 Unless anybody else has a burning desire to share? 18 00:00:52,790 --> 00:00:54,970 I have something I'd like to share. 19 00:00:56,490 --> 00:00:57,830 Great. 20 00:01:05,120 --> 00:01:06,600 My name is Amir. 21 00:01:06,600 --> 00:01:08,290 Hi, Amir. 22 00:01:08,290 --> 00:01:10,020 And I shouldn't be here. 23 00:01:12,190 --> 00:01:13,680 But I am. 24 00:01:14,880 --> 00:01:17,610 Ten years ago, 25 00:01:17,610 --> 00:01:21,990 an apartment fire in Minnesota almost took my life. 26 00:01:23,480 --> 00:01:26,100 And there were times I wish it had. 27 00:01:26,100 --> 00:01:29,970 It did for 148 other people, 28 00:01:29,970 --> 00:01:32,040 including the one I was supposed 29 00:01:32,040 --> 00:01:33,730 to walk through life with. 30 00:01:35,970 --> 00:01:38,290 She never even made it to the hospital. 31 00:01:39,560 --> 00:01:42,290 So now I walk alone. 32 00:01:42,290 --> 00:01:45,980 And the one responsible for the fire, well... 33 00:01:45,980 --> 00:01:47,810 he just walked away. 34 00:01:49,090 --> 00:01:51,090 So I had a choice to make. 35 00:01:52,510 --> 00:01:56,510 I could either nurse my anger and resentment, 36 00:01:56,510 --> 00:01:59,860 or I could nurse other people. 37 00:01:59,860 --> 00:02:02,140 To ease their suffering as a way to ease my own, 38 00:02:02,140 --> 00:02:05,490 so that's what I did, and-and it worked. 39 00:02:05,490 --> 00:02:07,000 It worked for a long time, but you know, 40 00:02:07,000 --> 00:02:11,180 life is such a pitiless thing. 41 00:02:11,180 --> 00:02:13,670 Just when you think you have everything under control, 42 00:02:13,670 --> 00:02:16,810 that you're on the right path, something can happen 43 00:02:16,810 --> 00:02:18,840 something as simple as seeing one person's face, 44 00:02:18,840 --> 00:02:20,190 and then, suddenly, in that instant... 45 00:02:21,570 --> 00:02:24,750 ...everything that you have struggled with, 46 00:02:24,750 --> 00:02:27,820 the loss, the misery, 47 00:02:27,820 --> 00:02:32,030 the fear, the anger, 48 00:02:32,030 --> 00:02:36,380 rages up until it consumes you all over again. 49 00:02:36,380 --> 00:02:38,760 Like a fire. 50 00:02:45,770 --> 00:02:49,120 As firefighters, we all know that, when that bell sounds, 51 00:02:49,120 --> 00:02:50,840 we're called to duty. 52 00:02:50,840 --> 00:02:52,430 And we answer that call. 53 00:02:52,430 --> 00:02:55,330 But Captain Nash, he need not hear that bell 54 00:02:55,330 --> 00:02:57,850 in order to rise to the occasion. 55 00:02:57,850 --> 00:03:01,680 And apparently, he even likes to do it when he's off duty. 56 00:03:01,680 --> 00:03:04,860 - Which is why we're presenting to you 57 00:03:04,860 --> 00:03:07,620 our Honor of Bravery Award in recognition of your bravery 58 00:03:07,620 --> 00:03:10,450 and your dedication both in and out your uniform. 59 00:03:20,870 --> 00:03:23,430 Oh, wow. Thank you. Um... 60 00:03:23,430 --> 00:03:25,050 You know, when you tell people you run 61 00:03:25,050 --> 00:03:26,260 into burning buildings for a living, 62 00:03:26,260 --> 00:03:28,260 they tend to look at you like you're nuts, 63 00:03:28,260 --> 00:03:31,710 which we probably are. 64 00:03:31,710 --> 00:03:34,130 But the thing that we know that they don't 65 00:03:34,130 --> 00:03:36,160 is that living a life of consequence, 66 00:03:36,160 --> 00:03:38,160 a life in service, 67 00:03:38,160 --> 00:03:39,370 is a privilege. 68 00:03:39,370 --> 00:03:42,410 So, yes, I will treasure this. 69 00:03:42,410 --> 00:03:44,240 But I'm gonna treasure tomorrow more 70 00:03:44,240 --> 00:03:46,790 because I get to get back to work. 71 00:03:46,790 --> 00:03:48,490 - Thank you all. 72 00:03:50,940 --> 00:03:52,630 Thank you so much. 73 00:03:58,220 --> 00:03:59,190 Hear, hear. 74 00:03:59,190 --> 00:04:01,260 Whoa. Whoa. 75 00:04:01,260 --> 00:04:03,290 You get any braver, you're gonna run out of room here, Nash. 76 00:04:03,290 --> 00:04:05,680 Well, yeah... Did you hear that, Deputy Chief? 77 00:04:05,680 --> 00:04:07,750 Time to give my husband a raise so he can get us a bigger house. 78 00:04:07,750 --> 00:04:10,090 Oh... Mwah. 79 00:04:10,090 --> 00:04:11,720 Now you know why I married her. 80 00:04:12,960 --> 00:04:14,650 Hey, Tim, how many is that? 81 00:04:14,650 --> 00:04:16,580 And now you know why I'm gonna divorce her. 82 00:04:16,580 --> 00:04:18,450 Hey, Mom, can I go to Jody's? 83 00:04:18,450 --> 00:04:20,280 Shouldn't you have asked me that question 84 00:04:20,280 --> 00:04:22,490 before you put on your coat? 85 00:04:22,490 --> 00:04:24,000 You didn't just roll your eyes at your mother. 86 00:04:24,000 --> 00:04:25,000 It's okay. You can go. 87 00:04:25,000 --> 00:04:26,800 Just, in a minute. 88 00:04:26,800 --> 00:04:28,530 Your youngest son has something he wants to give you. 89 00:04:28,530 --> 00:04:29,840 - Yeah? - Hey, Bobby? 90 00:04:29,840 --> 00:04:31,700 What's that? 91 00:04:31,700 --> 00:04:33,530 - Here, Dad. - Whoa. 92 00:04:33,530 --> 00:04:35,120 For me? 93 00:04:35,120 --> 00:04:37,090 What's this? 94 00:04:42,880 --> 00:04:44,510 Whoa. 95 00:04:45,750 --> 00:04:47,650 This is... 96 00:04:47,650 --> 00:04:49,790 This is really something, Bobby. 97 00:04:49,790 --> 00:04:52,520 You must have worked real hard on this. 98 00:04:52,520 --> 00:04:53,690 He's been taking trips to the library, 99 00:04:53,690 --> 00:04:55,790 using their Xerox machine. 100 00:04:55,790 --> 00:04:56,830 It's got all the people you've saved. 101 00:04:58,210 --> 00:04:59,830 Thank you, son. 102 00:04:59,830 --> 00:05:01,140 Hey, Bobby, maybe you could 103 00:05:01,140 --> 00:05:02,210 make me one of those. 104 00:05:02,210 --> 00:05:03,320 Yeah, you could do it 105 00:05:03,320 --> 00:05:05,490 - on the back of a napkin. 106 00:05:05,490 --> 00:05:07,320 Can I go now? 107 00:05:07,320 --> 00:05:08,840 I thought you already did. 108 00:05:11,090 --> 00:05:12,050 Wow. 109 00:05:12,050 --> 00:05:13,230 Charlie. 110 00:05:13,230 --> 00:05:16,370 - Oh... come on. - Hey. 111 00:05:16,370 --> 00:05:18,230 Hey, Bobby, grab that glass, would you? 112 00:05:18,230 --> 00:05:20,610 There. Okay. There we go. 113 00:05:24,750 --> 00:05:27,000 Know what? 114 00:05:27,000 --> 00:05:28,590 Go ahead. You've earned it. 115 00:05:29,970 --> 00:05:31,550 Just don't tell your mother. 116 00:05:36,660 --> 00:05:38,280 Oh! 117 00:05:38,280 --> 00:05:39,940 - Okay. 118 00:05:43,290 --> 00:05:45,530 - What did you do? 119 00:05:45,530 --> 00:05:46,780 Oh, it's... 120 00:05:46,780 --> 00:05:48,090 Come here, honey. 121 00:05:50,950 --> 00:05:52,400 Family. 122 00:05:52,400 --> 00:05:54,610 That's all that really matters, right? 123 00:05:54,610 --> 00:05:56,100 Right. 124 00:05:57,340 --> 00:05:58,720 Guacamole is done. 125 00:05:58,720 --> 00:06:00,410 Did you add a squeeze of lemon? 126 00:06:00,410 --> 00:06:02,720 Why would I do that? 127 00:06:02,720 --> 00:06:04,280 Keeps it from turning brown. 128 00:06:04,280 --> 00:06:05,730 That's-- - You need the acidity. 129 00:06:05,730 --> 00:06:07,970 - That's a real thing? Mm-hmm. 130 00:06:07,970 --> 00:06:09,870 Why did we let him make the guacamole? 131 00:06:09,870 --> 00:06:11,460 So you could focus on that unfortunate 132 00:06:11,460 --> 00:06:13,250 tree bark situation you got going on there. 133 00:06:13,250 --> 00:06:15,250 - Oh, okay. - Ooh. Shots fired. 134 00:06:15,250 --> 00:06:18,260 Oh, there he is. Just in time. 135 00:06:19,460 --> 00:06:21,120 Hi, Bobby. 136 00:06:21,120 --> 00:06:23,470 - Hey, May. 137 00:06:23,470 --> 00:06:26,300 Wasn't expecting you. What's the occasion? 138 00:06:26,300 --> 00:06:27,710 - Well, I haven't seen you guys in a minute. She ran out of food 139 00:06:27,710 --> 00:06:30,340 - at her place. 140 00:06:30,340 --> 00:06:32,720 All right, sit down, you. 141 00:06:32,720 --> 00:06:34,720 - Ooh, tortillas first. - I think so. 142 00:06:34,720 --> 00:06:37,930 Oh, it's just so good to have the family all together. 143 00:06:37,930 --> 00:06:40,070 All right. We got you. 144 00:07:03,850 --> 00:07:06,610 Oh, did I wake you? 145 00:07:06,610 --> 00:07:08,820 Secret 4:00 a.m. Google searches? 146 00:07:14,800 --> 00:07:16,520 Handsome couple. 147 00:07:16,520 --> 00:07:18,010 Do you know them? 148 00:07:18,010 --> 00:07:19,940 I killed her. 149 00:07:23,420 --> 00:07:24,390 The fire at the apartment building? 150 00:07:24,390 --> 00:07:26,390 She was victim number 57. 151 00:07:26,390 --> 00:07:27,950 She never even made it to the hospital. 152 00:07:27,950 --> 00:07:29,190 Her husband told me that. 153 00:07:29,190 --> 00:07:31,160 - When? - Yesterday. 154 00:07:32,990 --> 00:07:35,330 He, uh... 155 00:07:35,330 --> 00:07:38,160 showed up at my AA meeting. 156 00:07:38,160 --> 00:07:41,060 Where did this man come from? I mean, how did he find you? 157 00:07:41,060 --> 00:07:43,480 Uh, divine intervention, maybe. 158 00:07:43,480 --> 00:07:45,520 I was bringing Catherine Morris's daughter 159 00:07:45,520 --> 00:07:47,310 back to her in the hospital and he was there. 160 00:07:47,310 --> 00:07:48,790 He works in the burn unit. 161 00:07:48,790 --> 00:07:50,800 And he didn't say anything to you then? 162 00:07:50,800 --> 00:07:54,040 I mean, he gave no indication that he recognized you? 163 00:07:54,040 --> 00:07:56,980 - I don't think so. - What was he doing at your AA meeting? 164 00:07:56,980 --> 00:08:00,150 - Was that just a coincidence? - Oh, no. 165 00:08:00,150 --> 00:08:02,220 He came there with a purpose. 166 00:08:02,220 --> 00:08:04,980 He wanted to share his grief and his pain, 167 00:08:04,980 --> 00:08:06,740 and he wanted me to see what I'd done. 168 00:08:09,950 --> 00:08:12,510 - And what did you say to him? - Nothing. 169 00:08:12,510 --> 00:08:15,750 He was talking about what had happened to him, 170 00:08:15,750 --> 00:08:18,550 what I did to him, and I just froze. 171 00:08:18,550 --> 00:08:20,550 I was pinned to my seat, and by the time 172 00:08:20,550 --> 00:08:22,030 I got my bearings back, he was gone. 173 00:08:23,590 --> 00:08:26,210 Okay, well, maybe it's for the best. 174 00:08:26,210 --> 00:08:28,040 I mean, he got to say 175 00:08:28,040 --> 00:08:32,110 whatever it is he needed to, and maybe that's enough. 176 00:08:32,110 --> 00:08:34,530 I don't think it's enough. 177 00:08:34,530 --> 00:08:37,670 When I think about that night, I always count the bodies, 178 00:08:37,670 --> 00:08:41,090 the lives lost, but... 179 00:08:41,090 --> 00:08:44,090 I never counted the survivors. 180 00:08:44,090 --> 00:08:47,060 The people left behind. 181 00:08:47,060 --> 00:08:49,960 You were battling your own grief. 182 00:08:52,130 --> 00:08:53,270 Step nine. 183 00:08:55,650 --> 00:08:59,620 "Make direct amends to such people wherever possible." 184 00:09:01,830 --> 00:09:04,150 I need to make amends. 185 00:09:07,320 --> 00:09:10,500 I am not a patient, I am a Los Angeles City Fire captain. 186 00:09:10,500 --> 00:09:12,400 I'm just trying to get in touch with the man. 187 00:09:12,400 --> 00:09:14,920 Yeah, no, I understand. 188 00:09:14,920 --> 00:09:18,090 I will fill out a formal request, thank you. 189 00:09:18,090 --> 00:09:20,470 Captain Nash? Good to see you. 190 00:09:20,470 --> 00:09:22,790 - Are you visiting a patient? - Camila, hi. 191 00:09:22,790 --> 00:09:26,310 Uh, actually, I was trying to visit a coworker of yours. 192 00:09:26,310 --> 00:09:28,930 - Are you working in the burn unit? - Still working ICU. 193 00:09:28,930 --> 00:09:30,310 We're actually transferring a patient up here. 194 00:09:30,310 --> 00:09:32,730 Our departments have quite a bit of overlap. 195 00:09:32,730 --> 00:09:35,180 - Oh, so you might know Amir. - Oh, God, yes. 196 00:09:35,180 --> 00:09:36,760 Love him. 197 00:09:36,760 --> 00:09:38,110 Wish we had him full-time. 198 00:09:38,110 --> 00:09:39,730 Yeah. Yeah, he's great. It's-- 199 00:09:39,730 --> 00:09:41,940 It feels like he just got here and now he's already gone. 200 00:09:41,940 --> 00:09:43,810 - I know, the life of a travel nurse. - Right. Yeah. 201 00:09:43,810 --> 00:09:45,770 Well, listen, I-I was trying to catch him before he left 202 00:09:45,770 --> 00:09:48,020 but I guess I missed him, and I thought that 203 00:09:48,020 --> 00:09:49,470 the staffing agency might help me get in touch with him-- 204 00:09:49,470 --> 00:09:51,470 Don't take it personally. They're slammed. 205 00:09:51,470 --> 00:09:52,920 Everyone's panicking about a nursing shortage. 206 00:09:52,920 --> 00:09:55,580 They're probably mad at Amir for taking a month off. 207 00:09:56,850 --> 00:09:59,200 Well, I guess everybody needs a vacation, right? 208 00:09:59,200 --> 00:10:00,820 It's not exactly my idea of a vacation. 209 00:10:00,820 --> 00:10:02,830 Jacumba? 210 00:10:02,830 --> 00:10:04,000 What's there? 211 00:10:04,000 --> 00:10:05,660 A migrant encampment. 212 00:10:05,660 --> 00:10:08,760 Apparently, Amir volunteers with a group a couple weeks a year 213 00:10:08,760 --> 00:10:10,210 that provides food and medical assistance. 214 00:10:10,210 --> 00:10:12,110 Okay, so, that's where he is. 215 00:10:12,110 --> 00:10:14,040 You said that you want to make amends to him, 216 00:10:14,040 --> 00:10:15,800 and I understand that, but surely this can wait 217 00:10:15,800 --> 00:10:17,630 until he comes back. 218 00:10:17,630 --> 00:10:19,360 It's been over ten years. I think he's waited long enough. 219 00:10:22,670 --> 00:10:24,540 I will call you from the road. 220 00:10:24,540 --> 00:10:25,680 I love you. 221 00:10:25,680 --> 00:10:27,680 I love you, too. 222 00:10:31,030 --> 00:10:34,790 But you're not the same man you were ten years ago. 223 00:10:34,790 --> 00:10:36,580 I don't think that matters to him. 224 00:10:36,580 --> 00:10:39,140 I need that to matter to you. 225 00:10:39,140 --> 00:10:40,100 I love you. 226 00:11:05,370 --> 00:11:07,510 - You got supplies in that truck? - No, I'm here 227 00:11:07,510 --> 00:11:08,750 looking for Amir Casey. He's a volunteer. 228 00:11:08,750 --> 00:11:09,930 Who's asking? 229 00:11:09,930 --> 00:11:12,860 - My name's Bobby. You a cop? 230 00:11:12,860 --> 00:11:14,240 You look like a cop. 231 00:11:14,240 --> 00:11:17,210 No, I am a firefighter, 232 00:11:17,210 --> 00:11:19,760 but I am not here in an official capacity. 233 00:11:21,660 --> 00:11:23,390 Why are you looking for Amir? 234 00:11:23,390 --> 00:11:25,220 It's a personal matter. I just need to speak with him. 235 00:11:25,220 --> 00:11:26,290 He was here about two hours ago 236 00:11:26,290 --> 00:11:28,080 when he brought in that last group. 237 00:11:28,080 --> 00:11:30,460 That was his third trip today already. 238 00:11:30,460 --> 00:11:32,950 - Do you know when he might be back? - No idea. 239 00:11:32,950 --> 00:11:34,780 Someone told him there was a pregnant woman out there 240 00:11:34,780 --> 00:11:36,570 with her husband, so he's gone out to look for them. 241 00:11:36,570 --> 00:11:38,060 - Okay. Need a hand here! 242 00:11:43,790 --> 00:11:45,240 Where did you find them? 243 00:11:45,240 --> 00:11:47,070 On the marker 12 service road. 244 00:11:47,070 --> 00:11:48,650 - Amir's not with you? - No, I haven't heard from him. 245 00:11:48,650 --> 00:11:49,900 And I tried to call him on the radio. 246 00:11:49,900 --> 00:11:52,760 Can you ask her if she's having any contractions? 247 00:11:56,940 --> 00:11:58,560 No pain, but she's dizzy, 248 00:11:58,560 --> 00:12:00,220 - and the baby's kicking. Okay, that's good. 249 00:12:00,220 --> 00:12:02,500 She's got a strong pulse, but she's dehydrated. 250 00:12:02,500 --> 00:12:03,770 Can we get her on an IV drip? 251 00:12:03,770 --> 00:12:04,880 We're not that kind of operation, 252 00:12:04,880 --> 00:12:06,120 but we've got a shuttle 253 00:12:06,120 --> 00:12:07,260 making runs to a local clinic. 254 00:12:07,260 --> 00:12:08,400 Okay, let's get her on that. 255 00:12:08,400 --> 00:12:09,570 In the meantime, let's get her some water, 256 00:12:09,570 --> 00:12:11,260 all right? Ah. Thank you very much. 257 00:12:11,260 --> 00:12:12,510 Here you go. 258 00:12:12,510 --> 00:12:13,750 Gracias. 259 00:12:13,750 --> 00:12:15,790 All right, let me check on him. 260 00:12:15,790 --> 00:12:18,440 Oh. 261 00:12:18,440 --> 00:12:21,790 You do not look like somebody who's been in the sun all day. 262 00:12:22,830 --> 00:12:24,760 No, no, no. No bien. 263 00:12:24,760 --> 00:12:27,310 What do you got going on here? Can I take a look? Okay? 264 00:12:27,310 --> 00:12:29,110 All right. 265 00:12:37,080 --> 00:12:39,500 They forced her to walk alone, 266 00:12:39,500 --> 00:12:40,710 so he jumped off a moving truck to be with her. 267 00:12:40,710 --> 00:12:42,780 All right, well, I love the sentiment, Luis, 268 00:12:42,780 --> 00:12:45,090 but this wound is infected. We gotta clean it out. 269 00:12:45,090 --> 00:12:46,710 There's hydrogen peroxide in here. 270 00:12:46,710 --> 00:12:48,540 That might damage the tissue. We need a water. 271 00:12:48,540 --> 00:12:49,850 Can I get another one of those waters? 272 00:12:53,370 --> 00:12:54,820 All right. 273 00:12:56,170 --> 00:12:57,170 I am gonna need some gauze, 274 00:12:57,170 --> 00:12:59,280 and I'm gonna need some tape. 275 00:12:59,280 --> 00:13:00,690 What truck did he jump off of? 276 00:13:00,690 --> 00:13:02,180 - Coyotes? - Yes. 277 00:13:02,180 --> 00:13:03,450 They make a deal to get across, 278 00:13:03,450 --> 00:13:05,320 but once they get here, the deal changes. 279 00:13:05,320 --> 00:13:06,320 - Upcharge? - Correct. 280 00:13:06,320 --> 00:13:08,560 These coyotes are all cartel now. 281 00:13:08,560 --> 00:13:09,940 They double, triple the price. 282 00:13:09,940 --> 00:13:12,880 If they can't deliver, they force them to walk. 283 00:13:12,880 --> 00:13:14,330 Teach 'em a lesson. Then they come back 284 00:13:14,330 --> 00:13:15,500 to threaten them again. 285 00:13:15,500 --> 00:13:16,810 Unless you guys get to them first. 286 00:13:16,810 --> 00:13:18,020 You're catching on. 287 00:13:18,020 --> 00:13:19,750 Those coyotes must love you. 288 00:13:19,750 --> 00:13:21,750 Well, between the cartel and the local ranchers, 289 00:13:21,750 --> 00:13:23,580 I don't think we've made many friends. 290 00:13:24,580 --> 00:13:25,580 Last one. 291 00:13:28,510 --> 00:13:30,900 All right, Luis, you stay with me, okay? 292 00:13:30,900 --> 00:13:32,520 Let's get off this truck. 293 00:13:32,520 --> 00:13:34,000 He's on the brink of sepsis. 294 00:13:34,000 --> 00:13:35,970 If this infection spreads into his bloodstream, 295 00:13:35,970 --> 00:13:37,320 it's not gonna end well. 296 00:13:37,320 --> 00:13:38,730 How close is that shuttle? 297 00:13:38,730 --> 00:13:40,490 - About ten minutes out. - All right, well, 298 00:13:40,490 --> 00:13:41,870 if you can, tell 'em to step on it. 299 00:13:41,870 --> 00:13:42,980 Can you guys get him out of the sun? 300 00:13:42,980 --> 00:13:44,810 All right. Her, too? 301 00:13:46,050 --> 00:13:48,050 Do you know which one of these roads Amir travels? 302 00:13:48,050 --> 00:13:50,220 I do, but you'd be crazy to go out there on your own. 303 00:13:50,220 --> 00:13:52,230 And I don't have anyone to send with you. 304 00:13:52,230 --> 00:13:54,570 - Oh, Amir's out there on his own. - He knows the terrain. 305 00:13:54,570 --> 00:13:55,710 And he's a little crazy. 306 00:13:58,650 --> 00:13:59,890 I'll write you the directions. 307 00:13:59,890 --> 00:14:01,890 Thank you. 308 00:14:20,290 --> 00:14:21,080 It's 8:00 a.m. on a Sunday, 309 00:14:21,080 --> 00:14:22,530 and you're already sloppy drunk. 310 00:14:22,530 --> 00:14:23,460 Just a little hair of the dog. 311 00:14:23,460 --> 00:14:24,570 This is why we're leaving, Tim. 312 00:14:24,570 --> 00:14:25,810 You've gone too far. 313 00:14:25,810 --> 00:14:27,050 Hey, I wouldn't go in there. 314 00:14:27,050 --> 00:14:28,060 I am worried about the boys-- 315 00:14:28,060 --> 00:14:29,230 God on a wheel, Ann. 316 00:14:29,230 --> 00:14:30,580 That was weeks ago. 317 00:14:30,580 --> 00:14:32,200 And it was one drink, okay? 318 00:14:32,200 --> 00:14:33,960 You know, when I was his age, 319 00:14:33,960 --> 00:14:36,820 I was stealing cases of 3.2 out of the back of the Red Owl. 320 00:14:36,820 --> 00:14:38,720 Why do you tell that story like it's supposed to be funny? 321 00:14:38,720 --> 00:14:40,720 - Because it is funny. - It's not funny! 322 00:14:40,720 --> 00:14:41,790 - No it's-- - You just don't have a sense of humor! 323 00:14:41,790 --> 00:14:42,550 What's happening? 324 00:14:42,550 --> 00:14:44,280 Hey, bud. 325 00:14:44,280 --> 00:14:45,590 - Bobby, where's your book bag? - Buddy. 326 00:14:45,590 --> 00:14:47,140 Bobby, go grab it and get 327 00:14:47,140 --> 00:14:48,110 - in the car right now. No, you're good. 328 00:14:48,110 --> 00:14:49,630 We're going somewhere? 329 00:14:49,630 --> 00:14:51,320 We're going to stay at your Aunt Kitty's. 330 00:14:51,320 --> 00:14:53,050 No, you can go stay with Aunt Kitty. 331 00:14:53,050 --> 00:14:54,980 You're not gonna take my boys. 332 00:14:54,980 --> 00:14:57,330 'Cause them? They're mine. 333 00:14:57,330 --> 00:14:59,260 My legacy. 334 00:14:59,260 --> 00:15:01,300 - And you're not gonna take them. Whoa. - Dad. Stop. 335 00:15:01,300 --> 00:15:03,610 - This isn't helping. - That is exactly the problem. - Oh. 336 00:15:03,610 --> 00:15:05,850 - I don't want them following in your footsteps. - Big man. Yeah. 337 00:15:05,850 --> 00:15:06,990 First to the bottle. Then probably 338 00:15:06,990 --> 00:15:08,750 - to an early grave. Bobby. Oh, yeah? 339 00:15:08,750 --> 00:15:09,680 - Get your bag and get in the car. No. 340 00:15:09,680 --> 00:15:11,000 I want to stay with Dad. 341 00:15:11,000 --> 00:15:13,100 Bobby, stop being an idiot and get in the car. 342 00:15:13,100 --> 00:15:14,830 Why are you always so mean to Dad? 343 00:15:14,830 --> 00:15:17,140 - That is an excellent question, young man. - Sweetheart, 344 00:15:17,140 --> 00:15:19,240 I know this is really hard to understand. You love your dad. 345 00:15:19,240 --> 00:15:20,310 He's a hero! 346 00:15:20,310 --> 00:15:21,760 You stick your nose any further 347 00:15:21,760 --> 00:15:23,110 - up Dad's ass, you're not-- - Charlie! 348 00:15:23,110 --> 00:15:24,840 - What?! - Just don't. 349 00:15:24,840 --> 00:15:26,530 It's not like he's gonna remember tomorrow. 350 00:15:26,530 --> 00:15:27,870 He's too drunk. 351 00:15:29,250 --> 00:15:32,020 - Show some respect. 352 00:15:32,020 --> 00:15:33,600 - You first, Dad. Oh, yeah? 353 00:15:33,600 --> 00:15:35,120 - What are you gonna do, big guy? - Tim! 354 00:15:35,120 --> 00:15:36,500 - Charlie, stop! 355 00:15:36,500 --> 00:15:38,330 That's my son! - Charlie, stop! 356 00:15:38,330 --> 00:15:39,820 Tell Mom that you don't want to go, either. 357 00:15:39,820 --> 00:15:41,470 If we both stay, 358 00:15:41,470 --> 00:15:43,300 - maybe she will, too. - You saw what 359 00:15:43,300 --> 00:15:44,930 he just did to me, and you still want me to stay? 360 00:15:46,060 --> 00:15:48,030 Come with us. 361 00:15:48,030 --> 00:15:50,140 Dad needs me. 362 00:16:30,760 --> 00:16:32,110 Hey. 363 00:18:49,350 --> 00:18:51,530 - Drop the tire iron. 364 00:18:55,220 --> 00:18:57,190 Amir... 365 00:18:57,190 --> 00:18:59,220 it's Bobby Nash. 366 00:19:00,950 --> 00:19:02,330 Nash? 367 00:19:05,130 --> 00:19:06,680 What the hell are you doing here? 368 00:19:06,680 --> 00:19:08,680 I'm looking for you. What happened? 369 00:19:08,680 --> 00:19:11,130 - I got shot. - Sit down. 370 00:19:13,060 --> 00:19:14,580 Come on, sit down. 371 00:19:18,210 --> 00:19:20,110 All right. 372 00:19:20,110 --> 00:19:23,320 - Get this off. 373 00:19:23,320 --> 00:19:25,590 - All right. - Whew. 374 00:19:25,590 --> 00:19:27,490 Bullet fragment is still in there. 375 00:19:27,490 --> 00:19:29,250 All right, we're gonna need to clean this out, 376 00:19:29,250 --> 00:19:30,220 make some kind of pressure dressing 377 00:19:30,220 --> 00:19:31,570 before we do anything else. 378 00:19:31,570 --> 00:19:32,840 Infection could set in real quick out here. 379 00:19:32,840 --> 00:19:34,530 Yeah. I'm aware. 380 00:19:34,530 --> 00:19:36,430 I'm a medical professional, remember? 381 00:19:36,430 --> 00:19:40,200 Was having a hard time doing it myself. 382 00:19:40,200 --> 00:19:42,060 Well, now you don't have to. 383 00:19:48,060 --> 00:19:50,690 The couple you were looking for here-- they made it back 384 00:19:50,690 --> 00:19:52,240 to your group staging area. 385 00:19:52,240 --> 00:19:53,520 I think they're gonna be fine. 386 00:19:53,520 --> 00:19:56,690 - I want you to tell me what happened. 387 00:19:56,690 --> 00:19:59,460 Seems like you already know what happened here. 388 00:19:59,460 --> 00:20:01,290 I was out here looking for that couple. 389 00:20:01,290 --> 00:20:03,290 I was checking out the structures, 390 00:20:03,290 --> 00:20:04,810 leaving supplies. I heard a truck pull up. 391 00:20:04,810 --> 00:20:06,530 I went outside. 392 00:20:06,530 --> 00:20:10,160 I saw my vehicle was being firebombed. 393 00:20:10,160 --> 00:20:11,710 I'm guessing you had something to say about that. 394 00:20:11,710 --> 00:20:13,400 I certainly did. I got to him 395 00:20:13,400 --> 00:20:17,440 before he pulled his gun... almost. 396 00:20:17,440 --> 00:20:20,240 Got him pretty good, though, but he was able to drive off. 397 00:20:22,550 --> 00:20:24,890 All right, I'm gonna need you to lean forward. 398 00:20:24,890 --> 00:20:28,100 - Hang in there. 399 00:20:28,100 --> 00:20:30,450 That guy that shot you? 400 00:20:30,450 --> 00:20:32,630 Yeah? - He didn't get very far. 401 00:20:32,630 --> 00:20:35,180 I saw him about a mile back. 402 00:20:35,180 --> 00:20:36,870 He's dead. 403 00:20:39,460 --> 00:20:42,910 All right. That is about as good as we're gonna do 404 00:20:42,910 --> 00:20:44,190 until we get you to a hospital. 405 00:20:44,190 --> 00:20:45,470 Let's go. 406 00:20:48,020 --> 00:20:49,820 - Come on. - I got it. 407 00:20:57,440 --> 00:21:00,070 Looks like we're not going anywhere. 408 00:21:11,560 --> 00:21:12,840 Edwin. 409 00:21:57,610 --> 00:21:59,200 What is for dinner? 410 00:21:59,200 --> 00:22:00,580 Salisbury steak? 411 00:22:00,580 --> 00:22:02,680 Fish and chips. 412 00:22:02,680 --> 00:22:04,680 Oh. 413 00:22:04,680 --> 00:22:06,380 I thought you liked fish and chips. 414 00:22:06,380 --> 00:22:08,070 - I do. 415 00:22:08,070 --> 00:22:09,480 I'm just gonna miss that brownie. 416 00:22:09,480 --> 00:22:11,660 I got us cookie dough. 417 00:22:11,660 --> 00:22:13,490 Nobody likes that watery cobbler. 418 00:22:13,490 --> 00:22:15,110 Oh, you. 419 00:22:15,110 --> 00:22:16,560 - You're a good man. 420 00:22:16,560 --> 00:22:18,080 Let's eat. 421 00:22:23,530 --> 00:22:24,670 Yes. 422 00:22:24,670 --> 00:22:26,120 Thank you. 423 00:22:26,120 --> 00:22:27,880 - Ah... - Mom called. 424 00:22:29,710 --> 00:22:31,190 She wanted to talk to you. 425 00:22:31,190 --> 00:22:33,610 Did you tell her I was working? 426 00:22:33,610 --> 00:22:35,230 She'd already called the firehouse looking for you. 427 00:22:35,230 --> 00:22:36,960 They told her you were sick. 428 00:22:36,960 --> 00:22:38,680 Why would they tell her something like that? 429 00:22:38,680 --> 00:22:41,270 I guess you were supposed to be on shift. 430 00:22:43,650 --> 00:22:45,590 Oh, damn it. 431 00:22:47,450 --> 00:22:49,800 It's not Monday, is it? 432 00:22:49,800 --> 00:22:52,250 Tuesday. I told them you were sick. 433 00:22:55,180 --> 00:22:56,670 Oh. 434 00:23:03,740 --> 00:23:05,120 Sorry, kid. 435 00:23:05,120 --> 00:23:06,780 It's okay, Dad. 436 00:23:16,200 --> 00:23:19,000 All right. They're finally leaving. 437 00:23:19,000 --> 00:23:21,210 They firebombing your vehicle or just stealing it? 438 00:23:22,690 --> 00:23:24,800 - Just stealing it. 439 00:23:30,490 --> 00:23:32,740 What are you doing out here, Nash? 440 00:23:35,360 --> 00:23:37,640 I told you, I was looking for you. 441 00:23:37,640 --> 00:23:39,120 Why? 442 00:23:44,720 --> 00:23:47,860 The ninth step, I owe you an amends. 443 00:23:47,860 --> 00:23:49,930 So you followed me out here to the desert? 444 00:23:49,930 --> 00:23:51,310 Yeah. 445 00:23:51,310 --> 00:23:52,650 You think that earns you something? 446 00:23:54,350 --> 00:23:56,870 No, I just needed you to know I heard everything you said. 447 00:23:56,870 --> 00:23:58,490 Thank you. 448 00:23:58,490 --> 00:24:00,140 I feel seen. 449 00:24:01,660 --> 00:24:03,490 Of course, I always feel seen. 450 00:24:03,490 --> 00:24:07,010 Mostly because people are always staring at me. 451 00:24:07,010 --> 00:24:09,050 I know that there is nothing I can say 452 00:24:09,050 --> 00:24:10,190 to make up for what happened. 453 00:24:10,190 --> 00:24:11,290 Stop! 454 00:24:11,290 --> 00:24:14,570 Let me be real clear, Captain. 455 00:24:16,850 --> 00:24:19,200 I don't need anything from you. 456 00:24:21,270 --> 00:24:22,480 I know you think I came to that meeting 457 00:24:22,480 --> 00:24:25,130 to call you out. 458 00:24:25,130 --> 00:24:26,170 I didn't. 459 00:24:27,650 --> 00:24:29,000 I was sizing you up. 460 00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:31,040 I wanted to understand 461 00:24:31,040 --> 00:24:33,800 how someone who was responsible for so much loss, 462 00:24:33,800 --> 00:24:35,040 so much pain, 463 00:24:35,040 --> 00:24:37,220 was able to carry on. 464 00:24:39,420 --> 00:24:40,770 Pretty damn easy, it seems. 465 00:24:44,080 --> 00:24:45,570 That's not actually true. 466 00:24:45,570 --> 00:24:46,810 No? 467 00:24:46,810 --> 00:24:49,120 I heard everything you said, too, Bobby. 468 00:24:50,780 --> 00:24:52,580 Talking about how blessed you've been. 469 00:24:54,610 --> 00:24:56,510 That's why I stood up. 470 00:24:56,510 --> 00:24:59,650 I felt that required an answer. 471 00:24:59,650 --> 00:25:01,520 I get that. 472 00:25:01,520 --> 00:25:03,310 Good. Now get this. 473 00:25:04,690 --> 00:25:06,900 You can keep your amends. 474 00:25:06,900 --> 00:25:10,250 I didn't ask for it. 475 00:25:10,250 --> 00:25:13,110 And doesn't mean a damn thing to me. 476 00:25:23,640 --> 00:25:26,090 There's a service road about eight miles west. 477 00:25:27,920 --> 00:25:29,680 The cartels don't really use it. 478 00:25:29,680 --> 00:25:31,200 The locals do. 479 00:25:31,200 --> 00:25:33,690 About two miles past there is the highway. 480 00:25:33,690 --> 00:25:35,380 You get that far, 481 00:25:35,380 --> 00:25:37,140 someone will be sure to pick you up. 482 00:25:38,590 --> 00:25:40,590 What am I supposed to do, just leave you here? 483 00:25:40,590 --> 00:25:42,700 You didn't kill the man, I did. 484 00:25:42,700 --> 00:25:45,010 - You didn't have a choice. - I didn't say I did. 485 00:25:46,250 --> 00:25:47,460 Okay. 486 00:25:53,500 --> 00:25:55,640 You need to get up, and we need to walk. 487 00:25:55,640 --> 00:25:59,260 Honestly... 488 00:25:59,260 --> 00:26:02,230 I don't think I can, Nash. 489 00:26:02,230 --> 00:26:04,960 This infection is already starting to set in. 490 00:26:10,520 --> 00:26:12,170 Then will you let me help you up? 491 00:26:17,560 --> 00:26:19,080 I mean, I don't know what's worse, 492 00:26:19,080 --> 00:26:21,010 dying out here in the shade, 493 00:26:21,010 --> 00:26:23,110 or letting your ass save me? 494 00:26:23,110 --> 00:26:24,460 Well, given where things are at, 495 00:26:24,460 --> 00:26:26,950 there's a pretty good chance I'll fail. 496 00:26:26,950 --> 00:26:29,220 Yeah, now you're just trying to cheer me up. 497 00:26:34,230 --> 00:26:35,850 Come on. 498 00:26:39,790 --> 00:26:41,240 Let's walk. 499 00:26:59,430 --> 00:27:01,810 - Dad, Dad, wake up! Ah, let me try. 500 00:27:03,400 --> 00:27:05,570 - That usually does the trick. 501 00:27:05,570 --> 00:27:07,880 Phil? 502 00:27:07,880 --> 00:27:10,020 What are you doing here? 503 00:27:15,240 --> 00:27:16,820 - Looks like 504 00:27:16,820 --> 00:27:18,240 someone was trying to make cookies using the broiler. 505 00:27:23,110 --> 00:27:25,000 I-I'm sorry, Dad. 506 00:27:25,000 --> 00:27:26,830 You're probably gonna need a new stove. 507 00:27:26,830 --> 00:27:29,010 I think the rest is just paint and some elbow grease. 508 00:27:29,010 --> 00:27:30,320 I-I'll clean it up. 509 00:27:30,320 --> 00:27:32,320 - I promise. - Bet your ass you will. 510 00:27:32,320 --> 00:27:33,430 Hey, it's not the kid's fault 511 00:27:33,430 --> 00:27:35,220 there's no fire extinguisher in here. 512 00:27:35,220 --> 00:27:36,880 No, that would be his mother's fault. 513 00:27:36,880 --> 00:27:38,880 She always hated the looks of it, 514 00:27:38,880 --> 00:27:40,540 so I keep it on the back porch. 515 00:27:40,540 --> 00:27:41,990 So, she gets a new kitchen out of it. 516 00:27:41,990 --> 00:27:42,880 That should bring her back. 517 00:27:44,610 --> 00:27:45,780 You done here? 518 00:27:47,130 --> 00:27:48,890 Yeah, we're done. 519 00:28:01,140 --> 00:28:03,730 I-I can fix this. 520 00:28:06,080 --> 00:28:09,050 Do you know what happens when you call 911? 521 00:28:09,050 --> 00:28:10,740 They keep a record of it. 522 00:28:10,740 --> 00:28:12,740 How do you think that's gonna look? Hmm? 523 00:28:12,740 --> 00:28:14,740 - I-I'm sorry. - If I get fired, 524 00:28:14,740 --> 00:28:16,230 it's your fault. 525 00:28:19,470 --> 00:28:21,750 I don't even want to look at you right now. 526 00:28:21,750 --> 00:28:23,410 You should've gone with your mother. 527 00:28:55,340 --> 00:28:56,510 Get up. 528 00:28:57,820 --> 00:28:59,750 - This is it, I'm done. - You're not done. 529 00:29:01,100 --> 00:29:03,070 Come on, I think I see a road up ahead. 530 00:29:03,070 --> 00:29:05,450 Yeah, man, you thought that two miles back. 531 00:29:05,450 --> 00:29:08,660 Hey, you have to get up, we have to keep moving. 532 00:29:08,660 --> 00:29:11,770 Look, you know as well as I do, every step I take 533 00:29:11,770 --> 00:29:15,220 just pushes this infection deeper in my system. 534 00:29:20,640 --> 00:29:21,810 Get up. 535 00:29:23,540 --> 00:29:24,990 - Come on. 536 00:29:24,990 --> 00:29:27,370 All right, all right. 537 00:29:27,370 --> 00:29:29,020 - Come on. 538 00:29:41,310 --> 00:29:43,000 See? I told you there was a road. 539 00:29:43,000 --> 00:29:44,800 Come on. 540 00:29:44,800 --> 00:29:46,840 We got it. 541 00:29:46,840 --> 00:29:48,150 Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey! 542 00:29:48,150 --> 00:29:50,150 Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop! 543 00:29:50,150 --> 00:29:51,980 Stop! Come on, he's stopping, he's stopping. 544 00:29:57,050 --> 00:29:58,810 What the hell are you doing out here? 545 00:29:58,810 --> 00:30:00,020 We're a little lost. 546 00:30:00,020 --> 00:30:01,750 I'll say you are, too. 547 00:30:01,750 --> 00:30:03,300 What are you? Relief workers? 548 00:30:03,300 --> 00:30:06,030 That's about all we got out here. 549 00:30:06,030 --> 00:30:08,720 Cartel, migrants and relief workers. 550 00:30:08,720 --> 00:30:11,580 And a few old stubborn ranchers