1 00:00:17,784 --> 00:00:22,255 What do you do when your friends think you’re the boy who cried wolf? 2 00:00:28,562 --> 00:00:33,566 Matt Kellner had gone missing in the dead of night sometime in September of 1981. 3 00:00:36,670 --> 00:00:41,107 But oddly, no one in my social circle was that concerned about it. 4 00:00:42,776 --> 00:00:46,580 Looking back, I realize that’s the gift of youth. 5 00:00:47,548 --> 00:00:49,649 You think you’ll live forever. 6 00:00:49,650 --> 00:00:52,786 I bet Matt moved to Big Sur to deal drugs, get out of the LA rat race. 7 00:00:52,787 --> 00:00:54,653 I agree. 8 00:00:54,654 --> 00:00:56,388 I mean, who wouldn’t? I hear the Esalen Institute’s amazing. 9 00:00:56,389 --> 00:00:58,125 What? 10 00:00:58,325 --> 00:01:00,369 That’s lunacy. What about the blood-stained backpack they found? 11 00:01:00,393 --> 00:01:04,965 Hon, I love you, but why are you so drawn to worst-case scenarios? 12 00:01:05,131 --> 00:01:06,766 You didn’t even know him. 13 00:01:06,767 --> 00:01:09,302 Don’t mourn a death that hasn’t officially happened. 14 00:01:09,569 --> 00:01:12,739 -Can we talk about happier things? -Please. I need a cig. 15 00:01:15,275 --> 00:01:20,347 But then came October 1st, the so-called first day of spooky season. 16 00:01:23,650 --> 00:01:28,388 October 1st was officially The Day the Fun Died. 17 00:01:31,324 --> 00:01:34,861 Because that’s the day The Trawler got Really Rhonda. 18 00:01:47,807 --> 00:01:51,245 Really Rhonda was in our class, and everyone loved her. 19 00:01:51,778 --> 00:01:53,980 Everyone thought she was hilarious. 20 00:01:53,981 --> 00:01:57,783 Her father was a big ICM agent who represented Sally Kellerman. 21 00:01:57,784 --> 00:01:59,719 He paid the school a handsome fee every year 22 00:01:59,720 --> 00:02:01,922 to assure that Rhonda would be assimilated 23 00:02:02,088 --> 00:02:06,092 and not locked away in the dungeon that was a special needs class. 24 00:02:09,429 --> 00:02:13,466 If X and B are both positive real numbers... 25 00:02:13,567 --> 00:02:15,335 Today we would understand 26 00:02:15,336 --> 00:02:17,938 that Rhonda suffered from a neurological condition, 27 00:02:18,104 --> 00:02:21,541 but back then we just thought she was darkly and convulsively... 28 00:02:24,544 --> 00:02:26,180 Impulsive. 29 00:02:26,313 --> 00:02:28,315 Rhonda, please stop it. 30 00:02:28,682 --> 00:02:30,817 I wanna fuck Chewbacca, motherfucker. 31 00:02:30,818 --> 00:02:32,818 And a real truth teller. 32 00:02:33,019 --> 00:02:36,389 -Rhonda, do you want detention? -Um... 33 00:02:39,226 --> 00:02:41,394 George Washington sucks cocks in hell, motherfucker! 34 00:02:41,395 --> 00:02:43,663 Suck it, lick it, fucking ass-face! Fuck. 35 00:02:43,664 --> 00:02:47,568 Really, Rhonda? Really? 36 00:02:49,035 --> 00:02:52,339 And from that moment on, that’s what we all called her. 37 00:02:53,907 --> 00:02:55,408 Really Rhonda. 38 00:03:05,585 --> 00:03:08,388 I always felt an affection for Rhonda. 39 00:03:10,023 --> 00:03:11,724 Because during one of her outbursts, 40 00:03:11,725 --> 00:03:14,160 she could have easily told the truth about me, 41 00:03:14,161 --> 00:03:16,730 called me a fag or a gayface, 42 00:03:17,297 --> 00:03:18,598 but she was kind to me. 43 00:03:19,332 --> 00:03:22,736 I felt she purposely edited out my secret truth. 44 00:03:24,337 --> 00:03:29,309 Protected me somehow from the pubescent cruelty of the other kids. 45 00:03:39,386 --> 00:03:41,487 My favorite thing about Rhonda 46 00:03:41,488 --> 00:03:46,426 was that she would not get off the disco roller trend long after it was over. 47 00:03:46,893 --> 00:03:49,797 She just didn’t care what people thought about her. 48 00:03:50,698 --> 00:03:53,133 Can you imagine the gift of that? 49 00:03:53,333 --> 00:03:57,437 Really Rhonda is such a good skater. She’s even better than Cher. 50 00:04:29,202 --> 00:04:32,005 Disco roller skating is important to this tale, 51 00:04:32,439 --> 00:04:35,142 because that’s what she was doing when she was taken. 52 00:04:38,545 --> 00:04:43,684 There was only one disco roller derby place left in town in 1981. 53 00:04:44,218 --> 00:04:48,022 And Rhonda was the only patron at Wheels that night of October 1st. 54 00:04:48,756 --> 00:04:52,025 The Trawler knew that, the loneliness of the place. 55 00:04:53,426 --> 00:04:57,864 And on that night, he snatched Really Rhonda from her happy place. 56 00:04:58,031 --> 00:05:00,033 ♪ ♪ Young teacher ♪ 57 00:05:00,200 --> 00:05:01,767 And out of all of our lives. 58 00:05:01,768 --> 00:05:03,404 ♪ ♪ The subject of Schoolgirl fantasy ♪ 59 00:05:03,537 --> 00:05:07,273 ♪ ♪ She wants him so badly ♪ 60 00:05:07,274 --> 00:05:10,277 ♪ ♪ Knows what she wants to be ♪ 61 00:05:11,011 --> 00:05:14,313 ♪ ♪ Inside her, there’s longing ♪ 62 00:05:14,314 --> 00:05:17,483 ♪ ♪ This girl’s an open page ♪ 63 00:05:17,484 --> 00:05:20,987 ♪ ♪ Bookmarking, She’s so close now ♪ 64 00:05:21,121 --> 00:05:23,891 ♪ ♪ This girl is half his age ♪ 65 00:05:24,558 --> 00:05:27,794 ♪ ♪ Don’t stand, don’t stand so ♪ 66 00:05:27,795 --> 00:05:30,797 ♪ ♪ Don’t stand so close to me ♪ 67 00:05:31,431 --> 00:05:34,534 ♪ ♪ Don’t stand, don’t stand so ♪ 68 00:05:34,535 --> 00:05:38,238 ♪ ♪ Don’t stand so close to me ♪ 69 00:05:39,973 --> 00:05:43,009 ♪ ♪ Her friends are so jealous ♪ 70 00:05:43,143 --> 00:05:46,046 ♪ ♪ You know how bad girls get ♪ 71 00:05:46,613 --> 00:05:50,182 ♪ ♪ Sometimes it’s not so easy ♪ 72 00:05:50,183 --> 00:05:53,219 ♪ ♪ To be the teacher’s pet ♪ 73 00:05:53,220 --> 00:05:54,720 ♪ ♪ Temptation... ♪ 74 00:05:54,721 --> 00:05:56,523 When Rhonda missed her curfew... 75 00:05:56,656 --> 00:05:59,726 ♪ ♪ So bad it makes him cry ♪ 76 00:06:00,026 --> 00:06:02,263 her parents reported her missing. 77 00:06:08,969 --> 00:06:12,238 The police immediately checked out the scene at Wheels. 78 00:06:12,239 --> 00:06:14,040 -I’ll check around back. -Got it. 79 00:06:17,010 --> 00:06:19,045 And that’s when they found bloodstains. 80 00:06:19,246 --> 00:06:20,613 Over here. 81 00:06:20,614 --> 00:06:22,649 Telltale clues of a violent struggle. 82 00:06:24,317 --> 00:06:26,953 I went to the scene of the crime the next day, 83 00:06:26,954 --> 00:06:29,156 oddly, instinctively. 84 00:06:29,689 --> 00:06:33,693 The place Rhonda had joyously twirled the night before was deserted. 85 00:06:34,027 --> 00:06:40,066 The rotating disco ball, once a symbol of joy, seemed sad to me, mournful. 86 00:06:40,534 --> 00:06:44,037 Slowly twirling like a flag at half-mast 87 00:06:44,204 --> 00:06:49,042 to announce all the ends of things that 1981 had taken from us. 88 00:06:50,510 --> 00:06:51,612 Matt. 89 00:06:52,112 --> 00:06:53,380 Roller disco. 90 00:06:54,214 --> 00:06:55,482 Really Rhonda. 91 00:06:57,417 --> 00:06:59,319 And our sense of security. 92 00:07:53,407 --> 00:07:55,675 Please, please. 93 00:07:55,676 --> 00:07:57,643 Please, please, help me. 94 00:08:22,402 --> 00:08:23,904 Eat it. 95 00:08:39,252 --> 00:08:42,422 It took about three days for everything to go back to normal, 96 00:08:43,056 --> 00:08:45,325 and for everyone to forget about Matt 97 00:08:46,426 --> 00:08:47,426 and Rhonda. 98 00:09:01,208 --> 00:09:03,075 Oh, my God. 99 00:09:03,076 --> 00:09:05,344 I love it when we skip lunch on the quad and kick it at the Hamlet. 100 00:09:05,345 --> 00:09:06,346 Yeah, me too. 101 00:09:06,546 --> 00:09:08,615 Anyone want half my lunch? 102 00:09:09,450 --> 00:09:11,218 -Ooh. -Oh. 103 00:09:13,119 --> 00:09:15,589 Okay. 104 00:09:17,123 --> 00:09:18,225 Okay, listen up. 105 00:09:18,826 --> 00:09:20,760 Don’t forget to take your Flintstones vitamins this month... 106 00:09:20,761 --> 00:09:22,528 Or your diet pills. 107 00:09:22,529 --> 00:09:25,165 Saturday is Robert’s, and next Thursday is Dance Off! 108 00:09:25,298 --> 00:09:28,302 And no one is allowed to be hungover 109 00:09:28,435 --> 00:09:31,538 because on Sunday, we all need to practice. 110 00:09:33,473 --> 00:09:34,574 Seriously? 111 00:09:35,275 --> 00:09:37,544 That Dance Off! Thing is really happening? 112 00:09:37,677 --> 00:09:39,880 Oh, my God. I thought you were joking. 113 00:09:40,780 --> 00:09:42,849 Does it look like I’m joking, Bret? 114 00:09:50,657 --> 00:09:53,527 Dance Off! was a daily televised cable access show 115 00:09:53,693 --> 00:09:57,731 that featured regular teenagers dancing to the hot hits of the day. 116 00:09:59,699 --> 00:10:01,434 Teenagers like us. 117 00:10:05,372 --> 00:10:07,473 A Los Angeles institution, 118 00:10:07,474 --> 00:10:11,745 it had its heyday in 1974 and refused to die. 119 00:10:14,281 --> 00:10:18,652 ♪ ♪ Toe to toe Dancing very close ♪ 120 00:10:18,752 --> 00:10:21,288 Debbie had been obsessed with the idea 121 00:10:21,388 --> 00:10:24,590 ever since Corazon Cha Cha Rodriguez had gone on and held the camera’s attention 122 00:10:24,591 --> 00:10:27,227 for the length of an entire Blondie song. 123 00:10:28,062 --> 00:10:29,763 And not just any Blondie song. 124 00:10:30,063 --> 00:10:34,134 "Rapture," six minutes and 31 seconds. 125 00:10:35,169 --> 00:10:39,105 Debbie saw that hot lava fame and she wanted it for herself. 126 00:10:39,106 --> 00:10:43,342 Becoming a star was her secret ambition, but she was too cool to ever admit it. 127 00:10:43,343 --> 00:10:45,545 ♪ ♪ Stepping lightly ♪ 128 00:10:45,546 --> 00:10:50,950 ♪ ♪ Hang each night in rapture ♪ 129 00:10:50,951 --> 00:10:53,120 I gotta say, I hate that show. 130 00:10:53,253 --> 00:10:57,090 Okay, well, it’s a rite of passage classic in this town, and it’s happening. 131 00:10:57,290 --> 00:11:01,827 Guys, don’t you think it’s kind of a bad look to be partying on TV 132 00:11:01,828 --> 00:11:04,231 -with classmates missing? -Okay. 133 00:11:04,431 --> 00:11:08,067 Well, it’s what I want. It’s done, and you’re all coming. 134 00:11:08,068 --> 00:11:11,304 You’re welcome. 135 00:11:12,405 --> 00:11:14,306 Okay, so that’s it then? 136 00:11:14,307 --> 00:11:17,878 We just don’t care anymore about Rhonda or Matt? 137 00:11:18,144 --> 00:11:20,981 Look, Bret, I’m not trying to speak for the group here, 138 00:11:21,114 --> 00:11:22,915 but I’m gonna speak for the group. 139 00:11:22,916 --> 00:11:25,784 -Rhonda and Matt what’s-his-face... -Kellner. 140 00:11:25,785 --> 00:11:28,689 They’re missing. They haven’t been declared dead. 141 00:11:29,289 --> 00:11:30,624 Maybe they ran away. 142 00:11:32,192 --> 00:11:34,161 Oh, Bret, before I forget, 143 00:11:34,394 --> 00:11:37,464 do you want to go shopping with me after school for homecoming? 144 00:11:37,764 --> 00:11:39,866 -Tuxedo Warehouse? -Tuxedo Warehouse? 145 00:11:40,700 --> 00:11:43,100 -Is it too, uh... -You guys have that on the coast? 146 00:11:43,136 --> 00:11:44,604 I don’t know, GQ? 147 00:11:46,239 --> 00:11:49,142 I think maybe not GQ enough. 148 00:11:50,544 --> 00:11:52,879 Homecoming. I don’t even want to go. 149 00:11:53,046 --> 00:11:56,916 What do you mean you don’t wanna go? W-Why do you keep saying that repeatedly? 150 00:11:56,917 --> 00:11:58,752 You have to go. 151 00:11:58,753 --> 00:12:01,097 You and Thom are totally gonna win homecoming king and queen. 152 00:12:01,121 --> 00:12:03,290 Aren’t we a little old for homecoming? 153 00:12:03,423 --> 00:12:04,858 I would agree with that. 154 00:12:05,125 --> 00:12:07,726 Homecoming feels like a word that’s, you know, 155 00:12:07,727 --> 00:12:10,696 partial to overweight Midwesterners 156 00:12:10,697 --> 00:12:15,301 who make floats out of toilet paper scraps and suffer from gout. 157 00:12:18,405 --> 00:12:20,941 It’s not like I even have an outfit. 158 00:12:21,408 --> 00:12:23,309 You know what you would look great in? 159 00:12:23,310 --> 00:12:27,381 A simple black slip dress, something fresh, modern. 160 00:12:27,514 --> 00:12:29,616 -Hmm. -No jewelry. 161 00:12:29,617 --> 00:12:31,318 Just décolletage. 162 00:12:33,220 --> 00:12:34,455 Décolletage? 163 00:12:34,554 --> 00:12:36,690 Maybe we should cancel the party too, you know. 164 00:12:36,790 --> 00:12:39,026 It’s Robert’s big welcome party, Bret. 165 00:12:39,159 --> 00:12:40,794 It’s my big welcome party, Bret. 166 00:12:41,027 --> 00:12:43,496 It’s gonna be like Capote’s Black and White Ball. 167 00:12:43,497 --> 00:12:46,466 I’m so excited, thrilled. 168 00:12:47,034 --> 00:12:48,401 Et cetera. 169 00:12:54,040 --> 00:12:55,108 Bret’s right. 170 00:12:55,308 --> 00:12:56,710 We should do something. 171 00:12:57,911 --> 00:12:59,445 Maybe we should post flyers. 172 00:12:59,446 --> 00:13:02,216 That’s a great idea. Do something proactive. 173 00:13:02,716 --> 00:13:05,151 Why don’t me and you do it together, Susan? 174 00:13:12,292 --> 00:13:14,294 Waitress, some more fries, please. 175 00:13:16,296 --> 00:13:21,202 We’re asking anyone with information about Rhonda to please come forward. 176 00:13:21,669 --> 00:13:23,070 You won’t be in trouble. 177 00:13:23,670 --> 00:13:27,707 The only way we’re gonna find these kids is if we look. 178 00:13:28,809 --> 00:13:30,443 Or if they show up. 179 00:13:31,678 --> 00:13:33,013 Right. 180 00:13:35,248 --> 00:13:39,086 All of us have been haunted by the story of Etan Patz, 181 00:13:39,286 --> 00:13:43,490 six-year-old boy who disappeared outside his home in SoHo, New York. 182 00:13:43,924 --> 00:13:45,658 Was he kidnapped? 183 00:13:45,659 --> 00:13:46,927 Was he murdered? 184 00:13:47,227 --> 00:13:48,595 We don’t know. 185 00:13:49,630 --> 00:13:51,330 What we do know 186 00:13:51,331 --> 00:13:54,233 is that because his picture appeared on every milk carton in America, 187 00:13:54,234 --> 00:13:59,172 his face is burned into the minds of the people who are going to bring him home. 188 00:14:01,274 --> 00:14:05,479 That is why we are handing out bottles of Really Rhonda water 189 00:14:06,146 --> 00:14:07,980 to increase awareness... 190 00:14:07,981 --> 00:14:09,650 And hydration. 191 00:14:10,351 --> 00:14:15,188 If you can’t find a Perrier, reach for a Really Rhonda bottled water. 192 00:14:16,590 --> 00:14:19,759 Thanks again to Rhonda’s dad and all the heroes at ICM 193 00:14:19,760 --> 00:14:25,332 for sponsoring our flyer, hydration, and the Rescue Rhonda Fund. 194 00:14:26,199 --> 00:14:27,400 Bravo, ICM. 195 00:14:35,308 --> 00:14:37,711 Now, AV club, hit it. 196 00:14:41,081 --> 00:14:42,983 Zero mention of Matt. 197 00:14:43,416 --> 00:14:45,886 -Unbelievable. -I’m sure they’ll get to him. 198 00:14:46,253 --> 00:14:50,656 I think the line of awareness products for Matt Kellner could be historic. 199 00:14:50,657 --> 00:14:50,689 I think the line of awareness products for Matt Kellner could be historic. "Bring Matt Home" pencils. 200 00:14:50,690 --> 00:14:52,626 "Bring Matt Home" pencils. 201 00:14:52,759 --> 00:14:55,262 "Where Is Matt?" terry cloth come rags. 202 00:14:55,462 --> 00:14:57,663 It’s not funny, Thom. 203 00:14:57,664 --> 00:14:59,298 I know, 204 00:14:59,299 --> 00:15:01,400 but my dad used to tell me to look on the sunny side, 205 00:15:01,401 --> 00:15:03,437 and that’s what I’m trying to do for you. 206 00:15:03,570 --> 00:15:06,005 ♪ ♪ It wouldn’t take much time ♪ 207 00:15:06,006 --> 00:15:08,440 ♪ ♪ For you to help me, Rhonda ♪ 208 00:15:08,441 --> 00:15:09,876 ♪ Help me get her Out of my heart ♪ 209 00:15:10,043 --> 00:15:12,279 What are you wearing? 210 00:15:12,679 --> 00:15:13,847 Kouros. 211 00:15:14,014 --> 00:15:16,149 It smells so sexy. 212 00:15:17,117 --> 00:15:18,218 Thanks. 213 00:15:19,185 --> 00:15:20,286 It’s for men. 214 00:15:20,287 --> 00:15:22,489 Yeah, you can really tell. 215 00:15:22,490 --> 00:15:25,359 -Hi. For Rhonda. Rescue Rhonda. -Help Rhonda. 216 00:15:25,859 --> 00:15:27,726 -Let’s bring her home. -If she wanted to, 217 00:15:27,727 --> 00:15:30,397 she could be such a slut. 218 00:15:31,097 --> 00:15:32,633 There’s nothing stopping her. 219 00:15:33,267 --> 00:15:35,302 I’ve always admired that. 220 00:15:36,369 --> 00:15:38,205 You’re a really good friend. 221 00:15:40,040 --> 00:15:41,741 I am. 222 00:15:41,742 --> 00:15:45,545 ♪ ♪ She was gonna be my wife And I was gonna be her man ♪ 223 00:15:47,581 --> 00:15:50,349 ♪ ♪ But she let another guy Come between us ♪ 224 00:15:50,350 --> 00:15:52,686 ♪ ♪ And it ruined our plan ♪ 225 00:15:54,155 --> 00:15:56,323 It’s sparkling, like Rhonda. 226 00:15:57,291 --> 00:15:59,826 You are really gunning for homecoming. 227 00:16:00,026 --> 00:16:01,528 That’s not what this is. 228 00:16:02,662 --> 00:16:06,600 God, Thom, it’s the ’80s. Don’t be so cynical. 229 00:16:13,240 --> 00:16:16,309 ♪ ♪ Help me, Rhonda Help, help me, Rhonda ♪ 230 00:16:49,276 --> 00:16:51,145 So tell me what your script is about. 231 00:16:51,578 --> 00:16:54,680 Oh, I dropped the treatment off with Steven. Did he not... 232 00:16:54,681 --> 00:16:56,982 Oh, yeah, I received it. I read it. 233 00:16:56,983 --> 00:16:59,085 Steven loves it, by the way. 234 00:17:02,155 --> 00:17:04,224 I just don’t know what it’s about. 235 00:17:05,125 --> 00:17:07,594 I-I mean, why this story? Why now? 236 00:17:07,961 --> 00:17:12,098 Well, the character is me. 237 00:17:12,799 --> 00:17:14,935 A version of me anyway. 238 00:17:15,101 --> 00:17:17,537 -His name is Bret Ellis. -Hmm. 239 00:17:19,039 --> 00:17:21,075 Well, that makes it interesting to you. 240 00:17:21,442 --> 00:17:23,476 That doesn’t make it interesting to others. 241 00:17:24,778 --> 00:17:29,649 Listen, every great movie ever made is about loss. 242 00:17:30,217 --> 00:17:35,120 The loss of love, friendship, innocence, ideals, personal injury lawsuit. 243 00:17:35,121 --> 00:17:37,424 So what has Bret Ellis lost? 244 00:17:41,528 --> 00:17:43,563 Like, um... 245 00:17:45,432 --> 00:17:46,766 my virginity? 246 00:17:48,869 --> 00:17:50,204 Speak on that. 247 00:17:52,039 --> 00:17:53,340 Where are we going? 248 00:17:54,074 --> 00:17:57,178 Secret street. Connects Beverly Hills to the Valley. 249 00:17:57,310 --> 00:17:59,512 I thought that was just an urban legend. 250 00:17:59,513 --> 00:18:02,549 No, not an urban legend, a suburban fact. 251 00:18:03,083 --> 00:18:06,754 And only three people that I know of have the combination to the gates. 252 00:18:07,187 --> 00:18:09,589 Beatty. 253 00:18:10,624 --> 00:18:11,725 Nicholson. 254 00:18:13,026 --> 00:18:14,127 And me. 255 00:18:50,196 --> 00:18:56,369 8-1-7-0-6-6-6. 256 00:20:05,105 --> 00:20:07,474 Sometimes I come up here to be alone. 257 00:20:08,074 --> 00:20:09,342 You could too, you know. 258 00:20:10,777 --> 00:20:12,412 Think about your script. 259 00:20:14,147 --> 00:20:16,683 To get inspiration as an artist. 260 00:20:18,118 --> 00:20:21,021 This view is so inspirational. 261 00:20:24,157 --> 00:20:25,526 We could, uh... 262 00:20:26,226 --> 00:20:29,229 We could come be alone together. 263 00:20:41,175 --> 00:20:44,611 I thought you said only three people have the code to this road. 264 00:20:45,478 --> 00:20:46,881 I said that I know of. 265 00:20:47,147 --> 00:20:51,284 Could just be Jack’s gardener or picture hanger. 266 00:20:52,252 --> 00:20:53,620 Who knows? 267 00:21:05,432 --> 00:21:06,533 Terry? 268 00:21:07,434 --> 00:21:08,535 Yeah? 269 00:21:10,905 --> 00:21:12,272 Could you... 270 00:21:17,911 --> 00:21:19,279 take me home? 271 00:21:19,780 --> 00:21:20,915 Homework. 272 00:21:23,450 --> 00:21:24,551 Yeah. 273 00:21:58,418 --> 00:22:00,753 After Terry dropped me off, I knew automatically 274 00:22:00,754 --> 00:22:03,523 that I would be heading to Matt Kellner’s house. 275 00:22:08,528 --> 00:22:10,696 When I turned onto Haskell Avenue, 276 00:22:10,697 --> 00:22:10,730 When I turned onto Haskell Avenue, I was suddenly struck with a fear I had never experienced before. 277 00:22:10,731 --> 00:22:13,967 I was suddenly struck with a fear I had never experienced before. 278 00:22:15,402 --> 00:22:19,005 It was an adrenaline that acted as a warning for me to save myself, 279 00:22:19,472 --> 00:22:23,510 but also mixed with an overwhelming compulsion to move forward... 280 00:22:25,078 --> 00:22:26,680 no matter how I felt, 281 00:22:27,681 --> 00:22:29,316 how afraid I was. 282 00:23:11,859 --> 00:23:14,461 This was the last place I had seen Matt. 283 00:23:16,129 --> 00:23:17,464 I missed him. 284 00:23:18,965 --> 00:23:20,434 I wanted him back. 285 00:23:21,001 --> 00:23:24,304 I was on a mission to find clues about his disappearance. 286 00:23:26,207 --> 00:23:27,774 I found them. 287 00:24:29,069 --> 00:24:31,471 As I sat there in the soft moonlight, 288 00:24:31,772 --> 00:24:37,110 I realized that, at 18, I was already staring into my past. 289 00:24:38,846 --> 00:24:41,681 I remember this being one of my first moments 290 00:24:41,682 --> 00:24:44,684 when I realized how powerful memory was. 291 00:24:49,923 --> 00:24:53,293 Or at least it was the first time it hurt the most. 292 00:25:33,667 --> 00:25:35,768 Hello. 293 00:25:35,769 --> 00:25:35,801 Hello.- 294 00:25:43,677 --> 00:25:45,312 Where’s Matt? 295 00:25:49,482 --> 00:25:51,184 What have you done with him? 296 00:25:52,185 --> 00:25:53,653 Where’s Rhonda? 297 00:25:54,721 --> 00:25:57,591 Why are you doing this? 298 00:25:58,892 --> 00:26:00,360 Robert. 299 00:26:00,861 --> 00:26:02,062 Robert! 300 00:27:18,906 --> 00:27:20,407 Wow. 301 00:27:22,009 --> 00:27:23,710 Thank you. 302 00:27:25,078 --> 00:27:26,680 Thank you so much. 303 00:27:30,084 --> 00:27:32,052 Most people who win this award 304 00:27:32,519 --> 00:27:35,455 thank everybody that helped them get to this moment. 305 00:27:37,524 --> 00:27:43,029 Instead, I’d like to take this brief time I have here in the white-hot spotlight... 306 00:27:44,564 --> 00:27:47,434 to say what I really feel about how I got here. 307 00:27:49,102 --> 00:27:52,506 How I clawed my way up that mountain of success 308 00:27:53,273 --> 00:27:55,442 alone. 309 00:27:56,210 --> 00:27:58,512 To my first modeling agent 310 00:27:59,279 --> 00:28:01,081 who told me I had an ass like a pear 311 00:28:01,314 --> 00:28:04,918 and would probably be a Sears catalog model at best... 312 00:28:05,385 --> 00:28:08,088 fuck you, bitch. 313 00:28:08,288 --> 00:28:10,457 Look at me now. 314 00:28:13,193 --> 00:28:17,530 To my daughter who’s watching tonight... 315 00:28:20,133 --> 00:28:23,036 you are the disappointment of my life. 316 00:28:25,438 --> 00:28:27,307 And to my husband... 317 00:28:29,042 --> 00:28:30,443 To my husband... 318 00:28:32,612 --> 00:28:38,184 who regularly reminds me that I am a worthless piece of shit... 319 00:28:44,124 --> 00:28:45,125 Lizzie. 320 00:28:45,792 --> 00:28:49,129 Are you still holding on to that actress thing? 321 00:28:49,629 --> 00:28:51,431 How deeply sad. 322 00:28:56,670 --> 00:28:59,039 You go ahead and make fun of me, Terry. 323 00:29:00,007 --> 00:29:02,509 I’m fucking used to it, you know. 324 00:29:08,448 --> 00:29:10,617 But I know I could have been more than this, 325 00:29:10,618 --> 00:29:14,088 more than just your stupid wife rattling around this mausoleum 326 00:29:14,287 --> 00:29:16,323 like a fucking ghost. 327 00:29:18,258 --> 00:29:20,460 Sue told me I have an "it" factor. 328 00:29:20,461 --> 00:29:22,395 Sue Mengers told you that at a dinner party 329 00:29:22,396 --> 00:29:24,431 where she was stoned out of her mind. 330 00:29:25,031 --> 00:29:27,802 Everybody feels sorry for you, Liz, so they fill your addled mind 331 00:29:28,034 --> 00:29:30,303 with positive reinforcement that you don’t deserve. 332 00:29:30,304 --> 00:29:33,673 Haven’t all the therapists I paid for helped you understand that? 333 00:29:35,842 --> 00:29:37,411 If you would have let me, 334 00:29:38,144 --> 00:29:42,315 I could have pursued my dream and been somebody, 335 00:29:43,216 --> 00:29:45,785 instead of your fucking plus-one. 336 00:29:45,786 --> 00:29:47,620 Sure, absolutely. 337 00:29:47,621 --> 00:29:50,757 Keep practicing your speech, babe, with one of my three Oscars. 338 00:29:51,258 --> 00:29:53,460 But don’t forget to thank your coke dealer. 339 00:30:06,139 --> 00:30:09,309 I already knew Robert Mallory was a liar. 340 00:30:10,878 --> 00:30:12,879 He was the only one at lunch who didn’t show 341 00:30:12,880 --> 00:30:15,615 a flicker of concern about the missing kids. 342 00:30:16,149 --> 00:30:18,417 Almost like he knew they were already gone. 343 00:30:49,182 --> 00:30:53,052 ♪ ♪ Hans plays with Lotte Lotte plays with Jane ♪ 344 00:30:53,053 --> 00:30:56,455 I committed myself to the pursuit of a single goal: 345 00:30:56,456 --> 00:30:59,225 track Robert and prove he was The Trawler. 346 00:30:59,226 --> 00:31:01,028 ♪ ♪ Suki plays with Leo ♪ 347 00:31:01,495 --> 00:31:03,764 ♪ ♪ Sacha plays with Britt ♪ 348 00:31:04,297 --> 00:31:08,568 ♪ ♪ Adolf builds a bonfire Enrico plays with it ♪ 349 00:31:14,107 --> 00:31:18,311 ♪ ♪ Whistling tunes we hide In the dunes by the seaside ♪ 350 00:31:24,051 --> 00:31:27,922 ♪ ♪ Whistling tunes we’re kissing Baboons in the jungle ♪ 351 00:31:28,655 --> 00:31:30,390 ♪ ♪ It’s a knockout ♪ 352 00:31:31,391 --> 00:31:33,860 ♪ ♪ If looks could kill They probably will ♪ 353 00:31:33,861 --> 00:31:36,397 ♪ ♪ In games Without frontiers... ♪ 354 00:31:36,830 --> 00:31:38,330 Cielo Drive. 355 00:31:38,331 --> 00:31:41,068 This is where, almost exactly 12 years ago, 356 00:31:41,234 --> 00:31:43,703 three members of the Manson Family stabbed and killed 357 00:31:43,704 --> 00:31:48,008 Jay Sebring, Abigail Folger, Wojciech Frykowski, 358 00:31:48,208 --> 00:31:51,378 Steven Parent, and nine-months-pregnant Sharon Tate. 359 00:31:54,514 --> 00:31:59,019 I was obsessed with Joan Didion’s account of the Manson murders. 360 00:31:59,353 --> 00:32:01,688 I read it over and over again. 361 00:32:01,788 --> 00:32:06,059 I retyped the sentences on my typewriter, trying to understand their architecture. 362 00:32:07,260 --> 00:32:09,863 Like all aspiring writers of my generation, 363 00:32:10,364 --> 00:32:12,532 I wanted to write like Didion. 364 00:32:14,234 --> 00:32:15,569 With restraint, 365 00:32:16,170 --> 00:32:17,571 economy, 366 00:32:18,672 --> 00:32:20,507 and total control. 367 00:32:22,108 --> 00:32:23,443 If I could write like that... 368 00:32:25,779 --> 00:32:27,414 I could be like that. 369 00:32:28,548 --> 00:32:30,150 Or so I thought. 370 00:32:32,352 --> 00:32:33,921 ♪ ♪ It’s a knockout ♪ 371 00:32:34,888 --> 00:32:37,524 ♪ ♪ If looks could kill They probably will ♪ 372 00:32:37,525 --> 00:32:42,562 ♪ ♪ In games without frontiers War without tears ♪ 373 00:32:54,474 --> 00:32:57,010 I didn’t know what he was doing there. 374 00:32:58,578 --> 00:33:00,781 I only knew what I was doing there: 375 00:33:01,882 --> 00:33:04,718 "Telling myself a story in order to live." 376 00:33:09,055 --> 00:33:12,626 Part of me just wanted to knock on the door or force my way in. 377 00:33:13,727 --> 00:33:15,763 What if Matt was in there right now? 378 00:33:16,196 --> 00:33:17,697 Or Really Rhonda? 379 00:33:20,100 --> 00:33:23,337 Who knew what sort of hideous agony he was inflicting? 380 00:33:24,972 --> 00:33:28,774 Were they lying there bloody and beaten, mangled and mutilated, 381 00:33:28,775 --> 00:33:33,380 screaming out for someone, anyone, to come to the rescue? 382 00:33:46,426 --> 00:33:49,696 Being afraid is so lame, I kept telling myself. 383 00:33:53,700 --> 00:33:57,704 Being afraid is so lame and you’re not a pussy. 384 00:34:17,123 --> 00:34:21,694 Eventually I would find out that this remote mysterious house 385 00:34:21,695 --> 00:34:24,531 was a rental property of Robert Mallory’s aunt. 386 00:34:26,499 --> 00:34:28,902 Later, when the police interviewed me, 387 00:34:29,536 --> 00:34:32,606 I told them the truth about what I suspected was in the bag. 388 00:34:34,140 --> 00:34:35,709 A human head. 389 00:36:18,445 --> 00:36:19,713 Hello. 390 00:36:21,581 --> 00:36:23,950 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove ♪ 391 00:36:24,184 --> 00:36:27,054 ♪ ♪ Sings a song It sounds like she’s singin’ ♪ 392 00:36:27,220 --> 00:36:30,456 ♪ ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪ 393 00:36:30,457 --> 00:36:33,125 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove 394 00:36:33,126 --> 00:36:34,159 ♪ Sings a song... ♪ 395 00:36:34,160 --> 00:36:35,295 Hello? 396 00:36:35,795 --> 00:36:39,433 ♪ ♪ Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ♪ 397 00:36:40,100 --> 00:36:43,503 -♪♪ He was no more ♪ -♪♪ He was no more ♪ 398 00:36:43,670 --> 00:36:46,807 ♪ ♪ Than a baby then ♪ 399 00:36:47,841 --> 00:36:51,578 ♪ ♪ Well, he seemed Brokenhearted ♪ 400 00:36:51,945 --> 00:36:55,716 ♪ ♪ Somethin’ within him ♪ 401 00:36:56,717 --> 00:37:01,087 ♪ ♪ But the moment That I first laid ♪ 402 00:37:01,688 --> 00:37:04,623 ♪ ♪ Eyes on him ♪ 403 00:37:04,624 --> 00:37:11,364 ♪ ♪ All alone On the edge of seventeen ♪ 404 00:37:11,365 --> 00:37:13,467 Being afraid is so lame. 405 00:37:13,567 --> 00:37:16,135 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove ♪ 406 00:37:16,136 --> 00:37:18,972 ♪ ♪ Sings a song It sounds like she’s singin’ ♪ 407 00:37:18,973 --> 00:37:21,941 ♪ ♪ Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ♪ 408 00:37:21,942 --> 00:37:24,777 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove ♪ 409 00:37:24,778 --> 00:37:26,478 Don’t be lame. 410 00:37:26,479 --> 00:37:28,347 ♪ ♪ It sounds Like she’s singin’ ♪ 411 00:37:28,348 --> 00:37:31,484 ♪ ♪ Said, "Ooh, baby, Ooh," said, "Ooh" ♪ 412 00:37:31,485 --> 00:37:33,152 ♪ ♪ Well, I went today ♪ 413 00:37:34,721 --> 00:37:37,123 ♪ ♪ Maybe I will go Again tomorrow ♪ 414 00:37:37,324 --> 00:37:38,724 ♪ ♪ Yeah, yeah ♪ 415 00:37:38,725 --> 00:37:40,094 Hello? 416 00:37:40,260 --> 00:37:41,727 ♪ ♪ Well, the music there ♪ 417 00:37:41,728 --> 00:37:44,798 ♪ Well, it was hauntingly familiar ♪ 418 00:37:45,432 --> 00:37:49,503 ♪ ♪ When I see you doin’ What I try to do for me ♪ 419 00:37:49,636 --> 00:37:52,005 ♪ ♪ With the words of a poet ♪ 420 00:37:52,006 --> 00:37:54,040 ♪ ♪ And a voice from a choir ♪ 421 00:37:54,041 --> 00:37:56,710 ♪ ♪ And a melody ♪ 422 00:37:57,377 --> 00:38:00,180 ♪ ♪ And nothin’ else mattered ♪ 423 00:38:01,816 --> 00:38:04,483 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove ♪ 424 00:38:04,484 --> 00:38:07,321 ♪ ♪ Sings a song It sounds like she’s singin’ ♪ 425 00:38:07,454 --> 00:38:10,457 ♪ ♪ Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ♪ 426 00:38:10,557 --> 00:38:13,159 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove ♪ 427 00:38:13,160 --> 00:38:15,527 ♪ ♪ Sings a song It sounds like she’s singin’ ♪ 428 00:38:15,528 --> 00:38:19,232 ♪ ♪ Said, "Ooh, baby, Ooh," said, "Ooh" ♪ 429 00:38:33,447 --> 00:38:35,849 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove ♪ 430 00:38:36,082 --> 00:38:38,652 ♪ ♪ Sings a song It sounds like she’s singin’ ♪ 431 00:38:38,785 --> 00:38:41,855 ♪ ♪ Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ♪ 432 00:38:41,856 --> 00:38:44,490 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove ♪ 433 00:38:44,491 --> 00:38:46,926 ♪ ♪ Sings a song It sounds like she’s singin’ ♪ 434 00:38:48,395 --> 00:38:51,131 ♪ ♪ Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ♪ 435 00:38:51,298 --> 00:38:53,033 ♪ ♪ Well, then suddenly ♪ 436 00:38:53,266 --> 00:38:56,870 ♪ ♪ There was no one left Standin’ in the hall ♪ 437 00:38:58,471 --> 00:39:01,640 ♪ ♪ Yeah, yeah, In a flood of tears ♪ 438 00:39:01,641 --> 00:39:05,745 ♪ ♪ That no one really Ever heard fall at all... ♪ 439 00:39:10,350 --> 00:39:12,252 ♪ ♪ Up the stairs And down the hall ♪ 440 00:39:12,385 --> 00:39:14,354 ♪ And not to find an answer ♪ 441 00:39:14,355 --> 00:39:16,956 ♪ ♪ Just to hear the call Of a night bird ♪ 442 00:39:19,926 --> 00:39:22,862 -♪♪ Singin’, "Come away" ♪ -♪♪ Come away ♪ 443 00:39:22,863 --> 00:39:24,930 Please, please, please, just please let me go home. 444 00:39:24,931 --> 00:39:27,700 Please let me go home. Motherfucker, cock, shit, cunt licker. 445 00:39:27,701 --> 00:39:29,936 Fuck. Oh, I’m sorry. No, I’m sorry. 446 00:39:29,937 --> 00:39:32,071 Fuck. 447 00:39:32,072 --> 00:39:34,341 Please, please, please. 448 00:39:35,475 --> 00:39:36,676 No, no, no! 449 00:39:36,677 --> 00:39:39,146 Get the fuck off of me! 450 00:39:42,015 --> 00:39:46,085 ♪ ♪ Well, I hear you In the morning ♪ 451 00:39:46,086 --> 00:39:47,721 ♪ ♪ And I hear you ♪ 452 00:39:49,689 --> 00:39:51,258 ♪ ♪ My love ♪ 453 00:39:53,193 --> 00:39:56,529 ♪ ♪ I’m a few years Older than you... ♪ 454 00:40:01,668 --> 00:40:04,104 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove ♪ 455 00:40:04,337 --> 00:40:07,073 ♪ ♪ Sings a song It sounds like she’s singin’ ♪ 456 00:40:26,192 --> 00:40:28,761 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove ♪ 457 00:40:28,762 --> 00:40:31,498 ♪ ♪ Sings a song It sounds like she’s singin’ ♪ 458 00:40:31,665 --> 00:40:34,868 ♪ ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪ 459 00:40:35,135 --> 00:40:37,603 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove ♪ 460 00:40:37,604 --> 00:40:40,373 ♪ ♪ Sings a song It sounds like she’s singin’ ♪ 461 00:40:40,374 --> 00:40:43,877 ♪ ♪ Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ♪ 462 00:40:44,110 --> 00:40:48,481 ♪ ♪ And the days go by Like a strand in the wind ♪ 463 00:40:48,482 --> 00:40:52,452 ♪ ♪ In the web that is my own I begin again ♪ 464 00:40:53,253 --> 00:40:56,490 -♪♪ Said to my friend, "Baby" ♪ -♪♪ Everything stops ♪ 465 00:40:56,623 --> 00:40:59,059 ♪ ♪ Nothin’ else mattered ♪ 466 00:41:01,929 --> 00:41:05,531 -♪♪ He was no more ♪ -♪♪ He was no more ♪ 467 00:41:05,532 --> 00:41:08,702 ♪ ♪ Than a baby then ♪ 468 00:41:10,103 --> 00:41:13,607 ♪ ♪ Well, He seemed brokenhearted ♪ 469 00:41:13,740 --> 00:41:17,778 ♪ ♪ Somethin’ within him ♪ 470 00:41:19,012 --> 00:41:22,749 ♪ ♪ But the moment That I first laid ♪ 471 00:41:23,617 --> 00:41:26,519 ♪ ♪ Eyes on him ♪ 472 00:41:26,520 --> 00:41:30,323 ♪ ♪ All alone on the edge of ♪ 473 00:41:31,157 --> 00:41:35,029 ♪ ♪ Seventeen ♪ 474 00:41:35,395 --> 00:41:38,064 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove ♪ 475 00:41:38,065 --> 00:41:40,534 ♪ ♪ Sings a song It sounds like she’s singin’ ♪ 476 00:41:40,667 --> 00:41:43,871 ♪ ♪ Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ♪ 477 00:41:44,170 --> 00:41:46,505 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove ♪ 478 00:41:46,506 --> 00:41:49,142 ♪ ♪ Sings a song It sounds like she’s singin’ ♪ 479 00:41:49,143 --> 00:41:52,813 ♪ ♪ Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ♪ 480 00:41:53,513 --> 00:41:55,414 ♪ ♪ Well, I went today ♪ 481 00:41:55,415 --> 00:41:59,452 ♪ Maybe I will go Again tomorrow ♪ 482 00:42:01,521 --> 00:42:05,993 ♪ ♪ When I see you doin’ What I try to do for me ♪ 483 00:42:06,126 --> 00:42:08,262 ♪ ♪ With the words of a poet ♪ 484 00:42:08,395 --> 00:42:10,629 ♪ ♪ And a voice from a choir ♪ 485 00:42:10,630 --> 00:42:10,663 ♪ ♪ And a voice from a choir ♪ ♪♪ And a melody ♪ 486 00:42:10,664 --> 00:42:13,333 ♪ ♪ And a melody ♪ 487 00:42:14,100 --> 00:42:16,436 ♪ ♪ And nothin’ else mattered ♪ 488 00:42:18,305 --> 00:42:20,740 ♪ ♪ Just like The white-winged dove ♪ 489 00:42:20,741 --> 00:42:23,476 ♪ ♪ Sings a song It sounds like she’s singin’ ♪ 490 00:42:23,477 --> 00:42:26,379 ♪ ♪ Ooh, baby, ooh ♪