1
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No. Still dead.

2
00:03:12,447 --> 00:03:15,519
Well, gentlemen,
doesn't our young fellow look fantastic?

3
00:03:16,047 --> 00:03:17,719
Okay, down to business.

4
00:03:17,807 --> 00:03:19,286
Drugs.

5
00:03:19,367 --> 00:03:21,278
You got loads of them. Give us some.

6
00:03:21,367 --> 00:03:23,323
- What do you want?
- What have you got?

7
00:03:23,407 --> 00:03:25,557
God's, ups, downs, hash,
Black Moroccan, A's...

8
00:03:25,647 --> 00:03:27,603
...heroin, Charlie, speeds, acids.

9
00:03:27,727 --> 00:03:30,605
- I think I'll have a gram...
- And grass.

10
00:03:30,687 --> 00:03:32,200
I'll have a gram of cocaine.

11
00:03:32,287 --> 00:03:33,686
Get your hands off!

12
00:03:35,767 --> 00:03:36,961
Fuck.

13
00:03:40,247 --> 00:03:42,886
- Hello.
- What the fuck do you want?

14
00:03:43,607 --> 00:03:45,677
- Was that your boyfriend there?
- Yeah.

15
00:03:45,767 --> 00:03:48,122
- What is he like?
- He's an asshole.

16
00:03:48,207 --> 00:03:49,560
What do you care?

17
00:03:50,847 --> 00:03:53,156
What are you doing
for the rest of the night?

18
00:03:53,247 --> 00:03:54,600
What's it to you?

19
00:03:55,567 --> 00:03:58,559
Do you want to come back to my flat
for some coke and some sex?

20
00:04:01,447 --> 00:04:02,721
- Okay.
- Great.

21
00:04:10,087 --> 00:04:12,555
- Is that your car, lads?
- Are you joking?

22
00:04:12,647 --> 00:04:15,719
We wouldn't buy a car like that.
It's a fucking woman's car.

23
00:04:20,607 --> 00:04:23,405
What are you doing
hanging around the north side, Jonathan?

24
00:04:23,647 --> 00:04:25,399
You know, this and that.

25
00:04:25,487 --> 00:04:28,479
Bit of shopping. Seeing the sights.
Burying my father.

26
00:04:29,167 --> 00:04:32,398
- Really? He's dead?
- He's dead.

27
00:04:32,607 --> 00:04:35,804
- What did he die of?
- He drank himself to death.

28
00:04:36,967 --> 00:04:38,400
Are you heartbroken?

29
00:04:38,487 --> 00:04:41,081
You know,
I'm glad he finally got it together.

30
00:04:41,447 --> 00:04:45,122
So the doctor says to him,
"You've got to stop your drinking.

31
00:04:45,207 --> 00:04:48,119
"Your liver will fucking give in.
You know what I'm saying?"

32
00:04:48,207 --> 00:04:50,960
He goes home and he celebrates
with a bottle of Bushmills.

33
00:04:51,047 --> 00:04:53,436
- Some way to go!
- Are you taking the piss?

34
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- I never joke about death.
- You are taking the piss.

35
00:04:56,927 --> 00:04:58,201
Am I?

36
00:05:19,927 --> 00:05:21,918
Wait here. I'll be back in a second.

37
00:05:30,927 --> 00:05:34,556
- 'Morning.
- You're not as cute as your brother.

38
00:05:37,167 --> 00:05:38,395
Thanks.

39
00:05:40,567 --> 00:05:43,320
- It's a beautiful morning out there, Mikey.
- She's asleep.

40
00:05:48,007 --> 00:05:49,838
It was a great funeral, wasn't it?

41
00:05:52,647 --> 00:05:56,037
- What's the matter? Have you slept?
- Yeah, I went to bed early.

42
00:06:01,247 --> 00:06:03,477
I want the ashes.
I want to take them away.

43
00:06:03,687 --> 00:06:07,362
- What are you talking about?
- I want the fucking urn thingy.

44
00:06:07,447 --> 00:06:09,085
I want to take it home with me.

45
00:06:09,327 --> 00:06:12,080
What are you shitting on about? It's 5:00.

46
00:06:12,167 --> 00:06:13,839
Mikey, she's asleep. Come on.

47
00:06:15,087 --> 00:06:17,157
I'm not going to give you the urn, okay?

48
00:06:18,367 --> 00:06:22,918
Look. Why don't you get
a couple of hours sleep here...

49
00:06:23,007 --> 00:06:25,282
...and we'll all have breakfast then, okay?

50
00:06:26,287 --> 00:06:27,686
Do you have pancakes?

51
00:06:28,607 --> 00:06:30,723
Yes. I will make you some...

52
00:06:42,807 --> 00:06:46,004
- Is he going to be all right?
- Yeah, he'll be fine.

53
00:06:47,207 --> 00:06:50,438
He's been a lot better the last few months.
He'll be grand.

54
00:06:52,167 --> 00:06:53,441
Listen. I'm sorry.

55
00:06:54,087 --> 00:06:56,078
We'll see you. We're going for a spin.

56
00:07:37,007 --> 00:07:39,237
I'm going to have to ask you
to get out here.

57
00:07:39,927 --> 00:07:40,882
What?

58
00:07:41,287 --> 00:07:44,245
I have to ask you to get out of the car.
I'm sorry.

59
00:07:44,687 --> 00:07:45,915
What are you talking about?

60
00:07:46,007 --> 00:07:49,158
I have to ask you to get out of the car now.
I'm sorry. Please.

61
00:07:50,367 --> 00:07:51,800
You're serious.

62
00:08:46,727 --> 00:08:48,399
<i>If you want to kill yourself...</i>

63
00:08:48,487 --> 00:08:51,206
<i>... you can't go wrong</i>
<i>if you drive a convertible car...</i>

64
00:08:51,287 --> 00:08:53,357
<i>... over a cliff at 50 miles an hour.</i>

65
00:08:53,847 --> 00:08:55,280
<i>That's a sure thing.</i>

66
00:08:57,847 --> 00:08:59,485
<i>I broke my baby finger.</i>

67
00:09:00,767 --> 00:09:01,961
<i>No seat belt.</i>

68
00:09:02,847 --> 00:09:07,125
<i>The police said if I had been wearing</i>
<i>my seat belt I would have broken my neck.</i>

69
00:09:19,367 --> 00:09:22,359
<i>Under the threat of a prison sentence</i>
<i>for the stolen car...</i>

70
00:09:22,447 --> 00:09:24,961
<i>... I opted for three months</i>
<i>as an inpatient...</i>

71
00:09:25,167 --> 00:09:27,203
<i>... in a psychiatric hospital.</i>

72
00:09:36,647 --> 00:09:39,320
<i>The good thing about going</i>
<i>into the madhouse now...</i>

73
00:09:39,407 --> 00:09:42,558
<i>... is that my stay would run right over</i>
<i>the Christmas season.</i>

74
00:09:42,647 --> 00:09:45,445
<i>For as long as I can remember,</i>
<i>I wanted to spend Christmas...</i>

75
00:09:45,527 --> 00:09:47,597
<i>... in a suburban mental institution.</i>

76
00:09:50,047 --> 00:09:52,641
The group session you'll be attending
is a small one.

77
00:09:52,727 --> 00:09:55,685
It's made up of four people
about the same age as yourself.

78
00:09:56,447 --> 00:10:00,918
Most of them have been with us
a month or so. They're doing quite well.

79
00:10:02,207 --> 00:10:05,563
I'm sure you'll all get on very well.
Here's your room.

80
00:10:18,487 --> 00:10:19,966
Well, I'll take it.

81
00:10:23,047 --> 00:10:26,517
<i>There's a special room for patients</i>
<i>called the recreation room.</i>

82
00:10:26,727 --> 00:10:31,005
<i>You've got your Velcro-tipped darts,</i>
<i>cards, the telly...</i>

83
00:10:31,487 --> 00:10:34,923
<i>... and a kettle that stops boiling</i>
<i>when the water is lukewarm...</i>

84
00:10:35,007 --> 00:10:39,000
<i>... so you can't kill yourself</i>
<i>by pouring boiling water on your head.</i>

85
00:10:40,647 --> 00:10:42,239
Look at that animal.

86
00:10:45,527 --> 00:10:47,757
Yeah, he's nice.

87
00:10:48,647 --> 00:10:50,399
I had a cat once.

88
00:10:51,887 --> 00:10:55,721
But it got its head stuck in a tin of cat food
I'd left on the counter.

89
00:10:57,527 --> 00:11:01,440
It was stuck for 10 hours
by the time I'd come back.

90
00:11:03,647 --> 00:11:04,716
I'm sorry.

91
00:11:05,647 --> 00:11:07,638
Must have been horrible for him.

92
00:11:09,167 --> 00:11:11,203
All that time in the dark...

93
00:11:12,367 --> 00:11:16,963
...trying to breathe, bumping into walls.

94
00:11:19,527 --> 00:11:21,006
That's sad.

95
00:11:23,687 --> 00:11:25,439
But he's okay now.

96
00:11:26,567 --> 00:11:29,445
Just a little edgy, but he's fine.

97
00:11:32,207 --> 00:11:34,323
Okay. I'll see you later.

98
00:11:42,327 --> 00:11:43,646
What's that for, lads?

99
00:11:49,487 --> 00:11:50,761
Thanks.

100
00:12:08,327 --> 00:12:09,965
You don't feel like talking?

101
00:12:12,487 --> 00:12:13,476
Okay.

102
00:12:16,247 --> 00:12:17,760
We'll leave it for today.

103
00:12:19,687 --> 00:12:24,363
My therapy sessions are at 12:00
every Tuesday and Thursday in Room 13.

104
00:12:26,007 --> 00:12:27,884
You're required to attend.

105
00:12:32,727 --> 00:12:35,195
I've been through your file this morning.

106
00:12:37,367 --> 00:12:39,005
I'm sorry about your father.

107
00:13:29,527 --> 00:13:33,805
<i>You're woken at</i> 7<i>:30 sharp.</i>
<i>A good hour after you got to sleep.</i>

108
00:13:35,647 --> 00:13:38,286
Excuse me. Why are you dressed like that?

109
00:13:39,087 --> 00:13:41,157
- What?
- Why are you dressed like that?

110
00:13:41,847 --> 00:13:42,996
What are you talking about?

111
00:13:43,087 --> 00:13:46,443
You're an inpatient, aren't you?
No civvies. P.J. s only.

112
00:13:55,807 --> 00:13:57,126
I'll have your clothes.

113
00:13:57,767 --> 00:14:01,077
<i>There is nothing as comfortable</i>
<i>as wearing secondhand pajamas...</i>

114
00:14:01,167 --> 00:14:04,125
<i>... that previously belonged</i>
<i>to a very short person.</i>

115
00:14:19,967 --> 00:14:22,527
Excuse me.
Is this the way to Dr. Figure's office?

116
00:14:22,607 --> 00:14:25,679
You're in the right direction.
Head through those blue doors.

117
00:14:25,767 --> 00:14:28,725
He's at the end of the corridor
on the second floor. Goodbye.

118
00:14:30,087 --> 00:14:32,123
- Hello.
- Hello.

119
00:14:34,767 --> 00:14:36,246
Are you two patients here?

120
00:14:38,327 --> 00:14:41,876
- No. We're doctors.
- Okay. I'll see you.

121
00:14:44,527 --> 00:14:47,087
- I like your slippers.
- Thanks.

122
00:14:48,727 --> 00:14:49,921
Do they bite?

123
00:14:51,087 --> 00:14:54,682
I don't know. Why don't you put
your hand down there and find out?

124
00:14:55,527 --> 00:14:56,801
Well, they're nice.

125
00:14:58,967 --> 00:15:00,958
Do you want a game of pool sometime?

126
00:15:01,047 --> 00:15:03,003
- When?
- Whenever.

127
00:15:05,047 --> 00:15:07,117
- I don't play pool.
- I'll play you.

128
00:15:08,807 --> 00:15:11,765
Yeah? I was actually more interested...

129
00:15:11,847 --> 00:15:14,407
...in having a game of pool
with the young lady here.

130
00:15:14,487 --> 00:15:17,399
- No offense.
- Fuck you.

131
00:15:21,047 --> 00:15:22,719
How about table tennis?

132
00:15:23,567 --> 00:15:25,797
Can I give you the telephone number
of my room?

133
00:15:26,647 --> 00:15:27,636
No.

134
00:15:36,367 --> 00:15:37,356
Come in.

135
00:15:41,087 --> 00:15:43,726
I want to talk
about the whole pajamas thing.

136
00:15:43,927 --> 00:15:45,042
What's the problem?

137
00:15:45,127 --> 00:15:48,563
The problem is I've been forced
to wear pajamas in the middle of the day.

138
00:15:48,647 --> 00:15:51,957
It's health board regulations,
to distinguish you from day patients.

139
00:15:52,127 --> 00:15:54,436
It's fucking ridiculous.
They took my clothes.

140
00:15:54,527 --> 00:15:56,677
They're too small. I look like an idiot.

141
00:15:57,727 --> 00:15:59,126
You look fine, Jonathan.

142
00:16:00,047 --> 00:16:01,400
Everyone is wearing them.

143
00:16:04,527 --> 00:16:06,757
We can look at these sheets in a moment.

144
00:16:06,967 --> 00:16:10,960
<i>So, therapy sessions.</i>
<i>Three times a week at</i> 2<i>:00.</i>

145
00:16:11,047 --> 00:16:13,003
This must be the nutcase class, is it?

146
00:16:13,087 --> 00:16:15,237
Come in. Grab a seat.
We're getting started.

147
00:16:15,327 --> 00:16:17,557
Fantastic.
I haven't missed anything, have I?

148
00:16:17,847 --> 00:16:20,759
This is Jonathan Breech, everyone.
He's joining our group.

149
00:16:21,367 --> 00:16:23,835
So, why don't you all introduce yourselves?

150
00:16:25,407 --> 00:16:27,841
- Rachel.
- Toby.

151
00:16:29,047 --> 00:16:31,038
That's Leslie and...

152
00:16:32,367 --> 00:16:33,356
...Nick.

153
00:16:34,447 --> 00:16:37,484
- No, you haven't missed anything.
- Well, that's good news.

154
00:16:40,047 --> 00:16:44,438
Yeah, my name is Jonathan Breech,
and I'm 19 years of age.

155
00:16:44,527 --> 00:16:48,042
And I'm really looking forward
to the next few weeks...

156
00:16:48,127 --> 00:16:50,402
...to all I learn about everyone.

157
00:16:50,567 --> 00:16:53,843
But more importantly,
about myself and my own problems.

158
00:16:55,847 --> 00:16:57,599
Thanks. Next?

159
00:16:58,607 --> 00:17:02,964
We've all been together here as a group
for a few weeks now...

160
00:17:03,047 --> 00:17:05,481
...and we've been sharing
our thoughts, so...

161
00:17:06,407 --> 00:17:08,682
Let me just ask you
how you feel at the moment...

162
00:17:08,767 --> 00:17:13,079
...and whether there's anything
that you feel you want to tell us.

163
00:17:14,767 --> 00:17:15,916
She's cute.

164
00:17:17,727 --> 00:17:19,319
Do you have a boyfriend?

165
00:17:21,807 --> 00:17:23,160
That'll be a "no," then.

166
00:17:27,007 --> 00:17:30,602
Okay. Let's just look
at this list then, shall we?

167
00:17:31,127 --> 00:17:33,687
On your sheets,
you'll see a list of situations...

168
00:17:33,767 --> 00:17:37,123
...that some people find difficult,
things we're somewhat afraid of.

169
00:17:38,647 --> 00:17:42,162
I don't know about you.
Doctor, I don't know about him.

170
00:17:43,047 --> 00:17:46,323
- It's okay, Nick. He's a patient.
- I wouldn't trust him.

171
00:17:47,607 --> 00:17:49,279
It's fine. Fine.

172
00:17:50,767 --> 00:17:53,918
What I want you to do
is to tick off any of these items here...

173
00:17:54,007 --> 00:17:55,679
...that particularly trouble you.

174
00:17:55,967 --> 00:17:56,956
Excuse me.

175
00:17:58,207 --> 00:18:00,437
Filling out forms really scares me.

176
00:18:02,407 --> 00:18:05,604
That's okay, Toby. You can just leave it.
It's not that important.

177
00:18:05,687 --> 00:18:07,723
No, I was joking.

178
00:18:08,527 --> 00:18:10,961
- You're funny.
- Thanks, Doctor.

179
00:18:13,247 --> 00:18:14,965
Actually, it was quite funny.

180
00:18:15,527 --> 00:18:17,757
All right. I'm out of here. See you.

181
00:18:18,767 --> 00:18:21,679
You're not going to help yourself
by running away, Jonathan.

182
00:18:23,727 --> 00:18:27,686
No, you know, you're right, Doctor, no.

183
00:18:28,407 --> 00:18:30,363
Why don't you show us how it's done?

184
00:18:30,447 --> 00:18:33,359
Tell us a bit about yourself.
What scares you?

185
00:18:34,807 --> 00:18:37,924
I want to know if there's anything
in particular that worries you.

186
00:18:38,007 --> 00:18:41,886
I'd be happy to go through it with you
sometime if you're really interested, but...

187
00:18:41,967 --> 00:18:45,164
...we're not here to talk about me.
You know what I mean?

188
00:18:45,247 --> 00:18:47,807
- Sounds like denial to me.
- No, it's not denial.

189
00:18:47,887 --> 00:18:50,162
- Now you sound angry.
- I'm not angry either.

190
00:18:50,247 --> 00:18:51,726
Sometimes it's good to be angry.

191
00:18:51,807 --> 00:18:54,765
I don't think it's
an appropriate conversation for the group.

192
00:18:54,847 --> 00:18:57,520
Fine. If you don't feel comfortable
talking about it.

193
00:18:57,647 --> 00:18:59,842
But I believe you said I was running away.

194
00:18:59,927 --> 00:19:03,237
Yes, and I think that's what
we should be addressing, if anything.

195
00:19:03,327 --> 00:19:06,319
You're trying to deflect
the whole discussion onto my problems.

196
00:19:06,407 --> 00:19:08,921
And now you sound paranoid,
like Nick there.

197
00:19:10,527 --> 00:19:15,237
- What did you say about me?
- I said nothing. How did you hear that?

198
00:19:15,767 --> 00:19:17,166
I hear everything.

199
00:19:19,047 --> 00:19:21,607
Don't you be talking about me
behind my back.

200
00:19:22,327 --> 00:19:23,965
I have enough on my plate!

201
00:19:27,287 --> 00:19:31,280
This has been a wonderful session for me.
I've learned loads about everyone...

202
00:19:31,367 --> 00:19:34,040
...and I'm almost ready
for the outside world again.

203
00:19:34,127 --> 00:19:36,561
So, thanks, Doc. Same time tomorrow.

204
00:19:38,487 --> 00:19:39,522
I'll see you.

205
00:20:04,647 --> 00:20:06,956
You think I'm cute? You think I'm cute?

206
00:20:08,487 --> 00:20:10,523
- Don't call me cute.
- But you are cute.

207
00:20:10,647 --> 00:20:12,842
- You're cute.
- You think I'm cute now?

208
00:20:15,367 --> 00:20:19,360
What? You want to play?
Come on. Now you're fighting.

209
00:20:21,007 --> 00:20:22,520
You think you're so tough.

210
00:21:24,967 --> 00:21:26,480
Do you think I'm cute now?

211
00:21:32,247 --> 00:21:35,478
I have to go back to therapy.
I'll see you later.

212
00:21:47,647 --> 00:21:49,365
You like that Rachel one, do you?

213
00:21:51,087 --> 00:21:52,281
I don't know.

214
00:21:52,367 --> 00:21:53,925
She's beautiful, isn't she?

215
00:21:56,207 --> 00:21:59,085
She's very complicated.
Anyway, I'll see you around.

216
00:22:35,367 --> 00:22:38,598
- Does she play all the time?
- Pretty much.

217
00:22:39,847 --> 00:22:41,758
That's the thing about these places.

218
00:22:41,847 --> 00:22:45,681
You think you're doing something noble
by encouraging her to play the piano.

219
00:22:45,927 --> 00:22:49,806
When she doesn't end up getting better,
you stick her in front of it all day.

220
00:22:50,967 --> 00:22:54,084
Then you forget about her.
How long has she been here for?

221
00:22:54,607 --> 00:22:55,960
Two years.

222
00:22:56,607 --> 00:23:00,839
- Two years. The road to recovery?
- Some people just don't get better.

223
00:23:01,687 --> 00:23:03,518
That's very frank of you, Doctor.

224
00:23:03,607 --> 00:23:06,838
The board of directors won't be pleased
to hear you admitting that.

225
00:23:06,927 --> 00:23:09,236
And tell me,
do you see me getting any better?

226
00:23:12,527 --> 00:23:14,119
You're more talkative today.

227
00:23:14,207 --> 00:23:19,076
I'm just fucking bored with this place.
If we weren't mad to begin with...

228
00:23:22,167 --> 00:23:24,397
So what's troubling you, Jonathan?

229
00:23:24,487 --> 00:23:27,365
That's a real standard textbook question,
isn't it, Doc?

230
00:23:27,447 --> 00:23:29,802
- Is it?
- When you're a psychiatrist...

231
00:23:29,887 --> 00:23:33,323
...who wears corduroy pants
and that jumper and no tie...

232
00:23:33,407 --> 00:23:35,557
...and drives an old Saab. Is that yours?

233
00:23:35,647 --> 00:23:37,558
- Yeah.
- The old Saab.

234
00:23:38,127 --> 00:23:40,687
You expect something
a little more original than:

235
00:23:40,767 --> 00:23:42,723
"What's troubling you, Jonathan?"

236
00:23:43,127 --> 00:23:46,164
- Do you?
- I thought you'd be the laid-back...

237
00:23:46,247 --> 00:23:48,966
...social worker type
who'd offer me cigarettes.

238
00:23:49,567 --> 00:23:52,161
Because you're very laid-back.
Very Robin Williams.

239
00:23:52,527 --> 00:23:55,485
I thought that we'd be bonding
and hugging and stuff.

240
00:24:00,887 --> 00:24:04,323
- You want to talk about your father?
- You want to talk about yours?

241
00:24:05,967 --> 00:24:08,879
What would you do if you were allowed
home for the afternoon?

242
00:24:08,967 --> 00:24:12,755
Get a decent cup of coffee,
then chop my head off with a chain saw.

243
00:24:14,167 --> 00:24:15,156
Okay.

244
00:24:18,367 --> 00:24:20,722
Just one thing.
I wanted to propose something.

245
00:24:21,167 --> 00:24:23,397
It's like a pledge
between doctor and patient.

246
00:24:24,687 --> 00:24:27,565
We nominate a day,
like three weeks from now...

247
00:24:27,647 --> 00:24:29,000
...like New Year's Day...

248
00:24:29,087 --> 00:24:32,159
...and you mustn't harm yourself
until that day.

249
00:24:32,687 --> 00:24:35,679
You have to stick to it.
What do you think about that?

250
00:24:36,047 --> 00:24:38,766
Yeah, I think it's a fucking ridiculous idea.

251
00:24:39,007 --> 00:24:41,043
- It's been known to work.
- It won't work.

252
00:24:41,127 --> 00:24:45,996
- Might. Why don't you think about it?
- Okay, hang on. I've thought about it.

253
00:24:46,567 --> 00:24:49,400
Fuck, you made a good breakthrough.
Well done, Doc.

254
00:24:49,487 --> 00:24:52,126
Okay, we'll talk about it more
after the session.

255
00:24:52,967 --> 00:24:56,118
You've given me the will to live,
and I want to thank you for that.

256
00:24:56,487 --> 00:25:00,765
After that, I'll show you the benefits
of being more sparing with your sarcasm.

257
00:25:01,087 --> 00:25:03,237
- Okay? See you.
- Fuck you.

258
00:25:05,927 --> 00:25:08,077
<i>So let me tell you about this pledge thing.</i>

259
00:25:08,167 --> 00:25:10,965
<i>See, Dr. Figure was</i>
<i>a "no medication" type of guy.</i>

260
00:25:11,167 --> 00:25:15,126
<i>And all the hard-core suicidals in his group,</i>
<i>now including myself...</i>

261
00:25:15,207 --> 00:25:18,517
<i>... had agreed not to kill</i>
<i>or hang themselves before January 1.</i>

262
00:25:19,607 --> 00:25:24,237
<i>Can you imagine someone dead hanging</i>
<i>from the light fixture in their room...</i>

263
00:25:24,327 --> 00:25:27,478
<i>... thinking, "If my doctor finds out</i>
<i>about this, I'm fucked"?</i>

264
00:25:29,087 --> 00:25:31,317
<i>You did get privileges</i>
<i>if you signed it though.</i>

265
00:25:31,407 --> 00:25:33,762
<i>Going to the shops</i>
<i>or to the pub across the road.</i>

266
00:25:33,847 --> 00:25:37,522
<i>Not that I needed that because</i>
<i>Toby had been slipping out for weeks.</i>

267
00:25:37,607 --> 00:25:40,405
<i>So I promised to buy him a drink,</i>
<i>and he took me with him.</i>

268
00:25:58,567 --> 00:26:00,205
Hang on a second.

269
00:26:12,887 --> 00:26:16,004
- Cheers.
- Let's get a seat.

270
00:26:21,007 --> 00:26:22,520
You spilled my drink.

271
00:26:23,967 --> 00:26:28,916
- It was an accident, all right?
- Yeah, but you could apologize, you know.

272
00:26:30,247 --> 00:26:31,396
Not tonight, kids.

273
00:26:35,887 --> 00:26:37,718
Fucking unbelievable.

274
00:26:42,767 --> 00:26:44,439
All right, boys.

275
00:26:48,247 --> 00:26:49,885
Lads, lads, lads.

276
00:26:50,127 --> 00:26:54,917
Do you remember when you were
coming back from the ladies' there...

277
00:26:55,407 --> 00:26:58,285
...and you bumped into my buddy here,
you know?

278
00:26:58,487 --> 00:27:01,923
And he dropped his drink,
and he didn't get to drink any of it.

279
00:27:02,367 --> 00:27:04,801
It would be a gas if you said sorry to him.

280
00:27:05,647 --> 00:27:09,799
You see, that was an accident, you know?
I mean, call the police.

281
00:27:10,207 --> 00:27:12,801
It doesn't seem to be bothering
your girlfriend there.

282
00:27:12,887 --> 00:27:15,447
So why the fuck is it bothering you?

283
00:27:19,967 --> 00:27:21,685
A little fucking spanner.

284
00:27:23,367 --> 00:27:27,883
- No, lads, you're right. I'll get another one.
- We'll pay for it, okay? It's fine.

285
00:27:27,967 --> 00:27:29,958
- Our pleasures.
- Have a good night.

286
00:27:30,087 --> 00:27:30,997
Take care.

287
00:27:31,247 --> 00:27:35,160
- No hard feelings, okay?
- No worries, man. Take care. All the best.

288
00:27:50,087 --> 00:27:53,318
Fuck! You fucking punks! Bugger you!

289
00:28:00,847 --> 00:28:03,998
- I got a fucking stitch.
- A stitch is okay. Keep going.

290
00:28:05,287 --> 00:28:08,245
But these fellows,
they're very bad at chasing.

291
00:28:10,527 --> 00:28:12,165
Let's go over here.

292
00:28:47,127 --> 00:28:51,359
- So why are you at the sessions, Toby?
- Now you want to talk serious.

293
00:28:52,447 --> 00:28:53,880
Okay, fuck it.

294
00:28:56,487 --> 00:28:58,523
I killed my brother in a car accident.

295
00:29:04,007 --> 00:29:05,201
How about you?

296
00:29:07,247 --> 00:29:08,441
I don't know.

297
00:29:09,727 --> 00:29:12,525
I've never been properly diagnosed,
you know.

298
00:29:13,927 --> 00:29:16,600
I did drive a car off a cliff
a couple of weeks back.

299
00:29:16,807 --> 00:29:18,126
- Fuck off.
- Yeah.

300
00:29:18,887 --> 00:29:22,766
Are you serious?
You mean, like totally over a cliff?

301
00:29:23,687 --> 00:29:26,759
And you survived? What was it like?

302
00:29:27,367 --> 00:29:30,837
For the first five seconds,
it was fairly interesting.

303
00:29:31,407 --> 00:29:34,205
Fucking "A," I'd say so. That's brilliant.

304
00:29:34,847 --> 00:29:39,716
Well done. I've got to try that
after my pledge date.

305
00:29:46,367 --> 00:29:50,963
- For fuck's sake!
- Come here, you pair of fucking spanners!

306
00:29:51,047 --> 00:29:53,561
We only want to have a word with you.

307
00:30:22,287 --> 00:30:24,403
- Hi.
- Hi, there.

308
00:30:25,647 --> 00:30:28,719
What are you doing here?
How did you get out of your ward?

309
00:30:29,727 --> 00:30:31,319
Aren't you happy to see me?

310
00:30:35,687 --> 00:30:38,838
- So, where were you?
- I was out with Toby.

311
00:30:41,887 --> 00:30:45,118
- What do you think of him?
- I like him. He's a very nice guy.

312
00:30:46,367 --> 00:30:49,006
- Did you have a thing with him?
- Toby?

313
00:30:51,327 --> 00:30:52,396
He's sweet.

314
00:30:53,487 --> 00:30:55,079
You didn't answer my question.

315
00:30:56,687 --> 00:31:00,396
I don't know.
Toby is hard to read, you know.

316
00:31:01,647 --> 00:31:04,161
Sometimes I think he likes me.
I don't know.

317
00:31:05,567 --> 00:31:07,637
What about you? What do you think?

318
00:31:15,287 --> 00:31:18,802
- Was your father in today?
- Yeah. How did you know?

319
00:31:19,447 --> 00:31:21,915
- Did he admit you here?
- Yeah.

320
00:31:23,767 --> 00:31:24,836
So he's Irish.

321
00:31:26,287 --> 00:31:28,482
Yeah, he's Irish. My mom was American.

322
00:31:29,607 --> 00:31:31,723
- And do you live in America?
- I did.

323
00:31:32,207 --> 00:31:34,038
I moved here six months ago.

324
00:31:34,447 --> 00:31:36,324
- And where's Mom?
- She's dead.

325
00:31:37,807 --> 00:31:39,320
I'm sorry.

326
00:31:41,007 --> 00:31:43,726
Why are you standing over there?
Come and sit down.

327
00:31:56,127 --> 00:31:57,958
So are you doing that pledge thing?

328
00:31:58,727 --> 00:32:01,446
- Yeah. Are you?
- Yeah. Toby, too.

329
00:32:01,807 --> 00:32:04,401
Yeah, New Year's Day.
It's a great idea, I think.

330
00:32:05,607 --> 00:32:07,404
- I like it.
- Really?

331
00:32:08,687 --> 00:32:11,406
I don't know.
Gives me something to think about.

332
00:32:16,967 --> 00:32:20,596
So you tried to kill yourself.
Why did you want to die?

333
00:32:21,767 --> 00:32:23,041
I don't want to die.

334
00:32:24,807 --> 00:32:26,206
I don't want to be alive.

335
00:32:28,967 --> 00:32:30,446
Are you afraid of dying?

336
00:32:31,767 --> 00:32:34,440
Not for the few seconds
it takes to kill yourself.

337
00:32:45,967 --> 00:32:47,320
Lie on top of me.

338
00:32:48,287 --> 00:32:52,200
Leave your pants on, don't ask questions,
and no exchange of bodily fluids.

339
00:32:54,927 --> 00:32:56,565
You can take off your shirt.

340
00:33:29,367 --> 00:33:32,359
Don't stop. Don't stop.

341
00:33:32,887 --> 00:33:35,720
I'm just fucking wriggling, really.

342
00:33:35,807 --> 00:33:38,879
- Whatever it is, don't stop.
- Okay. I won't stop.

343
00:33:55,007 --> 00:33:56,326
Oh, God!

344
00:34:22,447 --> 00:34:24,324
What the fuck is the matter with you?

345
00:34:48,687 --> 00:34:50,166
You're just...

346
00:35:15,727 --> 00:35:18,036
<i>"I'm singin' in the rain</i>

347
00:35:19,287 --> 00:35:22,438
<i>"Just singin' in the rain</i>

348
00:35:22,527 --> 00:35:25,758
<i>"What a glorious feeling</i>

349
00:35:25,847 --> 00:35:28,407
<i>"I'm happy again</i>

350
00:35:29,767 --> 00:35:31,758
<i>"I'm laughing at clouds"</i>

351
00:35:31,927 --> 00:35:34,282
Have you got tickets
for the Christmas raffle?

352
00:35:34,367 --> 00:35:35,197
No.

353
00:35:35,287 --> 00:35:38,165
- Do you know where I can get them?
- No.

354
00:35:38,247 --> 00:35:39,965
That's not much good to me.

355
00:35:41,887 --> 00:35:44,560
<i>"Let the stormy clouds chase</i>

356
00:35:45,247 --> 00:35:48,398
<i>"Everyone from the place</i>

357
00:35:49,567 --> 00:35:54,721
<i>"Come on with the rain</i>
<i>I've a smile on my face</i>

358
00:35:55,367 --> 00:35:58,086
<i>"I'll walk down the lane</i>

359
00:35:58,727 --> 00:36:01,161
<i>"With a happy refrain</i>

360
00:36:02,087 --> 00:36:06,638
<i>"Just singin' in the rain"</i>

361
00:36:07,247 --> 00:36:10,717
<i>It was at that moment</i>
<i>that I decided to keep the pledge.</i>

362
00:36:12,007 --> 00:36:13,565
<i>Don't ask me why.</i>

363
00:36:30,247 --> 00:36:32,556
<i>Once every two weeks, there's bowling.</i>

364
00:36:32,647 --> 00:36:35,639
<i>That's where we're encouraged to mix</i>
<i>with the rest of society...</i>

365
00:36:35,727 --> 00:36:37,638
<i>... and behave like normal people.</i>

366
00:36:37,847 --> 00:36:42,238
All right, lads. Get your shoes. Let's go.
Be sure you get the right sizes.

367
00:36:55,327 --> 00:36:57,397
You're very bad at bowling, Toby.

368
00:36:58,007 --> 00:37:01,761
- We should do something this weekend.
- Like what? Have a darts championship?

369
00:37:01,847 --> 00:37:05,920
I've had enough of fucking broken
rubber darts. I mean, do something.

370
00:37:08,247 --> 00:37:10,238
<i>Driving Miss Daisy</i> is on the telly.

371
00:37:10,447 --> 00:37:13,245
We can invite some of the lunatics
from the high-risk ward.

372
00:37:13,327 --> 00:37:14,555
It could be a laugh.

373
00:37:14,647 --> 00:37:17,684
How do you ever hear
with that stuff blaring in your ears?

374
00:37:17,767 --> 00:37:20,600
Shut up. I was starting to like you.
Don't blow it.

375
00:37:20,687 --> 00:37:23,679
But we should do something.
I mean, go drinking...

376
00:37:23,887 --> 00:37:26,640
...or take some drugs.
- What if we get caught?

377
00:37:26,767 --> 00:37:29,565
If we get caught, fuck it.
We just lose a few privileges.

378
00:37:29,727 --> 00:37:32,639
We'll round up a load of loonies
and head off to the country.

379
00:37:32,727 --> 00:37:34,399
We could have a party in my flat.

380
00:37:34,487 --> 00:37:36,955
- Where do we get the people?
- These are our people.

381
00:37:37,047 --> 00:37:39,277
We'd hand out the address
to lots of day patients.

382
00:37:39,367 --> 00:37:41,676
Say there's free gargle.
They bring their mates.

383
00:37:41,767 --> 00:37:44,486
Everyone wants to do something
on New Year's Eve.

384
00:37:44,567 --> 00:37:45,602
Fuck!

385
00:37:47,447 --> 00:37:50,917
No, I'm telling you.
The whole thing is fucking wanks and gays.

386
00:37:51,607 --> 00:37:55,156
- Bowling is shite.
- You shut the fuck up! I'm on the edge.

387
00:38:04,527 --> 00:38:06,245
<i>Wednesdays are visiting days.</i>

388
00:38:06,327 --> 00:38:09,160
<i>I really look forward to them</i>
<i>because my brother comes in.</i>

389
00:38:09,727 --> 00:38:11,399
<i>And he's fantastic.</i>

390
00:38:36,527 --> 00:38:39,246
I saw you with your brother today
in the garden.

391
00:38:40,207 --> 00:38:42,596
What kind of a relationship
do you have with him?

392
00:38:45,327 --> 00:38:48,763
Did you ever see that Marx Brothers sketch
where Chico was asked:

393
00:38:49,327 --> 00:38:53,798
"You love your brother, don't you?"
And he says, "No, but I'm used to him."

394
00:38:56,087 --> 00:38:59,204
- I like the Marx Brothers.
- I like the Marx Brothers, too.

395
00:39:00,527 --> 00:39:03,485
So you have a history of male depression
in your family.

396
00:39:04,087 --> 00:39:06,647
He's been giving you the old rundown,
has he?

397
00:39:06,847 --> 00:39:08,599
He's great, that Mikey.

398
00:39:09,207 --> 00:39:12,040
I have a history of male depression
in my family. So what?

399
00:39:12,127 --> 00:39:14,083
How do you think it's affected you?

400
00:39:14,807 --> 00:39:16,923
Your mother died when you were 10.

401
00:39:17,607 --> 00:39:20,121
Do you think
that's why your father killed himself?

402
00:39:21,327 --> 00:39:23,921
Or was he suffering
from hereditary depression?

403
00:39:24,007 --> 00:39:27,522
I don't know. I suppose
after all these years of loneliness...

404
00:39:27,607 --> 00:39:30,485
...he finally saw the light,
call it what you want.

405
00:39:30,687 --> 00:39:32,882
- I'm proud of him.
- What about yourself?

406
00:39:33,047 --> 00:39:34,275
On the road.

407
00:39:35,607 --> 00:39:37,006
Did you see the light?

408
00:39:37,087 --> 00:39:40,045
I don't want to talk about what you see
at a moment like that.

409
00:39:40,927 --> 00:39:42,918
It would scare the wits out of you.

410
00:39:43,607 --> 00:39:47,156
If I could describe it,
if I could do justice to it...

411
00:39:48,407 --> 00:39:50,602
...we'd all be jumping out the windows.

412
00:39:52,207 --> 00:39:55,961
<i>U</i>p until recently,
cutting yourself was enough.

413
00:39:56,447 --> 00:39:59,598
That's just a matter of letting
a little air out of the tires.

414
00:39:59,807 --> 00:40:01,399
Doesn't work anymore though.

415
00:40:02,807 --> 00:40:05,560
I can talk about this
until the cows come home, Doctor.

416
00:40:05,967 --> 00:40:09,243
I know more about the business of suicide
in my baby finger...

417
00:40:09,327 --> 00:40:12,444
...than you do in all your years of training
and Freud reading.

418
00:40:12,527 --> 00:40:14,518
I guaran-fucking-tee you that.

419
00:40:15,727 --> 00:40:17,206
I know you do.

420
00:40:29,847 --> 00:40:33,442
Have you ever heard of people,
seeing their own blood and then...

421
00:40:34,367 --> 00:40:35,720
...getting excited?

422
00:40:35,967 --> 00:40:38,037
- You mean sexually?
- Yeah.

423
00:40:38,407 --> 00:40:39,886
Yes, I've heard of it.

424
00:40:40,087 --> 00:40:41,361
Is it for real?

425
00:40:42,847 --> 00:40:44,166
Yes, it's very real.

426
00:40:47,047 --> 00:40:48,878
Why are you interested in it?

427
00:40:53,127 --> 00:40:54,446
Be careful, Jonathan.

428
00:40:55,927 --> 00:40:57,042
What do you mean?

429
00:40:58,087 --> 00:40:59,281
What I say.

430
00:41:04,287 --> 00:41:08,166
<i>Doctors discourage relationships</i>
<i>between suicidal patients in hospital.</i>

431
00:41:09,007 --> 00:41:11,396
<i>I mean,</i>
<i>you wouldn't fucking blame them, but...</i>

432
00:41:11,567 --> 00:41:13,683
<i>Well, they go along with them</i>
<i>up to a point.</i>

433
00:41:13,767 --> 00:41:16,486
<i>But once either party</i>
<i>becomes seriously attached...</i>

434
00:41:16,567 --> 00:41:20,196
<i>... they become worried, because</i>
<i>when the inevitable breakup comes...</i>

435
00:41:20,607 --> 00:41:22,996
<i>... the person left behind</i>
<i>is in twice the danger.</i>

436
00:41:23,487 --> 00:41:26,445
<i>So you have to be more careful</i>
<i>with people inside...</i>

437
00:41:26,567 --> 00:41:29,764
<i>... because they take you more seriously</i>
<i>than people on the outside.</i>

438
00:41:30,207 --> 00:41:32,846
<i>You can't fuck around</i>
<i>the way you normally do.</i>

439
00:41:33,327 --> 00:41:34,396
Guess who?

440
00:41:35,287 --> 00:41:39,280
It's you. Gosh!
You know, I'm so happy to see you.

441
00:41:39,447 --> 00:41:41,677
I haven't stopped thinking
about you all day.

442
00:41:44,807 --> 00:41:49,676
So is it okay if I walk with you
through these beautiful gardens of ours?

443
00:41:50,807 --> 00:41:52,206
Sure. Why not?

444
00:41:57,007 --> 00:41:59,202
- How's the arm?
- Fine.

445
00:41:59,887 --> 00:42:01,878
- It's all bandaged up.
- Good.

446
00:42:02,607 --> 00:42:05,519
- And how's your hand?
- What about my hand?

447
00:42:05,687 --> 00:42:08,155
It was just that it kept hitting off my face.

448
00:42:08,247 --> 00:42:11,762
- I was just wondering if it was okay.
- Right.

449
00:42:12,407 --> 00:42:16,685
- Yeah, it's fine. How's your face?
- Fine. It's fine.

450
00:42:17,607 --> 00:42:21,282
We should stop talking about our wounds.
That could take all fucking day.

451
00:42:21,367 --> 00:42:25,076
Anyway, it was my ego that was bruised,
not my face.

452
00:42:25,887 --> 00:42:26,683
Why?

453
00:42:28,007 --> 00:42:29,406
Why? I don't know why.

454
00:42:32,287 --> 00:42:36,678
There's a girl in the high-security ward
who cuts open her abdomen...

455
00:42:36,767 --> 00:42:38,917
...takes her intestines out
and plays with them.

456
00:42:39,007 --> 00:42:42,158
They stitch her back up.
Week later, she does the same thing.

457
00:42:42,247 --> 00:42:45,045
She's really lovely.
Why don't you go figure her out?

458
00:42:45,127 --> 00:42:47,357
Now, you see, I haven't met her.

459
00:42:47,447 --> 00:42:50,678
And she didn't come and slap me
out of the blue for no reason.

460
00:42:50,807 --> 00:42:53,799
- I don't need your help.
- I'm not trying to help you.

461
00:42:55,487 --> 00:42:57,000
Just take care of yourself.

462
00:42:58,207 --> 00:43:00,038
You know what? Fuck it.

463
00:43:00,287 --> 00:43:03,563
You want to come up to my room
for some autoerotic asphyxiation?

464
00:43:04,647 --> 00:43:07,798
- Yeah? Now?
- Yeah. I got some hook-eye screws.

465
00:43:07,887 --> 00:43:10,685
We could hang ourselves,
I could smack you around a bit.

466
00:43:10,767 --> 00:43:13,361
- Give you a good time.
- That's a fabulous idea.

467
00:43:13,447 --> 00:43:16,439
- That'd be fun.
- Maybe tomorrow. I can't wait.

468
00:43:17,527 --> 00:43:19,802
Do you want to know
what I think we should do?

469
00:43:22,527 --> 00:43:24,597
- You want to hear it?
- Yeah. Is it dirty?

470
00:43:24,687 --> 00:43:26,325
It's disgusting.

471
00:43:28,767 --> 00:43:31,759
I think we should go sometime
and get some ice creams.

472
00:43:34,607 --> 00:43:37,485
- Just the two of us. Get some fresh air.
- Sure. Sure.

473
00:43:37,567 --> 00:43:41,560
- I'll buy you an ice cream.
- Okay. Call me. I'll be in my room.

474
00:43:46,567 --> 00:43:48,956
I'll be waiting for your call. Call me.

475
00:44:03,647 --> 00:44:06,798
<i>Myself and Toby's breakouts</i>
<i>became a regular weekly thing.</i>

476
00:44:06,887 --> 00:44:08,684
<i>He'd always take me with him.</i>

477
00:44:09,887 --> 00:44:12,037
<i>We both agreed</i>
<i>that a big Christmas party...</i>

478
00:44:12,127 --> 00:44:14,322
<i>... outside the hospital</i>
<i>was an excellent idea.</i>

479
00:44:15,887 --> 00:44:18,082
<i>Toby decided to take a trial run.</i>

480
00:44:20,967 --> 00:44:24,755
<i>He swore that he could hot-wire any car</i>
<i>in under 10 seconds.</i>

481
00:44:33,207 --> 00:44:35,004
It's fucking beautiful, isn't it?

482
00:44:37,287 --> 00:44:39,403
Let me tell you something
about my brother.

483
00:44:42,167 --> 00:44:44,761
He was in the hospital for a month
after the accident.

484
00:44:44,847 --> 00:44:47,236
He was just wasting away.

485
00:44:47,767 --> 00:44:50,804
We all knew he was dying.
He was on a machine and everything.

486
00:44:51,607 --> 00:44:55,361
I think if I'd lost anyone else,
it wouldn't have been so bad.

487
00:44:56,327 --> 00:45:01,003
I think I can handle death
and missing people, and that.

488
00:45:03,487 --> 00:45:07,002
What I don't understand
is that there were a few basic...

489
00:45:07,327 --> 00:45:10,364
...simple things I wished
I could have told him before he went.

490
00:45:10,927 --> 00:45:12,645
Like the fact that I loved him.

491
00:45:14,007 --> 00:45:17,158
And that I never went a day
without thinking about him...

492
00:45:17,847 --> 00:45:19,678
...or talking about him to people.

493
00:45:21,767 --> 00:45:24,327
And since then,
the image that sticks in my head...

494
00:45:24,767 --> 00:45:27,156
...is that over the month in the hospital...

495
00:45:28,047 --> 00:45:31,039
...I couldn't get it together enough
to tell him those things.

496
00:45:33,607 --> 00:45:35,723
I always thought I'd say them in the end.

497
00:45:39,647 --> 00:45:43,720
And one night, the nurse brought him in
a cup of tea and he had a few sips of it.

498
00:45:44,487 --> 00:45:47,479
And I went out to the toilets.

499
00:45:50,647 --> 00:45:52,126
And when I came back in...

500
00:45:54,127 --> 00:45:55,355
...he was a dead man.

501
00:46:01,247 --> 00:46:04,239
All the family and friends around him,
and all the tears and...

502
00:46:09,047 --> 00:46:11,038
My elbow touched off his cup.

503
00:46:13,607 --> 00:46:15,563
And there was still heat in it.

504
00:46:18,927 --> 00:46:22,681
And that, it totally fucked me up,
you know.

505
00:46:24,847 --> 00:46:26,439
I mean, the idea...

506
00:46:30,007 --> 00:46:31,759
It was his tea, you know.

507
00:46:34,407 --> 00:46:36,637
It was his tea, and it was still warm, and...

508
00:46:39,207 --> 00:46:40,799
It had outlived him.

509
00:46:45,287 --> 00:46:46,766
It was his tea.

510
00:46:57,967 --> 00:47:00,640
A plane is coming
into Dublin Airport there.

511
00:47:03,447 --> 00:47:04,766
Full of people.

512
00:47:07,287 --> 00:47:08,959
I wonder if it'll crash now.

513
00:47:15,007 --> 00:47:16,326
Safe and sound.

514
00:47:19,887 --> 00:47:21,525
Fuck, I'm sorry.

515
00:47:21,607 --> 00:47:23,882
I don't know why I'm talking about this.

516
00:47:24,447 --> 00:47:27,280
We'll go back.
It's fucking freezing in here anyway.

517
00:47:51,807 --> 00:47:53,081
Wanks!

518
00:48:02,327 --> 00:48:05,683
Hey, pal, give it up, will you?
You're embarrassing yourself.

519
00:48:06,007 --> 00:48:08,885
I'm getting better, lads.
Don't worry. Wanker.

520
00:48:10,047 --> 00:48:11,844
Are you trying to start a fight?

521
00:48:12,887 --> 00:48:14,161
Chill out, honey.

522
00:48:14,727 --> 00:48:17,400
What are you, a homosexual or something?

523
00:48:19,727 --> 00:48:21,479
No more than you're a dickhead.

524
00:48:22,527 --> 00:48:25,087
You're distracting us,
you northern fuck, you.

525
00:48:25,167 --> 00:48:27,727
We're trying to play here,
and you're fooling around.

526
00:48:27,807 --> 00:48:29,604
You're in my fucking peripherals.

527
00:48:29,687 --> 00:48:31,962
Mind your own business.
He's not bothering you.

528
00:48:32,047 --> 00:48:34,277
Shut the fuck up, you ugly mutt, you.

529
00:48:35,407 --> 00:48:36,965
What did you say to her?

530
00:48:38,927 --> 00:48:40,724
Forget it, Toby. Just bowl.

531
00:48:44,687 --> 00:48:46,200
You're a wise man.

532
00:48:57,287 --> 00:49:01,166
It's a fucking strike!
Did you see that? That strike.

533
00:49:01,727 --> 00:49:04,480
You're going to have to die for that now,
you prick!

534
00:49:06,047 --> 00:49:09,676
What's your problem? Do you want
to fucking get involved in this too?

535
00:49:09,807 --> 00:49:13,163
If you want to get at him, you're going
to have to go through me first.

536
00:49:13,247 --> 00:49:16,159
But bear with me,
while I try and explain something to you.

537
00:49:19,887 --> 00:49:23,482
Come on. Come on.
Give it to me in the fucking neck.

538
00:49:23,967 --> 00:49:26,356
But listen very carefully first before you do.

539
00:49:27,527 --> 00:49:31,759
Whatever you do to me,
I'll have enough energy to come back...

540
00:49:31,847 --> 00:49:33,246
...and get one in at you.

541
00:49:34,287 --> 00:49:37,996
And as sure as I'm standing here,
I don't give a fuck what happens to me.

542
00:49:39,287 --> 00:49:41,357
You'd better kill me with your first shot.

543
00:49:41,447 --> 00:49:44,325
If you don't, I'll come back
and take your fucking head off.

544
00:49:45,807 --> 00:49:48,037
Give it to me in the fucking neck.
Come on.

545
00:49:48,767 --> 00:49:50,246
Come on, you wanker!

546
00:49:54,487 --> 00:49:59,117
Dean, leave it. He's from the hospital.

547
00:50:07,647 --> 00:50:08,921
Yeah.

548
00:50:20,567 --> 00:50:23,206
Jonathan, come here a second.

549
00:50:39,567 --> 00:50:42,604
- That was a close call.
- I suppose.

550
00:50:44,047 --> 00:50:45,560
What if he'd gone for you?

551
00:50:47,047 --> 00:50:49,163
Doctor, he'd have been doing me a favor.

552
00:50:50,567 --> 00:50:51,966
You're trembling.

553
00:50:53,487 --> 00:50:56,285
Do you really believe that,
or are you just saying it?

554
00:50:59,527 --> 00:51:00,926
I felt it at the time.

555
00:51:01,847 --> 00:51:02,962
What about now?

556
00:51:10,367 --> 00:51:12,437
Isn't it a relief to be alive?

557
00:52:14,287 --> 00:52:17,836
- How's it going?
- It's good. How are you?

558
00:52:19,287 --> 00:52:20,515
I'm okay.

559
00:52:23,007 --> 00:52:25,726
- I wrote another poem, you know.
- Yeah?

560
00:52:26,847 --> 00:52:29,281
- I like your poetry.
- Thanks a million.

561
00:52:30,127 --> 00:52:32,004
- Do you want to hear it?
- Yeah.

562
00:52:40,767 --> 00:52:42,678
It's called <i>The Demons</i>.

563
00:52:49,167 --> 00:52:51,237
"Deep within these flesh walls

564
00:52:51,487 --> 00:52:53,682
"A raging monster screams

565
00:52:54,847 --> 00:52:56,963
"The pain is felt when I'm asleep

566
00:52:57,327 --> 00:52:59,158
"And fills my every dreams

567
00:53:00,567 --> 00:53:02,523
"To overcome the demon within

568
00:53:02,967 --> 00:53:04,719
"I found a light that shone

569
00:53:05,727 --> 00:53:08,241
"And called out loud and guided me

570
00:53:09,167 --> 00:53:11,442
"That light inspired me on

571
00:53:12,927 --> 00:53:15,202
"When darkness falls across mine eye

572
00:53:16,047 --> 00:53:17,765
"A light within does shine

573
00:53:18,927 --> 00:53:21,202
"And helps me when the demon screams

574
00:53:21,367 --> 00:53:22,800
"That light to me

575
00:53:23,847 --> 00:53:25,200
"sublime"

576
00:53:27,807 --> 00:53:29,035
That's it.

577
00:53:32,607 --> 00:53:34,757
- What do you think of it?
- I like it.

578
00:53:35,327 --> 00:53:37,636
- It's good.
- It's not bad.

579
00:53:42,887 --> 00:53:44,240
Is it for me?

580
00:53:46,887 --> 00:53:48,525
Not necessarily.

581
00:53:58,967 --> 00:54:01,640
I'm going to the toilets.
I'll see you around.

582
00:54:13,007 --> 00:54:14,804
I didn't really have to go.

583
00:54:22,047 --> 00:54:25,926
I hope I didn't pressure you in the past.

584
00:54:27,847 --> 00:54:29,678
No. I mean...

585
00:54:31,327 --> 00:54:33,283
You're not like that, you know.

586
00:54:35,047 --> 00:54:38,084
You're what my mom
would call "a perfect gentleman."

587
00:54:42,367 --> 00:54:43,436
Come here.

588
00:55:07,367 --> 00:55:08,720
I'll see you around.

589
00:55:19,927 --> 00:55:21,406
- Hi.
- Hi, there.

590
00:55:22,327 --> 00:55:25,000
- Were you out for the day?
- Yeah. I was with my dad.

591
00:55:25,167 --> 00:55:26,361
How is your dad?

592
00:55:27,847 --> 00:55:29,200
What are you doing later?

593
00:55:31,207 --> 00:55:32,879
Think I'll catch a show.

594
00:55:34,647 --> 00:55:37,207
- Do you know where my room is?
- Yes, I do.

595
00:55:48,367 --> 00:55:49,482
How was today?

596
00:55:51,847 --> 00:55:52,836
It was fine.

597
00:55:54,727 --> 00:55:56,479
I didn't enjoy it really.

598
00:55:57,287 --> 00:55:58,925
Your dad, how was he?

599
00:56:00,327 --> 00:56:02,363
I don't know. I don't understand him.

600
00:56:05,127 --> 00:56:07,197
We went home for lunch today.

601
00:56:10,527 --> 00:56:12,802
I haven't been there in ages.

602
00:56:15,847 --> 00:56:17,246
There are these cliffs...

603
00:56:18,687 --> 00:56:20,279
...10 minutes from my house.

604
00:56:21,247 --> 00:56:23,124
<i>U</i>sed to go there when I was a kid.

605
00:56:25,047 --> 00:56:29,484
Last time I was there I was 7
and had a picnic with my mom.

606
00:56:32,847 --> 00:56:34,485
It was nice and sunny.

607
00:56:36,367 --> 00:56:39,359
We took a nap on the blanket,
I had my head on her stomach...

608
00:56:39,447 --> 00:56:42,325
...and I could feel it moving up and down
with her breath.

609
00:56:44,407 --> 00:56:47,240
We decided to go home.

610
00:56:48,447 --> 00:56:50,324
She wanted to walk along the cliffs.

611
00:56:53,487 --> 00:56:54,886
I don't know. She just...

612
00:56:59,287 --> 00:57:01,118
...lost her footing.

613
00:57:02,487 --> 00:57:04,921
She just went over.

614
00:57:09,127 --> 00:57:11,516
No sound, no scream.

615
00:57:16,007 --> 00:57:17,406
And I looked over...

616
00:57:17,767 --> 00:57:21,965
...and I could see her on the rocks below,
all curled up like she was taking a nap.

617
00:57:31,127 --> 00:57:34,164
Nowadays I have this dream
that I'm back at the cliff...

618
00:57:35,327 --> 00:57:39,957
...and I'm looking down,
and I can see her curled up...

619
00:57:41,807 --> 00:57:43,604
...still there, sleeping.

620
00:57:46,887 --> 00:57:48,559
<i>And I want to get down to her.</i>

621
00:57:50,487 --> 00:57:52,079
<i>But I can't figure out how.</i>

622
00:57:57,207 --> 00:57:59,641
<i>Then I reali</i>z<i>e I could just jump.</i>

623
00:58:03,567 --> 00:58:05,285
So I jump.

624
00:58:06,887 --> 00:58:08,798
But it's not like falling. It's...

625
00:58:10,047 --> 00:58:11,799
I just float down.

626
00:58:14,607 --> 00:58:18,885
And then I'm with her,
and I have my head on her stomach.

627
00:58:23,287 --> 00:58:24,845
<i>And I can feel her breathing.</i>

628
00:58:26,567 --> 00:58:27,556
<i>And it's...</i>

629
00:58:29,007 --> 00:58:30,884
<i>It's so warm and nice.</i>

630
00:58:34,207 --> 00:58:37,882
And then everything just fades away.

631
00:58:50,367 --> 00:58:52,244
And where was your dad that day?

632
00:58:54,927 --> 00:58:56,326
I don't know.

633
00:58:58,287 --> 00:58:59,606
I think, work.

634
00:59:04,767 --> 00:59:06,166
He blames himself?

635
00:59:08,447 --> 00:59:09,596
I don't know.

636
00:59:12,767 --> 00:59:16,521
You know, he loved her so much.

637
00:59:18,887 --> 00:59:21,685
A daughter is a poor substitute for a wife.

638
00:59:23,807 --> 00:59:26,401
You couldn't be a poor substitute
for anyone.

639
00:59:29,647 --> 00:59:30,636
Thanks.

640
00:59:33,927 --> 00:59:35,883
It's nice of you to say.

641
00:59:39,767 --> 00:59:43,316
You should go back to your room now.
They do a walk-around at midnight.

642
00:59:48,487 --> 00:59:49,636
I'll see you.

643
00:59:50,367 --> 00:59:51,846
I could talk to you, though.

644
00:59:52,727 --> 00:59:53,842
Yeah?

645
00:59:55,927 --> 00:59:56,882
Good night.

646
01:00:03,047 --> 01:00:05,117
- What does that mean?
- It means:

647
01:00:05,407 --> 01:00:07,875
"Say your prayers and sleep well," in Irish.

648
01:00:08,487 --> 01:00:09,522
It's nice.

649
01:00:10,167 --> 01:00:12,283
My dad used to say that to me every night.

650
01:00:13,567 --> 01:00:14,636
Do you miss him?

651
01:00:15,527 --> 01:00:17,165
I miss him saying that to me.

652
01:00:17,407 --> 01:00:18,442
You miss him.

653
01:00:19,367 --> 01:00:21,881
Not as much as you do,
by the sounds of that dream.

654
01:00:27,527 --> 01:00:28,721
Good night.

655
01:01:32,367 --> 01:01:34,835
<i>All good escape plans</i>
<i>start by acquiring the wheels.</i>

656
01:01:34,927 --> 01:01:36,963
<i>Something fast and discreet.</i>

657
01:01:38,207 --> 01:01:41,040
<i>Rachel suggested her dad's house</i>
<i>as a venue for our party.</i>

658
01:01:41,127 --> 01:01:43,516
<i>He'd be away,</i>
<i>so we'd have the run of the place.</i>

659
01:01:43,927 --> 01:01:46,157
<i>By giving out the address</i>
<i>to the day patients...</i>

660
01:01:46,247 --> 01:01:48,761
<i>... news of the party</i>
<i>would spread like wildfire.</i>

661
01:01:56,967 --> 01:02:00,277
- What's the story? Who we waiting for?
- Our hostess for the evening.

662
01:02:00,367 --> 01:02:02,437
She said she'd bunk out around 10:00.

663
01:02:27,247 --> 01:02:30,557
<i>We spiked the guard's flask</i>
<i>with a cocktail of stolen medication.</i>

664
01:02:31,447 --> 01:02:32,846
Happy New Year.

665
01:03:18,687 --> 01:03:20,598
Come on. Let's go for a downer.

666
01:03:22,087 --> 01:03:24,123
- There's something I want to say.
- Yeah?

667
01:03:24,207 --> 01:03:25,845
I'm totally pissed, so...

668
01:03:26,247 --> 01:03:30,286
Fuck it. I'm just going to say it.
I've regretted not saying things in the past.

669
01:03:30,887 --> 01:03:34,766
I just want to say that,
although we have some shite in common...

670
01:03:35,767 --> 01:03:37,758
...you're not in my ballpark.

671
01:03:38,927 --> 01:03:40,360
That's all I want to say.

672
01:03:40,887 --> 01:03:44,084
- What are you fucking talking about?
- I just wanted to say that.

673
01:03:45,127 --> 01:03:47,197
You're not what people think you are.

674
01:03:47,767 --> 01:03:50,645
I mean, you're not even close. I'm close.

675
01:03:51,007 --> 01:03:55,159
I'm everything they say I am.
I am the genuine fucking article.

676
01:03:56,647 --> 01:03:58,558
I am telling you now.

677
01:04:00,207 --> 01:04:04,325
Don't get fucking cornered
by other people...

678
01:04:04,767 --> 01:04:07,600
...and what they expect you to do,
you know.

679
01:04:10,447 --> 01:04:12,642
- I'm drunk.
- You are.

680
01:04:12,887 --> 01:04:16,402
That's all I've got to say.
You're the fucking man.

681
01:04:17,167 --> 01:04:19,840
You're the fucking man.
Fuck the begrudgers.

682
01:04:20,407 --> 01:04:22,716
- You know, just fuck them.
- Fuck them.

683
01:04:25,527 --> 01:04:27,324
Let's go bring in the New Year.

684
01:04:27,567 --> 01:04:29,842
- You're the fucking man.
- You're the fucking man.

685
01:04:29,927 --> 01:04:31,280
You are the fucking man.

686
01:06:14,047 --> 01:06:16,607
- Why won't you kiss me?
- I am.

687
01:06:24,367 --> 01:06:26,005
Why won't you kiss me properly?

688
01:06:27,287 --> 01:06:28,720
Because I'm unusual.

689
01:06:33,727 --> 01:06:34,955
You don't want me?

690
01:06:35,727 --> 01:06:39,197
Listen to me. I want to make love to you.

691
01:06:39,927 --> 01:06:42,043
I'd just like to start with a proper kiss.

692
01:08:00,687 --> 01:08:02,598
Ten, nine...

693
01:08:03,687 --> 01:08:04,722
...eight...

694
01:08:05,247 --> 01:08:10,241
...seven, six, five, four...

695
01:08:23,967 --> 01:08:26,925
<i>You can never know</i>
<i>what was going through a person's mind...</i>

696
01:08:27,007 --> 01:08:28,326
<i>... at that exact moment.</i>

697
01:08:30,207 --> 01:08:32,357
<i>If they survive, they'll never tell you.</i>

698
01:08:32,807 --> 01:08:36,720
<i>If they succeed, all you can do</i>
<i>is spend the rest of your life guilty...</i>

699
01:08:36,967 --> 01:08:39,640
<i>... because it might have had</i>
<i>something to do with you.</i>

700
01:08:40,167 --> 01:08:42,920
<i>Your only concern can be</i>
<i>for the people they leave behind.</i>

701
01:08:43,167 --> 01:08:44,919
<i>They're the ones to look out for.</i>

702
01:11:01,447 --> 01:11:03,358
And what is Rachel's dad going to do?

703
01:11:05,087 --> 01:11:06,645
I don't know. We'll see.

704
01:11:09,967 --> 01:11:11,764
She's so vulnerable.

705
01:11:19,887 --> 01:11:21,718
What's going to happen to her, Doc?

706
01:11:22,927 --> 01:11:24,519
What's going to happen to you?

707
01:11:29,047 --> 01:11:31,322
I can only help people who are really sick.

708
01:11:33,287 --> 01:11:35,403
Even then, half the time it doesn't work.

709
01:11:38,967 --> 01:11:40,559
Who's going to help you?

710
01:11:53,887 --> 01:11:55,525
What are you looking at?

711
01:11:56,767 --> 01:11:57,995
Nothing.

712
01:11:58,087 --> 01:12:00,681
Are you blind?
You have to be looking at something.

713
01:12:02,887 --> 01:12:04,798
I know what's going on in your mind.

714
01:12:06,127 --> 01:12:07,685
- Do you?
- Yes.

715
01:12:10,807 --> 01:12:13,685
What are you hanging around here for,
standing at windows?

716
01:12:16,527 --> 01:12:20,406
Anyway, this is my window really.

717
01:12:21,247 --> 01:12:22,965
Everyone knows that.

718
01:12:27,647 --> 01:12:29,319
I've been here for years.

719
01:12:56,767 --> 01:12:59,361
Security? There's a young guy,
just stolen a bike.

720
01:12:59,447 --> 01:13:02,120
He'll be heading for the main gate
in a minute or two.

721
01:13:03,287 --> 01:13:04,606
Yeah, a push bike.

722
01:13:06,727 --> 01:13:10,037
He's wearing a green coat and a hat.

723
01:13:14,727 --> 01:13:16,797
Let him through. Okay?

724
01:13:44,807 --> 01:13:46,445
It's beautiful here.

725
01:13:53,767 --> 01:13:55,723
You can't take this all on your own.

726
01:13:59,807 --> 01:14:01,559
So are you all good now?

727
01:14:04,687 --> 01:14:07,759
Too many near-death experiences.
You're beginning to think twice.

728
01:14:26,807 --> 01:14:28,479
Do you want to know the truth?

729
01:14:30,807 --> 01:14:34,322
If it's a matter of life and death
between people like you and me...

730
01:14:37,287 --> 01:14:39,118
...then I want to outlive you.

731
01:14:42,127 --> 01:14:44,277
And I want to see what happens to you...

732
01:14:46,367 --> 01:14:47,766
...because I like you.

733
01:14:50,687 --> 01:14:51,915
I can't.

734
01:14:55,807 --> 01:14:57,923
What if we are still together in a year?

735
01:15:00,167 --> 01:15:01,316
Would we be?

736
01:15:03,167 --> 01:15:04,919
I see it happening.

737
01:15:13,327 --> 01:15:15,079
I don't know.

738
01:15:19,167 --> 01:15:20,805
So, you think you love me?

739
01:15:23,527 --> 01:15:24,721
I know I love you.

740
01:18:05,207 --> 01:18:27,198
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