1 00:00:17,784 --> 00:00:22,255 What do you do when your friends think you�re the boy who cried wolf? 2 00:00:28,562 --> 00:00:33,566 Matt Kellner had gone missing in the dead of night sometime in September of 1981. 3 00:00:33,567 --> 00:00:35,602 4 00:00:36,670 --> 00:00:41,107 But oddly, no one in my social circle was that concerned about it. 5 00:00:42,776 --> 00:00:46,580 Looking back, I realize that�s the gift of youth. 6 00:00:47,548 --> 00:00:49,649 You think you�ll live forever. 7 00:00:49,650 --> 00:00:52,786 I bet Matt moved to Big Sur to deal drugs, get out of the LA rat race. 8 00:00:52,787 --> 00:00:54,653 I agree. 9 00:00:54,654 --> 00:00:56,388 I mean, who wouldn�t? I hear the Esalen Institute�s amazing. 10 00:00:56,389 --> 00:00:58,125 What? 11 00:00:58,325 --> 00:01:00,194 That�s lunacy. What about the blood-stained backpack they found? 12 00:01:00,393 --> 00:01:04,965 Hon, I love you, but why are you so drawn to worst-case scenarios? 13 00:01:05,131 --> 00:01:06,766 You didn�t even know him. 14 00:01:06,767 --> 00:01:09,302 Don�t mourn a death that hasn�t officially happened. 15 00:01:09,569 --> 00:01:12,739 - Can we talk about happier things? - Please. I need a cig. 16 00:01:12,740 --> 00:01:13,974 17 00:01:15,275 --> 00:01:20,347 But then came October 1st, the so-called first day of spooky season. 18 00:01:23,650 --> 00:01:28,388 October 1st was officially The Day the Fun Died. 19 00:01:31,324 --> 00:01:34,861 Because that�s the day The Trawler got Really Rhonda. 20 00:01:34,862 --> 00:01:36,763 21 00:01:45,705 --> 00:01:47,140 22 00:01:47,807 --> 00:01:51,245 Really Rhonda was in our class, and everyone loved her. 23 00:01:51,778 --> 00:01:53,980 Everyone thought she was hilarious. 24 00:01:53,981 --> 00:01:57,783 Her father was a big ICM agent who represented Sally Kellerman. 25 00:01:57,784 --> 00:01:59,719 He paid the school a handsome fee every year 26 00:01:59,720 --> 00:02:01,922 to assure that Rhonda would be assimilated 27 00:02:02,088 --> 00:02:06,092 and not locked away in the dungeon that was a special needs class. 28 00:02:09,429 --> 00:02:13,466 If X and B are both positive real numbers... 29 00:02:13,567 --> 00:02:15,335 Today we would understand 30 00:02:15,336 --> 00:02:17,938 that Rhonda suffered from a neurological condition, 31 00:02:18,104 --> 00:02:21,541 but back then we just thought she was darkly and convulsively... 32 00:02:24,544 --> 00:02:26,180 - - ...impulsive. 33 00:02:26,313 --> 00:02:28,315 - - Rhonda, please stop it. 34 00:02:28,682 --> 00:02:30,817 I wanna fuck Chewbacca, motherfucker. 35 00:02:30,818 --> 00:02:32,752 - And a real truth teller. - 36 00:02:33,019 --> 00:02:36,389 - Rhonda, do you want detention? - Um... 37 00:02:39,226 --> 00:02:41,394 George Washington sucks cocks in hell, motherfucker! 38 00:02:41,395 --> 00:02:43,663 Suck it, lick it, fucking ass-face! Fuck. 39 00:02:43,664 --> 00:02:47,568 - - Really, Rhonda? Really? 40 00:02:49,035 --> 00:02:52,339 And from that moment on, that�s what we all called her. 41 00:02:53,907 --> 00:02:55,408 Really Rhonda. 42 00:02:59,346 --> 00:03:01,648 43 00:03:05,585 --> 00:03:08,388 I always felt an affection for Rhonda. 44 00:03:10,023 --> 00:03:11,724 Because during one of her outbursts, 45 00:03:11,725 --> 00:03:14,160 she could have easily told the truth about me, 46 00:03:14,161 --> 00:03:16,730 called me a fag or a gayface, 47 00:03:17,297 --> 00:03:18,598 but she was kind to me. 48 00:03:19,332 --> 00:03:22,736 I felt she purposely edited out my secret truth. 49 00:03:24,337 --> 00:03:29,309 Protected me somehow from the pubescent cruelty of the other kids. 50 00:03:39,386 --> 00:03:41,487 My favorite thing about Rhonda 51 00:03:41,488 --> 00:03:46,426 was that she would not get off the disco roller trend long after it was over. 52 00:03:46,893 --> 00:03:49,797 She just didn�t care what people thought about her. 53 00:03:50,698 --> 00:03:53,133 Can you imagine the gift of that? 54 00:03:53,333 --> 00:03:57,437 Really Rhonda is such a good skater. She�s even better than Cher. 55 00:04:29,202 --> 00:04:32,005 Disco roller skating is important to this tale, 56 00:04:32,439 --> 00:04:35,142 because that�s what she was doing when she was taken. 57 00:04:35,242 --> 00:04:37,411 [? "Don�t Stand So Close to Me" plays] 58 00:04:38,545 --> 00:04:43,684 There was only one disco roller derby place left in town in 1981. 59 00:04:44,218 --> 00:04:48,022 And Rhonda was the only patron at Wheels that night of October 1st. 60 00:04:48,756 --> 00:04:52,025 The Trawler knew that, the loneliness of the place. 61 00:04:53,426 --> 00:04:57,864 And on that night, he snatched Really Rhonda from her happy place. 62 00:04:58,031 --> 00:05:00,033 ?? Young teacher ? 63 00:05:00,200 --> 00:05:01,767 And out of all of our lives. 64 00:05:01,768 --> 00:05:03,404 ?? The subject of Schoolgirl fantasy ? 65 00:05:03,537 --> 00:05:07,273 ?? She wants him so badly ? 66 00:05:07,274 --> 00:05:10,277 ?? Knows what she wants to be ? 67 00:05:11,011 --> 00:05:14,313 ?? Inside her, there�s longing ? 68 00:05:14,314 --> 00:05:17,483 ?? This girl�s an open page ? 69 00:05:17,484 --> 00:05:20,987 ?? Bookmarking, She�s so close now ? 70 00:05:21,121 --> 00:05:23,891 ?? This girl is half his age ? 71 00:05:24,558 --> 00:05:27,794 ?? Don�t stand, don�t stand so ? 72 00:05:27,795 --> 00:05:30,797 ?? Don�t stand so close to me ? 73 00:05:31,431 --> 00:05:34,534 ?? Don�t stand, don�t stand so ? 74 00:05:34,535 --> 00:05:38,238 ?? Don�t stand so close to me ? 75 00:05:39,973 --> 00:05:43,009 ?? Her friends are so jealous ? 76 00:05:43,143 --> 00:05:46,046 ?? You know how bad girls get ? 77 00:05:46,613 --> 00:05:50,182 ?? Sometimes it�s not so easy ? 78 00:05:50,183 --> 00:05:53,219 ?? To be the teacher�s pet ? 79 00:05:53,220 --> 00:05:54,720 ?? Temptation... ? 80 00:05:54,721 --> 00:05:56,523 When Rhonda missed her curfew... 81 00:05:56,656 --> 00:05:59,726 ?? So bad it makes him cry ? 82 00:06:00,026 --> 00:06:02,263 ...her parents reported her missing. 83 00:06:02,563 --> 00:06:03,663 84 00:06:05,665 --> 00:06:08,602 85 00:06:08,969 --> 00:06:12,238 The police immediately checked out the scene at Wheels. 86 00:06:12,239 --> 00:06:14,040 - I�ll check around back. - Got it. 87 00:06:17,010 --> 00:06:19,045 And that�s when they found bloodstains. 88 00:06:19,246 --> 00:06:20,613 Over here. 89 00:06:20,614 --> 00:06:22,649 Telltale clues of a violent struggle. 90 00:06:24,317 --> 00:06:26,953 I went to the scene of the crime the next day, 91 00:06:26,954 --> 00:06:29,156 oddly, instinctively. 92 00:06:29,689 --> 00:06:33,693 The place Rhonda had joyously twirled the night before was deserted. 93 00:06:34,027 --> 00:06:40,066 The rotating disco ball, once a symbol of joy, seemed sad to me, mournful. 94 00:06:40,534 --> 00:06:44,037 Slowly twirling like a flag at half-mast 95 00:06:44,204 --> 00:06:49,042 to announce all the ends of things that 1981 had taken from us. 96 00:06:50,510 --> 00:06:51,612 Matt. 97 00:06:52,112 --> 00:06:53,380 Roller disco. 98 00:06:54,214 --> 00:06:55,482 Really Rhonda. 99 00:06:57,417 --> 00:06:59,319 And our sense of security. 100 00:07:03,958 --> 00:07:05,759 101 00:07:53,407 --> 00:07:55,675 102 00:07:55,676 --> 00:07:57,643 Please, please, help me. 103 00:07:57,644 --> 00:07:59,112 104 00:08:02,449 --> 00:08:04,251 105 00:08:07,287 --> 00:08:08,421 106 00:08:16,129 --> 00:08:17,464 107 00:08:22,402 --> 00:08:23,904 Eat it. 108 00:08:24,137 --> 00:08:25,572 109 00:08:39,252 --> 00:08:42,422 It took about three days for everything to go back to normal, 110 00:08:43,056 --> 00:08:45,325 and for everyone to forget about Matt 111 00:08:46,426 --> 00:08:47,328 and Rhonda. 112 00:08:47,527 --> 00:08:50,363 113 00:09:01,208 --> 00:09:03,075 Oh, my God. 114 00:09:03,076 --> 00:09:05,344 I love it when we skip lunch on the quad and kick it at the Hamlet. 115 00:09:05,345 --> 00:09:06,346 Yeah, me too. 116 00:09:06,546 --> 00:09:08,615 Anyone want half my lunch? 117 00:09:09,450 --> 00:09:11,218 - Ooh. - Oh. 118 00:09:13,119 --> 00:09:15,589 Okay. 119 00:09:17,123 --> 00:09:18,225 Okay, listen up. 120 00:09:18,826 --> 00:09:20,760 Don�t forget to take your Flintstones vitamins this month-- 121 00:09:20,761 --> 00:09:22,528 Or your diet pills. 122 00:09:22,529 --> 00:09:25,165 Saturday is Robert�s, and next Thursday is Dance Off! 123 00:09:25,298 --> 00:09:28,302 and no one is allowed to be hungover 124 00:09:28,435 --> 00:09:31,538 because on Sunday, we all need to practice. 125 00:09:33,473 --> 00:09:34,574 Seriously? 126 00:09:35,275 --> 00:09:37,544 That Dance Off! thing is really happening? 127 00:09:37,677 --> 00:09:39,880 Oh, my God. I thought you were joking. 128 00:09:40,780 --> 00:09:42,849 Does it look like I�m joking, Bret? 129 00:09:42,850 --> 00:09:45,585 - - 130 00:09:50,657 --> 00:09:53,527 Dance Off! was a daily televised cable access show 131 00:09:53,693 --> 00:09:57,731 that featured regular teenagers dancing to the hot hits of the day. 132 00:09:59,699 --> 00:10:01,434 Teenagers like us. 133 00:10:05,372 --> 00:10:07,473 A Los Angeles institution, 134 00:10:07,474 --> 00:10:11,745 it had its heyday in 1974 and refused to die. 135 00:10:14,281 --> 00:10:18,652 ?? Toe to toe Dancing very close ? 136 00:10:18,752 --> 00:10:21,288 Debbie had been obsessed with the idea 137 00:10:21,388 --> 00:10:24,590 ever since Corazon Cha Cha Rodriguez had gone on and held the camera�s attention 138 00:10:24,591 --> 00:10:27,227 for the length of an entire Blondie song. 139 00:10:28,062 --> 00:10:29,763 And not just any Blondie song. 140 00:10:30,063 --> 00:10:34,134 "Rapture," six minutes and 31 seconds. 141 00:10:35,169 --> 00:10:39,105 Debbie saw that hot lava fame and she wanted it for herself. 142 00:10:39,106 --> 00:10:43,342 Becoming a star was her secret ambition, but she was too cool to ever admit it. 143 00:10:43,343 --> 00:10:45,545 ?? Stepping lightly ? 144 00:10:45,546 --> 00:10:50,950 ?? Hang each night in rapture ? 145 00:10:50,951 --> 00:10:53,120 I gotta say, I hate that show. 146 00:10:53,253 --> 00:10:57,090 Okay, well, it�s a rite of passage classic in this town, and it�s happening. 147 00:10:57,290 --> 00:11:01,827 Guys, don�t you think it�s kind of a bad look to be partying on TV 148 00:11:01,828 --> 00:11:04,231 - with classmates missing? - Okay. 149 00:11:04,431 --> 00:11:08,067 Well, it�s what I want. It�s done, and you�re all coming. 150 00:11:08,068 --> 00:11:11,304 You�re welcome. 151 00:11:12,405 --> 00:11:14,306 Okay, so that�s it then? 152 00:11:14,307 --> 00:11:17,878 We just don�t care anymore about Rhonda or Matt? 153 00:11:18,144 --> 00:11:20,981 Look, Bret, I�m not trying to speak for the group here, 154 00:11:21,114 --> 00:11:22,915 but I�m gonna speak for the group. 155 00:11:22,916 --> 00:11:25,784 - Rhonda and Matt what�s-his-face-- - Kellner. 156 00:11:25,785 --> 00:11:28,689 They�re missing. They haven�t been declared dead. 157 00:11:29,289 --> 00:11:30,624 Maybe they ran away. 158 00:11:32,192 --> 00:11:34,161 Oh, Bret, before I forget, 159 00:11:34,394 --> 00:11:37,464 do you want to go shopping with me after school for homecoming? 160 00:11:37,764 --> 00:11:39,866 - Tuxedo Warehouse? - Tuxedo Warehouse? 161 00:11:40,700 --> 00:11:42,970 - Is it too, uh... - You guys have that on the coast? 162 00:11:43,136 --> 00:11:44,604 ...I don�t know, GQ? 163 00:11:46,239 --> 00:11:49,142 I think maybe not GQ enough. 164 00:11:49,342 --> 00:11:50,543 165 00:11:50,544 --> 00:11:52,879 Homecoming. I don�t even want to go. 166 00:11:53,046 --> 00:11:56,916 What do you mean you don�t wanna go? W-Why do you keep saying that repeatedly? 167 00:11:56,917 --> 00:11:58,752 You have to go. 168 00:11:58,753 --> 00:12:01,021 You and Thom are totally gonna win homecoming king and queen. 169 00:12:01,121 --> 00:12:03,290 Aren�t we a little old for homecoming? 170 00:12:03,423 --> 00:12:04,858 I would agree with that. 171 00:12:05,125 --> 00:12:07,726 Homecoming feels like a word that�s, you know, 172 00:12:07,727 --> 00:12:10,696 partial to overweight Midwesterners 173 00:12:10,697 --> 00:12:15,301 who make floats out of toilet paper scraps and suffer from gout. 174 00:12:15,302 --> 00:12:17,170 175 00:12:18,405 --> 00:12:20,941 It�s not like I even have an outfit. 176 00:12:21,408 --> 00:12:23,309 You know what you would look great in? 177 00:12:23,310 --> 00:12:27,381 A simple black slip dress, something fresh, modern. 178 00:12:27,514 --> 00:12:29,616 - Hmm. - No jewelry. 179 00:12:29,617 --> 00:12:31,318 Just d�colletage. 180 00:12:33,220 --> 00:12:34,455 D�colletage? 181 00:12:34,554 --> 00:12:36,690 Maybe we should cancel the party too, you know. 182 00:12:36,790 --> 00:12:39,026 It�s Robert�s big welcome party, Bret. 183 00:12:39,159 --> 00:12:40,794 It�s my big welcome party, Bret. 184 00:12:41,027 --> 00:12:43,496 It�s gonna be like Capote�s Black and White Ball. 185 00:12:43,497 --> 00:12:46,466 I�m so excited, thrilled. 186 00:12:47,034 --> 00:12:48,401 Et cetera. 187 00:12:54,040 --> 00:12:55,108 Bret�s right. 188 00:12:55,308 --> 00:12:56,710 We should do something. 189 00:12:57,911 --> 00:12:59,445 Maybe we should post flyers. 190 00:12:59,446 --> 00:13:02,216 That�s a great idea. Do something proactive. 191 00:13:02,716 --> 00:13:05,151 Why don�t me and you do it together, Susan? 192 00:13:08,722 --> 00:13:10,624 193 00:13:12,292 --> 00:13:14,294 Waitress, some more fries, please. 194 00:13:16,296 --> 00:13:21,202 We�re asking anyone with information about Rhonda to please come forward. 195 00:13:21,669 --> 00:13:23,070 You won�t be in trouble. 196 00:13:23,670 --> 00:13:27,707 The only way we�re gonna find these kids is if we look. 197 00:13:28,809 --> 00:13:30,443 Or if they show up. 198 00:13:31,678 --> 00:13:33,013 Right. 199 00:13:35,248 --> 00:13:39,086 All of us have been haunted by the story of Etan Patz, 200 00:13:39,286 --> 00:13:43,490 six-year-old boy who disappeared outside his home in SoHo, New York. 201 00:13:43,924 --> 00:13:45,658 Was he kidnapped? 202 00:13:45,659 --> 00:13:46,927 Was he murdered? 203 00:13:47,227 --> 00:13:48,595 We don�t know. 204 00:13:49,630 --> 00:13:51,330 What we do know 205 00:13:51,331 --> 00:13:54,233 is that because his picture appeared on every milk carton in America, 206 00:13:54,234 --> 00:13:59,172 his face is burned into the minds of the people who are going to bring him home. 207 00:14:01,274 --> 00:14:05,479 That is why we are handing out bottles of Really Rhonda water 208 00:14:06,146 --> 00:14:07,980 to increase awareness-- 209 00:14:07,981 --> 00:14:09,650 - And hydration. - 210 00:14:10,351 --> 00:14:15,188 If you can�t find a Perrier, reach for a Really Rhonda bottled water. 211 00:14:16,590 --> 00:14:19,759 Thanks again to Rhonda�s dad and all the heroes at ICM 212 00:14:19,760 --> 00:14:25,332 for sponsoring our flyer, hydration, and the Rescue Rhonda Fund. 213 00:14:26,199 --> 00:14:27,400 Bravo, ICM. 214 00:14:35,308 --> 00:14:37,711 Now, AV club, hit it. 215 00:14:38,612 --> 00:14:41,080 216 00:14:41,081 --> 00:14:42,983 Zero mention of Matt. 217 00:14:43,416 --> 00:14:45,886 - Unbelievable. - I�m sure they�ll get to him. 218 00:14:46,253 --> 00:14:50,656 I think the line of awareness products for Matt Kellner could be historic. 219 00:14:50,657 --> 00:14:50,689 I think the line of awareness products for Matt Kellner could be historic. "Bring Matt Home" pencils. 220 00:14:50,690 --> 00:14:52,626 "Bring Matt Home" pencils. 221 00:14:52,759 --> 00:14:55,262 "Where Is Matt?" terry cloth come rags. 222 00:14:55,462 --> 00:14:57,663 It�s not funny, Thom. 223 00:14:57,664 --> 00:14:59,298 I know, 224 00:14:59,299 --> 00:15:01,400 but my dad used to tell me to look on the sunny side, 225 00:15:01,401 --> 00:15:03,437 and that�s what I�m trying to do for you. 226 00:15:03,570 --> 00:15:06,005 ?? It wouldn�t take much time ? 227 00:15:06,006 --> 00:15:08,440 ?? For you to help me, Rhonda ? 228 00:15:08,441 --> 00:15:09,876 ? Help me get her Out of my heart ? 229 00:15:10,043 --> 00:15:12,279 What are you wearing? 230 00:15:12,679 --> 00:15:13,847 Kouros. 231 00:15:14,014 --> 00:15:16,149 It smells so sexy. 232 00:15:17,117 --> 00:15:18,218 Thanks. 233 00:15:19,185 --> 00:15:20,286 It�s for men. 234 00:15:20,287 --> 00:15:22,489 Yeah, you can really tell. 235 00:15:22,490 --> 00:15:25,359 - Hi. For Rhonda. Rescue Rhonda. - Help Rhonda. 236 00:15:25,859 --> 00:15:27,726 - Let�s bring her home. - If she wanted to, 237 00:15:27,727 --> 00:15:30,397 she could be such a slut. 238 00:15:31,097 --> 00:15:32,633 There�s nothing stopping her. 239 00:15:33,267 --> 00:15:35,302 I�ve always admired that. 240 00:15:36,369 --> 00:15:38,205 You�re a really good friend. 241 00:15:40,040 --> 00:15:41,741 I am. 242 00:15:41,742 --> 00:15:45,545 ?? She was gonna be my wife And I was gonna be her man ? 243 00:15:47,581 --> 00:15:50,349 ?? But she let another guy Come between us ? 244 00:15:50,350 --> 00:15:52,686 ?? And it ruined our plan ? 245 00:15:54,155 --> 00:15:56,323 It�s sparkling, like Rhonda. 246 00:15:57,291 --> 00:15:59,826 You are really gunning for homecoming. 247 00:16:00,026 --> 00:16:01,528 That�s not what this is. 248 00:16:02,662 --> 00:16:06,600 God, Thom, it�s the �80s. Don�t be so cynical. 249 00:16:11,338 --> 00:16:12,973 250 00:16:13,240 --> 00:16:16,309 ?? Help me, Rhonda Help, help me, Rhonda ? 251 00:16:22,649 --> 00:16:24,751 252 00:16:35,562 --> 00:16:37,130 253 00:16:49,276 --> 00:16:51,145 So tell me what your script is about. 254 00:16:51,578 --> 00:16:54,680 Oh, I dropped the treatment off with Steven. Did he not-- 255 00:16:54,681 --> 00:16:56,982 Oh, yeah, I received it. I read it. 256 00:16:56,983 --> 00:16:59,085 Steven loves it, by the way. 257 00:17:00,153 --> 00:17:01,355 258 00:17:02,155 --> 00:17:04,224 I just don�t know what it�s about. 259 00:17:05,125 --> 00:17:07,594 I-I mean, why this story? Why now? 260 00:17:07,961 --> 00:17:12,098 Well, the character is me. 261 00:17:12,799 --> 00:17:14,935 A version of me anyway. 262 00:17:15,101 --> 00:17:17,537 - His name is Bret Ellis. - Hmm. 263 00:17:19,039 --> 00:17:21,075 Well, that makes it interesting to you. 264 00:17:21,442 --> 00:17:23,476 That doesn�t make it interesting to others. 265 00:17:24,778 --> 00:17:29,649 Listen, every great movie ever made is about loss. 266 00:17:30,217 --> 00:17:35,120 The loss of love, friendship, innocence, ideals, personal injury lawsuit. 267 00:17:35,121 --> 00:17:37,424 So what has Bret Ellis lost? 268 00:17:41,528 --> 00:17:43,563 Like, um... 269 00:17:45,432 --> 00:17:46,766 my virginity? 270 00:17:48,869 --> 00:17:50,204 Speak on that. 271 00:17:50,437 --> 00:17:51,672 272 00:17:52,039 --> 00:17:53,340 Where are we going? 273 00:17:54,074 --> 00:17:57,178 Secret street. Connects Beverly Hills to the Valley. 274 00:17:57,310 --> 00:17:59,512 I thought that was just an urban legend. 275 00:17:59,513 --> 00:18:02,549 No, not an urban legend, a suburban fact. 276 00:18:03,083 --> 00:18:06,754 And only three people that I know of have the combination to the gates. 277 00:18:07,187 --> 00:18:09,589 - Beatty. - 278 00:18:10,624 --> 00:18:11,725 Nicholson. 279 00:18:13,026 --> 00:18:14,127 And me. 280 00:18:19,733 --> 00:18:21,167 281 00:18:27,374 --> 00:18:29,342 282 00:18:31,378 --> 00:18:33,613 [? intriguing synth music plays] 283 00:18:44,658 --> 00:18:46,226 284 00:18:50,196 --> 00:18:56,369 8-1-7-0-6-6-6. 285 00:19:16,690 --> 00:19:18,725 286 00:19:53,460 --> 00:19:55,629 287 00:19:57,197 --> 00:19:58,365 288 00:19:58,933 --> 00:20:01,701 289 00:20:05,105 --> 00:20:07,474 Sometimes I come up here to be alone. 290 00:20:08,074 --> 00:20:09,342 You could too, you know. 291 00:20:10,777 --> 00:20:12,412 Think about your script. 292 00:20:14,147 --> 00:20:16,683 To get inspiration as an artist. 293 00:20:18,118 --> 00:20:21,021 This view is so inspirational. 294 00:20:24,157 --> 00:20:25,526 We could, uh... 295 00:20:26,226 --> 00:20:29,229 We could come be alone together. 296 00:20:32,232 --> 00:20:34,100 297 00:20:41,175 --> 00:20:44,611 I thought you said only three people have the code to this road. 298 00:20:45,478 --> 00:20:46,881 I said that I know of. 299 00:20:47,147 --> 00:20:51,284 Could just be Jack�s gardener or picture hanger. 300 00:20:52,252 --> 00:20:53,620 Who knows? 301 00:20:58,659 --> 00:21:00,026 302 00:21:05,432 --> 00:21:06,533 Terry? 303 00:21:07,434 --> 00:21:08,535 Yeah? 304 00:21:10,905 --> 00:21:12,272 Could you... 305 00:21:17,911 --> 00:21:19,279 take me home? 306 00:21:19,780 --> 00:21:20,915 Homework. 307 00:21:21,215 --> 00:21:23,449 308 00:21:23,450 --> 00:21:24,551 Yeah. 309 00:21:28,088 --> 00:21:29,623 310 00:21:58,418 --> 00:22:00,753 After Terry dropped me off, I knew automatically 311 00:22:00,754 --> 00:22:03,523 that I would be heading to Matt Kellner�s house. 312 00:22:08,528 --> 00:22:10,696 When I turned onto Haskell Avenue, 313 00:22:10,697 --> 00:22:10,730 When I turned onto Haskell Avenue, I was suddenly struck with a fear I had never experienced before. 314 00:22:10,731 --> 00:22:13,967 I was suddenly struck with a fear I had never experienced before. 315 00:22:15,402 --> 00:22:19,005 It was an adrenaline that acted as a warning for me to save myself, 316 00:22:19,472 --> 00:22:23,510 but also mixed with an overwhelming compulsion to move forward... 317 00:22:25,078 --> 00:22:26,680 no matter how I felt, 318 00:22:27,681 --> 00:22:29,316 how afraid I was. 319 00:22:43,597 --> 00:22:45,532 320 00:23:00,480 --> 00:23:02,782 321 00:23:11,859 --> 00:23:14,461 This was the last place I had seen Matt. 322 00:23:16,129 --> 00:23:17,464 I missed him. 323 00:23:18,965 --> 00:23:20,434 I wanted him back. 324 00:23:21,001 --> 00:23:24,304 I was on a mission to find clues about his disappearance. 325 00:23:26,207 --> 00:23:27,774 I found them. 326 00:23:36,716 --> 00:23:38,451 327 00:23:45,893 --> 00:23:47,360 328 00:24:29,069 --> 00:24:31,471 As I sat there in the soft moonlight, 329 00:24:31,772 --> 00:24:37,110 I realized that, at 18, I was already staring into my past. 330 00:24:38,846 --> 00:24:41,681 I remember this being one of my first moments 331 00:24:41,682 --> 00:24:44,684 when I realized how powerful memory was. 332 00:24:49,923 --> 00:24:53,293 Or at least it was the first time it hurt the most. 333 00:25:07,040 --> 00:25:08,542 334 00:25:11,011 --> 00:25:12,112 335 00:25:18,585 --> 00:25:19,719 336 00:25:20,520 --> 00:25:22,455 337 00:25:33,667 --> 00:25:35,768 - Hello. - 338 00:25:35,769 --> 00:25:35,801 - Hello. - 339 00:25:35,802 --> 00:25:39,406 340 00:25:43,677 --> 00:25:45,312 Where�s Matt? 341 00:25:49,482 --> 00:25:51,184 What have you done with him? 342 00:25:52,185 --> 00:25:53,653 Where�s Rhonda? 343 00:25:54,721 --> 00:25:57,591 - Why are you doing this? - 344 00:25:58,892 --> 00:26:00,360 Robert. 345 00:26:00,861 --> 00:26:02,062 Robert! 346 00:26:02,295 --> 00:26:03,663 347 00:26:13,707 --> 00:26:16,009 348 00:26:35,662 --> 00:26:37,697 349 00:26:47,641 --> 00:26:49,009 350 00:26:50,210 --> 00:26:53,380 351 00:27:09,429 --> 00:27:12,065 352 00:27:18,906 --> 00:27:20,407 Wow. 353 00:27:22,009 --> 00:27:23,710 Thank you. 354 00:27:25,078 --> 00:27:26,680 Thank you so much. 355 00:27:30,084 --> 00:27:32,052 Most people who win this award 356 00:27:32,519 --> 00:27:35,455 thank everybody that helped them get to this moment. 357 00:27:37,524 --> 00:27:43,029 Instead, I�d like to take this brief time I have here in the white-hot spotlight... 358 00:27:44,564 --> 00:27:47,434 to say what I really feel about how I got here. 359 00:27:49,102 --> 00:27:52,506 How I clawed my way up that mountain of success 360 00:27:53,273 --> 00:27:55,442 - alone. - 361 00:27:56,210 --> 00:27:58,512 To my first modeling agent 362 00:27:59,279 --> 00:28:01,081 who told me I had an ass like a pear 363 00:28:01,314 --> 00:28:04,918 and would probably be a Sears catalog model at best... 364 00:28:05,385 --> 00:28:08,088 - fuck you, bitch. - 365 00:28:08,288 --> 00:28:10,457 Look at me now. 366 00:28:13,193 --> 00:28:17,530 To my daughter who�s watching tonight... 367 00:28:20,133 --> 00:28:23,036 you are the disappointment of my life. 368 00:28:25,438 --> 00:28:27,307 And to my husband... 369 00:28:29,042 --> 00:28:30,443 To my husband... 370 00:28:32,612 --> 00:28:38,184 who regularly reminds me that I am a worthless piece of shit... 371 00:28:38,185 --> 00:28:40,120 372 00:28:44,124 --> 00:28:45,125 Lizzie. 373 00:28:45,792 --> 00:28:49,129 Are you still holding on to that actress thing? 374 00:28:49,629 --> 00:28:51,431 How deeply sad. 375 00:28:56,670 --> 00:28:59,039 You go ahead and make fun of me, Terry. 376 00:29:00,007 --> 00:29:02,509 I�m fucking used to it, you know. 377 00:29:08,448 --> 00:29:10,617 But I know I could have been more than this, 378 00:29:10,618 --> 00:29:14,088 more than just your stupid wife rattling around this mausoleum 379 00:29:14,287 --> 00:29:16,323 like a fucking ghost. 380 00:29:18,258 --> 00:29:20,460 Sue told me I have an "it" factor. 381 00:29:20,461 --> 00:29:22,395 Sue Mengers told you that at a dinner party 382 00:29:22,396 --> 00:29:24,431 where she was stoned out of her mind. 383 00:29:25,031 --> 00:29:27,802 Everybody feels sorry for you, Liz, so they fill your addled mind 384 00:29:28,034 --> 00:29:30,303 with positive reinforcement that you don�t deserve. 385 00:29:30,304 --> 00:29:33,673 Haven�t all the therapists I paid for helped you understand that? 386 00:29:35,842 --> 00:29:37,411 If you would have let me, 387 00:29:38,144 --> 00:29:42,315 I could have pursued my dream and been somebody, 388 00:29:43,216 --> 00:29:45,785 instead of your fucking plus-one. 389 00:29:45,786 --> 00:29:47,620 Sure, absolutely. 390 00:29:47,621 --> 00:29:50,757 Keep practicing your speech, babe, with one of my three Oscars. 391 00:29:51,258 --> 00:29:53,460 But don�t forget to thank your coke dealer. 392 00:29:57,330 --> 00:29:59,532 393 00:30:01,001 --> 00:30:02,636 - - 394 00:30:06,139 --> 00:30:09,309 I already knew Robert Mallory was a liar. 395 00:30:10,878 --> 00:30:12,879 He was the only one at lunch who didn�t show 396 00:30:12,880 --> 00:30:15,615 a flicker of concern about the missing kids. 397 00:30:16,149 --> 00:30:18,417 Almost like he knew they were already gone. 398 00:30:18,418 --> 00:30:20,787 [? "Games Without Frontiers" playing] 399 00:30:49,182 --> 00:30:53,052 ?? Hans plays with Lotte Lotte plays with Jane ? 400 00:30:53,053 --> 00:30:56,455 I committed myself to the pursuit of a single goal: 401 00:30:56,456 --> 00:30:59,225 track Robert and prove he was The Trawler. 402 00:30:59,226 --> 00:31:01,028 ?? Suki plays with Leo ? 403 00:31:01,495 --> 00:31:03,764 ?? Sacha plays with Britt ? 404 00:31:04,297 --> 00:31:08,568 ?? Adolf builds a bonfire Enrico plays with it ? 405 00:31:09,170 --> 00:31:10,770 406 00:31:14,107 --> 00:31:18,311 ?? Whistling tunes we hide In the dunes by the seaside ? 407 00:31:19,180 --> 00:31:20,447 408 00:31:24,051 --> 00:31:27,922 ?? Whistling tunes we�re kissing Baboons in the jungle ? 409 00:31:28,655 --> 00:31:30,390 ?? It�s a knockout ? 410 00:31:31,391 --> 00:31:33,860 ?? If looks could kill They probably will ? 411 00:31:33,861 --> 00:31:36,397 ?? In games Without frontiers... ? 412 00:31:36,830 --> 00:31:38,330 Cielo Drive. 413 00:31:38,331 --> 00:31:41,068 This is where, almost exactly 12 years ago, 414 00:31:41,234 --> 00:31:43,703 three members of the Manson Family stabbed and killed 415 00:31:43,704 --> 00:31:48,008 Jay Sebring, Abigail Folger, Wojciech Frykowski, 416 00:31:48,208 --> 00:31:51,378 Steven Parent, and nine-months-pregnant Sharon Tate. 417 00:31:54,514 --> 00:31:59,019 I was obsessed with Joan Didion�s account of the Manson murders. 418 00:31:59,353 --> 00:32:01,688 I read it over and over again. 419 00:32:01,788 --> 00:32:06,059 I retyped the sentences on my typewriter, trying to understand their architecture. 420 00:32:07,260 --> 00:32:09,863 Like all aspiring writers of my generation, 421 00:32:10,364 --> 00:32:12,532 I wanted to write like Didion. 422 00:32:14,234 --> 00:32:15,569 With restraint, 423 00:32:16,170 --> 00:32:17,571 economy, 424 00:32:18,672 --> 00:32:20,507 and total control. 425 00:32:22,108 --> 00:32:23,443 If I could write like that... 426 00:32:25,779 --> 00:32:27,414 I could be like that. 427 00:32:28,548 --> 00:32:30,150 Or so I thought. 428 00:32:32,352 --> 00:32:33,921 ?? It�s a knockout ? 429 00:32:34,888 --> 00:32:37,524 ?? If looks could kill They probably will ? 430 00:32:37,525 --> 00:32:42,562 ?? In games without frontiers War without tears ? 431 00:32:42,563 --> 00:32:44,164 432 00:32:54,474 --> 00:32:57,010 I didn�t know what he was doing there. 433 00:32:58,578 --> 00:33:00,781 I only knew what I was doing there: 434 00:33:01,882 --> 00:33:04,718 "Telling myself a story in order to live." 435 00:33:09,055 --> 00:33:12,626 Part of me just wanted to knock on the door or force my way in. 436 00:33:13,727 --> 00:33:15,763 What if Matt was in there right now? 437 00:33:16,196 --> 00:33:17,697 Or Really Rhonda? 438 00:33:20,100 --> 00:33:23,337 Who knew what sort of hideous agony he was inflicting? 439 00:33:24,972 --> 00:33:28,774 Were they lying there bloody and beaten, mangled and mutilated, 440 00:33:28,775 --> 00:33:33,380 screaming out for someone, anyone, to come to the rescue? 441 00:33:34,681 --> 00:33:36,249 442 00:33:46,426 --> 00:33:49,696 Being afraid is so lame, I kept telling myself. 443 00:33:53,700 --> 00:33:57,704 Being afraid is so lame and you�re not a pussy. 444 00:34:17,123 --> 00:34:21,694 Eventually I would find out that this remote mysterious house 445 00:34:21,695 --> 00:34:24,531 was a rental property of Robert Mallory�s aunt. 446 00:34:26,499 --> 00:34:28,902 Later, when the police interviewed me, 447 00:34:29,536 --> 00:34:32,606 I told them the truth about what I suspected was in the bag. 448 00:34:34,140 --> 00:34:35,709 A human head. 449 00:34:36,944 --> 00:34:39,446 450 00:34:44,852 --> 00:34:48,088 - - 451 00:35:37,370 --> 00:35:38,705 452 00:35:52,052 --> 00:35:54,087 453 00:36:14,942 --> 00:36:17,377 454 00:36:18,445 --> 00:36:19,713 Hello. 455 00:36:21,581 --> 00:36:23,950 ?? Just like The white-winged dove ? 456 00:36:24,184 --> 00:36:27,054 ?? Sings a song It sounds like she�s singin� ? 457 00:36:27,220 --> 00:36:30,456 ?? Ooh, ooh, ooh ? 458 00:36:30,457 --> 00:36:33,125 ?? Just like The white-winged dove 459 00:36:33,126 --> 00:36:34,159 ? Sings a song... ? 460 00:36:34,160 --> 00:36:35,295 Hello? 461 00:36:35,795 --> 00:36:39,433 ?? Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ? 462 00:36:40,100 --> 00:36:43,503 - ?? He was no more ? - ?? He was no more ? 463 00:36:43,670 --> 00:36:46,807 ?? Than a baby then ? 464 00:36:47,841 --> 00:36:51,578 ?? Well, he seemed Brokenhearted ? 465 00:36:51,945 --> 00:36:55,716 ?? Somethin� within him ? 466 00:36:56,717 --> 00:37:01,087 ?? But the moment That I first laid ? 467 00:37:01,688 --> 00:37:04,623 ?? Eyes on him ? 468 00:37:04,624 --> 00:37:11,364 ?? All alone On the edge of seventeen ? 469 00:37:11,365 --> 00:37:13,467 Being afraid is so lame. 470 00:37:13,567 --> 00:37:16,135 ?? Just like The white-winged dove ? 471 00:37:16,136 --> 00:37:18,972 ?? Sings a song It sounds like she�s singin� ? 472 00:37:18,973 --> 00:37:21,941 ?? Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ? 473 00:37:21,942 --> 00:37:24,777 ?? Just like The white-winged dove ? 474 00:37:24,778 --> 00:37:26,478 Don�t be lame. 475 00:37:26,479 --> 00:37:28,347 ?? It sounds Like she�s singin� ? 476 00:37:28,348 --> 00:37:31,484 ?? Said, "Ooh, baby, Ooh," said, "Ooh" ? 477 00:37:31,485 --> 00:37:33,152 ?? Well, I went today ? 478 00:37:33,153 --> 00:37:34,720 479 00:37:34,721 --> 00:37:37,123 ?? Maybe I will go Again tomorrow ? 480 00:37:37,324 --> 00:37:38,724 ?? Yeah, yeah ? 481 00:37:38,725 --> 00:37:40,094 Hello? 482 00:37:40,260 --> 00:37:41,727 ?? Well, the music there ? 483 00:37:41,728 --> 00:37:44,798 ? Well, it was hauntingly familiar ? 484 00:37:45,432 --> 00:37:49,503 ?? When I see you doin� What I try to do for me ? 485 00:37:49,636 --> 00:37:52,005 ?? With the words of a poet ? 486 00:37:52,006 --> 00:37:54,040 ?? And a voice from a choir ? 487 00:37:54,041 --> 00:37:56,710 ?? And a melody ? 488 00:37:57,377 --> 00:38:00,180 ?? And nothin� else mattered ? 489 00:38:01,816 --> 00:38:04,483 ?? Just like The white-winged dove ? 490 00:38:04,484 --> 00:38:07,321 ?? Sings a song It sounds like she�s singin� ? 491 00:38:07,454 --> 00:38:10,457 ?? Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ? 492 00:38:10,557 --> 00:38:13,159 ?? Just like The white-winged dove ? 493 00:38:13,160 --> 00:38:15,527 ?? Sings a song It sounds like she�s singin� ? 494 00:38:15,528 --> 00:38:19,232 ?? Said, "Ooh, baby, Ooh," said, "Ooh" ? 495 00:38:30,544 --> 00:38:31,711 496 00:38:33,447 --> 00:38:35,849 ?? Just like The white-winged dove ? 497 00:38:36,082 --> 00:38:38,652 ?? Sings a song It sounds like she�s singin� ? 498 00:38:38,785 --> 00:38:41,855 ?? Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ? 499 00:38:41,856 --> 00:38:44,490 ?? Just like The white-winged dove ? 500 00:38:44,491 --> 00:38:46,926 ?? Sings a song It sounds like she�s singin� ? 501 00:38:46,927 --> 00:38:48,394 502 00:38:48,395 --> 00:38:51,131 ?? Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ? 503 00:38:51,298 --> 00:38:53,033 ?? Well, then suddenly ? 504 00:38:53,266 --> 00:38:56,870 ?? There was no one left Standin� in the hall ? 505 00:38:56,871 --> 00:38:58,470 506 00:38:58,471 --> 00:39:01,640 ?? Yeah, yeah, In a flood of tears ? 507 00:39:01,641 --> 00:39:05,745 ?? That no one really Ever heard fall at all... ? 508 00:39:08,148 --> 00:39:10,250 509 00:39:10,350 --> 00:39:12,252 ?? Up the stairs And down the hall ? 510 00:39:12,385 --> 00:39:14,354 ? And not to find an answer ? 511 00:39:14,355 --> 00:39:16,956 ?? Just to hear the call Of a night bird ? 512 00:39:16,957 --> 00:39:18,592 513 00:39:19,926 --> 00:39:22,862 - ?? Singin�, "Come away" ? - ?? Come away ? 514 00:39:22,863 --> 00:39:24,930 Please, please, please, just please let me go home. 515 00:39:24,931 --> 00:39:27,700 Please let me go home. Motherfucker, cock, shit, cunt licker. 516 00:39:27,701 --> 00:39:29,936 Fuck. Oh, I�m sorry. No, I�m sorry. 517 00:39:29,937 --> 00:39:32,071 Fuck. 518 00:39:32,072 --> 00:39:34,341 Please, please, please. 519 00:39:35,475 --> 00:39:36,676 No, no, no! 520 00:39:36,677 --> 00:39:39,146 521 00:39:39,379 --> 00:39:41,748 522 00:39:42,015 --> 00:39:46,085 ?? Well, I hear you In the morning ? 523 00:39:46,086 --> 00:39:47,721 ?? And I hear you ? 524 00:39:49,689 --> 00:39:51,258 ?? My love ? 525 00:39:51,424 --> 00:39:52,927 526 00:39:53,193 --> 00:39:56,529 ?? I�m a few years Older than you... ? 527 00:39:57,764 --> 00:39:59,399 528 00:40:01,668 --> 00:40:04,104 ?? Just like The white-winged dove ? 529 00:40:04,337 --> 00:40:07,073 ?? Sings a song It sounds like she�s singin� ? 530 00:40:09,142 --> 00:40:10,944 531 00:40:11,111 --> 00:40:13,580 532 00:40:21,521 --> 00:40:24,057 533 00:40:26,192 --> 00:40:28,761 ?? Just like The white-winged dove ? 534 00:40:28,762 --> 00:40:31,498 ?? Sings a song It sounds like she�s singin� ? 535 00:40:31,665 --> 00:40:34,868 ?? Ooh, ooh, ooh ? 536 00:40:35,135 --> 00:40:37,603 ?? Just like The white-winged dove ? 537 00:40:37,604 --> 00:40:40,373 ?? Sings a song It sounds like she�s singin� ? 538 00:40:40,374 --> 00:40:43,877 ?? Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ? 539 00:40:44,110 --> 00:40:48,481 ?? And the days go by Like a strand in the wind ? 540 00:40:48,482 --> 00:40:52,452 ?? In the web that is my own I begin again ? 541 00:40:53,253 --> 00:40:56,490 - ?? Said to my friend, "Baby" ? - ?? Everything stops ? 542 00:40:56,623 --> 00:40:59,059 ?? Nothin� else mattered ? 543 00:41:01,929 --> 00:41:05,531 - ?? He was no more ? - ?? He was no more ? 544 00:41:05,532 --> 00:41:08,702 ?? Than a baby then ? 545 00:41:10,103 --> 00:41:13,607 ?? Well, He seemed brokenhearted ? 546 00:41:13,740 --> 00:41:17,778 ?? Somethin� within him ? 547 00:41:19,012 --> 00:41:22,749 ?? But the moment That I first laid ? 548 00:41:23,617 --> 00:41:26,519 ?? Eyes on him ? 549 00:41:26,520 --> 00:41:30,323 ?? All alone on the edge of ? 550 00:41:31,157 --> 00:41:35,029 ?? Seventeen ? 551 00:41:35,395 --> 00:41:38,064 ?? Just like The white-winged dove ? 552 00:41:38,065 --> 00:41:40,534 ?? Sings a song It sounds like she�s singin� ? 553 00:41:40,667 --> 00:41:43,871 ?? Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ? 554 00:41:44,170 --> 00:41:46,505 ?? Just like The white-winged dove ? 555 00:41:46,506 --> 00:41:49,142 ?? Sings a song It sounds like she�s singin� ? 556 00:41:49,143 --> 00:41:52,813 ?? Ooh, baby, ooh, said, "Ooh" ? 557 00:41:53,513 --> 00:41:55,414 ?? Well, I went today ? 558 00:41:55,415 --> 00:41:59,452 ? Maybe I will go Again tomorrow ? 559 00:42:01,521 --> 00:42:05,993 ?? When I see you doin� What I try to do for me ? 560 00:42:06,126 --> 00:42:08,262 ?? With the words of a poet ? 561 00:42:08,395 --> 00:42:10,629 ?? And a voice from a choir ? 562 00:42:10,630 --> 00:42:10,663 ?? And a voice from a choir ? ?? And a melody ? 563 00:42:10,664 --> 00:42:13,333 ?? And a melody ? 564 00:42:14,100 --> 00:42:16,436 ?? And nothin� else mattered ? 565 00:42:18,305 --> 00:42:20,740 ?? Just like The white-winged dove ? 566 00:42:20,741 --> 00:42:23,476 ?? Sings a song It sounds like she�s singin� ? 567 00:42:23,477 --> 00:42:26,379 ?? Ooh, baby, ooh ?