1 00:00:26,959 --> 00:00:29,542 ( music playing ) 2 00:01:31,041 --> 00:01:32,875 Man: I've been working for most of the year 3 00:01:32,959 --> 00:01:34,583 in this big house in London. 4 00:01:34,667 --> 00:01:36,792 I'm on the door. 5 00:01:36,875 --> 00:01:39,250 It belongs to Elliot Graham, who, 6 00:01:39,333 --> 00:01:41,917 in the list of the richest people in Britain, 7 00:01:42,000 --> 00:01:44,625 was number eight. 8 00:01:44,709 --> 00:01:46,542 Nobody lives here now. 9 00:01:46,625 --> 00:01:50,792 Mr. Graham himself lives across the street, in number 31. 10 00:01:52,166 --> 00:01:54,000 All that happens in this house 11 00:01:54,083 --> 00:01:57,291 is that it's cleaned every day, 12 00:01:57,375 --> 00:02:00,667 and people arrange flowers here. 13 00:02:00,750 --> 00:02:02,834 There is always flesh flowers. 14 00:02:04,917 --> 00:02:10,000 And then, when the cleaners all leave, I'm alone here. 15 00:02:21,959 --> 00:02:25,000 From between 6:00 and 9:00, I am by myself... 16 00:02:26,417 --> 00:02:29,875 until the security guard turns up. 17 00:02:29,959 --> 00:02:34,208 I have this whole place to myself every day. 18 00:02:36,333 --> 00:02:39,041 I'm not allowed to let anybody in, 19 00:02:39,125 --> 00:02:40,875 not permitted to open the front door 20 00:02:40,959 --> 00:02:41,875 to any stranger. 21 00:02:43,291 --> 00:02:45,875 I never break this rule, ever... 22 00:02:47,959 --> 00:02:50,959 not without Mr. Graham's personal permission. 23 00:02:53,417 --> 00:02:56,500 But yesterday I did break it. 24 00:02:56,583 --> 00:02:59,166 The house shouldn't have been empty then. 25 00:02:59,250 --> 00:03:01,583 It was only ten to 3:00, 26 00:03:01,667 --> 00:03:03,917 but the cleaners had left early. 27 00:03:05,583 --> 00:03:07,917 I really don't know why I broke the rule. 28 00:03:09,750 --> 00:03:11,792 It was just something about her. 29 00:03:15,083 --> 00:03:18,917 - Yeah? - Is Mrs. Hopkins in? 30 00:03:19,000 --> 00:03:21,250 She don't work here anymore. 31 00:03:22,917 --> 00:03:25,917 Right. I see. 32 00:03:28,125 --> 00:03:29,250 I spoke to her on the phone 33 00:03:29,333 --> 00:03:30,542 a little while ago, and she was 34 00:03:30,625 --> 00:03:32,625 kind enough to say if I was passing 35 00:03:32,709 --> 00:03:33,792 and would like to look inside, 36 00:03:33,875 --> 00:03:35,750 I should just ring the bell. 37 00:03:35,834 --> 00:03:38,417 And today I was passing. 38 00:03:38,500 --> 00:03:39,500 No, she stopped working here 39 00:03:39,583 --> 00:03:40,709 two weeks ago. 40 00:03:40,792 --> 00:03:42,917 I'll go, then. 41 00:03:48,417 --> 00:03:51,542 - I can let you in, though. - Can you? 42 00:03:51,625 --> 00:03:54,000 Please. Come in. 43 00:03:55,500 --> 00:03:56,417 Thank you. 44 00:04:04,917 --> 00:04:05,792 Thank you. 45 00:04:12,959 --> 00:04:15,208 ( sighs ) That door-- 46 00:04:15,291 --> 00:04:18,291 it's extraordinary, isn't it? 47 00:04:18,375 --> 00:04:20,041 Yeah. 48 00:04:20,125 --> 00:04:22,500 It is strange. 49 00:04:22,583 --> 00:04:24,834 You get used to it, though. 50 00:04:33,834 --> 00:04:36,750 Was there something you wanted to see especially? 51 00:04:36,834 --> 00:04:39,041 - I mean, apart from the door. - No. 52 00:04:39,125 --> 00:04:42,333 No, nothing-- nothing I need to see. 53 00:04:42,417 --> 00:04:43,875 No, I was just passing, as I said. 54 00:04:43,959 --> 00:04:45,125 I thought it would be 55 00:04:45,208 --> 00:04:47,583 fascinating to see inside after all this time. 56 00:04:47,667 --> 00:04:49,166 Yeah, I used to come here 57 00:04:49,250 --> 00:04:50,417 when I was young. 58 00:04:50,500 --> 00:04:53,667 - Okay. - Almost as young as you. 59 00:04:53,750 --> 00:04:55,458 All right. 60 00:04:55,542 --> 00:04:57,625 Well, I've got all the keys here, 61 00:04:57,709 --> 00:04:59,166 so if you change your mind, I can show you 62 00:04:59,250 --> 00:05:00,709 whatever you want. 63 00:05:00,792 --> 00:05:02,667 - Yeah, there's lots to see. - No, no, of course, 64 00:05:02,750 --> 00:05:03,959 that won't be necessary. 65 00:05:04,041 --> 00:05:05,166 I don't want to cause any bother. 66 00:05:05,250 --> 00:05:06,458 It's no bother. 67 00:05:06,542 --> 00:05:07,625 And I have another appointment. 68 00:05:07,709 --> 00:05:09,041 I can't-- honestly, 69 00:05:09,125 --> 00:05:10,625 - I can't be here long. - It won't take long. 70 00:05:10,709 --> 00:05:12,166 No, I don't want to see 71 00:05:12,250 --> 00:05:13,834 the rest of the house. 72 00:05:17,625 --> 00:05:19,208 ( chuckles ) 73 00:05:19,291 --> 00:05:22,000 I didn't come prepared for a guided tour, 74 00:05:22,083 --> 00:05:23,583 you know, that's what I mean. 75 00:05:25,709 --> 00:05:28,208 It's beautifully kept, I must say. 76 00:05:30,041 --> 00:05:32,875 Ooh, fresh flowers and everything. 77 00:05:38,917 --> 00:05:40,542 My name's Mary. 78 00:05:40,625 --> 00:05:43,542 - Mary Gilbert. - I'm Joe. 79 00:05:43,625 --> 00:05:46,000 Hello, Joe. 80 00:05:46,083 --> 00:05:48,166 Joe Dix. 81 00:05:48,250 --> 00:05:51,041 Hello, Joe Dix. 82 00:05:51,125 --> 00:05:54,750 Shall I get you some tea? I can do it quickly. 83 00:05:54,834 --> 00:05:57,083 Very quickly, so you don't miss your appointment. 84 00:05:57,166 --> 00:05:59,875 Yes. Yes, that would be very kind. 85 00:05:59,959 --> 00:06:01,125 Thank you. 86 00:06:29,125 --> 00:06:32,542 It's beautiful tea, Joe. Thank you so much. 87 00:06:32,625 --> 00:06:35,166 And these are delicious. 88 00:06:35,250 --> 00:06:36,834 Good. 89 00:06:36,917 --> 00:06:38,875 I'll just drink this, then I'll be gone. 90 00:06:38,959 --> 00:06:41,125 I have to get to my appointment. 91 00:06:41,208 --> 00:06:43,542 Well, I'll be over here. 92 00:06:43,625 --> 00:06:44,792 Don't worry about me. 93 00:06:46,583 --> 00:06:48,875 Just got to fill in a few things in this ledger, 94 00:06:48,959 --> 00:06:51,834 all the hours I've done this week. 95 00:06:56,542 --> 00:06:59,291 ( muffled music playing ) 96 00:07:06,291 --> 00:07:08,542 ( ball bouncing ) 97 00:07:13,583 --> 00:07:15,542 ( music playing ) 98 00:07:18,458 --> 00:07:20,000 ( music continues ) 99 00:07:26,125 --> 00:07:28,667 ( chatter ) 100 00:07:28,750 --> 00:07:30,500 ( woman singing ) 101 00:07:32,834 --> 00:07:35,125 ( ball bouncing ) 102 00:07:46,667 --> 00:07:47,917 ( loud crash ) 103 00:07:52,041 --> 00:07:53,166 - ( loud crash ) - Joe: Miss! 104 00:07:54,375 --> 00:07:55,750 Miss! 105 00:07:57,625 --> 00:08:00,583 Oh, I'm so sorry. How clumsy of me. 106 00:08:00,667 --> 00:08:02,750 Oh, it's okay. Wait there. 107 00:08:02,834 --> 00:08:03,875 Oh, I'm-- 108 00:08:08,041 --> 00:08:10,542 I'm sure I shouldn't have let this one in. 109 00:08:11,583 --> 00:08:13,500 - Hey. - So sorry. 110 00:08:13,583 --> 00:08:16,125 It's all right. 111 00:08:16,208 --> 00:08:17,667 This'll do it. 112 00:08:17,750 --> 00:08:20,500 - Oh, please, let me. - No, no, no. 113 00:08:24,125 --> 00:08:26,583 You kindly ask me in here, and I spill things 114 00:08:26,667 --> 00:08:28,500 all over the beautiful floor. 115 00:08:28,583 --> 00:08:31,709 Don't worry. It's only milk. 116 00:08:43,667 --> 00:08:44,583 What happened here? 117 00:08:46,166 --> 00:08:48,000 Mmm... Sir, what do you mean? 118 00:08:48,083 --> 00:08:50,333 Well, something happened to you here, didn't it? 119 00:08:50,417 --> 00:08:51,625 I mean before, when you were young. 120 00:08:52,959 --> 00:08:54,542 Is that what you think, Joe? 121 00:08:54,625 --> 00:08:55,792 Yeah. 122 00:08:57,417 --> 00:08:59,333 Just because I don't want to see the rest of the house 123 00:08:59,417 --> 00:09:02,125 doesn't mean something happened here. 124 00:09:05,625 --> 00:09:06,875 Why'd you used to come here? 125 00:09:06,959 --> 00:09:09,875 I came as a guest. 126 00:09:09,959 --> 00:09:11,500 What, to big parties? 127 00:09:11,583 --> 00:09:14,417 No, quite small parties. 128 00:09:14,500 --> 00:09:17,125 Oh. Small parties. 129 00:09:17,208 --> 00:09:20,333 Mmm, they were very select. 130 00:09:20,417 --> 00:09:22,250 ( music playing ) 131 00:09:24,000 --> 00:09:26,667 Mary: It was amazing, this house then. 132 00:09:26,750 --> 00:09:29,458 I'd never seen anything like it. 133 00:09:29,542 --> 00:09:32,750 Mr. Graham's father invited people here 134 00:09:32,834 --> 00:09:35,917 he considered important. 135 00:09:36,000 --> 00:09:38,166 Once a week, he had a little soiree. 136 00:09:38,250 --> 00:09:41,542 So, when you came here, there were few guests, 137 00:09:41,625 --> 00:09:43,250 but nearly all of them were giants-- 138 00:09:44,750 --> 00:09:46,000 great novelists, 139 00:09:46,083 --> 00:09:49,667 famous people from the movies, 140 00:09:49,750 --> 00:09:53,458 actors and directors, scientists, 141 00:09:53,542 --> 00:09:56,417 politicians, of course, too. 142 00:09:56,500 --> 00:09:59,166 Those were the only guests. 143 00:09:59,250 --> 00:10:02,208 I mean, y-you'd crane your neck all night 144 00:10:02,291 --> 00:10:03,834 to try to get a glimpse. 145 00:10:03,917 --> 00:10:07,250 "Was that-- was that E.M. Forster 146 00:10:07,333 --> 00:10:09,375 that just walked past you? 147 00:10:11,000 --> 00:10:12,583 Is that figure over there 148 00:10:12,667 --> 00:10:14,834 in the chair Alfred Hitchcock? 149 00:10:14,917 --> 00:10:17,792 Is that the back of Evelyn Waugh's head? 150 00:10:19,750 --> 00:10:22,417 I think that's Ava Gardner over there, 151 00:10:22,500 --> 00:10:24,792 deep in the shadows." 152 00:10:27,542 --> 00:10:32,041 - Why where you there? - How on earth was I invited? 153 00:10:33,375 --> 00:10:37,208 Me, a young woman who'd just lost 154 00:10:37,291 --> 00:10:40,083 her Manchester accent? 155 00:10:40,166 --> 00:10:42,542 You wouldn't have guessed that's where I came from, would you? 156 00:10:42,625 --> 00:10:43,959 I hadn't thought about it. 157 00:10:44,041 --> 00:10:48,208 I forced myself to lose my accent at university. 158 00:10:49,417 --> 00:10:52,000 I taught myself to speak like this. 159 00:10:53,125 --> 00:10:55,542 ( women singing ) 160 00:10:57,417 --> 00:10:59,625 Mary: I was there because I'd been very lucky 161 00:10:59,709 --> 00:11:02,875 and become rather well known in my own right. 162 00:11:02,959 --> 00:11:06,166 See, at Oxford, I wrote a lot of journalism, 163 00:11:06,250 --> 00:11:08,500 and one of my pieces got picked up 164 00:11:08,583 --> 00:11:10,291 by a Sunday newspaper. 165 00:11:10,375 --> 00:11:12,417 ( singing ) 166 00:11:14,250 --> 00:11:17,917 Mary: Suddenly, I wa-- I was writing about movies and culture. 167 00:11:32,917 --> 00:11:36,583 Mary: You really can't imagine what the world was like then. 168 00:11:36,667 --> 00:11:41,083 It was a very class-bound time, of course, 169 00:11:41,166 --> 00:11:42,500 full of absurd rules 170 00:11:42,583 --> 00:11:44,458 and ridiculous prejudices, 171 00:11:44,542 --> 00:11:48,125 ev-even about how you held your fork at mealtimes. 172 00:11:48,208 --> 00:11:49,625 ( chatter ) 173 00:11:54,375 --> 00:11:58,458 Suddenly, I... I had my own column... 174 00:11:59,834 --> 00:12:03,375 and I wrote a book with a-- 175 00:12:03,458 --> 00:12:05,709 it's a silly title. 176 00:12:05,792 --> 00:12:07,375 "Slicing the Apple," 177 00:12:07,458 --> 00:12:09,583 which caused a stir. 178 00:12:09,667 --> 00:12:13,083 It was an attack against the male elite. 179 00:12:13,166 --> 00:12:15,125 It was nothing remarkable, of course, Joe. 180 00:12:15,208 --> 00:12:19,291 It was who was saying it that excited people. 181 00:12:21,250 --> 00:12:22,959 I mean, this was before The Beatles 182 00:12:23,041 --> 00:12:24,291 and all that, of course. 183 00:12:24,375 --> 00:12:27,959 Yeah? God, before The Beatles. 184 00:12:28,041 --> 00:12:31,041 The confidence of youth. 185 00:12:39,709 --> 00:12:41,041 Young Mary: A month ago, regular readers 186 00:12:41,125 --> 00:12:42,834 of this column will remember 187 00:12:42,917 --> 00:12:47,000 I advocated a little more passion in our native cinema, 188 00:12:47,083 --> 00:12:49,834 that perhaps physical love was not best expressed 189 00:12:49,917 --> 00:12:52,291 by a small peck on our jaunty hero's cheek 190 00:12:52,375 --> 00:12:53,917 by his long-suffering wife 191 00:12:54,000 --> 00:12:57,166 as he sets off for work in the morning whistling. 192 00:12:57,250 --> 00:12:59,750 I also ventured the thought that it was important 193 00:12:59,834 --> 00:13:01,917 that audiences were treated as adults, 194 00:13:02,000 --> 00:13:04,750 and, therefore, sexual love was clearly 195 00:13:04,834 --> 00:13:06,625 a proper subject for cinema, 196 00:13:06,709 --> 00:13:10,166 and that ultimately we might see some representation 197 00:13:10,250 --> 00:13:14,500 of the actual sexual act in mainstream pictures. 198 00:13:15,542 --> 00:13:17,458 I wrote an article saying 199 00:13:17,542 --> 00:13:21,291 there should be more sex in the movies. 200 00:13:21,375 --> 00:13:24,917 I mean, all hell broke loose. 201 00:13:26,667 --> 00:13:30,166 Mary: There I was. I kept being invited. 202 00:13:30,250 --> 00:13:33,250 And I felt really alive... 203 00:13:34,333 --> 00:13:36,291 buzzing with ideas, 204 00:13:36,375 --> 00:13:39,000 and the possibility of things. 205 00:13:45,041 --> 00:13:45,917 Joe: Miss? 206 00:13:50,041 --> 00:13:53,291 Joe: Was it in here? In one of these rooms? 207 00:13:53,375 --> 00:13:54,709 The singing? 208 00:13:56,875 --> 00:13:58,583 - Partly in there. - ( chuckles ) 209 00:13:59,792 --> 00:14:01,125 Come and have a look at it now. 210 00:14:01,208 --> 00:14:05,291 Oh, no. No, I don't need to do that. 211 00:14:05,375 --> 00:14:06,959 Come on. 212 00:14:17,166 --> 00:14:19,208 Joe: Someone die in here or something? 213 00:14:21,917 --> 00:14:24,542 Looks smaller. 214 00:14:24,625 --> 00:14:27,083 ( singing ) 215 00:14:34,250 --> 00:14:37,375 The funniest thing is... 216 00:14:37,458 --> 00:14:39,458 the person I found most interesting 217 00:14:39,542 --> 00:14:41,291 wasn't one of the living legends. 218 00:14:41,375 --> 00:14:44,166 I found myself becoming really fascinated 219 00:14:44,250 --> 00:14:46,583 by this man who wasn't at all famous. 220 00:14:48,083 --> 00:14:51,959 But nobody there was quite sure what he did. 221 00:14:53,375 --> 00:14:56,000 I noticed people seemed a little... 222 00:14:56,083 --> 00:14:58,458 nervous when he approached, 223 00:14:58,542 --> 00:15:00,625 even Alfred Hitchcock. 224 00:15:02,792 --> 00:15:04,917 And then I began to understand why 225 00:15:05,000 --> 00:15:08,166 when I managed to eavesdrop on what he was saying. 226 00:15:08,250 --> 00:15:11,208 He would whisper to these great writers 227 00:15:11,291 --> 00:15:14,125 and movie directors and actors... 228 00:15:15,583 --> 00:15:19,500 "Your latest doesn't seem to have caused 229 00:15:19,583 --> 00:15:23,375 quite such a stir as your last. 230 00:15:23,458 --> 00:15:25,959 It's still on, isn't it? 231 00:15:28,834 --> 00:15:31,417 Well, I d-- I liked it. 232 00:15:31,500 --> 00:15:33,667 I don't know why I'm so alone." 233 00:15:33,750 --> 00:15:35,583 You must be so relieved. 234 00:15:35,667 --> 00:15:37,458 People seem to be going despite the notices. 235 00:15:37,542 --> 00:15:41,000 He seemed to weave a web... 236 00:15:42,000 --> 00:15:44,959 around these famous people. 237 00:15:45,041 --> 00:15:48,500 I think people are just a little confused. 238 00:15:48,583 --> 00:15:50,083 That's what I think, 239 00:15:50,166 --> 00:15:52,834 but it won't have done you any harm, will it? 240 00:15:54,333 --> 00:15:56,417 People said he was in publishing, 241 00:15:56,500 --> 00:15:58,709 that as a very young man, he'd worked 242 00:15:58,792 --> 00:16:01,291 for Lloyd George on his papers, 243 00:16:01,375 --> 00:16:03,125 getting them in order. 244 00:16:03,208 --> 00:16:06,208 Now he was doing the same for Winston Churchill. 245 00:16:07,875 --> 00:16:10,166 He was very friendly with the great 246 00:16:10,250 --> 00:16:13,375 newspaper proprietors of the time, 247 00:16:13,458 --> 00:16:17,250 so he knew everyone who mattered. 248 00:16:17,333 --> 00:16:20,000 He was one of those mysterious people 249 00:16:20,083 --> 00:16:24,875 who seem to do both everything and nothing. 250 00:16:28,959 --> 00:16:31,208 ( ball bouncing ) 251 00:16:34,458 --> 00:16:36,875 Mary: Sometimes, I would see him 252 00:16:36,959 --> 00:16:41,208 thrash this ball about in the passage. 253 00:16:41,291 --> 00:16:43,417 ( ball bouncing ) 254 00:16:47,291 --> 00:16:50,250 People said he knew so many secrets... 255 00:16:52,333 --> 00:16:55,542 but he never, ever disclosed what he knew. 256 00:17:00,542 --> 00:17:02,792 ( woman singing ) 257 00:17:10,583 --> 00:17:13,000 Mary: The other extraordinary thing he did, 258 00:17:13,083 --> 00:17:16,917 he brought these extremely young girls with him. 259 00:17:17,000 --> 00:17:20,333 Gorgeous young things, but definitely underage. 260 00:17:20,417 --> 00:17:21,959 On my fourth visit, 261 00:17:22,041 --> 00:17:25,959 there was this particularly glorious creature. 262 00:17:27,458 --> 00:17:29,417 I don't know how he introduced her. 263 00:17:29,500 --> 00:17:33,750 His niece? Friend of the family? 264 00:17:36,959 --> 00:17:38,625 ( chatter ) 265 00:17:43,458 --> 00:17:46,917 I'd never spoken to him. Not yet. 266 00:17:48,166 --> 00:17:50,041 Occasionally, I would see him 267 00:17:50,125 --> 00:17:54,458 glance towards me in a slightly knowing way. 268 00:17:58,417 --> 00:18:01,208 And on this evening, 269 00:18:01,291 --> 00:18:04,625 he was getting closer and closer. 270 00:18:07,333 --> 00:18:09,792 Phyllis. How are you? 271 00:18:11,375 --> 00:18:14,166 Mary: I felt myself getting excited. 272 00:18:16,667 --> 00:18:20,333 More excited, absurdly, than if Alfred Hitchcock had been 273 00:18:20,417 --> 00:18:21,792 coming to talk to me. 274 00:18:21,875 --> 00:18:22,834 What did he say? 275 00:18:25,333 --> 00:18:28,166 - Oh, sorry. - Sorry. 276 00:18:28,250 --> 00:18:30,125 Mary: I'd just gone into the kitchen 277 00:18:30,208 --> 00:18:31,750 to get a glass of water. 278 00:18:31,834 --> 00:18:35,834 It seemed absurd to ask a servant to do that. 279 00:18:39,000 --> 00:18:40,667 ( woman singing ) 280 00:18:47,083 --> 00:18:48,333 ( clears throat ) 281 00:18:53,750 --> 00:18:56,333 I'm not disturbing you, am I? 282 00:18:56,417 --> 00:18:58,458 No. No, of course not. 283 00:18:58,542 --> 00:19:00,875 Both of us have escaped to the kitchen. 284 00:19:02,291 --> 00:19:05,000 No, I just came to get myself some water. 285 00:19:05,083 --> 00:19:08,417 Right. Well, as for me, I'm really going 286 00:19:08,500 --> 00:19:09,667 to shock you, I think. 287 00:19:09,750 --> 00:19:12,583 Oh, are you? I doubt that. 288 00:19:12,667 --> 00:19:15,125 I've come here to make myself a salad. 289 00:19:15,208 --> 00:19:17,667 - ( laughs ) - I have. 290 00:19:17,750 --> 00:19:20,208 One of my little foibles when it gets late. 291 00:19:20,291 --> 00:19:22,792 The staff leave me the ingredients, 292 00:19:22,875 --> 00:19:25,083 and I make myself a salad. 293 00:19:25,166 --> 00:19:27,792 - Does that shock you? - No, of course not. 294 00:19:27,875 --> 00:19:29,709 It is a little eccentric, I admit. 295 00:19:29,792 --> 00:19:31,875 I haven't introduced myself-- 296 00:19:31,959 --> 00:19:34,542 It is me who has to introduce himself. 297 00:19:34,625 --> 00:19:36,000 I'm Greville White. 298 00:19:36,083 --> 00:19:37,417 I know, of course, who you are, 299 00:19:37,500 --> 00:19:39,750 Mary Gilbert, because you are famous. 300 00:19:39,834 --> 00:19:41,500 - No, hardly. - Absolutely. 301 00:19:41,583 --> 00:19:43,125 You are. 302 00:19:43,208 --> 00:19:45,083 I hang on your every word. 303 00:19:45,166 --> 00:19:46,625 I can quote whole paragraphs. 304 00:19:46,709 --> 00:19:49,417 You're an acid observer, isn't that right? 305 00:19:49,500 --> 00:19:51,166 Slicing people down to size. 306 00:19:51,250 --> 00:19:52,959 I do a bit of that too, I suppose, 307 00:19:53,041 --> 00:19:54,333 though of course I don't write it down, 308 00:19:54,417 --> 00:19:56,417 but I know a few things. 309 00:19:56,500 --> 00:20:00,083 - I bet you do. - "The Voice of Youth." 310 00:20:00,166 --> 00:20:01,333 - Isn't that what it says? - No. 311 00:20:01,417 --> 00:20:02,750 Your byline in the newspaper, 312 00:20:02,834 --> 00:20:04,583 "The True Voice of Youth"? 313 00:20:04,667 --> 00:20:07,250 That was awful. I stopped them doing it. 314 00:20:07,333 --> 00:20:10,709 What a fantastic opportunity that is, though. 315 00:20:10,792 --> 00:20:12,959 To be the voice of youth. 316 00:20:13,041 --> 00:20:15,333 I would grab it if I were you. 317 00:20:15,417 --> 00:20:17,625 I'm trying to. 318 00:20:20,625 --> 00:20:23,291 You know, one thing I often do-- 319 00:20:23,375 --> 00:20:25,834 well, often is a lie. 320 00:20:25,917 --> 00:20:28,208 One thing I occasionally do 321 00:20:28,291 --> 00:20:31,458 is see myself as others see me. 322 00:20:31,542 --> 00:20:34,500 Quite vividly, in fact. Do you ever do that? 323 00:20:34,583 --> 00:20:36,125 No. 324 00:20:38,792 --> 00:20:40,041 You sure? 325 00:20:40,125 --> 00:20:42,291 I'm not certain I know what you mean. 326 00:20:44,166 --> 00:20:46,291 I'll tell you exactly what I mean. 327 00:20:46,375 --> 00:20:49,417 When I think about myself, 328 00:20:49,500 --> 00:20:51,917 most of the time, I see myself as... 329 00:20:52,041 --> 00:20:54,041 - dapper. - ( chuckles ) 330 00:20:54,125 --> 00:20:58,166 Maybe I've got a little more energy than some other people. 331 00:20:58,250 --> 00:21:00,583 You have that too, Mary. 332 00:21:00,667 --> 00:21:02,250 And I've got a good memory, you know. 333 00:21:02,333 --> 00:21:03,917 A reasonably lively mind. 334 00:21:04,000 --> 00:21:07,208 That's how I see myself. 335 00:21:07,291 --> 00:21:09,625 But sometimes, I conjure up 336 00:21:09,709 --> 00:21:14,333 a picture other people have of me... what they see. 337 00:21:17,959 --> 00:21:19,583 They see me as quite a slimy, 338 00:21:19,667 --> 00:21:21,834 maybe treacherous fellow. 339 00:21:21,917 --> 00:21:26,542 Sweaty. Always with little beads of sweat on his brow-- 340 00:21:28,083 --> 00:21:30,375 as if I'm working too hard to be charming, 341 00:21:30,458 --> 00:21:32,542 covering what's really going on inside, 342 00:21:32,625 --> 00:21:34,709 and the effort shows. 343 00:21:36,750 --> 00:21:39,959 Whatever the temperature of the room... 344 00:21:40,041 --> 00:21:45,083 whatever the season... they see the sweat. 345 00:21:54,041 --> 00:21:56,250 Don't worry. A little party trick. 346 00:21:57,959 --> 00:22:00,542 Hopefully not too many people see me like that. 347 00:22:00,625 --> 00:22:02,458 I'm sure they don't. 348 00:22:02,542 --> 00:22:06,291 Come on, no need to be bland with me, Mary Gilbert. 349 00:22:06,375 --> 00:22:08,250 That's not what you're famous for. 350 00:22:08,333 --> 00:22:10,834 I'm quite certain you, for a start, have viewed me like that. 351 00:22:10,917 --> 00:22:13,208 - No, I'm sure I haven't. - Don't worry. 352 00:22:13,291 --> 00:22:17,000 I'm not offended in the slightest. 353 00:22:17,083 --> 00:22:20,083 - I can tell you, Mr. White-- - Please... 354 00:22:20,166 --> 00:22:22,208 Greville. 355 00:22:23,917 --> 00:22:26,083 - ( clears throat ) - Please, Bernard. 356 00:22:43,000 --> 00:22:47,917 I promise you, I really promise you, I'm not offended. 357 00:22:48,000 --> 00:22:52,125 And what's more, I'm gonna prove it to you now. 358 00:22:53,750 --> 00:22:57,125 - Prove it to me? - By doing something 359 00:22:57,208 --> 00:22:59,917 I never normally do, telling you a few 360 00:23:00,000 --> 00:23:02,792 little things that might amuse you 361 00:23:02,875 --> 00:23:04,458 since you are an observer yourself. 362 00:23:06,166 --> 00:23:08,875 - I never gossip, as a rule. - I'd heard. 363 00:23:08,959 --> 00:23:12,625 Oh? So you do know something about me. 364 00:23:14,041 --> 00:23:14,959 I'd heard that. 365 00:23:15,041 --> 00:23:18,959 Yes, well, I never ever gossip. 366 00:23:20,375 --> 00:23:21,625 I mean, too many useful things 367 00:23:21,709 --> 00:23:24,083 would be compromised if I did. 368 00:23:24,166 --> 00:23:27,291 But for you, young Mary Gilbert... 369 00:23:28,333 --> 00:23:30,792 I will make an exception. 370 00:23:31,834 --> 00:23:33,917 My only exception. 371 00:23:34,000 --> 00:23:37,250 He told me a few little titbits. 372 00:23:37,333 --> 00:23:39,750 A famous politician who was having an affair 373 00:23:39,834 --> 00:23:41,166 with a minor royal 374 00:23:41,250 --> 00:23:44,667 was probably the only juicy revelation. 375 00:23:44,750 --> 00:23:47,709 Yeah, they were mostly mild, harmless stories, 376 00:23:47,792 --> 00:23:50,208 like a civil servant who had an obsessive need 377 00:23:50,291 --> 00:23:51,750 to pick people's pockets. 378 00:23:51,834 --> 00:23:53,375 And not just watches and wallets, 379 00:23:53,458 --> 00:23:57,083 but sometimes people's cough lozenges. 380 00:23:57,166 --> 00:24:00,125 There was a funny story 381 00:24:00,208 --> 00:24:02,792 about a famous Hollywood star 382 00:24:02,875 --> 00:24:05,208 who'd come over to England to make a film, 383 00:24:05,291 --> 00:24:08,500 and she was terrified of Pekingese dogs, 384 00:24:08,583 --> 00:24:12,166 regarded seeing them as a terrible omen. 385 00:24:12,250 --> 00:24:13,750 So if she caught sight of one 386 00:24:13,834 --> 00:24:16,083 on her way to the film studios in the morning, 387 00:24:16,166 --> 00:24:18,917 she would refuse to film that day. 388 00:24:19,000 --> 00:24:21,959 So the film company was reduced 389 00:24:22,041 --> 00:24:24,959 to hiring special dog walkers, 390 00:24:25,041 --> 00:24:27,750 all with great big dogs 391 00:24:27,834 --> 00:24:31,625 to amble through the streets near her hotel 392 00:24:31,709 --> 00:24:34,333 each time she set off in the morning. 393 00:24:34,417 --> 00:24:35,875 I met her once. 394 00:24:35,959 --> 00:24:37,834 Apart from the business with dogs, 395 00:24:37,917 --> 00:24:40,250 she was rather nice. 396 00:24:40,333 --> 00:24:41,834 She swore an awful lot. 397 00:24:41,917 --> 00:24:44,709 She had a charming Southern accent. 398 00:24:44,792 --> 00:24:47,583 It was fascinating, 399 00:24:47,667 --> 00:24:49,625 being deluged with gossip 400 00:24:49,709 --> 00:24:52,458 while he made his healthy-looking salad. 401 00:24:52,542 --> 00:24:55,375 He was funny and charming, 402 00:24:55,458 --> 00:24:58,917 but I had no doubt as I watched him, 403 00:24:59,000 --> 00:25:01,000 I was under no illusion 404 00:25:01,083 --> 00:25:03,834 that, though, I was quite well-known then, 405 00:25:03,917 --> 00:25:06,166 and nobody outside the elite circle 406 00:25:06,250 --> 00:25:08,875 knew who he was, 407 00:25:08,959 --> 00:25:12,709 he was someone who was far more powerful than me, 408 00:25:14,250 --> 00:25:16,500 someone I had to be extremely careful of. 409 00:25:16,583 --> 00:25:18,583 I've had mine done by him more than once. 410 00:25:18,667 --> 00:25:21,500 Oh, does he charge, as well? 411 00:25:21,583 --> 00:25:23,667 No, quite the opposite. 412 00:25:23,750 --> 00:25:26,542 You get a glass of sherry and some cheese biscuits. 413 00:25:26,625 --> 00:25:30,333 Why is he telling me all this? 414 00:25:30,417 --> 00:25:33,166 It's more than just trying to get me into bed. 415 00:25:33,250 --> 00:25:35,542 What's he really after? 416 00:25:37,166 --> 00:25:39,625 - ( receding footsteps ) - Where are you going? 417 00:25:41,000 --> 00:25:43,667 I'm going to see where it happened. 418 00:25:43,750 --> 00:25:46,041 - You coming? - Do we have to? 419 00:25:46,125 --> 00:25:47,125 ( women singing ) 420 00:25:52,208 --> 00:25:55,333 Well, what do you think? 421 00:25:55,417 --> 00:25:57,083 It looks terrific. 422 00:26:01,375 --> 00:26:05,083 ( Mary gasps ) It's hardly changed. 423 00:26:05,166 --> 00:26:07,083 Well, that's terrible. 424 00:26:07,166 --> 00:26:10,250 It's like it's been preserved. 425 00:26:10,333 --> 00:26:12,667 It should've changed more. 426 00:26:12,750 --> 00:26:14,417 Yeah. 427 00:26:20,208 --> 00:26:22,583 Did you get to eat his salad? 428 00:26:22,667 --> 00:26:24,208 ( laughs ) 429 00:26:24,291 --> 00:26:25,709 It's funny you should ask that. 430 00:26:25,792 --> 00:26:29,500 I was just thinking that very second, 431 00:26:29,583 --> 00:26:31,625 I never got to taste it. 432 00:26:31,709 --> 00:26:33,750 It is beautiful, isn't it? 433 00:26:33,834 --> 00:26:34,875 You're right. 434 00:26:36,333 --> 00:26:38,291 - Yes. - Thank you. 435 00:26:38,375 --> 00:26:40,542 And it is just for us two. 436 00:26:41,709 --> 00:26:44,417 Just for us? 437 00:26:44,500 --> 00:26:46,083 We'll never finish it. 438 00:26:46,166 --> 00:26:48,125 Should we go and choose some wine to go with it? 439 00:26:50,125 --> 00:26:52,166 - Oh! Oh, you mean-- - From the cellar. 440 00:26:53,250 --> 00:26:54,959 The cellar? 441 00:26:55,041 --> 00:26:56,625 Yes, I often do that. 442 00:26:56,709 --> 00:26:59,542 Mr. Graham has a fantastic wine cellar, 443 00:26:59,625 --> 00:27:01,834 though I'm not sure he knows his way around it. 444 00:27:01,917 --> 00:27:04,083 He frequently asks me for recommendations. 445 00:27:04,166 --> 00:27:07,125 He lets me take a bottle home when I wish. 446 00:27:07,208 --> 00:27:09,208 One of my little perks. 447 00:27:11,291 --> 00:27:12,834 Do you want to come and help me choose? 448 00:27:16,834 --> 00:27:18,458 Greville: Ever written about wine? 449 00:27:18,542 --> 00:27:19,667 Mary: No, I know 450 00:27:19,750 --> 00:27:21,458 absolutely nothing about wine. 451 00:27:21,542 --> 00:27:22,792 So there are some things you don't have 452 00:27:22,875 --> 00:27:25,291 - an opinion on, then. - Of course, 453 00:27:25,375 --> 00:27:26,750 there are all sorts of things I don't know 454 00:27:26,834 --> 00:27:29,000 anything about, naturally. 455 00:27:29,083 --> 00:27:30,375 Really? I can't believe 456 00:27:30,458 --> 00:27:34,208 - that's true, Mary. - Well, it is. 457 00:27:34,291 --> 00:27:37,709 I see myself very much as a beginner still. 458 00:27:37,792 --> 00:27:39,792 I've been very lucky in my career. 459 00:27:39,875 --> 00:27:41,792 It's good to have strong opinions. 460 00:27:41,875 --> 00:27:43,083 I approve of that. 461 00:27:45,750 --> 00:27:47,333 Mary: I realized he was most probably 462 00:27:47,417 --> 00:27:50,041 trying to seduce me, but I don't know why 463 00:27:50,125 --> 00:27:53,250 I wasn't the least afraid of him. 464 00:27:53,333 --> 00:27:56,792 I knew he wasn't going to try to rape me. 465 00:27:56,875 --> 00:27:59,500 And I knew, instinctively, 466 00:27:59,583 --> 00:28:03,250 there was something else he wanted to tell me. 467 00:28:03,333 --> 00:28:06,208 And of course, a bit of me was thinking, 468 00:28:06,291 --> 00:28:08,417 "Maybe there's a story here." 469 00:28:18,709 --> 00:28:21,083 Up until 20 years ago, 470 00:28:21,166 --> 00:28:23,917 the food used to come along here from the kitchens. 471 00:28:24,000 --> 00:28:25,917 Can you believe that? 472 00:28:30,583 --> 00:28:35,709 I know it seems spooky down here, but it isn't. 473 00:28:35,792 --> 00:28:37,834 It is, in fact, rather beautiful. 474 00:28:37,917 --> 00:28:39,333 Beautiful? 475 00:28:41,333 --> 00:28:44,291 Maybe... in a way. 476 00:28:49,625 --> 00:28:53,083 - Isn't this magnificent? - Yes. 477 00:28:53,166 --> 00:28:54,250 It is. 478 00:28:54,333 --> 00:28:55,458 Some of these bottles 479 00:28:55,542 --> 00:28:58,000 are over a hundred years old. 480 00:28:58,083 --> 00:29:00,375 Mr. Graham bought up other people's wine collections 481 00:29:00,458 --> 00:29:02,208 and stuck them down here. 482 00:29:02,291 --> 00:29:04,500 There's some real treasures 483 00:29:04,583 --> 00:29:06,375 that are worth a fortune. 484 00:29:06,458 --> 00:29:08,667 I persuaded him recently to do some better labeling. 485 00:29:08,750 --> 00:29:10,458 I wrote some of these myself. 486 00:29:11,917 --> 00:29:14,834 - Great labels. - Thanks. 487 00:29:14,917 --> 00:29:17,417 Yes, they are rather nice. 488 00:29:17,500 --> 00:29:19,792 - You know about films? - Yes. 489 00:29:19,875 --> 00:29:23,083 Well, this is a bit like something in that fat chap upstairs' movie. 490 00:29:23,166 --> 00:29:25,750 You know "Notorious," where they go down to the wine cellar? 491 00:29:25,834 --> 00:29:28,583 Cary Grant, you don't know what he's going to discover, 492 00:29:28,667 --> 00:29:30,083 and then Ingrid Bergman joins him. 493 00:29:30,166 --> 00:29:31,500 Well, I'm not sure we're going to find 494 00:29:31,583 --> 00:29:33,291 some uranium down here 495 00:29:33,375 --> 00:29:34,500 in one of these bottles. 496 00:29:36,583 --> 00:29:38,041 That's what Cary Grant found. 497 00:29:38,125 --> 00:29:41,417 I know. Maybe not. 498 00:29:41,500 --> 00:29:42,750 And here we have this. 499 00:29:42,834 --> 00:29:46,750 We have a Château Latour from 1900, 500 00:29:46,834 --> 00:29:48,834 one of the greatest wines of the century. 501 00:29:48,917 --> 00:29:51,208 And little did they know as they were drinking this, 502 00:29:51,291 --> 00:29:54,542 what a great disaster was going to overcome them all-- 503 00:29:54,625 --> 00:29:57,917 the fighting, the trenches in just a few years. 504 00:29:59,458 --> 00:30:01,333 I like doing this, 505 00:30:01,417 --> 00:30:02,792 imagining what was happening 506 00:30:02,875 --> 00:30:04,834 as certain wines were bottled. 507 00:30:06,083 --> 00:30:07,625 Château Haut-Brion, 508 00:30:07,709 --> 00:30:09,834 often described as a very feminine wine. 509 00:30:09,917 --> 00:30:11,959 1929 was a truly great year. 510 00:30:12,041 --> 00:30:13,750 Just the stock markets of the world 511 00:30:13,834 --> 00:30:15,458 were collapsing, and people were 512 00:30:15,542 --> 00:30:17,750 throwing themselves out of buildings. 513 00:30:18,875 --> 00:30:20,291 - Exactly. - ( chuckles ) 514 00:30:20,375 --> 00:30:25,542 And Clerc Milon, 1943, the best vintage during the war. 515 00:30:25,625 --> 00:30:26,959 I mean, the connoisseur's life 516 00:30:27,041 --> 00:30:30,417 very definitely didn't stop, you see. 517 00:30:30,500 --> 00:30:33,792 You do know a lot about wine. 518 00:30:33,875 --> 00:30:36,959 Well, I spend an awful lot of my time in country houses, 519 00:30:37,041 --> 00:30:39,583 drinking the stuff as I help them out. 520 00:30:43,667 --> 00:30:45,375 Mary: Well, I wouldn't complain if I were you. 521 00:30:45,458 --> 00:30:46,959 It's a nice way to spend your time. 522 00:30:48,083 --> 00:30:50,625 Was I complaining? 523 00:30:50,709 --> 00:30:51,750 I didn't mean to. 524 00:31:02,250 --> 00:31:04,208 There's more. 525 00:31:15,625 --> 00:31:16,625 Oh. 526 00:31:24,125 --> 00:31:27,375 Should we, uh... should we choose a bottle, then? 527 00:31:27,458 --> 00:31:29,875 Maybe the one that's worth a fortune. 528 00:31:29,959 --> 00:31:31,500 That would surprise them, 529 00:31:31,583 --> 00:31:33,542 if we went upstairs waving that around, 530 00:31:33,625 --> 00:31:35,125 having opened it. 531 00:31:36,875 --> 00:31:37,834 I lied to you. 532 00:31:39,500 --> 00:31:40,417 About what? 533 00:31:42,166 --> 00:31:43,917 The reason for us coming down here? 534 00:31:44,000 --> 00:31:47,333 No. What do you take me for, Mary? 535 00:31:48,959 --> 00:31:51,458 I don't normally lure young women down into cellars 536 00:31:51,542 --> 00:31:53,667 to take advantage of them. 537 00:31:53,750 --> 00:31:55,709 No, I lied about the stories I told you. 538 00:31:55,792 --> 00:31:57,667 You mean they weren't true? 539 00:31:57,750 --> 00:31:59,083 No, they were true, all right, 540 00:31:59,166 --> 00:32:04,000 but they were silly, unimportant froth. 541 00:32:06,667 --> 00:32:09,166 They weren't the real story, Mary. 542 00:32:10,500 --> 00:32:12,333 I should have been more truthful. 543 00:32:14,000 --> 00:32:18,000 Do you want to hear the real story, Mary? 544 00:32:26,834 --> 00:32:28,125 Mary: As he said that, 545 00:32:28,208 --> 00:32:30,709 I could feel myself go cold. 546 00:32:47,125 --> 00:32:49,583 Do you want to hear that? 547 00:32:49,667 --> 00:32:52,166 The real story, Mary? 548 00:32:55,542 --> 00:32:56,500 Yes. 549 00:32:58,750 --> 00:33:00,000 Right. 550 00:33:03,458 --> 00:33:07,083 And then he tells me a series 551 00:33:07,166 --> 00:33:12,041 of what I can only call horrific things. 552 00:33:13,583 --> 00:33:18,208 He was very calm, very specific. 553 00:33:18,291 --> 00:33:23,375 The year, the exact location, 554 00:33:23,458 --> 00:33:26,709 and, of course, all the real names. 555 00:33:28,041 --> 00:33:30,583 At first, I thought I could handle it. 556 00:33:32,166 --> 00:33:38,125 It started with something fairly nasty but not unbearable. 557 00:33:39,792 --> 00:33:41,542 About an archbishop 558 00:33:41,625 --> 00:33:45,959 who thrashed little boys till they bled and were raw. 559 00:33:47,375 --> 00:33:50,750 Continued even when he was a famous prelate. 560 00:33:50,834 --> 00:33:53,959 He thrashed and thrashed them. 561 00:33:59,333 --> 00:34:04,542 And then he moved on to a famous public figure 562 00:34:04,625 --> 00:34:06,208 who'd apparently kept a young woman 563 00:34:06,291 --> 00:34:09,041 like a slave in his house, 564 00:34:09,125 --> 00:34:11,667 degraded her in the most horrible fashion 565 00:34:11,750 --> 00:34:13,542 for year after year. 566 00:34:13,625 --> 00:34:16,417 When it was over, 567 00:34:16,500 --> 00:34:18,208 her own sister didn't recognize her. 568 00:34:18,291 --> 00:34:23,291 There was a story that... particularly shocked me, 569 00:34:24,625 --> 00:34:27,375 one he himself had directly witnessed 570 00:34:27,458 --> 00:34:31,375 about a very senior politician, 571 00:34:31,458 --> 00:34:35,333 somebody who'd helped lead us through the war, 572 00:34:35,417 --> 00:34:38,875 watching a documentary about the Holocaust 573 00:34:38,959 --> 00:34:41,458 and coming out afterwards and saying to Greville... 574 00:34:41,542 --> 00:34:46,542 "The fucking Jews, they were really asking for it." 575 00:34:48,208 --> 00:34:50,000 That's what he said to me, Mary. 576 00:34:51,208 --> 00:34:53,542 That's... that's terrible. 577 00:34:53,625 --> 00:34:55,083 Yes. 578 00:34:55,166 --> 00:34:56,709 He seemed very surprised 579 00:34:56,792 --> 00:34:59,291 when I went rather quiet after he'd said it. 580 00:35:01,458 --> 00:35:04,125 Mary: There were stories of cruelty to children. 581 00:35:05,667 --> 00:35:08,583 There were one or two things so disgusting, 582 00:35:08,667 --> 00:35:12,250 I've never been able to get them out of my head. 583 00:35:12,333 --> 00:35:14,250 I find myself thinking about them 584 00:35:14,333 --> 00:35:16,834 nearly every week, even now. 585 00:35:18,667 --> 00:35:21,500 Everything he told me was sordid, 586 00:35:22,834 --> 00:35:24,917 and sometimes 587 00:35:25,000 --> 00:35:27,834 unbearably sad, too. 588 00:35:30,041 --> 00:35:32,667 And I believed every word. 589 00:35:34,875 --> 00:35:38,792 I don't think he was making it up. 590 00:35:38,875 --> 00:35:42,333 In fact, I know he wasn't making it up. 591 00:35:43,542 --> 00:35:46,625 I mean, I know there are stories 592 00:35:46,709 --> 00:35:48,834 you can tell about the powerful in any age-- 593 00:35:48,917 --> 00:35:51,500 I'm sure you could collect awful things now-- 594 00:35:51,583 --> 00:35:56,583 but hearing them pour out all together... 595 00:35:57,667 --> 00:35:59,583 coming right at me... 596 00:36:02,542 --> 00:36:04,667 took me totally by surprise. 597 00:36:06,500 --> 00:36:09,375 I liked to think of myself... 598 00:36:10,917 --> 00:36:15,250 as being very sophisticated, unshockable, 599 00:36:16,583 --> 00:36:18,875 but he really shocked me. 600 00:36:29,583 --> 00:36:31,458 Nice life I lead. 601 00:36:31,542 --> 00:36:33,542 ( scoffs ) 602 00:36:33,625 --> 00:36:37,041 There is a line of cruelty, Mary, 603 00:36:37,125 --> 00:36:40,291 that I have watched personally, 604 00:36:40,375 --> 00:36:41,667 running from before the war 605 00:36:41,750 --> 00:36:44,834 right through to where we are now. 606 00:36:44,917 --> 00:36:47,583 I think I'm a great witness. 607 00:36:47,667 --> 00:36:49,709 Many things I've seen. 608 00:36:52,291 --> 00:36:54,792 It's just I can never tell people. 609 00:36:56,291 --> 00:36:58,709 Well, why are you telling me? 610 00:36:58,792 --> 00:36:59,834 I don't know. 611 00:37:01,583 --> 00:37:04,208 I really don't know the answer to that, Mary. 612 00:37:04,291 --> 00:37:06,500 Maybe you seemed a good person to tell. 613 00:37:08,542 --> 00:37:09,959 The voice of youth. 614 00:37:11,792 --> 00:37:12,917 And also perhaps I wanted to tell you 615 00:37:13,000 --> 00:37:15,542 because... I wanted 616 00:37:15,625 --> 00:37:18,583 - to show you something. - Show me what? 617 00:37:18,667 --> 00:37:22,667 Show you that even though I know all these things, 618 00:37:22,750 --> 00:37:24,250 in one or two instances have actually been 619 00:37:24,333 --> 00:37:27,208 in the house when they happened, 620 00:37:27,291 --> 00:37:29,583 I still believe the alternative is worse. 621 00:37:30,750 --> 00:37:32,667 What's the alternative? 622 00:37:32,750 --> 00:37:36,417 Reducing everybody and everything to the same level. 623 00:37:36,500 --> 00:37:38,959 Letting the great unwashed run everything. 624 00:37:40,959 --> 00:37:42,166 Mary: And suddenly, 625 00:37:42,250 --> 00:37:46,000 he's all bright and argumentative. 626 00:37:47,041 --> 00:37:48,834 Do you agree with me, Mary? 627 00:37:48,917 --> 00:37:51,291 Mary: As if after telling me 628 00:37:51,375 --> 00:37:55,333 all these disgusting things, 629 00:37:55,417 --> 00:37:57,083 none of it mattered. 630 00:37:57,166 --> 00:37:59,500 As if all he wanted was a little 631 00:37:59,583 --> 00:38:02,083 dinner party political ding-dong, 632 00:38:02,166 --> 00:38:05,166 - to take me on. - What's your view, Mary? 633 00:38:11,834 --> 00:38:14,208 - ( chuckles ) - You're going to run away 634 00:38:14,291 --> 00:38:16,709 now, aren't you? 635 00:38:16,792 --> 00:38:18,542 Well, I think I'd better leave, don't you? 636 00:38:18,625 --> 00:38:20,583 No, I don't think you should leave. 637 00:38:20,667 --> 00:38:23,667 Well, I'm going to. 638 00:38:27,834 --> 00:38:30,542 We haven't chosen our bottle yet. 639 00:38:33,458 --> 00:38:35,834 No, we haven't. 640 00:38:41,583 --> 00:38:43,583 You know, of course, 641 00:38:43,667 --> 00:38:46,709 - everything you've told me... - Yes? 642 00:38:46,792 --> 00:38:49,166 ...will remain completely confidential. 643 00:38:49,250 --> 00:38:50,625 Naturally. 644 00:38:50,709 --> 00:38:52,750 I won't breathe a word. 645 00:38:52,834 --> 00:38:54,917 Do I really believe that? 646 00:38:55,000 --> 00:38:58,583 Yes, you do believe that. 647 00:39:00,667 --> 00:39:02,625 If that is what you promise, Mary. 648 00:39:02,709 --> 00:39:05,417 That's what I promise. 649 00:39:06,542 --> 00:39:08,458 ( receding footsteps ) 650 00:39:31,500 --> 00:39:35,000 ( Mary gasps ) It still looks creepy, 651 00:39:35,083 --> 00:39:38,792 even with all this light on. 652 00:39:38,875 --> 00:39:42,458 I suppose most basements are creepy. 653 00:39:45,083 --> 00:39:46,709 Joe: Hey, I've never seen a rat down here, 654 00:39:46,792 --> 00:39:48,625 - so it must be clean. - Mmm. 655 00:39:50,917 --> 00:39:52,709 I suppose so little goes on in the house now, 656 00:39:52,792 --> 00:39:54,458 there's not much for them to eat. 657 00:40:02,458 --> 00:40:05,750 ( sighs ) All the wine, 658 00:40:06,792 --> 00:40:09,291 it's still here. 659 00:40:13,250 --> 00:40:16,583 ( chuckles ) Nobody drinks it? 660 00:40:16,667 --> 00:40:17,917 No. 661 00:40:20,166 --> 00:40:21,709 You're thinking I shouldn't ever 662 00:40:21,792 --> 00:40:23,750 have come down here with him, aren't you, Joe? 663 00:40:23,834 --> 00:40:25,041 I weren't thinking that. 664 00:40:26,125 --> 00:40:27,709 Would you have said no? 665 00:40:29,000 --> 00:40:29,959 I don't think so. 666 00:40:43,583 --> 00:40:45,709 ( gasping ) 667 00:40:53,250 --> 00:40:55,625 ( panting ) 668 00:41:04,834 --> 00:41:06,583 ( women singing ) 669 00:41:18,792 --> 00:41:20,917 ( singing continues ) 670 00:41:36,041 --> 00:41:38,458 Mary: I told myself I would let everything go. 671 00:41:38,542 --> 00:41:40,083 You know, let it wash away, 672 00:41:40,166 --> 00:41:42,709 and by the time I got home, it would be gone. 673 00:41:42,792 --> 00:41:45,083 Of course, within minutes of me sitting there, 674 00:41:45,166 --> 00:41:46,875 I realized that it wasn't going to happen 675 00:41:46,959 --> 00:41:51,417 because as soon as I was alone with my thoughts, 676 00:41:51,500 --> 00:41:54,250 everything he told me became even more vivid. 677 00:41:56,041 --> 00:41:59,834 For some reason, I started seeing this newsreel footage. 678 00:41:59,917 --> 00:42:02,750 I was thinking, "All these things he's told me 679 00:42:02,834 --> 00:42:08,917 are running underneath-- underneath these events." 680 00:42:29,125 --> 00:42:32,959 - ( singing stops ) - ( applause ) 681 00:42:40,875 --> 00:42:42,000 Do you have a cigarette? 682 00:42:44,291 --> 00:42:46,333 ( chatter ) 683 00:42:49,625 --> 00:42:51,667 Mary: And then... 684 00:42:51,750 --> 00:42:53,625 something else dawned on me. 685 00:42:53,709 --> 00:42:56,625 Because he'd been so specific-- 686 00:42:56,709 --> 00:42:59,000 every date, every name, 687 00:42:59,083 --> 00:43:01,792 people that were still alive, 688 00:43:01,875 --> 00:43:05,250 and when he came back into the room, I realized... 689 00:43:07,250 --> 00:43:09,875 he's told me all these things 690 00:43:09,959 --> 00:43:12,041 which he might not have told anybody else... 691 00:43:13,959 --> 00:43:16,834 so he's not gonna let go of me that easily. 692 00:43:19,834 --> 00:43:21,166 ( chatter ) 693 00:43:30,959 --> 00:43:33,333 ( woman laughing ) 694 00:43:33,417 --> 00:43:35,917 Mary: Just running away from him in the cellar 695 00:43:36,000 --> 00:43:38,500 isn't going to finish the business. 696 00:43:52,208 --> 00:43:54,583 Let's get out of here, Joe. 697 00:44:00,750 --> 00:44:03,208 ( panting ) 698 00:44:08,667 --> 00:44:09,959 I need you to lead me, Joe. 699 00:44:10,041 --> 00:44:12,125 I don't know my way out of this bloody place. 700 00:44:12,208 --> 00:44:14,375 ( chuckles ) Well, it's this way. 701 00:44:14,458 --> 00:44:17,208 ( chuckles ) Thank you. 702 00:44:23,583 --> 00:44:27,041 ( groans ) That's better, Joe. Thank you. 703 00:44:32,208 --> 00:44:33,291 ( flask pops ) 704 00:44:43,542 --> 00:44:46,750 ( sighs ) Just keeping out the winter cold. 705 00:44:48,834 --> 00:44:52,375 - ( sighs ) - Did you get away from him? 706 00:44:52,458 --> 00:44:53,542 Away from this man? 707 00:44:53,625 --> 00:44:57,834 Well, that was my intention, Joe. 708 00:44:57,917 --> 00:44:59,041 And for that to be possible, 709 00:44:59,125 --> 00:45:03,583 I knew I needed to see him again. 710 00:45:03,667 --> 00:45:08,667 I would act so vague when I saw him. 711 00:45:08,750 --> 00:45:13,417 So forgetful, he'll realize he has no hold over me. 712 00:45:14,667 --> 00:45:16,291 I mean, I knew he could still do me 713 00:45:16,375 --> 00:45:19,959 professional harm if he chose. 714 00:45:22,375 --> 00:45:25,709 It was the first time 715 00:45:25,792 --> 00:45:28,291 I'd been invited to spend the night here. 716 00:45:30,750 --> 00:45:33,041 We'd been to Wimbledon to see the tennis. 717 00:45:33,125 --> 00:45:35,500 In the morning, we were going down the river. 718 00:45:35,583 --> 00:45:38,291 As always, there was a small group of guests. 719 00:45:38,375 --> 00:45:40,750 They were all very famous, 720 00:45:40,834 --> 00:45:44,458 but no Greville White. 721 00:45:47,875 --> 00:45:49,834 Mr. Graham's theme for the evening 722 00:45:49,917 --> 00:45:52,625 seemed to be Edwardian Music Hall. 723 00:45:52,709 --> 00:45:55,542 The house was ringing 724 00:45:55,625 --> 00:45:57,792 with these old songs. 725 00:45:57,875 --> 00:45:59,125 Woman: ♪ But it stopped ♪ 726 00:45:59,208 --> 00:46:00,709 ( gasping ) ♪ Short ♪ 727 00:46:00,792 --> 00:46:02,417 ♪ Never to go again ♪ 728 00:46:02,500 --> 00:46:07,083 ♪ When the old man died ♪ 729 00:46:07,166 --> 00:46:10,000 ♪ It rang and alarmed ♪ 730 00:46:10,083 --> 00:46:12,250 ♪ In the dead of the night ♪ 731 00:46:12,333 --> 00:46:13,291 ♪ An alarm... ♪ 732 00:46:13,375 --> 00:46:14,333 Mary: I was feeling 733 00:46:14,417 --> 00:46:17,250 very excited, I remember. 734 00:46:17,333 --> 00:46:20,667 I'd just been given an important assignment-- 735 00:46:20,750 --> 00:46:24,041 a series of articles in America. 736 00:46:24,125 --> 00:46:26,792 It would be my first visit there. 737 00:46:26,875 --> 00:46:28,041 Woman: ♪ ...still the clock ♪ 738 00:46:28,125 --> 00:46:29,333 ♪ Kept the time ♪ 739 00:46:29,417 --> 00:46:31,750 ♪ With a soft and muffled chime ♪ 740 00:46:31,834 --> 00:46:36,542 ♪ And we silently stood by his side ♪ 741 00:46:36,625 --> 00:46:37,959 ♪ But it stopped ♪ 742 00:46:38,041 --> 00:46:39,667 ( gasping ) ♪ Short ♪ 743 00:46:39,750 --> 00:46:41,625 ♪ Never to go again ♪ 744 00:46:41,709 --> 00:46:46,375 - ♪ When the old man died. ♪ - ( applause ) 745 00:46:50,959 --> 00:46:53,917 Mr. Graham, it's been a fantastic day. Thank you. 746 00:46:54,000 --> 00:46:55,500 I'm heading to America soon. 747 00:46:55,583 --> 00:46:57,125 I'm going to do a few articles out there. 748 00:46:57,208 --> 00:46:59,792 - How wonderful. - Yes, a fantastic opportunity. 749 00:46:59,875 --> 00:47:02,083 I'm only going for a short time, but I'm very excited. 750 00:47:02,166 --> 00:47:03,625 - Good night. - Good night. 751 00:47:03,709 --> 00:47:08,959 - ♪ ...to sing, O ♪ - ♪ What is your song? ♪ 752 00:47:09,041 --> 00:47:11,709 ( harmonizing ) 753 00:47:13,875 --> 00:47:15,875 ♪ It is sung with the ring ♪ 754 00:47:15,959 --> 00:47:18,083 ♪ Of the song maids sing ♪ 755 00:47:18,166 --> 00:47:20,000 ♪ Who loved with a love ♪ 756 00:47:20,083 --> 00:47:22,166 ♪ Life long ♪ 757 00:47:22,250 --> 00:47:25,959 ♪ It's the song of a merry maid peerly proud ♪ 758 00:47:26,041 --> 00:47:28,166 ♪ Who loved a lord ♪ 759 00:47:28,250 --> 00:47:30,417 ♪ And who laughed aloud ♪ 760 00:47:30,500 --> 00:47:33,041 ♪ At the moan of the merry man ♪ 761 00:47:33,125 --> 00:47:35,083 ♪ Moping mum ♪ 762 00:47:35,166 --> 00:47:36,750 ♪ Whose soul was sad ♪ 763 00:47:36,834 --> 00:47:39,291 ♪ And whose glance was glum ♪ 764 00:47:39,375 --> 00:47:40,917 ♪ Who sipped no sup ♪ 765 00:47:41,000 --> 00:47:43,083 ♪ And who craved no crumb ♪ 766 00:47:43,166 --> 00:47:48,625 Both: ♪ As he sighed for the love of a lady ♪ 767 00:47:48,709 --> 00:47:52,750 ♪ Hey-di, hey-di ♪ 768 00:47:52,834 --> 00:47:55,667 ♪ Misery me ♪ 769 00:47:55,750 --> 00:47:57,500 ♪ Lack-a-day-de ♪ 770 00:47:57,583 --> 00:47:59,750 ♪ His pains were o'er ♪ 771 00:47:59,834 --> 00:48:02,333 ♪ And he sighed no more ♪ 772 00:48:02,417 --> 00:48:05,875 Both: ♪ For he lived in the love ♪ 773 00:48:05,959 --> 00:48:11,834 ♪ Of a lady. ♪ 774 00:48:16,291 --> 00:48:18,458 ( distant applause ) 775 00:48:25,959 --> 00:48:29,500 - ( knocking on door ) - Who is it? 776 00:48:29,583 --> 00:48:31,875 Greville: It's me, Greville. I don't need to come in. 777 00:48:31,959 --> 00:48:33,500 I've just got something here for you. 778 00:48:44,041 --> 00:48:45,834 - Hmm. - I thought you might like 779 00:48:45,917 --> 00:48:47,375 some strawberries. 780 00:48:47,458 --> 00:48:48,667 I missed the tennis, but I brought 781 00:48:48,750 --> 00:48:51,375 the strawberries with clotted cream. 782 00:48:51,458 --> 00:48:53,583 - Do you want some? - Thank you, that's very kind. 783 00:48:53,667 --> 00:48:55,458 I'll have a spoonful. 784 00:48:59,959 --> 00:49:02,041 It's all right, I don't need to come in. 785 00:49:04,834 --> 00:49:06,667 - You look really well. - Thank you. 786 00:49:08,041 --> 00:49:10,667 - I am. - I just wanted to say, Mary, 787 00:49:10,750 --> 00:49:12,166 about the last time we saw each other-- 788 00:49:12,250 --> 00:49:13,875 Oh, yes, when you-- 789 00:49:13,959 --> 00:49:15,500 when you made that big salad. 790 00:49:15,583 --> 00:49:19,000 Yes, there was the salad... 791 00:49:19,083 --> 00:49:21,000 and then there was what I told you. 792 00:49:21,083 --> 00:49:22,792 Mary: Oh, yes, was it something-- 793 00:49:22,875 --> 00:49:24,625 was it about a film star and dogs? 794 00:49:24,709 --> 00:49:26,709 Yes, that was part of it, 795 00:49:26,792 --> 00:49:30,000 amongst other things. 796 00:49:30,083 --> 00:49:31,792 I just want to explain why I told you those things. 797 00:49:31,875 --> 00:49:33,125 No! No, you don't have to. 798 00:49:33,208 --> 00:49:34,792 Please. 799 00:49:34,875 --> 00:49:38,166 I just wanted to say I really didn't mean to upset you. 800 00:49:38,250 --> 00:49:41,458 Oh, was I upset? No! 801 00:49:41,542 --> 00:49:42,458 No, I don't think so. 802 00:49:42,542 --> 00:49:45,625 Right. That's good. 803 00:49:45,709 --> 00:49:48,333 I'm glad you weren't. 804 00:49:48,417 --> 00:49:51,917 Both: ♪ The boy I love ♪ 805 00:49:52,000 --> 00:49:56,083 ♪ Is up in the gallery ♪ 806 00:49:56,166 --> 00:49:59,583 ♪ The boy I love ♪ 807 00:49:59,667 --> 00:50:04,125 ♪ Is looking now at me ♪ 808 00:50:04,208 --> 00:50:05,667 ♪ There he is ♪ 809 00:50:05,750 --> 00:50:07,250 ♪ Can't you see... ♪ 810 00:50:07,333 --> 00:50:09,667 Sorry, eating these like this 811 00:50:09,750 --> 00:50:12,583 just reminded me of something. 812 00:50:12,667 --> 00:50:13,875 Since I didn't upset you last time, 813 00:50:13,959 --> 00:50:15,208 I'll risk one more-- one more-- 814 00:50:15,291 --> 00:50:16,709 Please, it's late and I'm-- 815 00:50:16,792 --> 00:50:18,792 No, no, no, this is tiny. 816 00:50:18,875 --> 00:50:21,458 It's funny, not like the other ones. 817 00:50:21,542 --> 00:50:24,458 I was in a private room in a gentlemen's club, 818 00:50:24,542 --> 00:50:26,458 the Beefsteak Club. 819 00:50:26,542 --> 00:50:27,959 A group of us were trying owl 820 00:50:28,041 --> 00:50:30,000 for reasons I don't remember. 821 00:50:30,083 --> 00:50:34,250 Also there was some ghastly, oversweet Greek puddings 822 00:50:34,333 --> 00:50:36,291 with names like Galaktoboureko. 823 00:50:36,375 --> 00:50:40,000 I mean, they were so sticky, it was like eating glue. 824 00:50:40,083 --> 00:50:41,834 There must be a new cook, mustn't there? 825 00:50:41,917 --> 00:50:44,208 We've had the same six puddings for the last 20 years. 826 00:50:44,291 --> 00:50:45,875 ( laughter ) 827 00:50:45,959 --> 00:50:48,041 And as we were trying to unstick ourselves, 828 00:50:48,125 --> 00:50:52,250 these men were saying, very senior figures in the government, 829 00:50:52,333 --> 00:50:53,959 "You know how I hate niggers, 830 00:50:54,041 --> 00:50:55,625 but we're going to have to give them something, 831 00:50:55,709 --> 00:50:56,875 especially in Africa." 832 00:50:56,959 --> 00:50:58,667 Somebody else was saying, 833 00:50:58,750 --> 00:51:00,709 "The niggers will never be able to run anything. 834 00:51:00,792 --> 00:51:02,458 It's madness." 835 00:51:02,542 --> 00:51:04,709 I mean, it was very standard stuff. 836 00:51:04,792 --> 00:51:08,041 But as they talked, they were all fiddling with their teeth. 837 00:51:08,125 --> 00:51:10,500 Their mouths were literally being gummed up. 838 00:51:10,583 --> 00:51:11,834 ( teeth squeals ) 839 00:51:11,917 --> 00:51:13,542 Why are you telling me this? 840 00:51:13,625 --> 00:51:15,750 Well, I thought you'd like that image. 841 00:51:15,834 --> 00:51:18,250 These men sitting around, "I hate the niggers," 842 00:51:18,333 --> 00:51:20,458 with all this syrup in their mouths. 843 00:51:20,542 --> 00:51:23,417 And did you agree with them? 844 00:51:23,500 --> 00:51:25,458 I didn't say that, did I? 845 00:51:28,041 --> 00:51:29,417 Thank you for the strawberries. 846 00:51:29,500 --> 00:51:31,959 I really must go to bed now. 847 00:51:32,041 --> 00:51:33,959 Of course. 848 00:51:36,375 --> 00:51:38,208 I just have one other thing I want to give you. 849 00:51:38,291 --> 00:51:40,250 No. No, it's late 850 00:51:40,333 --> 00:51:41,333 - and I really-- - Please. 851 00:51:42,625 --> 00:51:44,625 Just let me for a moment. 852 00:51:44,709 --> 00:51:47,083 I know you think I'm a snob, Mary. 853 00:51:47,166 --> 00:51:48,875 I really don't know what you think or believe, 854 00:51:48,959 --> 00:51:54,250 - and I don't need to know. - I like taste, refinement. 855 00:51:54,333 --> 00:51:55,750 I really value that. 856 00:51:55,834 --> 00:51:57,417 I don't think that's a crime. 857 00:51:57,500 --> 00:51:59,625 And the idea of everything 858 00:51:59,709 --> 00:52:02,125 being reduced to total mediocrity, 859 00:52:02,208 --> 00:52:03,709 to the lowest common denominator, 860 00:52:03,792 --> 00:52:06,250 that does terrify me. 861 00:52:06,333 --> 00:52:09,125 - I hate the common herd. - So you must hate me, 862 00:52:09,208 --> 00:52:11,000 then, mustn't you? 863 00:52:11,083 --> 00:52:13,625 Because that's where I'm from. 864 00:52:13,709 --> 00:52:15,417 You really imagine I'd be here 865 00:52:15,500 --> 00:52:18,417 if that's what I felt? 866 00:52:18,500 --> 00:52:20,917 Is that what you think of me, Mary? 867 00:52:21,000 --> 00:52:22,417 I'd be really disappointed 868 00:52:22,500 --> 00:52:26,041 if that's what you thought of me. 869 00:52:26,125 --> 00:52:27,834 Mary: I had my chance then. 870 00:52:29,125 --> 00:52:31,959 I could tell him what I thought of him now. 871 00:52:32,041 --> 00:52:34,208 I so wish I could've found the words, Joe. 872 00:52:35,625 --> 00:52:37,208 I often think of that moment, 873 00:52:37,291 --> 00:52:39,250 imagine it again in my head, 874 00:52:39,333 --> 00:52:41,959 and when I do that, I really demolish him. 875 00:52:42,041 --> 00:52:43,834 I'm incredibly eloquent. 876 00:52:43,917 --> 00:52:46,792 But I was a very young woman, 877 00:52:46,875 --> 00:52:48,250 and there was this older man 878 00:52:48,333 --> 00:52:51,333 playing some strange game with me. 879 00:52:51,417 --> 00:52:54,709 I don't think I did too badly. 880 00:52:54,792 --> 00:52:57,291 Young Mary: You want to know what I think of you, Greville? 881 00:52:58,625 --> 00:53:01,125 Well, I think you're a bit sad. 882 00:53:01,208 --> 00:53:02,125 Greville: Sad? 883 00:53:03,792 --> 00:53:05,333 - In what way? - For some reason, 884 00:53:05,417 --> 00:53:07,750 you see me as a threat. 885 00:53:07,834 --> 00:53:10,458 A threat to your nice life 886 00:53:10,542 --> 00:53:12,041 and your country houses. 887 00:53:12,125 --> 00:53:13,333 Why on earth you should think that, 888 00:53:13,417 --> 00:53:15,083 I don't know. 889 00:53:15,166 --> 00:53:18,667 You know, maybe it's because I'm young 890 00:53:18,750 --> 00:53:20,625 and a woman, of course. 891 00:53:22,583 --> 00:53:26,250 And you think I don't show enough respect or something. 892 00:53:26,333 --> 00:53:29,959 And you want to stop me being a threat. 893 00:53:30,041 --> 00:53:33,208 And that's rather sad, don't you think? 894 00:53:33,291 --> 00:53:37,125 Spending so much energy over somebody like me? 895 00:53:43,875 --> 00:53:45,083 Thank you for the strawberries 896 00:53:45,166 --> 00:53:48,291 and, um... and good night. 897 00:53:50,500 --> 00:53:51,417 Right. 898 00:53:54,542 --> 00:53:57,792 That is what you feel, you probably won't 899 00:53:57,875 --> 00:53:59,917 want this, then. 900 00:54:00,000 --> 00:54:01,291 But I really would like you to take it. 901 00:54:01,375 --> 00:54:03,625 I don't want it, whatever it is. 902 00:54:03,709 --> 00:54:05,667 Please, look inside. 903 00:54:05,750 --> 00:54:07,333 Then I'll go, I promise. 904 00:54:19,667 --> 00:54:22,333 ( chuckling ) 905 00:54:22,417 --> 00:54:24,458 What is this? 906 00:54:24,542 --> 00:54:25,750 The key to the wine cellar? 907 00:54:25,834 --> 00:54:27,917 It's the key to my house. 908 00:54:28,000 --> 00:54:30,750 - To your house? - Yes, and it doesn't mean 909 00:54:30,834 --> 00:54:32,417 - what you think it does. - No, whatever it means, 910 00:54:32,500 --> 00:54:34,500 - I don't want it. - This isn't a trick 911 00:54:34,583 --> 00:54:36,291 or some cheap gesture. 912 00:54:36,375 --> 00:54:39,083 I want you to have the imagination 913 00:54:39,166 --> 00:54:42,333 to accept it, the key to my house. 914 00:54:42,417 --> 00:54:45,125 You can come there whenever you want. 915 00:54:45,208 --> 00:54:48,750 You can visit just once or many times. 916 00:54:48,834 --> 00:54:51,500 Just drop by, let yourself in, 917 00:54:51,583 --> 00:54:53,959 either alone or with a friend. 918 00:54:54,041 --> 00:54:56,709 ( chuckles ) Why on earth would I want to do that? 919 00:54:56,792 --> 00:54:58,208 There are all sorts of things in that house 920 00:54:58,291 --> 00:55:00,000 that I've collected over many years-- 921 00:55:00,083 --> 00:55:01,166 over my whole life. 922 00:55:02,625 --> 00:55:04,542 If I happen to be there when you come by, 923 00:55:04,625 --> 00:55:06,375 I wouldn't try to touch you. 924 00:55:08,625 --> 00:55:10,709 I would never attempt to be your lover. 925 00:55:16,959 --> 00:55:18,792 Greville, that really is too strange. 926 00:55:18,875 --> 00:55:21,875 I really would urge you not to refuse straightaway. 927 00:55:24,000 --> 00:55:28,000 How many of these do you hand out to girls each season? 928 00:55:28,083 --> 00:55:30,291 That is unkind, Mary. 929 00:55:30,375 --> 00:55:31,500 I had that specially made for you. 930 00:55:33,542 --> 00:55:35,959 You won't believe me, but I've never done 931 00:55:36,041 --> 00:55:37,458 this before. 932 00:55:39,208 --> 00:55:40,875 I thought we might help each other. 933 00:55:40,959 --> 00:55:43,875 Help each other? In what way? 934 00:55:43,959 --> 00:55:45,834 - In all sorts of ways. - What does that mean? 935 00:55:45,917 --> 00:55:49,291 Professionally, of course. 936 00:55:51,125 --> 00:55:54,291 That goes without saying. 937 00:55:54,375 --> 00:55:56,625 And in other ways, too. 938 00:55:58,000 --> 00:56:00,125 Help each other understand the world. 939 00:56:00,208 --> 00:56:02,542 - ( box closes ) - Good night, Greville. 940 00:56:02,625 --> 00:56:04,166 Don't give it back to me now. 941 00:56:04,250 --> 00:56:06,000 Think about it overnight, at least. 942 00:56:06,083 --> 00:56:07,291 I've thought about it. 943 00:56:12,917 --> 00:56:14,083 ( door slams ) 944 00:56:18,041 --> 00:56:19,458 ( sighs ) 945 00:56:28,625 --> 00:56:31,917 He didn't come bursting back in, did he? 946 00:56:32,000 --> 00:56:34,041 Well, he didn't knock the door down, come rushing at you? 947 00:56:34,125 --> 00:56:37,667 No. No, Joe, he was a bit cleverer than that. 948 00:56:39,875 --> 00:56:43,083 I can still feel that night. 949 00:56:43,166 --> 00:56:46,458 How warm it was, 950 00:56:46,542 --> 00:56:48,917 how good I felt in that dress. 951 00:56:50,458 --> 00:56:54,083 But I was bloody nervous after he'd gone... 952 00:56:54,166 --> 00:56:56,750 with that creepy key. 953 00:57:04,500 --> 00:57:05,667 ( moans ) 954 00:57:30,875 --> 00:57:32,333 Mary: I thought, 955 00:57:32,417 --> 00:57:36,333 "I'll leave very early. 956 00:57:36,417 --> 00:57:37,917 Get away from this house. 957 00:57:38,000 --> 00:57:39,458 Get on with my life. 958 00:57:40,500 --> 00:57:42,375 Never come back." 959 00:57:51,375 --> 00:57:53,834 Woman: Hello, Mary. 960 00:57:56,041 --> 00:57:58,291 I've got a letter for you. 961 00:57:58,375 --> 00:57:59,917 A letter for me? 962 00:58:00,000 --> 00:58:03,417 Yes, from Greville. 963 00:58:09,208 --> 00:58:12,041 - It's very early. - Yes, it is, isn't it? 964 00:58:13,375 --> 00:58:15,542 Sometimes I love to get up early. 965 00:58:17,000 --> 00:58:20,542 I don't think we've been properly introduced. 966 00:58:20,625 --> 00:58:22,750 I'm Mary Gilbert. 967 00:58:22,834 --> 00:58:25,291 And I'm Liza Henton. 968 00:58:25,375 --> 00:58:28,542 There, now we've done it properly. 969 00:58:28,625 --> 00:58:30,917 Mary: She looked so beautiful. 970 00:58:31,000 --> 00:58:32,959 I couldn't help thinking, 971 00:58:33,041 --> 00:58:35,333 "Does he have sex with this girl? 972 00:58:35,417 --> 00:58:38,667 Does he keep several of them in his house? 973 00:58:38,750 --> 00:58:41,625 I mean, did it all start with them being given keys?" 974 00:58:48,375 --> 00:58:50,083 Thank you. 975 00:58:50,166 --> 00:58:51,834 He said that you should read it now, 976 00:58:51,917 --> 00:58:54,458 and that I should wait to see if there was a reply. 977 00:58:54,542 --> 00:58:56,208 I'll read it when I get home. 978 00:58:56,291 --> 00:58:58,208 He said if you could open it now. 979 00:59:00,792 --> 00:59:02,709 Mary: And then I suddenly thought, 980 00:59:02,792 --> 00:59:05,834 "What if it's the key again, and I have accepted it, 981 00:59:05,917 --> 00:59:06,959 you know, unwittingly?" 982 00:59:12,417 --> 00:59:14,333 Why don't you just open it? 983 00:59:16,458 --> 00:59:17,750 ( letter crinkling ) 984 00:59:17,834 --> 00:59:20,041 No need to be nervous. 985 00:59:20,125 --> 00:59:24,458 Oh, I assure you, I'm not nervous. 986 00:59:27,750 --> 00:59:29,542 Greville's voice: My dear Mary, 987 00:59:29,625 --> 00:59:31,041 you disappointed me last night. 988 00:59:31,125 --> 00:59:33,458 You should've taken the key. 989 00:59:33,542 --> 00:59:36,291 Liza has handed you this letter. 990 00:59:36,375 --> 00:59:37,834 Just look at her. 991 00:59:37,917 --> 00:59:40,792 Does she appear in any way frightened of me? 992 00:59:40,875 --> 00:59:43,667 Why don't you ask her about me? 993 00:59:43,750 --> 00:59:45,250 Please come out for dinner with me tonight, 994 00:59:45,333 --> 00:59:47,333 so we can settle our differences 995 00:59:47,417 --> 00:59:49,750 and part friends. 996 00:59:49,834 --> 00:59:52,834 It would be a much better way for us to end things. 997 00:59:56,125 --> 00:59:59,291 Thank you for waiting. There's no reply. 998 00:59:59,375 --> 01:00:01,166 - No reply at all? - No. 999 01:00:08,750 --> 01:00:11,000 ( door opens, closes ) 1000 01:00:23,709 --> 01:00:26,667 Mary: For a few days, nothing at all happened. 1001 01:00:26,750 --> 01:00:29,208 I thought I'd got rid of him. 1002 01:00:31,208 --> 01:00:32,417 Life was going on as normal. 1003 01:00:41,375 --> 01:00:45,709 But then my trip to America was canceled. 1004 01:00:45,792 --> 01:00:47,625 They said to me, my bosses, 1005 01:00:47,709 --> 01:00:51,125 they decided the timing wasn't quite right. 1006 01:00:51,208 --> 01:00:53,333 And a few months later, 1007 01:00:53,417 --> 01:00:56,333 my contract wasn't renewed. 1008 01:00:58,750 --> 01:01:01,875 I was told my style of journalism, 1009 01:01:01,959 --> 01:01:03,667 you know, the voice of youth, 1010 01:01:03,750 --> 01:01:05,834 was no longer in fashion. 1011 01:01:08,542 --> 01:01:10,500 I mean, I wasn't too disturbed. 1012 01:01:10,583 --> 01:01:13,667 I felt I could get a job on any national newspaper 1013 01:01:13,750 --> 01:01:18,333 after the success I had, but one by one, 1014 01:01:18,417 --> 01:01:19,834 for a whole variety of reasons, 1015 01:01:19,917 --> 01:01:22,625 they said no. 1016 01:01:22,709 --> 01:01:24,875 I heard that I was meant 1017 01:01:24,959 --> 01:01:27,333 to be very difficult 1018 01:01:27,417 --> 01:01:30,625 and unreliable and greedy. 1019 01:01:32,250 --> 01:01:37,000 I realized Greville was behind it, of course. 1020 01:01:37,083 --> 01:01:40,458 He was friendly with the newspaper proprietors 1021 01:01:40,542 --> 01:01:44,542 and knew a lot about their personal lives, too. 1022 01:01:44,625 --> 01:01:46,583 Well, didn't you find Greville 1023 01:01:46,667 --> 01:01:48,458 and make him do something or-- 1024 01:01:48,542 --> 01:01:51,583 Mary: No, I didn't, Joe. 1025 01:01:51,667 --> 01:01:55,041 I just thought, "Well, what the hell?" 1026 01:01:55,125 --> 01:01:58,291 ( chuckles ) I've saved a little money. 1027 01:01:58,375 --> 01:02:00,875 I need a break, you know, I'll go abroad. 1028 01:02:00,959 --> 01:02:05,959 Travel, and write another book." 1029 01:02:08,542 --> 01:02:10,417 And I did travel, Joe. 1030 01:02:13,542 --> 01:02:15,291 I had a few love affairs... 1031 01:02:17,250 --> 01:02:19,208 one of which was great fun, 1032 01:02:19,291 --> 01:02:21,792 but I wasn't doing much writing. 1033 01:02:21,875 --> 01:02:26,125 So one day, I decided to come home. 1034 01:02:48,917 --> 01:02:50,709 And I came back here. 1035 01:02:54,542 --> 01:02:59,667 I was going out with a young painter at that time. 1036 01:02:59,750 --> 01:03:01,667 ( chatter ) 1037 01:03:03,417 --> 01:03:06,500 Mary: And he'd become very fashionable, 1038 01:03:06,583 --> 01:03:09,750 and he was invited by Mr. Graham. 1039 01:03:09,834 --> 01:03:11,125 And my lover said to me, 1040 01:03:11,208 --> 01:03:12,750 "You know, why don't you come?" 1041 01:03:12,834 --> 01:03:15,291 And I thought, "Why not? 1042 01:03:18,667 --> 01:03:20,458 If Greville happens to be there, 1043 01:03:20,542 --> 01:03:22,917 which seems highly unlikely after all this time, 1044 01:03:23,000 --> 01:03:24,625 I mean, what can he do to me now? 1045 01:03:24,709 --> 01:03:26,667 He can do nothing." 1046 01:03:28,834 --> 01:03:32,583 And I thought, "You know, maybe I can do something to him. 1047 01:03:32,667 --> 01:03:35,625 Be devastating, you know, be witty. 1048 01:03:35,709 --> 01:03:37,500 Reduce him to a little heap." 1049 01:03:37,583 --> 01:03:39,291 ( unhappy chuckle ) 1050 01:03:39,375 --> 01:03:41,875 ( chatter ) 1051 01:03:47,667 --> 01:03:49,750 It's so different. 1052 01:03:49,834 --> 01:03:53,792 Mary: Mr. Graham had torn out the beautiful conservatory, 1053 01:03:53,875 --> 01:03:56,750 and built this horrible modern room, 1054 01:03:56,834 --> 01:03:58,917 you know, in an attempt to be with it. 1055 01:04:03,250 --> 01:04:05,166 - Woman: I'm okay. How are you? - Yeah, I'm fine. 1056 01:04:05,250 --> 01:04:07,667 Man: You know, she used to write some really racy stuff. 1057 01:04:07,750 --> 01:04:09,959 - Didn't you? - What do you mean, "used to"? 1058 01:04:10,041 --> 01:04:12,333 And some quite heavy stuff, too. 1059 01:04:12,417 --> 01:04:14,041 She can really write, this one. 1060 01:04:14,125 --> 01:04:17,208 - Oh, that's good to know. - Yes, you're right. 1061 01:04:17,291 --> 01:04:18,959 - See you in a while. - OK. 1062 01:04:19,041 --> 01:04:21,375 - ( both mumbling ) - Woman: Where have you been? 1063 01:04:21,458 --> 01:04:25,333 Well, I've been abroad. In the sun, you know, working, of course. 1064 01:04:25,417 --> 01:04:26,667 Writing and planning. 1065 01:04:26,750 --> 01:04:28,417 Woman: And what have you been planning? 1066 01:04:28,500 --> 01:04:32,375 Oh, I'm planning a trilogy of books about now. 1067 01:04:32,458 --> 01:04:33,875 And what are the titles? 1068 01:04:33,959 --> 01:04:36,583 The title, well, I think the title 1069 01:04:36,667 --> 01:04:37,750 will definitely have the word, 1070 01:04:37,834 --> 01:04:39,792 you know, "change" in it. 1071 01:04:39,875 --> 01:04:40,875 Something about change. 1072 01:04:40,959 --> 01:04:42,500 Or else, I was thinking... 1073 01:04:42,583 --> 01:04:46,625 And there he was, quite suddenly, right there. 1074 01:04:48,542 --> 01:04:50,792 He was all trussed up in a waistcoat, 1075 01:04:50,875 --> 01:04:52,959 though it was summer. 1076 01:04:53,041 --> 01:04:57,000 He seemed like he was from another age, 1077 01:04:57,083 --> 01:04:58,792 like one of his wines, 1078 01:05:00,375 --> 01:05:03,709 trying to weave his spell as he worked the room. 1079 01:05:03,792 --> 01:05:06,667 Soon we will be nostalgic for glamour again, 1080 01:05:06,750 --> 01:05:09,125 long dresses, and the funny 1081 01:05:09,208 --> 01:05:12,208 old conservatory that used to be here. 1082 01:05:12,291 --> 01:05:14,500 You don't see faces coming towards you anymore, 1083 01:05:14,583 --> 01:05:15,792 just an army of legs. 1084 01:05:18,792 --> 01:05:22,041 It's the same with these new movies. 1085 01:05:22,125 --> 01:05:25,959 People don't want their noses rubbed along the kitchen floor. 1086 01:05:26,041 --> 01:05:27,750 Who is that guy? 1087 01:05:27,834 --> 01:05:31,709 Oh, that's just somebody I used to know a long time ago. 1088 01:05:31,792 --> 01:05:35,959 Yeah, we once nearly shared a salad in this very house. 1089 01:05:36,041 --> 01:05:40,375 And we-- we did eat some strawberries together, too... 1090 01:05:44,750 --> 01:05:46,709 ...with clotted cream. 1091 01:05:46,792 --> 01:05:48,375 Squalid piece of work. 1092 01:05:48,458 --> 01:05:51,125 I thought it was... depressing. 1093 01:05:59,125 --> 01:06:01,250 Mary: Oh, God. 1094 01:06:01,333 --> 01:06:02,542 Oh, God! 1095 01:06:02,625 --> 01:06:04,500 Oh! Oh, God, this is 1096 01:06:04,583 --> 01:06:06,625 an ugly room, isn't it? 1097 01:06:06,709 --> 01:06:09,041 Didn't you go up to him at this party? 1098 01:06:09,125 --> 01:06:11,291 Didn't you say something? 1099 01:06:11,375 --> 01:06:12,458 You should've got hold of him, 1100 01:06:12,542 --> 01:06:13,959 yanked him in front of people. 1101 01:06:14,041 --> 01:06:15,125 Did you do that? 1102 01:06:15,208 --> 01:06:16,834 Did you say, "You fucking prick. 1103 01:06:16,917 --> 01:06:19,208 You done this to me, now you fucking do 1104 01:06:19,291 --> 01:06:20,917 something about it, and get me my job back"? 1105 01:06:21,000 --> 01:06:23,208 I didn't say that, Joe, no. 1106 01:06:23,291 --> 01:06:26,166 - You didn't? - I couldn't. 1107 01:06:26,250 --> 01:06:28,583 - But why not? - Don't get impatient with me, 1108 01:06:28,667 --> 01:06:29,917 Joe, please. 1109 01:06:30,000 --> 01:06:32,458 Sorry, I didn't mean to shout. 1110 01:06:32,542 --> 01:06:35,625 I just wanted you to get this fucker, that's all. 1111 01:06:35,709 --> 01:06:38,875 Well, it wasn't gonna be easy, Joe. 1112 01:06:38,959 --> 01:06:41,959 Everything had moved on while I'd been on my travels. 1113 01:06:42,041 --> 01:06:44,291 I was wearing the right clothes, of course, 1114 01:06:44,375 --> 01:06:48,875 but inside I felt a stranger. 1115 01:06:50,625 --> 01:06:55,000 It rarely pays to be on the vanguard of things, Joe, 1116 01:06:55,083 --> 01:06:57,625 to be one of the first. 1117 01:06:57,709 --> 01:06:59,458 You're superseded very quickly. 1118 01:07:00,917 --> 01:07:02,250 But much more important than that, 1119 01:07:02,333 --> 01:07:04,208 I wasn't there in my own right. 1120 01:07:04,291 --> 01:07:06,750 I was just with my boyfriend. 1121 01:07:08,458 --> 01:07:11,667 I was thinking, "I used to be invited here 1122 01:07:11,750 --> 01:07:13,959 when I was a fashionable writer." 1123 01:07:14,041 --> 01:07:15,875 Man: I just want to talk to somebody over there. 1124 01:07:15,959 --> 01:07:18,709 - I'll be back. - Don't be long. 1125 01:07:18,792 --> 01:07:21,041 ( chatter ) 1126 01:07:31,792 --> 01:07:35,000 Greville: People want fantasy and stories 1127 01:07:35,083 --> 01:07:37,625 and beautiful worlds to escape to. 1128 01:07:37,709 --> 01:07:39,375 I mean, that's always been the case, 1129 01:07:39,458 --> 01:07:40,959 and it always will. 1130 01:07:53,959 --> 01:07:55,625 And there you have it. 1131 01:07:55,709 --> 01:07:57,625 Writers tell us how to live our lives. 1132 01:08:03,417 --> 01:08:05,291 Can't go wrong with Turkish Delight, 1133 01:08:05,375 --> 01:08:07,208 and probably the Turks have never even heard of it. 1134 01:08:07,291 --> 01:08:10,959 - ( chuckles ) - Sorry, I'm just gabbling. 1135 01:08:25,750 --> 01:08:27,166 Greville: Excuse me. 1136 01:08:46,834 --> 01:08:50,125 Something happened at this party 1137 01:08:50,208 --> 01:08:52,625 that had a big effect on me. 1138 01:08:52,709 --> 01:08:55,959 I mean, a lot of what they say is new about these movies 1139 01:08:56,041 --> 01:08:58,792 has, in fact, been done loads of times before... 1140 01:08:58,875 --> 01:09:00,417 Greville likes to talk, doesn't he? 1141 01:09:02,583 --> 01:09:05,208 Greville: ...by people who were true artists. 1142 01:09:05,291 --> 01:09:08,291 That is why their work hasn't dated. 1143 01:09:08,375 --> 01:09:10,792 Unlike this new breed now, 1144 01:09:10,875 --> 01:09:14,291 addicted to gimmicks and the latest fad. 1145 01:09:14,375 --> 01:09:16,291 Mary: And this man suddenly piped up. 1146 01:09:16,375 --> 01:09:18,875 Man That's complete crap. 1147 01:09:20,375 --> 01:09:21,959 Everything you've said 1148 01:09:22,041 --> 01:09:24,542 is just such utter bollocks. 1149 01:09:26,458 --> 01:09:29,166 Mary: No respect for this older man in a waistcoat, 1150 01:09:29,250 --> 01:09:31,750 he just gave it to him and went. 1151 01:09:33,166 --> 01:09:35,875 What a charming young man. 1152 01:09:35,959 --> 01:09:37,542 Fascinating that he wanted 1153 01:09:37,625 --> 01:09:39,333 to share his opinions with us. 1154 01:09:39,417 --> 01:09:42,583 Mary: I thought, "I should've done that. 1155 01:09:44,458 --> 01:09:46,875 Why didn't I do that to Greville?" 1156 01:09:52,000 --> 01:09:53,583 Ah, then of course, I realized 1157 01:09:55,125 --> 01:09:58,792 I could never talk to Greville like that-- 1158 01:09:58,875 --> 01:10:00,875 brutal and rude. 1159 01:10:00,959 --> 01:10:03,000 I don't know. 1160 01:10:03,083 --> 01:10:05,625 I just-- maybe because I belonged to another time? 1161 01:10:05,709 --> 01:10:11,000 I... I don't know why I couldn't. 1162 01:10:11,083 --> 01:10:14,709 Because I was afraid. I couldn't even go up to him at that party. 1163 01:10:14,792 --> 01:10:17,125 He's looking for someone else to talk to, 1164 01:10:17,208 --> 01:10:21,709 to engage with, and I'm almost hiding. 1165 01:10:21,792 --> 01:10:27,083 And then... he looks at me. 1166 01:10:28,417 --> 01:10:29,792 He looks across at me. 1167 01:10:31,792 --> 01:10:34,375 And though he didn't say anything, 1168 01:10:34,458 --> 01:10:36,166 I could hear him saying... 1169 01:10:36,250 --> 01:10:38,166 But you are still mine. 1170 01:10:42,959 --> 01:10:46,041 But you are still mine, 1171 01:10:46,125 --> 01:10:47,500 aren't you, Mary? 1172 01:10:58,959 --> 01:11:01,083 Mary: I tried not to run, 1173 01:11:01,166 --> 01:11:04,125 not to look like I was fleeing his presence. 1174 01:11:25,709 --> 01:11:28,208 I didn't want to creep out of there either, 1175 01:11:28,291 --> 01:11:31,834 but I got away from this house as quick as I could. 1176 01:11:42,208 --> 01:11:43,792 What, you left here without saying 1177 01:11:43,875 --> 01:11:45,208 anything to him? 1178 01:11:46,542 --> 01:11:51,000 That's right. I left him looking for me. 1179 01:11:53,041 --> 01:11:55,709 Yeah, but you did speak to him again, didn't you? 1180 01:11:58,542 --> 01:12:02,208 - ( deep breath ) - Go on. 1181 01:12:08,667 --> 01:12:11,709 Mary: For a few months... 1182 01:12:11,792 --> 01:12:15,959 or maybe a year, I sunk myself 1183 01:12:16,041 --> 01:12:19,917 into my love affair with the artist. 1184 01:12:20,000 --> 01:12:25,583 He was getting really successful, almost famous. 1185 01:12:30,458 --> 01:12:34,291 But he was very careful with money. 1186 01:12:36,417 --> 01:12:38,875 Extremely mean, in fact. 1187 01:12:45,583 --> 01:12:48,750 So, for a time, we lived in this bedsit, 1188 01:12:48,834 --> 01:12:53,208 and he disappeared for days on end to his studio. 1189 01:12:53,291 --> 01:12:55,166 When he wasn't painting, 1190 01:12:55,250 --> 01:12:58,125 he was thinking deep thoughts. 1191 01:13:02,792 --> 01:13:06,625 He had an awful lot of deep thoughts, it seems, 1192 01:13:06,709 --> 01:13:09,250 none of which I ever got to hear. 1193 01:13:11,417 --> 01:13:15,000 And the room was just crammed with his things, 1194 01:13:15,083 --> 01:13:17,792 as well as his thoughts. 1195 01:13:17,875 --> 01:13:21,375 And I started having a little tipple 1196 01:13:21,458 --> 01:13:24,375 at various moments of the day. 1197 01:13:24,458 --> 01:13:26,625 I found it helped the creative flow. 1198 01:13:26,709 --> 01:13:28,709 - ( bottle clatters ) - Shit! Fuck! 1199 01:13:28,792 --> 01:13:31,709 ( groans ) Oh, I nearly cut myself. 1200 01:13:31,792 --> 01:13:33,583 Stepped on one of your bloody wineglasses. 1201 01:13:33,667 --> 01:13:35,041 I told you so many times, 1202 01:13:35,125 --> 01:13:37,500 don't leave glasses on the floor, okay? 1203 01:13:38,792 --> 01:13:40,375 It's a real pigsty in here. 1204 01:13:40,458 --> 01:13:43,083 You have to clear it all up, you understand? 1205 01:13:43,166 --> 01:13:45,041 Yeah, I understand. 1206 01:13:45,125 --> 01:13:46,750 I'll write it down a hundred times. 1207 01:13:46,834 --> 01:13:49,625 - "It's a real pigsty in here." - And then what 1208 01:13:49,709 --> 01:13:52,750 - are you gonna do about it? - What am I gonna do about it? 1209 01:13:52,834 --> 01:13:54,208 Yes. 1210 01:13:55,959 --> 01:13:57,875 Well, maybe I'll start by making a list 1211 01:13:57,959 --> 01:13:59,083 of all the things of yours 1212 01:13:59,166 --> 01:14:00,583 I'm not allowed to throw out. 1213 01:14:00,667 --> 01:14:02,083 "What are you doing, Mary? 1214 01:14:02,166 --> 01:14:03,917 You've moved the cornflake packet." 1215 01:14:04,000 --> 01:14:05,625 When have I ever said that? 1216 01:14:05,709 --> 01:14:07,625 You always say things like that. 1217 01:14:07,709 --> 01:14:09,709 I mean, just the other day you accused me 1218 01:14:09,792 --> 01:14:12,917 of throwing out that stupid little green cloth 1219 01:14:13,000 --> 01:14:15,083 you're forever wiping the gramophone with. 1220 01:14:15,166 --> 01:14:17,625 Just clean the place up, okay? 1221 01:14:19,333 --> 01:14:21,917 After all, you've got the time, haven't you? 1222 01:14:22,000 --> 01:14:26,125 ( chuckles ) Oh, unlike you, you mean? 1223 01:14:26,208 --> 01:14:30,375 Yes. I don't know what you do all day, Mary. 1224 01:14:41,333 --> 01:14:43,375 Mary: I was beginning to write again-- 1225 01:14:43,458 --> 01:14:46,583 another attempt at a novel. 1226 01:14:46,667 --> 01:14:49,667 Outside all sorts of new things were happening, 1227 01:14:49,750 --> 01:14:51,041 and I thought I should be able 1228 01:14:51,125 --> 01:14:53,875 to catch them, describe them. 1229 01:14:55,041 --> 01:14:57,583 But the funny thing was... 1230 01:14:59,917 --> 01:15:02,750 ...it didn't matter whether I started the story 1231 01:15:02,834 --> 01:15:05,834 on a train or in the desert 1232 01:15:05,917 --> 01:15:08,583 or outside Buckingham Palace. 1233 01:15:38,959 --> 01:15:41,750 It always-- always led back 1234 01:15:41,834 --> 01:15:44,750 to the cellar and Greville. 1235 01:16:01,959 --> 01:16:02,834 ( moans ) 1236 01:16:04,792 --> 01:16:06,625 Mary: One day, I started to write 1237 01:16:06,709 --> 01:16:08,709 directly on a typewriter. 1238 01:16:08,792 --> 01:16:12,917 Up till then, I'd always done the first draft in longhand. 1239 01:16:13,000 --> 01:16:14,667 It was a nice day. 1240 01:16:14,750 --> 01:16:16,917 There were church bells outside the window. 1241 01:16:17,000 --> 01:16:20,458 Somebody was getting married down the street. 1242 01:16:21,542 --> 01:16:23,291 And I was flying-- 1243 01:16:24,625 --> 01:16:27,250 absolutely flying with my story. 1244 01:16:27,333 --> 01:16:29,667 ( church bells ringing ) 1245 01:16:33,875 --> 01:16:35,000 ( typewriter rings ) 1246 01:16:48,834 --> 01:16:51,125 ( ball bouncing ) 1247 01:17:00,542 --> 01:17:02,917 - ( church bells stop ) - ( groans ) 1248 01:17:03,000 --> 01:17:05,125 ( ball bouncing ) 1249 01:17:10,166 --> 01:17:13,083 And then I wasn't flying anymore. 1250 01:17:15,709 --> 01:17:16,917 Every time this happened, 1251 01:17:17,000 --> 01:17:20,875 my confidence took a further little knock. 1252 01:17:24,000 --> 01:17:27,625 When you have success... without really 1253 01:17:27,709 --> 01:17:29,500 thinking about it when you're very young, 1254 01:17:29,583 --> 01:17:33,041 and you're not quite sure how you did all that... 1255 01:17:34,709 --> 01:17:37,291 your confidence can go amazingly quickly 1256 01:17:37,375 --> 01:17:39,375 when things go wrong. 1257 01:17:43,917 --> 01:17:46,834 Escape wasn't proving easy, Joe. 1258 01:17:51,375 --> 01:17:52,875 Mary: I knew a lot of people, 1259 01:17:52,959 --> 01:17:54,709 you know, friends, acquaintances, 1260 01:17:54,792 --> 01:17:57,667 who'd become successful around that time, 1261 01:17:57,750 --> 01:18:01,542 and then destroyed themselves with drink and drugs. 1262 01:18:10,000 --> 01:18:12,333 Mary: And I decided I was definitely 1263 01:18:12,417 --> 01:18:14,750 not going to be one of them. 1264 01:18:19,458 --> 01:18:21,250 Try my hardest. 1265 01:18:22,458 --> 01:18:23,375 Good. 1266 01:18:24,709 --> 01:18:28,375 - I pulled myself together. - Great. 1267 01:18:28,458 --> 01:18:30,375 Yeah, I started going out again, 1268 01:18:30,458 --> 01:18:33,291 attending private views with my boyfriend. 1269 01:18:33,375 --> 01:18:35,458 ( music playing ) 1270 01:18:37,250 --> 01:18:38,166 Woman: Come on! 1271 01:18:40,083 --> 01:18:41,917 Hurry up! 1272 01:18:43,291 --> 01:18:44,625 - Woman - Come on. 1273 01:18:46,375 --> 01:18:47,875 Mary: Of course, I realized that 1274 01:18:47,959 --> 01:18:50,959 there was a slight chance I might see Greville, 1275 01:18:51,041 --> 01:18:54,875 but I was ready for it. 1276 01:18:54,959 --> 01:18:56,750 Well, yeah, because you ain't spoken to him 1277 01:18:56,834 --> 01:18:58,875 about him getting you fired. 1278 01:18:58,959 --> 01:19:00,208 I hadn't, no. 1279 01:19:00,291 --> 01:19:02,583 And you got to speak to him about that. 1280 01:19:03,625 --> 01:19:05,000 That's right. 1281 01:19:07,792 --> 01:19:10,000 - ( music playing ) - Mary: So at one 1282 01:19:10,083 --> 01:19:12,208 particular private view, 1283 01:19:12,291 --> 01:19:15,417 being held at a house in the country, 1284 01:19:15,500 --> 01:19:18,375 I was sitting there with my boyfriend. 1285 01:19:18,458 --> 01:19:20,250 We'd been breaking up for months, 1286 01:19:20,333 --> 01:19:22,875 only we'd been doing it in slow motion, 1287 01:19:22,959 --> 01:19:24,291 a little bit each week. 1288 01:19:24,375 --> 01:19:26,458 On this particular night, what we were saying 1289 01:19:26,542 --> 01:19:30,959 to each other was... it's fairly terminal. 1290 01:19:31,041 --> 01:19:34,166 Maybe it's because I... 1291 01:19:35,208 --> 01:19:36,500 need more space. 1292 01:19:37,750 --> 01:19:40,250 I think I really do need 1293 01:19:40,333 --> 01:19:41,792 a lot more space. 1294 01:19:41,875 --> 01:19:45,083 He was too mean to buy more space, 1295 01:19:45,166 --> 01:19:48,208 so he had to kick me out instead. 1296 01:19:48,291 --> 01:19:50,667 Actually, I wasn't slow in pointing this out. 1297 01:19:51,709 --> 01:19:53,542 You know what, Zach? 1298 01:19:53,625 --> 01:19:55,250 The other day, I was trying to think 1299 01:19:55,333 --> 01:19:57,542 of the last thing you bought me-- 1300 01:19:57,625 --> 01:19:59,125 any kind of present. 1301 01:19:59,208 --> 01:20:01,792 You know what it was? 1302 01:20:01,875 --> 01:20:03,667 A single pink balloon 1303 01:20:03,750 --> 01:20:05,667 to celebrate my birthday. 1304 01:20:05,750 --> 01:20:08,166 I don't believe in birthdays, never have. 1305 01:20:08,250 --> 01:20:10,792 Now, why doesn't that surprise me? 1306 01:20:10,875 --> 01:20:12,375 But I know what you'd like. 1307 01:20:13,834 --> 01:20:16,291 What would I like? 1308 01:20:16,375 --> 01:20:17,834 You'd like a crate of vodka delivered 1309 01:20:17,917 --> 01:20:19,959 at the beginning of every week. 1310 01:20:20,041 --> 01:20:22,667 You'd wake up, there it'd be 1311 01:20:22,750 --> 01:20:25,208 at the end of the bed. 1312 01:20:25,291 --> 01:20:28,834 Once a week? Well, that certainly wouldn't be enough. 1313 01:20:30,166 --> 01:20:32,041 So there we were, right in the middle 1314 01:20:32,125 --> 01:20:35,667 of our breakup, and there... 1315 01:20:37,208 --> 01:20:40,834 - there was Greville. - Hello, I saw you 1316 01:20:40,917 --> 01:20:43,542 at the Glyn Perry's in August. 1317 01:20:43,625 --> 01:20:46,250 You don't remember? I think we were sitting quite near each other. 1318 01:20:46,333 --> 01:20:48,250 Mary: He was dressed in his usual 1319 01:20:48,333 --> 01:20:49,834 old-fashioned way, 1320 01:20:49,917 --> 01:20:53,542 almost defiantly out of keeping with the times. 1321 01:20:53,625 --> 01:20:56,458 Keeps avoiding catching my eye. 1322 01:20:56,542 --> 01:20:58,333 I mean, he knows I'm there. 1323 01:20:58,417 --> 01:21:01,125 I know he's seen me, but he... 1324 01:21:01,208 --> 01:21:03,458 he won't look at me. 1325 01:21:03,542 --> 01:21:05,125 No, he's smiling 1326 01:21:05,208 --> 01:21:08,583 and trying to gossip with people. 1327 01:21:10,125 --> 01:21:12,792 I did enjoy the exhibition. 1328 01:21:12,875 --> 01:21:16,000 Tell me, were they meant to be people or fruit? 1329 01:21:16,083 --> 01:21:18,291 - What? - The shapes. 1330 01:21:18,375 --> 01:21:19,875 They looked like fruit to me, 1331 01:21:20,000 --> 01:21:21,875 but somebody said they were meant to be people. 1332 01:21:21,959 --> 01:21:24,166 Mary: And Liza was there as well. 1333 01:21:24,250 --> 01:21:26,208 She was dressed very oddly, too-- 1334 01:21:26,291 --> 01:21:28,333 almost like her mother might have been. 1335 01:21:28,417 --> 01:21:30,208 I'm having a party in my little flat 1336 01:21:30,291 --> 01:21:32,041 in Kensington in a few weeks. 1337 01:21:32,125 --> 01:21:33,291 I do hope you'll come. 1338 01:21:33,375 --> 01:21:35,250 Mary: She was still very young, 1339 01:21:35,333 --> 01:21:37,250 and yet she looked so out of place. 1340 01:21:37,333 --> 01:21:38,834 Apparently, there are only 1341 01:21:38,917 --> 01:21:40,959 12 interesting people in London, 1342 01:21:41,041 --> 01:21:42,166 and so it will have to be a very 1343 01:21:42,250 --> 01:21:44,083 tiny gathering, as you can imagine, 1344 01:21:44,166 --> 01:21:45,333 but you are one of them. 1345 01:21:46,542 --> 01:21:47,667 Hello, did you get my letter? 1346 01:21:49,458 --> 01:21:53,375 Post is terrible, but I've had an idea for a book. 1347 01:21:53,458 --> 01:21:55,000 I was wondering if we could talk about it. 1348 01:21:56,083 --> 01:21:57,709 It's a memoir, really. 1349 01:21:57,792 --> 01:22:00,333 I think it would make quite a lively read-- 1350 01:22:00,417 --> 01:22:03,208 the time I spent with Lloyd George and Churchill. 1351 01:22:03,291 --> 01:22:07,250 You see, I worked on Churchill's papers. 1352 01:22:07,333 --> 01:22:09,250 Got to know him quite well. 1353 01:22:09,333 --> 01:22:11,083 Got drunk with him, actually. 1354 01:22:11,166 --> 01:22:13,208 Mary: It was like their joke on the world. 1355 01:22:13,291 --> 01:22:16,750 You know, this strange couple weaving some sort of spell 1356 01:22:16,834 --> 01:22:20,000 wasn't really working anymore. 1357 01:22:20,083 --> 01:22:23,750 I think you'll be surprised in more ways than one. 1358 01:22:23,834 --> 01:22:24,792 Give me a call. 1359 01:22:29,375 --> 01:22:32,250 Mary: But it's like he knew his power 1360 01:22:32,333 --> 01:22:34,917 - was on the wane. - ( sighs ) 1361 01:22:35,000 --> 01:22:37,417 Mary: The great newspaper proprietors 1362 01:22:37,500 --> 01:22:40,500 he was close to were now dead. 1363 01:22:40,583 --> 01:22:44,041 He didn't have nearly so many influential friends. 1364 01:22:46,917 --> 01:22:49,959 He was standing very straight-- 1365 01:22:50,041 --> 01:22:51,792 you know, like he was determined 1366 01:22:51,875 --> 01:22:56,125 not to be engulfed by this new world-- 1367 01:22:56,208 --> 01:22:58,959 this world he had first sensed maybe 1368 01:22:59,041 --> 01:23:01,333 when he met me. 1369 01:23:01,417 --> 01:23:04,417 I was almost relishing watching him like that. 1370 01:23:05,917 --> 01:23:08,583 And I was-- I was thinking about Liza. 1371 01:23:08,667 --> 01:23:11,208 ( chatter ) 1372 01:23:12,917 --> 01:23:15,583 Mary: Was that what he wanted me to become? 1373 01:23:17,542 --> 01:23:20,375 Was he one of the 12 most interesting men in London? 1374 01:23:20,458 --> 01:23:22,083 Apparently, yes. Yes. 1375 01:23:22,166 --> 01:23:24,125 What number does that make me, I wonder? 1376 01:23:24,208 --> 01:23:26,542 Well, of course, you're number one, Greville. 1377 01:23:26,625 --> 01:23:29,333 Mary: And then their car draws up, 1378 01:23:29,417 --> 01:23:31,583 and they both get in. 1379 01:23:31,667 --> 01:23:34,250 I'm feeling almost relaxed now. 1380 01:23:34,333 --> 01:23:38,875 They're going, and nothing has happened. 1381 01:23:38,959 --> 01:23:42,083 Nothing bad has occurred at all. 1382 01:23:42,166 --> 01:23:44,041 And I remember so clearly, 1383 01:23:44,125 --> 01:23:45,750 watching them together in the back of the car. 1384 01:23:47,750 --> 01:23:49,458 The car draws off... 1385 01:23:56,834 --> 01:23:59,417 ...and then he stares straight at me. 1386 01:23:59,500 --> 01:24:02,625 - He mouths... - Help me. 1387 01:24:02,709 --> 01:24:04,375 Help me. 1388 01:24:05,583 --> 01:24:09,875 "Help me, Mary." 1389 01:24:09,959 --> 01:24:12,291 Help me, Mary. 1390 01:24:16,792 --> 01:24:17,792 Help me. 1391 01:24:19,458 --> 01:24:23,208 Mary: It wasn't a pathetic cry, Joe. 1392 01:24:23,291 --> 01:24:26,917 Quite the reverse. It was terrifying. 1393 01:24:27,959 --> 01:24:30,375 Help me, Mary. 1394 01:24:30,458 --> 01:24:31,834 Help me. 1395 01:25:10,583 --> 01:25:12,834 And then I never saw him again, Joe. 1396 01:25:13,875 --> 01:25:16,709 What? You didn't? 1397 01:25:17,917 --> 01:25:20,834 - No. - You never ever said 1398 01:25:20,917 --> 01:25:22,291 anything about what he'd done to you? 1399 01:25:22,375 --> 01:25:24,125 No. 1400 01:25:24,208 --> 01:25:26,166 You didn't ring him up or anything 1401 01:25:26,250 --> 01:25:28,709 and say, "Why should I help you? 1402 01:25:28,792 --> 01:25:31,041 You did this terrible thing to me." 1403 01:25:33,750 --> 01:25:34,750 No. 1404 01:25:51,458 --> 01:25:54,917 I didn't see him again, Joe. 1405 01:25:55,000 --> 01:25:56,333 Until today. 1406 01:25:57,542 --> 01:25:58,500 Today? 1407 01:25:59,542 --> 01:26:01,834 I saw him today. 1408 01:26:01,917 --> 01:26:04,750 But, well, he must be old, mustn't he? 1409 01:26:04,834 --> 01:26:07,542 I mean, it's a long time ago. 1410 01:26:07,625 --> 01:26:10,375 He must be an incredibly old man. 1411 01:26:10,458 --> 01:26:13,333 You would've thought so, wouldn't you, Joe? 1412 01:26:13,417 --> 01:26:15,458 What do you mean? 1413 01:26:16,709 --> 01:26:18,875 Where did you see him? 1414 01:26:26,417 --> 01:26:29,375 Mary: I often go for a walk in the park in the morning, 1415 01:26:29,458 --> 01:26:31,083 and usually it's all right, 1416 01:26:31,166 --> 01:26:34,750 alone with one's thoughts, planning the next day. 1417 01:26:36,667 --> 01:26:37,625 Greville: Mary! 1418 01:26:41,875 --> 01:26:43,375 Mary! 1419 01:27:04,750 --> 01:27:06,583 I didn't hear my name again, 1420 01:27:06,667 --> 01:27:08,750 so I just got on with my walk. 1421 01:27:15,458 --> 01:27:17,625 Mary: I'm dimly aware of this figure 1422 01:27:17,709 --> 01:27:19,291 just a little further on 1423 01:27:19,375 --> 01:27:22,959 keeping pace with me, walking along another path. 1424 01:27:26,834 --> 01:27:28,834 He didn't seem to be looking at me. 1425 01:27:28,917 --> 01:27:32,125 I realized, you know, he must have been calling somebody else. 1426 01:27:36,125 --> 01:27:39,709 And I get to my usual spot. 1427 01:27:39,792 --> 01:27:43,166 I often sit there for a few minutes. 1428 01:27:54,750 --> 01:27:56,375 Greville: Mary. 1429 01:27:58,667 --> 01:28:01,375 - Mary! - Mary: I thought, 1430 01:28:01,458 --> 01:28:04,083 "Looks terribly like Greville. 1431 01:28:04,166 --> 01:28:08,417 No, that's impossible 'cause he's not old... 1432 01:28:08,500 --> 01:28:11,208 and Greville was much older than me. 1433 01:28:19,041 --> 01:28:22,083 ( scoffs ) No, no, it must be somebody else." 1434 01:28:23,917 --> 01:28:27,083 Now, I know what you're thinking. It was the drink. 1435 01:28:28,875 --> 01:28:30,166 This drink, in fact. 1436 01:28:31,542 --> 01:28:33,417 And of course, you could be right, Joe... 1437 01:28:36,083 --> 01:28:37,834 because this isn't a ghost story. 1438 01:28:37,917 --> 01:28:39,333 No. 1439 01:28:39,417 --> 01:28:42,750 No, this is worse than a ghost story. 1440 01:28:44,000 --> 01:28:46,291 For me, anyway. 1441 01:28:46,375 --> 01:28:48,333 Joe: Why? 1442 01:28:48,417 --> 01:28:51,542 What happened? Did he come any closer? 1443 01:28:53,375 --> 01:28:56,166 It's very important, because of what 1444 01:28:56,250 --> 01:28:57,625 happens next, for you to understand. 1445 01:28:57,709 --> 01:28:59,125 I don't usually sit in the park 1446 01:28:59,208 --> 01:29:02,000 in the morning feeling sorry for myself. 1447 01:29:02,083 --> 01:29:06,417 I hate the idea. I haven't spent all these years in self-pity. 1448 01:29:07,667 --> 01:29:09,083 Do you follow that, Joe? 1449 01:29:10,875 --> 01:29:14,250 - Yeah. - I mean, I had rebuilt, 1450 01:29:14,333 --> 01:29:16,750 you know, a sort of career for myself 1451 01:29:16,834 --> 01:29:20,208 after the setbacks caused by Greville. 1452 01:29:20,291 --> 01:29:22,792 I've written for magazines 1453 01:29:22,875 --> 01:29:26,375 about gardening and lifestyle and antiques. 1454 01:29:26,458 --> 01:29:28,542 I've been able to earn a reasonable living. 1455 01:29:28,625 --> 01:29:30,834 You know, many people would think 1456 01:29:30,917 --> 01:29:32,750 I'd been lucky to lead such a life. 1457 01:29:34,750 --> 01:29:36,375 You understand me, Joe? 1458 01:29:36,458 --> 01:29:39,083 Yeah, I do. 1459 01:29:44,750 --> 01:29:46,500 Greville: I thought it was you, Mary. 1460 01:29:48,750 --> 01:29:50,333 What are you doing here... 1461 01:29:51,500 --> 01:29:53,166 all on your own? 1462 01:29:54,583 --> 01:29:56,667 I always thought if I saw you again, 1463 01:29:56,750 --> 01:29:59,291 it would be in this park, 1464 01:29:59,375 --> 01:30:03,375 and you would be on your own. 1465 01:30:03,458 --> 01:30:04,875 Mary: I couldn't speak, 1466 01:30:04,959 --> 01:30:07,542 but he seemed to sense what I was thinking. 1467 01:30:07,625 --> 01:30:09,583 I'm not alone, in fact. 1468 01:30:11,500 --> 01:30:12,667 Mary: I peered at them. 1469 01:30:15,041 --> 01:30:18,041 Could one of them have been Liza? 1470 01:30:18,125 --> 01:30:20,083 Greville: How's it been, Mary? 1471 01:30:22,500 --> 01:30:24,125 Everything you hoped? 1472 01:30:26,333 --> 01:30:28,667 Silly girl. 1473 01:30:28,750 --> 01:30:33,041 If it was an hallucination, it was a very sustained one. 1474 01:30:35,792 --> 01:30:37,875 Suddenly, he was close. 1475 01:30:37,959 --> 01:30:40,542 Greville: I kept looking for your name. 1476 01:30:40,625 --> 01:30:43,250 I could never find it. 1477 01:30:43,333 --> 01:30:46,667 I've had some painful things happen to me, too. 1478 01:30:48,250 --> 01:30:49,834 We could've helped each other... 1479 01:30:51,667 --> 01:30:53,875 like I said. 1480 01:30:55,166 --> 01:30:56,500 All you could think was that I wanted 1481 01:30:56,583 --> 01:31:00,000 to catch you-- control you. 1482 01:31:01,500 --> 01:31:03,500 Where have you been all this time, Mary? 1483 01:31:06,375 --> 01:31:08,500 Where is the bright young girl? 1484 01:31:10,750 --> 01:31:12,875 I can see no sign of her. 1485 01:31:15,542 --> 01:31:17,709 No sign at all. 1486 01:31:29,333 --> 01:31:30,917 ( man rollerblading ) 1487 01:31:38,959 --> 01:31:40,750 Mary: The very first thing I thought about 1488 01:31:40,834 --> 01:31:42,542 after he'd gone was funny. 1489 01:31:42,625 --> 01:31:44,166 It was I suddenly understood 1490 01:31:44,250 --> 01:31:48,000 why he was always there at Mr. Graham's parties. 1491 01:31:48,083 --> 01:31:50,625 I realized right then it must have been 1492 01:31:50,709 --> 01:31:54,667 because he knew something about Mr. Graham's past. 1493 01:31:54,750 --> 01:31:57,166 For a moment, I was quite excited 1494 01:31:57,250 --> 01:31:59,250 to have worked that out. 1495 01:32:05,083 --> 01:32:06,041 But then... 1496 01:32:11,583 --> 01:32:14,875 ...I started thinking the worst possible thoughts. 1497 01:32:23,083 --> 01:32:26,375 What might have been. 1498 01:32:34,250 --> 01:32:35,417 ( chuckles ) 1499 01:32:38,750 --> 01:32:41,250 ( both singing ) 1500 01:32:44,375 --> 01:32:46,792 Mary: How stupid I was 1501 01:32:46,875 --> 01:32:49,041 to think I could take on that world 1502 01:32:49,125 --> 01:32:50,917 when I was so very young. 1503 01:32:57,959 --> 01:33:01,458 If only I'd been 10 years older 1504 01:33:01,542 --> 01:33:05,458 or been born a few years later 1505 01:33:05,542 --> 01:33:07,959 when things were different. 1506 01:33:10,875 --> 01:33:14,291 A young woman in that house... 1507 01:33:18,959 --> 01:33:22,000 ...shouldn't ever have happened. 1508 01:33:28,000 --> 01:33:30,375 And I've never been able to shake it off 1509 01:33:30,458 --> 01:33:32,500 all this time. 1510 01:33:36,458 --> 01:33:39,333 How idiotic is that? 1511 01:33:43,500 --> 01:33:46,750 Mary: And I was thinking too, 1512 01:33:46,834 --> 01:33:49,250 have I used what happened with Greville 1513 01:33:49,333 --> 01:33:52,250 as an excuse 1514 01:33:52,333 --> 01:33:54,750 my whole life, 1515 01:33:54,834 --> 01:33:56,875 for the loss of my talent? 1516 01:34:03,625 --> 01:34:06,417 I remembered his party trick 1517 01:34:06,500 --> 01:34:08,583 of seeing yourself as others see you. 1518 01:34:22,583 --> 01:34:26,125 And all the time 1519 01:34:26,208 --> 01:34:28,000 there was this sensation... 1520 01:34:30,125 --> 01:34:33,750 like the lights being turned down... 1521 01:34:38,625 --> 01:34:42,750 ...things closing in, shutting down. 1522 01:34:46,750 --> 01:34:52,000 Suddenly, I-- I found it difficult to breathe. 1523 01:34:52,083 --> 01:34:54,917 It's an absolutely horrible feeling, Joe. 1524 01:35:21,333 --> 01:35:22,750 ( sobs ) 1525 01:35:36,959 --> 01:35:39,125 ( sobbing continues ) 1526 01:36:18,750 --> 01:36:20,125 ( sighs ) 1527 01:36:25,208 --> 01:36:29,709 It was disgraceful, Joe, my exhibition. 1528 01:36:29,792 --> 01:36:34,667 You know, crying for one's youth. 1529 01:36:36,667 --> 01:36:38,917 What a useless thing to do. 1530 01:36:49,041 --> 01:36:51,041 Mary: I ran away. 1531 01:36:53,917 --> 01:36:56,250 I ran away from the park. 1532 01:37:05,625 --> 01:37:07,500 Mary: But at least 1533 01:37:08,875 --> 01:37:14,667 that feeling... of things shutting down... 1534 01:37:16,834 --> 01:37:18,875 of it all ending... 1535 01:37:22,083 --> 01:37:24,041 ...I fought that. 1536 01:37:26,834 --> 01:37:28,250 He didn't manage that. 1537 01:37:31,458 --> 01:37:34,709 And then, somehow, 1538 01:37:36,375 --> 01:37:37,875 I managed to come here. 1539 01:37:40,250 --> 01:37:44,291 Something I've been thinking about for years, 1540 01:37:45,750 --> 01:37:48,417 to come back here, 1541 01:37:48,500 --> 01:37:50,959 confront the place. 1542 01:37:52,375 --> 01:37:56,709 Today, after the park... 1543 01:37:59,667 --> 01:38:02,166 ...I just walked straight here. 1544 01:38:04,458 --> 01:38:07,125 Seemed the obvious thing to do. 1545 01:38:11,250 --> 01:38:13,583 And you were kind enough to let me in. 1546 01:38:14,667 --> 01:38:16,000 You came to see if he was here? 1547 01:38:17,792 --> 01:38:20,959 To see if I could get rid of a ghost... 1548 01:38:22,291 --> 01:38:25,125 which isn't a ghost, of course. 1549 01:38:30,667 --> 01:38:32,083 Not a proper ghost. 1550 01:38:35,291 --> 01:38:36,959 Joe: And have you? 1551 01:38:42,208 --> 01:38:43,375 Joe: Have you? 1552 01:38:45,166 --> 01:38:47,834 I'm sorry, Joe, I have to go now. 1553 01:38:47,917 --> 01:38:49,917 Well, you have, haven't you? 1554 01:38:50,000 --> 01:38:51,208 Got rid of him? 1555 01:38:52,417 --> 01:38:55,041 - Yes. - Promise me. 1556 01:38:58,166 --> 01:39:02,917 Yes. Don't bother to show me out, Joe, I know the way. 1557 01:39:03,000 --> 01:39:04,542 I've just got to get out of this house. 1558 01:39:04,625 --> 01:39:06,917 Are you going to the park tomorrow? 1559 01:39:07,000 --> 01:39:09,166 Yeah, I might do. 1560 01:39:09,250 --> 01:39:11,959 - Can I come, too? - ( receding footsteps ) 1561 01:39:12,041 --> 01:39:13,542 Joe: See where it happened? 1562 01:39:13,625 --> 01:39:15,625 See if he's still there, you mean? 1563 01:39:15,709 --> 01:39:20,583 - 11:00. Hope I turn up. - Which park? 1564 01:39:20,667 --> 01:39:23,333 But you ain't told me which park. 1565 01:39:26,166 --> 01:39:28,709 Mary: Kensington Gardens. 1566 01:39:28,792 --> 01:39:29,917 ( door slams ) 1567 01:39:36,375 --> 01:39:38,500 Joe: She'd given me the time, 1568 01:39:38,583 --> 01:39:40,500 and the park, 1569 01:39:40,583 --> 01:39:43,875 but not where she'd be. 1570 01:39:46,000 --> 01:39:47,917 I looked and looked for her. 1571 01:39:49,375 --> 01:39:52,166 I didn't find her. 1572 01:39:56,083 --> 01:39:58,583 And then, at last, 1573 01:39:58,667 --> 01:40:01,375 just when I was going, there she was. 1574 01:40:07,750 --> 01:40:09,583 ( approaching footsteps ) 1575 01:40:12,333 --> 01:40:13,583 Hello, Joe. 1576 01:40:14,792 --> 01:40:15,709 Here I am. 1577 01:40:17,041 --> 01:40:19,625 You didn't think I'd come. 1578 01:40:22,709 --> 01:40:26,125 Joe: We walked in silence. 1579 01:40:26,208 --> 01:40:28,417 She didn't seem to want to talk. 1580 01:40:30,333 --> 01:40:32,709 I don't know what she was thinking. 1581 01:40:45,750 --> 01:40:47,417 What, is this the spot? 1582 01:40:48,625 --> 01:40:50,625 Yeah, this is the spot. 1583 01:40:56,291 --> 01:40:58,625 Joe: I still didn't know what to say... 1584 01:41:01,166 --> 01:41:03,166 so I didn't say anything. 1585 01:41:17,875 --> 01:41:20,625 You can go now, Joe. 1586 01:41:22,000 --> 01:41:25,125 Thank you for staying. It's okay. 1587 01:41:26,500 --> 01:41:30,333 It'll be fine. I'll be fine. 1588 01:41:32,500 --> 01:41:35,750 - You helped me. - All right. 1589 01:41:35,834 --> 01:41:39,500 But I just-- I just need to be on my own now. 1590 01:41:43,166 --> 01:41:46,041 You can leave, Joe. It's okay. 1591 01:41:47,166 --> 01:41:49,000 I promise. 1592 01:41:57,375 --> 01:41:59,125 Joe: So I left her there... 1593 01:42:00,792 --> 01:42:02,333 and she did seem better. 1594 01:42:04,083 --> 01:42:06,166 I think. 1595 01:42:06,250 --> 01:42:08,583 She was sitting there looking quite elegant, 1596 01:42:08,667 --> 01:42:10,208 reading a book when I left her. 1597 01:42:20,792 --> 01:42:22,875 Joe: I keep thinking about her, 1598 01:42:24,125 --> 01:42:26,166 things I still want to ask. 1599 01:42:28,709 --> 01:42:30,750 I'll go back tomorrow to the park... 1600 01:42:32,583 --> 01:42:35,000 but I expect she won't be there. 1601 01:42:38,792 --> 01:42:42,041 There was something about her. 1602 01:42:53,917 --> 01:42:56,417 Joe: I liked that lady. 1603 01:42:56,500 --> 01:42:58,250 I hope she never sees him again. 1604 01:43:23,583 --> 01:43:25,542 ( music playing )