1 00:00:01,807 --> 00:00:02,807 I love you. 2 00:00:04,750 --> 00:00:06,040 Say something. 3 00:00:06,350 --> 00:00:07,567 What should I say? 4 00:00:07,650 --> 00:00:10,310 I don't know? That all of this is some sort of fucked up joke? 5 00:00:10,660 --> 00:00:12,690 You can't do this to me. 6 00:00:13,560 --> 00:00:17,970 You can't just cut me out of your life. Amputate me like a smoker's leg. 7 00:00:18,370 --> 00:00:20,057 You can't. 8 00:00:20,140 --> 00:00:21,417 I warned you. 9 00:00:21,500 --> 00:00:24,007 But that's not how people work, for fucks sake. 10 00:00:24,090 --> 00:00:26,650 You fucking touched me! You can't do that to me! 11 00:00:26,870 --> 00:00:28,440 I'd like to leave now. 12 00:00:28,670 --> 00:00:29,770 Is that okay? 13 00:00:29,870 --> 00:00:33,917 If you leave now, you'll never see me again. 14 00:00:34,000 --> 00:00:35,176 Good. 15 00:00:35,260 --> 00:00:38,337 You'll stay here, damn it. 16 00:00:38,420 --> 00:00:41,437 Why'd you say all these things to me? 17 00:00:41,520 --> 00:00:49,520 That you think I am beautiful, that you appreciate my work, that you see my potential? 18 00:00:55,690 --> 00:00:57,330 Are you fucking somebody else? 19 00:00:58,300 --> 00:00:59,980 No, not at the moment. 20 00:01:00,330 --> 00:01:02,570 You dumb fucking slut! 21 00:01:04,800 --> 00:01:07,126 Okay. Good night. 22 00:01:07,210 --> 00:01:09,780 Don't walk away from me while I am talking to you! 23 00:01:09,864 --> 00:01:12,160 You owe me that. 24 00:01:16,230 --> 00:01:19,420 You're so fucking vile. 25 00:01:20,930 --> 00:01:23,020 You're an animal. 26 00:01:23,260 --> 00:01:25,100 You're just talking shit. 27 00:01:25,184 --> 00:01:27,937 Is this a game to you? Have you won now? 28 00:01:28,020 --> 00:01:32,880 I�ve seen the way you look at me. Do you think I�m dumb? 29 00:01:32,964 --> 00:01:34,530 No opinion on that. 30 00:01:34,830 --> 00:01:36,440 Don't treat me like this. 31 00:01:36,720 --> 00:01:39,520 Don't treat me like an animal! 32 00:01:42,260 --> 00:01:43,510 You like that? 33 00:01:44,280 --> 00:01:45,730 Not really. 34 00:01:46,700 --> 00:01:47,950 Fucking cunt. 35 00:01:49,350 --> 00:01:51,300 You're fucking sick. 36 00:01:52,920 --> 00:01:55,050 Completely deranged. 37 00:01:56,400 --> 00:01:59,140 A real worthless piece of shit. 38 00:02:08,960 --> 00:02:10,060 Good. 39 00:02:11,400 --> 00:02:13,250 All the best for the future. 40 00:02:22,080 --> 00:02:25,270 - You on the right, me on the left and you in the middle? - Yes. 41 00:02:25,740 --> 00:02:27,600 We can do that, right? 42 00:02:35,480 --> 00:02:38,050 I can't stand how flat-chested this makes me look. 43 00:02:38,290 --> 00:02:41,486 - Come on, make your titties small. - It looks totally amazing. Me as well, right? 44 00:02:41,510 --> 00:02:43,880 Should I try to put holes into it? No. 45 00:02:50,150 --> 00:02:56,610 I can already hear them shouting at the top of their lungs and with bloodshot eyes from all the media: 46 00:02:56,694 --> 00:02:58,396 Father complex. 47 00:02:58,480 --> 00:03:00,036 Brutalisation of society. 48 00:03:00,120 --> 00:03:02,120 Millenial narcissism! 49 00:03:02,210 --> 00:03:10,210 And then they jerk off to their supposed intellectual superiority over us weak-willed controlled amoebas. 50 00:03:11,630 --> 00:03:14,770 I am not a symbol of a lost generation. 51 00:03:14,860 --> 00:03:20,356 I don't despise myself, my body or my gender. 52 00:03:20,440 --> 00:03:22,546 And I am not afraid to open up. 53 00:03:22,630 --> 00:03:24,046 No. 54 00:03:24,130 --> 00:03:28,660 I fearlessly surrender myself and all the elemental force of my existence. 55 00:03:28,860 --> 00:03:33,500 What they want to accuse me of as weakness, as failure, .. 56 00:03:33,584 --> 00:03:37,950 .. is that I refuse and will refuse to become part of someone else, .. 57 00:03:38,034 --> 00:03:41,154 .. to relate to someone else and thus only be perceived in relation to this, .. 58 00:03:41,200 --> 00:03:44,560 .. the other, the foreign body. 59 00:03:45,060 --> 00:03:46,876 I am not a daughter, .. 60 00:03:46,960 --> 00:03:49,870 .. not a girlfriend, not a lover, not a better half of-! 61 00:03:49,990 --> 00:03:53,196 I am a whole! A totality! 62 00:03:53,280 --> 00:03:55,256 I am a goddamn universe! 63 00:03:55,340 --> 00:03:58,070 And I shit on your microcosm. 64 00:04:01,680 --> 00:04:06,176 I had his cells, his DNA, scraped out of my body. 65 00:04:06,260 --> 00:04:08,166 It didn't cost me anything. 66 00:04:08,250 --> 00:04:11,530 Fine - 350 Euros and two tickets. 67 00:04:12,650 --> 00:04:17,146 I flushed his half and mine down the toilet .. 68 00:04:17,230 --> 00:04:19,170 .. like a bodily excretion. 69 00:04:19,370 --> 00:04:24,046 Because I couldn't find a place for it inside me. 70 00:04:24,130 --> 00:04:27,806 Because I burst when someone tries to force themselves inside of me. 71 00:04:27,890 --> 00:04:32,180 Because my ego takes up the maximum of my body capacities. 72 00:04:32,490 --> 00:04:34,096 But that .. 73 00:04:34,180 --> 00:04:36,166 .. you can't tell that to anyone. 74 00:04:36,250 --> 00:04:38,556 Because then they call you a monster. 75 00:04:38,640 --> 00:04:41,086 A sociopath. A lunatic. 76 00:04:41,170 --> 00:04:43,170 It scares them. 77 00:04:43,300 --> 00:04:49,430 A woman who doesn't want to be cut up or be filled. 78 00:07:08,190 --> 00:07:11,030 To perform in front of a crowd and to be so physical with it .. 79 00:07:11,340 --> 00:07:15,516 .. but yes, I thought we really created a good dialogue. 80 00:07:15,600 --> 00:07:18,526 - And that was what the performance was about. - Matter of opinion, I guess. 81 00:07:18,550 --> 00:07:24,970 I think the way we portrayed it was more of a translation of that, you know? 82 00:07:25,054 --> 00:07:27,300 It�s not supposed to display reality. 83 00:07:27,384 --> 00:07:30,656 I think it depends on the individual. How empathetic someone is. 84 00:07:30,740 --> 00:07:34,036 To distance yourself and take a look from afar. 85 00:07:34,120 --> 00:07:35,736 It felt overwhelming to me. 86 00:07:35,820 --> 00:07:40,370 To me too. Explicit depictions of violence are not my thing. 87 00:07:40,454 --> 00:07:42,806 I know it�s performance art and .. 88 00:07:42,890 --> 00:07:49,976 I agree with you. To be possessive towards your partner is so 90s. 89 00:07:50,060 --> 00:07:54,010 What shall I say? I think she would also call me her boyfriend. 90 00:07:54,200 --> 00:07:55,536 Fair. 91 00:07:55,620 --> 00:07:59,696 I think it�s just common speech. You just say it, but you also totally emphasized it. 92 00:07:59,780 --> 00:08:02,566 - She's my girlfriend. - Mine! 93 00:08:02,650 --> 00:08:05,226 - Is the relationship open? - No. 94 00:08:05,310 --> 00:08:07,226 Why not? 95 00:08:07,310 --> 00:08:09,266 Because she's yours? 96 00:08:09,350 --> 00:08:12,216 I think it's more her .. 97 00:08:12,300 --> 00:08:14,340 Okay Mister! 98 00:09:35,340 --> 00:09:36,647 Tell me you're mine. 99 00:09:36,730 --> 00:09:38,810 I belong to you. 100 00:09:40,020 --> 00:09:42,010 Tell me you are mine. 101 00:09:42,280 --> 00:09:43,796 Sure. 102 00:09:43,880 --> 00:09:45,710 Say it. 103 00:09:45,910 --> 00:09:47,126 Yes. 104 00:09:47,210 --> 00:09:49,020 Say it. 105 00:09:49,370 --> 00:09:51,210 I am yours. 106 00:09:51,520 --> 00:09:53,246 Body and soul? 107 00:09:53,330 --> 00:09:54,886 Body and soul. 108 00:09:54,970 --> 00:09:56,766 - Skin and hair? - Skin and main hair. 109 00:09:56,850 --> 00:09:58,186 - Completely and utterly? - Yes. 110 00:09:58,270 --> 00:10:00,270 I finally have a body again. 111 00:10:00,650 --> 00:10:02,470 Can you feel that? 112 00:10:04,300 --> 00:10:05,896 Everybody else does. 113 00:10:05,980 --> 00:10:07,736 With me and my work. 114 00:10:07,820 --> 00:10:09,890 They tell me: "Simeon you seem .." 115 00:10:10,820 --> 00:10:12,960 ".. like you've grown an additional 10 cm" 116 00:10:13,430 --> 00:10:14,876 My venus. 117 00:10:14,960 --> 00:10:16,917 Let me enter your orbit. 118 00:10:17,000 --> 00:10:18,960 Don't leave me baby. 119 00:10:26,740 --> 00:10:33,486 At a restaurant. Somebody already rattles at the door. 120 00:10:33,570 --> 00:10:35,590 So I know someone uses it after myself. 121 00:10:35,820 --> 00:10:43,820 Then I have to clean up after the person before me to avoid having the one after thinking it was me. 122 00:10:43,950 --> 00:10:45,786 - I don't care about that. - Well, I do. 123 00:10:45,870 --> 00:10:49,190 - .. at home yes, but a restaurant? - It just makes me uncomfortable. 124 00:10:54,190 --> 00:10:56,600 Everything here is so ugly. 125 00:10:57,970 --> 00:11:01,346 How many people have hung themselves there already? 126 00:11:01,430 --> 00:11:04,080 You think one can simply join them? 127 00:11:04,210 --> 00:11:06,080 Just to hang out. 128 00:11:07,660 --> 00:11:09,970 But you did so well the other day. 129 00:11:10,780 --> 00:11:12,080 Yeah. 130 00:11:14,770 --> 00:11:16,600 You were really good. 131 00:11:18,470 --> 00:11:21,150 Once I saw a squirrel down there. 132 00:11:21,550 --> 00:11:24,547 It jumped backwards and broke its neck. 133 00:11:24,630 --> 00:11:30,630 I took some leaves, dirt and a napkin and buried it. Turned it into a video installation. 134 00:11:31,710 --> 00:11:34,536 The academy loved it. 135 00:11:34,620 --> 00:11:36,536 They called it "existential". 136 00:11:36,620 --> 00:11:38,756 Existential and critical. 137 00:11:38,840 --> 00:11:40,840 They use these words pretty often. 138 00:11:41,270 --> 00:11:43,060 I hate it here. 139 00:11:43,970 --> 00:11:45,340 I love you. 140 00:11:52,740 --> 00:11:54,040 Felix. 141 00:11:56,000 --> 00:11:57,210 Yes? 142 00:11:59,180 --> 00:12:00,800 Don't say it that often. 143 00:12:13,780 --> 00:12:15,440 With a little bit of foam. 144 00:12:18,650 --> 00:12:21,196 Today I just don't do it. 145 00:12:21,280 --> 00:12:23,196 Today I won't talk about it. 146 00:12:23,280 --> 00:12:25,280 Today I'm talking about joy. 147 00:12:25,460 --> 00:12:27,340 My resistance in colour. 148 00:12:27,870 --> 00:12:32,226 I'm talking about otters holding hands when they float in the sea. 149 00:12:32,310 --> 00:12:38,176 And how I'm a fucking genius because I started bunkering menthol cigarettes 10 years ago. 150 00:12:38,260 --> 00:12:39,496 Like Helmut Kohl. 151 00:12:39,580 --> 00:12:43,690 Now I have 3000 of them and sell them for 12 euros a pack. 152 00:12:44,050 --> 00:12:50,020 I invest the money in cryptocurrencies, shares and gold .. 153 00:12:50,104 --> 00:12:56,016 .. until one day I'll be so rich that I can buy this whole fucking country. 154 00:12:56,100 --> 00:12:57,776 I don't ask for permission. 155 00:12:57,860 --> 00:12:59,406 I don't ask for anything. 156 00:12:59,490 --> 00:13:01,036 I expand into my space. 157 00:13:01,120 --> 00:13:02,766 Steal all the oxygen. 158 00:13:02,850 --> 00:13:04,800 Make myself the status quo. 159 00:13:05,990 --> 00:13:09,210 I don't want equality, not yet. 160 00:13:09,740 --> 00:13:11,270 I want justice. 161 00:14:49,740 --> 00:14:51,090 May I? 162 00:15:04,150 --> 00:15:05,400 Jakob. 163 00:15:10,400 --> 00:15:11,670 You film? 164 00:15:14,540 --> 00:15:15,800 Vlog? 165 00:15:17,800 --> 00:15:20,950 Okay. Vlogging would be lame. 166 00:15:25,240 --> 00:15:26,790 May I have a look? 167 00:15:32,970 --> 00:15:34,730 Do I annoy you? 168 00:15:47,260 --> 00:15:49,030 You're the naked girl from Instagram. 169 00:15:49,750 --> 00:15:51,400 I don't like the pictures. 170 00:15:52,130 --> 00:15:53,440 You look dead. 171 00:15:53,860 --> 00:15:55,480 It's scary. 172 00:15:55,810 --> 00:15:57,390 That's the purpose. 173 00:15:59,380 --> 00:16:01,120 I don't know. 174 00:16:01,350 --> 00:16:02,940 Obviously. 175 00:16:03,590 --> 00:16:05,100 So you are a model? 176 00:16:08,450 --> 00:16:09,780 Did I say something wrong? 177 00:16:10,320 --> 00:16:11,460 No. 178 00:16:13,000 --> 00:16:18,606 You totally look like that actress. 179 00:16:18,690 --> 00:16:20,606 The one in this movie .. 180 00:16:20,690 --> 00:16:24,100 .. you know, the one with the aliens. 181 00:16:25,000 --> 00:16:26,350 What's her name again? 182 00:16:30,000 --> 00:16:31,400 Have to get going. 183 00:16:35,020 --> 00:16:36,710 What's your name? 184 00:16:50,410 --> 00:16:51,730 Suits you. 185 00:17:04,540 --> 00:17:05,900 Wait a second. Hey! 186 00:17:07,020 --> 00:17:08,020 Shit. 187 00:17:08,940 --> 00:17:10,080 Wait! 188 00:17:26,080 --> 00:17:27,540 So you're a super fan? 189 00:17:29,460 --> 00:17:31,590 Found the picture in the city. 190 00:17:31,730 --> 00:17:33,490 I liked it. 191 00:17:36,340 --> 00:17:38,196 Kinda scary. 192 00:17:38,280 --> 00:17:40,280 You gonna skin and mummify me? 193 00:17:42,640 --> 00:17:44,160 To cocaine and prostitutes! 194 00:17:47,770 --> 00:17:50,090 It's "to prostitutes and cocaine"! 195 00:17:50,440 --> 00:17:53,480 Yeah? I think it's "to cocaine and prostitutes". 196 00:17:53,690 --> 00:17:56,570 I think you don't know anything about cocaine and prostitutes. 197 00:17:58,770 --> 00:17:59,890 Beautiful. 198 00:18:00,910 --> 00:18:03,706 You want to boost the mood a little? 199 00:18:03,790 --> 00:18:06,550 I am still a virgin and a little bit nervous. 200 00:18:07,170 --> 00:18:08,550 It worked before. 201 00:18:10,160 --> 00:18:11,160 Don't laugh. 202 00:18:15,570 --> 00:18:16,620 See? 203 00:18:20,000 --> 00:18:22,180 Making sure your first is romantic. 204 00:18:25,030 --> 00:18:26,220 Straight through. 205 00:18:43,270 --> 00:18:44,686 Over the candle? 206 00:18:44,770 --> 00:18:46,770 No, I trust you. 207 00:19:01,570 --> 00:19:03,180 Do you think I'm beautiful? 208 00:19:16,010 --> 00:19:17,010 Yes. 209 00:19:21,460 --> 00:19:23,130 I've always admired them. 210 00:19:24,070 --> 00:19:29,570 These .. alpha men .. 211 00:19:31,480 --> 00:19:36,670 These alpha men with their effortless, panther-like elegance. 212 00:19:38,550 --> 00:19:40,616 If you're an average man .. 213 00:19:40,700 --> 00:19:42,616 .. with an average face .. 214 00:19:42,700 --> 00:19:44,616 .. an average length .. 215 00:19:44,700 --> 00:19:46,186 .. an average thickness .. 216 00:19:46,270 --> 00:19:48,026 .. and an average height .. 217 00:19:48,110 --> 00:19:55,220 .. if you don't have at least some talent or a really great sense of humour, .. 218 00:19:56,610 --> 00:20:00,626 .. you'll be forced to spend the rest of your life picking .. 219 00:20:00,710 --> 00:20:04,850 .. what the Brad Pitts of the world have dropped off on the pavement. 220 00:20:06,460 --> 00:20:11,950 The beings who love unconditionally, who tolerate being cheated on .. 221 00:20:13,600 --> 00:20:19,006 .. and don't want anything from the pseudo-Dylans except .. 222 00:20:19,090 --> 00:20:22,190 .. the promise to at least use a rubber in their debauchery. 223 00:20:22,940 --> 00:20:26,086 They sink back into the sheets every now and then, .. 224 00:20:26,170 --> 00:20:31,480 .. coked up and reeking of sweat and someone else's cheap perfume. 225 00:20:35,000 --> 00:20:41,030 Back in school, I sometimes fantasized about making them all pay for this injustice. 226 00:20:45,240 --> 00:20:50,850 I kept a small list in my school bag .. 227 00:20:51,450 --> 00:20:58,320 .. with all the disgusting names of my classmates, written in code, .. 228 00:20:58,560 --> 00:21:00,240 .. these pissers, .. 229 00:21:03,640 --> 00:21:07,550 .. which I sometimes took out during class and imagined how I would shoot them one by one. 230 00:21:11,910 --> 00:21:17,300 One time a classmate made fun of my dick in the shower. 231 00:21:19,300 --> 00:21:24,166 Afterwards he slipped on the way into the locker rooms .. 232 00:21:24,250 --> 00:21:26,530 .. and knocked out his upper row of teeth. 233 00:21:29,970 --> 00:21:33,790 When I saw him lying there crying in his blood, .. 234 00:21:35,250 --> 00:21:38,010 .. for a moment I believed in God. 235 00:22:05,890 --> 00:22:06,990 How do you like it? 236 00:22:10,430 --> 00:22:12,566 I don't know. A little bit too .. 237 00:22:12,650 --> 00:22:15,230 I .. I kinda like it. 238 00:22:18,490 --> 00:22:21,730 - Simeon? - Especially your expression. 239 00:22:22,100 --> 00:22:24,640 .. amazing. Yeah? 240 00:22:24,860 --> 00:22:29,590 Because of the mood it doesn't make sense to put it at the beginning. 241 00:22:29,880 --> 00:22:30,880 Simeon? 242 00:22:31,130 --> 00:22:33,540 - Or maybe it does ..? - Simeon! 243 00:22:35,690 --> 00:22:37,410 Lulu, why are you shouting? 244 00:22:45,490 --> 00:22:46,660 What is it? 245 00:22:49,240 --> 00:22:50,640 What is it, darling? 246 00:22:53,730 --> 00:22:56,100 Do you remember the pictures I took? 247 00:22:58,010 --> 00:22:59,210 The one with the doves? 248 00:23:01,050 --> 00:23:03,456 The re-population of the urban through nature? 249 00:23:03,540 --> 00:23:05,420 Of course. 250 00:23:05,910 --> 00:23:07,490 You liked it, right? 251 00:23:07,660 --> 00:23:08,990 Of course. 252 00:23:12,610 --> 00:23:17,250 I wanted to ask if I could hang them up as well? 253 00:23:19,060 --> 00:23:22,070 Of course, Lulu. What's mine is yours. 254 00:23:24,850 --> 00:23:25,850 Really? 255 00:23:25,930 --> 00:23:27,010 Really. 256 00:23:27,350 --> 00:23:32,640 I'll introduce you to Josef as well. He already likes you so much. Your work, I mean. 257 00:25:00,060 --> 00:25:05,170 The summer I turned seven years old, I saw the sea for the first time. 258 00:25:06,050 --> 00:25:11,800 My mother and stepfather had rented a little house. 259 00:25:12,940 --> 00:25:14,110 In Spain. 260 00:25:14,320 --> 00:25:15,820 On the mainland. 261 00:25:16,070 --> 00:25:18,220 Just a few metres from the water. 262 00:25:21,220 --> 00:25:25,280 I burnt the soles of my feet on the black pebble beach, .. 263 00:25:25,370 --> 00:25:27,280 .. but I loved it there. 264 00:25:27,920 --> 00:25:32,866 Once, as I was playing in the garden with my big brother, .. 265 00:25:32,950 --> 00:25:35,060 .. I made a curious discovery. 266 00:25:35,850 --> 00:25:40,286 We had tried to catch lizards with an improvised trap, .. 267 00:25:40,370 --> 00:25:46,510 .. and just as a tiny one was about to escape by a hair's breadth, .. 268 00:25:47,600 --> 00:25:53,260 .. it magically flew through the air and landed in my lap. 269 00:25:54,990 --> 00:26:01,770 I was startled, but soon calmed down thinking it was the wind. 270 00:26:04,110 --> 00:26:08,200 My brother didn't suspect anything either, .. 271 00:26:12,540 --> 00:26:17,490 .. but one day before we left, it happened again. 272 00:26:19,470 --> 00:26:22,776 I was helping my mother in the kitchen, .. 273 00:26:22,860 --> 00:26:24,870 .. and when I went to wash my hands, .. 274 00:26:24,954 --> 00:26:30,480 .. I accidentally knocked the salad bowl off the shelf. 275 00:26:30,880 --> 00:26:35,390 But before it could hit the floor and shatter, .. 276 00:26:35,940 --> 00:26:37,650 .. it stopped mid air .. 277 00:26:37,734 --> 00:26:41,070 .. as if frozen, five centimeters above the ground. 278 00:26:42,370 --> 00:26:48,710 From that day on, for months I practiced controlling these powers. 279 00:26:49,900 --> 00:26:53,040 My mother hadn't noticed any of this. 280 00:26:54,400 --> 00:26:56,930 She had always been a little absent-minded. 281 00:27:02,710 --> 00:27:08,530 One day at dinner, when my stepfather said he was going to tell me another bedtime story, .. 282 00:27:10,250 --> 00:27:11,970 .. I decided to wait for him. 283 00:27:15,110 --> 00:27:18,640 He came at the same time as always, .. 284 00:27:18,890 --> 00:27:20,640 .. didn't knock, .. 285 00:27:21,580 --> 00:27:24,360 .. sat down at the corner of my bed, smiling. 286 00:27:28,080 --> 00:27:31,090 My mother could never explain .. 287 00:27:32,010 --> 00:27:34,810 .. how the heavy mahogany cupboard .. 288 00:27:34,940 --> 00:27:37,380 .. had fallen over so easily. 289 00:28:43,788 --> 00:28:45,277 What did you think? 290 00:28:50,160 --> 00:28:51,466 It was beautiful. 291 00:28:52,690 --> 00:28:53,943 Just beautiful? 292 00:28:56,253 --> 00:28:58,980 No. Even more than that. 293 00:29:00,874 --> 00:29:03,371 I felt deeply touched. 294 00:29:05,228 --> 00:29:06,811 The kind of love they have .. 295 00:29:08,030 --> 00:29:10,451 .. their deep connection, .. 296 00:29:12,859 --> 00:29:15,164 .. and how much they inspire each other. 297 00:29:15,247 --> 00:29:17,229 It was incredibly beautiful. 298 00:29:18,037 --> 00:29:21,010 - I really want to try it, but I feel scared. - Let's do it. 299 00:29:23,025 --> 00:29:24,370 I can trust you, right? 300 00:29:25,395 --> 00:29:27,094 You'll take care of me, okay? 301 00:29:28,592 --> 00:29:30,382 - Together we can do it. - Okay. 302 00:29:30,465 --> 00:29:32,038 It was existential .. 303 00:29:33,051 --> 00:29:35,050 .. but also critical. 304 00:29:35,202 --> 00:29:38,017 - You know what I mean? - I totally get what you mean. 305 00:29:38,103 --> 00:29:40,149 Yours was also good, just different. 306 00:29:48,198 --> 00:29:49,905 Is this an everyday thing now? 307 00:29:57,000 --> 00:29:58,924 My dealer moved back to Berlin. 308 00:29:59,007 --> 00:30:00,513 Oh yes, Berlin. 309 00:30:00,597 --> 00:30:04,096 Now I always use Telegram and it's .. I don't know. 310 00:30:04,180 --> 00:30:06,241 Are you in this one group chat? 311 00:30:06,600 --> 00:30:10,717 - He now has my number and keeps texting me. - Oh, no. 312 00:30:10,939 --> 00:30:13,005 How are you feeling babe? 313 00:30:16,819 --> 00:30:17,885 Felt good, right? 314 00:30:18,271 --> 00:30:20,200 If it makes sense then it's good. 315 00:30:20,429 --> 00:30:23,124 Being naked just to be naked .. 316 00:30:23,456 --> 00:30:24,456 .. is already dead. 317 00:30:24,528 --> 00:30:26,055 It's Vodka, but it's good enough. 318 00:30:26,139 --> 00:30:30,591 If one person experiments a lot more it can get complicated. 319 00:30:31,080 --> 00:30:32,831 And a threesome? 320 00:30:37,183 --> 00:30:40,340 To watch the person you love doing it. 321 00:30:40,810 --> 00:30:44,762 You need to have experienced extreme things to portray extreme things. 322 00:30:44,845 --> 00:30:46,840 You just need good friends. 323 00:30:47,422 --> 00:30:49,023 Then everywhere is fun. 324 00:30:49,106 --> 00:30:51,927 It doesn't matter where you are if you're with the right people. 325 00:30:52,764 --> 00:30:53,687 Berlin? 326 00:30:53,770 --> 00:30:54,770 Yeah. 327 00:30:59,831 --> 00:31:01,949 - You hate Berlin. - So what? 328 00:31:02,063 --> 00:31:03,234 Doesn't matter! 329 00:31:09,014 --> 00:31:10,691 Someone here loves you. 330 00:31:12,179 --> 00:31:14,071 But I don't love myself here. 331 00:31:16,730 --> 00:31:18,401 I wouldn't join you in Berlin. 332 00:31:20,357 --> 00:31:21,802 I wouldn't ask you to. 333 00:31:22,274 --> 00:31:23,696 You love it here. 334 00:31:23,794 --> 00:31:25,327 I love you. 335 00:31:28,860 --> 00:31:30,582 Don't repeat it so often. 336 00:31:30,826 --> 00:31:31,826 I .. 337 00:31:32,145 --> 00:31:33,145 .. love .. 338 00:31:34,626 --> 00:31:35,626 .. you. 339 00:31:38,345 --> 00:31:39,915 This seems inflationary. 340 00:31:45,128 --> 00:31:46,721 I am sorry! 341 00:31:51,331 --> 00:31:52,331 Come here. 342 00:31:58,939 --> 00:32:00,142 Say it again. 343 00:32:04,442 --> 00:32:06,734 I love you. 344 00:32:12,548 --> 00:32:13,548 Once more! 345 00:32:13,621 --> 00:32:16,093 - Again! - I love you! 346 00:32:19,208 --> 00:32:20,555 I love you! 347 00:32:23,020 --> 00:32:24,228 I love you. 348 00:32:30,970 --> 00:32:32,056 I love you. 349 00:32:32,802 --> 00:32:33,802 Felix, .. 350 00:32:36,222 --> 00:32:37,457 .. I don't feel anything. 351 00:35:31,805 --> 00:35:32,805 Hi! 352 00:35:37,158 --> 00:35:38,757 A little too much to drink. 353 00:35:50,296 --> 00:35:52,847 With too much to drink one gets tired. 354 00:35:53,150 --> 00:35:56,072 You know, if he pukes it will be a 150 euros. 355 00:35:56,155 --> 00:35:57,770 Yes, that's not going to happen! 356 00:36:13,783 --> 00:36:14,985 Never done this before. 357 00:36:16,343 --> 00:36:17,365 Me neither. 358 00:36:20,764 --> 00:36:22,992 I need more security. 359 00:36:23,543 --> 00:36:24,543 Music? 360 00:36:25,933 --> 00:36:27,303 Are you crying? 361 00:36:27,386 --> 00:36:28,386 Fuck you. 362 00:36:38,065 --> 00:36:39,112 Shall we try? 363 00:36:42,845 --> 00:36:43,985 Just put it there. 364 00:36:47,237 --> 00:36:48,376 Sweatshirt off. 365 00:36:50,211 --> 00:36:52,533 I don't really know .. 366 00:36:53,591 --> 00:36:54,780 .. maybe you can lie here? 367 00:36:58,823 --> 00:37:01,164 Okay. Wait. 368 00:37:01,247 --> 00:37:03,136 Maybe remove the cushions. 369 00:37:07,322 --> 00:37:08,322 Okay? 370 00:37:30,391 --> 00:37:32,552 Hey! What's the matter with you? 371 00:37:32,636 --> 00:37:32,946 Sorry! 372 00:37:33,030 --> 00:37:35,968 - We agreed to just hold each other! - I am sorry. 373 00:37:36,066 --> 00:37:37,616 That was the agreement! 374 00:37:37,700 --> 00:37:39,106 - Just hold each other! - Yes. 375 00:37:39,190 --> 00:37:40,810 Then what was that? 376 00:37:40,894 --> 00:37:42,626 I don't know! What do you mean? 377 00:37:42,710 --> 00:37:43,886 Not what we agreed on! 378 00:37:43,970 --> 00:37:46,826 - I must have misunderstood, sorry. - I knew it! 379 00:37:46,910 --> 00:37:50,703 "Just hold each other", I am so stupid. I hate myself. 380 00:37:51,216 --> 00:37:52,358 Probably. 381 00:37:53,287 --> 00:37:57,034 What is wrong with you? Men really can't be trusted. 382 00:37:58,210 --> 00:38:00,013 Disgusting! I am disgusted! 383 00:38:00,114 --> 00:38:01,771 I get Anna now! 384 00:38:17,171 --> 00:38:18,308 It's okay. Come here. 385 00:38:26,314 --> 00:38:29,573 - Better? - Yeah. 386 00:38:33,758 --> 00:38:35,219 Why are you even doing this? 387 00:38:36,202 --> 00:38:37,286 I am lonely. 388 00:38:37,370 --> 00:38:39,928 I know. I'm not supposed to say that. 389 00:38:40,795 --> 00:38:42,108 You can say it to me. 390 00:38:42,435 --> 00:38:43,435 Good. 391 00:38:48,379 --> 00:38:50,456 You know how she's doing? Anna I mean. 392 00:38:50,540 --> 00:38:52,894 Felix, just don't. It's better if you don't know. 393 00:38:57,586 --> 00:38:58,893 I can't get it up anyways. 394 00:39:00,568 --> 00:39:01,711 Tragic. 395 00:39:02,017 --> 00:39:03,662 Yes, that's what it is. 396 00:39:08,383 --> 00:39:10,671 - So, you're still together with .. - Yes. 397 00:39:11,779 --> 00:39:12,991 She doesn't care? 398 00:39:13,693 --> 00:39:14,693 Unfortunately. 399 00:39:16,121 --> 00:39:17,622 She doesn't sleepover anymore. 400 00:39:19,856 --> 00:39:20,961 She needs distance. 401 00:39:21,237 --> 00:39:22,955 I disturb her singing .. 402 00:39:23,499 --> 00:39:25,303 .. with my presence. 403 00:39:26,626 --> 00:39:32,874 You know, I don't care. It's okay like that. 404 00:39:32,957 --> 00:39:33,957 She's worth it. 405 00:39:41,851 --> 00:39:43,788 I get what I need elsewhere. 406 00:39:45,271 --> 00:39:46,641 That's healthier, I think. 407 00:39:52,601 --> 00:39:54,091 Being sober is weird. 408 00:39:54,662 --> 00:39:55,949 You can feel so much. 409 00:39:57,106 --> 00:40:00,890 She says it's better that way, but I'm not sure. 410 00:40:02,786 --> 00:40:06,282 Singing is also a kind of high .. 411 00:40:07,706 --> 00:40:12,204 .. so now I produce sounds. 412 00:40:15,623 --> 00:40:17,611 Everything expands, just not me. 413 00:40:18,367 --> 00:40:19,645 I seem to shrink. 414 00:40:29,613 --> 00:40:31,100 Everything's sticky. 415 00:40:31,320 --> 00:40:32,528 Is that normal? 416 00:40:34,450 --> 00:40:37,721 Sometimes it itches. Like a rash. Very strange. 417 00:40:41,466 --> 00:40:45,076 My face, her hair. The sound of her breathing. 418 00:40:45,160 --> 00:40:47,632 The heat of skin. How am I supposed to sleep? 419 00:40:48,591 --> 00:40:50,656 She clings to me like a parasite. 420 00:40:50,740 --> 00:40:52,586 Oozing out of my pores. 421 00:41:05,982 --> 00:41:09,490 So .. just hold each other? 422 00:41:10,626 --> 00:41:11,791 Are you ready? 423 00:43:04,912 --> 00:43:05,912 Sorry. 424 00:43:07,134 --> 00:43:08,331 Can I come in? 425 00:43:15,508 --> 00:43:16,508 Thanks. 426 00:43:32,100 --> 00:43:33,962 Cool. By Simeon? 427 00:43:40,617 --> 00:43:41,909 Are you okay? 428 00:43:44,731 --> 00:43:45,731 No. 429 00:43:49,053 --> 00:43:55,096 It's like having a piece of meat cut out of your thigh with a blunt kitchen knife. 430 00:43:56,940 --> 00:43:58,690 You can hardly move because of the pain, .. 431 00:43:58,774 --> 00:44:04,330 .. but the piece of meat suddenly makes itself independent, meets new people, .. 432 00:44:05,460 --> 00:44:09,674 .. dies its hair blond, learns Swedish, spends a month in Costa Rica or whatever .. 433 00:44:09,758 --> 00:44:14,056 .. and comes back tanned and fragrant to the city, .. 434 00:44:14,140 --> 00:44:19,207 .. which since you were wounded seems much smaller and narrower than before. 435 00:44:19,291 --> 00:44:21,425 And your friends keep pointing out to you: 436 00:44:21,509 --> 00:44:24,330 "Are you okay? Dude, you look bad, man." 437 00:44:24,414 --> 00:44:31,008 And you want to say: "Yeah, fucking shit, because I'm missing half my goddamn leg!" 438 00:44:31,092 --> 00:44:37,446 "I almost can't take a step because of the pain! It's like lightbolts in my brain with every fucking step .. 439 00:44:37,530 --> 00:44:39,638 .. and maybe that's why I look like shit." 440 00:44:41,354 --> 00:44:44,518 And maybe you don't want to talk to your stoned colleagues .. 441 00:44:44,602 --> 00:44:47,176 .. about the tits of the swedish exchange student .. 442 00:44:47,260 --> 00:44:52,080 .. that you drunkenly fucked with a half-hard cock at the university party the other day .. 443 00:44:52,164 --> 00:44:54,234 .. and went home crying afterwards. 444 00:44:54,318 --> 00:45:02,318 Maybe you just want someone to numb the pain or to just hold you. 445 00:45:22,194 --> 00:45:25,422 - You're late. - Sorry, I'll make it up by staying longer. 446 00:45:30,007 --> 00:45:31,137 You had a drink? 447 00:45:35,577 --> 00:45:38,299 Hey .. brother. 448 00:45:54,154 --> 00:45:55,666 Hey Brother! 449 00:45:56,161 --> 00:45:57,188 What's his deal? 450 00:45:58,737 --> 00:45:59,881 Are you two fucking? 451 00:46:01,297 --> 00:46:02,297 No. 452 00:46:03,168 --> 00:46:04,865 Want to see my pictures? 453 00:46:06,847 --> 00:46:09,577 Isn't he the tragic DJ? 454 00:46:09,791 --> 00:46:10,911 Yes, he's a musician. 455 00:46:11,080 --> 00:46:13,155 Musician? Wow. 456 00:46:13,734 --> 00:46:15,238 He plays the fiddle? 457 00:46:15,321 --> 00:46:17,469 I thought about the arrangement. 458 00:46:17,882 --> 00:46:18,882 You two fuck? 459 00:46:20,891 --> 00:46:21,891 No. 460 00:46:23,940 --> 00:46:25,641 Also we said .. 461 00:46:28,773 --> 00:46:29,773 What? 462 00:46:29,817 --> 00:46:31,646 Doesn't matter. 463 00:46:31,730 --> 00:46:33,782 What did we say? Tell me. 464 00:46:36,995 --> 00:46:39,835 You know, to not hook up with others anymore. 465 00:46:44,711 --> 00:46:45,837 Babe, .. 466 00:47:01,447 --> 00:47:03,419 .. I think you misunderstood me. 467 00:47:07,185 --> 00:47:15,185 Why these post-catholic patriarchal capitalist pseudo-laws? 468 00:47:19,604 --> 00:47:22,471 - I agree. - Don't ruin a good thing! 469 00:47:23,045 --> 00:47:24,045 Nymph. 470 00:47:25,394 --> 00:47:25,865 Yeah? 471 00:47:26,225 --> 00:47:27,500 I just though that maybe .. 472 00:47:27,617 --> 00:47:29,342 Let's not ruin what we have. 473 00:47:30,623 --> 00:47:31,462 - Yeah? - Yeah. 474 00:47:31,546 --> 00:47:33,011 Say it louder. 475 00:47:33,629 --> 00:47:35,413 - Yeah! - Yes! 476 00:47:36,974 --> 00:47:38,314 Are those the pictures? 477 00:47:54,317 --> 00:47:55,600 It's not finished yet. 478 00:47:55,684 --> 00:47:57,680 I'd like to .. 479 00:48:01,419 --> 00:48:03,733 You little genius. 480 00:48:33,100 --> 00:48:34,951 So, are you fucking him or what? 481 00:48:35,354 --> 00:48:36,354 No. 482 00:48:42,154 --> 00:48:45,210 Because I would not want to .. you know back-to-back? 483 00:48:47,111 --> 00:48:47,856 Yeah. 484 00:48:47,940 --> 00:48:50,608 It's also about hygiene. I take that seriously. 485 00:48:52,420 --> 00:48:53,893 - Of course. - Yeah. 486 00:48:56,724 --> 00:49:00,911 I don't want this virus. What's it called again? 487 00:49:02,225 --> 00:49:03,874 Shit. What is it called? 488 00:49:05,890 --> 00:49:08,964 - But didn't you also .. the other day? - What? 489 00:49:09,048 --> 00:49:12,528 - You were with Anja right before you were with me. - Anja? 490 00:49:13,257 --> 00:49:16,795 Yeah, but we had a deep talk. Anja and me. 491 00:49:18,245 --> 00:49:19,277 You sure? 492 00:49:19,361 --> 00:49:21,281 No, I'm not sure. 493 00:49:23,413 --> 00:49:28,685 It was just .. soul bonding. 494 00:49:30,459 --> 00:49:38,459 It was crazy. We took shrooms. Tripping balls for hours. 495 00:49:39,617 --> 00:49:43,063 It was just .. 496 00:49:43,147 --> 00:49:45,019 .. a real encounter. 497 00:49:46,933 --> 00:49:47,933 Cool. 498 00:49:48,771 --> 00:49:50,940 This dude just seems .. 499 00:49:51,900 --> 00:49:54,445 .. a little bit stupid. 500 00:49:58,518 --> 00:49:59,518 Could you just .. 501 00:49:59,656 --> 00:50:00,366 Shhh. 502 00:50:00,450 --> 00:50:03,160 Could you just not .. 503 00:50:03,244 --> 00:50:04,899 .. you know, with my close friends? 504 00:50:05,882 --> 00:50:07,642 It's just a little .. 505 00:50:07,865 --> 00:50:09,526 .. I know what they look like naked. 506 00:50:09,610 --> 00:50:11,210 It's just weird. 507 00:52:16,552 --> 00:52:17,552 I know you. 508 00:52:18,728 --> 00:52:19,728 High probability. 509 00:52:22,589 --> 00:52:23,589 Lovely. 510 00:52:23,762 --> 00:52:24,762 Thank you. 511 00:52:25,971 --> 00:52:27,145 She's lovely. 512 00:52:28,330 --> 00:52:29,337 But it's my picture. 513 00:52:29,690 --> 00:52:30,690 I know that. 514 00:52:30,844 --> 00:52:31,654 Congrats. 515 00:52:31,738 --> 00:52:33,198 Are you always like that? 516 00:52:33,795 --> 00:52:34,795 Actually, yes. 517 00:52:35,518 --> 00:52:36,518 And? 518 00:52:36,568 --> 00:52:37,638 Any reasons why? 519 00:52:38,450 --> 00:52:39,493 Meaning what? 520 00:52:39,680 --> 00:52:40,965 Your dick made of gold? 521 00:52:41,640 --> 00:52:42,853 24 carat. 522 00:52:42,937 --> 00:52:44,437 30 centimeters. 523 00:52:44,521 --> 00:52:45,256 Impressive. 524 00:52:45,340 --> 00:52:46,056 Wanna see? 525 00:52:46,140 --> 00:52:47,749 Keep it in your pants. 526 00:52:48,880 --> 00:52:49,880 So what do you want? 527 00:52:50,223 --> 00:52:51,223 Nothing. 528 00:52:51,585 --> 00:52:52,585 For real. 529 00:52:53,148 --> 00:52:54,148 Thanks a lot. 530 00:52:55,402 --> 00:52:56,125 Bullshit. 531 00:52:56,419 --> 00:52:57,419 No. 532 00:53:02,346 --> 00:53:03,346 I know you as well. 533 00:53:04,108 --> 00:53:04,914 Possibly. 534 00:53:04,997 --> 00:53:06,600 Annas performance, you danced? 535 00:53:26,391 --> 00:53:28,566 By the way .. 536 00:53:28,650 --> 00:53:31,342 .. I won't be able to make it next weekend. Sorry. 537 00:53:33,219 --> 00:53:33,846 You promised? 538 00:53:33,930 --> 00:53:35,858 I have to go to Leipzig. Urgently. 539 00:53:35,942 --> 00:53:38,617 It's a big chance. 540 00:53:38,700 --> 00:53:40,512 Important people. 541 00:53:42,075 --> 00:53:44,094 I already postponed it for you. 542 00:53:44,177 --> 00:53:46,090 We'll celebrate another time. 543 00:54:57,782 --> 00:54:59,151 Have you cut your hair? 544 00:54:59,752 --> 00:55:00,183 Hey. 545 00:55:00,605 --> 00:55:01,868 You look different. 546 00:55:02,019 --> 00:55:03,019 Yes? 547 00:55:04,041 --> 00:55:05,121 Waiting for me? 548 00:55:12,791 --> 00:55:13,983 Are you here everyday? 549 00:55:15,007 --> 00:55:16,007 No. 550 00:55:17,382 --> 00:55:18,382 .. Yes. 551 00:55:19,386 --> 00:55:20,386 Depressing. 552 00:55:20,805 --> 00:55:22,109 Not really. 553 00:55:22,238 --> 00:55:23,656 I watched the squirrels. 554 00:55:27,010 --> 00:55:28,325 There's lots of them. 555 00:55:28,408 --> 00:55:28,925 Yes. 556 00:55:29,256 --> 00:55:30,256 Mainly in fall. 557 00:55:34,405 --> 00:55:35,798 Looking for someone? 558 00:55:37,110 --> 00:55:38,247 Just taking pictures. 559 00:55:47,755 --> 00:55:48,755 Let me see. 560 00:55:49,293 --> 00:55:50,813 No, it's nothing special. 561 00:55:51,198 --> 00:55:52,198 Come on. 562 00:55:53,838 --> 00:55:54,838 No. 563 00:55:55,445 --> 00:55:56,445 Okay. 564 00:55:57,746 --> 00:55:58,368 Please? 565 00:55:58,451 --> 00:55:59,451 I said no. 566 00:56:01,139 --> 00:56:02,139 Sorry. 567 00:56:03,533 --> 00:56:04,533 Pity. 568 00:56:11,450 --> 00:56:12,543 What's that gonna be? 569 00:56:13,930 --> 00:56:15,438 Transmedial work. 570 00:56:16,914 --> 00:56:17,914 Sweet. 571 00:56:26,910 --> 00:56:29,272 The photographer is your boyfriend, right? 572 00:56:30,724 --> 00:56:31,724 Yes. 573 00:56:33,337 --> 00:56:35,200 - He seems .. - Yes, I know. 574 00:56:36,362 --> 00:56:37,721 He's different in private. 575 00:56:38,937 --> 00:56:39,937 I see. 576 00:56:54,269 --> 00:56:55,269 Sorry. 577 00:57:02,122 --> 00:57:03,442 Gotta go now. 578 00:57:05,506 --> 00:57:06,506 Why? 579 00:57:08,512 --> 00:57:09,602 Stop waiting for me. 580 00:57:10,709 --> 00:57:11,748 It's creepy. 581 00:57:11,832 --> 00:57:13,740 - I only wanted to .. - Please. 582 00:58:03,688 --> 00:58:05,600 I can't do this anymore, Emilia. 583 00:58:06,048 --> 00:58:07,636 Aren't you happy? 584 00:58:07,720 --> 00:58:09,271 Don't I make you happy? 585 00:58:10,371 --> 00:58:13,237 There's nothing that hurts. No dirt. 586 00:58:15,186 --> 00:58:16,389 That's good, isn't it? 587 00:58:17,448 --> 00:58:19,866 If that's happiness, I don't want it. 588 00:58:22,367 --> 00:58:23,457 Fuck. 589 00:58:45,442 --> 00:58:46,733 I fucked Simeon. 590 00:58:57,917 --> 00:58:58,958 Have you cried? 591 00:58:59,998 --> 00:59:00,998 No. 592 00:59:02,429 --> 00:59:04,385 Your mascara is smudged. 593 00:59:04,468 --> 00:59:05,468 On purpose. 594 00:59:06,448 --> 00:59:07,617 Your lipstick as well. 595 00:59:07,700 --> 00:59:08,700 As well? 596 00:59:09,549 --> 00:59:10,579 Looks like shit. 597 00:59:10,808 --> 00:59:11,808 You too. 598 00:59:12,466 --> 00:59:14,579 - Then why do you look at me like this? - How? 599 00:59:15,251 --> 00:59:16,663 Like you think I'm hot. 600 00:59:17,451 --> 00:59:20,032 You really think the whole world is yours. 601 00:59:20,127 --> 00:59:21,127 Because it's true. 602 00:59:21,511 --> 00:59:22,511 Not me. 603 00:59:25,688 --> 00:59:26,688 30 centimeters. 604 00:59:27,611 --> 00:59:28,611 Incredible. 605 00:59:34,422 --> 00:59:35,607 Wanna know something? 606 00:59:36,262 --> 00:59:37,062 Pleasure. 607 00:59:37,205 --> 00:59:40,871 Seriously, your pictures suck. 608 00:59:42,512 --> 00:59:44,170 Not everybody gets it. 609 00:59:44,678 --> 00:59:45,477 I get them. 610 00:59:45,561 --> 00:59:47,512 I get what you want to do, but .. 611 00:59:47,857 --> 00:59:49,987 .. they still suck. 612 00:59:50,071 --> 00:59:52,070 Plump. One-dimensional. 613 00:59:52,154 --> 00:59:56,004 Reminds me of the cover photos of novels you can buy at the petrol station. 614 00:59:56,702 --> 00:59:59,166 You could call it ironically nostalgic, of course. 615 00:59:59,250 --> 01:00:00,674 Or just ugly. 616 01:00:01,290 --> 01:00:03,011 My aesthetic is my aesthetic. 617 01:00:05,111 --> 01:00:06,725 It's giving necrophilia. 618 01:00:06,809 --> 01:00:08,720 - Fuck you! - Fuck you. 619 01:00:09,525 --> 01:00:11,527 Just leave me alone. 620 01:00:11,823 --> 01:00:13,386 I know why you react like that. 621 01:00:13,696 --> 01:00:15,740 Because you have no clue! 622 01:00:16,900 --> 01:00:19,727 You react like that, because you know it yourself. 623 01:00:19,811 --> 01:00:20,811 Am I right? 624 01:00:22,789 --> 01:00:24,522 You know I'm right. 625 01:00:25,180 --> 01:00:30,371 You know most people wouldn't get half of your fame for work like that. 626 01:00:31,360 --> 01:00:33,731 The people buy you, not your pictures. 627 01:00:33,815 --> 01:00:34,815 Suck my dick. 628 01:00:34,897 --> 01:00:36,206 I'm just honest. 629 01:00:36,290 --> 01:00:38,045 Nobody asked your opinion. 630 01:00:40,620 --> 01:00:41,462 I know. 631 01:00:41,545 --> 01:00:43,139 You think you're better? 632 01:00:43,605 --> 01:00:44,605 Yes. 633 01:00:47,828 --> 01:00:48,828 At least, I was. 634 01:00:49,760 --> 01:00:51,754 - Doesn't matter anymore. - You depressed? 635 01:00:51,838 --> 01:00:52,686 Need an ambulance? 636 01:00:52,770 --> 01:00:54,302 I am tired. 637 01:00:54,386 --> 01:00:55,386 Lonely? 638 01:00:56,099 --> 01:00:57,343 The opposite. 639 01:00:59,128 --> 01:01:00,385 Don't say that. 640 01:01:00,469 --> 01:01:01,782 I am sorry. 641 01:01:02,139 --> 01:01:03,360 Please, don't .. 642 01:01:03,989 --> 01:01:05,819 But I really am sorry. 643 01:01:05,903 --> 01:01:07,646 Please, don't say that. I .. 644 01:01:07,730 --> 01:01:09,285 I can't take it. 645 01:01:09,820 --> 01:01:13,262 I am sorry I did this to you. 646 01:01:14,703 --> 01:01:15,986 Really sorry. 647 01:01:16,070 --> 01:01:18,408 I only want to see you happy, you know? 648 01:01:18,500 --> 01:01:20,505 Please, don't say that! I can't take it. 649 01:01:20,589 --> 01:01:23,801 I am sorry I did this to you. 650 01:01:24,928 --> 01:01:26,134 Really sorry. 651 01:01:27,680 --> 01:01:29,956 I just wanted to see you happy. 652 01:01:30,040 --> 01:01:33,028 I just wanted for you to be happy. 653 01:01:33,112 --> 01:01:34,112 Please. 654 01:01:35,416 --> 01:01:36,416 Hey. 655 01:01:36,933 --> 01:01:37,486 Hey. 656 01:01:37,570 --> 01:01:39,762 - I am sorry. - Emilia! 657 01:01:46,866 --> 01:01:48,632 Now get it together, okay? 658 01:01:49,028 --> 01:01:50,031 It's enough. 659 01:01:52,238 --> 01:01:56,200 You can't get rid of me so easily. 660 01:02:11,760 --> 01:02:13,235 I would've never thought .. 661 01:02:19,746 --> 01:02:20,746 What? 662 01:02:23,808 --> 01:02:25,001 That I'd fuck you? 663 01:02:25,155 --> 01:02:26,155 Yeah. 664 01:02:26,785 --> 01:02:28,044 Never would've thought. 665 01:02:30,714 --> 01:02:31,714 Why not? 666 01:02:34,687 --> 01:02:35,687 Because .. 667 01:02:42,499 --> 01:02:44,020 You really don't get it, do you? 668 01:02:45,635 --> 01:02:46,635 Who? 669 01:02:47,758 --> 01:02:48,758 Men? 670 01:02:50,389 --> 01:02:51,703 There's no collective. 671 01:02:52,325 --> 01:02:53,325 Of course. 672 01:02:53,832 --> 01:02:55,069 There's no collective. 673 01:02:55,152 --> 01:02:58,469 And yet so unwaveringly solidary with each other. 674 01:03:00,011 --> 01:03:01,022 What does that mean? 675 01:03:03,902 --> 01:03:07,790 It means that when it comes to creating a common enemy, .. 676 01:03:07,874 --> 01:03:09,706 .. promoting each other, .. 677 01:03:09,790 --> 01:03:14,597 .. or developing conspiracy theories about why women don't look at you with their asses, .. 678 01:03:14,681 --> 01:03:16,962 .. you always seem to agree. 679 01:03:28,736 --> 01:03:30,284 Do you even want me, Jakob? 680 01:03:32,035 --> 01:03:34,468 Yes, of course. 681 01:03:36,389 --> 01:03:38,432 You want me or do you want to possess me? 682 01:03:41,837 --> 01:03:43,032 What's the difference? 683 01:03:47,672 --> 01:03:50,925 That's why nobody wants to fuck you. 684 01:03:52,765 --> 01:03:53,765 Wow. 685 01:03:56,943 --> 01:03:58,677 Why are you suddenly such a bitch? 686 01:04:01,823 --> 01:04:02,891 There we go. 687 01:04:03,863 --> 01:04:04,863 What's the matter? 688 01:04:08,780 --> 01:04:11,503 You really think you'e something special, Jakob. 689 01:04:12,897 --> 01:04:15,635 If only everyone could see your innermost self, .. 690 01:04:15,719 --> 01:04:20,602 .. if only your outward appearance could reflect the intrinsic value you believe you carry. 691 01:04:20,686 --> 01:04:22,583 Everyone would fall in love with you, .. 692 01:04:22,667 --> 01:04:24,600 .. because you are such a catch, right? 693 01:04:25,430 --> 01:04:26,989 Shall I tell you something? 694 01:04:27,102 --> 01:04:28,880 Believe me, I'm doing you a favour. 695 01:04:29,585 --> 01:04:30,663 Please. 696 01:04:32,355 --> 01:04:34,041 There's a million guys like you. 697 01:04:34,546 --> 01:04:37,240 There's one waiting for me on every street corner. 698 01:04:38,426 --> 01:04:42,574 There's no day I use public transport without being handed a phone number. 699 01:04:44,091 --> 01:04:47,966 In the club it's raining gin tonic, in hopes I drink the roofies in there. 700 01:04:48,050 --> 01:04:52,151 Everything these dudes do to me, you'd probably defend, right? 701 01:04:52,235 --> 01:04:53,896 You recognize yourself in them. 702 01:04:53,980 --> 01:04:55,668 - You are the same. - What? 703 01:04:55,752 --> 01:04:57,666 Maybe you haven't done it yourself, but .. 704 01:04:57,750 --> 01:05:00,588 .. you got the potential to kill and rape in you. 705 01:05:00,672 --> 01:05:01,596 Ridiculous. 706 01:05:01,680 --> 01:05:04,422 Be honest, you don't even seek love from women. 707 01:05:04,506 --> 01:05:06,777 You want other men to see how women love you. 708 01:05:06,861 --> 01:05:08,496 Then men start also loving you. 709 01:05:08,580 --> 01:05:12,502 You only crave fr a guy to acknowledge how amazing you are. 710 01:05:12,586 --> 01:05:13,466 Well done! 711 01:05:13,550 --> 01:05:15,140 That's what you really want! 712 01:05:15,224 --> 01:05:16,869 What are you saying? I'm not gay! 713 01:05:16,953 --> 01:05:18,787 - I know you're not gay. - Yeah. 714 01:05:18,871 --> 01:05:20,546 I know you don't want to fuck guys. 715 01:05:20,630 --> 01:05:21,856 That would be honorable. 716 01:05:21,940 --> 01:05:23,940 That's not my point. Not at all. 717 01:05:24,722 --> 01:05:27,875 - Then what? - You only want one of these men to choose you. 718 01:05:28,697 --> 01:05:31,992 To be seen. To be told "You did great, Jakob!" 719 01:05:32,626 --> 01:05:36,147 All these guys you emulate, who fascinate you so much .. 720 01:05:36,231 --> 01:05:38,230 .. the ones you think are so amazing, .. 721 01:05:38,840 --> 01:05:40,457 .. they think you suck. 722 01:05:41,118 --> 01:05:42,564 None of them respect you. 723 01:05:42,734 --> 01:05:44,702 They don't give a single fuck about you. 724 01:05:44,786 --> 01:05:48,751 What identity do you create when I tell you you're not as repulsive as you think you are? 725 01:05:48,835 --> 01:05:50,779 Even good-looking? 726 01:05:50,863 --> 01:05:55,860 You could have anything you want if you weren't just so fucking ugly inside? 727 01:09:21,805 --> 01:09:24,856 Tell that to the one you really wanna say it to. 728 01:09:39,137 --> 01:09:40,480 You know where to find me. 729 01:09:49,077 --> 01:09:50,885 I have always been different. 730 01:09:52,096 --> 01:09:54,622 I haven't had many friends, but I don't mind. 731 01:09:56,798 --> 01:09:57,798 I never wanted any. 732 01:09:58,300 --> 01:09:59,360 I never needed any. 733 01:09:59,914 --> 01:10:04,796 I couldn't make sense of using my time t o exchange fake pleasantries. 734 01:10:04,880 --> 01:10:08,302 Only for them to do the same. 735 01:10:10,094 --> 01:10:15,586 I only realized later to surround yourself with people who think highly of you. 736 01:10:15,670 --> 01:10:18,376 There's always someone who thinks highly of me. 737 01:10:18,460 --> 01:10:20,253 Funny thing is .. 738 01:10:20,980 --> 01:10:26,586 .. my only real talent is turning shit into gold. 739 01:10:26,670 --> 01:10:29,766 My first solo exhibition were self-portraits. 740 01:10:29,850 --> 01:10:34,126 Me, naked, in sexually explicit positions, from every different angle. 741 01:10:34,210 --> 01:10:38,358 Together with some models I found at opium parties. 742 01:10:39,628 --> 01:10:42,560 Opposite this I put pictures from my childhood. 743 01:10:43,303 --> 01:10:48,874 It was all a cheap clich�. 744 01:10:49,534 --> 01:10:54,446 But a local and a national newspaper reported it. 745 01:10:54,530 --> 01:10:56,102 The fuck? 746 01:10:56,186 --> 01:10:58,646 I do care that my pictures suck. 747 01:10:58,730 --> 01:11:00,328 Always did. 748 01:11:02,405 --> 01:11:04,541 But talent, whatever that might be .. 749 01:11:04,625 --> 01:11:06,620 .. is not possessed by everyone. 750 01:11:08,656 --> 01:11:12,299 It's a lot easier sucking at something, if you're the only one who knows. 751 01:11:12,497 --> 01:11:14,000 That's my whole truth. 752 01:11:15,459 --> 01:11:18,214 I turn my inside outside or some shit like that. 753 01:11:18,297 --> 01:11:19,616 The whole lie. 754 01:11:20,570 --> 01:11:21,945 Nothing's gonna change. 755 01:11:22,856 --> 01:11:25,766 You'll still, or even because of that, want me. 756 01:11:25,850 --> 01:11:29,446 Authentic, touchable, relected. 757 01:11:29,530 --> 01:11:32,520 I can do whatever I want, you'll buy it. 758 01:11:32,802 --> 01:11:36,183 It would be amazing, if it wasn't so pathetic. 759 01:11:43,177 --> 01:11:44,177 Who is she? 760 01:11:47,318 --> 01:11:48,318 Who is she? 761 01:11:49,605 --> 01:11:50,605 A friend. 762 01:12:03,816 --> 01:12:04,536 She's pretty. 763 01:12:04,620 --> 01:12:06,236 Yeah. 764 01:12:06,320 --> 01:12:08,444 - How old is she? - I don't know. 765 01:12:10,635 --> 01:12:11,872 Young. 766 01:12:13,712 --> 01:12:14,712 I can tell. 767 01:12:19,976 --> 01:12:22,029 Don't do that shit. 768 01:12:22,346 --> 01:12:23,494 It's too much. 769 01:12:25,081 --> 01:12:26,081 Sorry. 770 01:12:34,528 --> 01:12:36,315 There's no space left, right? 771 01:12:37,075 --> 01:12:39,136 Lulu, does it have to be now? 772 01:12:39,992 --> 01:12:40,992 If not now, when? 773 01:12:41,422 --> 01:12:43,530 I'm really stressed. Honey, please. 774 01:12:45,802 --> 01:12:47,091 When would you have told me? 775 01:12:48,417 --> 01:12:49,417 Honey. 776 01:12:50,980 --> 01:12:52,117 I can't right now. 777 01:12:52,404 --> 01:12:57,148 I haven't slept for ages, I shat blood yesterday. I don't need extra stress. 778 01:12:59,185 --> 01:13:01,143 It's okay. 779 01:13:01,736 --> 01:13:05,069 - You could've just told me. - Please, shut the fuck up. 780 01:13:05,164 --> 01:13:09,400 I already told you this was my priority. If you can't accept that, it's better leave it be. 781 01:13:09,862 --> 01:13:13,297 What do you mean "accept"? I just wanted to know. Don't I deserve that? 782 01:13:13,380 --> 01:13:15,060 What do you deserve? 783 01:13:16,343 --> 01:13:21,707 Do you think just because you exhibited four pictures somewhere people only go for free drinks .. 784 01:13:21,791 --> 01:13:23,790 .. that that's your career kickstart? 785 01:13:24,822 --> 01:13:26,201 Don't be ridiculous. 786 01:13:26,874 --> 01:13:29,250 Doesn't matter if it's four more of yours. 787 01:13:31,192 --> 01:13:32,437 My work doesn't matter? 788 01:13:33,727 --> 01:13:35,074 I didn't say that. 789 01:13:35,306 --> 01:13:37,267 I didn't mean it like that? What? 790 01:13:37,351 --> 01:13:38,763 I didn't mean it like that. 791 01:13:38,900 --> 01:13:40,448 Then choose your words carefully. 792 01:13:43,090 --> 01:13:44,090 Honey. 793 01:13:47,580 --> 01:13:49,188 Welcome. 794 01:13:49,520 --> 01:13:52,171 Art needs to be an experience again. 795 01:13:54,922 --> 01:13:57,939 So let's experience something. Have fun. 796 01:13:59,890 --> 01:14:02,240 - Do you have a lighter? - Of course. 797 01:14:16,429 --> 01:14:18,716 A little bit of ash .. 798 01:14:18,800 --> 01:14:24,797 I just said that in current times .. 799 01:14:24,881 --> 01:14:29,926 .. we all try to suppress all the hurt and the trauma .. 800 01:14:30,010 --> 01:14:38,010 .. but you know, I like to think of it as "what's left of us if there's no more hurt?" .. 801 01:14:40,266 --> 01:14:44,315 .. and that's why need to keep hurting each other .. 802 01:14:44,399 --> 01:14:46,310 .. to keep being human. 803 01:15:04,871 --> 01:15:05,871 Don't smile. 804 01:15:08,266 --> 01:15:09,274 Beautiful. 805 01:15:12,979 --> 01:15:14,053 What may be seen? 806 01:15:17,071 --> 01:15:18,071 Everything. 807 01:15:21,525 --> 01:15:22,604 Thighs as well? 808 01:15:22,688 --> 01:15:24,600 Like life itself. 809 01:15:37,802 --> 01:15:38,802 My hair? 810 01:15:39,920 --> 01:15:41,057 Fountain of gold. 811 01:15:49,365 --> 01:15:50,751 My breast? 812 01:15:51,887 --> 01:15:52,887 Impeccable. 813 01:15:54,872 --> 01:15:55,469 My ass? 814 01:15:55,553 --> 01:15:56,964 As well. 815 01:16:03,840 --> 01:16:04,840 My eyes? 816 01:16:05,282 --> 01:16:06,654 Like diamonds. 817 01:16:12,543 --> 01:16:13,019 Simeon? 818 01:16:13,491 --> 01:16:14,491 Yeah? 819 01:16:15,094 --> 01:16:16,094 Say my name. 820 01:16:16,942 --> 01:16:17,942 Lulu. 821 01:16:18,709 --> 01:16:19,709 My real name. 822 01:16:23,927 --> 01:16:24,927 Nobody calls you that. 823 01:16:25,004 --> 01:16:26,374 Come on. 824 01:16:26,531 --> 01:16:27,531 Say my name. 825 01:16:30,228 --> 01:16:33,410 It's not fitting. Come on. 826 01:16:34,296 --> 01:16:35,440 How'd you wanna know? 827 01:16:39,077 --> 01:16:40,077 I .. uh .. 828 01:16:40,274 --> 01:16:41,702 I think I've forgotten it. 829 01:16:45,760 --> 01:16:46,954 You haven't forgotten. 830 01:16:48,410 --> 01:16:49,410 You don't know. 831 01:16:51,891 --> 01:16:53,933 You haven't forgotten, you never asked. 832 01:25:25,960 --> 01:25:27,521 Do you know how happy you make me? 833 01:25:31,788 --> 01:25:33,141 No need to say anything. 834 01:25:33,225 --> 01:25:35,220 I know you don't like that. 835 01:25:47,374 --> 01:25:48,377 I love you. 836 01:25:51,749 --> 01:25:52,749 A lot.