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Dear Red Shoes, sometimes you gamble and
lose, and sometimes your worst nightmare

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can end up being your salvation.

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At least that's the way it turned out
for me.

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Have you ever wanted to let go?

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I mean, really let go.

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And just escape what you had become?

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I did.

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I was trapped in a world that I had
helped. create and I no longer

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understood.

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I was a prisoner.

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It's funny though, are we ever really
free?

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We're just simply pawns in the game of
control.

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Well, I was desperate for the answer,
but I didn't know how far I'd have to

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go.

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I wanted to push beyond the beyond.

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I was at the edge of an abyss and I
decided to take the plunge.

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Looks like you're okay.

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I found you this morning in a surf.

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Do you speak English?

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I don't have a boat or a radio.

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Nothing.

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I'm afraid you're stuck here with me.

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Until someone happens by.

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Looks like you're okay.

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Do you remember what happened?

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Well, I was on a yacht, and I flipped
over the side.

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And from there, I just laid on my back
and drifted away.

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Has anybody ever taken complete control
of you?

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If he asked me to, I would crawl across
a

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dirt floor for him.

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Yeah, I was out of control.

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Have you ever been taken over like that?

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Just let me be in control.

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So what do we do if no one ever comes to
take them away?

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Sooner or later, someone will come.

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Someone always comes.

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And you're never tempted to go with
them?

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No, never.

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When I found this place, I chopped up
some of the boat that brought me here.

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I used it for firewood.

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It takes a hell of a lot of balls.

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It takes a lot of balls to lay back in
the ocean at night and rip the wave of

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the current.

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What happens if you get sick?

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I was sick when I came here. I'd become
someone I hated.

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Maybe I conjured you up.

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Maybe we're both dead.

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Who the hell knows?

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And you ran away.

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You know, when I was a kid, I used to
Divide men up into two different

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categories.

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There were the men I scared to death.

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And then there were the men who treated
me like shit.

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It's all about control.

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It sometimes just gets so goddamn tired
of being with someone.

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I mean, it is nice having someone tell
you what to do.

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See, the game takes a while to play out.
The whole thing, it doesn't happen all

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at once. You, um... Let's start with a
little challenge.

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Like, he'll be making love on his back.

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See that guy up there on the 11th floor?
He's looking at you and he wants you.

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Hey.

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And you look up and you don't see him.

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A month goes by, another full-on
penthouse, and then one night, you

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invite a friend over from dinner, some
guy from out of town.

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That's a pretty good look.

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And then you get it.

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All things about control.

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When you're tough, guys, and you're
dealing with the control.

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So what's your game, tough guy?

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Guys don't chop up boats for firewood.

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I'm a tough guy.

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I want you to give me a kiss.

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There's something more about the man you
left.

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In the beginning, when we made love, he
used to slap my ass real hard.

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He called it his inslap.

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He said it was supposed to stop time.

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Supposed to get me out of my head.

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To concentrate all my feelings into one
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He'd whisper, you belong to me.

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He could just say it and sometimes it
would come.

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You belong to me.

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You belong to me.

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Say it again.

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Sorry, I can't.

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Can't or won't!

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The boat comes, and you're ready to
leave.

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Signal them by lighting a fire.

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Do you want me to leave?

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No.

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But I know sooner or later you'll want
to.

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You killed someone, didn't you?

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Do I look like a murderer to you?

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I didn't call you a murderer.

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I said you killed someone.

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Maybe a car accident?

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She died in a car accident.

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Binge.

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Yes.

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Did you blame yourself?

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I can feel it.

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I didn't come here to hide.

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I came here to heal.

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Tell me about her.

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Too painful.

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The pain won't go away if you keep it
inside.

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For the name of an actor in a fucking
movie.

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She was right.

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Gotta make it up.

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Going too fast.

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Rain.

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You never saw anything seem so important
until

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you lose someone you really love.

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She was a very lucky woman.

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He's come for me.

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Can we ever truly live with abandon?

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I pushed myself.

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And I found a place in me that I had
never known.

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Abandonment.

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Abandonment.

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For the first time in my life, I feel
like I have it all.

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Get my drift?

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Seriously, Red Shoes, sometimes that's
the only way out.