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Dear Red Shoe Diaries, you can spend
your whole life with someone and think

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you know all there is to know about
them.

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All their secrets, strange habits,
forgotten loves and sad losses.

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But then one day they die and you
discover a strange...

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July

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1st, 1936.

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Great depression.

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No work.

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There's no work for anybody.

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Hardly even any food.

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I left home without saying goodbye to
anybody.

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I just knew that was the only way I
could do it.

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But it broke my heart.

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Just too many mouths to feed.

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July 6th.

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Five days on the road now, and I've
barely eaten.

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Pretty soon I think I'll be able to see
my bones on my wrist, just stretching

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out like arrows.

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Well, besides thinking about where my
next meal's going to come from, I think

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all I can think about is just keeping
clean.

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Gosh, I just feel so scared.

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felt so alone before.

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I tell you one thing, Missy.

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You're better off alone.

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Never hitch up with nobody.

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Keep your road clean and easy.

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Here.

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Buy yourself some breakfast.

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You look like you need it.

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Yes, ma'am.

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Listen and learn, missy.

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Listen and learn.

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Hey, mister.

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Is that a dollar?

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Do you want this dollar?

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Can I have that dollar?

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My dollar.

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What do I got to do for that dollar?

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How about this?

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I'll show you my cities.

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Do you want to give me that dollar?

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How about this?

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Got enough for that dollar?

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Still my dollar.

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Got to do for that dollar.

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Hungry? I said, are you hungry?

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What's it look like?

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Looks like you're going to swallow that
plate if you're not careful.

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More coffee for the lady and bring me
some while you're at it.

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I like mine a little sweet.

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How about you?

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Where are you from, pretty lady?

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Where are you from?

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Pennsylvania.

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Is that anywhere near your happy home?

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No, unless Oklahoma moved over a couple
of states.

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Do you like pictures?

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Sure.

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Hmm.

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Film loves you.

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I've got an idea.

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Why don't I take some pictures of you? I
bet you've never had your pictures taken

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before.

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Not that I recall.

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You can make some easy money.

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Feed your empty stomach.

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Not have to worry about going hungry,
ever.

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Nothing fancy.

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I'll just go back down here to my chair,
finish my coffee, and...

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Taking chances.

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Sometimes, even if you know it's wrong,
you just gotta take a chance.

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Especially when you're just living one
meal to the next.

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And how else was I supposed to eat?

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Oh, my God.

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Oh, my God.

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You look beautiful.

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Thank you.

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Yeah, pretty lady.

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I got a proposition for you.

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Five shots, five dollars.

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That's a working man's wage for two
weeks.

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Stand over here.

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I'll let you decide.

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Five shots, nothing underneath.

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Five dollars.

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Five dollars for five shots?

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Yes, ma'am.

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Five shots, five dollars.

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Then we're going to drink to that,
right?

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Yes, ma'am.

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Take another drink.

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You know what I was thinking, pretty
lady?

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I was thinking maybe someday I could get
a bunch of you travelers.

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Take pictures of you.

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Put them in a magazine.

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Sell them to the boys waiting on the
bread line.

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Make me a fortune.

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That sound good to you, pretty lady?

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Guess so.

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Just one more minute.

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Okay.

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You can turn around now.

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Is this how I'm supposed to wear it?

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Thank you.

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Friend of yours?

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No.

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I didn't think so.

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My name's Edna.

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Edna Gaines.

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Matt Frost.

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Very pleased to meet you, Edna Gaines.

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You got there?

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Here's the telescope.

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What's it for?

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Staring at the sky.

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Seeing the stars, Vegas, rich folks,
diamonds, and the moon.

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Big as an apple pie.

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Funny thing.

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Looking up at the stars just last night.

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Reading them the way I do.

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I'll be darned if they didn't.

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tell something happening just like this.

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A woman coming into my life. A gylin.

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Stars, moon, zipper, both big and small,
the Milky

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Way, the galaxies beyond that.

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Way before the time of the Egyptians,
people were thinking of the heaven thing

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maybe by looking up at the sky and some
kind of

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understanding of what it's all about
down here.

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Hey, what's up?

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Everything. You all take care?

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Bye. Dude, don't go jumping over that
spoon.

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I just might.

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You boys stay out of trouble now.

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Hi.

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Yeah, so was I.

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You ever notice?

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Inside of every apple there's a star.

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Yeah, sure enough.

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When I was a kid, I shared an apple with
one of the prettiest girls I'd ever

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seen.

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Before I bit in it, she said the wash
should shine it up until I could see

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myself in it.

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It tastes better that way, she said.

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Well, I didn't know her that well.

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Four days later, she took her daddy's
shotgun and killed herself.

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Somehow, we all preordained.

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My sweet, sad eyes, blue eyes, girl.

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My eyes aren't scared no more.

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Well, they look like they've been
scared.

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He's just a drunk.

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He's out looking for trouble.

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It's true, Mick.

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Oh, I just wanted to kill him.

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I wanted to kill him with my bare hands.

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I was standing there right in front of
his camera, and I'm wearing horse

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clothes.

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And I had nothing on underneath them.

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Dressed me up in whore's clothes.

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I was just pretending that everything
would be okay.

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And it wasn't.

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God, I was pretending I'd be okay.

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It's okay, Edna.

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These are not the times to be judging
people.

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Especially not judging yourself.

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We gotta go easy on ourselves.

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Sometimes.

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Tired from all that running I've been
doing.

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I can make me feel better.

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It's all right with you and me.

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Okay.

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You got soft hands.

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Say, my ma drank the cottonseed oil and
she knew she's having me. Made my skin

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soft. That ain't true.

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Well, who knows?

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I got these hands to show for it.

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I always had a vision of what I thought
it would be like the first time I was

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with the man that I loved.

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I'm not giving him money.

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Of course you don't.

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It's going to be tough to clear the
ceiling with apples and peaches and

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beans. Every kind of bean you can think
of.

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I'm not going home for no more.

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Now, I don't have the exact spot picked
out yet, you know, where it's going to

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be, but I figure I know it when I see
it.

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I'm going to go to California.

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To Los Angeles.

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They got a great big telescope there.

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A hundred times bigger than mine.

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And I'm going to go there and get myself
a job.

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I'll beg for it for the rest of my life
if I have to.

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I'm going to be working that telescope
the day man first lands on the moon.

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There ain't going to be no man walking
on the moon.

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Oh, yes, there is.

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Just you wait. There's going to be
people living in houses in space.

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Well, train riders from other planets
coming down to visit

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us.

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You're crazy. You know that?

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Crazy. Well, you make me crazy.

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You know that?

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I just want you to come with me.

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Come with me.

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Follow my dream.

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Edna, I think you're still in my heart.

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We just had two different kinds of
dreams, Mac and me.

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I couldn't stand to hold him back, but I
couldn't stand to lose him neither.

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I was on a slow train with a short stop
in heaven.

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I don't know that I could ever forget
him with those pale blue eyes.

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They was like little bits of ocean that
I got to swim in for a while.

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Like little tiny mirrors floating in the
morning sky.

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I believe they'll always be staring back
at me.

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Somehow.

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And since nobody can ever remember
seeing my grandmother with a man, I

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think the odds are pretty good that the
gentle dreamer, Mac Roth, just might

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have been my grandfather.

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I hope so.

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I really do.